When Pop Ruled My Life: The Fans' Story

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0:00:02 > 0:00:08This programme contains some strong language.

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0:00:24 > 0:00:27When I was a teenager, I lost seven years of my life to Queen.

0:00:29 > 0:00:32My bedroom became a shrine to the defunct band.

0:00:34 > 0:00:37The fact that Freddie Mercury was no longer with us

0:00:37 > 0:00:39somehow made my love even more intense.

0:00:39 > 0:00:42I forced my family to go on holiday near the drummer

0:00:42 > 0:00:44Roger Taylor's house so I could stalk him.

0:00:44 > 0:00:48It was the best of times and it was the worst of times.

0:00:48 > 0:00:50At some point, every single one of us

0:00:50 > 0:00:52has fallen in love with a pop star.

0:00:52 > 0:00:53But why do we do it?

0:00:53 > 0:00:56What rituals does it involve us in?

0:00:56 > 0:00:58And why do some of us never get over it?

0:01:00 > 0:01:02Fans have always been a footnote in the great

0:01:02 > 0:01:06rock and roll narrative, portrayed as a motley crew of obsessives

0:01:06 > 0:01:10who seem to come from another, less stable, planet than the rest of us.

0:01:10 > 0:01:12But I think it's time to take a closer look,

0:01:12 > 0:01:14because we've all been fans.

0:01:16 > 0:01:19I want to explore how the relationship between artist

0:01:19 > 0:01:22and fan has evolved over the past 50 years,

0:01:22 > 0:01:27while uncovering some of the psychological constants of fandom.

0:01:27 > 0:01:31Because the true story of fans is the secret history of popular music.

0:01:39 > 0:01:42Falling in love with your first band, that moment of gut recognition

0:01:42 > 0:01:45and excitement, is something we have all experienced

0:01:45 > 0:01:48and the magical thing is, you don't know when it's going to hit.

0:01:48 > 0:01:51For me it happened here, in the isolation of the North Norfolk

0:01:51 > 0:01:53countryside, where I grew up.

0:01:57 > 0:02:02It was a Thursday night in late November, 1991.

0:02:02 > 0:02:04I had just turned 11.

0:02:04 > 0:02:07I was sitting in front of the TV, trying to do my homework,

0:02:07 > 0:02:11pretending not to be watching Top Of The Pops.

0:02:11 > 0:02:13Suddenly, I became aware of a sound

0:02:13 > 0:02:15that ran through me like electricity.

0:02:17 > 0:02:18I looked up.

0:02:18 > 0:02:23# Those were the days of our lives... #

0:02:23 > 0:02:25A painfully thin man in white cake make-up

0:02:25 > 0:02:27was singing the saddest song.

0:02:27 > 0:02:32# The bad things in life were so few... #

0:02:32 > 0:02:35He kept throwing these amazing, flashy grins at the camera,

0:02:35 > 0:02:37like he was making fun of it all.

0:02:37 > 0:02:42# Are all gone now but one thing's still true... #

0:02:42 > 0:02:45I felt my skin prickle and that was it.

0:02:45 > 0:02:48Out of nowhere, I had become a fan.

0:02:48 > 0:02:50# I still love you... #

0:02:52 > 0:02:55Looking back now, it's hard to make sense of it all.

0:02:55 > 0:02:59So, why do we become fans? What is a fan?

0:03:00 > 0:03:04The fan is somebody who has this intense personal attachment

0:03:04 > 0:03:05to a person.

0:03:05 > 0:03:07They feel they know him,

0:03:07 > 0:03:10and they feel, as well, that in some weird sense,

0:03:10 > 0:03:11he should know them.

0:03:13 > 0:03:16My definition of fan, I suppose, is somebody who is

0:03:16 > 0:03:19completely uncritical in their devotion.

0:03:19 > 0:03:21They are blinded by affection.

0:03:23 > 0:03:27Fandom is forged in the white heat of adolescence.

0:03:29 > 0:03:32It's almost as if you've been plugged into the mains.

0:03:32 > 0:03:35It completely catalyses you and you see the world

0:03:35 > 0:03:37in an entirely different way.

0:03:37 > 0:03:40It changes the way you walk, the way you cut your hair,

0:03:40 > 0:03:41the way you think and talk - everything.

0:03:41 > 0:03:47From, say, 14 to 19 is when your mind is the most open

0:03:47 > 0:03:50in your life, because once they are in there,

0:03:50 > 0:03:52they resonate for ever, even if,

0:03:52 > 0:03:56at times, they disappear. You always come back to them.

0:03:56 > 0:03:57It just sticks in your head for ever.

0:04:00 > 0:04:02Never mind Sinatra and Elvis,

0:04:02 > 0:04:05the first truly global pop fan phenomenon erupted

0:04:05 > 0:04:10out of 1960s Liverpool and it turned nice young women from this...

0:04:10 > 0:04:12into this.

0:04:12 > 0:04:16SCREAMING

0:04:17 > 0:04:20# Well, shake it up, baby, now

0:04:20 > 0:04:23# Shake it up, baby

0:04:23 > 0:04:25# Twist and shout

0:04:25 > 0:04:26# Twist and shout

0:04:26 > 0:04:29# Come on, come on, come on Come on, baby, now... #

0:04:29 > 0:04:33The year was 1963 and the times, they were a-changing.

0:04:33 > 0:04:36Welcome to Beatlemania.

0:04:36 > 0:04:38# Aah

0:04:38 > 0:04:40# Aah

0:04:40 > 0:04:43# Aah, aah

0:04:43 > 0:04:47# Whoa, whoa, whoa

0:04:47 > 0:04:49# Shake it up, baby, now... #

0:04:49 > 0:04:52It was absolutely glorious.

0:04:52 > 0:04:53Because there were so many of you

0:04:53 > 0:04:55and nobody had ever done this before,

0:04:55 > 0:04:59and clearly, nobody had ever felt like this before and, you know,

0:04:59 > 0:05:01we were the clever ones, because we liked the Beatles.

0:05:01 > 0:05:04A first-hand witness to this communal hysteria

0:05:04 > 0:05:07was Beatlemaniac, Lillian Adams.

0:05:07 > 0:05:10There were the four different options, you know.

0:05:10 > 0:05:13There was the small and cuddly Ringo,

0:05:13 > 0:05:15the intellectual John Lennon,

0:05:15 > 0:05:18the terribly sweet and nice Paul,

0:05:18 > 0:05:22and George, who was quite young and seemingly innocent.

0:05:22 > 0:05:24- Which one caught your attention? - Paul, definitely.

0:05:24 > 0:05:27You know, I was in love with Paul McCartney for ever.

0:05:27 > 0:05:30- # Let me know that you're mine - Know you're mine... #

0:05:30 > 0:05:32Why did you have to scream at Beatles gig?

0:05:32 > 0:05:34I've got absolutely no idea. You just did.

0:05:37 > 0:05:39Everybody did, and that was it.

0:05:39 > 0:05:42I don't think I ever heard a word that was sung

0:05:42 > 0:05:46or spoken at a live gig, because you just didn't.

0:05:48 > 0:05:50Say goodbye to modesty...

0:05:50 > 0:05:54..say hello to an impending sexual revolution.

0:05:54 > 0:05:56It was the first time that any of us

0:05:56 > 0:05:59had experienced that kind of emotion.

0:05:59 > 0:06:03Came out of all the concerts totally overcome and fainting,

0:06:03 > 0:06:08having to be lifted out and taken off to the St John Ambulance people.

0:06:08 > 0:06:10People were quite worried, you know,

0:06:10 > 0:06:13the flower of British womanhood going to the dogs!

0:06:13 > 0:06:16# I wanna hold your hand

0:06:17 > 0:06:19# I wanna hold your hand

0:06:20 > 0:06:23# And when I touch you I feel happy inside... #

0:06:23 > 0:06:26There's a, kind of, combination of things that go with

0:06:26 > 0:06:30Beatlemania, which is screaming and involuntary urination.

0:06:32 > 0:06:34I was always puzzled with this -

0:06:34 > 0:06:37did people really pee themselves in Beatles concerts? And they did.

0:06:37 > 0:06:40I've interviewed Red Cross people and people who cleaned up

0:06:40 > 0:06:43after them and they say, yes, that's what happened.

0:06:43 > 0:06:46There was just something in the culture that needed

0:06:46 > 0:06:49that at the time and nobody understood it.

0:06:51 > 0:06:52There was a little girl.

0:06:52 > 0:06:54She was standing, shaking,

0:06:54 > 0:06:57she could hardly stand up and there were tears streaming down her face.

0:06:57 > 0:07:00We asked her why she was crying

0:07:00 > 0:07:02and she didn't know.

0:07:02 > 0:07:06Paul, Ringo, George and John were providing a generation

0:07:06 > 0:07:09of teenage girls with a target for their burgeoning sexuality.

0:07:09 > 0:07:13# I wanna hold your hand... #

0:07:13 > 0:07:17Unlike going to a dance or a club or what have you,

0:07:17 > 0:07:20where there were real teenage boys

0:07:20 > 0:07:23who might have had real expectations,

0:07:23 > 0:07:25it was perfectly safe. You could pour out

0:07:25 > 0:07:29all of your love and affection to this wonderful idol.

0:07:30 > 0:07:35This person that you are in love with is utterly perfect, so, it is

0:07:35 > 0:07:38a good start, because later,

0:07:38 > 0:07:41you meet real blokes, who are not like that!

0:07:43 > 0:07:45# I wanna hold your hand... #

0:07:45 > 0:07:48Former Beatles fan club secretary Freda Kelly found herself

0:07:48 > 0:07:51in the eye of a growing Beatlemania storm.

0:07:51 > 0:07:54I didn't realise how big it was going to get.

0:07:54 > 0:07:56I don't think anybody would have done.

0:07:56 > 0:07:59I mean, I gave my home address out,

0:07:59 > 0:08:02because they wanted somewhere to write to, the Beatle fans.

0:08:02 > 0:08:04So, I innocently gave that out

0:08:04 > 0:08:08and the first few days was just a few letters,

0:08:08 > 0:08:12and then, very quickly, it went to a few hundred, then a bundle,

0:08:12 > 0:08:16then a sack, and my father was having a heart attack!

0:08:18 > 0:08:24There was no escaping it. By 1965, Beatlemania had spread to the USA

0:08:24 > 0:08:27and when the band played New York's Shea Stadium,

0:08:27 > 0:08:30not a note was heard above the screams.

0:08:30 > 0:08:34SCREAMING

0:08:34 > 0:08:36I mean, it was just madness.

0:08:36 > 0:08:38They were going on stage, people couldn't hear what

0:08:38 > 0:08:41they were saying, they could have been singing about anything,

0:08:41 > 0:08:45because the girls weren't interested in what they were singing.

0:08:49 > 0:08:51Something had to give and you knew it was going to be

0:08:51 > 0:08:53the touring that was going to give.

0:08:53 > 0:08:55It's gone downhill, performance.

0:08:55 > 0:08:58Because we can't develop when no-one can hear us, you know what I mean?

0:08:58 > 0:09:01So, for us to perform, it gets difficult each time. More difficult.

0:09:01 > 0:09:04You mean they don't listen to you. Therefore you don't want to do that?

0:09:04 > 0:09:07Oh, yeah, we want to do it, but if we're not listened to

0:09:07 > 0:09:09and we can't even hear ourselves,

0:09:09 > 0:09:12then we can't improve in that, we can't get any better.

0:09:12 > 0:09:16So, we're trying to get better with things like recording.

0:09:16 > 0:09:20# Love, love, love

0:09:20 > 0:09:23# Love, love, love... #

0:09:23 > 0:09:25When the Beatles stopped touring in 1966

0:09:25 > 0:09:29and cocooned themselves in the studio, they stopped

0:09:29 > 0:09:33being pop stars and started to think of themselves as artists.

0:09:33 > 0:09:35# All you need is love

0:09:37 > 0:09:40# All you need is love

0:09:42 > 0:09:46# All you need is love, love

0:09:47 > 0:09:49# Love is all you need... #

0:09:49 > 0:09:52As a result, their audience began to change.

0:09:52 > 0:09:55I could tell that from the fan mail.

0:09:55 > 0:09:58There were certain questions there was no way I could answer,

0:09:58 > 0:10:02you know, like, "How do they get this sound?" or "How do they do that?"

0:10:02 > 0:10:04and I had a list of questions that I would ask them

0:10:04 > 0:10:07that had got through the fan mail and they were from boys.

0:10:07 > 0:10:09# All you need is love... #

0:10:09 > 0:10:12Boys were... It was much more technical -

0:10:12 > 0:10:16"I like his guitar style," you know, "I like their lyrics,"

0:10:16 > 0:10:20I'm sure a lot of blokes were put off by the hysterical

0:10:20 > 0:10:24girl business, but once they had got into Sgt Pepper,

0:10:24 > 0:10:26it was an art thing and a music thing,

0:10:26 > 0:10:30rather than four blokes standing on a stage being howled at.

0:10:30 > 0:10:35The boys pretended they were immune to the look, but weren't really.

0:10:35 > 0:10:39They'd quite like to be George or John and Paul and, sometimes,

0:10:39 > 0:10:41the strange ones wanted to look like Ringo.

0:10:41 > 0:10:44That Paul McCartney look, I spent ages trying to get that

0:10:44 > 0:10:48when I was 13, 14, trying to get the hair right and all of that.

0:10:48 > 0:10:50But if you talk like that,

0:10:50 > 0:10:52you, kind of, get beaten up in the school playground.

0:10:56 > 0:11:01Meanwhile, in the mid-60s, a new breed of fan was emerging, that was

0:11:01 > 0:11:06less about screaming at pop stars and more about image and tribalism.

0:11:06 > 0:11:09# I want you to know that I love you, baby

0:11:09 > 0:11:12# Want you to know that I care

0:11:12 > 0:11:15# I'm so happy when you're around me

0:11:15 > 0:11:18# But I'm sad when you're not there Sing the song, now... #

0:11:21 > 0:11:23Being a mod was all about a way of life.

0:11:24 > 0:11:27Pop music, as such, was considered more of a girlie thing.

0:11:27 > 0:11:32It was all about American R&B, tracking the original down,

0:11:32 > 0:11:34you know, the American original was always the best.

0:11:34 > 0:11:38I don't necessarily listen to the Top 20, because it's the Top 20.

0:11:38 > 0:11:41- You know, most of it is a load of rubbish, anyway.- Yeah.

0:11:41 > 0:11:43Well, it is, innit?

0:11:43 > 0:11:46# I want you to give me your sweet, sweet kisses... #

0:11:46 > 0:11:49The key mod band was actually the Small Faces.

0:11:49 > 0:11:51I mean, musically, all they ever wanted to be was

0:11:51 > 0:11:55the East End of London's version of Booker T and the MGs.

0:11:55 > 0:11:57# Whatcha gonna do about it?

0:11:57 > 0:12:00- # Yeah - Whatcha gonna do about it?

0:12:00 > 0:12:03- # Oh, baby - Whatcha gonna do about it?

0:12:03 > 0:12:06- # You do - Whatcha gonna do about it? #

0:12:18 > 0:12:22The Small Faces, for me, were the best of the mod bands,

0:12:22 > 0:12:25basically, because they looked so good.

0:12:25 > 0:12:28# Yeah, yeah! #

0:12:29 > 0:12:31This was working-class kids.

0:12:31 > 0:12:34The mods really wanted this not being judged on where

0:12:34 > 0:12:36they came from and wanted to look as good as anybody else.

0:12:36 > 0:12:40# People try to put us d-down

0:12:40 > 0:12:42# Talking 'bout my generation... #

0:12:42 > 0:12:45It was clean living in difficult circumstances.

0:12:45 > 0:12:47You may be poor, but don't look poor.

0:12:47 > 0:12:50So, I was immediately caught by that in a way,

0:12:50 > 0:12:52probably like a religious zeal.

0:12:55 > 0:13:00I was very young then, 13, 14, and it was like a secret society.

0:13:02 > 0:13:04To be part of this secret club,

0:13:04 > 0:13:07mods had to follow strict codes and conventions.

0:13:07 > 0:13:11To me, the look was always as important as the music.

0:13:11 > 0:13:15A mod would not stick cuff links through a single cuff shirt.

0:13:15 > 0:13:17It had to be double cuff shirts.

0:13:17 > 0:13:20The trouser was always, if you like, an inch above the shoe.

0:13:20 > 0:13:23You certainly didn't put Brylcreem in your hair.

0:13:23 > 0:13:26You would always have the top button of your jacket done up,

0:13:26 > 0:13:28perhaps the second button, but never the third.

0:13:28 > 0:13:32You certainly didn't go anywhere near an oily, nasty motorbike.

0:13:32 > 0:13:34It had to be a Lambretta or a Vespa.

0:13:34 > 0:13:36If you were going to go casual,

0:13:36 > 0:13:38you were looking at, sort of, Fred Perry type shirts.

0:13:38 > 0:13:40Fred Perry would be, the top button would be done up,

0:13:40 > 0:13:42you wouldn't leave it undone.

0:13:42 > 0:13:45I can honestly say that there were times

0:13:45 > 0:13:47when I would get into an empty railway carriage

0:13:47 > 0:13:51and refuse to sit down, so as not to spoil the crease in the trouser.

0:13:51 > 0:13:54# Things they do look awful c-c-cold... #

0:13:54 > 0:13:57Having clothes like that made you feel, you know, a million dollars,

0:13:57 > 0:13:59you felt quite superior.

0:13:59 > 0:14:01You could wear the clothes,

0:14:01 > 0:14:04but there was a bit more to it than just wearing the clothes.

0:14:04 > 0:14:06There was a mentality to it, as well,

0:14:06 > 0:14:08that you were as good as anybody else.

0:14:12 > 0:14:15Mod tribalism was providing a way for young,

0:14:15 > 0:14:17working-class fans to express themselves.

0:14:17 > 0:14:21It was more about being a face than hormonal meltdown.

0:14:22 > 0:14:24But by the dawn of the 1970s,

0:14:24 > 0:14:28the stage had been left empty for something new.

0:14:28 > 0:14:31CLASSICAL-STYLE PIANO MUSIC

0:14:35 > 0:14:38We were just coming out of the screaming era, you know,

0:14:38 > 0:14:40with the Beatles and other pop bands,

0:14:40 > 0:14:44where basically, girls went along to scream.

0:14:44 > 0:14:46Bit embarrassing for a guy to scream,

0:14:46 > 0:14:49unless he's been hit by a car or something like that.

0:14:49 > 0:14:53And so, what it needed was something, really, for them,

0:14:53 > 0:14:55that they could go,

0:14:55 > 0:14:58"Ah! Now we can relate to that and we don't have to scream."

0:14:58 > 0:15:05PROG ROCK PLAYS

0:15:27 > 0:15:31Progressive rock bypassed the pop singles charts altogether.

0:15:31 > 0:15:33And its sophisticated instrumentation

0:15:33 > 0:15:36and complex time signatures seemed to attract

0:15:36 > 0:15:38a very particular audience.

0:15:38 > 0:15:43Yes's first audiences, when I first joined the band in '71, '72,

0:15:43 > 0:15:46would have been 90-95% male.

0:15:47 > 0:15:50We did not attract women - at all.

0:15:51 > 0:15:55And the women that did tend to come, at that particular time,

0:15:55 > 0:15:57were those dragged along by boyfriends or husbands.

0:16:00 > 0:16:03Post Sgt Pepper, the rise of progressive rock

0:16:03 > 0:16:07helped establish the LP as pop's primary medium.

0:16:07 > 0:16:10Elaborate artwork and intricate sleeve notes

0:16:10 > 0:16:14released the inner collector in every greatcoated young disciple.

0:16:15 > 0:16:17It was the big age of the album, you know, the LP.

0:16:17 > 0:16:21Men would go round each other's houses and discuss it.

0:16:21 > 0:16:23It's collecting a little bit of that person

0:16:23 > 0:16:28and that music to take home with you, to enjoy even more.

0:16:29 > 0:16:31It seemed that, by the early '70s,

0:16:31 > 0:16:34collecting had become the new screaming.

0:16:36 > 0:16:38So how do these historical differences in male

0:16:38 > 0:16:43and female fan behaviour relate to my own Queen fixation?

0:16:43 > 0:16:46Rather than cataloguing and collecting,

0:16:46 > 0:16:49I seemed to create a private fantasyland.

0:16:49 > 0:16:52My first creative Queen project, aged 12 - collage.

0:16:52 > 0:16:55Custom-made silhouette of the band in the middle.

0:16:55 > 0:16:57Cut up a load of magazines, took me an entire weekend.

0:16:57 > 0:17:02We have the circa-1992 papier-mache head of Freddie Mercury.

0:17:02 > 0:17:05I've got no idea why I made this, but I know it took a long time.

0:17:05 > 0:17:09It's quite accurate. Special attention to the widow's peak here.

0:17:09 > 0:17:13My teenage fanhood became a deeply-emotional experience.

0:17:13 > 0:17:17And my passion soon focused in on Roger Taylor.

0:17:17 > 0:17:19He was still good-looking, he had a social conscience,

0:17:19 > 0:17:22he was suddenly everything I wanted in a man.

0:17:22 > 0:17:26This is one of my Roger Taylor diaries. I wrote this when I was 15.

0:17:26 > 0:17:29"If this is not love, will you please tell me what it is?

0:17:29 > 0:17:31"I've avoided the word for years,

0:17:31 > 0:17:35"since it cannot be wittered away upon a figure that is remote."

0:17:35 > 0:17:37"23rd of January, 1996.

0:17:37 > 0:17:38"The news from hell -

0:17:38 > 0:17:40"he's shaved off his beard!

0:17:40 > 0:17:42"Oh, no, why has he'd done that?

0:17:42 > 0:17:45"Anyway, I'm still looking forward to him appearing at the Brits

0:17:45 > 0:17:48- and looking really cool." - SHE LAUGHS

0:17:48 > 0:17:53'So how do male Queen fans express their fanhood?

0:17:53 > 0:17:57'I've come to meet fellow Queen fanatic Rhys Thomas to find out.'

0:17:57 > 0:17:58If I look back

0:17:58 > 0:18:01to my 14-year-old self and how the Queen obsession

0:18:01 > 0:18:05manifested itself, I was actually writing diaries about Roger Taylor.

0:18:05 > 0:18:07I was writing letters to him. What were you doing at that point?

0:18:07 > 0:18:09How was your obsession manifesting itself?

0:18:09 > 0:18:13I think what boys tend to do, because we don't love them,

0:18:13 > 0:18:15we don't fancy them, but we still find them attractive.

0:18:15 > 0:18:17We, kind of, want to be them, slightly.

0:18:17 > 0:18:20I wanted to be Roger Taylor, slightly. Or you want to do...

0:18:20 > 0:18:23You want to play the drums or be that person slightly.

0:18:23 > 0:18:25But, because we don't have that, we don't fancy them,

0:18:25 > 0:18:28we just want to collect things or know everything about them.

0:18:28 > 0:18:32And so I, kind of, would read all the books and collect everything.

0:18:32 > 0:18:35I wanted to have everything they ever recorded, know all the lyrics.

0:18:35 > 0:18:40I was obsessed with buying up the albums. I'd go to record fairs and buy all the solo albums and,

0:18:40 > 0:18:44you know, even the John Deacon solo album, solo tracks from Biggles.

0:18:44 > 0:18:47- Yeah!- It was an obsession, cos you wanted to get everything

0:18:47 > 0:18:49you could get your hands on. Did you used to write lists,

0:18:49 > 0:18:52make up what your greatest hits albums would be if you could...?

0:18:52 > 0:18:55No, no. You see, I think a boy would do that.

0:18:55 > 0:18:56As a boy, you'd do all that stuff.

0:18:56 > 0:18:58So you'd do idealised track listings,

0:18:58 > 0:19:02- as though you were the A&R man? - Yeah, that's right. Yes, I would.

0:19:05 > 0:19:09By 1974, the Beatlemaniacs were all grown-up.

0:19:09 > 0:19:13but a new generation of pop acts was emerging, targeted at teenyboppers.

0:19:13 > 0:19:16GIRLS SCREAM

0:19:18 > 0:19:20SCREAMING

0:19:23 > 0:19:26Pop mania has come back to Britain, and most

0:19:26 > 0:19:29of the screaming has been for a British group, the Bay City Rollers.

0:19:29 > 0:19:33There hasn't been a mania like this since the days of the Beatles.

0:19:33 > 0:19:36Like the Beatles, the Rollers attract a screaming audience

0:19:36 > 0:19:40and an audience which seems to get younger every year.

0:19:40 > 0:19:43The average age of the kids who turned out for the Rollers,

0:19:43 > 0:19:44was only 11.

0:19:44 > 0:19:47# We were rippin' up We were rockin' up

0:19:47 > 0:19:51# Roll it over and lay it down

0:19:51 > 0:19:52# We were shakin' up

0:19:52 > 0:19:54# We were breakin' it... #

0:19:54 > 0:19:57I was totally possessed with the Bay City Rollers.

0:19:57 > 0:20:00I've been, literally, all round the world.

0:20:00 > 0:20:04I've been to Ireland, Scotland, Germany, Belgium,

0:20:04 > 0:20:08Holland, Australia, USA, Japan -

0:20:08 > 0:20:12all to see Les McKeown and the Bay City Rollers.

0:20:12 > 0:20:15Those were the days. They were brilliant days.

0:20:15 > 0:20:16I used to come out of my house.

0:20:16 > 0:20:19My mum... "You going to school?" "Yes."

0:20:19 > 0:20:22There's my school books, roll the gear underneath,

0:20:22 > 0:20:26go in the park toilets, change over, on a bus and wherever they were,

0:20:26 > 0:20:29I used to go down and catch them.

0:20:29 > 0:20:30# And we ran with the gang

0:20:30 > 0:20:33# Doin' doo-wop, be dooby do-ay... #

0:20:33 > 0:20:35The Rollermaniacs were a child army,

0:20:35 > 0:20:38that would risk life and limb to get a piece of their favourite

0:20:38 > 0:20:40Bay City Roller.

0:20:46 > 0:20:51Roller mania was, literally, pandemonium everywhere.

0:20:51 > 0:20:55We didn't fear nothing. We just went for it, because we loved them.

0:20:57 > 0:21:00It could get scary. Hammersmith Odeon, we were frightened

0:21:00 > 0:21:02we were going to get crushed.

0:21:02 > 0:21:06Some of the chairs got broke. People were jumping over the chairs

0:21:06 > 0:21:09to get to the front of the stage, to get Les, and they was grabbing him

0:21:09 > 0:21:11and all that and we thought, "We're going to be dead."

0:21:11 > 0:21:14# Hey, hey! Rockin' to the music... #

0:21:14 > 0:21:18They'd get hysterical. They got no heed of traffic,

0:21:18 > 0:21:22they would just run straight out into the road, willy-nilly.

0:21:22 > 0:21:24These kids just do not know what they're doing.

0:21:26 > 0:21:29The hysteria was similar to The Beatles.

0:21:29 > 0:21:31The manager would set out

0:21:31 > 0:21:34to trap us in a situation with the fans.

0:21:34 > 0:21:40He would want to make press. He'd actually go out to plan chaos.

0:21:40 > 0:21:43There was one pretty horrifying time, where we kind of got trapped.

0:21:43 > 0:21:47There was so many people and teenagers on the street,

0:21:47 > 0:21:49they caused the whole traffic to stop.

0:21:49 > 0:21:53They'd finished their gig and out they came in their car.

0:21:53 > 0:21:56The fans were, literally, everywhere.

0:21:56 > 0:21:59Hanging on the door handles and on the bonnet.

0:21:59 > 0:22:04They were banging, banging, banging and the limousine went like that.

0:22:04 > 0:22:07The roof... Then, we started to get scared.

0:22:08 > 0:22:12It's in slow motion and you see faces pressed up against glass

0:22:12 > 0:22:14and people going, "Eeh!"

0:22:16 > 0:22:19I was on the back and I was holding on to the aerial,

0:22:19 > 0:22:22so I didn't slide off, but I could feel myself sliding off

0:22:22 > 0:22:24and I thought, "I'm going to come off in a minute."

0:22:24 > 0:22:26There's Les at the back and he's going like this

0:22:26 > 0:22:28and he's waving to me and I'm going...

0:22:30 > 0:22:33All of a sudden, the car sped off and, as it did, I come off!

0:22:33 > 0:22:36You do feel, kind of, special on one regard.

0:22:36 > 0:22:42I know it sounds, well, weird, but you, kind of, get used to it.

0:22:42 > 0:22:43We just went for it.

0:22:43 > 0:22:48It was scary, but at the same time, we just didn't fear it.

0:22:48 > 0:22:49We just did it.

0:22:49 > 0:22:54It was because we love Les so much.

0:22:54 > 0:22:59We were the fans and we were given them what they wanted.

0:22:59 > 0:23:02And the Rollers were giving us what we wanted.

0:23:09 > 0:23:12It seemed that normal service had resumed on Planet Pop -

0:23:12 > 0:23:15girls were screaming and fainting at boys in bands again.

0:23:21 > 0:23:25But what about boys obsessing over female performers?

0:23:25 > 0:23:27At the end of the '70s,

0:23:27 > 0:23:30as punk was redefining the fan/artist relationship in a hail

0:23:30 > 0:23:34of gob, a group of front women arrived who were fearlessly spiky.

0:23:37 > 0:23:40Punk had swept away all that had gone before

0:23:40 > 0:23:43and it was a time of reinvention,

0:23:43 > 0:23:44really, for women.

0:23:44 > 0:23:48There's a very, very famous photograph that has myself,

0:23:48 > 0:23:52Debbie Harry, Chrissie Hynde, Viv Albertine, Siouxsie Sioux

0:23:52 > 0:23:56and Poly Styrene, all collected together for the front cover

0:23:56 > 0:24:01of an NME and those were the woman who did change the pop landscape.

0:24:01 > 0:24:05SHE SINGS

0:24:26 > 0:24:29Male punters had always looked down on girl singers,

0:24:29 > 0:24:33but not any more. Not unless they wanted a kick in the crotch.

0:24:38 > 0:24:43Everybody knew at that time, that within pop music, sex sells.

0:24:43 > 0:24:46I decided that that really was not for me.

0:24:47 > 0:24:51If you wanted to put out a reasonably serious message, the worst thing,

0:24:51 > 0:24:55really, you could be doing would be hanging around in a miniskirt.

0:24:58 > 0:25:03This was a way of beginning to say something about the female condition,

0:25:03 > 0:25:06that was a little bit more than just, "I'm in love with that boy."

0:25:13 > 0:25:17Females within pop always had some, kind of, subservient, you know,

0:25:17 > 0:25:20the puppet, a male Svengali.

0:25:20 > 0:25:24You know, somebody working the strings in the background.

0:25:24 > 0:25:28# This is the happy house... #

0:25:28 > 0:25:30That's for boys and that's for girls and, you know,

0:25:30 > 0:25:32girls have to be very demure.

0:25:32 > 0:25:33# Oh, it's such fun

0:25:34 > 0:25:35# Fun

0:25:36 > 0:25:38# Fun

0:25:38 > 0:25:41# Whoa-oh!

0:25:41 > 0:25:46# We've come to play in the happy house... #

0:25:46 > 0:25:49I think the first time I would have seen Siouxsie and the Banshees

0:25:49 > 0:25:51would have been Top Of The Pops, 1980,

0:25:51 > 0:25:53when they were on there doing Happy House,

0:25:53 > 0:25:57but it stayed with me and I could tell that, you know,

0:25:57 > 0:26:00there was a lot of depth to what Siouxsie was doing.

0:26:05 > 0:26:07She, as an icon, was never a sex symbol.

0:26:07 > 0:26:12Her entire career was about refusing the male gaze, refusing to be

0:26:12 > 0:26:18sexualised in that way, refusing to be submissive to the male leer.

0:26:18 > 0:26:21In rock and roll terms, that was a real first.

0:26:21 > 0:26:24She's quite a forbidding presence, really.

0:26:24 > 0:26:26There was a real toughness to Siouxsie -

0:26:26 > 0:26:29this refusal to compromise. And, I think,

0:26:29 > 0:26:32fans, whether male or female, respected that.

0:26:32 > 0:26:33I got it completely.

0:26:37 > 0:26:39It was much more aggressive.

0:26:39 > 0:26:43It was almost like, if you keep people a bit frightened,

0:26:43 > 0:26:47then, you know, that's a good place to be.

0:26:47 > 0:26:49# Following the footsteps of a rag doll dance

0:26:49 > 0:26:51# We are entranced

0:26:51 > 0:26:53# Spellbound... #

0:26:53 > 0:26:57I think it had to be, you know, an onslaught, an attack,

0:26:57 > 0:27:01rather than waiting for them to accept this.

0:27:01 > 0:27:04# Spellbound, oh-oh-ho

0:27:04 > 0:27:05# Spellbound... #

0:27:05 > 0:27:08I was really shy, cripplingly shy, at the time.

0:27:08 > 0:27:11I loved the idea that I could walk down the street looking quite

0:27:11 > 0:27:14alien and quite freakish and people would look at me,

0:27:14 > 0:27:17they'd stare, but they'd keep their distance. And I think Siouxsie

0:27:17 > 0:27:21inspired that, in a way, because you cannot take your eyes off her.

0:27:21 > 0:27:25But you don't want to get too close, because she is, frankly, terrifying.

0:27:25 > 0:27:29# Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa Whoa, whoa, whoa, who-oh-ho... #

0:27:30 > 0:27:33With the ladies of punk, two-tone and new wave

0:27:33 > 0:27:36redefining gender stereotypes in the early '80s,

0:27:36 > 0:27:40traditional male rock fan identity could have been thrown into crisis.

0:27:44 > 0:27:48But heavy metal bands, like Iron Maiden, were picking up

0:27:48 > 0:27:50where '70s rock had left off.

0:27:52 > 0:27:55I started getting into rock bands. I was at boarding school

0:27:55 > 0:28:00and you've got loads and loads of adolescent boys -

0:28:00 > 0:28:03no women, girls of any description, whatsoever -

0:28:03 > 0:28:06so you're just locked in with a load of bloody hormones

0:28:06 > 0:28:08and music that makes you want to go...

0:28:08 > 0:28:10# Yeah!

0:28:14 > 0:28:17It was the Purples, it was the Sabbaths,

0:28:17 > 0:28:19but there was a prog thing going on in the background.

0:28:21 > 0:28:23Four times 50 living men,

0:28:23 > 0:28:26and I heard nor sigh nor groan,

0:28:26 > 0:28:29with heavy thump, a lifeless lump,

0:28:29 > 0:28:32they dropped down one by one.

0:28:32 > 0:28:36And that is what Maiden fans recognised

0:28:36 > 0:28:39and it came at a time when people wanted something new.

0:28:39 > 0:28:45They wanted a big, big, big, grand internal vision and Maiden,

0:28:45 > 0:28:49as we've gone through the years, we've got 35 years of stories

0:28:49 > 0:28:52and monsters and things to be discovered.

0:28:53 > 0:28:56Like male '70s prog rock fans before them,

0:28:56 > 0:29:00some Iron Maiden fans have dedicated a lifetime to collecting

0:29:00 > 0:29:03and cataloguing everything their favourite band has ever done.

0:29:05 > 0:29:06'This is my man shed.

0:29:06 > 0:29:09'Everything I've got is pretty much here, really.

0:29:09 > 0:29:14'I spent three quarters of my life out here. It's escapism, isn't it?

0:29:14 > 0:29:17'Iron Maiden and my refuge. Rock music is my refuge.'

0:29:18 > 0:29:19Last time I counted,

0:29:19 > 0:29:22I had something like 8,000 vinyl albums,

0:29:22 > 0:29:26half as many CDs. I've still got some stuff on cassette.

0:29:26 > 0:29:31In the '70s, I was a massive fan of rock music but I was a little bit

0:29:31 > 0:29:34too young to have Zeppelin and Deep Purple at their peak,

0:29:34 > 0:29:37but Iron Maiden played the Marquee Club in 1979.

0:29:37 > 0:29:39Went along to see them there.

0:29:41 > 0:29:43The night really just changed my life.

0:29:43 > 0:29:45I became a fan overnight.

0:29:47 > 0:29:50I'd never throw anything away. I keep everything.

0:29:50 > 0:29:52As you can see, I'm a terrible hoarder.

0:29:52 > 0:29:54Once you start going down this route,

0:29:54 > 0:29:56it's really, really tough to stop.

0:29:56 > 0:30:00I collect things like backstage passes. I've got tickets.

0:30:00 > 0:30:05I collect T-shirts, all with the famous mascot, Eddie, on the front.

0:30:05 > 0:30:09This is myself and my son, who, funnily enough, is called Eddie,

0:30:09 > 0:30:11in front of Eddie the Head.

0:30:11 > 0:30:13I am an absolute vinyl junkie.

0:30:13 > 0:30:16To me, you cannot beat the smell of vinyl, the look of vinyl.

0:30:16 > 0:30:19A real statement of intent. An absolute classic.

0:30:19 > 0:30:23Number Of The Beast, the one that made them worldwide stars.

0:30:23 > 0:30:25My favourite Iron Maiden album.

0:30:25 > 0:30:28Just an absolute classic. Every single song on this.

0:30:28 > 0:30:32If you haven't got this, you haven't got a record collection.

0:30:32 > 0:30:36This rack of cassettes here, is just something I have accumulated

0:30:36 > 0:30:37down the years.

0:30:37 > 0:30:40These ones are from 1978, on the first tour, right through to,

0:30:40 > 0:30:44basically, when cassettes started going out of vogue, really.

0:30:44 > 0:30:46There's nothing like having something

0:30:46 > 0:30:49like that, if you're as excessive as I am.

0:30:49 > 0:30:53It really has taken over my life, supporting Iron Maiden. You know,

0:30:53 > 0:30:56my kids don't really understand.

0:30:56 > 0:31:00My ex-wife certainly doesn't understand!

0:31:00 > 0:31:05Once it gets its hooks in you, you know, there's no escape.

0:31:08 > 0:31:11For all its joys, being a fan can feel like a frustrating,

0:31:11 > 0:31:13one-way relationship -

0:31:13 > 0:31:17an unrequited love. As a result, some fans attempt to cross the line

0:31:17 > 0:31:19between fantasy and reality.

0:31:19 > 0:31:21By the time I was 16,

0:31:21 > 0:31:22I was agonising over how

0:31:22 > 0:31:25it would be if I actually met Roger Taylor.

0:31:25 > 0:31:28I produced a flow chart, to explore the possibilities.

0:31:28 > 0:31:32If I don't meet him, there's no meaning to my life and fate.

0:31:32 > 0:31:36If I do meet him and he's a bastard, my life will be crushed.

0:31:36 > 0:31:39If I meet him and he's courteous, I'll feel an unfulfilled aching.

0:31:39 > 0:31:43If I meet him and he's really nice, I'll be doomed to lunacy.

0:31:46 > 0:31:49Then, one day, I crossed the line between fantasy and reality

0:31:49 > 0:31:52and actually stalked Roger Taylor.

0:31:53 > 0:31:57I had forced my family to go on holiday near Roger Taylor's house

0:31:57 > 0:32:00in Cornwall. We were driving along one day, when suddenly,

0:32:00 > 0:32:03I spotted him walking into the local cinema.

0:32:04 > 0:32:08I ran in, scanned the room and there he was.

0:32:11 > 0:32:15I sat in that cinema, staring at the back of Roger Taylor's head,

0:32:15 > 0:32:17for two hours.

0:32:19 > 0:32:20The film finished.

0:32:20 > 0:32:22I rushed outside and I pounced on him.

0:32:22 > 0:32:25When he realised he wasn't being mugged,

0:32:25 > 0:32:27he signed my cinema ticket. And that was it -

0:32:27 > 0:32:30Roger Taylor knew I existed.

0:32:31 > 0:32:34And it's this desire to turn fantasy into reality,

0:32:34 > 0:32:38that can lead some fans into even more extreme behaviour.

0:32:38 > 0:32:44I got sent somebody's pubic hair in the post, one time,

0:32:44 > 0:32:46which was fairly awful!

0:32:46 > 0:32:47They were grey!

0:32:49 > 0:32:52A lovely man, I won't mention his name,

0:32:52 > 0:32:56had his leg amputated to my music

0:32:56 > 0:33:02and had had an album cover printed on one of his false legs.

0:33:02 > 0:33:05People followed me around. I mean, Toyah Wilcox told me

0:33:05 > 0:33:07she followed me around

0:33:07 > 0:33:08in a store in Birmingham.

0:33:08 > 0:33:10I once had a fan send me

0:33:10 > 0:33:14a map of America, with lots of pictures and things

0:33:14 > 0:33:19and pictures of bombs and stuff like that, with...

0:33:19 > 0:33:24annotated with, "President will be here and I will kill him."

0:33:24 > 0:33:27This gun, this bridge, etc, with lots of conspiracy theories.

0:33:27 > 0:33:30I was just like, "What the fuck is this?!"

0:33:32 > 0:33:35In the 1980s, the media, through which fans engaged

0:33:35 > 0:33:38with their favourite artists, was changing rapidly.

0:33:38 > 0:33:41I've come to see former colleague and Smash Hits editor,

0:33:41 > 0:33:44Mark Ellen, who witnessed this change.

0:33:44 > 0:33:45How was being a fan in the '80s

0:33:45 > 0:33:48different from being a fan in the '70s, do you think?

0:33:48 > 0:33:52Well, the first major difference, I think, was video, actually,

0:33:52 > 0:33:58because in the '70s, broadly, people tended to find tracks

0:33:58 > 0:34:01and then apply them to the soundtrack of their own lives.

0:34:01 > 0:34:05In the '80s, people tended to watch miniature movies on television sets.

0:34:06 > 0:34:09Image was absolutely crucial.

0:34:09 > 0:34:12# There's a lovin' in your eyes all the way... #

0:34:12 > 0:34:16In this new age, where music video and image were king,

0:34:16 > 0:34:20one man quickly established himself as a quintessential '80s icon.

0:34:20 > 0:34:25# I'm a man without conviction

0:34:25 > 0:34:27# I'm a man... #

0:34:27 > 0:34:30Boy George was the absolute turning point,

0:34:30 > 0:34:33in terms of '80s pop music and the way people looked.

0:34:33 > 0:34:37The look was so precise, it was so extravagant.

0:34:37 > 0:34:41You could imitate it. You could go out and buy the hats,

0:34:41 > 0:34:43you could wear a dress, wear make-up.

0:34:43 > 0:34:46As a bloke, it was guaranteed to annoy your parents.

0:34:46 > 0:34:50Teenagers really, really fell in love with it and were devoted to him

0:34:50 > 0:34:52and thought he was representing some deity!

0:34:52 > 0:34:56A number of fans turned up for the Boy George lookalike contest,

0:34:56 > 0:34:57including this young fan.

0:34:57 > 0:34:59How long does it take you?

0:34:59 > 0:35:02- She does all the plaits herself. - Yeah, half an hour to do my plaits.

0:35:02 > 0:35:05Boy George inspired an army of lookalikes,

0:35:05 > 0:35:10but one fan would take his desire to look like his idol a step further.

0:35:11 > 0:35:16# Give me time

0:35:16 > 0:35:21# To realise my crime

0:35:23 > 0:35:28# Let me love and steal... #

0:35:28 > 0:35:31I've always been a huge fan of Boy George.

0:35:31 > 0:35:35He was, sort of, out there and he has such a strong image.

0:35:35 > 0:35:37And such an amazing image.

0:35:39 > 0:35:41I was in a cabaret group

0:35:41 > 0:35:43and we would impersonate these people on stage.

0:35:43 > 0:35:45And then, sort of, Boy George came along

0:35:45 > 0:35:48and I, sort of, dressed up one day and then everyone said,

0:35:48 > 0:35:51"Oh, God, you really look like him. You really look like him."

0:35:51 > 0:35:53So I just, sort of, took that on.

0:35:56 > 0:36:00# Do you really want to hurt me... #

0:36:00 > 0:36:04'I was 15 years old and I went to France with the group.'

0:36:04 > 0:36:07I took my Boy George stuff with me -

0:36:07 > 0:36:11my Boy George hat and my Boy George wig and everything like that.

0:36:11 > 0:36:16We went to St Tropez and then they said, "Oh, we want you to...

0:36:18 > 0:36:21"..play here. We'll give you £1,000."

0:36:21 > 0:36:23We did this one-off show.

0:36:23 > 0:36:27And it was like, you know, madness. You know, it was, like, packed out.

0:36:27 > 0:36:30All these people were clapping and having a laugh and thinking,

0:36:30 > 0:36:32"Oh, he's amazing." Blah blah blah.

0:36:32 > 0:36:37And in one paper, it said "Yes, Boy George was amazing."

0:36:37 > 0:36:39But it wasn't him, it was me.

0:36:40 > 0:36:42# I'm a man... #

0:36:42 > 0:36:45And it was, like, "This is too risky.

0:36:45 > 0:36:46"Is this fraud?"

0:36:46 > 0:36:50# I'm a man who doesn't know... #

0:36:50 > 0:36:54And I came back to England and it just, literally... It went mad.

0:36:54 > 0:36:56It hit the headlines, you know.

0:36:56 > 0:36:59It was on the cover of every single national newspaper.

0:36:59 > 0:37:02And it was just...

0:37:02 > 0:37:05I was just going off and I was just doing children's television

0:37:05 > 0:37:09and local television and TV:AM.

0:37:09 > 0:37:12But Darren's complete metamorphosis, from fan to pop icon,

0:37:12 > 0:37:14began to take its toll.

0:37:14 > 0:37:18HE MIMES ALONG: # There's a loving in your eyes all the way... #

0:37:18 > 0:37:22'I suppose, in a way, you know, I wanted to be that sort of person.'

0:37:22 > 0:37:30It was amazing, but people didn't love me or respect me for Darren.

0:37:30 > 0:37:33But, you know, they just thought I was George.

0:37:33 > 0:37:34# Who doesn't know... #

0:37:34 > 0:37:39I was being two people. I was George and Darren.

0:37:39 > 0:37:42So, I was, you know... It was like Jekyll & Hyde.

0:37:42 > 0:37:45# You come and go... #

0:37:45 > 0:37:48It's, sort of, very difficult, sometimes.

0:37:48 > 0:37:52We are very different, as people. but it's just that image.

0:37:52 > 0:37:57He has such a strong image and such an amazing image.

0:38:01 > 0:38:05With music videos now beaming iconic images of pop gods

0:38:05 > 0:38:06into every home,

0:38:06 > 0:38:09pop stars began to feel more untouchable

0:38:09 > 0:38:12and mythical than ever before.

0:38:12 > 0:38:14If you were a pop fan in the mid-'80s,

0:38:14 > 0:38:17fandom becomes a, kind of, religion, doesn't it?

0:38:17 > 0:38:19Prince and Michael Jackson - best examples, actually -

0:38:19 > 0:38:23they built these great fortresses. You know, Neverland

0:38:23 > 0:38:25and Paisley Park, and you just had

0:38:25 > 0:38:28a mental image of these Disney-like chateaus,

0:38:28 > 0:38:32with a portcullis and moat round them that you're never going to get into.

0:38:32 > 0:38:35And that really just intensified your interest in them

0:38:35 > 0:38:38and intensified this idea of mystery.

0:38:41 > 0:38:44SONG STARTS: The Way You Make Me Feel by Michael Jackson

0:38:48 > 0:38:51# Hey, pretty baby with the high heels on

0:38:51 > 0:38:56# You give me fever like I've never, ever known

0:38:56 > 0:39:00# You're just a product of loveliness

0:39:00 > 0:39:03# I like the groove of your walk Your talk, your dress

0:39:04 > 0:39:07# I feel your fever for miles around... #

0:39:07 > 0:39:10'I don't think I could imagine my life without Michael Jackson.

0:39:10 > 0:39:14'Not a day goes past where I am not humming, singing or listening'

0:39:14 > 0:39:16'to his music.'

0:39:16 > 0:39:18# But you're the one for me...

0:39:18 > 0:39:22- # The way you're making me feel - The way you make me feel

0:39:22 > 0:39:24# You really turn me on... #

0:39:24 > 0:39:28'The first time I remember seeing Michael Jackson,

0:39:28 > 0:39:32'I just remember being absolutely mesmerised.'

0:39:32 > 0:39:36The music that he was producing was completely something else.

0:39:36 > 0:39:38And then when he started dancing...

0:39:43 > 0:39:45I just can't... I can't even describe it.

0:39:45 > 0:39:47My mouth was on the floor!

0:39:48 > 0:39:53When you are watching a man who is singing, dancing,

0:39:53 > 0:39:55dressing the way he does...

0:39:58 > 0:40:01..but then lives in a palace,

0:40:01 > 0:40:04and having a zoo and a fairground

0:40:04 > 0:40:10and doing and having everything you at that age would love to have.

0:40:10 > 0:40:15And I think that was the magic that he brought.

0:40:15 > 0:40:19Michael Jackson seemed such an unobtainable figure.

0:40:19 > 0:40:24- # So just leave me alone - # Leave me alone, leave me alone

0:40:24 > 0:40:28# Leave me alo-o-one... #

0:40:28 > 0:40:31People in need of an imposition of order on their lives,

0:40:31 > 0:40:35a way of avoiding chaos, tend to believe in some higher being

0:40:35 > 0:40:36that's going to take care of them.

0:40:36 > 0:40:39And I think a lot of people channelled a lot of that energy

0:40:39 > 0:40:40into Michael Jackson.

0:40:40 > 0:40:44And somehow, he presented something fabulous and extreme and exotic.

0:40:47 > 0:40:52Michael Jackson was mass-worshipped like no other '80s pop star.

0:40:52 > 0:40:54And even in death, he still holds a powerful grip

0:40:54 > 0:40:56on his fans' imagination.

0:40:56 > 0:41:02# I'm going to make a change for once in my life... #

0:41:02 > 0:41:06Songs that had so much meaning at the time, now,

0:41:06 > 0:41:11because of his passing, just pull a little bit tighter.

0:41:12 > 0:41:15And I remember listening to songs with my friends

0:41:15 > 0:41:18and we were all in tears.

0:41:21 > 0:41:22It's getting to me now.

0:41:22 > 0:41:24It really choked me up.

0:41:24 > 0:41:29# I'm starting with the man in the mirror

0:41:29 > 0:41:32# I'm asking him to change his ways... #

0:41:32 > 0:41:35And he was always the boy that didn't want to grow up

0:41:35 > 0:41:38and you didn't want him to grow up.

0:41:38 > 0:41:41You feel sorry for him. You really do.

0:41:44 > 0:41:47Despite their idols being ultimately unknowable,

0:41:47 > 0:41:51some fans still feel a deep emotional connection with them,

0:41:51 > 0:41:54but others take this profound desire to connect with their idols

0:41:54 > 0:41:55to the next level.

0:42:06 > 0:42:08It was like being drawn into the circus.

0:42:08 > 0:42:10It was like, "I want to join the circus."

0:42:10 > 0:42:16I want to go where he's going and go backstage and, you know, party.

0:42:18 > 0:42:21I came from Iran at the age of ten, from a war zone,

0:42:21 > 0:42:24and straight to Manchester's Moss Side.

0:42:24 > 0:42:27It seemed like, in this world of rock and roll,

0:42:27 > 0:42:31you would be accepted for whatever, whoever you are.

0:42:31 > 0:42:33It was like a utopian playground,

0:42:33 > 0:42:36where anyone could be anything and no-one would care.

0:42:36 > 0:42:39Rock and roll is the soundtrack to my sexual awakening and, specifically,

0:42:39 > 0:42:40probably, Guns N' Roses.

0:42:48 > 0:42:52I was listening to that music and the fantasies that it evoked in me

0:42:52 > 0:42:55was, kind of, being out on the road with these guys

0:42:55 > 0:42:58and everyone just being themselves

0:42:58 > 0:43:03and the guys being quite wild, like bad boys.

0:43:03 > 0:43:05So, it was like a fantasy, definitely.

0:43:07 > 0:43:10I would just turn up backstage and just say to the security,

0:43:10 > 0:43:12"I'm here to see the band"

0:43:12 > 0:43:15and they'd be like, "Who the fuck are you?!"

0:43:15 > 0:43:16"I'm the band's entertainment."

0:43:19 > 0:43:20Something possessed me.

0:43:20 > 0:43:23I was like, I want the whole band here now and I want to

0:43:23 > 0:43:28"see you and you and I want to have a threesome with you two."

0:43:28 > 0:43:32There were times when I would be with a band and then they would say,

0:43:32 > 0:43:34"Oh, I'm tired." And I'd be like,

0:43:34 > 0:43:38"Can you go and knock on people's hotel room doors

0:43:38 > 0:43:42"and find me someone hot, with tattoos and long hair and eyeliner,

0:43:42 > 0:43:46"and bring them for me, now?!" And they'd be like, "All right."

0:43:47 > 0:43:51I guess I am a fan of not one specific band,

0:43:51 > 0:43:54but a fan of the whole mentality -

0:43:54 > 0:43:57the rebellion and the anarchy - of rock and roll.

0:43:57 > 0:43:59I did live out a lot of my fantasies!

0:44:06 > 0:44:08But there comes a time in most of our lives

0:44:08 > 0:44:12when the fantasy of fandom inevitably begins to fade.

0:44:13 > 0:44:16After I met Roger Taylor, something changed.

0:44:16 > 0:44:19A certain urgency about my fanhood had been taken away.

0:44:19 > 0:44:21He felt more normal.

0:44:21 > 0:44:25Going to university and aware of my dwindling affections,

0:44:25 > 0:44:29I wrote an entry in my diary addressed directly to Roger Taylor.

0:44:29 > 0:44:32"I'm scared of losing you when I go away.

0:44:32 > 0:44:35"I'm worried that my lack of privacy and time will change this somehow

0:44:35 > 0:44:37"and that things will never be the same again."

0:44:37 > 0:44:41And that was it, the last-ever entry in the Roger Taylor Diary.

0:44:43 > 0:44:45Coming out of the teenage bubble,

0:44:45 > 0:44:47I felt sad to know I was leaving something behind.

0:44:47 > 0:44:50That intense devotion you only get from being a teenager

0:44:50 > 0:44:52living at home,

0:44:52 > 0:44:54projecting fantasies on to someone you will never truly know.

0:44:56 > 0:44:59I think that, for a while, it's quite easy to drift out of being a fan,

0:44:59 > 0:45:01when you have got kids, mortgages,

0:45:01 > 0:45:02all sorts of other stuff to worry about.

0:45:02 > 0:45:04Time just runs out

0:45:04 > 0:45:09and you can't dedicate yourself to the cause as much as you could.

0:45:09 > 0:45:12You're doing different things as you grow up

0:45:12 > 0:45:15and real life just impinges.

0:45:15 > 0:45:18I think there's almost a window of opportunity in your life,

0:45:18 > 0:45:20between about the ages of about 12 and 19,

0:45:20 > 0:45:23that you can ever really fall in love with an artist.

0:45:23 > 0:45:26And after that, you can appreciate music,

0:45:26 > 0:45:28you can find stuff that you really enjoy

0:45:28 > 0:45:31but you will never again feel that frisson

0:45:31 > 0:45:34of something that almost brings you to life.

0:45:34 > 0:45:37What happens is that you relate to them intensely

0:45:37 > 0:45:39when you are a teenager, on a personal level.

0:45:39 > 0:45:41It's about who they are and how they dress

0:45:41 > 0:45:44and the life they lead and how I can be like them.

0:45:44 > 0:45:47I think those relationships just change.

0:45:51 > 0:45:53Back in the late '80s, change was in the air once more for fans,

0:45:53 > 0:45:56as the rise of underground club culture

0:45:56 > 0:45:59rejected the worship of individual pop icons,

0:45:59 > 0:46:02in favour of a more inclusive musical experience.

0:46:02 > 0:46:05# The hands of time... #

0:46:05 > 0:46:06In the heart of London,

0:46:06 > 0:46:10a young DJ wanted to harness the power of this new youth movement.

0:46:14 > 0:46:17What Soul II Soul were doing was integrating everybody,

0:46:17 > 0:46:22bringing everybody together. Empowering ourselves.

0:46:22 > 0:46:26It's about a happy face, a thumping bass for a loving race.

0:46:26 > 0:46:28We're all feeling this vibe.

0:46:30 > 0:46:31It was the first time

0:46:31 > 0:46:35that there had been a voice which represented

0:46:35 > 0:46:38the whole of our generation.

0:46:38 > 0:46:41The energy was like you were on the cusp of something.

0:46:41 > 0:46:43Like something's about to break out.

0:46:43 > 0:46:46# Back to life

0:46:46 > 0:46:48# Back to reality

0:46:48 > 0:46:52# Back to the here and now, yeah... #

0:46:52 > 0:46:54The majority of music that we were hearing

0:46:54 > 0:46:57was either heavily influenced by American music

0:46:57 > 0:46:58or was American music.

0:46:58 > 0:47:01So, when Soul II Soul came onto the scene,

0:47:01 > 0:47:03it was like, "Boo, boo, what was that?!"

0:47:03 > 0:47:05It was like completely different.

0:47:08 > 0:47:12It was about our black, British identity.

0:47:12 > 0:47:15When that translated around the rest of the world

0:47:15 > 0:47:17and that reverberated, it was just pretty incredible.

0:47:19 > 0:47:22Soul II Soul's global hit, Back To Life,

0:47:22 > 0:47:26was the moment black British youth and fan culture found its voice

0:47:26 > 0:47:30and broke through into the pop mainstream for the very first time.

0:47:30 > 0:47:33Well, it was important for us to show our identity,

0:47:33 > 0:47:37because for many years, black Britain was a...

0:47:38 > 0:47:42..sloppy second to what was happening in black America.

0:47:42 > 0:47:45So, we were fighting for our identity.

0:47:45 > 0:47:49"Oh, there's black English? What is that all about?

0:47:49 > 0:47:51"Where did you guys come from?"

0:47:51 > 0:47:55It gave us an interest in, "Where are my roots?

0:47:55 > 0:47:57"What's my family's journey been?"

0:47:57 > 0:48:00And it gave us permission to then present it

0:48:00 > 0:48:03and show it off and be like, "This is who we are."

0:48:03 > 0:48:05At the dawn of the '90s,

0:48:05 > 0:48:08as club culture was creating new expressions of fanhood,

0:48:08 > 0:48:11what was happening back on Planet Rock?

0:48:11 > 0:48:17MUSIC: Lithium by Nirvana

0:48:17 > 0:48:19While grunge music announced itself

0:48:19 > 0:48:22as the sound of disaffected American youth...

0:48:24 > 0:48:26..a band of misfits from Blackwood in Wales

0:48:26 > 0:48:30were becoming a beacon for lost British adolescence.

0:48:31 > 0:48:34I think the Manics spoke to and spoke for

0:48:34 > 0:48:37maybe slightly damaged, troubled outsiders,

0:48:37 > 0:48:40but bookish, intellectual ones, as well.

0:48:40 > 0:48:43And the sort of people who maybe

0:48:43 > 0:48:45would rather drink a bottle of vodka

0:48:45 > 0:48:48and read a Penguin paperback on the war memorial,

0:48:48 > 0:48:50rather than go to a party.

0:48:50 > 0:48:52It was me, yeah, I was that person.

0:48:58 > 0:49:01To anyone who came from a similar place to us,

0:49:01 > 0:49:03and that could be anywhere, it could be Manchester,

0:49:03 > 0:49:06it could be Glasgow, it could be Dundee, wherever,

0:49:06 > 0:49:11they definitely felt that there was a kind of otherness to us

0:49:11 > 0:49:14that just wasn't being fulfilled by anyone else.

0:49:16 > 0:49:18There's something about solitude

0:49:18 > 0:49:21which is not something to be afraid of.

0:49:22 > 0:49:27Slash 'N' Burn by Manic Street Preachers

0:49:46 > 0:49:49# You need your stars Even killers have prestige

0:49:49 > 0:49:52# Access to a living you will not see

0:49:52 > 0:49:55# 24-hour boredom I'm convicted instantly

0:49:55 > 0:49:59# Gorgeous poverty of created needs

0:49:59 > 0:50:03# Slash and burn

0:50:03 > 0:50:04# Kill to live

0:50:04 > 0:50:07# Kill for kicks... #

0:50:07 > 0:50:10If you met a fellow Manics fan anywhere in Britain,

0:50:10 > 0:50:11you instantly had a connection.

0:50:11 > 0:50:13You could spot them a mile off.

0:50:13 > 0:50:16You'd see them on trains in their leopard-print coats

0:50:16 > 0:50:18and their eyeliner and their glitter on the way to a gig.

0:50:18 > 0:50:21And you'd think straight away, "Well, I know where you're going."

0:50:21 > 0:50:24There was a feeling of community. It was a community of outsiders.

0:50:24 > 0:50:27And I think the best, kind of, youth culture tribes

0:50:27 > 0:50:28do have that about them,

0:50:28 > 0:50:32that it is a community of people who don't fit into any other bracket.

0:50:32 > 0:50:34You could tell straight away, you know,

0:50:34 > 0:50:36when people start turning up, kind of, looking like you,

0:50:36 > 0:50:40I think that's the sign that you've tapped into something.

0:50:40 > 0:50:43Androgyny definitely appealed to a lot of kids -

0:50:43 > 0:50:45wearing the make-up, spray-painting our shirts,

0:50:45 > 0:50:49they could really look different and be different.

0:50:49 > 0:50:52You looked out into the crowd and it was a sea

0:50:52 > 0:50:57of just people with the same kind of intensity as yourself.

0:50:59 > 0:51:01It just felt like we were an army.

0:51:05 > 0:51:08The figurehead for this army of outsiders

0:51:08 > 0:51:11was band guitarist and lyricist Richey Edwards.

0:51:11 > 0:51:12When a rock journalist

0:51:12 > 0:51:16questioned the authenticity of the Manics' music in 1991,

0:51:16 > 0:51:20Richey carved the answer, "4 real", into his arm.

0:51:21 > 0:51:24The Manics were sick of being laughed at.

0:51:24 > 0:51:25Laughed at for being Welsh,

0:51:25 > 0:51:28laughed at for being "fake punk revivalists" and all of that.

0:51:28 > 0:51:30And it just all got too much

0:51:30 > 0:51:32and Richey wanted to show Steve Lamacq from NME

0:51:32 > 0:51:34that they did mean it,

0:51:34 > 0:51:36in the most graphic, bloody and dramatic way that he could.

0:51:36 > 0:51:38Did you do that for publicity?

0:51:38 > 0:51:40No, just talking to a journalist afterwards,

0:51:40 > 0:51:42I was talking to him for about an hour,

0:51:42 > 0:51:43and at the end of that, you know,

0:51:43 > 0:51:46he just basically didn't believe what we were saying

0:51:46 > 0:51:48and I just cut my arm just to show him that, you know, we mean it.

0:51:48 > 0:51:52Well, he definitely appealed to someone to...

0:51:52 > 0:51:56to the slightly more damaged sections of society.

0:51:56 > 0:51:57How did the fans react to it?

0:52:00 > 0:52:04A kind of mixture of sympathy and...

0:52:07 > 0:52:08..despair.

0:52:12 > 0:52:15In February 1995, Richey Edwards went missing

0:52:15 > 0:52:17and has never been found.

0:52:19 > 0:52:22Richey Edwards is fixed now in pop culture,

0:52:22 > 0:52:26in the same way that Ian Curtis and Kurt Cobain are there for ever,

0:52:26 > 0:52:31to be discovered by successive generations of troubled young people.

0:52:37 > 0:52:41Today, music fans fuel a £33 billion a year global industry.

0:52:46 > 0:52:49But almost 50 years since The Beatles disappeared

0:52:49 > 0:52:51beneath the screams of Shea Stadium,

0:52:51 > 0:52:53how much has fanhood really changed?

0:52:55 > 0:52:59Today, the biggest pop band in the world are One Direction.

0:52:59 > 0:53:02They sell out every stadium on the planet.

0:53:03 > 0:53:06But seeing them live is only the tip of the iceberg.

0:53:08 > 0:53:101D's audience can share their passion

0:53:10 > 0:53:13more than any other fans in history.

0:53:13 > 0:53:17How important is the internet for One Direction fans?

0:53:17 > 0:53:19I think the internet is very important for One Direction fans,

0:53:19 > 0:53:21and for the band, as well.

0:53:21 > 0:53:24Just to be able to connect with their fans all around the world.

0:53:24 > 0:53:27I talk to people every day that are in Israel and London

0:53:27 > 0:53:30and Argentina and all over the world.

0:53:30 > 0:53:31It's a community thing.

0:53:31 > 0:53:34There's just always something going on, always people to talk to.

0:53:34 > 0:53:36It's like a large group of friends.

0:53:36 > 0:53:39Anna and Molly are both fan-fiction writers,

0:53:39 > 0:53:41an internet phenomenon

0:53:41 > 0:53:44where fans create stories about their favourite pop stars,

0:53:44 > 0:53:46based on their wildest imagination.

0:53:46 > 0:53:49Reality has left the building.

0:53:50 > 0:53:52Everything I've written and most of the stuff that I read,

0:53:52 > 0:53:54it's AU, like alternate universe.

0:53:54 > 0:53:57So it's not really inspired by the band.

0:53:57 > 0:54:00Like, none of my characters have the same personalities

0:54:00 > 0:54:02as actual members of One Direction.

0:54:02 > 0:54:05You can have fan-fiction, where a fan almost writes themselves

0:54:05 > 0:54:07as being part of the band.

0:54:07 > 0:54:08But they can also be writing

0:54:08 > 0:54:10the kind of fiction that's getting the most publicity,

0:54:10 > 0:54:12which is slash fiction,

0:54:12 > 0:54:16whereby you pair together two or more people of your choice

0:54:16 > 0:54:17in a relationship.

0:54:17 > 0:54:19And, of course, with One Direction,

0:54:19 > 0:54:23the most famous example of that is the fandom around Larry Stylinson,

0:54:23 > 0:54:25which is the name of the pairing

0:54:25 > 0:54:27for Louis Tomlinson and Harry Styles in the band.

0:54:27 > 0:54:30And fans write fiction where these two are in a romantic

0:54:30 > 0:54:32or sexual relationship.

0:54:32 > 0:54:35There's a sense of wanting that romantic storyline,

0:54:35 > 0:54:39and wanting to play out the romance with your boy band member,

0:54:39 > 0:54:42seeing them in a situation where they're vulnerable

0:54:42 > 0:54:45or in a situation where they're taking charge,

0:54:45 > 0:54:47or in a situation where they're being tender.

0:54:47 > 0:54:49It's just a way to connect with other fans

0:54:49 > 0:54:52and be creative and have an outlet.

0:54:52 > 0:54:53And have fun with it.

0:54:53 > 0:54:55How many people read your stories?

0:54:55 > 0:54:59Well, I have over a billion clicks, a billion chapter reads,

0:54:59 > 0:55:00- which is a lot.- Wow!

0:55:00 > 0:55:04I have like 88.8 million at the moment, I think.

0:55:04 > 0:55:05Wow!

0:55:08 > 0:55:09From One Direction...

0:55:09 > 0:55:14CHEERING AND SCREAMING

0:55:14 > 0:55:16..right back to Beatlemania,

0:55:16 > 0:55:19pop fandom has always been forged in the furnace of youth.

0:55:21 > 0:55:22But for many,

0:55:22 > 0:55:25being a fan is something that they never truly let go of.

0:55:25 > 0:55:30And so, half a lifetime later, they gather at reunion gigs,

0:55:30 > 0:55:32where band and fan commune

0:55:32 > 0:55:35and relive the magic of that first rush of blood to the head.

0:55:35 > 0:55:38You want to go back to a place and time.

0:55:38 > 0:55:41You want them to be the 25-year-old that you saw on stage.

0:55:41 > 0:55:45And you want to be the 12-year-old who was in the audience.

0:55:45 > 0:55:47It's easy to think you might have been happier then,

0:55:47 > 0:55:49and that life was less complicated.

0:55:52 > 0:55:55I've been doing this for 50 odd years, right,

0:55:55 > 0:56:00and you find yourself with people just feeling young again.

0:56:02 > 0:56:05There's nothing nicer than coming to a gig

0:56:05 > 0:56:07and then afterwards you come out and you can go,

0:56:07 > 0:56:10"Hello, Lol!" "Oh, crikey, how are you?"

0:56:10 > 0:56:11You know, and you know the people

0:56:11 > 0:56:14and you realise that you've got a bit of responsibility,

0:56:14 > 0:56:16because they really do care about the music

0:56:16 > 0:56:18and they care about everything that you do.

0:56:19 > 0:56:20# Bye bye, baby

0:56:20 > 0:56:25- # Baby, goodbye - # Bye, baby... #

0:56:25 > 0:56:27We're really grateful that the fans have stayed the course.

0:56:27 > 0:56:33They all have this cherished memory of when I was their idol

0:56:33 > 0:56:35and all the things that happened in their life,

0:56:35 > 0:56:37during those important years.

0:56:37 > 0:56:39And so, we can all have fun together and go back,

0:56:39 > 0:56:42Doctor Who-style, and do that.

0:56:42 > 0:56:45I'm happy doing it. That's the good thing about it.

0:56:45 > 0:56:46I mean, not doing it because,

0:56:46 > 0:56:49"Oh, my God, I've got to go and sing Bye Baby again."

0:56:49 > 0:56:52I'm really pleased to go out there and be singing Bye Bye Baby.

0:56:54 > 0:56:57I've been a part of something that's meant so much

0:56:57 > 0:56:59to quite a lot of people. So, it's worth

0:56:59 > 0:57:02fighting for, it's worth sticking at it, Les, you know?

0:57:02 > 0:57:04You can do good in this world.

0:57:05 > 0:57:08The irony of pop music is that it's often dismissed

0:57:08 > 0:57:12as being the most ephemeral, trivial and temporary of art forms.

0:57:12 > 0:57:14It turns out that it's not. It's the most enduring.

0:57:14 > 0:57:17It turns out that cheap music

0:57:17 > 0:57:20is actually the thing that stays with you for life.

0:57:23 > 0:57:24Because being a fan involves

0:57:24 > 0:57:28some of the most intense human emotions and rituals,

0:57:28 > 0:57:30it's a love that can never truly die.

0:57:32 > 0:57:34This is a special place for Queen fans -

0:57:34 > 0:57:37the house Freddie Mercury spent his last days.

0:57:37 > 0:57:39Like thousands of fans before and since,

0:57:39 > 0:57:42I myself made a pilgrimage here as a young girl.

0:57:45 > 0:57:48From Jim Morrison's tombstone mourners,

0:57:48 > 0:57:53to the ever-growing cult of Elvis, fans' devotion has a power to far

0:57:53 > 0:57:58outlast the bands they love. The ability to become truly obsessed

0:57:58 > 0:58:00with a musician has never truly left me, either.

0:58:00 > 0:58:03And in a way, I always feel like it's a return

0:58:03 > 0:58:04to the best part of yourself -

0:58:04 > 0:58:09the pure, intense, unadulterated devotion of being a fan.

0:58:09 > 0:58:17# Somebody to lo-o-ove...

0:58:19 > 0:58:22# Find me

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0:58:45 > 0:58:47# Can you love me?

0:58:47 > 0:58:48# Can you love me?

0:58:48 > 0:58:50# O-o-o-o-o-oh # CHEERING AND APPLAUSE