0:00:02 > 0:00:05Six young Brits are on the journey of a lifetime.
0:00:08 > 0:00:11They're heading deep into the North American wilderness.
0:00:13 > 0:00:15But this is no ordinary trek.
0:00:18 > 0:00:21He was having thoughts of beating her up, of punching her in the face.
0:00:21 > 0:00:24I just keep seeing it over and over again -
0:00:24 > 0:00:26him just lying there lifeless at the bottom.
0:00:26 > 0:00:29They've all signed up to a radical treatment programme
0:00:29 > 0:00:31for mental illness.
0:00:33 > 0:00:36I want to tap the wall with my elbow.
0:00:36 > 0:00:38You might have been born with a stupid voice.
0:00:38 > 0:00:39I was.
0:00:39 > 0:00:42Because all of them have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.
0:00:45 > 0:00:49It's impossible to describe what turmoil my brain is in.
0:00:51 > 0:00:55The lid in case my clothes touched it. The flusher.
0:00:55 > 0:00:58This is pathetic. This is not how my life should be.
0:00:58 > 0:01:00OCD has robbed them of their independence
0:01:00 > 0:01:03and made living normal lives impossible.
0:01:05 > 0:01:09They've been unable to get the treatment they need
0:01:09 > 0:01:11and they're desperate for help.
0:01:12 > 0:01:14My parents have been through so much.
0:01:17 > 0:01:20I hate the man I thought I should have been at 22 that I'm not at 22.
0:01:22 > 0:01:27He's so pissed off that OCD has robbed him of his life.
0:01:28 > 0:01:32So in a last-ditch attempt to reclaim their lives, they'll
0:01:32 > 0:01:36spend the next ten days at one of the world's most extreme OCD camps.
0:01:47 > 0:01:4922-year old Essex boy, Jack,
0:01:49 > 0:01:53is about to do something he hasn't done in almost a decade.
0:01:53 > 0:01:56You ready? OK.
0:02:00 > 0:02:02Drink from a glass in a public place.
0:02:05 > 0:02:07He's undergoing radical treatment
0:02:07 > 0:02:10to combat his pathological fear of germs.
0:02:16 > 0:02:19- BLEEP- It's like...- BLEEP
0:02:29 > 0:02:31Jack is out shopping with his mum,
0:02:31 > 0:02:34buying essentials for his trip to the States.
0:02:34 > 0:02:38- I need... - Toothbrush.
0:02:38 > 0:02:41Toothbrush, toothpaste, soaps, paper bowls, paper plates,
0:02:41 > 0:02:42knives and forks.
0:02:42 > 0:02:43I don't want that one,
0:02:43 > 0:02:46because obviously it's got the black bit on it.
0:02:46 > 0:02:50He's petrified of getting sick, so going anywhere without his own
0:02:50 > 0:02:52disposable plates and cutlery is unthinkable.
0:02:52 > 0:02:54Yep, that's cool. Lovely.
0:02:54 > 0:02:59Jack suffers from contamination OCD. He sees germs lurking everywhere...
0:03:02 > 0:03:04..even in the relative safety of his own home.
0:03:09 > 0:03:13He spends every waking moment avoiding contamination.
0:03:13 > 0:03:17I've not eaten something with my hands for over -
0:03:17 > 0:03:20I think it was since I was 15.
0:03:20 > 0:03:23Mealtimes are the most stressful part of Jack's day.
0:03:23 > 0:03:26He has to sterilise everything his food touches.
0:03:27 > 0:03:31I can't touch the milk handle, so when my milk would, say,
0:03:31 > 0:03:33get poured into my porridge, I'd have to have someone there to
0:03:33 > 0:03:35do it, you know, my mum, who lives with me.
0:03:35 > 0:03:37She'll be the one that will pour that in.
0:03:37 > 0:03:40It's a 20-25 minute, half hour, sometimes,
0:03:40 > 0:03:42process before I've even eaten.
0:03:42 > 0:03:44It robs a little bit of dignity from you.
0:03:44 > 0:03:46The whole time I'm just sitting there thinking,
0:03:46 > 0:03:49"This is really pathetic. This is not how my life should be."
0:03:52 > 0:03:55In an effort to turn his life around,
0:03:55 > 0:03:59Jack's committed to ten days at an extreme OCD camp in the US.
0:03:59 > 0:04:03He and five other OCD sufferers are on their way to London
0:04:03 > 0:04:06to stay the night before flying to America tomorrow.
0:04:07 > 0:04:09Jack's the first to arrive at the hotel.
0:04:09 > 0:04:11How's it going, you all right?
0:04:11 > 0:04:12Here you go.
0:04:13 > 0:04:14Lovely, thank you.
0:04:14 > 0:04:18If I could just get your address and signature here.
0:04:18 > 0:04:19I've got a pen here.
0:04:19 > 0:04:21I've got my own ones, honestly.
0:04:21 > 0:04:22OK.
0:04:22 > 0:04:26Touching someone else's pen is not an option.
0:04:26 > 0:04:29Got it. Do I have to sign this now?
0:04:29 > 0:04:32Can I come down and sign this once I take my bags up?
0:04:32 > 0:04:35- Yeah, that will be fine.- Cheers.
0:04:37 > 0:04:4022-year-old Josh is next to arrive.
0:04:42 > 0:04:43How far have you come from?
0:04:43 > 0:04:46We've come from Blackpool, so quite far.
0:04:51 > 0:04:55For the best part of ten years, Josh has been plagued by symmetry OCD.
0:04:55 > 0:04:59I have to touch everything on my left and right hands.
0:04:59 > 0:05:01On my left and right feet, equal amount of times,
0:05:01 > 0:05:06everywhere I go, 24/7. It's constant.
0:05:06 > 0:05:07It's touch that, touch that, touch that.
0:05:07 > 0:05:10You know, you haven't touched it yet. Why haven't you touched it?
0:05:10 > 0:05:13It's constant, it's constantly there.
0:05:14 > 0:05:18I remember burning myself when I was 13 years old on my left hand,
0:05:18 > 0:05:22on an oven at my nan's house. I felt compelled...
0:05:23 > 0:05:26..to burn my other two fingers on my right hand.
0:05:26 > 0:05:27Quite badly as well.
0:05:29 > 0:05:33OCD has caused Josh to drop out of university, and he can't get a job.
0:05:33 > 0:05:37He hopes that going to OCD camp will get his life back on track.
0:05:37 > 0:05:41I'm hoping that when I go on the camp, it will improve my life,
0:05:41 > 0:05:45my social life, and hopefully it might help me to find someone.
0:05:54 > 0:05:57Imogen is next to arrive at the hotel.
0:05:57 > 0:06:00At 17, she's the youngest member of the group.
0:06:00 > 0:06:02I'm feeling nervous.
0:06:04 > 0:06:07I don't think it quite feels real yet, but maybe when I meet
0:06:07 > 0:06:10everyone it'll be like, "Oh, my God, it's actually happening."
0:06:13 > 0:06:17A-Level student Imogen is plagued by thoughts that terrible things
0:06:17 > 0:06:19will happen to her family.
0:06:19 > 0:06:21She believes the only way to stop these things from happening
0:06:21 > 0:06:24is to constantly tap her surroundings.
0:06:25 > 0:06:27It really does scare me.
0:06:27 > 0:06:32The thought of, "If you don't tap that tree, your mum's going to die."
0:06:32 > 0:06:36You know, it's not logical because it's just a tree,
0:06:36 > 0:06:43but that fear is so strong that it just feels so real to me.
0:06:44 > 0:06:48Next to check in is 21-year-old university student Olivia.
0:06:51 > 0:06:57At the moment, I'm feeling about a nine on an anxiety level
0:06:57 > 0:06:59because I really, really, really want a shower
0:06:59 > 0:07:03because I've been lugging these bags around London and I've been
0:07:03 > 0:07:06extremely warm and I'm very, very warm now in this hotel room.
0:07:06 > 0:07:09In fact, actually, I might open the window.
0:07:09 > 0:07:14Like Jack, Olivia suffers from contamination OCD.
0:07:14 > 0:07:18But it's not germs that bother her. It's smells.
0:07:18 > 0:07:19If you think of your biggest fear,
0:07:19 > 0:07:22some people's biggest fear of getting ill, maybe, or dying,
0:07:22 > 0:07:24my biggest fear is anything that smells bad.
0:07:26 > 0:07:31When I'm showering, it feels like someone is -
0:07:31 > 0:07:33every time I feel like I'm clean -
0:07:33 > 0:07:36is throwing a bucket of mud on me and then I have to start again.
0:07:36 > 0:07:39Using the toilet is Olivia's biggest nightmare
0:07:39 > 0:07:42so she's developed an extraordinary way of coping.
0:07:44 > 0:07:48I would make sure I took photos of sort of the seat, maybe
0:07:48 > 0:07:53the lid in case my clothes touched it, and the flusher and the floor.
0:07:55 > 0:07:58Any kind of mark on the floor I will take a photo of, and then
0:07:58 > 0:08:01afterwards, if I was still anxious about it, I could look at the
0:08:01 > 0:08:03photo and I could be reassured or I could show someone the photo and
0:08:03 > 0:08:08they could reassure me that there's nothing wrong with that mark.
0:08:08 > 0:08:11I'd just like to be able to make my own judgments,
0:08:11 > 0:08:17make my own calls on things, and just go about day to day life
0:08:17 > 0:08:20without it controlling me, without controlling every move.
0:08:22 > 0:08:25The group are about to meet each other for the very first time.
0:08:31 > 0:08:36For most of them, it will be the first time they've met anyone else with OCD.
0:08:40 > 0:08:41- Hello, hello, hello.- Hi.
0:08:41 > 0:08:42How are you doing, you all right? I'm Jack.
0:08:42 > 0:08:44Olivia, nice to meet you.
0:08:44 > 0:08:47- Can we hug it out? - Yes, we can hug, that's OK.
0:08:47 > 0:08:49- Hey.- Hi. How are you? - Grab a seat.
0:08:50 > 0:08:52Hi, how're you doing, you all right? I'm Jack.
0:08:52 > 0:08:54- Hi.- Grab a seat. - Hi! Nice to meet you, I'm Olivia.
0:08:54 > 0:08:59- I'm Andrew.- How old are you? - 23.- 23. It's getting older.
0:08:59 > 0:09:02- Yeah.- I'm 21.- 22.
0:09:02 > 0:09:04I'm one year older. So yeah, one up each time.
0:09:09 > 0:09:15My OCD does primarily revolve around avoiding the number 13.
0:09:15 > 0:09:19Andrew repeats the most simple actions over and over again
0:09:19 > 0:09:22to be certain that he never does anything 13 times.
0:09:31 > 0:09:32That'll probably do now.
0:09:32 > 0:09:35Andrew sees the number 13 all around him.
0:09:35 > 0:09:38Every hour it comes to 13 minutes past, so you know,
0:09:38 > 0:09:44between ten past and 20 past every hour, I cannot do anything.
0:09:45 > 0:09:48Ideally, I'll just sit completely like a statue.
0:09:48 > 0:09:50If I so much as touch my lip with my tongue,
0:09:50 > 0:09:53I'll have to do that again when it gets to 20 past.
0:09:53 > 0:09:56As well as OCD, Andrew has Asperger's,
0:09:56 > 0:09:59which makes social situations very difficult for him.
0:09:59 > 0:10:01I just wish I could chat more.
0:10:01 > 0:10:04I'd like to be able to express myself a bit more
0:10:04 > 0:10:05instead of being in a shell.
0:10:07 > 0:10:08We're just talking about tattoos.
0:10:08 > 0:10:11Oh, right. I've not got any.
0:10:11 > 0:10:1418-year old Megan from Nottingham arrives next.
0:10:14 > 0:10:15- Hiya. How're you doing? - Nice to meet you. I'm good.
0:10:15 > 0:10:18She's constantly plagued by thoughts that people
0:10:18 > 0:10:20she loves are going to be harmed.
0:10:20 > 0:10:23- How're you feeling? - I'm excited.
0:10:23 > 0:10:26- Are you?- How're you feeling? I'm nervous.
0:10:26 > 0:10:28- I was kind of like regretting it a little bit before.- Do you think?
0:10:28 > 0:10:31This morning, I was a bit like, "Oh, God, what have I done?"
0:10:31 > 0:10:33- Olivia, nice to meet you. Hi. - Sorry, man, I'm not a hand-shaker.
0:10:33 > 0:10:35It's all right, no worries.
0:10:35 > 0:10:37I'm Andrew. Josh. Andrew. Nice to meet you, pal.
0:10:37 > 0:10:39- How're you doing, you all right? - I'm not too bad, yeah.
0:10:39 > 0:10:42I'm a little bit nervous but as it goes...
0:10:42 > 0:10:44Welcome to a strange, surreal dinner.
0:10:44 > 0:10:46- Yes, yes. A little bit. - How far have you come from?
0:10:46 > 0:10:49- Blackpool.- Yes!
0:10:49 > 0:10:51- You're all Northerners! - Are you the only Southerner?
0:10:51 > 0:10:53I'm the only Southerner at the moment, yeah.
0:10:53 > 0:10:56- It feels slightly racist. - The last to arrive is Imogen.
0:10:56 > 0:10:58- Hi.- I'm Olivia.- Hello.
0:10:58 > 0:11:01- How're you doing? Where do you come from?- Hertfordshire.- Southerner!
0:11:04 > 0:11:05Thank you.
0:11:05 > 0:11:07As the group start to get to know one another,
0:11:07 > 0:11:09the conversation moves onto OCD.
0:11:09 > 0:11:11I'll like pick up a glass of water
0:11:11 > 0:11:14and I'll have to do it with my left hand and my right hand.
0:11:14 > 0:11:17- Is that why you shake with two hands?- Yeah.
0:11:17 > 0:11:19I thought you were just extra friendly. I was like, "Oh, lovely."
0:11:19 > 0:11:22I think, obviously, the nature of the beast is that
0:11:22 > 0:11:24a hell of a lot of it isn't what you can see.
0:11:24 > 0:11:26Other people, like my best friends don't know,
0:11:26 > 0:11:29until I tell them. It's mainly intrusive thoughts,
0:11:29 > 0:11:32so it's always thoughts about bad things happening to my family
0:11:32 > 0:11:37and friends, it's always about preventing harm.
0:11:37 > 0:11:39Thoughts soon turn to OCD camp.
0:11:39 > 0:11:42The trek sounds really scary and it'll scare me
0:11:42 > 0:11:45but it was just meeting everyone and what everyone was going to be like.
0:11:45 > 0:11:46I really don't like surprises.
0:11:46 > 0:11:48What is everyone's goals for the week?
0:11:48 > 0:11:50Besides my routines, you know, I just want to
0:11:50 > 0:11:54increase my independence and make some more friends.
0:11:54 > 0:11:58I would be extremely happy if there was just one minute of the day
0:11:58 > 0:12:01where I wouldn't have to do my things.
0:12:01 > 0:12:06I would love, like you Josh, to have a minute out of the day where
0:12:06 > 0:12:09I'm not carrying out some compulsion in my head.
0:12:09 > 0:12:13I'm not really expecting like a miracle cure or anything
0:12:13 > 0:12:17but if something changes or maybe this'll help in some way,
0:12:17 > 0:12:20it would just be brilliant, really.
0:12:20 > 0:12:23Tomorrow is the start of their journey together -
0:12:23 > 0:12:26one that could change their lives for ever.
0:12:34 > 0:12:35It's departure day.
0:12:38 > 0:12:39It's nothing.
0:12:40 > 0:12:41Ready? Let's go!
0:12:43 > 0:12:45The group are about to leave the safety of their home turf
0:12:45 > 0:12:48and fly over 5,000 miles to the USA.
0:12:50 > 0:12:53For Josh, even the journey is a source of anxiety.
0:12:53 > 0:12:58It's a fear of not being able to get out of the seat
0:12:58 > 0:12:59when you're not allowed to.
0:12:59 > 0:13:03That's the only thing I don't like, not having that control.
0:13:03 > 0:13:06And Josh isn't the only one with problems.
0:13:06 > 0:13:08Welcome to the toilet.
0:13:08 > 0:13:10Obviously, right now, I'm not going to use it myself
0:13:10 > 0:13:12because that is disgusting.
0:13:12 > 0:13:15If I needed to use the toilet and the seat's down, which
0:13:15 > 0:13:19for the majority of the time it is, I'll just use my foot to lift it up.
0:13:19 > 0:13:22Again, to flush it, obviously I'll use my foot.
0:13:29 > 0:13:33They're heading to Seattle on America's North West coast.
0:13:33 > 0:13:36For the next ten days, they'll undergo intense therapy,
0:13:36 > 0:13:38deep in the Washington wilderness.
0:13:38 > 0:13:41- Hello.- Hi.
0:13:43 > 0:13:48Therapist Pete Weiss and psychologist Dr Travis Osborne are OCD experts
0:13:48 > 0:13:51and have been running their OCD camp for five years.
0:13:55 > 0:13:59Pete and Travis have already spent hours on Skype consulting
0:13:59 > 0:14:00with each of the group.
0:14:00 > 0:14:03Meeting Pete, he had a little bit of celebrity status in my head,
0:14:03 > 0:14:08because I'd like spoken to him so much in preparation for coming here.
0:14:08 > 0:14:12He's someone that's got such a big role in possibly making me better.
0:14:14 > 0:14:18Pete's no stranger to taking OCD sufferers on wilderness trips,
0:14:18 > 0:14:21but this camp's going to be a bit different.
0:14:21 > 0:14:23This is the first time I've ever taken a group with this
0:14:23 > 0:14:29severe of OCD with the goal of helping them to work on their OCD.
0:14:29 > 0:14:33It feels like we're treading new ground, which is exciting,
0:14:33 > 0:14:36but it also makes me a little bit nervous.
0:14:38 > 0:14:4214 hours after leaving London, they finally arrive.
0:14:42 > 0:14:45You guys, you made it. We're at Island Wood.
0:14:45 > 0:14:47- Do you want to see your rooms? - Yes.
0:14:47 > 0:14:48Let's go.
0:14:50 > 0:14:52- Oh, wow. - Wow.
0:14:53 > 0:14:56Any bed, honestly, I'll take a single.
0:14:56 > 0:14:58- You want double then? - You can go in double then, yeah.
0:14:58 > 0:15:00Rock, paper, scissors. One, two, three.
0:15:00 > 0:15:04- Quite fancy a bunk bed. - I quite fancy an up one, yeah.
0:15:04 > 0:15:06Which one do you want, which top?
0:15:06 > 0:15:09I don't mind.
0:15:09 > 0:15:12The group have come almost halfway around the world,
0:15:12 > 0:15:15but tomorrow, their real journey begins.
0:15:23 > 0:15:26It's the first day of OCD camp.
0:15:26 > 0:15:29Pete and Travis and their team have got just over a week
0:15:29 > 0:15:33to help the group reclaim their lives by taking on their OCD.
0:15:36 > 0:15:38This extreme programme will force the Brits
0:15:38 > 0:15:42to fight their OCD by getting them to face their biggest fears
0:15:42 > 0:15:45and do things they'd never dream of doing back home.
0:15:45 > 0:15:48'Exposing to the fear, not doing their ritual,
0:15:48 > 0:15:51'then we raise the bar and do it again,
0:15:51 > 0:15:54'and raise the bar and do it again.'
0:15:54 > 0:15:56Straight after breakfast the battle begins.
0:15:56 > 0:16:00In a place Jack fears the most... the bathroom.
0:16:00 > 0:16:03We're trying to find a spot, whether it's a wall
0:16:03 > 0:16:07or something on the wall, ceiling, that you can touch.
0:16:07 > 0:16:12Is there anywhere within the actual room where the toilet exists
0:16:12 > 0:16:14that you could actually do that?
0:16:14 > 0:16:18Yeah, I mean, as far away from the toilet as possible.
0:16:18 > 0:16:20OK, let's just have you touch it with the pinkie...
0:16:20 > 0:16:23HE CHUCKLES ..and then just hold that pinkie up for a while.
0:16:23 > 0:16:25How does that sound?
0:16:25 > 0:16:27I'm still taking my sleeves up, though,
0:16:27 > 0:16:29because I don't want to get my hands...
0:16:29 > 0:16:31Yeah, you've got to be precautionary.
0:16:34 > 0:16:37OK, it's there.
0:16:37 > 0:16:38What could be on your pinkie?
0:16:40 > 0:16:44Bacteria of the toilet seat and just what this toilet,
0:16:44 > 0:16:46what this room is about and...
0:16:48 > 0:16:52Yeah, water from the toilet when it's been flushed
0:16:52 > 0:16:55because it's not got, like, a seat to it properly and...
0:16:55 > 0:16:56So, this is what we're going to do, Jack.
0:16:56 > 0:17:00I don't always do this, but I think it's actually going to help you.
0:17:00 > 0:17:02We're going to have you touch your pinkie around your body
0:17:02 > 0:17:05because I think it's actually going to make it...
0:17:05 > 0:17:08It's going to be harder at first, but then it will get easier faster.
0:17:08 > 0:17:12Get that bacteria, pee, urine, nastiness all over you.
0:17:12 > 0:17:14'My mouth went dry and my chest was beating.
0:17:14 > 0:17:17'I was sweating, my eyes were darting around the room,
0:17:17 > 0:17:21'I couldn't focus. I felt kind of like I was going to faint.'
0:17:21 > 0:17:25Although it may seem like a very simple task for everyone else,
0:17:25 > 0:17:27it was actually a big ordeal.
0:17:30 > 0:17:32In Travis' group, Josh is first up.
0:17:34 > 0:17:37He's about to be exposed to his greatest fear.
0:17:37 > 0:17:39His challenge is not to ritualise.
0:17:39 > 0:17:42Your goal is going to be to touch something with one side of your body.
0:17:42 > 0:17:46You can choose whether it's with your hand or your arm or your leg, whatever you choose.
0:17:46 > 0:17:48We're going to try to have you go five minutes
0:17:48 > 0:17:51without equalising it out on the other side.
0:17:51 > 0:17:53So what could you touch with your foot?
0:17:53 > 0:17:56It would just be knocking something like that.
0:17:56 > 0:17:58It's even just that line right there.
0:17:58 > 0:18:01- This line right here? OK. - It would just be going like that.
0:18:01 > 0:18:05HE LAUGHS OK. OK, so let's try that again without equalising.
0:18:05 > 0:18:07- OK, I'll have another go.- All right.
0:18:08 > 0:18:11OK, so let's have you sit back down.
0:18:11 > 0:18:15- OK, did you see your body pulling you to redo it?- Yeah.
0:18:15 > 0:18:19OK. Now, what's happening with your anxiety right now?
0:18:19 > 0:18:23I feel all right, but I think it... Yeah.
0:18:23 > 0:18:24You feel all right but what?
0:18:24 > 0:18:27I mean, yeah. You get it?
0:18:27 > 0:18:30You can feel it already, can't you? Yeah.
0:18:30 > 0:18:33I think we all can see the second you do that,
0:18:33 > 0:18:36we can just see your face instantly change, right?
0:18:36 > 0:18:39- Can your family tell? - Yeah, they know.
0:18:39 > 0:18:42Yeah. You get tongue-tied.
0:18:42 > 0:18:45They know when I get...
0:18:47 > 0:18:49- It's like a sweat, isn't it? - ..anxious. Yes.
0:18:49 > 0:18:52It's very annoying when you're that confident
0:18:52 > 0:18:55and it just, sort of, just drains away.
0:18:55 > 0:18:57Yeah, it's not nice.
0:18:57 > 0:18:59Three minutes into his exposure,
0:18:59 > 0:19:02Josh has an overwhelming urge to touch the line.
0:19:02 > 0:19:04Is it in general harder with your feet than your hands
0:19:04 > 0:19:06or is it usually about the same?
0:19:06 > 0:19:09Yeah, no. I mean no, no.
0:19:09 > 0:19:13Um...it's the same, yeah.
0:19:13 > 0:19:17OK. You think you can make it another two minutes?
0:19:17 > 0:19:18Yeah. All right.
0:19:18 > 0:19:21Moments later, Josh has reached his limit.
0:19:21 > 0:19:24Josh? Can I go with you?
0:19:24 > 0:19:28You're out of time, so if you want to ritualise, you can, OK?
0:19:28 > 0:19:31Can you try to talk to me for a sec?
0:19:31 > 0:19:33Yeah, I'm fine.
0:19:33 > 0:19:34Is your anxiety climbing?
0:19:34 > 0:19:37No, it's fine now. I did it, I did it.
0:19:37 > 0:19:40- Oh, because when you walked over the line, you touched it?- Yeah.
0:19:40 > 0:19:43- OK. So it just felt like you couldn't go any longer?- Yeah.
0:19:43 > 0:19:48OK, I think you actually made it to five minutes, which is great.
0:19:48 > 0:19:51So we'll let you cool down for a little bit before we try again.
0:19:51 > 0:19:53- Yeah, yeah, yeah.- OK.
0:19:53 > 0:19:55That's just what I mean, I don't like running away.
0:19:55 > 0:19:58- It's what I do, always seem to do. - I know, I know.
0:19:58 > 0:20:00But you're just starting, right?
0:20:03 > 0:20:05In those kinds of situations,
0:20:05 > 0:20:08the natural response is just to get out of there as fast as you can
0:20:08 > 0:20:12because that is just what I've learned to do.
0:20:12 > 0:20:14It's become second nature now.
0:20:14 > 0:20:17I'm a little bit annoyed about running away.
0:20:18 > 0:20:22Back in the bathroom, Imogen is about to do her very first exposure.
0:20:22 > 0:20:24Are you ready?
0:20:24 > 0:20:27- As I'll ever be.- OK!
0:20:27 > 0:20:28Pete plans to trigger Imogen's fear
0:20:28 > 0:20:31that something bad will happen to her family,
0:20:31 > 0:20:34but not let her tap to compensate.
0:20:34 > 0:20:37He'll ask her to rate her anxiety on a scale of one to ten.
0:20:37 > 0:20:40What's the tiniest, most minute movement
0:20:40 > 0:20:42that would cause you to want to tap?
0:20:42 > 0:20:45Um...stepping forward.
0:20:45 > 0:20:49OK. So what I want you to do, you're going to move your foot
0:20:49 > 0:20:51just the tiniest little bit.
0:20:51 > 0:20:53Go for it.
0:20:53 > 0:20:56I know it's in my head, I know it's not real.
0:20:57 > 0:21:00So I want you to say something different than that, though.
0:21:00 > 0:21:02This is going to be harder.
0:21:03 > 0:21:06"Maybe it's real."
0:21:06 > 0:21:07Maybe it's real.
0:21:07 > 0:21:11Nice work! Nice work!
0:21:11 > 0:21:12That is fantastic!
0:21:15 > 0:21:17- VOICE CRACKING:- Maybe it's real.
0:21:17 > 0:21:19OK, just stop there, what do you have?
0:21:20 > 0:21:23I would probably have like a five.
0:21:23 > 0:21:25Yeah, a little higher than what we wanted to,
0:21:25 > 0:21:29but we're just going to sit there. What do you want to do for a ritual?
0:21:29 > 0:21:31I want to tap the wall with my elbow.
0:21:32 > 0:21:34Yeah, I can tell that's hard.
0:21:34 > 0:21:36'When I moved my foot forward,
0:21:36 > 0:21:39'I instantly was aware of all my surroundings.
0:21:39 > 0:21:41'All these thoughts going around in my head,'
0:21:41 > 0:21:43like I had really powerful thoughts
0:21:43 > 0:21:47about bad things happening to my mum, which was very, very scary.
0:21:47 > 0:21:53Can you say it again, the "maybe" statement?
0:21:53 > 0:21:55Maybe it's real.
0:21:55 > 0:21:58Maybe it's real.
0:21:58 > 0:22:01- (Maybe it's real.) - Yeah, good work.
0:22:02 > 0:22:05- You're doing so well.- Yeah. - You're doing so well.
0:22:05 > 0:22:07This is unbelievable.
0:22:07 > 0:22:11This is really obviously very tough.
0:22:11 > 0:22:14You are a picture of courage right now.
0:22:20 > 0:22:22What you just did was phenomenal,
0:22:22 > 0:22:25but it doesn't mean your OCD is going to go away,
0:22:25 > 0:22:28because you're going to move and you're going to do a ritual
0:22:28 > 0:22:31in just a few moments here. And that is OK.
0:22:31 > 0:22:33That doesn't mean that it's not going to get better
0:22:33 > 0:22:35or that you should lose hope.
0:22:35 > 0:22:39After waiting over an hour with contaminated hands,
0:22:39 > 0:22:41Jack ends his exposure by washing.
0:22:47 > 0:22:51The group have made it through their first day of therapy.
0:22:51 > 0:22:54With exposures over, they can stop fighting their OCD.
0:22:55 > 0:22:56Until tomorrow.
0:23:14 > 0:23:16After a long, hard day,
0:23:16 > 0:23:19everyone gets a chance to chill by the campfire.
0:23:20 > 0:23:25Well, you guys survived your first full day of OCD camp.
0:23:25 > 0:23:27How do you feel?
0:23:27 > 0:23:31- Tired.- Tired? Yes, I bet. You guys worked really hard today.
0:23:31 > 0:23:34What you guys got a taste today of, when we started exposure therapy,
0:23:34 > 0:23:38was how hard it is to actually fight this beast, right?
0:23:38 > 0:23:41So what we've asked you all to think about is, kind of,
0:23:41 > 0:23:44what your OCD has cost you
0:23:44 > 0:23:47and these are the things you're going to need to keep in mind
0:23:47 > 0:23:49in those key moments when what you want to do is, kind of,
0:23:49 > 0:23:52just give in to the OCD, to help you push
0:23:52 > 0:23:54and find a way to keep fighting.
0:23:54 > 0:23:56The reason I want to fight and beat my OCD
0:23:56 > 0:24:02is because I'm just fed up of it after so long, it does no good.
0:24:02 > 0:24:05It's made me lie to my family, many times,
0:24:05 > 0:24:08and it's made me lie to my friends
0:24:08 > 0:24:10and people that I shouldn't have lied to,
0:24:10 > 0:24:14just because it's much easier than saying that you've got OCD.
0:24:14 > 0:24:17I'm just completely done now
0:24:17 > 0:24:19with letting it be the biggest part of my life.
0:24:19 > 0:24:23I hate everything about it. I hate everything about the...
0:24:24 > 0:24:26..what it's taken away from me
0:24:26 > 0:24:29and I hate the man that I thought I should have been at 22
0:24:29 > 0:24:30that I'm not at 22.
0:24:30 > 0:24:35I owe it to myself to fight it as hard as I can fight anything.
0:24:35 > 0:24:39I hope one day I can grow up and I can have a family and a job
0:24:39 > 0:24:44and not have to worry about what I'm going to have for dinner or,
0:24:44 > 0:24:49can I make it out the front door without tapping it four times, or something?
0:24:49 > 0:24:50That would be quite nice.
0:24:50 > 0:24:53My parents have been through so much. Um, like...
0:24:58 > 0:24:59SHE SNIFFS
0:24:59 > 0:25:02My parents have been through so much supporting me...
0:25:04 > 0:25:09..and they've just been amazing, my sister, too, and all my family.
0:25:09 > 0:25:13They've, kind of, spent their whole life looking after me
0:25:13 > 0:25:19and I feel like if I get better then they've kind of achieved something
0:25:19 > 0:25:21and they've helped me to get better.
0:25:22 > 0:25:27Just so they can live a stress-free life without worrying about me.
0:25:27 > 0:25:31I have a motto for you guys for this week.
0:25:31 > 0:25:34And the motto is with just one word,
0:25:34 > 0:25:37and that word is "maybe".
0:25:40 > 0:25:43And there's a badge that comes along with "maybe",
0:25:43 > 0:25:46and you're all going to get that badge in just a moment here,
0:25:46 > 0:25:49and the badge is a question mark.
0:25:49 > 0:25:51Whenever you look at this,
0:25:51 > 0:25:56it's a reminder that maybe the bad thing could happen.
0:25:56 > 0:25:58Maybe it could, maybe it couldn't.
0:25:58 > 0:26:02And I want you guys to take this with you for the rest of your lives.
0:26:13 > 0:26:15Are you ready for your tattoo?
0:26:15 > 0:26:17- I'm going to have two.- That's great.
0:26:17 > 0:26:20THEY LAUGH
0:26:28 > 0:26:31It's day two at Island Wood.
0:26:31 > 0:26:34Yesterday was stressful and disorientating for everyone.
0:26:34 > 0:26:38So Pete decides to kick off with a confidence-building challenge
0:26:38 > 0:26:39out on the lake.
0:26:41 > 0:26:44But for Olivia, even this triggers her OCD.
0:26:44 > 0:26:46I don't know who's worn it
0:26:46 > 0:26:51and life jackets usually smell like damp if people have fallen in
0:26:51 > 0:26:53and I've just put clean clothes on and had a shower
0:26:53 > 0:26:55so I don't really want to wear it.
0:26:55 > 0:26:57And she's not the only one.
0:26:57 > 0:27:01This is the kind of thing where everyone's tightly together.
0:27:01 > 0:27:03- You can't leave.- Yeah.
0:27:03 > 0:27:05So let's say you do feel trapped,
0:27:05 > 0:27:07cos there's a good chance that could happen,
0:27:07 > 0:27:10and we're not going to let you jump overboard.
0:27:10 > 0:27:12So you're going to have to wait.
0:27:12 > 0:27:15What I want you to do is I want you to tell me if it's happening, OK?
0:27:18 > 0:27:22But pretty quickly, they all find their sea legs - even Jack.
0:27:30 > 0:27:33So, I'm just curious how it went for you guys.
0:27:33 > 0:27:35It was absolutely fine. It was fine, I enjoyed it.
0:27:35 > 0:27:37What did you learn about
0:27:37 > 0:27:40the difference between anticipating something
0:27:40 > 0:27:43and then the actual experience itself?
0:27:43 > 0:27:46It probably won't happen.
0:27:46 > 0:27:49Maybe it will, maybe it won't but it probably won't.
0:27:49 > 0:27:50Maybe?
0:27:53 > 0:27:55Inspired by the raft challenge,
0:27:55 > 0:27:59Jack's motivated to push himself further than he's ever gone before.
0:27:59 > 0:28:03For almost a decade, Jack's been so fearful of germs
0:28:03 > 0:28:05that he's only drunk from disposable cups.
0:28:05 > 0:28:08- You ready for this? - Nope, let's go.- Nope, let's do it!
0:28:08 > 0:28:11But now he wants to try to drink from a glass
0:28:11 > 0:28:13that's been used by other people,
0:28:13 > 0:28:16with a little help from the Island Wood kitchen staff.
0:28:16 > 0:28:19This is Ben. All right, Ben, this is Jack.
0:28:19 > 0:28:21- How're you doing, you all right? - Nice to meet you.
0:28:21 > 0:28:24- Cheers for your help. - So, it's not quite boiling yet,
0:28:24 > 0:28:27but Jack is saying that it's probably good enough for him.
0:28:27 > 0:28:31So whenever you're ready to put a glass in, that would be fantastic.
0:28:31 > 0:28:33Yeah, this is a hot cup.
0:28:33 > 0:28:37There's one condition. He needs to see the glass being sterilised.
0:28:43 > 0:28:45I don't like the water that's in there being too much on it
0:28:45 > 0:28:47so as much as we can get out by, like,
0:28:47 > 0:28:49doing what you're doing now, that's perfect.
0:28:49 > 0:28:52I'm going to sit on the... Where would you like it set, set down on?
0:28:52 > 0:28:54There's fine, wherever's fine really.
0:28:54 > 0:28:56But, yeah, as long as it's the right way up.
0:29:01 > 0:29:02Perfect.
0:29:02 > 0:29:05One minute, all that water is evaporated, it's gone.
0:29:05 > 0:29:07That's perfect, cheers.
0:29:07 > 0:29:10Hey, Ben, I want you to see what he's about to do.
0:29:10 > 0:29:12What's something that you were terrified of?
0:29:12 > 0:29:16What are you afraid of? HE LAUGHS
0:29:16 > 0:29:17I always joke about this -
0:29:17 > 0:29:22bears, lions, and I'm not afraid of much that I can think of, actually.
0:29:22 > 0:29:25But bears? That's a good one.
0:29:25 > 0:29:28And so if you were to walk into a cage with a bear...?
0:29:28 > 0:29:31- I wouldn't walk into a cage with a bear.- OK.
0:29:31 > 0:29:35That's exactly the same mental process that Jack is about to take
0:29:35 > 0:29:37when he takes a drink out of this thing.
0:29:37 > 0:29:40It's like, obviously even touching the glass is a bit...
0:29:52 > 0:29:54It's weird, man.
0:29:54 > 0:29:56It's strange.
0:29:56 > 0:29:58When was the last time you drank out of a glass?
0:29:59 > 0:30:03- Nine years ago.- Wow.
0:30:03 > 0:30:06- It's quite a strange feeling. - It's impressive.
0:30:06 > 0:30:08I'd high five you if I could.
0:30:08 > 0:30:11Air bump.
0:30:11 > 0:30:12Air bump with Ben maybe?
0:30:12 > 0:30:14THEY LAUGH
0:30:15 > 0:30:17Let's go.
0:30:17 > 0:30:20For Jack, this is a huge achievement,
0:30:20 > 0:30:24and he's keen to show off his latest victory over OCD to the others.
0:30:24 > 0:30:26This is the most self-conscious drink I've ever had.
0:30:26 > 0:30:29THEY LAUGH
0:30:39 > 0:30:41- OLIVIA:- In nine years, that's crazy.
0:30:41 > 0:30:43- I know.- That's such a long time.
0:30:45 > 0:30:46- It's just so good though.- It is.
0:30:49 > 0:30:51They're supporting each other.
0:30:51 > 0:30:53I don't even know if I could have predicted
0:30:53 > 0:30:55that that would happen to this degree,
0:30:55 > 0:31:01but it's so clear that they're simultaneously dealing with their own fears and their own exposures
0:31:01 > 0:31:04but then they're giving to others,
0:31:04 > 0:31:07and that's phenomenal that they can shift out of that space
0:31:07 > 0:31:09and it's not just all about them.
0:31:09 > 0:31:12- Bye! - THEY LAUGH
0:31:14 > 0:31:18Pete has discovered that four hours after Imogen's exposure yesterday,
0:31:18 > 0:31:22she returned to the bathroom to ritualise by tapping the wall.
0:31:22 > 0:31:25So today, he's going to raise the stakes.
0:31:25 > 0:31:27How could we do an exposure
0:31:27 > 0:31:31where it's impossible to do a ritual afterwards?
0:31:33 > 0:31:36I see your face just dropping.
0:31:36 > 0:31:39- What would that thing be?- Um...
0:31:41 > 0:31:48When I'm walking sometimes I have to tap certain stones and...
0:31:48 > 0:31:50So if we went for a walk outside,
0:31:50 > 0:31:56then if you stop where you want to actually do a ritual on a certain stone,
0:31:56 > 0:31:58- that's what you're telling me we could do?- Mm-hmm.
0:31:58 > 0:32:01OK. We'll start the exposure and then we'll make a decision
0:32:01 > 0:32:05about whether or not we're going to throw the rock anywhere.
0:32:05 > 0:32:06OK.
0:32:14 > 0:32:16That one? Already?
0:32:16 > 0:32:17- Yeah.- OK.
0:32:17 > 0:32:22Tell me if you were to get rid of this rock or not tap it,
0:32:22 > 0:32:24what could happen?
0:32:24 > 0:32:29Um, something bad. Like, to my family.
0:32:29 > 0:32:31What's the statement?
0:32:34 > 0:32:36Maybe something bad will happen.
0:32:36 > 0:32:38Again.
0:32:38 > 0:32:40Maybe something bad will happen.
0:32:40 > 0:32:44- Again.- Maybe something bad will happen. Oh, dear.
0:32:58 > 0:33:00Maybe something bad will happen.
0:33:01 > 0:33:04Imogen's frozen to the spot for half an hour
0:33:04 > 0:33:06before she's able to calm down.
0:33:13 > 0:33:17So, let's talk about what we're going to do to with this rock.
0:33:17 > 0:33:20Can you take it?
0:33:20 > 0:33:21Do you want me to?
0:33:21 > 0:33:24What do you want me to do with it, just pick it up right now?
0:33:24 > 0:33:26Hold it? OK.
0:33:31 > 0:33:34- Will you put it in your pocket? - Yep.
0:33:37 > 0:33:41- Can I see how I go?- Yes, we can.
0:33:41 > 0:33:44We can just keep this in my pocket and we can see how it goes.
0:33:44 > 0:33:47I think that's a fantastic idea.
0:33:47 > 0:33:49- Thank you.- (You're welcome.)
0:33:52 > 0:33:55This is another full day of therapy.
0:33:55 > 0:33:58Everyone is going head-to-head with their OCD.
0:33:58 > 0:34:02Megan is plagued by thoughts of bad things happening to people,
0:34:02 > 0:34:05so Travis wants her to look at a picture of her friend
0:34:05 > 0:34:06and imagine her getting sick.
0:34:06 > 0:34:09You're going to get ill.
0:34:09 > 0:34:12OK, and what do you notice about your anxiety right now?
0:34:12 > 0:34:16Probably...two or three.
0:34:16 > 0:34:17OK.
0:34:17 > 0:34:22Yesterday, Josh managed to wait five minutes before ritualising.
0:34:22 > 0:34:24Today, he wants to break that record.
0:34:24 > 0:34:27What would you like to set as a goal for this time?
0:34:29 > 0:34:33If I put it at ten then I can see...
0:34:33 > 0:34:35Counting down, I think that would be quite good.
0:34:35 > 0:34:39OK, so you go ahead, what do you want to do this time?
0:34:39 > 0:34:40All right.
0:34:42 > 0:34:44- Weird.- Did you do it yet?
0:34:44 > 0:34:46Yeah.
0:34:46 > 0:34:47OK.
0:34:49 > 0:34:53All right, how high is the anxiety right now?
0:34:53 > 0:34:57I'd... I'd say it's like a three.
0:34:57 > 0:35:00- So a little bit lower than yesterday.- Yeah.
0:35:00 > 0:35:03While Josh rides out his exposure,
0:35:03 > 0:35:06Olivia's challenging her fear of smelling badly.
0:35:07 > 0:35:10- OK.- It stinks of coffee, that bin. - It does!
0:35:10 > 0:35:12- You ready?- Uh-huh.
0:35:12 > 0:35:14All right, go for it.
0:35:14 > 0:35:16- I'll do it this way.- Great.
0:35:16 > 0:35:18Keep your hand there for a minute,
0:35:18 > 0:35:21and then we'll just go straight for the hair.
0:35:21 > 0:35:22Good work.
0:35:23 > 0:35:25- OK.- Bleurgh!
0:35:26 > 0:35:29So, Josh, where is your anxiety at right now?
0:35:30 > 0:35:32I'm not too sure.
0:35:32 > 0:35:34- Is it over a five?- Yeah.
0:35:34 > 0:35:36Is it over a seven?
0:35:36 > 0:35:38I don't know, but I want to go.
0:35:38 > 0:35:41OK, so you're feeling really strongly like you want to go.
0:35:41 > 0:35:44- Yeah.- OK. And do you know what it is about leaving that helps?
0:35:44 > 0:35:46It's being alone, it's just being alone.
0:35:46 > 0:35:49It's being alone when it's...
0:35:49 > 0:35:51- Like a painkiller almost.- Yeah.
0:35:51 > 0:35:53Josh makes it to the ten-minute mark.
0:35:53 > 0:35:56It's the longest time he's ever gone without equalising.
0:35:56 > 0:36:00Two and one. Nicely done!
0:36:03 > 0:36:04Are you feeling exhausted?
0:36:04 > 0:36:07- Yeah, knackered.- I bet you are!
0:36:16 > 0:36:21Everyone's making progress, but back on the porch,
0:36:21 > 0:36:24Pete's about to start working with his most complex case.
0:36:24 > 0:36:27Andrew's OCD is very severe,
0:36:27 > 0:36:29he's probably the most severe in the group.
0:36:29 > 0:36:34And it's further complicated by the fact that he has Asperger's.
0:36:34 > 0:36:36He's afraid of the number 13,
0:36:36 > 0:36:39he is afraid of contamination,
0:36:39 > 0:36:44the uncomfortable feeling he gets if he doesn't ritualise is intolerable.
0:36:44 > 0:36:47Pete is starting with Andrew's contamination OCD.
0:36:47 > 0:36:50He's asked him to put his dirty hands on his skin.
0:36:50 > 0:36:52Can they come off now?
0:36:52 > 0:36:54No, hands on the head still! You're doing a fantastic job.
0:36:54 > 0:36:56It just feels like it's getting worse.
0:36:56 > 0:36:59I know, I know, I'm a bastard.
0:36:59 > 0:37:01- Thank you.- You're welcome, babe.
0:37:03 > 0:37:06What was the "maybe" statement? Can you say it?
0:37:06 > 0:37:10Maybe my skin WILL get bad, on my forehead.
0:37:10 > 0:37:13It's not just saying it, because that's only words, isn't it?
0:37:13 > 0:37:16- I don't like the sound of my own voice.- Say it.
0:37:17 > 0:37:21Um... Yeah, maybe my skin'll, like, flare up and get pretty bad.
0:37:21 > 0:37:23Louder.
0:37:23 > 0:37:26I'm feeling really...
0:37:26 > 0:37:28like, bothered now.
0:37:28 > 0:37:32Jack, can you help me out again? We'll open this door.
0:37:32 > 0:37:35Before Pete can begin to treat Andrew's OCD,
0:37:35 > 0:37:38he needs to tackle his crushingly low self-confidence.
0:37:38 > 0:37:40He's never going to hear now.
0:37:44 > 0:37:46It's just... It's not going to happen.
0:37:46 > 0:37:50I am tempted just to shout, but it just sounds so ridiculous.
0:37:50 > 0:37:54- LOUDER:- My spots might get bad and flare up.
0:37:54 > 0:37:56See, I can't get any more than that
0:37:56 > 0:37:59because my voice really kicks in any louder than that.
0:37:59 > 0:38:01I don't want to fail, but I do not want to shout
0:38:01 > 0:38:03while people are about.
0:38:03 > 0:38:09Andrew, say, "Maybe my voice is completely stupid."
0:38:09 > 0:38:11My voice IS completely stupid.
0:38:11 > 0:38:13"I have a completely stupid voice."
0:38:13 > 0:38:14I have a completely stupid voice.
0:38:14 > 0:38:16You say that with such confidence.
0:38:16 > 0:38:18- Because it's the truth. - Say it again.
0:38:18 > 0:38:20Yeah, it's true. It's totally true.
0:38:20 > 0:38:21Yeah, maybe it's true.
0:38:21 > 0:38:24I'm plagued with it for the rest of my life.
0:38:24 > 0:38:26You might have a stupid voice.
0:38:26 > 0:38:29You might have been born with a stupid voice.
0:38:29 > 0:38:31Actually, hearing you say that really annoys me
0:38:31 > 0:38:35- because it's just true, that's what people have told me.- What's that?
0:38:35 > 0:38:39That I've got a stupid voice. You're right. You've actually said it.
0:38:39 > 0:38:41I said maybe.
0:38:41 > 0:38:44- So I'm pretty angry now.- Yeah?
0:38:44 > 0:38:46I'm sure people have thought...
0:38:50 > 0:38:53"He just can't communicate properly with his voice."
0:38:53 > 0:38:57So if you shout, you might be rejected by all of us.
0:38:59 > 0:39:02Like you were rejected when you were a kid.
0:39:02 > 0:39:05- I've always been rejected, yeah. - Yeah.
0:39:07 > 0:39:10There is a difference between then and now.
0:39:10 > 0:39:13We're not children.
0:39:13 > 0:39:18'Andrew just has, you know, it's a monolithic barrier
0:39:18 > 0:39:21'to what he wants to really do in life, to what he can do,'
0:39:21 > 0:39:27because the fear is that he's absolutely worthless,
0:39:27 > 0:39:31so he has this massive hurdle that he's trying to jump over
0:39:31 > 0:39:33and it's just...
0:39:33 > 0:39:35It's almost unbearable to watch.
0:39:36 > 0:39:40He's got one last chance to make Jack hear him.
0:39:40 > 0:39:43- LOUDER STILL:- My spots could get quite bad and flare up.
0:39:43 > 0:39:46I bet he's heard that. He's heard that.
0:39:47 > 0:39:48How do you feel?
0:39:52 > 0:39:55- I mean, it were OK.- What's that?
0:39:55 > 0:39:57It were OK.
0:39:58 > 0:40:00I'm so hoping that you feel
0:40:00 > 0:40:03at least a little tiny bit proud of yourself
0:40:03 > 0:40:05for what you just did.
0:40:05 > 0:40:07I don't know why you try with me, I'm such a loser.
0:40:07 > 0:40:08I don't even know why you're trying.
0:40:08 > 0:40:11We try because we see something you don't.
0:40:11 > 0:40:13That's the problem, right?
0:40:15 > 0:40:18You wouldn't be here if that wasn't the problem.
0:40:19 > 0:40:25If there is a proud feeling in your brain, a proud thought...
0:40:26 > 0:40:29..my suggestion is to take that seriously.
0:40:31 > 0:40:35Right now I do feel pleased that I spoke a bit louder.
0:40:35 > 0:40:38I actually think it's improved my voice
0:40:38 > 0:40:40because now that I've, sort of, projected it a bit more
0:40:40 > 0:40:43and I was speaking quiet I think I sound a little better.
0:40:43 > 0:40:46I think it might have somehow helped the vocal cords or something.
0:40:50 > 0:40:54Tomorrow, everything is going to change.
0:40:54 > 0:40:57The group are getting ready to leave the comfort of Island Wood Lodge.
0:40:57 > 0:41:00We are going to shift gears now
0:41:00 > 0:41:07and we are heading tomorrow into the wild unknown
0:41:07 > 0:41:10and we have to get ready and we have to get packed.
0:41:13 > 0:41:18Whatever you take, you're going to carry on your back.
0:41:18 > 0:41:20So if you take a lot, you're going to carry a lot.
0:41:20 > 0:41:23I'm really worried this bag's going to be really heavy.
0:41:23 > 0:41:25- You need one pair of these, and one pair of trousers.- Is that it?
0:41:25 > 0:41:29And you're going to wear them for three days and it's going to be OK.
0:41:30 > 0:41:32We've got to be up for...
0:41:32 > 0:41:36Well, we've got to be up and out before half five, I think.
0:41:36 > 0:41:37That's going to be fun.
0:41:37 > 0:41:40But we're all going to the high ropes course, which will be fun.
0:41:40 > 0:41:44I think everyone's ready for the high ropes course, aren't they?
0:41:44 > 0:41:45It'll be good.
0:41:45 > 0:41:47We're all going on about how much we're looking forward to it,
0:41:47 > 0:41:50- when we get there, everyone's going to- BLEEP- themselves.
0:41:56 > 0:41:59I'm sitting outside now at about 12:30,
0:41:59 > 0:42:03even though we're just two days into eight of exposures,
0:42:03 > 0:42:07there's a few of us really struggling now, myself included.
0:42:07 > 0:42:09I'm not going to sleep tonight.
0:42:09 > 0:42:12I don't think many of us are going to sleep tonight because it's so intense.
0:42:12 > 0:42:17We're a few hours away now and tomorrow's another day,
0:42:17 > 0:42:21but it's another a hard day and everything's about to get harder.
0:42:31 > 0:42:34It's day three and Pete has the group on the move.
0:42:36 > 0:42:38Moving is an important part of the therapy
0:42:38 > 0:42:42as often people with OCD have difficulty leaving places
0:42:42 > 0:42:44as it adds to their anxiety.
0:42:57 > 0:43:01- Howdy! How are you?- Good.- Good.
0:43:02 > 0:43:05Pete's upping the stakes again.
0:43:05 > 0:43:09This time a physical challenge with a real element of danger.
0:43:09 > 0:43:12They'll be clambering along inch-wide cables,
0:43:12 > 0:43:14130 feet in the air.
0:43:14 > 0:43:16If they can push themselves to do this
0:43:16 > 0:43:20it should give them more confidence to fight their OCD.
0:43:20 > 0:43:22- It's high.- It is high.
0:43:22 > 0:43:24- I'm scared- BLEEP,- me.
0:43:24 > 0:43:30The reason we're here is to help them learn how to live with uncertainty,
0:43:30 > 0:43:33to take all sorts of different risks in life.
0:43:33 > 0:43:36Today, they will be taking actual risks.
0:43:36 > 0:43:39First to attempt the ladder is Imogen.
0:43:39 > 0:43:41- Do you even feel you can...? - No, I want to go straight down.
0:43:41 > 0:43:43We will, but if anything would happen to you,
0:43:43 > 0:43:46say you would faint, no worries, I'll tell you what will happen.
0:43:46 > 0:43:49I've got you and nothing will happen to you.
0:43:49 > 0:43:50Good luck, Imogen.
0:43:53 > 0:43:54Thank you.
0:44:01 > 0:44:03You're about halfway already.
0:44:06 > 0:44:0930 feet up, she freezes.
0:44:13 > 0:44:16It's not the start the group had hoped for.
0:44:16 > 0:44:17Whenever you're ready.
0:44:18 > 0:44:22I got up the fourth one, then I was like, "Oh, I've got to come down".
0:44:22 > 0:44:24I could feel my legs going.
0:44:24 > 0:44:26Next up is Andrew.
0:44:26 > 0:44:28I actually just feel a bit, like, overwhelmed.
0:44:28 > 0:44:32There's just really an awful lot going on in all directions
0:44:32 > 0:44:35and I can't really handle more than one thing happening.
0:44:35 > 0:44:38There just seems to be stuff happening everywhere.
0:44:38 > 0:44:41It just kind of throws me a bit.
0:44:41 > 0:44:43I'm just getting you ready.
0:44:43 > 0:44:46- And if you take a couple of steps to the ladder.- OK.
0:44:46 > 0:44:50For Andrew, who's been virtually a prisoner in his bedroom
0:44:50 > 0:44:52for the last five years, it's a huge step.
0:44:58 > 0:45:00You good?
0:45:11 > 0:45:14Now just stop right there. You all right there?
0:45:14 > 0:45:16Now let go with that hand and just stand there.
0:45:16 > 0:45:18Don't go anywhere. Relax.
0:45:19 > 0:45:21Down here in your hips.
0:45:21 > 0:45:23Once I got up, I felt a little bit better.
0:45:23 > 0:45:27Then as I did more and more things it just started to become...
0:45:27 > 0:45:29I just became more confident.
0:45:29 > 0:45:32Towards the last ones I was doing, it was just no problem at all.
0:45:34 > 0:45:39Spurred on by Andrew, the rest of the group climb up to the canopy.
0:45:41 > 0:45:43Swing!
0:45:45 > 0:45:48I think Andrew's heavily enjoying himself up there.
0:45:48 > 0:45:53He has a big, perma-smile on his face and it's making us all happy.
0:45:53 > 0:45:55It's quite contagious, his joy.
0:46:02 > 0:46:05Just seeing everyone up there and, like, you can tell that everyone
0:46:05 > 0:46:07is going through their own little exposures.
0:46:11 > 0:46:13That's a hard one.
0:46:13 > 0:46:17Jack and Andrew held hands and Jack can't hold people's hands,
0:46:17 > 0:46:19I mean, this is incredible.
0:46:19 > 0:46:21Perfect, perfect.
0:46:23 > 0:46:25I can barely reach now.
0:46:25 > 0:46:28I'm going to have to... Whoa, whoa!
0:46:30 > 0:46:35Session over and the group shares a bonding moment, American style.
0:46:35 > 0:46:38Let's say thank you to Bernie.
0:46:38 > 0:46:42Olivia, come all the way around.
0:46:42 > 0:46:44Big squeeze.
0:46:44 > 0:46:47# ..American Pie Drove my Chevy to the levee
0:46:47 > 0:46:49# But the levee was dry
0:46:49 > 0:46:55# Them good old boys were drinking whiskey and rye
0:46:55 > 0:46:59# Singing, "This'll be the day that I die... #
0:47:02 > 0:47:05The ropes course has given the group great confidence.
0:47:05 > 0:47:07Now they think they can do anything.
0:47:07 > 0:47:11So Josh wants to take on another challenge.
0:47:11 > 0:47:14He's touched Pete with one hand, but not the other.
0:47:18 > 0:47:20Just minutes in, things start to go wrong.
0:47:22 > 0:47:24'Josh was in the middle of an exposure,
0:47:24 > 0:47:27'and he's only done a couple of exposures
0:47:27 > 0:47:29'in a confined space like a van,
0:47:29 > 0:47:31'so he essentially has a panic attack.'
0:47:33 > 0:47:35- Just get out.- Whatever you need.
0:47:35 > 0:47:37- Just get out. Get out. - Shall we pull over?
0:47:37 > 0:47:39- I need to get out. - OK, we're going to pull over.
0:47:43 > 0:47:45Pull way off. Thank you.
0:47:56 > 0:47:59'I had to jump out of his way for him to get out of the van.'
0:47:59 > 0:48:02He nearly knocked me out. He proper had to barge through t'seatbelt,
0:48:02 > 0:48:04it came out with him and everything.
0:48:06 > 0:48:08- JACK:- It's hard watching anyone go through it,
0:48:08 > 0:48:10because I know how tough it is.
0:48:15 > 0:48:21- JOSH:- 'You just need to get as far away from that situation as possible
0:48:21 > 0:48:25'because it feels like your body tells you that you are in danger.
0:48:25 > 0:48:28'To me, it is like seeing a bus come towards you.
0:48:28 > 0:48:32'The natural thing to do is just get the hell out of the way.
0:48:33 > 0:48:36'When you do feel pure fear, you can almost taste it.'
0:48:36 > 0:48:40Witnessing a full-blown panic attack has stunned the group.
0:48:40 > 0:48:43You know better than anybody what it's like to have a panic attack
0:48:43 > 0:48:46so you can explain what's going on for him right now.
0:48:46 > 0:48:49It just feels like the biggest roller coaster, the biggest...
0:48:49 > 0:48:52being afraid of fire, being afraid of drowning,
0:48:52 > 0:48:55being afraid of a bomb, being afraid of anything like that,
0:48:55 > 0:48:57all in your face, all in one go, all of those things.
0:48:57 > 0:49:01It's like...fear personified.
0:49:02 > 0:49:07It's 15 minutes before Josh feels well enough to get back in the van.
0:49:07 > 0:49:09It's a massive setback for him,
0:49:09 > 0:49:12but there are even bigger challenges to come.
0:49:21 > 0:49:24Still shell-shocked from Josh's exposure,
0:49:24 > 0:49:26the group check into a motel.
0:49:31 > 0:49:34They have less than 12 hours to pull themselves together
0:49:34 > 0:49:37before the next stage of the camp.
0:49:37 > 0:49:39What's scaring me the most
0:49:39 > 0:49:42is if I've come here and gone through all of this
0:49:42 > 0:49:45just to go home and be exactly the same as I was before I left,
0:49:45 > 0:49:48then I'm going to feel like it was time wasted.
0:49:48 > 0:49:51When Josh did his exposure and had to leave,
0:49:51 > 0:49:53I was really actually scared for him
0:49:53 > 0:49:55because of the fear of being trapped.
0:49:55 > 0:49:59- And you can't move. - So that's both together.
0:49:59 > 0:50:01But there's one person on a high.
0:50:01 > 0:50:03I do feel quite different in myself, really.
0:50:03 > 0:50:08I think it's just been like day one, a little bit better,
0:50:08 > 0:50:12day two and you know, just as days have gone by
0:50:12 > 0:50:18I think I've just felt as though I'm just more accepted into t'group.
0:50:18 > 0:50:21It is just making me feel a lot more confident in general.
0:50:26 > 0:50:28With an evening off from therapy,
0:50:28 > 0:50:32some of the group head for the hot tub.
0:50:32 > 0:50:33No, I didn't do that.
0:50:33 > 0:50:36Ah, here he comes! Good man! Scooch over.
0:50:36 > 0:50:38One more coming in.
0:50:38 > 0:50:41And remarkably, there's another arrival.
0:50:41 > 0:50:43Andrew, Andrew, Andrew, Andrew.
0:50:43 > 0:50:45Andrew!
0:50:45 > 0:50:48When was the last time you were in a hot tub?
0:50:48 > 0:50:51- Probably never. - Ah, first time hot tub!
0:50:51 > 0:50:54It's turned into more of a rap video.
0:50:54 > 0:50:56Oh! Oh, my God!
0:51:02 > 0:51:04The group are up early for a hearty breakfast
0:51:04 > 0:51:06at a classic American diner.
0:51:07 > 0:51:10Spirits are still high from last night.
0:51:10 > 0:51:12I can't believe that that man
0:51:12 > 0:51:14thought I were involved in a porn movie.
0:51:14 > 0:51:16THEY LAUGH
0:51:18 > 0:51:20Oh, Andrew. I love you.
0:51:23 > 0:51:25Two days ago, back at the camp,
0:51:25 > 0:51:28Jack drank out of a glass for the first time in nine years.
0:51:28 > 0:51:30You ready? OK.
0:51:30 > 0:51:32He's now decided to do it in a crowded restaurant.
0:51:43 > 0:51:44Yeah.
0:51:44 > 0:51:48- Is it going to work?- Mm-hmm.- OK.
0:51:48 > 0:51:52I need you... I need you to do the tap, please.
0:51:52 > 0:51:55This time, there's no way for Jack to sterilise the glass.
0:51:55 > 0:51:59He has to make do with running it under the hot water tap.
0:51:59 > 0:52:02I think I'm only taking this one because it's...
0:52:02 > 0:52:03OK.
0:52:13 > 0:52:15- What's your number?- Six now.
0:52:52 > 0:52:55- BLEEP- sake.- BLEEP.
0:53:21 > 0:53:25What was it? Was it the glass or the sink or the kitchen?
0:53:25 > 0:53:29- All of it.- Everything.
0:53:29 > 0:53:33Jack's OCD is very intense.
0:53:33 > 0:53:38He's constantly being triggered and he has so many different things
0:53:38 > 0:53:41going on at different levels at the same time.
0:53:44 > 0:53:46I didn't sleep all last night
0:53:46 > 0:53:49and sometimes it affects me, I get angry and stuff,
0:53:49 > 0:53:50and I'm panicky and nervous.
0:53:50 > 0:53:52The only thing that gives me a little bit of relief
0:53:52 > 0:53:56is to hit something, but I'm trying really hard not to.
0:53:58 > 0:54:01It's the halfway point, and from here,
0:54:01 > 0:54:04the group face a four-hour boat ride to reach the start of their trek.
0:54:06 > 0:54:09It's already been mentally draining.
0:54:09 > 0:54:12Imogen, she was questioning whether or not
0:54:12 > 0:54:18she was really even going to be able to do exposures on this programme
0:54:18 > 0:54:24and over the course of four days, she's made a huge amount of progress.
0:54:24 > 0:54:27The thing that is most scariest about doing things
0:54:27 > 0:54:32is not the actual doing of it, it's the anticipation of doing it.
0:54:32 > 0:54:34I've completed challenges
0:54:34 > 0:54:36that I wouldn't have completed before I came here.
0:54:38 > 0:54:40I've felt more relaxed than I've felt in ten years
0:54:40 > 0:54:45and that's because I've just gone around talking to everybody.
0:54:45 > 0:54:48Yesterday I went in the hot tub with everyone,
0:54:48 > 0:54:54which was something I've never done and I never thought that I would do.
0:54:54 > 0:54:56It's given me such a lot of confidence,
0:54:56 > 0:54:58I just need to make the most of it.
0:54:59 > 0:55:03Initially, I just wanted to have a minute of a day without OCD,
0:55:03 > 0:55:05but now I feel like I can do a lot more than that.
0:55:05 > 0:55:08I still get the intrusive thoughts, the same amount,
0:55:08 > 0:55:11but I'm training my brain to not automatically ritualise.
0:55:15 > 0:55:17Now we're going out in the woods
0:55:17 > 0:55:20and it's going to be very physically uncomfortable.
0:55:21 > 0:55:24What I think is truly unique about what we are doing
0:55:24 > 0:55:27is the environment that we're taking them to.
0:55:27 > 0:55:30I don't think that there's anywhere else in the world,
0:55:30 > 0:55:34somewhere where people are taking
0:55:34 > 0:55:38six people with a mental health disorder out into the woods.
0:55:39 > 0:55:43It's another way of teaching them that they can push themselves
0:55:43 > 0:55:46so much farther than they think they can.
0:55:59 > 0:56:02Next on Extreme OCD Camp:
0:56:02 > 0:56:04The group strike out into the great outdoors...
0:56:04 > 0:56:07This is not... I'm not made for this. I'm like a city boy.
0:56:07 > 0:56:08This is the worst thing ever.
0:56:08 > 0:56:11Michelin quality.
0:56:11 > 0:56:12Ew!
0:56:12 > 0:56:15..an environment that will take them to breaking point.
0:56:15 > 0:56:19He is just pushing and pushing to go further and further.
0:56:19 > 0:56:24They're terrifying themselves over and over and over again.
0:56:24 > 0:56:27They're completing an ultra-marathon here.
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