0:00:05 > 0:00:09CHEERING
0:00:13 > 0:00:16MUSIC STARTS
0:00:16 > 0:00:20This programme contains strong language from the start
0:00:20 > 0:00:23and scenes which some viewers may find disturbing.
0:00:23 > 0:00:25OZZY WHISTLES
0:00:40 > 0:00:44CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:00:50 > 0:00:54OZZY DOES VOCAL WARM-UPS
0:01:03 > 0:01:07CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:01:24 > 0:01:28INTRO MUSIC: "CARMINA BURANA"
0:01:49 > 0:01:53CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:02:06 > 0:02:08CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:02:22 > 0:02:25# People look to me and say
0:02:25 > 0:02:30# Is the end near? When is the final day? #
0:02:30 > 0:02:33Rock'n'roll's definitive crazy person.
0:02:36 > 0:02:39# What's the future of mankind?
0:02:39 > 0:02:43# How do I know? I got left behind. #
0:02:43 > 0:02:48Ozzy Osbourne, who is known for biting the heads off of bats...
0:02:54 > 0:02:57Hey, he's twisted but he's all right, man.
0:03:04 > 0:03:07Another scientific mystery that's stumping scientists.
0:03:07 > 0:03:13How is Ozzy Osbourne still alive after decades of drugs and alcohol?
0:03:15 > 0:03:19# Everyone goes through changes
0:03:19 > 0:03:22# Looking to find the truth
0:03:22 > 0:03:25# Don't look at me for answers
0:03:25 > 0:03:30# Don't ask me I don't know. #
0:03:38 > 0:03:39What was that?
0:03:45 > 0:03:50APPLAUSE AND CHEERS
0:04:00 > 0:04:01Happy birthday!
0:04:13 > 0:04:16Well, we made it, Bill.
0:04:16 > 0:04:19Good to see you, good to see you.
0:04:19 > 0:04:20Nice to see you too.
0:04:20 > 0:04:23It's good to see you, man.
0:04:23 > 0:04:25It's fucking amazing.
0:04:25 > 0:04:27I never thought that.
0:04:27 > 0:04:29You look great.
0:04:29 > 0:04:30I do.
0:04:30 > 0:04:33Nice smile.
0:04:33 > 0:04:36Come on, Ozzy - smile, it's your birthday!
0:04:36 > 0:04:40I don't feel like fucking smiling. Shut the fuck up.
0:04:40 > 0:04:43Come on, smile, it's your birthday. There you go.
0:04:48 > 0:04:52'Looking back, I should have died a thousand times, but I never did.
0:04:52 > 0:04:55'I never thought I'd make it to fucking 40.'
0:04:55 > 0:04:58By 12 o'clock in the old days I'd have powder up my nose,
0:04:58 > 0:05:01fucking shit in my veins and all kinds of stuff.
0:05:01 > 0:05:04One, two, three.
0:05:04 > 0:05:06Nice smile, ladies, come with your brother.
0:05:06 > 0:05:09There's like one or two ways to get in this world,
0:05:09 > 0:05:11but there are so many fucked-up ways to go out.
0:05:11 > 0:05:13Once you're dead, you're gone.
0:05:13 > 0:05:14I'm just a very fortunate man
0:05:14 > 0:05:17to be still here talking to you about my life.
0:05:17 > 0:05:21One, two, three. Louis, smile!
0:05:21 > 0:05:23I am smiling!
0:05:23 > 0:05:24'I've had a crazy life,'
0:05:24 > 0:05:27and it ain't over yet.
0:05:27 > 0:05:33# Happy birthday to you
0:05:33 > 0:05:39# Happy birthday, dear Ozzy
0:05:39 > 0:05:46# Happy birthday to you. #
0:05:46 > 0:05:50CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:05:54 > 0:05:57OZZY BLOWS
0:05:57 > 0:05:59CHEERS
0:06:07 > 0:06:09'I was born John Michael Osbourne,
0:06:09 > 0:06:11'December 3rd, 1948.'
0:06:15 > 0:06:17'I was raised in Aston,
0:06:17 > 0:06:20'a working-class suburb of Birmingham, England.'
0:06:21 > 0:06:25'A lot of the city was destroyed by the Germans in World War II.'
0:06:25 > 0:06:28I used to play on a bombed building site,
0:06:28 > 0:06:30thinking it was the name of a place that you go and play,
0:06:30 > 0:06:33not realising it was a building that had been bombed in the war.
0:06:39 > 0:06:44That's my grandma, my mother, and Gillian, my sister.
0:06:45 > 0:06:46My three sisters.
0:06:47 > 0:06:51My sister Jean, my sister Iris and my sister Gillian.
0:06:52 > 0:06:57We're a working-class family. There wasn't a lot of money about.
0:06:58 > 0:07:03We lived in a small terraced house.
0:07:03 > 0:07:06Six children had to share the same bedroom.
0:07:06 > 0:07:09We were the poorest kids in the street, there was no doubt about it.
0:07:11 > 0:07:15'I didn't come from fucking royalty. I didn't come from'
0:07:15 > 0:07:18a middle-class or upper-class background.
0:07:18 > 0:07:20Where I came from was like...
0:07:20 > 0:07:24the very bottom end of the scale, you know?
0:07:26 > 0:07:30'We were all from the same area in Birmingham in England.'
0:07:30 > 0:07:34It was very much a working-class area, uh,
0:07:34 > 0:07:37I don't think any of us had, like, hot water
0:07:37 > 0:07:43or indoor toilets or... things like that.
0:07:45 > 0:07:46My mother and father.
0:07:51 > 0:07:54He was a good guy. He was, um, you know, he was a...
0:07:54 > 0:07:57He worked hard all his life, you know?
0:07:57 > 0:07:59Would never miss a day from work.
0:07:59 > 0:08:03If he ever missed a day off you knew he was fucked.
0:08:03 > 0:08:05He used to work nights at a factory.
0:08:08 > 0:08:10'John used to go out'
0:08:10 > 0:08:13and have a drink, get in fights and that was it.
0:08:13 > 0:08:16From what I saw, Johnny was always in and out of trouble,
0:08:16 > 0:08:18Dad was always telling him off.
0:08:18 > 0:08:22And one day, Dad says he'll either get killed or, you know...
0:08:22 > 0:08:26He'll die one way or the other, you know what I mean?
0:08:26 > 0:08:29A lot of the kids turned to crime, and I did for a time,
0:08:29 > 0:08:32but I wasn't really good at it. I didn't want to do it, really.
0:08:38 > 0:08:43"John Michael Osbourne, aged 18.
0:08:43 > 0:08:46"Break and enter the shop of Clara Sharpe
0:08:46 > 0:08:51"and steal therein two coats, 20 pairs of stockings."
0:08:51 > 0:08:53Fined 20 quid.
0:08:53 > 0:08:56Cut a long story short, the police come around
0:08:56 > 0:08:59and says to Mr Osbourne, "Does John Osbourne live here?"
0:08:59 > 0:09:01And our dad says, "There he is - take him."
0:09:02 > 0:09:07I got locked up in Winston Green Prison for about six weeks.
0:09:07 > 0:09:13When I eventually got out of prison, life still felt hopeless for me.
0:09:13 > 0:09:15I'd let my family down for being arrested.
0:09:15 > 0:09:18I had no idea what I wanted to do.
0:09:18 > 0:09:22Really there were about three or four choices when we were teenagers.
0:09:22 > 0:09:24One was... We would either probably go to prison,
0:09:24 > 0:09:28or go in the factories or go in the army.
0:09:28 > 0:09:30'I remember being in a factory'
0:09:30 > 0:09:33and one bloke I said to, "How long have you been working here?"
0:09:33 > 0:09:36And he goes "Oh, 35 years this year,
0:09:36 > 0:09:38"and I'm retiring - I'll get a gold watch."
0:09:38 > 0:09:41I thought, a fucking gold watch?
0:09:41 > 0:09:4535 years of your life have been in this fucking factory.
0:09:45 > 0:09:47And I just couldn't handle it, you know.
0:09:47 > 0:09:49I had job after job after job.
0:09:49 > 0:09:51I could never hold a job down, I didn't want to.
0:09:51 > 0:09:56I couldn't, I couldn't... I used to think, "Fuck this.
0:09:56 > 0:09:58"Is this me for the rest of my life?"
0:10:01 > 0:10:04John wanted things which he couldn't have.
0:10:04 > 0:10:07Something inside him wanted to get out.
0:10:07 > 0:10:11Nothing really happened to me in my life until the Beatles happened.
0:10:11 > 0:10:14And then it was like someone had turned the world on for me.
0:10:14 > 0:10:17They played She Loves You on the radio
0:10:17 > 0:10:22and I remember thinking to myself, "Fucking hell, this is incredible."
0:10:22 > 0:10:25From that moment on, when I first heard She Loves You,
0:10:25 > 0:10:28I knew I wanted to be a rock star for the rest of my life.
0:10:28 > 0:10:30Come on!
0:10:30 > 0:10:32MUSIC: "Paranoid"
0:10:34 > 0:10:36You are number one!
0:10:39 > 0:10:43# And so as you hear these words
0:10:43 > 0:10:46# Telling you now of my state
0:10:46 > 0:10:49# I tell you to enjoy life I wish I could
0:10:49 > 0:10:51# But it's too late... #
0:10:58 > 0:10:59Hey!
0:11:03 > 0:11:06Thank you, goodnight!
0:11:06 > 0:11:09God bless you all! Stay safe!
0:11:09 > 0:11:12CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:11:45 > 0:11:47Adrenaline from the gig.
0:11:51 > 0:11:53Hello, is Sharon about?
0:11:55 > 0:11:59Just tell her the gig was phenomenal.
0:11:59 > 0:12:02The crowd was fucking unbelievable.
0:12:02 > 0:12:04It's fucking...undescribable.
0:12:04 > 0:12:08It's like a divine experience, you know?
0:12:09 > 0:12:12All right, I'll call back. Speak to you later. Bye.
0:12:14 > 0:12:17'I'm lucky - I'm 60 years of age,
0:12:17 > 0:12:19'I'm still travelling all over the world.'
0:12:19 > 0:12:21I'm still having gigs, doing gigs
0:12:21 > 0:12:24and people still want to see me.
0:12:24 > 0:12:28- CHANTING:- Ozzy! Ozzy! Ozzy! Ozzy!
0:12:28 > 0:12:31It's Ozzy night, man. It's the night of the living dead.
0:12:31 > 0:12:35I've been fucking listening to him since I was nine, ten.
0:12:35 > 0:12:38Yeah, man, I got those ones.
0:12:38 > 0:12:41I got that one and then I got that one.
0:12:41 > 0:12:43A big Black Sabbath cross on my leg.
0:12:43 > 0:12:44Number one Ozzy fan.
0:12:44 > 0:12:48Since Black Sabbath days. Check this out.
0:12:52 > 0:12:54Fucking love it, man.
0:12:56 > 0:12:59CHEERING
0:13:03 > 0:13:05Crouch down.
0:13:13 > 0:13:15I remember when I was a fan of the Beatles,
0:13:15 > 0:13:18and I always had my fantasies.
0:13:18 > 0:13:21if it's going to make somebody's day a little bit better to say,
0:13:21 > 0:13:24"Wow, I met Ozzy Osbourne today," I mean, that's my job, you know?
0:13:24 > 0:13:26Can you get this, please?
0:13:26 > 0:13:27Sure.
0:13:27 > 0:13:29Just right down, right down there.
0:13:31 > 0:13:32Sharon goes to me,
0:13:32 > 0:13:36"You get back there and sign that fucking autograph."
0:13:36 > 0:13:39I, I go, "What do you mean, my darling?"
0:13:39 > 0:13:41And she says, "Well, one day you're going to be...
0:13:41 > 0:13:44"If they don't ask for your autograph
0:13:44 > 0:13:47- "that's when we got a problem." - Check out my shirt.
0:13:47 > 0:13:50You can't fuck it up no more than President Bush.
0:13:50 > 0:13:53I have something for you. Here's your own.
0:13:53 > 0:13:54Thank you!
0:13:54 > 0:13:56'I go down the road and if I get recognised,'
0:13:56 > 0:14:00I get pissed off. But if I don't get recognised, I get pissed off.
0:14:00 > 0:14:03People have recognised me for a lot of years
0:14:03 > 0:14:05and for a lot of different reasons.
0:14:05 > 0:14:06I just want my audience to know
0:14:06 > 0:14:09that I have not abandoned them to become a fucking weatherman.
0:14:20 > 0:14:23Wonder how many signatures you've signed.
0:14:32 > 0:14:34LAUGHTER
0:14:37 > 0:14:40MUSIC: "War Pigs"
0:14:47 > 0:14:52# Generals gathered in their masses
0:14:52 > 0:14:57# Just like witches at black masses
0:14:57 > 0:15:02# In the field the bodies burning
0:15:02 > 0:15:07# As the war machine keeps turning
0:15:07 > 0:15:13# Evil minds that plot destruction
0:15:13 > 0:15:16# Sorcerer of death's construction
0:15:18 > 0:15:20# It's the same wherever you go
0:15:20 > 0:15:25# To the war pigs people know
0:15:25 > 0:15:27# Oh, Lord, yeah... #
0:15:37 > 0:15:40Sabbath was monumental.
0:15:40 > 0:15:43A huge influence on Metallica.
0:15:48 > 0:15:51'Black Sabbath was a big deal for me.'
0:15:51 > 0:15:53Man, we worshipped those records.
0:15:55 > 0:15:58'They were like pioneers on so many levels, you know,'
0:15:58 > 0:16:02doing new things with rhythm and with musical interaction.
0:16:07 > 0:16:09'I mean, listening to it now,'
0:16:09 > 0:16:12it doesn't sound that crazy at all, you know?
0:16:12 > 0:16:16But then it was quite sort of... off the wall.
0:16:22 > 0:16:24'My very first memory of Black Sabbath,'
0:16:24 > 0:16:26I just remember hearing...
0:16:26 > 0:16:28COUGHS
0:16:28 > 0:16:31BEATBOXES HEAVY DRUMMING
0:16:31 > 0:16:34I was like, "Oh my God, this is insane!"
0:16:39 > 0:16:41Thank you very much.
0:16:45 > 0:16:49Before Black Sabbath, I was in a band
0:16:49 > 0:16:52with Tony Iommi and Geezer. What we...
0:16:52 > 0:16:55What was next needed really was a singer.
0:16:57 > 0:17:00So, uh, we went to this music shop in Birmingham
0:17:00 > 0:17:02where all the musicians used to hang out.
0:17:02 > 0:17:05'Ozzy had put this little calling card
0:17:05 > 0:17:08'in a music shop called Jones & Crossland'
0:17:08 > 0:17:12and he had written, "Ozzy Zig needs a gig."
0:17:12 > 0:17:15The first time I ever met Ozzy was at school.
0:17:15 > 0:17:19He, he, he was like... For want of a better word, a nuisance.
0:17:19 > 0:17:23And so when Bill and I walked up to Ozzy's door
0:17:23 > 0:17:26I saw him in the back room walking in, and I said to Bill, "Forget it."
0:17:26 > 0:17:29I just thought, "This is going be a joke."
0:17:29 > 0:17:33Ozzy wrote the magic words, "has his own PA",
0:17:33 > 0:17:36because nobody could afford PAs back then.
0:17:36 > 0:17:37If you sang and had a PA, you got the job.
0:17:37 > 0:17:39We didn't even have to hear him.
0:17:39 > 0:17:42Although money was very scarce in the household,
0:17:42 > 0:17:45I asked my father to buy me a PA system.
0:17:45 > 0:17:47It was the best gift I ever had,
0:17:47 > 0:17:49because had he not got that PA for me
0:17:49 > 0:17:51I don't think I would ever have got a gig.
0:17:51 > 0:17:54The first time we got, we got together it went down great.
0:17:54 > 0:17:57And, uh... No, it was good.
0:17:59 > 0:18:01In the early days it was just
0:18:01 > 0:18:02fucking guys having a blast, you know.
0:18:06 > 0:18:09You know, if we had never have made anything of ourself
0:18:09 > 0:18:12it was a good time for me just to be around a bunch of guys
0:18:12 > 0:18:16with fuck all to lose and everything to gain. It was great.
0:18:18 > 0:18:23We used to rehearse across the street from a movie theatre.
0:18:23 > 0:18:27And, um, I think it was Tony who said, "Ain't it weird
0:18:27 > 0:18:30"that people go, go to movies to get scared?
0:18:30 > 0:18:33"Why don't we start doing scary music?"
0:18:33 > 0:18:36THUNDER ROLLS
0:18:36 > 0:18:40MUSIC: "Black Sabbath"
0:18:46 > 0:18:54# What is this that stands before me?
0:19:04 > 0:19:11# Figure in black which points at me... #
0:19:11 > 0:19:15And that's how the beginnings of Sabbath started.
0:19:15 > 0:19:20# Oh, no! #
0:19:35 > 0:19:37'And when we used to play that song live in the early days,'
0:19:37 > 0:19:40kids would just fucking scream and run out.
0:19:40 > 0:19:44# People running cos they're scared... #
0:19:44 > 0:19:48'And we started getting invites to fucking black masses
0:19:48 > 0:19:51'in fucking Highgate fucking cemetery'
0:19:51 > 0:19:55at fucking 12 o'clock. And we're like, "is this for real?", you know.
0:19:55 > 0:19:56We never thought it was real.
0:19:59 > 0:20:03In life we know about the dark side and the light side,
0:20:03 > 0:20:04the good side and the bad side.
0:20:04 > 0:20:07I think that's the attraction, it hadn't been dealt with
0:20:07 > 0:20:09till Black Sabbath started dealing with it
0:20:09 > 0:20:12and people go, "Oh yeah, this is great."
0:20:12 > 0:20:16You know, "Well cool." It's like the attraction of Dracula and vampires.
0:20:16 > 0:20:20It's, uh, it's a rich source for exploration, I would think.
0:20:24 > 0:20:26'What happened with Sabbath...'
0:20:26 > 0:20:29For instance, Black Sabbath 1, the first album,
0:20:29 > 0:20:32we recorded that in 12 hours, believe it or not.
0:20:32 > 0:20:35The whole thing was done in 12 hours on an eight-track machine
0:20:35 > 0:20:38in a little backstreet studio in London
0:20:38 > 0:20:39and cost, like, ten bucks to make.
0:20:39 > 0:20:42It was one of the biggest-selling albums I ever did.
0:20:46 > 0:20:49'And the manager comes up to me and he goes,'
0:20:49 > 0:20:52"Your album is going in the chart next week at number 17."
0:20:52 > 0:20:55I says, "Fuck off, you're joking, you're winding me up." "No."
0:20:58 > 0:21:01When I got my first record royalty advance in money
0:21:01 > 0:21:05I got £105, which is about 220.
0:21:05 > 0:21:08I went out and bought myself some shoes and some socks,
0:21:08 > 0:21:10some trousers,
0:21:10 > 0:21:15and a bottle of Brut cologne which I liked the smell.
0:21:15 > 0:21:17I've always liked to smell nice. I used to stink.
0:21:17 > 0:21:22Coming from having nothing, literally fucking zero,
0:21:22 > 0:21:24no socks on my feet,
0:21:24 > 0:21:27walking around in fucking open sandals in the winter.
0:21:27 > 0:21:30From that to a pair of fucking socks and shoes.
0:21:30 > 0:21:32Big time, you know?
0:21:35 > 0:21:38Then the next one, Paranoid, comes out.
0:21:39 > 0:21:42The song Paranoid went up the English charts.
0:21:42 > 0:21:45The album went straight in at number one in England.
0:21:45 > 0:21:47It was like, "Fucking hell, what?"
0:21:47 > 0:21:49That was our second album we got our number one album.
0:21:49 > 0:21:51We were like "Fucking hell, man."
0:21:51 > 0:21:54The real rock star vibe, you know, hit us.
0:22:16 > 0:22:19This is the first one I ever got.
0:22:21 > 0:22:22Gold disc from...
0:22:25 > 0:22:29It's fucking spelled my name O-S-S-I-E, which is fucking great.
0:22:29 > 0:22:33But those early days were fucking fantastic.
0:22:33 > 0:22:34We all had a laugh,
0:22:34 > 0:22:38we'd fuck around, we'd fucking smoke dope, drink beer, you know.
0:22:38 > 0:22:41Going around with him was a total adventure -
0:22:41 > 0:22:43we never knew what was going to happen.
0:22:43 > 0:22:46Ozzy would often walk into a room naked.
0:22:48 > 0:22:51In the early days he was absolute bedlam.
0:22:51 > 0:22:55Me and Oz were kind of like a wrecking crew in the hotel room.
0:22:55 > 0:22:58So we'd dismantle the bathroom completely.
0:22:58 > 0:23:01Just have big sledgehammers,
0:23:01 > 0:23:04and toilet, sink, all gone, put it outside, everything goes outside.
0:23:04 > 0:23:06I remember I got a picture early on
0:23:06 > 0:23:08of him setting fire to Bill Ward's beard.
0:23:08 > 0:23:11And Ozzy'd be laughing and Bill would just sit there.
0:23:11 > 0:23:15'Growing up, Ozzy was a real prankster,'
0:23:15 > 0:23:18but especially in his twenties with Sabbath,
0:23:18 > 0:23:21he was like the band clown.
0:23:21 > 0:23:24He always, like, got everyone going, laughing.
0:23:26 > 0:23:30He did that because that was his shield.
0:23:30 > 0:23:32That protected his insecurities.
0:23:32 > 0:23:35Ozzy had low self-worth.
0:23:35 > 0:23:40He always considered himself "less than".
0:23:40 > 0:23:42That's how, you know, he survived everything,
0:23:42 > 0:23:44was just being the prankster.
0:23:44 > 0:23:47And what do you do to relax?
0:23:47 > 0:23:49Smoke marijuana.
0:23:49 > 0:23:51LAUGHTER
0:23:51 > 0:23:54- You were joking when you said that, of course?- Yeah, right.
0:23:56 > 0:24:00'With the success of the albums came more money,
0:24:00 > 0:24:04'which enabled us to buy a better class of drug, basically,'
0:24:04 > 0:24:08which is basically what we were all doing it for at the time.
0:24:08 > 0:24:13Cocaine and acid and stuff like that.
0:24:13 > 0:24:18This is a good old cocaine shot. We were all fucked up on this.
0:24:18 > 0:24:19Look at the face.
0:24:19 > 0:24:23When you took cocaine you just lose all expression in your face.
0:24:30 > 0:24:33'We did the album Volume 4, and we'd been in Los Angeles'
0:24:33 > 0:24:36recording that for about three months.
0:24:36 > 0:24:42We used to have it in...cereal boxes of cocaine delivered to the house.
0:24:42 > 0:24:45We'd just tip it into this big bowl and sort of...
0:24:45 > 0:24:48A bit like Scarface, kind of thing.
0:24:49 > 0:24:52For a while we used LSD before we played.
0:24:52 > 0:24:56And so we would go on stage, you know, tripping.
0:24:59 > 0:25:01Come on!
0:25:01 > 0:25:03Let's party!
0:25:03 > 0:25:05Oh, yeah!
0:25:05 > 0:25:08MUSIC: "Children of the Grave"
0:25:29 > 0:25:31SCREAMS AND CHEERS
0:25:37 > 0:25:40# Revolution in their mind
0:25:40 > 0:25:43# Children start to march
0:25:43 > 0:25:46# They hate the world in which they have to live
0:25:46 > 0:25:48# Oh, the hate that's in their hearts
0:25:48 > 0:25:51# They're tired of being pushed around
0:25:51 > 0:25:54# And told just what to do
0:25:54 > 0:25:57# They'll fight the world until they've won
0:25:57 > 0:26:00# And love comes flowing through, yeah... #
0:26:00 > 0:26:05'I was young, had money, I had cars, I had a fucking house.'
0:26:05 > 0:26:08I was fucking king of the world at fucking 23.
0:26:17 > 0:26:20Thank you VERY much!
0:26:27 > 0:26:29We'll see you again soon.
0:26:35 > 0:26:38'Shortly after I became successful'
0:26:38 > 0:26:41with Black Sabbath, I met Thelma in a nightclub.
0:26:43 > 0:26:47Then we got married and we had two children, Jessica and Louis.
0:26:51 > 0:26:54And this is a picture of my parents.
0:26:54 > 0:26:57That was actually at the Hilton Hotel in Las Vegas.
0:27:02 > 0:27:03There are some lovely ones.
0:27:03 > 0:27:07Him looking very young and handsome and sultry.
0:27:07 > 0:27:10This is a nice... These are nice ones -
0:27:10 > 0:27:13before we had our house decorated,
0:27:13 > 0:27:16so this must have been very early 1972.
0:27:16 > 0:27:20Got a Black Sabbath sticker on the telephone.
0:27:20 > 0:27:24'My recollection from my childhood with Dad is that he'd be away for'
0:27:24 > 0:27:27very long periods of time. Um, and there would always be
0:27:27 > 0:27:29a period of adjustment when he came home.
0:27:29 > 0:27:33And then it would get to normality and then he'd go again.
0:27:33 > 0:27:36So it was a very erratic childhood with Dad.
0:27:36 > 0:27:39This is Dad, Dad got into the local newspaper
0:27:39 > 0:27:41for prize green beans that he had grown.
0:27:41 > 0:27:44Nice picture of the house and our vegetable garden.
0:27:44 > 0:27:47'He was always a very big social drinker'
0:27:47 > 0:27:50so the pubs in the villages where we all grew up
0:27:50 > 0:27:53were a very big part of the social scene. So he would go to the pub.
0:27:57 > 0:28:01The only thing in the English countryside really back then
0:28:01 > 0:28:04was pubs. So I'd, I'd go, "Oh, there's a pub there,
0:28:04 > 0:28:06"the house is just down the road. Ideal.
0:28:06 > 0:28:08"I haven't got a driving license.
0:28:08 > 0:28:10"If I want to, I can walk to the pub and back."
0:28:10 > 0:28:13My idea of going for a drink was to go to a pub,
0:28:13 > 0:28:16get as much poured down my neck as I could, and stumble out.
0:28:16 > 0:28:18That was my idea of a drink.
0:28:18 > 0:28:21When he was around and he wasn't pissed, he was a great father.
0:28:21 > 0:28:23But, you know, that was kind of seldom, really.
0:28:23 > 0:28:26I just have a lot of memories of him being drunk.
0:28:26 > 0:28:29Fucking just random shit. Fucking driving cars across fields
0:28:29 > 0:28:31and crashing them in the middle of the night and stuff.
0:28:31 > 0:28:34It's just... It's not good for family life, really, you know.
0:28:36 > 0:28:41When you drink alcohol and someone goes, "Dad, help me do this math,"
0:28:41 > 0:28:44you go, "What the fuck are you even bothering me for?" you know.
0:28:44 > 0:28:49It just gets a big ugly scene, but that's the way your life becomes.
0:28:49 > 0:28:51I don't remember being put to bed or bathed,
0:28:51 > 0:28:52or that kind of thing by Dad.
0:28:52 > 0:28:57Um, I wouldn't say he was there for us, no - never on a sports day
0:28:57 > 0:29:02or school trip, a parents' evening, he wasn't, he wasn't like that, no.
0:29:02 > 0:29:05It just pissed me off that Dad never remembered my birthday.
0:29:05 > 0:29:07Just a fucking phone call to say, "Happy birthday, Lou."
0:29:07 > 0:29:10That was all I wanted, but he couldn't remember that.
0:29:10 > 0:29:11When was Jessica born?
0:29:11 > 0:29:13Sorry?
0:29:13 > 0:29:15When was Jess born?
0:29:15 > 0:29:18I think it was '71, '72.
0:29:18 > 0:29:19Before... maybe before...
0:29:19 > 0:29:24I don't... I don't really know. I can find out for you.
0:29:28 > 0:29:31Do you, do you think he was a good parent?
0:29:32 > 0:29:34No.
0:29:36 > 0:29:39'I did the best I could in that situation.
0:29:39 > 0:29:41'I was fucking twenty fucking two'
0:29:41 > 0:29:45and I had the... I mean, people knew who I was.
0:29:45 > 0:29:47I could drive the fucking Mercedes,
0:29:47 > 0:29:52fly on Concorde to New York fucking first class.
0:29:52 > 0:29:55Stay at a nice hotel. You know, I mean, I was a rock star.
0:29:55 > 0:29:57When you become a successful rock star
0:29:57 > 0:30:01they don't give you a handbook and say, "You should learn these rules,
0:30:01 > 0:30:02"here's what you gotta stick by."
0:30:02 > 0:30:04It's the fucking world.
0:30:04 > 0:30:07You know, you're young, you got money, you're successful,
0:30:07 > 0:30:08chicks want to be seen with you.
0:30:08 > 0:30:12You know it's, it's... What more can you say, you know?
0:30:29 > 0:30:33It's just probably stress or anxiety.
0:30:33 > 0:30:37I don't know. I'm not anxious, I feel OK.
0:30:37 > 0:30:39Well, you don't...
0:30:39 > 0:30:43You've told me before that you get wound up at gigs.
0:30:43 > 0:30:44No, but the last I was great.
0:30:44 > 0:30:46I mean, I just went out and did it, you know.
0:30:46 > 0:30:48I'm not wound up at all.
0:30:51 > 0:30:53- TAPE:- OK there, Ozzy, here we go.
0:30:53 > 0:30:56Now give me muhm, muhm, muhm, M-U-H-M.
0:30:57 > 0:31:01# Muhm-muhm-muhm muhm-muhm-muhm-muhm muhm-muhm-muhm... #
0:31:01 > 0:31:05Now we're going to give it the "gee, gee, gee," slightly hooty.
0:31:05 > 0:31:08End with the long one and say...
0:31:08 > 0:31:13# Gee, gee, gee, gee, gee, gee, gee, gee, gee, gee, gee... #
0:31:13 > 0:31:16Now, Oz, give me a plain old "ooo" and the same thing. Say...
0:31:16 > 0:31:22# Ooo ooo ooo ooo ooo ooo ooo ooo ooo ooo ooo ooo ooo ooo. #
0:31:22 > 0:31:24# Na na na na na na... #
0:31:24 > 0:31:27OK, we're going to give you a chance to rest for a little bit
0:31:27 > 0:31:29and then we'll start again.
0:31:31 > 0:31:33'I love my job, you know.'
0:31:33 > 0:31:36I'm very fucking passionate about it.
0:31:36 > 0:31:39When I can't give a good show I get pissed off about it, you know.
0:31:39 > 0:31:42When I can't do my job I'm, I'm...
0:31:42 > 0:31:45I suffer from terminal perfectionism.
0:31:45 > 0:31:49I'm going to flip-flop Bark at the Moon with Suicide Delusion.
0:31:49 > 0:31:52Um, Crazy Train, and leave it as the old set.
0:31:52 > 0:31:56Yeah. I mean, if you want to get your pipes in shape
0:31:56 > 0:31:59we can do Fire in the Sky
0:31:59 > 0:32:02because that's low for you to sing, you know what I mean?
0:32:02 > 0:32:05Yeah, but... I'll know when I get there, you know, if I can sing.
0:32:05 > 0:32:07Exactly, you know.
0:32:07 > 0:32:10But I'm not going to fucking do all this shit. Ironman.
0:32:12 > 0:32:14I mean, we're going to go over everything.
0:32:14 > 0:32:18We'll be here until fucking midnight going over all this shit.
0:32:18 > 0:32:19We've gotta have a little while.
0:32:19 > 0:32:22- Just keep going until we get it right.- All right.
0:32:24 > 0:32:29# The light in the window is a crack in the sky
0:32:33 > 0:32:38# A stairway to darkness in the blink of an eye
0:32:42 > 0:32:47# A levee of tears to learn she'll never be coming back
0:32:51 > 0:32:56# The man in the dark will bring another attack... #
0:32:59 > 0:33:02Not every night I'm great, and not every night I'm half-great.
0:33:02 > 0:33:05Sometimes I'm terrible - my voice goes out like everybody else's.
0:33:05 > 0:33:08But the show goes on.
0:33:09 > 0:33:12DISTORTED VOCALS
0:33:22 > 0:33:24People can't get...
0:33:27 > 0:33:32Fucking, I'm deaf. Next year I'll be like fucking Braille, man.
0:33:52 > 0:33:56TURNS TV ON
0:33:56 > 0:33:58Here you are.
0:34:05 > 0:34:07You're so tired, that's why.
0:34:09 > 0:34:12'I first met Ozzy when Black Sabbath'
0:34:12 > 0:34:15asked if my father was interested in managing them.
0:34:17 > 0:34:22Black Sabbath was a phenomenon. It just instantly happened.
0:34:24 > 0:34:29And for guys that just came from a poor background
0:34:29 > 0:34:32to suddenly money everywhere being thrown at them,
0:34:32 > 0:34:34they were really out of their comfort zone,
0:34:34 > 0:34:37those guys, they really were.
0:34:37 > 0:34:41When you think, you know, they were all so young - terribly young.
0:34:47 > 0:34:51Towards the late '70s we were very high, high, high.
0:34:51 > 0:34:53There was a lot of cocaine.
0:34:53 > 0:34:56I know was I using cocaine regularly, on a daily basis.
0:34:56 > 0:35:00We were doing it every day, like 24 hours a day practically.
0:35:00 > 0:35:04So I didn't realise at the time
0:35:04 > 0:35:07all the management was interested was ripping as much money off of us
0:35:07 > 0:35:09as they possibly could.
0:35:09 > 0:35:14I mean, Sabbath was royally fucking ripped off, royally ripped off.
0:35:14 > 0:35:18I mean, we didn't know anything about royalties or...
0:35:18 > 0:35:22I didn't even know you GOT royalties for, for writing the music.
0:35:22 > 0:35:25Circa about 1976,
0:35:25 > 0:35:27I produced this report, quite a long report,
0:35:27 > 0:35:31basically saying how their money wasn't quite as they thought it was.
0:35:31 > 0:35:34For example, they all had houses, but they didn't own them.
0:35:34 > 0:35:37We had all these million platinum-selling albums
0:35:37 > 0:35:39and everything and, um, and nothing to show for it.
0:35:39 > 0:35:43No money, we were all out of our brains on dope.
0:35:43 > 0:35:48Um, so the band was just, like, split anyway.
0:35:48 > 0:35:52Uh, it had been broken, really.
0:35:52 > 0:35:54Hello. Welcome to Top of the Pops,
0:35:54 > 0:35:57and right now here is a rundown of the brand new Top 30.
0:36:13 > 0:36:15Right now, Never Say Die.
0:36:15 > 0:36:17That's the brand new one from Black Sabbath.
0:36:20 > 0:36:25# People going nowhere Taken for a ride
0:36:25 > 0:36:30# Looking for the answers that they know inside
0:36:30 > 0:36:35# Searching for a reason Looking for a rhyme
0:36:35 > 0:36:40# Snow White's mirror said Partners in crime... #
0:36:40 > 0:36:43'The last album I did with Sabbath was Never Say Die.'
0:36:43 > 0:36:45And it was the worst piece of work
0:36:45 > 0:36:47that I've ever had anything to do with.
0:36:47 > 0:36:50I'm ashamed of that album. I think it was disgusting.
0:36:59 > 0:37:02APPLAUSE
0:37:02 > 0:37:06He puts everything he's got into it. That's Black Sabbath right there.
0:37:06 > 0:37:08John Travolta and Olivia Newton-John
0:37:08 > 0:37:10have gone straight in at number 23 this week...
0:37:14 > 0:37:16'When his dad passed away,'
0:37:16 > 0:37:20it really, really, really, really knocked the shit out of him.
0:37:20 > 0:37:22It nearly destroyed him.
0:37:23 > 0:37:27We were all devastated. We all loved Jack.
0:37:27 > 0:37:32It was Jack, uh, that had given us the crosses.
0:37:32 > 0:37:36This is the original, original, original Sabbath cross.
0:37:36 > 0:37:38My father made that when he was at work.
0:37:38 > 0:37:42And then when he, when he come back with it,
0:37:42 > 0:37:46everyone in the band wanted one, and he made another.
0:37:46 > 0:37:50Bill Ward wore his right up to relatively recently.
0:37:51 > 0:37:55I always wanted a man-to-man conversation with my father
0:37:55 > 0:37:59but I was too into drugs and alcohol before he died.
0:37:59 > 0:38:01I miss my father a lot, you know.
0:38:01 > 0:38:05Uh, but I was young, I was, you know, I was doing...
0:38:05 > 0:38:08I was riding the fame game for a long time.
0:38:11 > 0:38:13'Oz was in absolute turmoil'
0:38:13 > 0:38:16and he, he put his self right inside the bottle, you know.
0:38:17 > 0:38:21He stayed there for a while.
0:38:21 > 0:38:24And, uh, so we got on with trying to make a another record.
0:38:26 > 0:38:31And we all came over to LA to do the album after Never Say Die
0:38:31 > 0:38:33and Ozzy didn't turn up for two weeks.
0:38:33 > 0:38:36Two weeks later he, he just, like,
0:38:36 > 0:38:39rolls through the door, smashed out of his head.
0:38:39 > 0:38:43He'd beaten somebody up on the plane coming over from England
0:38:43 > 0:38:47and Customs had arrested him for beating this person up.
0:38:49 > 0:38:54And by the time he got to the house he was just, like, obliterated.
0:38:54 > 0:38:57And we started, like, rehearsing. He just wouldn't sing on anything.
0:38:57 > 0:39:00"That's shit, a load of crap, that is."
0:39:00 > 0:39:04Ozzy just wasn't into it. He really wasn't into it then.
0:39:04 > 0:39:06Most of the time, he'd be on the couch asleep.
0:39:06 > 0:39:10Done some Quaaludes or whatever it might have been at that time.
0:39:10 > 0:39:12I mean, he wasn't happy.
0:39:12 > 0:39:15He was doing too much of everything. As we all were,
0:39:15 > 0:39:18but some people can handle it better than others, and he couldn't.
0:39:18 > 0:39:19'The conversations began'
0:39:19 > 0:39:22about the possibility of looking at another singer.
0:39:22 > 0:39:27He just didn't want to be there. And we knew it was like
0:39:27 > 0:39:30either the whole band split or we get somebody else in.
0:39:30 > 0:39:34It was me that actually says to him, you know,
0:39:34 > 0:39:39"Oz, we're going to move on, we're going to move on without you."
0:39:39 > 0:39:41Broke my heart.
0:39:43 > 0:39:46We all cried our eyes out for about a week
0:39:46 > 0:39:48when Ozzy had gone because we...
0:39:50 > 0:39:52I swear to God if he hadn't have...
0:39:52 > 0:39:55If he hadn't have been fired from the band
0:39:55 > 0:39:59he'd have been dead, like, within... within a month.
0:40:01 > 0:40:05It was tough for Ozzy when he first got let go from Sabbath.
0:40:05 > 0:40:07He had no... Very low self-esteem.
0:40:07 > 0:40:09He had no confidence whatsoever.
0:40:09 > 0:40:12When I got fired from Sabbath I didn't know what, what to do.
0:40:12 > 0:40:14I didn't know where to go.
0:40:14 > 0:40:15I thought, well, you know, it was...
0:40:15 > 0:40:18I thought it was the end of the dream, you know?
0:40:18 > 0:40:20I never, I never ever dreamed I would do it again on my own.
0:40:20 > 0:40:22I was like, "This is it."
0:40:22 > 0:40:25So what money I had, I just got fucked up and bought drugs
0:40:25 > 0:40:29and stayed in an apartment for three months and got loaded.
0:40:29 > 0:40:32You'd go into Ozzy's room
0:40:32 > 0:40:35and he'd be curled up on the floor covered in piss,
0:40:35 > 0:40:37beer bottles all around him,
0:40:37 > 0:40:41you know, drug paraphernalia everywhere.
0:40:41 > 0:40:44And what could be sadder, what could be lower than that?
0:40:44 > 0:40:46His dignity had well gone.
0:40:54 > 0:40:56Ozzy did feel very alone, lost and broke.
0:40:56 > 0:41:00Suddenly he was out of the band and, you know, would he get picked up
0:41:00 > 0:41:02and who was interested in him and was his career over?
0:41:02 > 0:41:06For, for a guy like me who's got self-esteem issues,
0:41:06 > 0:41:10the idea of going solo was very, very scary.
0:41:10 > 0:41:12I knew he had great talent,
0:41:12 > 0:41:18and I just felt in my gut that he could make a huge comeback.
0:41:18 > 0:41:24It was then that I became his actual manager, properly.
0:41:24 > 0:41:27And first thing, we had to find that band.
0:41:29 > 0:41:33We auditioned hundreds of guitar players.
0:41:34 > 0:41:38Literally we would turn up at the rehearsal rooms
0:41:38 > 0:41:42and there would be lines around the block
0:41:42 > 0:41:44of musicians waiting to see Ozzy.
0:41:44 > 0:41:46It was a bit of a slow process at first
0:41:46 > 0:41:50until I met someone who put me in touch with Randy Rhoads.
0:41:50 > 0:41:54Randy had like a deepish voice for a little guy, "wow", you know.
0:41:54 > 0:41:58So he goes into the studio and I'm fucking sitting there
0:41:58 > 0:42:00in the studio window thing like that looking out.
0:42:00 > 0:42:05I'm fucking zonked and he goes, "What do you want me to do?"
0:42:05 > 0:42:07I says, "Play any fucking thing."
0:42:07 > 0:42:10He said, "I have a solo," and he played his fucking solo
0:42:10 > 0:42:13and I was like, "Am I that fucking stoned or am I hallucinating?
0:42:13 > 0:42:15"What the fuck is this?"
0:42:15 > 0:42:17GUITAR SOLO
0:42:46 > 0:42:48# Heirs of a cold war
0:42:48 > 0:42:51# That's what we've become
0:42:53 > 0:42:55# Inheriting troubles
0:42:55 > 0:42:58# I'm mentally numb... #
0:43:00 > 0:43:05So he was very lucky to run into Randy Rhoads.
0:43:05 > 0:43:09And the guitar sound really reinvented Ozzy's voice.
0:43:09 > 0:43:14# ..Driving me insane
0:43:14 > 0:43:18# I'm going off the rails on a crazy train. #
0:43:18 > 0:43:21And he had a true writing partner and a friend.
0:43:21 > 0:43:23And they really clicked.
0:43:27 > 0:43:29Everybody thought maybe he'd be down and out
0:43:29 > 0:43:31because of what happened with Sabbath.
0:43:31 > 0:43:33And he just shocked the world.
0:43:37 > 0:43:39Especially with Randy Rhoads and the,
0:43:39 > 0:43:42the magnitude of what this guy was doing.
0:43:42 > 0:43:45I mean, this guy is giving Eddie Van Halen a run for his money.
0:43:45 > 0:43:49Everybody thought that Eddie Van Halen was the king.
0:43:55 > 0:43:59Well, I knew instinctively that he was something extra-special.
0:43:59 > 0:44:02He was like...a gift from God.
0:44:02 > 0:44:06And having that fucking thing, having a gift from a higher power...
0:44:06 > 0:44:09Oh, I don't know what the fucking deal was,
0:44:09 > 0:44:13but this guy did something to me. And one thing that he...
0:44:13 > 0:44:16One thing that he gave to me was hope.
0:44:16 > 0:44:20He gave me a reason for carrying on.
0:44:26 > 0:44:30Blizzard of Ozz, the first record, was done in six weeks.
0:44:30 > 0:44:35It was just, you know, instantly, instantly blew up everywhere.
0:44:38 > 0:44:41# Steal away the night... #
0:44:43 > 0:44:47He went right on tour through Europe with the band.
0:44:47 > 0:44:50Then back into the studio
0:44:50 > 0:44:53three months later to do Diary of a Madman.
0:44:56 > 0:44:58Less than a year after being fired
0:44:58 > 0:45:02from Black Sabbath, Ozzy was a rock star again.
0:45:02 > 0:45:04CHEERING
0:45:12 > 0:45:14HOWLS
0:45:21 > 0:45:24Can't hear you!
0:45:24 > 0:45:29Diary of a Madman Tour was just massive.
0:45:29 > 0:45:31It was the loudest show I've ever been a part of.
0:45:31 > 0:45:33Come on!
0:45:46 > 0:45:49# Over the mountain
0:45:49 > 0:45:54# Take me across the sky
0:45:54 > 0:45:57# Something in my vision
0:45:57 > 0:46:01# Something deep inside
0:46:01 > 0:46:05# Where did I wander
0:46:05 > 0:46:09# Where d'ya think I wander to?
0:46:09 > 0:46:12# I've seen life's magic
0:46:12 > 0:46:16# Astral plane I travel through
0:46:16 > 0:46:19# I heard them tell me that
0:46:19 > 0:46:24# This land of dreams was now
0:46:24 > 0:46:28# I told them I had ridden shooting stars
0:46:28 > 0:46:32# And said I'd show them how. #
0:46:32 > 0:46:35'That show was just like a magical time.'
0:46:35 > 0:46:39I think Randy and Ozzy gelled together like,
0:46:39 > 0:46:42like left and right hand. It was just amazing.
0:46:42 > 0:46:44Their friendship was...
0:46:45 > 0:46:51It was just like two best mates hanging out and laughing.
0:46:51 > 0:46:53But yet, that passion for music...
0:46:53 > 0:46:57I mean, everything was the albums that they were writing and the gigs
0:46:57 > 0:47:00and just music talk the whole time.
0:47:00 > 0:47:03You know, Randy was able to achieve a lot
0:47:03 > 0:47:05in a very short period of time
0:47:05 > 0:47:08and a lot of it was due to Ozzy's mentorship.
0:47:08 > 0:47:12Randy, on behalf of the over half-million readers
0:47:12 > 0:47:14of Guitar Player magazine in the US
0:47:14 > 0:47:17and in 70 countries throughout the world
0:47:17 > 0:47:20I'd like to present you with the 1981 Best New Talent Award.
0:47:20 > 0:47:22Congratulations.
0:47:22 > 0:47:23Thank you.
0:47:23 > 0:47:25Oooh, ooh, ooh, ooh.
0:47:29 > 0:47:31Give him a kiss, Ozzy.
0:47:35 > 0:47:37'I've got a lot of work to do.'
0:47:37 > 0:47:41It makes you realise this is a lot of responsibility,
0:47:41 > 0:47:45and this, this tour I want to really get myself together
0:47:45 > 0:47:49and work harder, you know, cos I'm really proud and honoured.
0:47:49 > 0:47:53And I don't want to stop here, you know?
0:47:56 > 0:47:59- TV:- Randy Rhoads, the 25-year-old lead guitarist
0:47:59 > 0:48:02for Ozzy Osbourne's group, was killed in a plane crash this morning
0:48:02 > 0:48:06along with two other people - Andrew Aycock, the pilot of the plane,
0:48:06 > 0:48:09also Rachel Youngblood, the group's hairdresser.
0:48:09 > 0:48:12Ozzy Osbourne himself was in the van
0:48:12 > 0:48:14when one of the plane's wings clipped it,
0:48:14 > 0:48:16but Ozzy escaped injury, we understand.
0:48:16 > 0:48:2025-year-old Randy Rhoads is dead today.
0:48:21 > 0:48:25The morning that Randy was killed I'll never forget.
0:48:27 > 0:48:31I never forget... We... When, when... You know, we had...
0:48:31 > 0:48:35We were there for so many hours because it took so long for...
0:48:35 > 0:48:39for the authorities who came down, the police and the fire department.
0:48:39 > 0:48:41We finally went to a nearby hotel
0:48:41 > 0:48:44and I just couldn't stay in my room so I went down.
0:48:44 > 0:48:47I went out in the street and I found a church,
0:48:47 > 0:48:49right down the street.
0:48:49 > 0:48:52All I wanted to do was just sit there and be...
0:48:52 > 0:48:56and just, you know, make some sense of what was going on.
0:48:56 > 0:48:59And I didn't even look up.
0:48:59 > 0:49:01And I'm sitting there
0:49:01 > 0:49:05and I hear this sobbing and this, and this crying and...
0:49:08 > 0:49:11And I thought, "Wow, this, this person has got to be
0:49:11 > 0:49:13"in more pain than I am."
0:49:13 > 0:49:17And I look up and there's Ozzy sitting there.
0:49:19 > 0:49:22The craziest day of my life was the day that Randy Rhoads died.
0:49:22 > 0:49:26I couldn't believe that one... You gotta deal with that, you know.
0:49:26 > 0:49:29People tend to forget people in this business so quickly.
0:49:29 > 0:49:31That guy was my brother, man,
0:49:31 > 0:49:34that guy was like a part of my life, you know, and he's dead.
0:49:34 > 0:49:38Why don't people start talking to me about the death of Randy Rhoads
0:49:38 > 0:49:41instead of asking me the craziest prank that I've ever done?
0:49:41 > 0:49:44That was the craziest prank that I've ever witnessed,
0:49:44 > 0:49:46was seeing that guy burn, you know.
0:49:46 > 0:49:51And the day that Randy Rhoads died, it was a day a part of me died, man.
0:49:51 > 0:49:54And Rachel Youngblood, my, my seamstress.
0:49:54 > 0:49:58I can't forget that, you know. It just gets kind of weird.
0:50:21 > 0:50:25OZZY DOES VOCAL EXERCISES
0:50:38 > 0:50:40It's Friday... Saturday, yeah?
0:50:40 > 0:50:42Today is Saturday, yes.
0:50:42 > 0:50:44I don't know what country I'm in half the time.
0:50:44 > 0:50:48- I don't know what fucking time it is.- Tell me about it.
0:50:48 > 0:50:49CHANTING
0:50:49 > 0:50:55# Mr Crowley
0:50:55 > 0:50:59# What went on in your head?
0:50:59 > 0:51:03# Oh, Mr Crowley
0:51:03 > 0:51:08# Did you talk to the dead?
0:51:10 > 0:51:14# Your lifestyle to me seemed so tragic
0:51:14 > 0:51:17# With the thrill of it all
0:51:20 > 0:51:24# You fooled all the people with magic
0:51:24 > 0:51:28# You waited on Satan's call
0:51:28 > 0:51:33# Mr Charming
0:51:33 > 0:51:37# Did you think you were pure?
0:51:37 > 0:51:42# Mr Alarming
0:51:42 > 0:51:45# In nocturnal rapport
0:51:48 > 0:51:53# Uncovering things that were sacred
0:51:53 > 0:51:57# Manifest on this Earth
0:51:57 > 0:52:01# Conceived in the eye of a secret
0:52:01 > 0:52:07# And they scattered the afterbirth
0:52:07 > 0:52:13# Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey... #
0:52:13 > 0:52:16GUITAR SOLO
0:52:29 > 0:52:32# Hey
0:52:41 > 0:52:45# Mr Crowley
0:52:45 > 0:52:50# Won't you ride my white horse?
0:52:50 > 0:52:54# Oh, Mr Crowley... #
0:52:56 > 0:52:59After the Diary of a Madman Tour,
0:52:59 > 0:53:01I went to Barbados with my family.
0:53:01 > 0:53:05My ex-wife told me on the plane coming back, "I want a divorce."
0:53:05 > 0:53:09But, you know, that's very ugly for a while.
0:53:09 > 0:53:13My children still wanted their father, their dad, you know.
0:53:13 > 0:53:18And that's a fucking dreadful feeling that you have to go through.
0:53:18 > 0:53:22I remember going to my house one day and Louis, my son, was a little kid
0:53:22 > 0:53:26and he, and he got me in a...
0:53:26 > 0:53:29I can remember him sticking his fingernails in
0:53:29 > 0:53:31and tears were streaming down his face
0:53:31 > 0:53:34and he says, "Daddy, please come home, we can work this out."
0:53:34 > 0:53:40That one incident tore my heart out. Tore my fucking heart out.
0:53:40 > 0:53:42It's, it just fucked me up.
0:53:42 > 0:53:46I don't know... Anyway, it really devastated me.
0:53:52 > 0:53:54Ozzy and I were friends.
0:53:54 > 0:53:57We worked together and that was it.
0:53:57 > 0:54:01But it wasn't until August of 1980
0:54:01 > 0:54:05that we actually had a relationship going.
0:54:09 > 0:54:13We were at... The first night that we were actually together
0:54:13 > 0:54:16in Shepperton in 1980,
0:54:16 > 0:54:20and then the next day I thought, well, you know, it just happened.
0:54:20 > 0:54:24Drunk, we were, you know, in the moment, it will all be over.
0:54:24 > 0:54:28- And each night after the show... - It happened again.
0:54:28 > 0:54:31It happened again and again and again.
0:54:31 > 0:54:32And then we'd be...
0:54:32 > 0:54:37It was either we were in the pub, in bed or on stage. That was it.
0:54:37 > 0:54:40- That's about it, isn't it?- Yeah.
0:54:44 > 0:54:47I didn't know they had a relationship or anything,
0:54:47 > 0:54:50and I'm shooting Ozzy in the bed and then all of a sudden
0:54:50 > 0:54:55Sharon, uh, goes under the covers.
0:54:55 > 0:55:00All of a sudden, Sharon is down there like she's...
0:55:00 > 0:55:03doing the deed, you know, like, and Ozzy is just, like, freaking.
0:55:07 > 0:55:11Ozzy and I got married in 1982 in Maui.
0:55:17 > 0:55:20And we wanted to start a family - that's why we got married.
0:55:20 > 0:55:23We both wanted our own family.
0:55:45 > 0:55:50Dad was there for me when I was growing up, and there were...
0:55:50 > 0:55:52There were times, like chunks.
0:55:52 > 0:55:55You know, but then again there were loads of times
0:55:55 > 0:55:58where he, you know, he wasn't a great father
0:55:58 > 0:56:02and he wasn't, you know, there, you know, there when I needed him.
0:56:02 > 0:56:06Meaning, you know, the fact that he was messed up a lot of the time.
0:56:06 > 0:56:10Well, when he was drunk, he was mostly tearful.
0:56:10 > 0:56:13Um, and sometimes he'd get a bit angry
0:56:13 > 0:56:18and a bit like, "I work hard, I should be able to do what I want."
0:56:18 > 0:56:22Um, but mostly tearful.
0:56:22 > 0:56:25I don't honestly think that Ozzy knew how to be a father.
0:56:25 > 0:56:27The drinking, you know,
0:56:27 > 0:56:30the huge success that was going on in his life.
0:56:30 > 0:56:34The turmoil of leaving one family and starting another family -
0:56:34 > 0:56:38he was just, you know, he was like treading water.
0:56:38 > 0:56:42And that caused the behaviour to get even worse.
0:56:42 > 0:56:46So his pranks that he used to play
0:56:46 > 0:56:50would get bigger and larger and crazier
0:56:50 > 0:56:55and his whole behaviour on and offstage was over the top.
0:56:55 > 0:56:58And it was like, um,
0:56:58 > 0:57:01insanity just going around and around and around -
0:57:01 > 0:57:03complete insanity.
0:57:03 > 0:57:05- TV:- Rock star Ozzy Osbourne,
0:57:05 > 0:57:09who is known for biting the heads off of bats at his concerts...
0:57:09 > 0:57:12Osbourne was arrested for urinating on the Alamo.
0:57:12 > 0:57:15Reunion Arena was filled with the anticipation
0:57:15 > 0:57:17of a cat slaughter tonight.
0:57:17 > 0:57:19Rumour was that punk rocker Ozzy Osbourne
0:57:19 > 0:57:22was going to release hundreds of cats here
0:57:22 > 0:57:24and expected the audience to kill them
0:57:24 > 0:57:26before his appearance on stage.
0:57:26 > 0:57:27The lyrics from one of his songs
0:57:27 > 0:57:30encouraged a young man to commit suicide.
0:57:30 > 0:57:34His father claims John was listening to Ozzy Osbourne music at the time.
0:57:34 > 0:57:38You have a reputation for being rock and roll's definitive crazy person.
0:57:38 > 0:57:40Well, I suppose you could say that.
0:57:40 > 0:57:42Can we talk about you being crazy?
0:57:42 > 0:57:43I'm not crazy.
0:57:44 > 0:57:46'In the '80s,'
0:57:46 > 0:57:48I was the craziest guy in rock and roll.
0:57:48 > 0:57:51If you... If you wanted me to do something, tell me not to.
0:57:51 > 0:57:54That was about the order of the fucking...
0:57:54 > 0:57:57I was drunk and fucked up on a daily basis.
0:57:57 > 0:57:59So when you get drunk and fucked up,
0:57:59 > 0:58:01you hardly expect to fucking
0:58:01 > 0:58:04tiptoe through the tulips or whatever the fuck.
0:58:04 > 0:58:08And when you're loaded, you do crazy things.
0:58:27 > 0:58:31MANIACAL LAUGH
0:58:31 > 0:58:34It was the first time
0:58:34 > 0:58:37that Ozzy met the A&R staff, promotional staff,
0:58:37 > 0:58:39at CBS in Los Angeles.
0:58:39 > 0:58:43And, um, you know, Ozzy's deal was a cheap deal -
0:58:43 > 0:58:44they didn't want Ozzy.
0:58:44 > 0:58:47It was a favour that they signed Ozzy.
0:58:47 > 0:58:49It was just a favour.
0:58:49 > 0:58:53You know, 65 grand they paid for the album.
0:58:53 > 0:58:56So he wasn't on their high list of priorities, you know.
0:58:56 > 0:58:58They had fucking Michael Jackson,
0:58:58 > 0:59:03and it was like "OK, well, they've got to remember you."
0:59:03 > 0:59:06And so then we said, "Oh, the doves of peace - that'll be nice,"
0:59:06 > 0:59:10you know, go in and let the birds go and then it'll be lovely
0:59:10 > 0:59:12and, you know, they'll remember.
0:59:12 > 0:59:15Maybe it'll shit on somebody's desk and that'll be funny.
0:59:15 > 0:59:17And then we leave.
0:59:17 > 0:59:19She wanted me to go in there with two doves -
0:59:19 > 0:59:21a peace offering, you know.
0:59:21 > 0:59:24She says, "You blow this and we're completely fucked."
0:59:24 > 0:59:26We go into the meeting and there's, you know,
0:59:26 > 0:59:29the big conference table and there must have been,
0:59:29 > 0:59:31I don't know, 20, 30 people in there.
0:59:31 > 0:59:34And he's sat there and he lets this bird go
0:59:34 > 0:59:38and everybody is, "Ooh!" You know, "Magic trick!" "Oh, is that real?"
0:59:38 > 0:59:41I threw the one up in the air, sat on this girl's lap
0:59:41 > 0:59:44and snapped the other one in my mouth and bit its head off.
0:59:44 > 0:59:47There is a photo somewhere of me, of the actual event happening.
0:59:53 > 0:59:54He just picked it up,
0:59:54 > 0:59:58and ripped its head off and spat it out on the girl.
0:59:58 > 1:00:02And she went absolutely fucking insane.
1:00:06 > 1:00:08They suddenly called the security
1:00:08 > 1:00:11and we were, like, yanked out of the conference room.
1:00:14 > 1:00:16It was not a publicity stunt.
1:00:16 > 1:00:19I was just out of my fucking face on drugs and alcohol, you know.
1:00:19 > 1:00:22What is the truth behind Ozzy biting a head off of a bat?
1:00:22 > 1:00:25The bat started because of the dove.
1:00:25 > 1:00:30Kids kept hearing these stories so they would bring him animals
1:00:30 > 1:00:33to the gigs...
1:00:33 > 1:00:36thinking that he would want to eat them.
1:00:36 > 1:00:39And somebody threw a bat...
1:00:39 > 1:00:43To find someone who goes to a concert with a bat in their...
1:00:43 > 1:00:45a real bat. You always get the joke ones, you know.
1:00:45 > 1:00:49You get the rubber ones you buy from the corner joke shop.
1:00:49 > 1:00:51And I picked it up and I thought, "This will be good."
1:00:51 > 1:00:52Bit into this bat.
1:00:52 > 1:00:54You bit it?!
1:00:54 > 1:00:57Believe me, if I'd have known it was a real live bat,
1:00:57 > 1:00:59I would never have picked it up.
1:00:59 > 1:01:01But I'll tell you what,
1:01:01 > 1:01:04afterwards, the rabies shots were horrendous.
1:01:04 > 1:01:05Oh, God, yes.
1:01:08 > 1:01:13It went out on the wire that Ozzy had bitten the head off a bat
1:01:13 > 1:01:15and had to have these rabies shots.
1:01:15 > 1:01:20And then suddenly, Ozzy is this larger than life character.
1:01:26 > 1:01:28When we were on tour with Ozzy,
1:01:28 > 1:01:31we'd always have these crazy parties backstage.
1:01:31 > 1:01:34He would come onto our bus
1:01:34 > 1:01:37and say, "I'm riding with you guys to the next city!"
1:01:37 > 1:01:39And he'd fucking reach into his...
1:01:39 > 1:01:42into his coat pocket or his pants and pull out, like,
1:01:42 > 1:01:44two huge bags of cocaine
1:01:44 > 1:01:46and he goes, "I've got bags of this shit!"
1:01:46 > 1:01:48And we would, fucking...
1:01:48 > 1:01:50All of us would go to the back of the bus
1:01:50 > 1:01:52and we would fucking snort cocaine
1:01:52 > 1:01:55for fucking, you know, ten-hour bus rides.
1:01:55 > 1:01:58And we're walking into hotels like the Four Seasons
1:01:58 > 1:02:01or the Ritz-Carltons where like, you know, mom and dad were a happy family
1:02:01 > 1:02:04or out by the pool and everybody is like, "the little resort"
1:02:04 > 1:02:08and here comes Motley Crue and Ozzy just fucking blasted.
1:02:10 > 1:02:13And it was like this, "who can out-gross" contest
1:02:13 > 1:02:17which Nikki kind of started, and all of a sudden,
1:02:17 > 1:02:20we're sitting out by the pool having drinks
1:02:20 > 1:02:23and Nikki pisses on the ground and goes to lick up his own piss
1:02:23 > 1:02:24to freak Ozzy out.
1:02:24 > 1:02:28Well, Ozzy beats him to the punch and starts licking up Nikki's piss.
1:02:28 > 1:02:31And we're like, "Oh, fuck!"
1:02:31 > 1:02:34"This is fucked up! What is wrong with you two?!"
1:02:35 > 1:02:37And the hotel is freaking out.
1:02:37 > 1:02:39The security is kicking us out of the pool.
1:02:39 > 1:02:43This is like, they're doing the out-gross contest, snorting ants,
1:02:43 > 1:02:44fucking licking up piss.
1:02:44 > 1:02:46I'm like, "Dude, let's just go to the fucking room,
1:02:46 > 1:02:48"let's just chill out, come on."
1:02:48 > 1:02:51(MIMICS OZZY) "I'm in the fucking right and fucking..."
1:02:51 > 1:02:53I'm like, "Dude, please."
1:02:53 > 1:02:56I fucking grabbed him like, "Come on!" I take him to the elevator.
1:02:56 > 1:03:00I find his room, put the key in. I'm like, "OK, bud."
1:03:00 > 1:03:03I, like, push the door open, "OK, bud, you're in your room, bye!"
1:03:03 > 1:03:06He's like, "No, fucking come here, mate!"
1:03:06 > 1:03:08And I'm like "Oh, fuck, I almost got out of here."
1:03:08 > 1:03:12And he pulls me into his room, pulls his pants down
1:03:12 > 1:03:14and just shits on the fucking floor.
1:03:17 > 1:03:19A fucking big shit on the floor.
1:03:19 > 1:03:21- And I'm like... - HE RETCHES
1:03:21 > 1:03:23"OK, dude, I've got to go."
1:03:23 > 1:03:25(MIMICS OZZY) "No, fucking come here!"
1:03:25 > 1:03:29And he fucking drags me back in and he picks up the shit in his hands
1:03:29 > 1:03:31and he's just smearing it all over the walls
1:03:31 > 1:03:33of this fucking hotel room.
1:03:33 > 1:03:37I'm like, "Dude, I've got to go, this is fucked up."
1:03:37 > 1:03:38And I just...
1:03:38 > 1:03:42I just remember turning around and I just saw his back
1:03:42 > 1:03:45and he was just painting with this shit on the walls.
1:03:45 > 1:03:47And I just, fucking, was like, "Now is my chance."
1:03:47 > 1:03:50And I fucking pinned it out of there, dude.
1:03:50 > 1:03:52I was like, this is on some other, next level shit.
1:03:52 > 1:03:56Like, I'm not really ready to compete at this level.
1:03:56 > 1:03:59I'm cool with, you know, taking a shit in the toilet.
1:03:59 > 1:04:00HE LAUGHS
1:04:05 > 1:04:08I think that Ozzy's behaviour in the '80s...
1:04:08 > 1:04:10I think it's a fact of...
1:04:10 > 1:04:13Um, everything, Ozzy had always lost.
1:04:13 > 1:04:18You know, he'd lost Sabbath, he lost his first wife,
1:04:18 > 1:04:21he lost his first kids, he's...
1:04:21 > 1:04:23you know, everything would come and go.
1:04:23 > 1:04:28So he was, like, fucking everything that fucking had a pulse.
1:04:28 > 1:04:32Sniffing everything he could sniff because he thought that it
1:04:32 > 1:04:37was all going to end so he was going to go out on a high.
1:04:42 > 1:04:45# Screams break the silence
1:04:45 > 1:04:48# Waking from the dead of night... #
1:04:48 > 1:04:51I hated this video.
1:04:51 > 1:04:52It's so fucking lame.
1:04:56 > 1:04:58I don't like it.
1:04:58 > 1:05:02Fucking stu... Everybody was fucked up and drunk and everything.
1:05:02 > 1:05:05Look at it! I don't even know what drugs
1:05:05 > 1:05:08I was addicted to at the fucking time.
1:05:08 > 1:05:10# Buried in a nameless grave... #
1:05:10 > 1:05:13So, next, come on.
1:05:21 > 1:05:23# Well I know
1:05:23 > 1:05:27# I could be just another stranger... #
1:05:30 > 1:05:34It's a cliched fucking '80s video, that is.
1:05:34 > 1:05:38# I guess I'm just another fool... #
1:05:38 > 1:05:42I can't remember doing this fucking thing.
1:05:42 > 1:05:44I was a mess in the '80s.
1:05:44 > 1:05:47I was doing fucking morphine, um, Vicodin,
1:05:47 > 1:05:51fucking booze... all kinds of shit.
1:05:51 > 1:05:55I can't remember. I just can't remember it at all.
1:05:55 > 1:05:57Never happened.
1:05:57 > 1:06:01# I'm breaking all the rules Breaking all the rules... #
1:06:01 > 1:06:03Next!
1:06:12 > 1:06:13It's hokey.
1:06:13 > 1:06:16# And that's the ultimate sin... #
1:06:17 > 1:06:18"Whose idea was it?"
1:06:18 > 1:06:22How the fuck do I know?! This is boring.
1:06:22 > 1:06:25You know, it's fucking hard to go back there, you know
1:06:25 > 1:06:27and a lot of it, I don't want to go back there, you know.
1:06:27 > 1:06:30# Anyway, I look into you
1:06:30 > 1:06:34# The doors are closing Cannot be opened... #
1:06:34 > 1:06:36Where are you going?
1:06:36 > 1:06:38I'm getting up and walking around.
1:06:38 > 1:06:41I don't fucking want to watch this shit.
1:06:45 > 1:06:48# Your momma told you that
1:06:48 > 1:06:54# You're not supposed to talk to strangers
1:06:54 > 1:06:58# Look in the mirror, tell me
1:06:58 > 1:07:05# Do you think your life's in danger here?
1:07:13 > 1:07:16I can't fucking hear you!
1:07:20 > 1:07:24# No more tears. #
1:07:27 > 1:07:28APPLAUSE
1:07:48 > 1:07:49Let's get on with this, then.
1:07:49 > 1:07:55What does it feel like tonight? You have a tour starting tomorrow.
1:07:55 > 1:07:58Is it always like this or this is an exception?
1:08:01 > 1:08:02Yeah.
1:08:02 > 1:08:05Yeah, it is. Come on, come on!
1:08:07 > 1:08:09Yeah.
1:08:10 > 1:08:13No, no, no, it's like...we do...
1:08:13 > 1:08:18uh, what, 16 days ago, we got over from Japan...
1:08:22 > 1:08:28When Ozzy was drunk, he was fucked up beyond belief.
1:08:28 > 1:08:32I mean, to the point where he would drink
1:08:32 > 1:08:36until he couldn't drink anymore. Where he would be unconscious.
1:08:36 > 1:08:40That's the only thing that would stop him drinking. He'd be unconscious or asleep.
1:08:41 > 1:08:43He was blacking out.
1:08:43 > 1:08:46He was drinking and going unconscious on the floor.
1:08:46 > 1:08:48He couldn't move.
1:08:48 > 1:08:51His eyes would be open but he would be, like, unconscious. It was weird.
1:08:54 > 1:08:58I passed out with a bottle of fucking Vicodin in my mouth!
1:08:59 > 1:09:03Mainly, I was concerned about him, like, choking on his vomit,
1:09:03 > 1:09:06falling asleep when he was drunk and choking on his vomit.
1:09:12 > 1:09:15This is me on my stag night. I'm fucking blasted.
1:09:22 > 1:09:25I think it was in Memphis, Ozzy disappeared
1:09:25 > 1:09:29and, you know, he got found in the middle of a freeway.
1:09:29 > 1:09:32You know, he crossed over half of a freeway and stopped in the middle
1:09:32 > 1:09:35and he was in the central reservation and he was sleeping.
1:09:35 > 1:09:38And he woke up and he had to cross the other half.
1:09:38 > 1:09:40I mean, how he didn't get knocked over
1:09:40 > 1:09:43because he was absolutely shit-faced.
1:09:45 > 1:09:50This is when I clocked Sharon, I think. I think so.
1:09:50 > 1:09:54We were always fucking fighting, me and Sharon.
1:09:54 > 1:09:57That's when I smacked her, Sharon, in the eye...
1:09:57 > 1:09:59for over what, I don't know.
1:10:01 > 1:10:03It had been coming for a while.
1:10:03 > 1:10:05Ozzy was on a bender, you know.
1:10:05 > 1:10:09He was, he was really on a roll.
1:10:11 > 1:10:15He'd been very bad for the last couple of weeks
1:10:15 > 1:10:19and we'd had a couple of fights where we'd beaten each other
1:10:19 > 1:10:22and, you know, it was nasty.
1:10:22 > 1:10:27But you kind of get the, you know, when anyone who knows, who lives
1:10:27 > 1:10:31with an addict, that there are times when it's worse than others.
1:10:31 > 1:10:33And it was just building to something,
1:10:33 > 1:10:36you could just feel it in the atmosphere between us.
1:10:36 > 1:10:39And, um, my God, it did.
1:10:39 > 1:10:42And he put...
1:10:42 > 1:10:43I'd put the kids to bed.
1:10:43 > 1:10:48You know, we were sat down, I was reading and, um, he came in.
1:10:48 > 1:10:50He'd been laying down.
1:10:50 > 1:10:53He'd actually drunk himself into one of those, you know,
1:10:53 > 1:10:56like, comatose things on the bed.
1:10:56 > 1:11:01He'd passed out and woke up, came downstairs and
1:11:01 > 1:11:06I knew when he came in that he was, like, looking for trouble.
1:11:06 > 1:11:11And Ozzy is very rarely calm, very calm,
1:11:11 > 1:11:15and his eyes, the kind of shutter had gone down on his eyes.
1:11:15 > 1:11:17You couldn't really... you know.
1:11:17 > 1:11:21I had no idea who was sat across from me on the sofa,
1:11:21 > 1:11:24but it wasn't my husband.
1:11:24 > 1:11:28Um, and then he just said that he had made a...
1:11:28 > 1:11:29"they" had come.
1:11:29 > 1:11:33He said "they" had made a decision that I had to die.
1:11:33 > 1:11:35And I'm like, "They?"
1:11:35 > 1:11:38"Yes, they've made the decision, we've made the decision
1:11:38 > 1:11:40"you're gonna have to die."
1:11:40 > 1:11:42And then he just, um...
1:11:42 > 1:11:46got up from the sofa and just dived on me
1:11:46 > 1:11:48and started to choke me.
1:11:49 > 1:11:51Fabulous(!)
1:11:52 > 1:11:56All I remember was waking up in Amersham Jail.
1:11:56 > 1:11:59And I asked the cop why I was there.
1:11:59 > 1:12:01"Excuse me," I said, "Why am I here?"
1:12:01 > 1:12:05And he says, "You want me to read your charge?"
1:12:05 > 1:12:07So he read, "John Michael Osbourne, arrested for
1:12:07 > 1:12:10"attempted murder of his... of Sharon Osbourne."
1:12:10 > 1:12:13I'm like, "Is this a joke?"
1:12:13 > 1:12:14He says, "I'm not joking.
1:12:14 > 1:12:17"You're going to court in a minute."
1:12:17 > 1:12:20That hit me like a... like a fucking hammer between the eyes.
1:12:20 > 1:12:22It was like, I was like...
1:12:22 > 1:12:25I remember getting this, this dull feeling in my heart,
1:12:25 > 1:12:28which is like... And I thought, I thought...
1:12:28 > 1:12:30I didn't know whether she was in hospital
1:12:30 > 1:12:32or what I had done, you know.
1:12:47 > 1:12:50Oh, I know where we are. That's where we used to rehearse.
1:12:50 > 1:12:53That's where we used to rehearse, there.
1:12:54 > 1:12:57That's the pub I used to go to, right over there.
1:12:57 > 1:12:59Just down there is Whitton Road.
1:12:59 > 1:13:02I used to walk all the way up here to get off at Lucas car factory
1:13:02 > 1:13:05to go to work for my... with my mum.
1:13:05 > 1:13:07Fucking hell.
1:13:09 > 1:13:11We're just coming up to Lodge Road now.
1:13:22 > 1:13:27Fucking hell, man. It's so small, it's unbelievable.
1:13:27 > 1:13:29I can't believe how small it is.
1:13:29 > 1:13:32Fucking... Jesus Christ.
1:13:32 > 1:13:37When I was a kid, it used to be like the longest road in the world, you know.
1:13:37 > 1:13:40'When you're a young kid and you get successful like I did,
1:13:40 > 1:13:43'you get very arrogant and your ego runs the world.
1:13:43 > 1:13:48'You think it's you, you know. You forget your upbringing.'
1:13:48 > 1:13:51It took me till now to kind of realize that, you know.
1:13:54 > 1:13:55Wow.
1:13:57 > 1:13:58Wow.
1:14:01 > 1:14:02Oh, this is...
1:14:05 > 1:14:07Wow, this is unbelievable.
1:14:09 > 1:14:10It's amazing.
1:14:12 > 1:14:13Wow.
1:14:13 > 1:14:17That was Mrs Clarke's shop I broke into.
1:14:19 > 1:14:22That was my rear bedroom up there.
1:14:22 > 1:14:24As my sisters, as my family,
1:14:24 > 1:14:26my sisters would get older and get married,
1:14:26 > 1:14:31you were allowed to go in the back room and have it to yourself.
1:14:31 > 1:14:36And this is right here, I lived in here for a while and,
1:14:36 > 1:14:38this is unbelievable.
1:14:50 > 1:14:51I hated school.
1:14:51 > 1:14:53I fucking hated it.
1:14:55 > 1:15:00'I had dreadful, dreadfully bad, uh, dyslexia.
1:15:00 > 1:15:04'When I was at school, nobody knew what it was about, you know.
1:15:04 > 1:15:07'Somebody would go, "Look, one plus one equals two."
1:15:07 > 1:15:12'You look at him and you go, "Well, what the fuck does one mean?"'
1:15:12 > 1:15:16I couldn't retain any information. My attention deficit was so bad.
1:15:16 > 1:15:18It still is.
1:15:18 > 1:15:20I go rambling on, you know, it's like I don't know what
1:15:20 > 1:15:23I'm talking about half the time, I just talk.
1:15:26 > 1:15:29'I was very low on self-esteem.'
1:15:29 > 1:15:31I used to get picked on by bullies.
1:15:31 > 1:15:34But I just... it just pushed me further inside myself.
1:16:09 > 1:16:12- Where you came from...- Yeah. - ..did everyone drink?
1:16:12 > 1:16:15Coming from the background that I come from I thought
1:16:15 > 1:16:16that was, um, what you do.
1:16:16 > 1:16:19You get successful, you get married, you have kids
1:16:19 > 1:16:21and you get to go to the pub.
1:16:21 > 1:16:25And I used to think everybody, as they get older, gets fucking pissed.
1:16:25 > 1:16:29The first time I got drunk I was about 14.
1:16:29 > 1:16:32I, I, I didn't stop. I drank it and I got the feeling
1:16:32 > 1:16:35and I drunk until I pissed my pants in this fucking pub.
1:16:35 > 1:16:38And that's where, from the first drink, I wanted...
1:16:38 > 1:16:41I didn't drink for a drink, I drank for the effect.
1:16:41 > 1:16:43How many rehabs?
1:16:43 > 1:16:45I've been in a bunch.
1:16:45 > 1:16:48Between detoxes and rehab this will be about ten or 12.
1:16:48 > 1:16:55Ozzy tried to get sober, I would say between 40 to 50 times.
1:16:55 > 1:17:00But he had been in and out of rehabs about,
1:17:00 > 1:17:04I can think of ten different rehabs he went to over the period of time.
1:17:04 > 1:17:09Well, see I used to go 90 days, I'd go, "Fuck this, it's crap,"
1:17:09 > 1:17:11and go out and get stocked up again.
1:17:11 > 1:17:13One minute he'd be sitting here sober,
1:17:13 > 1:17:15the next minute you would see him be fucked up, you know.
1:17:15 > 1:17:18He'd disappear somewhere or he would go to the fridge
1:17:18 > 1:17:22and get a beer or he'd go for a walk up the drive to the pub.
1:17:22 > 1:17:24I just knew... I just knew the cycle.
1:17:24 > 1:17:26It would be like, my dad would to treatment,
1:17:26 > 1:17:30he'd stay sober for maybe 60 days tops and then he'd start
1:17:30 > 1:17:34messing around with pills and then he would do that for a while.
1:17:34 > 1:17:36And then he would just go right to the drink
1:17:36 > 1:17:39and it would get really bad. Then he would go back to treatment.
1:17:39 > 1:17:44I don't actually believe that he was ever fully sober.
1:17:44 > 1:17:48He was just drunk. He was just not a dad.
1:17:48 > 1:17:50He was drunk and he was fucked up all the time.
1:17:50 > 1:17:53I came home from school every single day to see him
1:17:53 > 1:17:57lying on a couch, drooling, with a pill bottle on the floor
1:17:57 > 1:18:00or a vodka bottle on the floor.
1:18:00 > 1:18:02Or, you know...
1:18:02 > 1:18:06opening up the oven to make a cake with my friends
1:18:06 > 1:18:09to find that that's where my dad would hide...
1:18:09 > 1:18:11hid the bottles of alcohol.
1:18:11 > 1:18:14One thing about drugs and alcohol - they make you lie.
1:18:14 > 1:18:18You start lying and covering up your tracks and hiding things and fucking...
1:18:18 > 1:18:21I used to have to wait for the guy to drop my drugs off
1:18:21 > 1:18:24and I'd be, like, running in and out of the fucking house all day long,
1:18:24 > 1:18:27thinking that nobody would suspect I was waiting for dope
1:18:27 > 1:18:29to be delivered, you know.
1:18:37 > 1:18:39When The Osbournes first started,
1:18:40 > 1:18:44he was probably at his worst peak of drinking.
1:18:44 > 1:18:47I mean, like, pretty much going through the worst times.
1:18:47 > 1:18:51..That you pick up the fucking phone and call.
1:18:51 > 1:18:55That was the worst thing I'd ever do, I was never off the phone.
1:18:55 > 1:18:59Sometimes, you know, he'd be popping pills from numerous different
1:18:59 > 1:19:03disgusting doctors that would give him whatever he wanted and...
1:19:03 > 1:19:06I don't know, sometimes he'd be on downers,
1:19:06 > 1:19:07sometimes he'd be on uppers.
1:19:07 > 1:19:10So like, that obviously will make anyone behave a little bit off
1:19:10 > 1:19:12and, you know, scary sometimes.
1:19:12 > 1:19:15Why do we have three brown fingers?
1:19:17 > 1:19:18Three brown?
1:19:23 > 1:19:26Oh, because I put brown dye in my hair.
1:19:26 > 1:19:29I think it was affecting... Well, it was affecting his speech.
1:19:29 > 1:19:31It was affecting the way he walked.
1:19:31 > 1:19:36It was affecting the way he stood. It was just everything.
1:19:36 > 1:19:41Part of his fame came from how he looked.
1:19:41 > 1:19:43People thought it was funny, thought it was cute.
1:19:45 > 1:19:48What the fuck is this shit?
1:19:50 > 1:19:52This is not allowed. What's happened to it?
1:19:52 > 1:19:55How do I get this fucking thing on?
1:19:55 > 1:19:59What they thought was funny was kind of sad because
1:19:59 > 1:20:03he was actually destroying himself and also destroying the family.
1:20:03 > 1:20:06I mean, there is hours and hours of footage of stuff
1:20:06 > 1:20:08that just couldn't show.
1:20:09 > 1:20:12It just... It was too, too... It was too real.
1:20:12 > 1:20:17You know, granted The Osbournes was not scripted, but people don't
1:20:17 > 1:20:24want to sit home on MTV and watch alcoholism tear apart a family.
1:20:24 > 1:20:27When we first started filming The Osbournes,
1:20:27 > 1:20:29it was no secret my dad did drugs, he was an addict,
1:20:29 > 1:20:33but he was kind of a functioning addict.
1:20:33 > 1:20:38But when my mum was diagnosed with cancer, it very quickly...
1:20:38 > 1:20:44He was out of control, out of control.
1:20:44 > 1:20:48He never came out of his room that we called the Bunker.
1:20:48 > 1:20:52He couldn't stand up straight, he couldn't walk properly,
1:20:52 > 1:20:55he couldn't hear, he shook, he stuttered.
1:20:55 > 1:20:59I mean, everything that you could imagine.
1:20:59 > 1:21:01I mean, he was a zombie.
1:21:04 > 1:21:08I was taking drugs too during that time when my mum had cancer.
1:21:08 > 1:21:10I was using too.
1:21:10 > 1:21:12I got through that experience
1:21:12 > 1:21:14by hiding my emotions through using drugs.
1:21:16 > 1:21:18I'll go get you a bottle of water.
1:21:18 > 1:21:19Just sip on water, Kelly.
1:21:19 > 1:21:22I got that interview on the phone.
1:21:22 > 1:21:24- On the phone?- She's holding on.
1:21:24 > 1:21:27I had to hang up because I was throwing up.
1:21:27 > 1:21:30Let me get, let me get you a bottle of water.
1:21:30 > 1:21:34Jack and Kelly started using and doing drugs and alcohol
1:21:34 > 1:21:37and whatever at a very early age.
1:21:39 > 1:21:41Things started happening in my family.
1:21:41 > 1:21:46I mean, it was my son, Jack, who got sober first.
1:21:46 > 1:21:52When I got sober, we were sat at a table and he's like,
1:21:52 > 1:21:55"Oh, you know, I threw away all my pain medication the other day."
1:21:55 > 1:21:58And I was like, "Well, why did you have them in the first place?"
1:21:58 > 1:22:02And this whole argument erupted and he, you know,
1:22:02 > 1:22:06the one excuse my dad always went to when he was getting
1:22:06 > 1:22:10messed up was, "You guys never needed for anything.
1:22:10 > 1:22:13"You never, you know, whatever you wanted I gave you."
1:22:13 > 1:22:17I said to him, "What the fuck are you always pissed off at me for?
1:22:17 > 1:22:20"You've never ever wanted for a fucking thing from the day...
1:22:20 > 1:22:22"the moment you took your first breath."
1:22:22 > 1:22:26And he went, "Oh yeah? What about a father?"
1:22:26 > 1:22:28And that hit me straight between the eyes like
1:22:28 > 1:22:31fucking David and Goliath, and he's got that slingshot.
1:22:31 > 1:22:35He just knocked me on my arse. I just... "Oh, fucking hell."
1:22:37 > 1:22:44I honestly think that the turning point for Ozzy was Jack's sobriety.
1:22:44 > 1:22:49Jack learned how to deal with life sober.
1:22:49 > 1:22:52And I think it shamed Ozzy that he couldn't do it.
1:22:52 > 1:22:54He could never get it.
1:22:54 > 1:22:58And that's what was his big turning point in life.
1:23:04 > 1:23:07That was the start of the journey of him being sober.
1:23:07 > 1:23:10You know, the evidence proves the fact
1:23:10 > 1:23:13because he hasn't drunk or abused for over five years now.
1:23:13 > 1:23:14I'm clean, I'm sober.
1:23:14 > 1:23:17I don't smoke, I don't do drugs, I don't do alcohol anymore.
1:23:17 > 1:23:19I haven't done for a long while.
1:23:19 > 1:23:23But, uh, I like being sober, I like being straight.
1:23:23 > 1:23:25I don't want to smoke tobacco anymore.
1:23:25 > 1:23:28He blew us all away. I mean, we didn't...
1:23:28 > 1:23:30None of us ever really thought that he'd maintain it
1:23:30 > 1:23:32for as long as he has now.
1:23:32 > 1:23:35It really seems like he's come through the other side.
1:23:35 > 1:23:39When you really, when you really let go it's like somebody takes
1:23:39 > 1:23:42that chain off you, you know, and you just go.
1:23:42 > 1:23:43And you don't...
1:23:43 > 1:23:46When you're involved in it, you don't realize
1:23:46 > 1:23:49how much hard work it is to be a fucking alcoholic.
1:23:50 > 1:23:54But when you get fed up with you behaving the way you do,
1:23:54 > 1:23:56I mean, sometimes I go this is what it's all about,
1:23:56 > 1:23:59I want to get fucked up, but I don't.
1:23:59 > 1:24:06His face is alive and he stands up straight and he walks tall
1:24:06 > 1:24:09and with confidence and he's not ashamed of himself anymore.
1:24:09 > 1:24:14He has nothing to hide anymore and he has nothing to lie about anymore,
1:24:14 > 1:24:17which makes him...
1:24:17 > 1:24:20I think he's really proud of himself.
1:24:21 > 1:24:25I think it's the first time he's proud of himself.
1:24:26 > 1:24:28Do you like it, being clean?
1:24:28 > 1:24:29I like it, yeah.
1:24:29 > 1:24:33With a bit of time, you, um,
1:24:33 > 1:24:36you start to go, what did I ever think about that was fun?
1:24:36 > 1:24:39What was fucking fun about waking up in a police station,
1:24:39 > 1:24:41in the back of a fucking police car?
1:24:41 > 1:24:44I have a laugh now, I mean naturally.
1:24:44 > 1:24:49I mean, if I could...if I could sprinkle this on the fucking world,
1:24:49 > 1:24:51it would be a much better place.
1:24:56 > 1:25:01I spent 19 years of my life praying that I would wake up one day
1:25:01 > 1:25:03and have the father I have today.
1:25:03 > 1:25:05And most people can't turn around and say that
1:25:05 > 1:25:08that has happened for them and it happened for me.
1:25:08 > 1:25:09And I love...
1:25:09 > 1:25:14I am so proud of him because I know how hard it is.
1:25:14 > 1:25:15It's fucking fantastic.
1:25:15 > 1:25:19Our relationship has improved over the last few years since he's been sober.
1:25:19 > 1:25:22I'm actually quite amazed at how much...
1:25:22 > 1:25:25how fit he is and how more astute he is than he was.
1:25:25 > 1:25:30He is changed a lot. He's lost a lot of weight.
1:25:30 > 1:25:34He's very health conscious. He works out nearly every day.
1:25:34 > 1:25:36Ozzy has grown up.
1:25:36 > 1:25:40You know, it took him longer than most people, but he's got there.
1:25:40 > 1:25:41He's here.
1:25:41 > 1:25:46He works really hard for his sobriety and he deserves it.
1:25:46 > 1:25:50'Sobriety has totally changed him as a person.'
1:25:50 > 1:25:51You know, he's just got...
1:25:51 > 1:25:54He just seems like he's a lot more at ease with himself.
1:25:54 > 1:25:57Whereas before it was, he was just kind of all over the place.
1:25:57 > 1:26:03But now he'll just sit with his headphones on quietly, just drawing.
1:26:09 > 1:26:12It's not art. I do it for therapeutic reasons.
1:26:12 > 1:26:19I always find it stops my head of hand grenades going off, you know.
1:26:19 > 1:26:21It's, um, it slows my head down.
1:26:21 > 1:26:24I've always worried.
1:26:24 > 1:26:26Sometimes I worry cos I've got nothing to worry about.
1:26:26 > 1:26:28That's how bad it is sometimes.
1:26:41 > 1:26:43I don't go to bed at night thinking,
1:26:43 > 1:26:46I shouldn't have painted that because people will get pissed off
1:26:46 > 1:26:49at me and they ain't going to buy another painting.
1:26:49 > 1:26:51It's just something, out of all this chaos
1:26:51 > 1:26:55and all this anxiety that I live in and all this fear,
1:26:55 > 1:26:59stops everything in its tracks and it's mine.
1:26:59 > 1:27:02And so when you ask me a question about it, I have no answer,
1:27:02 > 1:27:05because I don't think of it anything more than it's mine.
1:27:14 > 1:27:18He really talked for years about wanting to have his driving licence
1:27:18 > 1:27:21and never thought he could do it, you know.
1:27:21 > 1:27:23Well, he wouldn't have been able to do it
1:27:23 > 1:27:25in his drinking days obviously.
1:27:25 > 1:27:28But since he become sober, he had talked about it quite a lot
1:27:28 > 1:27:30about getting his driving licence.
1:27:39 > 1:27:43I'm getting my licence so I don't feel like a fucking terminal prisoner,
1:27:43 > 1:27:48meaning that when everybody leaves the house I'm stuck, you know.
1:27:48 > 1:27:52Um, I can't go anywhere. I just want...
1:27:52 > 1:27:55It's, it's a way of feeling free, you know.
1:27:59 > 1:28:04I don't depend on everybody to drive me wherever I want to go.
1:28:04 > 1:28:06That's the reason I want a driving licence.
1:28:06 > 1:28:09I'm not intoxicated and I don't want people to...
1:28:09 > 1:28:12I want a part of my life where I can say, I'm in the car,
1:28:12 > 1:28:15driving my car where I want to go and not be sitting there
1:28:15 > 1:28:17having an argument with someone over some shit.
1:28:17 > 1:28:20I just want to get the freedom of being able to drive
1:28:20 > 1:28:22in with my head, you know.
1:28:22 > 1:28:27When I first got successful, right, I bought the...
1:28:27 > 1:28:30I bought the guns, the fucking knives,
1:28:30 > 1:28:33the fucking archery sets, motorcycles.
1:28:33 > 1:28:36All the things that I felt that was... I didn't...
1:28:36 > 1:28:41I couldn't afford to have when I was younger, when I was younger.
1:28:41 > 1:28:43So I got all that out of my system.
1:28:43 > 1:28:45Now, I've always really wanted to drive,
1:28:45 > 1:28:49but I've been too fucked up to get there.
1:28:49 > 1:28:50So I'm done...
1:28:50 > 1:28:53I'm fulfilling all the things that I wanted to do.
1:28:53 > 1:28:56I've had a one of a kind life, you know.
1:28:56 > 1:29:00I mean, I've had a lot of ups and downs in my life.
1:29:00 > 1:29:03But people say if I could change any one thing, what would I change?
1:29:03 > 1:29:04I don't know.
1:29:04 > 1:29:09I think everything...everything is there for a reason, you know.
1:29:10 > 1:29:12And life is a learning process.
1:29:13 > 1:29:17And I don't know what the fucking, uh, what the secret of life is.
1:29:17 > 1:29:19I don't know the thing. It's just been...
1:29:19 > 1:29:22I've had a good run, you know.
1:29:22 > 1:29:25I love my wife, I love my family, I love my, my...
1:29:25 > 1:29:29I'm beginning to love me a lot more than I ever used to.
1:29:29 > 1:29:34It's the first person you should always learn to love is yourself.
1:30:26 > 1:30:30ALL ABOARD!
1:30:30 > 1:30:36WILD CHEERING
1:30:44 > 1:30:48MUSIC: "Crazy Train"
1:31:06 > 1:31:08# Crazy
1:31:08 > 1:31:11# But that's how it goes
1:31:13 > 1:31:15# Millions of people
1:31:15 > 1:31:18# Living as foes
1:31:20 > 1:31:22# Maybe
1:31:22 > 1:31:25# It's not too late
1:31:27 > 1:31:29# To learn how to love
1:31:29 > 1:31:31# And forget how to hate. #
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