0:00:02 > 0:00:06This programme contains some strong language and scenes of a sexual nature.
0:00:08 > 0:00:12My name is Carly Rae.
0:00:12 > 0:00:14SHE MOANS
0:00:14 > 0:00:16Carly Rae, real name Jade,
0:00:16 > 0:00:19believes she's one of a new generation of porn stars.
0:00:19 > 0:00:24When you think of porn, you think of these bright orange girls with
0:00:24 > 0:00:26masses of make-up on or stuff like that.
0:00:26 > 0:00:28I don't want to be like every other porn star out there.
0:00:28 > 0:00:30I want to be me and no-one else.
0:00:32 > 0:00:34She's using social media to build her career,
0:00:34 > 0:00:36and it seems to be working.
0:00:36 > 0:00:38It's how I publicise myself.
0:00:38 > 0:00:41It's my online portfolio, basically.
0:00:41 > 0:00:44But Jade is also a university graduate and had
0:00:44 > 0:00:46a potential career in fashion.
0:00:49 > 0:00:52But she's decided porn is the right path for her.
0:00:52 > 0:00:56- I might just have to...- Cool.
0:00:56 > 0:00:58And that's why I wanted to make a film with her.
0:00:58 > 0:01:02Why would an educated young woman decide that it's OK to earn
0:01:02 > 0:01:04money having sex with strangers on camera?
0:01:04 > 0:01:07Porn to me is nice.
0:01:07 > 0:01:11The men treat you with respect, but guys in real life,
0:01:11 > 0:01:14they don't treat you with the same respect.
0:01:15 > 0:01:17Can you really make a living out of porn?
0:01:17 > 0:01:21£500 divided by 14 hours I've worked today...
0:01:21 > 0:01:23And what's the price you have to pay?
0:01:23 > 0:01:26- Are you OK?- I had a panic attack.
0:01:26 > 0:01:28SHE EXHALES
0:01:37 > 0:01:4022-year-old Jade is a UK porn actress.
0:01:40 > 0:01:43She's also got a degree in fashion.
0:01:43 > 0:01:46I want to find out why she would choose to make a career out of porn.
0:01:46 > 0:01:49And to do so, she's invited me to spend
0:01:49 > 0:01:51the next couple of months with her.
0:01:51 > 0:01:53Not long after we meet,
0:01:53 > 0:01:56we're off to our first porn shoot together, in Barcelona.
0:01:56 > 0:02:01She's shooting for what she says is a big Spanish porn producer.
0:02:01 > 0:02:03Do you know the specifics of the kind of sex
0:02:03 > 0:02:04you're going to be having?
0:02:04 > 0:02:06No. I don't know anything.
0:02:06 > 0:02:08My scripts are waiting for me at the hotel.
0:02:08 > 0:02:10So I don't know anything until I see the scripts, basically.
0:02:10 > 0:02:14I don't know what my lines are, what my role is or anything.
0:02:14 > 0:02:17Jade tells me this is a really big shoot for her and
0:02:17 > 0:02:19she'll be earning good money.
0:02:19 > 0:02:22I started pestering these people to work for them about a year ago now.
0:02:22 > 0:02:25Like, I know it's been one of the things I've kind of just been
0:02:25 > 0:02:27waiting for, for absolutely ages.
0:02:27 > 0:02:30The only thing Jade seems to know is that she'll be shooting three
0:02:30 > 0:02:32scenes over the next two days.
0:02:35 > 0:02:36- Hello.- Hiya.
0:02:37 > 0:02:41The location's a big apartment in central Barcelona.
0:02:41 > 0:02:44There's crew, catering and even a make-up artist.
0:02:45 > 0:02:48I'm surprised to see how professional things are.
0:02:50 > 0:02:52And what have you got in front of you?
0:02:52 > 0:02:55Um, I've got a con...
0:02:55 > 0:02:59I've got a copy of the contract I'm signing in front of me.
0:02:59 > 0:03:02Once I've done this, they have the right to the content, so they
0:03:02 > 0:03:06can publicise it as they please and all those sorts of things.
0:03:06 > 0:03:07So, it's kind of...
0:03:07 > 0:03:11I'm just signing away the fact that I'm agreeing to shooting this video.
0:03:15 > 0:03:20- And do I keep one of them? - I think so. You must keep one.
0:03:20 > 0:03:22I think they're the same. Thank you.
0:03:23 > 0:03:27Today, Jade's filming something called virtual reality porn.
0:03:28 > 0:03:30- Do I just put it over my eyes?- Yes.
0:03:30 > 0:03:32Could be.
0:03:32 > 0:03:34- Do you see? - SHE LAUGHS
0:03:34 > 0:03:37Most heterosexual porn is shot for men.
0:03:37 > 0:03:39This new technology puts the male viewer
0:03:39 > 0:03:41at the very centre of the action.
0:03:42 > 0:03:45It's something completely different. Something completely new to me.
0:03:45 > 0:03:50So it's quite exciting. Should I take things off before I stand up?
0:03:50 > 0:03:54- Yes. I think it's better because you are...- Pretty tall.- Yes.
0:03:54 > 0:03:56The regular director couldn't make the shoot,
0:03:56 > 0:03:59so the script writer, Maria, has stepped in.
0:03:59 > 0:04:03- No, no. You're fully clothed. - OK, so I pull my skirt up?- Yes.
0:04:03 > 0:04:07- OK, perfect.- Perfect.- Easy.- Easy.
0:04:07 > 0:04:10In this afternoon's scene, Jade will be working for the first time
0:04:10 > 0:04:13with local porn star 30-year-old Zayas.
0:04:13 > 0:04:15What do you think of English girls?
0:04:30 > 0:04:32There are quite a few attractive studs, but, yeah,
0:04:32 > 0:04:34what I like is the fact that I'm getting filmed
0:04:34 > 0:04:35that absolutely drives me wild.
0:04:35 > 0:04:36That's what turns me on,
0:04:36 > 0:04:38the fact that there's a camera in front of me.
0:04:38 > 0:04:40So it's not actually...
0:04:40 > 0:04:43it's not actually anything to do with who I'm performing with,
0:04:43 > 0:04:46it's the fact that I'm getting filmed that I really get off to.
0:04:46 > 0:04:50The script seems to have little in the way of dialogue.
0:04:50 > 0:04:53But I realise it doesn't need to be detailed, as Jade is playing
0:04:53 > 0:04:58a porn casting agent, a scenario she's very familiar with.
0:04:58 > 0:05:03Hiya. Nice to meet you. My name is Carly Rae.
0:05:03 > 0:05:06Do you think you could do a scene with me?
0:05:06 > 0:05:09Just a practice scene?
0:05:09 > 0:05:11To show me that you've got what it takes?
0:05:11 > 0:05:13OK, cut.
0:05:19 > 0:05:22- Yes. - THEY LAUGH
0:05:22 > 0:05:25Are you giving him a foot job?
0:05:25 > 0:05:28THEY LAUGH
0:05:28 > 0:05:30- Have you ever given one of those? - (No.)
0:05:32 > 0:05:34Action!
0:05:34 > 0:05:37It's becoming clear that improvisation and a willingness
0:05:37 > 0:05:41to do whatever's asked is an important part of being a porn star.
0:05:41 > 0:05:44I'm going to tell you a little secret.
0:05:44 > 0:05:46This is my first-ever foot job.
0:05:48 > 0:05:50OK. Cut.
0:05:51 > 0:05:52- A bit cold?- You can do...?
0:05:52 > 0:05:54- LAUGHS:- Sorry!
0:05:54 > 0:05:55SHE LAUGHS
0:05:55 > 0:05:57Jade, how's it going?
0:06:00 > 0:06:04I haven't made a tit of myself yet, so I've done good, I've done good.
0:06:04 > 0:06:08So now you have to start fucking him, like,
0:06:08 > 0:06:11sit down on his...
0:06:11 > 0:06:12on him.
0:06:14 > 0:06:17SHE MOANS
0:06:17 > 0:06:19Oh, shit...
0:06:19 > 0:06:22- Oh, shit. - SHE MOANS
0:06:22 > 0:06:26I watched Jade and Zayas go through six sexual positions.
0:06:26 > 0:06:30I want to suck your dick.
0:06:30 > 0:06:33And after an hour and a half, the scene is over.
0:06:34 > 0:06:38As a female porn star, would you describe your role as submissive?
0:06:38 > 0:06:41I'm completely in control of the situation.
0:06:41 > 0:06:44I'm a complete feminist because everything I do is just...
0:06:44 > 0:06:46is all about me, basically.
0:06:46 > 0:06:48So when I do these things,
0:06:48 > 0:06:50I do it because I want to.
0:06:50 > 0:06:53I guess I'll have to get back to you about the job.
0:06:54 > 0:06:56Cortamos aqui. Cut.
0:06:57 > 0:06:58SHE GASPS
0:06:58 > 0:06:59Are you all right?
0:07:00 > 0:07:03Besides I feel really sweaty and disgusting, yeah.
0:07:05 > 0:07:06You can come with.
0:07:11 > 0:07:14SHE LAUGHS HYSTERICALLY
0:07:15 > 0:07:18Is this what happens after a porn shoot?
0:07:18 > 0:07:21I didn't swallow it all so I had to...
0:07:21 > 0:07:23I'm not doing a second swallow.
0:07:24 > 0:07:25How was that?
0:07:25 > 0:07:28IN SPANISH:
0:07:31 > 0:07:35You know, Jade is only your third English girl. All OK?
0:07:39 > 0:07:42Couldn't understand me, but it was all good.
0:07:43 > 0:07:45Did you want me to be like this on him?
0:07:45 > 0:07:48Also on the shoot is Polish porn star Misha Cross.
0:07:50 > 0:07:53Misha was recently voted Best Foreign Female
0:07:53 > 0:07:55at the Adult Video Network awards,
0:07:55 > 0:07:58which, according to Jade, is the porn equivalent of the Oscars.
0:08:00 > 0:08:01I was watching porn.
0:08:01 > 0:08:05I was, like, "I think I can do some of it better."
0:08:05 > 0:08:08Like, you know, some of the things that you do in porn, like,
0:08:08 > 0:08:11for example sucking cock, I think I can do it better.
0:08:12 > 0:08:16So why not trying it? Like, going with it in public, you know?
0:08:18 > 0:08:22- Can you have a career in porn? - Completely.- Of course. Of course.
0:08:22 > 0:08:23- This is...- Yeah.
0:08:23 > 0:08:26Like, for me, it's strange that somebody thinks
0:08:26 > 0:08:28that it's not a career path.
0:08:28 > 0:08:32Because ever since I started, I've thought about it as a career.
0:08:33 > 0:08:35Jade says that she'd like to be as popular as Misha,
0:08:35 > 0:08:40who has 70,000 Twitter followers, 50,000 more than Jade.
0:08:40 > 0:08:43I look online and I see that all these girls have been
0:08:43 > 0:08:46shooting for these amazing websites.
0:08:46 > 0:08:47And it's kind of...
0:08:47 > 0:08:50It inspires me to try and obviously
0:08:50 > 0:08:52get to work for these companies too.
0:08:52 > 0:08:54I want these companies to want me to work for them
0:08:54 > 0:08:56as much as other girls.
0:08:56 > 0:08:59- Do you want to be in demand?- Yes, that's the word I was looking for.
0:08:59 > 0:09:02SHE LAUGHS
0:09:02 > 0:09:05For the two-day shoot, Jade will earn about £1,200.
0:09:05 > 0:09:09And from what I've seen so far, it doesn't look like the worst
0:09:09 > 0:09:12way for some people with few inhibitions to earn money.
0:09:12 > 0:09:16- See you tomorrow. - See you tomorrow.- Bye.
0:09:16 > 0:09:17But is it right for Jade?
0:09:21 > 0:09:25I want to get to know her better, so I've come to her flat in Manchester.
0:09:28 > 0:09:30So what are we doing here, Jade?
0:09:30 > 0:09:34I'm currently trying to get into my Twitter account.
0:09:34 > 0:09:37Apparently, as a porn star, the bigger your online profile,
0:09:37 > 0:09:39the more bookings you can get.
0:09:39 > 0:09:42And Twitter is the way most porn stars get spotted.
0:09:44 > 0:09:46It's how I publicise myself.
0:09:46 > 0:09:49It's just like my online portfolio, basically.
0:09:49 > 0:09:51Unlike Facebook and Instagram,
0:09:51 > 0:09:55there are very few restrictions on what you can post.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57The more Twitter followers I get,
0:09:57 > 0:09:59the more interested these big companies will be in shooting me
0:09:59 > 0:10:02because I've got this follower backing.
0:10:02 > 0:10:05I'm proving that people are interested in my work and
0:10:05 > 0:10:07they do want to watch me.
0:10:07 > 0:10:10But Jade says getting noticed is the easy bit.
0:10:10 > 0:10:14In this country, it's not like in America, where you can get an agent
0:10:14 > 0:10:18and then your agent will bombard you with masses of work straightaway.
0:10:18 > 0:10:21I make the effort to approach these companies and tell them about
0:10:21 > 0:10:25myself instead of just assuming, "Well, I'm really good,
0:10:25 > 0:10:27"so people are obviously going to approach me
0:10:27 > 0:10:29"to give me work."
0:10:29 > 0:10:32You have to make the effort if you want to get anywhere.
0:10:32 > 0:10:36Jade seems determined to make it big and wants to try her luck in
0:10:36 > 0:10:39the US, the biggest market for porn worldwide.
0:10:39 > 0:10:42I'm currently in the process of getting booked for
0:10:42 > 0:10:43a tour around America.
0:10:44 > 0:10:47So I'll be working for different porn companies.
0:10:47 > 0:10:50This is an absolutely incredible way to get my name out there.
0:10:50 > 0:10:55The trip's being organised by a US porn agent Jade found online.
0:10:56 > 0:10:59America is kind of like the next step.
0:10:59 > 0:11:02Like, America is, like, meant to be this big wonderful shiny
0:11:02 > 0:11:06place that obviously can change your life, so...
0:11:09 > 0:11:12To understand what's motivating Jade to make it big in porn,
0:11:12 > 0:11:14I want to know where it all began.
0:11:17 > 0:11:20Four years ago, she moved from Warwickshire to study fashion at
0:11:20 > 0:11:24Manchester Metropolitan University, or MMU.
0:11:25 > 0:11:27That was my old flat up there.
0:11:27 > 0:11:30And, yeah, there's masses and masses of bottles, so they obviously look
0:11:30 > 0:11:33like they're having a far better time than I ever did in that flat.
0:11:34 > 0:11:38Like most students, she struggled to make her money last,
0:11:38 > 0:11:42but she discovered she could make a little extra by selling explicit
0:11:42 > 0:11:45photos and videos of herself on an adult website.
0:11:46 > 0:11:49I suddenly had £100 in my bank account once every few weeks,
0:11:49 > 0:11:52so I got to go shopping, and it just...it made me happy.
0:11:54 > 0:11:58How did you go from uploading your home videos to making proper porn?
0:11:58 > 0:12:01One day I just received an e-mail through this website,
0:12:01 > 0:12:04just asking me if I'd like to make my very first...
0:12:04 > 0:12:06if I'd like to make an actual porno.
0:12:06 > 0:12:07And, obviously, I was, like,
0:12:07 > 0:12:11"Yes, I would absolutely love to. That sounds amazing."
0:12:11 > 0:12:14Jade's interest in porn started at the young age of 13
0:12:14 > 0:12:16when she began watching it online.
0:12:16 > 0:12:19It was a childhood fascination, so it's always something that
0:12:19 > 0:12:21has kind of sat in the back of my mind,
0:12:21 > 0:12:24something that I always thought might be something
0:12:24 > 0:12:25that I would get into one day.
0:12:25 > 0:12:29So it felt completely natural to me to start doing all this.
0:12:29 > 0:12:32I got told off in one of these rooms right here.
0:12:33 > 0:12:37I got in trouble with the university because of making porn.
0:12:37 > 0:12:43Some boy on Twitter caught user hashtag #theMMUpornstar.
0:12:43 > 0:12:45And at the time, I thought it was bloody beautiful.
0:12:45 > 0:12:47So I was, like, "Oh, my God, that's amazing, yes.
0:12:47 > 0:12:50"I am a porn star. I do go to MMU."
0:12:50 > 0:12:53I think I used it about three times.
0:12:53 > 0:12:56And I went to university one day and my tutor just came up to me
0:12:56 > 0:12:59and she was, like, "Jade, can we have a word, please?"
0:12:59 > 0:13:01It was just the look on her face. I was, like, "Am I in trouble?"
0:13:01 > 0:13:04And she kind of just nodded her head at me and she was, like,
0:13:04 > 0:13:06"Why did you do it?"
0:13:06 > 0:13:10Jade graduated in the summer of 2015 but decided she didn't want
0:13:10 > 0:13:11to pursue a career in fashion.
0:13:11 > 0:13:14I wanted to be a fashion designer.
0:13:14 > 0:13:17I wanted to have my own shop or work for some, like,
0:13:17 > 0:13:20fabulous designer or whatnot one day.
0:13:20 > 0:13:22But if I was to try and get a job now,
0:13:22 > 0:13:25I'd have to do an unpaid internship for a year.
0:13:26 > 0:13:28I can't afford to pay my rent,
0:13:28 > 0:13:32pay my bills and be working five days a week unpaid full-time.
0:13:33 > 0:13:36I can't help but think that Jade's decision to choose porn over
0:13:36 > 0:13:39fashion has to be driven by more than money.
0:13:41 > 0:13:45Getting into porn completely changed my life.
0:13:45 > 0:13:48It made the whole university experience so much better for me,
0:13:48 > 0:13:53like, I really struggled, I tried so hard to make friends and I didn't.
0:13:53 > 0:13:56I was by myself. I cried every single day.
0:13:56 > 0:13:57I had depression really, really badly.
0:13:57 > 0:14:01Like, I was... My life was in a really, really bad place
0:14:01 > 0:14:03before I got into porn.
0:14:03 > 0:14:06So when I got into all of this, and suddenly people...
0:14:06 > 0:14:09People were telling me I'm beautiful and people wanted...
0:14:09 > 0:14:13wanted to know me, it completely changed everything for the better.
0:14:13 > 0:14:17Like, it brought me out of my shell, it gave me confidence in myself,
0:14:17 > 0:14:21and made me believe in myself more than I ever did before.
0:14:27 > 0:14:29As I'm getting to know Jade better,
0:14:29 > 0:14:32I'm intrigued to know more about her past.
0:14:32 > 0:14:34She's not keen for me to speak to her family,
0:14:34 > 0:14:38so I meet with her friends from home instead.
0:14:38 > 0:14:40When I first heard about it, all the rumours and that,
0:14:40 > 0:14:42everyone was saying it as if it was a bad thing, it was really bad.
0:14:42 > 0:14:45"Oh, Jade's doing this. She's doing that. She's a big slag."
0:14:45 > 0:14:46I thought she was before.
0:14:46 > 0:14:49Yeah, yeah, she was. That's it. So it's sweet now.
0:14:49 > 0:14:51THEY LAUGH
0:14:51 > 0:14:53When you're, like, fucking a gross person, and, like,
0:14:53 > 0:14:54what's in your mind?
0:14:54 > 0:14:57Are you just thinking, are you thinking, "Oh, this is gross,"
0:14:57 > 0:14:59or are you thinking for the future, like,
0:14:59 > 0:15:01"Oh, my God, I'm getting a Louis Vuitton pair of heels."
0:15:01 > 0:15:04It's a job. I'm here to do what I need to do. And then that's it.
0:15:04 > 0:15:05Yeah, yeah.
0:15:05 > 0:15:08Do you ever feel ashamed or embarrassed or anything about it?
0:15:08 > 0:15:11Not of the stuff, not of the stuff I'm doing now.
0:15:11 > 0:15:13But obviously, when I started out, yeah,
0:15:13 > 0:15:14cos I started right at the bottom.
0:15:14 > 0:15:16That stuff, I'm not proud of.
0:15:16 > 0:15:18I did a shoot once with a guy when I started out, yeah,
0:15:18 > 0:15:21he was quite rough with me.
0:15:21 > 0:15:23But it's the only one my mum has watched and gone,
0:15:23 > 0:15:27"You shouldn't have done that. Don't do that again."
0:15:27 > 0:15:30- You let your mum watch them? - I don't know how she found it.
0:15:30 > 0:15:35- On the internet. - Originally, my mum cared a lot.
0:15:35 > 0:15:38But now that she knows, obviously, I'm not going to dodgy hotels and
0:15:38 > 0:15:41stuff like that, she's completely, she's relaxed on it.
0:15:41 > 0:15:43If I were to have a daughter in the future,
0:15:43 > 0:15:45I don't think I would mind if she started making porn.
0:15:45 > 0:15:46Like, obviously,
0:15:46 > 0:15:50it's not something that you would ever want of your child.
0:15:50 > 0:15:53My parents were so kind of strict and restricted about
0:15:53 > 0:15:57everything I did, and that's why I rebelled and ended up how I am.
0:15:57 > 0:16:00If you, if you let your child be their own person
0:16:00 > 0:16:02and if I was to let her do whatever
0:16:02 > 0:16:06she wants, she probably wouldn't make the same decisions that I did.
0:16:06 > 0:16:09Like, she probably...she probably wouldn't end up
0:16:09 > 0:16:12making porn because, obviously I'm so open about this,
0:16:12 > 0:16:13and I don't care.
0:16:13 > 0:16:15She'd be like, "Oh, where's the fun in that?
0:16:15 > 0:16:18"Like, there is no point in me doing this
0:16:18 > 0:16:19"if my mum's fucking all for it."
0:16:19 > 0:16:22Do you ever think, like, maybe am I doing the wrong thing?
0:16:22 > 0:16:26Yeah, I don't know. Obviously, my ex-boyfriend was completely
0:16:26 > 0:16:27fine with it to begin with.
0:16:27 > 0:16:29But, still, I'd go to shoots and
0:16:29 > 0:16:31he'd think I was fucking a photographer.
0:16:31 > 0:16:33He thought I was actually fucking a guy
0:16:33 > 0:16:34when I was just there with girls.
0:16:34 > 0:16:37Like, I cried...I cried on so many shoots and stuff like that.
0:16:37 > 0:16:39I'd rather not do porn and have a boyfriend.
0:16:39 > 0:16:41I'd rather have one or the other
0:16:41 > 0:16:43than have them both at the same time.
0:16:46 > 0:16:50I'm kind of completely torn between the two.
0:16:50 > 0:16:53Like, obviously, I want the career, I want to do well,
0:16:53 > 0:16:56I want something to show for all my hard work.
0:16:56 > 0:16:59But then I want the love life, I want the boyfriend,
0:16:59 > 0:17:01I want the simple life.
0:17:01 > 0:17:04My longest relationship was for a year when I was 16, so
0:17:04 > 0:17:07that's something I desperately want.
0:17:07 > 0:17:09I want to be with someone and be with them for two, three years.
0:17:09 > 0:17:13I want to live together and get a puppy together and all that
0:17:13 > 0:17:14sort of stuff like that.
0:17:14 > 0:17:17That's a lifestyle that I'm desperate for.
0:17:20 > 0:17:23As I get to know Jade more, it's becoming clear that what
0:17:23 > 0:17:27she's telling me she wants doesn't quite match up.
0:17:27 > 0:17:29She says she wants a fairytale lifestyle,
0:17:29 > 0:17:32but her career in porn looks like it'll sabotage exactly that.
0:17:39 > 0:17:43Today, we're in London, where Jade is getting a sexual health test.
0:17:43 > 0:17:46Over 90% of heterosexual porn is shot without condoms,
0:17:46 > 0:17:49so it's important that she's infection free.
0:17:51 > 0:17:53It's unprotected, so obviously,
0:17:53 > 0:17:56that's, like, the niche that sells, basically.
0:17:56 > 0:18:00No company will realistically do it protected.
0:18:00 > 0:18:02So, obviously, men don't want to watch something when you can
0:18:02 > 0:18:04see that there's a condom involved.
0:18:04 > 0:18:07I think it, like, ruins everything.
0:18:07 > 0:18:10- Have you ever got an STI from work? - Never.
0:18:10 > 0:18:12A boy I know a few years ago
0:18:12 > 0:18:15gave me chlamydia in my bum.
0:18:15 > 0:18:17Fortunately, I got checked out the next day,
0:18:17 > 0:18:20so I was very fortunate that I found out straight away.
0:18:21 > 0:18:25Jade comes to London because she can get same-day results for free.
0:18:26 > 0:18:28She has to wait a few hours for her results,
0:18:28 > 0:18:30and while she does, more work comes in.
0:18:31 > 0:18:33So much of what I get is so last-minute,
0:18:33 > 0:18:36so I have a shoot tomorrow.
0:18:36 > 0:18:40And I'm literally just finding out the specific details about it now.
0:18:40 > 0:18:44It's for a company called Brazzers or Brazers so,
0:18:44 > 0:18:49as far as my career goes, this is an absolutely massive step for me.
0:18:49 > 0:18:51So I'm absolutely buzzing.
0:18:51 > 0:18:54I can see why Jade might be excited.
0:18:54 > 0:18:57The shoot should give her masses of exposure as their website
0:18:57 > 0:18:59gets almost 90 million hits a month.
0:19:00 > 0:19:03Do you know any specifics about the shoot?
0:19:03 > 0:19:06It's a typical, typical cliche porn shoot in the effect that
0:19:06 > 0:19:09I'm playing a schoolgirl. Oh-oh!
0:19:10 > 0:19:14Kind of, "Mr Headmaster, what have I done wrong? What a shame.
0:19:14 > 0:19:17"Always spelling my yeses and nos wrong in my homework.
0:19:17 > 0:19:19"When am I going to learn? Ah!"
0:19:20 > 0:19:22What do you think it is about men and young girls?
0:19:22 > 0:19:24I think it's just a fascination with, obviously,
0:19:24 > 0:19:26the schoolgirl outfit, isn't it?
0:19:26 > 0:19:28It's become... It's very, like...
0:19:28 > 0:19:31Over the years, it's been incredibly sexualised.
0:19:32 > 0:19:35So, obviously, it shouldn't be because obviously when you
0:19:35 > 0:19:39think of school, you think of young boys and girls and when,
0:19:39 > 0:19:42like, when I've walked past my high school in the past and recent
0:19:42 > 0:19:46times, I walk past and go, "Holy crap! Did I once look like that?"
0:19:46 > 0:19:48I can't believe how young they look.
0:19:48 > 0:19:51I can't believe at 16 people were beeping me in my school uniform
0:19:51 > 0:19:55and all this sort of stuff cos, like, it's really wrong, but...
0:19:56 > 0:19:58At the same time, there's a massive...
0:19:58 > 0:20:00massive fetish around it all.
0:20:00 > 0:20:03The only issue I have is that the stud that I'm working with...
0:20:05 > 0:20:08I think... I don't know if it's 12 or 14 inches
0:20:08 > 0:20:12is the size of his penis, yes. Your face, exactly!
0:20:12 > 0:20:16It's either 12 or 14 inches, so I think, yes,
0:20:16 > 0:20:18I am kind of going to have to say at the beginning,
0:20:18 > 0:20:20"OK, you're going to have to go very easy on
0:20:20 > 0:20:21"me to begin with because there is
0:20:21 > 0:20:24"no fucking chance now that's happening.
0:20:24 > 0:20:26"Like, not straight away, anyway."
0:20:26 > 0:20:27SHE LAUGHS
0:20:27 > 0:20:30Anyway, I've seen girls I know do it, so I think...
0:20:30 > 0:20:32I think it's possible, but I don't
0:20:32 > 0:20:35think I've ever had anything that big before.
0:20:35 > 0:20:38SHE LAUGHS
0:20:38 > 0:20:39Anyway, we'll see.
0:20:42 > 0:20:45Can I take my jumper off, please, it's pretty hot in here.
0:20:45 > 0:20:47Yeah, sure, why not. It's great.
0:20:47 > 0:20:50Oh, um, uh... Watch out!
0:20:51 > 0:20:54- But, sir, I'm far more comfortable like this.- Ooh, yeah.
0:21:00 > 0:21:04- So, Jade, how was yesterday? - Um, it was good, thank you.
0:21:04 > 0:21:07I left...I left a little bit devastated, though.
0:21:07 > 0:21:10He was very, very well-endowed and I was stupid,
0:21:10 > 0:21:13and I kind of just assumed, "Oh, yeah, no, that'll fit.
0:21:13 > 0:21:14"That'll fit."
0:21:14 > 0:21:18Like, you can put something massive into a small hole, of course.
0:21:18 > 0:21:22And, obviously, it backfired on me within about, I don't know,
0:21:22 > 0:21:23a few seconds. It was like, literally,
0:21:23 > 0:21:27in and out and there was blood fucking everywhere.
0:21:27 > 0:21:28So it wasn't very pretty.
0:21:31 > 0:21:32I can't believe you're laughing at that.
0:21:32 > 0:21:37OK, I was like... It happens all the time and my body...
0:21:37 > 0:21:41my body isn't made for the larger things in life so, if...
0:21:41 > 0:21:44Unless I was to warm up for, like, an hour before, like,
0:21:44 > 0:21:49it happens every single time, unfortunately, but, because...
0:21:49 > 0:21:52Ordinarily, it happens and then, like,
0:21:52 > 0:21:54the blood stops within, like, about five minutes,
0:21:54 > 0:21:57but because I was freaking out massively and I was really,
0:21:57 > 0:22:01really panicking, it made everything a hell of a lot worse.
0:22:01 > 0:22:03So, by the time we did it, it had stopped, thank God.
0:22:03 > 0:22:06But, there was, like,
0:22:06 > 0:22:08I probably wasted a good hour and a half of everyone's time,
0:22:08 > 0:22:12running around, freaking out, trying to figure out what the hell to do.
0:22:12 > 0:22:13I was, like, "Crap, crap!"
0:22:16 > 0:22:19- Having got a tear...- Uh-huh.
0:22:19 > 0:22:21- ..and you bleeding all over the place...- Yeah.
0:22:21 > 0:22:25- You still went and had sex with him afterwards?- I had to. It's my job.
0:22:25 > 0:22:27It's my own fault.
0:22:27 > 0:22:30I didn't have to, obviously, but I wouldn't have got paid or anything.
0:22:30 > 0:22:32It would have been a massive blunder.
0:22:32 > 0:22:36- Do you think you'll be working for them again?- I fricking hope so.
0:22:36 > 0:22:38I know that, generally, once they've shot a girl once, they do
0:22:38 > 0:22:42keep on bringing them back, so hopefully they'll bring me back.
0:22:42 > 0:22:45And I'll have to...I'll promise that I won't bring any drama with me.
0:22:47 > 0:22:51I'm pretty shocked that Jade is so accepting of physical trauma
0:22:51 > 0:22:53being part of the job.
0:22:53 > 0:22:56It seems to me she's become somewhat desensitised,
0:22:56 > 0:22:58and I wonder how that happened.
0:22:58 > 0:23:00I haven't...I haven't actually looked at any of
0:23:00 > 0:23:04this stuff in a very, very long time, so...
0:23:04 > 0:23:08Where it is or what it's like is completely...completely
0:23:08 > 0:23:09oblivious to me.
0:23:11 > 0:23:14She agrees to talk me through her early work.
0:23:14 > 0:23:17Oh, no, there's this one. It's a really bad video.
0:23:20 > 0:23:22SHE LAUGHS
0:23:22 > 0:23:25I can tell that I don't know what I'm doing.
0:23:25 > 0:23:26SHE GIGGLES
0:23:28 > 0:23:30What's the worst thing you've ever shot?
0:23:30 > 0:23:33It was just a blow job scene, basically.
0:23:33 > 0:23:36But it wasn't something I felt comfortable doing.
0:23:37 > 0:23:40- Did you love blow jobs? - Yeah, but I don't love
0:23:40 > 0:23:43blow jobs when there's a load of guys coming into a funnel
0:23:43 > 0:23:45- around your neck. - SHE GAGS
0:23:46 > 0:23:49Come Slut, I think it was called.
0:23:49 > 0:23:52Yeah, you kind of, you obviously have to start at the bottom and
0:23:52 > 0:23:54work your way up but...
0:23:54 > 0:23:57You've obviously made videos where men are violent towards you.
0:23:57 > 0:24:01- Have you got any issues with that? - I kind of like this sort of thing.
0:24:01 > 0:24:05I like this attitude where the man is in control and he's the boss.
0:24:05 > 0:24:08You have to do what he wants and all this stuff so...
0:24:08 > 0:24:11To me it's all just good fun.
0:24:11 > 0:24:13But, from an outsider, to a normal female, yeah,
0:24:13 > 0:24:17I can see why it would be, like, really bad thing,
0:24:17 > 0:24:18like why you wouldn't want someone
0:24:18 > 0:24:20to associate this kind of thing with
0:24:20 > 0:24:22just normal everyday sex.
0:24:23 > 0:24:24Why? Why wouldn't it?
0:24:24 > 0:24:27Why wouldn't it be a good thing?
0:24:27 > 0:24:30Because there's always going to be that one idiot out there that
0:24:30 > 0:24:33watches a porno and goes home and hits his girlfriend because
0:24:33 > 0:24:36he thinks that's what the right thing to do is,
0:24:36 > 0:24:37or something like that.
0:24:37 > 0:24:39Obviously, there is, there are too many naive people
0:24:39 > 0:24:42in this world that believe what they see.
0:24:43 > 0:24:45What's your past with men like?
0:24:45 > 0:24:47In my teen years, I was under the impression that I deserved
0:24:47 > 0:24:49to be treated like this.
0:24:49 > 0:24:51I thought I deserved to be treated really badly.
0:24:54 > 0:24:59When I was 16, this boy sexually assaulted me in the changing rooms.
0:25:02 > 0:25:05I remember being in there by myself. I can just picture, like,
0:25:05 > 0:25:08him walking into the room and just looking at him and there was
0:25:08 > 0:25:10just something, there was a look about his face and, yeah,
0:25:10 > 0:25:13I kind of just knew that I was in trouble.
0:25:15 > 0:25:16He was, like, ripping my shirt off,
0:25:16 > 0:25:21he was all over my boobs and then, when he was done, he just
0:25:21 > 0:25:24threw me to the floor, and that was the end of it and he walked out.
0:25:26 > 0:25:28It's not like I got raped or anything,
0:25:28 > 0:25:31it's nothing too extreme, but what he physically did to me is
0:25:31 > 0:25:35something I thought about every single day for about six years.
0:25:37 > 0:25:43I got into porn because I was having sex a fair amount,
0:25:43 > 0:25:45so I just thought that was all that I was worth.
0:25:45 > 0:25:49I trusted these strangers that I met, and it just...
0:25:49 > 0:25:52it didn't work out for me a lot of the time.
0:25:52 > 0:25:56Porn...porn to me is nice. The men treat you with respect.
0:25:56 > 0:26:01They're nice to you. But guys in real life, they're not...
0:26:01 > 0:26:03they don't treat you with the same respect.
0:26:11 > 0:26:15I feel really sad to hear that men in the real world have let Jade down
0:26:15 > 0:26:20so badly she now feels that having sex on camera is the better option.
0:26:38 > 0:26:42Five days later, and I'm in Prague with Jade for her next job.
0:26:47 > 0:26:52Hm. I'm scared. There is no-one here. Is it a hotel? What is it?
0:26:55 > 0:26:57I'm terrified. I don't want to buzz on the door.
0:26:57 > 0:27:00I don't think they speak English. I don't know.
0:27:03 > 0:27:04Hello!
0:27:08 > 0:27:09I don't speak Czech.
0:27:09 > 0:27:13- Hi.- Hi.- I think I'm staying here.
0:27:14 > 0:27:16Hello.
0:27:16 > 0:27:19SHE LAUGHS NERVOUSLY
0:27:21 > 0:27:24SHE MOANS
0:27:30 > 0:27:33- Oh! - SHE GROANS
0:27:34 > 0:27:37Stay, stay. Don't worry about that.
0:27:37 > 0:27:38Thank you.
0:27:41 > 0:27:44I can't lift. Thank you very much.
0:27:44 > 0:27:47Look what you have here.
0:27:47 > 0:27:52- Very good bed. Mirror.- Oh, goody. - Make-up stuff.- Aces.
0:27:52 > 0:27:56- Unbelievable, right?- Thank you. - You're welcome.
0:27:57 > 0:28:01This is Jade's co-star, Hungarian performer Matt Bird.
0:28:01 > 0:28:04She'll be shooting two scenes with him tomorrow.
0:28:05 > 0:28:07How did you start to make porn?
0:28:07 > 0:28:09Yeah, I read an article.
0:28:09 > 0:28:14They... They were looking for models
0:28:14 > 0:28:18for underwear, you know.
0:28:18 > 0:28:19If...
0:28:19 > 0:28:23They read, "If you have a sporty body,
0:28:23 > 0:28:26"you can try yourself."
0:28:26 > 0:28:31And I went there and they told me, honestly,
0:28:31 > 0:28:35it's not underwear modelling, it's porn.
0:28:35 > 0:28:37And I was thinking,
0:28:37 > 0:28:41"Hm. Maybe I try myself."
0:28:41 > 0:28:45Yeah, this was the first step in this business.
0:28:47 > 0:28:49How did you come up with the name Matt Bird?
0:28:49 > 0:28:54In Hungary, that bird is a Matthias bird,
0:28:54 > 0:29:00which bird can imitate the song of other birds, like this...
0:29:00 > 0:29:03MAKES WHISTLING SOUND
0:29:05 > 0:29:07That's why I'm Matt Bird.
0:29:07 > 0:29:09Do you fancy him? Do you want to have sex with him?
0:29:09 > 0:29:11It's my job, so I have to.
0:29:11 > 0:29:13But no, there is no...
0:29:13 > 0:29:15It's not like one of those moments
0:29:15 > 0:29:17when you see someone you like, "Oh, damn!"
0:29:17 > 0:29:21Like, yeah, I didn't get that, but he seems nice.
0:29:35 > 0:29:37The first of today's two scenes is for a website that's
0:29:37 > 0:29:41dedicated to porn shot in the back of a van parked in public.
0:29:43 > 0:29:47All Jade's been told is that she has to dress like a businesswoman.
0:29:47 > 0:29:50- Have you ever worked in an office? - No.
0:29:50 > 0:29:52Am I looking to destroy my soul? No.
0:30:07 > 0:30:11The location of today's shoot, a suburban Prague side street.
0:30:13 > 0:30:16I can't quite believe how public it is.
0:30:17 > 0:30:21In a last-minute change of plan, the directors decided Jade will now play
0:30:21 > 0:30:25a spoilt rich kid who seduces her chauffeur on the way to the ballet.
0:30:26 > 0:30:29I'm so pissed I'm going to the ballet. Uh.
0:30:34 > 0:30:38I hate to imagine the things you could do in the back of this car.
0:30:38 > 0:30:41- I might just have to... - SHE MOANS
0:30:41 > 0:30:46Ooh. OK, I will do whatever you want.
0:30:46 > 0:30:47Get your dick out...
0:30:48 > 0:30:51..and let me put it in my mouth.
0:30:51 > 0:30:52Ahh.
0:30:52 > 0:30:54Ah...
0:30:54 > 0:30:58SHE MOANS
0:31:08 > 0:31:11It's been an hour and a half since they parked up.
0:31:16 > 0:31:18I can't even help it.
0:31:31 > 0:31:33I'm not a normal girl.
0:31:33 > 0:31:35OK, I'll shut up. I promise.
0:31:44 > 0:31:48The mood seems to be taking a turn for the worse.
0:31:48 > 0:31:50Things are not going smoothly.
0:31:50 > 0:31:53And it takes seven attempts before they can finally finish the scene.
0:31:53 > 0:31:56THEY MOAN
0:32:04 > 0:32:06SHE SIGHS
0:32:07 > 0:32:11This has definitely been a better waste of time than going to
0:32:11 > 0:32:14the stupid ballet, don't you think?
0:32:14 > 0:32:15- Yeah.- Yeah.
0:32:16 > 0:32:18Matt, how was that?
0:32:18 > 0:32:21I...so...
0:32:25 > 0:32:27..so this was not my best scene.
0:32:27 > 0:32:31No, it's, like, on paper, banging in a car sounds like a great idea,
0:32:31 > 0:32:34but when you're actually in here
0:32:34 > 0:32:37and it's getting hot, like, it kind of, it's overwhelming, almost.
0:32:39 > 0:32:42Matt, what did you find difficult about it?
0:32:43 > 0:32:44Can you ask me later?
0:32:46 > 0:32:47Thank you.
0:32:55 > 0:32:57It kind of...
0:32:57 > 0:32:58It kind of makes it feel like,
0:32:58 > 0:33:01I know that I can't blame myself, but in situations like this,
0:33:01 > 0:33:05I kind of just assume automatically that it's my fault.
0:33:05 > 0:33:10And I was, like, OK, so he's seen my vagina and now he's not hard.
0:33:10 > 0:33:14Is it because my pussy is that disgusting? And, like, there's...
0:33:14 > 0:33:16It kind of makes you completely doubt yourself.
0:33:16 > 0:33:18Because he could tell that I wasn't comfortable.
0:33:18 > 0:33:21Obviously, it was affecting his dick in that respect so...
0:33:21 > 0:33:23Yeah, I don't know.
0:33:23 > 0:33:26It kind of, it throws you all over the place a little bit.
0:33:34 > 0:33:36- Jade.- Not now, please.
0:33:48 > 0:33:50- Are you OK?- I had a panic attack.
0:33:51 > 0:33:54- SHE EXHALES - Fuck. Fuck.
0:33:57 > 0:33:58(Shit.)
0:34:00 > 0:34:02No, sorry.
0:34:13 > 0:34:17Despite her panic attack, Jade has to shoot another scene with Matt.
0:34:29 > 0:34:33- Hi, excuse me. Are you Matt? - Yes, I am.
0:34:33 > 0:34:37Hi, my name is Carly Rae.
0:34:37 > 0:34:40I walked past your window and saw that you do photo shoots.
0:34:40 > 0:34:43SHE MOANS
0:34:43 > 0:34:45Oh, shit.
0:34:47 > 0:34:49Ah, nice!
0:34:49 > 0:34:51Can you see my tits bouncing?
0:34:57 > 0:35:0050 minutes in, and Matt is struggling again.
0:35:08 > 0:35:10How are you feeling?
0:35:10 > 0:35:14I'm mentally and physically exhausted.
0:35:14 > 0:35:18Like, I'm so tired.
0:35:18 > 0:35:21Oh, my God, it's 11 o'clock.
0:35:23 > 0:35:28Let me do the math. £500 divided by 14 hours I worked today.
0:35:28 > 0:35:32- Works out to £35.- An hour?
0:35:32 > 0:35:37Yeah, £35 an hour, but if you take into consideration all the
0:35:37 > 0:35:40travelling from yesterday, all the travelling tomorrow morning,
0:35:40 > 0:35:44I think I'm earning less than £10 an hour,
0:35:44 > 0:35:46if you kind of add it all up.
0:35:46 > 0:35:49Was there any part of you that just thought, "Do you know what?
0:35:49 > 0:35:50"I've had enough."
0:35:51 > 0:35:55Um, yeah, like, yeah, it was just...
0:35:57 > 0:36:00I don't know, kind of my soul died after the first scene.
0:36:00 > 0:36:02I just became... I'm so tired.
0:36:03 > 0:36:08Yeah, it wasn't ideal, but there are always jobs that you don't...
0:36:08 > 0:36:10you aren't completely 100% in, like.
0:36:10 > 0:36:12Yeah, you kind of have to give it your all,
0:36:12 > 0:36:14no matter what the circumstance.
0:36:19 > 0:36:23Three weeks later, and Jade's suitcase is out again.
0:36:23 > 0:36:26She's preparing for her next job, America.
0:36:26 > 0:36:29Her US agent has lined up bookings and she's going out
0:36:29 > 0:36:32determined to make a name for herself.
0:36:32 > 0:36:34I don't know what to do!
0:36:34 > 0:36:37I'm stressing myself out. I'm panicking.
0:36:37 > 0:36:38Oh, my God.
0:36:38 > 0:36:41- Why are you panicking? - Cos I hate all my clothes.
0:36:41 > 0:36:43And I don't know what to bring.
0:36:45 > 0:36:48What's the best thing that could happen on this trip?
0:36:48 > 0:36:49Find a husband.
0:36:49 > 0:36:52SHE LAUGHS
0:36:52 > 0:36:54Fall in love, that would be nice.
0:36:54 > 0:36:57Break someone's heart, that would be good. Would have been a while.
0:36:58 > 0:37:02I don't know. Um, I'm a massive shopaholic,
0:37:02 > 0:37:05so the best thing for me is if I walk away
0:37:05 > 0:37:07with a pair of Louboutins, I'm a very happy girl.
0:37:07 > 0:37:09What do you think they're going to make of you?
0:37:09 > 0:37:12If you're as loud and obnoxious as I am, then I might be in some trouble.
0:37:12 > 0:37:15I might find my partner in crime. It could go either way.
0:37:18 > 0:37:21I set out to try and understand the price a young woman
0:37:21 > 0:37:24would pay for having sex on camera and turning it into a career.
0:37:26 > 0:37:27I found someone whose job has a
0:37:27 > 0:37:31huge emotional and physical impact on her.
0:37:31 > 0:37:33The financial rewards, or increased Twitter followers,
0:37:33 > 0:37:35don't always seem worth it.
0:37:36 > 0:37:38But porn does seem to provide her with
0:37:38 > 0:37:43a sense of purpose and self-worth that the real world had taken away.
0:37:43 > 0:37:46And although I worry that she might one day regret her decision to
0:37:46 > 0:37:50shoot porn, there's no denying she's taken back control of her own life
0:37:50 > 0:37:53and has found strength by living in the moment.
0:37:55 > 0:37:57Over the next couple of months,
0:37:57 > 0:38:00I'm hoping that my career kind of is taking off.
0:38:02 > 0:38:06I've worked my ass off to get to where I am today so...
0:38:06 > 0:38:08It's like proof to me that if I set my mind to something,
0:38:08 > 0:38:10I can do exactly what I want.
0:38:10 > 0:38:12It's like anything is possible, basically.
0:38:14 > 0:38:16I'm so much more liberated.
0:38:16 > 0:38:19I am, like, I've got so much more body confidence than I could
0:38:19 > 0:38:22ever have dreamed of years ago because I've done this,
0:38:22 > 0:38:24because I've seen what I look like,
0:38:24 > 0:38:28I've seen how I perform and I'm proud of what I've done.
0:38:28 > 0:38:31So now I'm going to be googling myself at a very old age to
0:38:31 > 0:38:32see if I'm still there.
0:38:32 > 0:38:35SHE LAUGHS