0:00:02 > 0:00:05Remember the Whewell family? How could you forget them?
0:00:05 > 0:00:07Burgers?
0:00:07 > 0:00:10This time last year, we followed the family as they struggled
0:00:10 > 0:00:11to change their diet...
0:00:11 > 0:00:13We eat way too much.
0:00:14 > 0:00:15..exercise...
0:00:15 > 0:00:19- LAUGHTER - Pedal!- I can't! Oh, my God.
0:00:19 > 0:00:23..and lifestyle in an ongoing family battle against the bulge.
0:00:25 > 0:00:27It's YOU that needs to change.
0:00:27 > 0:00:3112 months later, and some of the family have embraced those changes.
0:00:31 > 0:00:34But others continue to struggle...
0:00:34 > 0:00:37- You need to go to the gym class. - You need to go to the gym.
0:00:37 > 0:00:40Mum Helen Whewell's still in denial.
0:00:40 > 0:00:42I think these idiots know nothing.
0:00:42 > 0:00:46But now, after a heart-stopping health scare...
0:00:46 > 0:00:49Your heart rate is going at 230 beats per minute.
0:00:49 > 0:00:55..there's no denying that her lifestyle is life-threatening.
0:00:55 > 0:00:56Are you ready to change?
0:00:56 > 0:00:58So, in a roller-coaster ride of triumphs...
0:00:58 > 0:01:00tears...
0:01:00 > 0:01:03It's very difficult, because people do judge by appearances.
0:01:03 > 0:01:06..and some stark home truths...
0:01:06 > 0:01:10I've been told, "You have to do this, or you're going to die."
0:01:11 > 0:01:12..we follow Helen and the Whewells
0:01:12 > 0:01:15as she faces the challenge of a lifetime...
0:01:15 > 0:01:18It's like the mother ship calling me home, look at it!
0:01:18 > 0:01:20..to diet...
0:01:21 > 0:01:23- Mother!- ..or die.
0:01:31 > 0:01:35If there's one thing we're all being force fed more than fast food,
0:01:35 > 0:01:38it's alarming headlines about what the food's doing to us.
0:01:38 > 0:01:43Obesity, strokes, diabetes, heart-attacks, cancer -
0:01:43 > 0:01:46they're all on the increase, and, according to the experts,
0:01:46 > 0:01:49that's down to all that rubbish we're scoffing.
0:01:49 > 0:01:53But of course, the experts don't mean people like you, or me,
0:01:53 > 0:01:55or the Whewell family...
0:01:57 > 0:02:00I still don't think there's anything wrong with being decadent now
0:02:00 > 0:02:05and again, because you're only here once.
0:02:05 > 0:02:10Well, actually, just like the Whewells, almost 70% of us
0:02:10 > 0:02:13here in Wales are already overweight or obese.
0:02:13 > 0:02:16And, as a nation, that makes over two million of us
0:02:16 > 0:02:20an A & E incident just waiting to happen.
0:02:22 > 0:02:25Which is exactly why this time last year,
0:02:25 > 0:02:28as part of the BBC's Live Longer Wales season,
0:02:28 > 0:02:32the Whewell family from Abersychan agreed to take part in
0:02:32 > 0:02:33Family Life Swap.
0:02:34 > 0:02:38As a family, they'd just come to a sobering realisation.
0:02:38 > 0:02:42Where we've gone wrong is that you're meant to eat to live,
0:02:42 > 0:02:44but we now live to eat.
0:02:44 > 0:02:47And so 12-year-old Jenni
0:02:47 > 0:02:51and 18-year-old Bonnie swapped lives with fitness fanatics Eva
0:02:51 > 0:02:55and Rosie Thompson, in the hope that the Thompson family's healthy
0:02:55 > 0:02:58lifestyle and diet would rub off on the Whewells.
0:03:00 > 0:03:02And whilst all that fresh food
0:03:02 > 0:03:04and fresh air took some getting used to...
0:03:04 > 0:03:06You've got a fish!
0:03:06 > 0:03:08- It's nice.- It smells.
0:03:08 > 0:03:09SHE SCREAMS
0:03:09 > 0:03:11..the week-long swap was a riot.
0:03:14 > 0:03:17And some valuable lessons were learnt.
0:03:17 > 0:03:21I think it achieved what we wanted it to achieve.
0:03:21 > 0:03:24In the weeks following the swap, the Whewells lost over three
0:03:24 > 0:03:27and a half stone in weight.
0:03:27 > 0:03:29If we can do it, then anyone can.
0:03:29 > 0:03:33But keeping the weight off is the dieter's eternal dilemma...
0:03:33 > 0:03:35And, come Christmas,
0:03:35 > 0:03:37when the Thompsons paid a festive visit,
0:03:37 > 0:03:41the Whewells' road to good intentions had been re-paved...
0:03:41 > 0:03:43with cream.
0:03:43 > 0:03:44That's one hell of a Yule log!
0:03:44 > 0:03:46LAUGHTER
0:03:46 > 0:03:52But this gravy train of rich foods, sugary drinks and fatty takeaways
0:03:52 > 0:03:58was hurtling inexorably to one final destination - heartache.
0:04:01 > 0:04:02Helen had an incident.
0:04:02 > 0:04:05She'd been feeling ill for a couple of days.
0:04:05 > 0:04:07I had the sudden feeling of fatigue,
0:04:07 > 0:04:11I had pain in my chin and my jaw, then I had the sudden
0:04:11 > 0:04:15chest pain, and what was really horrible was that I had another one.
0:04:15 > 0:04:20On Monday 24th of March of this year, Helen was rushed to hospital.
0:04:20 > 0:04:24Helen said that the GP had said that she may have had a heart attack
0:04:24 > 0:04:26at this point. We didn't know, obviously,
0:04:26 > 0:04:28but it was a sheer panic at that point.
0:04:28 > 0:04:31I was terrified when that happened, terrified.
0:04:31 > 0:04:35She was really, really poorly, they hooked her up straightaway.
0:04:35 > 0:04:38The doctor arrived and he was very nice,
0:04:38 > 0:04:42he explained that it was a bad attack of arrhythmia -
0:04:42 > 0:04:47that was the relief sort of thing, because they did a blood oxygen test
0:04:47 > 0:04:51so we knew at that point obviously that it's not a heart attack.
0:04:51 > 0:04:53But...tricky.
0:04:56 > 0:04:59Helen had suffered her worst-ever episode
0:04:59 > 0:05:01of a pre-existing medical problem.
0:05:03 > 0:05:07I've got a heart condition called supraventricular tachycardia.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10I get quite significant heart arrhythmia.
0:05:10 > 0:05:14I then get chest pain and very, very chronic fatigue.
0:05:15 > 0:05:18It's something that can be treated. But my consultant is very
0:05:18 > 0:05:23reluctant to do that unless I've lost a significant amount of weight.
0:05:23 > 0:05:28The long and the short of it is that Helen needs heart surgery,
0:05:28 > 0:05:31but is too overweight for the surgery to be safe.
0:05:33 > 0:05:36Soon after her trip to A & E, Helen is referred to the weight
0:05:36 > 0:05:40management clinic in Ebbw Vale, where the true extent of her
0:05:40 > 0:05:42health issues will be assessed.
0:05:44 > 0:05:47Well, this morning we've got an appointment -
0:05:47 > 0:05:50I've got an appointment - with the weight management service.
0:05:50 > 0:05:54I'm going to see Dr Haboubi and I know that he's going to tell me
0:05:54 > 0:05:57lots of things that I don't want to hear, but probably know.
0:05:57 > 0:06:01And the first thing Helen doesn't want to know is her exact weight.
0:06:01 > 0:06:05I'm dreading standing on the scales, it's a long time
0:06:05 > 0:06:09since I've put my foot on a weighing scales, a very long time.
0:06:09 > 0:06:12In fact, we don't even own a weighing scales,
0:06:12 > 0:06:16other than to measure cream and eggs and butter and sugar!
0:06:16 > 0:06:19Stand on to the scales here, OK?
0:06:21 > 0:06:23It's groaning.
0:06:24 > 0:06:27117.4, you can step off there now
0:06:27 > 0:06:31and I'll convert it over for you, because everything is in metric.
0:06:31 > 0:06:33Don't do that!
0:06:34 > 0:06:39So, that's 18st and 7lb with shoes and clothing, OK?
0:06:39 > 0:06:40- Oh, my word.- All right?
0:06:40 > 0:06:43So I'll take you back down to the little waiting area there
0:06:43 > 0:06:45and our staff nurse will call you.
0:06:45 > 0:06:48At 18 and a half stone,
0:06:48 > 0:06:52Helen's Body Mass Index puts her in the category of the morbidly obese.
0:06:53 > 0:06:56The notoriously straight-talking Dr Haboubi
0:06:56 > 0:06:59is about to spell out just how serious that is.
0:06:59 > 0:07:02There's a lot of issues going into this,
0:07:02 > 0:07:04because we call obesity a disease.
0:07:04 > 0:07:07If you are well and healthy, and your blood pressure is OK -
0:07:07 > 0:07:10I know you're taking tablets for your blood pressure -
0:07:10 > 0:07:13and you're not diabetic, but you're going to be diabetic,
0:07:13 > 0:07:18you're going to have osteoarthritis, you already have heart problems
0:07:18 > 0:07:20and you might have chronic arthritis in the future,
0:07:20 > 0:07:22you might have a stroke,
0:07:22 > 0:07:25so there are so many risk factors with being obese,
0:07:25 > 0:07:28and the lighter you are, the healthier you are,
0:07:28 > 0:07:30and the longer you live, as simple as that.
0:07:30 > 0:07:34So, what we need to do now is that we have to change,
0:07:34 > 0:07:37- and that's why I say, are you going to change?- Yes.
0:07:37 > 0:07:40- Are you?- Yes.- Promise?
0:07:40 > 0:07:44- Absolutely.- Now? - The sooner the better.
0:07:44 > 0:07:46Are you a member of a gym?
0:07:46 > 0:07:49- No.- Why not? You can't afford it?
0:07:49 > 0:07:51Um, time. I don't have any time.
0:07:51 > 0:07:53You do.
0:07:54 > 0:07:57Can we discuss your time with the gym?
0:07:57 > 0:07:59How many hours do you sleep?
0:08:00 > 0:08:04I could sleep for Britain, I'm always tired.
0:08:04 > 0:08:09- How many hours?- Nine hours? - How many hours do you work?
0:08:10 > 0:08:12Eight.
0:08:12 > 0:08:14How much time do you need to travel?
0:08:14 > 0:08:16An hour.
0:08:16 > 0:08:20How much time do you need to eat and drink and go to the toilet
0:08:20 > 0:08:22- and so on?- An hour.
0:08:22 > 0:08:25- Anything else? - Housework is another hour.
0:08:25 > 0:08:27So this is 20?
0:08:27 > 0:08:32The day is 24, and you cannot give me an hour a day?
0:08:32 > 0:08:34You must be joking.
0:08:36 > 0:08:39You can't have it both ways.
0:08:39 > 0:08:43We want to move you from this path, which will take you to death,
0:08:43 > 0:08:47to this path, which will make you live a lot longer.
0:08:47 > 0:08:50Are you going to lose weight? Of course you are.
0:08:51 > 0:08:53But it's a mission for life.
0:08:56 > 0:08:59- You want me to help you with that mission?- Yes, please.
0:08:59 > 0:09:02- Contract? We sign the deal? - Absolutely. Yes.
0:09:03 > 0:09:07There's a lot of difference between knowing that you're overweight
0:09:07 > 0:09:12and you've got to lose weight, and being sat in a medical clinic,
0:09:12 > 0:09:15in a hospital, being told, "You have to do this,
0:09:15 > 0:09:18"or you're going to die."
0:09:18 > 0:09:21Dr Haboubi's message couldn't have been starker.
0:09:23 > 0:09:26Helen heads home to break the news to her daughters.
0:09:26 > 0:09:29The doctor said to me I've got two choices,
0:09:29 > 0:09:33one is that I go down the path of losing weight
0:09:33 > 0:09:37and I have a long life, and the other one is that I go
0:09:37 > 0:09:41on the path I'm on at the moment, and the outcome is not so good.
0:09:41 > 0:09:44- Did they do your BMI?- Yeah.
0:09:44 > 0:09:46What is your category?
0:09:46 > 0:09:47Morbidly obese.
0:09:49 > 0:09:51- So it's the highest one you can be? - Yeah.
0:09:52 > 0:09:54So, big changes.
0:09:54 > 0:09:58When you say "big changes", what do you mean?
0:09:58 > 0:10:01He asked me about exercise and I said I don't have time to exercise...
0:10:01 > 0:10:03No, no, no.
0:10:03 > 0:10:06You do have time to exercise, you just don't want to.
0:10:06 > 0:10:08You can't be bothered to exercise.
0:10:08 > 0:10:09That's not true.
0:10:09 > 0:10:11Oh, my God, yes, it is.
0:10:11 > 0:10:13How often do me and Jenni say to you on a night we want to go to spinning
0:10:13 > 0:10:16classes? Like the other week, we want to go to swimming,
0:10:16 > 0:10:18but you come home from work and you're too tired
0:10:18 > 0:10:19to want to do anything.
0:10:19 > 0:10:22You just want to lie down upstairs and sit on your iPad.
0:10:22 > 0:10:26But he's identified a four-hour window now that you've got,
0:10:26 > 0:10:29in spite of everything else that you do.
0:10:29 > 0:10:33Right. We start tomorrow.
0:10:33 > 0:10:34- No.- It starts today.
0:10:36 > 0:10:37OK, it starts today.
0:10:37 > 0:10:39We'll get you doing some of the gentle exercises.
0:10:39 > 0:10:42I haven't got any salad stuff in the house, so I can't...
0:10:42 > 0:10:44He didn't say it had to be all about that, you didn't listen to him.
0:10:44 > 0:10:46I did listen to him.
0:10:46 > 0:10:48Food isn't the problem, we don't even eat that bad any more.
0:10:48 > 0:10:51It's the snacking, exercise and the wine.
0:10:51 > 0:10:53That wine is a bad habit, Mum.
0:10:53 > 0:10:56Well, none of us do any exercise, so none of us can say anything,
0:10:56 > 0:10:59but I would like to do exercise, Jenni would like to do exercise,
0:10:59 > 0:11:02it's you who needs to take us there and arrange it.
0:11:04 > 0:11:06And pay for it!
0:11:06 > 0:11:07LAUGHTER
0:11:07 > 0:11:11The medical team has recommended that Helen shed a minimum
0:11:11 > 0:11:14of nine kilos - about one and a half stone -
0:11:14 > 0:11:17before she can be considered for her heart op.
0:11:17 > 0:11:20And for that, she'll need the family's support.
0:11:20 > 0:11:22I don't think she'll do it.
0:11:23 > 0:11:25I'm 50/50, really.
0:11:25 > 0:11:27I don't believe she'll stick to it.
0:11:27 > 0:11:29She's had loads of chances to do things,
0:11:29 > 0:11:33and she's never stuck to anything, so why is it now different?
0:11:33 > 0:11:35I don't know. I just don't believe.
0:11:35 > 0:11:37Something in me is saying that she won't do it,
0:11:37 > 0:11:40and I'll be shocked. I'll believe it when I see it, in other words.
0:11:40 > 0:11:42What if I can't do it?
0:11:42 > 0:11:45You will do it. You have to do it.
0:11:45 > 0:11:49In truth, the odds are against Helen, as an estimated 95% of all
0:11:49 > 0:11:52diets do end in failure.
0:11:52 > 0:11:55But the family's resounding vote of no-confidence
0:11:55 > 0:11:57just serves to spur Helen on.
0:11:59 > 0:12:03I have to do it, there's no "what if" - it's do or die.
0:12:03 > 0:12:05And first thing next morning,
0:12:05 > 0:12:07she's heading for the nearest sports shop.
0:12:07 > 0:12:09Hi.
0:12:09 > 0:12:12- Anything in particular you're after? - Oh, anything - as long as it's pink!
0:12:12 > 0:12:16Determined to prove everyone wrong, Helen's planning to join a gym.
0:12:16 > 0:12:19But first, she'd like to dress for success.
0:12:19 > 0:12:22What if I wanted something really cool, cos I tend to get very hot?
0:12:22 > 0:12:25I actually think if you look the part, you feel the part as well,
0:12:25 > 0:12:28so I think that it's really important that you do get
0:12:28 > 0:12:31the right stuff as much as you possibly can.
0:12:31 > 0:12:34But Helen finds her right stuff in short supply.
0:12:34 > 0:12:36When you're bigger and you're looking for clothes,
0:12:36 > 0:12:38most of the clothes don't fit.
0:12:38 > 0:12:41I wish they'd be more generous with their sizes.
0:12:41 > 0:12:45They say a large is a 14, and to me that's petite.
0:12:45 > 0:12:46SHE CHUCKLES
0:12:46 > 0:12:49I'm demoralised before I start -
0:12:49 > 0:12:52however, I can tell you there is nothing in the world that
0:12:52 > 0:12:56would ever induce me to put these on, even if I was a size 8.
0:13:00 > 0:13:02I look like my PE teacher.
0:13:07 > 0:13:09These trousers are much better.
0:13:09 > 0:13:12If you consider this is the largest size they've got
0:13:12 > 0:13:16in the shop of women's clothes - and, you know, yes, I am big,
0:13:16 > 0:13:18but I'm not as big as some people.
0:13:18 > 0:13:20But that's a real shame.
0:13:20 > 0:13:24But I quite like this, I think blue is the way to go.
0:13:24 > 0:13:28Oh, I have got a waist, look at that! There it is.
0:13:28 > 0:13:31- Did you find everything you were looking for?- Yes! And more!
0:13:31 > 0:13:36I set myself a budget of £200 and I still didn't have enough.
0:13:36 > 0:13:38And they still charged me 5p for the bag!
0:13:38 > 0:13:42Let's hope it's money well spent in next door's gym.
0:13:42 > 0:13:45Every January, Britons sign up for over £50 million
0:13:45 > 0:13:47worth of gym fees.
0:13:47 > 0:13:5290 days later, an estimated 80% of us have already jacked it in.
0:13:52 > 0:13:55So, this is your first time into the gym today?
0:13:55 > 0:13:56Yep, this is alien territory.
0:13:56 > 0:14:00Right, OK, well, as with anyone when they first come to the gym,
0:14:00 > 0:14:04there's always that initial anxiety of being around others,
0:14:04 > 0:14:07especially those who've been here for a long time, so it's really
0:14:07 > 0:14:11important to understand that that feeling, it's completely natural.
0:14:13 > 0:14:16When you come to the gym, if you've not done anything before,
0:14:16 > 0:14:19would you start off... Would you come every day?
0:14:19 > 0:14:22Would you come once a week? How would you pace it?
0:14:22 > 0:14:25I don't see anything wrong with coming five days a week initially,
0:14:25 > 0:14:28as long as you're not pushing yourself too hard.
0:14:28 > 0:14:30Would you do every machine on every visit?
0:14:30 > 0:14:31Or would you concentrate on one at...
0:14:31 > 0:14:34To be honest, you don't really want to prolong a session
0:14:34 > 0:14:36for any more than 45-50 minutes.
0:14:36 > 0:14:39Right, and how long would it be before I saw a difference?
0:14:39 > 0:14:40Say I came in now and did a work-out,
0:14:40 > 0:14:43and then I come in tomorrow, and I do that Monday to Friday?
0:14:43 > 0:14:46Well, within a week, you'll feel a difference, that's for sure.
0:14:46 > 0:14:48Within a week, you should feel a lot healthier, especially
0:14:48 > 0:14:50if you get your diet right as well.
0:14:50 > 0:14:53Put your feet in the pedals just to give you a head start.
0:14:53 > 0:14:55There you go, now ease it off nice and slowly.
0:14:55 > 0:14:59One, two. Good.
0:14:59 > 0:15:03So, is Helen about to become a Lycra-clad gym bunny?
0:15:03 > 0:15:05Well, that was an experience.
0:15:05 > 0:15:07Had a go in the gym, had a look around the gym.
0:15:07 > 0:15:09When I walked in there I thought,
0:15:09 > 0:15:12"Oh, this is really scary. This isn't me at all."
0:15:12 > 0:15:17My problem is that doing that on your own is really boring
0:15:17 > 0:15:20and that's still my problem with it.
0:15:20 > 0:15:24It was quite a weird environment, really.
0:15:24 > 0:15:27It was like being somewhere feeling that you don't quite belong,
0:15:27 > 0:15:30if that makes sense, and I need to feel like I belong.
0:15:30 > 0:15:33Whatever I do, I need to feel like I'm part of it
0:15:33 > 0:15:38and I'm not really conspicuous, but I'm sure that if I went there
0:15:38 > 0:15:41on a regular basis, I'm sure that actually that would probably come.
0:15:41 > 0:15:44But at the moment it's just a bit daunting.
0:15:44 > 0:15:49So will Helen ever darken that gym's chrome corridors again?
0:15:49 > 0:15:50Who knows?
0:15:50 > 0:15:55But whilst the training is put on indefinite hold,
0:15:55 > 0:15:59Helen spends the next ten days trying to sort her diet out.
0:15:59 > 0:16:02How many calories do you reckon in that pot?
0:16:02 > 0:16:03700.
0:16:03 > 0:16:08Chickpeas, high in calories. No more hummus for me.
0:16:08 > 0:16:11Helen has set herself a target - to lose the recommended 1.5st
0:16:11 > 0:16:16before she revisits the weight clinic in eight weeks' time.
0:16:16 > 0:16:19A tall order, requiring much discipline.
0:16:19 > 0:16:23And so all takeaways, crisps, pop, chocolate,
0:16:23 > 0:16:26cream and processed foods - and hummus - are banned.
0:16:26 > 0:16:31And as a further incentive to avoid such temptations,
0:16:31 > 0:16:35Helen's been prescribed Dr Haboubi's little blue pills.
0:16:35 > 0:16:37I'm going to take my blue pill now,
0:16:37 > 0:16:40which I have to take about half an hour before I eat.
0:16:40 > 0:16:43And the purpose of the blue pill, its proper name is Orlistat.
0:16:43 > 0:16:46And when I say "blue pill" and I say I'm taking these blue pills,
0:16:46 > 0:16:50people assume I'm on Viagra, but I'm not on Viagra.
0:16:50 > 0:16:51These are Orlistat.
0:16:53 > 0:16:56My cake stand has now become my blue pill stand.
0:17:00 > 0:17:01How can I delicately put this?
0:17:01 > 0:17:06The function of the blue pill is to stop the body absorbing any fat.
0:17:06 > 0:17:09Things like butter, if you eat any fried food, because
0:17:09 > 0:17:12you know there's a certain amount of natural fat in things anyway, but
0:17:12 > 0:17:16it's the artificial fat, if you like, the fat that's added to things.
0:17:16 > 0:17:19So anything that you eat is digested
0:17:19 > 0:17:21but the fat just goes straight through.
0:17:21 > 0:17:22It's not the nicest experience,
0:17:22 > 0:17:26so consequently the best thing to do is not eat fat in the first place
0:17:26 > 0:17:29and then you don't have to suffer the aftermath.
0:17:29 > 0:17:31As an alternative to the aftermath,
0:17:31 > 0:17:32or wearing adult nappies,
0:17:32 > 0:17:35Helen's making a good fist of avoiding the fat.
0:17:37 > 0:17:38Eric?
0:17:38 > 0:17:40She's giving it to the dogs instead.
0:17:46 > 0:17:50Helen's also taking the first tentative steps towards
0:17:50 > 0:17:54an exercise regime. Every lunch hour, she leaves her office desk to
0:17:54 > 0:17:59hit the hilly streets of Newport to do some urban power walking.
0:17:59 > 0:18:02There's no point in taking it really slowly
0:18:02 > 0:18:05or I wouldn't burn any calories and I wouldn't burn any fat.
0:18:05 > 0:18:08Dr Haboubi told me I need to get a sweat up
0:18:08 > 0:18:10so that's what I'm trying to do.
0:18:10 > 0:18:14Power-walking can burn up to 600 calories an hour.
0:18:14 > 0:18:17And for Helen, it's also good for lowering her blood pressure
0:18:17 > 0:18:19and cholesterol.
0:18:19 > 0:18:21Doing it is the easy bit, it's getting yourself
0:18:21 > 0:18:24in the frame of mind to get up and do it - that's the hard bit.
0:18:24 > 0:18:28You can be in the office and it might be a drizzly day
0:18:28 > 0:18:32and you've had a bad morning and the last thing you feel like doing
0:18:32 > 0:18:36is getting up and pounding the streets in your trainers,
0:18:36 > 0:18:39but actually that's the most important time you should be
0:18:39 > 0:18:42doing it because that's when the danger time is.
0:18:42 > 0:18:44But I think before, the temptation
0:18:44 > 0:18:46would have been that I've had a tough morning,
0:18:46 > 0:18:51I'm going to buy myself a nice bag of chips for lunch to treat myself.
0:18:51 > 0:18:54So actually, that's the ideal time to do it.
0:18:54 > 0:18:57And all of this fresh air is also giving Helen
0:18:57 > 0:19:00some philosophical food for thought.
0:19:00 > 0:19:01Oh, hello, car!
0:19:01 > 0:19:07Well, this all represents hopefully a new me, a new start.
0:19:07 > 0:19:09It's very difficult
0:19:09 > 0:19:13because I've had 44 years, nearly 45 years to become me.
0:19:13 > 0:19:17I think when you get to your 40s you're actually quite comfortable
0:19:17 > 0:19:20in who you are, you know yourself.
0:19:20 > 0:19:22So actually trying to reinvent yourself,
0:19:22 > 0:19:25people say it's easy to do - it's not easy to do.
0:19:25 > 0:19:28It's not easy to shift those patterns
0:19:28 > 0:19:29and thoughts you've always had.
0:19:29 > 0:19:32You know, there's always positives.
0:19:32 > 0:19:36The positives are going to be that I'm going to feel better,
0:19:36 > 0:19:38I'm going to look better.
0:19:38 > 0:19:42And Warren's told me if I lose 5st I can have a Bassett hound.
0:19:42 > 0:19:45Ah, yes, the dog.
0:19:45 > 0:19:48After two weeks of diet and moderate exercise,
0:19:48 > 0:19:53Helen has lost just two pounds - a full 4st 13lbs
0:19:53 > 0:19:55short of a Bassett hound.
0:19:56 > 0:19:59What's more, she's getting confused
0:19:59 > 0:20:02and disheartened with all the dietary advice she's been consuming.
0:20:02 > 0:20:05White fish, vegetables, pasta, bread, rice and potatoes.
0:20:05 > 0:20:08But then you can read some things
0:20:08 > 0:20:11and it says don't eat bread, rice or potatoes.
0:20:11 > 0:20:13"Enjoy more starchy foods."
0:20:13 > 0:20:16See, again, that's contrary to what most people would tell you.
0:20:16 > 0:20:19When people know you're on a diet,
0:20:19 > 0:20:23everybody suddenly becomes a dietician and everybody's an expert.
0:20:23 > 0:20:25"Do this. Don't do that."
0:20:25 > 0:20:29If I listened to them all, I'd be living on sawdust.
0:20:29 > 0:20:32People still talk about the Atkins Diet, which is high protein,
0:20:32 > 0:20:35lots of meat and no carbohydrates.
0:20:35 > 0:20:39There's one where you can sort of eat just soup,
0:20:39 > 0:20:43there's one where you just have fluids, no solids at all.
0:20:43 > 0:20:46There's even one where you just eat toast.
0:20:46 > 0:20:48It's just really difficult to know
0:20:48 > 0:20:52what's the important stuff to pick out and what isn't.
0:20:52 > 0:20:54The One Week Egg Diet.
0:20:54 > 0:20:57There's so many mixed messages, so I don't know.
0:20:57 > 0:21:00My head is just absolutely scrambled.
0:21:00 > 0:21:04In quiet desperation, Helen takes her scrambled head off for some
0:21:04 > 0:21:05unlikely R&R TLC.
0:21:05 > 0:21:09She's going to get her belly-button pierced!
0:21:09 > 0:21:12I decided that as part of this new, leaner me,
0:21:12 > 0:21:15I was going to do something I've wanted for quite a while -
0:21:15 > 0:21:16have my stomach pierced.
0:21:16 > 0:21:18I've just not had the self-confidence
0:21:18 > 0:21:21to do it, so seeing as I'm making these great changes to myself,
0:21:21 > 0:21:24this is my opportunity to do something I've wanted
0:21:24 > 0:21:26to do for a while.
0:21:31 > 0:21:32- Right, ready for some cold? - Yeah.
0:21:35 > 0:21:38- Do you want to know when it's coming?- No.
0:21:45 > 0:21:47There you go, done.
0:21:47 > 0:21:50I hope that in a few weeks' time when I'm lying down and they're doing
0:21:50 > 0:21:55all sorts of things to my heart, I hope it's as painless as that.
0:21:55 > 0:21:58Um, it won't be as sparkly, but hopefully the results will be
0:21:58 > 0:22:00just as satisfying in a different way.
0:22:01 > 0:22:05- Oh, that's lovely. Thank you ever so much. Great job.- That's all right.
0:22:05 > 0:22:09Helen returns home, keen to show off her new body art,
0:22:09 > 0:22:12but the welcoming committee's distinctly frosty.
0:22:12 > 0:22:14Well, do you want to see it?
0:22:14 > 0:22:16Go on, then.
0:22:16 > 0:22:18All right, I won't show you, then. That's fine.
0:22:18 > 0:22:20If you don't want to see it, that's fine. No problem.
0:22:20 > 0:22:22Look!
0:22:23 > 0:22:24Oh.
0:22:24 > 0:22:26Very nice.
0:22:26 > 0:22:30Actually, Helen's about to face a family intervention
0:22:30 > 0:22:34regarding her continuing evasion of physical activities.
0:22:34 > 0:22:38I've been on the exercise bike, I've been, um...
0:22:39 > 0:22:41iPad.
0:22:41 > 0:22:43Not iPad.
0:22:43 > 0:22:46It is iPad and I'm going to confiscate it for several hours
0:22:46 > 0:22:51a week because I'm fed up of seeing you just staring at it.
0:22:51 > 0:22:54But I'm reading about healthy things.
0:22:54 > 0:22:57No, you're not! You're tweeting and on Facebook.
0:22:57 > 0:22:59- I'm not!- It's irrelevant.
0:22:59 > 0:23:03You are, Mum, because basically I walk in and I ask you a question
0:23:03 > 0:23:05- and you completely ignore me. - You go into a different world.
0:23:05 > 0:23:10Yeah, and then you go, "I'm just listening to music on Spotify."
0:23:10 > 0:23:11HELEN LAUGHS
0:23:11 > 0:23:14When we were with Dr Haboubi, the one thing he stated
0:23:14 > 0:23:18was that you had four hours free a day.
0:23:18 > 0:23:20- Yeah...- That were completely free
0:23:20 > 0:23:24and I think two of those hours are taken up
0:23:24 > 0:23:26on a certain device.
0:23:26 > 0:23:28- I don't go on my iPad all the time. - Yes, you do!
0:23:28 > 0:23:30- I don't!- You do!
0:23:30 > 0:23:34She comes in, she goes upstairs and lies on the bed
0:23:34 > 0:23:37for about an hour, then you wonder where she's disappeared to
0:23:37 > 0:23:40and you go upstairs and she's on her iPad, saying, "I'm tired."
0:23:40 > 0:23:42And you always have headaches - no wonder.
0:23:42 > 0:23:44You're always looking at that thing.
0:23:44 > 0:23:48I am not six years old. You are not confiscating my iPad.
0:23:48 > 0:23:50Well, I'll change your password.
0:23:50 > 0:23:52You can't do that.
0:23:52 > 0:23:56I can. I'll change your password and the only way you can have it is
0:23:56 > 0:23:57if I enter it.
0:23:57 > 0:23:59You can't do that.
0:23:59 > 0:24:02Well, there's certainly going to be a reduction in use
0:24:02 > 0:24:06because recently there's been a little bit of words about exercise,
0:24:06 > 0:24:09hasn't there? And I told you, you haven't been doing enough.
0:24:09 > 0:24:11But I have been on the exercise bike.
0:24:11 > 0:24:15Ten minutes on the exercise bike doesn't do anything for fitness.
0:24:15 > 0:24:16You need more than that.
0:24:16 > 0:24:20You need to go to the gym class, I don't care what anyone else says.
0:24:20 > 0:24:22Yes, and I take your point,
0:24:22 > 0:24:27but to go from nothing to overkill would not be good for me.
0:24:27 > 0:24:29The excuse of "We can't go to the gym yet
0:24:29 > 0:24:32"because I need to build my fitness levels" is a load of rubbish.
0:24:32 > 0:24:34How do you build your fitness
0:24:34 > 0:24:36if you're not going to the gym and doing things?
0:24:36 > 0:24:40In your defence, on the gym side, you're not a gym person, are you?
0:24:40 > 0:24:43- No, I'm not. - Everyone could say that.
0:24:43 > 0:24:46I'm not a gym person but I still want to go and lose weight.
0:24:46 > 0:24:49Yes, but I can't think of anything, for me, more boring.
0:24:49 > 0:24:51You're such a liar!
0:24:51 > 0:24:54I'd go dancing. I'd love to do dancing.
0:24:54 > 0:24:57- Then go to the gym and do a Zumba class or a spin class.- Zumba class?
0:24:57 > 0:25:00- Yes!- That's really fast. My knees won't...
0:25:00 > 0:25:01Or an aqua aerobics class.
0:25:01 > 0:25:04I don't really want to sit on an exercise bike in a gym, I'd rather
0:25:04 > 0:25:07be on the bike in the countryside, doing something like that.
0:25:07 > 0:25:09I'm not saying you have to go to the gym and pedal,
0:25:09 > 0:25:12you've got to go to the gym and do gym classes with people.
0:25:12 > 0:25:16Well, I'm very upset. I can't believe these things I'm hearing.
0:25:19 > 0:25:22- It had to be said, didn't it? - No, but it's not true, is it?
0:25:22 > 0:25:24It is true, we wouldn't say it if it wasn't true.
0:25:24 > 0:25:27And you don't see how busy I am in the day.
0:25:27 > 0:25:30Irrelevant. So am I.
0:25:34 > 0:25:37Intervention over, Helen dons her new gym kit
0:25:37 > 0:25:41and the family set out for a power walk along the local canal.
0:25:41 > 0:25:43Eric, you look how I feel, mate.
0:25:43 > 0:25:47And Helen feels that she's dressed in the Emperor's new clothes.
0:25:47 > 0:25:49I'm very self-conscious over the fact they're so fitting.
0:25:49 > 0:25:52I normally like to hide behind baggy things
0:25:52 > 0:25:54so I'm very self-conscious,
0:25:54 > 0:25:58but it's not going to go if I don't get out in this.
0:25:58 > 0:26:02It's not going to get any better, is it? So I've got to keep going and
0:26:02 > 0:26:05just hope I don't see anyone I know. I should have brought my sunglasses.
0:26:05 > 0:26:08As ever, Helen deflects her discomfort
0:26:08 > 0:26:11with good humour and a ready smile.
0:26:11 > 0:26:14But an exchange with Warren reveals her true feelings.
0:26:14 > 0:26:18- What are you doing?- Just looking to see if I look fat in this.
0:26:18 > 0:26:21You don't look fat in this. Do I look fat in this? Yes!
0:26:21 > 0:26:22HE LAUGHS
0:26:22 > 0:26:25- No!- No!
0:26:25 > 0:26:28Are you ashamed of the way I look?
0:26:28 > 0:26:31No, I'm not ashamed of the way you look, I just think you need to,
0:26:31 > 0:26:35instead of coming home and the proverbial sitting on the settee
0:26:35 > 0:26:39and reading your iPad for half an hour when you come in,
0:26:39 > 0:26:42do what I do, coming in and going on the exercise bike for half hour.
0:26:42 > 0:26:47You're right, and I don't know why it has habitually been so difficult,
0:26:47 > 0:26:49but it has been difficult.
0:26:52 > 0:26:55I think when you start dieting, you have...
0:26:55 > 0:26:59you do actually for the first time have a long look at yourself
0:26:59 > 0:27:02objectively, as other people see you, and that's been really hard.
0:27:02 > 0:27:06Really hard, because it's knocked my confidence.
0:27:07 > 0:27:12I suppose instead of seeing myself as big and bouncy and bubbly,
0:27:12 > 0:27:19I've seen myself as actually, you know...sad and fat.
0:27:19 > 0:27:21- INTERVIEWER:- That's not true, is it?
0:27:21 > 0:27:23But it feels true sometimes.
0:27:23 > 0:27:27It feels less true as I'm going through this, but it does feel true.
0:27:27 > 0:27:32- When do those moments get to you, then?- Um...
0:27:35 > 0:27:38I think I probably have them when I'm looking at clothes,
0:27:38 > 0:27:40I think I probably have them...
0:27:42 > 0:27:44..when I'm out and about.
0:27:47 > 0:27:55I think I look at the girls and they've got very, um...
0:27:58 > 0:28:01I don't know what the word is. I suppose they've got ideals
0:28:01 > 0:28:03about what normal is in this society.
0:28:03 > 0:28:06I see the kids and they talk about people who they idolise
0:28:06 > 0:28:10and they want to emulate and none of those people look like me.
0:28:10 > 0:28:11Do any of us?
0:28:11 > 0:28:14No, I know, but it's very...
0:28:16 > 0:28:18..it's very difficult because people do judge
0:28:18 > 0:28:20by appearances, I think.
0:28:20 > 0:28:23I'm getting upset now and it gets to me sometimes,
0:28:23 > 0:28:26but perhaps it has to, for me to make those changes.
0:28:29 > 0:28:33Having met a psychological as well as a physical impasse,
0:28:33 > 0:28:36Helen is struggling.
0:28:36 > 0:28:39Her self-doubt and low self-esteem need addressing
0:28:39 > 0:28:43before she slips back into comfort eating.
0:28:43 > 0:28:47So she arranges to meet a cognitive behaviour therapist
0:28:47 > 0:28:48who specialises in diet.
0:28:49 > 0:28:53By looking at her life story and motivations,
0:28:53 > 0:28:56Janet will hopefully help Helen address the emotional impulses
0:28:56 > 0:29:00driving her unhealthy relationship with food.
0:29:00 > 0:29:04I've never been skinny. I think there was one period of my life
0:29:04 > 0:29:10where I was actually quite slim and that was when I was getting divorced
0:29:10 > 0:29:16from Bonnie's father just before I met my husband, Jenni's father.
0:29:16 > 0:29:19I think my weight plummeted then and that was really
0:29:19 > 0:29:25because of the shock and the stress of the situation I found myself in.
0:29:25 > 0:29:27Other than that, I've always been big.
0:29:27 > 0:29:32In school they used to say to me, "You're quite podgy."
0:29:32 > 0:29:35How many brothers and sisters did you have?
0:29:35 > 0:29:37I grew up as an only child.
0:29:37 > 0:29:41- Right, so you would have been having your meals with adults.- Yes.
0:29:41 > 0:29:45I wonder if you were having sort of adult size meals
0:29:45 > 0:29:47- when you were growing up. - Possibly.
0:29:47 > 0:29:49Yeah, possibly.
0:29:49 > 0:29:53I think with my parents, my parents liked to go out and eat a lot.
0:29:53 > 0:29:57We did go out and eat a lot when I was younger.
0:29:57 > 0:30:05And...you know, they always liked the nice things in life as well.
0:30:05 > 0:30:08So when I was with my mum and dad... And then they split up when I was
0:30:08 > 0:30:13quite young, so that's why I spent a lot of time with my grandparents
0:30:13 > 0:30:18and then it was just myself and my mum then for some time.
0:30:18 > 0:30:21I was interested that you said when you went to the clinic
0:30:21 > 0:30:24and they said you were 18 and a half stone
0:30:24 > 0:30:27and it took a bit of getting used to, being that weight,
0:30:27 > 0:30:32because I wonder what being 18 and a half stone actually means to you.
0:30:32 > 0:30:35Um, it's been hugely shocking
0:30:35 > 0:30:39because that seems like a really huge weight
0:30:39 > 0:30:41and I've been really brazen
0:30:41 > 0:30:43about telling people what I weigh, actually,
0:30:43 > 0:30:46because... My husband said, "Oh, you don't need to tell anyone,"
0:30:46 > 0:30:48but, yes, I do, because I think
0:30:48 > 0:30:52I actually need to shame myself into doing something about it.
0:30:52 > 0:30:55When you're overweight, you tend to put a brave face on it,
0:30:55 > 0:30:58a really strong, like... I'm jolly and happy and everything.
0:30:58 > 0:31:00I'm the life and soul of the party.
0:31:00 > 0:31:03And you sort of take the mick out of yourself
0:31:03 > 0:31:08- because you... before somebody else can do it.- Mm.
0:31:08 > 0:31:10So yes, it's all...
0:31:10 > 0:31:12Um, you know...
0:31:12 > 0:31:16I don't feel particularly attractive any more.
0:31:16 > 0:31:21I don't feel...as confident as I could do.
0:31:22 > 0:31:27I'm wondering if part of you doesn't feel like you any more.
0:31:27 > 0:31:29Possibly, possibly.
0:31:29 > 0:31:34I've got a theory around motivation that it's having a goal
0:31:34 > 0:31:38and very often I think the goal around weight loss
0:31:38 > 0:31:40can be quite muddy,
0:31:40 > 0:31:43because it can sometimes be a goal that somebody else has given us,
0:31:43 > 0:31:45- like the doctors.- Yeah.
0:31:45 > 0:31:48So the way we work on it, I would say, is that first of all
0:31:48 > 0:31:52we clarify the goals and make them your goals.
0:31:52 > 0:31:56It's really important to me to do this, because...to lose weight,
0:31:56 > 0:32:01for reasons I can't even explain. It's not...
0:32:03 > 0:32:10I suppose it is a little bit about...you know, the heart thing,
0:32:10 > 0:32:12but that's not the driving reason for it, actually.
0:32:12 > 0:32:14It doesn't sound like it, does it?
0:32:14 > 0:32:18All the people who have been nasty to me about my weight over the years,
0:32:18 > 0:32:21I'd really like to show them and stick two fingers up at them,
0:32:21 > 0:32:23I really would, and I know that sounds terrible
0:32:23 > 0:32:25because then it's not about me not doing it for me,
0:32:25 > 0:32:28but it is in a sense, because all the people
0:32:28 > 0:32:31who have always been unpleasant to me
0:32:31 > 0:32:35or quite dismissive about my weight, you know,
0:32:35 > 0:32:38yeah, I would like to show them.
0:32:38 > 0:32:39Am I beyond hope?
0:32:39 > 0:32:42SHE LAUGHS
0:32:42 > 0:32:45- Do you think you're beyond hope? - Sometimes.
0:32:45 > 0:32:47Yeah, I probably do.
0:32:47 > 0:32:48I would say human.
0:32:50 > 0:32:53- It's human.- Yeah.
0:32:53 > 0:32:55'Oh, my God, I've cried buckets.'
0:32:55 > 0:32:59It's been really, really emotional but it was brilliant.
0:32:59 > 0:33:03She's really, I suppose, hit a nerve and I can't explain why
0:33:03 > 0:33:06but it was absolutely brilliant.
0:33:06 > 0:33:09All these people are saying it's about the diet and it's about
0:33:09 > 0:33:11the exercise. Actually it's not,
0:33:11 > 0:33:15it's about examining what's within yourself.
0:33:15 > 0:33:20Never has that become more real for me than this moment.
0:33:21 > 0:33:25CBT appears to be the breakthrough that Helen has been looking for.
0:33:25 > 0:33:27Hello, girls!
0:33:27 > 0:33:29And armed with some self-knowledge,
0:33:29 > 0:33:32and two fingers with which to salute her detractors...
0:33:32 > 0:33:34This is Lily Savage.
0:33:34 > 0:33:36..she's finally facing her challenges
0:33:36 > 0:33:38with purpose and honesty.
0:33:38 > 0:33:41I almost feel I need to write the words "Morbidly Obese"
0:33:41 > 0:33:42and stick them on the fridge,
0:33:42 > 0:33:45because I need to be reminded of where I don't want to be.
0:33:47 > 0:33:50Over the next two weeks, her diet remains healthy,
0:33:50 > 0:33:54and the threatened fall-out from Dr Haboubi's little blue pills
0:33:54 > 0:33:57keeps her away from fatty temptations.
0:33:57 > 0:33:59I haven't had chocolate, well,
0:33:59 > 0:34:01since I saw Dr Haboubi I haven't had any chocolate.
0:34:01 > 0:34:06But it's on the exercise front that real changes begin to be made.
0:34:06 > 0:34:08I sound like Katherine Jenkins on this when I sing
0:34:08 > 0:34:12because my voice does this lovely... # wobble! #
0:34:12 > 0:34:15And in the kitchen, Helen's got in some home help.
0:34:15 > 0:34:17We're trying to cook as much as we can
0:34:17 > 0:34:20so Mum has time to do a bit of exercise.
0:34:20 > 0:34:23My pulse is up to 127 at the moment,
0:34:23 > 0:34:26which seems very, very fast.
0:34:26 > 0:34:28Just having a little bit of time to do this
0:34:28 > 0:34:32makes all of the difference in the world. It's really, really good.
0:34:33 > 0:34:34But it's away from the home
0:34:34 > 0:34:37where the real physical revolution has occurred.
0:34:37 > 0:34:43No, she hasn't joined a gym - it's way more Helen Whewell than that.
0:34:45 > 0:34:49The most important part of the evening is putting the coin belt on
0:34:49 > 0:34:53which is the bit that jingles and jangles when we do our shimmying.
0:34:53 > 0:34:57Open out the veils and as I say, shimmy, shimmy, shimmy, shimmy.
0:34:57 > 0:35:01Then when we start we're going to start on the left, the left hip,
0:35:01 > 0:35:03and we're going to do a circle.
0:35:03 > 0:35:07Well, if you're going to get your belly-button pierced,
0:35:07 > 0:35:10you might as well become a belly-dancer!
0:35:10 > 0:35:12OK, good.
0:35:12 > 0:35:14Now hip swerves.
0:35:14 > 0:35:19This is something I really enjoy because there is a very...
0:35:19 > 0:35:23Not only is it physically very relaxing, but invigorating.
0:35:23 > 0:35:26I think there's also quite a spiritual element to belly-dancing.
0:35:26 > 0:35:28The music is very, very lovely
0:35:28 > 0:35:32and the motions are very fluid and there's just something
0:35:32 > 0:35:35really nice and relaxing about it but it's good for you as well.
0:35:35 > 0:35:37Two steps forward.
0:35:37 > 0:35:40Because it uses core muscles, belly dancing is surprisingly
0:35:40 > 0:35:44rigorous exercise - burning the same amount of calories as rowing.
0:35:44 > 0:35:48The next bit is travel round in a circle with the veil behind you.
0:35:48 > 0:35:53Chicken soup for the soul, that's what belly-dancing is to me.
0:35:53 > 0:35:57I've looked at a lot of different options and things for fitness,
0:35:57 > 0:35:59but I think everyone needs to find their own way
0:35:59 > 0:36:02and I think this is mine, I really do.
0:36:02 > 0:36:08It's quite sensual and it's quite feminine and when you're big,
0:36:08 > 0:36:13it's not easy to feel feminine, so this is a lovely way of actually
0:36:13 > 0:36:17doing exercise but feeling quite feminine about it at the same time.
0:36:17 > 0:36:23I hope that this is the start of a...when I say "a new me",
0:36:23 > 0:36:29a new sort of sexy, slightly less inhibited, free spirit me,
0:36:29 > 0:36:33actually that's the old me, which is, you know, great.
0:36:35 > 0:36:37And in for a penny,
0:36:37 > 0:36:42in for a pounding - Helen also takes the ultimate exercise plunge.
0:36:42 > 0:36:43I'm like a lamb to the slaughter.
0:36:43 > 0:36:48With some reservations, she's finally agreed to join a gym.
0:36:48 > 0:36:52I'm very nervous, actually, because this is very far out
0:36:52 > 0:36:55of my comfort zone, it's not what I'm not used to at all.
0:36:55 > 0:36:57Helen's GP has placed her
0:36:57 > 0:36:59on the National Exercise Referral Scheme -
0:36:59 > 0:37:02a 16-week government subsidised course
0:37:02 > 0:37:04complete with a personal trainer.
0:37:04 > 0:37:07- Hello. - Are you ready?- Yeah.
0:37:07 > 0:37:09You'll be fine!
0:37:09 > 0:37:12But will working out work out for Helen?
0:37:12 > 0:37:14- The screens are user friendly. - Right.
0:37:14 > 0:37:16So that's all you need to worry about for now.
0:37:16 > 0:37:19We're going to press the green. Does that feel OK?
0:37:20 > 0:37:22- Yeah, that's fine.- Good.
0:37:22 > 0:37:25So did you find it a chore to fit this in today?
0:37:25 > 0:37:28It would have been very easy to say, "Oh, I'm really tired,
0:37:28 > 0:37:29"I've had a bad day.
0:37:29 > 0:37:32"I wasn't feeling very good this morning."
0:37:33 > 0:37:35I had lots of anxiety on the way,
0:37:35 > 0:37:38thinking, what it's going to be like?
0:37:38 > 0:37:42I fully understand that when you work long days, to prioritise this
0:37:42 > 0:37:44is quite difficult, particularly
0:37:44 > 0:37:47when you're told by health professionals
0:37:47 > 0:37:52that you have to do it and it's key, and I want to make it that
0:37:52 > 0:37:57- it's not a chore and it becomes a part of your switch-off time.- Yeah.
0:37:57 > 0:37:59With an understanding trainer on board,
0:37:59 > 0:38:01Helen's gym phobias instantly evaporate.
0:38:01 > 0:38:03You're doing very well.
0:38:03 > 0:38:05I feel so much better than before I came.
0:38:05 > 0:38:09I was so anxious but now I feel, um, I feel fine.
0:38:09 > 0:38:12And as her inhibitions are shed, so are the pounds.
0:38:12 > 0:38:16Over the course of the next three weeks, Helen loses a stone.
0:38:16 > 0:38:18And her fear of the weighing scales
0:38:18 > 0:38:21is replaced by daily moments of triumph.
0:38:21 > 0:38:23Well, most days.
0:38:24 > 0:38:26Oh, I've gone up!
0:38:26 > 0:38:29It has gone up, it's gone up a pound.
0:38:29 > 0:38:33The odd setback aside, and with just two weeks to go before Helen
0:38:33 > 0:38:38revisits Dr Haboubi, she only needs to shed another 5lbs to reach
0:38:38 > 0:38:43her ambitious target - to lose one and a half stones in eight weeks.
0:38:43 > 0:38:47And as the weight disappears, so do the family's doubts.
0:38:47 > 0:38:50I think my mum's done amazing. She's not letting herself down
0:38:50 > 0:38:54or cheating in any way. I'm really proud of her for that.
0:38:54 > 0:38:56I'm quite proud of her. We used to bond over food
0:38:56 > 0:39:00and everything used to be over food but now it's over exercise.
0:39:00 > 0:39:01Look at you flying!
0:39:04 > 0:39:06It's definitely a transformation for my mum.
0:39:12 > 0:39:15Finally, all's rosy in Helen's garden.
0:39:17 > 0:39:19Or it was, until a callous passing remark
0:39:19 > 0:39:23from a thoughtless teenager burst her bubble.
0:39:23 > 0:39:25I was walking up the road on Saturday,
0:39:25 > 0:39:26we'd been for a bike ride.
0:39:26 > 0:39:29I'd had a very good day, I went to the gym in the morning
0:39:29 > 0:39:32for an hour and then I did an hour's cycling to Blaenavon and back, so I
0:39:32 > 0:39:38was feeling very good. And as I was walking up the road, a kid described
0:39:38 > 0:39:41us...as...well, described me as fat.
0:39:42 > 0:39:45Which, you know, that's kid speak, isn't it?
0:39:45 > 0:39:50And I just thought, I've done all this, I've lost over a stone and
0:39:50 > 0:39:54I'm feeling really good about myself, but to people who don't know me,
0:39:54 > 0:39:58they still see me as a big person, because I've still got lots to lose,
0:39:58 > 0:40:00so I have this sense of achievement, but actually to somebody
0:40:00 > 0:40:04who doesn't know me very well, they don't see that effort.
0:40:04 > 0:40:07So that was really hard and I think I was just at a really low ebb
0:40:07 > 0:40:11and I came back and I just thought, "I just can't do this,"
0:40:11 > 0:40:13and I really doubted myself.
0:40:14 > 0:40:20It was really hurtful and if I said that I'm carrying on with it
0:40:20 > 0:40:25but it's permanently, since then, dampened my mood down,
0:40:25 > 0:40:28it's made me quite low and it's challenged what was starting to be
0:40:28 > 0:40:33quite a positive self-image, it's challenged that a bit, if I'm honest.
0:40:33 > 0:40:38It's just been really hard and, you know,
0:40:38 > 0:40:44I can't say that I'm not pleased with the progress that I've made,
0:40:44 > 0:40:48but I do feel very vulnerable at the moment.
0:40:48 > 0:40:51I don't know, really.
0:40:51 > 0:40:55Onwards and upwards, because I've got nowhere else to go, really.
0:40:57 > 0:41:00It's difficult to not see yourself through other people's eyes.
0:41:00 > 0:41:02It is very difficult.
0:41:02 > 0:41:06Feeling vulnerable, Helen sees therapist Janet.
0:41:07 > 0:41:12And maybe that comes back to childhood and...
0:41:12 > 0:41:14I don't know, maybe it doesn't.
0:41:14 > 0:41:16I mean, I'd like to be...
0:41:16 > 0:41:19I'd like to say I was happy being me
0:41:19 > 0:41:25but I'm not actually, at the moment, so I don't know what the answer is.
0:41:25 > 0:41:29When you see yourself through other people's eyes,
0:41:29 > 0:41:34how's that effected you in what you do and how you feel?
0:41:34 > 0:41:38I think society is so judgmental about people.
0:41:38 > 0:41:41I think society judges people on all sort of levels,
0:41:41 > 0:41:46but I think that...size particularly
0:41:46 > 0:41:48is a particularly discriminatory way of looking at people
0:41:48 > 0:41:52and I think that people don't understand.
0:41:52 > 0:41:56You can't say, "I feel down because I'm overweight."
0:41:56 > 0:41:58Because people say, "Well, go on a diet then."
0:41:58 > 0:42:03People don't understand how it can affect you so much,
0:42:03 > 0:42:08and it's a vicious circle because sometimes, the more you feel down,
0:42:08 > 0:42:10the more you comfort yourself with food because you can't buy
0:42:10 > 0:42:13something nice to wear to cheer yourself up
0:42:13 > 0:42:16because you can't find anything in your size,
0:42:16 > 0:42:19so what mechanisms can you use to cheer yourself up?
0:42:19 > 0:42:22You think, "I'll curl up with a book and a nice bar of chocolate,"
0:42:22 > 0:42:24and self-soothe in that way.
0:42:24 > 0:42:26So if you're going to fail,
0:42:26 > 0:42:30if you feel it's not 100% improvement,
0:42:30 > 0:42:34I do, I feel like, what's the point in carrying on with it?
0:42:34 > 0:42:35I may as well stop.
0:42:35 > 0:42:37Going back to self-esteem,
0:42:37 > 0:42:40perhaps your self-esteem is around one of the things
0:42:40 > 0:42:44you do like about yourself, is that you're a very good host,
0:42:44 > 0:42:47you're a very good cook,
0:42:47 > 0:42:50and here's everybody in the world telling you you've got to stop
0:42:50 > 0:42:54- doing that, you can't do that, that's not good for you.- Yeah.
0:42:54 > 0:42:58And for me there's that real conundrum then,
0:42:58 > 0:43:01because do I stop one of the things that I feel good about myself doing?
0:43:01 > 0:43:03- Yeah.- You know,
0:43:03 > 0:43:08food, from how you describe it, plays a very different role
0:43:08 > 0:43:12in your life because it has so many symbolic meanings for you.
0:43:12 > 0:43:15It does, it does. That's exactly it. It does.
0:43:15 > 0:43:20So it's not just about saying I'm happy to eat really healthy stuff
0:43:20 > 0:43:24and I'm happy to cut out this and cut out that,
0:43:24 > 0:43:26it's actually cutting out a bit of me as well, isn't it?
0:43:26 > 0:43:29It certainly sounds like it from what we've talked about.
0:43:29 > 0:43:31"You love me, you love my food."
0:43:31 > 0:43:35Or rather, actually, it's, "You love food, you love me."
0:43:35 > 0:43:39- Yeah.- And I guess what I'm sort of throwing into the ring
0:43:39 > 0:43:43is the risk that people might love you no matter what.
0:43:47 > 0:43:50Whilst Helen continues to wrestle with the emotional side
0:43:50 > 0:43:53of her journey, it was a physical event,
0:43:53 > 0:43:55her severe heart arrthymia,
0:43:55 > 0:43:57that set her on this course in the first place.
0:44:00 > 0:44:03Helen has a device inserted into her chest
0:44:03 > 0:44:05to record her arrthymia attacks.
0:44:05 > 0:44:08Every two months, she goes to the Royal Gwent Hospital
0:44:08 > 0:44:12to have the data analysed by the cardiology team.
0:44:12 > 0:44:14- Hiya.- Hiya, Helen, how are you? - I'm fine, thank you.
0:44:14 > 0:44:17- Come on through, take a seat. - Thanks.
0:44:20 > 0:44:23- How have you been doing? - OK, I've had a couple of episodes.
0:44:23 > 0:44:26I had a particularly bad one around March time.
0:44:26 > 0:44:28I can't remember the exact date,
0:44:28 > 0:44:33but I was really quite poorly with that one. But otherwise OK.
0:44:33 > 0:44:36I think losing a bit of weight is helping as well.
0:44:36 > 0:44:39OK, we'll have a little look at what the monitor has picked up as well.
0:44:39 > 0:44:41OK.
0:44:41 > 0:44:43I'm just having a periodic review of the loop recorder
0:44:43 > 0:44:46that's planted inside my chest.
0:44:46 > 0:44:52This thing then reads what's in the memory stick, as I call it,
0:44:52 > 0:44:55and then it transmits all that data there
0:44:55 > 0:44:58so that Matt can read it very easily.
0:44:58 > 0:45:01He'll print it off and then we can sort of interpret what it says.
0:45:01 > 0:45:03Did you have any episodes last week?
0:45:04 > 0:45:07Yes, was it on the Saturday?
0:45:07 > 0:45:09The 25th of May.
0:45:09 > 0:45:12Actually it was a couple of days later I felt really, really rough.
0:45:12 > 0:45:15I felt wiped out for a couple of days after that.
0:45:15 > 0:45:17OK, so we can see that your heart went a little bit quicker
0:45:17 > 0:45:19again at that time.
0:45:19 > 0:45:21How much did it go up to?
0:45:21 > 0:45:24Um, about 210 beats per minute.
0:45:24 > 0:45:27- Ooh, that might be a record!- Yeah.
0:45:27 > 0:45:30The resting heart rate of most healthy adults
0:45:30 > 0:45:33is between 60-100 beats per minute.
0:45:33 > 0:45:37At 210 beats, Helen's most recent attack was over twice that.
0:45:37 > 0:45:41However, when she was hospitalised in March,
0:45:41 > 0:45:45the data shows that her heart rate got even higher.
0:45:45 > 0:45:46OK.
0:45:47 > 0:45:50So what we've seen, Helen, is that your heart rate was going
0:45:50 > 0:45:54quite quickly anyway, but we've seen it go up to a point where it
0:45:54 > 0:45:58does speed up to about 230 beats per minute.
0:45:58 > 0:45:59OK?
0:45:59 > 0:46:02So we'll obviously give this information to the consultant
0:46:02 > 0:46:05and let them know, so keep them up-to-date with everything.
0:46:05 > 0:46:09But we've seen the arrhythmia we've seen in the past anyway,
0:46:09 > 0:46:11so I don't think it's anything new,
0:46:11 > 0:46:14it's not anything more concerning, it's just information that we've
0:46:14 > 0:46:17already got, but we'll obviously let them know anyway, all right?
0:46:17 > 0:46:18OK, that's lovely.
0:46:18 > 0:46:23You know, it's not life-threatening, but I know that it can get worse
0:46:23 > 0:46:26to a point where it then could be.
0:46:26 > 0:46:29It's just a very clear reminder that all is not well
0:46:29 > 0:46:31and I've got to do something about it.
0:46:33 > 0:46:36So after a couple of days in the doldrums,
0:46:36 > 0:46:39and now a short, sharp medical shock,
0:46:39 > 0:46:43Helen's decided it's high time she got back on track, quite literally.
0:46:43 > 0:46:46Today is...
0:46:46 > 0:46:50In a moment of folly I decided that to spur myself on
0:46:50 > 0:46:52and keep myself motivated,
0:46:52 > 0:46:55I decided that I would do a fun run.
0:46:55 > 0:46:58But when I say fun run, well, there's two things there - fun and run
0:46:58 > 0:47:02don't go together anyway and it's more likely to be a fun brisk walk,
0:47:02 > 0:47:05but that's fine because it's better than doing nothing.
0:47:05 > 0:47:08So it's over 5km, although there is the option of doing ten,
0:47:08 > 0:47:10which won't be happening,
0:47:10 > 0:47:14and I've got some suitable attire for the occasion as well,
0:47:14 > 0:47:17so my main worry is not that I won't make it,
0:47:17 > 0:47:20not that I'll be at the back - don't worry about either of those things
0:47:20 > 0:47:23because I think it's better to take part than not do it at all.
0:47:23 > 0:47:27My worry is that I'll be the only one in costume, that is a worry.
0:47:32 > 0:47:37Helen is hoping to raise money for the Gwent Cardiology Department.
0:47:37 > 0:47:39Thank you very much for attending today.
0:47:39 > 0:47:44Of course, the intention is to raise funds for the cardiology department.
0:47:44 > 0:47:47This will be Helen's first ever attempt at a fun run.
0:47:47 > 0:47:52And arguably, she's slightly over-dressed for the occasion.
0:47:52 > 0:47:54Why do I have these ideas?
0:47:54 > 0:47:56Why do I do it to myself?
0:47:56 > 0:47:58So that nobody can recognise me...
0:47:58 > 0:48:02But at least she's got the family's wholehearted support.
0:48:02 > 0:48:04I don't even know who you are any more.
0:48:04 > 0:48:08- DAUGHTER:- She looks an absolute fool. Oh, my God, she looks ridiculous.
0:48:08 > 0:48:10I'm actually embarrassed of her.
0:48:10 > 0:48:11- ANNOUNCER:- Are you ready for the start?
0:48:11 > 0:48:13Oh, my God, I'm going to die.
0:48:17 > 0:48:20I think she's very brave for doing this.
0:48:20 > 0:48:23- ANNOUNCER:- Good luck, Helen! - Thank you!
0:48:23 > 0:48:27She said she's going to be dead at the end.
0:48:27 > 0:48:30- HUSBAND:- Hopefully not, it's supposed to be a fun run, Jen.
0:48:30 > 0:48:34- She said she was going to be dead. - Well, metaphorically.
0:48:34 > 0:48:37I don't want to run it, because I can't run it.
0:48:37 > 0:48:41But I don't want to stroll it because there'd be no point.
0:48:41 > 0:48:45She should have run it. Why would you do a fun run and walk?
0:48:45 > 0:48:47That's ridiculous.
0:48:47 > 0:48:49I'm feeling the strain now.
0:48:49 > 0:48:53I think she's killing herself softly.
0:48:53 > 0:48:57And despite all the doubters, Helen eventually romps home
0:48:57 > 0:48:59in a sedate one hour and 45 minutes.
0:48:59 > 0:49:00Well done, you!
0:49:05 > 0:49:09Congratulations, Helen! You've worked hard for that.
0:49:09 > 0:49:11Thank you very much. I did.
0:49:11 > 0:49:13I'll put you down for the 10k next year. Thank you, Helen.
0:49:13 > 0:49:15Thank you.
0:49:15 > 0:49:19Oh, my first medal ever. I'm quite choked.
0:49:20 > 0:49:23- Well done, Mum.- Thank you, and thank you for nagging me.
0:49:23 > 0:49:27Having met the 5k challenge with determination,
0:49:27 > 0:49:31if not dignity, Helen's next target looms larger still -
0:49:31 > 0:49:36has she got anywhere near meeting Dr Haboubi's 1.5st challenge?
0:49:38 > 0:49:39It's showdown day.
0:49:39 > 0:49:44This is my new, slightly more streamlined me
0:49:44 > 0:49:47ready to face Dr Haboubi and show him what I've done since
0:49:47 > 0:49:51I saw him last, which is two months ago today.
0:49:51 > 0:49:54I'll be very interested to see what his reaction is.
0:49:54 > 0:49:59I hope it's good. I'm a bit nervous. No, I'm very nervous.
0:49:59 > 0:50:03The target Helen set herself two months ago was to lose 9kg,
0:50:03 > 0:50:07or 1.5st, by the time she returned to see Dr Haboubi.
0:50:10 > 0:50:13108.2. Well done!
0:50:14 > 0:50:15That's excellent.
0:50:15 > 0:50:17Thank you.
0:50:17 > 0:50:1917st and half a pound.
0:50:19 > 0:50:21Yes!
0:50:21 > 0:50:24SHE LAUGHS
0:50:24 > 0:50:26Fabulous! Well done.
0:50:26 > 0:50:30My scales at home are three pounds heavier than that.
0:50:30 > 0:50:34Oh, my God, that's a stone and a half off.
0:50:34 > 0:50:36Yeah, it is.
0:50:36 > 0:50:40Oh, that's fantastic. This is the best day out ever.
0:50:40 > 0:50:44Now for Dr Haboubi's verdict.
0:50:44 > 0:50:46You've lost 10kg.
0:50:47 > 0:50:48Fantastic.
0:50:49 > 0:50:51- Thank you!- Congratulations.
0:50:51 > 0:50:53Thank you.
0:50:53 > 0:50:56No, I haven't done anything. It's you who's done the job.
0:50:56 > 0:50:58What changes have you made?
0:50:58 > 0:51:01You told me to sweat, so I've been sweating.
0:51:01 > 0:51:06- I've joined a belly-dance class... - Good.- ..and I've joined the Exercise
0:51:06 > 0:51:12Referral Scheme. I've got myself a new bike, I've been walking.
0:51:12 > 0:51:16- I love belly-dancing, it's quite energetic.- Yeah.
0:51:16 > 0:51:20We've not had one takeaway since I saw you last.
0:51:20 > 0:51:24How do you feel now you've lost so much weight?
0:51:24 > 0:51:27Most of the time, great.
0:51:27 > 0:51:29There are times when it is really hard.
0:51:29 > 0:51:34- Yes, I'm not surprised. But it's a long way to go.- Yeah.
0:51:34 > 0:51:36It's a continuous process,
0:51:36 > 0:51:41- it's a process for the rest of your life.- Yeah.
0:51:41 > 0:51:43- But I think you can do it.- Yeah.
0:51:43 > 0:51:46- And you have to it.- Yes.- And you're determined to do it. Yes or no?
0:51:46 > 0:51:47Yes!
0:51:47 > 0:51:50- Well done.- Thank you.
0:51:50 > 0:51:55I wish Warren had been here to hear that. He'd have been so proud.
0:51:56 > 0:51:59It's just...it's just brilliant.
0:51:59 > 0:52:06And I don't even feel like I've done really well
0:52:06 > 0:52:12so I want to eat something naughty to celebrate and treat myself.
0:52:12 > 0:52:16I actually feel that I want to keep going even more now.
0:52:16 > 0:52:20That's been more motivational than anything that's happened.
0:52:20 > 0:52:22I'm quite proud of myself.
0:52:25 > 0:52:28Just ten weeks ago, Helen Whewell was lying in a hospital bed
0:52:28 > 0:52:33wondering how her life and lifestyle had gone so drastically wrong.
0:52:36 > 0:52:40At just 44 years of age, she'd been diagnosed as morbidly obese,
0:52:40 > 0:52:43and with a debilitating heart condition that couldn't be
0:52:43 > 0:52:47addressed until she lost a significant amount of weight.
0:52:47 > 0:52:51It's at those moments where you think have I left it too late to change?
0:52:51 > 0:52:54But what a difference ten weeks can make.
0:52:54 > 0:52:57- It may have been daunting... - What if I can't do it?
0:52:57 > 0:53:01- ..difficult... - You need to go to the gym class, whatever anyone else says.
0:53:01 > 0:53:02..intense...
0:53:02 > 0:53:05It gets me sometimes, but perhaps it has to,
0:53:05 > 0:53:07for me to make those changes.
0:53:07 > 0:53:08..but ultimately...
0:53:08 > 0:53:0917st and half a pound.
0:53:09 > 0:53:11Yes!
0:53:11 > 0:53:14..it's been rewarding.
0:53:14 > 0:53:17And with the help of professional experts...
0:53:17 > 0:53:19No, no, you can't have it both ways.
0:53:19 > 0:53:24..Helen is on her own path to diet and lifestyle enlightenment.
0:53:24 > 0:53:29It's a journey that still has a long, long way to run.
0:53:29 > 0:53:32But significant strides have been made.
0:53:32 > 0:53:34And they continue to be made.
0:53:36 > 0:53:39It's July the 8th, Helen's 45th birthday.
0:53:39 > 0:53:42And in celebration of this, and the fact that she has now lost
0:53:42 > 0:53:44just over two stones in weight,
0:53:44 > 0:53:46husband Warren's got a birthday surprise.
0:53:48 > 0:53:52I've got a special gift, I think we can call it.
0:53:52 > 0:53:55He's a lot bigger than I thought he was going to be
0:53:55 > 0:53:57but I think she's going to be delighted
0:53:57 > 0:54:00because he's got the soppiest eyes I think I've ever seen.
0:54:03 > 0:54:05Is that them?
0:54:05 > 0:54:06Where's me salad?
0:54:06 > 0:54:09Bit more than a salad now.
0:54:09 > 0:54:12Oh, my God.
0:54:12 > 0:54:13Oh, my God!
0:54:15 > 0:54:17Oh, my God!
0:54:27 > 0:54:30That's right, Helen, it's a Bassett hound.
0:54:30 > 0:54:31Oh!
0:54:31 > 0:54:36He's worth every minute of the diet. Every minute.
0:54:39 > 0:54:40Hello, young man!
0:54:40 > 0:54:45I was promised one of these if I lost weight and here he is,
0:54:45 > 0:54:47and we're going to have to give you a name.
0:54:47 > 0:54:49Oh, my God.
0:54:49 > 0:54:52I think we should call him Haboubi.
0:54:52 > 0:54:57Hector Haboubi Hunter Whewell, to be precise.
0:54:58 > 0:55:03And no special birthday is complete without a special birthday cake.
0:55:05 > 0:55:06It's lard!
0:55:06 > 0:55:07It is!
0:55:07 > 0:55:09SHE LAUGHS
0:55:11 > 0:55:15And that's how much weight you've lost.
0:55:15 > 0:55:17Oh, no!
0:55:21 > 0:55:252st of lard and that's what you've lost.
0:55:25 > 0:55:2813, 14, 15, 16...
0:55:28 > 0:55:30WARREN LAUGHS
0:55:30 > 0:55:3350 blocks of lard I've lost.
0:55:33 > 0:55:35That's not bad going in nine weeks, is it?
0:55:39 > 0:55:41Isn't that amazing?
0:55:41 > 0:55:43And I was carrying that around every day
0:55:43 > 0:55:46- and it's almost too heavy to lift.- Yeah.
0:55:46 > 0:55:48It's falling apart now, so be careful.
0:55:48 > 0:55:52You can't even lift it. That is just...
0:55:52 > 0:55:53Next year you'll have one like that.
0:55:53 > 0:55:55That much taller again.
0:55:55 > 0:55:58And it's horrible and it's all gloopy.
0:55:58 > 0:56:01And somebody told me at the gym
0:56:01 > 0:56:04that the first place that you lose fat from
0:56:04 > 0:56:05is around your internal organs.
0:56:05 > 0:56:08When you lose weight, before you lose it from anywhere visible,
0:56:08 > 0:56:10it's around your internal organs.
0:56:10 > 0:56:13All that used to be inside me. Oh, my God.
0:56:13 > 0:56:15It's no wonder I was tired all of the time. It's no wonder
0:56:15 > 0:56:21my body was under strain carrying around all that time.
0:56:21 > 0:56:24So that is really visually impacting
0:56:24 > 0:56:29and I wish almost that you could feel how heavy that actually is
0:56:29 > 0:56:32because I was carrying that around all the time.
0:56:32 > 0:56:34Slice of cake, anyone?
0:56:37 > 0:56:40I can't take sole credit for anything I've achieved.
0:56:40 > 0:56:44It's the glorious Dr Haboubi.
0:56:44 > 0:56:49- Well, he's put me off everything like takeaways for life.- Yes.
0:56:49 > 0:56:51And the appointment wasn't even for me.
0:56:51 > 0:56:52Yes, the swine!
0:56:55 > 0:56:58You know, I can't take credit for it.
0:56:58 > 0:57:02Yes, OK, I've done the work, but it's been a team effort,
0:57:02 > 0:57:03it's been a family effort.
0:57:03 > 0:57:10I think as a family, I think everyone's really been behind me.
0:57:10 > 0:57:13And I think at times there's been nice love,
0:57:13 > 0:57:16tough love, motivation, there's been tears,
0:57:16 > 0:57:22there's been laughter and I think it's a journey.
0:57:22 > 0:57:25We're not there yet, we're not at the end.
0:57:25 > 0:57:28It's ongoing, so there'll probably be more tears, more laughter,
0:57:28 > 0:57:30more quarrels, more angst,
0:57:30 > 0:57:37but what I am certain of is that when I stand here this time next year,
0:57:37 > 0:57:40that's going to be significantly bigger
0:57:40 > 0:57:43and I'm going to be significantly smaller.
0:57:43 > 0:57:46And finally, what about Helen's heart?
0:57:46 > 0:57:50I'm still going to get this heart thing sorted.
0:57:50 > 0:57:53That's what got me on this journey in the first place,
0:57:53 > 0:57:56was the need to address that, and I will address that,
0:57:56 > 0:58:01but it's almost become less important as well. I can't really explain it.
0:58:01 > 0:58:04It's become secondary. Everything's become secondary
0:58:04 > 0:58:07to this just general well-being.
0:58:07 > 0:58:12And you know, I know now that if I'm ready for surgery,
0:58:12 > 0:58:16it's going to be safer and I think that's lifted my mood as well.
0:58:16 > 0:58:18I'm much more positive about the future because I can actually
0:58:18 > 0:58:22see a future, whereas possibly not so much before.