Amy Winehouse In Her Own Words

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0:00:02 > 0:00:05This programme contains some strong language.

0:00:05 > 0:00:07Soul is guts, it's heart, I guess. That sounds so cheesy but it's true.

0:00:07 > 0:00:09You know, it's something that...

0:00:09 > 0:00:12something that controls you, definitely.

0:00:12 > 0:00:13Something you can't ignore.

0:00:16 > 0:00:19I'd say, to sing soul, I think you have to have grit,

0:00:19 > 0:00:22you have to be able to see through people's shit sometimes,

0:00:22 > 0:00:24you have to be able to see through the world.

0:00:24 > 0:00:27You have to be able to be withdrawn sometimes.

0:00:28 > 0:00:31And you have to be able to be your own best friend as well.

0:00:31 > 0:00:33It's important. As well as your own worst enemy.

0:00:36 > 0:00:40Ladies and gentlemen, Miss Amy Winehouse!

0:00:47 > 0:00:50Hello. All right?

0:00:53 > 0:00:55# You're just a little boy

0:00:55 > 0:00:59# Underneath that hat

0:00:59 > 0:01:03# You need your nerve to hide your ego

0:01:03 > 0:01:05# Don't come with that

0:01:05 > 0:01:08# You think everything

0:01:08 > 0:01:11# Is given to you free

0:01:12 > 0:01:16# But it's not that easy

0:01:16 > 0:01:18# No

0:01:18 > 0:01:21# I gotta know you now

0:01:21 > 0:01:24# We may never meet again

0:01:24 > 0:01:27# I gotta know you now

0:01:27 > 0:01:29# And then

0:01:31 > 0:01:34# My girl says I'm too sensitive

0:01:34 > 0:01:36# To ride with you

0:01:37 > 0:01:42# But I'm not listening to her

0:01:43 > 0:01:47# Yes, I'm perceptive

0:01:47 > 0:01:50# So when I'm done with you

0:01:50 > 0:01:52# You'll whisk your head back

0:01:52 > 0:01:54# The way you were

0:01:54 > 0:01:56# As you were

0:01:56 > 0:01:59# I gotta know you now

0:01:59 > 0:02:03# We may never meet again

0:02:03 > 0:02:06# I gotta know you now

0:02:06 > 0:02:08# And then... #

0:02:09 > 0:02:11I wouldn't say I draw from another tradition

0:02:11 > 0:02:14but the music that speaks to me the most...

0:02:14 > 0:02:17has always been jazz. Always.

0:02:17 > 0:02:21It's always been, erm, jazz and that emotional connection to it,

0:02:21 > 0:02:24you know, that so many of the great singers had.

0:02:24 > 0:02:26You know, erm...that is my thing.

0:02:26 > 0:02:29I don't think I'm... With my song-writing,

0:02:29 > 0:02:32I think it is everything I've ever heard just coming out.

0:02:32 > 0:02:35You know, I'm not restricted to jazz.

0:02:35 > 0:02:38I love jazz. That was the first form of music I really learned from

0:02:38 > 0:02:41and grew with and always will continue to grow with,

0:02:41 > 0:02:45but I love a lot of hip-hop and R&B, so, you know, everything I write...

0:02:45 > 0:02:47everything I listen to has come out in my writing

0:02:47 > 0:02:51and I'm not conscious of trying to be jazz influenced, I just am.

0:02:51 > 0:02:55So, erm, I don't know about all these new kids doing covers

0:02:55 > 0:02:57and trying to write jazz.

0:02:57 > 0:03:00You can't write a Gershwin song, you can't write a Cole Porter song.

0:03:00 > 0:03:03Why bother trying to write like that?

0:03:03 > 0:03:04Mentioning no names.

0:03:05 > 0:03:09# Now, why you always put me in control?

0:03:10 > 0:03:15# When all I need is for my man to live up to his role

0:03:15 > 0:03:18# Always wanna talk it through

0:03:18 > 0:03:20# Yeah, I'm OK

0:03:20 > 0:03:25# I always have to comfort you every day

0:03:25 > 0:03:28# Yeah, but that's what I need you to do

0:03:28 > 0:03:32# Are you gay?

0:03:32 > 0:03:37# When I've forgotten all of young love's joy

0:03:37 > 0:03:39# And I feel like a lady

0:03:39 > 0:03:42# And you my lady boy

0:03:42 > 0:03:46# He said the respect I made you earn

0:03:47 > 0:03:52# I thought you had so many lessons to learn

0:03:52 > 0:03:55# I said you don't know what love is

0:03:55 > 0:03:57# Get a grip

0:03:57 > 0:04:00# It sounds as if you're reading from

0:04:00 > 0:04:03# Some other tired script

0:04:03 > 0:04:07# No, I'm not gonna meet your mother any time

0:04:07 > 0:04:12# I just wanna grip your body over mine

0:04:12 > 0:04:18# So, please tell me why you think that's a crime

0:04:18 > 0:04:20# Oh

0:04:20 > 0:04:24# I've forgotten all of young love's joy

0:04:24 > 0:04:27# You know, I feel like a lady

0:04:27 > 0:04:30# And you my lady boy

0:04:31 > 0:04:34# You should be stronger than me

0:04:35 > 0:04:40# Yeah, you should be stronger than me

0:04:40 > 0:04:43# Oh, you should be

0:04:43 > 0:04:45# Stronger than me

0:04:45 > 0:04:52# You should be stronger than me. #

0:04:53 > 0:04:56When I sit down to write a song, I don't think...

0:04:57 > 0:04:58"..This will be good."

0:04:58 > 0:05:01I don't think, "This sounds a bit like that,

0:05:01 > 0:05:03"I should work that in and make that sound like that,

0:05:03 > 0:05:07"and I don't think I should have that particular line in it."

0:05:07 > 0:05:10I just sit down and let it come out, you know what I mean?

0:05:10 > 0:05:13And that's what you have to do. You have to let a song grow.

0:05:13 > 0:05:17You can't push a song out and you can't force it to be anything

0:05:17 > 0:05:19when it's out, you've just got to let it grow,

0:05:19 > 0:05:23which is why even though I did songs like You Sent Me Flying

0:05:23 > 0:05:25or...

0:05:26 > 0:05:28..erm, Take The Box, three, four years ago,

0:05:28 > 0:05:31even though I did them then, they're different now,

0:05:31 > 0:05:33they're still growing in the set.

0:05:33 > 0:05:36# Your neighbours were screaming

0:05:36 > 0:05:42# I don't have a key for downstairs

0:05:42 > 0:05:46# So I punched all the buzzers

0:05:46 > 0:05:50# Hoping you would be there

0:05:50 > 0:05:53# So now my head's hurting

0:05:53 > 0:05:58# And you say I always get my own way

0:05:58 > 0:06:03# You were in the shower when I got there

0:06:03 > 0:06:06# And I don't wanted to stay

0:06:06 > 0:06:08# But I got nothing to say

0:06:09 > 0:06:12# You were so beautiful

0:06:12 > 0:06:16# Before today

0:06:16 > 0:06:20# But then I heard what you had to say

0:06:20 > 0:06:25# And, man, that was ugly

0:06:25 > 0:06:30# The Moschino bra you bought me last Christmas

0:06:31 > 0:06:35# Put it in the box

0:06:35 > 0:06:39# Frank's in there, I don't care

0:06:40 > 0:06:43# Put it in the box

0:06:43 > 0:06:46# Just take it

0:06:46 > 0:06:50# Take the box

0:06:50 > 0:06:55# Take the box. #

0:06:56 > 0:07:00I mean, it's important for me to represent myself...

0:07:01 > 0:07:03..but I don't know about other girls.

0:07:03 > 0:07:05I'm not a girls' girl.

0:07:06 > 0:07:09Girls need to bring themselves forward, though, you know?

0:07:11 > 0:07:14You know, I was never part of a scene where I was the leader

0:07:14 > 0:07:18of a bunch of Jewish girls that sung jazz, you know what I mean?

0:07:18 > 0:07:21I don't know anyone like myself, you know what I mean, so...

0:07:21 > 0:07:23Erm...

0:07:25 > 0:07:26So, yeah.

0:07:26 > 0:07:32But I know that if I'm honest about myself and I'm honest about my time

0:07:32 > 0:07:33and...

0:07:33 > 0:07:36what I do with my life, you know, I know...

0:07:39 > 0:07:43I know there's girls that will hear that in my album

0:07:43 > 0:07:46- and be, like, "Yeah,- I- felt that and I'm NOT a dickhead.

0:07:46 > 0:07:49"I felt that and it's cool. Other people feel this."

0:07:49 > 0:07:51That's what I'm here for.

0:07:51 > 0:07:54Because I've been through times when I've been so fucked-up

0:07:54 > 0:07:57about a situation that I've have to just be, like...

0:07:57 > 0:07:59write everything down, you know?

0:07:59 > 0:08:01Even feelings that I don't want to acknowledge.

0:08:01 > 0:08:04ESPECIALLY feelings I don't want to acknowledge

0:08:04 > 0:08:07and things that I wish were not true and they are.

0:08:07 > 0:08:09And, you know, it's just...

0:08:09 > 0:08:13good because someone else might hear that and be, like...

0:08:13 > 0:08:16"I'm not an idiot for feeling them things, or I'm not weak

0:08:16 > 0:08:20"for feeling them things, or I'm not a mug for feeling them things

0:08:20 > 0:08:22"about this man," you know what I mean?

0:08:22 > 0:08:27# Every thing is slowing down

0:08:27 > 0:08:32# A river of no return

0:08:32 > 0:08:37# You recognise my every sound

0:08:37 > 0:08:40# There's nothing new to learn

0:08:40 > 0:08:42# You'll never get my mind right

0:08:42 > 0:08:45# Like two ships passing in the night in the night

0:08:45 > 0:08:48# In the night

0:08:48 > 0:08:50# In the night

0:08:50 > 0:08:52# Want the same thing where we lay

0:08:52 > 0:08:55# Otherwise mine's a different way

0:08:55 > 0:08:57# It's a different way

0:08:57 > 0:09:00# From where you're going

0:09:00 > 0:09:02# Oh, it's you again

0:09:02 > 0:09:05# Listen, this isn't a reunion

0:09:05 > 0:09:10# So sorry if I turn my head

0:09:10 > 0:09:12# Yours is a familiar face

0:09:12 > 0:09:15# But that don't make your place safe

0:09:15 > 0:09:16# In my bed

0:09:16 > 0:09:22# My bed, my be-e-e-ed

0:09:22 > 0:09:25# Be-e-e-ed

0:09:25 > 0:09:27# Be-e-e-ed. #

0:09:38 > 0:09:40Amy Winehouse.

0:09:41 > 0:09:44- Welcome to our show, Amy. - Thanks for having me.

0:09:45 > 0:09:47Well, I suppose the public displays of affection,

0:09:47 > 0:09:51- do you approve or disapprove? - I approve wholeheartedly.

0:09:51 > 0:09:55Now, your writing on this record is fantastic,

0:09:55 > 0:09:58it's really great. Some great songs that you've written on here.

0:09:58 > 0:10:01The first one you played, Rehab, when did you write that one?

0:10:01 > 0:10:07I wrote that in February or March in New York with Mark Ronson.

0:10:07 > 0:10:10And, erm, we were just walking down the street and I sang the hook

0:10:10 > 0:10:13and he burst out laughing and said, "Who's that?"

0:10:13 > 0:10:16"I just made it up." He was, like, "That would be really cool."

0:10:16 > 0:10:20I said, "Let's go to the studio now and knock it out now."

0:10:20 > 0:10:23- You went straight there and did it just like that?- Yeah, literally.

0:10:23 > 0:10:28# They tried to make me go to rehab I said, no, no, no

0:10:29 > 0:10:31# Yes, I been black

0:10:31 > 0:10:35# But when I come back You'll know, know, know

0:10:36 > 0:10:38# I ain't got the time

0:10:38 > 0:10:42# And if my daddy thinks I'm fine

0:10:43 > 0:10:48# He's tried to make me go to rehab I won't go, go, go

0:10:50 > 0:10:54# I'd rather be at home with Ray

0:10:56 > 0:11:00# I ain't got seventy days

0:11:02 > 0:11:07# Cause there's nothing There's nothing you can teach me

0:11:09 > 0:11:11# I can't learn

0:11:11 > 0:11:15# From Mr Hathaway

0:11:16 > 0:11:21# I didn't get a lot in class

0:11:22 > 0:11:26# But I know we don't come

0:11:26 > 0:11:29# In a shot glass

0:11:29 > 0:11:35# They tried to make me go to rehab I said, no, no, no

0:11:36 > 0:11:38# Yes, I been black

0:11:38 > 0:11:41# But when I come back You'll know, know, know

0:11:42 > 0:11:45# I ain't got the time

0:11:45 > 0:11:49# And if my daddy thinks I'm fine

0:11:49 > 0:11:55# He's tried to make me go to rehab I won't go, go, go... #

0:11:55 > 0:11:58I think I'm an anachronism. I think I should have been born...

0:11:58 > 0:12:01you know...30, 35 years ago.

0:12:01 > 0:12:05I should be in the same generation as or the same age group as,

0:12:05 > 0:12:08you know, Omar and...and Misha.

0:12:08 > 0:12:11And I think...if there's anything in my voice that they've warmed to,

0:12:11 > 0:12:14it's probably cause I grew up listening to the same records

0:12:14 > 0:12:16they would have done.

0:12:16 > 0:12:19Dinah Washington and Sarah Vaughan and Minnie Riperton.

0:12:19 > 0:12:23And, like I said, a lot of new music just goes over my head.

0:12:23 > 0:12:25I'm like a little old man.

0:12:25 > 0:12:28I'm, like, "Is this cool? Do kids like it?

0:12:28 > 0:12:31"All right. I'm not going to play it, but cool."

0:12:32 > 0:12:34All right, you know. So...

0:12:35 > 0:12:38# So we can hear that call

0:12:40 > 0:12:42# To follow your heart

0:12:42 > 0:12:44# Go follow your heart

0:12:44 > 0:12:50# I know

0:12:51 > 0:12:55# I've been through it all

0:12:56 > 0:13:00# Yeah, I'm an old hand

0:13:00 > 0:13:02# So I understand

0:13:02 > 0:13:05# I under, I under, I understand

0:13:05 > 0:13:10# If you have to go-o-o-oh

0:13:11 > 0:13:14# So make your mark

0:13:14 > 0:13:19# For your friends to see

0:13:20 > 0:13:22# Baby, but when you need

0:13:22 > 0:13:24# When you need

0:13:24 > 0:13:27# When you need company

0:13:27 > 0:13:33# Don't go to strangers

0:13:33 > 0:13:36# My darling

0:13:36 > 0:13:42# Come to me

0:13:44 > 0:13:47# Come to me

0:13:47 > 0:13:50# Yeah. #

0:13:50 > 0:13:53I think all the stuff I was listening to, a lot of doo-wop,

0:13:53 > 0:13:56a lot of '60s soul, Motown, girl groups, they'd make a song

0:13:56 > 0:14:00cinematic almost, because there wasn't a lot going on then.

0:14:00 > 0:14:02And I really like that drama.

0:14:02 > 0:14:04I really like that.

0:14:04 > 0:14:07And I loved the sentiment. I mean, erm...

0:14:07 > 0:14:10songs like My Boyfriend's Back, you know?

0:14:10 > 0:14:12That's a great song.

0:14:12 > 0:14:14There's also really, like, really...

0:14:14 > 0:14:17I just like the sentiment of that time

0:14:17 > 0:14:19where it's, like, erm...

0:14:19 > 0:14:20where it's, like...

0:14:21 > 0:14:23When you're in love.

0:14:23 > 0:14:25So much music nowadays is so, like,

0:14:25 > 0:14:28"You don't know me. I don't need you."

0:14:28 > 0:14:30All the music then was, like,

0:14:30 > 0:14:33"I don't care if you don't love me, I will lie down in the road,

0:14:33 > 0:14:37"pull my heart out and show it to you," do you know what I mean?

0:14:37 > 0:14:39I love all that. I love that kind of drama.

0:14:43 > 0:14:45# It's OK in the day

0:14:45 > 0:14:49# I'm staying busy

0:14:49 > 0:14:53# Tied up enough so I don't have to wonder

0:14:53 > 0:14:56# Where is he?

0:14:56 > 0:14:59# I got so sick of crying

0:14:59 > 0:15:03# So just lately

0:15:03 > 0:15:06# When I catch myself

0:15:06 > 0:15:08# I do a one-eighty

0:15:11 > 0:15:14# I stay up, clean the house

0:15:14 > 0:15:17# At least I'm not drinking

0:15:18 > 0:15:22# Run around just so I don't have to think about

0:15:22 > 0:15:24# Thinking

0:15:24 > 0:15:28# That silent sense of content

0:15:28 > 0:15:31# That everyone gets

0:15:31 > 0:15:34# Just disappears

0:15:34 > 0:15:37# As soon as the sun sets

0:15:39 > 0:15:42# He's fierce in my dreams Sees in my guts

0:15:42 > 0:15:45# He fills me with dread

0:15:45 > 0:15:48# Yeah, so consumed

0:15:48 > 0:15:53# He swims in my eyes by the bed

0:15:53 > 0:15:56# Pour myself over him

0:15:56 > 0:16:00# Room spinning

0:16:01 > 0:16:05# And I wake up alone... #

0:16:05 > 0:16:09I was in a relationship, you know, I fell bang in love with someone

0:16:09 > 0:16:12and it didn't really, it didn't really...

0:16:14 > 0:16:16You know, it didn't do me any favours.

0:16:16 > 0:16:19I mean, it did in the long run, I suppose.

0:16:19 > 0:16:23But it was just funny because, you know...

0:16:23 > 0:16:25I really want to be careful about...

0:16:25 > 0:16:28You've got to choose your words very carefully, haven't you?

0:16:28 > 0:16:31And I'm the least guarded person I know, you know. Erm...

0:16:32 > 0:16:36I think when I wrote Back To Black I was left in a situation

0:16:36 > 0:16:39where I wasn't working, and when I split up with this fella

0:16:39 > 0:16:40I had to go...

0:16:40 > 0:16:43I didn't have anything to go back to.

0:16:43 > 0:16:46When you pick up the pieces after a relationship, you go back to what

0:16:46 > 0:16:49you know, you try and throw yourself into something. I had nothing.

0:16:49 > 0:16:53I wasn't working so I was playing pool every day for four hours,

0:16:53 > 0:16:55just getting drunk...

0:16:55 > 0:16:57you know, having to be...

0:16:58 > 0:17:02..carried home in a wheelbarrow, other silliness.

0:17:02 > 0:17:03Not literally.

0:17:03 > 0:17:05But, erm...

0:17:06 > 0:17:10You know, it was about back to a black mood, I guess.

0:17:14 > 0:17:17# He left no time

0:17:18 > 0:17:20# To regret

0:17:20 > 0:17:22# Kept his dick wet

0:17:23 > 0:17:27# With his same old safe bet

0:17:28 > 0:17:31# Me

0:17:31 > 0:17:34# And my head high

0:17:35 > 0:17:38# And my tears dry

0:17:38 > 0:17:43# I get, I get on without my guy

0:17:44 > 0:17:46# You went

0:17:46 > 0:17:50# Back to what you knew

0:17:51 > 0:17:54# So far removed

0:17:55 > 0:17:59# From all that we went through

0:17:59 > 0:18:02# And I tread

0:18:02 > 0:18:05# A troubled track

0:18:06 > 0:18:08# My odds are stacked

0:18:08 > 0:18:12# Yeah, Blakey, I'll go back to black

0:18:12 > 0:18:13# Ye-e-e-ah

0:18:15 > 0:18:19# We only said goodbye with words

0:18:19 > 0:18:21# I died a hundred times

0:18:22 > 0:18:26# You go back to her

0:18:26 > 0:18:29# And I go back to

0:18:29 > 0:18:34# I go back to us

0:18:34 > 0:18:38# Yeah, baby, it's out of your mind

0:18:38 > 0:18:40# Yeah, Blakey, I love you

0:18:40 > 0:18:46# But you love blow and I love puff

0:18:47 > 0:18:50# And life

0:18:50 > 0:18:54# Life, life is like a pipe

0:18:54 > 0:18:57# And I'm a tiny penny

0:18:57 > 0:19:01# Rolling up the walls inside

0:19:01 > 0:19:03# Oh-o-o-oh

0:19:04 > 0:19:08# We only said goodbye with words

0:19:08 > 0:19:11# I died a hundred times

0:19:11 > 0:19:14# You go back to her

0:19:14 > 0:19:18# And I go back to

0:19:20 > 0:19:23# We only said goodbye with words

0:19:23 > 0:19:26# I died a hundred times

0:19:26 > 0:19:29# You go back to her

0:19:29 > 0:19:31# And I go back to... #

0:19:34 > 0:19:37I think, at times, you do have to suffer for your art.

0:19:37 > 0:19:39I'm quite eager to be, like, "No, of course not,

0:19:39 > 0:19:42"you can sing soul about other things,"

0:19:42 > 0:19:45but I think you do have to suffer for your art. I know I have.

0:19:45 > 0:19:48I know the reason it took me three years to write another...

0:19:48 > 0:19:51Not to write it but to get that big chunk of my life,

0:19:51 > 0:19:53I could then go back and write about.

0:19:53 > 0:19:56The reason it took me that long is because I have to have some

0:19:56 > 0:19:58peaks and troughs, definitely.

0:19:58 > 0:20:01My boyfriend says to me, "You're addicted to heartache."

0:20:01 > 0:20:03I'm, like, "That's nice.

0:20:03 > 0:20:05"What's coming around the corner?

0:20:05 > 0:20:07"What are you about to do to me?"

0:20:16 > 0:20:20# Like you I was a flame

0:20:20 > 0:20:25# Love is a losing game

0:20:26 > 0:20:30# Five storey fire

0:20:30 > 0:20:32# You came

0:20:32 > 0:20:36# Love is a losing game

0:20:38 > 0:20:43# One I wished I never played

0:20:43 > 0:20:48# Oh, what a mess we made

0:20:50 > 0:20:53# And now the final frame

0:20:54 > 0:20:58# Love is a losing game

0:21:03 > 0:21:07# Played out by the band

0:21:08 > 0:21:12# Love is a losing hand

0:21:14 > 0:21:19# It was more than I could stand

0:21:19 > 0:21:23# Love is a losing hand

0:21:26 > 0:21:28# Self-professed

0:21:28 > 0:21:31# Profound

0:21:31 > 0:21:36# Till the chips were down

0:21:38 > 0:21:41# Know you're a gambling man

0:21:41 > 0:21:47# Love is a losing hand

0:21:52 > 0:21:55# Though I battle blind

0:21:56 > 0:22:01# Love is a fate resigned

0:22:03 > 0:22:08# The memories, they mar my mind

0:22:08 > 0:22:11# Love

0:22:14 > 0:22:18# Over a few tiles

0:22:19 > 0:22:24# And laughter by the docks

0:22:26 > 0:22:29# And now the final frame

0:22:30 > 0:22:36# Love is a losing game. #

0:22:37 > 0:22:39CHEERING AND APPLAUSE