0:00:02 > 0:00:05This programme contains strong language.
0:00:05 > 0:00:08- Tell me about your last job. - Ooh! My last job was customer-based.
0:00:08 > 0:00:13- Nipple-clipple.- I have a first-class honours degree.- Why have you not got a job?- You tell me.
0:00:13 > 0:00:14I want a job because it's about feeling like
0:00:14 > 0:00:17part of the solution rather than part of the problem.
0:00:17 > 0:00:21Employers say they welcome disabled applicants.
0:00:21 > 0:00:23But a million want to work,
0:00:23 > 0:00:26and many have found the job hunt impossible.
0:00:26 > 0:00:28What does it mean to have a job?
0:00:28 > 0:00:30You achieve self-actualisation,
0:00:30 > 0:00:34which is demonstrated in Maslow's Hierarchy Of Needs.
0:00:34 > 0:00:35In this series,
0:00:35 > 0:00:39disabled job-seekers are coming together from all across the UK.
0:00:39 > 0:00:42I have applied for 3,000 jobs.
0:00:42 > 0:00:44Not even a thank you.
0:00:44 > 0:00:47Can somebody give me a hand with the door on this side?
0:00:47 > 0:00:49How are you doing?
0:00:49 > 0:00:51Psychologist Nancy Doyle will help the group
0:00:51 > 0:00:55realise their potential, in a unique training centre.
0:00:55 > 0:00:58Full-scale IQ, 141.
0:00:58 > 0:01:00Wow, borderline genius, essentially.
0:01:00 > 0:01:02That's correct.
0:01:02 > 0:01:04- Above average?- Way above average. - Me?- Yes, you.
0:01:04 > 0:01:07I've never been described as above average in anything!
0:01:07 > 0:01:10Having a disability is not a barrier to employment.
0:01:10 > 0:01:12Having discovered their skills,
0:01:12 > 0:01:15they'll try to break into the job market.
0:01:15 > 0:01:16Ten.
0:01:16 > 0:01:18- Ah!- Fab, fantastic.
0:01:18 > 0:01:23I didn't want anybody to think that I wasn't capable of doing a job.
0:01:23 > 0:01:25Oh!
0:01:25 > 0:01:27It's times like this I do doubt my employability.
0:01:27 > 0:01:30- It's called, um... - HE WHISTLES
0:01:30 > 0:01:32Fishy fanny. It's not called that.
0:01:32 > 0:01:35I don't mind working hard. Bring it on.
0:01:35 > 0:01:39Could their differences finally be seen as a strength?
0:01:39 > 0:01:43All I need is one person to see past the fact that I can't.
0:01:43 > 0:01:46There's sparks of brilliance in what you've done.
0:01:46 > 0:01:48The train is approaching, get on board.
0:01:55 > 0:01:57Yeee!
0:01:57 > 0:01:59I scare you when I do that, don't I?
0:01:59 > 0:02:00I'm going to miss you.
0:02:00 > 0:02:02I am.
0:02:02 > 0:02:03Turtle soup!
0:02:09 > 0:02:11Go and eat your lettuce.
0:02:11 > 0:02:13Fry him up for dinner!
0:02:14 > 0:02:17- Don't worry about a thing. - Turtle soup!
0:02:17 > 0:02:2022-year-old Ryan is heading for London.
0:02:20 > 0:02:22The adventure awaits. Aw!
0:02:23 > 0:02:26There's a lot of disabled people out there that do want to work.
0:02:26 > 0:02:28There should be no reason why an employer
0:02:28 > 0:02:30should not give anyone a job.
0:02:30 > 0:02:34If they can accommodate disabled public to come into their shops,
0:02:34 > 0:02:36then they can accommodate for a disabled employee.
0:02:38 > 0:02:40Take care. Text us when you get there later, yeah?
0:02:40 > 0:02:43- Yeah, don't worry, I will. - All right, see you later.- OK.
0:02:45 > 0:02:4952-year-old Andy will be joining him at the training centre.
0:02:49 > 0:02:50I'm a very proud person.
0:02:50 > 0:02:55I don't like being told that I'm useless.
0:02:55 > 0:02:56How does that make you feel?
0:02:56 > 0:02:58Pissed off.
0:02:58 > 0:03:00What more can I say than that? Pissed off.
0:03:03 > 0:03:06Andy and Ryan will be part of a unique group of job-seekers.
0:03:10 > 0:03:11Despite their skills,
0:03:11 > 0:03:15they have thousands of failed job applications between them.
0:03:15 > 0:03:19It's about being seen as just a member of society,
0:03:19 > 0:03:21- and not a disability.- Hi.
0:03:21 > 0:03:24Employers see the wheelchair first,
0:03:24 > 0:03:26and me and my abilities second.
0:03:28 > 0:03:31I want to push myself, but I'm being held back.
0:03:40 > 0:03:44The jobcentre is the brainchild of psychologist Nancy Doyle -
0:03:44 > 0:03:49a pioneer in helping mixed disability groups find work.
0:03:49 > 0:03:52It frustrates me, this narrative that all
0:03:52 > 0:03:55we need to do to get a job is change ourselves,
0:03:55 > 0:03:56and sometimes that's not true,
0:03:56 > 0:03:59sometimes, actually, the employers aren't playing ball.
0:04:00 > 0:04:03The world is going to end!
0:04:03 > 0:04:06She'll be bringing some of the country's top employment
0:04:06 > 0:04:09experts together, to help the job-seekers.
0:04:10 > 0:04:12Blind man walking a deaf dog.
0:04:14 > 0:04:16- I'm Ryan.- Yeah, nice to meet you.
0:04:16 > 0:04:19- Uh, what's your name? - Kerie is my name. Kerie. Woo!
0:04:19 > 0:04:21Um, if I say anything, I don't mean it, I do have Tourette's.
0:04:21 > 0:04:24- That's all right.- So don't take anything I say too personally!
0:04:24 > 0:04:25That's OK!
0:04:28 > 0:04:30- Hi! Hello!- Hi there!
0:04:30 > 0:04:31Ooh!
0:04:31 > 0:04:35All the bone in my wrist was destroyed and turned into gravel,
0:04:35 > 0:04:38and it severed all the tendons in the back of my hand.
0:04:38 > 0:04:42Nancy's hoping that the group will learn from each other,
0:04:42 > 0:04:44through the challenges ahead.
0:04:45 > 0:04:47So, who knows that they'd like to start?
0:04:47 > 0:04:49My name's Andy.
0:04:49 > 0:04:53I have absolutely no idea what I want to do.
0:04:53 > 0:04:54None at all.
0:05:15 > 0:05:17Why do you want a job?
0:05:17 > 0:05:20It's no good sitting at home, doing nothing.
0:05:20 > 0:05:25I mean, I'm a good, solid worker - before the stroke.
0:05:25 > 0:05:28A good, solid worker after the stroke,
0:05:28 > 0:05:31but I'm not getting the opportunity.
0:05:31 > 0:05:32Never.
0:05:32 > 0:05:34And I am trying so hard
0:05:34 > 0:05:37to get a job, to show that I'm needed.
0:05:39 > 0:05:40Basically, yeah.
0:05:51 > 0:05:54Andy was once the managing director
0:05:54 > 0:05:57of a successful superbike business.
0:06:00 > 0:06:01Come on!
0:06:01 > 0:06:04I've tried everything to get a job,
0:06:04 > 0:06:06everything you can think of,
0:06:06 > 0:06:09marketing to manager
0:06:09 > 0:06:11to cleaner.
0:06:11 > 0:06:14I'll go for anything that comes up.
0:06:14 > 0:06:17I just want something as a job.
0:06:21 > 0:06:24You know Dad's picking you up at 3.35 this afternoon?
0:06:24 > 0:06:28He used to be the main breadwinner in the family.
0:06:28 > 0:06:32But now Andy's a househusband, looking after his two teenage sons
0:06:32 > 0:06:35whilst his wife, Donna, goes out to work.
0:06:36 > 0:06:39Work before the stroke was extremely important.
0:06:39 > 0:06:42I was thinking about it every day - even Christmas.
0:06:44 > 0:06:46It meant such a lot to me.
0:06:48 > 0:06:49It really did.
0:06:49 > 0:06:51And then the stroke,
0:06:51 > 0:06:53and that was it, you know.
0:06:55 > 0:06:57Ellie, look. Ellie, look.
0:06:57 > 0:07:01Andy's life turned upside down in 2011,
0:07:01 > 0:07:03after an operation on his neck.
0:07:05 > 0:07:09I've got a little lump here, tiny little thing, about that big.
0:07:09 > 0:07:11Um...
0:07:12 > 0:07:15And that small, little bit of tumour
0:07:15 > 0:07:18turned into a big bit of tumour,
0:07:18 > 0:07:21which led to me having a stroke.
0:07:23 > 0:07:26The next ten days...
0:07:26 > 0:07:28..was,
0:07:28 > 0:07:30"Will I survive or will I won't?"
0:07:33 > 0:07:35Mum had a phone call,
0:07:35 > 0:07:38the doctors told her he has, like,
0:07:38 > 0:07:39three days to live.
0:07:39 > 0:07:44He couldn't speak. He was just kind of clinging on, I guess.
0:07:44 > 0:07:47That was quite hard to see.
0:07:47 > 0:07:50And then he decided not to die.
0:07:50 > 0:07:53And then the doctors are like, "Oh, he'll never walk, never speak."
0:07:53 > 0:07:57And then he started speaking, and then it just got from that point
0:07:57 > 0:07:59to this point here, I guess.
0:08:05 > 0:08:09Andy lived life at 150mph, but unfortunately he had
0:08:09 > 0:08:13a stroke, which then made his 150mph life
0:08:13 > 0:08:15grind to a halt.
0:08:15 > 0:08:17Who came here to go slower today?
0:08:17 > 0:08:19Andy used to run a motorbike school
0:08:19 > 0:08:22with a million-pound turnover.
0:08:22 > 0:08:25He ran training for MotoGP,
0:08:25 > 0:08:28and was a respected motorbike journalist.
0:08:28 > 0:08:31You want about a fist's distance between the back of the tank
0:08:31 > 0:08:32and your wedding tackle.
0:08:32 > 0:08:35I think that's the politest way I can put that!
0:08:37 > 0:08:40Here's me, with a visor up, here's Rossi with the visor down.
0:08:44 > 0:08:47If you could have a chat with him at that age, what would you say to him?
0:08:49 > 0:08:53Don't give up. Whatever you do, don't give up.
0:08:53 > 0:08:54Simple as that.
0:08:59 > 0:09:00Ow!
0:09:00 > 0:09:02Peas in a pod.
0:09:02 > 0:09:04Mayonnaise!
0:09:04 > 0:09:05Oo-woo!
0:09:13 > 0:09:15Knobhead!
0:09:15 > 0:09:18Organic cucumber!
0:09:18 > 0:09:21I want a job because I don't want to be sitting around on my
0:09:21 > 0:09:23fat arse, playing with meself.
0:09:23 > 0:09:26No, oh, Jesus, shut up.
0:09:38 > 0:09:41- "Decorators wanted." - No, you can't do that.
0:09:41 > 0:09:44Yeah, straight away.
0:09:44 > 0:09:47A year ago, Ryan was working in a pound shop...
0:09:47 > 0:09:49Woof, woof.
0:09:49 > 0:09:50..but he had to quit his job
0:09:50 > 0:09:53when he was diagnosed with severe Tourette's syndrome.
0:09:53 > 0:09:56You can't be a support worker, some of the things you come out with.
0:09:56 > 0:09:59- Fucking old nonces! Get in your grave!- Yeah.
0:09:59 > 0:10:02You can call me names, but you can't call other people names.
0:10:02 > 0:10:05Since then, his mum, Nikki, has been helping him
0:10:05 > 0:10:07try to get back into work.
0:10:07 > 0:10:09There you go, hairdresser.
0:10:09 > 0:10:11Chop your knob off! Mrs Knobdresser.
0:10:11 > 0:10:14- See, all those sorts of things. - Yeah.- You do make me laugh.
0:10:14 > 0:10:16Woof!
0:10:16 > 0:10:17Gardening. You'd be the only one.
0:10:17 > 0:10:19You're on your own, you're your own person.
0:10:19 > 0:10:22You're not stupid, you went to uni for a little while,
0:10:22 > 0:10:25- so it's not like you haven't got it up there.- Mm.
0:10:25 > 0:10:27You've got to use what you've got,
0:10:27 > 0:10:30- because there ain't nothing in here for you.- Yeah.
0:10:34 > 0:10:37It's all right. Hmm.
0:10:37 > 0:10:40I don't do well in crying situations.
0:10:43 > 0:10:44Crybaby!
0:10:46 > 0:10:48- It's just hard. Because you go through...- Dry your eyes, mate!
0:10:48 > 0:10:50..you go through so much.
0:10:53 > 0:10:56Do you want a tissue for your issues?
0:10:56 > 0:10:57- SHE CHUCKLES - Shut up!
0:11:00 > 0:11:03There's not actually a lot that you can do out there.
0:11:03 > 0:11:05- No.- None of them.
0:11:06 > 0:11:08Treacle!
0:11:08 > 0:11:11There you go, you could be a paper shredder.
0:11:17 > 0:11:19Yay! Let's get cooking!
0:11:19 > 0:11:21Woo!
0:11:21 > 0:11:25I'm cutting up a human's heart, cannibalistic me.
0:11:25 > 0:11:28- Korma or tikka masala, Ryan? - Korma.
0:11:28 > 0:11:31Ryan lives with his boyfriend, Charlie,
0:11:31 > 0:11:33in a studio flat in Berkshire.
0:11:33 > 0:11:36Fuck off, let's do pancakes!
0:11:36 > 0:11:39His doctors believe he has one of the most severe
0:11:39 > 0:11:41cases of Tourette's in the country.
0:11:41 > 0:11:44Skin the cats and use them as pelts.
0:11:47 > 0:11:50Charlie, that's gone in the turtle tank.
0:11:50 > 0:11:52- It's cool.- We cannot have that.
0:11:54 > 0:11:58For years, they thought Ryan's behaviour was psychosomatic.
0:11:59 > 0:12:02I had...brain scans, blood tests.
0:12:02 > 0:12:06Um, they believed I had strep throat
0:12:06 > 0:12:09when I was younger, which could have caused my Tourette's.
0:12:09 > 0:12:13I don't think anybody wants to be taken in a room,
0:12:13 > 0:12:14and say, "This is what's wrong with you."
0:12:14 > 0:12:17Mother Nature or whatever's happening has gone,
0:12:17 > 0:12:19"There's your abnormality, there's your difference.
0:12:19 > 0:12:21"You're going to stand out from everyone."
0:12:21 > 0:12:24So, I was kind of like, "How am I going to deal with it?"
0:12:24 > 0:12:27Ooh! Baseball bat to the head.
0:12:28 > 0:12:32This is what I mean, I try and do normal things with my life
0:12:32 > 0:12:33and I can't.
0:12:38 > 0:12:40It's all cool.
0:12:41 > 0:12:45- Thank you for that.- Sorry. - Salmonella.
0:12:45 > 0:12:49I'll wash up, and then we'll do that.
0:12:50 > 0:12:53You see that button that says "Don't push"?
0:12:53 > 0:12:55But you have that urge to push.
0:12:55 > 0:12:58I can stop it but it hurts to stop it,
0:12:58 > 0:13:00so my brain goes, "No, we're going to do it."
0:13:00 > 0:13:04Shout out random noises!
0:13:05 > 0:13:08Surf and turf!
0:13:10 > 0:13:12- You can still use it.- No.
0:13:14 > 0:13:19An estimated 300,000 people have Tourette's in the UK.
0:13:19 > 0:13:21Despite being on medication,
0:13:21 > 0:13:25Ryan's tic attacks are at the extreme end of the condition.
0:13:26 > 0:13:28I wonder if my tics are too bad for me to work,
0:13:28 > 0:13:32because there are days where I cannot leave the house.
0:13:32 > 0:13:33But do I want to work?
0:13:33 > 0:13:35Yes, I do want to work.
0:13:37 > 0:13:39Fuck!
0:13:39 > 0:13:44Getting back into the workplace for Ryan would mean the absolute world.
0:13:44 > 0:13:47The only want that he has is going to work.
0:13:47 > 0:13:50And it hurts me seeing someone that you're in love with
0:13:50 > 0:13:53going through that battle, every day.
0:13:56 > 0:14:00It's the first day of Ryan and Andy's group training.
0:14:01 > 0:14:04- Does that mean you only have one hand?- One hand, yeah.
0:14:04 > 0:14:06How do you do everything?
0:14:06 > 0:14:10Most people would think that about probably all of us in here, right?
0:14:12 > 0:14:17At 11am, Nancy starts off by lifting the lid on the hidden
0:14:17 > 0:14:20world of secret job opportunities.
0:14:20 > 0:14:23Most people who are looking for work don't know this:
0:14:23 > 0:14:2970% of the jobs available at any one time aren't advertised.
0:14:29 > 0:14:32What I want to do for you is give you the ways to access
0:14:32 > 0:14:36the hidden job market, when the competition doesn't exist.
0:14:38 > 0:14:39For the next two hours,
0:14:39 > 0:14:44the candidates have one-on-one interviews with recruitment experts.
0:14:44 > 0:14:47Should I disclose that I'm in a wheelchair?
0:14:47 > 0:14:48I wouldn't put it on your CV.
0:14:48 > 0:14:51A lot of employers out there still are prejudiced towards disability.
0:14:51 > 0:14:55What's your current approach to finding a job?
0:14:55 > 0:14:59Five, six applications, every day for a year.
0:14:59 > 0:15:04Everything from managing director all the way through to a cleaner.
0:15:04 > 0:15:07You come from being a managing director of a very successful
0:15:07 > 0:15:11business, and you've got yourself to the position where
0:15:11 > 0:15:13- you're applying for cleaner roles. - Well...
0:15:13 > 0:15:14How does this happen?
0:15:14 > 0:15:17Because a cleaner is something.
0:15:18 > 0:15:22Ryan has never met people with such a broad range of disabilities.
0:15:24 > 0:15:27My tics are observational, so I'm trying to not
0:15:27 > 0:15:30pick up on people's things.
0:15:30 > 0:15:32There's a lot of Lord Of The Rings going through my head,
0:15:32 > 0:15:35Legolas and all that lot.
0:15:35 > 0:15:36By the afternoon,
0:15:36 > 0:15:40he's finding it increasingly difficult to control his tics.
0:15:40 > 0:15:43- Hello, Ryan, I'm Jane.- You all right? Where's your Tarzan? Hi!
0:15:43 > 0:15:47- Now, I have to stand because I have a dodgy spine.- OK!
0:15:47 > 0:15:50So you can sit or stand or do whatever you prefer.
0:15:50 > 0:15:54Ryan hopes that one day he might find a job working with animals.
0:15:54 > 0:15:57I have quite an extensive knowledge on sort of, like, turtles,
0:15:57 > 0:16:00so I wouldn't mind being somebody that rescues them.
0:16:00 > 0:16:03That's my dream, anyway, setting up a turtle sanctuary, like a charity.
0:16:03 > 0:16:06The thing about your particular condition is that you can't
0:16:06 > 0:16:07- blend into the background...- No.
0:16:07 > 0:16:10..anonymously. You're going to be noticed and remembered.
0:16:10 > 0:16:11Which isn't always a bad thing.
0:16:11 > 0:16:13So it's not just about, "Hey, I've all these skills,
0:16:13 > 0:16:16"and I'm sorry but I've also got Tourette's."
0:16:16 > 0:16:19- You can use that as a sales point. - An advantage, yeah.- Yeah.
0:16:19 > 0:16:20HE WHISTLES
0:16:21 > 0:16:24Thank you. Bye! I hope you find Tarzan!
0:16:26 > 0:16:29To prove to the group that it's possible to find a job,
0:16:29 > 0:16:31even with an extreme disability,
0:16:31 > 0:16:36Nancy has invited a special guest to come for the afternoon.
0:16:36 > 0:16:39We're going to have a talk from a chap called Tom.
0:16:39 > 0:16:41Thomas the Tank Engine!
0:16:41 > 0:16:42Not Thomas the Tank Engine, sadly.
0:16:42 > 0:16:44THEY LAUGH
0:16:44 > 0:16:47Tom is going to talk about his experience of having a sudden
0:16:47 > 0:16:50disability, and then going through the process of getting
0:16:50 > 0:16:52- back into the workplace. - KNOCK ON DOOR
0:16:52 > 0:16:54Come on in.
0:16:54 > 0:16:55- Hi!- Hi!- I've got Tom and Nic for you.
0:16:55 > 0:16:57- Thank you, Grace.- That's all right, no worries.
0:16:57 > 0:17:01Nicola is Tom's wife, and has come with him today.
0:17:01 > 0:17:03OK, Tom.
0:17:03 > 0:17:05I was thirty...eight years old.
0:17:05 > 0:17:07Never had a day off sick in my life.
0:17:07 > 0:17:11Nic was pregnant again with our second child,
0:17:11 > 0:17:14and suddenly I fell ill.
0:17:14 > 0:17:16I had what is called sepsis.
0:17:17 > 0:17:20I'd been to the dentist, and got a nick in my gum,
0:17:20 > 0:17:23and within three or four hours,
0:17:23 > 0:17:26I was starting to go into a coma,
0:17:26 > 0:17:28during which time
0:17:28 > 0:17:30I had both of my arms amputated,
0:17:30 > 0:17:32both of my legs were amputated,
0:17:32 > 0:17:36and all of my face from my eyes downwards was stripped off.
0:17:37 > 0:17:40At that point, Nic was actually giving birth to our son, Freddie.
0:17:43 > 0:17:46Ryan has spent almost an hour trying to hold in his tics.
0:17:49 > 0:17:52If I keep my tics in, it hurts,
0:17:52 > 0:17:54it aches. It feels like fire ants.
0:17:54 > 0:17:57Yeah, it's not a nice thing to live with.
0:17:57 > 0:18:00All of you people are excellent,
0:18:00 > 0:18:02top-quality problem solvers, aren't you?
0:18:02 > 0:18:04You wouldn't have survived and got to where
0:18:04 > 0:18:10you are unless you were brilliant at solving your problems.
0:18:10 > 0:18:12Say your head is a can of pop,
0:18:12 > 0:18:13and somebody shakes it.
0:18:13 > 0:18:16You're going to get that pressure build up...
0:18:16 > 0:18:20..until it just... And then that's when everything spurts out.
0:18:20 > 0:18:21And thank you for listening to me.
0:18:21 > 0:18:23APPLAUSE
0:18:23 > 0:18:24Argh!
0:18:24 > 0:18:26Fuck off! Dickhead! Woo!
0:18:27 > 0:18:29HE WHISTLES
0:18:29 > 0:18:32I ate Peppa Pig for breakfast.
0:18:32 > 0:18:34Knobhead!
0:18:34 > 0:18:36Prostitutes on the corner!
0:18:36 > 0:18:40I've got Tourette's, so...it's fine,
0:18:40 > 0:18:41you don't need to watch and stare.
0:18:43 > 0:18:45I'm not having people watching and staring over there.
0:18:45 > 0:18:46Ooh!
0:18:48 > 0:18:52Watching you was amazing, how well you were actually able to
0:18:52 > 0:18:55- hold on to those tics, to be honest. - The twitches I was doing,
0:18:55 > 0:18:58- I was trying to release a little bit of that urge.- Yep.
0:18:58 > 0:19:02What I didn't want to do downstairs was that my brain was picking
0:19:02 > 0:19:05- up everything wrong with Tom.- Yep.
0:19:05 > 0:19:07Not me, I'm not that kind of person,
0:19:07 > 0:19:09but my brain was,
0:19:09 > 0:19:13and that was what was aggravating me so much.
0:19:13 > 0:19:14Mm-hmm. Yeah.
0:19:14 > 0:19:18What he needs in order to avoid pressurised situations
0:19:18 > 0:19:21is to just be upfront with people and not be embarrassed to interrupt
0:19:21 > 0:19:23something at the very beginning and say,
0:19:23 > 0:19:26"By the way, I've got Tourette's, this is what might happen."
0:19:26 > 0:19:29Let's do it. Let's... I'll come down with you.
0:19:30 > 0:19:32Over two days,
0:19:32 > 0:19:37the group practise the skills necessary for the job market.
0:19:37 > 0:19:39Mock interviews...
0:19:39 > 0:19:42What is it that you really look for in a job?
0:19:42 > 0:19:44- Six till six...- Yup.
0:19:44 > 0:19:46..seven days a week.
0:19:46 > 0:19:48- Right, OK.- Yes!
0:19:48 > 0:19:50..cold calling...
0:19:50 > 0:19:53- Good morning.- Before I carry on with my call, I have got Tourette's.
0:19:53 > 0:19:55OK, that's fine, yes.
0:19:55 > 0:19:57..and group feedback.
0:19:57 > 0:20:02He might not see this but other people just instantly like him.
0:20:05 > 0:20:07I'm going to go back home, and take this forward,
0:20:07 > 0:20:09what I've learnt from today.
0:20:09 > 0:20:11Prostitutes not real!
0:20:11 > 0:20:16Um, from this whole experience, that I can do it.
0:20:18 > 0:20:22But after all this training, they must face the outside world,
0:20:22 > 0:20:25and put the lessons learnt into action.
0:20:25 > 0:20:27It is going to be really tough for them.
0:20:27 > 0:20:30When they wake up tomorrow, it's just going to be them,
0:20:30 > 0:20:33at home, with the laptop and the telephone and a long list
0:20:33 > 0:20:35of things to do to get in front of an employer
0:20:35 > 0:20:37and start getting that job.
0:20:50 > 0:20:52Back home in Northamptonshire,
0:20:52 > 0:20:54Andy's acting on Nancy's advice,
0:20:54 > 0:20:58and starting to think about how to sell himself to employers.
0:20:59 > 0:21:02- So, what did you write? - Well, there is...
0:21:02 > 0:21:06There is business out there, if you like, but they have...
0:21:06 > 0:21:10I...I've forgotten.
0:21:10 > 0:21:13OK. Did you explain that you had aphasia and struggled to speak?
0:21:13 > 0:21:16I'm not doing too bad on this one.
0:21:19 > 0:21:22After his stroke, Andy was paralysed
0:21:22 > 0:21:26and developed aphasia, which affects his speech.
0:21:26 > 0:21:29What were your two main achievements?
0:21:29 > 0:21:32I don't think I have many achievements,
0:21:32 > 0:21:35but everybody else tells me I have.
0:21:35 > 0:21:37You survived a bastard stroke.
0:21:37 > 0:21:39A lot of people wouldn't have achieved that!
0:21:39 > 0:21:41I've been able to walk.
0:21:41 > 0:21:43Yeah, you see, that's an achievement.
0:21:43 > 0:21:45You can talk.
0:21:45 > 0:21:47I can talk. Um...
0:21:47 > 0:21:51- A lot of shit most of the time, but you can talk.- A lot of shit, yes!
0:21:52 > 0:21:55He had a life-changing thing happen to him,
0:21:55 > 0:21:57and it was shit for him and it was shit for all of us,
0:21:57 > 0:22:01but you can just give up and then go, "Oh, woe is me,"
0:22:01 > 0:22:04or you can actually get on with your life
0:22:04 > 0:22:06and find opportunities out there.
0:22:06 > 0:22:10I think it's purely proving a point, that just
0:22:10 > 0:22:13because you have a disability doesn't mean you can't do things
0:22:13 > 0:22:15that you would be able to do normally.
0:22:19 > 0:22:23As part of the training, Nancy visits the job seekers at home.
0:22:24 > 0:22:28She's concerned the aphasia is undermining Andy's confidence.
0:22:28 > 0:22:32- Hello! Come on in!- Hi!
0:22:32 > 0:22:35Aphasia is when the part of the brain that's responsible for speech
0:22:35 > 0:22:37and language has been damaged.
0:22:37 > 0:22:39That's in the left hemisphere,
0:22:39 > 0:22:43and if Andy's stroke has affected that area, it means that he
0:22:43 > 0:22:46might have difficulty finding the right word to express what he means.
0:22:46 > 0:22:49It means he might forget words or use the wrong word,
0:22:49 > 0:22:51and that can be really difficult.
0:22:51 > 0:22:53Nancy is assessing Andy to discover
0:22:53 > 0:22:57if his verbal skills are as bad as he fears.
0:22:57 > 0:22:59What is the highest mountain on Earth?
0:22:59 > 0:23:02- Everest.- What animal group is a frog?
0:23:02 > 0:23:06- Amphibious.- What distance is a marathon in miles?
0:23:06 > 0:23:08Uh, 2-6, point...
0:23:08 > 0:23:11I think it's 4-0.
0:23:11 > 0:23:12Not quite sure.
0:23:12 > 0:23:15- Yeah, you did well, actually, Andy. - You think?- You really did.
0:23:15 > 0:23:17For the verbal scores,
0:23:17 > 0:23:21most people score between 8 and 12, that's
0:23:21 > 0:23:23a good, strong, competent score.
0:23:23 > 0:23:25You've got an 11, which is in the zone,
0:23:25 > 0:23:29and you've got a 12, which is just on the edge of the zone.
0:23:29 > 0:23:30I think generally in a workplace,
0:23:30 > 0:23:33I don't think you should worry about your verbal skills.
0:23:33 > 0:23:36I think you make yourself heard and understood very well.
0:23:36 > 0:23:38That's...encouraging.
0:23:38 > 0:23:40Those skills are still there.
0:23:43 > 0:23:44That's superb.
0:23:44 > 0:23:48Really motivates me to do something
0:23:48 > 0:23:52I can...I love doing,
0:23:52 > 0:23:54but I don't know what it'll be yet.
0:24:12 > 0:24:15From the training centres, and especially with Nancy, I've got
0:24:15 > 0:24:17a lot of confidence.
0:24:17 > 0:24:19That was a real big step for me.
0:24:21 > 0:24:24All I do need is somebody to be able to look at me and say,
0:24:24 > 0:24:27"You've got potential, we're going to give you that chance."
0:24:27 > 0:24:28That's what I'm looking for.
0:24:30 > 0:24:32Come on, kittens!
0:24:34 > 0:24:37Ryan's determined not to let his condition hold him
0:24:37 > 0:24:39back any longer,
0:24:39 > 0:24:42and has decided to focus on a career with animals.
0:24:42 > 0:24:45I'd love to own my own zoo, I think.
0:24:46 > 0:24:50I did have a newt in here, but he's gone.
0:24:50 > 0:24:53What goes through your mind when you're with your animals?
0:24:53 > 0:24:58Peace and tranquillity, and they don't answer back.
0:24:58 > 0:25:00One cricket?
0:25:03 > 0:25:04PHONE RINGING
0:25:04 > 0:25:07He's approached a local aquatic centre
0:25:07 > 0:25:11and has managed to secure an interview for a job trial.
0:25:11 > 0:25:13- ON PHONE:- Good afternoon. - Hi, it's Ryan.
0:25:13 > 0:25:16I'm ringing up to confirm the interview tomorrow?
0:25:16 > 0:25:19- Hello, Ryan.- Ooh!- Yes. No problem.
0:25:19 > 0:25:22We're looking at one o'clock, if that's OK with you?
0:25:22 > 0:25:24That would be brilliant, thank you.
0:25:24 > 0:25:26- HE WHISTLES - Fish guts. Sorry.
0:25:26 > 0:25:30- I'll see you then.- Will do. - Fucking crab claws!
0:25:30 > 0:25:33- Yeah, I think that went well. - HE LAUGHS
0:25:33 > 0:25:35Ooh! It's something that I'm really interested in.
0:25:35 > 0:25:40Yes, it is a customer service job, but the only good thing with
0:25:40 > 0:25:42that is, it is something to do with something I've got a
0:25:42 > 0:25:46passion about. If I've got a passion about it, my tics subside.
0:25:46 > 0:25:50So, yeah, I am really excited. It's going to be awesome.
0:25:51 > 0:25:55We're going to cook sushi!
0:25:55 > 0:25:58Ryan's interview is the biggest step he's taken towards work
0:25:58 > 0:26:01since his diagnosis.
0:26:01 > 0:26:03If the aquatics store offered me a job tomorrow,
0:26:03 > 0:26:05I would snap that up in a heartbeat.
0:26:05 > 0:26:09I'm going to prove to myself that I can do it and not
0:26:09 > 0:26:12dwell on the fact that I think everyone is going to think I'm a freak.
0:26:12 > 0:26:14Organic cucumber.
0:26:16 > 0:26:21Ryan wants to feel independent, he wants to feel that he can do it.
0:26:21 > 0:26:25And fair enough, if he can't do it, he can't do it,
0:26:25 > 0:26:27but at least he knows he's tried.
0:26:34 > 0:26:38I do have Tourette's. I'm kind of leaving it into your hands
0:26:38 > 0:26:41if you want to cut and paste between the lines.
0:26:41 > 0:26:44- HE WHISTLES - Bob the Builder. Not that one.
0:26:44 > 0:26:50So, er, the job. I see you've got a bit of experience in retail already?
0:26:50 > 0:26:51- A good few years ago. - HE WHISTLES
0:26:51 > 0:26:55And then, full vocal tics, I only got this last March.
0:26:55 > 0:26:58- Right.- But I have these things called tic attacks.
0:26:58 > 0:27:01They look like epileptic seizures or have you seen the film The Exorcist?
0:27:01 > 0:27:03That's why I had to leave my previous job.
0:27:03 > 0:27:05They didn't really want me on the shop floor.
0:27:05 > 0:27:09Here, I'm kind of hoping my tics sort of subside like they do at home
0:27:09 > 0:27:11when I'm messing around with my turtles and my fish.
0:27:11 > 0:27:15- Hopefully I'll be able to sort of mellow it out.- Yeah, yeah.
0:27:15 > 0:27:20I mean...is there anything that you...
0:27:20 > 0:27:25you...you're interested in? A bit of a goal for the future?
0:27:25 > 0:27:29I'd like to raise enough money so I can have my own turtle rescue in my back garden.
0:27:29 > 0:27:31He's got the passion. The way he speaks about his fish at home,
0:27:31 > 0:27:34you know, they mean something to him. But the biggest challenge obviously
0:27:34 > 0:27:38is vocal tics and being face-to-face with customers.
0:27:38 > 0:27:41It's always a concern for us because our customers are the most
0:27:41 > 0:27:44important thing for us. It's quite important for us to not upset them.
0:27:44 > 0:27:47- We will be in touch.- Sweet. Thank you.- Cool. Cheers, man.
0:27:47 > 0:27:49That's all right. Ooh-ooh!
0:27:49 > 0:27:51Yey! Dickhead!
0:27:51 > 0:27:53Fuck off! Oh, they're all coming out now.
0:27:53 > 0:27:57I surprised myself today with my tics actually being quite limited.
0:27:57 > 0:28:00A bit easier to... Fishy fanny!
0:28:00 > 0:28:03..erm, to explain to them about Tourette's
0:28:03 > 0:28:07and how they could help me in the workplace and, yeah,
0:28:07 > 0:28:10it's probably also where I'm surrounded by fish
0:28:10 > 0:28:11and I'm in my element. I was like, "Oh."
0:28:11 > 0:28:14- HE WHISTLES - Finding Ryan.
0:28:24 > 0:28:26Encouraged by Nancy's assessment,
0:28:26 > 0:28:29Andy has made an ambitious career choice.
0:28:30 > 0:28:35Hello? I'd like to know who to get in touch with about my speaking.
0:28:36 > 0:28:40He wants to use his experience of fighting back against the odds
0:28:40 > 0:28:43to inspire others through public speaking.
0:28:44 > 0:28:46Of your speakers that you have,
0:28:46 > 0:28:49do you have anybody that has aphasia?
0:28:49 > 0:28:52If not, would you like to try me?
0:28:52 > 0:28:54I just don't think
0:28:54 > 0:28:57we're at the stage of after-dinner speaking at the moment.
0:28:57 > 0:29:02We're trying to get to the letter E without going through B, C and
0:29:02 > 0:29:03D at the moment.
0:29:04 > 0:29:07Do I mail you? What do I do?
0:29:09 > 0:29:13- INTERVIEWER: How many more to go? - Hundreds.
0:29:13 > 0:29:18He isn't the person that he was and we all try to help him
0:29:18 > 0:29:24be the person that he needs to be now, but he wants to be the person...
0:29:24 > 0:29:28..that he once was, and so that becomes quite frustrating.
0:29:40 > 0:29:44Andy's hours of cold calling may be about to pay off.
0:29:47 > 0:29:53This will be the first time I've ever really talked about my life.
0:29:53 > 0:29:59I'm nervous about me because it's about me, if you see what I mean.
0:30:00 > 0:30:03A London agency has agreed to let him
0:30:03 > 0:30:05audition for a place on their talent list.
0:30:08 > 0:30:12Hopefully it will be good enough to get some work out of it.
0:30:14 > 0:30:16The speaking marketplace is hugely competitive.
0:30:16 > 0:30:19We have 30-40 new speakers coming in every week.
0:30:19 > 0:30:23They only get one shot because there's always a next speaker coming along.
0:30:23 > 0:30:26It can be a lucrative career choice.
0:30:26 > 0:30:29A speaker can earn thousands of pounds a night.
0:30:29 > 0:30:31People want to learn from people.
0:30:31 > 0:30:32If you've done something extraordinary,
0:30:32 > 0:30:35written a book, achieved amazing things in sport,
0:30:35 > 0:30:38you potentially have got a story to tell.
0:30:41 > 0:30:45Before being taken on, Andy needs to convince the whole
0:30:45 > 0:30:49office that he has what it takes to be a public speaker.
0:30:49 > 0:30:52- At this point, Andy, I step away and I say it's all yours.- Thank you.
0:30:54 > 0:30:57First impressions count. When Andy steps up on stage, he's
0:30:57 > 0:31:00got 12 seconds to make an immediate impression.
0:31:00 > 0:31:03He needs to get them onside straight away, else
0:31:03 > 0:31:05he's fighting a losing battle.
0:31:08 > 0:31:14Right, my name is Andy Ibbott. I am a stroke survivor,
0:31:14 > 0:31:16but also an aphasia victim.
0:31:16 > 0:31:21He sends messages up here but it doesn't always come out here.
0:31:21 > 0:31:23- Yes?- AUDIENCE:- Yes. - All right, then.
0:31:25 > 0:31:29Andy kicks off with his previous career in superbikes.
0:31:29 > 0:31:31There you go. That's the sort of thing we did.
0:31:31 > 0:31:37I can't actually tell you more, except that is an Aprilia engine.
0:31:38 > 0:31:43To be the race bikes, the ones that do 250 GP,
0:31:43 > 0:31:46they don't now, they do 600 now. OK?
0:31:48 > 0:31:53Ten minutes later, he moves on to the day that everything changed for him.
0:31:53 > 0:31:57I started feeling this small lump in my throat.
0:31:57 > 0:32:00They sat me down and told me,
0:32:00 > 0:32:02"You won't walk and you won't talk."
0:32:05 > 0:32:07Bollocks to that.
0:32:09 > 0:32:11Rob, my friend, he helped me walk
0:32:11 > 0:32:16down our lane 100 yards, until eventually he got me doing 26 miles a day.
0:32:17 > 0:32:20The most hardest thing I've ever done.
0:32:20 > 0:32:23But if I can do it, no reason you can't.
0:32:23 > 0:32:25You can do it now.
0:32:27 > 0:32:29- All right?- Thank you.- OK, then.
0:32:29 > 0:32:32- Thank you very much. - APPLAUSE
0:32:34 > 0:32:39Andy's clearly got a lot of content. I worry that he's not
0:32:39 > 0:32:43clear in his mind what the messages he's trying to deliver are.
0:32:43 > 0:32:45A few bits of feedback.
0:32:45 > 0:32:48The first ten minutes, where you're talking about
0:32:48 > 0:32:51kind of your motorbikes, that needs to be done in 12 seconds.
0:32:51 > 0:32:54I don't really care. The interesting part starts once you've
0:32:54 > 0:32:57had your stroke, cos that's the story of you re-inventing yourself.
0:32:57 > 0:33:00You need to refine the content of the speech and you need to
0:33:00 > 0:33:04have confidence and maybe some training in your stage presence.
0:33:04 > 0:33:08And I think with those three things, suddenly you'll turn yourself
0:33:08 > 0:33:11into someone who's got the confidence they can actually get into the speaking scene.
0:33:11 > 0:33:14But we're not going to be actively pushing you yet.
0:33:15 > 0:33:18I was expecting a flat no, to be honest. It will just mean
0:33:18 > 0:33:23working hard, that's all. I don't mind working hard, bring it on.
0:33:23 > 0:33:27It's been a pleasure meeting you and I really enjoyed listening to you.
0:33:27 > 0:33:30It was me standing in front of people
0:33:30 > 0:33:32telling what I wanted to tell them.
0:33:32 > 0:33:34A pleasure. Absolutely.
0:33:34 > 0:33:37- INTERVIEWER: Do you love it, this kind of thing?- Yes. Definitely.
0:33:39 > 0:33:42The first time where a job means something to me.
0:33:53 > 0:33:55What?
0:33:55 > 0:34:00In Berkshire, Ryan's chances of building a career are starting to look up.
0:34:02 > 0:34:07The local aquatics centre has invited him back for a job trial.
0:34:07 > 0:34:10- Are you nervous? - That's the wrong thing to ask me.
0:34:10 > 0:34:11- Are you excited? - That's better.
0:34:11 > 0:34:14# Relax, just do it. #
0:34:15 > 0:34:17Er-ah! Er-ah! Er-ah!
0:34:17 > 0:34:21My last job was customer-based. Nipple-clipple.
0:34:21 > 0:34:25I'm hoping employers sort of have the mind-set and go, "Right, we've got to concentrate
0:34:25 > 0:34:30"on the person, not what is coming out of his mouth...involuntary."
0:34:30 > 0:34:32So, yeah. Woohoo!
0:34:38 > 0:34:39Excited?
0:34:39 > 0:34:42- Yeah.- You've got nothing to be worried about. It's...
0:34:42 > 0:34:44- HE WHISTLES - Cool.
0:34:47 > 0:34:51For the first time since his diagnosis,
0:34:51 > 0:34:55Ryan will be dealing with new co-workers and serving the public.
0:34:56 > 0:34:58# When I'm cleaning windows. #
0:34:58 > 0:35:00RYAN WHISTLES
0:35:00 > 0:35:03You're going to be food with chips.
0:35:03 > 0:35:06I'm going to batter all these knobheads.
0:35:06 > 0:35:09I'm not going to lie, I was a little taken back at first.
0:35:09 > 0:35:11You do not hear that in a shop anywhere.
0:35:13 > 0:35:17The coping mechanism I'm going through at the moment is
0:35:17 > 0:35:20pretending that what I'm doing is what I do at my house.
0:35:20 > 0:35:23I'm trying to get my brain into saying, "You're familiar with this,
0:35:23 > 0:35:26"you don't need to feel out of place."
0:35:26 > 0:35:28And if I can find a place to work like this
0:35:28 > 0:35:33full time, I'd be well happy, over the rainbow and all that. Ooh-hoo!
0:35:33 > 0:35:34Munchkin land.
0:35:37 > 0:35:39- Are you guys all right? - Just getting some shrimp. - Getting some shrimp.
0:35:39 > 0:35:42- I'll let you get on with it. - Thank you.
0:35:42 > 0:35:44RYAN WHISTLES
0:35:44 > 0:35:45Glug, glug, glug, glug, glug.
0:35:45 > 0:35:49Whoo! Sorry, I do have Tourette's. If that startled you, then...
0:35:49 > 0:35:51That's all right.
0:35:53 > 0:35:55RYAN LAUGHS
0:35:55 > 0:35:57It's full of protein.
0:35:57 > 0:36:01It's called... Ooh, fishy fanny! It's not called that.
0:36:01 > 0:36:03- OK.- So you're interested in...that?
0:36:03 > 0:36:05- I'm going to go away and think about all that.- That's all right.
0:36:05 > 0:36:08- And when I get ready, I'll come back. Thank you very much. - All right, then. Thank you.
0:36:08 > 0:36:13It's the customers that are giving me a bit of the heebie-jeebies
0:36:13 > 0:36:15at the moment, because I don't know how they're going to react.
0:36:17 > 0:36:19Oh, there's people coming in here with kids,
0:36:19 > 0:36:20this is the worst thing in the world.
0:36:22 > 0:36:23Fucking midget.
0:36:24 > 0:36:26Ooh!
0:36:29 > 0:36:30- Ooh! - RYAN WHISTLES
0:36:30 > 0:36:34Coffin dodgers. I am so sorry. So sorry.
0:36:34 > 0:36:37- We all have our problems. - THEY LAUGH
0:36:37 > 0:36:42- But, yeah, I hope the plants make your tank, er, pond pretty.- Hope so.
0:36:43 > 0:36:46That was a bit embarrassing, but they took it in jest.
0:36:46 > 0:36:48That's all right.
0:36:48 > 0:36:51When he's able to talk to customers about something
0:36:51 > 0:36:53he knows about, it's great.
0:36:53 > 0:36:55But I do have some concerns, I'll be honest,
0:36:55 > 0:36:58given the nature of his condition.
0:36:58 > 0:37:02We wouldn't call our customers coffin dodgers.
0:37:02 > 0:37:05That would normally result in a disciplinary.
0:37:06 > 0:37:10- You have my CV.- Yeah, if anything comes up in the shop, we will give you a call straight away.
0:37:10 > 0:37:13Thank you. Right, I shall see you later.
0:37:24 > 0:37:26In Northamptonshire,
0:37:26 > 0:37:30Andy still hasn't secured any public speaking work.
0:37:30 > 0:37:35I'd like to talk. I'd like to see if people would book me or not.
0:37:36 > 0:37:40But he's refusing to give up on his new career path.
0:37:40 > 0:37:41Bye.
0:37:48 > 0:37:52INTERVIEWER: Do you think you're going to have to tell people about the difficult times?
0:37:53 > 0:37:54Yes.
0:37:54 > 0:37:59In my public speaking, I will...
0:37:59 > 0:38:02..trace a time that was really bad
0:38:02 > 0:38:06because I nearly committed suicide.
0:38:08 > 0:38:09And...
0:38:13 > 0:38:17..that's no good at all, erm...
0:38:17 > 0:38:22..but at that time, that was my only option.
0:38:30 > 0:38:32INTERVIEWER: I didn't know that.
0:38:56 > 0:39:00Where were we? So we've got more.
0:39:04 > 0:39:08- What were you dealing with at that time?- Life.
0:39:08 > 0:39:12Not being able to use my arm, not being able to use my leg.
0:39:12 > 0:39:16Talking next to...was nothing.
0:39:16 > 0:39:19Nothing was...
0:39:21 > 0:39:23Was...
0:39:23 > 0:39:26Was nothing and I felt that.
0:39:27 > 0:39:31It's been a difficult ride since then,
0:39:31 > 0:39:35but I always take the...
0:39:35 > 0:39:39..opportunity to overcome it.
0:39:40 > 0:39:45Hello? Hello? My name is Andy Ibbott,
0:39:45 > 0:39:48I have aphasia and also a stroke.
0:39:53 > 0:39:58Ryan, take a deep breath, all right? Move the fucking table, please.
0:40:11 > 0:40:15Ryan's tic attacks are getting more serious.
0:40:31 > 0:40:33Where are you going?
0:40:35 > 0:40:36Do you want help?
0:40:39 > 0:40:41Don't stress yourself.
0:40:43 > 0:40:44Slow down for a minute.
0:40:44 > 0:40:46You're really hot, Ryan.
0:40:46 > 0:40:48Vest, vest...
0:40:48 > 0:40:50Just stay there.
0:40:50 > 0:40:52- VOICEOVER:- I want the best for him,
0:40:52 > 0:40:56but his brain is putting a stop to it, that's the big shame.
0:40:58 > 0:41:00His health stops him from doing what he wants to do.
0:41:00 > 0:41:04Stops him from having a job, stops him from going into town,
0:41:04 > 0:41:08stops him from doing day-to-day, normal things.
0:41:10 > 0:41:12So, it's gutting.
0:41:27 > 0:41:30I'm a little bit concerned about Ryan,
0:41:30 > 0:41:34and so I thought it was a good idea to just go and see him at home.
0:41:34 > 0:41:38If things have got so bad, what does this mean for his job prospects?
0:41:38 > 0:41:40What does this mean for his ability to work?
0:41:44 > 0:41:45KNOCKING
0:41:47 > 0:41:48- Hello.- Ryan!
0:41:49 > 0:41:51Look at this!
0:41:51 > 0:41:53God, this is amazing!
0:41:53 > 0:41:56H-H-He's my main baby.
0:41:56 > 0:41:58- What's his name?- Plop.- Plop.
0:41:58 > 0:42:00Let's have a little bit of a catch-up.
0:42:00 > 0:42:03How has all of this left you feeling?
0:42:03 > 0:42:05It's all left me feeling quite crap.
0:42:05 > 0:42:07- HE WHISTLES - Ooh, shit!
0:42:07 > 0:42:10Shit a brick! Shit a house! Crap.
0:42:10 > 0:42:13You've got this month, you're going to go back and see
0:42:13 > 0:42:16- your specialist.- Yeah.
0:42:16 > 0:42:18Can you even think about work in that space?
0:42:18 > 0:42:20I really want to.
0:42:20 > 0:42:23- This is me, this is a rock.- Yeah.
0:42:23 > 0:42:26- This is a hard place and they seem to be...- Yeah.
0:42:26 > 0:42:29..slowly getting closer together at the moment.
0:42:29 > 0:42:32There's a big difference between what you're motivated to do
0:42:32 > 0:42:35- and what you're actually capable of doing right now, isn't there?- Yeah.
0:42:35 > 0:42:38It's... It's horrible, yeah.
0:42:38 > 0:42:44We've got to look at the medical issues before you can really focus
0:42:44 > 0:42:47- on job search.- Ooh! - HE WHISTLES
0:42:48 > 0:42:50I feel very frustrated for Ryan.
0:42:50 > 0:42:54He works so hard, he's so ambitious and he's got so much to offer.
0:42:54 > 0:42:57He's had such a hard time.
0:42:57 > 0:43:01He can do all of the things in the world to get himself into work
0:43:01 > 0:43:05and then tic attack strikes and that is what he's got to deal with.
0:43:05 > 0:43:09It's really damaging, really damaging.
0:43:10 > 0:43:11HE WHISTLES
0:43:11 > 0:43:16The last few weeks I was literally thinking, like, this is the way
0:43:16 > 0:43:20that I want to go, and then it's like there's this big thing
0:43:20 > 0:43:23that's suddenly gone, "No, I'm going to push you back."
0:43:23 > 0:43:26I've gone back, like, four or five steps.
0:43:26 > 0:43:30At the moment, my health is my number one priority.
0:43:30 > 0:43:33It is, it is, it is...
0:43:37 > 0:43:40Knobhead! Fuck off! Orange juice.
0:43:57 > 0:44:00INTERCOM RINGS
0:44:01 > 0:44:03Hi.
0:44:03 > 0:44:06Although Ryan's too unwell to attend the next training session,
0:44:06 > 0:44:10Andy and the rest of the job-seekers are back in London.
0:44:10 > 0:44:14I've been turned down for about 30 jobs, but that's life.
0:44:14 > 0:44:18But you will get a job. If you stop doing it...
0:44:18 > 0:44:20- Oh, I'm not going to stop doing it. - There you go, then.
0:44:22 > 0:44:26So far, none of the group have found employment,
0:44:26 > 0:44:31so Nancy's brought in a team of specialist recruiters to help broaden their job search.
0:44:35 > 0:44:39There's a few different kind of customer service side of things.
0:44:39 > 0:44:43- Right.- Customer assistant in Tesco's.
0:44:43 > 0:44:46- We've also got a new M&S opening. - Mm-hm.
0:44:46 > 0:44:50- Another one, Asda.- Yep.- They're all various different hours.
0:44:50 > 0:44:52It's OK.
0:44:52 > 0:44:55So the last one is a local charity
0:44:55 > 0:44:59and they're looking for tutors to work with children in the city.
0:44:59 > 0:45:02- Now you've got my interest.- Yes! - Tell me more.
0:45:02 > 0:45:06It's just going to be working with children and being their mentor.
0:45:06 > 0:45:09- We could set you up an interview. - Have a definite interest in.
0:45:09 > 0:45:13- Definite. Good.- Yeah?- Yeah.- Awesome.
0:45:13 > 0:45:16- Thank you.- Good luck.
0:45:16 > 0:45:20I feel quite positive about the things that he wants to do.
0:45:20 > 0:45:23He knows how to achieve something that's really tough,
0:45:23 > 0:45:28he's lived that. I really have got really high hopes for Andy.
0:45:28 > 0:45:31I think if I play it right,
0:45:31 > 0:45:36I shall definitely be in employment before the end of the year.
0:45:36 > 0:45:38I'll get there.
0:45:57 > 0:46:01For the past month, Ryan's tic attacks have become
0:46:01 > 0:46:03increasingly dangerous.
0:46:03 > 0:46:07This morning, he's seeing his neurologist.
0:46:07 > 0:46:12My worry is that Dr Stern could turn around and say, "Maybe lay off the job search for now,
0:46:12 > 0:46:17"concentrate on yourself," but then that's just going to put me all the way back in square one.
0:46:17 > 0:46:19- HE WHISTLES - Oh!
0:46:21 > 0:46:24Ryan's one of my most severe patients at the moment.
0:46:24 > 0:46:29So this is really the extreme end of the condition.
0:46:29 > 0:46:31It has affected him to a very large degree.
0:46:31 > 0:46:34- Ryan, would you like to come in? - Yes, thank you.
0:46:34 > 0:46:36- Ooh! Boing! - RYAN GROANS
0:46:36 > 0:46:41Dr Jeremy Stern is one of the UK's leading specialists in Tourette's.
0:46:41 > 0:46:42RYAN BARKS
0:46:42 > 0:46:45- Are they still coming in really strong bouts?- Yeah.
0:46:45 > 0:46:47With this...is my main concern
0:46:47 > 0:46:50because I think my rage tics are back. Ooh!
0:46:50 > 0:46:52So what happened? It looks like you've done more than scratch your arm.
0:46:52 > 0:46:55I got in the front passenger seat and as I've done that,
0:46:55 > 0:46:58with this arm, I've gone... Ooh! Knobhead!
0:46:58 > 0:47:03Pushed it up like that and as I've done that, I managed to smash the car windscreen.
0:47:03 > 0:47:05What we should probably do now is try and increase the tablets
0:47:05 > 0:47:07- you're taking at the moment.- OK.
0:47:07 > 0:47:09The chances of them being really helpful,
0:47:09 > 0:47:13unfortunately, are quite low. I can't give the hard sell.
0:47:13 > 0:47:16- HE GROANS - Is there anything you wanted to ask me?
0:47:16 > 0:47:20Erm...it was really about the job front.
0:47:20 > 0:47:23Do you think it would be too much pressure looking for a job?
0:47:23 > 0:47:25Sit down, you noisy bastard!
0:47:25 > 0:47:28OK, well, you are quite a confident person,
0:47:28 > 0:47:30you can project your personality past the tics
0:47:30 > 0:47:32and it's probably about finding the work that's right for you,
0:47:32 > 0:47:36where you can function, and it's not actually stopping you working.
0:47:36 > 0:47:38Oh! Knobhead!
0:47:40 > 0:47:43Dr Stern was positive that I could work,
0:47:43 > 0:47:46and he said I was confident enough to be able to go out and look for work.
0:47:46 > 0:47:53That meant a lot to me. It's just about finding the right job.
0:47:53 > 0:47:57It's an ongoing road, it's my yellow brick road to Oz,
0:47:57 > 0:48:03that's... Yeah, that's the way I can describe it and it's just ongoing at the moment.
0:48:18 > 0:48:21Determined not to give up,
0:48:21 > 0:48:24Andy's found a new way to fulfil his dream of public speaking.
0:48:28 > 0:48:32This company has let me have a go,
0:48:32 > 0:48:36so that I can show I can work.
0:48:37 > 0:48:39It's a godsend.
0:48:39 > 0:48:42Grab a seat. You all right?
0:48:42 > 0:48:47A local social enterprise has asked him to help with their fundraising.
0:48:47 > 0:48:49First impressions are vitally important
0:48:49 > 0:48:52and if we come across as not professional, not organised,
0:48:52 > 0:48:54we will be overlooked.
0:48:54 > 0:48:56It's Andy Ibbott here.
0:48:56 > 0:49:01Andy will need to win over potential donors, both on the phone
0:49:01 > 0:49:03and in public talks.
0:49:03 > 0:49:07We want to fund the situation,
0:49:07 > 0:49:11but we need some notes, some e-mails,
0:49:11 > 0:49:15something we've got to fill in, so if you can
0:49:15 > 0:49:18give us that, that would be most grateful.
0:49:18 > 0:49:22Who makes your funding...? People?
0:49:22 > 0:49:25Community fund administrators.
0:49:25 > 0:49:30There were a few times on the phone where he did make mistakes.
0:49:30 > 0:49:31He just needs to be clearer, that's all.
0:49:31 > 0:49:35How the bags of help. How it works.
0:49:35 > 0:49:37How do we get in contact with you?
0:49:37 > 0:49:41That's one area that he will need some added support.
0:49:41 > 0:49:42OK.
0:49:46 > 0:49:47We're going down to the university,
0:49:47 > 0:49:50we've got this wonderful opportunity to pitch.
0:49:50 > 0:49:53It is really important that we get it right today.
0:49:53 > 0:49:57See what you can come up with to fill ten minutes.
0:49:57 > 0:50:01We will then hopefully go down to university and you can deliver it.
0:50:01 > 0:50:04- Is that OK? - No problem.
0:50:04 > 0:50:08Andy's been asked to deliver a speech about the organisation
0:50:08 > 0:50:11to a group of potential volunteers.
0:50:11 > 0:50:16If I give a good presentation, I expect a lot of them to come down
0:50:16 > 0:50:18and write their name down.
0:50:18 > 0:50:21With a bad presentation, we won't have anything,
0:50:21 > 0:50:27so it's up to me to give a reason why they should come.
0:50:35 > 0:50:39Care for... Care... Urgh!
0:50:39 > 0:50:42Refocus. Learn 2 Care.
0:50:42 > 0:50:45- Learn 2 Care.- That's it.
0:50:45 > 0:50:48I keep getting that wrong, I don't know why, I just do.
0:50:51 > 0:50:56- Hello, everybody.- AUDIENCE:- Hello. - Yey! That's better.
0:50:56 > 0:50:58Welcome to Learn 2 Care.
0:50:59 > 0:51:01- I'm Andy.- AUDIENCE:- Hi, Andy.
0:51:01 > 0:51:06Erm, getting on board is getting
0:51:06 > 0:51:12quite hard with these organisations, setting it up.
0:51:12 > 0:51:17You will notice that I cannot speak properly. I have had a stroke.
0:51:17 > 0:51:21Now I am like this, all right?
0:51:21 > 0:51:25So please, if I say anything where you think,
0:51:25 > 0:51:29"What the hell does he want?" ask, OK?
0:51:29 > 0:51:34What we want you to do is to volunteer. If you can come along,
0:51:34 > 0:51:42you could say, "I like the idea..." you just come up in the upstairs
0:51:42 > 0:51:47and sign your name on the piece of paper and we will contact you.
0:51:49 > 0:51:52From the moment I opened my mouth,
0:51:52 > 0:51:56I knew I was in trouble straight away.
0:51:56 > 0:52:00I should have got the words more correct in my head.
0:52:02 > 0:52:04What kind of things or, like, where...?
0:52:04 > 0:52:06How much can you give us?
0:52:06 > 0:52:08How much can you offer?
0:52:10 > 0:52:15Despite Andy's concerns, volunteers are beginning to come forward.
0:52:15 > 0:52:20Today was the first time in many years I've had a purpose.
0:52:21 > 0:52:25This job, I know I can do it, but it
0:52:25 > 0:52:27depends on whether Mike thinks I'm suitable or not.
0:52:27 > 0:52:32- All right?- Thank you.- And you.- Thank you very much.- And you, thank you.
0:52:42 > 0:52:46With my Tourette's, it has been quite the roller-coaster ride,
0:52:46 > 0:52:50because at the moment, I feel I'm going through a nice, quiet spell
0:52:50 > 0:52:52and while I'm doing that,
0:52:52 > 0:52:57I can get myself out there and push for employment.
0:52:58 > 0:53:02Ryan's Tourette's is taking a turn for the better
0:53:02 > 0:53:05and the aquatics centre has been back in touch.
0:53:05 > 0:53:08- Hello.- Hello, Ryan.- You all right? - Not too bad.
0:53:08 > 0:53:12I've got a call back for some feedback they want to give me,
0:53:12 > 0:53:16which is a bit surprising because I thought that was
0:53:16 > 0:53:20sort of the end of it, but I'll see what they've got to say.
0:53:20 > 0:53:24When you were on the work trial, I was a little bit nervous.
0:53:24 > 0:53:26There were a few awkward moments.
0:53:26 > 0:53:29Normally we have a no swearing on the shop floor policy.
0:53:29 > 0:53:32When there's a load of people my brain just goes, "Urgh!"
0:53:32 > 0:53:34Having said that, there wasn't a single bad word
0:53:34 > 0:53:38said from any of the customers that we spoke to after they'd been served by you.
0:53:38 > 0:53:40- Brilliant. - We do think you deserve a chance.
0:53:40 > 0:53:43You've got passion, you've got bundles of it.
0:53:43 > 0:53:48We've had a vacancy open up, just a couple of days a week, hands-on with the fish, feeding,
0:53:48 > 0:53:52cleaning, and we would like you on board as part of the team.
0:53:52 > 0:53:53That's brilliant.
0:53:54 > 0:53:57It's amazing. I'm really quite chuffed with myself, to be fair.
0:53:57 > 0:54:00- You definitely deserve it. - Thank you.
0:54:00 > 0:54:01Yeah, I'll be happy to do it.
0:54:03 > 0:54:05It feels good to be employable.
0:54:05 > 0:54:09I never thought I'd be employable. Whoo! Me mouth's a potty!
0:54:10 > 0:54:12I'm back and I'm back with a force.
0:54:12 > 0:54:15My horizons are a lot bigger than what I thought they were.
0:54:15 > 0:54:19Now, being offered the job, I'm over the moon.
0:54:19 > 0:54:23- I'm getting employed. - HE WHISTLES
0:54:23 > 0:54:25- Hi.- You all right?
0:54:25 > 0:54:29- How are you?- Not bad. Ooh!
0:54:29 > 0:54:33- I've got a job.- Well done.- I know.
0:54:33 > 0:54:36My God! Now you can wake up to something.
0:54:36 > 0:54:40You can get into a uniform and go, "Right, babe, I'm going to work."
0:54:40 > 0:54:42I can't wait!
0:54:43 > 0:54:47I am speechless. It's just unreal.
0:54:47 > 0:54:49It's just a great opportunity for him.
0:54:49 > 0:54:52To be told that anybody wants me is a big thing.
0:54:52 > 0:54:55I'm not going to let my condition beat me.
0:54:55 > 0:55:00I'm beyond happy. Reach for the stars!
0:55:11 > 0:55:13- Andy, come on in, take a seat. - Thank you.
0:55:16 > 0:55:20While Ryan has finally been accepted into the workforce,
0:55:20 > 0:55:24Andy's yet to discover whether he's done enough to secure a job.
0:55:24 > 0:55:26How do you think the day went?
0:55:26 > 0:55:30Erm, I thought I let it down.
0:55:34 > 0:55:37OK. The script wasn't word perfect, but you got out
0:55:37 > 0:55:42some of the key messages. I thought actually you captured them quite well.
0:55:42 > 0:55:45And I think they connected with you rather well.
0:55:45 > 0:55:49Our goal for the day was to get volunteers
0:55:49 > 0:55:54- and we accomplished that.- Yes. - We have.- We have, yeah.
0:55:54 > 0:55:56We've had a successful day.
0:55:57 > 0:55:59Good.
0:56:01 > 0:56:04Thank you very much for your hard work.
0:56:06 > 0:56:09We'd like to actually offer you the position,
0:56:09 > 0:56:12to come on board.
0:56:12 > 0:56:16And congratulations.
0:56:16 > 0:56:22That has been truly amazing, amazing. I mean, I've... I've not had a job
0:56:22 > 0:56:25offered to me since...
0:56:25 > 0:56:30Well, 30 years ago... was my last job offer.
0:56:31 > 0:56:34People didn't want to know me.
0:56:34 > 0:56:36People didn't want to know me because
0:56:36 > 0:56:40they couldn't see me the person,
0:56:40 > 0:56:44so I'm very, very, very much appreciated it.
0:56:44 > 0:56:48You were successful then and you're going to be successful again, so, yeah.
0:56:48 > 0:56:50Thank you. Thank you very much.
0:56:59 > 0:57:01I got a job.
0:57:01 > 0:57:04It's small but it's a job.
0:57:05 > 0:57:07Brilliant, just brilliant.
0:57:09 > 0:57:12I never thought anybody would say that to me,
0:57:12 > 0:57:20"Here is a job." A job. It's unbelievable, unbelievable.
0:57:20 > 0:57:25The last six years have been lost, but now it's given me purpose,
0:57:25 > 0:57:26pure and simple.
0:57:30 > 0:57:36It's superb to have a job, it's as simple as that.
0:57:36 > 0:57:39It's superb to have a job, end of.
0:57:49 > 0:57:51I do all of these things to make myself employable
0:57:51 > 0:57:55and I still don't have a job and...
0:57:55 > 0:57:57And I don't know why, to be honest.
0:57:58 > 0:58:01Welcome to life with a disabled person.
0:58:01 > 0:58:06- Hello?- ON PHONE:- Hello, is that Nicola?- It is.
0:58:06 > 0:58:12Just because I'm visually impaired doesn't mean I don't have the capability of thinking for myself.
0:58:12 > 0:58:14- They're not having my baby.- No.
0:58:14 > 0:58:18I'm concerned that you're putting this off, if I'm honest, Marve.
0:58:18 > 0:58:19I'm actually a bit concerned.