0:00:02 > 0:00:05Attention! The My Life In Care videos are about to receive
0:00:05 > 0:00:07their world premiere in the TV room.
0:00:07 > 0:00:09Don't miss these personal takes
0:00:09 > 0:00:11on what life is really like in Ashdene Ridge.
0:00:12 > 0:00:15And next up it's Ryan.
0:00:16 > 0:00:19What's your name, blondie? What's your name?
0:00:19 > 0:00:21'Hi, I'm Ryan Reeves.
0:00:21 > 0:00:24'Mike's got me doing this "I am" video thing.
0:00:28 > 0:00:30'How would I describe the real me?
0:00:30 > 0:00:33'Well, I'm definitely someone who likes their privacy.
0:00:33 > 0:00:35'I like to get away from the madness in this place
0:00:35 > 0:00:38'now and again and chill by myself for a bit.
0:00:38 > 0:00:40'Not to get up to anything dodgy.'
0:00:40 > 0:00:44- Oh, really? - 'That's not my style any more.
0:00:48 > 0:00:52'But it's good to be able to think about stuff.
0:00:52 > 0:00:55'Take stock of what's going on around you. That sort of thing.
0:00:55 > 0:00:58'And that's especially important when you're somewhere new.
0:00:58 > 0:01:01'Which is why, no offence meant to Mo, but I wasn't exactly
0:01:01 > 0:01:04'overjoyed with the sleeping arrangements when I first got here.'
0:01:04 > 0:01:07I know it's strange being new, but you get used to it.
0:01:07 > 0:01:09- Sure.- Do you want to go and look for some treasure?
0:01:09 > 0:01:10Maybe later, yeah?
0:01:10 > 0:01:13I'll have to sort me stuff out first.
0:01:13 > 0:01:17'So there I was, cooped up with this wannabe junior pirate.
0:01:17 > 0:01:21'Meanwhile others like Johnny were living it up in mini palaces.'
0:01:22 > 0:01:26- What are you doing in here? - Sorry, mate. I got lost.
0:01:28 > 0:01:31- This place is amazing.- He earned the right to that room.
0:01:31 > 0:01:33You'd only been here five minutes.
0:01:33 > 0:01:35Is that your own bathroom?
0:01:35 > 0:01:37Yeah, Mo did me a favour.
0:01:37 > 0:01:40'The funny thing is that it was through hanging out by myself
0:01:40 > 0:01:42'that I was able to sort out the room situation.
0:01:42 > 0:01:45'Cos I'd spotted this girl called Maud whose parents
0:01:45 > 0:01:46'wanted to foster Harry.'
0:01:46 > 0:01:49Do you guys fancy a cup of tea before you head off?
0:01:49 > 0:01:52'But there was something about her that just didn't add up.'
0:01:52 > 0:01:54Care kids are messed up.
0:01:54 > 0:01:57I can't believe you want to bring one of them into our home.
0:01:57 > 0:01:58'All this made me wonder
0:01:58 > 0:02:01'if there was more to little Maud than met the eye.
0:02:01 > 0:02:05'Especially when loads of money went missing.'
0:02:05 > 0:02:07They said they're searching the neighbourhood this afternoon.
0:02:07 > 0:02:09Who knows?
0:02:09 > 0:02:12He might have been dumb enough to leave his fingerprints.
0:02:12 > 0:02:14I'm just going to the toilet.
0:02:16 > 0:02:20'Turned out she'd gone to all sorts of lengths to avoid having
0:02:20 > 0:02:21'a new little brother.'
0:02:22 > 0:02:27- You've just proved my theory. - What theory?
0:02:27 > 0:02:30You wanted to put your parents off fostering so you nicked the stuff.
0:02:30 > 0:02:33It was tough for poor Harry, as if he's not been through enough.
0:02:33 > 0:02:35You're not too disappointed?
0:02:35 > 0:02:38I always knew something would go wrong.
0:02:38 > 0:02:40But good for Johnny, though,
0:02:40 > 0:02:42as he'd been prime suspect for the theft.
0:02:42 > 0:02:43Mate, I owe you a big one,
0:02:43 > 0:02:47so if you want to take the room then you can have it.
0:02:47 > 0:02:50I'll share with Mo until the flood damage is sorted.
0:02:50 > 0:02:52'Result. And not before time too.'
0:02:56 > 0:02:59- Yes.- Johnny should never have given up his room.
0:02:59 > 0:03:02Just shows that being a selfish cow doesn't run in the family.
0:03:02 > 0:03:04'What talents do I have?
0:03:09 > 0:03:12'There's one thing I would say - I'm quite good with technology,
0:03:12 > 0:03:15computers, phones, stuff like that.
0:03:15 > 0:03:16'You're arrogant and you're a bully.
0:03:16 > 0:03:19'You're arrogant... You're arrogant...
0:03:19 > 0:03:22'You're arrogant...arrogant... Carmen, Harry, Tyler and Jody.'
0:03:22 > 0:03:24Can't you see I'm busy?
0:03:24 > 0:03:27'Apparently a mobile phone these days has more computer power than
0:03:27 > 0:03:29'they did for the first moon landings.
0:03:29 > 0:03:32'We've got this amazing power in our hands,
0:03:32 > 0:03:34'so it's good to make full use of it.'
0:03:37 > 0:03:39'Bailey is a bully.'
0:03:42 > 0:03:45- What, so I'm a bully now?- What?
0:03:47 > 0:03:50'Although you do have to be careful.
0:03:50 > 0:03:53'You can end up with all sorts of private stuff on your phone
0:03:53 > 0:03:57'that you wouldn't want ending up in the wrong hands.'
0:03:57 > 0:03:58Baths are supposed to be private.
0:03:58 > 0:04:00You should have locked the door, then!
0:04:00 > 0:04:03They've got proof. Everyone's going to know what you did.
0:04:03 > 0:04:04What did he do?
0:04:04 > 0:04:07Grab his hand. Don't let him delete the call.
0:04:07 > 0:04:09No!
0:04:09 > 0:04:10'The way I see it,
0:04:10 > 0:04:13'a good knowledge of computers is essential.'
0:04:16 > 0:04:18- It's almost prehistoric. - It's not that old.
0:04:18 > 0:04:20100 quid and it's yours.
0:04:20 > 0:04:24The thing is it's me mum's birthday.
0:04:24 > 0:04:26She must be well proud of you.
0:04:26 > 0:04:29Cos anything worth knowing is on a computer these days.
0:04:29 > 0:04:30It's in the past, yeah?
0:04:33 > 0:04:35This is a chance for a fresh start.
0:04:38 > 0:04:40- Who's that?- What?
0:04:40 > 0:04:43I think there's a man outside trying to break into the car.
0:04:43 > 0:04:45All right. Stay there.
0:04:58 > 0:05:01You just need to know where to look
0:05:01 > 0:05:03and everything you could possibly need to know
0:05:03 > 0:05:05about anything can be there for you.
0:05:07 > 0:05:11And you know what they say - knowledge is power.
0:05:11 > 0:05:13And you know what they say - power corrupts.
0:05:13 > 0:05:17And you know what they say - corruption conquers all.
0:05:17 > 0:05:19Actually, Ryan, it's love conquers all.
0:05:24 > 0:05:27'I suppose I'm just a normal, honest lad, really.
0:05:27 > 0:05:29'No fancy tastes or anything like that.
0:05:29 > 0:05:30'I like the simple things in life -
0:05:30 > 0:05:32'like bowling.
0:05:33 > 0:05:36'Although I do have to improvise to get a game.'
0:05:38 > 0:05:40Three strikes in a row. New record.
0:05:40 > 0:05:43'So a proper bowling trip is always good news.'
0:05:43 > 0:05:45The bowling alley is booked, my lady.
0:05:45 > 0:05:48- Brilliant.- For Johnny, not you.
0:05:48 > 0:05:50- But we're all going, right? - Course, it's a house trip.
0:05:50 > 0:05:52I'm going to smash the house record.
0:05:52 > 0:05:54Harry, time's running out.
0:05:56 > 0:05:59Harry, mate, you're so rubbish at this game.
0:05:59 > 0:06:01'But living in care means you don't get
0:06:01 > 0:06:03'to the bowling alley as often as you might like.
0:06:03 > 0:06:06TEXT ALERT HOOTS
0:06:07 > 0:06:11'So when the chance does arise, you have to make sure you take it.
0:06:13 > 0:06:15'Yep. Nothing should get in the way
0:06:15 > 0:06:17'of a game of good old tenpin bowling.'
0:06:17 > 0:06:21We'll have to go, otherwise we'll miss our slot.
0:06:21 > 0:06:22Why don't you leave a note?
0:06:22 > 0:06:24Cos I want to be here when he gets back.
0:06:24 > 0:06:26OK, we'll see you later, yeah?
0:06:26 > 0:06:30HORN TOOTS
0:06:33 > 0:06:36'It's the same with skate-boarding. I love it.
0:06:36 > 0:06:37'And I'm not bad at it too.
0:06:37 > 0:06:41'But living in care means it's hard to get the chance to compete
0:06:41 > 0:06:43'cos you're not like the other kids who have their mummies
0:06:43 > 0:06:47'and daddies running round after them like a free taxi service.'
0:06:47 > 0:06:49I haven't seen you use that since you've been here.
0:06:49 > 0:06:52- I've got to fit some practice in. - What for?
0:06:52 > 0:06:55There's a skate contest over at Haversham tomorrow.
0:06:55 > 0:06:58You can't go all that way on your own.
0:06:58 > 0:06:59I thought you might say that.
0:06:59 > 0:07:03- I was going to say I'll take you there in the minibus.- Really?- Yeah.
0:07:03 > 0:07:04'I tell you what, though.
0:07:04 > 0:07:07'When you're sharing your only hope of a lift with loads of
0:07:07 > 0:07:09'other people, you can always guarantee that something
0:07:09 > 0:07:12'more important will crop up at the worst possible moment.
0:07:12 > 0:07:14'It always does.'
0:07:14 > 0:07:16You said you'd take me. You promised.
0:07:16 > 0:07:19I know and I'm sorry, but I have to be here tomorrow.
0:07:19 > 0:07:22All right. I'll just get the bus to the skate competition, then.
0:07:22 > 0:07:24I told you you can't. It's too far.
0:07:26 > 0:07:30'Worst fears, nothing much frightens me, to be honest.
0:07:30 > 0:07:33'There are a few things I'm not a big fan of.
0:07:33 > 0:07:35'Like Bailey's fleabag on legs, Mischief.'
0:07:36 > 0:07:38Mischief's no fleabag.
0:07:38 > 0:07:39I'm only joking.
0:07:39 > 0:07:43Nah, I brushed all those fleas out and put them in Carmen's bed.
0:07:43 > 0:07:46- Eh, you did what?- Funny.
0:07:47 > 0:07:51'It's not that I'm scared of Mischief or anything.'
0:07:51 > 0:07:54- You scared of a dog?- Yeah. Petrified, more like.
0:07:54 > 0:07:55Not true.
0:07:55 > 0:07:59You tried to protect yourself by throwing a pair of pants at him.
0:07:59 > 0:08:01DOG BARKS
0:08:01 > 0:08:05- Are they mine?- Now, that is funny.
0:08:05 > 0:08:07'I'm totally not scared of Mischief.
0:08:07 > 0:08:10'It's just that I can quite happily get by without
0:08:10 > 0:08:13'being covered in dog drool.'
0:08:13 > 0:08:15So you're not going to say goodnight to him?
0:08:15 > 0:08:16No, it's a dog.
0:08:16 > 0:08:18Keep him out of my face and I'll be fine.
0:08:18 > 0:08:21'It's a fact of life that people are into different things.
0:08:21 > 0:08:24'Some people like dogs, others aren't keen.
0:08:24 > 0:08:27'It's the same with all sorts of things. Like birthdays.
0:08:27 > 0:08:28I'm pretty sure I said no party.
0:08:28 > 0:08:30'Most people like them, I don't.'
0:08:30 > 0:08:33- Did you know?- They told me they were having a picnic.
0:08:33 > 0:08:34- What is going on? - Shh. It's a surprise.
0:08:34 > 0:08:36It's not a very good one.
0:08:36 > 0:08:37Get rid of it before Ryan sees it.
0:08:37 > 0:08:39- Please, come on.- Sees what?
0:08:39 > 0:08:43# Happy birthday to you... #
0:08:43 > 0:08:44Is this for me?
0:08:44 > 0:08:46# Happy birthday... #
0:08:46 > 0:08:48No. Stop.
0:08:48 > 0:08:50'It's not that I'm bothered about getting older.
0:08:50 > 0:08:53'I can't wait to be old enough to get out of this place
0:08:53 > 0:08:54'and lead my own life.
0:08:54 > 0:08:58'My problem with birthdays is all about the past.
0:08:58 > 0:09:03'And I have to admit that I don't come out of this smelling of roses
0:09:03 > 0:09:06'cos I have done a lot of bad stuff on people's birthdays.'
0:09:06 > 0:09:09I'm Laces. Ryan here used to live in my care home.
0:09:09 > 0:09:12And he ruined every single birthday that he was there.
0:09:12 > 0:09:13- Come down.- That's a lie.
0:09:13 > 0:09:15He used to steal people's presents
0:09:15 > 0:09:17and flog them down the second-hand shop.
0:09:17 > 0:09:20- So?- You tore up my mum's card so I thought she'd forgotten me.
0:09:20 > 0:09:22Who's going to remember you?
0:09:22 > 0:09:25- You're sick.- This is not the time or the place.
0:09:25 > 0:09:26Yeah, it is and Billy was right.
0:09:26 > 0:09:29I was sick, sick of being bullied by Laces and his mates.
0:09:29 > 0:09:32'There was a good reason for doing them things, though.
0:09:32 > 0:09:33'A really good reason.
0:09:33 > 0:09:36'That's why I can't be doing with birthdays.'
0:09:36 > 0:09:40On my fifth or sixth birthday my sister gave me a card
0:09:40 > 0:09:42that she'd drawn herself.
0:09:42 > 0:09:48It meant the world to me because that day I went into care.
0:09:48 > 0:09:50Laces and his mates tore it up.
0:09:51 > 0:09:54So when it got to his birthday I just snapped.
0:09:54 > 0:09:58And I know it was wrong. Coming here has been a fresh start.
0:09:58 > 0:10:01I am trying to be a better person.
0:10:01 > 0:10:03'And who knows?
0:10:03 > 0:10:04'Maybe it is working.
0:10:04 > 0:10:07'Maybe living here is making me become a better person.'
0:10:07 > 0:10:09Well said. Good lad.
0:10:10 > 0:10:13Or maybe you're getting worse and it's just
0:10:13 > 0:10:14that no-one has noticed.
0:10:17 > 0:10:19'My friends...
0:10:24 > 0:10:27'The last thing I expected when I moved in here
0:10:27 > 0:10:30'is that I would be best mates with a kid half my size.
0:10:30 > 0:10:32'But then again most kids aren't Harry.'
0:10:32 > 0:10:35- I've got something for you. - Lead the way, my man.
0:10:35 > 0:10:36'The little guy is a legend.'
0:10:39 > 0:10:43'How long must it have taken for him to make that contraption thing
0:10:43 > 0:10:46'with all those dominoes that he built for my birthday?'
0:10:46 > 0:10:48- That's amazing!- Oh...
0:10:48 > 0:10:50CHEERING
0:10:57 > 0:11:00'Part of the reason we got on so well, I think,
0:11:00 > 0:11:03'is that it turns out we have more in common than you might expect.
0:11:03 > 0:11:06'So if you understand what someone has been through,
0:11:06 > 0:11:08'it's only right to help if you can.'
0:11:08 > 0:11:14I know what happened to you before you came to Ashdene Ridge.
0:11:14 > 0:11:19- How?- I looked on the file. It's all on there.
0:11:20 > 0:11:23I know I shouldn't have opened it, but...
0:11:23 > 0:11:25- People are cruel, Harry. - How do you know?
0:11:28 > 0:11:30Did those things happen to you too?
0:11:30 > 0:11:32- Something like that.- Bye, Harry!
0:11:32 > 0:11:35It was good to see him get fostered, though.
0:11:35 > 0:11:36Or I thought it was.
0:11:37 > 0:11:38This is your allowance.
0:11:38 > 0:11:41I've put a little bit extra in there, all right?
0:11:41 > 0:11:43So you can buy something for your new room.
0:11:44 > 0:11:48I tell you what. Why don't I look after it for you?
0:11:53 > 0:11:57I got a night-light for you cos I know you're scared of the dark.
0:11:57 > 0:11:59It's so you don't have to ask him for one.
0:11:59 > 0:12:00Come on, Harry. Let's go.
0:12:02 > 0:12:04'I wasn't sure about that Adam guy,
0:12:04 > 0:12:08'but still it was a bit of a shock when that text came through.
0:12:13 > 0:12:17'You can't ignore something like that.
0:12:17 > 0:12:19'I knew it might mean trouble for me,
0:12:19 > 0:12:22'but I just did what I needed to do.'
0:12:22 > 0:12:25SHOUTING
0:12:28 > 0:12:31'Of course, Harry being Harry, he was trying to watch my back.'
0:12:31 > 0:12:33You need to leave.
0:12:33 > 0:12:35You don't know what he's like, how angry he gets.
0:12:35 > 0:12:37- Come with me.- What, now?
0:12:37 > 0:12:41Yeah. Come on, let's go. SHOUTING
0:12:41 > 0:12:43No-marks like that Adam might be able to play the big guy
0:12:43 > 0:12:45with little kids, but he didn't scare me.
0:12:45 > 0:12:49Have you completely lost your minds?
0:12:49 > 0:12:52Stupid idiots.
0:13:02 > 0:13:03'I'd done what I could,
0:13:03 > 0:13:06'but it did look like this Adam guy was going to get away with it.'
0:13:06 > 0:13:10- Harry, would you like it if I came back with you?- Yeah.
0:13:10 > 0:13:12That's really not convenient.
0:13:12 > 0:13:14- Harry's going nowhere.- Ryan!
0:13:14 > 0:13:16Get out of my way.
0:13:16 > 0:13:20Harry, remember what I said. You have to tell Mike.
0:13:20 > 0:13:21I can't.
0:13:21 > 0:13:23Harry, tell me what, Harry?
0:13:24 > 0:13:28Don't make us go back. You don't know what it's like.
0:13:28 > 0:13:29Please, Mike.
0:13:30 > 0:13:33'I was worried he was going to bottle it
0:13:33 > 0:13:36'but eventually Harry stood up to be counted.
0:13:37 > 0:13:40'Hopefully that's something the little guy learnt from me.
0:13:43 > 0:13:45'In life there's only so much others can do for you.
0:13:45 > 0:13:49'Eventually you have to help yourself.'
0:13:49 > 0:13:52Help yourself. You certainly do that.