0:00:05 > 0:00:08My name is Tracy Beaker, and these are my survival files.
0:00:08 > 0:00:11Your essential guide to the ups and downs of growing up.
0:00:11 > 0:00:14- Tracy?- Tracy!
0:00:14 > 0:00:17Life in the Dumping Ground has taught me a lot about stuff.
0:00:17 > 0:00:20Tracy Beaker.
0:00:20 > 0:00:22Scary stuff...
0:00:22 > 0:00:25complicated stuff...
0:00:25 > 0:00:27stuff that can make you want to scream.
0:00:27 > 0:00:31If you can cope with the stuff that goes down in this place
0:00:31 > 0:00:33you can cope with pretty much anything.
0:00:33 > 0:00:35I've spent most of my life here.
0:00:35 > 0:00:38First when I was a kid, and now it's where I work.
0:00:38 > 0:00:42I've learnt a lot about friends...
0:00:42 > 0:00:44about enemies...
0:00:47 > 0:00:49..about what life can throw at you.
0:00:53 > 0:00:58It's not always been pretty, but it's made me who I am today
0:00:58 > 0:01:02and now I'm passing on my wisdom to you guys in a video blog.
0:01:02 > 0:01:07Pay attention, I've lived through all this so you don't have to.
0:01:08 > 0:01:13On the Tracy Beaker Survival Files this time, saying goodbye.
0:01:13 > 0:01:16How to deal with unexpected farewells and how to cope
0:01:16 > 0:01:20when you're the one saying the goodbyes.
0:01:23 > 0:01:25There's a lot in the Dumping Ground
0:01:25 > 0:01:28that can bring a tear to your eye, like Mike's cooking.
0:01:28 > 0:01:32SMOKE ALARM BEEPS
0:01:32 > 0:01:34Or Justine's fashion sense.
0:01:34 > 0:01:36As it's the front cover I'm going for, like,
0:01:36 > 0:01:38a moody yet vulnerable look.
0:01:38 > 0:01:41What do you think?
0:01:41 > 0:01:44But if there's one thing that's always guaranteed
0:01:44 > 0:01:47to bring on my hay fever, it's people saying goodbye.
0:01:47 > 0:01:49Bye, then.
0:01:49 > 0:01:51Yeah, bye, Peter.
0:01:56 > 0:02:00That's the Dumping Ground for you. There's that many comings and goings
0:02:00 > 0:02:03they should install a revolving door.
0:02:05 > 0:02:08Don't forget me!
0:02:10 > 0:02:13Yep, goodbyes are often tough, but the worse ones, I think,
0:02:13 > 0:02:18are those that take you by surprise when you've got no time to prepare.
0:02:19 > 0:02:23That happens a lot in this place. Everything's going along fine
0:02:23 > 0:02:27and then suddenly someone has important news.
0:02:27 > 0:02:29Right, girls, stop it.
0:02:29 > 0:02:34Settle down, all gather round. Mike's got something
0:02:34 > 0:02:37- he wants to talk to us about. - Whatever it was, I didn't do it.
0:02:37 > 0:02:39Nobody's in trouble.
0:02:40 > 0:02:46I've been asked to be an emergency replacement at a bigger care home.
0:02:46 > 0:02:50Someone had to leave suddenly, they've asked Mike to step in.
0:02:50 > 0:02:53- For how long?- It's permanent.
0:02:53 > 0:02:55When are you leaving?
0:02:57 > 0:03:00They say they need me for Monday.
0:03:00 > 0:03:03But this is your weekend off here!
0:03:03 > 0:03:06This is going to be Mike's last day here.
0:03:10 > 0:03:13Sorry it's so sudden, guys, nobody knew until the last minute.
0:03:13 > 0:03:17We're all going to miss Mike, but this is a great opportunity for him.
0:03:17 > 0:03:20So let's all wish him lots of luck.
0:03:20 > 0:03:24'I couldn't believe it. How could Mike be so selfish?
0:03:24 > 0:03:27'How could he leave me? I mean us. I was gutted!
0:03:27 > 0:03:31'Not that anyone could have guessed(!)'
0:03:31 > 0:03:34Taking that job was one of the toughest decisions of my life.
0:03:34 > 0:03:38- It was hard to leave you all. - We know. That's why we all made
0:03:38 > 0:03:41- such an effort to make things easier for you.- Really(?)
0:03:41 > 0:03:45Yeah, by being supportive, and stuff, so you knew
0:03:45 > 0:03:47we were all right behind you.
0:03:47 > 0:03:51Hang on, possibly it's my old man memory here,
0:03:51 > 0:03:54but I remember things slightly differently.
0:03:54 > 0:03:56About my leaving. There wasn't any time...
0:03:56 > 0:04:00- Is this a face of someone who cares? - I care if you're upset.
0:04:00 > 0:04:03You get paid to care, Mr Care Worker. I don't!
0:04:03 > 0:04:05Ouch!
0:04:05 > 0:04:09And don't bother begging me to forgive you cos I'm not listening!
0:04:14 > 0:04:17Oh, are you still here?
0:04:17 > 0:04:19You really don't care about me, huh?
0:04:19 > 0:04:22Watch my lips.
0:04:22 > 0:04:23Ow!
0:04:23 > 0:04:25HEAVY THUD
0:04:29 > 0:04:32I'm really sorry, I do care, I didn't mean to hurt you!
0:04:32 > 0:04:36He-he, got you! All right, OK.
0:04:36 > 0:04:40Ah, the old falling-down-with-the slamming-door-in-the-face routine,
0:04:40 > 0:04:41always a winner.
0:04:41 > 0:04:45Hm, some care experts might say you should have been focusing
0:04:45 > 0:04:47on the grieving children you were leaving behind?
0:04:47 > 0:04:50- Instead of doing circus tricks. - I was lightening the mood!
0:04:50 > 0:04:52You can't put a price on morale.
0:04:52 > 0:04:57Sometimes change can be good. Makes life interesting, anyway.
0:04:57 > 0:05:00So you're leaving us because we're boring and you want a change?
0:05:00 > 0:05:02You're definitely not boring.
0:05:02 > 0:05:05Look, if someone moves on, doesn't mean they're going to forget you.
0:05:05 > 0:05:07Everyone forgets Dumping Ground kids.
0:05:07 > 0:05:11I won't. I promise.
0:05:11 > 0:05:15I kept my word. I didn't forget you. I came back, didn't I?
0:05:15 > 0:05:18Yeah, why did you do that?
0:05:18 > 0:05:21I thought to myself, Trixie Becker and the others need me...
0:05:21 > 0:05:24- Ha, very funny.- ..And my cooking.
0:05:24 > 0:05:26- Now that IS funny.- Thank you.
0:05:26 > 0:05:29Dinner is served!
0:05:29 > 0:05:32- Urgh!- What is it?
0:05:32 > 0:05:35It's mystery stew.
0:05:35 > 0:05:36What's in it?
0:05:36 > 0:05:38That's the mystery.
0:05:38 > 0:05:41'Yeah, I suppose when you went away, it did have its upside.'
0:05:41 > 0:05:45can see now that it was hard for Mike telling us he was leaving,
0:05:45 > 0:05:49but compared with some others who have moved on from this place,
0:05:49 > 0:05:50he had it easy.
0:05:50 > 0:05:52# Bye, bye baby, don't make me cry. #
0:05:52 > 0:05:55When Chantal Wellard was leaving to go and live with her dad,
0:05:55 > 0:05:57she knew her brother and sister
0:05:57 > 0:05:59would hit the roof when she told them.
0:05:59 > 0:06:04So she came up with the perfect solution...
0:06:04 > 0:06:07she didn't tell them.
0:06:07 > 0:06:09How are Rio and Roxy taking it?
0:06:09 > 0:06:12- I haven't told them yet. - Would you like me to talk to them?
0:06:12 > 0:06:13BOTH: No!
0:06:13 > 0:06:16I can't say I blame Chantal for keeping it quiet,
0:06:16 > 0:06:20nobody wanted to upset Rio and Roxy Wellard.
0:06:20 > 0:06:23It was worse for your health than eating Mike's mystery stew
0:06:23 > 0:06:27but, of course, they had to find out eventually.
0:06:27 > 0:06:28Rio?
0:06:28 > 0:06:30Thanks for telling me.
0:06:30 > 0:06:33- I didn't know how to. - Everyone's pointing and laughing,
0:06:33 > 0:06:36- Rio's the last to know, made me feel great!- Sorry.- Some loser wants
0:06:36 > 0:06:39to play happy families and you can't get away fast enough!
0:06:39 > 0:06:42- He's my dad, he wants to try again. - He's useless. All our dad's
0:06:42 > 0:06:46- have been useless. That's why we're here.- I'll come and visit.
0:06:46 > 0:06:50Don't bother! I never want to see you again, ever.
0:06:50 > 0:06:53This was not going well and, worst of all,
0:06:53 > 0:06:56I wasn't around to sort things out.
0:06:56 > 0:07:00I was on holiday in Egypt with a love struck Cam,
0:07:00 > 0:07:02So this time the Dumping Ground
0:07:02 > 0:07:05young people had to sort out their own problems.
0:07:05 > 0:07:09'Luckily, I trained Crash well.'
0:07:09 > 0:07:13Listen, she'll always be your sister, wherever she is,
0:07:13 > 0:07:16no-one can take that away from you.
0:07:16 > 0:07:20'And even Justine Littlewood did her bit, for once.'
0:07:20 > 0:07:23Don't tell me - hay fever?
0:07:23 > 0:07:25No, chopping onions.
0:07:25 > 0:07:29Right. Must have been some onion?
0:07:29 > 0:07:33Chantal can't go, she's the only family we've got.
0:07:33 > 0:07:38It's OK, it'll all work out.
0:07:38 > 0:07:40What, like it did for you?
0:07:41 > 0:07:43Point taken.
0:07:43 > 0:07:47I'm sorry, it's just, I'm scared Chantal will forget about us.
0:07:48 > 0:07:53I was told the Wellards weren't scared of anything.
0:07:53 > 0:07:56Finally the big moment arrived, and guess what?
0:07:56 > 0:07:59An unexpected twist in the tale. You almost come
0:07:59 > 0:08:02to expect them in this place. Chantal suddenly changed her mind.
0:08:02 > 0:08:05You know what? I can't go.
0:08:05 > 0:08:08Course you can.
0:08:08 > 0:08:11We're family, we always will be.
0:08:12 > 0:08:13Chantal?
0:08:15 > 0:08:18Everyone, this is my dad.
0:08:18 > 0:08:20ALL: Hello.
0:08:20 > 0:08:23Hey you, baldy, look after her.
0:08:23 > 0:08:26- Or you'll have us to deal with. - We're the Wellards.
0:08:26 > 0:08:28BOTH: And we know where you live!
0:08:28 > 0:08:32Whoa, I bet the poor man couldn't wait
0:08:32 > 0:08:34to say his goodbyes and get out.
0:08:36 > 0:08:40Saying goodbye is unpredictable. Sometimes you don't feel a lot,
0:08:40 > 0:08:44sometimes it's like being kicked in the stomach hard. Just ask Johnny.
0:08:44 > 0:08:48He learnt the hard way when he had to say goodbye to Tee.
0:08:48 > 0:08:50Go on, Tee, you've got to go.
0:08:53 > 0:08:54Jump in.
0:08:57 > 0:08:59I always said goodbyes didn't bother me.
0:08:59 > 0:09:03People came and went, you just got on with life, you get used to it.
0:09:03 > 0:09:04But not any more?
0:09:04 > 0:09:09When Tee went to live with the Watsons, it was different.
0:09:09 > 0:09:11'Johnny doesn't like anyone to see that he's hurting,
0:09:11 > 0:09:15'but when Tee left we all knew exactly what he was going through.
0:09:15 > 0:09:16'And he knew that we knew.
0:09:16 > 0:09:21'So he was even more determined to keep his feelings to himself.'
0:09:21 > 0:09:25It was the right thing to do but I miss Tee more than I thought I would.
0:09:25 > 0:09:27It was so hard leaving Johnny behind.
0:09:27 > 0:09:30I just wanted Tee to be happy.
0:09:30 > 0:09:33I wouldn't be happy unless Johnny was OK, too.
0:09:33 > 0:09:38Of course, as it turned out, they weren't saying goodbye for long.
0:09:38 > 0:09:42Tee's dream move to live with the Watsons didn't work out,
0:09:42 > 0:09:45so this goodbye was soon followed with a hello.
0:09:45 > 0:09:47Welcome back, Tee.
0:09:47 > 0:09:48Thank you.
0:09:50 > 0:09:51I'll see you soon.
0:09:51 > 0:09:53Anna?
0:09:53 > 0:09:55I was happy to be coming back
0:09:55 > 0:09:59but I had to say goodbye again to Hannah and the Watsons.
0:09:59 > 0:10:01I suppose it was rubbish for Hannah too,
0:10:01 > 0:10:04having to say goodbye to Tee, but I wasn't bothered about that.
0:10:04 > 0:10:06I was just so happy she was back.
0:10:06 > 0:10:10How you doing? Your room is just as you left it.
0:10:16 > 0:10:19But saying goodbye isn't just about whether you go or not,
0:10:19 > 0:10:21it's also about how to go.
0:10:21 > 0:10:24Should you just slip away, or make a big fuss about it?
0:10:24 > 0:10:27Do you take loads of stuff with you to remind you of the old days?
0:10:27 > 0:10:30Or cut all ties for a completely fresh start?
0:10:30 > 0:10:34When Louise got fostered, she had to make all these choices
0:10:34 > 0:10:38before she left the Dumping Ground for ever.
0:10:38 > 0:10:40You can't just leave everything behind you.
0:10:40 > 0:10:43It's like you're pretending you were never here.
0:10:43 > 0:10:46I won't forget the Dumping Ground, Justine, I'll think of it
0:10:46 > 0:10:50- every time I have a nightmare. - But what about all the good times?
0:10:50 > 0:10:54All the fights and disappointments? People laughing at you at school
0:10:54 > 0:10:56because you wear rubbish clothes
0:10:56 > 0:10:59and live in a stinky children's home with...
0:11:00 > 0:11:02Stinky children?
0:11:06 > 0:11:08I don't stink! I smell of cornflakes.
0:11:12 > 0:11:15Louise was confused. She couldn't wait to get out
0:11:15 > 0:11:18of the Dumping Ground and yet she couldn't bear to leave.
0:11:18 > 0:11:21What she needed was a clued up, brilliant and imaginative mate
0:11:21 > 0:11:24who understood just how she was feeling.
0:11:25 > 0:11:28'Yep, luckily for her, I was on the case.'
0:11:30 > 0:11:32Never mind, Lou, I know what it's like.
0:11:32 > 0:11:37It's just I want to go without any fuss, without anyone getting upset.
0:11:37 > 0:11:40Lou, that was never going to happen. Not here.
0:11:40 > 0:11:43People get upset when Duke buys the wrong kind of beans.
0:11:43 > 0:11:47You should make as much fuss as possible.
0:11:49 > 0:11:53Is that all your Dumping Ground rubbish?
0:11:53 > 0:11:56It's just stuff that reminds me of...stuff.
0:11:58 > 0:12:01We should have a ceremony. Set fire to it all!
0:12:02 > 0:12:06No, better not. Wait, yes!
0:12:07 > 0:12:11And we come to lot 12 in the Louise Govern leaving auction.
0:12:12 > 0:12:17An exercise book containing some very disturbing drawings of members
0:12:17 > 0:12:20of the Dumping Ground staff. What am I bid?
0:12:20 > 0:12:23I'll take charge of that, thank you very much.
0:12:23 > 0:12:26Sold to the lovely lady in the cheap cardigan.
0:12:26 > 0:12:30To our next item, a monster mask.
0:12:30 > 0:12:32I'll have that!
0:12:32 > 0:12:35Very nice, I'm afraid that this item has suddenly been
0:12:35 > 0:12:37withdrawn from the sale.
0:12:37 > 0:12:40- What?!- I wanted that.
0:12:40 > 0:12:43Just taking my fee!
0:12:43 > 0:12:47To our last item, a small, battered teddy bear named...
0:12:47 > 0:12:51- Tony.- Tony Bear.
0:12:51 > 0:12:54'The auction had been a triumph and it was nearly over.
0:12:54 > 0:12:58'One more item to shift and it would be time for Louise to go.'
0:12:58 > 0:12:59He's cute!
0:12:59 > 0:13:02Any advances on cute?
0:13:02 > 0:13:06No! I mean, I don't want to give him away.
0:13:06 > 0:13:08I remember, it was a present from the staff.
0:13:08 > 0:13:11It was her first Christmas, she cried for hours.
0:13:11 > 0:13:15I... I don't want to leave.
0:13:15 > 0:13:17Louise,
0:13:17 > 0:13:21you're talking like a crazy person, you have to leave.
0:13:21 > 0:13:25Yeah, I mean if someone as boring as you can get fostered,
0:13:25 > 0:13:27then there's hope for all of us.
0:13:27 > 0:13:28Tracy!
0:13:28 > 0:13:31Tracy!
0:13:31 > 0:13:33Possibly not my most sensitive moment ever
0:13:33 > 0:13:37but after that Louise seemed much happier about leaving us all.
0:13:37 > 0:13:39Once again, I'd helped somebody deal
0:13:39 > 0:13:42with the total rubbishness of saying goodbye. I hope she was grateful.
0:13:52 > 0:13:55So what have we learned about goodbyes
0:13:55 > 0:13:57to put in the survival files?
0:13:57 > 0:13:59Well, they're a part of life that none of us can avoid
0:13:59 > 0:14:02and they can be really hard to deal with.
0:14:02 > 0:14:05Most people don't like change, especially if it means
0:14:05 > 0:14:07saying goodbye to someone that means a lot to you,
0:14:07 > 0:14:10and it can be even worse if it's unexpected.
0:14:10 > 0:14:13It's usual to feel a bit down when someone goes,
0:14:13 > 0:14:17because it's a big deal. That's why it's good to have a party
0:14:17 > 0:14:20or presents and stuff. It can really cheer you up.
0:14:20 > 0:14:25But when you leave somewhere, say if you're moving house or school,
0:14:25 > 0:14:27it doesn't mean that part of your life is over.
0:14:27 > 0:14:30Make plans to keep in touch with your old friends if you can
0:14:30 > 0:14:33and you will always have your memories,
0:14:33 > 0:14:35there's no need to say goodbye to them.
0:14:41 > 0:14:43So it can feel rubbish when people leave you,
0:14:43 > 0:14:45but what if you're the one making tracks?
0:14:45 > 0:14:48That's happened to me a lot. I've left the Dumping Ground
0:14:48 > 0:14:51more often than Mike and Duke have made lukewarm dinners.
0:14:53 > 0:14:56Bye, bye, have a great time. Come on!
0:14:57 > 0:14:59I never want to see you again!
0:14:59 > 0:15:01'But sooner or later, I always came back.'
0:15:01 > 0:15:04I hate your half-dozen brain cells for rubbing together.
0:15:04 > 0:15:06If you're having headaches
0:15:06 > 0:15:08wondering why I came back, it's because I wanted to!
0:15:08 > 0:15:11- 'And then left again.' - What are you doing?
0:15:11 > 0:15:13I'm going to live with Cam, since nobody wants me here.
0:15:13 > 0:15:16Don't you think Cam might want a say in that?
0:15:16 > 0:15:18No, it'll be a lovely surprise for her.
0:15:18 > 0:15:21'And then... Well, you get the idea.'
0:15:23 > 0:15:27- Tracy! How nice to see you. - Believe me, it's great to be here.
0:15:27 > 0:15:28There was this one time
0:15:28 > 0:15:31when I thought I was finally going for good.
0:15:31 > 0:15:33No, not back to Cam's yet again, for once.
0:15:33 > 0:15:36I thought I'd found the foster parents of my dreams.
0:15:36 > 0:15:40- They want what?!- It's true, Ben's aunt and uncle want you to think
0:15:40 > 0:15:41about them maybe fostering you.
0:15:43 > 0:15:45Tracy!
0:15:47 > 0:15:50- I can see this is bit of a shock. - Thank you, Elaine, thank you.
0:15:50 > 0:15:54For realising at last that your job was to find me rich,
0:15:54 > 0:15:56good-looking, foster parents.
0:16:00 > 0:16:03It hadn't been working out with Cam, I'd been bouncing
0:16:03 > 0:16:06like a yoyo between her place and the Dumping Ground,
0:16:06 > 0:16:09but now I had the chance of a fresh start with Kate and Jasper.
0:16:09 > 0:16:14# I'm on my way, from misery To happiness today. #
0:16:14 > 0:16:16'And it looked like money was no object.'
0:16:16 > 0:16:18The other kids are mad with jealousy.
0:16:18 > 0:16:21Make out to them you're going to buy me heaps of stuff.
0:16:21 > 0:16:25He's been looking for an excuse to buy the latest computer game.
0:16:25 > 0:16:26This is going to be great.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29And going to Scotland? You wouldn't mind?
0:16:29 > 0:16:33Scotland? I'd prefer to go somewhere hot, with a beach and...
0:16:33 > 0:16:34Scotland it is, I'm afraid.
0:16:34 > 0:16:38It'll be great. We can check out the Loch Ness monster's hang-out!
0:16:38 > 0:16:40BAGPIPE MUSIC
0:16:45 > 0:16:49It just got better and better. Loads of holidays, too.
0:16:49 > 0:16:52Today Scotland, tomorrow the world, especially the sunny bits.
0:16:52 > 0:16:56As for Cam? I thought she'd be glad to get rid of me.
0:16:56 > 0:17:01I wish I could say let's try again, but...I'm sorry.
0:17:04 > 0:17:06It's OK.
0:17:06 > 0:17:10I do want to be your friend, always.
0:17:14 > 0:17:18It was hard, the thought of saying goodbye to you, Tracy.
0:17:18 > 0:17:21Yeah, but at the time I didn't really get
0:17:21 > 0:17:23why you were making such a fuss.
0:17:23 > 0:17:26That's because someone, a certain social worker,
0:17:26 > 0:17:28mentioning no names...
0:17:28 > 0:17:31Apart from pain, Elaine and 'the'.
0:17:31 > 0:17:34That anonymous someone had not told you the whole story.
0:17:34 > 0:17:37You didn't tell Tracy she was going to live in Scotland!
0:17:37 > 0:17:41'Live in Scotland? I hadn't expected that.'
0:17:41 > 0:17:44Suddenly everything turned upside down
0:17:44 > 0:17:47and I didn't know what I wanted anymore.
0:17:47 > 0:17:50But if I go to live in Scotland I wouldn't get to see you anymore.
0:17:50 > 0:17:56If you want to stay with your friends...with Cam...
0:17:57 > 0:17:59..we'll understand.
0:17:59 > 0:18:02But I don't know what to do! Tell me what to do!
0:18:02 > 0:18:06if you were a true friend you'd tell me what to do.
0:18:12 > 0:18:15You are getting a very special kid.
0:18:15 > 0:18:19You better give her everything she's ever dreamed of
0:18:19 > 0:18:21or you'll have me to answer to.
0:18:29 > 0:18:33This wasn't, "Goodbye, see you in a couple of weeks."
0:18:33 > 0:18:36This was, "Goodbye, maybe not see you ever again ever."
0:18:36 > 0:18:37Cam could have lost me for good
0:18:37 > 0:18:41and she was just letting it happen. I had to know why.
0:18:47 > 0:18:49Cam!
0:18:57 > 0:19:01Some friend. You didn't even put up a fight for me!
0:19:01 > 0:19:03They're good people.
0:19:03 > 0:19:07Foster parents aren't all they're cracked up to be. You proved that.
0:19:12 > 0:19:15Of course I didn't want to lose you.
0:19:15 > 0:19:17You didn't exactly beg me not to go.
0:19:17 > 0:19:20I just wanted you to be happy, have the best life you could.
0:19:20 > 0:19:23Hundreds of miles away? That didn't bother you?
0:19:23 > 0:19:28It bothered me a lot, but I was thinking of you, not myself.
0:19:28 > 0:19:30'I had to make some big decisions.'
0:19:30 > 0:19:33I am going to go to Scotland with Kate and Jasper.
0:19:33 > 0:19:35'But really, it was a no-brainer.'
0:19:35 > 0:19:38For a holiday.
0:19:38 > 0:19:42Then I'm coming back home to the Dumping Ground.
0:19:42 > 0:19:44Looks like you're stuck with me now.
0:19:48 > 0:19:50I chose Scotland and the Dumping Ground,
0:19:50 > 0:19:52so there were no goodbyes just yet.
0:19:52 > 0:19:55Cam and the rest of them must have been relieved,
0:19:55 > 0:19:58bet they couldn't imagine this place without me.
0:19:58 > 0:20:01Although there was another time more recently when it looked like
0:20:01 > 0:20:03we were going to part for ever.
0:20:04 > 0:20:05Listen up.
0:20:07 > 0:20:11I've been offered a job in London as a junior reporter on a newspaper.
0:20:11 > 0:20:13Wow!
0:20:13 > 0:20:15So I'm leaving.
0:20:16 > 0:20:21Look, I've dreamt of this job ever since I lived here.
0:20:21 > 0:20:25I'm sorry, I can't turn it down. Means too much.
0:20:25 > 0:20:26Oh, and we don't?
0:20:26 > 0:20:29Well, that's put us in our place.
0:20:29 > 0:20:30I didn't mean it like that.
0:20:30 > 0:20:32Don't beat yourself up, Beaker,
0:20:32 > 0:20:36you're just one in a long line of care workers.
0:20:36 > 0:20:37Easy come, easy go.
0:20:37 > 0:20:39Bye, bye, Tracy.
0:20:39 > 0:20:41I'm not leaving yet.
0:20:41 > 0:20:45I always thought you'd understand when I got offered that writing job.
0:20:45 > 0:20:48You've always said that you can't wait to get out of here.
0:20:48 > 0:20:50Listen, I wasn't bothered that you were clearing off.
0:20:50 > 0:20:53I just thought that some of the younger ones might miss you.
0:20:53 > 0:20:56Jeff was really upset that you were going.
0:20:56 > 0:20:58But he tried not to show it.
0:20:58 > 0:21:02I didn't want you to go, nor did anyone else.
0:21:02 > 0:21:05I think that's why we all reacted the way we did.
0:21:05 > 0:21:09I think this is great. You can write about us all, make us all famous.
0:21:09 > 0:21:11Well, I don't know about famous,
0:21:11 > 0:21:14but I would like to write about you.
0:21:15 > 0:21:19I want you to tell me what it's like to be in care.
0:21:19 > 0:21:22- You already know what it's like to be in a care home.- Yeah, but
0:21:22 > 0:21:25the editor wants the article to be from your point of view.
0:21:25 > 0:21:27It's kind of a test.
0:21:27 > 0:21:31Hold on, hold on. You want to leave us, but you want our help?
0:21:31 > 0:21:33Sorry, Tracy, that sucks.
0:21:33 > 0:21:35Liam, please!
0:21:35 > 0:21:38You want out? Fine, go.
0:21:38 > 0:21:41You ain't getting my help.
0:21:41 > 0:21:43SAD MUSIC
0:21:57 > 0:21:59Carmen.
0:22:12 > 0:22:13Got it! Ow!
0:22:13 > 0:22:16You dropped a bombshell there.
0:22:16 > 0:22:19You know how it is. I try my best to keep it interesting.
0:22:19 > 0:22:23Well, it worked. You shook this place up.
0:22:23 > 0:22:27You are just using us so you can move on to something better.
0:22:27 > 0:22:30Is that what you all think?
0:22:30 > 0:22:35You promised me you would help me get back with Poppy and Rosie.
0:22:35 > 0:22:36Lily, I'm sorry.
0:22:45 > 0:22:49Guys, we're all in his together.
0:22:49 > 0:22:52No-one helps.
0:22:52 > 0:22:56Not good. To move on to my new job, I needed to do those interviews
0:22:56 > 0:22:58and the kids weren't even talking to me.
0:22:58 > 0:23:00Without their help, I couldn't go.
0:23:00 > 0:23:05But now they hated me so much I didn't want to stay. What a mess.
0:23:05 > 0:23:08'And then, on top of everything, my laptop went missing.'
0:23:08 > 0:23:10You sure you haven't seen it?
0:23:10 > 0:23:12I don't want to get Mike and Gina involved in this.
0:23:12 > 0:23:16Don't threaten me, I ain't seen your skanky laptop! All right?
0:23:16 > 0:23:18I never said that you had!
0:23:18 > 0:23:22- Just cos you met me down the nick, doesn't mean I'm a thief.- I know!
0:23:22 > 0:23:25- Liam, please, will you just calm down?- I'll show you, yeah?
0:23:25 > 0:23:27I'll show you I ain't got your laptop.
0:23:27 > 0:23:29See your laptop anywhere, do ya?
0:23:29 > 0:23:31What's going on?
0:23:31 > 0:23:33- Have you asked her about your precious laptop?- No...
0:23:33 > 0:23:35No, cos I'm your prime suspect.
0:23:35 > 0:23:38- She's the one who handles stolen goods!- Bang out of order, Liam.
0:23:38 > 0:23:42Not from where I'm standing, it's not! Go on, have a pop at her.
0:23:42 > 0:23:45What are you having a go at me for? I'm not the enemy, she is!
0:23:45 > 0:23:49- Get out of my room, all of ya! - Wait!
0:23:49 > 0:23:50Look, I'm not stupid.
0:23:50 > 0:23:54I can see the damage that I've done by saying I want to leave.
0:23:54 > 0:23:56OK, so you won't help me with my article.
0:23:56 > 0:24:00Maybe it was unreasonable for me to ask.
0:24:00 > 0:24:03I'm obviously not going to get the job.
0:24:03 > 0:24:05But it's clear none of you lot want me here.
0:24:05 > 0:24:08So I might as well just leave anyway.
0:24:15 > 0:24:18But just when I thought I had blown it completely,
0:24:18 > 0:24:20something amazing happened.
0:24:20 > 0:24:22- So what's the first question?- Hm?
0:24:22 > 0:24:26'One by one, everyone decided to help out after all.'
0:24:26 > 0:24:28Thanks, guys.
0:24:28 > 0:24:29Where you going?
0:24:29 > 0:24:33- Well, I didn't think you'd want to be in here with me.- We don't mind.
0:24:33 > 0:24:35I came to do the interviews.
0:24:41 > 0:24:45- Only if you... - Promise not to tell the others?
0:24:45 > 0:24:46Yeah.
0:24:46 > 0:24:50- What made everyone change their minds?- Well, once we calmed
0:24:50 > 0:24:54down a bit, we realised that I guess we were being a bit selfish.
0:24:54 > 0:24:57Saff, that's really big of you to admit that.
0:24:57 > 0:24:58And plus we realised
0:24:58 > 0:25:02- that this was our one big chance to get shot of you for good!- Saff!
0:25:02 > 0:25:04I'm only joking.
0:25:04 > 0:25:05Maybe.
0:25:05 > 0:25:08So this was it, goodbye time.
0:25:08 > 0:25:11Nothing was holding me back from my new life.
0:25:12 > 0:25:16As long as I was up to the job.
0:25:16 > 0:25:20That's amusing.
0:25:20 > 0:25:21And that.
0:25:23 > 0:25:27Well, you've covered all the bases.
0:25:27 > 0:25:31Make 'em laugh, make 'em cry, there's social comment.
0:25:31 > 0:25:33But the big question is,
0:25:33 > 0:25:38is it good enough to get you a full-time job on the paper?
0:25:38 > 0:25:42'The moment I'd been waiting for all my life had arrived.'
0:25:42 > 0:25:47Were all my dreams of being a writer about to finally come true?
0:25:47 > 0:25:49Tracy!
0:25:52 > 0:25:54Did you get it?
0:25:57 > 0:25:59Yes!
0:25:59 > 0:26:00Well done, Tracy.
0:26:00 > 0:26:03But...
0:26:03 > 0:26:04I didn't take it.
0:26:04 > 0:26:06- Why?- What?
0:26:06 > 0:26:08I thought I'd miss you guys too much.
0:26:08 > 0:26:10So you're staying?
0:26:10 > 0:26:13If Mike will have me?
0:26:15 > 0:26:18Yes! He-he!
0:26:18 > 0:26:22It was a great job, but I already had one of those, so I decided
0:26:22 > 0:26:26to stay here a little bit longer. But goodbyes are a part of life
0:26:26 > 0:26:29and I know that one day I will say goodbye to this place for good.
0:26:29 > 0:26:32But at least I've had plenty of practice. Who knows?
0:26:32 > 0:26:35Maybe when the time comes, I'll finally get it right.
0:26:41 > 0:26:44So what have we learnt about goodbyes
0:26:44 > 0:26:46to put into my survival files?
0:26:46 > 0:26:48Well, saying goodbyes can be a big deal
0:26:48 > 0:26:52and just how much of a big deal can take you by surprise.
0:26:52 > 0:26:53And that can be equally true
0:26:53 > 0:26:57if you're the one leaving or the one being left behind.
0:26:57 > 0:26:59There's a bit on all of us
0:26:59 > 0:27:02that doesn't really like things to change,
0:27:02 > 0:27:05so when you've got used to someone being around,
0:27:05 > 0:27:06it can be tough to see them go.
0:27:06 > 0:27:10But moving on from time to time is just part of life.
0:27:10 > 0:27:13None of us can stay in the same place doing the same thing for ever.
0:27:13 > 0:27:17If you are leaving and are worried how others might react,
0:27:17 > 0:27:19don't beat around the bush like Chantal did,
0:27:19 > 0:27:23it's better to get these things out in the open so everyone can start
0:27:23 > 0:27:26to get used to the new situation. When it comes to saying goodbye,
0:27:26 > 0:27:31it's good to mark the occasion with a party or leaving presents.
0:27:31 > 0:27:34That can turn what might be a sad day into a happy occasion.
0:27:37 > 0:27:40So that's the Beaker guide to goodbyes safely uploaded
0:27:40 > 0:27:45to the Tracey Beaker Survival Files.
0:27:46 > 0:27:50And they'll be plenty more gems of wisdom from my experiences
0:27:50 > 0:27:51next time we say hello.
0:27:51 > 0:27:55Remember, I've been through all this so you don't have to.
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