07/02/2013 EastEnders

CLOCK TICKS

TRAIN WHISTLES PAST

AEROPLANE FLIES OVERHEAD

CLOCK TICKS

Can't hear the birds today.

I know you're awake.

I can tell by your breathing.

I could always tell by your breathing.

No.

SHE CLEARS HER THROAT

No birds.

-Ayesha...

-Don't.

She'll be fine.

Girls like her always are.

Nothing happened, Zee.

I know.

But you thought about it.

Didn't you?

I don't blame you, Masood.

She doesn't nag you every minute of every day.

You don't nag me every minute.

Yes, I do.

AJ SIGHS

I can't move.

You ate ten!

'Ate' kind of implies that he chewed them!

I chewed them!

Soaking them in your chai and squishing them in your mouth

doesn't really count as chewing.

Oh. Aaloo Paratha?

-We need to tidy it all up.

-Yeah, yeah, when we've finished.

You've not finished?

I mean everything. The kitchen, the cupboards, the house.

I want to clear everything up.

I want to make it all fresh.

I'm... I'm working.

I know. So go.

I mean all of you. Can you please all just go? This is me.

-I'll take you to nursery.

-Where's Ayesha?

-Go and put your shoes on.

-Where's Ayesha?

He's right. Where IS Ayesha?

All our lives here, in this house.

'Cos Dad smashes up a fountain and Ayesha disappears.

-And you decide to start cleaning.

-It's all a mess.

It stops. Here. Today.

Mum.

MUM.

Talk to me. I'm not a kid.

We...

Tamwar, I...

Just tidy it all up, OK? Clear away the clutter.

We need to start again.

Oh, so Zainab gracing me with her presence today?

I think "grace" might be pushing it.

I saw the state of her water feature earlier.

Yeah, shocking, isn't it? Listen, kick me to the kerb here...

Kids today, it's disgusting really, innit?

It's... yeah, yeah, disgusting. I blame the parents.

Bring back the cane!

So, is Zainab...

How about lunch later?

Why would I want lunch with you?

She's cleaning... The whole house.

Please?

No!

Mmm-hmm.

-What are you doing?

-What we should have done months ago.

Getting rid of the past.

I'll leave you to it then.

A fresh...start.

Come on, brother. It's not like they don't argue, is it?

I mean they even argue about arguing, don't they!

They're not arguing...

They're just...talking. With the doors shut.

They're splitting up.

It ain't like that hasn't happened before either!

I mean, it's like a revolving door on your house sometimes, innit?

Is this meant to be you helping?

Listen...

when my parents split up, it was deep...

I tried to help but you don't know what's going on in their heads.

Their heads are totally different and your heads are different to my heads, brother, you know?

Deep.

You got to stop worrying, all right?

Stop running round waiting for the rain.

-Look after you, man - look after number one.

-Like you did?

Yeah. You know, I had to avoid the war zone...

Yeah. Then you ended up with your drunk dad sleeping on your sofa.

Bit thirsty?

I'm working. What's the matter with you?

We should do leggings next week. Everyone does leggings.

-I don't do leggings.

-No, but you don't half do skirts!

SHE LAUGHS

Eh? Eh? Drink?

Oh, you've kept the boxes!

-Yes, because that's what you do.

-I know, but...

My mother does that. My grandmother did it.

Yeah, my mother does the same, but...

Masood, you buy something and you just - you keep the boxes, no?

What is this? Ugh! Sometimes with the things in!

Rarely with the things in.

Yes all right, sometimes, you know, the things they sit on the side -

and the boxes go up in the cupboard.

Everything, Masood, needs to know that it has a home.

Here - charity shop. Out with the old.

-Are you going to tell them or am I?

-Give 'em a chance.

That was us, wasn't it? Crazy big ideas.

All hearts and flowers and dirty sheets and ba-ba-boom.

-Ba-ba-boom!

-Oh, give it a rest!

Then it's five years of fighting, five years of "I can't be bothered to fight"...

Don't put the mockers on it!

Five years of "I've forgotten you even live here so who do you think you're fighting with?"

Come on, Bianca hasn't even bought the hat yet, have you, darling?

I think I'm going to tell them before they chuck money at matching towels and suitable pyjamas.

-You see, I told you, you should try it.

-I did!

For a moment earlier, I actually thought you needed to talk.

I saw this thing on TV.

With a couple and they, erm... they roleplay.

Oh...

Not that kind of roleplay, Masood!

Nurses uniform and the police and the...

Anyway - it's when he pretends to be her

-and then he explains things, and speaks like she does...

-Mmmm.

..and then she tries to be him and...

What a ridiculous idea!

OK, you know what? I just wanted to give it a go!

I am!

"What a ridiculous idea."

That is not me!

"That is not me!"

OK, OK. Uh...

Why can't you just stop laughing at me!

I'm not laughing AT you.

That's all you ever do! You laugh at me. You pick on me...

OK, then why don't you just stand up for yourself?

Oh, well, then let me finish!

Oh. Oh, look...

-Chuck it.

-But you like it!

No, Zee, I don't like it! You like it. I hate it!

I've always hated it. But, you know, you'll put it up anyway.

I can't believe you hate it. You've got no taste.

I have never said that!

Don't wear that! You look ridiculous! Look at your hair.

-Look at your silly moustache.

-I've never said silly moustache!

OK - ridiculous moustache. You're not even a real man.

-You've got so fat!

-You're going so bald!

-You're so selfish!

-You're weak!

-You're a monster!

-You're a failure!

Why can't you be young and beautiful like Ayesha?

Don't you think if I'd wanted to marry you again I would have done it months ago?

Charity shop.

-Here you go, girls. This one's on the house.

-Thanks, Alf.

It wasn't kids that smashed it, was it? It was you.

And now you're hiding because you think Zainab's going to bite your head off...

You're wrong.

Is it your divorce?

I'm still celebrating!

You've had a falling out with Phil?

Yeah, I told him I love him and he broke my heart.

D'you know what, this is stupid.

If you ain't going to be honest...

OK, I'm going to go and talk to Lucy.

We've got no cars in.

Can't a guy ask a friend out for lunch?

AJ, it is the middle of the afternoon

and you're already half wasted!

Well then, let's not waste the other half, too.

OK, do you know why I came?

Because you said Zainab was cleaning...

And...

and I looked into your eyes...

-Nice eyes, aren't they?

-..and I thought...

..I thought "Here's a man that needs to talk."

Kat? Bianca?

Yeah, that's right, you run away.

I'm in the mood for champagne!

You ain't the only one that needs help, you know!

Engaged!

I know, mate, I know. I can't believe it.

So as in - the two of you?

Like, the big dresses, the happy-ever-after, the waistcoats?

Yeah. No waistcoats, but yes.

That is so romantic!

Yeah, marriage.

Well, erm, show me the ring.

Oh, that is like so beautiful. Oh, isn't that beautiful?

I tell you what then - why don't we have a party?

As long as we do it properly, all right? Like, go to the Vic,

-make a big announcement and that, yeah?

-Yeah. Have a party. It gets better.

-(You can't afford champagne, all right!)

-I'll pay you next week.

-Just pour it in a bucket!

Listen, you can pay me later, but I'm not going to be here later,

'cos I'm going out with Roxy. You don't have the cash, do you?

Couldn't you give a guy a break?

HE SIGHS AND GROANS

-(What am I going to do?)

-Just tell 'em

-that you can't afford it, yeah.

-It's not about the drinks.

It's about...Masood and Zainab.

If I can't rely on them. If they're not there...

No, no, I get it. What, they rowing again? Couples row all the time.

-This was rowing with the sound down.

-OK, even with the sound down.

But they're going to get over it, AJ. It'll be fine.

Oh yeah...

Like me and Aliyah? You and Kat?

Listen. Whatever's going on between them,

it won't amount to nothing, all right?

Oi, AJ are them bubbles coming or not?

Listen, you're his brother, yeah? Go home. Go on, go home.

-AJ's stupid games.

-It's called having fun.

Fun.

SHE SIGHS

Invitation to Syed's wedding. The first one.

-An invitation to Tamwar's wedding.

-The one that never happened.

-Oh, it happened!

-Without any of us being there.

SHE GIGGLES

First ever picture.

You and Kamil.

Ah, yeah.

HE CHUCKLES

What...

Ah, this was the last time your family were together.

Oh, my...

SHE GASPS

That was taken in our first house.

I loved that house. I hated that wallpaper.

-I loved that wallpaper.

-You hated it!

I loved that wallpaper. You just never asked.

I miss her, Masood.

I miss her too.

Children grow up.

People move on.

You know, I don't think there's any photos of all four of them together.

I don't think all of them have ever been in the same room.

Well, then, we'll have to change that, won't we?

SHE SIGHS

Oh my word, what were you thinking?

-It's not mine.

-Yeah, sure - it's not yours(!)

No, Zainab.

-No, no, it's not yours. Sure.

-Please.

I would have bought this? It's hideous.

Come on, don't deny it's yours. Here, look. See what it looks like.

SHE LAUGHS

It's Yusef's.

I'm sorry, I...

I'm sorry.

You know, he...

That man, he...

I know.

And I let him.

CHAT AND LAUGHTER

I'll just go and powder my nose and then we'll be off.

VOICES ARGUE

Would you like me to make you a nice cup of cocoa?

Come on.

-MUSIC PLAYS

-Masood?!

Oh, you're there. Come here. Quickly, quickly, take this.

Take this. I want to play. Please? Come on, play together.

I'll show you fun. Here, hold.

Ready?

-Come on. What are you doing, Masood? Stand up and play.

-Zee.

Come on, don't be a spoilsport, OK. I'm going to beat AJ's score.

I'll teach him. What does this body thing do?

MUSIC STOPS

What are you doing?

I don't really remember my father.

Cos when I came back from being evacuated, he'd gone.

And my mother was married to another man.

And I had a little half brother and half sister.

And I hated him. Cos they used to argue!

And he used to shout. And it frightened me.

But they never split up. They managed to find a way through.

That's what Fatboy said.

Yes. Well, some people, they're like that.

Whereas me and my Charlie -

I mean, we never argued but he had other women.

He used to come back, steal my money, take my odd bits of jewellery and off he'd go.

And then finally he went and lived with my half sister.

You know, Rose.

I mean, your mother and father - well, it ain't for me to say,

but maybe they will and maybe they won't.

One can only hope.

There ain't much you can do about it, Tamwar.

All right.

No clutter. No mess.

Just a huge pile of things for the charity shop.

Probably find a cure for cancer all on our own.

-Zee...

-So now, Masood - now we can start again.

You know, big line. Solid line.

So why have we divided everything up?

KNOCK ON DOOR

LOUDER KNOCKING

-How could you let him...

-We didn't let him!

-He wasn't with me!

Mrs Masood, now look, before you kick off, OK...

HE MUMBLES

Let's get him to bed.

Big tunes!

Brother, little man right here

is remixing the tunes and mashing it up, man.

-I tell you, he's smashing it!

-MC Kamil in the house.

-We ready to roll?

-Yeah, let's hit the pub.

-Hey, I've been on the blower, all right? Spoken to the troops,

-and they are waiting.

-We'll have to get going

cos I've got to drop Kamil off. But, after I've dropped him off...

And congratulations. Mr and Mrs Moon to be.

-Thank you.

-Thanks.

You take this one and you take that one.

Thank you very much.

-KAMIL COUGHS Oh, that's not nice.

-Oh, dear.

You all right?

I'm good. I'm good.

You know me. Always waiting for rain.

Dead to the world.

We should eat.

I, erm...

I grew a beard last year.

You didn't even notice.

Er...I thought it was stubble.

No. No, you didn't. You didn't even see it.

Um...

I will look at you more.

I'll pay more attention, I'll notice you.

We had dinner two days ago and you put salt on my plate.

It needed salt.

No, it didn't.

-Masood, I cooked it.

-And I was eating it.

We are not the same.

I just wanted you to enjoy it.

You wanted me to like it like you like it.

I don't even get to decide how much salt I like any more.

I let a young woman fall for me.

You didn't ask her.

It's not...

You didn't do anything.

She told me how she felt - and I didn't tell you.

I let her keep on living in this house.

We're meant to be getting married

and I keep something like that quiet?

It's OK. I forgive you.

I told you that I forgive you...

You - you asked me to marry you again.

In the Vic, in front of everyone.

Yeah, and that was only in front of everyone

-because you thought I was having an affair.

-What? So you didn't mean to ask me?

Of course I meant to. I bought the ring, didn't I?

And when you said that you loved me like before - you meant that, yes?

I meant I wanted to marry you. To be married to you.

For everything to be like it was before. Ages ago.

Before Yusef.

Before I met Jane.

Back before we lost the first business. Back before we even came here.

I thought...

I thought if I marry you...

everything would be OK again.

And it still can be.

Time can't go backwards.

You know that...

In your heart.

We... We can make it work.

We can move somewhere else.

We can go forwards.

Today we laughed.

When was the last time we did that?

That's a good sign, yeah?

We used to laugh all the time. Every day.

Every day when I was with you... was a beautiful day.

It was the best day.

Yeah. And it can be again.

You used to look at me like I was the only man in the world.

You hardly look at me any more.

Things change, Masood. It does not mean that I don't love you.

But you don't, do you? Zainab, honestly?

Truthfully?

Look deep in your heart.

Truthfully - what's there?

See, you can't even say it any more.

-I say it all the time.

-Zee...

You and me, Masood - we... we can get through anything.

You know, we are invincible. You and me.

We are - we are carved out of stone.

And we chip away at it and chip away at it.

Not just you - we do.

Year after year, we chip away a little more.

And then one day, you look, and -

there's nothing left to chip away at.

I mean, look at us, Zee.

We don't even have the passion left to end with an explosion.

There's not going to be a wedding, Zee.

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