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0:00:02 > 0:00:04This is... the superman with the broken arm.

0:00:04 > 0:00:06Mr Action Man with his broken arm.

0:00:06 > 0:00:09He fell off the rollerblades.

0:00:09 > 0:00:12Daddy, just say something to your family, your mum and dad.

0:00:12 > 0:00:13No, well, you're my family...

0:00:13 > 0:00:15No, your mum and dad!

0:00:15 > 0:00:17No, I'll tape for them later.

0:00:19 > 0:00:20This is for us.

0:00:21 > 0:00:23- I need your... - Can I have the camera, please?

0:00:29 > 0:00:31MEN SHOUT

0:00:37 > 0:00:39MEN SHOUT

0:00:39 > 0:00:41I was 16 when I left Iran,

0:00:41 > 0:00:44I was involved in throwing stones at the tanks.

0:00:45 > 0:00:46My dad was in Israel.

0:00:46 > 0:00:49When he came back, within five days I was in the UK.

0:00:51 > 0:00:53CAR HORNS HONK

0:00:54 > 0:00:57They didn't have any idea where the West was.

0:00:57 > 0:00:59Or what... How...

0:00:59 > 0:01:01What kind of culture was here, they just sent us

0:01:01 > 0:01:05because they didn't want us to be involved in the revolution,

0:01:05 > 0:01:09be involved in the rioting, so they done us a favour by sending us here,

0:01:09 > 0:01:12but they had no clue, they didn't know where...

0:01:12 > 0:01:14where England was, you know?

0:01:14 > 0:01:16They just sent us, they just told us to,

0:01:16 > 0:01:20"Get on that plane, go and meet your cousin," and that's it.

0:01:25 > 0:01:30When we came, we had two suitcases, about 40 kilos in each,

0:01:30 > 0:01:32one of those large ones that you get.

0:01:32 > 0:01:36My mum had put rice in it...

0:01:37 > 0:01:40About maybe 20 kilos of rice.

0:01:40 > 0:01:42And, I mean, we'd never cooked rice before.

0:01:42 > 0:01:45Back home, my mum always does the cooking, right?

0:01:45 > 0:01:46One day, me and my brother said,

0:01:46 > 0:01:50"Look, we have to get rid of these, these are going off or something."

0:01:50 > 0:01:55We used to fill our pockets with rice, go along to the college,

0:01:55 > 0:01:59but on the way, we just used to empty it in the street, you know?

0:01:59 > 0:02:01We didn't know what to do, so...

0:02:02 > 0:02:04Where were you heading out to?

0:02:05 > 0:02:07- The Bot?- No, I was going to work.

0:02:07 > 0:02:09- Going to work?!- Yeah!

0:02:09 > 0:02:12It would have been, like, '99 maybe, I think.

0:02:13 > 0:02:16There's Jake there, speak of the devil. Selfie, look at that.

0:02:16 > 0:02:17Mean streak.

0:02:17 > 0:02:20- LAUGHTER - < Yes!

0:02:20 > 0:02:23I remember the first time I saw him, he was only four hours old,

0:02:23 > 0:02:25or something, and I held him,

0:02:25 > 0:02:29and his head went back when I held him...

0:02:30 > 0:02:32Hm! I remember, of course,

0:02:32 > 0:02:36it's just like yesterday he was only that size and now look at him.

0:02:41 > 0:02:44HASSAN SPEAKS IN OWN LANGUAGE

0:02:46 > 0:02:47Huh?

0:02:47 > 0:02:53'I never planned...to become a dad, you know, it just happened.'

0:02:53 > 0:02:57If I had known all the responsibilities

0:02:57 > 0:03:01and all the difficulties that the two cultures were going to bring...

0:03:02 > 0:03:04..I probably would have...

0:03:04 > 0:03:05- WOMAN:- Ready?

0:03:07 > 0:03:11..chosen other ways of starting a family, you know?

0:03:15 > 0:03:18Even the conversation in the house, it was never about...

0:03:18 > 0:03:21Never about the Northern Ireland football team,

0:03:21 > 0:03:24or about GAA or about any sort of, like,

0:03:24 > 0:03:28day-to-day topics that other average households would be talking about,

0:03:28 > 0:03:30other Northern Irish households would be talking about,

0:03:30 > 0:03:34so when I would go to school or when I would go out

0:03:34 > 0:03:35and play in the streets,

0:03:35 > 0:03:39the conversations happening in the group, I wasn't able to,

0:03:39 > 0:03:43like, join in or partake, even though I was the same age as them,

0:03:43 > 0:03:48even though, in a way, I had every other thing the same.

0:03:48 > 0:03:52There was these gaps, so the only thing I could really do was

0:03:52 > 0:03:58sort of build my own blocks in order to create, you know, a person.

0:03:58 > 0:04:00ROCK MUSIC PLAYS

0:04:03 > 0:04:06- Amazing, what are you... - GENERAL HUBBUB

0:04:06 > 0:04:11I brought this album from Iran, so it's 36 years old, 37 years old...

0:04:12 > 0:04:14- These photos have been in it for 37 years.- Mm!

0:04:14 > 0:04:16- My cousin...- Mm-hm.

0:04:16 > 0:04:20- Javed, my younger brother.- Mm-hm.

0:04:20 > 0:04:22I feel like a bridge between two cultures...

0:04:24 > 0:04:27..and trying to balance it is very difficult, you know?

0:04:34 > 0:04:37- BUS TANNOY:- The next stop will be for Terminal Three.

0:04:41 > 0:04:44INAUDIBLE

0:04:44 > 0:04:45Nice.

0:04:45 > 0:04:47How long is this from Tehran?

0:04:47 > 0:04:51Uh... This is about 45 minutes from Tehran.

0:04:54 > 0:04:57HAUNTING MUSIC PLAYS

0:05:11 > 0:05:13Before I came here...

0:05:14 > 0:05:17..I was expecting to really be in a foreign country.

0:05:17 > 0:05:22Walking outside of the terminal when we first arrived,

0:05:22 > 0:05:26I was looking across and taking in the smell and the sounds...

0:05:27 > 0:05:29It had been as if I had always been here.

0:05:30 > 0:05:32CAR HORNS BEEP

0:05:39 > 0:05:40< Thank you.

0:05:40 > 0:05:44We made it after five...five years!

0:05:46 > 0:05:48Well, if you were counting when I was, like, still in the womb,

0:05:48 > 0:05:50then, yeah, maybe that would be, like...

0:05:50 > 0:05:53Yeah, 25½ years, so...

0:05:53 > 0:05:56No, overall I would say it's a bit too overwhelming

0:05:56 > 0:05:59to take in at the moment...

0:05:59 > 0:06:00It's like everything I expected,

0:06:00 > 0:06:03but nothing quite at all what I expected.

0:06:05 > 0:06:09It's so open, like, it's such a breathable city...

0:06:09 > 0:06:14that I was expecting just this packed hub

0:06:14 > 0:06:18of just disorientation and, well, bewilderment

0:06:18 > 0:06:20and it's just, it's absolutely beautiful.

0:06:21 > 0:06:23And I was saying to Ben...

0:06:24 > 0:06:27.."How the hell has it taken me this long to get here?"

0:06:27 > 0:06:29Come on.

0:06:30 > 0:06:32- Godspeed!- Oh, gosh!

0:06:35 > 0:06:36He's pretty polite.

0:06:39 > 0:06:42TANNOY ANNOUNCEMENT

0:06:43 > 0:06:46HAUNTING MUSIC PLAYS

0:06:55 > 0:06:58MAN SPEAKS IN OWN LANGUAGE

0:06:58 > 0:07:01The community's sense of this country is just,

0:07:01 > 0:07:04you can't really find an adjective to describe it.

0:07:04 > 0:07:07CITY HUBBUB

0:07:10 > 0:07:12There's just a general sense of kindness.

0:07:14 > 0:07:18For a country that has such a young population,

0:07:18 > 0:07:20they're so welcoming and warming to outsiders,

0:07:20 > 0:07:25because this country has just been closed off, it hasn't been able...

0:07:25 > 0:07:29It's not been allowed to really expand or go anywhere else.

0:07:30 > 0:07:32Everyone's talking about, "Where have you been?"

0:07:32 > 0:07:34and, "Well, what's that country like?"

0:07:34 > 0:07:39you know, anywhere which you just take for granted as a European.

0:07:39 > 0:07:40They are completely fascinated,

0:07:40 > 0:07:43just by what we have all shared when we've came here,

0:07:43 > 0:07:46it's just complete and utter fascination of...

0:07:46 > 0:07:52what it's been like to live in Iran for the past few decades.

0:07:54 > 0:07:56INAUDIBLE

0:07:59 > 0:08:01LAUGHTER, INAUDIBLE

0:08:02 > 0:08:06- Where's... Where is here? - So, this is Northern Ireland.

0:08:06 > 0:08:07- Northern Ireland?- So...

0:08:07 > 0:08:09- Yeah, it's... - A very good place?- Yeah.

0:08:09 > 0:08:11Yes, my cousin living here, Dublin.

0:08:11 > 0:08:14- It's quite an expensive place... - Mm-hm...

0:08:24 > 0:08:27CHILDREN YELL PLAYFULLY

0:08:38 > 0:08:41THEY SPEAK IN OWN LANGUAGE

0:08:52 > 0:08:55HAUNTING MUSIC PLAYS

0:08:59 > 0:09:03THEY CHATTER

0:09:03 > 0:09:06HAUNTING MUSIC CONTINUES

0:09:33 > 0:09:36It's a special kind of salad called Shiraz.

0:09:41 > 0:09:42All of us...

0:09:42 > 0:09:45- Shit! - LAUGHTER

0:09:48 > 0:09:49We call it goosht koob.

0:09:50 > 0:09:51- Goosht koob?- Yeah.

0:09:51 > 0:09:54You're pushing the meat, something like that...

0:09:54 > 0:09:58- You need to push.- Yeah. And, oh!

0:09:58 > 0:10:00- LAUGHTER - OK, tell us.

0:10:02 > 0:10:03- LAUGHING:- I'm... I'm going...

0:10:03 > 0:10:05She'll tell you!

0:10:06 > 0:10:12The style of pushing this one for men is in this way.

0:10:12 > 0:10:17OK? And there is a sentence that says, when a boy do it...

0:10:18 > 0:10:22All those people say, if your penis don't move,

0:10:22 > 0:10:24it's the time to marry!

0:10:24 > 0:10:27SHE LAUGHS

0:10:30 > 0:10:32- That's good to hear. - What am I doing?

0:10:32 > 0:10:35LAUGHTER

0:10:35 > 0:10:38- Divorce!- Yeah! - LAUGHTER

0:10:38 > 0:10:41Well, what's... What's your penis doing?

0:10:41 > 0:10:43LAUGHTER

0:10:43 > 0:10:44OK, be careful.

0:10:44 > 0:10:47LAUGHTER So, am I doing it wrong?

0:10:47 > 0:10:50LAUGHTER

0:10:52 > 0:10:54OK, let's try it.

0:10:57 > 0:11:00- These here?- Yeah, and these.

0:11:00 > 0:11:03HAUNTING MUSIC PLAYS

0:11:07 > 0:11:09INAUDIBLE

0:11:16 > 0:11:17- Irish?- Yeah, yeah.

0:11:17 > 0:11:18Irish.

0:11:18 > 0:11:24- Do you want to have tea?- If you are offering, that would be great.

0:11:24 > 0:11:25No here, over here.

0:11:26 > 0:11:30- In Iran, we don't have a carpenter girl, we are the first one, I think. - Yeah.

0:11:30 > 0:11:34Always, there are some more rules for girls that,

0:11:34 > 0:11:37"You should do that, you should do that, you can do that,"

0:11:37 > 0:11:41but we just want to show that we can do whatever we like!

0:11:41 > 0:11:44- They are all handmade.- Handmade.

0:11:44 > 0:11:46- Beautiful.- Yeah.

0:11:46 > 0:11:50- Lovely wood, isn't it? - Can we play?- Yes, he knows!

0:11:50 > 0:11:52SHE SPEAKS IN OWN LANGUAGE

0:11:52 > 0:11:53No, me and him?

0:11:53 > 0:11:55- You want to play?- Yeah.

0:11:55 > 0:11:57LAUGHTER

0:11:57 > 0:12:00Why is everyone laughing? I don't see...

0:12:00 > 0:12:02I don't know why that's so funny.

0:12:02 > 0:12:04MAN SPEAKS IN OWN LANGUAGE

0:12:06 > 0:12:09- DRIVER:- We're going towards Afghanistan right now.

0:12:09 > 0:12:12HAUNTING MUSIC PLAYS

0:12:38 > 0:12:42It struck me last night arriving in the Mashhad

0:12:42 > 0:12:46and climbing up onto the big rock in the city...

0:12:47 > 0:12:49..and I was looking over the horizon

0:12:49 > 0:12:55and I was just thinking about my dad when he was younger than I am now

0:12:55 > 0:12:58- and him walking the streets... - MEN SING

0:12:58 > 0:13:02..and in the way of me following in his footsteps and it just...

0:13:03 > 0:13:07..became very poignant and I was...

0:13:07 > 0:13:10I just couldn't believe that I am in the same place

0:13:10 > 0:13:12that my dad was born...

0:13:12 > 0:13:16This is where he still calls home and this is where

0:13:16 > 0:13:21I should be coming home, the fact that I'm actually an Iranian.

0:13:21 > 0:13:23HAUNTING MUSIC PLAYS

0:14:03 > 0:14:08I'll never have that sort of welcome again, like that, and...

0:14:09 > 0:14:12When I was walking up the steps to see...

0:14:12 > 0:14:15And just caught the glimmer, a little glimpse of my granny,

0:14:15 > 0:14:20just by the side of the doorframe, and I peeked my head around

0:14:20 > 0:14:22and saw her eyes, that was just, like,

0:14:22 > 0:14:25"I'm home, that's my granny..."

0:14:29 > 0:14:31THEY CHATTER

0:14:31 > 0:14:32Walking in and meeting everyone else

0:14:32 > 0:14:36and just being completely overwhelmed, completely overwhelmed.

0:14:36 > 0:14:37Hi!

0:14:37 > 0:14:39'Um...

0:14:39 > 0:14:41'Not even being able to really recognise people

0:14:41 > 0:14:42'I've seen in photographs before

0:14:42 > 0:14:47'and just this embrace and looking around

0:14:47 > 0:14:51'and everyone's there for some bloody reason to see me,

0:14:51 > 0:14:52'I'm just like...'

0:14:52 > 0:14:55HE SPEAKS IN OWN LANGUAGE

0:14:55 > 0:14:58THEY CHATTER

0:14:59 > 0:15:02LAUGHTER

0:15:10 > 0:15:12Having my granny stroke my hair

0:15:12 > 0:15:14and my family's been so warm and giving...

0:15:16 > 0:15:17..the entire time, I was like...

0:15:19 > 0:15:22.."Why-Why-Why are you being so nice to me?"

0:15:24 > 0:15:28I remember telling Ilias, you know, "Can you tell her that

0:15:28 > 0:15:33"I'm really sorry that it's taken me so long to come here..."

0:15:34 > 0:15:38"..and that I can't... I'm sorry, I can't speak Farsi?"

0:15:38 > 0:15:41And she was just so lovely, she just kept giving me melon,

0:15:41 > 0:15:43and kept telling me to eat.

0:15:45 > 0:15:48ALL CHATTER

0:15:51 > 0:15:54And I know I've been feeling that I should have came here earlier.

0:15:54 > 0:15:58But I would NOT have been able to take it in the way I have

0:15:58 > 0:16:00as I have at this age

0:16:00 > 0:16:04and been able to appreciate everything that's just been given...

0:16:04 > 0:16:07from all of my family members and all the people who I've met.

0:16:07 > 0:16:10HAUNTING MUSIC PLAYS

0:16:54 > 0:16:56- It's... - HE SIGHS

0:17:01 > 0:17:03If I'm being really honest, I don't know...

0:17:05 > 0:17:08..why I'm so special to them, it's very strange.

0:17:08 > 0:17:09Yeah.

0:17:11 > 0:17:13WOMEN CHATTER

0:17:17 > 0:17:18She's beautiful.

0:17:18 > 0:17:20'It was very strange not to have my dad here...'

0:17:22 > 0:17:25- VOICE BREAKING:- Like, it's been... But they had him on the...

0:17:25 > 0:17:28on the internet. And they were passing him around...

0:17:29 > 0:17:31HE SIGHS

0:17:31 > 0:17:36And when... When the phone came to me and my gran...

0:17:38 > 0:17:42It... It really felt like I was back in Belfast cos this is the...

0:17:42 > 0:17:43It's the last time we were all together.

0:17:45 > 0:17:49It's just making me realise the importance of it all, you know?

0:17:51 > 0:17:53Uh, the whole family side of things.

0:17:53 > 0:18:00# That a change is going to come for me, I believe

0:18:02 > 0:18:07# All my life Been in a summer dream

0:18:08 > 0:18:13# But this has been a cold and stark awakening

0:18:15 > 0:18:21# Are we gonna have to learn to let it go?

0:18:23 > 0:18:30# Are we gonna have to learn to let it go-o-o-o-o?

0:18:30 > 0:18:34# I said, baby, please

0:18:34 > 0:18:37# Are you ever gonna come back to me?

0:18:37 > 0:18:45# Cos lately I've been thinking you won't

0:18:45 > 0:18:48# And honestly

0:18:48 > 0:18:52# If you're just looking for the company

0:18:52 > 0:18:57# Then maybe I've got what you want... #