0:00:02 > 0:00:10This programme contains some strong language
0:00:11 > 0:00:14MUSIC: "Chocolate" by Snow Patrol
0:00:22 > 0:00:26# This could be the very minute
0:00:26 > 0:00:30# I'm aware I'm alive
0:00:30 > 0:00:35# All these places feel like home
0:00:39 > 0:00:42# With a name I'd never chosen
0:00:42 > 0:00:46# I can make my first steps
0:00:46 > 0:00:52# As a child of 25... # PHONE RINGS
0:00:52 > 0:00:55# This is the straw, final straw... #
0:01:01 > 0:01:04- Hello?- 'Mrs Roberts?'
0:01:04 > 0:01:06- Yes, speaking.- 'It's Mrs Matthews.
0:01:06 > 0:01:10'We've had a late cancellation. Does 2.30 on Monday suit?'
0:01:10 > 0:01:13That's great. Thank you.
0:01:15 > 0:01:16Yes!
0:01:28 > 0:01:30Jack?
0:01:43 > 0:01:45Jack?
0:02:06 > 0:02:08God! Jack?
0:02:09 > 0:02:10Jack?!
0:02:11 > 0:02:15No! No, God!
0:02:15 > 0:02:18Gotcha! SHE GASPS
0:02:18 > 0:02:19Surprise!
0:02:19 > 0:02:23Happy birthday, Beth! Come on, give us a smile!
0:02:23 > 0:02:26Happy birthday, darling! The look on your face.
0:02:27 > 0:02:30I can't believe you!
0:02:30 > 0:02:33- Marty, get in and get a close-up. - Take it away, Marty.
0:02:33 > 0:02:35Turn it off!
0:02:36 > 0:02:37You're sick.
0:02:37 > 0:02:39Aye. Sick, but lovable.
0:02:45 > 0:02:48MEAT SIZZLES
0:02:49 > 0:02:51Turn them over - you're going to cremate them!
0:02:51 > 0:02:54- What - do you want to do it?- Yeah! - Get out of it!
0:02:54 > 0:02:58I've told you before - never touch another man's barbecue. Go on. Away you go.
0:02:58 > 0:03:02- Happy birthday!- Aww! - Hope you like it.
0:03:02 > 0:03:04Oh!
0:03:05 > 0:03:06SHE GASPS
0:03:06 > 0:03:09Aww, that's gorgeous.
0:03:09 > 0:03:12Well, have you forgiven me yet?
0:03:12 > 0:03:14What - for nearly giving me a heart attack?
0:03:14 > 0:03:18No. I can't believe you actually broke the window.
0:03:18 > 0:03:22It's all part of the gag. It's the tiny detail that makes all the difference.
0:03:22 > 0:03:25- Here. Not your best look. - Put it away.
0:03:25 > 0:03:28- Make yourself useful and get some more wine.- Yeah, yeah!
0:03:28 > 0:03:31- That's gorgeous! Thank you, darling. - You're welcome.
0:03:37 > 0:03:39Grab a few bowls there.
0:03:43 > 0:03:45Oh, that looks lovely!
0:03:45 > 0:03:49Shop-bought, I'm afraid. I didn't have time - bloody kids.
0:03:55 > 0:03:57You OK?
0:04:00 > 0:04:02I want to give the IVF another go.
0:04:04 > 0:04:06I haven't spoken to Jack.
0:04:06 > 0:04:08But I've made an appointment.
0:04:09 > 0:04:11- OK.- What do you think?
0:04:13 > 0:04:16I think that's between you and Jack.
0:04:18 > 0:04:22- I'm running out of time, Shauna. - Hello, ladies.
0:04:23 > 0:04:26- What are you two up to?- Dessert.
0:04:26 > 0:04:29- Need a hand?- No, I've got it.
0:04:34 > 0:04:37- You OK?- Yeah, fine. Still reeling from earlier.
0:04:37 > 0:04:40Oh, well. At least you'll not forget it, eh?
0:04:45 > 0:04:47DOORBELL RINGS
0:04:54 > 0:04:57- Hey, gorgeous.- Ben! Oh!
0:04:59 > 0:05:04- No-one told me you were coming. - You didn't think I'd forget your birthday, did you?
0:05:04 > 0:05:07Sorry I'm late. I got stuck in Frankfurt Airport for hours.
0:05:07 > 0:05:10How come you look so good for someone who's just off a plane?
0:05:10 > 0:05:13- How come you look so good for someone your age?- Watch it!
0:05:13 > 0:05:14Oh, come on in!
0:05:19 > 0:05:20- Look who's here!- Champagne anyone?
0:05:20 > 0:05:22THEY CHEER
0:05:22 > 0:05:25Good to see you, man. Have you not got tired of making money yet?
0:05:25 > 0:05:28- Someone's got to do it. - How long are you home for?
0:05:28 > 0:05:31- I don't know. A couple of weeks, maybe.- Good to see you. Nice suit.
0:05:31 > 0:05:34- Some overpriced New York designer? - I don't even remember!
0:05:34 > 0:05:37- You look stunning. - Oh, it's good to see you.
0:05:37 > 0:05:40- PHONE BLEEPS - She's too good for you, Marty.
0:05:40 > 0:05:41I keep telling him that.
0:05:41 > 0:05:43Let's open this while it's still chilled.
0:05:43 > 0:05:45MARTY: Good man.
0:05:46 > 0:05:49- To the birthday girl. - ALL: To the birthday girl!
0:05:49 > 0:05:52CORK POPS LOUDLY, THEY CHEER
0:05:54 > 0:05:56- MARTY:- A few years ago, I'd have hit the deck.
0:05:58 > 0:05:59- Cheers!- Happy birthday!
0:06:04 > 0:06:06JACK: # Nellie the elephant packed her trunk
0:06:06 > 0:06:08# And said goodbye to the circus... #
0:06:08 > 0:06:10Hurry up, Monkey Boy.
0:06:10 > 0:06:12No, no, no. No, I'm not Monkey Boy.
0:06:12 > 0:06:16- No?- No. No, cos tonight, Matthew, I am going to be...
0:06:19 > 0:06:21..Elephant Man! THEY CHUCKLE
0:06:21 > 0:06:23Come here, Dumbo.
0:06:23 > 0:06:27Fancy playing with my trunk?
0:06:27 > 0:06:28You're such a romantic.
0:06:28 > 0:06:32Can't believe you didn't tell me about Ben.
0:06:32 > 0:06:35- That's why they call it a surprise. - I've got a surprise for you, too.
0:06:35 > 0:06:38Oh? Does that mean I have to get naked, does it?
0:06:40 > 0:06:43We have an appointment on Monday at an IVF clinic.
0:06:45 > 0:06:47What are you talking about?
0:06:48 > 0:06:51There was a last-minute cancellation.
0:06:51 > 0:06:53How come you didn't tell me earlier?
0:06:53 > 0:06:57Only found out this morning, and with the party and everything...
0:06:58 > 0:07:00We can't go back to the NHS.
0:07:00 > 0:07:02It's a private clinic.
0:07:03 > 0:07:05We can get a loan.
0:07:05 > 0:07:06It's not about the money, Beth.
0:07:09 > 0:07:12I've been thinking about it for a while.
0:07:14 > 0:07:17It's just... Three times, love.
0:07:17 > 0:07:20What makes you think it's suddenly going to start to work now?
0:07:20 > 0:07:22It might, Jack.
0:07:24 > 0:07:26It's worth a try.
0:07:41 > 0:07:45I'm working a double shift tonight, so I'll not be in till after ten.
0:07:45 > 0:07:48- I'm sure we can afford it. - Afford what?
0:07:52 > 0:07:55Look, it's good what we've got. You know, you and me.
0:07:57 > 0:08:00I just don't want you getting like that again, that's all.
0:08:00 > 0:08:01You know how hard it was.
0:08:01 > 0:08:05It's not the same. I feel much stronger now.
0:08:09 > 0:08:11At least come to the appointment.
0:08:19 > 0:08:21Yep. OK.
0:08:37 > 0:08:39- See you.- See you.
0:08:40 > 0:08:42- Did you talk to Jack?- Yes.
0:08:42 > 0:08:46- And?- I'm wearing him down slowly.
0:08:46 > 0:08:48If he's anything like his brother,
0:08:48 > 0:08:51he'll agree to anything after a pizza and a pint.
0:08:56 > 0:08:59What kept you? We're going to be late!
0:08:59 > 0:09:02I know. I'm sorry, love. The traffic was mental.
0:09:07 > 0:09:11Er... Before that I had a number of treatments,
0:09:11 > 0:09:13including fertility injections.
0:09:13 > 0:09:17Five or six IUI cycles, and then, finally, IVF.
0:09:19 > 0:09:22And what about lifestyle?
0:09:22 > 0:09:26- Do you smoke?- No, neither of us do. - No.
0:09:26 > 0:09:29- I try to look after myself. I run every day.- Good.
0:09:35 > 0:09:38So, er, what's the difference between private and NHS?
0:09:38 > 0:09:42The tests and treatments are much the same -
0:09:42 > 0:09:46cycle blood work, FSH, semen analysis.
0:09:46 > 0:09:50But we also do provide additional testings and treatments,
0:09:50 > 0:09:52but that will incur additional costs.
0:09:52 > 0:09:54That should be OK.
0:09:54 > 0:09:56Yeah, yeah.
0:09:59 > 0:10:02I see your last attempt was seven years ago.
0:10:03 > 0:10:05I'm curious - why now?
0:10:05 > 0:10:07Er...
0:10:07 > 0:10:09it feels right.
0:10:09 > 0:10:11I just wanted to try one more time.
0:10:11 > 0:10:14What about you, Mr Roberts?
0:10:14 > 0:10:15Yeah.
0:10:15 > 0:10:18We've always wanted to have a baby.
0:10:19 > 0:10:21Have you both thought this through?
0:10:21 > 0:10:25The whole process can put a considerable strain on a relationship.
0:10:25 > 0:10:27Yeah. I'm sure we'll be fine.
0:10:30 > 0:10:33I see you were on anti-depressants for some time.
0:10:33 > 0:10:37Yes, er, but I haven't been on medication over two years. I'm fine.
0:11:31 > 0:11:33THEY CHATTER
0:11:52 > 0:11:54'North Star Taxis.'
0:11:54 > 0:11:57Hi, Shirley. It's Beth again.
0:11:57 > 0:12:00Jack's still not answering his phone. Have you heard from him?
0:12:00 > 0:12:02'No, not since he left at six.'
0:12:02 > 0:12:03OK, thanks.
0:12:09 > 0:12:12'This is Jack. I can't answer my...'
0:12:12 > 0:12:14DOORBELL RINGS
0:12:37 > 0:12:41- 'What happened?'- He was in an accident on the dual carriageway.
0:12:41 > 0:12:43What did the doctors say?
0:12:43 > 0:12:46I haven't spoken to anyone - I only just got here.
0:12:46 > 0:12:49- He'll be all right, Beth. - Come down, Shauna, please.
0:12:49 > 0:12:52I'm coming now. I'll be there as soon as I can.
0:12:52 > 0:12:54Marty!
0:12:55 > 0:12:59If you want to speak to him, you'll have to come in then.
0:13:00 > 0:13:02OK?
0:13:03 > 0:13:07Excuse me. I'm looking for my husband. Jack Roberts.
0:13:25 > 0:13:26Beth.
0:13:28 > 0:13:31- I'm so worried about him, Shauna. - How is he?
0:13:31 > 0:13:34- They won't let me in. - I'm sure he'll be OK.
0:13:39 > 0:13:42MONITOR BEEPS STEADILY
0:14:04 > 0:14:06DOOR OPENS
0:14:08 > 0:14:11Is he going to be OK? I'm his wife.
0:14:11 > 0:14:14It's just a concussion. He should be fine.
0:14:14 > 0:14:16We need to keep an eye on him for a while.
0:14:16 > 0:14:19You can speak to him for a few minutes, if you want.
0:14:20 > 0:14:22Marty. Marty!
0:14:26 > 0:14:29Are you OK?
0:14:29 > 0:14:30How are you feeling?
0:14:30 > 0:14:33- Are you in pain?- I'm all right.
0:14:35 > 0:14:38- Can I get you anything?- No.- Water?
0:14:40 > 0:14:41Jack.
0:14:44 > 0:14:45You scared the hell out of us.
0:14:48 > 0:14:52I'm sorry, Beth. I'm really sorry.
0:14:52 > 0:14:56It wasn't your fault. The other fella blindsided you.
0:14:56 > 0:15:00- The cop says he was legless. - What about the girl and her mother?
0:15:00 > 0:15:02How are they?
0:15:02 > 0:15:04The wee girl's fine, he said.
0:15:04 > 0:15:06And the mum?
0:15:08 > 0:15:10She didn't survive.
0:15:14 > 0:15:16You've done nothing wrong, love.
0:15:21 > 0:15:22I need to speak to Beth.
0:15:34 > 0:15:38- What's going on, Jack? - I'm sorry, Beth.
0:15:39 > 0:15:43You've nothing to be sorry for. It was an accident.
0:15:44 > 0:15:46I should have told you.
0:15:47 > 0:15:48I wanted to...
0:15:50 > 0:15:52- Told me what? - KNOCK AT DOOR
0:15:54 > 0:15:56Can we have a minute, please?
0:16:02 > 0:16:03DOOR CLOSES
0:16:07 > 0:16:09It happened years ago.
0:16:10 > 0:16:12You're scaring me, Jack.
0:16:15 > 0:16:19The woman in the car. Her name was Hannah.
0:16:19 > 0:16:21DOOR OPENS
0:16:21 > 0:16:23- Can you give us some privacy, please?- Daddy!
0:16:23 > 0:16:26- They won't tell me where mummy is. - It's OK, love. Ssh!
0:16:28 > 0:16:29Your daddy's here.
0:16:31 > 0:16:33I'm really sorry.
0:16:34 > 0:16:35Beth, wait!
0:16:35 > 0:16:37Beth!
0:16:38 > 0:16:39Beth?
0:16:46 > 0:16:49What's going on? Who's the kid?
0:17:07 > 0:17:10MOBILE RINGS
0:17:26 > 0:17:29LANDLINE PHONE RINGS
0:17:32 > 0:17:36JACK: 'We're too busy to talk to you, so leave a message if you really have to.'
0:17:36 > 0:17:39- SHAUNA:- 'Beth, it's me.
0:17:39 > 0:17:42'I can't believe this. I'm worried about you.
0:17:42 > 0:17:43'Call me.
0:17:43 > 0:17:45'Please.'
0:17:59 > 0:18:03RADIO: 'It's eight o'clock on Thursday 6th October. You're listening to Good Morning Ulster.
0:18:03 > 0:18:05'A quick word on the traffic and travel.'
0:18:05 > 0:18:09- I said no.- I just need a tenner! - What for?
0:18:09 > 0:18:12I told Dad. Deborah's mum's taking us bowling after school.
0:18:12 > 0:18:15No, not on a weeknight. What about your homework?
0:18:15 > 0:18:19- I'll do it later, when I get back. - No. And take that make-up off.
0:18:19 > 0:18:21You're not going to school like that.
0:18:21 > 0:18:23- I'll just get it off Dad. - I said no.
0:18:23 > 0:18:25Yeah, and you're not my mum!
0:18:30 > 0:18:32SHE SOBS
0:18:32 > 0:18:36It's OK. It's OK.
0:18:38 > 0:18:42- How could I not have known, Shauna? - It's not your fault.
0:18:42 > 0:18:44- None of us knew.- All this time.
0:18:46 > 0:18:48It's like I don't know my own husband.
0:18:50 > 0:18:53Look, there's... There's something I need to tell you.
0:18:53 > 0:18:57I can't believe he had the nerve but he asked Marty. And I'm not happy about it, but...
0:18:57 > 0:18:59What are you talking about?
0:18:59 > 0:19:03He's asked us to look after her, while he's in hospital.
0:19:07 > 0:19:11- Jesus, Shauna! - She had nowhere else to go.
0:19:32 > 0:19:35PHONE RINGS
0:19:42 > 0:19:43KNOCK AT DOOR
0:19:45 > 0:19:46Beth, sorry.
0:19:47 > 0:19:49You should have said no.
0:19:50 > 0:19:52I had no choice.
0:19:55 > 0:19:57Jack's here.
0:20:05 > 0:20:07What are you doing here?
0:20:07 > 0:20:10- Well, you're not answering your phone.- What do you want?
0:20:10 > 0:20:13- I need to talk to you.- Here?
0:20:13 > 0:20:16- Well, I can't get into my own house. - And you won't, either.
0:20:26 > 0:20:29The police need my insurance details.
0:20:30 > 0:20:32You're unbelievable!
0:20:32 > 0:20:34I'm sor...
0:20:34 > 0:20:37I'm sorry, Beth. But will you at least let me try and explain?
0:20:37 > 0:20:42What, that you fucked someone else and you have a daughter?
0:20:42 > 0:20:44I got that much.
0:21:00 > 0:21:02DOORBELL RINGS
0:21:11 > 0:21:14CAR ENGINE STARTS
0:21:28 > 0:21:30'You have one message.
0:21:30 > 0:21:34'This is a message for Mr and Mrs Roberts. It's Mrs Matthews at the clinic.
0:21:34 > 0:21:36'Just to confirm your next appointment for...'
0:21:36 > 0:21:38'Message deleted.'
0:22:12 > 0:22:15I'd forgotten how beautiful this place is.
0:22:15 > 0:22:18- It hasn't changed a bit. - Thanks for coming.
0:22:24 > 0:22:27I still can't believe what's happened.
0:22:27 > 0:22:30Yeah. You think you know someone.
0:22:32 > 0:22:35I gave half my life to a total stranger.
0:22:37 > 0:22:39All I wanted was a family.
0:22:39 > 0:22:42There's more to life than having kids.
0:22:42 > 0:22:44Here - I bought you something.
0:22:48 > 0:22:51I thought we could drown your sorrows like we used to.
0:22:51 > 0:22:53Straight from the bottle.
0:23:00 > 0:23:01Oh!
0:23:06 > 0:23:10- Mm! Did it always taste this bad? - Yeah.
0:23:14 > 0:23:16What am I going to do, Ben?
0:23:50 > 0:23:53THEY CHATTER
0:24:12 > 0:24:15- Did you tell anyone? - Of course I didn't.
0:24:15 > 0:24:20- I've seen people looking at me. - Well, they're not blind - you haven't been yourself.
0:24:21 > 0:24:24You have to tell people some time.
0:24:25 > 0:24:27- They care about you.- Yeah(!)
0:24:27 > 0:24:29We all do.
0:24:34 > 0:24:36Would you not just talk to Jack?
0:24:36 > 0:24:38Try...working through this.
0:24:38 > 0:24:42I can't even look at him after what he's done.
0:24:42 > 0:24:43And what about your Marty?
0:24:43 > 0:24:45What about Marty?
0:24:45 > 0:24:48What makes you think he won't run off with someone else?
0:24:48 > 0:24:50He's done it before!
0:24:51 > 0:24:53This isn't about me and Marty.
0:24:55 > 0:24:57I'm on your side, Beth.
0:24:59 > 0:25:03But until you're willing to start talking about all this, nothing's going to change.
0:25:09 > 0:25:10DOORBELL RINGS
0:25:16 > 0:25:18- Hope you're hungry.- Wow!
0:25:18 > 0:25:21- SHE GIGGLES - Come on in.
0:25:21 > 0:25:23There's enough here for ten people.
0:25:24 > 0:25:27JACK: 'The heart was put back where it came from...'
0:25:29 > 0:25:31..and the chair wasn't so empty any more.
0:25:33 > 0:25:35But the bottle was.
0:25:49 > 0:25:52No, Daddy, leave it on!
0:25:52 > 0:25:55OK, OK, OK, OK. Ssh!
0:25:55 > 0:25:58- Mummy always left the light on. - All right.
0:26:00 > 0:26:02Can I have one more story?
0:26:02 > 0:26:04Please?
0:26:04 > 0:26:07Course you can.
0:26:07 > 0:26:10Sammy The Spider?
0:26:13 > 0:26:18Sammy the spider and all his friends decided to go for a walk.
0:26:18 > 0:26:20FOOTBALL PLAYS ON TV
0:26:21 > 0:26:22Ref!
0:26:30 > 0:26:32Cheers!
0:26:39 > 0:26:41I'm sorry about all this.
0:26:41 > 0:26:46It's turned to be a lot tougher than I thought it was going to be.
0:26:46 > 0:26:48Welcome to the real world.
0:26:50 > 0:26:51It's such a mess.
0:26:51 > 0:26:55Aye, and it's not going to clean itself up.
0:26:55 > 0:26:57What else was I going to do?
0:26:57 > 0:26:59I was just trying to protect Beth.
0:26:59 > 0:27:03I'm not talking about that. That's all done.
0:27:03 > 0:27:06- There's Chloe to think about now. - I know.
0:27:08 > 0:27:11It's not good for her, stuck in a spare room.
0:27:12 > 0:27:15She needs a home.
0:27:20 > 0:27:21Come on!
0:27:29 > 0:27:32- THEY CHUCKLE - That was good.
0:27:32 > 0:27:36- I'm going to have to run 10K in the morning.- I'll join you.
0:27:36 > 0:27:38- It's all right, I've got it.- OK.
0:27:38 > 0:27:43It must be nice being able to go wherever you like, when you like.
0:27:43 > 0:27:48- I wish I'd done more travelling when I had the chance.- Yeah.
0:27:48 > 0:27:51What happened to your going to India to find yourself?
0:27:51 > 0:27:53Oh, things change.
0:27:53 > 0:27:56I found myself in Bangor.
0:27:56 > 0:27:59- Always thought you were very brave. - What do you mean?
0:27:59 > 0:28:03You know, leaving. Starting a new life.
0:28:03 > 0:28:04It's never too late.
0:28:06 > 0:28:11- Why was there never a Mrs Ben Patterson? - Never met the right woman.
0:28:11 > 0:28:14Don't you miss having someone to talk to last thing at night?
0:28:19 > 0:28:22I'm sorry. I thought, er...
0:28:23 > 0:28:25No, it's OK.
0:28:25 > 0:28:28I thought it was over between you and Jack.
0:28:28 > 0:28:30It's not that simple.
0:28:32 > 0:28:34No, I understand. I shouldn't have.
0:28:36 > 0:28:38I should go.
0:28:40 > 0:28:41Yeah.
0:28:54 > 0:28:55Of course.
0:28:55 > 0:28:57Yes, I understand your frustration
0:28:57 > 0:29:00but the contract should have been with you a week ago.
0:29:02 > 0:29:07Of course. I'll make sure they're sent out this afternoon.
0:29:07 > 0:29:09Yes.
0:29:10 > 0:29:13Yes. Thank you. Bye.
0:29:13 > 0:29:15SHE SIGHS
0:29:42 > 0:29:44It's me.
0:30:13 > 0:30:14Did you love her?
0:30:14 > 0:30:16No.
0:30:16 > 0:30:20No, I didn't even know her. It...
0:30:20 > 0:30:22It was just...one night.
0:30:26 > 0:30:27Where did you meet her?
0:30:28 > 0:30:31Can we not do this, Beth, please?
0:30:32 > 0:30:34I've hurt you enough already.
0:30:42 > 0:30:45Davy's stag do.
0:30:45 > 0:30:46She was at the bar.
0:30:49 > 0:30:50What age was she?
0:30:50 > 0:30:51Beth.
0:30:51 > 0:30:53Was she younger than me?
0:30:53 > 0:30:55Why does it matter?
0:31:01 > 0:31:02She was 24.
0:31:02 > 0:31:03Oh...!
0:31:12 > 0:31:14- How long were you together? - I've told you -
0:31:14 > 0:31:16it was just a one-night stand.
0:31:18 > 0:31:21Then what was she doing in your car?
0:31:22 > 0:31:24She was asking me for money, for Chloe.
0:31:29 > 0:31:31Beth, I'm sorry.
0:31:32 > 0:31:35Really, I am. You got to believe me.
0:31:35 > 0:31:38What were you going to do when she got older?
0:31:39 > 0:31:42When she invited you to her wedding?
0:31:42 > 0:31:43When she had kids?
0:31:52 > 0:31:53I love you, Beth.
0:31:53 > 0:31:55I always will.
0:31:55 > 0:31:57SHE LAUGHS FAINTLY
0:31:57 > 0:31:59What the hell does that even mean now?
0:32:01 > 0:32:04How can I trust you again?
0:32:06 > 0:32:09Give me another chance.
0:32:28 > 0:32:29Lucy?
0:32:44 > 0:32:45It's nice here.
0:32:46 > 0:32:49I run here every day.
0:32:49 > 0:32:51Helps me think.
0:32:51 > 0:32:52I hate running.
0:32:55 > 0:32:56How's school?
0:32:56 > 0:32:58Yeah, all right.
0:32:59 > 0:33:02What about boys? Any hot ones?
0:33:02 > 0:33:03No.
0:33:06 > 0:33:09Shauna worries about you, you know. She cares.
0:33:09 > 0:33:12I know.
0:33:16 > 0:33:18My mum promised me
0:33:18 > 0:33:21she'd take me to Spain with her and Gavin when they go at half term.
0:33:21 > 0:33:24- And now she won't? - It's all Gavin's fault.
0:33:24 > 0:33:26He says they can't afford it.
0:33:26 > 0:33:28He's such a dick!
0:33:31 > 0:33:33The people who love you still hurt you sometimes.
0:33:33 > 0:33:36Some of them are worth it.
0:33:36 > 0:33:38The hard part is figuring out which ones.
0:33:40 > 0:33:42You must want to kill Uncle Jack.
0:33:47 > 0:33:49She's really nice, you know - Chloe.
0:33:51 > 0:33:55I know he was wrong, but... you would like her.
0:34:39 > 0:34:41Hi.
0:34:43 > 0:34:44Hi.
0:34:44 > 0:34:46Any chance of a coffee?
0:34:49 > 0:34:51I'll stick the kettle on.
0:34:56 > 0:34:57Er...
0:34:57 > 0:34:59Right, now it's your go.
0:34:59 > 0:35:03All right? So that's what we're going for, there. Roger the rabbit.
0:35:08 > 0:35:11He said you two were talking.
0:35:11 > 0:35:12Yeah.
0:35:14 > 0:35:15It's a start.
0:35:20 > 0:35:23- How many are you giving me?- Three.
0:35:23 > 0:35:25- What, on each side?- Yeah.
0:35:30 > 0:35:31Hi.
0:35:31 > 0:35:35Chloe, do you want to come watch some TV?
0:35:47 > 0:35:48This came.
0:35:52 > 0:35:54Thanks.
0:35:56 > 0:35:57You're good with her.
0:35:59 > 0:36:01Aye, she's not a bad kid.
0:36:03 > 0:36:07She'll need to talk about what happened, when she's ready.
0:36:08 > 0:36:11And she needs consistency,
0:36:11 > 0:36:13somewhere that feels like home.
0:36:13 > 0:36:14I know.
0:36:18 > 0:36:20I need to know you've told me everything.
0:36:20 > 0:36:21I have.
0:36:21 > 0:36:24You've got to believe me - there's no more surprises.
0:36:28 > 0:36:30What is it you're saying?
0:36:32 > 0:36:34I need to be able to trust you.
0:36:37 > 0:36:38Rabbit's honour.
0:36:38 > 0:36:40SHE LAUGHS
0:36:54 > 0:36:56I'm not promising anything.
0:37:02 > 0:37:04DOORBELL RINGS
0:37:08 > 0:37:09Hiya.
0:37:09 > 0:37:11You remember Beth.
0:37:11 > 0:37:12Hello.
0:37:14 > 0:37:17Do you want to come in and see your room?
0:37:17 > 0:37:18Come on.
0:37:33 > 0:37:35You did all this?
0:37:36 > 0:37:37Do you like it?
0:37:38 > 0:37:40Well, what do you think, Chlo'?
0:37:45 > 0:37:46This is for you.
0:37:47 > 0:37:48What do you say?
0:37:59 > 0:38:01What's the matter, Chloe?
0:38:02 > 0:38:04I already have Muttley.
0:38:19 > 0:38:21Eat up, love.
0:38:22 > 0:38:23Don't you like it?
0:38:23 > 0:38:25I'm not hungry.
0:38:25 > 0:38:28Oh, come on, Chloe. Eat your dinner.
0:38:28 > 0:38:32I can make you something else if you like.
0:38:32 > 0:38:35WITH MOUTH FULL: Chloe!
0:38:35 > 0:38:36DOOR SLAMS
0:38:36 > 0:38:39It's OK.
0:38:42 > 0:38:43Chloe.
0:38:58 > 0:39:00She OK?
0:39:00 > 0:39:01Yeah, She's asleep.
0:39:01 > 0:39:03Sorry about earlier.
0:39:03 > 0:39:05She's upset, that's all.
0:39:05 > 0:39:07She was the same with Shauna.
0:39:07 > 0:39:10She'll be OK once she gets to know you.
0:39:12 > 0:39:13Night.
0:39:16 > 0:39:17Night.
0:39:17 > 0:39:19BETH'S FOOTSTEPS ASCEND STAIRS
0:39:26 > 0:39:29CHLOE CRIES LOUDLY
0:39:35 > 0:39:38CRYING CONTINUES
0:39:41 > 0:39:42Hey.
0:39:42 > 0:39:44Honey.
0:39:44 > 0:39:46What's wrong? Did you have a bad dream?
0:39:46 > 0:39:49Mmm? It's OK - it's away now.
0:39:49 > 0:39:52- SOBBING:- I want my mummy.
0:39:52 > 0:39:54I know.
0:39:55 > 0:39:58I miss her so much.
0:39:58 > 0:40:00Hey, you.
0:40:00 > 0:40:02Hey, hey. Come here. Give me a...
0:40:02 > 0:40:04Sh-sh-sh...
0:40:04 > 0:40:05Hey, hey, calm down. Sh.
0:40:05 > 0:40:07Come on, come on. Sh-sh-sh...
0:40:07 > 0:40:10It's all right. It's all right.
0:40:10 > 0:40:11I'm here. I'm here now.
0:40:11 > 0:40:14Come on, come on. Shh.
0:40:14 > 0:40:15Sh-sh-sh.
0:40:15 > 0:40:17HE KISSES HER
0:40:17 > 0:40:19She'll be fine.
0:40:19 > 0:40:22It's all right now your daddy's here, huh?
0:40:22 > 0:40:23HE KISSES HER
0:40:23 > 0:40:27That's a girl. That's a girl. Sh-sh-sh...
0:40:35 > 0:40:37It's tough.
0:40:40 > 0:40:42I just don't know if I can do it.
0:40:42 > 0:40:44It just takes time.
0:40:44 > 0:40:46Sure, Chloe didn't say a word to me for three days.
0:40:46 > 0:40:48We're away. See you later.
0:40:48 > 0:40:51- Don't be late - we've got to go to your mum's for dinner.- No bothers.
0:40:51 > 0:40:54- < Come on, Dad! - If we can carry all the fish...
0:40:54 > 0:40:56THEY LAUGH
0:40:59 > 0:41:02How about we have dinner here, next week?
0:41:02 > 0:41:03All of us.
0:41:05 > 0:41:07If you want.
0:41:08 > 0:41:10BETH SIGHS
0:41:12 > 0:41:13OK.
0:41:25 > 0:41:27- Hiya.- Good run?
0:41:27 > 0:41:29Yeah.
0:41:30 > 0:41:34It's just, er, some of Chloe's stuff. Is it OK?
0:41:34 > 0:41:37I had to go and collect it. Her house has been rented out.
0:41:37 > 0:41:40I mean, if you want I can get Marty to look after it for a while.
0:41:40 > 0:41:42No, it's all right.
0:41:42 > 0:41:46OK, well, shall we leave it outside for now?
0:41:46 > 0:41:48Where is Chloe?
0:41:49 > 0:41:52She's at Shauna's and Marty's.
0:41:52 > 0:41:56Well, I wanted us to have a bit of time together - just us.
0:41:56 > 0:41:57Yeah.
0:42:09 > 0:42:10Oh.
0:42:10 > 0:42:11SHE COUGHS
0:42:14 > 0:42:18- Oh.- It was supposed to be mild. I'm sorry - I followed the recipe.
0:42:21 > 0:42:22Oh.
0:42:24 > 0:42:26What spices did you use?
0:42:26 > 0:42:28It said to use two large chillies
0:42:28 > 0:42:32but I couldn't find any of those so I used the wee red ones instead.
0:42:32 > 0:42:33How many?
0:42:33 > 0:42:35Two packets.
0:42:35 > 0:42:37But they were really tiny.
0:42:42 > 0:42:44WITH MOUTH FULL: It's terrible.
0:42:45 > 0:42:48- I'll order us a Chinese, yeah? - Please do.
0:42:48 > 0:42:50THEY LAUGH
0:42:55 > 0:42:57I really want this to work.
0:42:59 > 0:43:00Whatever it takes.
0:43:07 > 0:43:09GENTLE MUSIC PLAYS
0:43:11 > 0:43:13Tell me,
0:43:13 > 0:43:15what was she like - Hannah?
0:43:19 > 0:43:22- You sure you want to talk about this?- I'm OK.
0:43:23 > 0:43:26There must have been something about her.
0:43:29 > 0:43:31I didn't really get to know her.
0:43:33 > 0:43:35She seemed like she was a good mum, you know?
0:43:37 > 0:43:38Does Chloe look like her?
0:43:44 > 0:43:45Yeah.
0:43:47 > 0:43:48They have the same eyes.
0:43:51 > 0:43:53DOORBELL RINGS
0:43:54 > 0:43:55I'll go.
0:44:03 > 0:44:04Hi.
0:44:05 > 0:44:08- (WHISPERING)- She's out for the count.
0:44:10 > 0:44:13- Did you have a nice night? - It was OK.
0:44:13 > 0:44:15I'll see you Monday.
0:45:00 > 0:45:02Thanks for dinner.
0:45:02 > 0:45:04You're welcome.
0:45:04 > 0:45:07Least the Chinese was nice, eh? SHE LAUGHS
0:45:09 > 0:45:11Maybe we can do it again sometime.
0:45:15 > 0:45:17You can come upstairs if you want.
0:45:18 > 0:45:20As long as you're OK with it.
0:45:22 > 0:45:24I'm getting a bit old for camping.
0:45:26 > 0:45:28It doesn't mean...
0:45:28 > 0:45:29I know.
0:45:52 > 0:45:53Night-night, love.
0:46:19 > 0:46:21- BOTH:- The buns.
0:46:22 > 0:46:23Ooh.
0:46:28 > 0:46:30What do you think?
0:46:30 > 0:46:32Not bad for a first go?
0:46:34 > 0:46:37Maybe they'll look better if we put some icing on them.
0:46:48 > 0:46:50CAR ALARM BEEPS
0:46:51 > 0:46:55It's mostly cocktail bars. That's where everybody hangs out.
0:46:55 > 0:46:58- Yeah, but can you get a pint of the black stuff?- Hey!
0:46:58 > 0:47:00Look what the wind blew in.
0:47:00 > 0:47:02- Hi, Chloe.- Hiya.
0:47:02 > 0:47:05You'll never guess - he's off jet-setting again.
0:47:05 > 0:47:09- Yeah, I've got a plane to catch in four hours. Heading back to New York.- Oh, That's a shame.
0:47:09 > 0:47:12- You'll miss dinner at Shauna's tomorrow night.- Next time.
0:47:12 > 0:47:15I'm sorry we didn't get to spend more time together.
0:47:15 > 0:47:19- Do you know when you'll be back next? - I'll try and get back for Christmas.
0:47:19 > 0:47:23Well, listen, I've got to go. Some of us have got real jobs to do.
0:47:23 > 0:47:25- I'll not be back late.- Mm-hm.
0:47:27 > 0:47:32- And you, be a good girl for Beth, all right?- OK.- See you later.
0:47:36 > 0:47:38So how's it been?
0:47:39 > 0:47:41It's difficult.
0:47:41 > 0:47:44Everything's different now.
0:47:44 > 0:47:46And this is what you want?
0:47:47 > 0:47:50We're good together, Jack and me.
0:47:50 > 0:47:52We've been through a lot.
0:47:52 > 0:47:54Maybe you deserve more.
0:47:56 > 0:47:57Chloe's a sweet kid.
0:48:00 > 0:48:01She needs us.
0:48:03 > 0:48:05I wasn't brave leaving here, Beth.
0:48:05 > 0:48:07I wanted to go.
0:48:07 > 0:48:09I wanted to do more.
0:48:10 > 0:48:12I'm glad you're happy, Ben.
0:48:18 > 0:48:19Yeah.
0:48:23 > 0:48:26- See you at Christmas?- Of course.
0:48:26 > 0:48:27Take care.
0:48:27 > 0:48:28You too.
0:48:29 > 0:48:32- Keep in touch...- Yeah, I will.
0:48:41 > 0:48:42Chloe?
0:48:42 > 0:48:44Do you fancy some dinner?
0:48:51 > 0:48:53Chloe?
0:49:01 > 0:49:02Chloe?
0:49:04 > 0:49:05Shit!
0:49:10 > 0:49:12Chloe?
0:49:12 > 0:49:14Are you OK?
0:49:14 > 0:49:16You scared me.
0:49:18 > 0:49:20Are you looking for something?
0:49:22 > 0:49:23My book.
0:49:24 > 0:49:25Can I see?
0:49:27 > 0:49:30Mummy made it for me.
0:49:33 > 0:49:37This is when I was in my mummy's tummy.
0:49:37 > 0:49:39And that's me when I was just born.
0:49:42 > 0:49:44That's my first baby shoe.
0:49:44 > 0:49:45It's so tiny.
0:49:45 > 0:49:47Ah.
0:49:54 > 0:49:56Mummy took this one. We were at the beach,
0:49:56 > 0:49:59but I don't remember it - I was only two.
0:50:00 > 0:50:02Oh. Look who it is.
0:50:04 > 0:50:06I was three when I got Muttley.
0:50:08 > 0:50:10And this is me and my mummy on my last birthday.
0:50:14 > 0:50:15She's very pretty.
0:50:16 > 0:50:17Like you.
0:50:20 > 0:50:22There's some pages missing.
0:50:22 > 0:50:25I'm sure they'll turn up.
0:50:25 > 0:50:28- Can I keep it in my room? - Course you can.
0:50:47 > 0:50:49MOBILE RINGS
0:50:56 > 0:50:58Aye...
0:50:58 > 0:51:00Yeah, yeah.
0:51:00 > 0:51:01Hey, you two!
0:51:05 > 0:51:07Aye, I picked them up on eBay.
0:51:07 > 0:51:10- Some fella was flogging all his kit. - Result.
0:51:10 > 0:51:14I'm heading out on Saturday afternoon, if you're up for it?
0:51:15 > 0:51:18Right, this is ready. Marty, will you clear that stuff off the table?
0:51:18 > 0:51:20Yeah, in a minute.
0:51:20 > 0:51:23Marty. Dinner's ready.
0:51:23 > 0:51:24Bloody fishing!
0:51:25 > 0:51:28- Lucy, will you set the table? - Yeah, sure.
0:51:30 > 0:51:31Thanks, love.
0:51:33 > 0:51:36- You two seem to be getting on better.- Yeah.
0:51:36 > 0:51:40Seems to be redirecting all her hatred towards her stepdad.
0:51:40 > 0:51:42- He sounds like a total dick.- Oh!
0:51:43 > 0:51:45- Chloe seems on good form.- Yeah.
0:51:45 > 0:51:48It's good for her to be around other kids.
0:51:48 > 0:51:49Oh. Here. Take these over.
0:51:53 > 0:51:55What's that you're drawing, Chloe?
0:51:55 > 0:51:56That's me and my daddy.
0:51:56 > 0:51:59- And who's that?- That's Beth.
0:51:59 > 0:52:02It must be nice having your own room.
0:52:02 > 0:52:06I liked my old room at Mummy and Daddy's house better.
0:52:19 > 0:52:22So Tim picks up the mackerel
0:52:22 > 0:52:25and bangs it off the side of the pier...
0:52:25 > 0:52:27Oh, come on, Marty - we're trying to eat.
0:52:27 > 0:52:29I'm not trying to be gross.
0:52:29 > 0:52:32I'm just trying to say that he's fearless.
0:52:32 > 0:52:34This dinner's lovely, Shauna.
0:52:34 > 0:52:37- That sauce is great. It's got a right old kick to it.- Thanks.
0:52:37 > 0:52:40And pass down the wine - stop hogging it.
0:52:44 > 0:52:47'I need to know you've told me everything.'
0:52:48 > 0:52:51'You've got to believe me - there's no more surprises.'
0:52:54 > 0:52:58'I liked my old room at Mummy and Daddy's house better.'
0:55:11 > 0:55:12You're up early.
0:55:16 > 0:55:18I've made a list of all the bills.
0:55:18 > 0:55:20You'll sort them from now on.
0:55:20 > 0:55:21Yeah, OK.
0:55:21 > 0:55:26I've done all of Chloe's washing. And the window cleaner comes the first of every month.
0:55:26 > 0:55:28Just leave a tenner under the black bin.
0:55:31 > 0:55:32What's going on, Beth?
0:55:32 > 0:55:34Do you really have to ask?
0:55:35 > 0:55:37I'm leaving.
0:55:39 > 0:55:43But things are going really well - things are working out...
0:55:43 > 0:55:45- You can't leave us.- I'm not -
0:55:45 > 0:55:47I'm leaving you.
0:55:48 > 0:55:49I don't understand.
0:55:49 > 0:55:50All the lying.
0:55:50 > 0:55:52I told you the truth.
0:55:53 > 0:55:55No, you didn't, Jack.
0:55:55 > 0:55:57You told me you hardly knew her.
0:55:57 > 0:56:02You were off playing happy families on Christmas Day when you said you were working late.
0:56:02 > 0:56:08- Look, Beth...- I sat at Shauna's, while you were with her, and you made me feel guilty for complaining.
0:56:12 > 0:56:15All you ever wanted for us was to have a family.
0:56:16 > 0:56:19- We can be a family.- No, Jack.
0:56:19 > 0:56:21She's your child.
0:56:21 > 0:56:23She can be yours, too...
0:56:24 > 0:56:26I know, but not like this.
0:56:26 > 0:56:29Beth, wait!
0:56:29 > 0:56:31I'll do whatever it takes. We'll try the IVF.
0:56:31 > 0:56:35You don't get it, do you? I would have stayed for the truth.
0:56:35 > 0:56:38I used to think I'd give up everything to have a child, but I won't.
0:56:38 > 0:56:40- I love you, Beth. - Well, maybe you do,
0:56:40 > 0:56:43but I'm not going to waste my life looking back,
0:56:43 > 0:56:45- second-guessing everything.- Beth!
0:56:46 > 0:56:48Stop, please!
0:56:49 > 0:56:52Please. Just think about Chloe.
0:56:52 > 0:56:55She's a wonderful child,
0:56:55 > 0:56:57but she doesn't need our mess.
0:56:57 > 0:57:00Don't lie to her, Jack.
0:57:00 > 0:57:02She needs to be able to trust you.
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