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That's a summary of the headlines. The world's top athletes are | :00:11. | :00:16. | |
different from the rest of us. They have a drive, a singular wheel that | :00:16. | :00:23. | |
makes them winners, but it can also be their undoing. Like yesterday, | :00:23. | :00:27. | |
Graeme Obree was a world champion cyclist in the 1990s, famous for | :00:27. | :00:31. | |
his self-built bikes and union eke racing style. But while making his | :00:31. | :00:38. | |
name on the track, he was battling severe depression which led to | :00:38. | :00:44. | |
suicide bids and family break-up. What happens when elite sport takes | :00:44. | :00:54. | |
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Graeme Obree, welcome to HARDtalk. Great to be here. When I talk at | :01:15. | :01:20. | |
top-level cycling, I see athletes that seem to be the ultimate | :01:20. | :01:24. | |
individualists, is that what drew you to cycling? Yes, it did. I | :01:24. | :01:30. | |
think sport is one of those things, with those activities where people | :01:31. | :01:34. | |
take it up as a leisure activity and they're interested in doing it | :01:34. | :01:38. | |
but when you get to the elite level, that's when people are more | :01:39. | :01:42. | |
obsessive by nature and character. It does seem to me, you watch it on | :01:42. | :01:47. | |
the television and it seems it's all about living with pain, pain | :01:47. | :01:50. | |
that goes deep in to your soul because you are riding for hour | :01:50. | :01:54. | |
upon hour in some of these events like the Tour de France. I know you | :01:54. | :02:01. | |
didn't always do events as long as that, but you have to cope well | :02:01. | :02:05. | |
inside yourself? I look at it as effort which is more positive than | :02:05. | :02:10. | |
pain. But there is pain and commitment and lifestyle and also | :02:10. | :02:16. | |
sacrifices as a lifestyle. So you've got to be driven. Your | :02:16. | :02:22. | |
entire life is encompassed by this. What you don't do, the parties you | :02:22. | :02:27. | |
don't go to, everything about it is obsessive. While there are cycling | :02:27. | :02:33. | |
teams - in the end it is down to you as an individual. And I wonder | :02:33. | :02:36. | |
whether loneliness is something that even as a youth, you were | :02:36. | :02:42. | |
prepared to live with or may even sought out? Well, part of my | :02:42. | :02:46. | |
ambition in cycling was always to be part of something. I was always | :02:46. | :02:49. | |
striving to be part of something. To be part of a bigger team. Part | :02:49. | :02:55. | |
of the British team. Part of a team. But ultimately, you train mostly | :02:55. | :03:00. | |
alone and winning is a very lonely experience. Winning is actually, | :03:00. | :03:06. | |
you're separating yourself from the non-winners. So that makes it very | :03:06. | :03:12. | |
lonely. That psychologically is counterintuitive to being part of | :03:12. | :03:17. | |
something. It is an issue, people don't want to separate themselves | :03:17. | :03:22. | |
from the others. I know, and you've written about this at length, that | :03:22. | :03:31. | |
as a child, you had a very difficult upbringing. You were a | :03:31. | :03:37. | |
very unhappy boy. You turned to the bike as an escape from the | :03:37. | :03:43. | |
bullying? It didn't really happen till I was 15. Up to that point, I | :03:43. | :03:50. | |
was very insular. And with primary school, I went through a phase of | :03:50. | :03:54. | |
kind oaf floating along. And enduring the day to day existence. | :03:54. | :03:59. | |
And in my spare time I would hang about forests as a non-person. | :03:59. | :04:04. | |
how did you get to a point where you realised cycling wasn't just a | :04:04. | :04:07. | |
past time for you, that it was becoming your life? You were so | :04:07. | :04:12. | |
good at it and so different from others cycling alongside you that | :04:12. | :04:16. | |
you could think about making this your life? At the start, cycling | :04:16. | :04:22. | |
was a great escape. You were in charge of your ship. The bike is | :04:22. | :04:26. | |
your ship to travel through the storm. You could go four times | :04:26. | :04:31. | |
faster than what you could jog. You could go where you wanted to go and | :04:31. | :04:37. | |
the freedom along the countriesside. It was a freedom issue. -- | :04:38. | :04:41. | |
countryside. It was a freedom issue. I became better at it and was | :04:41. | :04:46. | |
encouraged and much, much better at it. The whole thing grew legs in | :04:46. | :04:50. | |
terms of being more obsessive with it. Obsessive is another word I | :04:50. | :04:55. | |
will pick away at because even from early on in your career, you're | :04:55. | :04:59. | |
winning local titles, men's Scottish titles and were clearly | :04:59. | :05:04. | |
becoming one of the best in your peer group on a British level but | :05:04. | :05:08. | |
never did things the way others did. Your obsession with working on your | :05:08. | :05:12. | |
own bikes and building your own bikes, others weren't doing that. | :05:12. | :05:16. | |
They were trying anyway they could to acquire a professional-level | :05:16. | :05:22. | |
bike but you were building your own. Why were you doing that? One of my | :05:22. | :05:27. | |
big distractions with youth was I liked craft and making things out | :05:27. | :05:31. | |
of bits of wood and metal. So making things was part of my life. | :05:31. | :05:36. | |
When I see bad design, I hate it. A can opener or whatever it is, I | :05:36. | :05:41. | |
hate bad design. I have to improve it. What I saw was bad design in | :05:41. | :05:46. | |
bikes in terms of how it could be but it wasn't. So I set about | :05:46. | :05:50. | |
changing that. The first thing I did at a very early stage was cut | :05:50. | :05:54. | |
half the spokes out of wheels because you don't need the other | :05:54. | :06:00. | |
half and I filled the holes up. The team would say that you can't ride | :06:00. | :06:04. | |
with that many spokes. But I saw that things, I always had an | :06:04. | :06:08. | |
ability to see how things could be, but they're not. You were a | :06:09. | :06:13. | |
maverick. Even the way in which people sit on the bicycle. As you | :06:13. | :06:16. | |
became more and more successful, you clearly thought very hard about | :06:16. | :06:21. | |
getting the best aerodynamic position on the bike and you | :06:21. | :06:24. | |
decided to change the position of the saddle and redesigning handle | :06:25. | :06:29. | |
bars, that you could do it differently? I don't think that, I | :06:29. | :06:33. | |
think a lot of people could see how they could change things but they | :06:33. | :06:38. | |
were inhibited by the threat of how other people perceive it. The | :06:38. | :06:44. | |
unwritten rules of that you can't do that. But I was oblivious to | :06:44. | :06:52. | |
these. I couldn't see why I couldn't do it. If you take the | :06:53. | :06:57. | |
crouch position. People who aren't cyclists and don't know that by the | :06:57. | :07:02. | |
early 1990s you were turning things upside down in speed cycling? Give | :07:02. | :07:06. | |
us an illustration of how you changed the position on the bike? | :07:06. | :07:11. | |
went through a thought process of how could I go quicker? I was in to | :07:11. | :07:21. | |
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physics and science at that time. You can increase the engine size. | :07:22. | :07:27. | |
The engine being your body? Yes. And another way to do that is cut | :07:27. | :07:33. | |
down the resistance. So I thought, "Hold on, if you can do this with | :07:33. | :07:39. | |
your arms, I was in that position." Like a spear? Yes. But on a bike, | :07:39. | :07:45. | |
the first time I rode it, somebody said, "Look at that poor bloke." I | :07:45. | :07:48. | |
was oblivious to the look that other people perhaps wouldn't have | :07:48. | :07:54. | |
done that automatically. I was oblivious to that. I wanted to do | :07:54. | :07:59. | |
it. It was purely functionality. we go through the '90s and we have | :07:59. | :08:04. | |
to talk about winning the individual pursuit world title and | :08:04. | :08:09. | |
the one hour against the clock cycling where you broke the world | :08:09. | :08:14. | |
record. By the time in 1994, 1995, you were running in to problems | :08:14. | :08:18. | |
with the authorities buzz they didn't like your innovation but the | :08:18. | :08:21. | |
ultimate innovation was with the handle bars and becoming stretched | :08:21. | :08:28. | |
out in a way cycling hadants seen before? Yes, it was. In the '90s, I | :08:28. | :08:34. | |
realise in retrospect now I was for years and years used that crouch | :08:34. | :08:38. | |
position. And I was winning races at Scottish and British level. I | :08:38. | :08:44. | |
didn't think of world level. At one point I thought, "You could be | :08:44. | :08:50. | |
doing berts than this." And then the innovations. But the riding | :08:50. | :08:57. | |
position you came about, I won the records like that, which has always | :08:57. | :09:04. | |
been the ultimate single time trial event in the world. 52 kilometres | :09:04. | :09:10. | |
in one hour. And it's thequivalent of the mile record of running. | :09:11. | :09:15. | |
slipped in a phrase. You talked about the washing machine and the | :09:15. | :09:20. | |
way in which you used parts, parts from your own washing machine in | :09:20. | :09:27. | |
your small house in Ayrshire to equip this absolute elite bicycle. | :09:27. | :09:33. | |
What was the wasing machine part doing on your bike? -- washing | :09:33. | :09:37. | |
machine part doing on your bike? There was a film which portrayed | :09:37. | :09:43. | |
this as a washing machine from the kitchen. But this is from the front | :09:43. | :09:47. | |
door. It had to be well manufactured. Rather than machine | :09:47. | :09:51. | |
it, I could take it out of the machine. I set about hacking it | :09:51. | :09:57. | |
apart. Butia don't know till you look. And the washing machine story | :09:57. | :10:04. | |
captivates people. People go, "I remember that from 20 years ago." | :10:04. | :10:11. | |
The washing machine sparks a memory. It seems to be a mix of extreme | :10:11. | :10:15. | |
amateurishness, rooting around with a saw and a metal file, making | :10:15. | :10:21. | |
something for yourself and turning that in to a triumphant world | :10:21. | :10:24. | |
championship racing machine. It just seems, we know so much about | :10:24. | :10:28. | |
professional sport these days, it just seems impossible? It does seem | :10:28. | :10:32. | |
impossible. The truth is, only recent times looking back, because | :10:32. | :10:39. | |
it's almost 20 years ago, and you think, "Oh, my goodness, it's | :10:39. | :10:43. | |
amazing," that I did that. It sounds incredible but it's true. | :10:43. | :10:47. | |
Here is maybe the strangest twist of all. As you're doing this and | :10:47. | :10:53. | |
enjoying this extraordinary success, really self-made success in a way | :10:53. | :11:00. | |
in which you as a sportsmen can be achieved -- sportsman can be | :11:00. | :11:04. | |
achieved, you were deeply depressed at the time? It wasn't showing | :11:04. | :11:09. | |
itself at the time. That was to come later. Because the film | :11:09. | :11:14. | |
portrayed that. But I wasn't a happy person. But part of that and | :11:14. | :11:20. | |
the story of me being successful was being driven by a - I suffered | :11:20. | :11:27. | |
at that time from extreme lack of self-worth. A psychologist | :11:27. | :11:31. | |
diagnosed me as chronic lack of self-worth. How can that be, how | :11:31. | :11:35. | |
can you win the world championship in individual pursuit, crack the | :11:35. | :11:39. | |
one-hour world record, be hailed not just in Scotland but around the | :11:39. | :11:44. | |
world as frankly a bit of a cycling miracle, and say that you're | :11:44. | :11:48. | |
suffering massive problem of self- esteem and efl respect? You might | :11:48. | :11:53. | |
be -- self-respect? You might be surprised I've had this discussion | :11:53. | :11:57. | |
with many people over the years. A lot of top people have told me the | :11:57. | :12:03. | |
same thing that a lack of self- worth is a huge driving force in | :12:03. | :12:06. | |
top athletes because there's that lack of self-worth that drives them | :12:06. | :12:11. | |
to make up for self-worth by overawheefplt. Achievement that | :12:11. | :12:15. | |
other people don't -- overachievement. Achievement that | :12:15. | :12:19. | |
other people don't feel they can do it. That's where a lot of the | :12:19. | :12:24. | |
hunger and drive comes from? Yes. Without wishing to delve too deep | :12:24. | :12:27. | |
tine great personal misery, you tried to kill yourself several | :12:27. | :12:31. | |
times? Yes. And one thing that's hard for me to get my mind around, | :12:31. | :12:36. | |
you went to the 1996 Olympic Games in Atlanta and you were one of the | :12:36. | :12:39. | |
British favourites because you got the track record of winning world | :12:39. | :12:44. | |
titles, and when you got to the Olympics, you weren't feeling well | :12:44. | :12:48. | |
or right, and at one time it seems you actually considered killing | :12:48. | :12:54. | |
yourself in the Olympic village? Yes. Because I felt like a complete | :12:54. | :12:59. | |
failure. Mental illness at that level, depression, it tests your | :12:59. | :13:04. | |
sense of reality. I thought I had no influence on the Games and I was | :13:05. | :13:09. | |
a complete failure and washed up. And I'm a terrible person. A deep | :13:09. | :13:13. | |
lack of self-worth. People are better off without me on the planet. | :13:13. | :13:20. | |
But the truth was, that position we talked about earlier was banned, I | :13:20. | :13:24. | |
reinvented myself with the superman position, with the arms straight | :13:24. | :13:30. | |
out in front. And the same thinking process of getting the edge. And | :13:30. | :13:35. | |
that was emulated by the Italians, the Germans and a few other people. | :13:35. | :13:40. | |
And that was used to win six or seven gold medals. So I had a huge | :13:40. | :13:45. | |
influence on those Games and I was ablifrbious to see it. How close | :13:45. | :13:49. | |
did -- oblivious to see it. How close did you come on making good | :13:49. | :13:56. | |
on your wish to die at that point? I think at that point, it wasn't | :13:56. | :14:03. | |
going to become a reality. But it was certainly tempting. The extreme | :14:03. | :14:09. | |
pressure of having to step up. And I know that I will not win this. I | :14:09. | :14:16. | |
might not qualify. And how angry at the same time - you're talking | :14:16. | :14:21. | |
about the lack of self-worth but how angry were you that the cycling | :14:21. | :14:25. | |
authorities consistently year on year appeared to be determined to | :14:25. | :14:35. | |
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thwart your efforts to inovate and It is their job. They did it | :14:41. | :14:49. | |
effectively. They brought out the new rules. It was a wee bit | :14:49. | :14:58. | |
underhand dead. You could not compete? I am thankful because it's | :14:58. | :15:06. | |
not me out of my comfort zone. have not discussed drugs. In 2012, | :15:06. | :15:10. | |
it for 20 years or more cycling at the top level was rife with | :15:10. | :15:16. | |
performance-enhancing drugs. You say that she never contemplated | :15:16. | :15:21. | |
taking such drugs. To what extent you believe that that thwarted your | :15:21. | :15:28. | |
ambitions? Going back to the Olympics, I knew that she took | :15:28. | :15:35. | |
drugs with impunity. If you had impunity you would not be caught. I | :15:35. | :15:41. | |
was not tempted. It was coming to the point at the end of my career, | :15:41. | :15:48. | |
the point where I believed up to that point, that people taking | :15:48. | :15:53. | |
drugs was stupid. I knew that I should train harder. I will suffer | :15:53. | :15:58. | |
more, I would train harder and better. I will ride better. I will | :15:58. | :16:08. | |
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be more efficient. I think that if you take drugs, then I would | :16:09. | :16:15. | |
breezed my last breath to get to the finish line before you. -- | :16:15. | :16:25. | |
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breathed my last breath. This is a physical advantage to work harder. | :16:25. | :16:33. | |
People are still doing this with impunity. I realise that I am at a | :16:33. | :16:36. | |
severe physical disadvantage. A lot of mental energy was needed to | :16:36. | :16:44. | |
overcome that. Do think it was that important? I thought back to an | :16:44. | :16:48. | |
interview by David Miller, he was busted for drugs in the early to | :16:48. | :16:52. | |
thousands, at the top of his sport at the Tour de France. He was | :16:52. | :16:58. | |
banned for a while. Because of the rules of the British Olympic | :16:58. | :17:02. | |
Association, he is now barred from being in the British Olympic team | :17:02. | :17:12. | |
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for 2012. Is that right? Should baby forever bent for doping? | :17:16. | :17:23. | |
think that David Mellor should be allowed to ride. I had a | :17:24. | :17:28. | |
conversation with a scientific adviser for the agency, I saw a | :17:28. | :17:32. | |
presentation at Cambridge University last year. We both | :17:32. | :17:39. | |
agreed that beyond the way of effectively changing the drug | :17:39. | :17:43. | |
culture, it is possible to take drugs right now. Especially with | :17:43. | :17:49. | |
the testing procedures and get away with it. We want to change that, | :17:49. | :17:58. | |
you need a change in attitudes of the athletes. David Miller has | :17:58. | :18:03. | |
consistently tried to change the minds of his fellow riders and the | :18:03. | :18:07. | |
sport in general that drug-taking is bad and we cannot accept it. | :18:07. | :18:14. | |
This means that he should be allowed to ride. If David Miller | :18:15. | :18:19. | |
had thrown acid into a lady's face, he would have been rehabilitated | :18:19. | :18:24. | |
and carried on his life as if it never happened. Why should it be | :18:24. | :18:30. | |
different that he is an athlete? Yes, you said the other day that | :18:30. | :18:39. | |
you hate it when people who achieved anything on a bicycle must | :18:39. | :18:46. | |
have taken drugs. Will it be a tainted sport for ever? That is a | :18:46. | :18:55. | |
hard one to answer. Sport was extremely damaged by the | :18:55. | :19:02. | |
revelations of drug-taking. The anger for me was, I actually had | :19:02. | :19:06. | |
responsible people backing me, who said that Graeme Obree must have | :19:06. | :19:15. | |
been the same acts the rest. -- same as the rest. It was bad in the | :19:15. | :19:25. | |
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90s the drug-taking. There is a new attitude among bicycle riders. | :19:27. | :19:30. | |
Let's stop talking about drugs and now talk about some more personal | :19:30. | :19:35. | |
issues.Now more open about the fact that you wrote with an alcohol | :19:35. | :19:45. | |
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problem. You drowned your anguish and depression in alcohol? It was | :19:47. | :19:53. | |
difficult to do what she did, pushing your body to the limit, you | :19:54. | :19:57. | |
spoke of riding to the point when your lungs were actually pleading. | :19:57. | :20:02. | |
You could taste blood in your mouth as he finished that race. You were | :20:02. | :20:10. | |
pushing your body to the limit, and she were virtually an alcoholic. | :20:10. | :20:15. | |
During be season, I did not drink wheresoever. Then during the three | :20:15. | :20:22. | |
months I made up for everyone else's year. As soon as the last | :20:22. | :20:27. | |
race was over in October, it is the start of the holiday season and | :20:27. | :20:36. | |
time to get the beers out. Was it something to do with sexuality? You | :20:36. | :20:40. | |
have been open with the fact that the end of your career that you are | :20:40. | :20:48. | |
homosexuals. At the time when you're writing, you never were. | :20:48. | :20:53. | |
What a new that it was deep down in my heart. Might consume of alcohol | :20:53. | :21:02. | |
was an escapism -- my consumption of alcohol. If people tell you that | :21:02. | :21:08. | |
you're a great person and then I say thank you that is very nice of | :21:08. | :21:18. | |
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you. I wanted to say excuse me you were all wrong and you are a piece | :21:19. | :21:27. | |
of rubbish, not a lovely human being. You're not explicit in that | :21:27. | :21:37. | |
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light, you were not truthful to yourself? It was a conflict between | :21:40. | :21:50. | |
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my self worth. You think you would have been a happier more fulfilled | :21:51. | :21:59. | |
person if you have never taken up full-time cycling? I have a love- | :21:59. | :22:05. | |
hate relationship with it. I will always go back to it. Ultimately, | :22:05. | :22:12. | |
my bike is my best friend. I would say to anybody to Douai sport. | :22:12. | :22:22. | |
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Honestly, now I can to rides and let it go. I love cycling and it | :22:22. | :22:27. | |
has saved my life. It amazes me after everything you have been true, | :22:27. | :22:32. | |
the anguish, the trauma and the pain, you still have an ambition to | :22:32. | :22:37. | |
do something extraordinary in cycling. At the moment, you are | :22:37. | :22:46. | |
preoccupied with making a human power land-speed record. Why? | :22:46. | :22:51. | |
Because it is there. It is not a choice. I still have injuries, a | :22:51. | :23:00. | |
bad neck. I have had the idea of how to do this, the mechanics, the | :23:00. | :23:07. | |
buyer of mechanical engineering and design of the bike. -- by a | :23:07. | :23:15. | |
mechanical. It is not even a choice issue, I have to do this and it'll | :23:15. | :23:21. | |
be fun. What speed do you believe that your engine, your body, can | :23:21. | :23:31. | |
take a bike. What is the top speed that you can get to? Well, the | :23:31. | :23:38. | |
record is 83mph, I think I would give that a good shake. I'm not | :23:38. | :23:44. | |
saying that I would break it. I would be the first man to get to | :23:44. | :23:54. | |
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