0:00:25 > 0:00:27- RECORDING:- 911...
0:00:32 > 0:00:34Shots fired, I've been shot.
0:00:50 > 0:00:53Every time you see the news about a deadly tragedy,
0:00:53 > 0:00:56it's always either considered senseless or people will never find
0:00:56 > 0:00:58out why the killer did what he did.
0:00:59 > 0:01:02But here is everything for the reasons I did this.
0:01:03 > 0:01:06You may consider them bad reasons, but that's you.
0:01:08 > 0:01:09Not me.
0:01:13 > 0:01:17If there's one thing that America has taught over several generations,
0:01:17 > 0:01:20it's that you must seek revenge in the name of justice.
0:01:22 > 0:01:25And whoever hurt you will not get away with it.
0:01:25 > 0:01:29You will come back stronger, hunt them down, kill the perpetrator.
0:01:31 > 0:01:34You send the message that no-one can be allowed to do this again,
0:01:34 > 0:01:36or there will be dire consequences.
0:01:38 > 0:01:40It's the American way.
0:02:15 > 0:02:19Sunny Cape Cod - there is no greater place on earth,
0:02:19 > 0:02:22and I often refer to it as God's country.
0:02:25 > 0:02:30It's been such a draw to me, coming back to a place I grew up.
0:02:30 > 0:02:33The lure of the ocean - it has a certain sense of freedom,
0:02:33 > 0:02:35the fresh air.
0:02:37 > 0:02:40I am a private criminal defence lawyer.
0:02:41 > 0:02:45Mr Loya is a fellow with no criminal record, he is now 33 years old.
0:02:47 > 0:02:49The crime had been planned by him.
0:02:49 > 0:02:51It had been orchestrated.
0:02:52 > 0:02:57It was carried out while he suffered a delusional episode.
0:02:57 > 0:03:02He had a delusion at the time, which is a major mental illness.
0:03:02 > 0:03:03And if I wasn't in it to win it,
0:03:03 > 0:03:06I wouldn't have been here from the first place.
0:03:06 > 0:03:07He can win this trial.
0:03:09 > 0:03:12One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten.
0:03:13 > 0:03:15Bring the audio up, OK, bring it up.
0:03:15 > 0:03:17Bill's mic, one, two, three, four.
0:03:17 > 0:03:21Police say he murdered one woman, wounded her partner,
0:03:21 > 0:03:22wounded a police officer.
0:03:22 > 0:03:26But defence attorneys actually say he is mentally ill.
0:03:26 > 0:03:29Jurors entering, all rise please.
0:03:29 > 0:03:34You are going to receive all of the available evidence.
0:03:34 > 0:03:37You are going to have the benefit of direct examination
0:03:37 > 0:03:39and cross-examination.
0:03:39 > 0:03:42You are going to have the benefit of the opening statements and the
0:03:42 > 0:03:44closing arguments.
0:03:44 > 0:03:46Something very interesting will likely happen during this trial.
0:03:46 > 0:03:51Police say that during the murders Loya was wearing a GoPro camera
0:03:51 > 0:03:56right here. He actually recorded shooting two women.
0:03:56 > 0:04:00That video will likely be played during the trial.
0:04:00 > 0:04:02In Barnstable, I'm Bill Shields, WBZ News.
0:04:04 > 0:04:08You know, we got called into the court room, and I was kind of surprised,
0:04:08 > 0:04:12I thought, "Oh, my God, I'm on a jury for a murder trial."
0:04:22 > 0:04:28The evidence will show that Adrian Thomas Loya blasted his way,
0:04:28 > 0:04:30using a shotgun,
0:04:30 > 0:04:34through the front door, discharged at least 15 rounds,
0:04:34 > 0:04:4011 of which hit and eventually killed Lisa Trubnikova.
0:04:41 > 0:04:45Anna Trubnikova was hit at least four separate times,
0:04:45 > 0:04:49in the arm, in the chest, in the thigh,
0:04:49 > 0:04:52and at that time the police did not know if
0:04:52 > 0:04:54there was one shooter, two shooters, three shooters.
0:04:54 > 0:04:58He began to open fire at them, and that he hit
0:04:58 > 0:05:02police officer from Bourne, Jared MacDonald.
0:05:02 > 0:05:08This was really a revenge killing against Lisa Trubnikova.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10Thank you, counsel.
0:05:10 > 0:05:13Adrian Loya committed this act,
0:05:13 > 0:05:17and there is an abundance of evidence that he did.
0:05:17 > 0:05:20This is not a whodunnit.
0:05:20 > 0:05:24He was in a delusion. In fact, it was a good against evil scenario.
0:05:24 > 0:05:27Trail cameras,
0:05:27 > 0:05:31265 pages - Loya Wars.
0:05:31 > 0:05:35All of these things he detailed meticulously.
0:05:35 > 0:05:36Evil or...
0:05:37 > 0:05:39..just kind of nuts?
0:05:56 > 0:05:57Call me Loya.
0:05:59 > 0:06:01I am an extremely quiet guy who keeps to himself.
0:06:02 > 0:06:05I have very much been a loner my whole life.
0:06:05 > 0:06:08I have your typically geeky interests.
0:06:09 > 0:06:11Although I wouldn't consider myself anti-social,
0:06:11 > 0:06:15just not desiring a need for others in order for me to feel all right.
0:06:19 > 0:06:23Ever since I was very little, I've always had a very powerful imagination.
0:06:26 > 0:06:30I've had an incredibly immersive and detailed life of me adventuring in a
0:06:30 > 0:06:32galaxy far, far away.
0:06:33 > 0:06:35Adrian Loya,
0:06:35 > 0:06:39whisked away from planet Earth to be trained as a Jedi
0:06:39 > 0:06:41by Luke Skywalker himself.
0:06:44 > 0:06:45I love my dreams.
0:06:47 > 0:06:48I live for my dreams.
0:06:50 > 0:06:52I have been a lucid dreamer since I was a small boy.
0:06:55 > 0:06:58Guns and phasers never worked in my dreams.
0:06:59 > 0:07:00The Force, though...
0:07:01 > 0:07:04..now, that was something to be reckoned with.
0:07:10 > 0:07:13Adrian loved Star Wars.
0:07:13 > 0:07:16Spaceships, and good versus evil, those were his things.
0:07:19 > 0:07:21And do you solemnly swear the testimony you should give
0:07:21 > 0:07:23to the court and the jury and the issues now...
0:07:23 > 0:07:27I've known Adrian my whole life and he's not a violent person.
0:07:27 > 0:07:29- ..nothing but the truth, so help you, God?- I do.
0:07:30 > 0:07:34Sir, in a nice, loud voice, could you state your name?
0:07:34 > 0:07:36- I'm Jacob Heller. - Did you know an Adrian Loya?
0:07:36 > 0:07:38- Yes, I did.- Do you still know him?
0:07:38 > 0:07:40- Yes, I do.- Do you see him in court here today?
0:07:40 > 0:07:41- Yes, I do.- Where is he, please?
0:07:45 > 0:07:50And how would you characterise, sir, your relationship with Mr Loya?
0:07:50 > 0:07:52Um, friendship.
0:07:52 > 0:07:54And when did that start?
0:07:54 > 0:07:56In high school.
0:07:56 > 0:07:59I don't think I have a happier picture of him.
0:07:59 > 0:08:01Over all the years I've known him,
0:08:01 > 0:08:04I think this is maybe the happiest I've ever seen him look.
0:08:04 > 0:08:06You know, in high school, we were both kind of loners.
0:08:06 > 0:08:09We weren't going to the popular kid parties.
0:08:10 > 0:08:13Adrian was very introverted.
0:08:13 > 0:08:16He was always a unique guy.
0:08:16 > 0:08:20He was very proud of joining the coastguard.
0:08:20 > 0:08:21He really cared about it.
0:08:23 > 0:08:26He had only a couple of close friends, maybe only one.
0:08:28 > 0:08:31I mean, Adrian was a very black-and-white person.
0:08:32 > 0:08:35Knowing him the way I did, I always thought, like, man,
0:08:35 > 0:08:39he doesn't have the relationships he needs to be like a complete person.
0:08:44 > 0:08:47I don't really have a family like other people. I mean, sure, I have
0:08:47 > 0:08:50a father and a mother, I didn't just arrive on Earth via a pod.
0:08:52 > 0:08:57I just don't have the usual son relationship with them.
0:08:57 > 0:09:02Whenever my family got mad or scolded me on something,
0:09:02 > 0:09:03I'd begin the silent treatment.
0:09:05 > 0:09:06And, thanks to my personality,
0:09:06 > 0:09:08I learned I could keep it up for a long time.
0:09:11 > 0:09:15I've dated four women and slept with ten others.
0:09:16 > 0:09:17I'm rather proud of this number.
0:09:19 > 0:09:23When I did meet a girl who liked almost all of my aspects,
0:09:23 > 0:09:24I tried to cling on because, damn,
0:09:24 > 0:09:26it was hard finding that where I didn't have
0:09:26 > 0:09:28to sacrifice a bit of myself.
0:09:30 > 0:09:31It just took too much effort.
0:09:33 > 0:09:35And it wasn't worth it for the emotional drain if it wasn't going
0:09:35 > 0:09:37to be perfect and last.
0:09:40 > 0:09:42I was just better off being alone.
0:09:44 > 0:09:47So, in late 2009,
0:09:47 > 0:09:50I left the dating world, never to return.
0:09:53 > 0:09:55And so when Adrian told me, "OK, well,
0:09:55 > 0:09:58"the next place I'm going to is Alaska," I was like,
0:09:58 > 0:09:59"Why are you going to Alaska?"
0:09:59 > 0:10:04Like, you're going to one of the most remote places on the Earth.
0:10:04 > 0:10:07In the back of my mind, I thought he made a bad choice.
0:10:07 > 0:10:09But, at the same time, he's my friend.
0:10:10 > 0:10:16I'd just arrived at my new unit on the island of Kodiak, Alaska,
0:10:16 > 0:10:18as an E5 information systems tech.
0:10:19 > 0:10:20The office IT guy.
0:10:24 > 0:10:27A couple of weeks after my arrival,
0:10:27 > 0:10:31a new girl also arrived fresh out of IT school named Lisa Berlanga.
0:10:36 > 0:10:37Something about her voice...
0:10:39 > 0:10:44..breath and touch gave me immediate good flashbacks.
0:10:47 > 0:10:51It was the first time in many years that I hated the fact
0:10:51 > 0:10:52that I was alone.
0:10:53 > 0:10:57Did you ever have any conversations with Mr Loya concerning a Lisa?
0:10:57 > 0:10:59- Yes, I did.- When did they start?
0:11:00 > 0:11:04Um, at some point during his time in Alaska.
0:11:06 > 0:11:10He told me that he found kind of a kindred spirit and they had
0:11:10 > 0:11:11a lot in common.
0:11:13 > 0:11:15Me and Lisa would make quizzical faces at each other.
0:11:19 > 0:11:20It felt great having her as a friend.
0:11:23 > 0:11:26It began to give you some concerns, didn't it?
0:11:26 > 0:11:30Er, yes, it did. As time went on, his conversations turned to her.
0:11:32 > 0:11:34You know, he was enraptured by her.
0:11:36 > 0:11:38Lisa, I have an incredibly huge crush on you.
0:11:44 > 0:11:47I've pretty much had feelings for you ever since that day we sat on
0:11:47 > 0:11:48the river bank and talked for the first time.
0:11:51 > 0:11:52That was the first day...
0:11:53 > 0:11:54..the Lisa Effect hit me.
0:11:58 > 0:12:01The Lisa Effect is this superhuman ability I found out you have.
0:12:04 > 0:12:05Whenever I talk...
0:12:07 > 0:12:09..work or do anything with you, I feel good.
0:12:12 > 0:12:14Like, really fucking amazingly good.
0:12:15 > 0:12:19Seriously, I have never known anyone else in my life who has been able
0:12:19 > 0:12:20to do that to me.
0:12:20 > 0:12:23It's a pretty cool yet dangerous power you have.
0:12:25 > 0:12:27You know, I'd say, "How's work?" And he'd be like,
0:12:27 > 0:12:31"Well, Lisa's 'this way.'" And I'd say, "OK, well, how's WORK?"
0:12:31 > 0:12:34But, for him, work WAS Lisa.
0:12:35 > 0:12:39Don't develop feelings for this person, don't go down that road.
0:12:39 > 0:12:40You have a lot to lose.
0:12:43 > 0:12:46She's married. Give her a break.
0:12:49 > 0:12:53These two people had a relationship and he seemed to be wanting to get
0:12:53 > 0:12:56into that relationship more closely with both of those people.
0:13:04 > 0:13:05Like, what the fuck, Lisa?
0:13:08 > 0:13:09You're gay and married?
0:13:12 > 0:13:13How is that fair at all?
0:13:15 > 0:13:18I know you don't care about me at all in any capacity.
0:13:20 > 0:13:22Fuck it if I burn for this now.
0:13:27 > 0:13:30Over and over again, he assured me,
0:13:30 > 0:13:33"This is not about love or intimacy.
0:13:35 > 0:13:37"It's not a romantic relationship."
0:13:37 > 0:13:39And, to me, that never made sense.
0:13:49 > 0:13:53He ended up at Lisa's apartment one night.
0:13:53 > 0:13:55He told me he knew maybe he shouldn't be there.
0:13:57 > 0:14:02He just was so excited about having someone to watch TV with,
0:14:02 > 0:14:07to just hang out with, to be around, that he went over there anyway.
0:14:09 > 0:14:11The feeling was amazing.
0:14:12 > 0:14:15This was the first time Lisa ever got hold of me just to ask if I
0:14:15 > 0:14:18wanted to hang out with her specifically.
0:14:18 > 0:14:21Lisa Berlanga wanted Adrian Loya with her.
0:14:24 > 0:14:26It was the happiest I've ever been in my entire life.
0:14:28 > 0:14:31Even with saying that, there was never at any point me hoping that
0:14:31 > 0:14:33this would lead to a romantic or sexual encounter with Lisa.
0:14:36 > 0:14:42Something has to happen, and it was so huge and such a...
0:14:42 > 0:14:45..such a part of his life that it just exploded.
0:14:45 > 0:14:51You know, ultimately, he decided to propel himself towards that outcome,
0:14:51 > 0:14:53and I just... I couldn't understand.
0:14:55 > 0:14:56I still don't.
0:15:07 > 0:15:12Every detail encompassing this night with Lisa was burned into my mind
0:15:12 > 0:15:14with complete vividness.
0:15:14 > 0:15:17He told me that anyone looking at this situation
0:15:17 > 0:15:22will see it in her favour, and they'll blame me.
0:15:23 > 0:15:26He was very worried, very upset.
0:15:26 > 0:15:28He was concerned about potential consequences.
0:15:31 > 0:15:32It was the first day.
0:15:35 > 0:15:38The first day when my mind started down a dark, lonely path.
0:15:41 > 0:15:44The nightmares started soon after.
0:15:47 > 0:15:49Lisa would appear in my dreams...
0:15:50 > 0:15:52..and there was nothing I could do,
0:15:52 > 0:15:55but I was struck with this intense fear and I had to wake up.
0:15:56 > 0:15:59I hate that my dreams have been taken away.
0:16:03 > 0:16:05It was hate that was created in me that day.
0:16:07 > 0:16:09I was filled with hate for someone...
0:16:10 > 0:16:11..for the very first time.
0:16:12 > 0:16:15Just pure, distilled hate and nothing else was in me because of
0:16:15 > 0:16:20this one person, and I'll return to this person so she can look upon her
0:16:20 > 0:16:23creation and she'll be destroyed by what she's wrought.
0:16:25 > 0:16:27I hate Lisa Berlanga.
0:16:40 > 0:16:43Under a chapter he entitles, "The Decision",
0:16:43 > 0:16:46making the choice where I didn't want to play any more, he writes,
0:16:46 > 0:16:50"I then decided that if I was going to leave this life,
0:16:50 > 0:16:53"I would not allow Lisa to be allowed to remain.
0:16:53 > 0:16:56"I had to get revenge, I wanted revenge."
0:17:07 > 0:17:10I left Kodiak and drove clear across the United States.
0:17:11 > 0:17:14I had a pretty good general idea of what I wanted to do,
0:17:14 > 0:17:17but I still didn't know where Lisa actually was.
0:17:18 > 0:17:21All I knew about her was she was somewhere in Cape Cod.
0:17:24 > 0:17:26The finalised plea mission goes like this.
0:17:26 > 0:17:29"Return to Bourne, Mass, to conduct a recon.
0:17:29 > 0:17:31"Make sure Lisa is at her home.
0:17:31 > 0:17:35"I will confirm Lisa is indeed there before I begin anything."
0:17:38 > 0:17:43And you'll hear that he also took a GoPro device,
0:17:43 > 0:17:46a camera in which he could record
0:17:46 > 0:17:49what would happen. You're going to be able to see that.
0:17:56 > 0:17:58When I finally reached the Cape Cod area,
0:17:58 > 0:18:01I decided for a full recon sweep for my preparations.
0:18:05 > 0:18:09MUSIC: The Imperial March by John Williams
0:18:09 > 0:18:13I mounted a small action camera to the passenger sun visor so that it
0:18:13 > 0:18:15could record everything as I drove around.
0:18:18 > 0:18:19It came out perfect.
0:18:22 > 0:18:26This was all kind of a movie to him.
0:18:26 > 0:18:29Kind of a, you know, a game, a video game.
0:18:33 > 0:18:38When he did the reconnaissance drive, he had the music going,
0:18:38 > 0:18:39the Star Wars music.
0:18:48 > 0:18:51You know, he planned this out pretty well.
0:19:03 > 0:19:06He found out where
0:19:06 > 0:19:08Lisa and Anna were living.
0:19:11 > 0:19:13He went to look around their house,
0:19:13 > 0:19:18in that area he set out a deer-cam out in front on a tree.
0:19:46 > 0:19:48I started becoming a pay cheque to pay cheque type person.
0:19:50 > 0:19:54The first pay cheque would go to rent and other bills.
0:19:54 > 0:19:57And then spending money on my new addiction, the want for affection.
0:19:59 > 0:20:01I'd find a nice call girl who I can ask to see
0:20:01 > 0:20:02when I want some attention.
0:20:04 > 0:20:06The best analogy I can give for it is pizza.
0:20:06 > 0:20:09CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKS
0:20:11 > 0:20:14Sure, I can do all the stuff for pizza myself but it's a huge hassle.
0:20:14 > 0:20:17So, I'll go online and order one from Domino's.
0:20:19 > 0:20:21Now, replace pizza with ladies, and Domino's with escorts,
0:20:21 > 0:20:23and there you go.
0:20:26 > 0:20:29I work in the forensics services group which is the crime lab and I'm
0:20:29 > 0:20:32a supervisor for the ballistics section,
0:20:32 > 0:20:34the firearms identification section.
0:20:34 > 0:20:36Could you identify that for us?
0:20:37 > 0:20:41It's a 9mm calibre, the brand is Walther,
0:20:41 > 0:20:43it's a semi-automatic pistol.
0:20:43 > 0:20:46That was the tactical belt that was depicted in the photographs.
0:20:46 > 0:20:49This is the holster, this had the firearm, the handgun in it.
0:20:49 > 0:20:53It's a 5.56mm Smith and Wesson
0:20:53 > 0:20:58M&P15 model, and it's a semi-automatic rifle.
0:20:58 > 0:21:00Semi-automatic means what?
0:21:00 > 0:21:04That when I pull the trigger, it will shoot, eject,
0:21:04 > 0:21:06reload and it will shoot again.
0:21:09 > 0:21:11OK, so, I like guns a lot.
0:21:11 > 0:21:13I think they're pretty cool.
0:21:14 > 0:21:17They're the modern equivalent of the sword,
0:21:17 > 0:21:19not just as a death dealer but as a symbol.
0:21:20 > 0:21:22The gun can bring even the lowliest man on a par
0:21:22 > 0:21:24with the deadliest demon.
0:21:25 > 0:21:28Just watching a movie with a cool gunfight feels awesome.
0:21:30 > 0:21:31As a good guardsman,
0:21:31 > 0:21:34I wanted to be prepared for this final mission of mine.
0:21:35 > 0:21:40I wanted to get an AR-15 but this was after the Aurora and Sandy Hook
0:21:40 > 0:21:43massacres, so there were none available.
0:21:43 > 0:21:46I bought a Remington 887 that look like the Halo shotgun.
0:21:48 > 0:21:50Yeah.
0:21:50 > 0:21:51That's how I choose guns.
0:21:51 > 0:21:54"Does it look sci-fi cool?" is first and foremost.
0:22:00 > 0:22:01Please be seated.
0:22:03 > 0:22:06Jurors have great scepticism for the insanity defence.
0:22:08 > 0:22:12They believe in many respects that it's a loophole,
0:22:12 > 0:22:16that defendants want to wiggle out of some type of criminal responsibility
0:22:16 > 0:22:18or, in a case like this,
0:22:18 > 0:22:22it is intrinsic his mental illness as to whether or not he truly
0:22:22 > 0:22:27intended something criminal and evil and whether he appreciated
0:22:27 > 0:22:29the wrongfulness of his conduct.
0:22:29 > 0:22:32There are certain experts that are going to go forward,
0:22:32 > 0:22:35both psychiatrists and psychologists who are going to give their opinion
0:22:35 > 0:22:37about his mental state.
0:22:37 > 0:22:41..the testimony you shall give to the court and the jury in the issues now pending to be the truth,
0:22:41 > 0:22:44- the whole truth and nothing but the truth, so help you God?- I do.
0:22:44 > 0:22:48And were you retained to conduct an examination in this matter?
0:22:48 > 0:22:50- Yes, I was.- And who were you retained by, please?
0:22:50 > 0:22:51By your office, by you.
0:23:01 > 0:23:05I didn't get it at the beginning.
0:23:06 > 0:23:08No history of violence.
0:23:08 > 0:23:11He's very quiet.
0:23:11 > 0:23:12But I'm still...
0:23:13 > 0:23:16..kind of being bombarded with...
0:23:17 > 0:23:18..too much information.
0:23:18 > 0:23:20He needs to tell me...
0:23:21 > 0:23:24..this happened and that happened and this happened,
0:23:24 > 0:23:27and he has a phenomenal memory.
0:23:27 > 0:23:29What am I dealing with here?
0:23:31 > 0:23:33My opinion is that, um,
0:23:33 > 0:23:40Adrian Loya suffers from a condition in the autism spectrum which I think
0:23:40 > 0:23:46is best categorised as high-functioning Asperger's disease,
0:23:46 > 0:23:51and that, because of that disease,
0:23:51 > 0:23:55that he was unable to conform his conduct to the requirements of the law,
0:23:55 > 0:24:02and namely that the actions were driven or controlled by his
0:24:02 > 0:24:08brain disease. The autism spectrum has a spectrum, namely,
0:24:08 > 0:24:14there are youngsters that are terribly disabled, essentially mute,
0:24:14 > 0:24:17unable to communicate, can't socialise.
0:24:17 > 0:24:22And the spectrum includes people who can be highly functional.
0:24:23 > 0:24:28Dr Kelly is a fellow who has between 300 and 400 cases,
0:24:28 > 0:24:30over 40 years of experience.
0:24:30 > 0:24:32Kelly testifies for the Government.
0:24:32 > 0:24:35For him to have come to my side in this,
0:24:35 > 0:24:37I hope it plays out well for my client.
0:24:39 > 0:24:42Why was it so important, Doctor, for him to...
0:24:43 > 0:24:49..document completely, with all the details, this operation?
0:24:51 > 0:24:54Because it's part of his illness, OK?
0:24:54 > 0:24:59"I'm going to write it all out for you, I'm going to do videos of it,
0:24:59 > 0:25:03"I'm going to strap a GoPro camera to myself."
0:25:03 > 0:25:07He was not going to allow any ambiguity.
0:25:10 > 0:25:16This was the first case of Asperger's in a homicide
0:25:16 > 0:25:19that I've come across, and I've done...
0:25:19 > 0:25:22When I stopped counting, it was 300 to 400.
0:25:23 > 0:25:27The Star Wars story is very attractive.
0:25:27 > 0:25:32It makes relatively complicated things simple.
0:25:32 > 0:25:34"May the Force be with you,"
0:25:34 > 0:25:38it reminds me of almost a religious kind of thing.
0:25:38 > 0:25:39God bless you.
0:25:40 > 0:25:44The evil people have a force, too.
0:25:44 > 0:25:49It's important to Loya that he be on the side of the good, so,
0:25:49 > 0:25:54when he's in this character, which I have called psychotic,
0:25:54 > 0:26:00a functional psychotic state, he is with the good guys.
0:26:00 > 0:26:03He is doing what only he can do,
0:26:03 > 0:26:08which is setting right a terrible wrong.
0:26:08 > 0:26:11You determined through all of the other material you reviewed and
0:26:11 > 0:26:15your some nine hours with him that non-work
0:26:15 > 0:26:18at that point had become preoccupied with some type of good and evil?
0:26:19 > 0:26:23Yeah. Well, she was evil for what she had done for him.
0:26:23 > 0:26:27He then started to incorporate the police into what I'm calling
0:26:27 > 0:26:29a delusional system.
0:26:33 > 0:26:37America is following in the footsteps of any dystopian future story.
0:26:39 > 0:26:42The police are becoming the Stormtroopers of Star Wars
0:26:42 > 0:26:46and the Government is all for it, just like the Empire,
0:26:46 > 0:26:49so in return, I've taken up the emblem of the Rebel Alliance
0:26:49 > 0:26:52of Star Wars as my own personal symbol in fighting back.
0:26:55 > 0:26:58Soon, none of this will matter for me any more.
0:27:03 > 0:27:08The delusional idea is, "I am going to be the tragic, heroic figure.
0:27:08 > 0:27:14"I am going to be like a character in Star Wars.
0:27:14 > 0:27:15"I am going to be the hero."
0:27:15 > 0:27:18STAR WARS MUSIC PLAYS IN CAR
0:27:22 > 0:27:28He's driving back from his scouting expedition.
0:27:30 > 0:27:33He starts to experience a physical reaction.
0:27:33 > 0:27:35GROANING
0:27:35 > 0:27:37All right, I'm...
0:27:39 > 0:27:40I'm...
0:27:40 > 0:27:44Pull over at the side of the road.
0:27:45 > 0:27:48I'm having...
0:27:50 > 0:27:52..a panic attack.
0:27:57 > 0:27:59It was important for him to document it,
0:27:59 > 0:28:02so you see he's got the camera looking up at his face.
0:28:02 > 0:28:04I started hyperventilating.
0:28:06 > 0:28:09I feel paralysed. I... I...
0:28:09 > 0:28:10I can't move.
0:28:13 > 0:28:18He is feeling like something terrible is happening to his body.
0:28:18 > 0:28:19"I'm going to die?"
0:28:21 > 0:28:24I'm putting my hat... Putting my hat on.
0:28:26 > 0:28:32I believe it's the realisation on some level that he
0:28:32 > 0:28:36really could go through with this
0:28:36 > 0:28:41and that that is abhorrent to him on one level
0:28:41 > 0:28:48so the notion of taking another person's life actually
0:28:48 > 0:28:55is kind of foreign to him in his core personality.
0:28:56 > 0:29:04And he can't do harmful things to people when he is not in,
0:29:04 > 0:29:08in my opinion, this delusional state.
0:29:08 > 0:29:10I started thinking about it.
0:29:12 > 0:29:16This is incredibly crazy, what I've been planning to do.
0:29:19 > 0:29:23You know, it's fucking crazy that I want to...
0:29:24 > 0:29:26..conduct a mission to go murder a girl...
0:29:27 > 0:29:29..and then die.
0:29:31 > 0:29:34It's not exactly the healthiest thoughts.
0:29:40 > 0:29:42I thought long and hard about what I was wanting to do.
0:29:44 > 0:29:47Was it all just a grotesque fantasy that I had developed for Lisa?
0:29:49 > 0:29:51Can I just drop it and resume life?
0:29:53 > 0:29:56I thought about it at work and I thought about it at home all month.
0:29:59 > 0:30:03I began making bald spots on my eyebrows because I kept yanking
0:30:03 > 0:30:06the hairs as I thought.
0:30:06 > 0:30:08He couldn't dismiss it.
0:30:08 > 0:30:10He couldn't... He was obsessed with it.
0:30:10 > 0:30:12It kept on intruding in his thoughts.
0:30:14 > 0:30:18I thought about what I wanted in life, and all that was
0:30:18 > 0:30:20was seeing the new Star Wars film some time past December.
0:30:23 > 0:30:24I needed a hard date.
0:30:26 > 0:30:30My birthday arrived on February 5th, so it was decided.
0:30:31 > 0:30:34I would go out on my 31st birthday.
0:30:36 > 0:30:38Going out on my birthday would be poetic.
0:30:55 > 0:30:59And, eventually, it's really game on.
0:30:59 > 0:31:04His birthday - perfect time, "I'm going to end on my birthday."
0:31:05 > 0:31:10All the loose ends have been taken care of.
0:31:10 > 0:31:16He took Ex-Lax the night before the event because he didn't want
0:31:16 > 0:31:20the people dealing with his bullet-ridden body
0:31:20 > 0:31:22to have to deal with the fact
0:31:22 > 0:31:26that when you're shot, you might lose control over your bowels.
0:31:28 > 0:31:30He can't just kill her
0:31:30 > 0:31:33and get away with it, he needs to be killed.
0:31:33 > 0:31:37That is moral, that is what the Force would have you do.
0:31:49 > 0:31:53I was in an airport in Texas and I was coming home and I got a call.
0:31:55 > 0:31:57And his name popped up on my phone.
0:31:57 > 0:32:01It had been so long since he called me, I almost thought, like,
0:32:01 > 0:32:02this has got to be a mistake.
0:32:03 > 0:32:05He was, like, "Oh, what's going on?"
0:32:05 > 0:32:08It was just like a normal phone call.
0:32:08 > 0:32:09Erm...
0:32:11 > 0:32:14Or at least I thought it was a normal phone call at the time.
0:32:14 > 0:32:18He wanted me to watch this video of this website that he visits,
0:32:18 > 0:32:21- Giant Bomb.- I've got some boxes.
0:32:21 > 0:32:23- What have you got? - I don't know what any of these are.
0:32:23 > 0:32:27He gave away a bunch of expensive stuff to this website
0:32:27 > 0:32:28that he was a fan of.
0:32:29 > 0:32:31Let's start with this one.
0:32:31 > 0:32:34They opened up a package full of things that he had given them.
0:32:34 > 0:32:35OK.
0:32:36 > 0:32:38Wow.
0:32:38 > 0:32:39This is...
0:32:41 > 0:32:46- ..the Star Wars symbol.- The package had, like, Star Wars stuff, toys.
0:32:46 > 0:32:48This is fucking cool.
0:32:48 > 0:32:50- Gray Fox.- Oh, my God.
0:32:50 > 0:32:52- Sick Star Wars hat.- Nice.
0:32:52 > 0:32:58And he gave them, I believe, a live weapon, like a .22 rifle.
0:32:59 > 0:33:02Good Lord.
0:33:02 > 0:33:03That is...
0:33:03 > 0:33:06- That is all metal.- I don't know if you see that, but...
0:33:10 > 0:33:12Thank you, Adrian, you're insane.
0:33:12 > 0:33:16Why would you give this...?
0:33:16 > 0:33:19His letter had a line in it...
0:33:19 > 0:33:22"Keep your finger off the trigger until your sights are on the target."
0:33:22 > 0:33:25- Uh-huh.- "Be sure of your target and what is beyond it."
0:33:25 > 0:33:29- Mm-hm.- "Be aware of the audience around you and how easily they could
0:33:29 > 0:33:34"freak out. Much love and beef, Adrian,
0:33:34 > 0:33:40"aka Hyper Aqua Blast on the internet and Purple Rebel in the field of battle."
0:33:41 > 0:33:44Did he try to tell me something and I didn't get it?
0:33:44 > 0:33:46Like, could I have done something?
0:33:46 > 0:33:50And I think about this constantly every day.
0:33:50 > 0:33:52Holy...!
0:33:52 > 0:33:55It's just that feeling of responsibility,
0:33:55 > 0:33:58like, I was the last person he talked to and he still
0:33:58 > 0:33:59went through with it.
0:34:13 > 0:34:17When I went out back here, I could see flames coming up over my fence.
0:34:19 > 0:34:21I just started recording.
0:34:24 > 0:34:25Oh, shit.
0:34:25 > 0:34:27I'm down on Round House Road right now.
0:34:27 > 0:34:31Fucking cars exploding. I don't know what the deal is.
0:34:32 > 0:34:35Holy shit. Right in my back yard.
0:34:35 > 0:34:37EXPLOSION
0:34:37 > 0:34:38There's fireworks going off.
0:34:38 > 0:34:41Something must have exploded in the back.
0:34:41 > 0:34:45As soon as I stopped my last video...
0:34:47 > 0:34:51..I had heard a loud gunshot come right over my back.
0:34:51 > 0:34:53It sounded very close.
0:34:53 > 0:34:55I called 911 at that point.
0:34:56 > 0:34:59- POLICE RADIO:- 5-22, start heading to Round House Road
0:34:59 > 0:35:01for a reported car fire.
0:35:03 > 0:35:0422, received.
0:35:08 > 0:35:11Myself and my detective sergeant are walking up this road.
0:35:11 > 0:35:14We find this car that's on fire, fully engulfed right here.
0:35:14 > 0:35:17- RADIO:- Be advised, it's right in the middle of the road.
0:35:18 > 0:35:21We've got a burning car and there is something else going on up the road,
0:35:21 > 0:35:24but we don't really know. It was so chaotic.
0:35:24 > 0:35:27...fire engine, 1-25, zone three.
0:35:27 > 0:35:28Road vehicle fire.
0:35:30 > 0:35:32We got radio transmissions for...
0:35:33 > 0:35:36..somebody shooting, we got radio transmissions for possible fireworks
0:35:36 > 0:35:40- prior to that.- Right beside on the side of the road,
0:35:40 > 0:35:46there was what appeared to be an IED or improvised explosive device.
0:35:46 > 0:35:51Everybody here was thinking, "Oh, my God, what is going on?"
0:35:51 > 0:35:55On-scene trooper found a device by the fire hydrant.
0:35:55 > 0:35:58Unknown what it is, it has wires coming out of it.
0:35:58 > 0:36:02The mystery unfolds as you live in it.
0:36:02 > 0:36:04Units on the scene, a possible suspect,
0:36:04 > 0:36:06a white male dressed in black with khakis.
0:36:10 > 0:36:12I want to do something that matters.
0:36:13 > 0:36:15I want my life to count for something.
0:36:17 > 0:36:19I never really had anything to fight for, but I do now.
0:36:21 > 0:36:25Something bad happened to me and sadly it is now that I have a reason
0:36:25 > 0:36:26to fight.
0:36:30 > 0:36:37The video of the actual incident was pretty intense...
0:36:38 > 0:36:40..and sad.
0:36:42 > 0:36:48To see Lisa's face, that's something that will stay with me forever.
0:36:48 > 0:36:52I will always see her face when I first think about this trial.
0:36:53 > 0:36:54Erm...
0:36:57 > 0:36:59I've got to take a break.
0:36:59 > 0:37:01I'm sorry.
0:37:09 > 0:37:11Lisa, what you did hit me very hard.
0:37:13 > 0:37:15I'm truly going to miss you, Lisa.
0:37:17 > 0:37:18I want you to believe that.
0:38:11 > 0:38:13Court, all rise, please.
0:38:29 > 0:38:31Ma'am, raise your right hand, please.
0:38:31 > 0:38:32Stand.
0:38:34 > 0:38:37Ma'am, do you solemnly swear the testimony that you give to the court
0:38:37 > 0:38:40and the jury and the issues now pending between the Commonwealth
0:38:40 > 0:38:43and the defendant at the bar shall be the truth, the whole truth
0:38:43 > 0:38:46- and nothing but the truth, so help you God?- I do.
0:38:46 > 0:38:48Please be seated, Miss.
0:38:50 > 0:38:52Lisa kept asking, "Who are you?"
0:38:52 > 0:38:54And "What do you want?"
0:38:55 > 0:38:57He did take the mask off.
0:38:58 > 0:39:01- Who was it?- Erm, it was...
0:39:02 > 0:39:04..Adrian Loya.
0:39:04 > 0:39:05He's, like...
0:39:05 > 0:39:09"See what you've done to me, you're making me do this.
0:39:09 > 0:39:11"This is what I've become."
0:39:11 > 0:39:14And she was asking, "What did I do?"
0:39:16 > 0:39:17Or, "Sorry."
0:39:20 > 0:39:21He said, "It's too late."
0:39:22 > 0:39:26Maybe seconds afterwards, there were shots.
0:39:26 > 0:39:27I knew they weren't at me.
0:39:29 > 0:39:31The sound also went to my left.
0:39:33 > 0:39:37At some point, there were more shots and then I finally felt...
0:39:39 > 0:39:40..getting shot myself.
0:39:42 > 0:39:45I figured we only have seconds to live.
0:39:46 > 0:39:48I turned to Lisa...
0:39:53 > 0:39:55..and I said, "I love you."
0:39:56 > 0:39:57To which she responded...
0:39:59 > 0:40:00.."I love you, too."
0:40:01 > 0:40:05And we were very close.
0:40:06 > 0:40:08She was facing me, kind of,
0:40:08 > 0:40:13and I just turned my head towards her and I kissed her lips
0:40:13 > 0:40:20and I remember the lips going numb, or not numb...
0:40:20 > 0:40:21Limp.
0:40:22 > 0:40:24I figured she died, so I'm next.
0:40:26 > 0:40:27I heard...
0:40:30 > 0:40:33..I think, a man saying, "911, what's your emergency?"
0:40:35 > 0:40:36I realised that
0:40:36 > 0:40:38at some point she must have
0:40:38 > 0:40:40dialled 911.
0:41:06 > 0:41:07Where are you?
0:41:07 > 0:41:10- Help!- Where are you?
0:41:10 > 0:41:11Help!
0:41:13 > 0:41:15Where are you?
0:41:20 > 0:41:23We know that there is an active shooter situation going on...
0:41:25 > 0:41:27..but we don't know where he is,
0:41:27 > 0:41:30how many people there are or what kind of situation we are walking
0:41:30 > 0:41:34into. Right up here, my officer was shot.
0:41:34 > 0:41:36GUNSHOTS
0:41:36 > 0:41:38Shots fired, I've been shot.
0:41:38 > 0:41:40The shots came from the middle of the complex.
0:41:40 > 0:41:45I see his feet, I walk up to him and I can't believe what I'm seeing.
0:41:45 > 0:41:47This is one of my friends.
0:41:47 > 0:41:50He'd been shot in the back.
0:41:50 > 0:41:52Be advised, have made contact with someone.
0:41:54 > 0:41:55Came out of the pine trees.
0:41:57 > 0:41:59We ordered him to come towards us.
0:41:59 > 0:42:00This time, he had his hands up.
0:42:04 > 0:42:06OK, two victims, upstairs bedroom.
0:42:08 > 0:42:11There is nobody else in the house.
0:42:11 > 0:42:15It was approximately 2.30 or so, 2.40 in the morning.
0:42:15 > 0:42:19My phone rang, I answered it, and it was Sergeant John Stowe from the
0:42:19 > 0:42:21Bourne Police Department.
0:42:21 > 0:42:24Then I proceeded to get dressed and respond.
0:42:24 > 0:42:26And what happened when you got to the Bourne Police Department?
0:42:26 > 0:42:31We then proceeded down the hall to a room that we have that we sit down
0:42:31 > 0:42:33with individuals and have conversations or do interviews.
0:42:38 > 0:42:40Did he look like that at the time?
0:42:40 > 0:42:43- No, he did not. - What was the difference?
0:42:43 > 0:42:46He was clean-shaven, his hair was shorter and...
0:42:47 > 0:42:50..he appears to be a lot lighter in his weight today.
0:42:52 > 0:42:54Did you then interview Mr Loya?
0:42:54 > 0:42:56Yes, I did.
0:42:57 > 0:43:00I'm going to conduct an interview with a Mr...
0:43:02 > 0:43:03- Last name is?- Loya.
0:43:06 > 0:43:08Over the years, my experiences...
0:43:09 > 0:43:10..in interviews...
0:43:12 > 0:43:15This one was probably one of the most bizarre ones.
0:43:25 > 0:43:27You'll plead guilty to what?
0:43:30 > 0:43:32He was so matter of fact and...
0:43:33 > 0:43:36..really never showed much of an emotion.
0:43:36 > 0:43:38Are you familiar with that address? Have you been there before?
0:43:38 > 0:43:41- Yes, sir.- OK. And how many times have you been there before?
0:43:41 > 0:43:44- Twice.- Very detailed.
0:43:45 > 0:43:46It was somewhat amazing.
0:44:02 > 0:44:05- What did you say to her? - I told her...
0:44:10 > 0:44:12What he told me, that based upon...
0:44:14 > 0:44:17..a past incident that he had with this young lady
0:44:17 > 0:44:18two years prior,
0:44:18 > 0:44:22she was by herself and she invited him over to the house and he alleges
0:44:22 > 0:44:26that she was intoxicated when he arrived and she started to
0:44:26 > 0:44:27"come onto him".
0:44:53 > 0:44:55So that's...
0:44:55 > 0:44:59That's what precipitated from September 9th, 2012 until now,
0:44:59 > 0:45:02that's kind of been fuelling the fire?
0:45:12 > 0:45:14"It was a rape of the mind."
0:45:16 > 0:45:21At first I was thinking, like, "Oh, God, you know, she assaulted him,
0:45:21 > 0:45:23"she sexually assaulted him."
0:45:23 > 0:45:28And then you find out that it wasn't anything.
0:45:28 > 0:45:33If anything, even if it did happen and I don't know that it really did,
0:45:33 > 0:45:36she may have made a pass at him.
0:45:36 > 0:45:38That was it. That was all.
0:45:38 > 0:45:44And he blew it up and turned it into something that it wasn't.
0:45:45 > 0:45:48I'm going to turn this tape off, it's 6.19am.
0:45:57 > 0:46:01It's the first and only case of Asperger's that I've testified
0:46:01 > 0:46:02in court about.
0:46:04 > 0:46:07At the end of it, he was saying, "I was crazy,
0:46:07 > 0:46:09"I don't understand now why I did it.
0:46:10 > 0:46:12"It makes no sense."
0:46:13 > 0:46:16He felt he didn't deserve to be alive.
0:46:16 > 0:46:19He hoped there would have been a court martial cos you can get
0:46:19 > 0:46:20the death penalty.
0:46:22 > 0:46:23He wanted to die.
0:46:30 > 0:46:34Does that fairly and accurately depict what you saw of Miss Trubnikova that night?
0:46:34 > 0:46:38- Yes.- How many gunshot wounds did you observe?
0:46:38 > 0:46:40Erm, 11.
0:46:40 > 0:46:42And fair to say you numbered them?
0:46:42 > 0:46:44Yes.
0:46:44 > 0:46:47There was a bullet wound below...
0:46:48 > 0:46:49..the left arm.
0:46:50 > 0:46:56This was a bullet wound that resulted in a path that went through
0:46:56 > 0:47:01skin and soft tissue. It went into the chest cavity.
0:47:01 > 0:47:03It went through a lung then it went
0:47:03 > 0:47:06through the pericardium covering the heart.
0:47:06 > 0:47:09It lacerated the aorta...
0:47:10 > 0:47:13..went through the pericardium again,
0:47:13 > 0:47:17went through her lung and then broke her rib on the opposite side.
0:47:30 > 0:47:33Raise your right hand, please. Do you solemnly swear the testimony
0:47:33 > 0:47:36- that you give to the court and the jury...- What's your connection to this case?
0:47:36 > 0:47:40The District Attorney's office asked me to evaluate the defendant in this
0:47:40 > 0:47:43case for criminal responsibility.
0:47:43 > 0:47:47In my opinion, Mr Loya was criminally responsible for his actions.
0:47:49 > 0:47:53Dr Kelly, another forensic clinician, gave the opinion that
0:47:53 > 0:47:57Mr Loya was suffering from autism spectrum disorder.
0:47:57 > 0:48:01And in my opinion, he does not suffer from autism.
0:48:01 > 0:48:05Shyness, awkwardness is not autism.
0:48:05 > 0:48:11Mr Loya thinks of himself as a victim and has some fantasies
0:48:11 > 0:48:15that he is like a superhero or a Star Wars hero.
0:48:16 > 0:48:18But one has to... As a forensic psychiatrist,
0:48:18 > 0:48:22you don't take someone's view of what they are necessarily,
0:48:22 > 0:48:24you also have to look at their behaviour.
0:48:25 > 0:48:32Mr Loya has a personality disorder, severe maladaptive personality.
0:48:32 > 0:48:36He tends to be rejection-sensitive, closed,
0:48:36 > 0:48:39anticipates shame and humiliation.
0:48:39 > 0:48:45He is sad a lot of the time and then he has kind of a smouldering anger
0:48:45 > 0:48:50- that bursts out.- Did the disorders make him unable to appreciate the
0:48:50 > 0:48:52criminality or wrongfulness of his actions?
0:48:52 > 0:48:53No, in my opinion,
0:48:53 > 0:48:57they were irrelevant to his ability to appreciate criminality
0:48:57 > 0:48:58or wrongfulness.
0:49:00 > 0:49:03He meticulously planned this crime.
0:49:10 > 0:49:12And he did that with a clear mind.
0:49:13 > 0:49:16There was weighing going on before.
0:49:16 > 0:49:19RECORDING: I started thinking about it, about, you know,
0:49:19 > 0:49:23it's incredibly crazy what I'm planning to do.
0:49:23 > 0:49:27And that indicates that you can control yourself,
0:49:27 > 0:49:28you're just choosing not to.
0:49:28 > 0:49:30It's fucking crazy that I want to...
0:49:31 > 0:49:34..conduct a mission to go and murder a girl.
0:49:34 > 0:49:36And in this case, there was a mountain of evidence that he knew
0:49:36 > 0:49:38what he was doing was wrong.
0:49:38 > 0:49:42It's not exactly the healthiest thoughts.
0:49:42 > 0:49:44Did you interview Mr Loya?
0:49:44 > 0:49:45Erm, no.
0:49:45 > 0:49:50You had five months to seek him out, sit with him, talk to him, right?
0:49:50 > 0:49:52And you didn't avail yourself of that?
0:49:58 > 0:50:01Her biggest weakness, and it shows on its face,
0:50:01 > 0:50:05is her not interviewing my client.
0:50:05 > 0:50:07That cuts at the very core of what she does.
0:50:07 > 0:50:11She had to evaluate pursuant to other people's work.
0:50:11 > 0:50:13I think that totally undercut her.
0:50:16 > 0:50:19Liam, what this jury is going to have to decide in the coming days
0:50:19 > 0:50:23is whether or not Adrian Loya knew right from wrong.
0:50:29 > 0:50:33His actions were under the control of a functionally paranoid,
0:50:33 > 0:50:38delusional system and he was incapable of a force of personal will
0:50:38 > 0:50:41to stop the system and the ultimate homicide.
0:50:42 > 0:50:44Mental illness alone
0:50:44 > 0:50:51is not an excuse to murder the woman you could never have.
0:50:51 > 0:50:54The lawyers had done their closing arguments.
0:50:54 > 0:51:01I just happened to look over at Loya and he looked right at me...
0:51:02 > 0:51:05..and started to mouth something.
0:51:05 > 0:51:08And that really frightened me.
0:51:10 > 0:51:11What did he say?
0:51:13 > 0:51:14Guilty.
0:51:17 > 0:51:19"Guilty".
0:51:19 > 0:51:24He looked at them and said certain things that caused me
0:51:24 > 0:51:25terrific anguish.
0:51:28 > 0:51:29It was astonishing to me.
0:51:31 > 0:51:34After I had been fighting now for him for over 30 months...
0:51:36 > 0:51:38..he said, "Guilty."
0:51:39 > 0:51:40Mr Loya.
0:51:41 > 0:51:49If there is any repeat conduct on your part like what I have observed,
0:51:49 > 0:51:56I will consider removing you from the trial process and having you
0:51:56 > 0:52:01confined in the lock-up watching further proceedings by video link.
0:52:01 > 0:52:04Do you understand me, Mr Loya?
0:52:05 > 0:52:06Yes, your honour.
0:52:10 > 0:52:13After a hard-fought trial, the jury was just going out.
0:52:13 > 0:52:17For him to do it at that critical stage was so frustrating.
0:52:20 > 0:52:25Jurors, your exhibits and verdict slips will be along shortly.
0:52:25 > 0:52:30The text of the charge will follow as soon as the stenographer
0:52:30 > 0:52:32can produce it and it can be proofread.
0:52:33 > 0:52:35All rise for the jury, please.
0:52:44 > 0:52:49We really weren't sure exactly how everybody felt
0:52:49 > 0:52:52to be able to say guilty or not guilty.
0:52:56 > 0:52:58In modern life, in my generation,
0:52:58 > 0:53:01we used the phrase "you're crazy" or "he's crazy" or "they're crazy",
0:53:01 > 0:53:06and this phrase has lost all meaning to people of my generation because
0:53:06 > 0:53:09everyone says it about everything, but when you really think about it,
0:53:09 > 0:53:11when you're...
0:53:11 > 0:53:16making very irrational choices over and over and over again and you
0:53:16 > 0:53:17can't see beyond those choices...
0:53:18 > 0:53:20..what is that if not insanity?
0:53:23 > 0:53:25I was surprised at myself.
0:53:25 > 0:53:28I knew that I could be impartial,
0:53:28 > 0:53:31but I didn't realise how impartial I could be.
0:53:31 > 0:53:35I really didn't have anything in my head, you know, thinking,
0:53:35 > 0:53:39"Oh, he's got to be guilty." I didn't feel that way at all.
0:53:52 > 0:53:54I quite frankly...
0:53:54 > 0:53:55Walking on eggshells.
0:53:57 > 0:54:01Whether it's ten minutes or ten, 11, 12 hours,
0:54:01 > 0:54:04your head is somewhat spinning, you don't know what to make of it.
0:54:11 > 0:54:14What say you, Madam Forelady?
0:54:14 > 0:54:19The defendant Adrian T Loya is charged with murder.
0:54:19 > 0:54:24Is he not guilty, not guilty lack of criminal responsibility,
0:54:24 > 0:54:28guilty first-degree murder, guilty second-degree murder,
0:54:28 > 0:54:29or guilty manslaughter?
0:54:31 > 0:54:33Guilty first-degree murder.
0:55:02 > 0:55:03He knew what he was doing.
0:55:06 > 0:55:08I do think he thought he was going to get away with it.
0:55:08 > 0:55:13I think he thought he was going to go to the police station, tell them,
0:55:13 > 0:55:16"Yes, I killed her, yes, I planned it, but here's why.
0:55:18 > 0:55:20"So, you know, it's OK."
0:55:22 > 0:55:25That would be a pretty crazy thing to think.
0:55:28 > 0:55:30Yes.
0:55:30 > 0:55:32He's crazy a little.
0:55:32 > 0:55:34He wasn't crazy enough to be...
0:55:35 > 0:55:36..not guilty.
0:55:39 > 0:55:44It's strange, looking at the same set of facts and coming to a very
0:55:44 > 0:55:47different conclusion than you've ever come to.
0:55:52 > 0:55:53He is a person with nobody.
0:55:57 > 0:55:58What kind of person is that?
0:55:58 > 0:56:01When you have nobody, do you even exist? I mean...
0:56:04 > 0:56:05I don't know.
0:56:06 > 0:56:09He lived maybe a lonelier life than I...
0:56:10 > 0:56:12..had ever thought.
0:56:15 > 0:56:17And that I should have... Me personally,
0:56:17 > 0:56:20I probably should have been in better contact with him.
0:56:38 > 0:56:42My life with Lisa was beginning to flourish since we left Alaska,
0:56:42 > 0:56:46where our initial troubles with Adrian Loya began.
0:56:48 > 0:56:52We were happier than we had ever been and loving every aspect
0:56:52 > 0:56:53of our life together.
0:56:55 > 0:57:00On February 5th 2015, I lost everything I had,
0:57:00 > 0:57:02loved, and everything I believed in.
0:57:04 > 0:57:06It was the most devastating day of my life.
0:57:14 > 0:57:17Yes, we begged and pleaded to be spared,
0:57:17 > 0:57:19for the nightmare to be just that.
0:57:21 > 0:57:25But I also know that once I was shot all those times...
0:57:26 > 0:57:29..my body felt numb, at an eerie peace.
0:57:31 > 0:57:34It felt warm and all the pain and suffering ceased.
0:57:36 > 0:57:40Lisa got to hear that she is loved and she felt my lips on hers
0:57:40 > 0:57:42before she took her last breath.
0:57:42 > 0:57:44She wasn't alone.
0:57:44 > 0:57:46She was loved.
0:57:46 > 0:57:47She felt love.
0:57:58 > 0:58:02If there's one thing that America has taught over several generations,
0:58:02 > 0:58:05it's that you must seek revenge in the name of justice.
0:58:07 > 0:58:10And whoever hurt you will not get away with it.
0:58:12 > 0:58:16You'll come back stronger, hunt them down and kill the perpetrator.
0:58:19 > 0:58:22You send a message that no-one can be allowed to do this again
0:58:22 > 0:58:24or there will be dire consequences.
0:58:28 > 0:58:29It's the American way.
0:58:44 > 0:58:45In the end, though...
0:58:46 > 0:58:50..when all is said and done, nothing will have changed.
0:58:50 > 0:58:52I'll be known as a villain and I'll be dead.
0:58:54 > 0:58:57I'll just be labelled as another crazy with a gun
0:58:57 > 0:59:00and the rest of America will just sit back in their couch.
0:59:09 > 0:59:13Your honour, I'll ask for no mercy for Adrian Loya.
0:59:16 > 0:59:20He is a threat to our society and I truly believe that he is capable
0:59:20 > 0:59:22of doing this again.
0:59:26 > 0:59:31He will hurt others the way he has hurt Lisa and me and in no way
0:59:31 > 0:59:34should he ever be granted the opportunity to be a free man.