28/06/2013 EastEnders

Mum? What are you doing?

I've made a decision.

It wasn't easy, but after today I've had no choice.

What do you mean?

We're going. You. Me. Lauren. Oscar.

We're leaving, we've moving out.

What?

Come here.

Your sister is ill, right. And she needs proper care.

Away from here. Away from Joey and me and your dad.

And this whole situation. So we need to put her first.

Need to be unselfish.

So we're leaving.

When? When are we leaving?

-Now. Tonight.

-Tonight?

Look, the doctor has recommended this place.

It's residential care, OK?

It's outside of London. It's near Exeter.

They're going to watch her 24 hours a day.

So it's expensive but it's going to be worth it.

Well, what does Lauren say?

Well, I haven't discussed the details with her yet. She's very fragile.

She's not in the state, really.

What about Dad? What does he think?

Yeah, he thinks... he thinks it's OK.

You haven't even told him, have you?

So you're not pregnant?

No.

So what happened, did you lose it?

No.

I never was pregnant in the first place.

I lied.

Why? Why would you do that?

I was scared.

Me and you, we were so happy, then she, Tanya,

she started to get her claws into you again.

What you talking about?

Oh, yeah, that wedding. Your brother's wedding. I could see it.

You and her. I could see what was happening.

I thought you was going to walk out, leave me,

leave me just like everyone else so I...so I lied.

Once I'd said it, I couldn't go back.

Right, and what did you think was going to happen, Kirsty?

You wanted me to have an abortion.

If you hadn't changed your mind, I'd have just gone off and come back.

You'd have been none the wiser. But then you said you wanted it.

What was I supposed to do, eh?

Just tell you? Just come out with it?

Yeah. Course you were. Why wouldn't you?

Because you wanted it so much. You seemed so happy.

Listen, and you can still be. We can get over this.

I can still get pregnant.

You think I'd want you after this, do you?

You think I'd want you after this, Kirsty?

After you've been lying to me. You've been lying to my face.

Yes, and I'm sorry, all right. I'm sorry. But it's done.

I'm still here, all right.

I'm still your Kirsty.

Look, if you just give us a chance, we can move on.

We can get over this. You'll see. Where you going?

Where do you think I'm going?

No, you can't. You can't just leave me.

Get out my way.

Please, Max. Please. Max!

-I'm not running away.

-He doesn't know. Lauren doesn't even know.

Yet. Yet. They don't know yet. I'm telling you first.

No. I am not ruining everything. My mates are here.

My school's here. Jay. And I'm not wrecking it all because of Lauren.

Abi, please, I understand...

No. No. For once in my life, I'm saying no, Mum.

I am not going.

DOOR BELL RINGS

Aren't you going to answer it?

No, I don't want to disturb Lauren.

You need to tell him.

No, no, not now. Abi, I will. I will tell him...

(WHISPERS) Abi.

DOOR BELL RINGS AGAIN

Abi, you don't know what you're dealing with here.

He's my dad. He's got a right to know.

Fine. I'll tell him. I'll discuss it with him later.

-So you'll tell him?

-Yes. I will call him later.

-PHONE RINGS

-No. Now.

You all right, Tan? I thought you were out.

We were upstairs. Dealing with Lauren. What do you want?

Can I talk to you, please?

I can't now, honestly.

Come in. Come on.

What's going on?

Nothing. Lauren just... she got a bit upset.

-She's gone to bed.

-Right, is she OK?

Yeah, yeah, she's fine. She's just feeling a bit ill.

Having a lie down. I don't want to disturb her.

Do you want to come through to the kitchen?

-Er. Yeah.

-After you.

Mum.

Yes. I know. I know.

Just tell him.

Right, what is it? Because I'm up to my eyes in it.

I just want to tell you something. Something I just found out.

Well, it changes everything.

Well?

It's about...it's about Kirsty.

Right?

She's been lying to me. She's not pregnant, you know.

She's not having a baby.

What are you talking about?

She's been lying to me. She got in a panic.

I don't know. It don't make sense, you know. The point is,

-I thought I was going to be a dad and now I'm not.

-What?

Tan, listen to me, all right? This whole thing with Kirsty,

it's been a mistake, innit?

You know, her turning up and us not getting married.

You know it, don't you? Soon as I found out she was pregnant,

I wanted her to get rid of it

because I wanted to be back with you.

I told you all this. That night.

You know, you said I should go back to her and take care of her.

You did that just cos I told you to?

Not just cos of that. I did it cos it was right, all right?

Because it was the right thing to do.

And none of that matters now, does it?

She's not having a baby. So I'm not obliged to her, am I?

-I don't owe her anything.

-Just like that?

So one minute you're setting up for life, the next...

I thought I was having a kid with her.

Yeah. Yeah, I understand it. I do get it.

She lied to you. She's messed up. It's hardly news. Is it?

I thought that's what you liked about her.

She was exciting, dangerous.

It don't matter what I liked about her, does it? Cos it's gone now.

I don't believe you. Feelings don't just go, just like that.

Babe, can we just pretend the last couple of months never happened?

Please, can we just pretend she never turned up? We'd got married.

You know, none of this would have happened.

-You, me, Kirsty, Lauren, none of it.

-You really believe that, don't you?

Course I do. Please, babe, can't we just forget it all?

Can't we just go back, carry on?

You're married to her.

What's that? You know, I'll get a divorce.

Listen to yourself. Round and round. Don't you ever learn?

Tan, to be honest, this weren't quite the reaction I was hoping for.

This is never going to happen. Do you understand? You and me.

This. Us. Whatever you and Kirsty,

or she did or didn't do, it doesn't make any difference.

Tan, you don't mean that. I'm here for you.

I want to be here for you. I want to be here for Lauren.

-No. No. That isn't going to work.

-Don't keep saying no.

-At least think about it.

-You bounce back over here...

No, I'm not pushing you. I'm not rushing you.

As soon as I found out, I wanted to see you.

Oh, great. Thanks. I really appreciate that.

No, well, I mean it.

I mean it, Tan.

I know you do.

Look, I've, I've got some things to do.

I need some space. I need to be able to think...

-Look, I'm not saying no, I'm just...

-What? What do you need?

-You go home and I'll think about it.

-You'll think about it?

-Yeah.

-Seriously?

Yes. Just, come on. Cos I need to...

I need to look after Lauren.

OK.

-What's wrong with you?

-Nothing. Nothing.

I just, I think I'm a bit of a state of shock, you know.

Cos of everything you've just told me.

-Go home and I'll call you later.

-I can't, can I? I can't go home.

You need to talk to her, don't you?

Everything OK?

Everything's fine. I've spoken to your dad.

It's just he's had a bit of worrying news of his own.

So he's got to go home. I'll call you later.

-She tell you then?

-I'll speak to you tomorrow.

-Dad? Has she told you?

Abi, I don't want to do this now.

No. Told me what?

She's leaving.

She has packed her bags and she's taking Lauren and Oscar.

And she wants to take me, too.

But she wants to go tonight and she isn't even going to tell you.

Of course I was going to tell you.

Talk to her, Dad. Tell her that this is stupid.

Tell her that I cannot go anywhere with her. Not now.

Well, is this true?

She wants to go. She is leaving and she is not coming back.

Let me speak to your father, all right? Come in here.

DOOR BELL RINGS

-OSCAR:

-I'm hungry.

-CORA:

-You can't be hungry.

Abi, please will you give us a moment?

-CORA:

-He's had his tea and an ice cream and he's still hungry.

So what does she mean, you're leaving?

I am. I'm going. Now. Tonight. I'm taking Lauren.

And Abi and Oscar, and I'm going.

What do you mean going, Tan? Going where?

I've organised some help for Lauren. It's a clinic.

Residential. Don't worry, you haven't got to pay for it.

-I'm selling Booty. I got a loan out. It's all covered.

-Slow down.

-What are you talking about?

-You can't talk me out of this.

Right, I see. So when did you decide all this?

SHE CLEARS THROAT

I spoke to the doctor. On Tuesday. And she recommended this place.

-So I gave 'em a call.

-Right, so you gave 'em a call? Just one call?

Just to find out. I wasn't sure. I just thought I should know.

You didn't think I should know? You didn't think about talking to me?

I wasn't sure how you'd take it.

So you thought you'd book it all up behind my back?

No. It wasn't like that. It was nothing definite.

I just made an enquiry. And they had a space.

And then it was only after today. After everything that happened.

And I just thought, she has got to go. She's got to get away.

-Away from here. Away from everything.

-Away from her dad?

I just wanted to find out what was possible.

You'd have done the same.

Er, no, Tan. I wouldn't have done the same.

-I would have talked to you about it.

-Well, I couldn't risk it, could I?

I couldn't risk you trying to stop me.

I am going to stop you. You can't take my family away and not tell me.

-I'm telling you now.

-Yeah, cos you have to.

Fine. You know. We're going. That's it.

No, you're not going. Cos I'm here now, Tan. I want to help you.

Tan, please, I want to be with you.

It's too late. Didn't you see the state she was in?

One drink could kill her, Max. Our daughter could die.

I mean, what, is that what you want, is it?

You want to come home find her dead on the sofa like Billie?

Or lying out on the square, like your son, like Bradley?

Do you want her blood on your hands, as well? Is that what you want?

What you talking about, Bradley? Bradley wasn't...

Oh, no. I'm sure everything would have worked out just the same with him, wouldn't it?

You sleeping with Stacey, that had nothing to do with it, did it?

We are responsible for their lives...

..but we don't act like it.

We talk about it, don't we? We go on about it.

What great parents we are, and...

But in the end, we just do what we want, don't we? Both of us.

And they've been in the middle for years.

Lauren has been in the middle since she was ten years old.

Since she saw you with that woman. With that first woman.

Since she came to me,

her mum, pulling on my dress trying to get my attention, and told me.

She has been in the middle. She is the one who got hurt.

Stacey. And that video.

She's been torn apart by all of this.

She's been made to grow up before her time.

And it's not just you. It's me.

It is, it's me.

Cos when I lied to you, when I lied to you about the cancer.

She was the only person that knew.

She looked after me.

She carried that burden and I let her.

Then you came back, didn't you? And I just forgot about her.

I did. I just cut her adrift.

One minute we were like that, you know.

Close as anything, and the next she was just back on her own.

We've done this to her.

You and me.

And it's got to stop. It stops now. Today. Do you understand?

It's got to stop. There's no more us.

No more you and me. No more family. Not like this.

I mean, this is...

It just, it doesn't work.

It's toxic...and it's hurting our children and it always will.

No, Tan, you don't know that.

Have you listened to a single word I've just said?

Tan, we can change, all right? We can make things better.

We've learnt from our mistakes.

Oh, have we? Have we? Really? I haven't. Have you?

Yeah, course I have.

SHE SCOFFS

Tan, I'm willing to change, all right?

I'm determined to change.

That is never going to happen.

Babe, all you've got to do is give me a chance.

A chance? Like before. What, like when we first moved to this square?

I should never have given you that chance.

I should never have given you that one last chance.

I should never have come to this house. I shouldn't have.

I should've just cut my losses and protected our girls from us.

But I didn't, did I?

Cos I'm not like Rainie, I'm not addicted to crack.

Or Lauren, with a throat full of vodka.

It's you...

You're my drug and you always have been.

You're my sickness...

..and I can't do it any more.

I can't afford to do it any more.

For Lauren, or Abi.

And Oscar. For all of us.

Tan, if you just stay... If we just got back together...

Then it would happen... it would happen again.

Something would happen.

And Lauren would be there. She'd be in the middle.

She needs to get away from US. Do you understand? From US.

What about what WE want?

We need that, too. No matter what we feel. We need that, too.

Otherwise, we're never going to move on.

We have to make that break.

Together. Today.

So what you going to do?

What, you're just going to go? Leave me for ever?

Yes. I've booked a cab. I'm going to get the last train down.

-Right, so you're just going to get in a cab and drive away?

-Yep.

-Not even look back?

-That's right.

You sure you're going to be able to, Tan?

You sure it's going to be that simple?

Don't matter what you say, what you want.

You'll be driving out the Square, you'll want to look back.

You won't be able to help yourself. You'll want to stay, Tan.

You'll want us to be back together.

You'll look back, Tan.

You will.

You won't be able to help yourself.

You'll come back.

You're wrong. I'm stronger than you think and I will make myself.

I will make myself. For my children.

And what about Abi? Cos she didn't look too happy about it.

Yeah, well, I'll talk to her. I'll talk to her some more.

-She'll come round.

-Yeah? And what if she don't?

-She will.

And what about Lauren? What's Lauren got to say about all this?

I just need to get her in the cab and out of the Square,

then I'll tell her.

What are you going to say? You're going for a day trip? A picnic?

That we're going away for the weekend.

Do you think she's going to thank you when she finds out?

It'll be too late by then. Cos she'll be in the clinic.

She needs to know.

No. What you going to do? You going to tell her, are you?

You going to persuade her to stay?

Because what difference is that going to make to you and me?

Cos I am not just going for Lauren. I'm going for me, as well.

DOOR BELL RINGS

That'll be my cab.

Not a pretty sight.

Can I speak to Max?

What do you want?

I need to talk to you.

I don't think I explained myself proper.

What's the matter with you? You been drinking?

Hello, Tanya. I suppose he's told you, told you my terrible secret.

You need to get her out of here.

I bet you're loving this aren't you? Miss Prissy Pants.

Kirsty, can you just go, please?

No! I'm not. I'm not going. I'm not leaving without you.

There is nothing going on between me and Max. What you did,

I don't care. All I care about is my children.

My little girl, upstairs, fresh out of hospital.

Who doesn't need to see some drunken mess on the doorstep!

Do you understand? The rest. You and him. I couldn't care less.

You hear that?

She don't want you.

She don't want you, Max.

-You need to go, all right?

-Just come with me.

No.

Oh, Max, you need to get her out.

I'm coming back.

-Listen. Listen to me, all right? Listen to me.

-Yeah?

Whatever you've done, Kirsty, all right, it's not important.

Cos it's done. It's over. Do you hear me?

Yes. Yes. I understand. I know, it's done.

And I must never do anything like that again. I love you.

I love you so much.

No. No, Kirsty you don't understand, all right? We're done.

I'm sorry, all right? I don't want to hurt you.

I can't say I ain't got feelings for you, cos I have,

but it's gone, Kirsty. Whatever we had, all right, it's gone.

Now, listen, I got to go and talk to Lauren, right?

It's important. So just please let me do that.

Please, can you just give me another chance?

Kirsty, no, all right? I'm sorry.

That's it. She's gone. She ain't coming back.

Dad? I heard shouting. Who was that? Was that Joey?

No, no, it weren't Joey. It's no-one.

Let's get you back upstairs, shall we?

Why is everyone shouting? Why is everyone always shouting?

Why can't you two just stop for a minute? Please.

No-one's going to shout any more, darling. I promise you.

Come here.

Come here.

My beautiful little girl.

-Not so beautiful, any more.

-You're my beautiful little girl.

Just like that beautiful baby I brought home from the hospital.

Are you crying?

What's wrong with everyone?

Maybe you should tell her your plan.

What's she talking about?

Dad?

Your mum, she's going to take you away.

What?

Yeah, just for the weekend. You know, somewhere nice. Peaceful.

-Why?

-Yeah. Just to get some rest.

You know, get a bit of fresh air. In the country.

What about Abi?

I've got some work to do. Sorry.

Yeah, I mean, she can stay here with me. If she wants.

I can keep an eye on her.

Maybe I can come down, some other time.

Why not? Yeah, why not?

When are we going, then?

Well, we're going now. The taxi's waiting outside.

So you better pack your bag.

Yeah, I'll give her a hand. Come on, let's go.

Come on, let's go.

I'll make Oscar a sandwich, shall I?

Aren't you going to try and talk me out of it?

Would there be any point?

You know you can always come and visit us.

Any time you want. Oscar's going to miss you.

What about you?

Yes, Mum.

You're the best of all of us. You know that. Don't you?

No.

Well, you are.

I'm going to pack my bag.

This isn't just a weekend, is it?

Is it?

No.

What then?

Your mum. She's going to take you to a clinic.

A clinic?

Yeah. You know, just for a little while.

Why? Why hasn't she told me?

Cos she's scared, all right? She's scared you won't go.

What's she going to do then, is she going to wait and tell me

when she's pushing me through the door, Dad?

Lauren, listen to me, all right? She's scared witless. So am I.

You need help, all right?

You're not going to get better here.

It's the right thing to do. You know that. Don't you?

What about you?

I'll visit.

I love you.

I love you, too.

Nana's made you a sandwich.

You sure about this?

Yes, Mum.

I'm going to miss you.

I'll see you soon. You won't be able to keep me away.

I love you.

All right, darling?

Yeah. I packed for a while. That's right, innit?

Yeah.

-You all right, Dad?

-Yeah, yeah.

Oscar, can I have a bite of your sandwich?

No.

HE LAUGHS

Such a big boy, you know that?

Yeah.

Listen... You're going on a holiday with your mum, all right,

and I'm going to see you soon, OK?

Good boy.

Right, yes. Come on, then. Don't want to miss the train, do we?

Say goodbye to Daddy.

I'll see you soon.

See you later.

Can you tell Joey I said bye.

Yeah.

Bye, Oscar. I'll see you soon, yeah?

Bye, Abi.

Bye, Dad.

Bye. Go on.

Good luck, darling.

Tan...

All you got to do is ask me to come.

I'll get in the cab. I'll shut the door.

We can drive away.

I love you.

And I love you.

You're mine, you know that. You'll always be mine.

Course I will. Course I will.

And you'll always be mine...

..no matter who else comes along.

Tan...

Don't look back.

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