15/11/2012 EastEnders

This isn't how it ends.

I mean, now you've both slept on it.

Flight's leaving in six hours, Luce.

I can't afford the rent, so I'm giving the keys back.

-OK, but Christian...

-Mum.

Er, Dad...

-All right, Del?

-Not interrupting, am I?

Right, well, I ain't playing. Lauren?

No. No, me neither.

Oh, I see. I get it.

-This about yesterday, is it?

-Don't do this, Tan, please.

-What about yesterday?

-Nothing about yesterday, all right, Del?

You see? Me and Max, no secrets.

-Ain't you?

-Tan, don't do this, please. He's got feelings, eh?

-So what do you think you're playing at, Del?

-Me?

I'm just having a "silly joke".

Everyone else seems to have something to laugh about.

Oh, and that little problem of yours, it ain't gone away.

I thought you paid them the cash, Del.

I did, but they want more.

Lots more.

Ordinarily, I'd help out, Max, but...

Oi, Lola's still upset, you know!

Not now, Billy.

16-year-old girl has her baby taken away!

-It ain't my problem.

-You were her friend!

So you made it your problem when you stabbed her in the back!

-And now it's MY problem!

-What if I came round to see her?

No, no, no, it's all right, Patrick.

She's my granddaughter. I'll sort it out.

But what she doesn't need right now is people like motor mouth, here,

telling her it's time to give up!

-You know, Billy'll get a job.

-And then you'll get community service?

-Yeah, and you'll get Lexi.

-And you'll win the Lottery.

You'll meet a footballer.

And, with a bit of luck, Abi might actually put out.

But if she don't, you know,

my footballer boyfriend will be on away matches.

Cheers.

Oh, cute(!)

Just leave it, Lo.

I can't believe you've come back here.

-Come on.

-Is that your baby daddy?

-It's not your business. It's NONE of your business!

-Did he leave you?

-Don't worry, they all do it.

-She's winding you up, all right? Come on.

Haven't you got my little namesake with you?

Oh, no, no, that's right, she's in care, ain't she?

Hey, hey, hey!

-Is this who I think it is?

-Do I know you?

Don't you think you've done enough already?

I ain't even started.

Come on.

I think me and you need words.

Oh, get back to your lunch club, grandpa.

THEY LAUGH

-Mum, it's breaking and entering!

-Bushra wants her fabric back.

-Since when was it Bushra's?

-I mean, our fabric.

The one that we bought together. She says that she'll buy it off us.

Every penny counts, doesn't it, Syed? Come on.

No, I've done enough wrong already.

Just one last thing for me? OK, it'll be five minutes.

Meet me there?

We should find a box...

..for your fabric.

Oh, no hurry.

PHONE BEEPS

Syed, I'll just be five minutes.

It's OK.

I'm sorry for what I said.

-So why say it?

-I, erm...

-I don't know.

-Think this is easy for her?

No. No, I don't.

You wake up trying to picture her face, her smell...

..someone else feeding her,

holding her when she cries.

I hope you get your baby back.

Yeah, she will.

And when you do, never let her go.

I need a drink.

Lucy?

Mum.

Lucy.

All my life, I've been running...

from my family, from who I am.

And who are you, Sy?

You taught me to stop,

to stand still and to deal with it.

Look at you now, you're a coward.

-I'm a coward, am I?

-You make out like you're this big guy,

stands his ground, faces anything. That's who I thought I was marrying.

Yeah, well, I thought I was marrying a man who finally told me the truth!

But lies...

that's all I've ever had from you.

No, it isn't.

All right...

"I'm telling my family. No, I'm not telling my family.

-"No, I will tell them, just when the time is right."

-And I did!

"I want kids with you. No, I don't want kids with you.

"Actually, I've got a kid,

"but I'm not going to see that kid, not if you can't.

"Oh, sorry, because I AM seeing that kid, just behind your back..."

-Can I talk now?

-"Marry me, don't marry me."

Steal from your own family, lie to me about it,

cop off with somebody else.

"But it's all out in the open now, it's fine, let's get married."

Only it wasn't fine, Sy, because you had sex with him

-and you were lying to me about it!

-We've been through all this.

You married me on a LIE!

Even on our wedding day!

Because you just can't help yourself, can you?

Because I'm not like you!

And you stand there and you call me a hypocrite...

-..a coward.

-I can't be like you...

..but I'm trying.

I'm really trying to be strong, but I don't need to be, do I?

-Cos you're there.

-Yeah...

forgiving you.

No.

Listening to me...

..talking to me...

-..helping me find a way.

-This is it, Sy.

Us...

..rest of our lives.

Doesn't have to be.

You want help, but you won't let me help you.

You start a business, you get out of your depth, do you talk to me?

Do you come to me about it?

Because, for once, just once, I wanted to sort something by myself.

What, like you sorted Yasmin?

We're partners...

..supposed to be married,

but you let OUR daughter go back to her mother

-and you don't think to discuss that with me?!

-I've said I'm sorry...

Oh, Sy, sorry!

Do you even think that begins to cover it?

Well, nobody's dead yet!

I love you, Christian.

Do you?

Tam's engagement...

..I came in here, by your side...

..your whole family against me, against us...

..and I stood here and I faced what they had to say,

because that's what you do when you love somebody.

Sat by your bed in hospital. Sat there all night,

because when you love somebody, that's what you do.

Now, I've been shouted at, ripped apart, pushed out, beaten up...

..and all of those things, I did for love.

All of that...

-..I did for you.

-Did you?

Or did you do them cos you want to be a hero?

Cos, you know, sometimes, I don't want to be the one who gets rescued.

-Sometimes...

-Sometimes...

..you want to be the hero?

Sometimes, I just want to be normal.

No shouting, no drama, no making a stand.

No fighting dragons, just you and me...

..our little flat...

-..our little life.

-But you don't, though, do you?

Because you want excitement, you want danger,

you want...quick cash, high risks...

From work, yeah. Not from you!

So why, when you had that, when you had that safety,

why d'you look elsewhere?

Can't answer that, can you?

You don't know yourself at all.

I do know that every time I have something good in my life,

I sabotage it.

It's like deep down, I think I don't deserve it.

And being with you...

..marrying you...

..I wanted that more than I've ever wanted anything.

And to think I could have that happiness...

I don't know, maybe I WAS scared.

Maybe I just wanted to push and push

to check that whatever happened, you'd still be there!

And maybe now, I've got my answer.

I finally pushed too far, and maybe it's too late.

I've done a lot of things wrong in my life.

Marrying you wasn't one of them.

That day...

..in that moment...

..that day was the BEST day.

"I will cherish you and tenderly care for you...

"Uphold you always and honour you..."

Don't.

"..I pledge to live my life...

"..openly and honestly with you...

"To be right here by your side on this journey, wherever it may lead."

You're my partner...

my friend...

..my rock and my island...

..but above all...

more than all this and everything else...

you are the one I love.

CLATTERING METAL

Should we...?

Oh! OK!

It worked.

LUCY LAUGHS

Come on!

Glass collecting, security, anything.

Sharon, I've been asking all over the market.

Please, I really need this.

-Well, one of the cloakroom girls has just left.

-Cloakroom?

-That's...?

-Mm-hm.

Yeah, I can do cloakroom.

Well, it's only two nights.

-Two nights is fine.

-Good. OK.

Listen, Shar...

..about you and Phil.

-It's just for show.

-Yeah, I know,

but...long-term, I mean...

Look, it's just until they agree Lexi can come home.

You do know there's going to be regular visits, don't you?

For the next six months.

That's six months of you pretending to be Phil's other half,

pretending to be married.

Yeah, I know, Billy.

-But what if you and Phil decide you want...?

-Billy, it is short-term.

Lexi and Lola belong with you.

OK?

Yeah.

OK.

-See you later.

-Thanks, Sharon.

-OK.

You...

..lying here again.

There was rubble everywhere.

I thought you were dead.

Come with me.

Come to America.

You and me, nine hours on a plane?

You said it yourself.

This is it.

Us, for the rest of our lives.

It's good, though.

Yeah, this bit is.

But we always need the other bit to get here.

You hurt me.

I hurt you.

Usually, I hurt you again.

CHRISTIAN CHUCKLES

Maybe we're only good when we're fighting.

Two of those things that, you know,

when you put them together, they always explode.

When did you get to be so wise, eh?

I had a good teacher.

-CHRISTIAN CHUCKLES

-You did.

You know, when we're happy...

..that's when things go wrong.

I don't want to fight anymore.

I don't want to keep on hurting you.

CHRISTIAN SIGHS

I just want to remember this.

This moment.

So, this is it?

This is how it ends?

Get your hands off me!

-Both of you!

-All right, all right.

Just leave me alone!

Thank you.

Mum.

Come on, let's get you home.

You seen the state of your nan?

Yeah, I know. I thought she was going to nut you.

-With that barnet, you wouldn't have stood a chance!

-THEY LAUGH

Excuse me.

-You all right, Del?

-Told them too, have you?

"Want to hear a joke about Derek?"

What are you talking about, Del? Of course not. I wouldn't say that.

Del, I don't know where I'm going to get this money from.

Well, that's a shame, Max.

It's going to be pretty hard walking up the aisle without any kneecaps.

Although there is another option.

Kick Joey out.

Kick him out onto the street

and I'll see what I can do.

Now,

you look after Bobby and Ian for me.

OK?

Give Jane a hug from me.

Of course I will.

Come here, you.

SHE SOBS

Listen to me, OK? If it...

If it doesn't work, there is always...

there's always half a duvet at mine, OK?

I know.

I've got to go.

Yeah, yeah.

Ever glamorous.

Bye.

Don't you think locking us in was enough?

-You locked them in the restaurant?

-That is definitely meddling!

Well, I cannot do this, all right?!

I don't care.

Because this is who I am.

I nag, I meddle,

I judge, I interfere,

and I cannot stand by and see my son so miserable!

And if that makes me a bad person...

It doesn't.

Nobody's perfect.

I wouldn't have you any other way.

Well, you heard your mother.

Go!

BOTH: Go!

Are you sure you wouldn't rather be in your bed?

I love you, Tanya.

SHE PANTS

What is all this about, Mum?

I'm sorry...

about your sister.

What I did.

What I said.

She's better off without us.

Mum.

Certainly without me.

You an' all, Tanya.

Don't say that.

You can go now.

No, I'm not going to leave you like this.

I'll...

You can go.

So you're the famous Pops?

The way she goes on about you, I thought you wore your pants over your tights.

Well, you know, she's just a kid.

Like you.

I ain't a kid.

-I know what it feels like.

-You don't know anything about me!

I was in care.

Did you know that?

So was my son.

So was Lola.

Do you really wish all that on little Lexi, eh?

You're right, I don't know nothing about you.

But I do know what it's like to feel unloved, unwanted,

completely on your own.

My son, he never knew his dad.

And I never knew he existed.

Little Lexi,

she's got a family.

A mum who loves her, and a dad, two grandads.

And yet she's stuck out there somewhere

with some strange family instead.

So come on, eh?

Just give her a little chance.

Give her one chance.

That's witness tampering. Ain't going to go down well in court.

-You just couldn't leave it, could you?

-I was just trying to help!

-Yeah, well, you ain't!

-Just leave it.

You're just doing what you always do.

Make it worse.

Lo...

Christian!

She's lost her job.

No, it's something more than that.

She keeps apologising for Rainie and her.

Ah! So she feels bad about it.

How could she believe that we'd be better off without her, Patrick?

I mean, she's our mum. Why would she say that?

It's not my place.

What's not your place?

Patrick...

Maybe it's...

not just about you and Rainie.

Maybe it's about the other daughter!

You think this is about Ava?

It's not my place, man.

That's why she's been acting so weird.

Cos it would have been Ava's birthday...

Monday,

wouldn't it?

Not "would have been."

What do you mean, "not would have..."?

She's alive?

Ava...

Hartman.

Hartman?

She's alive? My sister's alive?

MUSIC: "Stand By Me"

Too late.

No, it isn't.

I couldn't go.

Not without you.

Jane's going to pay for the tickets.

We'll see some of America, and then...

whatever we want.

Get a flat near Yas, Amira...

You'd do that for me?

I'd go to the end of the world for you.

OK, come on! You've got a plane to catch.

CHRISTIAN LAUGHS

What about your money?

Oh, send it when you've got some.

Are you sure?

Go. Go live the dream!

Is this where we all burst into song and start dancing?

Enjoy the journey.

I love you.

Give my love to your mother.

It'd be nice to meet her properly one day.

-Take care of yourself.

-I will.

Take care of my son.

Something in my eye...

Go be the man that I know you can be.

Oh, Mum.

I love you.

Tambo!

I'm proud of you, Syed.

I always have been.

CANS RATTLE LOUDLY

THEY LAUGH

CANS RATTLE LOUDLY

You ready, stud?

Yeah.

CANS RATTLE LOUDLY

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