0:00:02 > 0:00:04This programme contains very strong language.
0:00:04 > 0:00:06Drugs are changing.
0:00:06 > 0:00:10The old generation of party drugs, ecstasy and cocaine, are out,
0:00:10 > 0:00:14and mephedrone, ketamine and GHB are in.
0:00:14 > 0:00:17Mephedrone, it's the Devil's dandruff, I call it.
0:00:17 > 0:00:19These new party drugs are cheap.
0:00:19 > 0:00:22Does that cost me a tenner and does it get me hammered?
0:00:22 > 0:00:24Yeah. Oh, yeah, whack that up your nose.
0:00:24 > 0:00:26Some of them have only just been banned.
0:00:26 > 0:00:29I think people saw it as because it's legal,
0:00:29 > 0:00:30it's all right for ya.
0:00:30 > 0:00:33And they're fuelling nights out for millions of us.
0:00:33 > 0:00:35Literally, it goes on for days and days.
0:00:39 > 0:00:44For the biggest party weekend of the year, Halloween and Bonfire Night,
0:00:44 > 0:00:47three young people in Leeds have let us into their lives.
0:00:47 > 0:00:51Your body's rushing, you're just rushed, you feel ace.
0:00:51 > 0:00:55When you take something, like, your life goes in HD all of a sudden.
0:00:55 > 0:00:59Mainly it was MCat. I'm going to stay awake for quite a few hours.
0:00:59 > 0:01:02We'll follow them from the dance floor to the morning after.
0:01:02 > 0:01:05Hey, no biting, that's not in the rules.
0:01:05 > 0:01:09He's an habitual user of GHB, MCat and cocaine.
0:01:09 > 0:01:12And find out what happens to those who are still going
0:01:12 > 0:01:14when the party's over.
0:01:16 > 0:01:20There's two sides to Holly and one of it's a party animal
0:01:20 > 0:01:23and one of it's, to me, a real person,
0:01:23 > 0:01:26and it's a struggle between which one's going to win.
0:01:49 > 0:01:51- Hello!- Hello, how are you?
0:01:51 > 0:01:54I'm all right. How are you?
0:01:54 > 0:01:57- Kettle's on.- Ah, brilliant. - I remember you.
0:01:57 > 0:02:01Holly is 23 and lives around the corner from her dad John
0:02:01 > 0:02:02and step-mum Alison.
0:02:02 > 0:02:07You want a drink? Horlicks? Hot chocolate? Tea?
0:02:07 > 0:02:10- Um, I'd love a cup of tea, please. - Cup of tea. Cup of tea.- Cuppa tea.
0:02:10 > 0:02:13Holly recently delivered some shocking news.
0:02:13 > 0:02:17I think it was about six or seven months ago that my dad and Alison
0:02:17 > 0:02:18found out I were taking MCat.
0:02:18 > 0:02:23As soon as I told 'em, it were like Alison burst into tears.
0:02:23 > 0:02:25It were awful to see.
0:02:25 > 0:02:28She rang her dad one morning and she was in a really, really bad way,
0:02:28 > 0:02:32and we drove all round the village over the hill, trying to find out
0:02:32 > 0:02:35where she was cos she didn't really know, and we found her
0:02:35 > 0:02:37and she just looked disgusting, and she was exhausted
0:02:37 > 0:02:40and very, very emotional and she just, that was when she said
0:02:40 > 0:02:44"Look, I've been taking everything, every kind of drug there is,
0:02:44 > 0:02:46"for over a year now."
0:02:46 > 0:02:50Cos you know, I've been doing some research again, it's called...
0:02:50 > 0:02:52Oh, my God!
0:02:52 > 0:02:54Of all the drugs she was taking,
0:02:54 > 0:02:56it was a new party drug called Mephedrone,
0:02:56 > 0:02:59also known as Meow Meow or MCat, that took hold.
0:02:59 > 0:03:02I realised I had a problem with MCat when I started getting ill
0:03:02 > 0:03:05all the time, and I were massively underweight.
0:03:05 > 0:03:10I were doing phew, like seven to nine grams a day.
0:03:10 > 0:03:15Um, I were a mess, I were, I were a proper mess.
0:03:15 > 0:03:20I've spent 23 years bringing this person up and some little toerag
0:03:20 > 0:03:25gives her something that she can become addicted to.
0:03:25 > 0:03:27Alters her mind, alters her personality,
0:03:27 > 0:03:31she's lost all her motivation, all her creativity.
0:03:31 > 0:03:36She just wants to lie around and smoke and drink and take drugs.
0:03:39 > 0:03:43You know it's funny. I feel like I've lost some of my mates through this.
0:03:43 > 0:03:48Six months ago, Alison persuaded Holly that she needed to get help.
0:03:48 > 0:03:51She took me to the doctor's and I even went to the doctor's wired
0:03:51 > 0:03:53and he's like, "When were last time you took something?"
0:03:53 > 0:03:57I were like, "About two hours ago," and then I thought actually
0:03:57 > 0:03:59this is getting stupid, like I need to knock this on the head.
0:03:59 > 0:04:02I know what I'll do, I'll draw it on with a knife.
0:04:02 > 0:04:07Since deciding to give up MCat, this is the longest Holly's been clean.
0:04:07 > 0:04:10This is probably the first two weeks in months
0:04:10 > 0:04:14that I've not touched it, and just having that two week break,
0:04:14 > 0:04:18I couldn't think of anything worse than doing it.
0:04:18 > 0:04:21I mean, like, when I did go out I was craving it by the end of the night
0:04:21 > 0:04:25cos I was getting tired, but I thought, no, I don't really need it.
0:04:25 > 0:04:29That's not bad for a first attempt.
0:04:30 > 0:04:33But with one of the biggest party weekends of the year
0:04:33 > 0:04:36ahead of her, will she be able to stay off MCat?
0:04:44 > 0:04:4718-year-old Arthur has only just arrived in Leeds to study film,
0:04:47 > 0:04:51but he already prides himself on his knowledge of drugs.
0:04:57 > 0:05:00Taking a drug is like changing a lens on a camera.
0:05:00 > 0:05:02It changes the way you see the world,
0:05:02 > 0:05:05it just gives you a different perspective.
0:05:08 > 0:05:12Ecstasy would give the world a very rosy lens, you know,
0:05:12 > 0:05:15it's a warm and fuzzy lens.
0:05:15 > 0:05:19It is a bit like having a really nice cup of tea in the morning,
0:05:19 > 0:05:24and maybe a spliff, and timesing that by about 50.
0:05:34 > 0:05:37Um, MCat does not have that general feeling around, of wellbeing.
0:05:42 > 0:05:45It gives it a kind of excitement, it makes you kind of almost on a mission
0:05:45 > 0:05:48to do something, you know, you often find yourself on a mission
0:05:48 > 0:05:51to go and you know, sing a song with your mate or something like that.
0:05:51 > 0:05:57So, like, you just end up doing stupid shit all night, it's good fun.
0:05:57 > 0:06:00But things like acid is... it's a powerful experience.
0:06:00 > 0:06:04It's a tribal kind of shamanic experience,
0:06:04 > 0:06:07which just completely breaks up your perception of the world
0:06:07 > 0:06:11and completely changes the way you see things for 12 hours,
0:06:11 > 0:06:14and then you'll never see things again the same.
0:06:14 > 0:06:16Ketamine is fun.
0:06:16 > 0:06:18It's not to be taken with anything else.
0:06:20 > 0:06:24It kind of gives you a bit of a David Lynch lens. I suppose.
0:06:24 > 0:06:29Um, a kind of a weird kind of strange world that you go into.
0:06:29 > 0:06:32Not sure what's wrong, but something is definitely wrong.
0:06:32 > 0:06:34But it's also extremely right.
0:06:39 > 0:06:42As someone that's interested in science, the idea that a molecule
0:06:42 > 0:06:45can change your whole perception of the world,
0:06:45 > 0:06:48which is everything to you, it changes literally your universe,
0:06:48 > 0:06:49is fascinating to me.
0:06:51 > 0:06:54But not everyone in the city experiences these new drugs
0:06:54 > 0:06:57in the same way.
0:06:57 > 0:07:01Oliver is 26 and has been taking ketamine for the last two years.
0:07:01 > 0:07:04I ain't taken none today though. None today.
0:07:05 > 0:07:09Now he's come for help to the Leeds Club Drug Clinic,
0:07:09 > 0:07:12the first specialist clinic of its kind outside London.
0:07:12 > 0:07:15Oh yeah, aye, big, big step today. Definitely.
0:07:15 > 0:07:17It's to get proper help and what I need,
0:07:17 > 0:07:21see what they can do for me really. I'll do ought to get off drugs now.
0:07:22 > 0:07:25This clinic was started in December 2011,
0:07:25 > 0:07:30mainly for people who were having problems with ketamine, mephedrone,
0:07:30 > 0:07:34GHB, legal highs and other drugs that are often associated with parties.
0:07:34 > 0:07:36- Do you want to come through?- Yeah.
0:07:36 > 0:07:39These are kind of a new wave of drugs, the kind of dance culture
0:07:39 > 0:07:43and ecstasy and things, I don't know, started in 1988 and increased,
0:07:43 > 0:07:47but it never really led to people seeking treatment for drugs,
0:07:47 > 0:07:50unless they ended up taking heroin or crack or something like that.
0:07:50 > 0:07:54But these are party drugs that people are using at parties,
0:07:54 > 0:07:56but they are leading to addiction problems
0:07:56 > 0:07:59and physical and psychological health problems.
0:07:59 > 0:08:02And obviously the main problem is ketamine, would you say?
0:08:02 > 0:08:05Yeah, yeah, main problem, definitely ketamine, yeah.
0:08:05 > 0:08:08OK. And how much would you do in one go?
0:08:08 > 0:08:10I could do a whole gram in one line if I want.
0:08:10 > 0:08:13- Right. And...- But I'm having to do that though,
0:08:13 > 0:08:16- like when I first started taking it, it were like little keys.- Yeah.
0:08:16 > 0:08:20Like that big, and then that'd get me off my face for ages.
0:08:20 > 0:08:23But now just my tolerance has become so big,
0:08:23 > 0:08:26- I'm having to do big lines like that to get me started.- Yeah.
0:08:26 > 0:08:29And then I can just top it up with a line like that then
0:08:29 > 0:08:32or like if I just, I ain't got the money for it,
0:08:32 > 0:08:34I'll just do a line and just keep on doing like that,
0:08:34 > 0:08:37- or if I've got money I'll just go stupid.- Yeah.
0:08:37 > 0:08:40And then what are the negatives for it at the moment, would you say?
0:08:40 > 0:08:43The downside is my bladder and I've got very big concerns
0:08:43 > 0:08:48about my bladder now, just weeing and uncomfortability, and sleeping.
0:08:48 > 0:08:51Yeah. What I suggest is you, over the next four weeks,
0:08:51 > 0:08:53- just try and reduce it. - Yeah, I'm going to.
0:08:53 > 0:08:56Try and look at alternative activities and things like that.
0:08:56 > 0:08:57- Yeah.- And see how far you get with that,
0:08:57 > 0:09:00and then in four weeks' time we'll see how you've got on.
0:09:00 > 0:09:02OK then. All right, thank you very much.
0:09:02 > 0:09:03Thank you for your help.
0:09:03 > 0:09:08Ketamine has only been increasingly popular over the last ten years, snorting it.
0:09:08 > 0:09:10It's been used recreationally since the 1970s,
0:09:10 > 0:09:15but we're seeing more and more people snorting increasing amounts,
0:09:15 > 0:09:19and a surprising side effect of that is bladder damage,
0:09:19 > 0:09:23which was only first described in the medical literature in 2007.
0:09:23 > 0:09:29This damage can be irreversible, often is irreversible.
0:09:29 > 0:09:33We've had young people who've needed their bladder to be removed surgically.
0:09:33 > 0:09:36What drugs are you using at the moment and how much?
0:09:36 > 0:09:38Well, MCat and ketamine and weed.
0:09:40 > 0:09:43Can vary, can vary really.
0:09:43 > 0:09:45Through't week, it's not as much.
0:09:45 > 0:09:48On a daily basis from morning, I might get up
0:09:48 > 0:09:51and have a line of MCat, bring me up a bit,
0:09:51 > 0:09:54and then I'll have a line of ket and brings me on a level
0:09:54 > 0:09:58and just have a joint and that and just mongs me out a bit,
0:09:58 > 0:10:01just chill out a bit more, and then I might get back on MCat,
0:10:01 > 0:10:04bring me up a bit, just up and down, up and down all the time,
0:10:04 > 0:10:06that's what it is.
0:10:06 > 0:10:08I had a bit of MCat this morning.
0:10:08 > 0:10:10A bit of ket afterwards.
0:10:10 > 0:10:14- And we just had a joint before we come here, didn't we?- Yeah.
0:10:14 > 0:10:18It's just got that bad now, to the stage where it's like
0:10:18 > 0:10:20my smell's going, my memory, my body,
0:10:20 > 0:10:22got to start thinking about my health,
0:10:22 > 0:10:23where do I want to be in six month?
0:10:23 > 0:10:27Going to be in six foot under, you never know, do you know what I mean?
0:10:27 > 0:10:31Just hopefully this place will actually do something for me.
0:10:31 > 0:10:33But if Oliver is to give up ketamine,
0:10:33 > 0:10:35he'll need the support of his family.
0:10:35 > 0:10:38"It's just the weaning off, coming off it, Mam," he says.
0:10:38 > 0:10:40"It's awful. You need it some days."
0:10:40 > 0:10:42Stuff on your mind, you can't cope with the stress,
0:10:42 > 0:10:46he says, "You get a bit just to forget about everything."
0:10:46 > 0:10:49He'll be all right cos he's strong and he's got a strong family
0:10:49 > 0:10:53with him as well, so he's got a lot of love.
0:10:54 > 0:10:59Drugs - nobody should touch owt like that - it's not worth it.
0:10:59 > 0:11:03Just drugs mess your head up and they mess't family's head up as well.
0:11:11 > 0:11:12This is where we have fun now.
0:11:12 > 0:11:15Kind of just slap little pictures on him.
0:11:15 > 0:11:18Um, it's been really easy to do actually, as you can tell.
0:11:18 > 0:11:20It's just complete random stuff.
0:11:20 > 0:11:25That'd look pretty cool there cos that kind of fits round that bit.
0:11:25 > 0:11:28Tony is 24 and lives in Leeds.
0:11:28 > 0:11:31He's recently quit his job in a call centre to focus on partying
0:11:31 > 0:11:34and his artwork, until his money runs out.
0:11:34 > 0:11:36I love it - it's another piece of artwork that I do.
0:11:36 > 0:11:39I spend a lot of time just sat at home doing stupid artwork
0:11:39 > 0:11:43and luckily for me, I've got a lot of friends with a lot of spare skin.
0:11:49 > 0:11:53If I do drugs I do 'em recreationally for a purpose, there's a reason behind it.
0:11:53 > 0:11:56We're all going to do different drugs or we all do the same drug,
0:11:56 > 0:11:58just to see what the kind of night it can make,
0:11:58 > 0:11:59and that's kind of what we go for.
0:11:59 > 0:12:03If it gets to a point where you wake up one day and you're like, "Mate, I need a spliff,"
0:12:03 > 0:12:05or "I need to get a gram of ket, I ain't got any today,"
0:12:05 > 0:12:09then you know you've got a problem and you're not doing it for the reason you should be,
0:12:09 > 0:12:12you're doing it to get by. Not for the sake of doing it recreationally
0:12:12 > 0:12:14like you're supposed to.
0:12:20 > 0:12:23Tony chooses different drugs for different situations.
0:12:23 > 0:12:26I absolutely love pills and ket,
0:12:26 > 0:12:29and then MDMA is still MDMazing!
0:12:29 > 0:12:32Not doing too much because obviously
0:12:32 > 0:12:34when you get on it then you get smashed.
0:12:39 > 0:12:42Tonight is the start of a four-day party session for Tony.
0:12:42 > 0:12:44To kick it off, him and his housemates
0:12:44 > 0:12:46are off to a big Halloween party.
0:12:46 > 0:12:48The night's what you make of it
0:12:48 > 0:12:52and there's no point sticking to the norm. I don't want to grow up
0:12:52 > 0:12:54and go to some stupid dinner party with some stupid wife,
0:12:54 > 0:12:57who I don't even know why I've married, do you know what I mean?
0:12:57 > 0:13:01To sit at the dinner table having two glasses of posh wine
0:13:01 > 0:13:02that tastes like arse.
0:13:02 > 0:13:05Nah, I want to go out and if I'm completely honest,
0:13:05 > 0:13:09I want to get bladdered, you know? I want to make a night of it,
0:13:09 > 0:13:12and if I can do that quite a few times in the month then absolutely.
0:13:27 > 0:13:30As part of her efforts to get her MCat habit under control,
0:13:30 > 0:13:34Holly is off to her fortnightly meeting at the Leeds Club Drug Clinic.
0:13:34 > 0:13:37I think it's just someone to talk to about it that's like,
0:13:37 > 0:13:41instead of taking the mick out of me, which my friends do.
0:13:41 > 0:13:45If I go in here, it's someone that actually takes it seriously.
0:13:45 > 0:13:48And um, kind of gives you the downfall
0:13:48 > 0:13:51and like the bad side to it and it kind of wakens you up, I suppose,
0:13:51 > 0:13:53to what it's really about.
0:13:55 > 0:13:59Mephedrone was banned in 2010, but started out as a legal high.
0:14:01 > 0:14:04When mephedrone was legal, a lot of people tried it
0:14:04 > 0:14:07who wouldn't probably have considered using cocaine,
0:14:07 > 0:14:12and that kind of opened the world of snorting drugs to them.
0:14:12 > 0:14:15Mephedrone led to a kind of new way of consuming drugs.
0:14:15 > 0:14:18It's cheap and available - it's a lot cheaper than cocaine.
0:14:18 > 0:14:19Younger people are using it
0:14:19 > 0:14:22and we've got no idea what the long-term effects might be.
0:14:28 > 0:14:31I've had a great week this week, past two weeks.
0:14:31 > 0:14:33Smashing. So what's happened?
0:14:33 > 0:14:36Um, well, it were my birthday and I've not touched a thing
0:14:36 > 0:14:39- and I've not hardly drunk either. - Brilliant.
0:14:39 > 0:14:43Um, so I feel happy with myself today.
0:14:43 > 0:14:48And so have you been having cravings or thoughts of using?
0:14:48 > 0:14:53Yeah, my birthday. It got to, it was about four o'clock
0:14:53 > 0:14:57- and I just remember starting to feel really tired.- Yeah.
0:14:57 > 0:14:59And I did start craving it, but I just thought,
0:14:59 > 0:15:02"Well none of my friends are doing it and they're still jumping about,"
0:15:02 > 0:15:07so then, literally, it were for about two minutes and that were it.
0:15:07 > 0:15:11Yeah, cos that's an important point, it's who you're hanging around with.
0:15:11 > 0:15:15Massively, because usually if ever I crave it, it's right in my face,
0:15:15 > 0:15:21and cos I didn't go out with them people, didn't bother me whatsoever.
0:15:21 > 0:15:23It sounds like things are going brilliantly at the moment.
0:15:23 > 0:15:26How are you going to keep this up? Is it going to be difficult?
0:15:26 > 0:15:28Do you know, I don't even think it'll be difficult.
0:15:28 > 0:15:30You're doing everything right.
0:15:30 > 0:15:32I feel a heck of a lot better, to be honest, I feel loads better.
0:15:32 > 0:15:36I couldn't imagine feeling how I did when I first came in.
0:15:36 > 0:15:38Yeah, yeah.
0:15:38 > 0:15:40Thank you. Cheers. I'll see you in two weeks.
0:15:40 > 0:15:45- Cheers.- All right. See ya.- Bye.
0:15:45 > 0:15:47It's strange, cos usually when I come out of there
0:15:47 > 0:15:50and I feel quite disappointed in myself and I still feel rubbish,
0:15:50 > 0:15:54but today I actually feel, for the first time in God knows how long, really good.
0:15:54 > 0:15:57Thinking about it, if I can get through Saturday,
0:15:57 > 0:16:00I know there's going to be a heck of a lot of drugs about,
0:16:00 > 0:16:03and it's going to be pretty messy.
0:16:03 > 0:16:05If I can get to Sunday and not touch a thing
0:16:05 > 0:16:09then I know that I'll be fine, but it's just getting to Sunday.
0:16:09 > 0:16:14Think about it, you're going to have a better night than just going to the pub now, aren't ya?
0:16:14 > 0:16:18Oh, what the fuck, man!
0:16:18 > 0:16:21Strike a pose!
0:16:21 > 0:16:23Tony and his friends are heading out.
0:16:23 > 0:16:26He's confident he knows what he's doing with drugs.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29You've got to know where you're getting it from, you've got to know
0:16:29 > 0:16:32your supplier, otherwise it doesn't make sense really.
0:16:32 > 0:16:33You can't get something off someone
0:16:33 > 0:16:35that you don't know what you're getting.
0:16:35 > 0:16:37If you take a drug that you know,
0:16:37 > 0:16:39and that you're using and you know your limits on it,
0:16:39 > 0:16:42it's better because you can handle it more.
0:16:42 > 0:16:46There's taxis in about 15, 20 minutes, just want to remind you.
0:16:46 > 0:16:47You all ready?
0:16:47 > 0:16:51Get intoxicated pretty soon as well, if you know what I mean.
0:16:51 > 0:16:55MUSIC: "We Found Love" by Rihanna feat. Calvin Harris
0:17:14 > 0:17:17Do you know what, I'm just going to cut it.
0:17:17 > 0:17:19I'm just going to cut it, see what happens.
0:17:19 > 0:17:22Back at her flat in Huddersfield, Holly is working on a dress.
0:17:22 > 0:17:27She graduated with a degree in fashion two years ago.
0:17:27 > 0:17:31When I first started designing t-shirts and they were going so well
0:17:31 > 0:17:33and literally, like, everyone would just...
0:17:33 > 0:17:37Even people I didn't know were getting in touch with me, asking,
0:17:37 > 0:17:40and people abroad, I were getting phone calls from Ibiza
0:17:40 > 0:17:44and Spain and just everywhere, asking me for these vests and t-shirts,
0:17:44 > 0:17:46and it were the best feeling in the world,
0:17:46 > 0:17:50knowing that you've designed and created something.
0:17:53 > 0:17:56I couldn't have been happier, basically,
0:17:56 > 0:18:01but over the summer, I got introduced to somebody,
0:18:01 > 0:18:07who I thought was all right, and then I was attacked.
0:18:07 > 0:18:12And basically from there, literally, my confidence got shredded.
0:18:16 > 0:18:20Everything just went downhill.
0:18:20 > 0:18:25I weren't interested in making money, didn't look forward to the future.
0:18:25 > 0:18:27I just went backwards.
0:18:27 > 0:18:29I wasn't turning up for work.
0:18:29 > 0:18:32Like, everything just went, came to a standstill
0:18:32 > 0:18:36and it was like I kind of hit a brick wall in a way.
0:18:38 > 0:18:42After a few months, Holly ventured out to a bar with a friend.
0:18:42 > 0:18:47And I felt like I weren't supposed to be there,
0:18:47 > 0:18:51like I shouldn't be there and I just felt horrible all the time.
0:18:51 > 0:18:54So she was like, "Ah, do you want to do a little bit of coke?"
0:18:54 > 0:18:58I were thinking, "Oh, well, what's this all about?" kind of thing.
0:18:58 > 0:19:02So I went and did it with her in the toilets and literally
0:19:02 > 0:19:07that's the first time in I can't even remember,
0:19:07 > 0:19:11a few months, that I'd actually felt normal, like on a level,
0:19:11 > 0:19:12like a bit of a buzz at least,
0:19:12 > 0:19:15and then that's when I first got addicted to drugs.
0:19:17 > 0:19:19Mm.
0:19:24 > 0:19:27Do you know what, I've done that absolutely perfect.
0:19:27 > 0:19:29It just covers me bum.
0:19:47 > 0:19:51In fact... That's the one.
0:19:51 > 0:19:55Now that's a classic old-school Halloween banger.
0:19:55 > 0:19:58James will be DJing at the Halloween party
0:19:58 > 0:20:00that Tony and his friends are heading to.
0:20:00 > 0:20:05He's seen the party drugs change over the past few years.
0:20:05 > 0:20:09MUSIC: "Ghostbusters" by Ray Parker Jr
0:20:09 > 0:20:12I've seen a lot more negatives with the burst of the party drugs
0:20:12 > 0:20:15than what I have with the older drugs, well, not older drugs,
0:20:15 > 0:20:19but your sort of MDMA and stuff like that, where you just get a bunch
0:20:19 > 0:20:21of loved-up people who don't want to hurt anybody
0:20:21 > 0:20:23and they're just happy as Larry,
0:20:23 > 0:20:26just want to hug everybody and just genuinely be happy.
0:20:28 > 0:20:31The influx of what's appeared over the past few years,
0:20:31 > 0:20:36these horrible chemicals that nobody has a clue really what they do to you.
0:20:36 > 0:20:40They just screw people up, basically, and I've seen it first hand.
0:20:40 > 0:20:43I've seen people in absolute tangles from it.
0:20:43 > 0:20:45And we've got people now and they're just going,
0:20:45 > 0:20:48"Does that cost me a tenner and does it get me hammered?"
0:20:48 > 0:20:50Yeah, so yeah, whack that up your nose. What is it?
0:20:50 > 0:20:52"Oh, I don't, I've no idea, it just gets me hammered."
0:20:52 > 0:20:56Well, that to me is just a ridiculous stance to have on things.
0:20:56 > 0:21:00It's destroying the sort of social circles and the social boundaries
0:21:00 > 0:21:04that people sort of had within this, within this sort of party scene,
0:21:04 > 0:21:07as you could put it, and what it's doing is just escalating the problem
0:21:07 > 0:21:09and making it a lot worse.
0:21:13 > 0:21:17MUSIC: Brass band plays "Faith" by George Michael
0:21:25 > 0:21:28Four months after his first visit to the clinic,
0:21:28 > 0:21:32Oliver has stopped taking MCat and has cut down his ketamine use.
0:21:32 > 0:21:35Setting off to work now.
0:21:35 > 0:21:38Yeah, off into Leeds city centre, to go to Space nightclub.
0:21:38 > 0:21:42I've been offered to do some flyering for a couple of hours.
0:21:43 > 0:21:46Just got to keep myself busy, really.
0:21:49 > 0:21:52Hopefully I might get a positive feedback
0:21:52 > 0:21:54and get a better job.
0:21:54 > 0:21:58First step. Aye. See how it goes.
0:21:58 > 0:22:01Do you think there'll be any temptations out there?
0:22:01 > 0:22:05No, cos...no. No. No.
0:22:05 > 0:22:11No, I'm just going to do a couple of hours then come home and go to bed,
0:22:11 > 0:22:15and then up in morning, fresh week, start looking for jobs.
0:22:15 > 0:22:19All right, see you soon. See you later.
0:22:21 > 0:22:23His mum knows it was working in clubs
0:22:23 > 0:22:26that first drew Oliver into taking ketamine.
0:22:26 > 0:22:30The club scene is rife with ket and when you've been on ket
0:22:30 > 0:22:36and you're trying to get off it again and you're going to mix with people
0:22:36 > 0:22:40that can offer you it, and will take it, get in that crowd again,
0:22:40 > 0:22:43that's going to be't hard part for Oliver.
0:22:45 > 0:22:48Nice actually, just walk, walk, walk in to town.
0:22:48 > 0:22:51I'm frightened that he'll have a little bit of a bad ket one day
0:22:51 > 0:22:54and sniff too much and just drop down dead,
0:22:54 > 0:22:57and then I'll... I don't know what I'll do.
0:23:01 > 0:23:05So, just wait and see tonight. I just hope he's strong.
0:23:05 > 0:23:08I might go in club for a drink afterwards, see what it's like.
0:23:08 > 0:23:10But just for one drink and then I'll come out.
0:23:10 > 0:23:11But I'll wait up for him.
0:23:11 > 0:23:13When he comes in, we'll have a little chat
0:23:13 > 0:23:15and see what he's like and I'll be able to tell
0:23:15 > 0:23:21if he's been on stuff or not, and let him get to bed then.
0:23:21 > 0:23:25And I'll get to bed then and get some rest and peace.
0:23:25 > 0:23:29MUSIC: "You've Got The Love" by Florence + The Machine
0:23:33 > 0:23:36It's a nice clear night. Reckon it's going to be cold though, innit?
0:23:36 > 0:23:38Looks it.
0:23:38 > 0:23:43# You've got the love I need to see me through
0:23:43 > 0:23:47# Sometimes it seems the going is just too rough
0:23:47 > 0:23:51# And things go wrong no matter what I do
0:23:51 > 0:23:55# Now and then it seems that life is just too much
0:23:55 > 0:23:59# But you've got the love I need to see me through
0:23:59 > 0:24:05# When food is gone you are my daily meal... #
0:24:11 > 0:24:15Back in Huddersfield, determined to stay off MCat,
0:24:15 > 0:24:17Holly is working out her game plan.
0:24:17 > 0:24:20I'm off to a party and there's loads of people going.
0:24:20 > 0:24:23I think every single one of them will be getting on it,
0:24:23 > 0:24:27and everyone's on it, you just get like a proper good vibe
0:24:27 > 0:24:30and then you want to be on that level,
0:24:30 > 0:24:34so unless I go and meet 'em for a bit and then stay with Chantelle,
0:24:34 > 0:24:37cos she'll look down her nose at me if I start doing ket and stuff,
0:24:37 > 0:24:39and it's a horrible feeling,
0:24:39 > 0:24:42so I think as long as I stay with girls I'll be fine.
0:24:42 > 0:24:46# Time after time I think, "Oh Lord, what's the use?"
0:24:46 > 0:24:50# Time after time I think, "It's just no good"
0:24:50 > 0:24:54# Sooner or later in life, the things you love you lose
0:24:54 > 0:24:58# But you've got the love I need to see me through. #
0:25:02 > 0:25:04When's this taxi going to be here?
0:25:09 > 0:25:11You going to be shooting?
0:25:11 > 0:25:14The housemates are heading out to their Halloween party.
0:25:14 > 0:25:18I'm a bit chilly, but it's all right.
0:25:18 > 0:25:21It's going to be a frigging good night.
0:25:29 > 0:25:33Taxi driver Taz has a unique window into the Leeds party scene.
0:25:33 > 0:25:36They're always sat in the back, you can hear them talking about drugs,
0:25:36 > 0:25:40you can hear them saying, "Oh, well, we took this drug today"
0:25:40 > 0:25:41or "Let's go and get some drugs"
0:25:41 > 0:25:44or "Let's go to a house party and order some drugs," and stuff like that.
0:25:44 > 0:25:47You hear them all the time, especially on a night time,
0:25:47 > 0:25:50like on a weekend, that's when you especially hear most,
0:25:50 > 0:25:53most of this sort of stuff going on in the back of your taxis.
0:25:53 > 0:25:55Yeah, taxi drivers, we talk to each other.
0:25:55 > 0:25:58We'd love to take a movie or a film of photos of them
0:25:58 > 0:26:02and show them the next day, this is how you were last night
0:26:02 > 0:26:05when you were in the taxi, because that's how bad they'll be sometimes.
0:26:05 > 0:26:08They don't even know where they live themselves.
0:26:08 > 0:26:12They don't know their home addresses sometimes, that's how bad they are.
0:26:22 > 0:26:27Tony and his friends arrive at the house party in Leeds' student area, Hyde Park.
0:26:28 > 0:26:30Welcome to mayhem.
0:26:34 > 0:26:36And James joins them, ready to play.
0:26:36 > 0:26:41Waaagh! Get ready, we're going to fucking have it tonight. Ha!
0:26:41 > 0:26:43Let's go! We're going to have it all night tonight
0:26:43 > 0:26:46and we're just going to go wild.
0:26:49 > 0:26:50Yes, motherfucker!
0:26:53 > 0:26:55Feeling pretty jazzy, fizzle to be fair.
0:26:55 > 0:26:58I've had quite a little bit of rum, I've had a little bit of a chill
0:26:58 > 0:27:02with a few friends, I'm on the OJ now, cos I'm going to play
0:27:02 > 0:27:06in about half an hour, 40 minutes, so let's do it! Let's go wild.
0:27:09 > 0:27:11Let's go wild! Yeah!
0:27:11 > 0:27:14But in a part of town where there's a party on every corner,
0:27:14 > 0:27:16it's easy to end up in the wrong one.
0:27:16 > 0:27:18We just walked into the wrong house party,
0:27:18 > 0:27:23into somebody else's basement and we're like, "Fucking hellfire!"
0:27:23 > 0:27:25This is it, 28, that's where we're looking at.
0:27:25 > 0:27:29That's where we're at, we found it and we're on it.
0:27:29 > 0:27:31Now we're at the right house party.
0:27:31 > 0:27:33Two doors down.
0:27:33 > 0:27:37- I thought something were up with that other party.- It were shit!
0:27:37 > 0:27:42MUSIC: "Wine and Chocolates" by Theophilus London
0:27:46 > 0:27:48He's not on drugs, but if you look at his eyes,
0:27:48 > 0:27:51it kind of looks like he is. Look how freaky them eyes are!
0:28:01 > 0:28:06Holly's night is in full swing and after two weeks clean,
0:28:06 > 0:28:10being around drugs again isn't bothering her.
0:28:10 > 0:28:12How are you feeling at the moment?
0:28:12 > 0:28:14All right. I'm happy on the wine.
0:28:15 > 0:28:18No, to be honest, I feel all right.
0:28:18 > 0:28:21Um, all my friends are literally on it,
0:28:21 > 0:28:23but I'm just going to take it...
0:28:23 > 0:28:27All our friends are inside, inside the pub right now.
0:28:27 > 0:28:28But they don't want to get filmed.
0:28:28 > 0:28:31Don't want to get filmed, they're embarrassed.
0:28:31 > 0:28:33No doubt you're going to be tempted tonight?
0:28:33 > 0:28:35No, I'm not even tempted, to be honest.
0:28:35 > 0:28:38Like, literally, I've seen what effects it's got.
0:28:38 > 0:28:40I'm happy just drinking.
0:28:40 > 0:28:43Like, I've been out for a few hours now and I'm still on the wine,
0:28:43 > 0:28:46so I'm just going to take it steady and see how it goes.
0:28:46 > 0:28:50Getting to that time now everyone's pissed out of their heads and the drugs come out.
0:28:50 > 0:28:52I haven't taken anything as yet.
0:28:52 > 0:28:55I'm not saying I haven't taken drugs before...
0:28:55 > 0:28:58I'm not saying I haven't!
0:28:58 > 0:29:02MUSIC: "Gopher Mambo" by Yma Sumac
0:29:23 > 0:29:27For some people, the night is taking an expected turn.
0:29:32 > 0:29:35Aaron! Aaron?
0:29:35 > 0:29:36- Aaron?- Mm?
0:29:36 > 0:29:41How are you feeling, bud? Aaron, open your eyes, please.
0:29:41 > 0:29:43Open your eyes.
0:29:43 > 0:29:48- Can you remember where you are? Aaron?- Mm?
0:29:48 > 0:29:52Can you remember where you are? Can you remember where you are?
0:29:52 > 0:29:54This gentleman, who has been drinking,
0:29:54 > 0:29:56he says he may have been spiked.
0:29:56 > 0:30:00Seems to generalise, he knows where he is now,
0:30:00 > 0:30:03but when he first came in he wasn't sure.
0:30:03 > 0:30:05Can you listen to me? Wake up.
0:30:05 > 0:30:08Do you know where you are? Where are you?
0:30:08 > 0:30:10You're in hospital.
0:30:10 > 0:30:14We see a lot of young patients taking what they think are legal highs
0:30:14 > 0:30:17or other recreational drugs that are supposed to be safe
0:30:17 > 0:30:20or supposed to be OK and people don't perceive as a social problem,
0:30:20 > 0:30:24but for us, that's the bulk of our work when it comes to drugs.
0:30:24 > 0:30:27They're the ones who tend to come in and are quite inebriated,
0:30:27 > 0:30:30maybe quite aggressive, who are all over the place
0:30:30 > 0:30:33maybe with decreased GCS or loss of consciousness.
0:30:33 > 0:30:35People think it's the alcohol but a lot more
0:30:35 > 0:30:38it's actually these newer drugs people are taking as well.
0:30:43 > 0:30:45This just gets a wee bit tight.
0:30:45 > 0:30:50I thought I was actually going to die.
0:30:50 > 0:30:54Oh, I was scared as hell. I was thinking, "Where the hell am I?"
0:30:54 > 0:30:59Someone must have literally just like put a pill or whatever he had
0:30:59 > 0:31:02into my bottle, which completely destroyed me.
0:31:02 > 0:31:05The fact is I couldn't even control myself.
0:31:05 > 0:31:08I couldn't walk, I couldn't do nothing.
0:31:08 > 0:31:12That's just not like me, after two bottles of wine?
0:31:14 > 0:31:15A doctor will be with you soon.
0:31:15 > 0:31:19The wine was simply just to do me through the house party
0:31:19 > 0:31:22and the brandy was for when I get inside the club,
0:31:22 > 0:31:24and then obviously I didn't get to the brandy,
0:31:24 > 0:31:26but that's life, innit.
0:31:26 > 0:31:29But, on the bright side of it, I saved £7 entry.
0:31:29 > 0:31:32I didn't have to pay to get in, obviously I didn't go Oceana,
0:31:32 > 0:31:34so I saved £7, didn't I?
0:31:34 > 0:31:37But that's the only bright side I can look at it really, so...
0:31:52 > 0:31:54Having found the right house party,
0:31:54 > 0:31:57Tony and his friends hit the dance floor.
0:31:59 > 0:32:02You get a feeling, I usually get it in like my stomach
0:32:02 > 0:32:06when I'm starting to come up and you can feel it and it's,
0:32:06 > 0:32:08you get this kind of excitement behind ya.
0:32:08 > 0:32:11You just get a little buzz off that for a bit.
0:32:20 > 0:32:22But I like MDMA and ketamine together.
0:32:22 > 0:32:25Get into cocktails and combinations because you see one drug
0:32:25 > 0:32:28as a whole new dimension, and you know, you can travel through 'em
0:32:28 > 0:32:31and I know it sounds pretty crazy saying you're a time traveller
0:32:31 > 0:32:36or you're a space traveller, but that's kind of how I feel about it.
0:32:36 > 0:32:39You do feel like you are in a different dimension,
0:32:39 > 0:32:41like when you've hit it that hard.
0:32:53 > 0:32:55The best thing is when you look round,
0:32:55 > 0:32:58you've got your mates and everyone's feeling as good as you are,
0:32:58 > 0:33:02you're kind of united in that feeling, in that moment
0:33:02 > 0:33:04and you can't really get that anywhere else.
0:33:04 > 0:33:07You're not just going to find that in your local pub.
0:33:15 > 0:33:1820 minutes later you can be even more up and you don't realise
0:33:18 > 0:33:21how high these levels can get, like you can actually get to a point
0:33:21 > 0:33:23where you will say to people
0:33:23 > 0:33:26"It must be like I'm in heaven or something. How can I feel this good right now?"
0:33:54 > 0:33:56Holly's moved on to a club.
0:33:56 > 0:34:00She's still not taken any MCat, but the drinks are flowing.
0:34:07 > 0:34:11I suppose once I start drinking it's like your body knows
0:34:11 > 0:34:14when you start drinking, you're going to start sniffing.
0:34:17 > 0:34:22Even before you start it, your body kind of feels like you've already done it.
0:34:22 > 0:34:24And then you do end up craving it.
0:34:28 > 0:34:32If I don't drink, it's a lot easier to stop,
0:34:32 > 0:34:34but obviously when your friends are drinking,
0:34:34 > 0:34:37that's how everybody socialises nowadays,
0:34:37 > 0:34:40so there's triggers everywhere.
0:34:40 > 0:34:43MUSIC: "Bad Girls" by M.I.A.
0:34:55 > 0:34:57I've been a doorman, on and off for 23 years.
0:34:57 > 0:35:01Over 23 years now. Things have got better in some aspects,
0:35:01 > 0:35:04some have got worse in aspects.
0:35:04 > 0:35:06The unpredictability of the chemical cocktails
0:35:06 > 0:35:08people are ramming down their necks or up their noses
0:35:08 > 0:35:11certainly adds a fresh challenge to what we're used to.
0:35:11 > 0:35:15Um, the changing licensing laws, the changing taste of music,
0:35:15 > 0:35:18changing culture, all of these, you know.
0:35:18 > 0:35:21Every day, you can't predict, every day is different.
0:35:21 > 0:35:25You know, certainly we had massive problems 20 years ago with drugs.
0:35:25 > 0:35:28We still do, it's just they're different problems and different drugs.
0:35:28 > 0:35:31Only two weeks ago, we had two lads take a load of ketamine
0:35:31 > 0:35:35and literally drop, one there, one there - that tied up two ambulances
0:35:35 > 0:35:38for over an hour and Lord knows at the A&E.
0:35:38 > 0:35:41You know, that's an unacceptable waste of resources
0:35:41 > 0:35:44for having a good time out, you know.
0:35:44 > 0:35:46There are better ways to do it than that.
0:35:51 > 0:35:55Some of these new drugs really are taking it to the edge of what's acceptable behaviour in cities,
0:35:55 > 0:35:58and for some people, taking them right over that edge and into A&E,
0:35:58 > 0:36:02into prison cells, and in some cases into the mortuary.
0:36:02 > 0:36:05MUSIC: "Flutes" by Hot Chip
0:36:25 > 0:36:29I'm in the emergency x-ray department, mate.
0:36:29 > 0:36:33Yeah, the emergency x-ray department of Leeds General Infirmary, mate.
0:36:33 > 0:36:36Yeah, you can't miss me, mate - my ankle's bigger than the moon.
0:36:37 > 0:36:40Jack has ended up in A&E with a broken ankle.
0:36:40 > 0:36:41Growing up in Leeds,
0:36:41 > 0:36:44it's not the first time he's seen a night out end in tears.
0:36:44 > 0:36:47I think what it is with Leeds is, my friends, a lot of 'em
0:36:47 > 0:36:50are sort of stuck in like, you know, like a bit of a cycle
0:36:50 > 0:36:54and it's like, well, they know there's a lot more out there
0:36:54 > 0:36:57to the world, but it's just like an easily attainable goal, to go out
0:36:57 > 0:37:00and get fucked on the weekend and have a few dramas, cos in Leeds,
0:37:00 > 0:37:02you know what I mean, a lot of people love dramas,
0:37:02 > 0:37:06people love to have something to talk about and have a chat about
0:37:06 > 0:37:10the week after, before they do it all again.
0:37:10 > 0:37:13You're not finding a wheelchair to have sex in.
0:37:13 > 0:37:16I'll tell you know that mephedrone is the thing that's sort of defined,
0:37:16 > 0:37:19this is what I'm on about - mephedrone is the Devil's dandruff,
0:37:19 > 0:37:22I call it, it's evil, man.
0:37:22 > 0:37:26I mean, Leeds never really got out of the MCat stage.
0:37:26 > 0:37:29There are still a lot of people who are bad on that and staying up
0:37:29 > 0:37:31for four or five days, getting sleep deprivation,
0:37:31 > 0:37:34thinking all their mates are talking about 'em.
0:37:34 > 0:37:36it's classic paranoia and stuff on that.
0:37:36 > 0:37:38I think I'm past it, I really do.
0:37:38 > 0:37:42I'm 21 in a few weeks and I'm going to have a broken ankle for my 21st
0:37:42 > 0:37:44cos of my antics, so....
0:37:53 > 0:37:55Back at the house party,
0:37:55 > 0:37:59DJ James has become an expert at spotting party drug casualties.
0:37:59 > 0:38:02From a DJ booth, you can definitely pick out the people
0:38:02 > 0:38:05who are on, say, for example, the ketamine, because they can't stand,
0:38:05 > 0:38:06their eyes are in the back of their head,
0:38:06 > 0:38:09they don't know what they're doing, where they are.
0:38:09 > 0:38:11We have a laugh sometimes when we see 'em,
0:38:11 > 0:38:12"Here comes the bloody kethead!"
0:38:12 > 0:38:14It's ugh, ugh, like a zombie coming through the crowd,
0:38:14 > 0:38:18while everyone's jumping around and having a good time.
0:38:21 > 0:38:24Possibly the people tripping their head off on acid
0:38:24 > 0:38:26on the occasional times, they also stick out as well,
0:38:26 > 0:38:29when they're trying to examine the floral pattern on the curtain
0:38:29 > 0:38:31for like three and a half hours,
0:38:31 > 0:38:34which also makes like very good viewing pleasure from the DJ booth.
0:38:34 > 0:38:38"Ooh, ooh, ooh!" Examining the curtain.
0:38:47 > 0:38:50The MDMA does have its very tell-tale signs.
0:38:50 > 0:38:54You can always see like Battlejaw Galactica, as we like to call it.
0:38:54 > 0:38:58It's some geezer chewing his head off, coming in through the door,
0:38:58 > 0:39:01it's like "Yeah, you've had far too many biscuits."
0:39:07 > 0:39:10The big thing that has pretty much infected itself into everything,
0:39:10 > 0:39:13like a bad virus, is the MCat, it's absolutely everywhere.
0:39:13 > 0:39:16You can normally tell because of the smell of them,
0:39:16 > 0:39:19because they smell like an old fish tank or some horrible fish food
0:39:19 > 0:39:22or some nasty industrial chemical, like drain cleaner.
0:39:22 > 0:39:25So that's normally a tell-tale sign.
0:39:30 > 0:39:32Starting to get a bit mental.
0:39:32 > 0:39:35It's kind of what we wanted.
0:39:35 > 0:39:36Mate, I saw these boobs in there,
0:39:36 > 0:39:40I swear to god they were incredible and I want to go and get 'em.
0:39:40 > 0:39:43That's what I'm feeling like right now.
0:39:43 > 0:39:45We should go inside and find some boobies.
0:39:45 > 0:39:49We'll enjoy the rest of our night. Woo!
0:39:49 > 0:39:54MUSIC: "Diamonds" by Rihanna
0:40:19 > 0:40:23As the night progresses, Holly says she's staying off MCat.
0:40:32 > 0:40:36When you take something like everything's so on board,
0:40:36 > 0:40:39you can see everything. Everything's so like, it's in HD,
0:40:39 > 0:40:44your life goes in HD all of a sudden, but it's like a lot busier.
0:40:44 > 0:40:47Like, you could be the only person in a club, but it'd seem like
0:40:47 > 0:40:51it were packed and you'd have the time of your life.
0:40:51 > 0:40:55When you're drunk, like, everything's a bit more slowed down,
0:40:55 > 0:40:58and I don't like that. I like being on the ball
0:40:58 > 0:41:01and that's the only reason why I like getting on it.
0:41:01 > 0:41:04If someone offered me a key now, I think I'd reject it.
0:41:04 > 0:41:08It'd be like...80-20% that I would take it.
0:41:11 > 0:41:14The thing is when you do a little bit, you're not too bad,
0:41:14 > 0:41:17but I can't just do a little bit, like I'd be on it for days after,
0:41:17 > 0:41:19so I know not to touch that first bit.
0:41:19 > 0:41:22As long as I can get past that, I'm all right.
0:41:38 > 0:41:41Witnesses query that he's saying that he's had GHB.
0:41:41 > 0:41:43- Been through his... - Got a bottle down his...
0:41:43 > 0:41:46- He's got what? - A bottle down his trousers.
0:41:46 > 0:41:49- What sort of bottle? - Water or GHB, I don't know.
0:41:49 > 0:41:50Right, shall we get rid of that?
0:41:55 > 0:42:01Yeah, that's not sugar-free Jet Pop, is it?
0:42:01 > 0:42:05GHB is a liquid high, popular on the party scene,
0:42:05 > 0:42:07but one drop too much can send you over the edge.
0:42:07 > 0:42:08Talk to us.
0:42:08 > 0:42:10Hold his hands. Can you hold his arms?
0:42:10 > 0:42:12Hello, mate. Hello!
0:42:12 > 0:42:18Hiya, mate. Hello. OK mate, hello!
0:42:18 > 0:42:20What's your name, mate?
0:42:20 > 0:42:22The reason GHB is so dangerous
0:42:22 > 0:42:24is because it depresses the central nervous system.
0:42:24 > 0:42:27If you take it with another substance that depresses
0:42:27 > 0:42:29the central nervous system, such as alcohol,
0:42:29 > 0:42:33it can cause such deep unconsciousness that people can go into coma and respiratory arrest.
0:42:33 > 0:42:37By that, I mean they stop breathing. I've seen people die from taking GHB.
0:42:37 > 0:42:39Whoa, whoa, you're coming off this trolley, big fella.
0:42:39 > 0:42:43Come on, matey. On your side.
0:42:43 > 0:42:47Good lad. Too far for you to fall.
0:42:47 > 0:42:51OK. All right.
0:42:51 > 0:42:56Hey, no biting. That's not in the rules.
0:42:56 > 0:43:01- Ooh.- He's trying to bite now. - Right, stop! Stop biting!
0:43:01 > 0:43:05Listen, you're in hospital, you're in hospital.
0:43:05 > 0:43:08You're in hospital.
0:43:08 > 0:43:10As he's come round and his conscious level's come up,
0:43:10 > 0:43:13he's been able to tell us that it's GHB
0:43:13 > 0:43:17and it's that he's a habitual user of GHB, MCat and cocaine.
0:43:17 > 0:43:22So he's come round now, his GCS is currently 15,
0:43:22 > 0:43:24so he knows where he is, he knows what he's done
0:43:24 > 0:43:29and he says that, he kept repeating, "Oh, I've done it again, haven't I? I'm always doing this"
0:43:29 > 0:43:32So he's obviously, you know, well versed to doing this.
0:43:48 > 0:43:53It's 6am and Holly's night on the town is coming to an end.
0:43:53 > 0:43:56So how has your night been, Holly?
0:43:56 > 0:43:59Um, yeah, it's been all right.
0:43:59 > 0:44:03Basically we've been to the Dawn Chorus, which is his night.
0:44:03 > 0:44:07Um, just been drinking and now I'm knackered and I want to go to bed.
0:44:07 > 0:44:10I'm so tired.
0:44:10 > 0:44:13Might agree with that, actually.
0:44:13 > 0:44:14You haven't taken anything?
0:44:14 > 0:44:16Not tonight, no.
0:44:16 > 0:44:18Are you pleased with yourself?
0:44:18 > 0:44:21No, I'm just really tired. I will be in the morning,
0:44:21 > 0:44:23but now I'm just so tired.
0:44:23 > 0:44:26I were like falling asleep in there, to be honest.
0:44:28 > 0:44:31- Bedtime now, yeah?- Yeah. - OK, cool.
0:44:31 > 0:44:34Come on then.
0:45:17 > 0:45:21After a weekend of partying, Tony's not quite ready to call it a night.
0:45:24 > 0:45:27Er, yeah, I'm not really sure what time it is, but it's er,
0:45:27 > 0:45:31it's tomorrow now, and I've been at a lot of parties.
0:45:31 > 0:45:33Yeah, it's been all right, it's been pretty cool,
0:45:33 > 0:45:37obviously I'm still quite wide awake, it's been an all right night.
0:45:37 > 0:45:42Mainly it was MCat, Like I say, not my preference,
0:45:42 > 0:45:45not really what I go for, but I was pretty skint tonight,
0:45:45 > 0:45:50I didn't want to spend any money and it got sorted out for me really,
0:45:50 > 0:45:53so I was just like "Yeah, OK, I'll have a bit."
0:45:53 > 0:45:57I guess you wouldn't really say no - that'd only be rude, right?
0:45:57 > 0:46:00I'm not really thinking of a deadline or aiming for anything.
0:46:00 > 0:46:02If you're not ready to crash out,
0:46:02 > 0:46:04there's no point trying to crash out,
0:46:04 > 0:46:07because you're only going to lay in your bed, wide eyed,
0:46:07 > 0:46:11thinking of like irrational things and you know,
0:46:11 > 0:46:14they've got nothing to do with what you've been doing,
0:46:14 > 0:46:17why would you lay there thinking about 'em, purely because obviously
0:46:17 > 0:46:19you're a bit fucked and you're kind of awake,
0:46:19 > 0:46:21so you're going to be doing something.
0:46:21 > 0:46:26I might think of something that puts me on a downer, I don't really want that.
0:46:30 > 0:46:33Tony's on a mission to cause some mischief.
0:46:36 > 0:46:40Hiya, mate, look who it is! How are you doing?
0:46:40 > 0:46:43He's not a morning person at all.
0:46:43 > 0:46:45Er, usually his morning begins at like two,
0:46:45 > 0:46:52half two in the afternoon, so for us to be at 8:54, this is a real
0:46:52 > 0:46:55reality shock for him, he probably don't know this time exists.
0:46:55 > 0:46:59Back to sleep.
0:46:59 > 0:47:02How's it going, guys? Morning.
0:47:02 > 0:47:07My new alarm's been going off for ages - you've missed it.
0:47:07 > 0:47:10Ah, riots been going everywhere and crazy stuff...
0:47:10 > 0:47:13Not really, I just felt the need to come and wake you up,
0:47:13 > 0:47:15as I've woke everyone else up.
0:47:15 > 0:47:17What did you do? Did you have fun?
0:47:17 > 0:47:19Just stayed in, really.
0:47:19 > 0:47:21Cool, well anyway, have a good night.
0:47:21 > 0:47:25My plan is obviously I've come in, I've annoyed everyone,
0:47:25 > 0:47:30that was pretty fun, but now it's important to go out,
0:47:30 > 0:47:33and obviously getting my priorities straight and do what I need to do,
0:47:33 > 0:47:36which obviously is go and get high.
0:47:36 > 0:47:39And this is me off, I'll see you soon, guys.
0:48:01 > 0:48:05The weekend is over. It's Monday morning and back to reality.
0:48:12 > 0:48:15Holly is due to work with her dad today,
0:48:15 > 0:48:17but she hasn't been seen for three days.
0:48:17 > 0:48:22She went off on Friday teatime, after we came home from work.
0:48:22 > 0:48:28I didn't hear from her on Saturday and I always think that's a sign.
0:48:28 > 0:48:31I didn't hear from her yesterday. I sent her a few text messages,
0:48:31 > 0:48:33asking if she was coming to work today,
0:48:33 > 0:48:38but no response on neither of her phones.
0:48:57 > 0:49:04- Knock knock.- It's open. Hello! Oh, hiya.- Hiya. Rosie!
0:49:04 > 0:49:06- You don't know where Holly is, do you?- No, I've no idea.
0:49:06 > 0:49:09I've tried texting her a few times, but to no avail.
0:49:09 > 0:49:12- I take it she's not at home.- No.
0:49:12 > 0:49:15- No, she's not? - Not to worry.
0:49:15 > 0:49:20Well, I am worried, but she will turn up when she's...?
0:49:20 > 0:49:22- Yeah.- OK.- Right.
0:49:22 > 0:49:25All right, I'll leave him with you, if that's all right.
0:49:25 > 0:49:28I think she'll be crashed out somewhere,
0:49:28 > 0:49:30recovering from whatever it was...
0:49:30 > 0:49:33I'm not even going to say that she's taken, because I'm hoping
0:49:33 > 0:49:35just like hell that she hasn't,
0:49:35 > 0:49:38I'm just hoping that she's just crashed out
0:49:38 > 0:49:46and can't be arsed, to be honest, which is the lesser of two evils.
0:49:46 > 0:49:50Yeah, I'd rather she were crashed out and couldn't be arsed,
0:49:50 > 0:49:52rather than over hung or on a comedown.
0:49:58 > 0:50:01Looks like another day on my own.
0:50:12 > 0:50:16- Had your cig, have ya? - Yeah. I'm still tired, me.
0:50:16 > 0:50:20- You're still tired?- Yeah.
0:50:20 > 0:50:22Oliver got back from his first night at his new job
0:50:22 > 0:50:25and there's good news for his mum.
0:50:25 > 0:50:27- Said they were going to stay, didn't they?- Mm.
0:50:27 > 0:50:30He said, "I come home. I were cold, so I come home."
0:50:30 > 0:50:33So I'm chuffed to bits.
0:50:33 > 0:50:35Did you have a good night then, yeah?
0:50:35 > 0:50:39Yeah, were all right. Yeah, work's work at end of day.
0:50:39 > 0:50:41- Yeah, I know.- Just keep myself busy.
0:50:41 > 0:50:44I heard him come in and thought I'll let him get settled in't bedroom
0:50:44 > 0:50:46and then I'll go knock on't door and creep in, and he let me
0:50:46 > 0:50:48and he were right as rain.
0:50:48 > 0:50:50He said "I'm freezing, Mam," but he were all right.
0:50:50 > 0:50:55I said "Good, so right, I'm off to bed now," so I slept well.
0:50:55 > 0:50:58So I'm chuffed today with him. Over the moon.
0:50:58 > 0:51:02Be confident and positive. You don't need shit like that.
0:51:02 > 0:51:06Just keep off it. And you're not a kid, are ya, love?
0:51:06 > 0:51:10- 26.- No, started growing up. - Yeah.
0:51:10 > 0:51:13It means that I know they can go out now and say no
0:51:13 > 0:51:15and come back home, cos he could have stayed last night
0:51:15 > 0:51:18cos he saw quite a few of his old friends and a girl that he used
0:51:18 > 0:51:20to like that he saw. She said "Are you stopping?"
0:51:20 > 0:51:23He said, "No, I'm going home," and he come home.
0:51:23 > 0:51:25So it means that he can actually go down there,
0:51:25 > 0:51:27do a bit of work and come home.
0:51:27 > 0:51:31So fingers crossed, might get there eventually.
0:51:31 > 0:51:34- Just keep myself busy, out. - Yeah.
0:51:34 > 0:51:38Any point of work whatsoever, just take it,
0:51:38 > 0:51:42take your mind off things, keep my mind occupied.
0:51:42 > 0:51:47That's what I've been doing really. Still a bit tired, to be honest.
0:51:47 > 0:51:49I've not long been up.
0:51:49 > 0:51:51Did you take anything last night?
0:51:51 > 0:51:54No. No, not last night, no.
0:51:58 > 0:52:01Ah, what?!
0:52:01 > 0:52:05Get in! What the fuck, Dean?
0:52:11 > 0:52:13It's Monday, my week's started
0:52:13 > 0:52:16and I haven't really got too much responsibilities,
0:52:16 > 0:52:19I ain't got too much to be worried about.
0:52:19 > 0:52:22I'm not going to disappoint myself in any kind of way
0:52:22 > 0:52:25cos there's not too much high expectations, which is cool.
0:52:27 > 0:52:30I don't think about my future too much cos I think
0:52:30 > 0:52:34if you're concentrating on the future, you're missing so much
0:52:34 > 0:52:38that is in the present right now, you know, um, but I do like
0:52:38 > 0:52:41to have a responsibility behind me as well,
0:52:41 > 0:52:47and I guess I do consider the future is a factor of what could happen.
0:52:47 > 0:52:50There's going to be that day where I need to turn around
0:52:50 > 0:52:53and start changing what I'm doing, but the way I see it is,
0:52:53 > 0:52:57why should I sit here constantly thinking about that day
0:52:57 > 0:53:01and you know, putting a negative spin on what I'm doing now?
0:53:01 > 0:53:05Why can't I do what I'm doing now, have an amazing positive spin on it,
0:53:05 > 0:53:09and then when that day comes around just be like "OK, let's do that.
0:53:09 > 0:53:10"I'll go for it, cool, man."
0:53:15 > 0:53:17I don't know what happened there.
0:53:30 > 0:53:34It's Monday night and Holly's only just arriving home.
0:53:34 > 0:53:36After a successful two weeks,
0:53:36 > 0:53:40being around MCat this weekend proved too much.
0:53:48 > 0:53:51Right, it's a bit of a mess.
0:53:52 > 0:53:55When was the last time you were home?
0:53:59 > 0:54:06On, it was Saturday, was it Friday? Saturday. Yeah.
0:54:10 > 0:54:14Which, it's just so easy to get hold of,
0:54:14 > 0:54:17but it just, it does my head in, like.
0:54:17 > 0:54:19I only got on it cos I went to the toilet
0:54:19 > 0:54:21and this lass is like "Come in here with me,"
0:54:21 > 0:54:24cos there were a bit of a queue, and then she just pulled out a bag,
0:54:24 > 0:54:28she's like, "Here you are," and then it were just in my face straightaway.
0:54:28 > 0:54:33I didn't even ask for it and cos it's like everywhere you go,
0:54:33 > 0:54:35that's why it's so hard to stop it.
0:54:35 > 0:54:40It's only two weeks, but it was such a struggle
0:54:40 > 0:54:42just to keep off it for that two weeks,
0:54:42 > 0:54:44and then you just think, "What's the point?"
0:54:44 > 0:54:46You just feel like giving up.
0:54:49 > 0:54:52But when you get pulled back in,
0:54:52 > 0:54:54that's like another month of your life just gone,
0:54:54 > 0:54:59just by like jumping off, like falling off the bandwagon,
0:54:59 > 0:55:02and if it keeps happening, it's like a year of your life gone.
0:55:06 > 0:55:08It's been like...
0:55:15 > 0:55:18I just feel like if it don't get sorted soon,
0:55:18 > 0:55:21I'm soon going to be like 30 or 40
0:55:21 > 0:55:24and I'm going to be exactly in the same boat as I am now,
0:55:24 > 0:55:28and I had so many dreams and stuff before I started taking it.
0:55:28 > 0:55:32It's all just like...disappearing.
0:55:42 > 0:55:46Just going to have to hack it out.
0:55:46 > 0:55:47And drink lots of orange juice,
0:55:47 > 0:55:53that's supposed to help me and make you feel better.
0:55:53 > 0:55:55And then just go from there.
0:56:08 > 0:56:13Since filming, Oliver has had his first clean drug test in two years.
0:56:13 > 0:56:17Tony has gone on a detox and is looking for a job.
0:56:17 > 0:56:21And Holly has now gone eight weeks without taking any MCat
0:56:21 > 0:56:24and has relaunched her fashion business.
0:56:34 > 0:56:37Subtitles by Red Bee Media Ltd