0:00:02 > 0:00:05'My name is Jazz. This is my mum Bev. I'm going to be 17 soon.
0:00:05 > 0:00:11'It'll be an extra special birthday, because it's the first one I'm going to spend with my dad, Paul.'
0:00:11 > 0:00:14'Brilliant. I didn't think I'd do anything with her,'
0:00:14 > 0:00:16because I didn't know that I'd ever see her again.
0:00:18 > 0:00:23My mum brought me up alone, because she found out my dad was using drugs.
0:00:23 > 0:00:27I thought, "I'll be looking after two children." I didn't want to do it.
0:00:27 > 0:00:30'By the time I was a year old, my dad was a homeless drug addict.
0:00:32 > 0:00:34'But now Dad's on a methadone programme
0:00:34 > 0:00:38'he's back in my life, and we're getting on well.
0:00:38 > 0:00:42'I only wish I could say the same about my other relationships.'
0:00:42 > 0:00:43Stop it, Jazz!
0:00:43 > 0:00:46'I don't have enough time for my boyfriend.'
0:00:46 > 0:00:50It's hard when you've got so many people to see at the weekend.
0:00:54 > 0:00:58'But the biggest problem I'm facing is that me and Mum used to be really close,
0:00:58 > 0:01:01'but now every time I see her, we fall out.'
0:01:01 > 0:01:03- No, you're not having another one. - Shut up!- No way.
0:01:03 > 0:01:05- Can you get your fingers off me?- No!
0:01:05 > 0:01:09'I'm hoping a holiday together will give us time to bond.'
0:01:09 > 0:01:11- Here at last.- I know! I'm so excited!
0:01:11 > 0:01:14'But in Marrakech, we go from being tourists...'
0:01:14 > 0:01:15Quick, quick, quick!
0:01:15 > 0:01:19'..to becoming a tourist attraction.'
0:01:19 > 0:01:22Notice how quickly we're being followed? It's like being Madonna.
0:01:24 > 0:01:29This is my life as a small teen exploring an even bigger world.
0:01:46 > 0:01:50I'm under four feet tall, but I have big plans for my future.
0:01:50 > 0:01:52I want to work with animals.
0:01:52 > 0:01:57To achieve my dream, I am studying animal welfare.
0:01:57 > 0:02:02I live here at college, and like many students, spend most evenings debating life's great questions.
0:02:02 > 0:02:04What do you think of this one?
0:02:04 > 0:02:06I think it's a bit cas, Jazz.
0:02:06 > 0:02:09Definitely, like, a little bit more flirty.
0:02:09 > 0:02:11What?! I'm not looking to pull, am I?!
0:02:11 > 0:02:15We are going to the cinema. You can't wear that to the cinema.
0:02:15 > 0:02:16True.
0:02:18 > 0:02:23'But it's not just us who are acting like teenagers.
0:02:23 > 0:02:27'Since my dad Paul has become part of my life again,
0:02:27 > 0:02:30'him and Mum have been flirting non-stop,
0:02:30 > 0:02:33'but now Dad has some competition.'
0:02:33 > 0:02:36This is my new friend...companion.
0:02:36 > 0:02:39- Is it?- It's...
0:02:39 > 0:02:42- Very sad, isn't he?- He's not sad! He's just jealous.
0:02:43 > 0:02:45I like the quiff.
0:02:45 > 0:02:50- But, listen, see that? Can you hear anything?- No.- He's not arguing back.
0:02:52 > 0:02:53Ah, that's good for you, innit?
0:02:53 > 0:02:57Do you like him? I need a name for him, though.
0:02:57 > 0:02:59Bob the blow-up boyfriend.
0:03:01 > 0:03:04If Bob does it for you, then go for it.
0:03:04 > 0:03:05He wants you to be his best man.
0:03:05 > 0:03:07BOTH LAUGH
0:03:07 > 0:03:09Yeah!
0:03:09 > 0:03:14Can you pass me that T-shirt that we bought at Christmas? I got it out specially.
0:03:14 > 0:03:18- Do you think it should be that way?- No.- Security.
0:03:18 > 0:03:21You definitely won't get burglars now, with him at the door.
0:03:22 > 0:03:24Right, you can go and do your jobs now.
0:03:24 > 0:03:26I've done them.
0:03:26 > 0:03:31You haven't, you haven't watered... And you can take all the things...
0:03:31 > 0:03:35We're going to have some quality alone time now.
0:03:35 > 0:03:39And Bob will be buying me a Valentine's card and a present.
0:03:40 > 0:03:43I know, I'm so excited.
0:03:43 > 0:03:45I can't go to Paris. I've been there and done that.
0:03:50 > 0:03:53'While Mum is playing with dolls, I've got work to do.
0:03:53 > 0:03:58'As part of my college course, I'm doing a placement at my local RSPCA.'
0:03:58 > 0:04:00- Hello!- Hiya, you OK?
0:04:00 > 0:04:02Yep. Right, what needs doing, then?
0:04:08 > 0:04:11'It's great to be working and to be treated like an adult.'
0:04:15 > 0:04:17People, when they first meet me
0:04:17 > 0:04:20and before they even speak to me, they treat me like a child,
0:04:20 > 0:04:22even if they know how old I am.
0:04:22 > 0:04:26Because they think, "Oh, she's small, she must have the brain of a child."
0:04:26 > 0:04:30And it's not true, it's like, I'm just as intelligent as everyone else.
0:04:30 > 0:04:32That's what I'm trying to prove.
0:04:33 > 0:04:37That I can function and live just like everyone else.
0:04:37 > 0:04:40And it does really annoy me sometimes.
0:04:44 > 0:04:46I'm really enjoying my work experience,
0:04:46 > 0:04:50but I can't wait for the weekend to come, because it's my 17th.
0:04:50 > 0:04:53This will be the first birthday I'll celebrate with my dad,
0:04:54 > 0:04:58so he's going to get me a special present and I know exactly what I want.
0:05:00 > 0:05:04I want a snake because I've got a lot more confident with them now.
0:05:04 > 0:05:08I wasn't very confident with them when I first started handling them.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10I would like one of my own.
0:05:10 > 0:05:13My mum said, after we got Paddy, our other dog,
0:05:13 > 0:05:18that I wouldn't be allowed any more pets, but we'll see.
0:05:21 > 0:05:24'I've been so busy I haven't told Dad what I want yet.'
0:05:24 > 0:05:26Obviously she'll want some sort of animal,
0:05:26 > 0:05:30but you buy her an animal - it's at your house.
0:05:30 > 0:05:33- OK? That's the rule. - Can't have any more animals.
0:05:33 > 0:05:35She will pull your heartstrings.
0:05:35 > 0:05:39When we went to pick up your fish, she was all over the lizards
0:05:39 > 0:05:42- and how beautiful they are and how she'd love one.- Yeah, yeah.
0:05:42 > 0:05:44I'll say this at me peril...
0:05:44 > 0:05:47but she can't have any more animals.
0:05:47 > 0:05:49She can. Oh, she can. She will be.
0:05:51 > 0:05:53I'm really, really worried,
0:05:53 > 0:05:56'because she has not seen him'
0:05:56 > 0:06:00for 16 years and this is his first birthday present to her.
0:06:00 > 0:06:02So whatever she wants,
0:06:02 > 0:06:04'she's going to have.
0:06:04 > 0:06:07'From a giraffe to an elephant,'
0:06:07 > 0:06:09he would buy her anything.
0:06:17 > 0:06:21'Jazz has asked for a snake and Bev's said no.'
0:06:23 > 0:06:27So she's come and asked me, and I just said yes straightaway.
0:06:31 > 0:06:33Hi, I'm here to get a corn snake.
0:06:36 > 0:06:38Any particular one, or just...?
0:06:38 > 0:06:42I'm not really bothered about the colouring - it's the temperament, really.
0:06:46 > 0:06:47They're nice colours, innit?
0:06:47 > 0:06:52- Yeah.- Bit more lively, this one. - Oh, decisions, decisions.
0:06:52 > 0:06:54I'm going to find this really hard to choose.
0:06:54 > 0:06:58'I think I do have a bit of a pet addiction, really. I say,
0:06:58 > 0:07:01' "No more after this one, no more after this one,"
0:07:01 > 0:07:05'and I end up getting about ten more. They make me really happy.'
0:07:05 > 0:07:08I think that first one was still really nice.
0:07:08 > 0:07:10Do you want to hold it?
0:07:10 > 0:07:11Yeah, go on, then.
0:07:11 > 0:07:14Just put your hand out like that.
0:07:14 > 0:07:18- I really like this one.- I think that's the best one, that.
0:07:18 > 0:07:23Cos it's not bothered that you're handling him, is it?
0:07:23 > 0:07:26It's important to me for her to have what she wants, really,
0:07:26 > 0:07:29'because this is the first birthday with her,'
0:07:29 > 0:07:31so I just want her to have what she wants.
0:07:32 > 0:07:35- I think I'm going to go for this one.- Yeah?
0:07:35 > 0:07:37We'll get that one, I think. That'll be the best.
0:07:37 > 0:07:39'Brilliant doing this with her,'
0:07:39 > 0:07:42cos I didn't think I'd ever be doing anything with her
0:07:42 > 0:07:45cos I didn't know that I'd ever see her again.
0:07:45 > 0:07:48I can't wait to get it home and in its new house and...
0:07:48 > 0:07:52- And your mum can't say no, can she? - No, exactly!
0:07:52 > 0:07:56I think it's brought us a lot closer together, choosing an animal.
0:07:56 > 0:07:58He's learning about what I like
0:07:58 > 0:08:03and I think it's just a nice birthday thing to do.
0:08:03 > 0:08:05- Thank you.- Thank you.- Thank you, Dad!
0:08:05 > 0:08:06OK, love.
0:08:06 > 0:08:08'Another little pet'
0:08:08 > 0:08:10to add to the menagerie!
0:08:10 > 0:08:15And who will be looking after it in two weeks' time when she's back at college?
0:08:15 > 0:08:18Moi! See, I know French.
0:08:22 > 0:08:27It's my birthday today and for Mum, the memories come flooding back.
0:08:27 > 0:08:29What time is it now?
0:08:29 > 0:08:30Twelve o'clock.
0:08:30 > 0:08:34- Oh. This is the time she was born. - Right, here you are.
0:08:34 > 0:08:37Sorry. Stupid, aren't I?
0:08:37 > 0:08:40Remembering the day I was born is difficult for Mum and Dad.
0:08:40 > 0:08:45It was the beginning of my life, but the end of their relationship.
0:08:47 > 0:08:48Have you got a pen?
0:08:53 > 0:08:56HE MOUTHS
0:09:05 > 0:09:09Dad has now been back in our lives for nearly four months.
0:09:09 > 0:09:11But writing a birthday card together
0:09:11 > 0:09:14is still a new experience for both Mum and Dad.
0:09:14 > 0:09:16- I'm sorry... - Never written one before.
0:09:16 > 0:09:20We didn't even write a Christmas card together.
0:09:20 > 0:09:24"I'm here for your birthday and I will be here for ever.
0:09:24 > 0:09:26"Love you loads." Then put kisses.
0:09:28 > 0:09:2917 kisses.
0:09:34 > 0:09:38- I feel so old! Do I look it? - SHE CHUCKLES
0:09:38 > 0:09:40- No.- You're not even looking at me!
0:09:40 > 0:09:42I don't need to look at you.
0:09:42 > 0:09:46- You went, "No."- I look at you 24 hours a day.- Such a typical bloke.
0:09:46 > 0:09:51I said, "Do I look all right?" And you went, "Yeah." You weren't even looking at me.
0:09:51 > 0:09:53Because I look at you 24 hours a day, that's why.
0:09:53 > 0:09:58- No, you don't. That's just stalking, that's weird! - BOTH LAUGH
0:10:00 > 0:10:04We actually went out and bought this together. We stood in the shop,
0:10:04 > 0:10:07I picked this up and I started reading the words,
0:10:07 > 0:10:11and I always know the right card cos I cry, and Paul went,
0:10:11 > 0:10:13"£1.79?!"
0:10:13 > 0:10:16- First time me wallet has been open for ages! - BOTH LAUGH
0:10:18 > 0:10:22"From your dysfunctional mummy and daddy."
0:10:22 > 0:10:25I don't know how she's grown up so normal.
0:10:31 > 0:10:35As a birthday treat, Mum has organised for me and Naomi to be pampered.
0:10:35 > 0:10:41I'm so relieved, as normally she arranges surprise parties for me, and I hate surprise parties.
0:10:42 > 0:10:46ALL: # Happy birthday, dear Jasmine... #
0:10:46 > 0:10:50# Happy birthday to you! #
0:10:50 > 0:10:52Where is she?
0:10:52 > 0:10:55'But Mum loves birthdays and making a fuss.'
0:10:55 > 0:10:58Oh! LAUGHTER
0:11:04 > 0:11:05Bye.
0:11:08 > 0:11:11Right, I'm off to meet Jazz now.
0:11:11 > 0:11:14She's going to absolutely blow her top.
0:11:14 > 0:11:17She hates surprises, she hates birthday parties.
0:11:17 > 0:11:20She hates all that, and I've done it anyway.
0:11:20 > 0:11:24And I still haven't got my make-up on and I'm ten minutes late, as usual.
0:11:24 > 0:11:26So I'm going to run into the toilets now,
0:11:26 > 0:11:31and then you might get the end of me being killed. Bye!
0:11:33 > 0:11:37Last year, my 16th birthday turned out not to be the big celebration
0:11:37 > 0:11:39me and Mum had dreamt of.
0:11:40 > 0:11:43Mum had had a breakdown and we were in Hemel Hempstead,
0:11:43 > 0:11:47hundreds of miles away from my grandparents and my friends.
0:11:47 > 0:11:51Now, a year on, things are very different.
0:11:51 > 0:11:53- ALL:- Surprise!
0:11:53 > 0:11:55# Happy birthday to you... #
0:11:55 > 0:11:58'I knew it was too good to be true.
0:11:58 > 0:12:00'Mum HAS organised a surprise party.
0:12:00 > 0:12:02'I wish she would listen to what I want,
0:12:02 > 0:12:07'but at least it means this year I've got all my friends and family around me.'
0:12:07 > 0:12:09It was your dad's idea!
0:12:09 > 0:12:12Everything is completely different.
0:12:12 > 0:12:14'My last birthday, I felt very lonely,'
0:12:14 > 0:12:16very unsettled.
0:12:16 > 0:12:19Can we have a little drink now, please, to celebrate?
0:12:19 > 0:12:23Now I know where I'm living, I know what I'm doing, I'm in college,
0:12:23 > 0:12:26my dad's here, my brother's here, I've got Naomi back
0:12:26 > 0:12:29and it's all so much more settled.
0:12:29 > 0:12:32Speech! Speech!
0:12:32 > 0:12:33She's still my baby.
0:12:37 > 0:12:39ALL CHEER
0:12:39 > 0:12:43She will never grow up to me. She's going to be my baby for ever.
0:12:43 > 0:12:46I'm proud of what she's turning into.
0:12:46 > 0:12:48Cheddar!
0:12:50 > 0:12:53Oh, that is a beauty, that, yes.
0:12:53 > 0:12:55That's one definitely for the album.
0:13:01 > 0:13:05But there was someone missing from my birthday celebrations -
0:13:05 > 0:13:06my boyfriend Levi.
0:13:10 > 0:13:12'When I first met Levi, it was all flowers and excitement.'
0:13:13 > 0:13:17- How are you, darling?- I do feel so much better.- Oh, good.
0:13:17 > 0:13:19'But a couple of months into the relationship,
0:13:19 > 0:13:23'we're struggling to spend time together.'
0:13:23 > 0:13:25I just don't get to see you.
0:13:25 > 0:13:28I'm always there for you down the phone.
0:13:28 > 0:13:31It's just really hard when you've got so many people to see at the weekend.
0:13:31 > 0:13:34- It's all hectic.- Yeah.
0:13:34 > 0:13:38It's so annoying with college and that. It's going to be another whole week.
0:13:38 > 0:13:40- I know. It's horrible.- Yeah.
0:13:40 > 0:13:45'Even though Levi is lovely, juggling dating and college is really hard.
0:13:45 > 0:13:48'I hardly ever have time for my friend Naomi.'
0:13:48 > 0:13:50- How's it going with Levi? - It's great at the start.
0:13:50 > 0:13:54Like, it's all the thrill of the chase and all that,
0:13:54 > 0:13:56and after it's like, "Oh, God."
0:13:56 > 0:14:00I think I'm just really trying to just focus on my studies at the moment.
0:14:00 > 0:14:02I'm just throwing myself into my work,
0:14:02 > 0:14:06cos this is such an amazing opportunity, I can't pass it up.
0:14:06 > 0:14:11I just feel distracted at the moment with everything going on.
0:14:11 > 0:14:12Focus on your work.
0:14:12 > 0:14:14Yes, teacher!
0:14:21 > 0:14:25Talking to Naomi makes me think I'm being pulled in too many directions.
0:14:25 > 0:14:26Something has to give.
0:14:29 > 0:14:35I've known Levi quite a while now, but I've known my friends since I was six. It's a big difference
0:14:35 > 0:14:39and I'm not going to put that at risk for anyone,
0:14:39 > 0:14:43because they mean the world to me. And so does he
0:14:43 > 0:14:48but it's just sort of getting awkward now, getting really awkward,
0:14:48 > 0:14:51because he wants to spend all this time with me and I don't want to.
0:14:53 > 0:14:56Not many people marry and live happily ever after
0:14:56 > 0:15:00with their first 16, 17-year-old boyfriend
0:15:00 > 0:15:02that you meet at school or college.
0:15:02 > 0:15:06It's just too serious for me. I'm 16.
0:15:06 > 0:15:08I've got so much on,
0:15:08 > 0:15:12I just want to chill and just do what I want, when I want.
0:15:13 > 0:15:17She has to go through the good and the bad bit, and I've just got to be there
0:15:17 > 0:15:22and I can't give relationship advice. Really not the person.
0:15:22 > 0:15:24Jasmine's always said to me,
0:15:24 > 0:15:28"Your track record, Mum, speaks for itself."
0:15:32 > 0:15:37It was really difficult to do, but I ended my relationship with Levi.
0:15:46 > 0:15:51But at least I've got something to distract me - my snake, Bubblegum.
0:15:51 > 0:15:55Mum's given in and is allowing him to live in the flat.
0:15:55 > 0:15:57It's not pleasant.
0:15:58 > 0:16:02We have to put a little baby mouse in a pot
0:16:02 > 0:16:06and heat it up a bit, defrost it.
0:16:06 > 0:16:11I always feel really guilty, like it's my fault, you know,
0:16:11 > 0:16:15that that mouse died, but it's nature and I know that.
0:16:15 > 0:16:18It was quite hard to get used to but now it's fine.
0:16:18 > 0:16:23I don't see it as a baby mouse any more, really. I just see it as food.
0:16:23 > 0:16:26Oh, its guts are coming out. Oh, God.
0:16:28 > 0:16:30I'm sorry, mousey.
0:16:31 > 0:16:35'But Mum is still not happy with my choice of pet.'
0:16:35 > 0:16:38I'm just going to ignore it.
0:16:40 > 0:16:44- Jasmine calls them pinkies. I'm not looking.- They are pinkies.
0:16:44 > 0:16:46They're not - they're dead, frozen mice.
0:16:46 > 0:16:51I like snakes. I just don't like this bit,
0:16:51 > 0:16:54where she gets, from my freezer,
0:16:54 > 0:16:57with my veggie burgers and all the rest of it,
0:16:57 > 0:17:01in a packet, some dead, frozen mouse - a baby one -
0:17:01 > 0:17:03and then melts it or something.
0:17:03 > 0:17:04Oh, God.
0:17:05 > 0:17:07Please don't bite me.
0:17:07 > 0:17:11You see, Dad bought this cos she wanted one.
0:17:11 > 0:17:15I said, "No, we don't need any more pets."
0:17:15 > 0:17:18There you go - have your dead mouse.
0:17:18 > 0:17:20Dinner! Lovely.
0:17:20 > 0:17:22Don't be getting out.
0:17:22 > 0:17:25Yeah, DON'T be getting out.
0:17:25 > 0:17:29If it ever gets out, it's going. It's going.
0:17:31 > 0:17:33Isn't that lovely?
0:17:33 > 0:17:35Oh, look at the size of its gob.
0:17:35 > 0:17:37- Mouth.- Sorry.
0:17:37 > 0:17:42Gob's...common. Cos I'm dead posh and you're dead posh, remember?
0:17:42 > 0:17:46- And are you still deciding to call him Bubblegum?- Yeah.
0:17:46 > 0:17:48- You haven't changed it?- No.
0:17:48 > 0:17:51It's such a cute name. But when you see it, you think,
0:17:51 > 0:17:54"Oh, what if it gets out?"
0:17:54 > 0:17:58Its name is officially going on its papers.
0:17:58 > 0:18:00Right, let's put you back now.
0:18:00 > 0:18:02Nice and safely.
0:18:02 > 0:18:04Put the padlock on.
0:18:04 > 0:18:07I wonder what that little mouse's name was,
0:18:07 > 0:18:11before it was murdered and then stuck in a freezer.
0:18:13 > 0:18:15There you go.
0:18:15 > 0:18:17He's getting bigger.
0:18:17 > 0:18:22Oh, good. Is it going to stay in that tank for ever?
0:18:22 > 0:18:25- No, I'll get it a bigger tank. - Why do you need a bigger tank?
0:18:25 > 0:18:28- Cos it'll grow bigger. - Yeah, but only that much.
0:18:28 > 0:18:31No, it is one of the smallest snake species in the world,
0:18:31 > 0:18:34but it still grows about four foot.
0:18:34 > 0:18:35I'm sorry?
0:18:35 > 0:18:38- That's going to grow to four foot tall?- Maximum.
0:18:38 > 0:18:42And it's staying in... A four-foot snake?
0:18:42 > 0:18:44And he'll be about that thick.
0:18:44 > 0:18:46No.
0:18:46 > 0:18:49I can't believe you've got an animal that's bigger than me!
0:18:54 > 0:18:58It will soon be half term and Mum wants to take me on holiday
0:18:58 > 0:19:00and, of course, that means shopping!
0:19:00 > 0:19:03Not too much money in here, love, please.
0:19:03 > 0:19:05Yep, OK.
0:19:06 > 0:19:09- Right, what kind of things do you still need?- Jogging stuff.
0:19:09 > 0:19:12Jogging stuff. Why? Are you jogging?
0:19:12 > 0:19:14Oh, that's nice, isn't it?
0:19:14 > 0:19:16- No.- Isn't it?- No.- OK.
0:19:16 > 0:19:19- Well, they're nice. - Nope, definitely not.
0:19:19 > 0:19:21- I like that.- No.- No?- No.
0:19:21 > 0:19:24- I don't know your taste any more. - I don't like that.
0:19:24 > 0:19:29- You seem to change, it's like... That's you, with the petals.- No.
0:19:29 > 0:19:32I get messages going, "Isn't your Jasmine lovely?"
0:19:32 > 0:19:36I go out to the shop, "Isn't your Jasmine lovely?" Is she?
0:19:36 > 0:19:40There's a time when you'd have gone, "Mum, they're gorgeous".
0:19:40 > 0:19:43And now I don't know what to say.
0:19:43 > 0:19:44They're terrible.
0:19:44 > 0:19:47No, they aren't. I like that, though.
0:19:47 > 0:19:50- That's awful.- See?
0:19:50 > 0:19:53We've got completely different styles, absolutely different.
0:19:53 > 0:19:56My mum wears a lot of flowery,
0:19:56 > 0:20:00sort of...like "indie-ish" clothes.
0:20:00 > 0:20:04- I like these, that's pretty.- No. - For me?- No.
0:20:04 > 0:20:06- How about for me?- So last century.
0:20:06 > 0:20:08I AM last century!
0:20:08 > 0:20:13In the last year, she has become a typical teenager
0:20:13 > 0:20:18and the never-has-anything-to-wear syndrome.
0:20:18 > 0:20:21- Jazz, what about these earrings?- No.
0:20:21 > 0:20:25- I would think, "Yeah, Jazz would like something like that."- No.
0:20:25 > 0:20:30- You used to wear something like that, remember?- Used to. - And we lost it and you went mad.
0:20:30 > 0:20:33I'm very...skinny jeans, black and white.
0:20:33 > 0:20:36She will wear ridiculous amounts of jewellery.
0:20:36 > 0:20:37She'll have it up to there.
0:20:37 > 0:20:41I'm not going to say anything. Everything I like, you go, "That's horrible".
0:20:41 > 0:20:43- Oh, I like that.- No.
0:20:43 > 0:20:46- What do you think? - No, definitely not.
0:20:46 > 0:20:48And if I say, "Will you stop being like this?"
0:20:48 > 0:20:52"Er, you'll find all teenagers are like this."
0:20:52 > 0:20:53No, not all of them.
0:20:53 > 0:20:56Oh, Jazz, can I just try these on?
0:20:56 > 0:20:59- They're terrible. - Come and look with me. Look.
0:20:59 > 0:21:02THEY LAUGH
0:21:02 > 0:21:04You don't have to be a typical teenager,
0:21:04 > 0:21:07because I will start being a typical mother.
0:21:07 > 0:21:08Terrible.
0:21:08 > 0:21:11No-one will recognise me.
0:21:11 > 0:21:14Just walk away.
0:21:14 > 0:21:15BEV GIGGLES
0:21:15 > 0:21:18One of the reasons I don't buy clothes for you...
0:21:18 > 0:21:20D'you remember I used to buy you a load of stuff?
0:21:20 > 0:21:24- I wouldn't let you dress me now.- Why? I wouldn't dream of it any more.
0:21:24 > 0:21:26Them days are over.
0:21:27 > 0:21:32'Not letting Mum pick my clothes isn't the only way our relationship has changed.'
0:21:32 > 0:21:35Wouldn't you be better with your shoes on?
0:21:37 > 0:21:40'We used to be really close,
0:21:40 > 0:21:44'especially after I was badly bullied at school about my size.
0:21:45 > 0:21:50'It was a really unhappy time for me, so Mum began teaching me at home.
0:21:50 > 0:21:53'We spent every minute of every day together.
0:21:55 > 0:21:59'For 16 years, Mum's life was totally focused on bringing me up.
0:22:02 > 0:22:06'But now she hardly sees me because I live at college.'
0:22:06 > 0:22:08If you keep your arm out, he's quite happy there.
0:22:08 > 0:22:11They're lovely, they are.
0:22:11 > 0:22:16Mine and my Mum's relationship is changing quite a lot, quite quickly.
0:22:19 > 0:22:25It's strange to just completely go from living with my mum 24/7
0:22:25 > 0:22:27and being so dependent on her, to coming...
0:22:27 > 0:22:29Living in a new environment.
0:22:31 > 0:22:33They call it the "empty nest syndrome".
0:22:33 > 0:22:39Jazz isn't just my daughter - Jazz has been my life for 16 years.
0:22:39 > 0:22:43I thought, "What am I going to do instead? What's going to be better than that?"
0:22:44 > 0:22:48Jasmine was her little girl and all of a sudden,
0:22:48 > 0:22:50she became a teenager, she became a woman.
0:22:52 > 0:22:54It's been very, very hard for Bev.
0:22:54 > 0:22:56The baby's flown the nest.
0:22:56 > 0:22:58It's like reaching for her
0:22:58 > 0:22:59and she's just out of reach.
0:22:59 > 0:23:04The feeling that you've lost something is there.
0:23:04 > 0:23:07I miss her.
0:23:07 > 0:23:09And the first two months,
0:23:09 > 0:23:13I didn't even realise that I was angry with her
0:23:13 > 0:23:15for, "How dare she be away?"
0:23:15 > 0:23:17Stop it, Jazz!
0:23:17 > 0:23:21We've been arguing a lot. Like, most weekends we argue.
0:23:21 > 0:23:24- Don't tell me what to buy. - You don't need loads of bottles.
0:23:24 > 0:23:27I'll go and buy 20 now, just to annoy you.
0:23:27 > 0:23:32- Don't even know the names. - You being sarcastic? - Trying to cheer myself up.
0:23:32 > 0:23:34You were just having a go at me.
0:23:34 > 0:23:38'We just can't seem to see eye-to-eye at the moment.'
0:23:40 > 0:23:44I think I'm going to start being less bright blonde.
0:23:44 > 0:23:47Ooh, look at that. That's just wire.
0:23:47 > 0:23:48You go down, up.
0:23:48 > 0:23:54- No, I want this bit to be light and this bit darker.- This bit's...
0:23:54 > 0:23:57'I don't know whether it's just us adjusting
0:23:57 > 0:24:00'to living away from each other, or whether it's me.
0:24:00 > 0:24:05'I don't know whether it's me being awkward or argumentative.
0:24:05 > 0:24:07'I cant really put my finger on what it is.'
0:24:07 > 0:24:10- Bit more wine.- I never see you without a drink in your hand.
0:24:10 > 0:24:13Ow! You're hurting me on purpose now.
0:24:13 > 0:24:14I'm not! It's caught!
0:24:14 > 0:24:18'She sometimes forgets that one glass of wine to her,
0:24:18 > 0:24:20'cos of her body size and weight,
0:24:20 > 0:24:24'that's like having two or three glasses of wine every night.'
0:24:24 > 0:24:26- Mum.- What?- Sit still.
0:24:26 > 0:24:29- I'm pouring my drink out. - You're not having another one.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31- Sod off!- No way! - It's had apple juice in.
0:24:31 > 0:24:36- Move.- You drink every day for the last two weeks. No!
0:24:36 > 0:24:40- Dad, have I drunk every day for the last two weeks?- No.- Thank you.
0:24:40 > 0:24:42You told me you've had at least one every day.
0:24:42 > 0:24:45- So why are you telling me different? - Get your fingers off me!
0:24:45 > 0:24:50- No! Let me finish your hair!- I'll drink it out the bottle, then.- I don't care. Let me finish your hair!
0:24:50 > 0:24:52Let me finish your hair!
0:24:53 > 0:24:55God!
0:24:56 > 0:25:00Jazz, I've worked very hard on lots of things.
0:25:00 > 0:25:04No, you haven't today. You haven't worked hard today.
0:25:04 > 0:25:07'What Jazz does an awful lot of is'
0:25:07 > 0:25:09"What have you been doing?", to me.
0:25:09 > 0:25:13I potter all day. I do things like put the washing in,
0:25:13 > 0:25:16then put it on there to dry and then do this and then do that,
0:25:16 > 0:25:19then ring up for this and then book that, not all for me.
0:25:19 > 0:25:24I have to give her a list of what I've been doing with my day.
0:25:24 > 0:25:28To my own daughter, in my own house.
0:25:28 > 0:25:31- Mostly phone work.- Yeah, and I make sure all the bills are paid.
0:25:31 > 0:25:34Is that a typical teenager? I don't know.
0:25:34 > 0:25:36- It's blue.- What?
0:25:36 > 0:25:38- It's blue.- I've got blue hair?
0:25:40 > 0:25:44- You can see you haven't got blue hair!- What did you say it's blue for?
0:25:45 > 0:25:48Mum doesn't seem to understand that I'm not being a stroppy teenager.
0:25:48 > 0:25:52I just desperately want to break free.
0:25:52 > 0:25:55But it's not as easy for me to stop relying on others,
0:25:55 > 0:25:58especially when it comes to getting around.
0:25:58 > 0:26:02Where there's a lot of walking to do, it's really not possible.
0:26:02 > 0:26:06We have to remember that one of our strides is three of Jasmine's.
0:26:06 > 0:26:10'In the past I've used my mobility scooter,
0:26:10 > 0:26:12'but it does nothing for my street cred.'
0:26:13 > 0:26:16- Will you be able to take me? - I will, indeed.
0:26:16 > 0:26:17It's only two minutes away.
0:26:17 > 0:26:19'Grandad's amazing about giving me lifts,
0:26:19 > 0:26:22'but I can't wait to be independent.'
0:26:22 > 0:26:27Grandad, will you be around on Sunday to take me back to college?
0:26:27 > 0:26:30Yeah, Sundays I'm always available for you to go to college.
0:26:30 > 0:26:34- Next weekend we might go to the zoo - can you drop me?- Yeah.- Thank you.
0:26:38 > 0:26:42Now I'm 17, I really want to learn to drive
0:26:42 > 0:26:44But before I can get behind the wheel of a car,
0:26:44 > 0:26:47I have to pass my theory test.
0:26:47 > 0:26:49"When should you use hazard warning lights?"
0:26:51 > 0:26:55- "When your vehicle's broken down and is causing an obstruction."- A must.
0:26:55 > 0:26:59I used to teach people to drive in 1956 when I came out of the Army,
0:26:59 > 0:27:02so I've been slowly but surely
0:27:02 > 0:27:06teaching her all these little tricks of the trade.
0:27:06 > 0:27:09- This is... - Another one you told me wrong!
0:27:09 > 0:27:13- This is slowing-down signal. - I think you're trying to sabotage me.
0:27:13 > 0:27:15Oh, yeah. This is "overtake me", right?
0:27:15 > 0:27:18'I think Grandad's signals might be a bit out of date.'
0:27:18 > 0:27:21This is "overtake me" and that's "turn left".
0:27:21 > 0:27:25- No, it's not. - No, it's the other way round.- Oh.
0:27:25 > 0:27:30Now she's like 17, she's a little bit lippy,
0:27:30 > 0:27:34and so I get more back off her than I can give to her nowadays.
0:27:34 > 0:27:36- I don't think you should do your test.- Yeah, cos I'd fail.
0:27:36 > 0:27:39- Let's do part two. - Only been driving 53 years.
0:27:39 > 0:27:43It's just tremendous banter with her nowadays, it really is.
0:27:43 > 0:27:46When I was in the garage as a 15-year-old lad
0:27:46 > 0:27:50and used to go in the old 1938 Ford... No, the Morris...
0:27:50 > 0:27:51I don't want to hear your sob stories.
0:27:51 > 0:27:54I don't want to hear your sob stories.
0:27:54 > 0:27:59..to the cake shop... The only thing you rode in them days were the trams.
0:27:59 > 0:28:02- You are just trying to change the subject.- No.
0:28:02 > 0:28:05Stop trying to distract me.
0:28:05 > 0:28:08The chief mechanic said to me, "Just avoid the trams,"
0:28:08 > 0:28:10cos nobody else had a car in them days.
0:28:13 > 0:28:16I've been studying driving theory for a month
0:28:16 > 0:28:19and tomorrow, I sit the test.
0:28:19 > 0:28:22I think, Jazz, that when you go for this test,
0:28:22 > 0:28:25you may just be better on your own,
0:28:25 > 0:28:27doing your own thing.
0:28:27 > 0:28:31All I'm saying is, if you're stuck, use common sense, and I've seen you doing that.
0:28:40 > 0:28:42How you feeling about if you do pass?
0:28:42 > 0:28:45Terrified.
0:28:45 > 0:28:47No, no. If you do pass, how would you feel?
0:28:47 > 0:28:51Still terrified cos that would mean I'll have to learn to drive.
0:28:51 > 0:28:53I know you'll do it, love.
0:28:53 > 0:28:57- Oh, God.- Jazz, you can only do your best.- I know.
0:28:57 > 0:28:59I love you. Whatever happens, I love ya.
0:29:01 > 0:29:04I wasn't the only one who was nervous.
0:29:04 > 0:29:07Nan and Grandad were too, as they waited at home for news.
0:29:07 > 0:29:11- But when you actually go in a room...- It's just the nerves.
0:29:11 > 0:29:15It's like that programme we watch - Anne Robinson. Weakest Link.
0:29:15 > 0:29:18- I'm a bit nervous.- If she's not passed, she can do it again.
0:29:18 > 0:29:23At least next time she'll know and she won't have the same nerves, will she, next time?
0:29:23 > 0:29:25Ooh, she's here!
0:29:25 > 0:29:28- Is it good news?- Is it good or bad?
0:29:28 > 0:29:31Don't get too excited, but I passed!
0:29:31 > 0:29:34CHEERING AND LAUGHTER
0:29:38 > 0:29:40I knew you would!
0:29:42 > 0:29:43I did it!
0:29:45 > 0:29:48- How many marks did you get? - 49 out of 50.
0:29:48 > 0:29:50- How many?- 49 out of 50!
0:29:50 > 0:29:51Oh!
0:29:51 > 0:29:55Absolutely amazing.
0:29:55 > 0:29:56Oh, God!
0:29:56 > 0:29:59It's just amazing.
0:29:59 > 0:30:03- Thank you for...trying to help me pass.- Yeah.- Yes.
0:30:07 > 0:30:10For the next week, my dad will be looking after Bubblegum
0:30:10 > 0:30:14and all my other pets, as I'm going on holiday with Mum.
0:30:14 > 0:30:16Me and Mum really need a holiday.
0:30:16 > 0:30:21We've always, always wanted to go to Marrakech in Morocco.
0:30:21 > 0:30:23We both love travelling.
0:30:23 > 0:30:27It's the one thing we share together that is what we both enjoy.
0:30:30 > 0:30:36I'm going to be wearing greyish things, like those. So they'll go.
0:30:36 > 0:30:39- We don't want the bright pink ones at all?- No, no.
0:30:41 > 0:30:43They're coming out, then.
0:30:43 > 0:30:45And then maybe one or two going-out-y shoes.
0:30:45 > 0:30:49- But we can't take much more than that.- Yeah, I know. We can't just wear them for seven days.
0:30:51 > 0:30:55- How cool is that?- Mm-hm. - No, really?- Yeah...
0:30:55 > 0:30:57All right, not with the dressing gown.
0:30:57 > 0:31:00I'm more or less... That is me done.
0:31:00 > 0:31:04'When we go to a new country, we like to learn a bit of the language,
0:31:04 > 0:31:08'so we can totally immerse ourselves in the culture.'
0:31:08 > 0:31:13- Is there any phrases that you particularly think that you need? - "I don't want to buy that."
0:31:13 > 0:31:19- Cos I know they...- "I don't want to buy that"?- Or, "No, thank you."
0:31:19 > 0:31:22- Right, "kif-kif"...- "Kif-kif."
0:31:22 > 0:31:25..meaning, "Whatever, we'll see." "Kif-kif." Really easy.
0:31:25 > 0:31:29- Imshi.- We know what "imshi" is - what's "imshi" mean?
0:31:29 > 0:31:34- You tell me - I know what it is. - When you have to be impolite and they get on your nerves,
0:31:34 > 0:31:38you do this, look. See, what they do, they go, "Imshi."
0:31:38 > 0:31:41"Saphi" means "that's enough".
0:31:41 > 0:31:44You're learning all the words for "bugger off", basically.
0:31:44 > 0:31:49"Piss off, bugger off, go away, get lost, leave me alone." All them words.
0:31:49 > 0:31:52Is that what you're learning?!
0:31:54 > 0:32:00And I'm learning, "Hello, how are you?" You'll be going, "Imshi, imshi!"
0:32:00 > 0:32:03In fact, that's probably the only word you'll use in Arabic.
0:32:03 > 0:32:08I think you're better learning that one - "very sorry". "Ana asif".
0:32:08 > 0:32:14Very easy. "Ana asif." "Ana, ana asif" - "very, very sorry."
0:32:14 > 0:32:19And then you can just do that. I'm sure that translates in all languages.
0:32:19 > 0:32:22And then just to do a funny face, and then go to me, "Imshi."
0:32:22 > 0:32:28"I'm very sorry, my mum is drunk, I will take her back to the hotel!"
0:32:28 > 0:32:31Could you learn that line?
0:32:31 > 0:32:34'I'm hoping that spending time with Mum will help bring us closer again.'
0:32:34 > 0:32:38Why is this so much more important than any other holiday?
0:32:38 > 0:32:43- Cos we haven't got to spend time together, have we?- No.- In ages.
0:32:43 > 0:32:45I'll wake up with you, go to sleep with you.
0:32:45 > 0:32:49We'll eat together. We'll pick clothes together,
0:32:49 > 0:32:52- we'll do girly shopping together. - Me-and-you time.
0:32:52 > 0:32:56- Me and you and the rest of Marrakech.- Yep.
0:33:00 > 0:33:04- I can't promise to behave but I promise to have fun.- Yeah.
0:33:06 > 0:33:10Me and Mum have travelled to 18 different countries together,
0:33:10 > 0:33:13and done some amazing things.
0:33:13 > 0:33:19Beverly has never allowed her disability to stop her from doing anything or going anywhere.
0:33:19 > 0:33:22And off they go and you worry - you do worry about them.
0:33:24 > 0:33:26But Nan and Grandad have no need to worry.
0:33:26 > 0:33:28We're really excited to arrive in Marrakech.
0:33:28 > 0:33:30Taxi!
0:33:31 > 0:33:34Riad La Rose. Yeah?
0:33:36 > 0:33:38- Here at last! - I know! I'm so excited!
0:33:43 > 0:33:48Marrakech is beautiful, busy, colourful, inspiring, overwhelming, you know.
0:33:48 > 0:33:50It's such an amazing place.
0:33:53 > 0:33:57The colours. Just, pow!
0:33:57 > 0:33:59Look at that, Jazz! That is original!
0:33:59 > 0:34:02- Look, there's oranges growing, look, look!- Yeah!
0:34:02 > 0:34:06- Oh, wouldn't you just love to stop there now?- Wow.
0:34:06 > 0:34:10I'm sure I must have annoyed her. "Jazz, look at that, look at this!"
0:34:10 > 0:34:11Look at that!
0:34:11 > 0:34:13I'm nudging... "Look at this, look at this!"
0:34:13 > 0:34:18- Aw, look at that place!- Yeah. - Wouldn't you love to just sit in there tonight?
0:34:18 > 0:34:21I just... I can't wait to get out and see it all.
0:34:21 > 0:34:25It's like, "Oh, look, look, look at that little shop! Look at this, look at this!"
0:34:25 > 0:34:27Oh, my God! Look at that donkey!
0:34:27 > 0:34:29Oh, quick, quick, quick!
0:34:29 > 0:34:34- Look at the fruit on it. Wouldn't that look a fabulous picture? - It would be an amazing picture.
0:34:34 > 0:34:37I just love the way it comes alive at night, this place.
0:34:37 > 0:34:39I am absolutely amazed.
0:34:39 > 0:34:42Yeah, I can't wait to get up tomorrow morning,
0:34:42 > 0:34:45feeling refreshed and had a good sleep, eat a nice breakfast
0:34:45 > 0:34:48and get out there and see everything.
0:34:48 > 0:34:51I think every single bit is going to be so exciting.
0:34:51 > 0:34:56- I'm just generally excited about all of it.- The food, the people. The weather's perfect.
0:34:56 > 0:34:59- I'm so glad I'm spending it with you, as well.- Yes.
0:34:59 > 0:35:01- I've always wanted to come here with you, haven't I?- Yeah.
0:35:13 > 0:35:17Instead of staying in a hotel, we've booked a traditional villa called a riad.
0:35:19 > 0:35:25- Oh! Filter coffee.- This is so nice. - This is just...- I can't wait to dig in! Where do I start?
0:35:25 > 0:35:31- How many calories is that, then, Jazz? 975,000?- I don't care.
0:35:31 > 0:35:34'Mum wants to bond over breakfast...'
0:35:34 > 0:35:38I hope we're going to have the most amazing holiday.
0:35:38 > 0:35:41'..but I've got competition for my Moroccan honey and jam.'
0:35:41 > 0:35:44- Ugh!- They're not going to sting you.
0:35:46 > 0:35:49- It'll go. It'll go.- Urghh!
0:35:49 > 0:35:52- Are you going to do that every breakfast?- Is it on me?
0:35:52 > 0:35:56I am not sitting with you through breakfast, you going, "There's a wasp!"
0:35:56 > 0:35:58It's cos you're wafting about!
0:35:58 > 0:36:03You work with snakes and tarantulas and you're sat there
0:36:03 > 0:36:08having your breakfast like this, going, "Get that little tiny...!"
0:36:08 > 0:36:13- I don't like wasps. - Well, he's going to eat... - Have the honey and go.
0:36:13 > 0:36:16You WILL enjoy this holiday! I've paid for it!
0:36:16 > 0:36:19You will bloody enjoy it! You got that?
0:36:19 > 0:36:24Now the food is cleared away, we can finally try to talk.
0:36:24 > 0:36:29You really deserve this holiday. I think I do as well, but I know you do.
0:36:29 > 0:36:34I just...wanted to spend some time, you know, chatting again.
0:36:34 > 0:36:37- Just general chat.- It's not like I'm trying to get back
0:36:37 > 0:36:42- to the me and Jazz that we used to have, but a new me and Jazz...- Yeah.
0:36:42 > 0:36:47..cos we're both older, we're both changing, evolving, yeah?
0:36:48 > 0:36:51- That headband looks really nice on you.- Oh, thank you.
0:36:51 > 0:36:55I didn't think I'd be able to pull it off but... THEY LAUGH
0:36:55 > 0:36:57You see, this is what I miss -
0:36:57 > 0:37:00just chatting about headbands and chatting about girly stuff.
0:37:03 > 0:37:05I miss YOU.
0:37:06 > 0:37:08I really do.
0:37:10 > 0:37:11I'm a little anxious.
0:37:11 > 0:37:15Mum's got something planned and she won't tell me what.
0:37:18 > 0:37:22My mum loves surprises and I hate them,
0:37:22 > 0:37:27but I'm so glad that Mum kept this one as a secret.
0:37:27 > 0:37:34- Are you all right with that? You're on the front. - Hello. Hello. Hello.
0:37:34 > 0:37:38- Oh!- Look at your face! - He's so cute! Can we keep him? - Are you all right with him?
0:37:38 > 0:37:41Oui?
0:37:41 > 0:37:45'Because we're little, people assume they can lift us up without asking...
0:37:45 > 0:37:48'especially when we're abroad.'
0:37:48 > 0:37:50Thank you.
0:37:54 > 0:37:58You're staying with us? No? We're not pulling her on our own?
0:37:58 > 0:38:00I don't know what I've booked.
0:38:00 > 0:38:03'I've seen, all over the city, people going around on donkey and cart,'
0:38:03 > 0:38:06thinking, "I want to do that! It looks great fun!"
0:38:06 > 0:38:10- You've got to concentrate. - I know.- This hardly seems safe.
0:38:10 > 0:38:12- Really hold on.- To what?!
0:38:12 > 0:38:14Me.
0:38:14 > 0:38:16It's hardly...
0:38:16 > 0:38:21- I wouldn't have been able walk this, and neither would you. - ..inconspicuous.
0:38:21 > 0:38:24'A lot of people can't quite understand what it's like to be'
0:38:24 > 0:38:26constantly looked at and constantly pointed out.
0:38:26 > 0:38:30Look how old some of these places are. Look.
0:38:30 > 0:38:32'It's not like we can just turn it on and off. We can never'
0:38:32 > 0:38:37be anonymous - we can't just walk down the street and be ignored.
0:38:37 > 0:38:40You know what I would like to buy? That size terrine.
0:38:40 > 0:38:44We're always being watched and, like, criticised, almost,
0:38:44 > 0:38:48and it really gets really tiring. It's just like, "Leave us alone!"
0:38:56 > 0:38:58Aidez la femme.
0:38:58 > 0:39:00La femme.
0:39:00 > 0:39:01Merci.
0:39:01 > 0:39:03Jazz, will you hold the bag?
0:39:03 > 0:39:05Thank you. Ooh!
0:39:06 > 0:39:08I don't know where to start!
0:39:08 > 0:39:14You're the one shopping, so... just go, Jazz.
0:39:14 > 0:39:16Going into the souks was incredible.
0:39:18 > 0:39:20Look at that, Jazz.
0:39:21 > 0:39:27'You know, the sights, the smells, the sounds are like nowhere else on earth.'
0:39:28 > 0:39:32- Oh, look at that.- See, it's high.
0:39:35 > 0:39:39Oh! Step away from the bag stall! Don't even look at the bag stall!
0:39:39 > 0:39:43- Oh, I see.- That is really nice.
0:39:44 > 0:39:46Look, yeah?
0:39:46 > 0:39:49- We can't stop at every stall, Mum. - No, I just want to buy one.
0:39:52 > 0:39:56Jazz, look at that! Don't go too near her.
0:39:56 > 0:39:57Get one in your bag!
0:39:57 > 0:40:03Wow! Look at all these shoes, Jazz! Stop, Jazz! Stop!
0:40:05 > 0:40:12- Like this, small.- What size? - Small, very small. This- size.
0:40:12 > 0:40:15- 30...?- I don't know, maybe smaller.
0:40:15 > 0:40:19- Yes. One minute, yes? - Yeah.- Just one minute.
0:40:19 > 0:40:20Jazz?
0:40:20 > 0:40:24'No matter where we go, finding shoes that fit us is really hard.'
0:40:24 > 0:40:26Much smaller. Smaller.
0:40:26 > 0:40:30- Here, smaller.- No, look - my size. - Yes, yes, yes.- They're too big.
0:40:30 > 0:40:37- No, try a little bit. - Really too big, really smaller.
0:40:37 > 0:40:41- 25, 22?- I don't know.- Try these. - It's really too big!
0:40:41 > 0:40:47They're bringing ladies' shoes out, for me. For me.
0:40:47 > 0:40:50- Try.- Too big, too big.- Yes, yes. - Very much too big.
0:40:50 > 0:40:55Jazz, Jazz, you've got to see this. He's trying to persuade me to have that.
0:40:55 > 0:40:57Yes.
0:40:58 > 0:41:02'At last, Mum finds something that IS our size.'
0:41:02 > 0:41:04You look beautiful in that.
0:41:07 > 0:41:10I look like a freedom fighter!
0:41:10 > 0:41:14A lot of women who actually wear them like them
0:41:14 > 0:41:17because they become anonymous and they can move about
0:41:17 > 0:41:21and be who they want and be the person they are underneath.
0:41:21 > 0:41:22Now, we can't do that!
0:41:22 > 0:41:25It'll still be, "There's Bev and Jazz!"
0:41:25 > 0:41:29'Mum loves bartering and having fun with the market traders,
0:41:29 > 0:41:34'but soon gets carried away and tries to trade me for a camel!
0:41:34 > 0:41:37'Now that IS something I could have got the hump about!'
0:41:37 > 0:41:42- One camel, one girl! - Is very low price. - No, it's not! No! Really, I promise!
0:41:42 > 0:41:46- 100 camel.- You very... One camel.
0:41:46 > 0:41:50Listen, don't be very stingy with her. She's very pretty girl!
0:41:50 > 0:41:55May I offer you something? That is my gift to you.
0:41:55 > 0:42:00- Wow!- That's better than buying any present.
0:42:00 > 0:42:02- That's amazing.- That is lovely.
0:42:15 > 0:42:19Immersing ourselves in the local culture is something that we love to do on holidays.
0:42:21 > 0:42:25'One of the fun things about staying in a riad instead of a hotel
0:42:25 > 0:42:29'is that the manager, Mustapha, wants to teach us how to cook local food.'
0:42:29 > 0:42:34This one. Monkfish, then calamari second.
0:42:34 > 0:42:36The next bit to go in is garlic.
0:42:36 > 0:42:39- OK.- Would you like to have a go? - Erm, do you know what?
0:42:39 > 0:42:43I think you should do it because you've got beautiful nails on.
0:42:44 > 0:42:48Ooh! A bit of nail in. A bit of glitter going in there.
0:42:48 > 0:42:50- I'm sure it will taste great. - I'm sure!
0:42:53 > 0:42:57When it comes to cooking, over the past few years, mine and Mum's roles have sort of swapped over.
0:42:57 > 0:43:02I cook, you know, most of the food in the house for everybody
0:43:02 > 0:43:06and I really enjoy it, but it is nice to be cooked for sometimes.
0:43:06 > 0:43:09I used to cook a lot, and you won't remember it.
0:43:09 > 0:43:13I even made your own baby food, and then you started to enjoy it
0:43:13 > 0:43:19- so much that I just let you run with it.- I just get in there and do it, really.- Yeah.
0:43:19 > 0:43:25- We have a good teamwork in that you cook, I enjoy it and then I clean the mess.- Yeah.
0:43:25 > 0:43:28BOTH: Wow.
0:43:28 > 0:43:30Look what we've made.
0:43:30 > 0:43:32'I think we really needed this holiday,'
0:43:32 > 0:43:37because me and mum need some time together to reconnect.
0:43:37 > 0:43:38It's quite hard...
0:43:40 > 0:43:42Oh, I'm sure I'll manage chopping.
0:43:42 > 0:43:43'Things are still tough'
0:43:43 > 0:43:47between us and we're working our way through.
0:43:47 > 0:43:52We want to work our way through, like, I suppose, when people are in marriages and they want it to last.
0:43:52 > 0:43:56I'm rubbish. Do you know what? There!
0:43:56 > 0:43:58This is why I don't do it!
0:43:58 > 0:44:01They will work at it and maybe change and tweak things.
0:44:01 > 0:44:05- You do this - I don't want to ruin my nails!- No.
0:44:05 > 0:44:07She doesn't do a lot.
0:44:07 > 0:44:11Hopefully, over the next few days, we can spend some proper nice time together.
0:44:11 > 0:44:15But it's mostly, we just need a rest. We both need a really nice rest.
0:44:18 > 0:44:21But there's no rest for Mum.
0:44:21 > 0:44:28I made a huge error - "Ooh! A roof terrace that overlooks the whole of Marrakech, fabulous!"
0:44:28 > 0:44:32But it's up two flights of really, really steep stairs.
0:44:34 > 0:44:39Mum has a serious lung condition, so climbing the stairs is extremely difficult
0:44:39 > 0:44:41as she finds it hard to breathe.
0:44:41 > 0:44:46I go up three stairs at a time and stop. Together and stop.
0:44:50 > 0:44:53There are times I look at them and think, "I can't go up!"
0:44:53 > 0:44:57I'd love to sit, just for an hour... Can't go up. Can't do it.
0:44:57 > 0:45:00The end of Everest. The top!
0:45:01 > 0:45:04- Hello!- I've done it, Mount Everest.
0:45:08 > 0:45:10BOTH: Hi!
0:45:11 > 0:45:15- Oh, wow! - Thank you for not burning it!
0:45:15 > 0:45:18Thank you. You try it first.
0:45:18 > 0:45:23- It looks amazing. - You try it and I'll try it tomorrow.
0:45:23 > 0:45:27Cheers to us, for being Moroccan chefs for the afternoon!
0:45:31 > 0:45:35Tonight we're going to the city's main square,
0:45:35 > 0:45:38which is full of traditional Moroccan entertainers.
0:45:38 > 0:45:43'Everyone says we should go there because it is known to be very busy.'
0:45:43 > 0:45:46I am quite nervous about it, to be honest.
0:45:47 > 0:45:51People haven't seen a lot of people like us in real life.
0:45:51 > 0:45:57They might have seen pictures on TV or in magazines, but not real-life short people.
0:45:57 > 0:46:04That causes a huge array of reactions, from disgust and horror
0:46:04 > 0:46:09to fear, to excitement, to knocking us over
0:46:09 > 0:46:16and pushing past us, to not acknowledging us, to being over-friendly.
0:46:21 > 0:46:26- How are you feeling?- Nervous. - Still nervous? They'll look for a minute and then they'll go.
0:46:29 > 0:46:32WHISTLING AND DRUMMING
0:46:32 > 0:46:37- I don't like this at all.- You don't like it?- No, I don't like it.
0:46:37 > 0:46:40- Can I tell you something about the drumming?- I don't like it.
0:46:41 > 0:46:44I don't like it at all.
0:46:48 > 0:46:51'Complete strangers are openly taking photos
0:46:51 > 0:46:54'and filming us on their phones just because we're small.'
0:46:57 > 0:47:01We've gone from being tourists enjoying the spectacle to becoming a tourist attraction.
0:47:06 > 0:47:11'I've retreated to a local cafe, but Mum refuses to let the crowd stop her.'
0:47:14 > 0:47:17Me and my mum are very different.
0:47:17 > 0:47:20I'm good at dealing with things afterwards.
0:47:20 > 0:47:24If people say things that are hurtful or laugh and point or stare,
0:47:24 > 0:47:28at the time I panic and I hate it and it's awful.
0:47:28 > 0:47:31Whereas Mum, at the time, is like, "It doesn't bother me,
0:47:31 > 0:47:35"it's fine, ignore them." But then afterwards she gets upset about it.
0:47:35 > 0:47:39I would prefer to just not care about it at the time
0:47:39 > 0:47:43and enjoy the moment and live and learn and see the world
0:47:43 > 0:47:45and worry about it afterwards.
0:47:45 > 0:47:51- They're not real snakes, are they? - Snake!- They're real?!- This is wood.
0:47:51 > 0:47:54I thought they were real snakes! I was like, "Get away!"
0:47:54 > 0:47:58Mum's had 30 more years of it than I have,
0:47:58 > 0:48:02so maybe when I'm Mum's age, I'll be able to deal with it like she does.
0:48:07 > 0:48:10They're not even saying, "Is it OK to take your photograph?"
0:48:10 > 0:48:15Absolutely not bothered. And I understand it,
0:48:15 > 0:48:18because I think I would do it if I was them
0:48:18 > 0:48:21and that's what you have to...
0:48:21 > 0:48:25You don't come here and expect to be completely anonymous,
0:48:25 > 0:48:28but they'll do it in any country. It's not about being in Marrakech -
0:48:28 > 0:48:32this is about the way people treat people with restricted growth.
0:48:35 > 0:48:38It's like being Madonna, being followed.
0:48:40 > 0:48:45I'm really going to go to Jazz, cos she will start to worry.
0:48:46 > 0:48:48Sorry, excuse me, pardon.
0:48:58 > 0:49:01- Hello.- I missed you.
0:49:01 > 0:49:05I missed you seeing it all with me, but you would have hated it.
0:49:05 > 0:49:12- I know, I saw the crowd. - THE crowd? The CROWDS.
0:49:12 > 0:49:14It was, but I'm so glad you weren't there,
0:49:14 > 0:49:18because it was just, the minute I stopped, it were just like...
0:49:25 > 0:49:29The next morning, I'm determined not to let the events of last night
0:49:29 > 0:49:32stop me from seeing the sights of Morocco.
0:49:32 > 0:49:35We've escaped the city and are heading to a village.
0:49:35 > 0:49:38It's literally another mountain to climb
0:49:38 > 0:49:41because it's 6,000 feet up, in the Atlas range.
0:49:41 > 0:49:45And getting Mum up there is going to be tricky.
0:49:45 > 0:49:49Ooh, I'm taking one of these back to Colwyn Bay!
0:49:50 > 0:49:53Who needs electric wheelchairs?
0:49:53 > 0:50:00At home, I stick to taxis, scooters and friends and family take me round.
0:50:02 > 0:50:06And here it's been quite liberating because it's whatever's there.
0:50:06 > 0:50:09This is brilliant. It's so much easier than walking!
0:50:09 > 0:50:11And I can see things!
0:50:19 > 0:50:24Being 6,000 foot up in a Atlas mountain, let alone my mum...
0:50:24 > 0:50:26Oh, wow!
0:50:28 > 0:50:33Have you noticed that Jazz is more interested in the animals than me?
0:50:33 > 0:50:37I was so proud of her, I thought that she'd give up half way
0:50:37 > 0:50:41or, you know, really struggle, and she was just brilliant!
0:50:41 > 0:50:44I spend so much of my life worrying about what I can't do,
0:50:44 > 0:50:47and look what I CAN do!
0:50:48 > 0:50:53- Jazz, come and look at this! Look at the sun on the mountain.- Wow!
0:50:53 > 0:50:56Can we just keep going to the top?
0:50:56 > 0:51:01I got up a 6,000...metre, foot? Whatever it is, mountain!
0:51:01 > 0:51:03How has that happened?
0:51:03 > 0:51:07I look at the pictures afterward and go, "How did I do that? WHY did I do it?!"
0:51:15 > 0:51:20When we got back down the mountain, there was something else I really wanted to climb on to...
0:51:20 > 0:51:22a camel!
0:51:22 > 0:51:26Getting to have a little ride on a camel was incredible.
0:51:26 > 0:51:29I was petrified, but you've just got to hold on.
0:51:29 > 0:51:31There's my daughter!
0:51:31 > 0:51:34He just plodded along and he kept grunting and groaning
0:51:34 > 0:51:37and it was just an incredible experience.
0:51:37 > 0:51:42She'll be going, "I want a camel now! Can I have a camel as a pet?"
0:51:44 > 0:51:46This is why we travel.
0:51:49 > 0:51:51Aww, look at her face!
0:51:51 > 0:51:57I found, even in the short time I've been here, we are getting on better.
0:51:57 > 0:52:02- Not too near, because you'll see my lines.- OK.- So, on.
0:52:02 > 0:52:07'I don't think anyone makes me laugh in the way that my mum can.'
0:52:07 > 0:52:11- Sorry.- Hi! Hi!- Sorry, it was a bird. - It's all right.
0:52:11 > 0:52:17She understands me, my humour, my worries, my fears.
0:52:17 > 0:52:19'She understands ME.'
0:52:19 > 0:52:22Aw, that was... That was just ridiculous. That's me.
0:52:22 > 0:52:26We've actually laughed. It's just me pulling silly faces
0:52:26 > 0:52:30and her trying to get these fantastic shots, you know.
0:52:30 > 0:52:32'Lovely little moment for us'
0:52:32 > 0:52:36and they're rare at the moment, and it is because we're apart so much.
0:52:39 > 0:52:42I can't believe how fast the time has gone.
0:52:42 > 0:52:45It's the last day of our holiday, so me and Mum
0:52:45 > 0:52:49are treating ourselves to a day in a hamam, for a traditional Moroccan bath.
0:52:49 > 0:52:51Good morning, bonjour.
0:52:52 > 0:52:54Right, off to the hammam in our lime green.
0:52:54 > 0:52:58I'm sorry, I ordered it in Arabic - should have been bright pink.
0:53:05 > 0:53:08'This week has been amazing,
0:53:08 > 0:53:11'but one of the best parts for me was spending time with my mum
0:53:11 > 0:53:16'and getting to talk to her and laugh and giggle and get ready.'
0:53:16 > 0:53:19I haven't had that in a long time cos I've been at college.
0:53:19 > 0:53:22I hadn't realised how much I missed it and I'm going home
0:53:22 > 0:53:26'and it's going to be really hard to get used to not seeing her again.'
0:53:26 > 0:53:28Ooh, that is gorgeous.
0:53:29 > 0:53:31So relaxed.
0:53:31 > 0:53:32I can't wait for this next bit.
0:53:34 > 0:53:40When you first left and went to college, that was really, really, really hard.
0:53:40 > 0:53:42Now I find it a lot easier.
0:53:42 > 0:53:44I don't think just a holiday can...
0:53:44 > 0:53:48'not repair damage, but I think it's a good foundation.'
0:53:48 > 0:53:51You need a lot of things - you need communication,
0:53:51 > 0:53:55you need understanding, you need to be able to let go.
0:53:55 > 0:53:59And we're trying to let go of each other. That's really hard,
0:53:59 > 0:54:02because... Not just because she's my daughter
0:54:02 > 0:54:04but because she's a great person to be around.
0:54:10 > 0:54:14I started to step back and listen and watch other people
0:54:14 > 0:54:18as they listen to her and I'm going, "My daughter!"
0:54:24 > 0:54:27I feel I can let her go now, go on.
0:54:30 > 0:54:34Even though we're fine with each other at the moment,
0:54:34 > 0:54:36I think we have drifted apart
0:54:36 > 0:54:39and I think we don't appreciate each other enough.
0:54:40 > 0:54:44At the end of the day, we're the only two people in the world
0:54:44 > 0:54:46that completely understand each other...
0:54:47 > 0:54:50..cos we've been through everything together.
0:54:52 > 0:54:57Definitely have learnt here that I'm happier when we're closer, when we're talking more.
0:54:57 > 0:55:01'It's taught me a great lesson to appreciate her a bit more.'
0:55:04 > 0:55:08One thing that's going to happen with us is we won't see each other every day, like we used to,
0:55:08 > 0:55:14but when we do see each other, we will make space for each other in our lives for each other for ever.
0:55:14 > 0:55:19Because...I hope she doesn't want to lose that connection with me,
0:55:19 > 0:55:22cos I never want to lose it with her.
0:55:26 > 0:55:29Ooh, I'm glad I got dressed up.
0:55:29 > 0:55:32I don't know if I'm going to whisper all night.
0:55:32 > 0:55:36It'd ruin the ambience for a start - being gobby and Manchester-y.
0:55:37 > 0:55:43'By spending time together in Marrakech, Mum may have finally learnt to let me go.
0:55:44 > 0:55:48'And I've realised that, although I want to be independent,'
0:55:48 > 0:55:51'I also really want to share my world with my mum.'
0:55:51 > 0:55:57There isn't anybody on this earth that I would rather be here with tonight than you.
0:55:57 > 0:55:59Thank you for an amazing week.
0:56:01 > 0:56:04No, I mean it, Jazz.
0:56:09 > 0:56:13'Next time... My life is full of change.
0:56:13 > 0:56:16'I do work experience in an American veterinary hospital...'
0:56:16 > 0:56:19- I don't want to go home.- Uh-oh.
0:56:19 > 0:56:20Oh, yes!
0:56:20 > 0:56:22'..I learn how to drive...'
0:56:22 > 0:56:24Oh!
0:56:24 > 0:56:26'..and Mum gives Dad a makeover.'
0:56:26 > 0:56:28"Hello, I've got no teeth."
0:56:30 > 0:56:33'But is he really ready to change?'
0:56:45 > 0:56:48Subtitles by Red Bee Media Ltd
0:56:48 > 0:56:51E-mail subtitling@bbc.co.uk