0:00:02 > 0:00:12This programme contains some strong language
0:00:12 > 0:00:16'I am sorry, Emma. There are many other factors that need to be considered.
0:00:16 > 0:00:19'Sharing genes is no guarantee.'
0:00:25 > 0:00:26VOMITING
0:00:26 > 0:00:30'You're all right, love, you're all right.'
0:00:30 > 0:00:33You're all right. That's it.
0:00:49 > 0:00:53- 'Hi, this is Andi.- Can't talk now, please leave a message.'
0:00:57 > 0:01:00Well, we got him here at last. Third time lucky.
0:01:01 > 0:01:03Are you OK?
0:01:03 > 0:01:05There's no rush.
0:01:05 > 0:01:09Take your time.
0:01:07 > 0:01:09Is he...?
0:01:09 > 0:01:12I mean, what sort of form is he in?
0:01:12 > 0:01:16He's...grand.
0:01:32 > 0:01:33Emma...
0:01:33 > 0:01:36this is Neil Maguire.
0:01:40 > 0:01:42You're so like Dad.
0:01:42 > 0:01:44I'll just be across the hall.
0:01:44 > 0:01:47Is there anything you need? Tea or coffee?
0:01:48 > 0:01:51I'm cool.
0:01:56 > 0:01:59You're a good-looking girl.
0:01:59 > 0:02:01For a sister, like.
0:02:14 > 0:02:17God, where do I start?
0:02:17 > 0:02:19Why have you come looking for me?
0:02:21 > 0:02:24Well, I wanted to meet you. To talk.
0:02:24 > 0:02:26About what?
0:02:27 > 0:02:30You know all the gory details anyway.
0:02:37 > 0:02:41I know that the family who adopted you had problems,
0:02:41 > 0:02:44that you ended up in a children's home.
0:02:46 > 0:02:50And I know that Mum always regretted giving you up.
0:02:52 > 0:02:54She's dead now, yeah?
0:02:55 > 0:02:59Yeah. Breast cancer.
0:02:59 > 0:03:01A few years ago now.
0:03:03 > 0:03:07She did contact this place towards the end.
0:03:07 > 0:03:10She really wanted to make her peace with you.
0:03:14 > 0:03:16Maybe we can try now?
0:03:16 > 0:03:20Listen, Emma.
0:03:20 > 0:03:23This is all ancient history.
0:03:23 > 0:03:29I left my details here when I was 18 and I waited and waited
0:03:29 > 0:03:35and over 20-odd years later your mother, my mother, whatever,
0:03:35 > 0:03:40tried to get in touch, but by that stage I wasn't interested any more.
0:03:44 > 0:03:46You're here now.
0:03:47 > 0:03:50Curiosity, maybe.
0:03:52 > 0:03:54And you wouldn't let it go.
0:03:57 > 0:04:03I was hoping I could maybe get you up to Belfast for a few days.
0:04:00 > 0:04:03Why?
0:04:03 > 0:04:06Why would I do that?
0:04:07 > 0:04:10You've got another sister, Andi.
0:04:10 > 0:04:14And I've a wee girl, Alice. She's nearly 11.
0:04:14 > 0:04:16Ah, Jaysus.
0:04:16 > 0:04:18I'm an uncle now as well, am I?
0:04:21 > 0:04:24Have you got family, Neil, or...
0:04:24 > 0:04:26No.
0:04:26 > 0:04:28Never married.
0:04:28 > 0:04:30No kids.
0:04:30 > 0:04:33At least none I'll admit to.
0:04:33 > 0:04:37Are you working?
0:04:36 > 0:04:37Not at the moment, no.
0:04:37 > 0:04:39You?
0:04:39 > 0:04:42I'm a home help. Old people.
0:04:43 > 0:04:46Andi's the successful one.
0:04:46 > 0:04:49She has a design business, you know, doing up people's homes?
0:04:52 > 0:04:56So, Andi didn't fancy it today?
0:04:59 > 0:05:02No, she just couldn't get away.
0:05:02 > 0:05:06But maybe, if you can, you'll come up to Belfast, please.
0:05:08 > 0:05:12I mean, you can stay at mine and I'll pay for the train.
0:05:16 > 0:05:18We'll see.
0:05:25 > 0:05:28< Back again, come on!
0:05:36 > 0:05:38Come on, Alice. Come on, Alice.
0:05:38 > 0:05:40You're doing well.
0:05:52 > 0:05:55Come on, Alice.
0:06:01 > 0:06:04Come on, Alice. Good girl.
0:06:15 > 0:06:17You were good today.
0:06:15 > 0:06:17I was crap.
0:06:17 > 0:06:18Alice!
0:06:17 > 0:06:18I was.
0:06:18 > 0:06:21You were not.
0:06:34 > 0:06:37Damn, I've left your book in the car.
0:06:37 > 0:06:39It's OK, I have something to read, Mummy.
0:06:39 > 0:06:43That'll not last you four hours.
0:06:40 > 0:06:43Is it raining outside?
0:06:43 > 0:06:46No, I was swimming.
0:06:44 > 0:06:46Fair play to you, love. I never learned.
0:06:47 > 0:06:50Alice, Emma, how we doing?
0:06:49 > 0:06:50Hiya, Doctor Lee.
0:06:50 > 0:06:55You have forgotten my name again?
0:06:53 > 0:06:55Um, Francis?
0:06:55 > 0:06:57Very good. Like the football player.
0:06:57 > 0:07:00Manchester City. Bit before your time, I know but...
0:07:00 > 0:07:03You wanted a wee word?
0:07:01 > 0:07:03Please.
0:07:03 > 0:07:05I'll just be over here, OK, love?
0:07:09 > 0:07:13She just seems a bit... Her energy levels are really low at the minute.
0:07:13 > 0:07:16Her potassium levels before dialysis are a concern.
0:07:16 > 0:07:19Is she managing OK with the supplements and tablets?
0:07:19 > 0:07:22It's a bit of a scrap sometimes, but she's coping.
0:07:22 > 0:07:25I can't emphasise enough the importance of diet.
0:07:25 > 0:07:27If the potassium levels get out of hand,
0:07:27 > 0:07:30we could have cardiac, heart issues and we don't want to go there.
0:07:30 > 0:07:32Andi, my sister says she's happy to donate.
0:07:32 > 0:07:34Yes, and she is top of our list.
0:07:34 > 0:07:36We still have to do the tissue analysis.
0:07:36 > 0:07:39I know what you said about her age and having children.
0:07:39 > 0:07:43I know this is hard, Emma, but we have to be patient.
0:07:43 > 0:07:45Family would be ideal.
0:07:45 > 0:07:50But, for the meantime, Alice is priority and on call.
0:07:50 > 0:07:54Another donor may be available at any time.
0:07:54 > 0:07:58Now, I think another session of dialysis is unavoidable
0:07:58 > 0:08:01but we'll monitor that for the moment.
0:08:06 > 0:08:08Is she a bit more settled?
0:08:16 > 0:08:18Well, at least I'm still in the running.
0:08:22 > 0:08:25You'd expect one of her parents to work out.
0:08:25 > 0:08:27I mean, me, as her mother.
0:08:27 > 0:08:29I don't know how much longer we can keep this up.
0:08:29 > 0:08:32Alice is shattered.
0:08:32 > 0:08:34You are too, I'm sure.
0:08:36 > 0:08:39It's all happened so fast too, it's...
0:08:42 > 0:08:44What about the waiting list situation?
0:08:44 > 0:08:48Did the doctor give you any timeframe?
0:08:48 > 0:08:51He tells me whatever he needs to tell me.
0:08:51 > 0:08:54Don't panic. Everything's under control.
0:08:54 > 0:08:58Every time that phone goes, my heart is in my mouth.
0:09:03 > 0:09:06I'm sorry. I'm really going to have to go.
0:09:06 > 0:09:08I have to meet a client at eight.
0:09:08 > 0:09:11Do you still need me to run Alice to school in the morning?
0:09:10 > 0:09:11Please.
0:09:15 > 0:09:18Andi.
0:09:16 > 0:09:18Yeah?
0:09:18 > 0:09:22I've been thinking again about finding the brother?
0:09:24 > 0:09:27I have to look at all the options, you know that.
0:09:27 > 0:09:29Emma, do we have to go through this all again, seriously?
0:09:29 > 0:09:34Yes, but if he worked out, you wouldn't need to.
0:09:35 > 0:09:38If you're still wanting to have kids
0:09:38 > 0:09:41you could be putting that at risk and how could I ever forgive...
0:09:41 > 0:09:43Emma, please.
0:09:43 > 0:09:46If it comes to it, it's my call.
0:09:46 > 0:09:47But you going after your man?
0:09:47 > 0:09:49If he worked out.
0:09:49 > 0:09:50Even if you could find him,
0:09:50 > 0:09:54you've absolutely no idea what the hell you're getting yourself into.
0:09:55 > 0:09:56Come on.
0:10:03 > 0:10:06Is it possible you could tidy my bedroom today?
0:10:06 > 0:10:08I'm tripping over things up there.
0:10:08 > 0:10:11I'll sort that straight after lunch, Mrs Docherty.
0:10:16 > 0:10:18PHONE RINGS
0:10:23 > 0:10:25- Neil?- Yeah.
0:10:25 > 0:10:27Oh, thanks for getting back to me.
0:10:27 > 0:10:29I'll come up on Friday, OK?
0:10:29 > 0:10:32- Yeah. That'd be great. - I'll get the ticket down here
0:10:32 > 0:10:34and you can sort me out when I get up there.
0:10:34 > 0:10:36Sure. Brilliant.
0:10:36 > 0:10:39And you'll have Andi along?
0:10:39 > 0:10:41I'll have to check with her but...
0:10:41 > 0:10:44I don't need to tell you how feckin' weird all this is
0:10:44 > 0:10:48but we'll just suck it and see, right?
0:10:48 > 0:10:50Yeah.
0:10:53 > 0:10:55What about the bedroom?
0:10:56 > 0:10:57Coming now.
0:11:07 > 0:11:12And is your brother aware of Alice's condition?
0:11:12 > 0:11:14No. I'm going to speak to him while he's here.
0:11:14 > 0:11:16But it's difficult.
0:11:16 > 0:11:19What we would need to know, for example,
0:11:19 > 0:11:23is if he's had any surgery or a blood transfusion in the past.
0:11:23 > 0:11:28We'll get him in, we'll have a chat with one of our counsellors.
0:11:29 > 0:11:31Does Alice know about him?
0:11:31 > 0:11:33She knows he's coming.
0:11:41 > 0:11:46You should have finished that at the hospital, love. It's bedtime.
0:11:46 > 0:11:49I'm nearly done. I'll give you a hand.
0:11:49 > 0:11:55Why didn't you tell me before about Uncle Neil?
0:11:55 > 0:11:58Well, I didn't really know much about him myself.
0:11:58 > 0:12:01Not until very recently.
0:12:01 > 0:12:04How could Granny and Granddad just give him away?
0:12:04 > 0:12:06They were very young, they weren't married,
0:12:06 > 0:12:08things were a lot different then.
0:12:08 > 0:12:10So, they could've taken him back after they got married.
0:12:10 > 0:12:13They couldn't, darling. He was already adopted.
0:12:13 > 0:12:15He'd been with another family for ages.
0:12:17 > 0:12:20Is this about me? Is that why he's coming?
0:12:20 > 0:12:23Sweetheart. Don't think like that.
0:12:23 > 0:12:27I'd like to meet him. You would too, wouldn't you?
0:12:28 > 0:12:30I need your help here, though.
0:12:30 > 0:12:32I haven't told your auntie Andi about him.
0:12:32 > 0:12:34Me and you, we'll get to know him
0:12:34 > 0:12:37and see if, well, we'll take it from there, yeah?
0:12:37 > 0:12:41Does Uncle Neil, does he feel like your brother?
0:12:43 > 0:12:45I don't know, love. I don't know.
0:13:19 > 0:13:21Dreaming?
0:13:22 > 0:13:24Go to sleep, Geoff.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26I'm trying.
0:13:32 > 0:13:35You can just take yourself out of the frame, y'know?
0:13:37 > 0:13:40The doctor's given you an out and everything.
0:13:40 > 0:13:43Have you seen Alice lately?
0:13:43 > 0:13:45Yes, but...
0:13:48 > 0:13:51..we still might want a wee girl of our own some day.
0:13:55 > 0:13:57Hmm?
0:14:03 > 0:14:04'Nuff said.
0:14:05 > 0:14:07Sweetheart, don't.
0:14:10 > 0:14:12Alice is still here, now.
0:14:13 > 0:14:14I can't not help her.
0:14:16 > 0:14:17I know.
0:14:38 > 0:14:41- Here he comes.- Where?
0:14:45 > 0:14:46How are you?
0:14:47 > 0:14:51- This is Alice, my daughter. - All right.- Hello.
0:14:53 > 0:14:54No Andi?
0:14:54 > 0:14:58No, sorry. Friday's a busy day for her.
0:14:58 > 0:15:01- I'm sorry, Neil.- Look, I hope I'm not making a dick out of myself here.
0:15:01 > 0:15:04Neil, it's fine. We'll maybe meet up with her later.
0:15:06 > 0:15:08All right. Shall we go, then?
0:15:21 > 0:15:24I didn't know you'd been here before.
0:15:24 > 0:15:27Yeah, still got a few mates here.
0:15:27 > 0:15:29- Where are they at? - Dunno. I've just a number.
0:15:29 > 0:15:32The place has changed from the last time you saw it, I'm sure.
0:15:32 > 0:15:35- Yeah.- What's Dublin like? - It's all right.
0:15:35 > 0:15:38I was meant to go on a school trip once.
0:15:38 > 0:15:40Yes, that didn't happen. It clashed with something.
0:15:40 > 0:15:42- I can't remember. - You're not missing much.
0:15:42 > 0:15:46Unless you've got a great, big bag of money with ya.
0:16:05 > 0:16:07So, where's the young one got to?
0:16:07 > 0:16:11She's probably up messing on the computer.
0:16:11 > 0:16:12Is she OK?
0:16:12 > 0:16:15She looks a bit peaky.
0:16:15 > 0:16:18- She's had an infection.- Yeah?
0:16:18 > 0:16:21- It's not catching, is it?- No.
0:16:21 > 0:16:23No, it's not.
0:16:23 > 0:16:26That's why she wasn't at school today, then, yeah?
0:16:36 > 0:16:37Jesus.
0:16:46 > 0:16:48See what I mean?
0:16:51 > 0:16:53I can get you a copy if you want?
0:16:54 > 0:16:55Nah.
0:16:56 > 0:16:58You're all right.
0:17:04 > 0:17:06Neil, erm, Andi's not going to be here.
0:17:06 > 0:17:08What?
0:17:08 > 0:17:10We've spoken about you but she's nervous.
0:17:10 > 0:17:12Hang on a minute.
0:17:12 > 0:17:15You're the one said, come up to Belfast, meet the pair of you,
0:17:15 > 0:17:17have dinner, catch up and all this old craic.
0:17:17 > 0:17:20Well, I would like to catch up.
0:17:20 > 0:17:22There's things I would like to talk about.
0:17:22 > 0:17:24But she doesn't want to meet me?
0:17:26 > 0:17:28You told her I was coming up?
0:17:30 > 0:17:34- Well, can me and you not...? - This is bollocks.
0:17:34 > 0:17:37There's nothing to stopping you and I spending a bit of time together,
0:17:37 > 0:17:38getting to know each other.
0:17:39 > 0:17:40Listen, love.
0:17:40 > 0:17:44No harm to you, but this is...
0:17:44 > 0:17:46..y'know...
0:17:46 > 0:17:4940 years of nothing
0:17:49 > 0:17:51and now all this brother and sister shite.
0:17:51 > 0:17:52Yeah, I know, Neil.
0:17:52 > 0:17:55- Cos it ain't going to happen. - I don't expect anything.
0:17:55 > 0:17:57I would just like us to talk.
0:18:02 > 0:18:04Sorry. Can you smoke that outside?
0:18:06 > 0:18:09- Where?- Out the back. Sorry, it's just...
0:18:25 > 0:18:27Do you fancy a drink?
0:18:28 > 0:18:31- I can do you a beer or... - I don't drink.
0:18:37 > 0:18:39- Let's eat, if we're going to. - Yeah, OK.
0:18:39 > 0:18:43I was just going to order a takeaway if that's all right?
0:18:43 > 0:18:44Whatever.
0:18:52 > 0:18:54So, will you be around for my party next week, Uncle Neil?
0:18:54 > 0:18:57I'm going to be 11.
0:18:57 > 0:18:58Right.
0:18:58 > 0:19:00Happy birthday.
0:19:01 > 0:19:03Cheers.
0:19:03 > 0:19:05- Cheers.- Cheers.
0:19:14 > 0:19:18- How did you find out you were adopted?- Alice!
0:19:18 > 0:19:20- I'm only asking.- Just knew.
0:19:20 > 0:19:24Didn't your parents say anything? I mean, the people who adopted you.
0:19:24 > 0:19:29I hardly knew them. I was in a children's home from about six.
0:19:29 > 0:19:31You didn't tell me that.
0:19:31 > 0:19:33Well.
0:19:33 > 0:19:36Has she been spinning you some old yarn?
0:19:36 > 0:19:39No, I just told her the basics.
0:19:39 > 0:19:43Was it horrible being in a home?
0:19:43 > 0:19:45I didn't really think about it at the time.
0:19:45 > 0:19:49I was a bit older before I knew what was going on.
0:19:49 > 0:19:51You weren't in the home that long though, were you?
0:19:51 > 0:19:54Three years.
0:19:56 > 0:19:59There were half a dozen delightful foster families after that.
0:19:59 > 0:20:02- What was that like?- Aw, now.
0:20:02 > 0:20:04If I start getting into all that,
0:20:04 > 0:20:07I think I'd have to be using words your mammy wouldn't approve of.
0:20:07 > 0:20:09I don't mind. I know loads of bad words.
0:20:23 > 0:20:24I'm knackered.
0:20:26 > 0:20:28Just crash here, yeah?
0:20:28 > 0:20:30Yeah. I'll need to bring you down a duvet.
0:20:36 > 0:20:39It could have been so different, couldn't it?
0:20:39 > 0:20:43- What do you mean?- The whole thing.
0:20:43 > 0:20:46If Mum and Dad had been married, they hadn't given you away
0:20:46 > 0:20:48and we'd all grown up together.
0:20:54 > 0:20:55You know, there was a time
0:20:55 > 0:20:58when all they had to do was let me know they cared.
0:20:59 > 0:21:01They did, Neil.
0:21:01 > 0:21:03They did.
0:21:03 > 0:21:06But they couldn't undo what had happened.
0:21:11 > 0:21:12Nor can we.
0:21:39 > 0:21:41Just let him be for the moment.
0:21:41 > 0:21:44- Why?- Keep your voice down.
0:21:53 > 0:21:56Go down to the shop and get us a loaf of bread
0:21:56 > 0:21:57and another pint of milk, OK?
0:21:57 > 0:22:01- But I want to wake him. - No, I'm going to.
0:22:12 > 0:22:15Can you please just go and do the message for me?
0:22:19 > 0:22:21Oh. Hang on.
0:22:24 > 0:22:26I forgot to give you your vitamin D.
0:22:34 > 0:22:36DOOR OPENS
0:22:36 > 0:22:38DOOR SHUTS
0:22:47 > 0:22:51- Oh. I was just going bring this into you.- Sound.
0:22:53 > 0:22:55Can you sort us out with that train fare? I'm going to head on.
0:22:55 > 0:22:57I thought you were staying the weekend.
0:22:57 > 0:22:59No, I don't think so.
0:22:59 > 0:23:04Neil, please. At least stay and have breakfast.
0:23:04 > 0:23:07- Alice is away to get us a loaf. - I'm grand.
0:23:07 > 0:23:10I'll swallow this and if you could sort us with the cash.
0:23:28 > 0:23:30All right, you?
0:23:30 > 0:23:32Hi, Auntie Andi.
0:23:32 > 0:23:34Don't look so happy to see me. Jump in.
0:23:34 > 0:23:38Just delivering a wee something to the house.
0:23:38 > 0:23:40Big day coming up 'n all.
0:23:46 > 0:23:49Listen, I don't know what the Euro thing is worth but...
0:23:49 > 0:23:51How much have you there?
0:23:51 > 0:23:5240 quid.
0:23:55 > 0:23:56That'll do.
0:23:59 > 0:24:00Might stay up tonight.
0:24:00 > 0:24:04See if I can catch up with a few of these mates of mine.
0:24:06 > 0:24:08Neil.
0:24:09 > 0:24:10What?
0:24:17 > 0:24:20Look. I'm heading on here.
0:24:21 > 0:24:22What is it?
0:24:23 > 0:24:26I'm really sorry about everything.
0:24:26 > 0:24:29- Everything that's happened to you. - Ach, listen.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31It's history.
0:24:31 > 0:24:34I know it's too little, but I really hope it's not too late.
0:24:34 > 0:24:38- It's been really great to... - Look, what's done is done, love.
0:24:38 > 0:24:41Don't beat yourself up about it.
0:24:41 > 0:24:45But it's been really great to meet you, to know that I have a brother.
0:24:47 > 0:24:49Yeah.
0:24:50 > 0:24:52And I need to ask you a question.
0:24:57 > 0:25:01It's important. Really. And believe me, I...
0:25:01 > 0:25:03KNOCK ON DOOR
0:25:03 > 0:25:04I...
0:25:04 > 0:25:06I'm sorry, just let me...
0:25:13 > 0:25:16- Where's your keys? - Mummy, I didn't tell her anything.
0:25:16 > 0:25:17The sprints of her.
0:25:19 > 0:25:20Andi.
0:25:20 > 0:25:22- That's me.- Erm...
0:25:22 > 0:25:25- What?- Can I give you a call later, it's just I'm...
0:25:25 > 0:25:27Sure. I'm just dropping a wee pressie off for Alice.
0:25:27 > 0:25:29I'm heading off.
0:25:48 > 0:25:52- So, were you going to tell me, or...?- I did.
0:25:52 > 0:25:54I mean, I was going to, I just needed to...
0:25:57 > 0:26:00Andi, sit down. Will you? Please.
0:26:08 > 0:26:11So how long have you been here, Neil?
0:26:11 > 0:26:12Came up last night.
0:26:12 > 0:26:16I was hoping to get a chance to see you too.
0:26:16 > 0:26:21You do, like, interior design and that?
0:26:24 > 0:26:28I used to do a bit of painting and decorating and er...
0:26:28 > 0:26:31Maybe there's you know, a job or something.
0:26:33 > 0:26:37Well, you never know. So, you've had your wee chat then?
0:26:39 > 0:26:40What?
0:26:45 > 0:26:48Neil, I need to ask you something.
0:26:52 > 0:26:54I really didn't want it to be like this.
0:26:54 > 0:26:55What is it?
0:26:58 > 0:27:04Alice, Alice is sick and she needs a kidney transplant.
0:27:06 > 0:27:09It's just a test at this stage. I wanted you to take a test.
0:27:09 > 0:27:11You're shitting me.
0:27:11 > 0:27:14- It's just a test, Neil. - Aw, man, man, man!
0:27:14 > 0:27:16Alice is... Neil.
0:27:16 > 0:27:17All this happy families crap
0:27:17 > 0:27:20and you're after me for bleeding body bits!
0:27:20 > 0:27:22It wasn't supposed to be like this. I...
0:27:22 > 0:27:25Please.
0:27:28 > 0:27:30Neil...
0:27:30 > 0:27:31Neil, please.
0:27:31 > 0:27:34Neil, I need your help. Alice...
0:27:34 > 0:27:35How dare you!
0:27:35 > 0:27:38How fuckin' dare you pull this on me...
0:27:38 > 0:27:39Who are you?
0:27:39 > 0:27:41I don't even know you.
0:27:41 > 0:27:44- This is completely not how I... - Don't!
0:27:44 > 0:27:46Don't even think about it!
0:27:46 > 0:27:48Either of yous.
0:27:56 > 0:27:59Emma, what the hell were you thinking about?
0:27:59 > 0:28:01- Andi, just go. - Catch your breath, Emma.
0:28:01 > 0:28:04Sure you didn't even have the bottle to ask him.
0:28:04 > 0:28:07- God knows when you were going to. - I was going to do it in my own time.
0:28:07 > 0:28:09He was walking out the friggin' door.
0:28:09 > 0:28:11I was in the middle of doing it when you arrived.
0:28:11 > 0:28:13Oh, and you think I changed his mind?
0:28:13 > 0:28:16Yes, well, it would have been easier if you'd just helped me.
0:28:16 > 0:28:17Helped you?
0:28:18 > 0:28:20Like I could do more to help you!
0:28:32 > 0:28:33DOOR SLAMS
0:28:33 > 0:28:34Shit.
0:28:38 > 0:28:40Alice, please!
0:28:47 > 0:28:48It's always me.
0:28:49 > 0:28:51Me left holding Mum's hand
0:28:51 > 0:28:54while that selfish wee cow was getting knocked up in college.
0:28:54 > 0:28:56Me there, time and again,
0:28:56 > 0:28:59picking up the pieces and getting them thrown back in my face.
0:29:01 > 0:29:06I know, sweetheart, but you can't...
0:29:06 > 0:29:08You can't really blame her for trying to...
0:29:08 > 0:29:11He was damaged goods, Geoff. You want to have seen him.
0:29:11 > 0:29:15She was taking her life in her hands even letting him in the house.
0:29:15 > 0:29:17Ach, you can't say that.
0:29:17 > 0:29:18Yes, I can.
0:29:18 > 0:29:21And why the hell is she putting us through this?
0:29:21 > 0:29:25It'll be me they come to for the transplant anyway.
0:29:29 > 0:29:34PHONE RINGS
0:29:36 > 0:29:39'It's Neil. I'm not here. Leave a message.'
0:29:39 > 0:29:42PHONE BEEPS, SHE SIGHS
0:29:52 > 0:29:55I can't wait to put the toppings on.
0:29:55 > 0:29:58I know, they're going to be so nice.
0:29:58 > 0:30:00I'm putting pepper and more cheese on.
0:30:00 > 0:30:01THEY GIGGLE
0:30:01 > 0:30:04How did you get yours like that?
0:30:07 > 0:30:08PHONE RINGS
0:30:08 > 0:30:10Mum, can I have another Coke?
0:30:10 > 0:30:13'It's Neil. I'm not here. Leave a message.'
0:30:13 > 0:30:17Could we maybe sort out the cake?
0:30:19 > 0:30:21PHONE RINGS
0:30:21 > 0:30:22Neil?
0:30:22 > 0:30:25'Hello, Emma. It's Francis Lee here.
0:30:25 > 0:30:28I'm sorry to trouble you, but I needed a quick chat.
0:30:28 > 0:30:30Alice, I'm afraid, needs more haemodialysis.
0:30:30 > 0:30:32'I think I'm going to have to bump her up
0:30:32 > 0:30:34from two to three times a week.
0:30:34 > 0:30:36'Her kidneys have deteriorated
0:30:36 > 0:30:40'and she'll need another session to help stabilise her blood.
0:30:40 > 0:30:45I'm wondering if we could start maybe tomorrow? Thursday?
0:30:45 > 0:30:46Three times a week?
0:30:46 > 0:30:49'Yes. I know it is tough for her. It's tough on you both.
0:30:49 > 0:30:53But it's necessary. The usual time?
0:30:55 > 0:30:58Yeah. Sorry, yes, of course. We'll see you tomorrow.
0:31:03 > 0:31:04No, hang on! Hang on!
0:31:04 > 0:31:06Say cheese.
0:31:06 > 0:31:08ALL: Cheese!
0:31:10 > 0:31:13Mummy, can I have a slice of cake later?
0:31:28 > 0:31:31That's a lovely wee necklace Siobhan got you.
0:31:31 > 0:31:35There's no point sulking about it. Dr Lee said...
0:31:35 > 0:31:36I'm not.
0:31:36 > 0:31:40I'm tired, I'm missing out on so much stuff and I'm scared...
0:31:40 > 0:31:41Och, darling.
0:31:41 > 0:31:44I wanted Auntie Andi and Uncle Geoff to be there.
0:31:44 > 0:31:45I miss them.
0:31:45 > 0:31:50I know, darling. It's daft not talking. I'll phone her tomorrow.
0:31:50 > 0:31:54Don't you worry about the other stuff, OK?
0:31:54 > 0:31:59You and me, we're a wee team, right?
0:31:59 > 0:32:01Go on. I'll see you in two ticks.
0:32:18 > 0:32:20KNOCK ON DOOR
0:32:26 > 0:32:28What exactly is it you want?
0:32:29 > 0:32:31It's... a test. Just...
0:32:32 > 0:32:33Come in.
0:32:37 > 0:32:39Did you stay in Belfast?
0:32:39 > 0:32:40Yeah, friends. I told you.
0:32:45 > 0:32:46Neil...
0:32:46 > 0:32:47Listen, Emma.
0:32:47 > 0:32:49Here's the deal, right?
0:32:49 > 0:32:52I'll do it. The test.
0:32:53 > 0:32:54But it'll cost you.
0:32:54 > 0:32:56Five hundred quid sterling. Cash.
0:32:56 > 0:33:00If it works out - the kidney's five grand.
0:33:02 > 0:33:04What?!
0:33:05 > 0:33:06Neil, there's no way...
0:33:06 > 0:33:09I... I really don't have that kind of money.
0:33:09 > 0:33:09Neither do I.
0:33:09 > 0:33:14But I'm sure you or Andi could get it if you needed to.
0:33:16 > 0:33:18Neil, please, you can't do this.
0:33:18 > 0:33:20Yes, I can.
0:33:20 > 0:33:22If you're not interested, I'm gone.
0:33:22 > 0:33:23Makes no odds to me.
0:33:26 > 0:33:28Can they do the test tomorrow?
0:33:29 > 0:33:33I don't know. If they think there's money involved...
0:33:33 > 0:33:34Don't worry about that.
0:33:34 > 0:33:37I'll get my story straight.
0:33:37 > 0:33:39Just whoever you need to call -
0:33:39 > 0:33:41give them a buzz first thing.
0:33:43 > 0:33:44OK?
0:33:58 > 0:34:01So...
0:34:01 > 0:34:03Are you still going to tell her?
0:34:03 > 0:34:06I mean, it's a bit late in the day.
0:34:06 > 0:34:07Listen.
0:34:07 > 0:34:10Emma needs to know exactly who she's dealing with.
0:34:13 > 0:34:15What?
0:34:15 > 0:34:19Well, despite it all, you are actually his sister...
0:34:19 > 0:34:22Oh, Geoff, what does that mean?
0:34:23 > 0:34:25Catch a grip will you?
0:34:27 > 0:34:31Yeah, well. He's gone now.
0:34:33 > 0:34:34He's history.
0:34:58 > 0:34:59I'm delighted.
0:35:03 > 0:35:05We've been separated...
0:35:06 > 0:35:09Well, all our lives.
0:35:14 > 0:35:16How much?
0:35:16 > 0:35:18No, I'm renting.
0:35:18 > 0:35:21I'm only asking for five hundred.
0:35:21 > 0:35:25And if I pay that, am I guaranteed the loan?
0:35:25 > 0:35:26No. Forget it.
0:35:34 > 0:35:36Ah, she's a great kid.
0:35:36 > 0:35:38Fantastic.
0:35:39 > 0:35:42It's incredible, to be able to help her.
0:35:42 > 0:35:43If I can, like.
0:35:45 > 0:35:47A few weeks ago, I had no family.
0:35:47 > 0:35:48Of any kind.
0:35:48 > 0:35:51And now I have two sisters and a niece.
0:35:51 > 0:35:54And you know my background.
0:35:54 > 0:35:56So you'll understand what it means to me.
0:36:09 > 0:36:11How's you?
0:36:13 > 0:36:14You still at the home help thing?
0:36:14 > 0:36:17Yeah. I think they're losing patience with me though.
0:36:17 > 0:36:19They should be giving you home help.
0:36:19 > 0:36:24Well, here's the factory floor, and here's your superhero niece
0:36:24 > 0:36:27having a well-earned rest.
0:36:31 > 0:36:33Well, I think that's us done for today.
0:36:33 > 0:36:34Is there more?
0:36:34 > 0:36:37Not for Neil, no. We've put him through the mill today.
0:36:37 > 0:36:39He will still need to see the transplant surgeon.
0:36:39 > 0:36:43And it'll take maybe six weeks for the tissue typing checks
0:36:43 > 0:36:45and cross-match checks,
0:36:45 > 0:36:47but everything else looks pretty good.
0:36:47 > 0:36:49Blood group, organ anatomy.
0:36:49 > 0:36:51Nice simple tubes.
0:36:51 > 0:36:53Not like yours, Emma.
0:36:54 > 0:36:56So, we should know in about six weeks then?
0:36:56 > 0:37:00Yeah. Six, maybe eight weeks. No more than that.
0:37:00 > 0:37:02OK, and how much longer are you going to...?
0:37:02 > 0:37:05Another couple of hours.
0:37:05 > 0:37:07I'll head off then.
0:37:07 > 0:37:10I'll call you later.
0:37:10 > 0:37:12Yeah, sure.
0:37:14 > 0:37:16Well, thank you, Mr Maguire.
0:37:16 > 0:37:21Neil. Given all the circumstances, your making yourself available is...
0:37:21 > 0:37:23...very much appreciated.
0:37:23 > 0:37:26Yeah. Sure. Not a bother.
0:37:40 > 0:37:44She's nuking an alien battle fleet on my computer.
0:37:51 > 0:37:52What's up now?
0:37:56 > 0:37:58Neil is taking the tests, but...
0:38:00 > 0:38:02..but he wants money.
0:38:02 > 0:38:05Five hundred now, and five grand if it works out.
0:38:05 > 0:38:07Ah, for crying out loud!
0:38:07 > 0:38:09Hang on, love. Go easy. >
0:38:09 > 0:38:12I know it's early days, but how's it looking?
0:38:12 > 0:38:13Geoff?
0:38:13 > 0:38:15I'm only asking.
0:38:15 > 0:38:17Well, it's like Andi.
0:38:17 > 0:38:20They're just waiting on the tissue comparison thing.
0:38:20 > 0:38:22But I haven't got that kind of money?
0:38:22 > 0:38:24You need to tell him where to get off!
0:38:24 > 0:38:27Quite apart from the fact it's completely immoral.
0:38:27 > 0:38:30- I'm sure the hospital would take a wonderful view... - It's only five hundred quid.
0:38:30 > 0:38:34It's worth a punt. Well, isn't it?
0:38:35 > 0:38:36I can do this.
0:38:38 > 0:38:42Sorry, there's some stuff Emma needs to know.
0:38:42 > 0:38:48Some delightful little nuggets of information regarding our dear "brother".
0:38:48 > 0:38:52Violent assault, Emma. Three years.
0:38:52 > 0:38:54He's only out about six months ago.
0:38:54 > 0:38:56How do you know this?
0:38:56 > 0:38:58And when he was 18, he was in some place called
0:38:58 > 0:39:01St Patrick's in Dublin, for the same thing.
0:39:02 > 0:39:06I got this from a completely reliable source.
0:39:06 > 0:39:08I'm not making it up to justify myself.
0:39:08 > 0:39:13You really do not want to touch this guy with a bargepole.
0:39:22 > 0:39:24Sorry, Emma.
0:39:24 > 0:39:26I just wanted to say.
0:39:26 > 0:39:29The money. Don't worry about it.
0:39:29 > 0:39:30What?
0:39:30 > 0:39:33Seriously, I'm more than happy to sort that out.
0:39:33 > 0:39:36I don't know what to say.
0:39:36 > 0:39:38Just don't say anything to Andi, OK?
0:39:39 > 0:39:41Five hundred?
0:39:41 > 0:39:43I'll drop it round at lunchtime tomorrow.
0:39:43 > 0:39:45If that is time enough.
0:39:45 > 0:39:47Geoff, thank you.
0:39:54 > 0:39:56So, when can you get it?
0:39:57 > 0:39:59I'll have it in the afternoon.
0:40:01 > 0:40:04Crash here again tonight, then. If that's cool with you?
0:40:06 > 0:40:08Cool.
0:40:08 > 0:40:10Here, don't be getting all humpy with me.
0:40:10 > 0:40:13Do you think I owe you or something?
0:40:13 > 0:40:17You're the one that didn't tell me why you were looking for me.
0:40:17 > 0:40:21Why didn't you come straight out with it at the start?
0:40:21 > 0:40:23- Because I thought... - What?
0:40:23 > 0:40:26Because I thought that if you met us...
0:40:26 > 0:40:29Met Alice...
0:40:29 > 0:40:32Would your answer have been any different?
0:40:34 > 0:40:39No, but you'd have saved yourself a shit-load of grief.
0:40:53 > 0:40:56Mammy?
0:41:14 > 0:41:18Jaysus, are you OK?
0:41:18 > 0:41:20Can I get you something?
0:41:21 > 0:41:23Is there something you need? Ah!
0:41:30 > 0:41:33Here! You're OK, yeah?
0:41:33 > 0:41:35Take it easy. Yeah?
0:41:35 > 0:41:37What are you doing?
0:41:37 > 0:41:39The kid's in giblets.
0:41:39 > 0:41:41- Are you all right, darling? - My head's really sore.
0:41:41 > 0:41:46- You should have woken me up.- I tried to, Mummy, but then I just came down here to get a glass of water.
0:41:46 > 0:41:49And I puked on the floor. Sorry.
0:41:49 > 0:41:51You didn't eat enough last night. I told you...
0:41:51 > 0:41:54Did you get a drink of something?
0:41:54 > 0:41:56Uncle Neil got me one.
0:41:57 > 0:42:01Look, take this.
0:42:02 > 0:42:05Go on up to bed. I'll be up in two minutes.
0:42:11 > 0:42:12She was in a bad way...
0:42:12 > 0:42:14Now you care?
0:42:15 > 0:42:19You'll get your money as soon as I have it, and then you can...
0:42:19 > 0:42:22whatever.
0:42:23 > 0:42:27Were you ever going to tell me about the prison thing?
0:42:27 > 0:42:29Who told you about that?
0:42:29 > 0:42:31Andi has a friend in the police.
0:42:32 > 0:42:34I'll tell you what, love.
0:42:35 > 0:42:37You're skating on very thin ice.
0:43:20 > 0:43:22Apologies, firstly, for the long wait.
0:43:23 > 0:43:25It's a nervous time.
0:43:25 > 0:43:27You've both been very patient.
0:43:27 > 0:43:29Everything checks out, Mrs McEvoy, Andi.
0:43:31 > 0:43:35So, given Alice's condition I'd like to press ahead with surgery,
0:43:35 > 0:43:37which could be inside a couple of days.
0:43:37 > 0:43:40Are you happy to proceed?
0:43:52 > 0:43:55Can I ask a question?
0:43:55 > 0:43:56Sure.
0:43:56 > 0:43:58When are the results due for Neil?
0:43:58 > 0:44:00We could have them by the end of the week.
0:44:00 > 0:44:02Emma, I can do this.
0:44:02 > 0:44:03I know. I...
0:44:03 > 0:44:05Can we wait to find out?
0:44:05 > 0:44:07I mean without any danger to Alice, can we wait?
0:44:07 > 0:44:10I wouldn't want any unnecessary delays but a few days.
0:44:10 > 0:44:13- Emma, what are you doing? - Please, love. Hang on...
0:44:13 > 0:44:15What?
0:44:15 > 0:44:17- I'd like to know. - We can wait.
0:44:22 > 0:44:25Andi. Andi, hang on!
0:44:25 > 0:44:28Emma, what the hell are you playing at? Treating me like this.
0:44:28 > 0:44:32Please, nothing has changed. It might not happen.
0:44:32 > 0:44:35But if Neil can do it, he's only after the money.
0:44:35 > 0:44:38Wouldn't that be the best, for all of us?
0:44:41 > 0:44:45I need to go. I'll call you later, all right?
0:44:54 > 0:44:56And where did she get the money?
0:45:02 > 0:45:03Emma. >
0:45:05 > 0:45:06Can you hear me? >
0:45:06 > 0:45:07Coming!
0:45:07 > 0:45:08Emma! >
0:45:08 > 0:45:09Yes! I'm coming!
0:45:11 > 0:45:13Mrs Docherty, I'm just...
0:45:13 > 0:45:16Your phone was ringing on the kitchen table.
0:45:17 > 0:45:18RINGING TONE
0:45:20 > 0:45:22'Emma!'
0:45:22 > 0:45:23I missed your call.
0:45:23 > 0:45:25'Yes, your brother,'
0:45:25 > 0:45:29- I haven't been able to get through to him. Is he around? - 'He's in Dublin.'
0:45:29 > 0:45:32- 'I could try and get a message through to him.'- Can we get him up?
0:45:32 > 0:45:34I think I have some good news.
0:45:35 > 0:45:36MOBILE PHONE RINGS
0:45:42 > 0:45:45- 'Neil?'- Yeah?
0:45:45 > 0:45:48'Could you come back up to Belfast?'
0:45:51 > 0:45:52'Hello? Neil?'
0:45:53 > 0:45:55So now you care?
0:45:55 > 0:46:00D'you know I would like nothing more than to tell you to fuck right off?
0:46:01 > 0:46:04I need your help. What can I say?
0:46:04 > 0:46:07'You can say you've five grand waiting for me'
0:46:07 > 0:46:08and the bleeding train fare.
0:46:09 > 0:46:10I'll be up tonight.
0:46:23 > 0:46:27- Did you find the new toothbrush? - It's in here.
0:46:32 > 0:46:35- You all right, sweetheart? - Can I bring Caesar?
0:46:35 > 0:46:37Of course you can. Come here.
0:46:41 > 0:46:43I keep thinking a man's kidney's too big.
0:46:43 > 0:46:45Auntie Andi's would fit better.
0:46:45 > 0:46:48Listen, you. It's all going to be perfect.
0:46:48 > 0:46:50And you know you've got the best doctors.
0:46:50 > 0:46:53Everything's going to be great. KNOCK ON DOOR
0:46:53 > 0:46:55See if you can fit Caesar in there.
0:47:07 > 0:47:13- There you go.- I'm so hungry, I could eat a battered frog.
0:47:13 > 0:47:14SHE GIGGLES
0:47:14 > 0:47:17So, how's Alice Dialysis? Are you excited?
0:47:17 > 0:47:18Nervous.
0:47:18 > 0:47:21Ah, yeah. I'm bricking myself.
0:47:21 > 0:47:23Sorry.
0:47:23 > 0:47:27Sweetheart, can you go up to my room and see if I left my phone up there?
0:47:27 > 0:47:28Sure.
0:47:34 > 0:47:36SHE PUTS A PACKAGE DOWN
0:47:40 > 0:47:42That should take the edge off.
0:47:42 > 0:47:45There's two-and-a-half there. It's all I could get for now.
0:47:45 > 0:47:48I'll have the rest of it by the time you get out.
0:47:53 > 0:47:54Does she know?
0:47:56 > 0:47:57Of course not.
0:48:06 > 0:48:08- Hey, sweetie.- Hi, Mags.- Hiya.
0:48:08 > 0:48:12All settled? You must be excited?
0:48:12 > 0:48:15It takes no time at all these days.
0:48:15 > 0:48:18You'll be up and about, good as new, in, like, two days.
0:48:18 > 0:48:19I'm still scared, though.
0:48:19 > 0:48:20Och, there's no need to be.
0:48:20 > 0:48:24I just wanted to come in to wish you well anyway, wee pet.
0:48:24 > 0:48:27Where's Uncle Neil's room? He's going in first.
0:48:27 > 0:48:29- Somewhere down the corridor.- Where?
0:48:29 > 0:48:33- I can go and have a look for you if you like?- You're all right, Mags. I'll do it.
0:48:52 > 0:48:54What do you want?
0:48:57 > 0:49:02- I don't want to make a big fuss... - Ah, for...- But this is the rest of your blood money.
0:49:02 > 0:49:03Andi?
0:49:03 > 0:49:06- What are you doing? - Just paying off your debts.
0:49:06 > 0:49:08Did you put her up to this?
0:49:09 > 0:49:12No, this is nothing to... Put that away.
0:49:12 > 0:49:14That's the deal, isn't it?
0:49:14 > 0:49:17Please put it away! Like if anybody sees...
0:49:17 > 0:49:21Like I'm not freaked out enough. Would youse get out?
0:49:32 > 0:49:33Neil...
0:49:36 > 0:49:39Alice just wanted... We both wanted to wish you good luck.
0:49:42 > 0:49:44There you go. Job done.
0:49:45 > 0:49:48- Look, Neil, this is not...- Emma!
0:49:49 > 0:49:52I'm spare parts. That's it.
0:49:54 > 0:49:55Jaysus.
0:49:56 > 0:49:59Neil, that is not true.
0:49:59 > 0:50:00We'll leave it at that.
0:50:01 > 0:50:03See you.
0:51:08 > 0:51:11- Yeah.- You're all right, Emma. The surgeon just wanted to let you know
0:51:11 > 0:51:15- that Alice is being moved down to Recovery now.- Right.
0:51:15 > 0:51:17Now Neil's already there.
0:51:17 > 0:51:19He's a bit drowsy at the minute, but you can pop in later.
0:52:23 > 0:52:24DOOR SHUTS
0:52:24 > 0:52:27She's in good shape. I'm going to head over there now.
0:52:28 > 0:52:30We should both go.
0:52:32 > 0:52:33Come on, Andi.
0:52:36 > 0:52:38Come on, sweetheart.
0:52:44 > 0:52:45Moving on.
0:52:48 > 0:52:49I don't think I can face them.
0:52:50 > 0:52:55You are officially the only person that still has a problem with any of this.
0:52:55 > 0:52:57See me?
0:52:57 > 0:52:59I'm over the moon the way things have worked out.
0:52:59 > 0:53:02I'd have happily given ten times that...
0:53:02 > 0:53:04and you would too.
0:53:14 > 0:53:183.4. OK, we'll increase the Tac to 4 milligrams BD,
0:53:18 > 0:53:22- and leave the MMF dose unchanged. - You all right?
0:53:23 > 0:53:26- D'you want to try and eat something? - I'm not hungry.
0:53:26 > 0:53:28You're doing great, Alice.
0:53:28 > 0:53:31- You've got colour back in your cheek already.- Thanks.
0:53:31 > 0:53:35- And your uncle's up out of bed already too.- Seriously?- Mmm.
0:53:35 > 0:53:38- He was in earlier, wasn't he?- No.
0:54:17 > 0:54:20I think he's checked out.
0:54:27 > 0:54:30- Geoff...hang on.- Come on.- I need a minute, Geoff.- Don't be daft.
0:54:30 > 0:54:33Emma... Is Alice OK?
0:54:34 > 0:54:38- We were just going up to see her. - Do, please. She'd love that. I have to...- What? What's up?
0:54:41 > 0:54:45- Oh, no, Emma, no. It's OK. - Neil's gone.
0:54:46 > 0:54:47He did the right thing, Andi.
0:54:47 > 0:54:50I...I need to go.
0:55:34 > 0:55:36What d'you want?
0:55:36 > 0:55:41- Neil, please come back to the hospital with me.- You're all right. I've my ticket bought.
0:55:41 > 0:55:44Don't be stupid. You've just had an operation.
0:55:44 > 0:55:47I don't want to be here any more. I just want to go home.
0:55:52 > 0:55:57- Just go, would ya? Agh! Jaysus. - Neil, please...
0:56:00 > 0:56:03- I'll wait with you till the train comes in.- I just want to go home.
0:56:10 > 0:56:16- Alice is... She's doing really well.- I don't...
0:56:16 > 0:56:20Good. I'm glad. I am. She's a good kid.
0:56:20 > 0:56:22She is.
0:56:25 > 0:56:26And she has a chance now...
0:56:28 > 0:56:29..because of you.
0:56:33 > 0:56:37I will never forgive myself for the way I've treated you.
0:56:38 > 0:56:41I need to say sorry, again...
0:56:42 > 0:56:43..and thank you.
0:56:45 > 0:56:47Thank you so much.
0:56:49 > 0:56:50Never mind "brother"...
0:56:52 > 0:56:54..you are a good man.
0:56:55 > 0:56:56I'm a bollocks.
0:56:58 > 0:56:59You've no idea.
0:56:59 > 0:57:00You're not.
0:57:02 > 0:57:03You are not.
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