0:00:04 > 0:00:08My name is Tracy Beaker and these are my survival files,
0:00:08 > 0:00:11your essential guide to the ups and downs of growing up.
0:00:11 > 0:00:14- Tracy!- Tracy!
0:00:14 > 0:00:17Life in the dumping ground has taught me a lot about stuff.
0:00:17 > 0:00:22- Tracy Beaker!- Scary stuff. - THEY SCREAM
0:00:22 > 0:00:23Complicated stuff.
0:00:23 > 0:00:26And stuff that can make you want to scream.
0:00:26 > 0:00:28SHE SCREAMS
0:00:28 > 0:00:31If you can cope with the stuff that goes down here,
0:00:31 > 0:00:35you can cope with anything. I've spent most of my life here -
0:00:35 > 0:00:38first as a kid and now it's where I work.
0:00:38 > 0:00:42I've learnt a lot about friends.
0:00:42 > 0:00:44About enemies.
0:00:46 > 0:00:49About what life can throw at you.
0:00:52 > 0:00:55It's not always been pretty,
0:00:55 > 0:00:58but it's made me who I am today.
0:00:58 > 0:01:02And now I'm passing on my wisdom to you guys in a video blog.
0:01:02 > 0:01:07Pay attention, I've lived through all this so you don't have to.
0:01:07 > 0:01:11On the Tracy Beaker Survival Files this time - secrets,
0:01:11 > 0:01:14the stuff we don't want other people to know about
0:01:14 > 0:01:17and the stuff that other people know that we wish we knew.
0:01:22 > 0:01:26We all have secrets, things we like to keep private,
0:01:26 > 0:01:29things we don't want other people to find out about.
0:01:29 > 0:01:33Sometimes they can be nice things, like a surprise party.
0:01:33 > 0:01:38- ALL: Surprise! - Or maybe a secret present,
0:01:38 > 0:01:42- like the bench we made in memory of Frank's granddad.- What's that?
0:01:42 > 0:01:46"Eric Beverley Matthews, 1931-2010.
0:01:46 > 0:01:49"Frank's granddad who took him fishing
0:01:49 > 0:01:51"and gave him a pocket watch."
0:01:51 > 0:01:53Or they can be a bit random.
0:01:53 > 0:01:59Crash once spent ages locked away with lots of empty baked bean cans.
0:01:59 > 0:02:02What on Earth was he doing?
0:02:02 > 0:02:07Secretly making a space rocket, that's what.
0:02:07 > 0:02:10Ready? Go!
0:02:12 > 0:02:15ALL: Yay! Woo-hoo!
0:02:15 > 0:02:18But secrets can be much more serious.
0:02:18 > 0:02:21Once, Lol got the hump about secret staff meetings.
0:02:21 > 0:02:24He was convinced the care workers were planning something terrible.
0:02:24 > 0:02:27So, he started bugging them.
0:02:27 > 0:02:28You bugged the progress report meeting?
0:02:28 > 0:02:32Full marks for craftiness, minus 50 million for dullness.
0:02:32 > 0:02:34- Tracy, Nathan was wearing a suit. - So?
0:02:34 > 0:02:37It was an important meeting, they have lots.
0:02:37 > 0:02:41They could decide to, I don't know, split me and Bouncer up.
0:02:41 > 0:02:44Oh, no Bouncer! No-one for Lol to hide behind.
0:02:44 > 0:02:48With Amber getting mysterious phone calls from Cam,
0:02:48 > 0:02:53who's to say they weren't talking about you three as well?
0:02:53 > 0:02:54Us three?
0:02:54 > 0:02:57I began to think that maybe he was right.
0:02:57 > 0:03:01For a start, something was going on between Cam and Amber.
0:03:01 > 0:03:07- Mysterious phone conversations. - Cam's on the phone.
0:03:07 > 0:03:11- She phones at the most awkward times.- It's not for you. Amber.
0:03:11 > 0:03:15Maybe she's decided to foster someone who's less of a pain.
0:03:15 > 0:03:17THEY LAUGH
0:03:19 > 0:03:22- Hi, Cam! Bye, Tracy. - 'And then, even worse.'
0:03:22 > 0:03:28- Oh, Tracy...- Shall we go to my room? - 'Secret visits.'- Yeah, OK.
0:03:30 > 0:03:35Cam and me never keep secrets from each other. What was going on?
0:03:35 > 0:03:39I was desperate to listen to the secret tape Lol had recorded,
0:03:39 > 0:03:44but like most of Lol's scams, his bugging plan went seriously wrong.
0:03:44 > 0:03:47Missing something?
0:03:47 > 0:03:52- But...? What did...? How did...? - You can't be a good spy if you can't
0:03:52 > 0:03:55spot when you're being spied on. Later, dudes.
0:03:55 > 0:03:58Have you just been out-scammed by Amber? 'What a nightmare!
0:03:58 > 0:04:03'Now Amber had secret info about the Dumping Ground and everyone in it.'
0:04:09 > 0:04:14- Hey, kids. Want to listen to this? - Yeah.- For a small fee.
0:04:14 > 0:04:17- BOTH:- We're not interested. - Fair enough.
0:04:17 > 0:04:21If you don't want to hear about which blonde person is so helpful
0:04:21 > 0:04:26that the staff aren't trying too hard to find foster parents for her.
0:04:26 > 0:04:29Or which person's dad, who just got married,
0:04:29 > 0:04:31may be getting divorced again.
0:04:31 > 0:04:35Or which member of staff whose name rhymes with Penny
0:04:35 > 0:04:38may be off to a new care home in New York.
0:04:44 > 0:04:49And very soon Amber got the reaction she had been looking for.
0:04:49 > 0:04:52- Could you help me with the washing up?- You'd love that!
0:04:52 > 0:04:57"Get Louise to do it, she never complains." I'm tired of it!
0:04:57 > 0:05:00Are things really OK, Dad? I mean really, really?
0:05:00 > 0:05:02You're not having any arguments?
0:05:02 > 0:05:06What do you mean the normal kind?!
0:05:06 > 0:05:10One miserable Dumping Ground with one very bad atmosphere,
0:05:10 > 0:05:12and it was worst of all for Lol -
0:05:12 > 0:05:16partly because he was the muppet who let Amber get the tape,
0:05:16 > 0:05:18but mostly because he was worried about what the staff
0:05:18 > 0:05:20had planned for him and Bouncer.
0:05:20 > 0:05:25What if they decide to split us up? Send us to different homes?
0:05:26 > 0:05:29Where has this daft idea suddenly come from?
0:05:29 > 0:05:33You can't split up Lol and Bouncer, they're a team.
0:05:33 > 0:05:37Still, I think it will do them good in the long run.
0:05:37 > 0:05:40I mean, to be fair, they're too old to be sharing a room.
0:05:40 > 0:05:45Lol got the wrong end of the stick, but we didn't know that.
0:05:45 > 0:05:49We were desperate to learn all the Dumping Ground secrets.
0:05:49 > 0:05:53- 'The issue of stationery...' - When we managed to play the tape,
0:05:53 > 0:05:57we were on the edge of our seats, ready for revelations...
0:05:57 > 0:06:01'Ordering the right amount of paper...
0:06:01 > 0:06:04REWINDS TAPE
0:06:04 > 0:06:09'The amount of tea we usually expect at the end of the month...'
0:06:09 > 0:06:11Is that it?
0:06:11 > 0:06:15Yeah. Fascinating, stationery and teabags.
0:06:15 > 0:06:19The tape confirmed what we knew - Elaine was a gold medallist
0:06:19 > 0:06:21in the Olympics of boring.
0:06:21 > 0:06:24I've had enough of this!
0:06:24 > 0:06:28We had too much information, and all of it dull.
0:06:28 > 0:06:31We just needed some straight answers.
0:06:31 > 0:06:35Are me and Lol being split up and sent to different care homes?
0:06:35 > 0:06:41- What? Of course not!- Thank you. - You're not going to New York?
0:06:41 > 0:06:47- I most certainly am not.- But you've got relatives there.- Yep, exactly.
0:06:47 > 0:06:51They were all OK then, but what about the secret plans Cam and Amber
0:06:51 > 0:06:55- had been making behind my back? - KNOCKING
0:06:55 > 0:06:58- Hi, Tracy. Are you busy? - Too busy to talk to you.
0:06:58 > 0:07:02I'm making a list - reasons to foster Amber. She won't mess up
0:07:02 > 0:07:06your kitchen, cos she doesn't know what it's for. You could laugh
0:07:06 > 0:07:09at one another's rubbish hairdos.
0:07:09 > 0:07:11You think I want to foster Amber?
0:07:14 > 0:07:18You know that before Amber came here she used to run away a lot?
0:07:18 > 0:07:20That's what I was talking to her about.
0:07:20 > 0:07:26- For an article, about runaways. - An article? Is that all?
0:07:26 > 0:07:29SHE GROWLS
0:07:29 > 0:07:32I knew it would be something like that all along.
0:07:32 > 0:07:35So, as it turned out, there was nothing to be scared of.
0:07:35 > 0:07:37The secrets weren't as bad as we feared.
0:07:37 > 0:07:40In fact, some of them were brilliant.
0:07:40 > 0:07:44- What's that?- Just a little chat the staff had about you,
0:07:44 > 0:07:48- after we told them about you. - We tried the tape recorder again,
0:07:48 > 0:07:52- with someone sensible in charge. - Did it work?- Like a dream.
0:07:52 > 0:07:55- I don't believe you. - That's not our problem.
0:07:55 > 0:08:01- There's a great bit about her imaginary friend.- Give me that!
0:08:01 > 0:08:04We've all got stuff we don't want other people to know,
0:08:04 > 0:08:07stuff that doesn't fit with the image we want to show to the world.
0:08:07 > 0:08:12Amber likes to think of herself as hard, but her imaginary pal,
0:08:12 > 0:08:16Mr Snuggles, proves that even Amber has her soft side.
0:08:16 > 0:08:19Mr Snuggles was never going to stay under the radar forever.
0:08:19 > 0:08:22Nothing here stays secret for long.
0:08:24 > 0:08:28And especially when Gus is on the case. That boy misses nothing.
0:08:28 > 0:08:31He writes it all down in his notebooks, too,
0:08:31 > 0:08:33as Frank and Liam discovered.
0:08:33 > 0:08:36Look!
0:08:36 > 0:08:38Gus's notebook?
0:08:38 > 0:08:43Gus was away for a few days and they got the job of cleaning his bedroom.
0:08:43 > 0:08:48He sees everything that goes on in this place, and he don't lie.
0:08:51 > 0:08:56Have you seen this? Gina's husband calls her Snuggle Bum. What's wrong?
0:08:56 > 0:09:01But some of the secrets in Gus's notebooks were no laughing matter.
0:09:01 > 0:09:05'June 6th. I went to the shopping centre with Liam and Frank.
0:09:05 > 0:09:08'The burger smell made Frank's tummy gurgle,
0:09:08 > 0:09:09'but we had no money,
0:09:09 > 0:09:13- 'so Liam said, "Let's do the dive." '- He wrote about the dive!
0:09:13 > 0:09:19'We looked in the bin and found some chips. Then Liam said, "Jackpot!"
0:09:19 > 0:09:23- 'Then Frank said, "Sweet as." ' - Sweet as.
0:09:23 > 0:09:25'He did not say sweet as what.
0:09:27 > 0:09:31'Liam pointed out a man and Frank said, "Yes, that one." '
0:09:44 > 0:09:46Gus's notebooks don't lie.
0:09:46 > 0:09:50And after they had faithfully promised Mike
0:09:50 > 0:09:52their burger diving days were over, too!
0:09:53 > 0:09:58- What are you two doing? - Just tidying Gus's room.
0:09:58 > 0:10:02And reading his private notebooks while you're at it?
0:10:02 > 0:10:06Give them to me, come on. Come on!
0:10:10 > 0:10:14Thank you. All of them.
0:10:14 > 0:10:20Right. I want you to tidy Gus's room before he gets back, right?
0:10:22 > 0:10:26We need them pages otherwise we're in serious trouble.
0:10:26 > 0:10:29Gina, when you got your mitts on Gus's notebooks,
0:10:29 > 0:10:34wasn't the idea to confiscate them so no-one would read them?
0:10:34 > 0:10:38That's right. Gus's notebooks are very important to him.
0:10:38 > 0:10:41We didn't want the other young people to invade his privacy.
0:10:41 > 0:10:44But it was OK for you to have a good nosy?
0:10:44 > 0:10:49It's important that we understand what is going on in Gus's head.
0:10:49 > 0:10:54You know, he may have had concerns he felt he couldn't raise with us.
0:10:54 > 0:10:59- It's our duty of care.- Duty of care or duty of snooping?- Tracy.
0:11:06 > 0:11:08That's disgusting!
0:11:13 > 0:11:18- Looks interesting.- Yes. I was just about to lock these in the office.
0:11:18 > 0:11:21Good idea. Listen, why don't I do that for you?
0:11:21 > 0:11:25You can get started on dinner.
0:11:25 > 0:11:28Mike, as Gina had already done your "duty of care",
0:11:28 > 0:11:31did you need to read the notebooks, too?
0:11:31 > 0:11:35Well, something you learn with experience is to have two pairs
0:11:35 > 0:11:41- of eyes across something is highly beneficial.- Oh, highly beneficial.
0:11:42 > 0:11:45Oh, Mike, how could you?
0:11:45 > 0:11:49I'm sorry, I couldn't put it down.
0:11:49 > 0:11:54Did you know that Gus has pie charts of your monthly biscuit consumption?
0:11:54 > 0:11:58No, but I read about the top ten excuses
0:11:58 > 0:12:01for your silent but deadlies.
0:12:01 > 0:12:05Oh, no, Gus is mistaken. We've had a problem with the drains.
0:12:05 > 0:12:09A problem with the drains! AKA, excuse number four.
0:12:09 > 0:12:14Everyone faithfully promised they would leave Gus's notebooks alone.
0:12:14 > 0:12:16Yeah, sure they would.
0:12:16 > 0:12:18# Take out the papers and the trash... #
0:12:20 > 0:12:25It all got sorted. Gus's books were for Gus's eyes only.
0:12:25 > 0:12:31Although, I did spot a little bit of misleading information.
0:12:31 > 0:12:33So, um, I got rid of it.
0:12:33 > 0:12:37# ..Let's see that dust fly with that broom
0:12:37 > 0:12:40# Get all that garbage out of sight
0:12:40 > 0:12:43# Or you don't go out Friday night
0:12:43 > 0:12:45# Yakety-yak, don't talk back. #
0:12:45 > 0:12:48It's important to respect the kids' property,
0:12:48 > 0:12:51so I kept the notebooks safe until Gus returned.
0:12:51 > 0:12:56Apart from that one page, which I destroyed for good staff relations.
0:12:56 > 0:13:00# ..Let's see that dust fly with that broom
0:13:00 > 0:13:02# Get all that garbage out of sight
0:13:02 > 0:13:08# Or you don't go out Friday night Yakety-yak, don't talk back. #
0:13:08 > 0:13:11Phew, that was us off the hook... we thought.
0:13:11 > 0:13:14Someone's been reading my notebooks!
0:13:14 > 0:13:19- You've got to hand it to him, that boy misses nothing.- Um...
0:13:19 > 0:13:25I'm sorry. We moved the books when we were cleaning out your room.
0:13:25 > 0:13:28Yeah, but you didn't have to read them.
0:13:28 > 0:13:33- Or tear pages out.- Someone tore pages out?- What pages were torn out?
0:13:33 > 0:13:36Book four, pages seven and eight.
0:13:36 > 0:13:41- Frank bumped into a man to get money. - You've been burger diving again!
0:13:41 > 0:13:43Right. That's it!
0:13:43 > 0:13:47You are finally and totally banned from the shopping centre.
0:13:47 > 0:13:52- You can't do that!- No, not fair!- Not fair? You two have committed fraud!
0:13:52 > 0:13:55Mike is letting you off lightly.
0:13:55 > 0:13:59Also book three, page 16, Gina's actual dress size.
0:13:59 > 0:14:03- THEY LAUGH - That's enough, Gus.
0:14:03 > 0:14:05Also, book two, page seven.
0:14:05 > 0:14:11Mike spilled coffee on Gina's laptop and blamed us kids.
0:14:11 > 0:14:13It was an accident.
0:14:14 > 0:14:17Gus, we're all really, really sorry.
0:14:17 > 0:14:21The four of them had let Gus down by prying into his secrets.
0:14:21 > 0:14:24How long would it take before he could trust anyone again?
0:14:24 > 0:14:30Next time you want to read my private notebooks, just ask me.
0:14:30 > 0:14:33Oh, as it happens, it took about two seconds.
0:14:33 > 0:14:35Gus has probably got the right idea.
0:14:35 > 0:14:38Keeping a secret in the Dumping Ground
0:14:38 > 0:14:40is pretty much impossible.
0:14:40 > 0:14:44So, what have we learned about secrets so far to put
0:14:44 > 0:14:46into my survival files?
0:14:46 > 0:14:50Secrets are a big part of life, whether it's nice secrets
0:14:50 > 0:14:54like planning a surprise party or less nice stuff,
0:14:54 > 0:14:57like the secrets Amber pretended she knew.
0:14:57 > 0:15:00Secrets work both ways.
0:15:00 > 0:15:03We all have things we want to keep private.
0:15:03 > 0:15:08But most of us can't wait to find out other people's secrets.
0:15:08 > 0:15:12We all have a nosy streak, especially at the Dumping Ground.
0:15:12 > 0:15:16I can't tell you who I think is the nosiest of the lot, it's a secret.
0:15:16 > 0:15:20All I can say is their names rhyme with "bike" and "Mina".
0:15:25 > 0:15:30This may seem obvious, but the big thing about a secret is that
0:15:30 > 0:15:33once everyone knows it, it isn't a secret any more.
0:15:33 > 0:15:36Some secrets are harder to keep than others.
0:15:36 > 0:15:40- Come on, Frank.- Pass the ball. - Take this, for example.
0:15:40 > 0:15:42It started with a game of football.
0:15:42 > 0:15:45- SIRENS WAIL - What was that?
0:15:45 > 0:15:49Little did the players know what was coming next,
0:15:49 > 0:15:52that the Dumping Ground was about to be hit by...
0:15:54 > 0:16:01..the biggest, most troublesome secret the place had ever known!
0:16:02 > 0:16:07SIRENS WAIL
0:16:23 > 0:16:27Whoa! So, what should the boys do?
0:16:27 > 0:16:30We can't just take it, that would be stealing.
0:16:30 > 0:16:33Finders keepers, losers weepers.
0:16:33 > 0:16:36- That's the law.- You don't actually think that's a law?- The point is,
0:16:36 > 0:16:39the guy is a crook, so we deserve it more than him, right?
0:16:39 > 0:16:40But what if he comes back?
0:16:40 > 0:16:43Good point. Let's get this stuff inside, come on.
0:16:43 > 0:16:46'Step one was getting the stash safely inside
0:16:46 > 0:16:48'without anyone noticing.'
0:16:48 > 0:16:51- Liam, wait!- 'Which was trickier than you might think.'
0:16:51 > 0:16:54- Hi, Tracy.- Hi.
0:16:54 > 0:16:57- Ah!- Toby, are you all right?
0:16:57 > 0:17:01- Ow!- What happened?- Ow!
0:17:01 > 0:17:03- Toby, are you OK?- Yeah, I'm fine.
0:17:03 > 0:17:08'Because the harder you try to be sneaky, the more likely
0:17:08 > 0:17:11'you are to attract the attention of anyone who happens to be watching.'
0:17:13 > 0:17:18- What's in the bag, Toby?- Get out! - No, I want to know what's in the bag.
0:17:18 > 0:17:21So do I. Come on, let's see.
0:17:26 > 0:17:29Yeah, a massive bag of money.
0:17:29 > 0:17:31You can see why they wanted to keep it quiet.
0:17:31 > 0:17:36Trouble is, Carmen knew. I mean, she isn't exactly MI5 material.
0:17:36 > 0:17:40I can't believe he said that. I CAN keep secrets.
0:17:40 > 0:17:44As long as nobody asks me directly. Then I find it really hard.
0:17:44 > 0:17:47It's too risky, we don't even know where the money came from.
0:17:47 > 0:17:49Did Carmen really think that stealing
0:17:49 > 0:17:51hundreds of thousands of pounds would be easy?
0:17:51 > 0:17:54Sure enough, the Dumping Ground soon got some unwelcome visitors.
0:17:54 > 0:17:56Can you come down, please? House meeting.
0:17:56 > 0:18:01- Now?- Right now.- But we were just going out. Can't we do this later?
0:18:01 > 0:18:03Don't ask me, ask the police.
0:18:03 > 0:18:06The police?
0:18:06 > 0:18:09Something was up with the kids that day, but what?
0:18:09 > 0:18:11I just couldn't quite put my finger on it.
0:18:11 > 0:18:16- How much money are we talking about exactly?- We really can't say.
0:18:16 > 0:18:20- Like a grand? More than a grand? - Recovering the money is a priority.
0:18:20 > 0:18:25- More than a grand?- But our first priority is to keep you safe.
0:18:25 > 0:18:28- Safe from what? - I don't want to frighten you,
0:18:28 > 0:18:31but there are some very dangerous people looking for this money.
0:18:31 > 0:18:36- It's all right, Carmen, don't be scared.- It's OK, I'm not.
0:18:36 > 0:18:39See what I mean about Carmen and secrets?
0:18:39 > 0:18:41Whenever she tries to keep something quiet,
0:18:41 > 0:18:44it's like she's on a mission to spread the news to the world.
0:18:44 > 0:18:45Present!
0:18:45 > 0:18:49Thanks, Carm. I love it.
0:18:49 > 0:18:50Thank you.
0:18:55 > 0:18:59- What's with the stuff? - Oh, just replacements,
0:18:59 > 0:19:03you know, for the stuff that got nicked at Berrywood. Lily, no!
0:19:03 > 0:19:07- You found the money, didn't you?- What money?
0:19:07 > 0:19:09The money the police were looking for. Gina told me everything.
0:19:09 > 0:19:12- I don't know what you mean. - So, it's not in the usual place?
0:19:12 > 0:19:15The usual place?
0:19:15 > 0:19:19No, don't! That's my money! Lily!
0:19:19 > 0:19:23I wanted to tell Lily about the money, she's my best friend.
0:19:23 > 0:19:26But I knew the others would go mad if I did.
0:19:26 > 0:19:32I never thought Carmen would lie to me. It just shows what money can do.
0:19:32 > 0:19:35Do want to know a secret? I'm really glad she found out.
0:19:35 > 0:19:39I was a bit sad that Carmen didn't tell me,
0:19:39 > 0:19:42but we didn't fall out over it. Not like everyone else.
0:19:45 > 0:19:49- All right, everyone gets their fair share, agreed?- No.- Agreed.
0:19:49 > 0:19:52- I think I should get some.- And Jeff.
0:19:52 > 0:19:56Good, we'll do it according to age. The older you are, the more you get.
0:19:56 > 0:20:01- No way!- That's not fair. No offence, but who put you in charge?
0:20:01 > 0:20:04Well, if you want Mike and Gina to figure out we've got it,
0:20:04 > 0:20:08you carry on spending. We'll know who to blame then, won't we?
0:20:08 > 0:20:10Bet you wish you had shared with me now.
0:20:10 > 0:20:14# Money, money, money makes the world go round
0:20:14 > 0:20:17# Money, money, money, money, money... #
0:20:17 > 0:20:22This secret had grown too big. It was tearing the place apart.
0:20:25 > 0:20:28Once I found out about it, I told the kids they had no choice.
0:20:28 > 0:20:31We had to put an end to this secret once and for all.
0:20:42 > 0:20:45But once it was out there, it was a weight off everyone's shoulders.
0:20:45 > 0:20:49It must've been quite a relief to not have to keep it secret any more.
0:20:49 > 0:20:53Relief? I was gutted.
0:20:53 > 0:20:55Really gutted.
0:20:55 > 0:20:57Really, really gutted.
0:20:57 > 0:21:00Yeah, they say that, but they were relieved really.
0:21:00 > 0:21:01Why is that, do you think?
0:21:01 > 0:21:04We all knew secretly if we kept something that wasn't ours
0:21:04 > 0:21:06we would get into massive trouble in the end.
0:21:13 > 0:21:16- What's this?- It's a long story.
0:21:16 > 0:21:21There you go, another Dumping Ground secret that didn't stay secret
0:21:21 > 0:21:23very long. That's this place for you.
0:21:23 > 0:21:26Although, it's not true every single time.
0:21:26 > 0:21:31There was one secret that did get kept very well here, maybe too well.
0:21:31 > 0:21:34If I hadn't happened to be looking for Liam's file that time,
0:21:34 > 0:21:38it might have stayed secret to this day.
0:21:39 > 0:21:41I was gobsmacked.
0:21:41 > 0:21:43Randomly stuffed there at the bottom of a filing cabinet,
0:21:43 > 0:21:47was a letter from my mum that had obviously been there for years.
0:21:47 > 0:21:51'This is what I've been waiting for for most of my childhood.
0:21:51 > 0:21:54'I never understood why my mum hadn't been in touch
0:21:54 > 0:21:58'and now it turned out the big secret was that she had.'
0:21:58 > 0:22:01She's my mum, you have to give me her address!
0:22:01 > 0:22:02It's for your own good, Tracy.
0:22:02 > 0:22:05Grown-ups always say that when they won't tell you the truth.
0:22:05 > 0:22:08I want to get out of this dump, and you're trying to stop me!
0:22:08 > 0:22:11- I'm not! - I was looking for my mum's address.
0:22:11 > 0:22:14I want to write to her and tell her that I'm back here
0:22:14 > 0:22:17and get her to come and get me.
0:22:17 > 0:22:19She knows you're here - Elaine wrote to her.
0:22:19 > 0:22:21But if I write to her, she'll know it's urgent.
0:22:21 > 0:22:24I'm sorry, Tracy, it's just not possible.
0:22:24 > 0:22:26How can you keep a child from her mother?
0:22:26 > 0:22:30Don't blame me if my behavioural problems get any worse!
0:22:30 > 0:22:33And here it all was, everything I had been looking for
0:22:33 > 0:22:36all those years, just sitting there in the office.
0:22:36 > 0:22:39So much for "there are no secrets in the Dumping Ground."
0:22:39 > 0:22:41They certainly kept this quiet.
0:22:41 > 0:22:45We did what we thought was best at the time.
0:22:45 > 0:22:48- It's a letter from my birth mum! - Yes, saying that she might visit.
0:22:48 > 0:22:51And she always let you down before.
0:22:51 > 0:22:53Cam and I thought it was best not to show you
0:22:53 > 0:22:56until we had some confirmation.
0:22:56 > 0:22:59- Cam knew about this? - Well, yes, but...
0:22:59 > 0:23:04This just got worse. Cam knew, too, after she promised me
0:23:04 > 0:23:06there'd be no secrets between us.
0:23:06 > 0:23:09I couldn't believe that she could be so two-faced,
0:23:09 > 0:23:11and for such a long time.
0:23:16 > 0:23:20Why are you bringing this up? This is five years old.
0:23:20 > 0:23:23- I thought you knew.- If I knew about it, I'd have said something.
0:23:23 > 0:23:26Well, we were trying to protect you.
0:23:26 > 0:23:31And we were right. She never even applied for visiting rights.
0:23:31 > 0:23:33You should have told me.
0:23:33 > 0:23:36At least I'd have known she was thinking about me.
0:23:38 > 0:23:42I'm sorry. It felt like the right thing to do at the time.
0:23:42 > 0:23:44What other secrets have you kept from me?
0:23:44 > 0:23:47Have I got a dad somewhere out there I don't know about?
0:23:47 > 0:23:50I was in a state of shock. Who could I trust?
0:23:50 > 0:23:52Who else had been lying to me?
0:23:52 > 0:23:54I knew it was best to keep calm
0:23:54 > 0:23:58until I worked out what to do about it.
0:23:59 > 0:24:01I quit!
0:24:01 > 0:24:04# Keep on running
0:24:04 > 0:24:06# Keep on hiding... #
0:24:07 > 0:24:10Yep, keep calm and work out my next move.
0:24:10 > 0:24:12That's what I needed to do,
0:24:12 > 0:24:16but what I did do was shout my mouth off and storm out.
0:24:23 > 0:24:26Big mistake. As soon as I calmed down,
0:24:26 > 0:24:30I realised I didn't really want to lose my job after all.
0:24:31 > 0:24:35- Mike, I'm really sorry about earlier.- It's OK.
0:24:35 > 0:24:40No, it's not OK. I made a mistake, I want to stay.
0:24:40 > 0:24:43'But was I in for a nasty shock.'
0:24:43 > 0:24:48- I'm sorry, Tracy, it's not that simple.- But...
0:24:48 > 0:24:54Look, I don't think that you made a mistake, I think I did.
0:24:54 > 0:24:58The whole business with the letter showed me just how hard it is
0:24:58 > 0:24:59for you to come back.
0:24:59 > 0:25:02I shouldn't have said you could come and work here.
0:25:02 > 0:25:03This didn't look good.
0:25:03 > 0:25:07I didn't know who I could trust any more and now I'd lost my job.
0:25:07 > 0:25:11Perfect. But then, the king of secrets, Gus, stepped in.
0:25:11 > 0:25:16- He had been making one of his lists. - Things Tracy has done right.
0:25:16 > 0:25:20"Rosie says Tracy makes her laugh.
0:25:20 > 0:25:26"Lily says Tracy is the only other person Poppy lets tie her shoelaces.
0:25:26 > 0:25:30"Sapphire says Tracy was rude to a boy who phoned her.
0:25:30 > 0:25:32"She says that's a good thing.
0:25:32 > 0:25:34"Liam says he likes it with Tracy here
0:25:34 > 0:25:37"cos he's not the only one causing trouble."
0:25:37 > 0:25:42- That might have been a joke. - Jeff likes Tracy, Gus.
0:25:42 > 0:25:45- "Tee says Tracy..." - Thanks, Gus, thanks.
0:25:45 > 0:25:50I have 11 more things Tracy has done right on my list.
0:25:50 > 0:25:53That's OK, I think I've got your point.
0:25:53 > 0:25:57Now, why don't you leave us alone? Please. Tracy and I need to talk.
0:26:01 > 0:26:04It seems like the kids want you to stay.
0:26:04 > 0:26:10If you do, you are making a huge commitment to these children.
0:26:10 > 0:26:13You can't keep letting them down.
0:26:13 > 0:26:16I won't, I promise.
0:26:16 > 0:26:19I know I've got to stop living in the past and move on.
0:26:21 > 0:26:24He was right, you know? No more secrets,
0:26:24 > 0:26:26no more obsessing about my birth mother.
0:26:26 > 0:26:27ALL: Yay!
0:26:29 > 0:26:34This was a time for a fresh start, with people I knew cared about me.
0:26:35 > 0:26:39Everyone here is my family, and that's no secret.
0:26:39 > 0:26:42I don't care if the whole world knows that.
0:26:46 > 0:26:49So, the truth is out there.
0:26:49 > 0:26:52I'm sharing everything I know about secrets with the lot of you
0:26:52 > 0:26:54by uploading it to my survival files.
0:26:54 > 0:26:55And there's a lot to take in.
0:26:55 > 0:26:59We all have secrets. Some people can keep them for years,
0:26:59 > 0:27:03while others find it hard not to blurt it all out.
0:27:03 > 0:27:06I think the best secrets are the happy kind,
0:27:06 > 0:27:09like secretly organising a surprise party.
0:27:09 > 0:27:12But others can cause much more upset,
0:27:12 > 0:27:16like the big bag of money that had everyone fighting for a share.
0:27:16 > 0:27:20Deciding whether to keep something secret or not can be a tough
0:27:20 > 0:27:24decision, like it was for Mike and Cam with the letter from my mum.
0:27:26 > 0:27:30Do remember, though, secrets can soon lose all their power.
0:27:30 > 0:27:34If everyone tells just one person, before very long, everyone knows.
0:27:34 > 0:27:37And a secret that everyone knows, isn't a secret at all.
0:27:40 > 0:27:43So, that's the Beaker Guide To Secrets safely uploaded
0:27:43 > 0:27:46to the Tracy Beaker Survival Files.
0:27:46 > 0:27:50More gems of wisdom from my experiences next time.
0:27:50 > 0:27:53There's no need to keep that to yourself, tell all your friends.
0:27:53 > 0:27:56Remember, I've been through all this so you don't have to.
0:27:56 > 0:28:00# Secrets, we walk in the sun
0:28:00 > 0:28:04# We've got secrets You can't come with us
0:28:04 > 0:28:10# Cos our secrets are not for everyone
0:28:10 > 0:28:13# Secrets are not for everyone. #