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0:00:10 > 0:00:11Now for a policeman's knock.
0:00:11 > 0:00:13KNOCKING
0:00:13 > 0:00:14All right?
0:00:16 > 0:00:19- All right, how's it going? - Morning.- Is it just you in there?
0:00:19 > 0:00:20No, I've got my mate in there.
0:00:20 > 0:00:22- We just need to come and have a quick chat, all right?- Yeah.
0:00:22 > 0:00:24HE MUMBLES
0:00:24 > 0:00:26All right, let us come in and then
0:00:26 > 0:00:27you can chuck some clothes on, all right?
0:00:27 > 0:00:29We've got more officers coming that
0:00:29 > 0:00:31are going to conduct a thorough search.
0:00:31 > 0:00:34Cos we think that Tony's been doing quite a few dwelling burglaries, so
0:00:34 > 0:00:37we're looking for property, we're looking for clothing to link him to
0:00:37 > 0:00:39those offences, OK?
0:00:39 > 0:00:42The end of the day, you're bringing a lot of these problems on yourself.
0:00:42 > 0:00:44This is the second time in a week that I've been here.
0:00:44 > 0:00:47There's a lot of drugs getting used in this flat but something's
0:00:47 > 0:00:48going to have to give cos you're
0:00:48 > 0:00:51inviting all these people round to smoke crack, all right?
0:00:51 > 0:00:53And then they're paying for that habit by committing crime.
0:00:53 > 0:00:55That's really affecting the local community.
0:00:55 > 0:00:57All right, mate. You're under arrest
0:00:57 > 0:01:00on suspicion of dwelling burglary, all right?
0:01:00 > 0:01:02I'll give you the circumstances in a second.
0:01:02 > 0:01:03I'm just going to pop these cuffs on you, OK?
0:01:05 > 0:01:09You match the description of somebody seen on CCTV, all right?
0:01:09 > 0:01:13Right. Bearing in mind you're under caution, are those trainers yours?
0:01:13 > 0:01:14They're my trainers.
0:01:14 > 0:01:16They're yours, yeah?
0:01:16 > 0:01:18All right, mate.
0:01:19 > 0:01:25There is crack pipes, burnt foil, all recent evidence of drug misuse.
0:01:27 > 0:01:29All right?
0:01:31 > 0:01:33Tony, you've just gone from talking to this.
0:01:34 > 0:01:36- Yeah, yeah...- If you're going to go
0:01:36 > 0:01:40in an ambulance we've got to get you downstairs anyway.
0:01:40 > 0:01:43Tony, can you hear me? Can you hear me?
0:01:43 > 0:01:45TONY BREATHES SHALLOWLY
0:01:45 > 0:01:49- Stay with us, stay awake.- 2089, priority, please.- Stay awake.
0:01:49 > 0:01:51Yeah, can you get an ambulance, please?
0:02:00 > 0:02:04I know it's wrong and I know it's bad, but I do enjoy it.
0:02:04 > 0:02:08A lot of things need to change in the way we treat drugs in this city
0:02:08 > 0:02:11and in this country.
0:02:13 > 0:02:15I obviously sell to journalists,
0:02:15 > 0:02:17I've got lawyers, I've got doctors,
0:02:17 > 0:02:19a huge amount of young professionals.
0:02:19 > 0:02:21Police!
0:02:21 > 0:02:24- Open your mouth.- Don't swallow the drugs, spit them out.
0:02:26 > 0:02:29Wait till he's breaking into your home and taking your stuff and your
0:02:29 > 0:02:31kids are upstairs. See how you feel.
0:02:31 > 0:02:33All right, I've arrested you before.
0:02:33 > 0:02:35Stay there. Don't move. I'm going to spray you.
0:02:37 > 0:02:40You get so wrapped up in yourself and your addiction,
0:02:40 > 0:02:43sometimes you can't see the damage that you're doing to other people.
0:02:47 > 0:02:48I've got to change my life,
0:02:48 > 0:02:50otherwise I'm going to die, you know?
0:03:04 > 0:03:06- He's quite a big lad, isn't he? - Yeah.
0:03:06 > 0:03:08Do you want a hand, guys, or are you all right?
0:03:08 > 0:03:10THEY LAUGH
0:03:10 > 0:03:11Can you hear us?
0:03:12 > 0:03:14Think he's...Class A user.
0:03:14 > 0:03:17- OK.- Lots of needles in the flat that he's come from,
0:03:17 > 0:03:21as well as evidence of him smoking crack.
0:03:21 > 0:03:23He is breathing. There is a pulse.
0:03:28 > 0:03:31They're giving him something cos they think potentially he's
0:03:31 > 0:03:34taken some sort of opiate in the early hours, so they're going
0:03:34 > 0:03:36to give him a jab of something to bring him round.
0:03:36 > 0:03:40- All right, fine.- Right, then, Tony, shall we sit up?
0:03:41 > 0:03:44He has previously presented like this to police.
0:03:44 > 0:03:46It's just delaying tactics.
0:03:48 > 0:03:51From what I see it, at grassroots level of policing,
0:03:51 > 0:03:55crime in almost every aspect will go
0:03:55 > 0:03:58back to one common denominator, and that is drugs.
0:03:59 > 0:04:03There's something about putting the handcuffs on that's the first start
0:04:03 > 0:04:06of, potentially, the recovery journey for him.
0:04:11 > 0:04:14Been a front line police officer for a very long time and it
0:04:14 > 0:04:16feels like a vast majority of that
0:04:16 > 0:04:19has all come back to one common theme, and that is addiction.
0:04:21 > 0:04:25Reoffending rates are so high, there has to be more emphasis on tackling
0:04:25 > 0:04:28the addiction as opposed to anything else,
0:04:28 > 0:04:30because that is the root of it.
0:04:30 > 0:04:31SIREN WAILS
0:04:41 > 0:04:43This is me when I was a year old.
0:04:48 > 0:04:50I guess as soon as I started drumming it was just kind of an
0:04:50 > 0:04:52instantaneous love for it.
0:04:52 > 0:04:55I love everything about it.
0:05:02 > 0:05:04I've never taken drugs, but they
0:05:04 > 0:05:09control my life and everything around me.
0:05:11 > 0:05:16- Shall we look at some of these photos, Rita?- Yeah.
0:05:16 > 0:05:19My mum was a heroin addict.
0:05:19 > 0:05:21She's been clean for years.
0:05:23 > 0:05:27Every week, she goes to Narcotics Anonymous meetings.
0:05:27 > 0:05:29That doesn't mean she's safe.
0:05:29 > 0:05:31She still lives on a knife edge.
0:05:31 > 0:05:33Look at the mess I looked like.
0:05:33 > 0:05:35You look really yellow.
0:05:36 > 0:05:39You were born when I was 28 weeks pregnant and they said there
0:05:39 > 0:05:43had only been one person at St Michael's
0:05:43 > 0:05:47who had had a baby when she was 24 weeks pregnant...
0:05:48 > 0:05:51..and the baby had survived.
0:05:51 > 0:05:54And then after that person it was me and you, you know?
0:05:54 > 0:05:56- What, ever?- Yeah.
0:05:58 > 0:06:00I remember when I was about...
0:06:00 > 0:06:03..I think about 34,
0:06:03 > 0:06:06I'd been clean then for over three years,
0:06:06 > 0:06:11and my doctor, he said, "If you really want to kind of experience
0:06:11 > 0:06:14"motherhood now it's the time because you're at the peak of your
0:06:14 > 0:06:19"health, your viral load is completely suppressed with these HIV
0:06:19 > 0:06:21"drugs, you know with the
0:06:21 > 0:06:25"anti-retrovirals, and this is the right time for you."
0:06:25 > 0:06:29So you were kind of all planned from the start.
0:06:29 > 0:06:31I had, like, black eyes.
0:06:31 > 0:06:34I was a demon baby. Look at my eyes.
0:06:34 > 0:06:36- You weren't a demon baby! - RITA LAUGHS
0:06:36 > 0:06:39- I was!- Don't laugh, Rita, it's not really a funny matter.
0:06:39 > 0:06:44You almost died and I almost died, and that's how bad it got, you know?
0:06:44 > 0:06:47You can't imagine how serious it was, you know?
0:06:47 > 0:06:50You almost didn't make it, really.
0:06:50 > 0:06:53Oh, look! You with long hair.
0:06:53 > 0:06:57Yeah, there's a picture of you and your dad, when he was still around.
0:06:59 > 0:07:01Oh! Here it is.
0:07:01 > 0:07:03- Oh, you found the hat?- Yeah.
0:07:03 > 0:07:05This is going to be weird. Oh, my God.
0:07:05 > 0:07:09- My head was that small?!- Yes.
0:07:09 > 0:07:10That's...
0:07:10 > 0:07:12My head was that small!
0:07:12 > 0:07:13SHE LAUGHS
0:07:13 > 0:07:15- Oh, my God.- Isn't that freaky?
0:07:15 > 0:07:17Yeah. It's like a tennis ball.
0:07:17 > 0:07:19I know, it was. Yeah. Yeah, exactly.
0:07:22 > 0:07:23Aw...
0:07:23 > 0:07:26Look at you now.
0:07:30 > 0:07:31I don't know how old I was here.
0:07:31 > 0:07:35But I was already kind of taking heroin by then, so I must have been
0:07:35 > 0:07:3618 or 19.
0:07:39 > 0:07:41- You were taking heroin at 18?- Yeah.
0:07:41 > 0:07:43Yeah. Can't you see it in my eyes?
0:07:43 > 0:07:46They're just kind of dead. I'm just kind of...
0:07:46 > 0:07:48stoned out of my head.
0:07:52 > 0:07:54And this is one of the few that I'm with...
0:07:54 > 0:07:59short sleeves cos until my parents found out I was on drugs I
0:07:59 > 0:08:02needed to kind of, you know, hide the track marks.
0:08:02 > 0:08:04Here, I was already taking loads of drugs.
0:08:06 > 0:08:08With the face of just got out of bed.
0:08:08 > 0:08:12And my mum's all dolled up, and she's just been to the
0:08:12 > 0:08:15hairdresser, obviously, cos her hair's all done up.
0:08:16 > 0:08:19These are the times where I was still at home.
0:08:19 > 0:08:21I still had lots of people around me
0:08:21 > 0:08:24that I'd steal from and that I'd kind of keep
0:08:24 > 0:08:26my drug taking going, you know,
0:08:26 > 0:08:29without having to do too, kind of,
0:08:29 > 0:08:31extreme and horrible things, really.
0:08:31 > 0:08:34And those people, because they were friends and family, they weren't
0:08:34 > 0:08:39really angry, they were just saddened, I mean, because...
0:08:40 > 0:08:42..of the choices I was making and
0:08:42 > 0:08:46the fact that I was, kind of, you know, destroying my life.
0:08:48 > 0:08:51At the time it was just like I was on a mission,
0:08:51 > 0:08:54I had to have drugs and I had to be high all the time, you know?
0:08:54 > 0:08:58And I had no kind of morals, I knew it was wrong, but that's
0:08:58 > 0:09:00what I had to do, and that's what I did.
0:09:02 > 0:09:07When I moved to London, very soon I was, kind of, deep into trouble.
0:09:07 > 0:09:11I kept shoplifting, kept getting arrested,
0:09:11 > 0:09:13kept ending up in Magistrates' Courts,
0:09:13 > 0:09:15you know, kept getting fined.
0:09:16 > 0:09:20And I'd been told, in no uncertain terms,
0:09:20 > 0:09:26should I choose to keep on going down the same avenue that they would
0:09:26 > 0:09:27put me in prison.
0:09:29 > 0:09:33I had friends who prostituted themselves for drugs.
0:09:33 > 0:09:35That obviously wasn't an easy option,
0:09:35 > 0:09:37but it was the quickest way to get
0:09:37 > 0:09:39the money they needed.
0:09:39 > 0:09:43And there was a point at I even, kind of, started considering that.
0:09:52 > 0:09:55Op boss tonight, working till three,
0:09:55 > 0:09:58and Tina's going to go on CCTV.
0:09:58 > 0:10:00Dan and Claire, you'll work together.
0:10:00 > 0:10:03MACHINE BEEPS
0:10:03 > 0:10:04Yep.
0:10:04 > 0:10:06Got everything?
0:10:06 > 0:10:08Right, see you down by the car.
0:10:13 > 0:10:15Operation Boss is engaging with the
0:10:15 > 0:10:17women who are street sex working.
0:10:17 > 0:10:21It's reassuring the community that are affected,
0:10:21 > 0:10:26and it's also enforcing against the guys that curb crawl.
0:10:26 > 0:10:28All the women that are street sex
0:10:28 > 0:10:32working in Bristol are Class A drug addicts.
0:10:32 > 0:10:34They will do the business and then
0:10:34 > 0:10:36they will, straight away, go and score.
0:10:36 > 0:10:37We use the expression of clucking,
0:10:37 > 0:10:40that, you know, that thing of when they're withdrawing,
0:10:40 > 0:10:43the symptoms that they have are just so horrific that actually
0:10:43 > 0:10:45they're just topping up all the time.
0:10:45 > 0:10:49They are the most vulnerable women in Bristol, because they place
0:10:49 > 0:10:52themselves at risk of great danger
0:10:52 > 0:10:54every time they stand on that street corner.
0:10:57 > 0:10:58RADIO: OK, so she's just walking
0:10:58 > 0:11:00down Fishponds Road on the opposite side of the pavement.
0:11:00 > 0:11:03And the man that had walked off with her
0:11:03 > 0:11:06is now walking back up towards her.
0:11:06 > 0:11:10Got about three minutes from pick-up to the sexual activity being
0:11:10 > 0:11:12complete, so we haven't got very long,
0:11:12 > 0:11:14- so this is like our golden couple of minutes.- Ready?- Yeah.
0:11:19 > 0:11:23CAR BEEPS
0:11:23 > 0:11:24In there?
0:11:26 > 0:11:28- There they are.- Police, police. You need to come out.
0:11:28 > 0:11:29Police. You need to come out.
0:11:29 > 0:11:32You need to come out, stay where you are, police, stay where you are.
0:11:32 > 0:11:34You need to stay there. Stay there.
0:11:34 > 0:11:37Because I don't know who you are, I'm going to handcuff you.
0:11:37 > 0:11:38RADIO CHATTER
0:11:38 > 0:11:41Listen. You're being detained at the moment cos I suspect you've
0:11:41 > 0:11:43solicited a prostitute, OK?
0:11:45 > 0:11:48Yeah, we've got the male detained down Sandy Lane by the flat.
0:11:54 > 0:11:58They were found in the tiniest little place.
0:11:58 > 0:11:59It's grim.
0:11:59 > 0:12:03You can't imagine having sex with someone in this location.
0:12:03 > 0:12:07The guy has decided that he wants legal advice so he can't be
0:12:07 > 0:12:10interviewed in the car tonight. He's going to come back by appointment.
0:12:14 > 0:12:17I'm obviously worried about you cos I keep seeing you out sex working.
0:12:17 > 0:12:20- Yeah.- Why are you out tonight?
0:12:21 > 0:12:25Basically, because I've got sort of a drug habit at the moment.
0:12:25 > 0:12:27What drugs are you using?
0:12:27 > 0:12:28Crack and heroin.
0:12:28 > 0:12:30How long have you been using drugs for?
0:12:31 > 0:12:33About eight years, on and off.
0:12:33 > 0:12:36Do you get the same buzz as you got the first time?
0:12:36 > 0:12:37No, no, you never will.
0:12:37 > 0:12:40That's what you're always trying to chase, continuously.
0:12:40 > 0:12:42And what's it like withdrawing from drugs?
0:12:42 > 0:12:46It's unbearable. Hallucinations, agitation,
0:12:46 > 0:12:48it's like the flu but 1000 times worse.
0:12:48 > 0:12:50Do you feel like you're living at the moment?
0:12:50 > 0:12:52My life is on hold at the moment.
0:12:52 > 0:12:53Up until, like, two years ago,
0:12:53 > 0:12:57I spent every Christmas with my family, but two years ago, it was
0:12:57 > 0:13:00the first Christmas I literally spent on my own, didn't have no-one,
0:13:00 > 0:13:01and that's all down to drugs.
0:13:01 > 0:13:03Do you know what I mean? And before
0:13:03 > 0:13:05I know it, another ten years is going to go by, and...
0:13:05 > 0:13:08Well, all I hope is that in a year's time or whatever, you know,
0:13:08 > 0:13:09you and I don't see each other,
0:13:09 > 0:13:12or when we see each other we'll be able to have, you know,
0:13:12 > 0:13:15a conversation around you and it'll be totally different, won't it?
0:13:15 > 0:13:16Yeah. I hope so, definitely.
0:13:23 > 0:13:25RADIO: I've not seen anyone.
0:13:25 > 0:13:28Would you lovely people like a coffee at McDonald's?
0:13:28 > 0:13:30I'll shout you a coffee.
0:13:30 > 0:13:32RADIO: That's very kind, yeah.
0:13:53 > 0:13:56KARYN: I can't actually do anything without taking drugs.
0:14:02 > 0:14:06I find it very hard to have the motivation or energy to have a
0:14:06 > 0:14:09shower, to straighten my hair, do my washing up,
0:14:09 > 0:14:12do anything, without having a hit first.
0:14:15 > 0:14:16I can't do anything.
0:14:36 > 0:14:38This is crack.
0:14:38 > 0:14:40Before I get my money,
0:14:40 > 0:14:43I can't wait, I'm so excited, I can't wait for a smoke.
0:14:43 > 0:14:45And the actual thought of doing it
0:14:45 > 0:14:49is actually better than when I do it, cos when I do it, it's not
0:14:49 > 0:14:51what I want, what I expect it to be.
0:15:15 > 0:15:17I was 13 when I started smoking crack.
0:15:17 > 0:15:1914, 15, when I started doing heroin.
0:15:21 > 0:15:23I used to always run away from the children's home cos I
0:15:23 > 0:15:27wanted to go back to my mum. And I'd run away.
0:15:27 > 0:15:29And I asked someone for a cigarette,
0:15:29 > 0:15:31and she gave it to me and asked what
0:15:31 > 0:15:34I was doing walking through the park late at night.
0:15:34 > 0:15:38And me, being naive and stupid, told her that I'd run away, blah, blah,
0:15:38 > 0:15:40blah, and she said I could stay with her.
0:15:40 > 0:15:42So I did, I went... And she had children,
0:15:42 > 0:15:46so I thought she'd be all right with the woman.
0:15:47 > 0:15:51But they always say, "Be careful of the bad men, the bad man."
0:15:51 > 0:15:53There's lots of bad women out there.
0:15:53 > 0:15:56They don't tell you that. And then she had me smoking crack and then
0:15:56 > 0:15:58sleeping with the drug dealer after.
0:15:59 > 0:16:01So that was how I started.
0:16:01 > 0:16:02And then...
0:16:03 > 0:16:04..I never stopped.
0:16:08 > 0:16:11I don't feel much hatred towards her.
0:16:11 > 0:16:13I feel more hatred towards myself
0:16:13 > 0:16:15for being so naive and fucking stupid.
0:16:15 > 0:16:20But I also have to keep telling myself I was only a youngster.
0:16:20 > 0:16:22I've finished now, just about.
0:16:25 > 0:16:28Everyone tells me that I need to get myself some willpower.
0:16:28 > 0:16:30"Just be strong, get yourself some willpower. Stop, just stop,
0:16:30 > 0:16:32"just don't do it."
0:16:32 > 0:16:33If it was that fucking easy...
0:16:33 > 0:16:36I'd give my right or left arm to have this obsession
0:16:36 > 0:16:37taken away from me.
0:16:38 > 0:16:40It's ruined my life.
0:16:40 > 0:16:41I have no life, but...
0:16:44 > 0:16:47..sometimes, I feel like I'm...
0:16:47 > 0:16:49doing it even against my will, cos I don't want to do it.
0:16:49 > 0:16:53I hate, sometimes, the way it leaves me feeling, but I'm still doing it.
0:16:53 > 0:16:54I don't know why.
0:16:57 > 0:16:59Clean up after myself.
0:17:00 > 0:17:02And not leave anything
0:17:02 > 0:17:04to show that I was even there.
0:17:20 > 0:17:21- ANA:- People kind of call it rock bottom.
0:17:23 > 0:17:26In your lifetime, I think you have various ones.
0:17:26 > 0:17:28But sometimes, you can't see it.
0:17:28 > 0:17:31And sometimes, you can't grab that opportunity to change your life and
0:17:31 > 0:17:33go the right way, you know?
0:17:42 > 0:17:44Do you remember this?
0:17:44 > 0:17:46This is, at, um...
0:17:46 > 0:17:47Ooh, wait, I do.
0:17:47 > 0:17:49- Where am I?- That's you.
0:17:49 > 0:17:51- Is that me?- That's you. Yeah, that's you.
0:17:51 > 0:17:53I remember... I remember having this.
0:17:53 > 0:17:55Why did I put green on my face?
0:17:55 > 0:17:59- VOICEOVER:- Going through detox and rehab over and over again, it's,
0:17:59 > 0:18:04like, really hard, but I really admire my mum for doing it.
0:18:04 > 0:18:06It's really kind of inspiring.
0:18:08 > 0:18:12These photos are of me when I moved to London...
0:18:12 > 0:18:13Mmm.
0:18:13 > 0:18:16..where I did a lot of my using.
0:18:17 > 0:18:20- Who's that, is that you?- That's me.
0:18:20 > 0:18:23This was me and a couple of Portuguese mates
0:18:23 > 0:18:25just rolling a joint, I think.
0:18:27 > 0:18:31That's another friend of mine who died of Aids many, many years ago.
0:18:31 > 0:18:34She had this baby over here.
0:18:34 > 0:18:36- Who's that?- And he's dead as well.
0:18:36 > 0:18:37He's the husband.
0:18:37 > 0:18:39They were both HIV positive as well.
0:18:39 > 0:18:43They both died with Aids at some point, her and him.
0:18:43 > 0:18:44Yeah.
0:18:44 > 0:18:48They also ended up catching HIV and
0:18:48 > 0:18:50dying from Aids at some point.
0:18:51 > 0:18:56If I think just about, kind of, partners and boyfriends that died
0:18:56 > 0:18:58from, you know, active addiction, as a result of, you know,
0:18:58 > 0:19:00all the drugs they took, there was...
0:19:03 > 0:19:09..one, two, three, four, five...
0:19:09 > 0:19:11There was eight that I can count.
0:19:12 > 0:19:16I'm one of the few who, kind of, not just survived it,
0:19:16 > 0:19:19but stopped taking drugs.
0:19:19 > 0:19:24There's not really that many people from my adolescence and, kind of,
0:19:24 > 0:19:26early adulthood that have survived it.
0:19:29 > 0:19:31The turning point was when I
0:19:31 > 0:19:36developed a type of pneumonia and I got really ill.
0:19:36 > 0:19:39So ill that, "If I don't change my life,
0:19:39 > 0:19:41"I'm going to die," kind of thing.
0:19:41 > 0:19:44"If I don't stop taking drugs, I'm going to die."
0:19:45 > 0:19:47SHE COUGHS
0:19:47 > 0:19:48DOG WHIMPERS
0:19:58 > 0:20:02Residential treatment is probably the best place, really,
0:20:02 > 0:20:04for you to be successful.
0:20:06 > 0:20:09There's lots of practical care that
0:20:09 > 0:20:11they provide that makes you feel like
0:20:11 > 0:20:16this is the most comfortable and cosy way in which I could detox,
0:20:16 > 0:20:18which really helped.
0:20:18 > 0:20:21- Can you manage those? Can I give you a hand?- I'll be OK, thanks.
0:20:23 > 0:20:25- Nice to see you.- Yeah, thank you, and you.
0:20:27 > 0:20:29I've been reducing my methadone...
0:20:29 > 0:20:32- OK, excellent.- ..and I've come to detox off of it.
0:20:32 > 0:20:35- Mmm. Mmm.- Unfortunately, another little mild heroin detox, er,
0:20:35 > 0:20:38alcohol detox, and I was using a bit of heroin, the week before I
0:20:38 > 0:20:41- came in.- Yeah. Yeah.- And some crack.
0:20:41 > 0:20:43I've hit a few rock bottoms.
0:20:43 > 0:20:46I've lost six friends in the last four years.
0:20:46 > 0:20:49- Mmm, I'm really sorry to hear that. - You know, for years, I...
0:20:49 > 0:20:52I could use and drink, and people wouldn't notice.
0:20:52 > 0:20:55- OK, yeah.- It was getting to the point where it was very obvious
0:20:55 > 0:20:56something was wrong.
0:20:56 > 0:21:02- Sure.- And...and, um, I could just see it ending in death or jail.
0:21:02 > 0:21:05- Yeah.- And also, I feel I've got a lot to offer.
0:21:05 > 0:21:07- There's stuff I want to do. I want to live life.- Sure.
0:21:07 > 0:21:09- I want to see things, experience things.- Yeah.
0:21:09 > 0:21:12And, weirdly, for the first time in my life, like,
0:21:12 > 0:21:15I've started thinking that perhaps I'd like children.
0:21:15 > 0:21:16OK. Yeah, yeah.
0:21:16 > 0:21:18- Yeah, so...- A few of my cousins have recently had kids...
0:21:18 > 0:21:20- Mmm.- ..and they're amazing.
0:21:20 > 0:21:21Yeah. Yeah.
0:21:21 > 0:21:24VOICEOVER: I started using heroin when I was about 21.
0:21:24 > 0:21:27I didn't get fully addicted till I was about 23.
0:21:27 > 0:21:29So, it's about 12 years.
0:21:31 > 0:21:38The main reason I was taking it is to cover up huge amounts of trauma -
0:21:38 > 0:21:42being abused as a teenager,
0:21:42 > 0:21:43my parents splitting up,
0:21:43 > 0:21:48my relationship with my dad falling apart, being in a house fire.
0:21:50 > 0:21:52As I was stood there in the street
0:21:52 > 0:21:54watching my whole life burn down,
0:21:54 > 0:21:58a heroin dealer passed me and offered me some heroin,
0:21:58 > 0:22:03and...that was a better solution than killing myself.
0:22:05 > 0:22:06It took all my pain away.
0:22:08 > 0:22:10Heroin saved my life.
0:22:10 > 0:22:14And some people might not be able to understand that,
0:22:14 > 0:22:15but that was the reality.
0:22:17 > 0:22:22You get so wrapped up in yourself and your addiction, sometimes,
0:22:22 > 0:22:25you can't see the damage that you're doing to other people.
0:22:25 > 0:22:29But I started to realise how much I'm hurting my family.
0:22:29 > 0:22:31How much, you know, I'm hurting my mum.
0:22:34 > 0:22:37I... I got to a place of hopelessness.
0:22:38 > 0:22:41I've tried to kill myself through overdosing.
0:22:41 > 0:22:43I've ended up injecting in my groin.
0:22:43 > 0:22:45I've had a needle snap off in my groin.
0:22:47 > 0:22:52If I don't stop, like, I'm going to lose my family, lose my limbs.
0:22:52 > 0:22:54And ultimately, I could die.
0:23:04 > 0:23:09It must be a constant battle to be able to resist that temptation.
0:23:09 > 0:23:11And I think, for those of us that haven't had that,
0:23:11 > 0:23:15we really don't know what that must feel like.
0:23:15 > 0:23:19I think those people deserve all of our support,
0:23:19 > 0:23:22whichever way or form we administer that.
0:23:22 > 0:23:24For me, it might be arresting somebody.
0:23:24 > 0:23:25Ben!
0:23:25 > 0:23:30But maybe that's the start of the next two years of their recovery.
0:23:30 > 0:23:34Or, hopefully, the beginning of the end of their addiction.
0:23:34 > 0:23:37This is the footage from the 24-hour shop.
0:23:37 > 0:23:41- Yeah.- It's 20 past six in the morning, just after the burglary.
0:23:43 > 0:23:46- That's the trainers.- It's the exact same trainers, as well.- The hoodie.
0:23:47 > 0:23:50That's the stolen credit card from the burglary he's using.
0:23:50 > 0:23:52It's all contactless there, so...
0:23:52 > 0:23:54- It's all contactless.- ..it's easy.
0:23:54 > 0:23:56That's definitely him, yeah.
0:23:56 > 0:24:00But the one thing that you haven't got is his face.
0:24:01 > 0:24:03Yeah. There you go. See, as soon as he comes in,
0:24:03 > 0:24:05he's sort of bending over.
0:24:05 > 0:24:07At no point does he look at the camera,
0:24:07 > 0:24:09or do you get a clear shot of his face.
0:24:10 > 0:24:14So, on that basis, he's going to get bail.
0:24:14 > 0:24:17Yeah. You can't 100% ID him cos you haven't got his face, have you?
0:24:17 > 0:24:19No.
0:24:19 > 0:24:21HE SIGHS
0:24:22 > 0:24:26So now is the difficult bit, because I've got to go and tell the victim.
0:24:36 > 0:24:38There we go, then. 8.29, all right?
0:24:38 > 0:24:41See you later on, my babs, all right?
0:24:42 > 0:24:45First of all, we thought we just misplaced a few things.
0:24:45 > 0:24:48It weren't until I got a phone call from my wife saying that her bag's
0:24:48 > 0:24:51missing, our cards have all gone.
0:24:51 > 0:24:53The laptop was missing, gold earrings was missing,
0:24:53 > 0:24:55the baby's changing bag was missing.
0:24:55 > 0:24:58I can't stand him, honestly can't stand him.
0:24:58 > 0:24:59Wait till he's breaking into your
0:24:59 > 0:25:01home and taking your stuff when your kids are upstairs.
0:25:01 > 0:25:03See how YOU feel.
0:25:04 > 0:25:05Do you know what I mean?
0:25:06 > 0:25:08I get it - as a police officer,
0:25:08 > 0:25:12I understand that we need such a high level of proof.
0:25:12 > 0:25:15But as the victim, quite rightly,
0:25:15 > 0:25:17he's not going to be able to understand.
0:25:18 > 0:25:20We get people in here who are obviously on drugs.
0:25:20 > 0:25:23They're not breaking into our house or the shop,
0:25:23 > 0:25:25they're not breaking into the cars. Do you see what I mean?
0:25:25 > 0:25:27There's just...zero excuse for that.
0:25:27 > 0:25:29None whatsoever.
0:25:30 > 0:25:33I'm not your favourite officer, am I?
0:25:33 > 0:25:34So, it was...
0:25:34 > 0:25:38It was hard yesterday because all we've got is a guy
0:25:38 > 0:25:40in a crack house...
0:25:40 > 0:25:42- Yeah.- ..with clothing around the place that we can
0:25:42 > 0:25:43link to the CCTV shot.
0:25:43 > 0:25:45So this is the items of clothing that we've got.
0:25:45 > 0:25:47I think we've got the trainers.
0:25:47 > 0:25:50- Yeah.- The jeans, perfect.
0:25:50 > 0:25:52And we've definitely got that hi-vis jacket,
0:25:52 > 0:25:53the sleeveless hi-vis jacket.
0:25:53 > 0:25:56So, but we haven't got any face shots.
0:25:56 > 0:25:59It's frustrating for you cos someone's burgled your house and
0:25:59 > 0:26:01- your kids are upstairs.- Yeah.- I know, I get it.
0:26:01 > 0:26:04I'm not allowed to know where he lives, or what he does, where he
0:26:04 > 0:26:06goes, but he knows everything about me.
0:26:06 > 0:26:08- Yeah.- He knows what I look like and my kids look like.
0:26:08 > 0:26:09He knows what my missus looks like.
0:26:09 > 0:26:11My laptop had pictures of my kids on, as well.
0:26:11 > 0:26:14He knows all of that, but I'm not allowed to know nothing.
0:26:14 > 0:26:17And this is where it feels like the victims get left out the loop and
0:26:17 > 0:26:20- the attention's on the...- Yeah.- The rights are all on the person...
0:26:20 > 0:26:21- Yeah.- Yeah, I know, I know.
0:26:21 > 0:26:23I completely understand.
0:26:23 > 0:26:26All I would say, though, is I know you're passionate about it and you
0:26:26 > 0:26:28want someone. I want someone, as well.
0:26:28 > 0:26:31- Yeah.- And I'm confident we'll get there, just leave it to us.
0:26:31 > 0:26:34- Yeah.- And we'll do our thing.- Yeah, I know. Obviously if anything
0:26:34 > 0:26:35happens to him now, I'm the first person
0:26:35 > 0:26:37they're going to knock on the door for.
0:26:37 > 0:26:39- Yeah.- Yeah, I know that.- Let us do our thing.
0:26:39 > 0:26:42- I know you're frustrated, but... - Yeah, it is, it's annoying.
0:26:42 > 0:26:44- All right. Cheers, Andre.- Cheers, mate.- Cheers.
0:26:48 > 0:26:50Why do you let him out? You just want a whole world of pain to come
0:26:50 > 0:26:51down, don't you, really?
0:26:51 > 0:26:53- Yeah, course you do.- You see what I mean?
0:26:53 > 0:26:55In Saudi Arabia they don't put them in prison,
0:26:55 > 0:26:58they cut their hands off. They don't care who's upstairs.
0:26:58 > 0:26:59That's it, they don't care.
0:26:59 > 0:27:02If he's got that much of an addiction that he's got to
0:27:02 > 0:27:04keep doing it, what's going to stop him hurting someone?
0:27:04 > 0:27:08And anyone who knows me, you can ask them. I am nice... I'm a nice chap.
0:27:08 > 0:27:10But someone does that...
0:27:11 > 0:27:14..I wouldn't throw a bucket of water on if they were on fire.
0:27:28 > 0:27:31ALARM BEEPS
0:27:39 > 0:27:40COUGHING
0:27:40 > 0:27:41Oh, bloody hell!
0:27:43 > 0:27:44SHE COUGHS
0:27:44 > 0:27:46I need some water.
0:27:49 > 0:27:51What's this cough, Blake?
0:27:52 > 0:27:54Ah, God.
0:27:56 > 0:27:58- RITA:- I'm not a young carer or anything,
0:27:58 > 0:28:01but I think I kind of have the mentality of one.
0:28:02 > 0:28:04If there was one thing I could do for my mum,
0:28:04 > 0:28:07I would make all her illnesses go away.
0:28:08 > 0:28:12She's gotten rid of one really big illness already, which is Hep C.
0:28:12 > 0:28:15But she's still got HIV and loads of other medical problems that really
0:28:15 > 0:28:18kind of set her back.
0:28:18 > 0:28:20SHE COUGHS
0:28:20 > 0:28:22Oh, that does nothing.
0:28:22 > 0:28:23I don't know what to do!
0:28:23 > 0:28:26- You're tapping my shoulder, rather than my back.- That help?
0:28:26 > 0:28:27SHE COUGHS
0:28:27 > 0:28:30It's just not nice to see your mum that way,
0:28:30 > 0:28:32cos she's ill all the time.
0:28:32 > 0:28:36You've been coughing loads today and, like, you've only just got up.
0:28:36 > 0:28:37I feel like a 90-year or
0:28:37 > 0:28:40100-year-old woman when that happens.
0:28:40 > 0:28:41It's just horrible.
0:28:41 > 0:28:45What you should do is the one time when you get it really bad,
0:28:45 > 0:28:46then just relax.
0:28:46 > 0:28:49Like, literally don't do anything, you just look after yourself.
0:28:49 > 0:28:51Like, eat food. Literally don't do anything,
0:28:51 > 0:28:54- and then I bet you'll get better really quickly.- Yeah.
0:28:54 > 0:28:57Love you too. OK, bye.
0:29:00 > 0:29:02- Be good.- Yeah.
0:29:06 > 0:29:08- Bye!- Bye!
0:29:09 > 0:29:11SHE COUGHS
0:29:11 > 0:29:12Oh, no.
0:29:16 > 0:29:19To me, HIV was just a disease that my mum had.
0:29:19 > 0:29:22I could have got it from my mum giving birth to me,
0:29:22 > 0:29:25but they had all these measures to stop that from happening.
0:29:25 > 0:29:28But it's like a disease that's seen as, very kind of, hush-hush,
0:29:28 > 0:29:30don't talk about it, it's a bad thing to have.
0:29:30 > 0:29:33And you don't kind of realise that when you're a kid,
0:29:33 > 0:29:36because you've grown up with this mum who's open, like,
0:29:36 > 0:29:38to talking about it. She talks about
0:29:38 > 0:29:40it with her friends, her friends are fine with it.
0:29:40 > 0:29:43So you just have this kind of accepting bubble that you live in.
0:29:44 > 0:29:46That's why he hangs around, isn't it?
0:29:51 > 0:29:56To my friends, drugs are just things that are recreational.
0:29:56 > 0:29:59And you take them for fun and they're not really anything serious.
0:30:01 > 0:30:05But with me, because of my parents, it's something entirely different.
0:30:05 > 0:30:07It's just hard to understand why
0:30:07 > 0:30:09anyone would go near them in the first place.
0:30:18 > 0:30:21TOM: To get rid of the opiates from my system,
0:30:21 > 0:30:25I'm here for two weeks doing a detox
0:30:25 > 0:30:29with as much medical and psychological support as possible.
0:30:29 > 0:30:32- How are you?- You know,
0:30:32 > 0:30:33bearing up.
0:30:33 > 0:30:37I've been really shaking and sweating a lot.
0:30:38 > 0:30:41If you could just relax that arm for me, that'd be great.
0:30:44 > 0:30:47Are you normally anxious, or is this anxiety to do with withdrawing?
0:30:47 > 0:30:50Some of the anxiety's definitely to do with withdrawal.
0:30:50 > 0:30:53OK, cos we've got some anti-anxiety medication.
0:30:54 > 0:31:00Coming into a detox unit, it's about ten times easier than a cold turkey.
0:31:03 > 0:31:07Before, I just thought it was, you know, like a physical thing.
0:31:07 > 0:31:10But the fact of the matter is it's, you know, it's far deeper than that.
0:31:10 > 0:31:14It's...it's a physical, mental, emotional and a spiritual thing.
0:31:14 > 0:31:16Any drug cravings?
0:31:16 > 0:31:19Erm, I'm not really...
0:31:20 > 0:31:22..craving drugs.
0:31:22 > 0:31:23Just that thought that,
0:31:23 > 0:31:26"Well, you might get away with using," keeps popping into my head.
0:31:30 > 0:31:35I've actually got clean four times before,
0:31:35 > 0:31:40but I've relapsed every time because I've never really looked at myself,
0:31:40 > 0:31:43my pain, my traumas, my character defects.
0:32:03 > 0:32:07- RITA:- My dad died when I was 11 because of addiction.
0:32:08 > 0:32:12We both went to Gloucester Cathedral when I was younger, and I had a
0:32:12 > 0:32:13really nice memory from that.
0:32:16 > 0:32:21I think I've still kind of got a very fluffy view of him.
0:32:21 > 0:32:22Because I am aware that, you know,
0:32:22 > 0:32:26he made really bad choices and definitely wasn't the perfect dad.
0:32:29 > 0:32:34And I love focusing on the good memories and the good things he did.
0:32:34 > 0:32:38And I think, overall, they outweigh the bad things.
0:32:39 > 0:32:41So this is where you sat with him.
0:32:41 > 0:32:45We were standing over there and he was looking up at that window,
0:32:45 > 0:32:48and then I saw him crying.
0:32:48 > 0:32:52And I asked him why, and he said because it was so beautiful.
0:32:52 > 0:32:54- Aw!- And I didn't really get it then.
0:32:54 > 0:32:59- Yeah.- I just thought, "I guess he liked it cos he worked here."
0:32:59 > 0:33:00- Yeah.- But now I kind of do.
0:33:01 > 0:33:03It's just really sad.
0:33:04 > 0:33:06So sad that he's not around any more.
0:33:06 > 0:33:10So sad that he, you know, can't do the things he loved any more.
0:33:11 > 0:33:14So sad that he chose to go down the
0:33:14 > 0:33:17road that just kind of had him dead
0:33:17 > 0:33:20when he was 50. I'm going to be 50 this year, you know.
0:33:20 > 0:33:24And just kind of thinking, actually, with the life I'm leading and,
0:33:24 > 0:33:27you know, and my health and stuff,
0:33:27 > 0:33:32it looks like I actually have some prospects of kind of being around
0:33:32 > 0:33:36for a while, you know? Seeing you grow up, growing older.
0:33:36 > 0:33:39Maybe having children, you know, and all that kind of stuff, you know?
0:33:39 > 0:33:42Like, you remember a couple months before he died,
0:33:42 > 0:33:45I wrote him that letter saying that if I didn't see him, it would
0:33:45 > 0:33:50give him, like, a push to, like, get better.
0:33:50 > 0:33:52And I kind of...
0:33:52 > 0:33:53I wanted him to, like...
0:33:55 > 0:33:57..I thought he was close to getting better.
0:34:04 > 0:34:06SHE CRIES
0:34:06 > 0:34:07Cuddle?
0:34:11 > 0:34:13And then he just got worse.
0:34:16 > 0:34:19The thing is, he probably...
0:34:19 > 0:34:21you know, he didn't want it bad enough, did he?
0:34:21 > 0:34:26Cos otherwise he would have. He would have got better, Rita.
0:34:26 > 0:34:27But he just kind of...
0:34:29 > 0:34:33..decided it wasn't worth it, which is just so, so sad,
0:34:33 > 0:34:36cos he was such a special person, wasn't he?
0:34:36 > 0:34:40He could have done so much more with his life if he had stuck around and
0:34:40 > 0:34:42kind of made the right choices, really.
0:34:42 > 0:34:45Even when he was in hospital, even then,
0:34:45 > 0:34:48I had this kind of vision of the future where, like,
0:34:48 > 0:34:50I'd help him get better
0:34:50 > 0:34:53and he wouldn't, like, ever go near the stuff again.
0:34:53 > 0:34:54And it would be like...
0:34:54 > 0:34:59He would be, like, the dad I always wanted him to be.
0:34:59 > 0:35:03Well, I suppose that's the thing about addiction being more powerful
0:35:03 > 0:35:06than anything, isn't it?
0:35:06 > 0:35:10And especially being more powerful than whatever love you have for
0:35:10 > 0:35:13your, you know, for your family.
0:35:13 > 0:35:16In this case, for him, it was his love for you, wasn't it?
0:35:33 > 0:35:36My biggest fear is...
0:35:36 > 0:35:39ultimately, ending up like my dad.
0:35:41 > 0:35:47Just cos you leave so many people behind with so many questions
0:35:47 > 0:35:49that, you know, you can't answer, and you can't help them.
0:36:03 > 0:36:05One25's unique to Bristol.
0:36:06 > 0:36:08It's a charity that's successful
0:36:08 > 0:36:12in getting women out of the vicious
0:36:12 > 0:36:16cycle of drug use and sex work.
0:36:16 > 0:36:19It's just an amazingly safe-feeling place.
0:36:20 > 0:36:22Only women are allowed in.
0:36:24 > 0:36:27Karyn's been a drug user for many years.
0:36:27 > 0:36:28Lots of childhood problems.
0:36:28 > 0:36:30Lots of abuse problems.
0:36:30 > 0:36:33After 20 years with heavy drug use,
0:36:33 > 0:36:35about five years ago,
0:36:35 > 0:36:39she was noticed to have deteriorating renal function,
0:36:39 > 0:36:41diagnosed as chronic renal failure,
0:36:41 > 0:36:45which we've been monitoring over the last...I'd say, yeah,
0:36:45 > 0:36:48three to four years, slowly deteriorating.
0:36:51 > 0:36:55She definitely will die if she doesn't start dialysis this year.
0:36:58 > 0:37:02And when I went with her to see the renal consultant,
0:37:02 > 0:37:07she asked him how she would die if she chose not to start, and...
0:37:10 > 0:37:12..dying from renal failure isn't a bad death.
0:37:12 > 0:37:14You just, kind of... Toxins build up
0:37:14 > 0:37:18and you just gradually become sleepier, and...
0:37:18 > 0:37:20it's not a painful death.
0:37:20 > 0:37:23It could be quite an attractive way to die if you're a drug user,
0:37:23 > 0:37:26so it's a real difficult decision for her.
0:37:29 > 0:37:32But, yeah, my pain's pretty well-managed at the moment.
0:37:32 > 0:37:36OK. And is there a problem with getting the patches changed every 72
0:37:36 > 0:37:38hours, as opposed to having one that you change weekly?
0:37:38 > 0:37:41Sometimes I put them on a day early.
0:37:41 > 0:37:42If the pain's really bad, I've put
0:37:42 > 0:37:44it on a day early to try and avoid...
0:37:44 > 0:37:47- Do you?- ..me using. It's what I've been doing to avoid me using.
0:37:47 > 0:37:49- And I don't know if that's... - And you're not using?
0:37:49 > 0:37:50And I'm not using, no.
0:37:50 > 0:37:52And you said it's been six days?
0:37:52 > 0:37:54It's been six days. Seven days tomorrow, yeah.
0:37:54 > 0:37:57Fantastic. And that's really good, Karyn. That's really, really good.
0:37:57 > 0:37:59You've not been using!
0:37:59 > 0:38:01I mean, to think how bad it was.
0:38:01 > 0:38:04And you're at the hostel and you're feeling safer there.
0:38:04 > 0:38:06Yeah, and I'm doing more things round the hostel,
0:38:06 > 0:38:09cooking and getting involved in
0:38:09 > 0:38:11- other stuff going on in the hostel. - OK.
0:38:13 > 0:38:14And I'm going to do dialysis now.
0:38:14 > 0:38:16- You're...?- I am going to do it.
0:38:16 > 0:38:20- You are?- How am I going to tell my brother and sister that I'm not
0:38:20 > 0:38:22going to do it, that I'm just going to kill myself?
0:38:22 > 0:38:25I've got two nephews. How am I going to tell them that I'm just going to
0:38:25 > 0:38:28kill myself? I don't even know where to begin that conversation with
0:38:28 > 0:38:30them, so I'm not going to.
0:38:30 > 0:38:33I'm going to do dialysis, so...
0:38:33 > 0:38:35- So, yeah.- Oh, that's brilliant, love.
0:38:35 > 0:38:38- Really, really pleased that you feel like that.- Thank you.
0:38:40 > 0:38:42THEY LAUGH
0:38:46 > 0:38:49So, welcome, everyone. So, today is your first community meeting.
0:38:49 > 0:38:52So what we do is we go round, introduce ourselves,
0:38:52 > 0:38:54say a little bit how we're feeling,
0:38:54 > 0:38:55and then afterwards we'll just
0:38:55 > 0:38:57discuss if there's any community issues.
0:38:57 > 0:39:00Is there anybody that would like to start?
0:39:00 > 0:39:03- Anybody?- Suppose I better start as I've been here the longest.
0:39:03 > 0:39:06I'm Tom. I've been here a week.
0:39:06 > 0:39:09It's going surprisingly well.
0:39:09 > 0:39:12Physically, it's the easiest detox I've ever done.
0:39:12 > 0:39:16Starting to get my emotions back for the first time in ages.
0:39:16 > 0:39:19That's a bit weird. I woke up this morning and started crying for no
0:39:19 > 0:39:21reason, don't know why. Just burst into tears.
0:39:21 > 0:39:23Hadn't cried for God knows how long.
0:39:23 > 0:39:24Well, since I was last here...
0:39:24 > 0:39:26- HE LAUGHS - ..probably!
0:39:27 > 0:39:31- VOICEOVER:- The anger, the sadness, the remorse, guilt -
0:39:31 > 0:39:34all of those experiences come rushing back.
0:39:35 > 0:39:39The one thing that has emerged over
0:39:39 > 0:39:41this week is I've never,
0:39:41 > 0:39:44ever managed to get over my parents
0:39:44 > 0:39:46splitting up and my dad leaving,
0:39:46 > 0:39:51the way that it happened, and the deterioration of our relationship.
0:39:51 > 0:39:55But now I'm at a point where, in my mind, I've forgiven him.
0:39:55 > 0:39:57OK.
0:39:57 > 0:40:03And, yeah, I just, you know, I want my dad back, you know.
0:40:03 > 0:40:05I want to live a normal, happy life.
0:40:05 > 0:40:07I want to be a son to my mum.
0:40:07 > 0:40:09I want to be, you know, there for my brother.
0:40:12 > 0:40:15My young brother Nathan's coming, and this will be the first visit
0:40:15 > 0:40:17from him whilst I've been here.
0:40:18 > 0:40:21I'm feeling nervous, really nervous.
0:40:21 > 0:40:23But it's going to be really good to see him.
0:40:23 > 0:40:24I'm sure it'll be quite emotional.
0:40:24 > 0:40:28Hopefully he'll be really pleased with, you know, my progress.
0:40:28 > 0:40:31I'll leave you to it, guys.
0:40:31 > 0:40:32- All right?- Ha, ha.
0:40:32 > 0:40:33THEY SIGH
0:40:35 > 0:40:36How you feeling, bro?
0:40:37 > 0:40:40- You look good.- Thank you.
0:40:43 > 0:40:47I'm off everything and I feel better, I guess.
0:40:47 > 0:40:50- I just did a lot more work on the build-up to this.- Yeah.
0:40:50 > 0:40:52Like, I wasn't using anywhere near as much.
0:40:52 > 0:40:55- Yeah, yeah.- I just did it properly, really.
0:40:55 > 0:40:56When do you leave?
0:40:56 > 0:40:59- Monday.- OK.
0:40:59 > 0:41:00Right.
0:41:01 > 0:41:03How you feeling?
0:41:04 > 0:41:08Nervous, excited, happy, worried.
0:41:08 > 0:41:11- Yeah.- You name it.
0:41:11 > 0:41:12- It's going to be great.- Yeah.
0:41:12 > 0:41:15Well, hopefully.
0:41:15 > 0:41:16Yeah.
0:41:17 > 0:41:20- VOICEOVER:- I kept it secret from him for quite a long time.
0:41:20 > 0:41:22Cos he's ten years younger and I wanted to protect from it.
0:41:22 > 0:41:25And I guess cos our dad wasn't about,
0:41:25 > 0:41:28he looked up to me as a role model,
0:41:28 > 0:41:31so I feel that I've really let him down because of that.
0:41:33 > 0:41:36Hopefully, I'll be able to, you know, have a strong recovery and
0:41:36 > 0:41:38make, find ways to make things up to him.
0:41:40 > 0:41:42Nice one, man. Take care.
0:42:10 > 0:42:13We're having healthy option food tonight.
0:42:13 > 0:42:18Which just kind of means meat, maybe some halloumi, some salad,
0:42:18 > 0:42:20some sauce in a pitta.
0:42:20 > 0:42:22If you've got a bit of coriander in there and a bit of hummus, it's
0:42:22 > 0:42:24- technically, like...- It's healthy.
0:42:24 > 0:42:26Right, we've got information that's come in.
0:42:26 > 0:42:30Tony, the burglar, is somewhere around those flats.
0:42:30 > 0:42:31He's been seen in the area.
0:42:35 > 0:42:37And the good news is he slipped up.
0:42:37 > 0:42:40His face is now on CCTV using stolen
0:42:40 > 0:42:43credit cards after the burglary.
0:42:43 > 0:42:45This time, he's not going to get bail.
0:42:53 > 0:42:54Right, here we are.
0:42:58 > 0:43:01So I'm reckoning we just sit tight for a bit.
0:43:01 > 0:43:04If they've already gone back out,
0:43:04 > 0:43:05and then they come across this way,
0:43:05 > 0:43:07the first time they're going to see
0:43:07 > 0:43:10us is when they're pretty much head on, and we'll make a positive ID.
0:43:10 > 0:43:12And then we'll literally just go out and grab them.
0:43:12 > 0:43:13If he gets arrested tonight,
0:43:13 > 0:43:17then we stop people's houses getting broken into for the next few nights.
0:43:17 > 0:43:20- Cos...- He's just on a spree, isn't he?- He is, a mad one.
0:43:20 > 0:43:23He must be desperate if he's breaking into people's houses
0:43:23 > 0:43:24when they're asleep upstairs.
0:43:24 > 0:43:27Not just morally, but because of the risk to them as well -
0:43:27 > 0:43:31- the homeowner coming downstairs and smashing their face in.- Yeah.
0:43:31 > 0:43:32I'll go and have a recce inside...
0:43:32 > 0:43:34- Yeah.- ..go and have a look at some of the doors,
0:43:34 > 0:43:36see if any of them look shit.
0:43:36 > 0:43:38Yeah. Right, be safe.
0:43:38 > 0:43:39In a bit.
0:43:52 > 0:43:55That's our man. Get ready.
0:44:01 > 0:44:03CAR HONKS
0:44:05 > 0:44:07INDISTINCT RADIO CHATTER
0:44:07 > 0:44:09Let me have a look at your ID.
0:44:09 > 0:44:11Right, I'm going to spray you, so let your hands go.
0:44:11 > 0:44:13- Right, I've arrested you before.- Can I look at your ID, please?
0:44:13 > 0:44:15Right, Tony, I'm going to spray you...
0:44:15 > 0:44:17HORNS HONK
0:44:18 > 0:44:20..cos one of us is going to get run over in a minute.
0:44:27 > 0:44:28Right.
0:44:31 > 0:44:32Right, you're under arrest, by me...
0:44:34 > 0:44:36..for burglary at Freedom Terrace.
0:44:36 > 0:44:39You're linked to that offence by CCTV.
0:44:39 > 0:44:41SIRENS WAIL
0:44:41 > 0:44:42RADIO CHATTER
0:44:43 > 0:44:45Bring him up.
0:44:48 > 0:44:49- I haven't searched him yet.- OK.
0:45:06 > 0:45:10It does really feel like, at times, that there's no end in sight.
0:45:10 > 0:45:13It feels like the handcuffs that you're putting on that individual
0:45:13 > 0:45:15today, you're going to be here next week,
0:45:15 > 0:45:17next month, next year doing exactly the same again.
0:45:19 > 0:45:22People are allowed to go through this revolving door of the criminal
0:45:22 > 0:45:24justice system, year after year,
0:45:24 > 0:45:26decade after decade,
0:45:26 > 0:45:28but will go back to the addiction.
0:45:34 > 0:45:39What would you put your lack of memory down to?
0:45:39 > 0:45:40- Drugs.- OK.
0:45:40 > 0:45:43- What drugs are we talking about, Tony?- Heroin and crack.
0:45:43 > 0:45:45Heroin and crack.
0:45:46 > 0:45:48And how often do you use heroin?
0:45:48 > 0:45:52- Every day.- How often do you use crack?
0:45:52 > 0:45:53Every day.
0:45:53 > 0:45:57- How much heroin do you use a day?- Much as I can get me hands on.
0:45:58 > 0:46:03Do you want to talk to me at all about your current lifestyle?
0:46:03 > 0:46:05I've been on drugs all my life.
0:46:05 > 0:46:06I've come to Bristol...
0:46:08 > 0:46:09Yeah, come up here for a new start.
0:46:09 > 0:46:10Yeah.
0:46:10 > 0:46:14It's been going well and then I sort of split up with my girlfriend about
0:46:14 > 0:46:16two year ago.
0:46:16 > 0:46:19- Two years ago.- Oh, no, not even, about a year ago.
0:46:19 > 0:46:23- OK.- Yeah, about a year ago, and just got slowly back involved with drugs.
0:46:25 > 0:46:28- So you spiralled back into drug use about a year ago, did you?- Yeah.
0:46:29 > 0:46:31And I haven't been able to get back out of it.
0:46:31 > 0:46:33OK.
0:46:35 > 0:46:36BEN: From a government level,
0:46:36 > 0:46:40there has to be more emphasis on tackling the addiction.
0:46:41 > 0:46:43I think that if we were to do that,
0:46:43 > 0:46:45then we would have less people
0:46:45 > 0:46:47committing acquisitive crime.
0:46:55 > 0:46:57Come on, boy.
0:47:02 > 0:47:09I really appreciate how precious and how, sometimes, short life can be,
0:47:09 > 0:47:13so I try to live in the moment and as fullest as I can.
0:47:15 > 0:47:19But I still have an illness that limits my quality of life because of
0:47:19 > 0:47:21the drugs.
0:47:21 > 0:47:24A third of the time, I'm unable to look after myself, you know.
0:47:26 > 0:47:30Pip stands for Personal Independence Payment,
0:47:30 > 0:47:33and it's basically the financial help
0:47:33 > 0:47:36to allow me to live independently.
0:47:37 > 0:47:43Like the days that I can't look after myself or look after my
0:47:43 > 0:47:45daughter or look after the dog,
0:47:45 > 0:47:50then I've got some kind of funds to get in a taxi and
0:47:50 > 0:47:54still kind of, you know, go to my hospital appointment.
0:47:58 > 0:48:02I've just had my Pip entitlement denied.
0:48:05 > 0:48:06And I disagree with that decision.
0:48:07 > 0:48:12And now the next step is to go through the appeal process.
0:48:18 > 0:48:21OK. So we've basically done your Pip application.
0:48:21 > 0:48:22You've been to the medical.
0:48:22 > 0:48:24And this is their decision...
0:48:27 > 0:48:31..which was to award zero points for every area.
0:48:31 > 0:48:34- I feel like she didn't hear me. - Mmm-hmm.
0:48:34 > 0:48:36I feel like she didn't hear me.
0:48:36 > 0:48:40I felt like she didn't really have great understanding, you know,
0:48:40 > 0:48:42of my medical condition.
0:48:42 > 0:48:47She didn't seem to understand what was the effects of living with HIV
0:48:47 > 0:48:51and what was the side-effects from being on long-term medication.
0:48:51 > 0:48:54I mean, really, it's the complex medical history and the long-term
0:48:54 > 0:48:59- effects of having lived with HIV for 25 years.- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
0:48:59 > 0:49:02Hep C for...however long.
0:49:02 > 0:49:04Well, Hep C since I was 18, really.
0:49:04 > 0:49:06I got rid of it two years ago, but...
0:49:06 > 0:49:09- But ultimately I would be expecting it to go to tribunal.- Mmm.
0:49:11 > 0:49:14And I think that is the best place, given...
0:49:15 > 0:49:18- Mmm.- ..such a poor outcome at this level,
0:49:18 > 0:49:20for them to really hear your case.
0:49:20 > 0:49:23Even in those areas that I think,
0:49:23 > 0:49:25you know, I've got no difficulties whatsoever,
0:49:25 > 0:49:27- at times I do, you know.- Mmm-hmm, mmm-hmm.
0:49:27 > 0:49:31It's just, like, I don't want to acknowledge it, cos if I acknowledge
0:49:31 > 0:49:34it I feel like I've lost, you know.
0:49:34 > 0:49:37I've lost this, kind of...
0:49:37 > 0:49:39life that I've been trying to build for myself.
0:49:39 > 0:49:43- And trying to be as independent as I can be.- Mmm-hmm.
0:49:44 > 0:49:45It's had such a...
0:49:47 > 0:49:49..impact in my kind of wellbeing,
0:49:49 > 0:49:52- that I just kind of want it over and done with.- Mmm-hmm.
0:49:58 > 0:50:00TOM: After a two-week detox...
0:50:01 > 0:50:03..yeah, it feels good.
0:50:03 > 0:50:04I can feel.
0:50:04 > 0:50:06HE LAUGHS
0:50:06 > 0:50:08It's strange, but it's nice.
0:50:12 > 0:50:17At first, I was so, sort of, attached to my old lifestyle
0:50:17 > 0:50:19that I was finding it hard to let go,
0:50:19 > 0:50:21but then as I went through the detox,
0:50:21 > 0:50:24and I started to get my clarity back,
0:50:24 > 0:50:25and a clear mind,
0:50:25 > 0:50:29I realised that it was much better just to go straight to rehab.
0:50:29 > 0:50:32It's much safer. It's easier.
0:50:32 > 0:50:34And it's the wise thing to do.
0:50:38 > 0:50:41In my mind, it is going to work out for me.
0:50:43 > 0:50:48However, if it doesn't work, then it's a case of just regrouping,
0:50:48 > 0:50:50picking up the pieces and trying again.
0:50:52 > 0:50:57And anybody who works in this area will tell you that most addicts take
0:50:57 > 0:51:01five or six attempts before they actually stay clean for the rest of
0:51:01 > 0:51:02their lives.
0:51:02 > 0:51:05I mean, I'm on attempt five now, so
0:51:05 > 0:51:07hopefully it should work out OK.
0:51:09 > 0:51:11If I'm honest, I'm afraid.
0:51:11 > 0:51:14I feel very vulnerable admitting that, but that's the truth.
0:51:21 > 0:51:24BEN: People's addiction will peak and trough.
0:51:26 > 0:51:29So I'll see somebody and the first thing they want to tell me is, "Just
0:51:29 > 0:51:32"to let you know, I've been clean for two years."
0:51:32 > 0:51:35And that is a real big milestone and a big achievement.
0:51:41 > 0:51:43And then I just see people that...
0:51:44 > 0:51:47..seem to use drugs until the end.
0:51:48 > 0:51:50Have a look in at his previous.
0:51:50 > 0:51:52He's not your usual criminal.
0:51:52 > 0:51:55- He's, that's...- He's a career criminal.
0:51:55 > 0:52:00He's got 48 pages on PNC of burglary, assault and theft.
0:52:00 > 0:52:04That is a pretty impressive resume.
0:52:04 > 0:52:07- Yeah.- His first ever offence,
0:52:07 > 0:52:10pleaded guilty to a burglary in 1988.
0:52:13 > 0:52:14I was at nursery school then.
0:52:16 > 0:52:19He's probably one of those people, they first tried a bit of heroin
0:52:19 > 0:52:21when they're in their, like, early teens.
0:52:21 > 0:52:24- Yeah, yeah. And then that's it, game over, then.- Boom.
0:52:35 > 0:52:39Hello, Tony. I've got some charges to read out.
0:52:39 > 0:52:40Six charges, Tony,
0:52:40 > 0:52:45for dwelling burglary between the 5th of the 10th, 2016 and the 6th
0:52:45 > 0:52:47of the 10th, 2016.
0:52:47 > 0:52:49Have entered, as a trespasser, a
0:52:49 > 0:52:51dwelling and stole therein a handbag,
0:52:51 > 0:52:52a Samsung tablet,
0:52:52 > 0:52:54and cash to a value of unknown...
0:52:57 > 0:52:59VOICE INSIDE: Police!
0:52:59 > 0:53:02- Hello. You all right? - Fine thank you, and you?
0:53:02 > 0:53:04Yeah, do you want to come out and have a chat?
0:53:07 > 0:53:09So, good news.
0:53:09 > 0:53:13- He was finally charged with the burglary on your address.- Yeah.
0:53:13 > 0:53:16And he was charged with five other burglaries as well.
0:53:16 > 0:53:18He has been remanded in custody.
0:53:18 > 0:53:22When he was interviewed, he said that he's got a really bad drug
0:53:22 > 0:53:26habit, and he's in some debt in relation to his drugs, and he
0:53:26 > 0:53:28basically gave a cock and bull story as to why he was in
0:53:28 > 0:53:30possession of stolen cards.
0:53:30 > 0:53:33If he has a trial over it and it goes the wrong way for him,
0:53:33 > 0:53:35he's looking at a really substantial sentence.
0:53:35 > 0:53:37What, five, six, seven, eight?
0:53:37 > 0:53:38He got off with a bucket of money.
0:53:38 > 0:53:41Then, think of all the times that he's been offered help with his
0:53:41 > 0:53:43drug habit and something's not quite clicking, is it?
0:53:43 > 0:53:45So, the only way to stop him...
0:53:45 > 0:53:47- Well, he doesn't want help, does he? Obviously not.- Well...
0:53:47 > 0:53:49He's happy doing what he does.
0:53:49 > 0:53:51You only let him out two days after and he done it again,
0:53:51 > 0:53:53so you might as well just bang him up, throw away the key.
0:53:53 > 0:53:56He's no good to society, is he? What good is he to us?
0:53:56 > 0:53:58Yeah.
0:53:58 > 0:54:01- It's true, though, isn't it?- In my mind, I think you might try drugs
0:54:01 > 0:54:03and then you get into it and you commit crime.
0:54:03 > 0:54:05Then you think you should come out the other end,
0:54:05 > 0:54:07especially at that age after you've
0:54:07 > 0:54:10- been doing it so long, but that's not the case with this one.- No.
0:54:10 > 0:54:13- All right?- Yeah. Thanks, Chris.- All right, nice to speak to you.
0:54:13 > 0:54:15- Yeah.- All right, mate?- All right,
0:54:15 > 0:54:18- Andre.- You take care.- Cheers, mate. Bye.- Cheers, mate.
0:54:27 > 0:54:30For me, the kung fu's been a really important part of my recovery.
0:54:30 > 0:54:34It's worth getting out, meeting some new people and exercise is just
0:54:34 > 0:54:37massively beneficial.
0:54:37 > 0:54:38It's like a natural high.
0:54:41 > 0:54:44I decided that maybe staying in Bristol wasn't the best option.
0:54:46 > 0:54:50So I ended up coming to rehab in Cornwall and it was one
0:54:50 > 0:54:52of the best decisions I ever made.
0:54:53 > 0:54:56As a recovering addict, I guess, like,
0:54:56 > 0:54:59my area of expertise is addiction.
0:55:00 > 0:55:03It would be great to, like, give something back,
0:55:03 > 0:55:06maybe mentoring some people, help other fellow addicts who are
0:55:06 > 0:55:08still struggling.
0:55:10 > 0:55:13It would almost help me give some sort of meaning to all the chaos
0:55:13 > 0:55:15that I've been through.
0:55:16 > 0:55:18So it's not just all negative.
0:55:18 > 0:55:19Some positive has come from it.
0:55:21 > 0:55:25WAVES LAP
0:55:28 > 0:55:31- VOICEOVER:- To stop taking drugs is just the beginning, really,
0:55:31 > 0:55:34and I think very few people realise that.
0:55:34 > 0:55:36Ew! That's gross.
0:55:38 > 0:55:40Oh, Blake, you're going to stink!
0:55:40 > 0:55:42Look at that.
0:55:42 > 0:55:43SHUTTER CLICKS
0:55:43 > 0:55:48- VOICEOVER:- It's really hard to get out of the place that you're in,
0:55:48 > 0:55:50and it takes years and years. It could take decades.
0:55:50 > 0:55:53It could take the rest of your life, really.
0:55:53 > 0:55:54What are you looking for, Blake?!
0:55:54 > 0:55:56Even after all the meetings and, like,
0:55:56 > 0:55:59treatment and rehab and everything.
0:55:59 > 0:56:01And having, like, a family, even after all that,
0:56:01 > 0:56:04I know that there's still going to be temptations for my mum.
0:56:06 > 0:56:08I'm aware that it's, kind of, really
0:56:08 > 0:56:10easy for my mum to go back to square one,
0:56:10 > 0:56:13and I'm very proud of her that she hasn't yet,
0:56:13 > 0:56:15and I believe that she won't ever go there again.
0:56:19 > 0:56:21- VOICEOVER:- It's going to be almost
0:56:21 > 0:56:24two months since I had my 50th birthday.
0:56:24 > 0:56:28Can't quite believe that, you know, I've made it here, really.
0:56:28 > 0:56:31And I thought I'd never live to see 30.
0:56:31 > 0:56:33And now, here I am,
0:56:33 > 0:56:37definitely feeling better than ever before, you know?
0:56:37 > 0:56:39Do I have to look at you?
0:56:39 > 0:56:41- You have to look at the lens.- The lens.
0:56:41 > 0:56:43- VOICEOVER:- Rita's 15 now...
0:56:43 > 0:56:45SHUTTER CLICKS
0:56:45 > 0:56:49..which means I've got to be around at least for another 20 years,
0:56:49 > 0:56:53cos it would be really cool to, kind of, be a grandma, you know?
0:56:53 > 0:56:54THEY LAUGH
0:56:56 > 0:56:59- Happy?- Yeah, happy.
0:57:01 > 0:57:03Being an addict can happen to anyone.
0:57:06 > 0:57:10There are people who've had it way worse than my mum and my dad.
0:57:11 > 0:57:14But no matter how kind of low you get...
0:57:15 > 0:57:17..there's always, like, an exit button.
0:57:30 > 0:57:33Every single person on this planet,
0:57:33 > 0:57:36and that includes people like the Dalai Lama, OK,
0:57:36 > 0:57:39are fallible human beings.
0:57:39 > 0:57:42We make bad choices at times.
0:57:42 > 0:57:43It makes us human.
0:57:55 > 0:57:58I'm massively inspired by the psychotherapist in rehab.
0:58:20 > 0:58:23For a free poster with information about drugs and their effects on
0:58:23 > 0:58:25society, call...
0:58:30 > 0:58:31..or go to the address below
0:58:31 > 0:58:34and follow the links for the Open University.