0:00:02 > 0:00:04My name's Georgia Howes, I'm 14.
0:00:04 > 0:00:08When I grow up I want to be an architect, actress
0:00:08 > 0:00:13and maybe a glamour model, but I'm not sure yet.
0:00:13 > 0:00:15My mum wants me to be a glamour model.
0:00:16 > 0:00:19That's it. That's the one.
0:00:20 > 0:00:24Adolescence is awkward enough for most teenagers,
0:00:24 > 0:00:28but what would it be like if your mum was kiss-and-tell queen,
0:00:28 > 0:00:32topless model and plastic surgery addict Alicia Douvall?
0:00:35 > 0:00:38- I need it. - You don't need plastic surgery.
0:00:38 > 0:00:40It's not a need.
0:00:40 > 0:00:45Georgia and Alicia have an extraordinary relationship.
0:00:45 > 0:00:52I am, a lot of the time, the mother and she's the daughter sometimes. We swap around.
0:00:52 > 0:00:54She's more like a sister to me.
0:00:54 > 0:01:02Georgia's supposed to be this gorgeous next top model and all she does is study biology
0:01:02 > 0:01:08and Macbeth. She came from my womb! How can she be that different?
0:01:08 > 0:01:13This film follows them on an unforgettable trip to America...
0:01:19 > 0:01:22The bandages are coming off!
0:01:22 > 0:01:27- Wasn't quite the holiday we thought it would be, is it?- No.
0:01:27 > 0:01:30- You're having a go at me! - No, I'm not.- You are!
0:01:30 > 0:01:35There's certain things in the relationship you want to change.
0:01:35 > 0:01:40..as Alicia's past collides with Georgia's future.
0:01:40 > 0:01:43I'm still trying to decide what to do with my life.
0:01:59 > 0:02:04When she was 12, Georgia announced she wanted a boob job like her mum.
0:02:04 > 0:02:08Two years on, she's developed opinions of her own.
0:02:08 > 0:02:13You're a bad influence. You want me to do topless modelling.
0:02:13 > 0:02:17- It's not a bad influence.- It is. - Welcome to the real world.
0:02:17 > 0:02:21I'm not going to just ruin my career...
0:02:21 > 0:02:26It didn't do Jordan any harm. Or me.
0:02:26 > 0:02:33- It just cuts out the competition. If you're prepared to do topless, a lot of girls aren't...- Exactly!
0:02:33 > 0:02:35That's for a reason.
0:02:35 > 0:02:40It's easier, you get more money, you get guaranteed work
0:02:40 > 0:02:46and you'll become famous within... days for taking your top off. How easy is that?
0:02:46 > 0:02:48'Being a woman is powerful.
0:02:48 > 0:02:51'That's what I try to teach her.'
0:02:51 > 0:02:59That's the most important lesson you can teach a girl. Know what? This...is going to get you far.
0:02:59 > 0:03:03Britney Spears had a boob job at 16. You've got two years left.
0:03:03 > 0:03:08Well, I don't want a boob job, so I don't have two years left.
0:03:08 > 0:03:11- She'll change her mind. - I will not!
0:03:12 > 0:03:14I will not.
0:03:14 > 0:03:17'Before, I was more...'
0:03:17 > 0:03:24I wanted surgery because I thought, "Well, she's had it. It's normal. It's just something that you do."
0:03:24 > 0:03:30But I think I've been put off of it because I've seen her have so many operations go wrong.
0:03:30 > 0:03:33- Do I know best?- Yes, you know best.
0:03:33 > 0:03:37Thank you. Really, you slag me off and stuff,
0:03:37 > 0:03:43- but at the end of the day, you know I'm right. That's why you follow my lead, isn't it?- Yeah.
0:03:53 > 0:03:56One, two, three!
0:03:56 > 0:03:57Mwah!
0:03:58 > 0:04:00You've got to do this.
0:04:00 > 0:04:03Like that. One, two, three!
0:04:03 > 0:04:05Mwah!
0:04:05 > 0:04:08- I don't know what you did there. - I just go...
0:04:08 > 0:04:12- OK.- If you're going to be a model, you've got to do it.
0:04:12 > 0:04:16- Just tell me what you want me to do! - Like that.
0:04:17 > 0:04:19That's it!
0:04:19 > 0:04:25With the eyebrow. I can't do that. My face is paralysed. I can't do the eyebrow.
0:04:25 > 0:04:30OK, now do it to camera nicely. Go with the eyebrow like that.
0:04:30 > 0:04:34- Like...- To the camera. Yes! That's the one.
0:04:34 > 0:04:35Good girl.
0:04:45 > 0:04:50It's Saturday morning. Alicia's preparing for a photo shoot,
0:04:52 > 0:04:56leaving Georgia to a full morning of homework.
0:04:58 > 0:05:02Georgia goes to an exclusive boarding school in Kent.
0:05:02 > 0:05:06She spends weekends and holidays in London with her mum.
0:05:10 > 0:05:14- Will you do your piano practice today, Georgia?- Mm-hm.
0:05:15 > 0:05:18- And can you walk the dog for me?- Yep.
0:05:19 > 0:05:21- Chemistry.- Chemistry.
0:05:23 > 0:05:26I have to do page 53, question 5.
0:05:26 > 0:05:30- Boring(!)- Yeah. - And what else have you got to do?
0:05:30 > 0:05:34That's it. The Chemistry will take me about an hour.
0:05:34 > 0:05:40- That's an hour wasted. - But I have to do the Chemistry, otherwise you get a minus.
0:05:43 > 0:05:47All it takes is another little cross across it and you've got a plus!
0:05:47 > 0:05:55Don't put too much pressure on yourself. Put pressure on for your piano because that's a talent.
0:05:55 > 0:06:00- Singing and acting.- Mm-hm. - Cos they're actual talents.
0:06:00 > 0:06:01Chemistry.
0:06:01 > 0:06:06- You don't need that. That comes naturally.- Does it?
0:06:06 > 0:06:09It does, honestly. Naturally.
0:06:09 > 0:06:15So you know what sodium sulphate plus magnesium... magnesium oxide is?
0:06:16 > 0:06:18And?
0:06:20 > 0:06:24I could become a chemistry-ologist or...you know.
0:06:24 > 0:06:28I could cure cancer because of that textbook.
0:06:30 > 0:06:33- Do it, then.- Yeah.
0:06:39 > 0:06:43You can text me and tell me how it goes.
0:06:43 > 0:06:46- You text me. Keep in touch.- I will.
0:06:46 > 0:06:48- See you later!- Bye!
0:06:48 > 0:06:50- Bye! Love you lots!- Love you, too.
0:07:01 > 0:07:06"Experiment to investigate the rate of decomposition on a hydrogen peroxide solution
0:07:06 > 0:07:12"in the presence of magnesium oxide." Yeah. Sounds interesting.
0:07:24 > 0:07:26SHE PLAYS
0:07:30 > 0:07:31No.
0:07:34 > 0:07:38I enjoy acting and music and things.
0:07:38 > 0:07:44I like that when you're acting you can just do what you want, really,
0:07:44 > 0:07:47be another character.
0:07:47 > 0:07:54When I'm acting, it makes me feel more alive, I suppose, and there's not as many troubles
0:07:54 > 0:08:01and you can pretend to be someone else, learn about them, and all their emotions and feelings.
0:08:10 > 0:08:16Although Georgia's never met her real father, her godfather Paul has been a family friend for years.
0:08:18 > 0:08:24When Georgia was a baby, Alicia was abandoned, homeless and sleeping in a hostel.
0:08:24 > 0:08:29- Hello!- He helped Alicia out of a tough situation
0:08:29 > 0:08:34and has always taken a keen interest in Georgia's education.
0:08:34 > 0:08:36These are all home-made, by the way.
0:08:36 > 0:08:39- Mmm!- Aaah!- Georgia!
0:08:40 > 0:08:43There you go. Someone's happy.
0:08:43 > 0:08:48- That's yours. Look at that - yum! - She won't eat a whole one.
0:08:48 > 0:08:50Do your best. There you go.
0:08:50 > 0:08:57Alicia wants Georgia to skip sixth form in favour of stage school. Paul has other ideas.
0:08:57 > 0:09:03If you've got your A Levels and a degree,
0:09:03 > 0:09:09not in Medieval Literature, but if you've got a degree in drama and arts,
0:09:09 > 0:09:14apart from anything else, you've had three years of drinking lager, wearing funny clothes,
0:09:14 > 0:09:21having no responsibility, wandering around Europe on your weeks off. That's not too bad, is it?
0:09:21 > 0:09:25But if she goes to drama school, it's what she wants to do.
0:09:25 > 0:09:31I think she's such a good actress that she will make it anyway. She doesn't need a back-up plan.
0:09:31 > 0:09:37- Keira Knightley made it. - And then you can't get a proper job ever cos you're stuck.
0:09:37 > 0:09:43That's that. You'll wander around the world, never have any money...
0:09:43 > 0:09:46- Like Angelina Jolie, Brad Pitt... - Living hand to mouth.
0:09:46 > 0:09:50What Alicia, to me, needs to do
0:09:50 > 0:09:55'is to let go of her own frustrated ambitions.
0:09:55 > 0:09:59'And say, look,'
0:09:59 > 0:10:03Georgia's going to make her own choices in life, in due course.
0:10:03 > 0:10:10Give her all the different opportunities that she can have so she has the biggest range of choice.
0:10:10 > 0:10:15Despite his different views, Paul does understand Alicia's mindset.
0:10:15 > 0:10:21Georgia's now unfurling her wings and she's getting ready to leave the nest and Alicia's scared.
0:10:21 > 0:10:25And Alicia's trying to kind of keep her in the church of glamour
0:10:25 > 0:10:29because that's what Alicia knows and feels safe with.
0:10:29 > 0:10:34"If Georgia becomes a chartered accountant or a vet, I've lost her."
0:10:55 > 0:10:59'This morning, Georgia and Alicia are off to a cosmetics clinic.'
0:11:01 > 0:11:08- Is your routine in the morning as complicated as your mum's routine?- Em...
0:11:09 > 0:11:16I don't know if it's as complicated, maybe. I just wash my face, brush my teeth.
0:11:19 > 0:11:23- You don't like wearing that much makeup?- No, I don't really.
0:11:23 > 0:11:31I think it's bad for your skin, really, and your eyelashes and things.
0:11:31 > 0:11:34- So you like to look natural?- Yeah.
0:11:37 > 0:11:45'Alicia's going to get her lipstick and eyebrows tattooed on, while Georgia is just in for a manicure.'
0:11:46 > 0:11:53My mum does look pretty when she wears all her makeup and her dress and everything.
0:11:55 > 0:12:00- Do you think she's beautiful? - Yeah, I do think she's beautiful.
0:12:03 > 0:12:07I'm not sure if she thinks she's beautiful.
0:12:07 > 0:12:11We had a discussion before and she said,
0:12:11 > 0:12:16"I'm not perfect." I said, "No one is perfect." And she said, "I'm far off perfect, though."
0:12:16 > 0:12:19Georgie, are you ready, darling?
0:12:39 > 0:12:46Because my mum is quite obsessed with her appearance, I think it makes me not so obsessed.
0:12:46 > 0:12:53Basically, I'd like to get rid of... I've got this. I'm not sure if it's my own fat.
0:12:53 > 0:12:59I had filler put in years ago and it's not permanent filler but it's never come out.
0:12:59 > 0:13:04I like to look nice. It's nice when people say, "Oh, you look nice."
0:13:06 > 0:13:12I don't think I try that hard. It's an all-girls school. It doesn't really matter.
0:13:12 > 0:13:17I think a lot of people judge you at the moment because in magazines
0:13:17 > 0:13:20there's people who look really pretty.
0:13:20 > 0:13:23A lot of people in my school are pressured by that.
0:13:23 > 0:13:28So this is the opposite to filler. I'm having filler taken out.
0:13:28 > 0:13:31I made mistakes before.
0:13:32 > 0:13:37This man's going to sort them out, sort all my mistakes in life out.
0:13:37 > 0:13:42Now it sometimes feels like an electric shock, sometimes warm
0:13:42 > 0:13:44and if you leave it, it gets hot.
0:13:44 > 0:13:47OK, a tiny scratch coming up.
0:13:47 > 0:13:50Well done. Very good. Now...
0:13:50 > 0:13:53Let me know if you feel anything.
0:13:54 > 0:13:56Ahh! Yeah.
0:14:00 > 0:14:07As well as her firm views on body image, having a celebrity mum has also given Georgia
0:14:07 > 0:14:10an interesting perspective on fame.
0:14:10 > 0:14:15Most girls in my class probably want to be famous and do singing and acting.
0:14:15 > 0:14:19A lot of people want fame like Britney
0:14:19 > 0:14:23or an actress, the red carpet and everything.
0:14:23 > 0:14:28And what about you? Do you really want to be famous?
0:14:28 > 0:14:33I wouldn't... I wouldn't want to be famous, but I want to be an actress
0:14:33 > 0:14:37and I want to be successful at it and to enjoy what I'm doing.
0:14:37 > 0:14:41I like acting, so I'd enjoy it. I wouldn't do it just for fame.
0:14:57 > 0:15:03- Georgia, when you're older, are you wanting to have all this done...?- No.
0:15:03 > 0:15:07- You'd stay more natural? - Yeah, I'm fine with my own eyebrows,
0:15:07 > 0:15:10just having them, you know.
0:15:14 > 0:15:16Thank you!
0:15:17 > 0:15:22Your eyelashes and your eyebrows look really good.
0:15:22 > 0:15:24You look lovely.
0:15:24 > 0:15:28- So do you.- Are you pleased with it?
0:15:28 > 0:15:30# Don't wanna be second best
0:15:30 > 0:15:37# Don't wanna stand in line Don't wanna fall behind... #
0:15:38 > 0:15:43Although Alicia is keen to see her daughter rise to stardom,
0:15:43 > 0:15:48she still worries about the damaging effects her notoriety could have on Georgia.
0:15:48 > 0:15:55It's Sunday morning. A secret affair between Alicia and England's football captain John Terry
0:15:55 > 0:16:01has hit the papers. It's dragged Alicia into one of the biggest tabloid scandals of the year.
0:16:02 > 0:16:07Georgia's doing her Duke of Edinburgh camping and stuff
0:16:07 > 0:16:08so she's all right.
0:16:12 > 0:16:16I'm pleased she's not around anyway today,
0:16:16 > 0:16:18because of the paper.
0:16:19 > 0:16:22- Because of what? - You know. (The paper.)
0:16:22 > 0:16:26It's nice to protect her from that, you know.
0:16:32 > 0:16:36Does it worry you, her seeing the papers sometimes?
0:16:37 > 0:16:42I wouldn't like to think my mum's a slag, would you?
0:16:42 > 0:16:46Not many 14-year-olds have got their mother in the newspaper...
0:16:49 > 0:16:51..being linked to footballers.
0:17:01 > 0:17:08A few days later, Alicia's decided to tell Georgia to stop her hearing it from someone else first.
0:17:08 > 0:17:12- Georgie turns a blind eye to my antics.- Yeah.
0:17:12 > 0:17:19I don't know. It's just... I'm not going to have a go at you or something, am I?
0:17:19 > 0:17:25Basically, I was in the papers with this whole John Terry thing. Just vaguely I was part of it.
0:17:25 > 0:17:31And obviously it's not very nice and it's not true. Well, it is true, but it's exaggerated in the papers
0:17:31 > 0:17:34to make me look like a slapper.
0:17:34 > 0:17:38Did anyone talk to you about it, Georgia? Did anyone you know see it?
0:17:38 > 0:17:42- No, no one told me about it. - That's good, that's good.
0:17:42 > 0:17:48- I don't think many of my 14-year-old friends read...- The papers.- Yeah. - So it's fine.
0:17:48 > 0:17:51So no harm done there, then.
0:17:51 > 0:17:54Just ignore it, you know.
0:17:54 > 0:18:01- I do anyway.- And you know I'm not like that. Mummy doesn't climb in the back of cars, does she?- No.
0:18:03 > 0:18:10- So it doesn't really bother you, then, Georgia?- No, it doesn't affect me, really.
0:18:10 > 0:18:13- What counts is that I'm a good mother.- Yeah.
0:18:13 > 0:18:19I'm proud that she's kind of amazing. She's done something with her life and everything.
0:18:19 > 0:18:24But every time she's in a magazine, there's always a positive part,
0:18:24 > 0:18:30but I'd say 60% of the magazine is always a negative part.
0:18:30 > 0:18:36So I never want to read them, really, cos it's not what I want to hear about her.
0:18:36 > 0:18:40I know more cos I live with her and I talk to her.
0:18:52 > 0:18:58- It's not a best friend!- We hang out together, do everything together! - You're not a best friend, though.
0:18:58 > 0:19:04- Oh, thanks(!)- You're related to me! You're like a best friend in a different way! You're my mum!
0:19:04 > 0:19:07You can't be more than one thing.
0:19:07 > 0:19:14- Hard as nails, this girl. Hard as nails.- I love you, too. You're the best friend I ever had(!)
0:19:14 > 0:19:19- I was only joking!- Oh, I forgot to laugh, it was so funny(!)
0:19:29 > 0:19:31Right. Water.
0:19:38 > 0:19:43- I am your friend really, though, aren't I?- Mm-hm.- Thank you.
0:19:44 > 0:19:49Although Georgia seems relatively unfazed by tabloid gossip,
0:19:49 > 0:19:55one thing in her mum's life does concern her - Alicia's addiction to plastic surgery.
0:19:55 > 0:20:02Despite being diagnosed with body dysmorphia, she's now planning her 16th boob job.
0:20:02 > 0:20:07- Everyone says she has big boobs. - I haven't got big boobs.- You have!
0:20:07 > 0:20:12- OK?- I've got big as in normal big, but I haven't got big, big.
0:20:12 > 0:20:17- But no one wants big, big. - I want big, big.- You don't.- I do.
0:20:17 > 0:20:23- Well, you go do that. - That's what I'm trying to do.- You'll regret it and get smaller again!
0:20:23 > 0:20:30- I'm just saying you'll regret it. There's no-one to stop you. - I need it.
0:20:30 > 0:20:36- You don't need plastic surgery. It's not a need.- I do need it. You don't understand.
0:20:36 > 0:20:41It's like me needing...I don't know. A bag. I've already got one.
0:20:41 > 0:20:45I haven't... Georgia, you said yourself my face needs doing.
0:20:45 > 0:20:48- No, you don't.- You said it yourself.
0:20:48 > 0:20:55If you want to do something to your face, you can, but you don't need to touch anything else, OK?
0:20:55 > 0:21:02- How can I get my face done if I don't get my boobs done?- That has nothing to do with your face!
0:21:02 > 0:21:08It's only a little bit, a size bigger. Might as well at the same time...
0:21:08 > 0:21:14You're making me lose this game, I'm afraid. You don't need anything done to your boobs.
0:21:14 > 0:21:17- I just need...- You don't!
0:21:17 > 0:21:23If you get your boobs bigger, you'll just look like an ugly blow-up doll.
0:21:25 > 0:21:32- What do you know about body dysmorphia?- It's when you're obsessed with your appearance
0:21:32 > 0:21:34and you, em...
0:21:34 > 0:21:41..you just want to change it all the time when you see someone else. You think you're ugly.
0:21:41 > 0:21:46- Do you think it has affected you? - No, not really.
0:21:46 > 0:21:48Maybe.
0:21:48 > 0:21:53- I don't know.- I haven't got body dysmorphia, though, so this is pointless.
0:21:53 > 0:21:58No, you haven't got body dysmorphia. You're just in denial.
0:21:58 > 0:22:04- She doesn't care.- I do care, but you've led me to the point of not caring
0:22:04 > 0:22:09because you don't give me a choice. You said yourself, you can do what you want.
0:22:09 > 0:22:12I can't tell you what to do, so...
0:22:14 > 0:22:16You know?
0:22:16 > 0:22:21If you enjoy...having surgery, then whatever makes you happy.
0:22:38 > 0:22:42Everything's back to front in this house!
0:22:42 > 0:22:45Even the dog's back to front.
0:22:45 > 0:22:52Alicia's been told by therapists that her problems stem from abuse she suffered during her childhood.
0:22:53 > 0:22:55'I think'
0:22:55 > 0:22:58it does sometimes get me down, maybe.
0:22:58 > 0:23:03- What does? What gets you down? - Her having surgery, I suppose.
0:23:03 > 0:23:08I think she's wasting her time, money and pain
0:23:08 > 0:23:12on just having surgery that she doesn't need done.
0:23:12 > 0:23:16It's like a therapy that she feels she has to have.
0:23:16 > 0:23:22It's like who wants to go and see someone in their family go and have an operation
0:23:22 > 0:23:26for something? And the fact that she's self-inflicting it. No point.
0:23:32 > 0:23:39It's half-term and Alicia's taking Georgia on one of their regular trips to Los Angeles.
0:23:45 > 0:23:52She's planned for Georgia to meet a model agency there who are interested in signing her up.
0:23:52 > 0:23:57# Go west Paradise is there
0:23:57 > 0:24:00# You'll have all that you can eat
0:24:00 > 0:24:03# Of milk and honey over there
0:24:04 > 0:24:08# You'll be the brightest star the world has ever seen
0:24:09 > 0:24:12# Sun-baked slender heroine
0:24:12 > 0:24:15# Of film and magazine... #
0:24:15 > 0:24:20Unfortunately, the holiday hasn't got off to the best start.
0:24:20 > 0:24:25Can I just say, Cindy, I'm deformed right now? I feel awful.
0:24:25 > 0:24:32I am absolutely devastated. I've looked in the mirror and my breast is completely deformed.
0:24:32 > 0:24:38OK, but can I just explain to you? It's very hard for me to do a picture and it's clear what's happened.
0:24:38 > 0:24:42The implant I can see, because I'm skinny, has flipped upside down.
0:24:42 > 0:24:45It's literally happened overnight.
0:24:45 > 0:24:52I got here last night so it might have been the plane journey. I don't know how.
0:24:52 > 0:24:57But I woke up, got in the shower and my breast is deformed.
0:24:57 > 0:25:00It's bulky at the top and nothing at the bottom.
0:25:01 > 0:25:07Yeah, but I am seriously needing to sort this out right now. I am deformed.
0:25:07 > 0:25:12I don't want to spend a minute looking like this.
0:25:13 > 0:25:15I don't...
0:25:19 > 0:25:23This morning, when I got up with my mum,
0:25:23 > 0:25:25her breast implant has turned.
0:25:25 > 0:25:31So at the moment she's just trying to get someone to help her with it and sort it out.
0:25:31 > 0:25:33I don't know what to do.
0:25:34 > 0:25:38- There's nothing you can do. - I have to be proactive!
0:25:38 > 0:25:44- You have to wait for them to do it. - I can't just sit here and wait for a phone call!
0:25:44 > 0:25:47I have to do something.
0:25:47 > 0:25:51Today we're supposed to be going to a model agency,
0:25:51 > 0:25:54but we have to sort this out first.
0:25:55 > 0:25:57You look nice.
0:25:57 > 0:26:02- Thank you. You do, too. - No, I don't, Georgie.
0:26:02 > 0:26:07- You do. I was thinking that. - I don't look good! I don't.
0:26:12 > 0:26:15- You look lovely.- Thank you.
0:26:17 > 0:26:21- So I'll take you to your modelling agency, yeah?- Yeah.
0:26:21 > 0:26:24- You want to go?- Yep.
0:26:24 > 0:26:26All right.
0:26:27 > 0:26:31You look pretty. It would be a shame not to go.
0:26:35 > 0:26:41# There's a drumming noise inside my head that starts when you're around
0:26:41 > 0:26:44# I swear that you could hear it... #
0:26:44 > 0:26:51If the agency decide to sign Georgia up, today could mark the start of a Stateside modelling career,
0:26:51 > 0:26:55following in the footsteps of her mum.
0:26:55 > 0:27:01The main thing for me is just to get this done. I'm a model. I've had to cancel two shoots already
0:27:01 > 0:27:06because I can't work with my breast implant upside down.
0:27:10 > 0:27:15You've got to go in there with loads of confidence. Shoulders back.
0:27:15 > 0:27:18You've got to fake it until you make it, yeah?
0:27:24 > 0:27:27- Hi.- Hi.- How are you?
0:27:27 > 0:27:33- What's your name? - I'm Alicia. This is Georgia. - Nice to see you guys.
0:27:33 > 0:27:37- And you are...5ft 2? - Yeah, I think so.
0:27:37 > 0:27:43- Let me have you walk for me. Let's do 12-14. She looks really youthful.- Yeah.
0:27:48 > 0:27:50Very good.
0:27:50 > 0:27:56She's got a really cute look. What we need to do is be able to get together
0:27:56 > 0:28:02and talk about the issues with her moving here, with her signing with the agency.
0:28:03 > 0:28:06- Good news! Happy?- Yeah.
0:28:06 > 0:28:11- (It's embarrassing.)- Why? - Walking.- Why is it embarrassing?
0:28:11 > 0:28:16- You've got to be more comfortable. It's all in your head.- Mm-hm.
0:28:16 > 0:28:21- Are you happy?- Yeah. Can you stop doing that, please?
0:28:21 > 0:28:25- She's never happy.- I am! I said I was happy!
0:28:25 > 0:28:28- You're not happy, are you?- I am!
0:28:28 > 0:28:34- You can't tell me what I'm feeling. You're annoying me. You keep... - I'd be like, "Wicked! Woo!"
0:28:34 > 0:28:40Yeah, I'm happy! I am. I don't have to be over-exaggerating, like, "Woo!"
0:28:40 > 0:28:42I'm fine.
0:28:46 > 0:28:52Over the next few days, Alicia focuses all her efforts on finding the right surgeon
0:28:52 > 0:28:54for the repair job on her breast.
0:28:58 > 0:29:04Teardrop shapes are more expensive. "Big implants cause drooping over time."
0:29:06 > 0:29:13I wondered if he was around today or tomorrow so I could just pop in and see if he could flip it.
0:29:13 > 0:29:17Oh, I had them done like... a year and a half ago.
0:29:17 > 0:29:23No, no, they're not new. Could it have been the aeroplane that's done this?
0:29:23 > 0:29:28Obviously I can't do some things that I'd like to do, like go to the beach.
0:29:28 > 0:29:32She doesn't want to wear a bikini or go swimming.
0:29:32 > 0:29:38MUFFLED How would you like it if you had a tit like that and a tit like that?
0:29:39 > 0:29:46We waited here the last time, when she was having her appointment, for the whole morning.
0:29:47 > 0:29:50Now we're waiting again.
0:29:53 > 0:29:58- Is this the first time you've been affected by your mum's plastic surgery?- No.
0:29:58 > 0:30:03It's not the first time. A lot of the time if we go to America,
0:30:03 > 0:30:09that's where all the plastic surgeons are and she usually gets something done.
0:30:10 > 0:30:16Unable to ignore the potential profits in her plastic surgery disasters,
0:30:16 > 0:30:20Alicia's invited a British tabloid to cover the story.
0:30:20 > 0:30:24Literally massive like that. Red and veins popping out.
0:30:24 > 0:30:29Basically, the implant had burst, so I've had that problem before,
0:30:29 > 0:30:34but this time it has moved and caused internal bleeding.
0:30:35 > 0:30:38You can't see it, can you?
0:30:38 > 0:30:40It's there now.
0:30:40 > 0:30:44This morning when I spoke to you, ten minutes ago it was at the side.
0:30:44 > 0:30:51You can see when you have your arms back like this, you can see on the side that it's moved.
0:30:51 > 0:30:54- Can you?- Yeah. - Ever so slightly.
0:30:58 > 0:31:02Because of the complications Alicia's had in the past,
0:31:02 > 0:31:09most surgeons are reluctant to work on her, but a detached implant is dangerous and needs to be fixed.
0:31:09 > 0:31:15She'll see if she can get me in. She said they've got nothing, so I might have to stay longer.
0:31:15 > 0:31:20We might be stuck here longer than we thought, due to Mummy's tits.
0:31:23 > 0:31:28- You'll get worried about missing two weeks of school.- Yeah.
0:31:28 > 0:31:34We're going into GCSEs and I have got quite a lot of lessons in those two weeks.
0:31:34 > 0:31:40It's important for me to go to them. When I go back and I have to catch up on so much,
0:31:40 > 0:31:43it'll seem like overload.
0:31:44 > 0:31:47But it's two weeks off school.
0:31:47 > 0:31:50- You'll miss two weeks. - That's quite a lot.
0:31:50 > 0:31:56I have six lessons a day and they're fully packed with stuff.
0:31:56 > 0:31:58Two weeks. And then the week that I get back,
0:31:58 > 0:32:02it'll be schoolwork plus homework, plus the last two weeks,
0:32:02 > 0:32:09- plus the last two weeks' catching up work.- What I'm saying is take home tutoring in nice, sunny LA,
0:32:09 > 0:32:16I recover with my boobs and we stay here for, like, it could be up to a month.
0:32:16 > 0:32:18A month?
0:32:18 > 0:32:24We're here for a week, another week for the operation and one to recover.
0:32:24 > 0:32:30- It could be three weeks.- OK. - But obviously you only need two weeks of home tutoring.
0:32:30 > 0:32:32Yeah.
0:32:32 > 0:32:36- I'll buy you new clothes.- I don't care if you buy me new clothes.
0:32:40 > 0:32:45- Or you can get on a plane by yourself?- No, I'll stay.
0:33:04 > 0:33:08Hopefully people will feel sorry for you because of who your mum is.
0:33:08 > 0:33:15- People think it must be awful living with a mum like that.- If they say that, "You don't live with her,
0:33:15 > 0:33:19- "so maybe you can't judge." - Yeah. Thank you.
0:33:19 > 0:33:23Every single day, my reputation affects Georgia.
0:33:23 > 0:33:27People judge Georgia on my reputation. Of course they do.
0:33:27 > 0:33:34They think Georgie is going to be like what my perceived... um, persona is.
0:33:34 > 0:33:39And people are shocked because she is the complete opposite to me.
0:33:39 > 0:33:46She'll probably find it a struggle all through her life because she'll be tarnished with her mother's name.
0:33:46 > 0:33:49Being my daughter, she's tarnished.
0:33:49 > 0:33:56And the rest of your life, you'll have to work harder and prove yourself more
0:33:56 > 0:34:00- just because you're my daughter. - Mm-hm.- That's what'll happen.
0:34:00 > 0:34:03- I'm phoning for my tits now.- OK.
0:34:04 > 0:34:09As the day goes on, discussions about Georgia's future continue.
0:34:09 > 0:34:15You've got to go out and prove what a lovely person you are and a talented actress and prove everyone wrong.
0:34:15 > 0:34:21Everyone's pointing the finger at me. If anyone says it, just deny it. Say, "That's not my mum."
0:34:21 > 0:34:25- Why would I do that? - I'm giving you permission.
0:34:25 > 0:34:33- I'll just say, "That's your own opinion."- I'm giving you permission. - They won't affect me. I don't care.
0:34:33 > 0:34:37- But just deny it.- Why? I'm not going to be ashamed of who you are.
0:34:37 > 0:34:39Awww.
0:34:39 > 0:34:41Cos you're funny, you're kind,
0:34:41 > 0:34:43but you're...
0:34:43 > 0:34:45What's the word?
0:34:46 > 0:34:48- Beautiful?- Yeah...
0:34:48 > 0:34:52Determined and caring.
0:34:52 > 0:34:55- A sandwich short of a picnic?- Yep.
0:34:55 > 0:34:56Em...
0:34:56 > 0:35:01Like, you do what's best for me. You...
0:35:01 > 0:35:03- Do you wish you had another mum?- No!
0:35:03 > 0:35:08One that didn't have to do boob jobs when they turn upside down?
0:35:08 > 0:35:12No, I mean, it would be nice if you didn't,
0:35:12 > 0:35:17- but I wouldn't want to swap you. - Would you not?- No.
0:35:21 > 0:35:27As well as visiting surgeons, Alicia's made an appointment with her LA therapist.
0:35:30 > 0:35:34She receives ongoing counselling for problems from her childhood trauma.
0:35:34 > 0:35:38Today she's taking Georgia with her.
0:35:39 > 0:35:41She doesn't get excited.
0:35:41 > 0:35:48- Even if something good happens, she doesn't get excited. - My excitement is different to yours.
0:35:48 > 0:35:52- Exactly. Say that again. - My excitement is different to yours.
0:35:52 > 0:35:58You might feel like jumping up and down, screaming. I'm just happy in myself.
0:36:01 > 0:36:05- I don't know. - You two are very different.
0:36:05 > 0:36:09You're wanting her maybe to be like you.
0:36:09 > 0:36:13And you're wanting to be yourself and maybe not like your mom.
0:36:13 > 0:36:18But you're passionate and your daughter is more reticent.
0:36:18 > 0:36:23- Then why does she want to be an actress?- Ask her that.- Why?
0:36:23 > 0:36:27- Cos I enjoy it.- Why do you enjoy it if you're the opposite to me?
0:36:27 > 0:36:32I don't have to feel the same to enjoy the same things.
0:36:32 > 0:36:36What do you want for your daughter? Let's talk about the physical.
0:36:36 > 0:36:41I'd like her obviously to let me know when she's not happy.
0:36:41 > 0:36:47I brought her up like my sister, so I don't have boundaries about what not to say in front of her
0:36:47 > 0:36:54- or you know... Sometimes I'd like her to say, "No, don't do that." - I do say that.
0:36:54 > 0:36:56- No, you don't.- I do.
0:36:56 > 0:37:02There's certain things in the relationship that you want to look at and change.
0:37:02 > 0:37:06You do want to be the mom. And she's not your sister.
0:37:06 > 0:37:12- So you want to look at... - But she's my sister sometimes. And we're friends sometimes.
0:37:12 > 0:37:15- It's easier that way.- For whom?
0:37:16 > 0:37:23We get on all the time. When you're a mum, you're in battle with them, but we get on like Siamese twins.
0:37:23 > 0:37:29- I know and that's lovely. Whether you get along as Siamese twins...- It's unique.
0:37:29 > 0:37:34But you are still the mom whether you are friends, twins...
0:37:34 > 0:37:39Look at the ways you can take care of her. What do you need from her?
0:37:39 > 0:37:43Just... Maybe to listen more.
0:37:43 > 0:37:47- To be honest, I did try. I got her into...- Hold on.
0:37:47 > 0:37:53What happens is she says something and you go into your own thing. It's like you didn't hear her.
0:37:53 > 0:37:57You have to slow down and get in touch with her.
0:37:57 > 0:38:02She's very in touch with you. Your daughter is so attuned to you.
0:38:02 > 0:38:08Exquisitely attuned to you and making sure everything is OK in your world. That's what she does.
0:38:08 > 0:38:11And you can try that with her, too.
0:38:11 > 0:38:12Hmm.
0:38:12 > 0:38:17I think you two have a really wonderful relationship.
0:38:17 > 0:38:25You're going to speak up more. You know, you can say to your mom, "Mom, be quiet and listen."
0:38:25 > 0:38:29Do you think you can do that? You can do that.
0:38:29 > 0:38:31She'll still love you.
0:38:32 > 0:38:39And you want to meet her where she is and not try to change her into who you want her to be.
0:38:47 > 0:38:53Four days into their supposed half-term holiday, the stress is starting to take its toll.
0:38:54 > 0:38:59- I can do that at home!- You tell me what a good thing to do is! - I don't know.
0:38:59 > 0:39:04We can't do anything because we have to go to your thing soon.
0:39:05 > 0:39:11- You tell me what a good thing to do is.- I don't know. I don't know. - What's a good thing to do?
0:39:11 > 0:39:13I don't know.
0:39:15 > 0:39:21- Why don't you want to go on a boat? - It's boring.- How is it boring going on a boat?!
0:39:21 > 0:39:26- It's not interesting.- Why? - It isn't interesting to me.
0:39:26 > 0:39:33- You're in a bad mood today.- I'm not. - Your hormones are all over the place.- You're having a go at me!
0:39:33 > 0:39:37- I'm not.- You are! - I'm telling you...- You're shouting!
0:39:37 > 0:39:44- You have to do productive things. - I'm coming and sitting in a waiting room watching your whatever.
0:39:44 > 0:39:49Yeah, but in-between that you can do productive things. Get your hair dyed.
0:39:49 > 0:39:54- That's not productive!- It is. It's towards your modelling and acting.
0:39:54 > 0:39:59- You can get your hair dyed blonde. - It's up to you, isn't it?
0:40:07 > 0:40:14After a week of searching, the only surgeon prepared to attempt repairing Alicia's breast
0:40:14 > 0:40:18is 2,000 miles away in Nashville, Tennessee.
0:40:18 > 0:40:24SOUTHERN DRAWL: I'm going to Nashville to have me some new boobs.
0:40:24 > 0:40:26I'm a-gonna get me some new boobs
0:40:26 > 0:40:34and maybe get me a new face cos everybody keeps calling me a mess and I don't like it.
0:40:34 > 0:40:38And as my boobs exploded... Oh, I'm Australian now.
0:40:59 > 0:41:03'The bad thing is that I will miss school.'
0:41:03 > 0:41:08I'll have to catch up on a lot of work and things there.
0:41:08 > 0:41:11That's going to be hard to do.
0:41:23 > 0:41:26We've been to the pharmacy
0:41:26 > 0:41:31and we got drugs... Mama got some drugs!
0:41:33 > 0:41:37Mama got some antibiotics.
0:41:37 > 0:41:42And Mama got some Scrabble, so we're all fine.
0:41:43 > 0:41:47- Tomorrow I'm going to have my tits stitched up again.- OK.
0:41:47 > 0:41:52What are you going to do after the operation?
0:41:52 > 0:41:57Well, I won't be in any sane state because I'll be on painkillers.
0:41:58 > 0:42:00I'll just read a book.
0:42:00 > 0:42:06- You'll be asleep.- I won't be asleep, will I?- You usually are.
0:42:06 > 0:42:10Usually! Like you're an expert. "Usually are.
0:42:10 > 0:42:12"This is how it usually goes..."
0:42:14 > 0:42:19Hopefully, this will be the last one. You won't have to endure any more.
0:42:27 > 0:42:28# Help
0:42:28 > 0:42:32# I have done it again
0:42:35 > 0:42:43# I have been here many times befo-o-ore
0:42:43 > 0:42:48# Hurt myself again today... #
0:42:50 > 0:42:58With no access to home tutors in this part of the country, Georgia tries to do her schoolwork alone.
0:42:58 > 0:43:04I'm doing trigonometry that my teacher sent me by email,
0:43:04 > 0:43:10but I've never done it before so I can't do any of it because I don't know what it is
0:43:10 > 0:43:13because we haven't done it in class.
0:43:13 > 0:43:19So I can't really learn something if you just give me a piece of paper and say, "Do this question."
0:43:19 > 0:43:22You haven't taught it to me.
0:43:24 > 0:43:31- Is it a bit frustrating? - It's annoying because I don't have my books or anything,
0:43:31 > 0:43:37but it's just pointless, really. I'm not going to learn anything if I don't know how to do it.
0:43:45 > 0:43:50Luckily, the surgery is quick and Alicia is in and out in just three hours.
0:44:23 > 0:44:27'They want me to stay in Nashville longer'
0:44:27 > 0:44:33because if I fly with my drains, it might cause more problems.
0:44:33 > 0:44:39What's happened is when I was on the aeroplane, it expanded the pocket
0:44:39 > 0:44:43which made the implant turn, which has caused the problem.
0:44:43 > 0:44:48If I fly, it might cause the same problem.
0:44:48 > 0:44:54- How did your homework go? - She sent it to me, but I don't know what to do because I don't know...
0:44:54 > 0:45:00- You don't know what to do? - No. It didn't tell me how to do any of it.
0:45:00 > 0:45:05Well, we have hit a problem, haven't we? She can't do her Maths.
0:45:06 > 0:45:12- You can concentrate on History and all that.- I don't do History at school.- You don't do History?
0:45:12 > 0:45:18- No!- You don't do Geography? - No, I told you before the subjects that I do.
0:45:18 > 0:45:24- What do you do, then? - I do Music, Drama, Art, three Sciences,
0:45:24 > 0:45:28English, Maths and Religious Studies.
0:45:28 > 0:45:31So Drama... OK, then?
0:45:31 > 0:45:35I want you to write a play that me and you perform.
0:45:36 > 0:45:42Georgie, don't start moaning. At the end of the day, you're supposed to be at school.
0:45:42 > 0:45:47No, I prefer school if I have to do that kind of work.
0:45:47 > 0:45:53- I don't have any paper. - Maths will have to be put on hold until we work out Trickolokogy.
0:45:53 > 0:45:56- Trigonometry.- Yeah, that.
0:46:05 > 0:46:11The surgeon has left Alicia with DIY nursing instructions
0:46:11 > 0:46:13and she's asked Georgia to help.
0:46:18 > 0:46:22Can you undo one of those, Nurse Georgia?
0:46:30 > 0:46:34- Yeah, it's about 25.- 25?
0:46:34 > 0:46:36Jesus. I'm draining a lot of blood.
0:46:55 > 0:46:59The bandages are coming off! The bandage has just come off!
0:46:59 > 0:47:02Oh, no! I don't need this.
0:47:02 > 0:47:04Don't...fiddle with it.
0:47:04 > 0:47:10Darling, I have to fiddle with it to try to mend it myself. Is there bandages in that thing?
0:47:10 > 0:47:14In your bag? No.
0:47:15 > 0:47:21- Can you help me get my jumper off, please? I need to investigate so I can mend this- BLEEP.
0:47:21 > 0:47:25- It's all- BLEEP- ... Aaaah. I can't lift my arm up.
0:47:25 > 0:47:28Do it this side, please.
0:47:30 > 0:47:32OK, you need to take it off, yeah?
0:47:32 > 0:47:35Now, shh. There now.
0:47:36 > 0:47:39It's not in the middle.
0:47:39 > 0:47:44- It will be. You've just got to wait for it to... - It's not though, is it, Georgie?
0:47:47 > 0:47:51I'm worried it's gone wrong in the middle. The implants are like that.
0:47:52 > 0:47:58And there's no bandages to separate them. I've done it with my scarf.
0:47:58 > 0:48:01The implants are too close together!
0:48:01 > 0:48:06- What do you think, Georgia? - I think she's overreacting.
0:48:06 > 0:48:10- I'm not overreacting! - OK, well, just calm down.
0:48:10 > 0:48:17- How would you like it if someone gave you one boob?- I wouldn't, but I wouldn't start moaning.
0:48:17 > 0:48:19Seven letters.
0:48:19 > 0:48:22Georgie, can you pass me my handbag?
0:48:25 > 0:48:28Do plastic surgeons never see tits?
0:48:28 > 0:48:30- Do you think that's what it is?- No!
0:48:30 > 0:48:34Every time I have a boob job, one's over there, one's up there.
0:48:34 > 0:48:36Or they're meeting in the middle,
0:48:36 > 0:48:40like Eiffel Towers across like that. These look like missile launchers!
0:48:40 > 0:48:43They look ridiculous!
0:48:43 > 0:48:44Mm.
0:48:44 > 0:48:47- OK, do you want to start?- OK.
0:48:58 > 0:49:02It's much more painful, much more painful.
0:49:02 > 0:49:05The bandages are all coming off.
0:49:09 > 0:49:13- That's a lot of blood.- But that's because it was the whole night.
0:49:13 > 0:49:17I'm like a patchwork quilt. Stitched up everywhere.
0:49:17 > 0:49:20That's where the drain's coming out.
0:49:28 > 0:49:33I'm like an old woman, sitting here with my bandages and my knitting.
0:49:34 > 0:49:37- You all right, Georgia?- Yeah.
0:49:37 > 0:49:41- It wasn't quite the holiday we thought it would be, is it?- No.
0:49:41 > 0:49:48You expected to be eating out in Nobu, but you're watching your mum get bandaged up
0:49:48 > 0:49:52- and playing Suko in bed. - It's OK.
0:49:52 > 0:49:57- You said you don't want a boob job now. It's putting you off.- Yeah.
0:49:57 > 0:50:01- But Georgie probably will have a boob job one day.- I don't think so.
0:50:01 > 0:50:06- Why?- Cos I don't... I don't want one.- Why?
0:50:06 > 0:50:13Because of all the blood and all the pain you go through and all the stitching and everything.
0:50:13 > 0:50:18But what if you didn't have all that? That's reconstruction.
0:50:18 > 0:50:21You still have to get cut open either way.
0:50:21 > 0:50:28- You don't want to get cut open? - No. It's not attractive, is it? It's not nice.- Not attractive?
0:50:28 > 0:50:30It's not worth it.
0:50:30 > 0:50:38As soon as we get back to LA, I'll get you a home tutor, acting classes, get home tutoring going.
0:50:38 > 0:50:39Mm-hm.
0:50:45 > 0:50:51After five days in Nashville, Alicia and Georgia have flown back to the West Coast,
0:50:51 > 0:50:58where Alicia can continue her recovery and Georgia can finally get some schooling.
0:50:58 > 0:51:02"..not without ambition, but without the illness should attend it."
0:51:02 > 0:51:07She's saying it because she wants what he doesn't want.
0:51:07 > 0:51:10- Mm-hm.- She's more ambitious than he.
0:51:10 > 0:51:15You know when she would rather be dead and killed like Duncan was
0:51:15 > 0:51:22than to be what she is now, a killer, because she goes crazy of the blood and everything.
0:51:24 > 0:51:29The therapist's advice and the experiences of the last few weeks
0:51:29 > 0:51:35have made Alicia more aware than ever of their differences.
0:51:35 > 0:51:39Georgia's supposed to be this gorgeous next top model...
0:51:40 > 0:51:45and all she wants to do is go in there and study Biology and Macbeth.
0:51:45 > 0:51:48She's the squarest person I know.
0:51:48 > 0:51:52She's not my daughter. Someone's replaced her.
0:51:52 > 0:51:57She came from my womb! How can she be that different?
0:51:58 > 0:52:03She speaks like another language to me. She speaks about atoms
0:52:03 > 0:52:05and measurements and stuff.
0:52:05 > 0:52:10She doesn't want to leave the table when it comes to Biology,
0:52:10 > 0:52:15but when it comes to doing a photo shoot, I have to drag her.
0:52:15 > 0:52:18Does it make you feel alienated from her?
0:52:18 > 0:52:23It's not alienated, but she's not the little girl that I knew.
0:52:23 > 0:52:27My little girl likes bikinis and photo shoots and...
0:52:29 > 0:52:35..you know, wants to be onstage singing and acting and wants to be the next Britney Spears.
0:52:47 > 0:52:52# How far we've gone
0:52:53 > 0:52:57# How far we're going... #
0:52:57 > 0:53:04'I've just done a lot of thinking and it's really sad because I look back at all my friends'
0:53:04 > 0:53:08that are glamour models - one's lap-dancing in a seedy club,
0:53:08 > 0:53:11one's going to prison...
0:53:12 > 0:53:17'..some of them are now escorting or they're drinking.
0:53:17 > 0:53:19'And it's just made me realise...'
0:53:21 > 0:53:26..signing up to be a glamour model seems to be, nine times out of ten,
0:53:26 > 0:53:29a really bad idea.
0:53:47 > 0:53:52It's been six weeks since they came back from America
0:53:52 > 0:53:54and Georgia is home from school for the weekend.
0:53:54 > 0:53:58I'll make one of Mum's special smoothies for you.
0:53:58 > 0:54:02My special recipe.
0:54:09 > 0:54:15Alicia wants to have a chat about how her new thinking has affected her ambitions for Georgia.
0:54:17 > 0:54:22Come on then, Versace. Come and have a picnic.
0:54:38 > 0:54:42I think you'd be selling yourself short if you did topless modelling.
0:54:42 > 0:54:47- You're much better than that. You don't have to sell out.- Mm-hm.
0:54:51 > 0:54:57You don't need to dye your hair or have silicone put in because you're perfect as you are.
0:54:58 > 0:55:01Everything's good as it is.
0:55:03 > 0:55:07'It is difficult letting her grow up'
0:55:07 > 0:55:09but your role as a parent, I think,
0:55:09 > 0:55:12is to let them grow up
0:55:12 > 0:55:16and let them... move forward and go on.
0:55:20 > 0:55:28In my future, I want to finish my education to university level, become a serious actress.
0:55:28 > 0:55:31'I don't want to be a glamour model.'
0:55:33 > 0:55:37If you want to go to university, I'd be happy for you to go.
0:55:37 > 0:55:42From where I've come from, where I started...
0:55:44 > 0:55:48..I've got you where you need to be, I hope.
0:55:48 > 0:55:50'I've learnt that my mum'
0:55:50 > 0:55:56has had a difficult life, but she's tried not to pass her mistakes on to me
0:55:56 > 0:56:00and that's what makes her a perfect mum, for me.
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