0:00:02 > 0:00:05Tonight, you get the chance to see and hear the hottest female star in the world.
0:00:05 > 0:00:08Her name is Beyonce - Beyonce Knowles.
0:00:08 > 0:00:13Otherwise known as Mrs Carter - Mrs Shawn Carter.
0:00:13 > 0:00:15And yes, that's him - the husband,
0:00:15 > 0:00:20better known by his stage name, Jay-Z, of course,
0:00:20 > 0:00:23boldly going where few rappers have dared to tread.
0:00:23 > 0:00:26Centre stage at Glastonbury.
0:00:27 > 0:00:29The crowd loved it.
0:00:29 > 0:00:31And look, there she is - his Mrs,
0:00:31 > 0:00:34discreetly standing by her man,
0:00:34 > 0:00:37but no doubt sizing up the venue.
0:00:37 > 0:00:40Three years on, they swap roles,
0:00:40 > 0:00:43and Beyonce becomes the first woman performer to headline Glastonbury -
0:00:43 > 0:00:45and steals the show.
0:00:48 > 0:00:51Despite marriage, motherhood, and ridiculous fame,
0:00:51 > 0:00:55her song and dance routines are as electrifying as ever.
0:00:56 > 0:01:01And now, Mrs Carter is director and producer too.
0:01:01 > 0:01:06Tonight's Imagine is a film made by Beyonce, about Beyonce.
0:01:06 > 0:01:08It's her take on her world.
0:01:08 > 0:01:14This is destiny's child taking her destiny into her own hands.
0:01:14 > 0:01:17This is Beyonce's coming-out party.
0:01:17 > 0:01:19Judge for yourselves.
0:01:20 > 0:01:24This programme contains very strong language
0:01:24 > 0:01:27and scenes of repetitive flashing images.
0:01:29 > 0:01:32BEYONCE: I remember the moss on the trees.
0:01:32 > 0:01:35I remember running through the sprinklers,
0:01:35 > 0:01:38those summers...
0:01:38 > 0:01:40Popsicles.
0:01:41 > 0:01:46I remember running as hard as I could,
0:01:46 > 0:01:49and my dad knew
0:01:49 > 0:01:53that I needed his approval.
0:01:54 > 0:01:59And I think my father wouldn't give it to me
0:01:59 > 0:02:01because he kept pushing me,
0:02:01 > 0:02:05and kept pushing me and kept pushing me.
0:02:05 > 0:02:07Every time my dad pushed me,
0:02:07 > 0:02:11I got better and stronger,
0:02:11 > 0:02:14and that house just is my foundation.
0:02:16 > 0:02:19I'm still trying to learn that I don't have to...
0:02:21 > 0:02:25..kill myself, and be so hard on myself, and be so critical,
0:02:25 > 0:02:27and I can smell the roses.
0:02:27 > 0:02:30I don't want to never be satisfied.
0:02:30 > 0:02:33I don't think that's a healthy way to live.
0:02:37 > 0:02:39It's a good view of the house.
0:02:41 > 0:02:44I love you!
0:02:44 > 0:02:46This is our dream house. We really love this one.
0:02:48 > 0:02:50- Now say hello, Ebony.- Hello!
0:02:50 > 0:02:52- That's Ebony on the right.- Hi.
0:02:52 > 0:02:55And Beyonce in the middle, and Solange.
0:02:55 > 0:02:57Daddy.
0:03:02 > 0:03:05THEY SHRIEK AND GIGGLE
0:03:05 > 0:03:08Leave those bees alone, Beyonce!
0:03:08 > 0:03:09I'm not messing with them.
0:03:09 > 0:03:10BUZZING
0:03:10 > 0:03:11SHE SHRIEKS
0:03:31 > 0:03:34BUZZING
0:03:46 > 0:03:49MUSIC: "Crazy In Love"
0:03:49 > 0:03:52# So crazy right now... #
0:03:52 > 0:03:55If you down with the beehive...
0:03:55 > 0:03:58If you like to sting these bitches...
0:03:58 > 0:04:00Sing!
0:04:00 > 0:04:02# I look and stare so deep in your eyes
0:04:02 > 0:04:05# I touch on you more and more every time
0:04:05 > 0:04:07# When you leave I'm beggin' you not to go
0:04:07 > 0:04:09# Call your name two, three times in a row
0:04:09 > 0:04:12# Such a funny thing for me to try to explain
0:04:12 > 0:04:15# How I'm feeling and my pride is the one to blame
0:04:15 > 0:04:17# I still don't understand
0:04:17 > 0:04:19# Just how your love can do what no on else can
0:04:19 > 0:04:21# Got me lookin' so crazy right now
0:04:21 > 0:04:24- # Your love's got me lookin' so crazy right now- Oh, oh, crazy
0:04:24 > 0:04:26- # Your love's got me lookin' so crazy right now- Your love
0:04:26 > 0:04:29- # Your touch's got me lookin' so crazy right now- Ha!
0:04:29 > 0:04:31- # Got me hoping you page me right now- Hey, yeah
0:04:31 > 0:04:33# Your kiss has got me hoping you save me right now
0:04:33 > 0:04:36- # Lookin' so crazy, your love's got me lookin'- Yeah
0:04:36 > 0:04:39- # Lookin' so crazy, your love's got me lookin' - I'm lookin' so crazy in love
0:04:39 > 0:04:41# Hey!
0:04:41 > 0:04:43# To the top
0:04:43 > 0:04:44# So crazy
0:04:44 > 0:04:46# Hey
0:04:46 > 0:04:49# I'm not myself lately
0:04:49 > 0:04:52- # I'm foolish, I don't do this - Hey!
0:04:52 > 0:04:54- # I've been playing myself - Yeah
0:04:54 > 0:04:56- # Baby, I don't care - Woo!
0:04:56 > 0:04:58# Your love got the best of me
0:04:58 > 0:05:00# And baby, you're making a fool of me
0:05:00 > 0:05:02# You got me sprung and I don't care who sees
0:05:02 > 0:05:07# Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
0:05:07 > 0:05:08# Come on, yeah!
0:05:08 > 0:05:11- # Crazy right now - Go crazy
0:05:11 > 0:05:14- # Your touch's got me lookin' so crazy right now - Touch got me lookin' so crazy
0:05:14 > 0:05:16# Hey, yeah
0:05:16 > 0:05:19- # Your love's got me lookin' so crazy right now- Hey, yeah
0:05:19 > 0:05:23- # So crazy Your love's got me lookin'- Hey, yeah
0:05:23 > 0:05:26# Woo!
0:05:26 > 0:05:28# Your love's got me lookin' so crazy right now
0:05:28 > 0:05:31# Your kiss has got me hoping you save me right now
0:05:31 > 0:05:35# Your love's got me lookin' so crazy right now
0:05:35 > 0:05:39# Lookin' so crazy Your love's got me crazy
0:05:39 > 0:05:41# So crazy, your love
0:05:41 > 0:05:44# So crazy, your love's got me lookin'
0:05:44 > 0:05:47# You got me lookin' so crazy in love. #
0:05:47 > 0:05:49CHEERING
0:05:58 > 0:06:02At some point in my career, I felt like I was doing way too much.
0:06:04 > 0:06:07I felt like I had been so commercially successful...
0:06:09 > 0:06:11It wasn't enough.
0:06:13 > 0:06:17There's something really stressful about having to keep up with that.
0:06:21 > 0:06:25And something really...crippling.
0:06:25 > 0:06:26You can't express yourself.
0:06:28 > 0:06:32I don't want to have to sing about the same thing for ten more years.
0:06:34 > 0:06:35You can't grow.
0:06:40 > 0:06:43I want to be able to sing about
0:06:43 > 0:06:46how much I hate myself that day
0:06:46 > 0:06:47if that's how I feel.
0:06:47 > 0:06:51And I felt like it was time for me to set up my future,
0:06:53 > 0:06:55so I set a goal,
0:06:55 > 0:06:59and my goal was independence.
0:07:03 > 0:07:06- RADIO NEWSREADER:- Superstar Beyonce has broken up...with her father.
0:07:06 > 0:07:10Beyonce has officially split with her father...
0:07:10 > 0:07:12Knowles tells the Associated Press it's not true...
0:07:12 > 0:07:15Do you guys think the feeling is mutual?
0:07:15 > 0:07:16TURNS OFF RADIO
0:07:18 > 0:07:20I'm feeling very empty
0:07:20 > 0:07:23because of my relationship with my dad,
0:07:23 > 0:07:29and I'm...so fragile
0:07:29 > 0:07:30at this point.
0:07:30 > 0:07:33And I feel like...
0:07:34 > 0:07:36..my...
0:07:38 > 0:07:41..soul has been tarnished.
0:07:43 > 0:07:47Life is unpredictable, but I felt like I had to move on
0:07:47 > 0:07:49and not work with my dad,
0:07:49 > 0:07:52and I don't care if I don't sell one record.
0:07:52 > 0:07:54It's bigger than the record.
0:07:54 > 0:07:56It's bigger than my career.
0:08:18 > 0:08:21I think one of the biggest reasons
0:08:21 > 0:08:25I decided it was time for me to manage myself
0:08:25 > 0:08:29was because at some point you need your support system,
0:08:29 > 0:08:31and you need your family.
0:08:31 > 0:08:33Hey, Daddy.
0:08:34 > 0:08:37'When you're trying to have a everyday conversation
0:08:37 > 0:08:40'with your parents, you have to talk about schedule-making,
0:08:40 > 0:08:43'you have to talk about your album,
0:08:43 > 0:08:45'performing and touring.
0:08:45 > 0:08:48'It's just too stressful, and it really affects your relationship.'
0:08:48 > 0:08:50Want to take a break?
0:08:50 > 0:08:51No, shoot.
0:08:51 > 0:08:53OK, good.
0:08:53 > 0:08:55Like, at the very end...
0:08:55 > 0:08:56I...
0:08:57 > 0:09:00I needed boundaries,
0:09:00 > 0:09:02and I think my dad needed boundaries.
0:09:06 > 0:09:10It's really easy to get confused with this world,
0:09:10 > 0:09:13that's your job that you live and breathe every day, all day,
0:09:13 > 0:09:15and then you don't know when to turn it off.
0:09:15 > 0:09:16You need a break.
0:09:18 > 0:09:20I needed a break.
0:09:20 > 0:09:22I needed my dad.
0:09:22 > 0:09:24And did you get your dad back?
0:09:24 > 0:09:27No. It was... It was hard.
0:09:28 > 0:09:30Smile.
0:09:30 > 0:09:32Gangster.
0:09:35 > 0:09:39'I had to sacrifice my relationship with my dad.'
0:09:40 > 0:09:44It was a stressful, sad,
0:09:44 > 0:09:46difficult time,
0:09:46 > 0:09:49but I had to let go.
0:09:54 > 0:10:00# Listen to the sound from deep within
0:10:00 > 0:10:07# It's only beginning to find release
0:10:07 > 0:10:12# Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams will be heard
0:10:12 > 0:10:16# They will not be pushed aside or worse
0:10:16 > 0:10:23# Into your own all cos you won't listen
0:10:23 > 0:10:28# Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
0:10:28 > 0:10:32# I'm not at home in my own home
0:10:32 > 0:10:36# And I tried and tried to say what's on my mind
0:10:36 > 0:10:39# You should have known, oh
0:10:39 > 0:10:43# Now I'm done believing you
0:10:43 > 0:10:45# You don't know what I'm feeling
0:10:45 > 0:10:49# I'm more than what you made of me
0:10:49 > 0:10:53# I followed the voice you gave to me
0:10:53 > 0:10:59# But now I've got to find my own
0:10:59 > 0:11:04# My own
0:11:04 > 0:11:07# My own
0:11:07 > 0:11:16# My own
0:11:16 > 0:11:23# My own... #
0:11:23 > 0:11:24OK.
0:11:30 > 0:11:32Thank God for my computer.
0:11:34 > 0:11:36Sometimes, when there's no-one to talk to,
0:11:36 > 0:11:40I talk out loud so I can get all of my thoughts out
0:11:40 > 0:11:43and try to figure out the issues that I'm having
0:11:43 > 0:11:45and I'm trying to find the answers.
0:11:56 > 0:12:01The best thing is looking back and realising how incredible life is.
0:12:01 > 0:12:06If you don't take the time to think about and analyse your life,
0:12:06 > 0:12:10you'll never realise all of the dots that are all connected.
0:12:16 > 0:12:19The first decision I had to make as my own manager was,
0:12:19 > 0:12:21what do you want?
0:12:21 > 0:12:25Do you want to be successful at radio?
0:12:25 > 0:12:28Do you want to kiss asses?
0:12:28 > 0:12:30Do you want a career?
0:12:30 > 0:12:31Do you want a successful tour?
0:12:31 > 0:12:33Do you want to focus on your life?
0:12:33 > 0:12:35What do you want?
0:12:50 > 0:12:52WHISPERS: Julius is hiding in the corner.
0:12:56 > 0:12:58That's right.
0:12:58 > 0:13:02ECHOING: # I heard, baby...#
0:13:14 > 0:13:16I have no idea what my album is going to sound like
0:13:16 > 0:13:19when I start recording.
0:13:19 > 0:13:21I may have an idea
0:13:21 > 0:13:25but it never turns out that way, never, ever, ever.
0:13:25 > 0:13:29# I told you how you hurt me, baby
0:13:29 > 0:13:31# But you don't care
0:13:35 > 0:13:39# Now I'm crying and deserted, baby
0:13:39 > 0:13:45# But you don't care, mm-mm
0:13:45 > 0:13:49# You see these tears falling down to my ears
0:13:49 > 0:13:54# I swear you like when I'm in pain, yeah
0:13:56 > 0:14:00# I try to tell you about my fears
0:14:00 > 0:14:01# You still don't care
0:14:01 > 0:14:06# Well, that's OK, hey
0:14:06 > 0:14:10# Well, I care I know you don't care too much
0:14:10 > 0:14:15# But I still care, baby
0:14:16 > 0:14:20# Well, I care I know you don't care too much
0:14:20 > 0:14:25# But I still care, baby
0:14:25 > 0:14:28# Ah... #
0:14:28 > 0:14:30I said OK, I'm going to take a risk,
0:14:30 > 0:14:33and I'm going to bring R&B music back,
0:14:33 > 0:14:36and I'm going to add bridges to songs and chord changes,
0:14:36 > 0:14:38and I'm going to sing about love
0:14:38 > 0:14:40and I'm going to do the opposite of what I thought I was going to do.
0:14:40 > 0:14:42I'm not going to try to be cool.
0:14:42 > 0:14:44Forget being cool, I'm going to be honest.
0:14:44 > 0:14:47I'm going to be sad, I'm going to be passionate,
0:14:47 > 0:14:50I'm going to be vulnerable, I'm going to sing from my heart,
0:14:50 > 0:14:53I'm going to be gravelly and growl and scream, and,
0:14:53 > 0:14:55you know, that was my plan.
0:14:57 > 0:14:58Smart, smart, smart, smart.
0:14:58 > 0:15:00# Boy, you know you love it
0:15:00 > 0:15:02# How we're smart enough to make these millions
0:15:02 > 0:15:05# Strong enough to bear the children...#
0:15:05 > 0:15:06Ah, shit.
0:15:06 > 0:15:09Oh, my God. It's too hard!
0:15:09 > 0:15:10All in one breath.
0:15:12 > 0:15:14Right, "I have the children, oh, shit."
0:15:21 > 0:15:22That's how the song should start -
0:15:22 > 0:15:26# Boy, I'm on your runway
0:15:26 > 0:15:31# And I don't never want to come back
0:15:31 > 0:15:34# Put my name on your T-shirt
0:15:34 > 0:15:37# La-la-la, me or your man... #
0:15:37 > 0:15:41'It's a tough time, and it's tough for the music industry,
0:15:41 > 0:15:43'and, you know, I'm an artist that tours,
0:15:43 > 0:15:46'I'm an artist that makes albums.' That's it.
0:15:46 > 0:15:48People don't make albums any more.
0:15:49 > 0:15:51They don't make albums.
0:15:51 > 0:15:54They just try to sell a bunch of little, quick singles
0:15:54 > 0:15:56and they burn out and they put out a new one
0:15:56 > 0:15:57and they burn out and they put out a new one.
0:15:57 > 0:16:00People don't even listen to a body of work any more.
0:16:01 > 0:16:04We are number one.
0:16:04 > 0:16:06The album debuted at number one!
0:16:06 > 0:16:10'When I first started out, there was no internet,'
0:16:10 > 0:16:16people taking pictures of you and putting your personal life
0:16:16 > 0:16:18or exploiting your personal life as entertainment.
0:16:18 > 0:16:20I think people are so brainwashed.
0:16:20 > 0:16:22You get up in the morning, you click on the computer,
0:16:22 > 0:16:24you see all these pictures,
0:16:24 > 0:16:29and all you think of is the picture and the image that you see all day,
0:16:29 > 0:16:33every day, and you don't see the human form.
0:16:33 > 0:16:37And I think, when Nina Simone put out music,
0:16:37 > 0:16:40you loved her voice. That's what she wanted you to love.
0:16:40 > 0:16:42That was her instrument.
0:16:42 > 0:16:45But you didn't get brainwashed by her day-to-day life
0:16:45 > 0:16:48and what her child is wearing and who she's dating and, you know,
0:16:48 > 0:16:51all the things that really... It's not your business, you know?
0:16:53 > 0:16:56And it shouldn't influence the way you listen
0:16:56 > 0:16:59to the voice and the art,
0:16:59 > 0:17:01but it does.
0:17:01 > 0:17:04SHE SINGS WORDLESSLY
0:17:43 > 0:17:45'When I'm recording in the studio,
0:17:45 > 0:17:47'I want to close my eyes and feel,
0:17:47 > 0:17:49'and anyone that's going to distract me from that,
0:17:49 > 0:17:52'they're just not allowed in the studio.
0:17:52 > 0:17:54'I'm like, "Get out of here.'
0:17:54 > 0:17:58"I don't want to hear you say, "'Well, maybe you should put more song structure.'"
0:17:58 > 0:18:01I don't want to hear any of that. I'm truly an artist in the studio.
0:18:01 > 0:18:04# Boy, maybe if you cared enough
0:18:04 > 0:18:07# I wouldn't have to care so much
0:18:07 > 0:18:10# What happened to our trust?
0:18:10 > 0:18:12# Now you're just giving up
0:18:12 > 0:18:15# You used to be so in love
0:18:15 > 0:18:18# Now you don't care no more... #
0:18:18 > 0:18:19Sorry, guys!
0:18:25 > 0:18:28This is an absolute bar-raising record.
0:18:28 > 0:18:31People have asked me and I've tried not to, I've tried very hard
0:18:31 > 0:18:33not to give anything away,
0:18:33 > 0:18:36- but said that this doesn't sound like anybody.- It's original.
0:18:36 > 0:18:37It doesn't sound like anybody.
0:18:37 > 0:18:40We're going to be fucking busy this summer.
0:18:43 > 0:18:47All right, that was definitely exhilarating.
0:18:47 > 0:18:48I feel very proud.
0:18:48 > 0:18:50I'm happy it's over.
0:18:50 > 0:18:53I'm an artist, and I'm sensitive about my shit.
0:18:56 > 0:18:59Oh! I'm still disoriented.
0:19:07 > 0:19:10Excuse me, you've got to back up, you've got to back up.
0:19:10 > 0:19:11Beyonce! Beyonce!
0:19:11 > 0:19:12Beyonce, look at me!
0:19:21 > 0:19:24I can't believe that my album is out today.
0:19:26 > 0:19:30I saw some billboards and I guess the reality will sink in,
0:19:30 > 0:19:33but this album is so personal
0:19:33 > 0:19:36and such a labour of love
0:19:36 > 0:19:42that it almost feels like no-one should be able to judge it
0:19:42 > 0:19:44because it's just...
0:19:44 > 0:19:46It's from my heart.
0:19:52 > 0:19:56I did a photo shoot last night for my nephew.
0:19:56 > 0:20:01He went to Paris with me because I heard him speak in French
0:20:01 > 0:20:04and he was fluent and it was so shocking to me.
0:20:04 > 0:20:06I love him so much
0:20:06 > 0:20:09and I figured this would be a really good memory for him,
0:20:09 > 0:20:13to spend Easter with his father in Paris
0:20:13 > 0:20:14at six years old.
0:20:14 > 0:20:18Oh! That's what I'm talking about!
0:20:18 > 0:20:19That is a Julez jump.
0:20:20 > 0:20:22You want to do it again?
0:20:23 > 0:20:25I just want to take a break.
0:20:25 > 0:20:27You want to take a break? OK.
0:20:29 > 0:20:30Oh, what are you doing?
0:20:30 > 0:20:32Are you meditating?
0:20:32 > 0:20:35Is that like a prayer? Are you a guru?
0:20:37 > 0:20:39- OK.- I'm meditating.
0:20:39 > 0:20:42'This is the time when your memories really, really
0:20:42 > 0:20:45'stick with you for the rest of your life,'
0:20:45 > 0:20:51so I wanted to be able to give him that memory with his dad.
0:20:51 > 0:20:54I know how important that is.
0:20:58 > 0:21:00Daddy.
0:21:00 > 0:21:02- Yes, Beyonce? - Let's have a race.
0:21:02 > 0:21:04- We're going to have a race? - Uh-huh.
0:21:04 > 0:21:07All right. Get on the marks, get set, go.
0:21:10 > 0:21:12See how fast Beyonce is.
0:21:15 > 0:21:18Stop pretending that I have it all together,
0:21:18 > 0:21:21and if I'm scared, be scared,
0:21:21 > 0:21:25allow it, release it,
0:21:25 > 0:21:26move on.
0:21:28 > 0:21:31I think I need to go listen to Make Love To Me
0:21:31 > 0:21:32and I'll make love to my husband.
0:21:35 > 0:21:37# Baby, baby
0:21:39 > 0:21:42# Baby, baby, baby
0:21:44 > 0:21:47# Baby, baby, baby, baby
0:21:49 > 0:21:52# Baby, baby, baby, babe
0:21:54 > 0:21:56# Baby, baby
0:21:59 > 0:22:01# Baby, baby, baby, baby
0:22:04 > 0:22:07# Baby, baby, baby, baby
0:22:09 > 0:22:15# Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby ba-ba-ba-baby, ooh!
0:22:22 > 0:22:27# Ooh-ooh
0:22:27 > 0:22:30# Ooh-ooh-ooh
0:22:30 > 0:22:32# Ooh
0:22:32 > 0:22:39# Make love to me. #
0:22:39 > 0:22:42CHEERING
0:22:49 > 0:22:54It's 3.30 in the morning and I was feeling really nauseous and...
0:22:56 > 0:23:02I just had a feeling last week that something was going on,
0:23:02 > 0:23:05so I had Melissa go get me some pregnancy tests
0:23:05 > 0:23:09and I found out that I am with child.
0:23:11 > 0:23:15I don't know what God is trying to prepare me for,
0:23:15 > 0:23:21because I know everything in my life is for a reason, but wow.
0:23:21 > 0:23:25Really? This is crazy!
0:23:28 > 0:23:32We'll see what happens in the next chapter of my life
0:23:32 > 0:23:36because I have so much going on.
0:23:49 > 0:23:53Hey. Hey.
0:24:00 > 0:24:04# You're ever young. #
0:24:04 > 0:24:09'Being pregnant was very much like falling in love.
0:24:09 > 0:24:15'You are so open. You are so overjoyed.
0:24:15 > 0:24:18'There's no words that can express having a baby
0:24:18 > 0:24:23'growing inside of you, so of course you want to scream it out
0:24:23 > 0:24:27'and tell everyone but you just have to make sure everything's safe.'
0:24:29 > 0:24:37'So I had to hide something that was the best thing in my life.'
0:24:46 > 0:24:49I was scared to make plans, but I remember going to the doctor
0:24:49 > 0:24:53and the doctor said, "Listen, you have to let it go.
0:24:53 > 0:25:00And... "You're healthy and if this baby is supposed to be here,
0:25:00 > 0:25:02"the baby is going to be here
0:25:02 > 0:25:04"and you don't need to be thinking about it.
0:25:04 > 0:25:08"You go do everything that you've been doing and you will be fine."
0:25:15 > 0:25:17The Billboard Award Show was the first performance
0:25:17 > 0:25:20I did knowing I was pregnant.
0:25:21 > 0:25:23Everyone was like, "What is she gonna do now?
0:25:23 > 0:25:25"What's the next step?"
0:25:25 > 0:25:29It was me putting my stamp on my independence,
0:25:29 > 0:25:36the same way Independent Woman did, the same way Survivor did,
0:25:36 > 0:25:40so it was really a passionate performance for me.
0:25:40 > 0:25:43Only this time around, I was pregnant.
0:25:52 > 0:25:57What's going on? OK, sorry, sorry!
0:25:57 > 0:25:58Hi. Sorry, sorry.
0:25:58 > 0:26:06- Hello.- Hello. Hey, Kenzo. That was pretty strong.
0:26:06 > 0:26:12So as you can see, the morale in this team is beyond amazing.
0:26:12 > 0:26:16This gentleman right here hasn't slept in about 72 hours...
0:26:16 > 0:26:19and he still looks pretty good.
0:26:19 > 0:26:21I feel good.
0:26:21 > 0:26:23Doesn't smell quite so good but...!
0:26:26 > 0:26:29We got a video production team here on site.
0:26:29 > 0:26:31It looks like the owner didn't pay his rent.
0:26:31 > 0:26:33We're gonna have to clear them out.
0:26:33 > 0:26:36Ah. Call Melissa on her phone.
0:26:36 > 0:26:38- Yep.- I need you to call Melissa.
0:26:38 > 0:26:40I'm sorry, I have to stop my client from coming to the building.
0:26:40 > 0:26:43Call Melissa for me, get Melissa. They have to lock the building down.
0:26:43 > 0:26:46- So what's going on? - Just wanted to let you know...
0:26:46 > 0:26:48- What's going on? - I don't fucking know, Al.
0:26:48 > 0:26:50Kicked us out of the rehearsal space
0:26:50 > 0:26:53and they're locking the doors with all our equipment in it.
0:26:53 > 0:26:57Beyonce's on her way. We're basically juggling balls.
0:26:57 > 0:27:02Um...give me a call. It's kind of weird out here.
0:27:02 > 0:27:04Talk to you later. Bye.
0:27:04 > 0:27:08If you had to sum up in one sentence where we are right now,
0:27:08 > 0:27:10what would it be?
0:27:12 > 0:27:14We don't have an approved rough cut..
0:27:16 > 0:27:19and we're going on live television in two days.
0:27:22 > 0:27:24That's unheard of.
0:27:27 > 0:27:31Someone called me and I'm thinking, "I can't even be upset.
0:27:31 > 0:27:34"I'm not surprised." Everything went wrong.
0:27:34 > 0:27:36Of course the police are there!
0:27:36 > 0:27:37Of course we can't rehearse!
0:27:37 > 0:27:40Of course we're gonna be out in the street
0:27:40 > 0:27:42just trying to shine some projection
0:27:42 > 0:27:46on a reflection of a car window or something. It was crazy.
0:27:47 > 0:27:49Don't worry.
0:27:49 > 0:27:51'But, thank God, it always works out,
0:27:51 > 0:27:54'and eventually we got in the building
0:27:54 > 0:27:57'and we were able to do a few hours of rehearsal.'
0:27:57 > 0:28:01I call him Champion. And Mario, right? Did I say that right?
0:28:01 > 0:28:05This is so interesting, Beyonce saw some stuff on YouTube.
0:28:05 > 0:28:08They're from Mozambique. That's 26 hours away from here.
0:28:08 > 0:28:11They got some movement that we cannot duplicate,
0:28:11 > 0:28:16so we had to go back and bring them to America and...
0:28:16 > 0:28:17Not America!
0:28:17 > 0:28:19OK. And the movement is brilliant.
0:28:41 > 0:28:42- Whoo!- Whoo!
0:28:42 > 0:28:47OK, five, six, seven... One, two, three. OK.
0:28:47 > 0:28:49One, two, three.
0:28:49 > 0:28:53There, so have this motion, but still have that tightness.
0:29:19 > 0:29:22CHEERING
0:29:29 > 0:29:30I love seeing a new buzz.
0:29:45 > 0:29:49I'm always thinking about women and what we need to hear.
0:29:49 > 0:29:53It's difficult being a woman. It's so much pressure.
0:29:53 > 0:29:56We need that support and we need that escape sometimes.
0:30:01 > 0:30:04That's what I'm saying. Hey, momma.
0:30:04 > 0:30:06You know what I mean?
0:30:06 > 0:30:07I'm good.
0:30:07 > 0:30:10'I grew up in a house with my mother who owned a hair salon
0:30:10 > 0:30:14'and my mother was a therapist. She was more than a hairstylist.'
0:30:14 > 0:30:16She was a therapist.
0:30:16 > 0:30:19And women would come into that salon with problems,
0:30:19 > 0:30:23they'd express themselves, they'd get a makeover
0:30:23 > 0:30:24and they'd walk out new women.
0:30:31 > 0:30:35My mom would let me sweep up the hair
0:30:35 > 0:30:40and, if people would listen, we'd perform for them in the hair salon.
0:30:40 > 0:30:44And most of them were like, "I'm just trying to get a press and curl.
0:30:44 > 0:30:45"I do not wanna hear this."
0:30:45 > 0:30:49But we made them listen and then we insisted on money!
0:30:49 > 0:30:54# And now I learned the meaning to your story
0:30:54 > 0:30:57# And this is an awful lot for me to say
0:30:57 > 0:31:01# I wanna be where you are
0:31:01 > 0:31:05# Oh, oh Anywhere you are
0:31:05 > 0:31:09# Oh, oh I wanna be where you are
0:31:09 > 0:31:12# Oh, oh... #
0:31:12 > 0:31:13'What did you learn about these women?'
0:31:13 > 0:31:17We're all going through our problems,
0:31:17 > 0:31:21but we all have the same insecurities
0:31:21 > 0:31:24and we all have the same abilities
0:31:24 > 0:31:28and we all need each other and...
0:31:28 > 0:31:30You know, I have been around the world,
0:31:30 > 0:31:33I've seen so many things, I love my husband,
0:31:33 > 0:31:36but there's nothing like a conversation
0:31:36 > 0:31:39with a woman that understands you.
0:31:39 > 0:31:44I grow so much from those conversations. I need my sisters.
0:31:44 > 0:31:48# So I cry and I cry and I say
0:31:48 > 0:31:53# Love me, love me Say that you love me
0:31:53 > 0:31:57# Fool me, fool me Go on and fool me
0:31:57 > 0:32:01# Love me, love me Pretend that you love me
0:32:01 > 0:32:05# Leave me, leave me Say that you need me
0:32:05 > 0:32:09# Oh, so I cry
0:32:10 > 0:32:14# And I pray for you to
0:32:14 > 0:32:17# Love me, love me Say that you love me
0:32:17 > 0:32:21# Just say that you need me
0:32:21 > 0:32:29# I don't care about anything but you. #
0:32:30 > 0:32:33Men have been given the chance to rule the world
0:32:33 > 0:32:37and, ladies, our revolution has begun.
0:32:37 > 0:32:43Let's build a nation, women everywhere round the world.
0:32:43 > 0:32:48I think y'all's graphics are on Vicodin. They're too slow.
0:32:48 > 0:32:51Like, when I do this...it should, boom, pop up really fast.
0:32:51 > 0:32:53It's just not dramatic enough.
0:32:53 > 0:32:56Women everywhere, run the world.
0:32:59 > 0:33:04It just took hours and hours and days of hard work,
0:33:04 > 0:33:08making sure the graphics married to the choreography.
0:33:10 > 0:33:14There were certain graphics that looked good on a computer screen,
0:33:14 > 0:33:17but when you put a body in front of it,
0:33:17 > 0:33:20the interaction between me and the screen, it just didn't work out.
0:33:23 > 0:33:24Laurent. Larry.
0:33:29 > 0:33:30No!
0:33:34 > 0:33:36Who is Larry, who is Laurent?
0:33:36 > 0:33:39- Larry.- No!
0:33:39 > 0:33:42So, how you feeling about the projection?
0:33:42 > 0:33:45Feeling good. There's a lot of work to be done in the next 48 hours
0:33:45 > 0:33:49to really crank this thing, make it everything that it can and will be,
0:33:49 > 0:33:52so we're all just like... about to just not sleep
0:33:52 > 0:33:54for two days and kill this shit.
0:34:09 > 0:34:12Maybe they could be doing something.
0:34:14 > 0:34:16- Mm-hmm. - And we could give it to 'em
0:34:16 > 0:34:19- and y'all could do something around what I'm gonna be doing.- Mm-hmm.
0:34:19 > 0:34:23- When they take five, go where you should be.- Yeah.
0:34:23 > 0:34:25Don't you think that'd be helpful?
0:34:25 > 0:34:27- Yes.- OK, let's do it.
0:34:27 > 0:34:29From... This is the...
0:34:29 > 0:34:32- From this.- Got it.
0:34:32 > 0:34:34Right?
0:34:38 > 0:34:41And then when you... Then you come in with this.
0:34:44 > 0:34:46I just need a... # Da-da-da #
0:34:59 > 0:35:02Do you wanna do this for me?
0:35:03 > 0:35:04Thank you.
0:35:06 > 0:35:12Hours of practices, all the thought that went into that...
0:35:13 > 0:35:14..but it's not working.
0:35:14 > 0:35:16I know when to give up.
0:35:16 > 0:35:20Hopefully God will lead me and I'll make the right decision,
0:35:22 > 0:35:26but He's clearly given me a child
0:35:26 > 0:35:30so I need to listen to what He's trying to say.
0:35:30 > 0:35:32I guess maybe I need to focus on my life...
0:35:34 > 0:35:37"To whom much is given, much is required."
0:35:39 > 0:35:44I guess I can handle that. Going to sleep.
0:35:46 > 0:35:49Because we lost a day of rehearsals,
0:35:49 > 0:35:52we never got a chance to do it right, but it was show day,
0:35:52 > 0:35:55so the first time we were gonna see it through was on live TV
0:35:55 > 0:35:58in front of millions of viewers. It was crazy.
0:36:02 > 0:36:06I used to like when people made me mad.
0:36:06 > 0:36:09I'm like, "Please piss me off before the performance."
0:36:10 > 0:36:12I used to use everything.
0:36:12 > 0:36:15By the time I finished fighting everything else
0:36:15 > 0:36:16and got on the stage, I was like...
0:36:26 > 0:36:29Our power is ever-present.
0:36:29 > 0:36:33I am woman, and when I think, I must speak.
0:36:33 > 0:36:35Oh!
0:36:35 > 0:36:37Men have been given the chance to rule the world
0:36:37 > 0:36:40but, ladies, our revolution has begun.
0:36:41 > 0:36:46Let's build a nation, women everywhere.
0:36:46 > 0:36:48Run the world!
0:36:52 > 0:36:56'Billboard was a huge artistic gamble,
0:36:56 > 0:36:59'but the urge to get my message out was so overwhelming,
0:36:59 > 0:37:02'I didn't even pay attention to the risk I was taking.'
0:37:02 > 0:37:04MUSIC: "Run The World" by Beyonce
0:37:12 > 0:37:15Nobody knew I was pregnant during that performance
0:37:15 > 0:37:17and I'm cool with that.
0:37:17 > 0:37:19I'm not interested in a free ride.
0:37:19 > 0:37:21But it absolutely proved to me
0:37:21 > 0:37:24that women have to work much harder to make it in this world.
0:37:28 > 0:37:30It really pisses me off that women
0:37:30 > 0:37:32don't get the same opportunities as men do,
0:37:32 > 0:37:34or money for that matter.
0:37:34 > 0:37:38Because, let's face it, money gives men the power to run the show.
0:37:41 > 0:37:44It gives men the power to define our values
0:37:44 > 0:37:48and to define what's sexy and what's feminine,
0:37:48 > 0:37:49and that's bullshit.
0:37:49 > 0:37:52At the end of the day, it's not about equal rights,
0:37:52 > 0:37:54it's about how we think.
0:37:54 > 0:37:58We have to reshape our own perception of how we view ourselves.
0:37:58 > 0:38:01You all ready? Are you ready? Here we go.
0:38:08 > 0:38:10'We have to step up as women and take the lead
0:38:10 > 0:38:14'and reach as high as humanly possible.
0:38:14 > 0:38:17'That's what I'm going to do, that's my philosophy,
0:38:17 > 0:38:19'and that's what Girls is all about.'
0:38:19 > 0:38:20# You can't hold me
0:38:20 > 0:38:23# I work my nine to five Better cut my cheque
0:38:23 > 0:38:25# This goes out to all the women getting it in
0:38:25 > 0:38:26# You on your grind
0:38:26 > 0:38:29# To the other men that respect what I do
0:38:29 > 0:38:30# Please accept my shine
0:38:30 > 0:38:31# Boy, you know you love it
0:38:31 > 0:38:34# How we're smart enough to make these millions
0:38:34 > 0:38:35# Strong enough to bear the children
0:38:35 > 0:38:37# Then get back to business
0:38:37 > 0:38:39# See, you better not play me
0:38:39 > 0:38:41# Don't come here, baby
0:38:41 > 0:38:43# Hope you still like me
0:38:43 > 0:38:45# Hey, hey
0:38:45 > 0:38:48# My persuasion
0:38:48 > 0:38:51# Can build a nation
0:38:51 > 0:38:55# Endless power
0:38:55 > 0:38:58# Our love we can devour
0:38:58 > 0:39:06# You'll do anything for me
0:39:11 > 0:39:14# Who run this world?
0:39:15 > 0:39:19# What do we run? What do we run?
0:39:19 > 0:39:21# Girls. #
0:39:21 > 0:39:23APPLAUSE AND CHEERING
0:39:24 > 0:39:26Thank you.
0:39:26 > 0:39:30It's my honour to present my daughter Beyonce
0:39:30 > 0:39:32with the Billboard Millennium Award.
0:39:32 > 0:39:35CHEERING
0:39:40 > 0:39:45I'd like to start off by thanking my foundation, which is my family.
0:39:45 > 0:39:51Mom, you have taught me everything I know by example
0:39:51 > 0:39:54and you are a phenomenal woman and I love you so much.
0:39:56 > 0:39:57And I love you too, Jules.
0:39:57 > 0:40:00I'd like to thank my father for teaching me so much
0:40:00 > 0:40:04about the music industry and teaching me about drive
0:40:04 > 0:40:07and teaching me about work ethic. Thank you, Dad.
0:40:07 > 0:40:10I'd also like to thank my best friend.
0:40:10 > 0:40:13Now, I don't want to put you on the spot, cos I know they're probably
0:40:13 > 0:40:16putting a camera in your face right now, but I love me some Jay-Z.
0:40:16 > 0:40:19CHEERING
0:40:28 > 0:40:30What you about to do? Talk to us.
0:40:30 > 0:40:33- I am experiencing... - Oh, I got a great shot right now.
0:40:33 > 0:40:35Oh, you don't even know how good this shot is.
0:40:35 > 0:40:38I am experiencing Utopia.
0:40:38 > 0:40:40Life is just beautiful right now.
0:40:40 > 0:40:43What's she saying? Utopia? About how the light is...
0:40:43 > 0:40:47Life could not be any more fantastic. It is perfect.
0:40:47 > 0:40:51Everything that we worked for is right here, right in this moment.
0:40:51 > 0:40:53It is just amazing.
0:40:53 > 0:40:55Look at this beautiful nature that God created
0:40:55 > 0:40:58that I'm about to jump into right now,
0:40:58 > 0:41:01with my friend that I love and my husband.
0:41:01 > 0:41:05Yes. Thanks be to Jesus.
0:41:05 > 0:41:06MUSIC PLAYS ON RADIO
0:41:06 > 0:41:11Oh, and my nephew's song comes on. Of course.
0:41:11 > 0:41:14Ah! Life is but a dream.
0:41:24 > 0:41:27# Wide boy, wide boy, wide boy
0:41:27 > 0:41:30# Wide boy, wide boy, wide boy
0:41:42 > 0:41:45# Baby boy, you stay on my mind
0:41:45 > 0:41:47# Fulfil my fantasies
0:41:47 > 0:41:50# I think about you all the time
0:41:50 > 0:41:52# I see you in my dreams
0:41:52 > 0:41:57# Baby boy, not a day goes by without my fantasies
0:41:57 > 0:42:01# I think about you all the time I see you in my dreams
0:42:01 > 0:42:06# Ah, oh, my baby's fly baby, oh
0:42:06 > 0:42:11# Yes, no, hurt me so good baby, oh
0:42:11 > 0:42:16# I'm so wrapped up in your love Let me go
0:42:16 > 0:42:21# Let me breathe Stay out my fantasies
0:42:21 > 0:42:25# Baby boy, you stay on my mind Baby boy, you are so damn fine
0:42:25 > 0:42:28# Baby boy, won't you be mine?
0:42:28 > 0:42:29# Baby boy
0:42:31 > 0:42:34# Top top girl, me and you together is a wrap dat girl
0:42:34 > 0:42:37# Driving around da town in your drop top girl, no stop shock girl
0:42:37 > 0:42:40# Little more da dutty We'll rock dat world
0:42:40 > 0:42:43# Top top girl, me and you together is a wrap dat girl
0:42:43 > 0:42:46# Driving around da town in your drop top girl, no stop shock girl
0:42:46 > 0:42:49# Little more da dutty We'll rock dat world
0:42:49 > 0:42:52- # Little more da dutty We'll rock dat world- Come on
0:42:52 > 0:42:58# Little more da dutty We'll rock dat world. #
0:43:10 > 0:43:13CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:43:24 > 0:43:29I think people have an idea in their heads
0:43:29 > 0:43:33about entertainers, celebrities.
0:43:33 > 0:43:37I think they feel like their lives are so perfect,
0:43:37 > 0:43:42and it's really hard to go through painful experiences
0:43:42 > 0:43:46when you're in the public eye, because it's hard to have closure.
0:43:48 > 0:43:53About two years ago, I was pregnant for the first time
0:43:53 > 0:43:56and I heard the heartbeat,
0:43:56 > 0:44:03which was the most beautiful music I've ever heard in my life.
0:44:03 > 0:44:07And there's something that happens when you hear the heartbeat.
0:44:07 > 0:44:13It makes you...truly know that there's life inside of you.
0:44:17 > 0:44:22I...picked out names,
0:44:22 > 0:44:24I envisioned what my child looked like.
0:44:26 > 0:44:30I was feeling very maternal - my first child...
0:44:30 > 0:44:33with the man that I love.
0:44:35 > 0:44:37My family was so excited.
0:44:38 > 0:44:43I flew back to New York to get my check-up...
0:44:45 > 0:44:47..and...
0:44:48 > 0:44:50..no heartbeat.
0:44:51 > 0:44:54Literally, the week before I went to the doctor,
0:44:54 > 0:44:56everything was fine,
0:44:58 > 0:45:00but there was no heartbeat.
0:45:02 > 0:45:04I went into the studio
0:45:04 > 0:45:11and wrote the saddest song I've ever written in my life,
0:45:11 > 0:45:15and it was actually the first song I wrote for my album.
0:45:17 > 0:45:20And it was the best form of therapy for me
0:45:20 > 0:45:24because it was the saddest thing I've ever been through.
0:45:24 > 0:45:30# I guess love just wasn't enough
0:45:30 > 0:45:34# For us to survive
0:45:34 > 0:45:37# I swear, I swear
0:45:37 > 0:45:43# I swear I tried
0:45:44 > 0:45:51# You took the life right out of me
0:45:53 > 0:46:02# I'm so unlucky I can't breathe
0:46:02 > 0:46:12# You took the life right out of me, me, me, me, me
0:46:12 > 0:46:18# I'm longing for your heartbeat
0:46:18 > 0:46:24# Heartbeat, heartbeat... #
0:46:47 > 0:46:51People see celebrities and they seem like their life is great
0:46:51 > 0:46:54and they have money and fame and fans
0:46:54 > 0:46:56and it's almost like you can't touch them.
0:46:56 > 0:46:59- SHOUTING - Beyonce!
0:47:07 > 0:47:09But I'm a human being - I cry.
0:47:09 > 0:47:12I'm extremely sensitive and my feelings get hurt
0:47:12 > 0:47:16and I get scared, I get nervous, just like everyone else.
0:47:22 > 0:47:24Go, go, go, go!
0:47:26 > 0:47:31I always battle with, how much do I reveal about myself?
0:47:31 > 0:47:35How do I keep my humility? How do I keep...
0:47:35 > 0:47:39my spirit and the reality?
0:47:39 > 0:47:44And how do I continue to be generous to my fans and to my craft?
0:47:44 > 0:47:49And how do I stay current, but I how do I stay soulful?
0:47:49 > 0:47:53It is the battle of my life.
0:47:53 > 0:47:55ROARING OF FANS
0:47:55 > 0:47:57- Beyonce! Beyonce! - Stand by. We're walking.
0:47:57 > 0:48:01When I walk onto a stage, I'm able to come out of my shell
0:48:01 > 0:48:04and be as fabulous and over the top
0:48:04 > 0:48:08and strong and powerful as I want to be.
0:48:10 > 0:48:15I get to live out my fantasies and be who a lot of people want to be,
0:48:15 > 0:48:18and I think that's why you come to see a show - to be entertained
0:48:18 > 0:48:22and to kind of live through whoever the performer is on stage.
0:48:24 > 0:48:28You look in the audience and you see this little girl that was me
0:48:28 > 0:48:31when I was looking at Michael or Janet or Tina Turner.
0:48:31 > 0:48:35And there's no way I'm not gonna give 100%,
0:48:35 > 0:48:37cos I remember being that girl.
0:48:40 > 0:48:41And I'm still that girl.
0:48:50 > 0:48:53BEAT KICKS IN
0:49:53 > 0:49:56# Boy, come to me... #
0:49:56 > 0:49:57Atlantic City.
0:49:59 > 0:50:01Atlantic City!
0:50:03 > 0:50:06We gonna have us a good ol' time tonight.
0:50:06 > 0:50:07One, two, three!
0:50:09 > 0:50:12MUSIC PLAYS
0:50:31 > 0:50:34Come on! Make some noise.
0:50:35 > 0:50:38I don't hear you. Make some noise!
0:50:38 > 0:50:40CROWD ROARS Come on!
0:50:42 > 0:50:44CROWD ROARS
0:50:55 > 0:50:59# I'll be your baby I promise not to let you go
0:50:59 > 0:51:02# Love you like crazy Say you'll never let me go
0:51:02 > 0:51:06# Say you'll never let me go Say you'll never let me go
0:51:06 > 0:51:10# Say you'll never let me go Say you'll never let me go
0:51:10 > 0:51:16# Take you away from here
0:51:16 > 0:51:22# There's nothing between us but space and time
0:51:22 > 0:51:24# I'll be your own little star Let me shine in your world
0:51:24 > 0:51:26# Be your own little universe Make me your girl
0:51:26 > 0:51:28# Come take my hand
0:51:28 > 0:51:32# I won't let you go I'll be your friend
0:51:32 > 0:51:34# I will love you so deeply
0:51:34 > 0:51:38# I will be the one to kiss you at night
0:51:38 > 0:51:41# Kiss you at night... # All right, y'all, sing!
0:51:41 > 0:51:45# I'll be your baby I promise not to let you go
0:51:45 > 0:51:50# Love you like crazy Say you'll never let me go, hey!
0:51:50 > 0:51:53# Say you'll never let me go Say you'll never let me go
0:51:53 > 0:51:57# Say you'll never let me go Say you'll never let me go
0:51:57 > 0:51:59# Baby, come on get up on it Show me that you really want it
0:51:59 > 0:52:02# I wanna be the one to love you baby, let's go
0:52:02 > 0:52:04# Oh oh, let's go
0:52:04 > 0:52:07# I wanna provide this loving that you're giving
0:52:07 > 0:52:09I ain't frontin' in this love
0:52:09 > 0:52:11# Can you let me love you from your head to toe?
0:52:11 > 0:52:12# Oh oh, let's go
0:52:12 > 0:52:17- # Boy, come to me- Come to me
0:52:17 > 0:52:19# Let me turn your rain into sun
0:52:19 > 0:52:21# Let me love you, baby
0:52:21 > 0:52:23# Oh no
0:52:24 > 0:52:25# Oh no
0:52:27 > 0:52:28One, two, three, here we go!
0:52:47 > 0:52:50# I just wanna love you
0:52:51 > 0:52:54# I just wanna live for you!
0:52:55 > 0:52:58# I'll never let you go
0:52:58 > 0:53:05# Bring your love to me
0:53:05 > 0:53:07- # I won't let you go- Hey
0:53:07 > 0:53:10# I'll be your friend I wanna love you so
0:53:10 > 0:53:15- # Ha ha- I will be the one to kiss you at night
0:53:15 > 0:53:17# Kiss you at night... # All right!
0:53:19 > 0:53:23# I will be your baby I promise not to let you go
0:53:23 > 0:53:25# Love you like crazy
0:53:25 > 0:53:28# Say you'll never let me go... # Come on!
0:53:28 > 0:53:31# Say you'll never let me go Say you'll never let me go
0:53:31 > 0:53:35- # Say you'll never let me go - Say you'll never let me go. #
0:53:35 > 0:53:37Atlantic City, I love you all.
0:53:37 > 0:53:39CHEERING
0:53:42 > 0:53:44# Love you like crazy
0:53:44 > 0:53:46# Say you'll never let me go! #
0:53:46 > 0:53:49# Say you'll never let me go Say you'll never let me go... #
0:53:49 > 0:53:54# Say you'll never let me go Say you'll never let me go. #
0:53:54 > 0:53:56Please, please bear with us.
0:53:56 > 0:53:59We will do our absolute best to get as many of you in as we can,
0:53:59 > 0:54:02but at this moment in time, if we can't,
0:54:02 > 0:54:08we apologise in advance and please, as it was explained to you guys
0:54:08 > 0:54:12at the time we checked your ticket, there was a chance
0:54:12 > 0:54:15you may indeed not be able to get in to see tonight's show.
0:54:20 > 0:54:23- Can you hear me, Ria?- Yeah.- OK.
0:54:23 > 0:54:26What key is I Miss You?
0:54:26 > 0:54:28I been watching the dancers and they're doing a move,
0:54:28 > 0:54:32you know, we're doing only a single chorus the second time around.
0:54:32 > 0:54:33We don't know what we're doing.
0:54:38 > 0:54:41- So how many dancers do we have, Frank?- We don't know yet.
0:54:41 > 0:54:44I don't know if I'm using five for I Miss You
0:54:44 > 0:54:47and five for...I Was Here.
0:54:47 > 0:54:49We're trying to do the impossible.
0:54:49 > 0:54:51We've got so many people trying to be creative
0:54:51 > 0:54:54and it confuses the issue, you know?
0:54:54 > 0:54:57I'm trying to wrap myself around it, I'm trying to be humble,
0:54:57 > 0:54:59I'm not trying to lose my mind.
0:54:59 > 0:55:01It's a lot. It's just really, really a lot.
0:55:01 > 0:55:03Can you show me one of your set lists?
0:55:03 > 0:55:07Crazy, Irreplaceable, If I Were A Boy, Best Thing I Never,
0:55:07 > 0:55:12End Of Time...then I lost track of where we were, so...
0:55:12 > 0:55:14SCREAMING
0:55:19 > 0:55:22MUSIC PLAYS
0:55:22 > 0:55:24APPLAUSE
0:55:30 > 0:55:33Did y'all tape the whole performance or just that one?
0:55:33 > 0:55:36We were stopping and starting. We were stopping it there because...
0:55:36 > 0:55:39OK. Can I see the next one? MUSIC PLAYS
0:55:39 > 0:55:41Can I see the next song?
0:55:41 > 0:55:43Play the next one.
0:55:44 > 0:55:46I think it looks really messy.
0:55:46 > 0:55:49It is, you know, early times for the lighting guys still...
0:55:49 > 0:55:52- How was it?- OK. So should I wait before I have notes?
0:55:52 > 0:55:54Cos I have a million.
0:55:54 > 0:55:57I just don't wanna give them prematurely and it's not done yet.
0:55:57 > 0:56:00- Or too late.- Yeah.- I think we should give them as many notes
0:56:00 > 0:56:03- as we can now, while we can. - Yeah, I think so.- Mmm.
0:56:03 > 0:56:06Well, in general, the set looks really fake.
0:56:06 > 0:56:10It's... It just doesn't make sense to me.
0:56:10 > 0:56:14The whole purpose of the set is the background and the people
0:56:14 > 0:56:17and the floor and the instruments, everything is supposed to be white.
0:56:17 > 0:56:20But the way you all are lighting it,
0:56:20 > 0:56:23it doesn't matter because you can't tell what the set is doing
0:56:23 > 0:56:24cos there's red and purple light.
0:56:27 > 0:56:30- No, I don't know.- Right. The side should be all white.
0:56:30 > 0:56:32All white. So we'll go all white.
0:56:32 > 0:56:34- Yeah, yeah.- We've got guys to do it tonight.- OK. I mean,
0:56:34 > 0:56:37- I said that yesterday.- Right, yeah. No, everything should be white.
0:56:38 > 0:56:40OK, so let's start rehearsing.
0:57:08 > 0:57:13'After I get off the stage, I have to throw up and I'm, like,
0:57:13 > 0:57:17'fighting my way to the dressing room, trying to hold it in.
0:57:17 > 0:57:20'I mean, they keep putting me in these tight clothes
0:57:20 > 0:57:26'and midriff tops and now I'm showing and trying to hide it.
0:57:26 > 0:57:27'It's very difficult.'
0:57:28 > 0:57:30OK. Thank you, baby.
0:57:31 > 0:57:33All right, all right. Thank you.
0:57:33 > 0:57:36And having to do all this choreography...
0:57:38 > 0:57:41I don't know how I'ma get through this.
0:57:50 > 0:57:53- Do we have a final set list yet, Chris?- Negative.
0:57:55 > 0:57:57- And it's day of show?- Day of show.
0:57:58 > 0:58:00- Well, Nick...- Yeah? - ..how we looking?
0:58:00 > 0:58:05- White.- Are you happy?- Erm...
0:58:09 > 0:58:10Did they paint it white?
0:58:10 > 0:58:13Yeah, they did. Well, I mean, they were painting last night.
0:58:13 > 0:58:15I've got my white camera here.
0:58:15 > 0:58:17I've made myself some white headphones,
0:58:17 > 0:58:20then I've always got the piece de resistance.
0:58:20 > 0:58:22Then no-one will see me.
0:58:22 > 0:58:25- But that looks like... - Beyonce has cut her management down.
0:58:25 > 0:58:27You see all these people brown-nosing
0:58:27 > 0:58:29and I call it posturing for position.
0:58:29 > 0:58:31You see all these people vying for power
0:58:31 > 0:58:33and they go into other departments.
0:58:33 > 0:58:35I just hope that everybody stays in their lane -
0:58:35 > 0:58:38you always hear that being said, stay in their lane,
0:58:38 > 0:58:41and more than ever that needs to happen.
0:58:41 > 0:58:43You can come into my lane, but come into my lane by saying,
0:58:43 > 0:58:46put on your blinker, put on your right signal and say,
0:58:46 > 0:58:48"OK, I'm coming over here into your lane to show you
0:58:48 > 0:58:50"how to turn better right," and that's fine.
0:58:50 > 0:58:52But just don't come into my lane and bogart.
0:58:54 > 0:58:56- Oh, the A doesn't need to change.- OK.
0:58:56 > 0:59:00I say that 100 times and once again nobody listens.
0:59:00 > 0:59:03- But you want her to face this way? Or...- I don't care.
0:59:03 > 0:59:05- As long as you see it. - As long as we see her.- OK.
0:59:09 > 0:59:11It's like shopping.
0:59:12 > 0:59:13Not quite.
0:59:14 > 0:59:18- I'm here.- Hello. Can everybody just step in here? I wanna talk.
0:59:18 > 0:59:21I just wanna be clear, because this thing's, like, a bit of a mess,
0:59:21 > 0:59:24- which is why I had to step away... - Yeah, it's a mess.
0:59:24 > 0:59:27..because there's too many people giving too many directions and...
0:59:27 > 0:59:30'You know, my father taught me so much about being a businesswoman
0:59:30 > 0:59:33'and I'm understanding him a lot now and I think I've realised
0:59:33 > 0:59:36'that business and being polite, it doesn't match.'
0:59:36 > 0:59:39I mean, you can be fair but...
0:59:39 > 0:59:43Me being polite was not me being fair to myself,
0:59:43 > 0:59:48and now I'm learning how political things are
0:59:48 > 0:59:53and a lot of the crazy things he did was necessary.
0:59:58 > 1:00:02# I thought that things like this get better with time
1:00:02 > 1:00:05# But I still need you
1:00:05 > 1:00:07# Why is that? #
1:00:09 > 1:00:11'It has been very difficult.
1:00:11 > 1:00:15'I'm the calmest, most confident person,'
1:00:15 > 1:00:17and the producers and the studios
1:00:17 > 1:00:22and the networks are all panicking and hyper and over-stressed
1:00:22 > 1:00:25and I'm just, like, "Press record."
1:00:25 > 1:00:30# Words don't ever seem to come out right, but I still miss... #
1:00:30 > 1:00:34'Sometimes I think, "Should I just retire?"'
1:00:34 > 1:00:37Maybe you've realised that all you need is you.
1:00:37 > 1:00:40Well, I don't. That's not true.
1:00:40 > 1:00:45All I need is not me, because I can't do it by myself.
1:00:53 > 1:00:57Girls, you know costumes are what they are, you all know what that is.
1:00:57 > 1:00:59There's no way in hell you go out
1:00:59 > 1:01:01with your head not sewn in or something.
1:01:01 > 1:01:03You're supposed to do that yourself.
1:01:03 > 1:01:05But it doesn't stay on your head like that.
1:01:05 > 1:01:08Yeah, but you can make that stay on your head if you sew it in.
1:01:08 > 1:01:10Right. I don't know how to sew in. I can't do that.
1:01:10 > 1:01:13Yeah, but you can. That's bullshit. That's why...you know...
1:01:13 > 1:01:17You got that weave on your head, you can get that hat on your head.
1:01:17 > 1:01:20- I don't do my weave!- Well, whatever. Somebody in your house.
1:01:20 > 1:01:23That's bullshit. That's what I don't like...
1:01:23 > 1:01:25Nobody's gotta make motherfucking Frank right, you understand?
1:01:25 > 1:01:28I can take this motherfucking hat and go get me some glue,
1:01:28 > 1:01:32I can go get me some Super Glue, I can do whatever and get this hat on my head.
1:01:32 > 1:01:34That's bullshit. I hate shit like that, Ashley.
1:01:34 > 1:01:37Nobody needs to help you but your motherfucking self.
1:01:37 > 1:01:39- OK.- You understand?- Mh-mm. - Nobody but yourself.
1:01:39 > 1:01:41Think about it.
1:01:41 > 1:01:44You should be focused on this shit until it's done,
1:01:44 > 1:01:47you understand? Until it's done.
1:02:06 > 1:02:11- Any last words, Declan? - No, we're going down together, man.
1:02:11 > 1:02:12You first, I'm right behind you.
1:02:12 > 1:02:14- Have a good show, bro.- Thank you.
1:02:15 > 1:02:20I was laying in the bed and I felt the baby kick for the first time.
1:02:22 > 1:02:25Made me cry. Kicked five times.
1:02:25 > 1:02:26I'm so excited.
1:02:29 > 1:02:32I've been waiting for that moment.
1:02:32 > 1:02:33I want it to do it again!
1:02:34 > 1:02:37So hopefully it'll do it again, and Jay can feel it.
1:02:37 > 1:02:39It's so beautiful.
1:02:53 > 1:03:00My life is a journey. It seems like I set a goal....
1:03:00 > 1:03:05In some kind of way I accomplish it and then I set another one.
1:03:05 > 1:03:10And my goal was trusting myself and my goal was growth.
1:03:12 > 1:03:16'And I believe I had to go through my miscarriage,
1:03:16 > 1:03:23'I believe I had to go through owning my own company and managing myself.'
1:03:23 > 1:03:28It's a constant battle and ultimately your independence
1:03:28 > 1:03:32comes from you knowing who you are and you being happy with yourself.
1:03:32 > 1:03:36# Got me lookin' so crazy right now, right now... #
1:03:36 > 1:03:38CHEERING
1:03:38 > 1:03:41# Your love's got me lookin' so crazy right now...
1:03:44 > 1:03:47# Got me lookin' so crazy right now, right now...
1:03:49 > 1:03:51# Your love's got me lookin' so crazy right now
1:04:03 > 1:04:04# Right now...
1:04:05 > 1:04:08Yes, so crazy right now!
1:04:08 > 1:04:12Most incredibly, she's the girl...
1:04:18 > 1:04:26CROWD: Beyonce, Beyonce, Beyonce, Beyonce, Beyonce, Beyonce, Beyonce!
1:04:26 > 1:04:31'Sometimes when I just wanna be an artist and have fun
1:04:31 > 1:04:35'and do what I love, I have to be serious and I have to
1:04:35 > 1:04:39'think things through and I have to think about finance and I have to
1:04:39 > 1:04:43'think about what's practical and I have to think about the future
1:04:43 > 1:04:47'and think about my investments and think about if things make sense.
1:04:47 > 1:04:51'And sometimes art doesn't make sense, it just comes from the heart
1:04:51 > 1:04:53'and it doesn't have to make sense.'
1:04:53 > 1:04:55Good night, guys. CHEERING
1:04:56 > 1:05:00- Rob, Rob, Rob! - SHOUTS AND YELLING
1:05:05 > 1:05:09So this is my belly.
1:05:09 > 1:05:12I am 20 weeks
1:05:12 > 1:05:17and I have the MTV Awards coming up and,
1:05:17 > 1:05:19as you can see,
1:05:19 > 1:05:24little pom-pom is ready for the world to know
1:05:24 > 1:05:28that he or she is here.
1:05:28 > 1:05:35I think I'm gonna have to just... throw in the towel and,
1:05:35 > 1:05:41if you can see that I'm pregnant, I'll just have to...own it,
1:05:41 > 1:05:44so I may be...
1:05:44 > 1:05:49Well, my baby may be debuting itself on the awards.
1:05:51 > 1:05:53I'm going to be a mommy.
1:05:55 > 1:05:58Tonight I want you to stand up on your feet.
1:05:58 > 1:06:01I want you to feel the love that's growing inside of me.
1:06:01 > 1:06:04Hey! Whoo! Bring the beat in.
1:06:04 > 1:06:07Hey! Put your hands together.
1:06:12 > 1:06:13# Honey, honey... #
1:06:13 > 1:06:16In my hardest moments, where I thought, "What am I doing?
1:06:16 > 1:06:20"I'm not strong enough for this, I can't get through this,
1:06:20 > 1:06:23"I'm not ready," I just have to say, "Jump,"
1:06:23 > 1:06:27because I know I'm gonna land in that water, swim back on the boat
1:06:27 > 1:06:31and I'm gonna jump again and land in the water and swim back on the boat.
1:06:31 > 1:06:32I have to trust myself.
1:06:32 > 1:06:35# Come on, baby, it's you
1:06:35 > 1:06:37# You're the one that gives your all
1:06:37 > 1:06:40# You're the one I can always call
1:06:40 > 1:06:42# When I need you, baby everything stops
1:06:42 > 1:06:44# Finally you put my love on top
1:06:44 > 1:06:47# Baby, cos you're the one that I love
1:06:47 > 1:06:50# Baby, you're the one that I need
1:06:50 > 1:06:53# You're the only one I see
1:06:53 > 1:06:55# Baby, baby, it's you
1:06:55 > 1:06:57# You're the one that gives your all
1:06:57 > 1:07:00# You're the one I always call
1:07:00 > 1:07:02# When I need you, baby everything stops
1:07:02 > 1:07:04# Finally you put my love on top
1:07:04 > 1:07:07# Baby, cos you're the one that I love
1:07:07 > 1:07:10# Baby, you're the one that I need
1:07:10 > 1:07:12# You're the only thing I see
1:07:12 > 1:07:14# Come on, baby, it's you
1:07:14 > 1:07:17# You're the one that gives your all
1:07:17 > 1:07:19# You're the one I always call
1:07:19 > 1:07:21# When I need you, baby everything stops
1:07:21 > 1:07:24# Finally you put my love on top. #
1:07:25 > 1:07:27CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
1:07:51 > 1:07:54- That was awesome.- Awesome. Awesome. Thank you.
1:07:54 > 1:07:58- I'm free!- Yeah. - Whoo! We're all free.- Yeah.
1:08:00 > 1:08:01- Whoo!- Was it good?
1:08:10 > 1:08:13- You married a musician.- I did.
1:08:13 > 1:08:15Is that a coincidence?
1:08:15 > 1:08:18I think me marrying a musician is a coincidence.
1:08:18 > 1:08:21I mean, we connected because we both performed
1:08:21 > 1:08:26and we both had similar lifestyles, but we connected...
1:08:28 > 1:08:33..on a spiritual level and he just so happened to be a musician.
1:08:38 > 1:08:41OK. Well, I don't know where to start.
1:08:41 > 1:08:44I just want to thank you, everybody, for coming.
1:08:44 > 1:08:48A lot of you guys just got the call cos the baby
1:08:48 > 1:08:53and I know you all had to drop a lot of things to come.
1:08:53 > 1:08:58And this wouldn't be anything without everybody here
1:08:58 > 1:09:01and you all are here because you all are special to Jay
1:09:01 > 1:09:04therefore you're special to me. Anybody he loves, I love.
1:09:10 > 1:09:14This is nothing compared to what you've done for me
1:09:14 > 1:09:16and not only me, but everybody here.
1:09:18 > 1:09:20You taught me so many things.
1:09:20 > 1:09:22I was 20 years old when we first started dating.
1:09:22 > 1:09:24You taught me how to be a woman.
1:09:24 > 1:09:26You taught me how to live.
1:09:26 > 1:09:29You taught me how to be a friend.
1:09:29 > 1:09:36You've given me so much in life and this is not enough.
1:09:36 > 1:09:38There's not enough I can give you.
1:09:38 > 1:09:41I just want you to be happy
1:09:41 > 1:09:44and every year I'm even more in love with you
1:09:44 > 1:09:47and I want to spend every day of my life with you.
1:09:48 > 1:09:52Happy birthday, and I thank God for you every day.
1:09:54 > 1:09:57He's taught me so much about being an artist.
1:09:57 > 1:09:59Not a musician, but an artist.
1:09:59 > 1:10:03and fighting for what I believe and having my standards.
1:10:03 > 1:10:08I'm, like most women, very generous and I'll compromise
1:10:08 > 1:10:13and he doesn't compromise his art. And I used to be so afraid
1:10:13 > 1:10:15of people thinking I was difficult or too critical
1:10:15 > 1:10:22and you know, I don't really care about that any more,
1:10:22 > 1:10:25as long as it's for the right reason, and I learned that from him.
1:10:25 > 1:10:29# And all the things you do... #
1:10:29 > 1:10:31What was it called, baby?
1:10:31 > 1:10:36# And it was called yellow... #
1:10:36 > 1:10:42'I just pray that Jay and I stay a team cos right now we are
1:10:42 > 1:10:46'really connected and really are communicating well
1:10:46 > 1:10:50'and completely understand each other, support each other
1:10:50 > 1:10:53'and need each other. This baby has made me love him
1:10:53 > 1:10:56'more than I ever thought I could love another human being.
1:10:56 > 1:11:00'It's just I love him so much, like, we almost feel like one.
1:11:00 > 1:11:04'I just don't know how to describe it.'
1:11:04 > 1:11:06# Something beautiful...
1:11:09 > 1:11:11# I love you so... #
1:11:11 > 1:11:14Let's sing it one more time.
1:11:14 > 1:11:17# Jay, Jay, I love you so. #
1:11:19 > 1:11:21What a breeze, what a breeze.
1:11:22 > 1:11:25'I hope I remember this when the baby comes and it gets tough
1:11:25 > 1:11:29'cos it's going to be an adjustment cos this feeling is so beautiful.
1:11:29 > 1:11:33'It's every woman's dream to feel this way about someone.'
1:11:48 > 1:11:50- RADIO CLIPS:- 'Beyonce has hired a surrogate mother
1:11:50 > 1:11:52'to carry her and Jay-Z's child.'
1:11:52 > 1:11:55'Beyonce's going to use a surrogate so she can maintain her body.'
1:11:55 > 1:11:57'If they use a surrogate...'
1:11:57 > 1:11:59'..then they'll play it off like they gave birth.'
1:12:01 > 1:12:06It's a stupid rumour. It's actually the most ridiculous rumour
1:12:06 > 1:12:10I think I've ever had about me. But there are actually
1:12:10 > 1:12:15a lot of people that believe this rumour and it's crazy.
1:12:15 > 1:12:18I guess there are some crazy celebrities in the world
1:12:18 > 1:12:20so we get a bad rep.
1:12:20 > 1:12:25But...to think that I would be that vain
1:12:25 > 1:12:31and...I respect mothers and women so much
1:12:31 > 1:12:37and to be able to experience bringing a child into this world,
1:12:37 > 1:12:41if you are lucky and fortunate enough to experience that,
1:12:41 > 1:12:44I would never, ever take that for granted.
1:12:44 > 1:12:48I mean, it's the most powerful thing you can ever do in your life,
1:12:48 > 1:12:51and especially after losing a child.
1:12:51 > 1:12:56The pain and trauma from that just makes it mean so much more
1:12:56 > 1:13:00to get an opportunity to bring life into the world.
1:13:00 > 1:13:03It's something that you have to respect.
1:13:03 > 1:13:05It just seems like people should have boundaries.
1:13:05 > 1:13:09There are certain things that you just shouldn't...play around with
1:13:09 > 1:13:14and a child, you don't play around with that.
1:13:18 > 1:13:20Have you ever been lied to?
1:13:24 > 1:13:26Have you ever been hurt?
1:13:26 > 1:13:29Had a hard time forgiving?
1:13:29 > 1:13:30I want you all to help me sing.
1:13:35 > 1:13:38# I wish I could believe you
1:13:38 > 1:13:41# Then I'll be all right
1:13:41 > 1:13:44# But now everything you told me
1:13:44 > 1:13:47# Really don't apply
1:13:48 > 1:13:53# To the way I feel inside
1:13:53 > 1:13:55# Loving you was easy
1:13:55 > 1:13:57# Once upon a time
1:13:57 > 1:14:01# But now my suspicions of you
1:14:01 > 1:14:05# Have multiplied
1:14:05 > 1:14:10# And it's all because you lied
1:14:10 > 1:14:15# I only give you a hard time
1:14:15 > 1:14:21# Cos I can't go on and pretend like
1:14:21 > 1:14:27# I haven't tried to forget this
1:14:27 > 1:14:32# But I'm much too full of resentment
1:14:32 > 1:14:36# Just can't seem to get over
1:14:36 > 1:14:39# The way you hurt me
1:14:39 > 1:14:43# Don't know how you gave another
1:14:43 > 1:14:46# Who didn't mean a thing, no
1:14:46 > 1:14:49# The very thing
1:14:49 > 1:14:51# You gave to me
1:14:51 > 1:14:53# I thought I could forgive you
1:14:53 > 1:14:56# And I know you've changed
1:14:56 > 1:15:00# As much as I wanna trust you
1:15:00 > 1:15:04# I know it ain't the same
1:15:04 > 1:15:09# And it's all because you lied
1:15:09 > 1:15:14# I only give you a hard time
1:15:14 > 1:15:20# Cos I can't go on and pretend like
1:15:20 > 1:15:26# I haven't tried to forget this
1:15:26 > 1:15:32# But I'm much too full of resentment
1:15:32 > 1:15:38# I may never understand why
1:15:38 > 1:15:43# I'm doing the best that I can and I
1:15:43 > 1:15:50# I have been trying to forget this
1:15:50 > 1:15:54# But I'm much too full of resentment
1:15:54 > 1:15:58# I'll never forget feeling
1:15:58 > 1:16:01# Like I was no good
1:16:01 > 1:16:04# Like I couldn't do it for you
1:16:04 > 1:16:07# Like that wack bitch could
1:16:08 > 1:16:12# And it's all...
1:16:12 > 1:16:14# I loved you more than ever
1:16:14 > 1:16:18# More than my own life
1:16:18 > 1:16:20# The best part of me I gave you
1:16:20 > 1:16:25# Did with sacrifice, yeah
1:16:25 > 1:16:30# And it's all because you lied
1:16:30 > 1:16:36# You lied, you lied
1:16:36 > 1:16:42# You lied
1:16:46 > 1:16:49# I know she was attractive
1:16:49 > 1:16:52# But I was here first
1:16:52 > 1:16:56# Been riding with you for six years
1:16:56 > 1:16:59# Why did I deserve
1:16:59 > 1:17:04# To be treated this way by you
1:17:04 > 1:17:06# I know you're probably thinking
1:17:06 > 1:17:08# "What's up with B?"
1:17:08 > 1:17:10# I'm crying
1:17:10 > 1:17:13# Can't stop crying
1:17:13 > 1:17:18# Can't stop crying
1:17:20 > 1:17:24# You could've told me
1:17:24 > 1:17:27# You weren't happy
1:17:27 > 1:17:31# I know you didn't want to hurt me
1:17:31 > 1:17:35# But look what you done done to me now
1:17:36 > 1:17:40# I gotta look at her in her eyes
1:17:41 > 1:17:44# And see she's had half of me
1:17:44 > 1:17:49# She ain't even half of me
1:17:49 > 1:17:52# Look what you done done to me now
1:17:52 > 1:17:58# And it's all because you lied. #
1:18:00 > 1:18:03CHEERING
1:18:23 > 1:18:24Thank you all.
1:18:30 > 1:18:35This is a song written by Julez.
1:18:35 > 1:18:40# Blue, Blue, Blue I'm so in love with you
1:18:40 > 1:18:45# Mm mm mm I want to hold you and kiss you
1:18:45 > 1:18:51# So hurry up and get out of there quickly, Blue
1:18:51 > 1:18:53# Ooh. #
1:18:54 > 1:18:57This is your big cousin, yo.
1:19:04 > 1:19:06'The baby is coming in three weeks.'
1:19:09 > 1:19:12'I feel...anxious.'
1:19:14 > 1:19:18'These last three weeks are my last weeks
1:19:18 > 1:19:21'responsible for myself
1:19:21 > 1:19:26'so I'm trying my best to take care of my child-like self
1:19:26 > 1:19:30'and enjoy my freedom, I guess,
1:19:30 > 1:19:32'for the last three weeks.
1:19:32 > 1:19:37'This is going to be nothing in comparison to having a child.'
1:19:39 > 1:19:43It was my biggest fear. You hear women and they're, like,
1:19:43 > 1:19:46"I want 12 kids. I'm a nature woman."
1:19:46 > 1:19:49I was like, "I am scared to death."
1:19:49 > 1:19:53I was scared and because I was afraid
1:19:53 > 1:19:57I did all my research and I just kept thinking,
1:19:57 > 1:19:59"I was made for this. God made me for this.
1:19:59 > 1:20:02"This is beyond me. I was born for this.
1:20:02 > 1:20:04"My body is going to do what it's supposed to do.
1:20:04 > 1:20:06"Let it be, relax."
1:20:06 > 1:20:10And it was the most beautiful experience of my life.
1:20:35 > 1:20:37It was amazing. It was amazing!
1:20:37 > 1:20:40I can't believe it, I really can't.
1:20:40 > 1:20:42This was life.
1:20:49 > 1:20:56I felt like God was giving me a chance to assist in a miracle.
1:21:00 > 1:21:05There's something so relieving about life taking over you like that.
1:21:05 > 1:21:09You're playing a part in a much bigger show,
1:21:09 > 1:21:10and that's what life is.
1:21:11 > 1:21:13It's the greatest show on earth.
1:21:38 > 1:21:42My baby was born out of a conflict in my life
1:21:42 > 1:21:44and that struggle had to be settled.
1:21:45 > 1:21:49If I wouldn't have gone through the pain, if I hadn't gone down the path,
1:21:49 > 1:21:51I'd probably be touring right now
1:21:51 > 1:21:55or shooting videos or editing a TV special.
1:21:58 > 1:22:00There's no drum roll or trumpet that goes off
1:22:00 > 1:22:03when you make the biggest decision in your life.
1:22:03 > 1:22:06Sometimes you don't even know that you've made them.
1:22:09 > 1:22:14Do you see the microphone? Look. Say, "Hi, microphone."
1:22:19 > 1:22:20OK.
1:22:24 > 1:22:29I don't know why I'm so fortunate and so blessed.
1:22:29 > 1:22:32And I know that my mom always told me
1:22:32 > 1:22:35that my grandmother was in the church, lighting candles
1:22:35 > 1:22:37and praying for her.
1:22:37 > 1:22:43And...I am...
1:22:43 > 1:22:47a result of my grandmother's prayers.
1:22:47 > 1:22:52And my mother prays for me all the time
1:22:52 > 1:22:54and I pray for my daughter all the time
1:22:54 > 1:22:59and God is real and God lives inside of me
1:22:59 > 1:23:02and inside of all of us.
1:23:02 > 1:23:08And it doesn't matter where I am, I know that and I feel it.
1:23:08 > 1:23:12Like, right now I'm hot, you know? It's a tingling.
1:23:12 > 1:23:14It's like... It's love.
1:23:14 > 1:23:17I feel it when I look at my child, I feel it when I look at my husband.
1:23:17 > 1:23:18It's God.
1:23:23 > 1:23:25HE SINGS LULLABY
1:23:46 > 1:23:48Look how handsome and beautiful you all are.
1:24:01 > 1:24:08'I believe everything in our life, every person in our life,
1:24:08 > 1:24:14'every relationship, everything is there for a reason.
1:24:14 > 1:24:18'And when you really pay attention,
1:24:18 > 1:24:22'there are certain little clues we get.
1:24:22 > 1:24:27'It's so crystal clear what the next step is.'
1:24:27 > 1:24:33It's just this puzzle and everything is in its right place
1:24:33 > 1:24:37and, as we grow, we take the next step, the dots get connected
1:24:37 > 1:24:41and we eventually become what we're supposed to be.
1:24:47 > 1:24:49Everybody stand up on your feet.
1:24:55 > 1:24:57You know I'm the luckiest girl in the world.
1:24:59 > 1:25:05I get to stand up on this stage and entertain all y'all.
1:25:05 > 1:25:10And for two hours, y'all are not thinking about your break-ups,
1:25:10 > 1:25:13your money, your problems.
1:25:13 > 1:25:16Y'all are just having a good old time.
1:25:18 > 1:25:20That's what I get to do.
1:25:20 > 1:25:27Damn. I'ma give you everything I have, I promise.
1:25:27 > 1:25:30I want you all to stand up, put your hands up.
1:25:30 > 1:25:32Put your hands up.
1:25:35 > 1:25:36One, two, three, four.
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