0:00:02 > 0:00:04This programme contains strong language
0:00:04 > 0:00:07For many young Brits, life has never been more of a struggle.
0:00:07 > 0:00:09There isn't any opportunities, there isn't any jobs.
0:00:09 > 0:00:10They may be broke...
0:00:10 > 0:00:12Well, that's my money gone, going on a bet.
0:00:12 > 0:00:15I've never been in so much debt in my life.
0:00:15 > 0:00:17..stuck in a rut...
0:00:17 > 0:00:19Why get up early? I haven't got anything to get up early for.
0:00:19 > 0:00:21..or just want more.
0:00:22 > 0:00:25Two days a week I have to do this, digging shit out of a hole!
0:00:25 > 0:00:26But now...
0:00:28 > 0:00:30..they have the chance of escape.
0:00:31 > 0:00:33Around the world, there are manual jobs
0:00:33 > 0:00:36where young people can strike payday gold.
0:00:36 > 0:00:38Definitely some good money to be earned.
0:00:38 > 0:00:41It comes down to the individual and how much money do you want to make.
0:00:41 > 0:00:43The sky's the limit.
0:00:43 > 0:00:45You work hard, you're going to make the money.
0:00:45 > 0:00:48The catch? They're some of the toughest jobs on the planet.
0:00:49 > 0:00:51Covered in cow shit 24-7.
0:00:51 > 0:00:54And if they're not shitting on you, they're running at you!
0:00:55 > 0:00:57Today they would have cried like little bitches.
0:00:57 > 0:00:59They would have cried like that there.
0:01:01 > 0:01:04Now, young Brits in need of a cash injection...
0:01:04 > 0:01:07I'm not coming home until I have that money.
0:01:07 > 0:01:10..are being given the chance to earn the big bucks.
0:01:10 > 0:01:13- Oh, why the- BLEEP - did I sign up for this?!
0:01:13 > 0:01:15Getting kicked, getting head-butted...
0:01:15 > 0:01:16Mental!
0:01:16 > 0:01:20And it could change more than just their bank balance.
0:01:21 > 0:01:24Who would have thought I'd be doing that ever in my lifetime?
0:01:24 > 0:01:26The question is...
0:01:26 > 0:01:28Can they stand the pace?
0:01:28 > 0:01:30Now you're working three steps below everyone.
0:01:30 > 0:01:32No walking. I want you running the whole day.
0:01:32 > 0:01:34I just want to head-butt him so badly!
0:01:34 > 0:01:38Or will the punishing world of manual labour...
0:01:41 > 0:01:43I can't handle this, it's hurting me.
0:01:44 > 0:01:47..send them screaming back to the UK?
0:01:47 > 0:01:48Argh...!
0:01:48 > 0:01:50I can't do it.
0:01:50 > 0:01:51I've tried!
0:02:01 > 0:02:05Meet Jess, Jamie and Carl.
0:02:06 > 0:02:08Three young people desperate to sort out their finances
0:02:08 > 0:02:10and get their lives back on track.
0:02:11 > 0:02:15I've got debt. I've got store cards. Credit card. I've got an overdraft.
0:02:15 > 0:02:16Cheers, thanks a lot.
0:02:16 > 0:02:19I've got myself into this kind of situation.
0:02:19 > 0:02:20I need to get myself out of it.
0:02:20 > 0:02:22It's hard financially
0:02:22 > 0:02:24to provide for my kids.
0:02:24 > 0:02:25Is that nice?
0:02:25 > 0:02:27I want them to see that I worked hard
0:02:27 > 0:02:30to give them what I would like to give them.
0:02:30 > 0:02:33My main motivation in life has always been money.
0:02:34 > 0:02:35I'm here to make a million.
0:02:35 > 0:02:38And when I get to that million, I'm making three million.
0:02:38 > 0:02:40Now, in a bid to try and earn some serious money,
0:02:40 > 0:02:43they've each signed up for a job that can pay very well,
0:02:43 > 0:02:45if they can hack it.
0:02:50 > 0:02:52Deep-sea fishing in the Arctic.
0:02:56 > 0:02:59It's one of the most dangerous jobs known to man.
0:02:59 > 0:03:01There's many casualties every year.
0:03:01 > 0:03:07Fires, explosions, things falling on your head, chains snapping.
0:03:08 > 0:03:12It's gruelling, back-breaking work in freezing conditions
0:03:12 > 0:03:13and there's no escape.
0:03:13 > 0:03:18It's like being in a prison, but you haven't done anything wrong.
0:03:19 > 0:03:22The young Brits will have to deal with an endless avalanche of fish,
0:03:22 > 0:03:24gutting them by hand,
0:03:24 > 0:03:26alongside some hardened pros.
0:03:26 > 0:03:28It literally is gut-wrenching!
0:03:29 > 0:03:31There's days when you think, what am I doing here?
0:03:32 > 0:03:34Working round the clock for weeks on end,
0:03:34 > 0:03:37this is cold, dirty, smelly work.
0:03:39 > 0:03:41But it comes with one major bonus.
0:03:41 > 0:03:42Paydays!
0:03:44 > 0:03:47Every year, this multimillion pound industry
0:03:47 > 0:03:49attracts young people from all over Europe,
0:03:49 > 0:03:53who can earn up to £75,000 for just six months' work.
0:03:54 > 0:03:56I hate not having money.
0:03:56 > 0:03:58I'm not coming home until I have that money.
0:03:58 > 0:04:01But can the trio of Brits cope with the gruelling conditions
0:04:01 > 0:04:03and weeks out at sea?
0:04:03 > 0:04:06This the closest I've been to a fish.
0:04:06 > 0:04:08It's in my heart. I can feel it.
0:04:08 > 0:04:10I can feel it in my plums!
0:04:10 > 0:04:12I absolutely hate fish. I hate anything under the sea.
0:04:23 > 0:04:24With no visa required,
0:04:24 > 0:04:27the trainees are heading for the frozen fjords of Norway
0:04:27 > 0:04:29and the port city of Tromso.
0:04:31 > 0:04:35After a four-hour flight, Jess, Jamie and Carl touch down.
0:04:37 > 0:04:40And waiting for them is their new boss Jan Roger.
0:04:41 > 0:04:43- Hello, welcome.- Nice to meet you.
0:04:43 > 0:04:46I see you have a black eye. What happened?
0:04:46 > 0:04:48- Er...I fell.- You fell.- Yeah.
0:04:48 > 0:04:50Oh, no, no. This is wrong.
0:04:51 > 0:04:53You're my employee, but you have to be honest to me.
0:04:53 > 0:04:56- I got punched in the face. - You got punched in the face. OK.
0:04:56 > 0:04:57- How come?- In a nightclub.
0:04:57 > 0:04:58Nice to meet you.
0:04:58 > 0:05:00Welcome to Tromso.
0:05:00 > 0:05:03- Hi. You all right? Nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you, too.
0:05:03 > 0:05:05I literally cannot believe how cold it is.
0:05:05 > 0:05:09I've got no socks on because I thought, oh, it'll be fine.
0:05:09 > 0:05:11I got out the plane, I was like...hood up.
0:05:11 > 0:05:14I'm used to the mountains, just not used to the snow.
0:05:15 > 0:05:18The Rhonda Valley in Wales...
0:05:19 > 0:05:23Home to 24-year-old unemployed fashionista, Jamie.
0:05:24 > 0:05:26There's people around you
0:05:26 > 0:05:28who walk around in tracksuits with no teeth.
0:05:28 > 0:05:33But I'd walk around in a onesie and people look at me like an alien.
0:05:33 > 0:05:36Taking pride in my appearance is very, very important to me.
0:05:36 > 0:05:39The amount of people that say, "Oh, you're covered in fake tan."
0:05:39 > 0:05:40I don't wear fake tan.
0:05:40 > 0:05:43All right, I go on sunbeds and, like, my tan isn't real,
0:05:43 > 0:05:44but it's not fake.
0:05:44 > 0:05:46Hi, Mam, you all right?
0:05:46 > 0:05:47Yeah.
0:05:47 > 0:05:51Luckily for Jamie, his mum Tina is a beauty therapist.
0:05:53 > 0:05:55- Oh, it don't hurt. - Mum, it does hurt, though!
0:05:55 > 0:05:58He wants the best of everything.
0:06:01 > 0:06:04Jamie's like two years in advance on fashion.
0:06:04 > 0:06:06He's, like, on London fashion.
0:06:06 > 0:06:08- Yeah, can I get them in a size eight, please?- Yeah, that's fine.
0:06:08 > 0:06:12I probably would say that I'm addicted to buying clothes.
0:06:12 > 0:06:15Probably 30% of this wardrobe I probably don't even own,
0:06:15 > 0:06:17because it's all store cards.
0:06:17 > 0:06:20But his passion for fashion has come with a hefty price tag.
0:06:21 > 0:06:24With all my debt, I try not to think about it too much
0:06:24 > 0:06:25because it stresses me out,
0:06:25 > 0:06:28but it's roughly about 11 grand, including my car and things.
0:06:28 > 0:06:32My mum and dad wouldn't be too happy if they knew, to be fair.
0:06:32 > 0:06:34What have you got on store cards now, then?
0:06:34 > 0:06:36How much debt have you got?
0:06:38 > 0:06:41I don't know. I genuinely don't know. I'm not sure.
0:06:42 > 0:06:46Jamie, who still lives at home, used to work as a phone salesmen,
0:06:46 > 0:06:48but was recently made redundant.
0:06:50 > 0:06:52Living in an area where youth unemployment
0:06:52 > 0:06:54is almost twice the national average,
0:06:54 > 0:06:57he's determined to make as much as he can as a fisherman.
0:06:58 > 0:07:01There isn't any opportunities, there isn't really any jobs
0:07:01 > 0:07:04and there's nothing really to do, like, to get out of the valleys.
0:07:04 > 0:07:06But, working on a fishing trawler
0:07:06 > 0:07:10is going to be a huge challenge for Jamie.
0:07:10 > 0:07:12I've been on a pedal boat. But that's about it.
0:07:16 > 0:07:18- So, you don't travel lightly.- No.
0:07:18 > 0:07:19Right.
0:07:20 > 0:07:22This is my weekend bag.
0:07:22 > 0:07:25What on earth did you bring? OK.
0:07:26 > 0:07:29Before they start work, Jan Roger wants to make sure
0:07:29 > 0:07:33the new recruits understand what they're letting themselves in for.
0:07:35 > 0:07:38It's a hard job. It's a risky job.
0:07:38 > 0:07:40It's a dangerous job.
0:07:40 > 0:07:42You're going to be deprived of sleep.
0:07:42 > 0:07:44You're going to be seasick.
0:07:44 > 0:07:47You're going to be tired. As tired as you've never been before.
0:07:48 > 0:07:51Your hands are going to be aching. Your legs are going to be aching.
0:07:51 > 0:07:53If you think you're not up to it...
0:07:54 > 0:07:56..you have to let me know now.
0:08:02 > 0:08:06If you're up to it, you will get paid £3,000 in total.
0:08:07 > 0:08:08Oh, my God!
0:08:08 > 0:08:10In the end, if you do really good...
0:08:11 > 0:08:15..you will have an opportunity to get a permanent job.
0:08:16 > 0:08:21A fisherman on board last year made £75,000...
0:08:23 > 0:08:25..for six months' work.
0:08:25 > 0:08:26What? Are you serious, bro?
0:08:26 > 0:08:29I just care about this money, I need this money.
0:08:29 > 0:08:32I just need to take it home to my kids.
0:08:32 > 0:08:36I want to go on holiday. I want to do my house up. Got so much to do.
0:08:42 > 0:08:4421-year-old Jess is from Hertfordshire.
0:08:46 > 0:08:48My two gorgeous daughters mean everything to me.
0:08:52 > 0:08:53They are my life.
0:08:55 > 0:08:58Being a single mum is very lovely,
0:08:58 > 0:09:01but I'm very proud of myself with bringing them up.
0:09:01 > 0:09:05I'm proud with who they are and their personalities.
0:09:06 > 0:09:07Jess has always tried to work
0:09:07 > 0:09:09but with few qualifications,
0:09:09 > 0:09:11ends up on the minimum wage
0:09:11 > 0:09:13and struggles to stay motivated.
0:09:13 > 0:09:15How's it going at the newsagent's, Jess?
0:09:15 > 0:09:18Yeah, it's going OK. But I've quit.
0:09:18 > 0:09:20- Why? - Because of the way they treat me.
0:09:20 > 0:09:24Just felt like I was doing too much hard work for the minimum wage.
0:09:25 > 0:09:27Jess has always struggled with authority,
0:09:27 > 0:09:30which may be an added challenge for her at sea.
0:09:31 > 0:09:34Jess can be confrontational and she wouldn't back down.
0:09:34 > 0:09:36So, I don't know,
0:09:36 > 0:09:39the fears would be that she doesn't see it through
0:09:39 > 0:09:41because she would regret that.
0:09:41 > 0:09:43Can I have kisses before you get into bed?
0:09:43 > 0:09:45Because I can't reach you up there.
0:09:48 > 0:09:50Love you.
0:09:50 > 0:09:52Jess is hoping that three weeks at sea,
0:09:52 > 0:09:54with her family looking after the girls,
0:09:54 > 0:09:56will be a sacrifice worth making.
0:09:58 > 0:10:03I would like to have my own money, not needing to rely on benefits.
0:10:03 > 0:10:05And that's why I'm taking this opportunity.
0:10:05 > 0:10:06Mwah!
0:10:06 > 0:10:07Love you.
0:10:09 > 0:10:12Jess, along with Jamie and Carl,
0:10:12 > 0:10:16will be working on board one of the most successful trawlers in Norway,
0:10:16 > 0:10:18the Hermes.
0:10:18 > 0:10:20As the crew prepare for departure,
0:10:20 > 0:10:24it's an opportunity for the trainees to suss out their shipmates,
0:10:24 > 0:10:26led by Captain Ausmund.
0:10:26 > 0:10:27Good morning.
0:10:28 > 0:10:30Here is most of the guys.
0:10:31 > 0:10:33Not all of them, but most of them.
0:10:44 > 0:10:46New fishermen regularly join the Hermes crew,
0:10:46 > 0:10:49but the majority have worked together for years.
0:10:49 > 0:10:53Definitely don't look like some people you find at sea but...
0:10:54 > 0:10:58..maybe town people can get along with us.
0:10:58 > 0:11:01But I think the seasick is going to take them down first.
0:11:03 > 0:11:04Yes...
0:11:05 > 0:11:06But with departure looming,
0:11:06 > 0:11:09all Jess can think about are her girls back home.
0:11:11 > 0:11:13Hello, Alisha.
0:11:14 > 0:11:16It's Mummy.
0:11:23 > 0:11:24Hello.
0:11:32 > 0:11:34Are you?
0:11:34 > 0:11:36I'm going to be back soon.
0:11:36 > 0:11:38I'm going to be back soon. I'm going to take you on holiday.
0:11:38 > 0:11:40On the aeroplane.
0:11:43 > 0:11:44I love you.
0:11:49 > 0:11:51During her time at sea,
0:11:51 > 0:11:54Jess will need to rely on her new workmates for support.
0:11:56 > 0:11:57- No!- Come here...
0:12:23 > 0:12:258am the next morning
0:12:25 > 0:12:29and it's all hands on deck as the Hermes prepares to leave port.
0:12:31 > 0:12:33Now we are up going.
0:12:41 > 0:12:42The boat won't dock again
0:12:42 > 0:12:47until she's caught 450,000 kilos of cold-water white fish.
0:12:48 > 0:12:50This is it.
0:12:50 > 0:12:51You scared?
0:12:51 > 0:12:55Unless it's a life or death emergency, there's no escape.
0:13:01 > 0:13:03Oh, fuck, I'm in the sea.
0:13:07 > 0:13:09Oh, yeah, I could from here, couldn't I?
0:13:09 > 0:13:10What are you guys thinking?
0:13:10 > 0:13:12Oh, shit!
0:13:12 > 0:13:15There's no going back now kind of thing.
0:13:15 > 0:13:19I just hope we get there safely and get back safely and no problems.
0:13:19 > 0:13:20Innit?
0:13:22 > 0:13:24But one trainee can't wait to get stuck in.
0:13:25 > 0:13:28I'm well up for it now. It's real. It's happening.
0:13:28 > 0:13:29Now it's like it's on.
0:13:29 > 0:13:31Now it feels like it's going to be good.
0:13:34 > 0:13:3721-year-old Carl from West London has huge ambitions.
0:13:38 > 0:13:41My goal in life is to be a millionaire by the age of 26.
0:13:41 > 0:13:44And that's it. That's why... That's my drive every day.
0:13:46 > 0:13:48He's focusing on a career in music
0:13:48 > 0:13:51and is already making a name for himself as a competitive beatboxer.
0:14:02 > 0:14:05And people go, "What the hell was that? Was that a drum machine?"
0:14:06 > 0:14:08"No, that was my voice."
0:14:10 > 0:14:13Until he hits the big time, Carl's working in a bar.
0:14:16 > 0:14:17Oh...
0:14:17 > 0:14:19But he's not always been so focused.
0:14:20 > 0:14:22My childhood was quite angry.
0:14:23 > 0:14:26The first secondary school I went to, I got into a lot of fights,
0:14:26 > 0:14:27got into a lot of arguments.
0:14:27 > 0:14:30The second school I went to, I had to prove that I was someone,
0:14:30 > 0:14:31so I got into more fights.
0:14:31 > 0:14:34Then the third school you go to, you've had so many fights,
0:14:34 > 0:14:36they know you, they want to fight, it's just like,
0:14:36 > 0:14:39oh, fuck, this is long. This is so long!
0:14:40 > 0:14:44And then, by that time, I started going down the naughty road.
0:14:45 > 0:14:46I tried to make friends.
0:14:48 > 0:14:51The easiest way to make friends is drugs.
0:14:52 > 0:14:55I stole money from my house to fund it.
0:14:56 > 0:15:00After a turbulent five years, Carl hit rock bottom.
0:15:00 > 0:15:03It was only then that he managed to kick the habit.
0:15:03 > 0:15:05But he'd lost the faith of his parents.
0:15:06 > 0:15:10I think it was to do with selfishness where he went wrong.
0:15:12 > 0:15:14I hope for him that it's in the past
0:15:14 > 0:15:17and, you know, he learned from it.
0:15:17 > 0:15:20But who knows?
0:15:20 > 0:15:22Who knows?
0:15:22 > 0:15:23By working as a trawlerman,
0:15:23 > 0:15:26Carl isn't just looking for a big payday.
0:15:26 > 0:15:29He wants to prove to his parents that he has turned his life around.
0:15:29 > 0:15:30- Yeah.- Yeah?
0:15:30 > 0:15:32Actions speak louder than words.
0:15:32 > 0:15:35That's what will build the trust of my mother and father.
0:15:35 > 0:15:37This is a physical job.
0:15:37 > 0:15:39You've got to be able to do it for a certain amount of time.
0:15:39 > 0:15:41Maybe it's not for you.
0:15:41 > 0:15:44I mean, you have never worked 12 hours on the trot of hard work.
0:15:44 > 0:15:45What are you on about?
0:15:45 > 0:15:48Well, we'll soon see, won't we?
0:15:48 > 0:15:49Yeah.
0:15:52 > 0:15:54Back in the Arctic Circle,
0:15:54 > 0:15:56the Hermes is heading for the Barents Sea
0:15:56 > 0:15:59and its abundant fishing grounds.
0:15:59 > 0:16:01I'm just hope, praying, praying and praying and praying
0:16:01 > 0:16:03that I'm not going to get ill.
0:16:03 > 0:16:05I want to throw up a million times!
0:16:06 > 0:16:08Urgh...! Here. One here.
0:16:09 > 0:16:10Urgh...! Again here.
0:16:11 > 0:16:13Urgh...!
0:16:13 > 0:16:16As the ship leaves the sanctuary of the tranquil fjords
0:16:16 > 0:16:17and hits open ocean,
0:16:17 > 0:16:21Carl learns the hard way that seasickness is no laughing matter.
0:16:23 > 0:16:25CARL IS VIOLENTLY SICK
0:16:28 > 0:16:30VOMITING CONTINUES
0:16:31 > 0:16:32Are you OK, Carl?
0:16:33 > 0:16:35Urgh...!
0:16:38 > 0:16:39Oh, I'm feeling pretty shit.
0:16:45 > 0:16:47It only took two hours, then they got sick.
0:16:52 > 0:16:55But Jess, at least, has found her sea legs.
0:17:00 > 0:17:04Tomorrow morning, the first catch of the trip will be on board
0:17:04 > 0:17:06and the trainees will have to start work,
0:17:06 > 0:17:08sick or not.
0:17:20 > 0:17:21Morning, everybody.
0:17:21 > 0:17:23The time's now ten-past.
0:17:23 > 0:17:24Wakey-wakey, egg and bakey.
0:17:24 > 0:17:26Oh, can you shut up!
0:17:27 > 0:17:28Morning, J. How are you feeling?
0:17:28 > 0:17:30I feel well weak, though.
0:17:35 > 0:17:37The nets have been out trawling all night
0:17:37 > 0:17:40and they've bagged a six-tonne haul of cod and haddock.
0:17:41 > 0:17:44Here it comes. Look how many there are.
0:17:46 > 0:17:47That one's alive.
0:17:47 > 0:17:49The most fish I've ever seen. Look at them!
0:17:50 > 0:17:52Time for the rookie crew to get working...
0:17:54 > 0:17:56..two decks below, in the factory.
0:18:00 > 0:18:03Here, tonnes of fish must be gutted,
0:18:03 > 0:18:06sorted and processed as quickly as possible
0:18:06 > 0:18:08to hit targets and not lose money.
0:18:08 > 0:18:13And the man in charge of this fast, well-organised production line
0:18:13 > 0:18:15is factory manager Wolfgang.
0:18:16 > 0:18:18Are we ready?
0:18:18 > 0:18:19- Yeah!- We're all ready!
0:18:23 > 0:18:27Down here, you have to cope with whatever Wolfgang throws at you...
0:18:30 > 0:18:34..and that includes gutting some very big fish.
0:18:36 > 0:18:37One for you.
0:18:38 > 0:18:39Yeah. Lift it up.
0:18:41 > 0:18:43Come on. Cut.
0:18:43 > 0:18:44JESS YELPS
0:18:49 > 0:18:50That's fine.
0:18:50 > 0:18:51This is clean.
0:18:54 > 0:18:56After the fish have bled out,
0:18:56 > 0:18:58they end up on the grading table,
0:18:58 > 0:19:01where they're sorted and have any remaining intestines removed.
0:19:02 > 0:19:04Jess and Jamie start here,
0:19:04 > 0:19:06under the watchful eye of fellow Brit, Ian,
0:19:06 > 0:19:09who has worked on the Hermes for two years.
0:19:39 > 0:19:43The next phase of production is to freeze the clean fish
0:19:43 > 0:19:46and this is where Carl begins, working alongside Frank.
0:19:48 > 0:19:501 to 2.5 kilos.
0:19:51 > 0:19:54But less than an hour into their first six-hour shift,
0:19:54 > 0:19:58they're already finding the conditions hard to stomach.
0:20:02 > 0:20:04We're at the bottom of the boat.
0:20:04 > 0:20:06It's constantly rocking, like this,
0:20:06 > 0:20:09so you constantly feel ill from seasick.
0:20:09 > 0:20:11The smell is absolutely disgusting
0:20:11 > 0:20:13because you've got thousands and thousands of fish.
0:20:13 > 0:20:16And then, you're physically pulling their guts out
0:20:16 > 0:20:18and it just makes you feel ill.
0:20:20 > 0:20:22But Carl is determined not to show any weakness.
0:20:23 > 0:20:26I just don't want to be so sick that I can't work
0:20:26 > 0:20:28and lose respect of the crew.
0:20:28 > 0:20:29Because I have to work.
0:20:29 > 0:20:31That's my main, like, fear.
0:20:32 > 0:20:36Jess isn't showing quite the same dedication.
0:20:36 > 0:20:39Wolfgang, can I have a drink and a fag, please?
0:20:50 > 0:20:53On a ship, it's important to follow orders,
0:20:53 > 0:20:55but she's in no mood to toe the line.
0:20:56 > 0:20:58I don't care what they say.
0:20:58 > 0:20:59Fucking hate this place!
0:21:02 > 0:21:03Oh!
0:21:16 > 0:21:18After her ten-minute unsolicited break,
0:21:18 > 0:21:21Jess returns to her post alongside Ian and Jamie,
0:21:21 > 0:21:24who are filling freezers with the fish they gutted this morning.
0:21:33 > 0:21:36And Jess isn't the only one failing to impress her new colleagues.
0:21:37 > 0:21:40Why's there guts and shit in here?
0:21:40 > 0:21:42This is supposed to be gutted properly.
0:21:42 > 0:21:43That means less money.
0:21:43 > 0:21:45When the buyer sees it, he says,
0:21:45 > 0:21:47"What's going on here? I'm going to check for this."
0:21:47 > 0:21:49Now we've got to sit and sort it!
0:21:49 > 0:21:50Coming from a situation
0:21:50 > 0:21:53where you've never done anything like this before,
0:21:53 > 0:21:56to be thrown into this at the deep end is really difficult.
0:21:57 > 0:21:59There's no need to have an attitude problem with me.
0:21:59 > 0:22:01I'm here. I'm trying to do my best.
0:22:01 > 0:22:03I'm trying to show willing. I'm trying to help you out.
0:22:03 > 0:22:06Don't throw it in my face and make me look like a dickhead.
0:22:07 > 0:22:10It's the end of their six-hour shift
0:22:10 > 0:22:12and a chance for the newbies to reflect
0:22:12 > 0:22:14on their first taste of commercial fishing.
0:22:16 > 0:22:19It's so sad to know that we're killing all these innocent fish.
0:22:19 > 0:22:22You're making emotional attachments to the fish. It's just...
0:22:22 > 0:22:24But they're probably chilling.
0:22:24 > 0:22:26They're probably chilling like we do.
0:22:26 > 0:22:29Two hours ago, they were swimming round the Arctic, loving life.
0:22:29 > 0:22:30Yeah, enjoying life.
0:22:30 > 0:22:32Like, blah, blah, blah...
0:22:32 > 0:22:33And then us fucking lot
0:22:33 > 0:22:35have fucking come and killed them all, do you know what I mean?
0:22:35 > 0:22:37And then if they thought, two hours ago,
0:22:37 > 0:22:40that they was going to be ripped out,
0:22:40 > 0:22:41they'd be tamping.
0:22:43 > 0:22:45Wouldn't they? They would have been tamping.
0:22:46 > 0:22:49Do you know what? I think it's a lot better the heads are off.
0:22:49 > 0:22:52If they had their head on, I'd feel a lot more sad.
0:22:52 > 0:22:56The crew work six hours on, six hours off, round the clock,
0:22:56 > 0:22:59every day for weeks on end.
0:22:59 > 0:23:00Help me out, Wolfgang.
0:23:00 > 0:23:03Well, now, we're going to have a good meal and then...
0:23:03 > 0:23:05There's no way I can even think of food right now.
0:23:05 > 0:23:08..a small rest and then we are back in business.
0:23:08 > 0:23:09It's a demanding schedule
0:23:09 > 0:23:12but, even in downtime, Carl can only think of one thing.
0:23:13 > 0:23:17I'm researching on how to make nets on the internet.
0:23:17 > 0:23:18And how to fix nets.
0:23:19 > 0:23:20But...
0:23:20 > 0:23:23..this is harder than I thought it would be.
0:23:24 > 0:23:27At the moment, I don't want to focus on making friends.
0:23:27 > 0:23:30I want to focus on getting my job right.
0:23:30 > 0:23:32I think I have to prove myself.
0:23:32 > 0:23:34While, in the ship's mess,
0:23:34 > 0:23:36Jess is finding slightly less-productive ways
0:23:36 > 0:23:38to fill her time.
0:23:38 > 0:23:41# Do you want to build a snowman?
0:23:42 > 0:23:44# Never see you any more...
0:23:44 > 0:23:46Oh, my God, you've lost the plot!
0:23:46 > 0:23:48# Going far
0:23:49 > 0:23:51# Do you want to build a snowman?
0:23:53 > 0:23:55# Snowman. #
0:24:00 > 0:24:02The Hermes fishes around the clock.
0:24:03 > 0:24:05- TANNOY:- Last call.
0:24:05 > 0:24:0740 past 7.
0:24:07 > 0:24:09Wakey-wakey.
0:24:10 > 0:24:12- Wakey-wakey...- I'm awake!
0:24:13 > 0:24:16After a short rest, a night shift begins.
0:24:16 > 0:24:19And waiting for the trainees is a fresh seven-tonne haul.
0:24:20 > 0:24:22Once the fish are frozen,
0:24:22 > 0:24:25they're tagged and stacked into the cargo hold,
0:24:25 > 0:24:29an enormous freezer, where the temperature is minus 25.
0:24:31 > 0:24:33Tonight, Carl is working down there,
0:24:33 > 0:24:36keen to prove to Thomas his seasickness is a thing of the past.
0:24:55 > 0:24:57Yeah, I'm enjoying it.
0:24:57 > 0:24:59What more can I say? I'm working. That's what I came here to do.
0:24:59 > 0:25:02Takes a little time to get, you know, used to the...
0:25:02 > 0:25:05Yeah, definitely. It's all technique. I feel strong now.
0:25:06 > 0:25:07I feel better.
0:25:08 > 0:25:09Better!
0:25:09 > 0:25:11So good!
0:25:12 > 0:25:14Jess is with Ian removing fish guts
0:25:14 > 0:25:17and, at last, she's found a rhythm.
0:25:24 > 0:25:25Very good.
0:25:27 > 0:25:29She's doing much better this shift.
0:25:29 > 0:25:33She seems a lot more interested and a bit of encouragement than...
0:25:33 > 0:25:35Aye, she can definitely pick up the pace.
0:25:36 > 0:25:39You need to be trying to do that the whole time.
0:25:40 > 0:25:43All this hard work is for the kids.
0:25:43 > 0:25:46I'll pull out guts and jump off a bridge for them.
0:25:48 > 0:25:51But Jamie, who's supposed to be stacking freezers,
0:25:51 > 0:25:54is struggling to adjust to his new surroundings.
0:25:54 > 0:25:57And boss Wolfgang can't afford delays.
0:26:01 > 0:26:04- Yeah, but I don't know which freezer you're talking about.- Come on.
0:26:37 > 0:26:40It's definitely the hardest thing that I've ever done.
0:26:40 > 0:26:42I'm just trying to keep positive.
0:26:42 > 0:26:43I know that I'm my own worst enemy
0:26:43 > 0:26:46and as soon as I'm going to be doubting myself,
0:26:46 > 0:26:48that I'm not going to be able to do this...
0:26:48 > 0:26:50And I don't want to get to that point.
0:26:51 > 0:26:54The trainees are halfway through their first week
0:26:54 > 0:26:57and have already chalked up 40 hours processing fish.
0:27:03 > 0:27:06And Carl's enthusiasm for the job is paying off.
0:27:06 > 0:27:10Being told to gut and decapitate the larger fish isn't a punishment,
0:27:10 > 0:27:12it's a sign of trust.
0:27:22 > 0:27:24This job means so much to me.
0:27:24 > 0:27:26I just mean in life, like,
0:27:26 > 0:27:27everything I want to do...
0:27:28 > 0:27:30..is make a million.
0:27:30 > 0:27:34A lot of people I know just plod through everyday life,
0:27:34 > 0:27:35just breathing.
0:27:36 > 0:27:38I don't breathe.
0:27:39 > 0:27:40I do breathe, but...
0:27:41 > 0:27:43..my breath is success.
0:27:43 > 0:27:46Jamie hasn't set his sights quite so high.
0:27:47 > 0:27:48He's struggling with the basics.
0:27:50 > 0:27:52I could never cut the heads off. Never.
0:27:53 > 0:27:54- Never.- Have you ever tried?
0:27:54 > 0:27:56No. And I ain't going to.
0:27:56 > 0:27:58You have to try. It's part of the job.
0:28:00 > 0:28:02I don't think I physically could. No way.
0:28:02 > 0:28:04I don't care. I can't do that.
0:28:05 > 0:28:07And Jamie's not the only one who's got the wobbles.
0:28:08 > 0:28:11How's it going, princess fish guts?
0:28:13 > 0:28:15I can't do no more guts. No more, no jokes.
0:28:15 > 0:28:16Come on, Jess.
0:28:16 > 0:28:18Sorry, I can't do it no more.
0:28:18 > 0:28:20Don't let the team down.
0:28:20 > 0:28:22I've done so well. I can't.
0:28:22 > 0:28:23This is the wall, innit?
0:28:23 > 0:28:26Just break through, push through this and just carry on.
0:28:26 > 0:28:27I'm not. I refuse.
0:28:27 > 0:28:29Man the fuck up. Just do it.
0:28:29 > 0:28:31I want to swap. Let's swap with thingy.
0:28:31 > 0:28:33He can do the guts now. I want to do the freezer.
0:28:33 > 0:28:36- You want to do the freezer?- Yeah. I want to do something different.
0:28:36 > 0:28:38I can't deal with doing no more guts.
0:28:40 > 0:28:41- Thank you.- Yeah?
0:28:41 > 0:28:45- I'm going to do what Jamie's doing. - No, no, you're doing what I'm doing.
0:28:46 > 0:28:49Leaving Ian to man the gutting table alone,
0:28:49 > 0:28:52Jess gets her wish and tries her hand in the cargo hold
0:28:52 > 0:28:54moving bags of frozen fish.
0:29:00 > 0:29:01But, after ten minutes...
0:29:03 > 0:29:05..she's had enough.
0:29:16 > 0:29:18It's just too heavy. It's not a woman's job.
0:29:19 > 0:29:22Guess the fish guts is the easiest job!
0:29:26 > 0:29:28But, with another big haul on board,
0:29:28 > 0:29:30Wolfgang's patience is wearing thin.
0:29:46 > 0:29:48Shall I go, then, and go and gut?
0:29:48 > 0:29:50- If you understand what I say? - Yeah, I understand.
0:29:50 > 0:29:53Then you can go and change with Jamie on the gutting table.
0:29:55 > 0:29:56Thank you.
0:29:58 > 0:30:02Jess returns to her position alongside Ian,
0:30:02 > 0:30:03reluctantly.
0:30:23 > 0:30:25Sleep here is a precious commodity
0:30:25 > 0:30:28and, with two teams alternating six-hour shifts,
0:30:28 > 0:30:31changeovers should be quick and quiet...
0:30:32 > 0:30:34FIRE ALARM BLARES
0:30:34 > 0:30:37..a process not helped by Jamie's grooming rituals.
0:30:37 > 0:30:40- No, no, no, the, er... - Fire alarm...
0:30:40 > 0:30:42..went off, yeah.
0:30:42 > 0:30:44Maybe he used too much perfume.
0:30:45 > 0:30:47That's what happened.
0:30:47 > 0:30:49It's not perfume!
0:30:49 > 0:30:51- It's just this! - What do you think about perfume?
0:30:51 > 0:30:52Sniff and watch now...
0:30:52 > 0:30:53Here!
0:30:56 > 0:30:58Leave me alone.
0:30:58 > 0:30:59Stop bullying me.
0:31:00 > 0:31:07To be honest, I don't think Jamie can fit on a Norwegian fishing boat.
0:31:08 > 0:31:12The best advice to him is just stay on shore.
0:31:16 > 0:31:20Back home in Wales, Jamie's no stranger to being singled out.
0:31:21 > 0:31:24Sometimes I do feel judged, in respect to the way I look.
0:31:26 > 0:31:29There's been many times when people have made, like, snide remarks.
0:31:29 > 0:31:31And that does...
0:31:31 > 0:31:33I think people don't realise that that does bother me.
0:31:34 > 0:31:35He doesn't like his nose.
0:31:35 > 0:31:38He constantly goes on about he'd love to have his nose done.
0:31:38 > 0:31:41He's constantly whitening his teeth and...
0:31:42 > 0:31:45..weight is a big issue with Jamie,
0:31:45 > 0:31:48because he looks in the mirror and thinks he's fat.
0:31:48 > 0:31:51I think I kind of portray a very different person
0:31:51 > 0:31:52to what I actually am.
0:31:53 > 0:31:56I am not as confident as people would think I am.
0:31:56 > 0:31:58I am quite insecure about certain things
0:31:58 > 0:32:01and I think that's why I do have this kind of thing of
0:32:01 > 0:32:03I always have to have the best
0:32:03 > 0:32:05or I always have to look a certain way.
0:32:07 > 0:32:09But, down in the factory,
0:32:09 > 0:32:12Jamie's keen to show there's more to him than teeth and tan.
0:32:15 > 0:32:16OK.
0:32:19 > 0:32:22He's been told to pack fish for the freezers with Frank
0:32:22 > 0:32:24and he's determined to keep up.
0:32:24 > 0:32:26I'm just trying my best, do you know what I mean?
0:32:26 > 0:32:27And that's all I can do.
0:32:27 > 0:32:29As long as I can walk away from this and think,
0:32:29 > 0:32:31do you know what, J, you might not be a fisherman
0:32:31 > 0:32:33but you tried your best. That's all I can hope for.
0:32:35 > 0:32:39I said Jamie will not be a good fisherman.
0:32:40 > 0:32:44Now I will say, Jamie do a good job
0:32:44 > 0:32:45here in the factory.
0:32:45 > 0:32:49But, once again, things are not going so well for Jess.
0:32:51 > 0:32:54She's turned up 15 minutes late for her shift.
0:32:56 > 0:32:58Ian has finally had enough.
0:32:59 > 0:33:01She does not listen to what anybody says.
0:33:01 > 0:33:05She does as she feels when she wants all the time.
0:33:05 > 0:33:06It's extremely immature.
0:33:07 > 0:33:09I don't see the point in having somebody like that
0:33:09 > 0:33:13working alongside me, basically sabotaging our work production.
0:33:14 > 0:33:16And the feeling is mutual.
0:33:16 > 0:33:19He thinks he owns the boat, for fuck's sake.
0:33:19 > 0:33:22And I'm not letting him treat me like a mug.
0:33:22 > 0:33:24I will shove a fucking fish down his throat!
0:33:24 > 0:33:28I swear to God. I can't. There's no way I'm working with him.
0:33:29 > 0:33:30I refuse.
0:33:31 > 0:33:35Jess abandons her post and seeks out factory boss Wolfgang.
0:33:52 > 0:33:54Jessica think she's the boss of the factory.
0:33:54 > 0:33:56She can run the whole thing.
0:33:56 > 0:33:59She don't want to work with the Scottish guy,
0:33:59 > 0:34:01but I cannot do anything else.
0:34:01 > 0:34:02Then I say...
0:34:03 > 0:34:04..I cannot do anything.
0:34:05 > 0:34:08Rather than back down and do what she's told...
0:34:10 > 0:34:12..Jess leaves the factory.
0:34:13 > 0:34:16Just had enough. I really miss the kids.
0:34:23 > 0:34:26I just desperately want to go home!
0:34:32 > 0:34:35This isn't the first time that Jess has gone AWOL.
0:34:36 > 0:34:39I used to get really badly bullied at school.
0:34:40 > 0:34:45And I just felt that I wanted to be on my own, so I used to run away.
0:34:47 > 0:34:50I did feel bad, though, even though I did used to do it,
0:34:50 > 0:34:52but I just had so much anger inside me,
0:34:52 > 0:34:54I sort of just didn't care.
0:34:57 > 0:34:58How did you feel when I used to run away?
0:35:00 > 0:35:01I used to feel really sad
0:35:01 > 0:35:05and I used to think that I was failing as a parent,
0:35:05 > 0:35:06somehow letting you down.
0:35:08 > 0:35:10You've got a lot to offer, Jess.
0:35:14 > 0:35:16I love you.
0:35:19 > 0:35:22But deep in the Barents Sea, there is nowhere to run to.
0:35:26 > 0:35:27We have no more to give her.
0:35:29 > 0:35:31We have to do our job, too.
0:35:32 > 0:35:34I cannot help any more.
0:35:35 > 0:35:38Jess is summoned to the bridge to learn her fate from Captain Ausmund.
0:35:40 > 0:35:43Jessica, she had problem following the rules.
0:35:43 > 0:35:46And if you can't grasp that idea
0:35:46 > 0:35:49and if you start falling out with your colleagues,
0:35:49 > 0:35:51this is not a job for you.
0:35:54 > 0:35:55My options are limited now.
0:35:57 > 0:36:00If a person don't want to stay on the ship,
0:36:00 > 0:36:01we can't just take the ship in.
0:36:01 > 0:36:03I can ask around,
0:36:03 > 0:36:06if there is any other ship that will take you, that's going in.
0:36:06 > 0:36:10And the other ships we got around us is this Russian trawler.
0:36:10 > 0:36:13So, this is your lift, if you want to go in before us.
0:36:13 > 0:36:15- I don't want to give up, I just... - No, I know.
0:36:15 > 0:36:18We want to try a different duty for you.
0:36:20 > 0:36:23The captain decides to move Jess to the ship's kitchen,
0:36:23 > 0:36:26where she'll be working as a galley girl.
0:36:27 > 0:36:28New galley girl!
0:36:28 > 0:36:29Hello!
0:36:29 > 0:36:31My name is Roger.
0:36:31 > 0:36:32Hello.
0:36:32 > 0:36:34And though it's a less-demanding job,
0:36:34 > 0:36:37he keeps her on the same pay as Carl and Jamie.
0:36:38 > 0:36:39He's a very fair captain.
0:36:39 > 0:36:42I think that he felt that I did as best as I could.
0:36:43 > 0:36:46And I do feel that I gave everything that I can.
0:36:46 > 0:36:50I feel really happy that I'm out of that workplace now.
0:36:52 > 0:36:55As the crew filter up to the mess for lunch,
0:36:55 > 0:36:58not everyone is as thrilled with her new job.
0:36:58 > 0:37:01No matter how hard it gets, don't do what she's done now.
0:37:01 > 0:37:03Yeah, I know. Oh, no, I know that.
0:37:03 > 0:37:06You've eight days left. It's not like you're here for another year.
0:37:06 > 0:37:07Are they still going to pay her?
0:37:07 > 0:37:10Exactly. That's what's getting me. That's really annoying me.
0:37:10 > 0:37:15She's still going to get the full pay and not even work as hard.
0:37:15 > 0:37:18I've got nothing to say left, mate. Nothing.
0:37:19 > 0:37:21I don't know. Here she is.
0:37:21 > 0:37:24I can't believe they just let you do it.
0:37:24 > 0:37:26- Do you know what I mean?- I'm happy.
0:37:28 > 0:37:30A lot happier.
0:37:31 > 0:37:33I've actually got a smile on my face.
0:37:33 > 0:37:34I haven't actually given up.
0:37:36 > 0:37:38I'm still doing work.
0:37:57 > 0:38:00As Jess will now be following a different shift pattern,
0:38:00 > 0:38:02she must move from her shared cabin
0:38:02 > 0:38:06to the only spare room on the ship, the sick bay.
0:38:07 > 0:38:10Just feel like this is going to help everybody.
0:38:10 > 0:38:13Like, they're not seeing my miserable face
0:38:13 > 0:38:15and I don't want to be stressed,
0:38:15 > 0:38:17even though I am still stressed.
0:38:17 > 0:38:19But it's to a certain level.
0:38:20 > 0:38:23The trainees have a week left at sea.
0:38:23 > 0:38:26With Jess removed from the factory, the team is a man down.
0:38:28 > 0:38:31But, with a tough fishing target that must be met,
0:38:31 > 0:38:35work and life aboard is only going to get tougher.
0:38:49 > 0:38:51It's morning in the Arctic Circle.
0:38:53 > 0:38:56And Jess is relishing her new responsibilities.
0:38:56 > 0:38:57Not so pinchy in the voice.
0:38:57 > 0:39:00Be firm and say, "Good morning."
0:39:01 > 0:39:03Wakey-wakey.
0:39:03 > 0:39:0420 past 7. Get up.
0:39:04 > 0:39:06Rise and shine!
0:39:06 > 0:39:07Wakey-wakey!
0:39:11 > 0:39:13Carl's never hidden his desire
0:39:13 > 0:39:15to get offered a permanent job as a fisherman.
0:39:15 > 0:39:19Today, he's been given another chance to show just how keen he is.
0:39:24 > 0:39:26He's being allowed to help out
0:39:26 > 0:39:28on the most dangerous part of the boat...
0:39:30 > 0:39:31..the trawl deck.
0:39:32 > 0:39:36I feel like I'm becoming a fisherman, more and more every day.
0:39:36 > 0:39:38My parents will be proud of my progress.
0:39:38 > 0:39:41I think they're just proud, just being good in general.
0:39:41 > 0:39:42This is honest.
0:39:45 > 0:39:46When Carl was a teenager,
0:39:46 > 0:39:49the relationship with his parents hit an all-time low.
0:39:50 > 0:39:52It was a trust issue, wasn't it?
0:39:52 > 0:39:56Yeah, which really was painful for me.
0:39:56 > 0:39:58I was smoking loads of weed.
0:39:58 > 0:40:00And then, like, you go to your mate's house
0:40:00 > 0:40:02or you say you're going to your mate's house
0:40:02 > 0:40:04and, instead, you're doing pills.
0:40:04 > 0:40:07And every time conversation started,
0:40:07 > 0:40:10we would end up in an argument.
0:40:10 > 0:40:13My dad would always say, "Get out! You're not wanted!"
0:40:13 > 0:40:16And I'm not one for backing out of an argument.
0:40:16 > 0:40:17And neither is he.
0:40:17 > 0:40:20And I was like, "No, I don't need you. I'm out."
0:40:20 > 0:40:23So, it was a bit of, "Get the fuck out" and "I'm leaving."
0:40:23 > 0:40:24You know?
0:40:25 > 0:40:27Over the next four years,
0:40:27 > 0:40:30Carl was homeless and struggled to lead a stable life.
0:40:32 > 0:40:34I was living on friends' sofas.
0:40:34 > 0:40:36I was living on the streets.
0:40:36 > 0:40:38I was, like, finding, like, safe spots.
0:40:39 > 0:40:41This was a nice spot.
0:40:41 > 0:40:44You just sleep under there, in there.
0:40:45 > 0:40:49Like, it felt a little bit like that you had some sort of place.
0:40:49 > 0:40:50Do you know what I mean?
0:40:52 > 0:40:53Grim, mate. Yeah.
0:40:55 > 0:40:58It got to a point, man, where I was...
0:40:58 > 0:41:00I was living in a mate's shed.
0:41:00 > 0:41:04I was doing three grams of mephedrone a day,
0:41:04 > 0:41:05living in a mate's shed.
0:41:06 > 0:41:09You know, like, what the fuck are you doing with your life?
0:41:13 > 0:41:15Fuck this place!
0:41:35 > 0:41:38Now, Carl's on a mission to rebuild his life
0:41:38 > 0:41:40and knows if he can prove himself here,
0:41:40 > 0:41:43it'll help him regain respect back home.
0:41:44 > 0:41:45OK!
0:41:47 > 0:41:50But, with constantly moving chains and cables,
0:41:50 > 0:41:52one wrong step could be fatal.
0:41:54 > 0:41:55Fuck's sake!
0:41:55 > 0:41:57You're fucking stupid!
0:42:06 > 0:42:07That's the best thing I've done yet.
0:42:07 > 0:42:10That's fishing. That's what I came here to do.
0:42:10 > 0:42:12That was nice. I really liked that.
0:42:12 > 0:42:14Team.
0:42:14 > 0:42:16Carl do a good job.
0:42:16 > 0:42:17First time, good job.
0:42:20 > 0:42:22Since losing her job in the factory,
0:42:22 > 0:42:25Jess has had little contact with her fellow trainees.
0:42:27 > 0:42:29Jamie, unlike Carl,
0:42:29 > 0:42:32has got over his initial disappointment at her behaviour
0:42:32 > 0:42:34and is paying a visit.
0:42:34 > 0:42:35Wakey-wakey!
0:42:37 > 0:42:39Oh, I'm so tired.
0:42:39 > 0:42:40So am I.
0:42:40 > 0:42:43I wish I was the fucking chamber boy.
0:42:44 > 0:42:47So, how do you feel, like, now that you've been, like, you know,
0:42:47 > 0:42:49kicked out of the factory?
0:42:49 > 0:42:50The work wasn't a problem.
0:42:50 > 0:42:53It was the people that I was working with.
0:42:53 > 0:42:58Don't like to be told what to do and what steps to take.
0:42:58 > 0:43:01I think that, like, you just need to obviously, like,
0:43:01 > 0:43:04differentiate the differences between being independent
0:43:04 > 0:43:06and not listening.
0:43:06 > 0:43:07Why should I...
0:43:07 > 0:43:11I feel like, why should I get all down
0:43:11 > 0:43:14and make me feel worse, do you know what I mean?
0:43:14 > 0:43:16Like, I can't be dealing with that.
0:43:16 > 0:43:19Well, sometimes, you've just got to do things you don't want to do.
0:43:19 > 0:43:21Do you know what I mean, like?
0:43:23 > 0:43:26But Carl, who set his own bar so high,
0:43:26 > 0:43:30can't accept what's happened and refuses to forgive.
0:43:31 > 0:43:32As a team-mate and a friend,
0:43:32 > 0:43:35I did want her to succeed.
0:43:35 > 0:43:38You know? I feel so blessed to be here and I think...
0:43:38 > 0:43:42That's another thing. I just think she's ungrateful, as well.
0:43:42 > 0:43:43That's why I'm angry.
0:43:44 > 0:43:47Jess and Carl have been avoiding each other
0:43:47 > 0:43:49since she was moved to the kitchen.
0:43:50 > 0:43:53But, on a 55-metre boat, miles off shore,
0:43:53 > 0:43:55there's only so much side-stepping you can do.
0:43:57 > 0:44:00Be straight up to me and tell me what you think, do you know what I mean?
0:44:00 > 0:44:02At the end of the day, I don't want a fucking fisherman job.
0:44:02 > 0:44:04Do you understand?
0:44:04 > 0:44:05And I fucking done well.
0:44:05 > 0:44:07I done well.
0:44:07 > 0:44:09I done well because I did it for the week.
0:44:09 > 0:44:10I'm sorry that, yeah... I'm sorry. No.
0:44:10 > 0:44:13You threw a strop and you're getting what you want.
0:44:13 > 0:44:15- Oh, my God! No, I didn't throw a strop.- You didn't?
0:44:15 > 0:44:18Do you have kids? Do you have other responsibilities that puts you down?
0:44:19 > 0:44:22Yes, they are. Because I didn't give up. Listen...
0:44:22 > 0:44:25Oh, my God, you're actually getting me so angry.
0:44:25 > 0:44:27Listen, I'm not a fucking fisherman like you.
0:44:27 > 0:44:29- I did everything... - You signed up for something.
0:44:29 > 0:44:32Do you want to sign up for MasterChef?
0:44:32 > 0:44:33Do you understand?
0:44:33 > 0:44:36- So don't fucking bitch about me to everybody else.- I'm not bitching.
0:44:36 > 0:44:37You are! You're a fucking bitch!
0:44:37 > 0:44:40Can't fucking handle little bitches like that. Look at you.
0:44:40 > 0:44:42Look at you. You're a little bitch.
0:44:42 > 0:44:44Do you know that?
0:44:45 > 0:44:46You just piss me off.
0:44:46 > 0:44:48You piss me off.
0:44:48 > 0:44:49I don't care.
0:44:49 > 0:44:52Because anyone would get angry with your bitching around.
0:44:52 > 0:44:54Do you know what I mean? Bitching to other people.
0:44:54 > 0:44:55Come on, sit down.
0:44:55 > 0:44:57No! Because you're getting me angry
0:44:57 > 0:44:59and I want to walk away, like a strong person.
0:44:59 > 0:45:01But you're pissing me off!
0:45:01 > 0:45:03You're pissing me off!
0:45:05 > 0:45:07I've got nothing to prove to you.
0:45:07 > 0:45:08Nothing to prove to you.
0:45:16 > 0:45:18It's just a complete piss-take.
0:45:18 > 0:45:19And, at the end of the day,
0:45:19 > 0:45:23my first option was to go fucking home and see my kids.
0:45:23 > 0:45:26Surely I'd like to take that option?
0:45:26 > 0:45:28But I've stayed strong and stayed on a boat
0:45:28 > 0:45:30that I don't typically want to stay on
0:45:30 > 0:45:31and I want to go home.
0:45:31 > 0:45:33Fair enough, I've had my fucking moan.
0:45:33 > 0:45:36Everyone's allowed to have their fucking moan.
0:45:45 > 0:45:48The trainees have two days left on board the Hermes.
0:45:52 > 0:45:53TANNOY: Wakey-wakey!
0:45:53 > 0:45:55Good afternoon.
0:45:55 > 0:45:58I made a lovely, lovely pudding.
0:45:58 > 0:46:00Come on, get up! Wakey-wakey!
0:46:01 > 0:46:03It's 20 past 2.
0:46:03 > 0:46:041! 1!
0:46:08 > 0:46:10As they prepare lunch,
0:46:10 > 0:46:14Chef Roger wants to find out more about Jess's rebellious streak.
0:46:16 > 0:46:19Did you go to a public school, then, Jessica?
0:46:19 > 0:46:21Till I was 15.
0:46:21 > 0:46:23Oh, right. Did you like it?
0:46:23 > 0:46:25No.
0:46:25 > 0:46:28I chose to...
0:46:28 > 0:46:29not turn up.
0:46:29 > 0:46:31OK. So you dropped out?
0:46:31 > 0:46:32Yeah.
0:46:32 > 0:46:37Do you feel, Jessica, that you are still running away from something?
0:46:38 > 0:46:40Erm...
0:46:40 > 0:46:42If you go back to the factory,
0:46:42 > 0:46:44would you change anything or do anything different?
0:46:45 > 0:46:48I think, maybe, I think, like,
0:46:48 > 0:46:50I'm strong enough to deal with it all by myself.
0:46:50 > 0:46:53I think that's what the biggest problem is.
0:46:53 > 0:46:55I feel like I think that I can do everything.
0:46:55 > 0:46:58The longer you do it your own way,
0:46:58 > 0:47:02the longer it will take for you to get accepted
0:47:02 > 0:47:04by the rest of the working crew.
0:47:04 > 0:47:07And the only thing they actually want to do
0:47:07 > 0:47:11is to make you benefit from their experience.
0:47:11 > 0:47:14Because, at one time, they did it the same with like you,
0:47:14 > 0:47:16they did it the wrong way.
0:47:16 > 0:47:17Yeah.
0:47:17 > 0:47:19That's the way you learn.
0:47:19 > 0:47:21I'm going to be honest, I don't think I like authority.
0:47:21 > 0:47:25I don't feel like I totally understood what was going wrong.
0:47:26 > 0:47:27But, now I understand that...
0:47:27 > 0:47:29You know, actually...
0:47:29 > 0:47:31I need to take advice from others.
0:47:31 > 0:47:34And when they're telling me stuff, I need to not take it to heart.
0:47:35 > 0:47:38I think I've actually really seen where I go wrong...
0:47:39 > 0:47:41..now.
0:47:43 > 0:47:45Down in the factory,
0:47:45 > 0:47:47Jamie's done everything Wolfgang has asked of him,
0:47:47 > 0:47:49with one exception.
0:47:49 > 0:47:52So far, he's avoided cutting the fishes' heads off.
0:47:53 > 0:47:58We are just now in, going in and kill the fish, Jamie.
0:47:58 > 0:48:00- OK?- Just like that, yeah?
0:48:00 > 0:48:01Yeah.
0:48:01 > 0:48:03Boom! And make your parents proud.
0:48:04 > 0:48:08Today, Wolfgang wants Jamie to face his fears.
0:48:08 > 0:48:10Are you ready?
0:48:10 > 0:48:13As ready as I'll ever be. Let's go!
0:48:24 > 0:48:25Down like that?
0:48:28 > 0:48:29Yes!
0:48:34 > 0:48:35Fine.
0:48:35 > 0:48:39And then, hold my hand here and then just cut like that, yeah?
0:48:45 > 0:48:46Fine.
0:48:46 > 0:48:48Very good.
0:48:48 > 0:48:49Very good, Jamie!
0:48:49 > 0:48:50Yay!
0:48:59 > 0:49:01Very good, Jamie!
0:49:01 > 0:49:03I feel like a caveman!
0:49:04 > 0:49:08I just think that doing this has just given me the confidence
0:49:08 > 0:49:09that I can do anything.
0:49:09 > 0:49:10Do you know what I mean? I really can.
0:49:10 > 0:49:14That was my worst nightmare in the whole entire world.
0:49:14 > 0:49:17But I'm just going with it, do you know what I mean?
0:49:17 > 0:49:18I'm just so... I'm really proud.
0:49:18 > 0:49:21I know it's something stupid as gutting a fish
0:49:21 > 0:49:24and people will probably think, what the fuck is this boy talking about?
0:49:24 > 0:49:26But I'm just so proud of myself. I really am.
0:49:34 > 0:49:36I've learnt a lot. I really have.
0:49:36 > 0:49:38And I think it's given me, like, the confidence.
0:49:38 > 0:49:43Before I came here, I didn't have any confidence in myself.
0:49:45 > 0:49:49- Maybe, I need to start thinking about moving out.- School again?
0:49:49 > 0:49:51Maybe, yeah. Do you know what I mean?
0:49:51 > 0:49:54Like, getting a career. Like, thinking about the bigger plan,
0:49:54 > 0:49:57because, you know, I'm not a kid any more.
0:49:57 > 0:50:01People, like, see me as this boy who, this pretty boy.
0:50:01 > 0:50:02Do you know what I mean?
0:50:02 > 0:50:06Like, dresses nice, hair done, suntan, whitens my teeth...
0:50:06 > 0:50:07You know what I mean?
0:50:07 > 0:50:09And automatically think, no, he wouldn't do this.
0:50:11 > 0:50:13Yeah, I live like Brad Pitt.
0:50:13 > 0:50:15But, actually, I'm a fisherman!
0:50:20 > 0:50:22You, you, you...
0:50:23 > 0:50:24Jamie! Jamie! Jamie!
0:50:32 > 0:50:35After two weeks on board, the ship is heading back to port.
0:50:36 > 0:50:40And for some of the Hermes crew, it can't come soon enough.
0:50:41 > 0:50:44I'll be very glad when Jessica is going home.
0:50:44 > 0:50:49I hate that fucking waking part when she has been cook's little girl...
0:50:49 > 0:50:52"Wakey-wakey! Wakey! Wakey-wakey-wakey-wakey!"
0:50:52 > 0:50:54Oh!
0:50:55 > 0:50:56And that's fucking annoying!
0:50:58 > 0:51:01As the boat docks and off-loads its catch,
0:51:01 > 0:51:04owner Jan Roger arrives to give the trainees their own bounty.
0:51:06 > 0:51:09But Carl is angling for more than a paycheck.
0:51:09 > 0:51:11I hope he tells me I can stay for the rest of the trip.
0:51:11 > 0:51:13That's what I'd love, personally.
0:51:13 > 0:51:15But, I can't expect everything, you know?
0:51:16 > 0:51:20You signed a contract, so you have to get paid.
0:51:21 > 0:51:24And we agreed on £3,000 each.
0:51:25 > 0:51:26And I have it in cash.
0:51:26 > 0:51:28There you go, Carl...
0:51:28 > 0:51:32After tax, each has earned £2,750.
0:51:32 > 0:51:34- Thank you.- Thank you very much.
0:51:34 > 0:51:36- Are you mad?- Thank you very much. Thank you very much.
0:51:36 > 0:51:38- Thank you. - I really appreciate it. Thank you.
0:51:38 > 0:51:41So, thank you very much for your time and everything.
0:51:41 > 0:51:43Have a nice trip and journey back home.
0:51:43 > 0:51:45Is it really my last day?
0:51:47 > 0:51:48Yeah.
0:51:48 > 0:51:49I'm sorry to inform you, Carl.
0:51:51 > 0:51:53You're not going home.
0:51:53 > 0:51:54You're staying on!
0:51:54 > 0:51:55You shit me up!
0:51:56 > 0:51:59That's the wrong way to start that sentence!
0:51:59 > 0:52:01Yes. Thank you, thank you.
0:52:01 > 0:52:02- Congratulations.- Thank you.
0:52:02 > 0:52:04So, that's how it can be done.
0:52:06 > 0:52:09If you'd said to me three weeks ago what would be the best part of this,
0:52:09 > 0:52:11it would probably be that I was making three grand,
0:52:11 > 0:52:12do you know what I mean?
0:52:12 > 0:52:15Whereas now, it kind of feels like I've achieved something.
0:52:15 > 0:52:16I don't know.
0:52:16 > 0:52:18And it feels a bit nicer than just thinking,
0:52:18 > 0:52:20I'm getting a wad of money.
0:52:21 > 0:52:23Oh, shit!
0:52:23 > 0:52:24I don't regret coming here.
0:52:24 > 0:52:26I love the fact that I came here,
0:52:26 > 0:52:27because, then, if I didn't,
0:52:27 > 0:52:29then I would have carried on with these...
0:52:31 > 0:52:32..bad...
0:52:33 > 0:52:34..habits.
0:52:38 > 0:52:41And over a farewell lunch with the crew,
0:52:41 > 0:52:44Jess decides to put what she's learned into practice.
0:52:45 > 0:52:46Hello, guys.
0:52:47 > 0:52:49Wakey-wakey!
0:52:50 > 0:52:52Mr Wolfgang, Mr Ian...
0:52:54 > 0:52:57..I am sorry for my attitude on the boat.
0:52:58 > 0:53:02And I'm sorry that I did not listen to instructions.
0:53:03 > 0:53:06And I'm sorry for all the moaning that I have done.
0:53:07 > 0:53:09I wanted things to go my way,
0:53:09 > 0:53:14not compromising, sort of thing, and for my language as well on the boat.
0:53:14 > 0:53:15OK.
0:53:15 > 0:53:17And, to everybody else...
0:53:18 > 0:53:19..love and forgiveness.
0:53:19 > 0:53:20Wakey-wakey!
0:53:25 > 0:53:27- Sorry, Ian.- That's all right.
0:53:28 > 0:53:32Fair enough for owning up to it, especially on the last day,
0:53:32 > 0:53:34before you go home, and try and make amends.
0:53:34 > 0:53:36That's big of her. That's...
0:53:37 > 0:53:40That is... I don't think I've seen that before.
0:53:40 > 0:53:41I feel happy now.
0:53:42 > 0:53:43I feel good.
0:53:45 > 0:53:49And I feel like everybody was really taking in what I was saying,
0:53:49 > 0:53:50so that's good.
0:53:51 > 0:53:55Back at the boat, Jessica and Jamie bid a fond farewell to Carl.
0:53:56 > 0:53:59- Be good.- See you later.- Bye-bye.
0:54:00 > 0:54:03- Be good, mate, all right? - You look after yourself.
0:54:03 > 0:54:05- Yeah, I will do.- And I'll see you back at home 1,000%.
0:54:05 > 0:54:07- Definitely.- See you later.- So long.
0:54:08 > 0:54:10So long! Farewell!
0:54:11 > 0:54:12I'm going to miss Agent J.
0:54:12 > 0:54:15I don't know how I'm going to do it without him. But it'll be all right.
0:54:15 > 0:54:17It's going to be good. Got a new crew.
0:54:24 > 0:54:26Oh, we're so close!
0:54:27 > 0:54:28Argh...!
0:54:28 > 0:54:32After a four-hour flight, Jess arrives back in Hertfordshire.
0:54:32 > 0:54:36I've done this opportunity for my two gorgeous daughters.
0:54:36 > 0:54:41And to finally be able to go home to them just makes me feel so happy.
0:54:42 > 0:54:44Hello...!
0:54:44 > 0:54:45Come in!
0:54:45 > 0:54:47Oooh...!
0:54:48 > 0:54:49Alisha!
0:54:49 > 0:54:50Baby girl!
0:54:53 > 0:54:55Hello, Sasha!
0:54:56 > 0:54:59Oh, baby!
0:55:01 > 0:55:03- I love you.- I love you, too.
0:55:03 > 0:55:06And she can't wait to show off the fruits of her labour.
0:55:06 > 0:55:08Money!
0:55:11 > 0:55:13Yeah, I'd say it's definitely worth it,
0:55:13 > 0:55:15because now I've got the money in my pocket,
0:55:15 > 0:55:17I can go spending on them and stuff.
0:55:17 > 0:55:20In Wales, Jamie also has a warm welcome home.
0:55:22 > 0:55:23What's going on now?
0:55:23 > 0:55:25- You OK?- Yeah.
0:55:27 > 0:55:30This is my well-earned cash.
0:55:30 > 0:55:34This is how many fishes' heads I've gutted and cutted and sliced
0:55:34 > 0:55:35and been covered in!
0:55:35 > 0:55:38What's the first of your plans?
0:55:38 > 0:55:40I don't know. It's, like, obviously, it's really important
0:55:40 > 0:55:41that I get a job.
0:55:41 > 0:55:43That's my main goal now, is that.
0:55:43 > 0:55:46What about paying some debts off?
0:55:46 > 0:55:49I think I'm going to, like, pay my store cards off,
0:55:49 > 0:55:52so that the only thing I've got then is my credit card.
0:55:52 > 0:55:55But, 1,500 miles away, Carl is setting back out to sea.
0:56:11 > 0:56:13Next time on World's Toughest Jobs...
0:56:13 > 0:56:15Oh...!
0:56:15 > 0:56:16..skyscraper window cleaning.
0:56:17 > 0:56:19It just rushes through my body.
0:56:19 > 0:56:21Will three more Brits rise to the occasion?
0:56:22 > 0:56:25I can't fucking window clean. It was shit.
0:56:25 > 0:56:27Or will their hopes come crashing down?
0:56:27 > 0:56:30Oh, why the fuck did I sign up for this?!