Searching for the Wrong-Eyed Jesus

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1:01:01 > 1:01:05# Welcome to my world... #

1:01:05 > 1:01:08MUSIC FADES

1:01:09 > 1:01:12CACOPHONY OF VOICES

1:01:22 > 1:01:25GUITAR MUSIC PLAYS

1:01:28 > 1:01:32BOY: Do you know what you're looking for?

1:01:38 > 1:01:41Do you think this place is on a map?

1:01:47 > 1:01:50Do they have roads you can walk down?

1:01:53 > 1:01:58- JIM WHITE: - # I was shacked up down in Mobile with a girl from New York City

1:02:04 > 1:02:10# She woke me up one night to tell me that we weren't alone... #

1:02:10 > 1:02:12BOY: Will you know it when you see it?

1:02:15 > 1:02:21# She said she saw the ghost of a woman staring at me

1:02:26 > 1:02:28# I told her not to worry

1:02:28 > 1:02:32# But in the morning when I woke up

1:02:32 > 1:02:34# She was gone

1:02:38 > 1:02:44# So I headed on to Florida where I tangled with some sailors

1:02:49 > 1:02:55# As I lay bloodied on the wharf I cursed the ship they sailed on

1:03:00 > 1:03:06# Wouldn't you know 24 hours later that ship sank into the ocean

1:03:11 > 1:03:19# Disappearing like an unwanted memory beneath the waves

1:03:23 > 1:03:28# I guess it's cos still waters run

1:03:28 > 1:03:31# Run deep in me

1:03:31 > 1:03:33# Cos I've this crazy way... #

1:03:33 > 1:03:36MUSIC IS DROWNED BY ENGINES

1:03:43 > 1:03:46- Hi.- Turn it off.

1:03:48 > 1:03:50What's up, man?

1:03:57 > 1:04:01# ..And I was woke up just before dawn... #

1:04:01 > 1:04:03I've got a favour to ask you.

1:04:04 > 1:04:07- I got some buddies of mine...- Yeah?

1:04:07 > 1:04:11..and they kinda want to ride around the South a little bit...

1:04:15 > 1:04:20Seems to me, if you want to come and infiltrate the South

1:04:20 > 1:04:23and learn something important about it,

1:04:23 > 1:04:25you're gonna need the right car.

1:04:25 > 1:04:29You can't show up in some Land Rover or Lexus

1:04:29 > 1:04:34and expect poor folks to talk to you, tell you what's in their heart.

1:04:34 > 1:04:36I got this buddy, he's got a...

1:04:36 > 1:04:39he's got a lot of cars.

1:04:39 > 1:04:46There's one in particular I've got in mind which I think would be good for you. It's a 1970 Chevy...

1:04:46 > 1:04:48good big engine in it.

1:04:48 > 1:04:53Problem is...it belongs to Jimmy Tuck, and Jimmy's kinda possessive about his cars.

1:04:53 > 1:04:59They're kinda like women to him, it's like part of his harem, like he's a sheikh.

1:04:59 > 1:05:02- Hey, Jimmy.- Yeah? What about 100?

1:05:02 > 1:05:04100 a day.

1:05:04 > 1:05:06MUSIC PLAYS FAINTLY

1:05:20 > 1:05:24# ..Providence will stoop down just to save me

1:05:27 > 1:05:31# And it's all because still waters run

1:05:32 > 1:05:34# Run deep in me

1:05:34 > 1:05:37# And I've got this crazy way... #

1:05:41 > 1:05:45See, I was dragged to the South when I was five years of age

1:05:45 > 1:05:48from southern California.

1:05:48 > 1:05:50And I resisted...

1:05:50 > 1:05:54The immensity of the South, I just resisted it,

1:05:54 > 1:05:57because it's an overpowering culture.

1:05:57 > 1:06:04I desperately wanted to leave from the age of about 13. I just couldn't figure out how to do it.

1:06:04 > 1:06:06See that swamp there?

1:06:06 > 1:06:09I couldn't see the beauty in it.

1:06:09 > 1:06:13You see, when you're growing up in this,

1:06:13 > 1:06:17it seems like there's a blanket over the whole world.

1:06:18 > 1:06:20It feels like...

1:06:20 > 1:06:25like Gulliver when the Lilliputians tied him down. You feel tied down.

1:06:25 > 1:06:28When I left the South,

1:06:28 > 1:06:33I'd get some place like Amsterdam, Holland or Tel Aviv, Israel,

1:06:33 > 1:06:38or some place like that, and suddenly it'd smell like the South.

1:06:38 > 1:06:41Someone would say something or I'd see a tree...

1:06:41 > 1:06:45or some gentle moment would sneak up on me

1:06:45 > 1:06:51and I would remember... the value of what I couldn't find when I was here.

1:06:51 > 1:06:55Until you've walked away from it, you can't see it.

1:06:55 > 1:07:01I decided to come back to the South and...become a Southerner...

1:07:01 > 1:07:05as best I can. I will never BE a Southerner.

1:07:05 > 1:07:09I'll be...an imitation of a Southerner. But, in a way,

1:07:09 > 1:07:14I feel like that brings me closer to God, cos I've chosen...

1:07:16 > 1:07:22It's almost like a form of divinity. I've chosen my divinity rather than my divinity choosing me.

1:07:23 > 1:07:28Man, they've got some good garbage here.

1:07:29 > 1:07:31They've got some good stuff.

1:07:31 > 1:07:37They've got corrugated tin sitting on the side of the road, used carpet...

1:07:38 > 1:07:43Some fine lumber in there... Good Lord, that's a big old bookcase!

1:07:45 > 1:07:48That's my kind of road.

1:07:48 > 1:07:50A junkyard road.

1:07:50 > 1:07:53CAT POWER SINGS "Cross Bones Style"

1:07:54 > 1:07:58# Child, come and rescue me

1:07:59 > 1:08:03# Cos you have seen

1:08:03 > 1:08:09# Some unbelievable things... #

1:08:27 > 1:08:30Don't need no guns.

1:08:30 > 1:08:33HE CHUCKLES

1:08:34 > 1:08:37How much are you asking for it?

1:08:37 > 1:08:41500. MORE LAUGHTER

1:08:41 > 1:08:43I'll give you 60 for it.

1:08:43 > 1:08:46- 65.- All right.

1:08:46 > 1:08:50All right. You gotta help me put it in the trunk, though.

1:08:50 > 1:08:54- All right.- It's not heavy, is it? - Yes.

1:08:54 > 1:09:00# ..You have seen some unbelievable things... #

1:09:05 > 1:09:08GUITAR PLAYS: "Murder" by Johnny Dowd

1:09:24 > 1:09:27# There's been a murder here today

1:09:27 > 1:09:31# The blood stains are on the walls

1:09:33 > 1:09:35# There's been a murder here today

1:09:35 > 1:09:39# Blood stains on the walls

1:09:41 > 1:09:44# There's a body in a bedroom

1:09:44 > 1:09:48# And another one in the hall

1:09:49 > 1:09:52# I said, "Murder"

1:09:53 > 1:09:55# I said, "Murder"

1:09:57 > 1:09:59# I said, "Murder"... #

1:10:17 > 1:10:22So, we were riding fast, night time, we were high as hell.

1:10:22 > 1:10:28Earl was riding on the hood with a hatchet in his hand in case he saw the warlocks...

1:10:28 > 1:10:32and a tree was coming up with a low overhang.

1:10:33 > 1:10:37He swung that axe at the limb, a big live oak limb,

1:10:37 > 1:10:42and the axe hung and Earl just disappeared off the hood.

1:10:42 > 1:10:45We were going 30mph when he did it.

1:10:45 > 1:10:48It looked like the warlocks got him!

1:10:48 > 1:10:55It turns out he was so high and so drunk that he'd held onto the axe handle and it pulled him off

1:10:55 > 1:11:00and he was laying in the middle of the road laughing like hell.

1:11:00 > 1:11:05Most people it would kill, but he was one of them tough, insane Louisiana people.

1:11:05 > 1:11:10I guess he's either dead or in prison now.

1:11:10 > 1:11:15Probably grew up in a nice little house like that there,

1:11:15 > 1:11:17broke his mama's heart.

1:11:20 > 1:11:24# Oh, alone I took to drinking

1:11:27 > 1:11:31# Bottles of cheap whiskey

1:11:31 > 1:11:34# And staggering through the backwoods

1:11:34 > 1:11:37# Killing snakes with a sharpened stick... #

1:11:37 > 1:11:43Everybody will tell you the South's not a place, it's a state of mind. I think the South is an atmosphere.

1:11:43 > 1:11:47# ..Every creature casts a shadow

1:11:47 > 1:11:52# Under the sun's golden finger... #

1:11:52 > 1:11:54I used to live in New York City

1:11:54 > 1:12:00and I'd ride my bike over that damn Brooklyn bridge every day.

1:12:00 > 1:12:02There was a white line on it

1:12:02 > 1:12:07and I used to try and get my bike to sit right on the white line,

1:12:07 > 1:12:13going at 40mph, I'd try to get my bike on the white line, the tyre to touch it.

1:12:13 > 1:12:18And I noticed that, if I looked down directly at my tyre,

1:12:18 > 1:12:20I could never keep it on the line.

1:12:20 > 1:12:25But if I looked up and sort of glazed my view of things,

1:12:25 > 1:12:27I could keep it on the white line.

1:12:27 > 1:12:32It was peculiar. I reckon, if you look directly at something,

1:12:32 > 1:12:34it's...

1:12:34 > 1:12:37inapprehendible.

1:12:37 > 1:12:39Sometimes you've got to look away

1:12:39 > 1:12:43before you can...achieve something.

1:12:43 > 1:12:47You don't see the South when you ride along the interstate.

1:12:47 > 1:12:52You pull off and there's Cracker Barrel Oil or Dillard's or whatever.

1:12:52 > 1:12:56But you go five or ten miles off the interstate

1:12:56 > 1:13:01and you get to the South as it was 50 years ago or 100 years ago.

1:13:01 > 1:13:04You can't do that in many places.

1:13:04 > 1:13:09# ..Every creature casts a shadow

1:13:09 > 1:13:15# Under the sun's golden finger

1:13:15 > 1:13:20# But when the sun sinks past the waving grass

1:13:20 > 1:13:26# Some shadows are dragged along. #

1:13:28 > 1:13:33# Christ in the cradle It's a wintry day

1:13:34 > 1:13:39# Walking to church in the pouring rain

1:13:39 > 1:13:44# I've got the heirs of Eve and the mark of Cain

1:13:44 > 1:13:49# But I can't get free of this being born stain. #

1:14:01 > 1:14:04See, when I was a boy,

1:14:04 > 1:14:06a Sears Roebuck catalogue,

1:14:06 > 1:14:11a great thick thing, came to everybody's mailbox in the South.

1:14:11 > 1:14:17The first thing that struck us was everybody in the Sears Roebuck catalogue was perfect.

1:14:17 > 1:14:22There weren't any bald heads. Everybody had all their fingers.

1:14:22 > 1:14:26Nobody had any open and running sores on their bodies.

1:14:26 > 1:14:30But everybody we knew had a finger missing

1:14:30 > 1:14:34or one eye put out from a staple glancing off a post.

1:14:35 > 1:14:39In other words, in our world, everybody was maimed and mutilated,

1:14:39 > 1:14:44whereas everybody in a Sears Roebuck catalogue world was perfect.

1:14:44 > 1:14:51And so, we started to tell stories about the people, give 'em names, said where they was from.

1:14:51 > 1:14:55We'd turn over and see this young girl standing in a spring frock

1:14:55 > 1:15:00and say, "See this girl here? She is the daughter of him standing here..."

1:15:00 > 1:15:06We'd turn about 40 pages back. "Him standing with his shotgun, that's her daddy.

1:15:06 > 1:15:11"You know how come he's looking kinda startled there like that?

1:15:11 > 1:15:18"It's because this fella over here in this green suit with the sharp creases in it,

1:15:18 > 1:15:24"he's seeing that girl, his daughter, and he's doing her wrong, being nasty.

1:15:24 > 1:15:30"And he's gonna fix that fella, he's gonna fix him good. Probably gonna kill him."

1:15:30 > 1:15:36And before it was over, we had everybody related, fighting, feuding and the rest of it.

1:15:36 > 1:15:42BANJO PLAYS # I'm just a poor wayfaring stranger

1:15:42 > 1:15:46# Travelling through this world of woe

1:15:46 > 1:15:50# Ain't no sickness, toil or danger

1:15:50 > 1:15:53# In that bright land to which I go

1:15:53 > 1:15:58# I'm going there to see my father

1:15:58 > 1:16:02# Said he'd meet me when I come

1:16:02 > 1:16:06# I'm only going over Jordan

1:16:06 > 1:16:10# I'm only going over home... #

1:16:23 > 1:16:27# I know dark clouds are gonna gather round me

1:16:27 > 1:16:31# I know my way be rough and steep

1:16:31 > 1:16:36# Yet beautiful fields lie just before me

1:16:36 > 1:16:40# Where God's redeemed their vigils keep

1:16:40 > 1:16:45# I'm going there to see my loved ones

1:16:45 > 1:16:49# They've gone before me one by one

1:16:49 > 1:16:53# I'm only going over Jordan

1:16:53 > 1:16:57# I'm only going over home... #

1:17:11 > 1:17:16My ma let my brother, who's older than I am,

1:17:16 > 1:17:22and my cousins, catch some birds and keep 'em in the house, in a little room.

1:17:22 > 1:17:27One night, Annie, as she sat in that rocker, she hasn't said anything.

1:17:27 > 1:17:33It's too quiet, too still, hearing them trees and that wind, and her being quiet and I said, "What is it?"

1:17:33 > 1:17:38She said nothing. I said, "What is it, Annie?" She said, "Them birds."

1:17:38 > 1:17:41I said, "What about them birds?"

1:17:41 > 1:17:47She said, "Them birds. You don't know it, young 'un, but a bird can spit."

1:17:47 > 1:17:51I said, "What?" She said, "He can spit, open his mouth and spit.

1:17:51 > 1:17:56"You got your mouth open and it goes in there, you're dead, young 'un."

1:17:56 > 1:18:01I said, "Why would he wanna do that?" "He usually don't.

1:18:01 > 1:18:05"But usually he ain't in nobody's house locked up neither.

1:18:06 > 1:18:10"You need to let them birds go before they spit in your mouth."

1:18:10 > 1:18:15On one level, this is just saying get the birds out of the house.

1:18:15 > 1:18:21On another level, she's telling you there's a right way to do things and there's a wrong way to do things.

1:18:21 > 1:18:26Everything had a right way and a wrong way.

1:18:26 > 1:18:28HE PLAYS BANJO

1:18:30 > 1:18:35Sorry to interrupt you, but will you play me a song?

1:18:35 > 1:18:37OK, let me think here.

1:18:39 > 1:18:41What kind of painting's on there?

1:18:41 > 1:18:44One's just a horseshoe there.

1:18:44 > 1:18:47And...a cross in the middle.

1:18:49 > 1:18:54Basically this is just a symbol for this being a work instrument for...

1:18:54 > 1:18:56for God.

1:19:01 > 1:19:03# The chill of Coffeeville

1:19:03 > 1:19:06# She's in those hills still

1:19:06 > 1:19:09# Kindness of her face so white

1:19:09 > 1:19:11# The chill of Coffeeville

1:19:11 > 1:19:14# Lord, pray it be your will

1:19:14 > 1:19:19# That she dwell in your house tonight... #

1:19:27 > 1:19:31# Cottonmouth, quick cross the water

1:19:31 > 1:19:34# She gave me her hand Phyllis Ann

1:19:34 > 1:19:38# Cottonmouth, quick cross the water... #

1:19:38 > 1:19:43HARRY CREWS: She would cook a possum in the oven,

1:19:43 > 1:19:49showed us how to butcher one - when the offal, the guts and stuff come out, you got rid of that.

1:19:49 > 1:19:55You didn't get rid of the brain. The head was a delicacy. She took out its little eyes.

1:19:55 > 1:20:02You... You...dug your hole and you put the guts and the blood and mess down in there.

1:20:02 > 1:20:04And the teeth.

1:20:04 > 1:20:09Then the eyes. But the eyes, bless God, would have to be pointing down

1:20:09 > 1:20:12so that if he woke up - and he would -

1:20:12 > 1:20:17and come looking for you who killed him - and he would -

1:20:17 > 1:20:22and him being a meat-eating carnivore, he'd come looking for you and find you.

1:20:22 > 1:20:27But if you put the eyes down and he woke up down there in the dirt,

1:20:27 > 1:20:31he'd start digging, cos they're digging animals.

1:20:31 > 1:20:37Well, when he woke up, he'd start digging but he's pointed the wrong way, unbeknowns to him.

1:20:37 > 1:20:41So he'd dig right on down and you're safe,

1:20:41 > 1:20:47cos he's gonna hit some little Chinaboy down on the other side of the earth, but not you!

1:20:47 > 1:20:52You're safe. Things like that kept you safe.

1:20:53 > 1:20:56The truth of the matter was

1:20:56 > 1:21:00stories was everything and everything was stories.

1:21:00 > 1:21:05Everybody told stories. It was a way of saying who they were in the world.

1:21:05 > 1:21:09It was their understanding of themselves.

1:21:09 > 1:21:14It was letting themselves know how they believed the world worked -

1:21:14 > 1:21:18the right way and the way that was not so right.

1:21:18 > 1:21:22# Sunday I am young and wild Monday I am lame

1:21:24 > 1:21:28# Tuesday I start twitching Wednesday I'm insane

1:21:31 > 1:21:35# Thursday I lay dying Friday I'm quite dead

1:21:37 > 1:21:41# Saturday I'm carried away by things better left unsaid

1:21:43 > 1:21:45# But heaven ain't no place, brother

1:21:45 > 1:21:48# Love ain't no word, sister

1:21:48 > 1:21:52# And prison ain't no building made of iron bars and stone

1:21:53 > 1:21:55# You can seek the rhyme and reason

1:21:55 > 1:21:58# But in the realm of the unknown

1:21:58 > 1:22:04# You won't catch no true reflections in that "Alabama Chrome"... #

1:22:04 > 1:22:08Can't buy a new car. Yours is all rusty.

1:22:08 > 1:22:13You cover it up with some duct tape. That's why they call it Alabama Chrome.

1:22:18 > 1:22:20Welcome to Smalltown in the South.

1:22:21 > 1:22:23You come pulling into town,

1:22:23 > 1:22:28you see all the strip joints, cut and shoot bars.

1:22:28 > 1:22:32Then you work your way into the respectable realm of...

1:22:34 > 1:22:38..churches and main-street businesses.

1:22:38 > 1:22:42It's a kind of crucible - the haves and the have-nots.

1:22:42 > 1:22:44The have-nots are round the edges...

1:22:44 > 1:22:47and they bury their powerlessness...

1:22:50 > 1:22:52..in sort of the ritual of...

1:22:52 > 1:22:55sin.

1:22:55 > 1:23:02Hello! I love the small town. It's not even half a mile across the whole town. Very small.

1:23:02 > 1:23:05Over here we have the church...

1:23:05 > 1:23:10Over here we have the truck stop. Over here a jump joint.

1:23:10 > 1:23:13And behind me we have a prison. A typical Southern town.

1:23:13 > 1:23:19Whatever you grow up in, if there's generations upon generations that have grown up in that before you,

1:23:19 > 1:23:25it gets in your blood. I had a cat one time that had never been out of the house.

1:23:26 > 1:23:31I was watching a TV show and there was a chicken on the TV.

1:23:31 > 1:23:34This cat had never seen a chicken.

1:23:34 > 1:23:38But the chicken came on the TV and my cat...

1:23:38 > 1:23:43instinctually went into a stalk mode. He just looked at it.

1:23:43 > 1:23:47He'd never seen a chicken and he wanted to kill that thing.

1:23:47 > 1:23:52It was in his blood to kill that chicken. In a small town like this,

1:23:52 > 1:23:57it's in your blood - you gotta either choose Jesus or choose hell.

1:23:57 > 1:24:02You've got your choice. And there's not a whole lot in-between.

1:24:02 > 1:24:07I guess if you've got your choice between grief and nothing,

1:24:07 > 1:24:12you'll take grief. You know you're alive when you're sad.

1:24:14 > 1:24:18Otherwise, how do you know you're alive?

1:24:19 > 1:24:23Did you see how short that town was? We ran out of town.

1:24:26 > 1:24:29# I came into town

1:24:29 > 1:24:35# I was looking for a job

1:24:36 > 1:24:39# I couldn't find nothing

1:24:39 > 1:24:43# I started looking

1:24:43 > 1:24:49# For someone to rob

1:24:56 > 1:25:00# I took out my ski mask

1:25:00 > 1:25:05# And I put it over my face

1:25:08 > 1:25:10# Walked into the feed store

1:25:11 > 1:25:17# And I robbed everyone in the place... #

1:25:17 > 1:25:22- WOMAN SINGS: - # First there was a funeral

1:25:22 > 1:25:27# And then there was a trial

1:25:29 > 1:25:33# They hung me in a courtyard there

1:25:34 > 1:25:42# And let me hang up there a while

1:25:45 > 1:25:52# Let me hang up there a while... #

1:26:01 > 1:26:04# I bought a new shirt

1:26:06 > 1:26:09# So soft to touch

1:26:11 > 1:26:16# And a new pair of beetle boots

1:26:16 > 1:26:24# Hope I didn't pay too much... #

1:26:29 > 1:26:33- What have you been doing? - Killing time.

1:26:33 > 1:26:35It won't die.

1:26:37 > 1:26:41Did I tell you about this buddy of mine?

1:26:41 > 1:26:45- Who's that?- You don't know him.

1:26:45 > 1:26:47He was in an accident.

1:26:47 > 1:26:50A bad traffic accident.

1:26:54 > 1:26:59He was with his wife... having sex while they were driving.

1:27:00 > 1:27:04- I guess he...- And he lost control of the vehicle. Wow!

1:27:06 > 1:27:08- The car rolled over, he wasn't hurt,

1:27:08 > 1:27:13but she was thrown from the vehicle and had a spinal injury.

1:27:14 > 1:27:20Now she's in a coma, probably will never get out of it.

1:27:20 > 1:27:24Now he's so completely ate up with guilt,

1:27:24 > 1:27:28he spends all his time at the hospital, lost his job...

1:27:30 > 1:27:33# My eyes got heavy

1:27:35 > 1:27:38# I fell asleep

1:27:41 > 1:27:45# Usher came by and said

1:27:45 > 1:27:53# "Get out of here, you creep." #

1:27:53 > 1:27:57His whole...thing now to justify his existence

1:27:57 > 1:28:01is that he'll never touch another woman.

1:28:01 > 1:28:04He feels like that...

1:28:04 > 1:28:08to make amends...for what happened.

1:28:08 > 1:28:13Like he says, it's not a sacrifice he's making.

1:28:14 > 1:28:16It's a religious thing, a penance.

1:28:16 > 1:28:22- An act of love.- It's an act of love, exactly. Exactly.

1:28:22 > 1:28:25How long has she been in a coma?

1:28:26 > 1:28:29- Seven years.- Oh.

1:28:29 > 1:28:32# ..Then there was a trial

1:28:33 > 1:28:37# Hung me in a courtyard there

1:28:38 > 1:28:45# Let me hang up there a while

1:28:48 > 1:28:57# Let me hang up there a while. #

1:29:08 > 1:29:14One Saturday afternoon, this man came in and asked me if I could cash his cheque. I told him I couldn't.

1:29:15 > 1:29:21So he went down the street and got a couple of cans of beer and got his cheque cashed.

1:29:21 > 1:29:28He got back along, about the door... and I saw this white man come up behind him and give him a prod,

1:29:28 > 1:29:33took both feet and kicked him in the back and he went down in the gutter.

1:29:33 > 1:29:38This old man came out of his coat with a butcher knife.

1:29:38 > 1:29:43He took that butcher knife and just punched the guy in his stomach, all the way through him.

1:29:43 > 1:29:49When he did that, this other guy reached in his pocket and got HIS knife out

1:29:49 > 1:29:53and they were laying in the gutter fighting.

1:29:53 > 1:29:58The police happened to come by and they took them to jail.

1:30:00 > 1:30:04You know, it's the bad, the bad's more exciting.

1:30:04 > 1:30:08Doing bad's exciting, you know? That's...

1:30:08 > 1:30:12Getting in trouble, that was the outlaw-type ways, you know.

1:30:13 > 1:30:17I listened to outlaw music and stuff like that

1:30:17 > 1:30:22and that's just...that was really what I wanted to be, in a way.

1:30:22 > 1:30:25- It started a long time ago.

1:30:25 > 1:30:28I was smoking weed and drinking...

1:30:28 > 1:30:32and one day one of my friends came down to Georgia,

1:30:32 > 1:30:38and he had had it and asked me if I wanted to try it. I did and I liked it

1:30:38 > 1:30:40and I just kept on, kept on and...

1:30:40 > 1:30:43couldn't get enough of it in the end.

1:30:44 > 1:30:48I attempted to break into a bar in...

1:30:48 > 1:30:51Christmas Eve 2000.

1:30:51 > 1:30:54They gave me seven years flat.

1:30:54 > 1:30:58I had a good family, well-respected people and...

1:30:58 > 1:31:03I would get in trouble, they would get me out of trouble...

1:31:03 > 1:31:08until it didn't matter if I got in trouble or not - they were gonna get me out.

1:31:08 > 1:31:12Then finally they couldn't get me out and now here I am.

1:31:12 > 1:31:15I broke in a house...

1:31:15 > 1:31:17down at home...

1:31:17 > 1:31:19Uh...

1:31:19 > 1:31:22I got convicted on that

1:31:22 > 1:31:25and I had a parole violation...

1:31:27 > 1:31:29..and here I am.

1:31:30 > 1:31:35It was, like, eleven. We was drinking and smoking pot,

1:31:35 > 1:31:39cos that was the only excitement going on.

1:31:39 > 1:31:43I just kept on drinking and kept on...

1:31:43 > 1:31:47I got into drugs and heavier drugs and...

1:31:47 > 1:31:52I started doing cocaine and ecstasy and meth, you know, and...

1:31:52 > 1:31:56That's about the only excitement around here, you know.

1:31:56 > 1:31:58Armed robbery.

1:32:00 > 1:32:02Boring, really.

1:32:03 > 1:32:06There ain't nothing to do.

1:32:06 > 1:32:09Trouble. Get into trouble, that's it.

1:32:09 > 1:32:13I do this just to kinda keep my mind off of the...

1:32:14 > 1:32:17..predicament I've gotten myself into.

1:32:17 > 1:32:21Selling crystal meths and stolen property.

1:32:24 > 1:32:26That's about it.

1:32:26 > 1:32:29Tell them how you got caught.

1:32:29 > 1:32:31- No. I just...

1:32:31 > 1:32:35- I could handle some of that. - You sure would.

1:32:35 > 1:32:38You sure would.

1:32:40 > 1:32:42I don't know... Just...

1:32:43 > 1:32:45I...

1:32:46 > 1:32:49I don't really want to talk about it.

1:32:49 > 1:32:53I guess my family is what got me started. I just...

1:32:53 > 1:32:59I remember growing up, never going to church or nothing, my family party, party.

1:32:59 > 1:33:04Then when I got about 13, old enough to think I was big enough, they find God!

1:33:05 > 1:33:10I just couldn't turn over after living that long the way I'd lived.

1:33:10 > 1:33:15Hell, they wanted to do right then and I didn't see no point in it.

1:33:15 > 1:33:21I remember when I was a kid, you used to just dive into the river and didn't care what was out there.

1:33:21 > 1:33:26But as you grow up and become an adult, you fear those things.

1:33:26 > 1:33:30But as a kid, you don't. It's just part of growing up.

1:33:35 > 1:33:37I grew up, I was a Pentecost.

1:33:37 > 1:33:42When I went to church. And it was a really hard church, real strict.

1:33:42 > 1:33:44And...

1:33:45 > 1:33:51It taught me you had to speak in tongues. Well, when I went to church I never did speak in tongues.

1:33:51 > 1:33:55They didn't teach... There was no middle ground.

1:33:56 > 1:34:00You was either...in church or you was in the bars.

1:34:00 > 1:34:04It was one way or the other. There was no middle ground.

1:34:04 > 1:34:08Hell, I worked doing roofing, you know.

1:34:08 > 1:34:11..I ain't in. ..I made $300 a week.

1:34:11 > 1:34:15Yet I could sell crystal meths and make $5,000 a week.

1:34:15 > 1:34:18I didn't have to bust my ass at all.

1:34:18 > 1:34:22Just...just last time, it caught up with me.

1:34:22 > 1:34:24I got locked up in 1989.

1:34:24 > 1:34:30They gave me 120 years for five cell charges - they gave me 20 years a-piece.

1:34:30 > 1:34:35They got child molesters - they slap him on the hand, give him six months.

1:34:35 > 1:34:40I sell a little dope and you want to throw me away for ever.

1:34:40 > 1:34:46My mama's died since I've been in. My daddy. I've lost my kids. I had to give them away to adoption.

1:34:46 > 1:34:49I don't know how to explain my life. It's just so messed up.

1:34:53 > 1:34:59'When life doesn't have a lot of pleasures to offer you, you gotta do something.'

1:34:59 > 1:35:05It's like a buddy of mine. He said, "Let's do something, even if it's something wrong."

1:35:06 > 1:35:11Every town needs a bad guy, somebody who can take the heat.

1:35:11 > 1:35:13They don't like me.

1:35:13 > 1:35:16They think I'm a little crazy.

1:35:16 > 1:35:19You know, just...

1:35:25 > 1:35:29I'd drink, party and raise hell on Saturday nights...

1:35:29 > 1:35:33get up on Sunday morning, go to church, try talking to a good man.

1:35:33 > 1:35:36They act like they don't do bad things.

1:35:37 > 1:35:40All of 'em's bad in one way or another.

1:35:55 > 1:36:00# Cold, cold, cold As the cold wind blows

1:36:03 > 1:36:07# I was halfway there one frozen dawn

1:36:09 > 1:36:14# When she appeared at the side of the road

1:36:14 > 1:36:20# A woman weeping in the frozen snow

1:36:21 > 1:36:27# Her black hair flying across the empty road

1:36:27 > 1:36:33# Cold, cold, cold As the cold wind blows

1:36:35 > 1:36:40# I pulled to the shoulder and she fell to the snow... #

1:36:40 > 1:36:43A Pentecostal town like this...

1:36:44 > 1:36:50..Saturday night comes, you gotta decide who you are, what you're gonna do.

1:36:50 > 1:36:52When you're poor...

1:36:55 > 1:36:59..and you've got very little resources,

1:36:59 > 1:37:04you can't live up to God's expectations. It hurts too much.

1:37:04 > 1:37:09You're waiting for that promise of heaven, and it never comes.

1:37:09 > 1:37:14Pretty soon you think, "I'm just gonna take what I can get."

1:37:14 > 1:37:20# ..And she called my name in the swirlin' snow

1:37:20 > 1:37:25# And I turned to run back to my car

1:37:27 > 1:37:33# There was nothing waiting but her frozen arms

1:37:33 > 1:37:40# Cold, cold, cold As the cold wind blows. #

1:37:40 > 1:37:42I'm gonna get outta here.

1:37:42 > 1:37:46I got no real use for a place like this.

1:37:46 > 1:37:52Y'all might wanna go inside and see what they have to offer. It might be educational for you.

1:37:52 > 1:37:58- Johnny, I'm heading out. You want a ride?- I don't think so. OK.

1:38:01 > 1:38:05- This is your bar? - Mine and my husband's...

1:38:05 > 1:38:09What you got here is your basic, Deep South, cut and shoot bar.

1:38:09 > 1:38:13To me, I look at it as a thing of great beauty.

1:38:13 > 1:38:19It's a representation of the humanity, for all its good and bad, that lives there.

1:38:19 > 1:38:22It's real. It's a real place.

1:38:22 > 1:38:26To those people inside there, they don't know it's a real place.

1:38:27 > 1:38:29That's just the place they go.

1:38:33 > 1:38:35'Slim's has been here for ever.'

1:38:35 > 1:38:38I've known Slim's since I was a little kid.

1:38:38 > 1:38:44- All you gotta do, baby, is come down and save 'em.- You're not sinners.

1:38:44 > 1:38:46You're just having a good time.

1:38:46 > 1:38:51Let's go to confession Sunday morning and be saved(!)

1:38:51 > 1:38:55Look, I'm a backslider.

1:38:55 > 1:38:59I'll tell you... this is rock and roll.

1:38:59 > 1:39:04I was rock and roll when I was born. I'm rock and roll now.

1:39:16 > 1:39:19There's not a lot to do here.

1:39:19 > 1:39:26But you can invite people like this to become your friends, so you can buy friends.

1:39:26 > 1:39:30The Bible says, when you backslide you must start your first works over.

1:39:38 > 1:39:41MUSIC PLAYS, PEOPLE SHOUT

1:39:45 > 1:39:50You love Jesus and you're for real, you shall be saved. That's what the Bible says.

1:39:50 > 1:39:52The devil cannot read your mind.

1:39:53 > 1:39:59A town like this is like a pressure cooker...like a...like a vice.

1:40:00 > 1:40:05People in the main, they just get squeezed down and flattened out.

1:40:05 > 1:40:08Like this, they get squeezed down.

1:40:10 > 1:40:15End of the cone, what's around the edges there, this part right here...

1:40:21 > 1:40:23..that's your criminal element.

1:40:25 > 1:40:27There's your religious fanatics.

1:40:27 > 1:40:30That right here, that's the artists.

1:40:32 > 1:40:35They don't fit in the cone.

1:40:35 > 1:40:41They gotta find some other way to express themselves or they get eaten like I ate that. I'm the small town!

1:40:43 > 1:40:48You take Jesus into your heart, you're going to heaven.

1:40:48 > 1:40:52You've just got to repent, ask God to forgive you.

1:40:52 > 1:40:55Sex in the South is the best.

1:41:04 > 1:41:07We're family.

1:41:07 > 1:41:09It's not drinking, it's not drugs.

1:41:09 > 1:41:12It's family.

1:41:12 > 1:41:18- Don't know when to say no. - But God gave you enough sense not to jump in front of a 18-wheeler.

1:41:22 > 1:41:28Don't ever get the wrong idea about little bars on the side of the road.

1:41:28 > 1:41:31You can meet some of the best people.

1:41:31 > 1:41:37- That's when I earned my... - But God didn't have no...

1:41:37 > 1:41:40Best of five. Best of five.

1:42:11 > 1:42:17There's a great tradition emerging from a clash with the sacred and the secular.

1:42:17 > 1:42:23The devil's alive in the South. Without the devil, what's God? Nothing. You need both.

1:42:23 > 1:42:29- You need something dark, ghosts... you need evil before good makes any sense.- Yeah. You need some sin.

1:42:30 > 1:42:36Those people like Jerry Lee Lewis, Johnny Cash, they could have been priests or killers.

1:42:36 > 1:42:40The amount of blood, the bloodthirstiness of so many of the songs...

1:42:40 > 1:42:43It's just oral tradition in poverty.

1:42:43 > 1:42:49But what is it about Southern music and Southern religion that has a lot of blood and violent images to it?

1:42:49 > 1:42:55- It's very sensual.- Yes. It's almost...Pentecostal. It's a God, a devil that you can touch and feel.

1:42:55 > 1:43:01- The flames of hell are all around you.- Pentecostalism is very sensual. We're not snake handlers.

1:43:02 > 1:43:07- Most people don't want that kind of relationship with God.- I don't!

1:43:07 > 1:43:12They don't want to even take it that far, but to take that step is an amazing leap...

1:43:28 > 1:43:31For the uninitiated walking in...

1:43:31 > 1:43:33seeing a healing service or...

1:43:35 > 1:43:38..a spiritual church in full bloom,

1:43:38 > 1:43:41it's quite a wondrous sight.

1:43:41 > 1:43:45There's a real power there that you can't deny.

1:43:45 > 1:43:47It's pretty incredible.

1:43:47 > 1:43:50And there's a lot of love there.

1:43:50 > 1:43:54And there's a lot of... There's a presence.

1:43:55 > 1:43:57It's... It's hard to explain.

1:43:59 > 1:44:01It's just so hard to explain.

1:44:01 > 1:44:05Things happen there that defy explanation.

1:44:05 > 1:44:10And you feel like you're in the presence of God, real strong.

1:44:11 > 1:44:14It gets sort of addictive.

1:44:14 > 1:44:20You go to a Presbyterian church, you go to a Catholic church, and it's a lot of friendly talk.

1:44:20 > 1:44:25But it doesn't give you any clue that beyond your mind...

1:44:26 > 1:44:30..that there's some...immensity...

1:44:30 > 1:44:32that loves you.

1:44:32 > 1:44:34You get in one of these churches,

1:44:34 > 1:44:39the first thing they do is set the mind at the door,

1:44:39 > 1:44:41walk in with your heart.

1:44:41 > 1:44:46And it feels...real good sometimes just to leave that mind behind

1:44:46 > 1:44:49and let your heart do the talking.

1:44:50 > 1:44:52I'm excited about Pentecost!

1:44:52 > 1:44:55I'm excited about the Holy Ghost.

1:44:55 > 1:44:59I'm excited that there is a power that can bring a man out of darkness

1:44:59 > 1:45:04and put him on a pew and put his life back together

1:45:04 > 1:45:08- and put his wife back in his home. - CONGREGATION CHEER AND APPLAUD

1:45:08 > 1:45:13'I could tell you what the blues was about because I had them.

1:45:13 > 1:45:17'From the time I was 16 until I was 25, I used drugs every day.

1:45:18 > 1:45:22'I used to lie on my couch on Sunday afternoons, high all weekend,'

1:45:22 > 1:45:25and I'd be saying to myself,

1:45:25 > 1:45:28"There's got to be something more significant than this."

1:45:28 > 1:45:33When they look at us, they say, "My goodness, you folks are crazy.

1:45:33 > 1:45:39"You folks act wild, like you've lost your mind." No, we found our mind!

1:45:39 > 1:45:44Not only our mind, we found our purpose, our destiny, our dignity.

1:45:44 > 1:45:46We're not lost, we're not crazy,

1:45:46 > 1:45:51we're not part of the thing that's turning the world upside down.

1:45:51 > 1:45:55- We're here to turn it back upright. - CHEERING

1:45:55 > 1:45:57GUITAR MUSIC

1:46:05 > 1:46:09# Some people make fun of the way I move

1:46:11 > 1:46:15# They may talk about me cos I carry this book

1:46:17 > 1:46:21# It's plain that they don't know

1:46:24 > 1:46:27# I'm a sinner but he don't know

1:46:29 > 1:46:33# And when the devil came around I said, "Listen good..." #

1:46:33 > 1:46:39If a bit of chemically-induced excitement can make people happy on a Saturday night,

1:46:39 > 1:46:45the righteousness and the peace of the Holy Ghost can make YOU excited every day!

1:46:45 > 1:46:52It can make you have a purpose to live. Yes, I'm a radical. Yes, I'm a fanatic. Yes, I'm extreme.

1:46:52 > 1:46:57I used to be extreme in one direction. I found what was really wrong.

1:46:57 > 1:46:59# I'm going through the valley

1:46:59 > 1:47:01# I'll reach that mountain top

1:47:01 > 1:47:05# I'm rooting for that city I can't stop

1:47:05 > 1:47:11# Oh, Lord, hear me when I pray

1:47:11 > 1:47:15# I want to stand where you're standing, Lord... #

1:47:18 > 1:47:23# One day Jesus will call my name

1:47:23 > 1:47:29# As days go by I hope I don't stay the same

1:47:29 > 1:47:35# I wanna get so close to him that there's no big change

1:47:35 > 1:47:41# On that day when Jesus calls my name... #

1:47:41 > 1:47:43Sing it with me.

1:47:43 > 1:47:49# One day Jesus will call my name

1:47:49 > 1:47:55# As days go by I hope I don't stay the same

1:47:55 > 1:48:01# I wanna get so close to him that there's no big change

1:48:01 > 1:48:05# On that day when Jesus calls my name... #

1:48:05 > 1:48:08INDIVIDUALS CALL OUT

1:48:10 > 1:48:12SHE SPEAKS IN TONGUES

1:48:24 > 1:48:29# ..Some days I bless him And some days I curse

1:48:29 > 1:48:36# And many's the day I put myself first

1:48:36 > 1:48:41# But it's not what I do the cross made that plain

1:48:42 > 1:48:46# And one day Jesus is gonna call my name. #

1:48:46 > 1:48:48Help us sing it now.

1:48:48 > 1:48:52# One day Jesus is gonna call my name

1:48:52 > 1:48:54# Hallelujah

1:48:54 > 1:48:59# As days go by I hope I don't stay the same

1:48:59 > 1:49:04# I wanna get so close to him it's no big change

1:49:04 > 1:49:08# On that day Jesus calls my name. #

1:49:08 > 1:49:12- PEOPLE WHOOP - That's right. Yes.

1:49:12 > 1:49:17That's what we're looking for. Just keep it up. That's right.

1:49:19 > 1:49:22Yes. You're holding on.

1:49:22 > 1:49:26Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Jesus.

1:49:26 > 1:49:29In a poor world like this,

1:49:29 > 1:49:34gravity seems a lot stronger. It's pulling you down into the earth.

1:49:34 > 1:49:38And every day it's a fight not to disappear...

1:49:38 > 1:49:40the way the gravity's pulling you.

1:49:40 > 1:49:43Maybe you're thinking

1:49:43 > 1:49:50if you're gonna disappear, you're gonna disappear according to your own terms, escaping from reality...

1:49:51 > 1:49:53..define your own, make your own,

1:49:53 > 1:49:57be the guru of your own little Tibet.

1:49:57 > 1:50:02The beauty of the people who have no wealth but still...

1:50:03 > 1:50:09..enrich their world with their stories and their songs and their language...

1:50:09 > 1:50:13You could walk into any one of these mobile homes

1:50:14 > 1:50:19and you could hear the best story, the saddest story that you'll ever hear in your life.

1:50:19 > 1:50:24It was a little alien about this big, and it was really messed up,

1:50:24 > 1:50:29so I went and I had to get this one done. This is a cover-up.

1:50:29 > 1:50:33I used to have mine and my ex-husband's name.

1:50:33 > 1:50:35This one is a cover-up.

1:50:35 > 1:50:39It had initials "BE" here and I covered them up.

1:50:39 > 1:50:42And this one here is my son's tattoo.

1:50:42 > 1:50:45You see? He died about 15 years ago.

1:50:45 > 1:50:49And when he died, I put the wings on to represent him.

1:50:49 > 1:50:54That's an old gang I belonged to. I'm gonna get that one covered up.

1:50:54 > 1:50:57I'm gonna get this one covered up.

1:50:57 > 1:51:00The ones on my back are cover-ups.

1:51:00 > 1:51:03And I got...

1:51:03 > 1:51:05this one right here.

1:51:06 > 1:51:11This is a sister tattoo. Another girl got one just like this, named Star.

1:51:11 > 1:51:16And we both had this one on us, too. They were called sister tattoos.

1:51:17 > 1:51:24And then...I got a... a messed-up pyramid with one of my ex-boyfriends' initials in it.

1:51:24 > 1:51:28And then the panther with the blue wings and the heart with...

1:51:28 > 1:51:34the two hearts with my two sons' names in it, and I got a ninja star here.

1:51:34 > 1:51:36I was 16.

1:51:36 > 1:51:38It was young, dumb years.

1:51:38 > 1:51:42There's nobody perfect, except the Lord himself.

1:51:42 > 1:51:46And if anybody tells you they're perfect, they're a liar.

1:51:57 > 1:52:01# It's gonna rain champagne

1:52:01 > 1:52:05# And the hills are gonna dance

1:52:10 > 1:52:13# There will be power in the blood

1:52:13 > 1:52:17# When that helicopter comes

1:52:22 > 1:52:28# Rocks are gonna roll uphill And the sun will dive in the sea... #

1:52:28 > 1:52:33There you go. A lot of rapture talking, that car right there.

1:52:33 > 1:52:36The Bible says you must be born again.

1:52:36 > 1:52:41The rapture? What's gonna take place in the near future, I think.

1:52:41 > 1:52:47These scenes are the Lord and his angels. They're coming out of the graveyard.

1:52:47 > 1:52:51The Bible says the grave will come up first to meet the Lord.

1:52:51 > 1:52:57They'll be coming out them buildings, the ones that's ready to meet the Lord.

1:52:57 > 1:53:04Pilots in planes - one pilot may be a born-again Christian... If he's born again,

1:53:04 > 1:53:09he will go with the Lord. If he's not saved, he'll be left.

1:53:09 > 1:53:15If you're not born again, it don't make any difference if you've been to church all your life,

1:53:15 > 1:53:18you MUST be born again when Jesus comes.

1:53:18 > 1:53:20As I travelled all around the world,

1:53:20 > 1:53:25I became more and more dissatisfied with my search for God.

1:53:25 > 1:53:28I couldn't find God wherever I went.

1:53:29 > 1:53:31I couldn't find any meaning.

1:53:32 > 1:53:37Then I realised I was looking for what everybody else was,

1:53:37 > 1:53:42I was sort of looking for the gold tooth in God's crooked smile.

1:53:43 > 1:53:45So I came back to the South...

1:53:46 > 1:53:49..looking for that.

1:53:50 > 1:53:54And I ended up stumbling on places like this right here.

1:53:57 > 1:54:01And it's all wrong. It's so wrong that it's right.

1:54:14 > 1:54:19They come in here to... They've got problems. Some of them's divorced.

1:54:19 > 1:54:22Some's in a bad frame of mind.

1:54:22 > 1:54:27They come in here to find out if the Lord can help 'em,

1:54:27 > 1:54:32and he CAN help 'em. The love and the blood is what does the work.

1:54:32 > 1:54:36Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, the great German poet,

1:54:36 > 1:54:41he said, "There is no crime of which I cannot conceive myself guilty."

1:54:41 > 1:54:45You think about that for a minute, buddy.

1:54:45 > 1:54:48That doesn't just include homicide...

1:54:50 > 1:54:52..that includes infanticide.

1:54:52 > 1:54:57My understanding of that is that he is admitting...

1:54:57 > 1:55:00his oneness...with mankind,

1:55:00 > 1:55:03his involvement in mankind.

1:55:04 > 1:55:06He did NOT escape...

1:55:08 > 1:55:10..original sin.

1:55:10 > 1:55:13# ..a bar in southern Mississippi

1:55:13 > 1:55:16# She meets a man by the name of Charles Lee

1:55:16 > 1:55:21# She introduces herself to him as Lee Charles

1:55:23 > 1:55:27# "What a coincidence," he says And one week later they are married

1:55:27 > 1:55:31# He wakes up one night six months down the line

1:55:31 > 1:55:34# To find her staring at him in the oddest way

1:55:36 > 1:55:38# When he says, "Honey, what's wrong?"

1:55:38 > 1:55:43# She says, "Nothing, dear. Except that tears are a stupid trick of God."

1:55:46 > 1:55:50# By the time they find his body six weeks later

1:55:52 > 1:55:56# Hell, she's a thousand miles away... #

1:55:56 > 1:56:02- Child molesters and people who kill cops.- They call it death row. - One of the guys grabbed a gun.

1:56:02 > 1:56:08- The guy said, "You had a gun, why didn't you do something?"- Murder. - The woman was seven months pregnant.

1:56:08 > 1:56:14- She got thrown through the window. - # Cut it, spit it up... # - Then thrown back in.

1:56:14 > 1:56:17# Baby, why don't you cry?

1:56:17 > 1:56:20# Baby, why don't you cry?

1:56:20 > 1:56:23# Baby, why don't you cry...? #

1:56:23 > 1:56:28Kimberly Leach was kidnapped by Ted Bundy.

1:56:28 > 1:56:33- If I would have been the trial judge that tried Ted Bundy for murder... - Killed him.

1:56:33 > 1:56:39As the judge, I wouldn't do it unless I was personally willing to throw the switch myself.

1:56:39 > 1:56:45They take that blade and stick it in the handle, they go by you... you're laid wide open.

1:56:45 > 1:56:47Man being what he is...

1:56:49 > 1:56:51finds out WHO he is...

1:56:52 > 1:56:55..in moments of extremis,

1:56:55 > 1:57:00when he's gotta jump right or jump left, he can't stay where he is.

1:57:00 > 1:57:04Until I got saved, I was married for 27 years.

1:57:04 > 1:57:08And when I got cancer, I wound up getting divorced.

1:57:08 > 1:57:13I feel like I've been to hell and back. I had a son that was 15...

1:57:13 > 1:57:16He passed away.

1:57:16 > 1:57:20And...that stops you from believing for a while.

1:57:20 > 1:57:24But I believe that he went to a better place,

1:57:24 > 1:57:28because he was headed in the wrong direction too.

1:57:28 > 1:57:34And it took me a long time to figure out that he is in a better place.

1:57:35 > 1:57:39I went to his grave the other day, first time in 12 years.

1:57:39 > 1:57:42It took me a long time to go there.

1:57:42 > 1:57:44I'm glad I did.

1:57:48 > 1:57:52# I met a little girl in Knoxville... #

1:57:52 > 1:57:55Are you all gonna sing? All right.

1:57:55 > 1:57:58# I met a little girl in Knoxville

1:57:58 > 1:58:02# A town we all know well

1:58:02 > 1:58:07# And every Sunday evening

1:58:07 > 1:58:11# In her home I'd dwell

1:58:11 > 1:58:14# We went to take an evening walk

1:58:14 > 1:58:19# About a mile from town

1:58:19 > 1:58:23# I picked a stick up off the ground

1:58:23 > 1:58:27# And knocked that fair girl down

1:58:27 > 1:58:32# She fell down on her bended knees

1:58:32 > 1:58:35# For mercy she did cry

1:58:35 > 1:58:40# "Oh, Willy, dear don't kill me here

1:58:40 > 1:58:44# "I'm unprepared to die."

1:58:44 > 1:58:48# She never spoke another word

1:58:48 > 1:58:52# I only beat her more

1:58:52 > 1:58:56# Until the ground around me

1:58:56 > 1:59:00# With her blood did flow... #

1:59:02 > 1:59:08WOMAN: I think hell to me is everlasting, it's never gonna stop. It never will stop.

1:59:08 > 1:59:13You will burn internally, starting at the feet or the hands or the head.

1:59:13 > 1:59:19It may start in the inner of your whole body and come on the outside and you'll burn just like that...

1:59:19 > 1:59:24Most ordinary conversation in the South has a theological...

1:59:24 > 1:59:26basis.

1:59:26 > 1:59:28This guy had been in prison.

1:59:29 > 1:59:34He killed numerous of women, numerous of children, numerous of men,

1:59:34 > 1:59:37he killed to kill. Before he died,

1:59:37 > 1:59:42he told the man that his feet were burning.

1:59:42 > 1:59:45His friend watched and saw...

1:59:45 > 1:59:48what that man was dealing with

1:59:48 > 1:59:55and he told him, "Yes, I do believe in hell now. My feet are burning, they're on fire." He was going.

1:59:55 > 1:59:57GUITAR PLAYS

1:59:57 > 2:00:01# Who stole my crown of spiky thorns?

2:00:05 > 2:00:09# Who stole my garments ripped up and torn?

2:00:13 > 2:00:18# Who stole my hammer? Who stole my nails?

2:00:21 > 2:00:26# Who locked Barabbas up in a jail?

2:00:29 > 2:00:34# Who took the burden of the cross?

2:00:37 > 2:00:42# Who can measure what has been lost?

2:00:45 > 2:00:50# Miracles happen every day

2:00:52 > 2:00:55# There are two...roads

2:00:55 > 2:01:02# But there's only ONE real way... #

2:01:08 > 2:01:12You can ride down an old country road

2:01:12 > 2:01:19and see a house painted purple with Milk of Magnesia bottles hanging from the tree, thousands of them.

2:01:19 > 2:01:21I saw that in Florida once.

2:01:21 > 2:01:23That man had an aesthetic outburst,

2:01:24 > 2:01:26he just had to say something.

2:01:26 > 2:01:32He was desperate and the only tool he had was a thousand Milk of Magnesia bottles.

2:01:32 > 2:01:34He probably drank every one himself.

2:01:44 > 2:01:49My buddy, John Wood, he was a psychopathic individual.

2:01:49 > 2:01:55His family was famous for being the people most likely to end up spending life in prison.

2:01:55 > 2:02:00He threw a hand grenade at me one time when I was at the beach.

2:02:00 > 2:02:03One day, John got Jesus

2:02:03 > 2:02:05and he went insane for Jesus.

2:02:05 > 2:02:10He moved to the Philippines and became a preacher there.

2:02:10 > 2:02:13He got him a suit covered with lights

2:02:13 > 2:02:16that would blink John 3:16.

2:02:16 > 2:02:21He was just a regular, old Southern insane lunatic

2:02:21 > 2:02:24who, in his quest for union,

2:02:24 > 2:02:28ended up being more separate than ever.

2:02:35 > 2:02:38GUITAR PLAYS SOFTLY

2:02:38 > 2:02:41NO SOUND FROM TV

2:02:43 > 2:02:45I wish Kojak was on.

2:02:48 > 2:02:51Is that that Geeshie Wiley song they're playing?

2:02:52 > 2:02:54Let's try that. I love that song.

2:03:05 > 2:03:09# The last kind word

2:03:09 > 2:03:14# I heard my daddy say

2:03:15 > 2:03:19# Lord, the last kind word

2:03:19 > 2:03:23# I heard my daddy say

2:03:27 > 2:03:32# When you see me coming

2:03:33 > 2:03:37# Across the rich man's field

2:03:38 > 2:03:42# If I don't bring you flowers

2:03:42 > 2:03:46# I'll bring you a broken me

2:03:49 > 2:03:53# I went to the depot

2:03:53 > 2:03:57# I looked up at the sun

2:04:00 > 2:04:04# Christ, some train don't come

2:04:04 > 2:04:07# Gonna be some walking done

2:04:11 > 2:04:15# My mama told me

2:04:15 > 2:04:21# Just before she died

2:04:21 > 2:04:26# Lord, precious man-child

2:04:26 > 2:04:30# Don't you be so wild. #

2:04:33 > 2:04:35That's a great song, man.

2:04:36 > 2:04:38That's Geeshie Wiley.

2:04:38 > 2:04:41BANJO PLAYS

2:04:41 > 2:04:45# Stay by the brook Stay by the brook

2:04:45 > 2:04:49# You go down and stay by the brook... #

2:04:52 > 2:04:57When I was a little kid, I used to listen to the Gospel Jubilee,

2:04:57 > 2:05:03which is a white gospel TV show in Pensacola. I didn't know I was hearing mountain harmonies.

2:05:03 > 2:05:09I just heard... I heard people lonely for God. And I heard them crying out for his attention.

2:05:09 > 2:05:14And I guess I sympathised with it. I was lonely for God myself.

2:05:17 > 2:05:22I admired them for trying to talk to God in their simple voices,

2:05:22 > 2:05:26not trying to make them pretty or wear a fancy tuxedo.

2:05:34 > 2:05:39# Oh, meet me on the other side... #

2:05:39 > 2:05:42These hills right here are full of spirit.

2:05:42 > 2:05:46No wonder people are thinking about eternity and hell so much.

2:05:49 > 2:05:54Mortality is a frequent visitor to a place like this, I guess.

2:05:54 > 2:05:57Every lamppost is a crucifix.

2:05:57 > 2:06:01And every bridge has a little memorial on it.

2:06:03 > 2:06:06HIGH-PITCHED WHINING: "Amazing Grace"

2:07:06 > 2:07:11She just started laughing. She couldn't help herself,

2:07:11 > 2:07:15even though it was her granddaddy's funeral.

2:07:15 > 2:07:22I don't know what got into Amy and Kimberly and Christie either, her sisters.

2:07:22 > 2:07:26They all started laughing too. It was contagious.

2:07:26 > 2:07:29It was quite horrifying, though.

2:07:29 > 2:07:35You'd think a missionary woman would be more sombre at a funeral, but...

2:07:35 > 2:07:37She couldn't help it, because...

2:07:37 > 2:07:41their granddaddy was lying in the casket

2:07:41 > 2:07:46and Grandmother had had a stroke and lost her short-term memory

2:07:46 > 2:07:52and kept saying, "Wake up. Everybody's here. Wake up, Sud.

2:07:52 > 2:07:57"Wake up!" And for some reason, that just hit her as funny.

2:07:57 > 2:08:03I guess it was either laugh about it or cry about it. But, boy, she laughed so hard.

2:08:03 > 2:08:05Kimberly even snorted.

2:08:05 > 2:08:08I was not amused.

2:08:08 > 2:08:13But, anyway...that's the way it goes sometimes at funerals.

2:08:13 > 2:08:16You never know how people are gonna act.

2:08:16 > 2:08:20Now, the sound of this type of music has been for...

2:08:20 > 2:08:26in my growing up and my grandfather and, I guess, his grandfather...

2:08:26 > 2:08:28it's the old lonesome sound.

2:08:28 > 2:08:31BANJO PLAYS

2:08:31 > 2:08:35It's these old hills that's kinda sad, you know.

2:08:35 > 2:08:38And you get to feeling down and out

2:08:38 > 2:08:44and looking at these old hills, sitting out on your front porch or something,

2:08:44 > 2:08:48and you get to playing these old tunes, it helps you.

2:08:48 > 2:08:51It builds your morale up a bit.

2:08:58 > 2:09:03# Oh, yonder stand Little Maggie

2:09:03 > 2:09:08# With her dram glass in her hand

2:09:08 > 2:09:15# She's drinking away her troubles

2:09:15 > 2:09:19# And a-courting another man

2:09:40 > 2:09:45# Oh, how can I ever stand it

2:09:45 > 2:09:51# For to see those true blue eyes

2:09:51 > 2:09:57# A-sparklin' at another

2:09:57 > 2:10:01# Like a diamond in the sky... #

2:10:15 > 2:10:17I don't like the city.

2:10:17 > 2:10:22I think this is the way God created it. He wants. ..

2:10:22 > 2:10:24a person to live more like this

2:10:24 > 2:10:27than to live on concrete slabs.

2:10:27 > 2:10:31And he also provided the means to make a living.

2:10:31 > 2:10:34Coal was created by the maker.

2:10:34 > 2:10:39There wasn't anything that was made that wasn't made by him.

2:10:40 > 2:10:43And that's about all I've got to say.

2:10:43 > 2:10:46There ain't nothing easy to it.

2:10:46 > 2:10:49It ain't no place for no woosie to be.

2:10:49 > 2:10:54- If I was able, I was telling him, I'd go back in tomorrow.- Would you?

2:10:54 > 2:10:57I loved to work the mines. Yes.

2:10:57 > 2:10:59It was a hard life, but...

2:11:00 > 2:11:04I went in the coalmines when I was 16 years old.

2:11:04 > 2:11:08My father had an accident, got his hands blowed off with dynamite.

2:11:08 > 2:11:12They gave him a stick of dynamite and a box of caps

2:11:12 > 2:11:17and he's smoking a Chesterfield cigarette!

2:11:17 > 2:11:19Ash is on it about that long.

2:11:19 > 2:11:24And he just turned around and it all exploded right in his hands.

2:11:24 > 2:11:29He looked to me as if his hands were sticking right to the ceiling.

2:11:29 > 2:11:35If there weren't fire in them ashes, setting off those caps, they never did know what done it.

2:11:35 > 2:11:38He used to be a good banjo player.

2:11:38 > 2:11:43My daddy and all my uncles... and my aunts...and grandfather,

2:11:43 > 2:11:47and I had a brother who was a good banjo player.

2:11:47 > 2:11:53I had a boy got killed back in September who was a fine banjo player.

2:11:53 > 2:11:57A fella hit him with a car and killed him stone dead.

2:12:05 > 2:12:11# If the ocean was whiskey and I was a duck

2:12:11 > 2:12:15# I'd dive to the bottom and never come up

2:12:15 > 2:12:21# Rye whiskey, rye whiskey rye whiskey, I cry

2:12:21 > 2:12:25# If I don't get rye whiskey I surely will die

2:12:41 > 2:12:46# Rye whiskey, rye whiskey As I always say

2:12:46 > 2:12:51# I'll see you in heaven some old day

2:12:53 > 2:12:58# Rye whiskey, rye whiskey rye whiskey, I cry

2:12:58 > 2:13:02# If I don't get rye whiskey I surely will die. #

2:13:02 > 2:13:05BANJO PLAYS

2:13:09 > 2:13:13Those of you today that are not saved,

2:13:13 > 2:13:18this will be a wonderful day for you to give your heart and life to God.

2:13:18 > 2:13:23But if you do not give your heart and life to the Lord

2:13:23 > 2:13:25while you live on this earth,

2:13:25 > 2:13:28you'll have to go and meet God

2:13:28 > 2:13:33and never return to the earth to get right with God

2:13:33 > 2:13:37and never be out of that awful place of punishment.

2:13:37 > 2:13:42Just think, when you burn your finger or something, how bad it does hurt.

2:13:42 > 2:13:46Well, think of your whole soul being in a great lake

2:13:46 > 2:13:52and the flames rolling around your soul, not a drop of water to put on your tongue.

2:13:52 > 2:13:57You'll remember the many times God spoke to your heart

2:13:57 > 2:14:00to give your life to him.

2:14:00 > 2:14:06And you turned aside those opportunities and did not surrender your whole life to him.

2:14:06 > 2:14:10We know that God is watching everything

2:14:10 > 2:14:14and he sees everything there is on the face of this earth.

2:14:14 > 2:14:17And it's so real to be saved.

2:14:17 > 2:14:22You cannot even put it in words how much it means to go to bed at night

2:14:22 > 2:14:27knowing, if you never get up next morning, you're ready to go.

2:14:27 > 2:14:30You know deep in your soul when you're ready to go.

2:14:35 > 2:14:39MUSIC: "Borrowed Wings" by Jim White

2:14:39 > 2:14:44I was thinking about the desperate people here

2:14:44 > 2:14:48and their desperate religion, their hell-fire religion.

2:14:50 > 2:14:55So they invent a God who's gonna whup some ass, basically.

2:14:58 > 2:15:03# ..Until the sheriff caught up with us and we tried to run

2:15:05 > 2:15:09# Now we return to earth on borrowed wings... #

2:15:09 > 2:15:13Here you feel the presence of the spirit.

2:15:13 > 2:15:16You may not like it.

2:15:16 > 2:15:20It might be wearing the costume of crazy religious people or...

2:15:20 > 2:15:23wild hillbillies or whatever...

2:15:23 > 2:15:25but it's real.

2:15:25 > 2:15:28And it's alive and it's awake.

2:15:30 > 2:15:32# ..On borrowed wings... #

2:15:32 > 2:15:34Welcome to Jesus Central.

2:15:38 > 2:15:42You're sitting here looking at it, on the hill.

2:15:42 > 2:15:45No church.

2:15:45 > 2:15:51It's not in the Bible. I've read the Bible to tormented spirits. They... HE HISSES

2:15:51 > 2:15:56And I've sung songs to the dark and it sang with me.

2:15:56 > 2:16:03Where did you start believing in this kind of stuff? HE LAUGHS

2:16:03 > 2:16:06MUSIC: "I Will Dance Like David"

2:16:06 > 2:16:11# Then, my lord I will dance like David

2:16:11 > 2:16:15# Well, I will dance like David... #

2:16:17 > 2:16:19ALL TALK AT ONCE

2:16:28 > 2:16:30Why can't they see spiritual things?

2:16:30 > 2:16:33Why did there have to be a new way?

2:16:33 > 2:16:36Flesh wants to control.

2:16:36 > 2:16:38Flesh wants to hold on.

2:16:38 > 2:16:41It wants to dominate.

2:16:41 > 2:16:47So that every time I go to do good, evil is present with ME.

2:16:47 > 2:16:51You've got to realise God is so real, so powerful...

2:16:51 > 2:16:53in a spirit form.

2:16:53 > 2:16:58Lock your doors, shut your heart up, close your eyes and ears, and he'll still come through.

2:16:58 > 2:17:01Sit and listen to songs and stuff.

2:17:01 > 2:17:06You'll be sitting there going back in time or going forward in time

2:17:06 > 2:17:11because the Spirit is trying to get your flesh confused

2:17:11 > 2:17:15so he can talk to you. Flesh cannot go in these places.

2:17:15 > 2:17:18CONGREGATION SINGS

2:17:28 > 2:17:32The Spirit of God is kinda strange to the world. Praise the Lord.

2:17:32 > 2:17:36The Holy Ghost came back. Hallelujah.

2:17:36 > 2:17:40PREACHER SPEAKS PEOPLE SING AND PRAY

2:17:57 > 2:18:00Praise the Lord!

2:18:03 > 2:18:08You've come here looking for some sort of essential truth...

2:18:09 > 2:18:13..about the South, or some spiritual revelation,

2:18:13 > 2:18:18and you're not gonna find it unless by accident or by grace.

2:18:18 > 2:18:20These people know about it.

2:18:20 > 2:18:25I guess they have what Flannery O'Connor called the "Wise Blood".

2:18:25 > 2:18:28The blood rules them.

2:18:28 > 2:18:30They don't rule the blood.

2:18:30 > 2:18:36If you want to know the secrets of the South, you gotta get it in your blood.

2:18:36 > 2:18:41And you ain't gonna get a transfusion from the blood bank for it.

2:18:47 > 2:18:52Well, I guess this is as good a place as any to leave you.

2:18:52 > 2:18:56I apologise. I wish I could stay with you...

2:18:56 > 2:19:03while you go and look for what you're looking for, but... Jimmy Tuck...needs his car back.

2:19:04 > 2:19:08And I value my life, so I'm gonna take it to him.

2:19:12 > 2:19:14So long!

2:19:28 > 2:19:31# Where in the world...

2:19:33 > 2:19:36# ..did you come from, my dear?

2:19:39 > 2:19:42# Did some mysterious voice...

2:19:43 > 2:19:46# ..tell you I'd still be here?

2:19:53 > 2:19:56# I bought this ticket to Mobile

2:19:58 > 2:20:01# But I've been stranded all day

2:20:02 > 2:20:05# PA said the bus broke down

2:20:05 > 2:20:11# Ten miles away from the station

2:20:16 > 2:20:19# So seldom a door

2:20:20 > 2:20:22# So seldom a key

2:20:22 > 2:20:25# So seldom a lock

2:20:25 > 2:20:29# Like the love between you and me

2:20:29 > 2:20:32# But seldom comes happiness

2:20:32 > 2:20:35# Without the pain

2:20:35 > 2:20:39# Of the devil in the details

2:20:39 > 2:20:43# Since I saw the smile on your face

2:20:43 > 2:20:48# As I was crying in a Greyhound station

2:20:48 > 2:20:51# On Christmas Day

2:20:51 > 2:20:55# In 1998

2:20:55 > 2:21:01# As I was crying in a Greyhound station

2:21:01 > 2:21:03# On Christmas Day...

2:21:14 > 2:21:20# The burden of love is the fuel of bad grammar

2:21:21 > 2:21:23# You stutter and stammer

2:21:23 > 2:21:26# What a bitch to convey

2:21:32 > 2:21:35# The crux of the matter

2:21:35 > 2:21:38# When the words you must utter

2:21:39 > 2:21:41# Are hopelessly tangled

2:21:41 > 2:21:47# In the memories and scars you show no-one

2:21:51 > 2:21:54# So seldom a door

2:21:54 > 2:21:57# So seldom a key

2:21:57 > 2:22:00# So seldom a hit

2:22:00 > 2:22:04# Like the hurt you put on me

2:22:04 > 2:22:06# But seldom comes happiness

2:22:07 > 2:22:09# Without the pain

2:22:09 > 2:22:13# Of the devil in the details

2:22:13 > 2:22:17# Since I saw the smile on your face

2:22:17 > 2:22:22# As I was crying in a Greyhound station

2:22:22 > 2:22:24# On Christmas Day... #

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