0:00:02 > 0:00:05This programme contains strong language.
0:00:05 > 0:00:08Crime authorities today warned that Australia is in the grip of
0:00:08 > 0:00:11an epidemic of the drug ice,
0:00:11 > 0:00:13with a massive surge in its supply on our streets.
0:00:16 > 0:00:19Excuse me, mate. Can you tell me what's going on? Do you know?
0:00:19 > 0:00:22Um... One guy got murdered.
0:00:23 > 0:00:25And just before that,
0:00:25 > 0:00:27they heard a loud scream or something.
0:00:27 > 0:00:30- NEWS PRESENTER:- A manhunt is under way for a 29-year-old
0:00:30 > 0:00:34wanted over the murder of a St Kilda resident in his apartment block.
0:00:34 > 0:00:38Detectives say the victim was killed in a brutal targeted attack.
0:00:38 > 0:00:41What are the chances that it's drug-related?
0:00:41 > 0:00:44Um... Very highly. Probably ice.
0:00:44 > 0:00:48- Oh, really? Why?- Because most of the time people get murdered over ice.
0:00:48 > 0:00:51Australia is in the grip of an ice pandemic.
0:00:51 > 0:00:54And, of course, the drug has been linked to serious violent crime.
0:00:55 > 0:00:59- So this area is dangerous for it, then?- Yeah, it's highly dangerous.
0:01:00 > 0:01:04Ice is the purest and strongest form of methamphetamine.
0:01:06 > 0:01:12Its use has increased in Australia by 300% over the last five years.
0:01:12 > 0:01:16'It's worse than heroin. It's worse than cocaine. It's worse than LSD.'
0:01:16 > 0:01:21It's much more addictive, much more dangerous, much more damaging.
0:01:22 > 0:01:26I think the police are about to make a statement now.
0:01:26 > 0:01:32It's a pretty brutal attack, so we're working on the principle that it was targeted.
0:01:32 > 0:01:36'A highly addictive drug and a deadly crime on my doorstep.'
0:01:36 > 0:01:41I woke up 90 minutes ago, and this is my first morning in Melbourne,
0:01:41 > 0:01:44and not only do I wake up to Lewisham weather,
0:01:44 > 0:01:45but I've woken up to this -
0:01:45 > 0:01:48blue lights in the alleyway behind the hotel.
0:01:48 > 0:01:50And it's a murder.
0:01:52 > 0:01:55'So why are so many Australians addicted to ice?'
0:02:04 > 0:02:07Australia has never faced a drug like ice before.
0:02:09 > 0:02:11Mate, you just sit over there for me?
0:02:13 > 0:02:16Cheap to produce, highly addictive,
0:02:16 > 0:02:19and a gateway to chaos and broken lives.
0:02:21 > 0:02:23That building is called Gatwick House.
0:02:23 > 0:02:25'It's a hostel with a bad reputation...
0:02:27 > 0:02:28'..but a good place to start.'
0:02:31 > 0:02:35- How are you doing? I'm Reggie. - Hello.- Hello. This is sis?
0:02:35 > 0:02:39'Gatwick House is run by twin sisters Rose and Yvette.'
0:02:39 > 0:02:41- It's really busy. - Actually, today's not bad.
0:02:44 > 0:02:48We very rarely have a room vacant, cos this is usually the last resort.
0:02:48 > 0:02:49What's your name, mate?
0:02:51 > 0:02:52How long have you lived here?
0:02:54 > 0:02:55How big a problem is ice?
0:03:09 > 0:03:11Many residents are drug addicts...
0:03:12 > 0:03:15..bingeing on ice in their rooms,
0:03:15 > 0:03:17and then disappearing for days.
0:03:18 > 0:03:21This is a tiny room, but this is one day's mess.
0:03:22 > 0:03:24This is one day?
0:03:24 > 0:03:27Do you not want to be a bit more safe picking up needles?
0:03:27 > 0:03:29I think that, I'm getting used to as well.
0:03:29 > 0:03:33- Is that a regular occurrence for you?- Needles? Yeah.
0:03:33 > 0:03:35Yeah.
0:03:35 > 0:03:37How bad a problem is ice here?
0:03:37 > 0:03:40- Ice is such an epidemic. - You use the word epidemic.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42Is that justified when it comes to ice, or...
0:03:42 > 0:03:45- I think so, yeah. - ..is that an exaggeration?
0:03:45 > 0:03:46No, no, I think it's an epidemic.
0:03:46 > 0:03:49Have you noticed a change in this business at all as
0:03:49 > 0:03:51the popularity of it has gone up?
0:03:51 > 0:03:54Yeah. People argue a lot more.
0:03:54 > 0:03:57They're becoming much more violent than they ever were before...
0:03:58 > 0:04:00..which makes it harder.
0:04:01 > 0:04:04Ice can cause violence and psychosis...
0:04:05 > 0:04:07MAN MUMBLES
0:04:07 > 0:04:12'..a new high at the sharp end of drug use, whether snorted,
0:04:12 > 0:04:14'smoked, or injected.'
0:04:15 > 0:04:16Oh, my God.
0:04:32 > 0:04:36Drugs hold a bit of a strange place in my memory and my upbringing,
0:04:36 > 0:04:37really.
0:04:37 > 0:04:40I was a kid that never really did anything,
0:04:40 > 0:04:42and never got involved in anything.
0:04:42 > 0:04:45I say "never really did" - I've never done anything.
0:04:45 > 0:04:49I've not even smoked a cigarette in my life, let alone taken a drug.
0:04:49 > 0:04:52So, you know, I've never looked down on anybody who uses,
0:04:52 > 0:04:55but I've struggled to understand it.
0:04:56 > 0:04:58'A quiet suburb of Melbourne.
0:05:00 > 0:05:03'The last place you might expect to find an ice addict.'
0:05:04 > 0:05:07I didn't actually have any expectations as to where
0:05:07 > 0:05:09I'd be turning up to.
0:05:09 > 0:05:13But I am a little surprised that the Satnav has brought me
0:05:13 > 0:05:19to manicured lawns and really pretty little houses and quiet streets.
0:05:24 > 0:05:28- Hello.- How're you doing? Reggie. - Sharni. How're you going?- Nice to meet you, Sharni.
0:05:28 > 0:05:32'Homeless for three months, 23-year-old Sharni,
0:05:32 > 0:05:36'staying with her aunt Cherie, the night before going into rehab.'
0:05:37 > 0:05:40When did you actually start taking drugs?
0:05:40 > 0:05:42- 14.- 14.
0:05:42 > 0:05:44Well, it was fun then. It's not now.
0:05:44 > 0:05:48With ice, you know, I started to use it quite frequently.
0:05:48 > 0:05:50How much were you taking?
0:05:50 > 0:05:54At one point I would have been high pretty much 20 hours out of 24,
0:05:54 > 0:05:55I reckon.
0:05:55 > 0:06:01In front of me I see a well-kept, well-spoken, articulate young lady.
0:06:01 > 0:06:04Just looking at you, there are no giveaways.
0:06:05 > 0:06:09I was a very heavy user, and still people couldn't tell.
0:06:10 > 0:06:12I could hide it very well.
0:06:12 > 0:06:14So what's got you to the point of knowing that rehab
0:06:14 > 0:06:16is where you need to be?
0:06:16 > 0:06:18I have two babies who are three years old.
0:06:18 > 0:06:20I became homeless.
0:06:20 > 0:06:26I had to give my children to my auntie to take care of.
0:06:27 > 0:06:30And now I just want my family back.
0:06:30 > 0:06:35You've clearly been a rock for Sharni here,
0:06:35 > 0:06:38but Sharni's not actually mentioned Mum or Dad.
0:06:38 > 0:06:41Well, Sharni and her mum don't talk any more.
0:06:41 > 0:06:44And Sharni wasn't raised by her dad.
0:06:44 > 0:06:46Unfortunately, me and my mum have had
0:06:46 > 0:06:49a pretty rocky relationship since I was young.
0:06:50 > 0:06:53I grew up in a house where there was addiction too,
0:06:53 > 0:06:57so I believe that's, you know, partly to blame as well.
0:06:57 > 0:06:59What kind of addiction?
0:06:59 > 0:07:01Drug addiction and alcohol.
0:07:01 > 0:07:06That taught me that if I take this, I won't feel anything.
0:07:07 > 0:07:11'Sharni's addiction has made it difficult to cope with her sons,
0:07:11 > 0:07:15'so Cherie has been looking after them both.
0:07:15 > 0:07:17'But Sharni wants them back.'
0:07:17 > 0:07:20I don't believe I would be here if it wasn't for my kids.
0:07:21 > 0:07:23I wouldn't be here.
0:07:23 > 0:07:25I would've tried to kill myself, or I would've killed myself, by now.
0:07:25 > 0:07:27You already tried once.
0:07:27 > 0:07:29When?
0:07:29 > 0:07:32- It wasn't all that long ago. - About a month ago.
0:07:32 > 0:07:35Because I was homeless, and I hadn't seen my kids in so long,
0:07:35 > 0:07:38and seeing them and having to say goodbye to them, and knowing that I can't...
0:07:38 > 0:07:40You know, I'm not the one to put them to bed,
0:07:40 > 0:07:43and I'm not the one to provide for them, and...
0:07:44 > 0:07:46I just didn't want to do it any more.
0:07:52 > 0:07:53It's hard.
0:07:53 > 0:07:56Yeah, it's very hard.
0:07:56 > 0:07:58What do you want for your niece?
0:07:58 > 0:08:01To get better. I don't want to have to raise her boys.
0:08:01 > 0:08:04I love them, but I want her to raise them.
0:08:05 > 0:08:07Do you want to take ten minutes?
0:08:07 > 0:08:09- I just want to sit outside and get some fresh air.- Yeah.
0:08:15 > 0:08:18- How are you doing? I'm Reg. - How are you going, man? Dylan.
0:08:18 > 0:08:21'Sharni's friend Dylan has come to wish her good luck.'
0:08:21 > 0:08:22Hello.
0:08:22 > 0:08:27'No stranger to ice, he moved out of Melbourne to get away from the drug,
0:08:27 > 0:08:29'and its effects.'
0:08:41 > 0:08:43Need to stop...ice?
0:08:43 > 0:08:44Yeah, everything, pretty much.
0:08:44 > 0:08:47Listen, this might sound like an incredibly strange request,
0:08:47 > 0:08:53but I'm really interested to see where you might have bought
0:08:53 > 0:08:55ice from, and where you might have done it.
0:08:55 > 0:08:59I can probably show you, like, places we would use.
0:09:03 > 0:09:07- There are dealers...- There are dealers that live along this road, yeah.
0:09:07 > 0:09:08Apparently.
0:09:08 > 0:09:09Allegedly.
0:09:09 > 0:09:11That's crazy to me, cos this just looks like the road
0:09:11 > 0:09:13that your aunt lives on.
0:09:13 > 0:09:16Do the residents try and shut down the properties
0:09:16 > 0:09:17or call the police on them?
0:09:26 > 0:09:29Just pull into one of these driveways here.
0:09:29 > 0:09:30Just pull into one of these?
0:09:36 > 0:09:39On your last night before you actually skipped town
0:09:39 > 0:09:42and moved away, did you have that one last hit?
0:09:42 > 0:09:43Yeah.
0:09:43 > 0:09:45How about you, Sharni?
0:09:45 > 0:09:48This is your last night before you actually go into rehab.
0:09:48 > 0:09:50Do you think you'll smoke tonight?
0:09:50 > 0:09:54I have an ice pipe on me.
0:10:06 > 0:10:08Now, I don't understand addiction.
0:10:08 > 0:10:10I've never taken the drug that you're talking about,
0:10:10 > 0:10:15but it seems like tonight would be a bad time to take this drug.
0:10:15 > 0:10:17Am I completely wrong?
0:10:17 > 0:10:20I understand that you don't understand.
0:10:20 > 0:10:23- But you have to understand that you can't understand.- Hmm.
0:10:25 > 0:10:26Can I see the pipe?
0:10:32 > 0:10:34There's some brown stuff in there. Is that it?
0:10:34 > 0:10:36Yeah.
0:10:36 > 0:10:39So what do you think when you look at this, then?
0:10:39 > 0:10:41Ashamed...
0:10:41 > 0:10:42that that's my addiction.
0:10:42 > 0:10:44Why is it shame? Why is that the feeling?
0:11:04 > 0:11:09I really did struggle to understand why Dylan or Sharni
0:11:09 > 0:11:11would be tempted to use tonight.
0:11:11 > 0:11:15It just feels like the worst way to start a journey to recovery.
0:11:20 > 0:11:24At this stage, I'm not sure if I will ever truly understand addiction,
0:11:24 > 0:11:26because to understand addiction on some level,
0:11:26 > 0:11:29you have to have had some sort of experience.
0:11:31 > 0:11:34I just really hope that she doesn't use tonight.
0:11:40 > 0:11:44'Not everyone addicted to ice has a family to support them.'
0:11:45 > 0:11:48- Lam?- Yeah? - Could you come here for a minute?
0:11:48 > 0:11:50See if I can find you some shoes, OK?
0:11:50 > 0:11:51What happened to your shoes?
0:11:51 > 0:11:54Um... Gave them away.
0:11:54 > 0:11:55- Why did you do that? - Didn't need them.
0:11:57 > 0:11:59Why are you so happy?
0:11:59 > 0:12:01It's my home.
0:12:01 > 0:12:03How long have you lived here?
0:12:03 > 0:12:04- Um, a while now?- Yeah?
0:12:04 > 0:12:06Yeah.
0:12:06 > 0:12:08What are you on now?
0:12:08 > 0:12:09Bit of heroin, bit of ice.
0:12:11 > 0:12:12Do you work at the moment?
0:12:12 > 0:12:14This is my work. I bum around.
0:12:14 > 0:12:15Did you not have a job before?
0:12:15 > 0:12:20- Yeah, I used to, yeah.- What did you used to do?- Cook. I used to cook.
0:12:20 > 0:12:24- And how come you ended up stopping work?- Needed a change.
0:12:24 > 0:12:28And what did you change from being a cook to?
0:12:28 > 0:12:30Um... A professional bum.
0:12:35 > 0:12:38Can you show me your room, Lam? Can I see where you stay?
0:12:42 > 0:12:44Do your parents know where you are now?
0:12:46 > 0:12:49Do you mean... Are they passed away? What happened to your folks?
0:12:52 > 0:12:55You don't have a relationship with them?
0:12:57 > 0:12:59When was the last time you had ice?
0:12:59 > 0:13:01When was the last time we had ice?
0:13:01 > 0:13:02Today.
0:13:02 > 0:13:05- Did you inject it? - Yeah, we injected it.- Oh, I see.
0:13:05 > 0:13:06There's your needles there.
0:13:08 > 0:13:10How long do you think you'll stay awake for?
0:13:10 > 0:13:11Three or four days, a week.
0:13:11 > 0:13:13- A week?- Yeah.
0:13:13 > 0:13:15So what does it feel like when you take ice?
0:13:15 > 0:13:17When you whack it up,
0:13:17 > 0:13:22you feel that there's the rush like the dopamine in your head releases,
0:13:22 > 0:13:25and you feel like that for probably half an hour or so,
0:13:25 > 0:13:29then the ice, just like speed, just takes you along the...
0:13:31 > 0:13:33How much do you spend on it?
0:13:33 > 0:13:34Whatever I've got, really. Yeah.
0:13:35 > 0:13:38- Do you regret trying it, or starting it?- No, no.
0:13:38 > 0:13:40- Why no regrets?- I love it too much.
0:13:43 > 0:13:46It's a special drug.
0:13:46 > 0:13:49- You almost refer to it as a friend. - Yes, it is. My girlfriend.
0:13:49 > 0:13:51One of my girlfriends.
0:13:54 > 0:13:57- And how does your girlfriend treat you?- Very well.
0:13:57 > 0:13:59Yes, very well.
0:14:01 > 0:14:04All right. Nice to meet you, Lam. Thank you.
0:14:09 > 0:14:13How can you go from being someone with a career
0:14:13 > 0:14:17and someone with a life to that?
0:14:18 > 0:14:21I just don't know how that happens.
0:14:23 > 0:14:26I've got a few things to tell you about ice.
0:14:26 > 0:14:31'British backpacker Scottie has been staying at Gatwick House for a month.'
0:14:31 > 0:14:34Ice is huge, and it's everywhere.
0:14:34 > 0:14:35I've watched many people,
0:14:35 > 0:14:38from people who are poor in the slums, to people
0:14:38 > 0:14:43who have multinational jobs, try it once,
0:14:43 > 0:14:44and not be able to put the pipe down.
0:14:46 > 0:14:49Do you really believe that one hit is all it takes to become hooked?
0:14:49 > 0:14:50I've seen it. I've seen it.
0:14:50 > 0:14:53'The results are often unpredictable,
0:14:53 > 0:14:55'and sometimes violent.'
0:14:55 > 0:14:58MAN SHOUTS
0:14:58 > 0:15:01'Hoodie was stabbed in a fight over drugs.'
0:15:15 > 0:15:17So are you playing nurse to your friend at the moment?
0:15:17 > 0:15:20When I was younger I was a surf life-saver in Aussie,
0:15:20 > 0:15:24and I do rescue diving and stuff, so I have basic first aid training.
0:15:24 > 0:15:26Do you mind if I wander with you?
0:15:26 > 0:15:27- Yeah.- Yeah.- Yeah.
0:15:32 > 0:15:35Yeah, we'll give it a quick wash with some soap and water.
0:15:36 > 0:15:40Now, the water in the Gatwick is amazing. Really hot.
0:15:40 > 0:15:42How long have you been using ice for?
0:15:47 > 0:15:50'Australia has strict border controls.
0:15:50 > 0:15:53'It's also far away from the main centres of heroin
0:15:53 > 0:15:56'and cocaine production.
0:15:56 > 0:15:58'Ice has filled the vacuum.'
0:16:02 > 0:16:06Do you think that's part of the problem? That it's so easy to make?
0:16:06 > 0:16:10- Part of the problem is the addiction to it. It's so high.- And rapid.
0:16:10 > 0:16:14And yeah, before you know it, you have one hit, drink, snort,
0:16:14 > 0:16:15it doesn't matter how you take it...
0:16:15 > 0:16:17Stick it up your arse, you're still taking it.
0:16:17 > 0:16:18Do you take it?
0:16:18 > 0:16:20I have in my life, yeah.
0:16:25 > 0:16:27- So you guys were about to use?- Yeah.
0:16:28 > 0:16:31If the cops come, I'll smash them on camera.
0:16:31 > 0:16:35- Don't do that, darling.- No, I will. - When was the last time they raided?
0:16:35 > 0:16:36Yesterday.
0:16:36 > 0:16:38And what did they get?
0:16:41 > 0:16:42OK, this is ice.
0:16:43 > 0:16:46So where would you buy something like ice from, then?
0:17:19 > 0:17:20I don't like it, mate.
0:17:20 > 0:17:25I'd hate to think my kids were ever subject to it.
0:17:25 > 0:17:28If I ever found any of my kids...
0:17:28 > 0:17:29If anyone sold my kids anything,
0:17:29 > 0:17:34I'd take a pump-action and shoot them in the head point-blank.
0:17:38 > 0:17:40It's my pleasure, my darling.
0:17:40 > 0:17:42I'm a medic. Let me help you.
0:17:47 > 0:17:50'I actually don't quite know what to say off the back
0:17:50 > 0:17:52'of seeing Jasmin use.'
0:17:52 > 0:17:55You know, the first thing that she said after she finished using
0:17:55 > 0:17:57was that she hates it.
0:17:58 > 0:18:01And she doesn't want her kids to know that she does it.
0:18:04 > 0:18:07I'm pretty sure a lot of people feel the same way about the drug...
0:18:09 > 0:18:11..because so many people are using it.
0:18:16 > 0:18:18It's ripping this flipping country apart.
0:18:29 > 0:18:31MAN SHOUTS
0:18:49 > 0:18:52It's really weird. I feel like I'm suddenly in LA.
0:18:52 > 0:18:56This place looks like some of the most expensive streets in Beverly Hills.
0:18:56 > 0:18:58I mean, look at this place. Look at that.
0:18:58 > 0:19:01It's where the Fresh Prince grew up, wasn't it?
0:19:01 > 0:19:05'Another Melbourne suburb, and home to another young Australian.
0:19:06 > 0:19:09'A former business executive, caught in the grip of ice.'
0:19:09 > 0:19:12- Brett.- Reggie. Nice to meet you. Look at this place.
0:19:12 > 0:19:15We've caught you right in the middle of a refurb show.
0:19:15 > 0:19:17Four years doing this. Yeah.
0:19:17 > 0:19:19Four years is a long time to renovate a place.
0:19:19 > 0:19:23Four years is a long time to be living through this.
0:19:23 > 0:19:27- What are these medals for? - They're all Australian medals.
0:19:27 > 0:19:31'28-year-old Brett was not just a successful businessman.
0:19:31 > 0:19:34'He also represented his country as a triathlete.'
0:19:34 > 0:19:37That was 2009 World Titles.
0:19:37 > 0:19:41- Whoa. Oh, my God, is that you? - That was me, yeah. At my drug worst.
0:19:43 > 0:19:46OK, this looks like a completely different person.
0:19:46 > 0:19:47So how do you go from the podium to this?
0:19:48 > 0:19:51I got caught up with ice.
0:19:51 > 0:19:53How was ice actually introduced to you?
0:19:53 > 0:19:56A friend of mine in the corporate world. Yep.
0:19:56 > 0:19:59OK, so were a lot of people in business using?
0:19:59 > 0:20:00Yeah. 100%.
0:20:00 > 0:20:03I know if I walk through a room of 100 people,
0:20:03 > 0:20:06I know 100% that there's at least 15 of them that have either
0:20:06 > 0:20:09been on it, touched it, been involved with it.
0:20:09 > 0:20:12You can reply to more e-mails. You get more deals done.
0:20:12 > 0:20:13I use this as a tool.
0:20:14 > 0:20:16A tool that took my entire life away.
0:20:18 > 0:20:21You know, we talk back of you looking at me at the World Titles,
0:20:21 > 0:20:23I'd never touched a drug in my entire life.
0:20:23 > 0:20:27In fact, I was really critical of people with addictions.
0:20:27 > 0:20:29So, are you still using now?
0:20:29 > 0:20:32Um, the last time I used was probably three weeks ago.
0:20:33 > 0:20:36Part of the closure for this will be closing the chapter on this house.
0:20:36 > 0:20:39This is the place where I resorted to drugs,
0:20:39 > 0:20:41and so that will always remind me of that.
0:20:43 > 0:20:45The problem is, I struggle to get up.
0:20:45 > 0:20:48I have no motivation, and that drug would get me up,
0:20:48 > 0:20:50and I'd get a bit of work done on the house,
0:20:50 > 0:20:54and I'd do some things, and that's where I'm at.
0:20:54 > 0:20:56I might have kicked the day-to-day habit,
0:20:56 > 0:20:58but I'm not free of that drug.
0:20:58 > 0:21:00I do not have control of the addiction. I know I don't.
0:21:11 > 0:21:15Where the hell are you buying that kind of drug in an area like this?
0:21:15 > 0:21:16I mean, are you buying it here?
0:21:16 > 0:21:20Or are you travelling out for hours to try and find it somewhere else?
0:21:20 > 0:21:23Mate, this drug does not discriminate. I could buy it here.
0:21:24 > 0:21:27I could buy it...suburb next door.
0:21:27 > 0:21:31Or we could travel to areas that are not nice places and buy it.
0:21:31 > 0:21:32It does not discriminate.
0:21:34 > 0:21:37'What Brett's told me today has scared me,'
0:21:37 > 0:21:40because at the age of 23, 24, he and I were no different.
0:21:42 > 0:21:44'He did a hell of a lot for himself for quite a young age.'
0:21:46 > 0:21:49And he hadn't touched drugs up until that point.
0:21:49 > 0:21:51And then he made a decision,
0:21:51 > 0:21:56and the rest of his life has gone in a completely different direction.
0:22:04 > 0:22:07The number of regular ice users in Melbourne
0:22:07 > 0:22:08has doubled in the past year.
0:22:11 > 0:22:16There are now 80,000 addicts across the state of Victoria.
0:22:17 > 0:22:18Hey, dude, you all right?
0:22:18 > 0:22:22I'm OK, I guess.
0:22:22 > 0:22:23'It's rehab day.'
0:22:24 > 0:22:26Last night, when I left you,
0:22:26 > 0:22:29it felt like there was a good chance that you might have used again.
0:22:29 > 0:22:31- Did you?- I came straight home.
0:22:31 > 0:22:34So why didn't you fall into the trap of using again last night?
0:22:39 > 0:22:41Yeah.
0:22:41 > 0:22:46'Separated from her kids for 90 days - Sharni's having second thoughts.'
0:22:46 > 0:22:48Oh, my God.
0:22:48 > 0:22:51Cherie, how long have we got before we have to leave?
0:22:51 > 0:22:53I don't want to go to rehab right now.
0:22:53 > 0:22:54It's nearly time to go, isn't it?
0:22:54 > 0:22:57Why the fuck is no-one listening to me?
0:22:57 > 0:22:59I said I don't want to fucking go.
0:22:59 > 0:23:02- You're going.- I'm not ready to fucking go, like, right now. What?
0:23:02 > 0:23:05I don't want this to be filmed, because I'm in a shit mood.
0:23:05 > 0:23:07She's changing her mind about going?
0:23:10 > 0:23:12You don't mean that, do you?
0:23:15 > 0:23:17I'm going to get a fucking iced coffee,
0:23:17 > 0:23:19and no-one's going to stop me from doing that.
0:23:19 > 0:23:21- Listen. - I'm not fucking in rehab right now.
0:23:21 > 0:23:26So last night, was there a reason that the using didn't happen?
0:23:29 > 0:23:33Well, it did, but we really mucked up that night,
0:23:33 > 0:23:34to be honest.
0:23:34 > 0:23:35Just you?
0:23:35 > 0:23:37No.
0:23:39 > 0:23:41Pardon?
0:23:42 > 0:23:45- And did you have it or did she or did both of you?- Both.
0:24:10 > 0:24:12OK?
0:24:12 > 0:24:15No.
0:24:15 > 0:24:16Looks pretty, though.
0:24:17 > 0:24:19Yeah. Beautiful.
0:24:27 > 0:24:31I don't know how I feel. I'm fucking just really... I feel sick.
0:24:33 > 0:24:37I feel like I just want to get out of the car and just stop.
0:24:39 > 0:24:41- All right, go on. - Let's get some air.
0:24:47 > 0:24:49You take as long as you need.
0:24:51 > 0:24:53- Ready?- Yeah.
0:24:56 > 0:24:58SHE SOBS
0:25:05 > 0:25:07It's OK, Sharni.
0:25:07 > 0:25:09This is it.
0:25:09 > 0:25:10'The reality of rehab.
0:25:12 > 0:25:17'Three months away. No family, and no drugs.'
0:25:18 > 0:25:20Fuck's sake.
0:25:20 > 0:25:23Steadily, Sharni's crutches are falling away one by one.
0:25:23 > 0:25:27First it was Dylan this morning, and then it was the pipe.
0:25:27 > 0:25:29Next it will be her family.
0:25:29 > 0:25:33It's going to get very difficult and very real quite quickly, I think.
0:25:35 > 0:25:39- Now she's not coming out.- Why is she in the car?- Not coming out.
0:25:39 > 0:25:40- What? She wants to go home?- Mm-hm.
0:25:40 > 0:25:44I'm almost inclined to say let's just leave her, and I'm sure
0:25:44 > 0:25:48they'll know how to manage this better than we ever could.
0:25:48 > 0:25:49Do you want to head inside?
0:25:49 > 0:25:53- You want to go to the car, right? - Yep. I don't know what to do.
0:25:53 > 0:25:55- I think we should head inside. - All right.
0:26:08 > 0:26:11I just want to be with her, and I just want to stay,
0:26:11 > 0:26:12but I know I can't.
0:26:14 > 0:26:15Yeah.
0:26:18 > 0:26:21- She's where she's supposed to be. - Yeah, I know. I know.
0:26:21 > 0:26:24- I'm just being selfish. - No, you're not.
0:26:24 > 0:26:26You're just doing what you've always done,
0:26:26 > 0:26:28and that is trying to be there for her.
0:26:28 > 0:26:29- That's it.- Mm-hm.
0:26:30 > 0:26:31She's getting her out.
0:26:42 > 0:26:43- You'll be fine.- OK.
0:26:44 > 0:26:47Come on, let's go and say hello to the community.
0:26:49 > 0:26:50You've done amazing today.
0:26:50 > 0:26:54All right, the longer you stay here the worse it's going to be for you. You should go.
0:27:00 > 0:27:03My first psychosis. I was in the shower and I...
0:27:03 > 0:27:06I saw this big, scary... Like a demon.
0:27:06 > 0:27:09I kept looking and it was coming closer.
0:27:09 > 0:27:13It had claws and all, man. I fucking ran out the bathroom screaming.
0:27:13 > 0:27:15No clothes on.
0:27:15 > 0:27:18And then obviously after seeing that, I'm like...
0:27:18 > 0:27:21"I'm obviously in some sort of psychosis."
0:27:21 > 0:27:23You know, what you're describing is...
0:27:23 > 0:27:27About 60% of people who use ice develop some sort
0:27:27 > 0:27:29of psychotic experience.
0:27:29 > 0:27:32Ice is very bad for your brain. It's actually toxic for your brain.
0:27:32 > 0:27:35People can develop a permanent psychosis.
0:27:37 > 0:27:39I've been told every time, but I still do it.
0:27:39 > 0:27:41Yeah, I know. I know. I understand.
0:27:41 > 0:27:44Of course you do, because it doesn't matter what people tell us.
0:27:44 > 0:27:48Even if we can have a psychosis, or you've got children that you love,
0:27:48 > 0:27:51that's not enough to stop using drugs.
0:27:51 > 0:27:52No, it's not.
0:27:52 > 0:27:57As someone who's never taken a drug, let alone been addicted to anything,
0:27:57 > 0:28:00I really am struggling to understand addiction.
0:28:00 > 0:28:03What I'm thinking as I listen to you ask that question, Reggie,
0:28:03 > 0:28:08is about trying to think about being in love with someone
0:28:08 > 0:28:10who's really no good for you.
0:28:10 > 0:28:11But you love them.
0:28:11 > 0:28:15You love them, and every time they hold you, it's beautiful.
0:28:15 > 0:28:17You feel safe and you feel fantastic, and you feel...
0:28:17 > 0:28:20You know, different drugs all have different effects.
0:28:20 > 0:28:23A heroin addict's just going to feel warm and safe and relaxed,
0:28:23 > 0:28:27whereas an ice addict might feel euphoric, but whatever the drug,
0:28:27 > 0:28:31it gives the individual that feeling of fulfilment.
0:28:31 > 0:28:34But when we've been hurt when we're very young,
0:28:34 > 0:28:37where our capacity to experience love or to trust people
0:28:37 > 0:28:41in our lives is broken, then a drug can be very reliable.
0:28:45 > 0:28:48- Police search warrant! - Police search warrant!
0:28:50 > 0:28:53- NEWS PRESENTER:- Police swooped in in early morning raids.
0:28:53 > 0:28:56Detectives say they've dismantled a major organised drug syndicate.
0:28:58 > 0:29:01The syndicate was responsible for flooding the area with ice.
0:29:03 > 0:29:06More ice is on the streets of Melbourne than ever before.
0:29:08 > 0:29:12Over the past four years, driving under the influence of drugs
0:29:12 > 0:29:16has caused more fatalities than alcohol.
0:29:16 > 0:29:18Have you done a drug test before?
0:29:18 > 0:29:21No? We're testing for methamphetamines.
0:29:22 > 0:29:27The state government of Victoria are spending 17 million
0:29:27 > 0:29:30on testing 100,000 drivers this year.
0:29:30 > 0:29:32- You're deciding who to flag down, right?- Yes.
0:29:32 > 0:29:34Based on what?
0:29:34 > 0:29:36Generally, the cars are not well-maintained,
0:29:36 > 0:29:40but in saying that, you're still getting businesspeople.
0:29:40 > 0:29:43There's a lot out there that you don't quite realise.
0:29:44 > 0:29:47One in every 17 drivers randomly stopped
0:29:47 > 0:29:49are testing positive for ice.
0:29:50 > 0:29:53Random drug testing tonight.
0:29:53 > 0:29:56Swipe these bits, just down your tongue a couple of times.
0:29:57 > 0:29:58Yep. One more time. Perfect.
0:30:03 > 0:30:06Your oral fluid contains a prescribed illicit drug.
0:30:06 > 0:30:08I now require you to accompany me to the testing vehicle,
0:30:08 > 0:30:10which is the bus over there.
0:30:12 > 0:30:15The police have found traces of ice in his system.
0:30:15 > 0:30:21He'll lose his licence, and faces a fine of up to £1,500.
0:30:35 > 0:30:39It's hard to tell whether that helicopter is news or police,
0:30:39 > 0:30:42but it's definitely over Gatwick House,
0:30:42 > 0:30:44and staying in the area as well.
0:30:56 > 0:30:59What did you say, buddy? DOOR SLAMS
0:30:59 > 0:31:01RESIDENT MUMBLES
0:31:01 > 0:31:03I could be completely wrong,
0:31:03 > 0:31:07but it feels like the mood in here has completely changed.
0:31:14 > 0:31:16'The police have arrived.
0:31:16 > 0:31:18'They're looking for the murder suspect.'
0:31:20 > 0:31:22The police have just come in with a news team.
0:31:22 > 0:31:25- Do you know what's happening? - With a news team?- Yeah.
0:31:26 > 0:31:29- I'll have to go and check.- OK.
0:31:29 > 0:31:33'Reportedly last seen in the building, on the run for three days.'
0:31:36 > 0:31:38Now the police are here on this floor.
0:31:38 > 0:31:41There's blood on the wall.
0:31:41 > 0:31:43It's still red. It's fresh.
0:31:45 > 0:31:46Yeah, we're from the UK.
0:31:50 > 0:31:52Oh, mate.
0:31:53 > 0:31:55I think they might be putting him in the car.
0:32:08 > 0:32:10They've definitely got him.
0:32:13 > 0:32:18I can't believe there's literally an axe murderer
0:32:18 > 0:32:19in this building.
0:32:20 > 0:32:23'The suspect is an ice addict,
0:32:23 > 0:32:25'with a history of drug-related charges.'
0:32:34 > 0:32:38Just a few miles and a world away from Gatwick House,
0:32:38 > 0:32:41Brett has decided to check into rehab, in the city of Geelong.
0:32:43 > 0:32:46Last time I was in Geelong I was racing in the Australian Titles.
0:32:46 > 0:32:48- Really?- Yep.
0:32:48 > 0:32:49I was happy.
0:32:49 > 0:32:52I was in a really good place last time I was coming out here to race.
0:32:52 > 0:32:55In three months' time, you might be the happiest you've ever been.
0:32:55 > 0:32:56I hope so.
0:33:01 > 0:33:04"I will not bring any drugs or paraphernalia onto the premises,
0:33:04 > 0:33:07"nor will I be under the influence of any narcotic.
0:33:07 > 0:33:12"To permit a search of all belongings prior to entry and upon any re-entry."
0:33:12 > 0:33:14So this is the contraband I pulled out.
0:33:14 > 0:33:18- So it's things like iPad, your hard drive...- And no cologne.
0:33:18 > 0:33:22- No cologne, yeah.- No cologne. - Alcohol content is high.- Wow!
0:33:25 > 0:33:28"I will comply with medical exams as required.
0:33:29 > 0:33:32"I will adhere to all curfew lights-out."
0:33:32 > 0:33:33All right, this is you, man.
0:33:33 > 0:33:36- How often do you find people withdraw just to their rooms? - Quite often.
0:33:36 > 0:33:39But the guys will try to pull you out, because it's all about
0:33:39 > 0:33:41the therapeutic community, and talking to each other.
0:33:41 > 0:33:44"It is my responsibility to attend all counselling sessions,
0:33:44 > 0:33:47"and to comply with all aspects of the programme."
0:33:47 > 0:33:49- What's your poison?- Ice.
0:33:49 > 0:33:51Oh, I see. Like most of us, I think.
0:33:51 > 0:33:54BRETT LAUGHS Just out of interest, who's come here because of ice?
0:33:57 > 0:33:58That's a lot of you.
0:33:58 > 0:34:01What is it about ice that has affected so many of you?
0:34:02 > 0:34:04It just... It really takes you.
0:34:04 > 0:34:06Everyone has different stories, yeah.
0:34:06 > 0:34:08It all comes down to the same thing.
0:34:08 > 0:34:10We just want to get out of ourselves.
0:34:10 > 0:34:13If we feel uncomfortable with anxiety or depression,
0:34:13 > 0:34:15we don't want to feel these feelings.
0:34:15 > 0:34:18And is that why ice is such a popular drug, do you think,
0:34:18 > 0:34:20because it nullifies your emotions?
0:34:20 > 0:34:23Yeah. It just pushes all those emotions and feelings to the back
0:34:23 > 0:34:26of your head, but then once you actually become clean,
0:34:26 > 0:34:29they come rushing forward twice as hard.
0:34:39 > 0:34:40When you're on ice?
0:34:56 > 0:34:59Are you prepared to deal with some of your deepest and darkest...
0:34:59 > 0:35:01Um...
0:35:01 > 0:35:03To uncover what it is that you've been running from?
0:35:03 > 0:35:04Are you ready to do that?
0:35:04 > 0:35:06I don't know what I'm ready for at the minute.
0:35:06 > 0:35:07I really don't know.
0:35:07 > 0:35:10- Nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you, too.- A pleasure.
0:35:10 > 0:35:12Much appreciated, thank you.
0:35:12 > 0:35:15'A standard treatment is three months.
0:35:15 > 0:35:20'Detox for the first ten days, before therapy and counselling begins.
0:35:20 > 0:35:22'Denial is often the biggest problem.'
0:35:24 > 0:35:28You're clearly trying to find the right way to deal with this.
0:35:28 > 0:35:32All these guys are here just purely to have gotten off the drug.
0:35:33 > 0:35:35And I've gotten off the drug myself.
0:35:35 > 0:35:39That part of it's out of the way, so...maybe I'm already at
0:35:39 > 0:35:41my 90 days, and a bit of that's going through my head.
0:35:41 > 0:35:43Do you think you shouldn't be here?
0:35:43 > 0:35:44No, I don't.
0:35:44 > 0:35:48I know I need to be here in the sense to what my problem was.
0:35:48 > 0:35:50- I'm just hesitant in...- "Was"?
0:35:51 > 0:35:53Why would you describe it as past tense?
0:35:54 > 0:35:56I'm not sure.
0:36:02 > 0:36:03I'm leaving Brett on his first night,
0:36:03 > 0:36:06and I'm honestly a bit concerned about him,
0:36:06 > 0:36:10because he has pretty much decided that he doesn't need to be there,
0:36:10 > 0:36:14to the extent of some of these other men, and 90 days is a hell of a long time
0:36:14 > 0:36:17when you're sure that you shouldn't be there for ten.
0:36:18 > 0:36:21For a week.
0:36:21 > 0:36:23I just don't know if he's going to last.
0:36:41 > 0:36:46'It's been a week, and Sharni's detox is almost over.'
0:36:46 > 0:36:47How're you doing, Sharni?
0:36:47 > 0:36:49I'm good. How are you?
0:36:49 > 0:36:51One of these. How are you doing, love? Are you all right?
0:36:51 > 0:36:53- I'm good.- Hello. How's new girl getting on?
0:36:53 > 0:36:56- Missing her babies, of course.- Yeah.
0:36:56 > 0:36:57But she's doing real well.
0:36:57 > 0:36:59Well, the first week is all about detox, right?
0:36:59 > 0:37:03How have you felt coming off of what you took before you came in?
0:37:03 > 0:37:08I slept through it, so I didn't really feel coming off it,
0:37:08 > 0:37:11but for the first time, I feel like a weight lifted off my shoulders,
0:37:11 > 0:37:13because I'm not looking for my next hit,
0:37:13 > 0:37:16and I'm starting to now feel that missing piece of me,
0:37:16 > 0:37:18which is my children, which I didn't feel,
0:37:18 > 0:37:23because I numbed that using ice, and I'm starting to feel guilty.
0:37:23 > 0:37:25I grew up with addiction,
0:37:25 > 0:37:29and I feel as if I was doing exactly what I grew up with.
0:37:29 > 0:37:31It's everything I'm against.
0:37:31 > 0:37:36Then where does that leave you, when you think about Cherie?
0:37:36 > 0:37:38Because she's tried so hard to help you.
0:37:38 > 0:37:41She's done everything that she can to help you, and it was
0:37:41 > 0:37:46really difficult to see her leave, and, you know, she just had to walk away.
0:37:46 > 0:37:48How do you feel about your relationship with her?
0:37:48 > 0:37:50Without my auntie I wouldn't be here,
0:37:50 > 0:37:53and my children would be suffering just like I suffered as a child.
0:37:54 > 0:37:58That's all I aspire to be in life, is half the mother she is.
0:37:58 > 0:38:03She is the best person I will ever meet.
0:38:03 > 0:38:05Wow. I'm sure she'd love to hear you say that.
0:38:08 > 0:38:10Do you know that Reggie has never had a cigarette?
0:38:10 > 0:38:13He's never tried a drug. He's never had a drink.
0:38:13 > 0:38:15- Never done any of that. - That is awesome.
0:38:15 > 0:38:18- It's weird.- I commend you. - It's weird, but it's cool. - I commend you.
0:38:20 > 0:38:24No, because I've always felt that it's a choice.
0:38:24 > 0:38:28I genuinely came to the table believing that,
0:38:28 > 0:38:30that you can say yes or no and that's it.
0:38:30 > 0:38:32But in talking to lots of different people,
0:38:32 > 0:38:35it feels as though trauma plays a huge part.
0:38:35 > 0:38:37That's a massive part of our recovery.
0:38:37 > 0:38:41It's getting down to those core reasons why we ultimately...
0:38:41 > 0:38:42You disagree.
0:38:42 > 0:38:47I don't disagree. I agree. But my problem was, I was a party animal.
0:38:47 > 0:38:50I didn't have trauma. I just loved to have fun.
0:38:50 > 0:38:52So I definitely agree,
0:38:52 > 0:38:56but I think 80% is something that has shaped somebody's life
0:38:56 > 0:39:00in some way, but then I think 20% is a stupid choice.
0:39:01 > 0:39:03- Where's your room? - My room's down here.
0:39:06 > 0:39:08This is what Dylan gave me before I came in.
0:39:08 > 0:39:09Nice.
0:39:09 > 0:39:11- So I sleep with it every night. - You're doing really well.
0:39:11 > 0:39:13Believe it or not, you've been a motivation.
0:39:13 > 0:39:16I've never met anybody that's never used anything before.
0:39:16 > 0:39:19And you should be really proud of yourself.
0:39:20 > 0:39:22You should be proud of yourself.
0:39:31 > 0:39:35Some people might say I'm a control freak because I live my life
0:39:35 > 0:39:38a certain way, and because I like things done a certain way,
0:39:38 > 0:39:42and my house is always a certain way. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
0:39:42 > 0:39:45No. Me not wanting to take drugs isn't about
0:39:45 > 0:39:48me being scared of losing control.
0:39:49 > 0:39:52It's actually about something very different.
0:39:52 > 0:39:55I started in television when I was eight years old.
0:39:57 > 0:39:59So before I was even in secondary school,
0:39:59 > 0:40:03I was being told by my mother that I have more to lose than my mates.
0:40:04 > 0:40:06So, you know,
0:40:06 > 0:40:11I didn't want it to become the thing that prevented me from my dream...
0:40:12 > 0:40:14..which, 25 years later, is this.
0:40:18 > 0:40:23So I've always had that niggling voice in the back of my head,
0:40:23 > 0:40:25and I'm really happy I've had it.
0:40:30 > 0:40:33Ice-related crimes have doubled in Melbourne in the past year...
0:40:35 > 0:40:37'..many committed by young addicts who have lost control
0:40:37 > 0:40:40'of their lives.'
0:40:41 > 0:40:44So has there been a change in what you've seen on the streets
0:40:44 > 0:40:46since ice became such a popular drug?
0:40:46 > 0:40:48We've seen an increase with the...
0:40:48 > 0:40:51I suppose, the crime associated with that.
0:40:51 > 0:40:52At some times violent crime,
0:40:52 > 0:40:56because of the way the drug makes them behave,
0:40:56 > 0:40:59or because they want to fund their habit.
0:40:59 > 0:41:02- You just don't know what you're going to get.- No.
0:41:04 > 0:41:06'Just five minutes into another shift with the police,
0:41:06 > 0:41:09'and a call comes in.'
0:41:09 > 0:41:11It appears as though the vehicle is listed as being stolen.
0:41:11 > 0:41:13Whether it is stolen or not, we will find out.
0:41:13 > 0:41:16Which car is it? Is it the white one?
0:41:16 > 0:41:17Yeah, that's him there.
0:41:17 > 0:41:20I'll just get you to hang fire in the car for a minute.
0:41:20 > 0:41:23I'll give you a nod if you can come out.
0:41:24 > 0:41:25Phone off, buddy, now.
0:41:26 > 0:41:28Mate, you just sit over there for me.
0:41:33 > 0:41:36No way. That's Lam from Gatwick House.
0:41:38 > 0:41:40So just sit there.
0:41:44 > 0:41:46So what brings you to this area?
0:41:47 > 0:41:49- Going for a drive. - Going for a drive?- Yeah.
0:41:49 > 0:41:51Who does this car belong to? Do you know?
0:41:51 > 0:41:52- One of these guys.- Which one?
0:41:52 > 0:41:54I don't know.
0:41:54 > 0:41:56OK. Because this car's coming up like a stolen vehicle.
0:41:56 > 0:41:58WOMAN SHOUTS
0:42:00 > 0:42:02- Are you using at the moment?- Yeah.
0:42:02 > 0:42:05- What are you using? - Ice, heroin, marijuana.
0:42:05 > 0:42:07- Are you working at the moment? - No.- No?
0:42:07 > 0:42:09So where are you getting your money?
0:42:09 > 0:42:11From friends.
0:42:11 > 0:42:15- You're not running around stealing stuff to finance your drug habit? - No.
0:42:15 > 0:42:17Stand up for us, and we'll have a quick search.
0:42:17 > 0:42:18You've got no sharps on you?
0:42:18 > 0:42:20- No.- Why are you so jittery? You're shaking.
0:42:20 > 0:42:22- Am I?- Yeah.
0:42:22 > 0:42:23Your arms are uncontrolled.
0:42:23 > 0:42:25- Oh, OK.- What are you so nervous about?- Nothing.
0:42:25 > 0:42:28- Come and grab a seat here in the gutter for us.- Yeah.
0:42:35 > 0:42:37How are you doing, man?
0:42:38 > 0:42:40I didn't think I'd see you again here
0:42:40 > 0:42:41in this situation.
0:42:43 > 0:42:45So how do you know these guys?
0:42:45 > 0:42:47Friends from the Gatwick.
0:42:48 > 0:42:51Do you think that the Gatwick is the right place for you,
0:42:51 > 0:42:54considering that your friends have brought you here?
0:42:54 > 0:42:57It's very family-orientated there.
0:42:58 > 0:43:01Pretty much everyone's pretty much family to me, there.
0:43:03 > 0:43:06You still seem just as happy as you've always been.
0:43:06 > 0:43:09I'm always very much happy, yeah.
0:43:09 > 0:43:10Why is that?
0:43:10 > 0:43:12Maybe I love life.
0:43:13 > 0:43:15OK.
0:43:15 > 0:43:17- Well, look after yourself. - No worries, Reggie.
0:43:17 > 0:43:19Take care. See you, buddy.
0:43:28 > 0:43:30POLICEMAN READS CAUTION
0:43:39 > 0:43:40How did you meet up with these guys?
0:43:47 > 0:43:51- All those power tools indicate, I'd say, burglaries, or theft from other cars.- Yep.
0:43:51 > 0:43:52WOMAN SHOUTS
0:43:52 > 0:43:55And how often are you seeing this, then? Ice-related crime?
0:43:55 > 0:43:57Every day. Like, every day.
0:43:57 > 0:44:00Drug addicts will steal to support their habit.
0:44:00 > 0:44:01So it's a cycle.
0:44:06 > 0:44:09They're all going to jail now, because that car's stolen.
0:44:09 > 0:44:13It seems like crimes are being committed because of this drug.
0:44:15 > 0:44:18Well, it doesn't "seem like". It's a fact.
0:44:20 > 0:44:21It's what's happening.
0:44:27 > 0:44:32It's my last day in Melbourne. So, is Brett still in rehab?
0:44:34 > 0:44:37There seems to be quite a few empty rooms at the minute.
0:44:37 > 0:44:39- Here's Brett.- Hello?
0:44:39 > 0:44:40Hello.
0:44:40 > 0:44:42How are you?
0:44:42 > 0:44:44I actually, being really honest,
0:44:44 > 0:44:45didn't think I'd find you here today.
0:44:45 > 0:44:47- Really?- Yeah. - Really?
0:44:47 > 0:44:51You seemed pretty much adamant that this wasn't where you needed to be.
0:44:51 > 0:44:52- Yep.- Has that changed now? - Yeah.
0:44:52 > 0:44:55You know, a big part of coming in here, as we spoke about,
0:44:55 > 0:44:58was finding out what I was running away from.
0:44:58 > 0:45:00- Do you feel closer to that now? - 100%.
0:45:00 > 0:45:02- Yeah.- I'm sorry. I'm interested.
0:45:02 > 0:45:06What do you think it is that you've discovered in just the three days?
0:45:06 > 0:45:08Everything in life, I'd just been trying to ach...
0:45:08 > 0:45:11Nothing was enough. It didn't matter what race,
0:45:11 > 0:45:13it didn't matter what achievement, nothing was enough.
0:45:13 > 0:45:16Why is that insecurity within me, to have not...
0:45:16 > 0:45:18Why was it never quite enough?
0:45:18 > 0:45:20I mean, it's amazing that you feel as strongly as you do
0:45:20 > 0:45:24after three days, cos it is really the beginning of your journey.
0:45:26 > 0:45:28- All right, guys, take care. - Fair play.
0:45:28 > 0:45:31- Stay to the end, please. - Yeah, I will.
0:45:45 > 0:45:46- Hello.- Hello, how're you doing?
0:45:46 > 0:45:48- Hello.- How're you doing?
0:45:48 > 0:45:50- I'm good.- You look lovely. What are you up to?
0:45:50 > 0:45:52I'm doing some colouring-in.
0:45:52 > 0:45:54I'm getting in touch with my creative side.
0:45:54 > 0:45:56- It looks quite therapeutic, though.- It is.
0:45:56 > 0:45:59- It's because you're thinking about nothing.- Quite calming, right?
0:45:59 > 0:46:02You're thinking about what colour you're going to use next.
0:46:03 > 0:46:06- So I'm really excited. - Yeah?- Yeah.- That's good.
0:46:06 > 0:46:08It's visiting day for Sharni.
0:46:10 > 0:46:13In nine days, for you to turn around this much
0:46:13 > 0:46:15really makes me excited about what might happen.
0:46:16 > 0:46:17Go on.
0:46:24 > 0:46:26THEY LAUGH
0:46:36 > 0:46:40- Look at how happy she is. - I've never, ever heard her say a bad word against that woman.
0:46:40 > 0:46:42I don't think there's anything bad to say about that woman.
0:46:42 > 0:46:45Just that she's the best. "I can't wait for you to meet her.
0:46:45 > 0:46:46"Oh, my God."
0:46:49 > 0:46:52Looks like someone saw Christmas morning when they saw you.
0:46:52 > 0:46:54- How are you doing?- Good, thanks. - You all right?- Good, yes.
0:46:54 > 0:46:56- This is my beautiful auntie.- Hello.
0:46:58 > 0:47:00- Well done.- Thank you so much for everything.- Really proud of you.
0:47:00 > 0:47:02Well done. Come on, now. Well done.
0:47:09 > 0:47:11MUSIC DROWNS OUT SPEECH
0:47:12 > 0:47:15It's been a pleasure, all right? Stay in touch.
0:47:15 > 0:47:17- Bye.- Bye-bye.
0:47:25 > 0:47:28I've heard addiction doesn't discriminate,
0:47:28 > 0:47:33but to actually see people like Brett, like Sharni,
0:47:33 > 0:47:37right the way through to the guys at Gatwick House,
0:47:37 > 0:47:41all suffering from addiction to the same drug...
0:47:43 > 0:47:45I don't know, it opens up the idea that this drug,
0:47:45 > 0:47:49or addiction full stop, can land in anybody's lap.