0:00:02 > 0:00:03SEAGULLS' CALLS
0:00:03 > 0:00:06Wow, look! I know.
0:00:06 > 0:00:08Jesus comes to you and says, "Follow me,"
0:00:08 > 0:00:11and we have to decide whether we're going to be disciples
0:00:11 > 0:00:14and whether we're going to go and catch other fish.
0:00:14 > 0:00:17And catch other people. And bring other people to Christ.
0:00:17 > 0:00:20BRASS BAND PLAYING: "Somewhere Over The Rainbow"
0:00:20 > 0:00:24This is my family's most favourite place on Earth.
0:00:24 > 0:00:27It's where Elijah was born, it's where Isaac was a baby.
0:00:29 > 0:00:31I've chosen to give...give everything up
0:00:31 > 0:00:35because I strongly believe that's what God wants me to do.
0:00:39 > 0:00:40So I'm just trusting God
0:00:40 > 0:00:43and leaving all this to go to the Salvation Army.
0:00:46 > 0:00:49BAND PLAYS MARCHING TUNE
0:00:51 > 0:00:54For 150 years, the Salvation Army has trained
0:00:54 > 0:00:59officers to fight a spiritual war against poverty and sin.
0:00:59 > 0:01:02It's an army without guns. So it's a war of love.
0:01:05 > 0:01:11But in this secular age, who wants to become a Salvation Army officer?
0:01:11 > 0:01:15We've a binman, a butcher, we've an ex-ballroom dancer.
0:01:15 > 0:01:18Last time I wore this, I was 28. That was 1998.
0:01:18 > 0:01:21I wore it in Japan. A little bit of Strictly in me!
0:01:21 > 0:01:25We have one guy, who, at some point, has been a Buddhist.
0:01:25 > 0:01:28What challenges will God's new recruits face?
0:01:28 > 0:01:30People who apply for officer training are often giving up
0:01:30 > 0:01:34good careers. They're selling homes. They're uprooting their family.
0:01:34 > 0:01:39And what happens when their faith is tested and doubts set in?
0:01:39 > 0:01:41A few people don't make it to the end of training
0:01:41 > 0:01:43because they discover, actually,
0:01:43 > 0:01:46this is not what God was calling them to in the first place.
0:01:46 > 0:01:49If it doesn't work out with the Salvation Army, I keep saying
0:01:49 > 0:01:51I'll pursue my dream of being a morris dancer
0:01:51 > 0:01:54and we'll have a teashop in Sidmouth.
0:01:54 > 0:01:56I'm still an atheist every Monday morning,
0:01:56 > 0:01:59before I've had my first cup of coffee.
0:02:13 > 0:02:17Behind the high walls of its south London officer training college,
0:02:17 > 0:02:21the Salvation Army selects and prepares the next generation
0:02:21 > 0:02:23of leaders to fight for good against evil.
0:02:23 > 0:02:28ALL RECITE: We believe that there is only one God
0:02:28 > 0:02:31who is infinitely perfect
0:02:31 > 0:02:35and who is the only proper object of religious worship.
0:02:35 > 0:02:37I'm going to be splitting you two up in a minute!
0:02:37 > 0:02:40LAUGHTER
0:02:40 > 0:02:42Hi, Teresa. Hiya. Are you OK?
0:02:42 > 0:02:43I'm fine, thank you.
0:02:43 > 0:02:46Every year, serving Salvation Army soldiers -
0:02:46 > 0:02:49already uniformed members of the church -
0:02:49 > 0:02:52apply for a two-year intensive officer training programme.
0:02:52 > 0:02:54Nothing, at this moment
0:02:54 > 0:02:57in the history of the Salvation Army, is more important
0:02:57 > 0:03:00than getting our leadership right,
0:03:00 > 0:03:01and you're part of that.
0:03:01 > 0:03:05The strength of our movement is the officers that sign up to say,
0:03:05 > 0:03:08"There's nothing else. I'm not going to be distracted.
0:03:08 > 0:03:09"This is what I'm going to be,
0:03:09 > 0:03:11"and what I'm going to do for the rest of my days."
0:03:11 > 0:03:14It's not something that you sign quickly.
0:03:16 > 0:03:20In many ways, it's the climax of 22 months, 21 months of training.
0:03:20 > 0:03:26I've got three stars behind my ear, "I am the one and only" on my wrist.
0:03:26 > 0:03:29To get into the college, all would-be cadets must have
0:03:29 > 0:03:30the backing of their local church,
0:03:30 > 0:03:35and pass a thorough screening to be sure they are officer material.
0:03:35 > 0:03:40A fairy-angel-type figure on my ankle.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42Paw prints going over my shoulder.
0:03:42 > 0:03:44And then in-between the paw prints,
0:03:44 > 0:03:48I have "Being part of something special makes you special".
0:03:48 > 0:03:50I believe that that is true for me.
0:03:50 > 0:03:52Because the day that I realised I was part of God's family
0:03:52 > 0:03:55was the most special thing that ever happened to me.
0:03:55 > 0:03:57She didn't talk about her family
0:03:57 > 0:03:58in This Is Me, did she? No, she didn't.
0:03:58 > 0:04:01There is some comments in the paperwork about finding it
0:04:01 > 0:04:03difficult going home.
0:04:03 > 0:04:06And, um, fitting back into the family.
0:04:07 > 0:04:10How do they feel about... Do they think their daughter is
0:04:10 > 0:04:12signing up for a cult?
0:04:16 > 0:04:18Why officership and why now?
0:04:18 > 0:04:21As I was walking in, I said to God, "Why am I here?" and he said,
0:04:21 > 0:04:23"Because I want you to be.
0:04:23 > 0:04:26"This is where I want you to be. The time is now."
0:04:26 > 0:04:29Hi. My name is Teresa.
0:04:29 > 0:04:32Now you may be asking and wondering why I'm wearing a mask.
0:04:32 > 0:04:34Well, actually it's a masquerading mask.
0:04:34 > 0:04:38I've actually spent quite a long time, and quite a lot of my life,
0:04:38 > 0:04:42wearing different sorts of masks and trying to be things that I'm
0:04:42 > 0:04:46not, and trying to be things that other people wanted me to be.
0:04:46 > 0:04:49We're all chipped, we're all earthen vessels.
0:04:49 > 0:04:54That's how the Bible describes us. We've all got those cracks.
0:04:54 > 0:04:59We've all got those weaknesses that potentially make us a risk.
0:04:59 > 0:05:02I have pictures here of me throughout the years.
0:05:02 > 0:05:06I was abused as a child, which meant I grew up believing
0:05:06 > 0:05:10I wasn't worth very much and I hid behind masks.
0:05:10 > 0:05:14'The point of the screening and selection process is to ensure
0:05:14 > 0:05:16'people are able to serve out of that weakness
0:05:16 > 0:05:18'and it becomes a strength.'
0:05:19 > 0:05:21Because if you're not able to do that,
0:05:21 > 0:05:25then you become a danger and we don't want that.
0:05:33 > 0:05:35It is sort of what the butler saw.
0:05:35 > 0:05:37And if you turn it slowly,
0:05:37 > 0:05:41you'll be able to eventually see the founder's funeral.
0:05:42 > 0:05:45The cadets who are chosen, give up their homes
0:05:45 > 0:05:47and bring their families to live at the college.
0:05:47 > 0:05:50Here they will adhere to the strict military code
0:05:50 > 0:05:54created by the Salvation Army's Victorian founders.
0:05:54 > 0:05:57"While women weep, as they do now, I'll fight.
0:05:57 > 0:06:02"While little children go hungry, as they do now, I'll fight.
0:06:02 > 0:06:08"While men go to prison in and out, in and out, as they do now,
0:06:08 > 0:06:09"I'll fight.
0:06:09 > 0:06:11"While there is a drunkard left,
0:06:11 > 0:06:14"while there is a poor lost girl upon the streets, while there
0:06:14 > 0:06:19"remains one dark soul without the light of God, I'll fight."
0:06:19 > 0:06:20William Booth.
0:06:25 > 0:06:27We believe in a spiritual warfare.
0:06:27 > 0:06:30We believe we are battling against sin,
0:06:30 > 0:06:32we're battling against evil.
0:06:32 > 0:06:36It says on our crest "blood and fire" and we're still a blood
0:06:36 > 0:06:38and fire people.
0:06:41 > 0:06:43All I wanted to be as a kid was a knight.
0:06:43 > 0:06:45I wanted to fight the evil in the world.
0:06:45 > 0:06:49I wanted to protect people who couldn't protect themselves,
0:06:49 > 0:06:52and being a Salvation Army officer is a lot like that.
0:06:58 > 0:07:01The officer training college used to attract 300 cadets every year.
0:07:01 > 0:07:03I haven't done the other one. Oh, sorry.
0:07:03 > 0:07:07This September, just 29 new recruits began their training,
0:07:07 > 0:07:11joining 30 second-years who will be commissioned as officers
0:07:11 > 0:07:15and sent to lead Salvation Army churches next June.
0:07:15 > 0:07:18We are the Disciples of the Cross
0:07:18 > 0:07:20and the second-years
0:07:20 > 0:07:25are the Proclaimers of the Resurrection.
0:07:25 > 0:07:27This is my jacket with my little epaulettes here.
0:07:27 > 0:07:32It has S and S on it which means "saved to serve".
0:07:32 > 0:07:34"Saved" means I've been saved by the blood of Christ -
0:07:34 > 0:07:36I've given my life over to Jesus.
0:07:36 > 0:07:40And the other S is that now I'm serving rather than
0:07:40 > 0:07:43living my life in kind of selfish gratification.
0:07:46 > 0:07:48The uniform is the universally recognised
0:07:48 > 0:07:52signifier of the Salvation Army. It was introduced by the founder,
0:07:52 > 0:07:56William Booth, to help Salvationists stand out in the darkest
0:07:56 > 0:08:00and most hopeless corners of Victorian England.
0:08:00 > 0:08:01I think it looks horrible.
0:08:05 > 0:08:07I do think the uniforms could have
0:08:07 > 0:08:08a little bit more
0:08:08 > 0:08:11chicness about them so you don't just look like,
0:08:11 > 0:08:14when you're the shape that I am, like a block in blue.
0:08:15 > 0:08:19There's no shape in my uniform. It just looks awful. It's depressing
0:08:20 > 0:08:20There's no shape in my uniform. It just looks awful. It's depressing
0:08:20 > 0:08:22cos you think you're one size
0:08:22 > 0:08:26and then they make you put a bigger size on.
0:08:26 > 0:08:30To be honest, I feel a bit like my mum, who was an officer.
0:08:30 > 0:08:33Is that every daughter's nightmare?
0:08:33 > 0:08:36Yeah, a little bit.
0:08:36 > 0:08:40I had one of these as a child. Still got it, actually, somewhere at home.
0:08:40 > 0:08:42A junior soldier badge. What does it mean to you?
0:08:42 > 0:08:43A junior soldier badge. What does it mean to you?
0:08:43 > 0:08:46When you're a junior soldier, you make a promise to follow God
0:08:46 > 0:08:51and to do that by trying to be an obedient child,
0:08:51 > 0:08:54by reading your Bible, by praying.
0:08:54 > 0:08:57And, um, the end bit is to be clean in thought, word and deed
0:08:57 > 0:09:00to the best of your ability, but...
0:09:01 > 0:09:04It's very odd. It's quirky. It's...
0:09:04 > 0:09:11full of jargon and language that is perhaps alien
0:09:11 > 0:09:13when you first get into it.
0:09:13 > 0:09:15Two stars, two pips is captain.
0:09:19 > 0:09:21Major's epaulettes. Get the crest.
0:09:21 > 0:09:2315 years.
0:09:23 > 0:09:27It's like wearing a straitjacket, this. My word.
0:09:29 > 0:09:30Lieutenant colonel.
0:09:30 > 0:09:32What is the full armour of the Lord, then?
0:09:32 > 0:09:34The full armour of God?
0:09:34 > 0:09:36Well, the Bible tells us
0:09:36 > 0:09:41to put on the shield of faith, to go out with a sword of truth.
0:09:41 > 0:09:43Word of truth, from our tip of our head,
0:09:43 > 0:09:47helmet of salvation, the breast plate of righteousness, almost
0:09:47 > 0:09:50like a Roman soldier who's fully suited and booted, ready for battle.
0:09:50 > 0:09:55We don't preach hell and damnation and eternal burning.
0:09:55 > 0:09:58What about the eternal punishment of the wicked?
0:09:59 > 0:10:03Well, that is Victorian language
0:10:03 > 0:10:06and I don't think it is a good metaphor.
0:10:09 > 0:10:11It IS like Hogwarts in some ways.
0:10:11 > 0:10:15It's kind of like... It's very... You're all training to do the same
0:10:15 > 0:10:18thing in a residential sense of the word like Hogwarts.
0:10:18 > 0:10:22You all wear a uniform like Hogwarts.
0:10:22 > 0:10:26That would be an interesting essay to do. Yeah. Comparisons.
0:10:26 > 0:10:30Compare Hogwarts to William Booth College. Discuss.
0:10:30 > 0:10:33We don't learn spells or anything. We don't have quidditch.
0:10:33 > 0:10:35It's not as fun as Hogwarts.
0:10:39 > 0:10:41Prayers are like spells, aren't they?
0:10:43 > 0:10:46Lay that bait!
0:10:46 > 0:10:49Um, no. No, no.
0:10:49 > 0:10:51Because a spell...
0:10:51 > 0:10:56You say a certain spell and it ends up...results in something.
0:10:56 > 0:11:00It's like a mythical thing anyway. Whereas prayer, it's a mystery.
0:11:00 > 0:11:05And prayer is also to do with your relationship and your heart.
0:11:05 > 0:11:08And sometimes prayers go on and on, in terms of praying
0:11:08 > 0:11:10And sometimes prayers go on and on, in terms of praying
0:11:10 > 0:11:13the same prayer for weeks, for months, for years.
0:11:13 > 0:11:16You don't get an instant response.
0:11:16 > 0:11:19It's about perseverance.
0:11:19 > 0:11:22STUDENTS: In the name of God the father,
0:11:22 > 0:11:24God the son and God the holy spirit,
0:11:24 > 0:11:28and in the presence of the officers, soldiers
0:11:28 > 0:11:30and friends of the Salvation Army here assembled,
0:11:30 > 0:11:32and friends of the Salvation Army here assembled,
0:11:32 > 0:11:38we declare that we believe that continuance in a state
0:11:38 > 0:11:43of Salvation depends upon continued obedient faith in Christ.
0:11:45 > 0:11:48We have weapons - you know, I can get religious on you and say,
0:11:48 > 0:11:52actually we fight a war - we have weapons of faith.
0:11:52 > 0:11:54We believe in the power of prayer.
0:11:54 > 0:11:54We believe in the power of prayer.
0:11:54 > 0:11:57We believe in the gospel that we preach.
0:11:57 > 0:11:59I think there's an amazing adventure.
0:11:59 > 0:12:03I don't want to be in a field somewhere flicking my Bible pages
0:12:03 > 0:12:05and not actually participating in the battle.
0:12:05 > 0:12:06and not actually participating in the battle.
0:12:06 > 0:12:10I want to be hands-on. I want to be hand-to-hand.
0:12:10 > 0:12:15There's definitely a kind of dark... Something dark, you know?
0:12:15 > 0:12:16A dark force.
0:12:16 > 0:12:19Yoda is a perfect example of someone who is small,
0:12:19 > 0:12:24someone who when we look at him, we might think he's inferior
0:12:24 > 0:12:26and he's not that good at much.
0:12:26 > 0:12:28But actually he's incredibly powerful
0:12:28 > 0:12:29But actually he's incredibly powerful
0:12:29 > 0:12:33because he lives his life in with the Force.
0:12:33 > 0:12:37Um, if we want to be, um, relevant, if we want to be powerful,
0:12:37 > 0:12:40if we want to, you know, do some great things in our lives,
0:12:40 > 0:12:44we need to have God with us and the spirit as OUR force. Yeah.
0:12:48 > 0:12:51Over the two years, the cadets will study theology
0:12:51 > 0:12:55but will also learn social-work skills around addiction,
0:12:55 > 0:12:58prostitution, trafficking and homelessness.
0:12:58 > 0:13:01They live in the college grounds with their families.
0:13:01 > 0:13:04Are we going to say grace, then?
0:13:04 > 0:13:09Thank you, Lord, for giving us food, thank you, Lord, for giving us food.
0:13:09 > 0:13:14Our daily bread, for keeping us fed. Thank you, Lord,
0:13:14 > 0:13:18for giving us food. Amen
0:13:18 > 0:13:20Right that's enough graces. I'm worn out!
0:13:22 > 0:13:25Having met Luke, who grew up in the Salvation Army,
0:13:25 > 0:13:29Katy also felt called by God to become an officer.
0:13:29 > 0:13:31But Katy is new to Army life.
0:13:31 > 0:13:34I think if people are looking at Salvationists
0:13:34 > 0:13:38if they're from the outside I think what they see is a...
0:13:38 > 0:13:41Especially at Christmas, I think the first thing you conjure up
0:13:41 > 0:13:44in your mind is brass bands at Christmas.
0:13:44 > 0:13:47A lot of people like the structure of the Army, I think.
0:13:47 > 0:13:50There's a lot of routine, there's a lot of the sort of military
0:13:50 > 0:13:54aspect that a lot of people really like and I think they cling on to.
0:13:54 > 0:13:56Is she coming? Hide! It is ET? Hide!
0:13:56 > 0:14:01What night is band night practice generally? Tuesday. Tuesday night.
0:14:01 > 0:14:04Most Salvation Armies, Tuesday night,
0:14:04 > 0:14:06wherever you go will be a band practice.
0:14:06 > 0:14:09When I first started going out with Luke, one of the first
0:14:09 > 0:14:10things I thought was,
0:14:10 > 0:14:12"If I'm going to marry this man and he's going
0:14:12 > 0:14:15"to be an officer, alcohol could be quite an issue," because I did
0:14:15 > 0:14:17drink, not excessively, but I'd enjoy a drink like anybody else.
0:14:18 > 0:14:20drink, not excessively, but I'd enjoy a drink like anybody else.
0:14:20 > 0:14:24Um, but I've never, ever missed having a drink.
0:14:25 > 0:14:28OK, I lie, there's been a couple of times!
0:14:28 > 0:14:34At Christmas when everyone else is having a nice Baileys or, um...
0:14:34 > 0:14:36I don't know, like a really hot afternoon
0:14:36 > 0:14:38and people are having a Pimms or something,
0:14:38 > 0:14:40you know, and I think, "Ooh!"
0:14:40 > 0:14:45Or a cider, I think, "Oh, yeah, I'd quite like..." But I have
0:14:45 > 0:14:50committed my life to something that is far more than an alcoholic drink.
0:14:52 > 0:14:55All my family drink, so my grandparents come round
0:14:55 > 0:14:58and it's, "Do you want a sherry?" You know, they're that age.
0:14:58 > 0:15:02And so Luke was doing drinks one day, and my nan asked for a sherry,
0:15:02 > 0:15:06and Luke was like... So I said, "You know, just a little glass. You know,
0:15:06 > 0:15:08"a little bit." Well, he's like a wine-glass full.
0:15:08 > 0:15:13Just no idea, no concept, did you, of alcohol, of measurements
0:15:13 > 0:15:18of alcohol, of strength of alcohol? And it was just a really funny
0:15:18 > 0:15:22story because just the complete difference in our culture, perhaps.
0:15:22 > 0:15:24Even though I might meet an alcoholic
0:15:24 > 0:15:27and I've never had a drink myself, I still believe that
0:15:27 > 0:15:31I can kind of relate to that person, come alongside them and love
0:15:31 > 0:15:36them and care for them, without having experienced it myself.
0:15:36 > 0:15:40What would you like your children to be when they grow up?
0:15:40 > 0:15:44If I had to have one prayer for them, for Esther and Ruben,
0:15:44 > 0:15:49above anything else, above career, above money, above relationships
0:15:49 > 0:15:53whatever, that they would know God and have a relationship with him.
0:15:55 > 0:15:59So, can I ask? Yeah. What is God?
0:15:59 > 0:16:04To try and describe who God is, is really difficult.
0:16:04 > 0:16:08I'm doing an essay at the moment on God and evil
0:16:08 > 0:16:11so, you know, how can we reconcile this creator God,
0:16:11 > 0:16:14who's loving, is compassionate, who gives us his grace,
0:16:14 > 0:16:18yeah? Absolutely, I affirm that is true, and on the other
0:16:18 > 0:16:22side, all this evil that we see in the news every day.
0:16:22 > 0:16:23And not just people
0:16:23 > 0:16:27committing evil acts but groups committing evil acts,
0:16:27 > 0:16:30kind of a disease, and cancer and children going missing,
0:16:30 > 0:16:32who still haven't been found, you know.
0:16:32 > 0:16:36What do you do with all that? How do you bring these together and
0:16:36 > 0:16:40who's responsible? You know, is God responsible ultimately for evil?
0:16:42 > 0:16:47Am I doing Twinkle Twinkle? Ready? Ready?
0:16:47 > 0:16:51THEY PLAY: "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star"
0:16:51 > 0:16:54I think sometimes faith is about not having answers
0:16:54 > 0:16:59about being able to say, "You know what, part of this is a mystery and
0:16:59 > 0:17:01"I don't quite understand
0:17:01 > 0:17:03"why there's so much evil and suffering and God
0:17:03 > 0:17:06"doesn't step in, cos I believe he's got the power to do so
0:17:06 > 0:17:08"but he doesn't. What's that about?"
0:17:08 > 0:17:11CHILD SINGS IN KIDDY TALK
0:17:14 > 0:17:17Oh, well done, Ruben. Were you singing the alphabet?
0:17:17 > 0:17:20Are you going to play your cornet now?
0:17:20 > 0:17:22You don't play your cornet that much, do you?
0:17:22 > 0:17:24Ready, Rubes?
0:17:31 > 0:17:34BRASS BAND PLAYS
0:17:47 > 0:17:52The Salvation Army does have a level of expectation of lifestyle issues.
0:17:52 > 0:17:56Those wishing to become officers, they don't drink alcohol,
0:17:56 > 0:18:00they don't smoke, they don't gamble, they don't take drugs.
0:18:00 > 0:18:04We're very clear on standards of sexual behaviour and conduct.
0:18:08 > 0:18:10The standardised logo,
0:18:10 > 0:18:14if you like, for the Salvation Army these days is the red shield.
0:18:14 > 0:18:16Gillian was telling me recently she's come across
0:18:16 > 0:18:18some research that said that actually you
0:18:18 > 0:18:19don't need the words inside it
0:18:19 > 0:18:22and people still recognise it as the Salvation Army.
0:18:22 > 0:18:26It's that recognisable as an emblem of who we are.
0:18:26 > 0:18:30Are we a brand? You know, we're showing a shield -
0:18:30 > 0:18:34we're a brand, surely. A brand of Christianity.
0:18:34 > 0:18:34we're a brand, surely. A brand of Christianity.
0:18:34 > 0:18:38I'm not going to go all the way down that road this morning.
0:18:38 > 0:18:40The use of the term "brand"
0:18:40 > 0:18:44speaks to me of the commercial world and all that.
0:18:44 > 0:18:48There's a little bit of uncomfortableness about that.
0:18:48 > 0:18:50But it is a brand in a sense, isn't it?
0:18:54 > 0:18:58Prior to coming here, when I had some pennies,
0:18:58 > 0:19:03I had this personal trainer, and I was doing kickboxing,
0:19:03 > 0:19:06lifting weights, and the weight dropped off.
0:19:08 > 0:19:12I had nice houses in nice parts of the country, a nice car,
0:19:12 > 0:19:14I had money in my pocket.
0:19:14 > 0:19:18Yeah, I had all the things that we believe make us happy.
0:19:22 > 0:19:25After a successful career as a salesman in the baking industry,
0:19:25 > 0:19:29Darron's leap of faith to become a Salvation Army officer has
0:19:29 > 0:19:31meant moving 200 miles to London
0:19:31 > 0:19:35and a radical change in lifestyle for his young family.
0:19:35 > 0:19:37This one, he only has strength.
0:19:37 > 0:19:40Yeah, he has strength. But he's really strong.
0:19:40 > 0:19:42Man bat. He can fly.
0:19:43 > 0:19:45My dad - because he reads the Bible a lot,
0:19:45 > 0:19:47God trusts him and stuff,
0:19:47 > 0:19:51so maybe he has powers of God and stuff and that.
0:19:51 > 0:19:56His magic power is reading the Bible.
0:19:58 > 0:19:59You didn't think he was mad?
0:19:59 > 0:20:01No, I didn't think he was mad.
0:20:01 > 0:20:02No,
0:20:02 > 0:20:06I didn't think he was mad at all. No, I didn't.
0:20:06 > 0:20:09I think probably maybe when we were younger,
0:20:09 > 0:20:15I might have thought he was a bit mad but not now we're at that age.
0:20:15 > 0:20:17A certain age!
0:20:17 > 0:20:19She's given up all her close friends,
0:20:19 > 0:20:22all the mums that she was friendly with.
0:20:22 > 0:20:28She had a great job with the school and, um, it was hard for her.
0:20:28 > 0:20:31She got quite emotional when she came here.
0:20:31 > 0:20:36You know, we all got... We were all grieving for our old life.
0:20:36 > 0:20:39Yeah, here's the Star Wars box
0:20:39 > 0:20:41The kids desperate... I mean, the hardest thing
0:20:41 > 0:20:43was when Elijah, my youngest boy,
0:20:43 > 0:20:47his friend phoned and he said to his friend,
0:20:47 > 0:20:50"All right, mate? How's the gang?"
0:20:50 > 0:20:53And he said, "I'll see you soon."
0:20:53 > 0:20:57And I knew he wouldn't ever see them soon cos we're not going back.
0:21:03 > 0:21:06All cadets have to pay their own way through college, often with
0:21:06 > 0:21:08help from their local church.
0:21:08 > 0:21:11Once commissioned, they will be dispatched to a new church
0:21:11 > 0:21:13and earn their first pay slip.
0:21:14 > 0:21:17So per month, the basic officer's salary...
0:21:17 > 0:21:20Is this hers? ..is ?681.91.
0:21:23 > 0:21:25That's it, a month.
0:21:25 > 0:21:28Um, yeah.
0:21:28 > 0:21:33And the furnishing... You get... A furnishing allowance of ?35.61.
0:21:33 > 0:21:36You get an extra allowance if you're living alone.
0:21:37 > 0:21:43Um, and an extra allowance for...you know,
0:21:43 > 0:21:45due to your number of years' service.
0:21:48 > 0:21:50I'm a huge collector of art.
0:21:50 > 0:21:55I have been, me and my wife, since we were first married, really.
0:21:55 > 0:22:00It's an obsession I think. I started off as a baker.
0:22:00 > 0:22:03A trained pastry chef in search of perfection.
0:22:03 > 0:22:07We were always looking for books and recipes that were different.
0:22:09 > 0:22:12All the time in my job I was having to think, "I want to do a cookie.
0:22:12 > 0:22:13"What hasn't been done before
0:22:13 > 0:22:18"and what flavour could I use? And what spice could
0:22:18 > 0:22:21"I put with that that compliments that or pushes the flavour forward."
0:22:24 > 0:22:28I went to have dinner at Heston Blumenthal's restaurant,
0:22:28 > 0:22:30which was a dream come true.
0:22:30 > 0:22:33I went with, um, a customer.
0:22:33 > 0:22:37We quickly got through about ?4,000 worth of pennies for this meal.
0:22:37 > 0:22:39I think we had 15 courses.
0:22:40 > 0:22:43And, um, it was like a work of art.
0:22:43 > 0:22:47He's engaging with all your senses, with your sight,
0:22:47 > 0:22:51with your ears, with your smell, with your taste.
0:22:51 > 0:22:56Just... God's created all of this for a reason. It's beautiful.
0:22:56 > 0:22:59Is it a love affair that has got to come to an end?
0:22:59 > 0:23:02It's come to an end. It's over.
0:23:02 > 0:23:04I'm having to wear this watch because I was
0:23:04 > 0:23:09shamed into having to demote, uh, a watch that I got for my birthday,
0:23:09 > 0:23:13that's a very, very good watch, for my 40th birthday, because a fellow
0:23:13 > 0:23:18Salvationist didn't really quite think it was, um, the Army, so...
0:23:19 > 0:23:22There's the watch. Yeah.
0:23:22 > 0:23:26Where's that going to go now?
0:23:26 > 0:23:30It'll have to go hide in a cupboard or something, I think.
0:23:32 > 0:23:35So I may have to change this actually.
0:23:35 > 0:23:38It's probably a bit too lively. It cost me ?1 at the car boot.
0:23:38 > 0:23:42Offensive, inoffensive, offensive, inoffensive.
0:23:43 > 0:23:47People almost want to live your life for you.
0:23:47 > 0:23:51I got pulled up for drinking a ginger beer last summer,
0:23:51 > 0:23:54because somebody felt that there was alcohol in it, and said I shouldn't.
0:23:54 > 0:23:59As a Salvation Army Trainee Cadet, I shouldn't be drinking ginger beer.
0:23:59 > 0:24:01And I asked the person to find the alcohol in the bottle,
0:24:01 > 0:24:04and they couldn't, but they still...
0:24:04 > 0:24:08They were insistent that I shouldn't be drinking ginger beer.
0:24:08 > 0:24:10So I find that all a bit weird.
0:24:12 > 0:24:13I think we can be harsh
0:24:13 > 0:24:16and judgmental sometimes.
0:24:16 > 0:24:20Um, I don't think that's one of our good things.
0:24:20 > 0:24:24Scripture tells us that we should show mercy.
0:24:24 > 0:24:28And sometimes we've not been very good at showing mercy to ourselves.
0:24:28 > 0:24:29Um...
0:24:32 > 0:24:37I've heard of stories where people have contravened
0:24:37 > 0:24:41some of the unwritten rules of the Salvation Army in the past
0:24:41 > 0:24:43and there have been
0:24:43 > 0:24:47certain principles and procedures that have needed to be followed.
0:24:48 > 0:24:51The consequence of them usually is people leave
0:24:51 > 0:24:54because they're seen to be harsh
0:24:54 > 0:24:57and unnecessary and judgmental,
0:24:57 > 0:25:01where actually, there but for the grace of God go I.
0:25:05 > 0:25:06I've had a lot of questioning
0:25:06 > 0:25:08because I get Ocado shopping delivered.
0:25:08 > 0:25:10SHE GIGGLES
0:25:10 > 0:25:13And that's... Because that's Waitrose, people consider
0:25:13 > 0:25:17that to be a luxury, whereas I should shop in Tesco's or ASDA.
0:25:17 > 0:25:20A comment was made in my review and evaluation about me
0:25:20 > 0:25:21being middle class.
0:25:21 > 0:25:24Which I can't help, because I was brought up
0:25:24 > 0:25:27and I went to a private school, you know, I can't...
0:25:27 > 0:25:31I can shake off a lot of me, but, you know, there's some things.
0:25:31 > 0:25:33Both grandads were bank managers,
0:25:33 > 0:25:36that's sort of where I've come from, you know,
0:25:36 > 0:25:39and I'm not sure they would have said it about somebody that
0:25:39 > 0:25:43had come from a council estate, that they were, you know, lower class.
0:25:43 > 0:25:47So that was quite an interesting comment that was made,
0:25:47 > 0:25:50that I wasn't too happy about.
0:25:50 > 0:25:53The problem with the Salvation Army is it's so insular
0:25:53 > 0:25:54that you know about lots of different people's
0:25:54 > 0:25:57that you know about lots of different people's
0:25:57 > 0:26:00perhaps financial situations and things. Oh, thank you, Esther.
0:26:00 > 0:26:01Oh, that's beautiful.
0:26:14 > 0:26:18Yeah, they're non-regulation laces.
0:26:18 > 0:26:22I'm the kind of person that's reluctant to wear plain navy socks.
0:26:22 > 0:26:25I like to have a bit of colour in life.
0:26:25 > 0:26:27I have an inner rebel inside me.
0:26:27 > 0:26:31This is the way that I express that, by getting different
0:26:31 > 0:26:33coloured laces.
0:26:33 > 0:26:35It's nice to be able to identify yourself
0:26:35 > 0:26:38as a normal person every now and again.
0:26:43 > 0:26:47Nick and Shelley met and married at college.
0:26:47 > 0:26:49They both come from Salvation Army families.
0:26:49 > 0:26:52JAZZ STYLE DANCE MUSIC PLAYS
0:26:55 > 0:26:59It's another world. It's a different language, a different culture.
0:26:59 > 0:27:05So there is perhaps an element of simplicity in marrying into or
0:27:05 > 0:27:08marrying a Salvationist if you're a Salvationist yourself
0:27:08 > 0:27:14because you don't have to explain that language to another person,
0:27:14 > 0:27:17and they don't have to learn that themselves.
0:27:17 > 0:27:21But that wasn't the reason why Shelley and I chose to get married.
0:27:24 > 0:27:26What if God designed marriage to make us holy
0:27:26 > 0:27:27more than to make us happy?
0:27:29 > 0:27:34I believe that God, um, gives us our life partners to help us
0:27:34 > 0:27:37to grow spiritually and even...
0:27:37 > 0:27:41Up until 13 years ago, if officers wanted to marry outside
0:27:41 > 0:27:45the Salvation Army, they would have to leave or remain single.
0:27:45 > 0:27:47It's a tradition that people meet in college.
0:27:47 > 0:27:50In college and get married. Absolutely.
0:27:50 > 0:27:56Yeah, but if, you know... I kind of think about marriage and OK,
0:27:56 > 0:27:59perhaps there's been some question marks over some of the couples.
0:27:59 > 0:28:01Not in our session necessarily but in other sessions.
0:28:01 > 0:28:04And should they be together? Is this right?
0:28:04 > 0:28:07But a lot of what being married is about is having those same
0:28:07 > 0:28:10hopes and dreams. I still think that some people get married that maybe
0:28:10 > 0:28:13shouldn't in college but that's their decision.
0:28:13 > 0:28:16You're basically saying some people that are currently
0:28:16 > 0:28:19married shouldn't be married in your opinion? Yeah.
0:28:20 > 0:28:24If we're not in decline at the moment, we're certainly not
0:28:24 > 0:28:30having growth that matches those people that are dying or leaving.
0:28:30 > 0:28:34We should be worried about it, because in 50 or 60 years' time,
0:28:34 > 0:28:38the Salvation Army will be down to a handful of people.
0:28:42 > 0:28:44Let's face it, a lot of our growth
0:28:44 > 0:28:46within the Salvation Army is from within
0:28:46 > 0:28:49the Salvation Army, that's true.
0:28:49 > 0:28:51But it's not just going to come about if Nick
0:28:51 > 0:28:54and Shelley have lots of little Salvationists.
0:29:18 > 0:29:24This is Beryl Cook and she painted um, the Salvation Army.
0:29:24 > 0:29:29Beryl Cook was, um, really into fashion, and hats, and shoes,
0:29:29 > 0:29:32so I think that was the real thing that captivated her.
0:29:32 > 0:29:34These little... The bonnets, the old-fashioned bonnets
0:29:34 > 0:29:37and the shoes and the...the stockings and the tights.
0:29:37 > 0:29:40This little picture is just a print.
0:29:40 > 0:29:42I think somebody's paid ?6 for it.
0:29:44 > 0:29:46I feel a little bit of an outsider cos
0:29:46 > 0:29:50I don't come from the typical Salvation Army family.
0:29:50 > 0:29:55I've not been exposed to all the variety of the Salvation Army.
0:29:55 > 0:29:57We are looking at the challenge of the tongue
0:29:57 > 0:30:01and hopefully be encouraged to use our tongues in a way that
0:30:01 > 0:30:05glorifies God and not brings that embarrassment and shame to us.
0:30:06 > 0:30:10When you consider we all have a particular uniform,
0:30:10 > 0:30:14we all don't do certain things,
0:30:14 > 0:30:17we abstain from certain things,
0:30:17 > 0:30:21then you are dangerously becoming within the definition of a sect.
0:30:23 > 0:30:25"But no-one contained the tongue.
0:30:25 > 0:30:28"A restless evil full of deadly poison.
0:30:28 > 0:30:31"With it, we bless the Lord and father
0:30:31 > 0:30:32"and with it, we curse those
0:30:32 > 0:30:34"who are made in the likeness of God."
0:30:36 > 0:30:37"He who guards his mouth
0:30:37 > 0:30:41"and his tongue guards his soul from troubles."
0:30:41 > 0:30:46Whoever decided to write that words of encouragement didn't sign it.
0:30:46 > 0:30:50It's almost like I'm all right for God, I'm saved by God's grace
0:30:50 > 0:30:57but actually some cadet or some other in this place thinks
0:30:57 > 0:31:01that, um, I'm not a good Christian.
0:31:01 > 0:31:06Or I'm not the perfect Salvationist. That's quite sad.
0:31:07 > 0:31:08Just pose the question.
0:31:08 > 0:31:14Would any of us deny that at times we've had problems with our tongues?
0:31:14 > 0:31:15Each of us will know, won't we,
0:31:15 > 0:31:18how we're doing in our practice of these things?
0:31:20 > 0:31:23I just think if you're telling the truth,
0:31:23 > 0:31:28and your life's truth, what have I got to be worried about?
0:31:35 > 0:31:37Let's pray.
0:31:37 > 0:31:39God of grace and mercy,
0:31:39 > 0:31:44help us in these moments to gain a greater understanding of what
0:31:44 > 0:31:48it means to make the salvation of folk
0:31:48 > 0:31:49our primary aim.
0:31:50 > 0:31:53Help us to work out what it means to clothe the naked,
0:31:53 > 0:31:56feed the hungry, befriend the friendless.
0:31:56 > 0:32:01What it means to be faithful officers of the Salvation Army.
0:32:06 > 0:32:09Darron is new to the army, but the majority of officer cadets
0:32:09 > 0:32:14have some Salvation Army connections in their background.
0:32:14 > 0:32:17Annmarie joined as a child, soon after being put up for adoption.
0:32:20 > 0:32:22What does it mean to you, that teddy?
0:32:23 > 0:32:26It means the love of my mum and dad.
0:32:26 > 0:32:28It is one of the first presents
0:32:28 > 0:32:31I had from them, um,
0:32:31 > 0:32:34when I moved to live with them.
0:32:34 > 0:32:37I was aged five when I had that teddy for Christmas.
0:32:37 > 0:32:42It's just special. It's just a lovely teddy. Yeah.
0:32:42 > 0:32:44Has it also been there at your toughest times?
0:32:44 > 0:32:45Yeah, he's been there
0:32:45 > 0:32:47when I've needed to just cuddle into my teddy.
0:32:47 > 0:32:51He's been there,
0:32:51 > 0:32:53um, as a comfort,
0:32:53 > 0:32:56It's a physical comfort thing.
0:32:56 > 0:33:00A parent should be someone who loves their child unconditionally.
0:33:02 > 0:33:05I became a junior soldier at seven.
0:33:05 > 0:33:07It was easy to just follow.
0:33:08 > 0:33:10So that's what I did.
0:33:14 > 0:33:20I have an understanding of what it is to not be accepted
0:33:20 > 0:33:23and not valued, and to be belittled beyond belittled,
0:33:23 > 0:33:26and to think you are completely the most rubbish
0:33:26 > 0:33:28person in the whole world -
0:33:28 > 0:33:30there is nobody worse than you.
0:33:30 > 0:33:34Some of the reason why I can do what I'm going into is because, yes,
0:33:34 > 0:33:39I didn't experience love but actually I've learnt the value of love.
0:33:39 > 0:33:45And really, yeah, experienced the healing of it and the value of it.
0:33:45 > 0:33:47And I think regardless of who you are,
0:33:47 > 0:33:49you should be accepted and valued.
0:33:49 > 0:33:51And that is what God teaches us.
0:33:55 > 0:33:58Are you now a Salvation Army family?
0:33:58 > 0:34:01We are a Salvation Army family.
0:34:01 > 0:34:06And I've married into a big Salvation Army family.
0:34:06 > 0:34:10So my in-laws were and are officers.
0:34:10 > 0:34:14Um, my mother-in-law's parents were officers.
0:34:15 > 0:34:18Can you tell who are the new or adopted ones? Yes.
0:34:18 > 0:34:24Definitely you can tell who are the newer ones to the Salvation Army.
0:34:24 > 0:34:26And, actually, it's not always because they're like me
0:34:26 > 0:34:29that want to be slightly rebellious and not wear the uniform
0:34:29 > 0:34:31and question a lot of things.
0:34:31 > 0:34:34Sometimes they're actually the people that are even more legalistic
0:34:34 > 0:34:37than the people who have been in it for years.
0:34:37 > 0:34:40But there is definitely a way. You can definitely kind of...
0:34:40 > 0:34:43The majority of time you can tell that people are new,
0:34:43 > 0:34:44newer to the Salvation Army.
0:34:47 > 0:34:49I've grown-up in the Salvation Army and Katy, who didn't,
0:34:49 > 0:34:53reminds me of those things which I just think are normal.
0:34:53 > 0:34:57So I've worn this uniform every Sunday since, you know...
0:34:57 > 0:35:00Well, a uniform every Sunday since I was seven.
0:35:00 > 0:35:03So it's normal to me really, but...
0:35:03 > 0:35:04Have you really?
0:35:04 > 0:35:06Yes. Since you were seven?
0:35:06 > 0:35:09Yes, cos I had a junior soldier's uniform. Oh, my word.
0:35:09 > 0:35:12And then senior soldier's uniform and now an officer's uniform. Wow.
0:35:12 > 0:35:15At the same time, I'm not so precious about the uniform
0:35:15 > 0:35:19that I just, I go through the routine of doing it
0:35:19 > 0:35:23without theologically reflecting on why I'm wearing it.
0:35:23 > 0:35:25Could you be related to somebody in the Salvation Army
0:35:25 > 0:35:27and not realise it?
0:35:27 > 0:35:29Yes. SHE LAUGHS
0:35:29 > 0:35:31I'm fresh blood! They had to... I had to marry.
0:35:31 > 0:35:33I had to be married in to,
0:35:33 > 0:35:37so people didn't end up with like three eyes and...
0:35:37 > 0:35:43No, there is a bit of joke that we do need some fresh blood in the Army,
0:35:43 > 0:35:46and people, you know, there's people here that would be able to say
0:35:46 > 0:35:49they're related, they could relate themselves back to the General -
0:35:49 > 0:35:52William Booth the founder.
0:35:52 > 0:35:55I just haven't ever come across anything like it.
0:35:55 > 0:35:58If we're relying on genetics then I think we've gone wrong somewhere.
0:36:00 > 0:36:03Salvation Army founders William and Catherine Booth
0:36:03 > 0:36:06created a family dynasty.
0:36:06 > 0:36:10Most of their 8 children and 37 grandchildren
0:36:10 > 0:36:12entered the Salvation Army
0:36:12 > 0:36:14I feel like Charlie And The Chocolate Factory.
0:36:14 > 0:36:16LIFT: 'Going up.'
0:36:22 > 0:36:26Major Janet Martin is one of many college tutors
0:36:26 > 0:36:30who can trace her army history back for many generations
0:36:30 > 0:36:32The Booth nose.
0:36:33 > 0:36:38Apparently if you touch an old dead saint's bones or something
0:36:38 > 0:36:39then it might heal you.
0:36:39 > 0:36:42So people used to do it with William Booth's nose.
0:36:45 > 0:36:47Janet worked with orphans
0:36:47 > 0:36:50before coming to the college as a trainee 20 years ago.
0:36:50 > 0:36:53It was here she first met her future husband Malcolm.
0:36:53 > 0:36:57So, there were only two single men, one was Malcolm Martin
0:36:57 > 0:36:59and my name was Janet Martin, so there you go.
0:36:59 > 0:37:04Then it turned out our grandparents were in training together.
0:37:04 > 0:37:06Oh, for a horrible little while,
0:37:06 > 0:37:08we thought maybe we had the same grandparents.
0:37:08 > 0:37:11Thankfully his grandfather was Charles Martin
0:37:11 > 0:37:15and mine was John Enrique, so we were all right.
0:37:15 > 0:37:18Yeah, that was a terrible moment
0:37:18 > 0:37:21when we thought we were actually related.
0:37:21 > 0:37:24SHE LAUGHS But we weren't.
0:37:24 > 0:37:30The Salvation Army is a great, big, huge somewhat dysfunctional,
0:37:30 > 0:37:33but we all love each other deep down, family.
0:37:33 > 0:37:35That's what it is.
0:37:35 > 0:37:37And we want others to join.
0:37:37 > 0:37:38To widen the gene pool?
0:37:38 > 0:37:40We certainly need that, don't we?
0:37:40 > 0:37:42Otherwise when we wave at you,
0:37:42 > 0:37:44it will be to prove that we've got five fingers!
0:37:46 > 0:37:49Which will happen one day, I think.
0:37:49 > 0:37:51I think a majority of people in the Salvation Army
0:37:51 > 0:37:54just grew up in the Salvation Army
0:37:54 > 0:37:56and they maybe have that period between 16 and 18
0:37:56 > 0:37:59when they went off but...
0:38:00 > 0:38:03But there are a few who sort of came in.
0:38:03 > 0:38:05For healing, I think.
0:38:07 > 0:38:10And to, yeah, to find something else.
0:38:11 > 0:38:13Whatever you want to call that. Salvation.
0:38:16 > 0:38:17Since their marriage,
0:38:17 > 0:38:20Janet's husband Malcolm has moved up in the ranks
0:38:20 > 0:38:23and is now head of academic training at the college.
0:38:24 > 0:38:27OK, well, good morning everyone. Good morning.
0:38:27 > 0:38:31We're thinking this morning about poverty,
0:38:31 > 0:38:33about justice and about liberation.
0:38:33 > 0:38:36So theological responses to poverty and justice.
0:38:36 > 0:38:39Just to start with -
0:38:39 > 0:38:41where are all the Christians in the world?
0:38:41 > 0:38:45OK, there are 2.2 billion Christians more or less,
0:38:45 > 0:38:47about a third of the world's population.
0:38:47 > 0:38:50This is my grandad, Enrique.
0:38:50 > 0:38:53This is my grandma, Raquel.
0:38:53 > 0:38:57So my great grandparents were officers.
0:38:57 > 0:38:59And then my grandparents were.
0:38:59 > 0:39:00And then...
0:39:01 > 0:39:04So what's that? Like four... four generations.
0:39:07 > 0:39:10This is my sister Julia Martin.
0:39:11 > 0:39:14We were both brought up in the Salvation Army,
0:39:14 > 0:39:16so we both were made to go to the Salvation Army
0:39:16 > 0:39:19to Sunday school as children.
0:39:19 > 0:39:22So we were born little Salvationists.
0:39:22 > 0:39:25I remember my dad said, "You have to go until your 16, you have to,
0:39:25 > 0:39:27"and then you can choose for yourself."
0:39:27 > 0:39:31And we both chose, when we were 16, not to go any more.
0:39:31 > 0:39:33We wanted to leave so that we could drink.
0:39:33 > 0:39:35That's a big thing in the Salvation Army.
0:39:35 > 0:39:37You're not allowed to do it, so you want to do it.
0:39:38 > 0:39:42I eventually decided that I would come back and she never did.
0:39:42 > 0:39:43She never went back.
0:39:43 > 0:39:48Africa, 516 million Christians these days.
0:39:48 > 0:39:51100 years ago there were 10 million Christians in Africa.
0:39:51 > 0:39:54You can see where the growth is occurring.
0:39:54 > 0:40:00The UK comes in 21st, with 33 million.
0:40:00 > 0:40:04The shifting balance of believers in the world demands
0:40:04 > 0:40:07a continuing consideration of what it means
0:40:07 > 0:40:11to worship a God who is portrayed in the Bible
0:40:11 > 0:40:14not only as indescribable and wonderful,
0:40:14 > 0:40:18but as deeply committed to justice for the poor and excluded.
0:40:18 > 0:40:20This is William Booth's thing.
0:40:21 > 0:40:24This is his seminal book that he wrote,
0:40:24 > 0:40:26In Darkest England And The Way Out.
0:40:26 > 0:40:28And this is how he saw... So he saw...
0:40:28 > 0:40:30These are Salvation Army people
0:40:30 > 0:40:33and these are the people in the sea
0:40:33 > 0:40:35and the sea is, look, "homeless",
0:40:35 > 0:40:37"betting", "starvation",
0:40:37 > 0:40:39"unemployed".
0:40:40 > 0:40:44And then all these people are... pulling them out.
0:40:44 > 0:40:49If you were drowning in slavery or prison, or drinking,
0:40:49 > 0:40:51wouldn't you...
0:40:51 > 0:40:55and someone said, "I love you so much that I want to help you,"...
0:40:57 > 0:41:02..wouldn't you want to take him up on his offer?
0:41:02 > 0:41:06I want people to have, everybody to have had a good life.
0:41:06 > 0:41:09Everyone to have been happy. To find happiness.
0:41:10 > 0:41:13Cos it's not fair if you do and
0:41:13 > 0:41:16just because someone else was born on the other side of the world, or
0:41:16 > 0:41:20to a mother who was a drug addict, they have a worse life than you.
0:41:20 > 0:41:21That's not fair.
0:41:27 > 0:41:29She was quite young when she had me, my mum.
0:41:29 > 0:41:31She was 15, I was born in a convent.
0:41:31 > 0:41:33Dad was a chronic alcoholic.
0:41:33 > 0:41:35I had some real issues as a kid.
0:41:36 > 0:41:39I was six-years-old when my dad battered my mum with a spanner.
0:41:39 > 0:41:43And I woke up to that. My sister was crying and I went down and I saw
0:41:43 > 0:41:48the blood all over the kitchen and that was quite horrific.
0:41:49 > 0:41:52I did start to have real issues with red.
0:41:52 > 0:41:55I had issues with washing my hands so many times.
0:41:55 > 0:41:56I had issues with washing my hands so many times.
0:41:57 > 0:41:59My mother obviously survived
0:41:59 > 0:42:02and then, lo and behold, the day after my dad
0:42:02 > 0:42:05got off with what he'd done,
0:42:05 > 0:42:07Mum and Dad were back together again.
0:42:08 > 0:42:11The Jesus Club when I became 11
0:42:11 > 0:42:14was able to help me through all of that as a kid.
0:42:16 > 0:42:20I remember at night in the dark with the window all steamed up,
0:42:20 > 0:42:23I used to draw images of crosses and God
0:42:23 > 0:42:25and I'd just want to draw heaven,
0:42:25 > 0:42:28and then my dad used to shout at me for drawing pictures of angels.
0:42:30 > 0:42:32I've always had God in my mind,
0:42:32 > 0:42:34I've always had Jesus in my mind,
0:42:34 > 0:42:36and not fully understood it.
0:42:42 > 0:42:44My grandma came to rescue us.
0:42:45 > 0:42:47She was my gift from God really
0:42:47 > 0:42:50cos without her, I'd have been in queer street,
0:42:50 > 0:42:52I'd have been in a right mess.
0:42:55 > 0:42:57After a traumatic early childhood,
0:42:57 > 0:43:01Darron was taken in and raised by his grandmother from the age of 11.
0:43:03 > 0:43:05That's my beautiful grandma, Dorothy.
0:43:07 > 0:43:09Her health really started to deteriorate
0:43:09 > 0:43:11prior, about a year before coming,
0:43:11 > 0:43:14thinking about coming to here, to college.
0:43:14 > 0:43:18She thought I was a fool for leaving a really good job
0:43:18 > 0:43:22and the car and the security. That troubled her.
0:43:22 > 0:43:24Up to the point of her illness,
0:43:24 > 0:43:29she would always say, "I'm a good person, I don't need God."
0:43:31 > 0:43:35I think the hardest thing as a Christian is you're wanting somebody,
0:43:35 > 0:43:37you want everybody to be Christian
0:43:37 > 0:43:42because you know that that has a bearing on where you spend eternity.
0:43:44 > 0:43:49The thought of my beautiful grandma not being in heaven horrifies me.
0:43:50 > 0:43:54MAN SINGING IN BACKGROUND
0:43:56 > 0:43:58So now we're going to get you to
0:43:58 > 0:44:02fill in your New Testament Introduction evaluation form.
0:44:04 > 0:44:06This is not going to take any time at all.
0:44:06 > 0:44:10And in a totally unrelated note, as you're filling these out,
0:44:10 > 0:44:12I've made you a cake. LAUGHTER
0:44:12 > 0:44:15Darron was a baker so he can evaluate that cupcake.
0:44:15 > 0:44:19My only criticism... Ten out of ten. ..is constructive criticism.
0:44:19 > 0:44:22Your mistake was you piped from the middle outwards.
0:44:22 > 0:44:24You should pipe from the paper case inwards.
0:44:24 > 0:44:26More practice, Janet, more practice.
0:44:26 > 0:44:30Thank you. But it was a good attempt, wasn't it? It's very good.
0:44:30 > 0:44:32Do you want me tell you my story?
0:44:33 > 0:44:36OK. This was me. I grew up in the Salvation Army
0:44:36 > 0:44:38and I kind of had this arrangement with God.
0:44:38 > 0:44:40I will give my life to you.
0:44:40 > 0:44:42I'll pray to you and that sort of thing.
0:44:42 > 0:44:45And in return, you will look after me and my family.
0:44:45 > 0:44:47And that was a kind of deal.
0:44:47 > 0:44:49And that, that was my kind of faith - really, kind of,
0:44:49 > 0:44:51selfish faith, self-absorbed.
0:44:51 > 0:44:53That was it, right? That was the deal.
0:44:53 > 0:44:56And I kept my side of the deal.
0:44:56 > 0:44:59But, um, five years ago,
0:44:59 > 0:45:02I got a phone call from my sister saying, "I'm not feeling very well."
0:45:02 > 0:45:04So, then you start praying.
0:45:04 > 0:45:08And then two weeks later, she... she was dead. She died.
0:45:09 > 0:45:13And I said, "Well, you've just let me down big time, God."
0:45:13 > 0:45:16I just thought, "God is so mean.
0:45:16 > 0:45:18"He's really mean."
0:45:21 > 0:45:23The year after my sister died,
0:45:23 > 0:45:25my mum gave me this as a Christmas present.
0:45:27 > 0:45:30I can remember going to school and standing at the edge,
0:45:30 > 0:45:32cos they had different playgrounds.
0:45:32 > 0:45:35And I was stood at the edge of the juniors' playground
0:45:35 > 0:45:39and looking for her to make sure she was all right.
0:45:39 > 0:45:42Cos there was four years, four years, so there was quite a big gap,
0:45:42 > 0:45:43so I was the big sister.
0:45:44 > 0:45:47That's me, that's Julia.
0:45:49 > 0:45:50This was...
0:45:50 > 0:45:54This we found in my sister's camera when she died.
0:45:55 > 0:45:57They're the last pictures of her alive.
0:46:00 > 0:46:02I did the service,
0:46:02 > 0:46:04the burial of the ashes service.
0:46:06 > 0:46:09Only because I wanted to be the minister and not the mourner.
0:46:09 > 0:46:13I couldn't bear to be the mourner. I wanted to minister to everybody.
0:46:17 > 0:46:19"We believe in the immortality of the soul
0:46:19 > 0:46:21"and the resurrection of the body
0:46:21 > 0:46:23"and the general judgment at the end of the world."
0:46:23 > 0:46:26You see, I want to believe in the resurrection of the body.
0:46:27 > 0:46:29"In the eternal happiness of the righteous
0:46:29 > 0:46:32"and in the endless punishment of the wicked."
0:46:33 > 0:46:36People that have said the right words go to heaven and
0:46:36 > 0:46:39people who haven't said them go to hell, whether they're good or bad.
0:46:39 > 0:46:41You've got your ticket out of here.
0:46:49 > 0:46:52Could I just ask? I'm just really troubled at the minute. Mm.
0:46:52 > 0:46:55Could everybody just pray for my grandma? Of course, yeah.
0:46:55 > 0:46:58Just support her in prayer. Yeah. She really needs it right now.
0:46:58 > 0:47:03She's... I don't know how long she's got. OK. She's in incredible pain.
0:47:03 > 0:47:06Yeah, OK. What's her name? Dorothy. Dorothy.
0:47:06 > 0:47:09And who's with her? Is there anybody with her at the moment? My mum.
0:47:09 > 0:47:10Your mum. OK.
0:47:12 > 0:47:15God we pause in these moments to think about Dorothy.
0:47:17 > 0:47:20And, God, we ask right now as we're here
0:47:20 > 0:47:22that your peace will descend upon her, Lord.
0:47:22 > 0:47:25Fill her mind and her heart with calmness.
0:47:25 > 0:47:27May she be aware of you, God.
0:47:28 > 0:47:30Minister to her we pray.
0:47:30 > 0:47:33I'm going to play some music.
0:47:33 > 0:47:36This track of music is called Grace's Waltz
0:47:36 > 0:47:39by a man called Fernando Ortega,
0:47:39 > 0:47:42written for his grandmother, who was called Grace.
0:47:42 > 0:47:45MUSIC: "Grace's Waltz" by Fernado Ortega
0:47:50 > 0:47:52My hang up is that Grandma needs to say
0:47:52 > 0:47:54a certain set of words in a prayer.
0:47:54 > 0:47:58Given my grandma's dementia becoming worse,
0:47:58 > 0:48:00I'm just thinking,
0:48:00 > 0:48:04"Lord, how's my grandma going to be able to say words
0:48:04 > 0:48:08"that are going to make a difference for her eternity."
0:48:10 > 0:48:16What makes me sad is I'm not able now to have that conversation with her.
0:48:17 > 0:48:20The thought of her going to hell, I just couldn't comprehend that.
0:48:30 > 0:48:35In essence, Doctrine 11 speaks about heaven and hell.
0:48:35 > 0:48:38It's a very clear divide.
0:48:39 > 0:48:42Those who believe in Jesus go to heaven...
0:48:43 > 0:48:46..and those who don't go to hell.
0:48:46 > 0:48:50And they're eternally dammed for ever so there's no second chance.
0:48:50 > 0:48:51And they're eternally dammed for ever so there's no second chance.
0:48:51 > 0:48:53You die not believing in Jesus...
0:48:54 > 0:48:56..then there's no second chance.
0:49:03 > 0:49:06CHRIS BALDWIN: The word I would use to describe Darron's experience
0:49:06 > 0:49:09right at the moment is emotional roller coaster.
0:49:09 > 0:49:10He has...
0:49:12 > 0:49:15He's had a huge series of ups and downs
0:49:15 > 0:49:17over this last term in particular.
0:49:19 > 0:49:23He'd struggled with the initial coming to college, change of life,
0:49:23 > 0:49:26engaging with the academic side of things.
0:49:41 > 0:49:45It is Darron's gran's funeral.
0:49:45 > 0:49:46It's today. Today?
0:49:46 > 0:49:47Is it this morning or this afternoon?
0:49:47 > 0:49:50Could even be... Think it's early this afternoon.
0:49:50 > 0:49:52Yeah, it is the afternoon, he said yesterday.
0:49:52 > 0:49:56I think we should just say a prayer for Darron and the family.
0:49:59 > 0:50:02Some people have said some horrible stuff to me
0:50:02 > 0:50:04in the name of Christianity.
0:50:05 > 0:50:07We didn't pray enough.
0:50:07 > 0:50:09If we just prayed a little bit more...
0:50:11 > 0:50:13..when my sister was ill or...
0:50:13 > 0:50:15death is a kind of healing.
0:50:22 > 0:50:24I remember thinking,
0:50:24 > 0:50:27"Oh, I need her to be a Christian, I need her to say the magic words."
0:50:28 > 0:50:29Isn't that awful?
0:50:31 > 0:50:33Isn't it awful that we're put in this position?
0:50:34 > 0:50:37That we are, you know, that we're worried that our loved ones are...
0:50:39 > 0:50:40And then people say stuff to you.
0:50:42 > 0:50:45You know, "Oh, well nobody knows what happens in the final minutes
0:50:45 > 0:50:49"before you die so she probably said those magic words in her own head."
0:50:52 > 0:50:54That's what they say, don't they?
0:50:55 > 0:50:57Otherwise my sister's in hell.
0:51:00 > 0:51:03Has my grandma uttered verbally out loud maybe the thing that
0:51:03 > 0:51:06I've spent my whole life trying to get her to say -
0:51:06 > 0:51:09I believe in the Lord Jesus Christ and I want to be saved.
0:51:11 > 0:51:13And I never heard those words come out of her mouth.
0:51:15 > 0:51:17If I get in, and she's not there...
0:51:18 > 0:51:20..maybe I fear it won't be heaven.
0:51:24 > 0:51:25(Love you, Grandma.)
0:51:27 > 0:51:29BIRDSONG
0:51:39 > 0:51:41Well, how many people have ever lived?
0:51:41 > 0:51:46If there are seven billion alive now, how many people have lived?
0:51:47 > 0:51:49I think it's probably another seven billion.
0:51:50 > 0:51:54If we believe in the resurrection of the body, where would we all fit?
0:51:54 > 0:51:55And also...
0:51:57 > 0:52:00..if someone had had a liver transplant,
0:52:00 > 0:52:01and then we believe in the resurrection of the body...
0:52:01 > 0:52:03and then we believe in the resurrection of the body...
0:52:05 > 0:52:07..who would get the liver when we came back?
0:52:08 > 0:52:12I think we're not physical bodies, are we? I think we're like...
0:52:13 > 0:52:15A CHOIR SINGS
0:52:15 > 0:52:17# Master, we are here
0:52:17 > 0:52:37# Master, we are here
0:52:37 > 0:52:44# We are here for you. #
0:52:44 > 0:52:47At William Booth College, we all have a past.
0:52:47 > 0:52:49We do.
0:52:49 > 0:52:54And we all have those things that... shape us good and bad,
0:52:54 > 0:52:56painful and joyful.
0:52:56 > 0:52:59We explore those. We explore those carefully.
0:52:59 > 0:53:03There is a strong emphasis on the development of
0:53:03 > 0:53:06the private world of faith...
0:53:07 > 0:53:09..and of devotional time and life...
0:53:10 > 0:53:14..because that's where our character is shaped and formed.
0:53:14 > 0:53:19That's where we start to get the answers to the big questions.
0:53:23 > 0:53:27I was on the Child Protection Register because of neglect,
0:53:27 > 0:53:30both physical and emotional.
0:53:33 > 0:53:36The file on my childhood, it tells of a really poor family,
0:53:36 > 0:53:42it tells of me being very anxious and very upset.
0:53:42 > 0:53:45Essentially a child on edge.
0:53:46 > 0:53:50It talked about how dirty we were, what the place was like,
0:53:50 > 0:53:53when we were left alone, when...
0:53:55 > 0:53:58..we were smacked. When we were...
0:53:58 > 0:53:58It went into doctor's reports cos I had febrile convulsions
0:53:58 > 0:54:02It went into doctor's reports cos I had febrile convulsions
0:54:02 > 0:54:03because of the stress.
0:54:07 > 0:54:11The end of the report is, "We think they need to be put up for adoption."
0:54:12 > 0:54:15MAN: Father God, we are your people.
0:54:15 > 0:54:17You have called us by name.
0:54:20 > 0:54:23The first phrase that I said to God was,
0:54:23 > 0:54:27"Oh, yes, you're someone I can talk to,"
0:54:27 > 0:54:30kind of actually really tells me that I trusted him
0:54:30 > 0:54:33from the spark of my faith.
0:54:34 > 0:54:36I prayed to him and I said, "So, do you want me to be
0:54:36 > 0:54:39"a Salvation Army officer?" and he went, "Yes,"
0:54:39 > 0:54:41and I went "Oh!"
0:54:41 > 0:54:43I didn't quite believe it at the time.
0:54:45 > 0:54:47And that was really the start of it.
0:54:47 > 0:54:52How did God say yes? I've never heard him say anything. No.
0:54:52 > 0:54:56Um, to be honest, sometimes in my doubting stages
0:54:56 > 0:55:00I would say, "Did I actually hear a voice?
0:55:00 > 0:55:02"Are you sure?"
0:55:02 > 0:55:07But actually, yeah, it was a definitive yes.
0:55:11 > 0:55:12I think it's hard to talk about
0:55:12 > 0:55:14why people are here without the use
0:55:14 > 0:55:15of the word "calling" though,
0:55:15 > 0:55:17because I think that's fundamental.
0:55:17 > 0:55:20I think how we understand that may differ.
0:55:20 > 0:55:20I think how we understand that may differ.
0:55:21 > 0:55:27Um, for some people it is because God has literally spoken to them.
0:55:27 > 0:55:30For me it wasn't like an audible voice in my head.
0:55:30 > 0:55:32It was just a gradual kind of...
0:55:33 > 0:55:36..in a way something I can't really kind of describe.
0:55:37 > 0:55:39I didn't choose to be here.
0:55:39 > 0:55:44But I can only say that it's been made clear
0:55:44 > 0:55:48again and again that God's called me to the Salvation Army.
0:55:48 > 0:55:51Is that what you're saying? God chose you to be here?
0:55:51 > 0:55:54God did choose me to be here
0:55:54 > 0:55:56and God's chosen me to do his mission
0:55:56 > 0:56:00and I'm being faithful in what God's asked me to do.
0:56:00 > 0:56:02There's this idea that kind of you keep pushing
0:56:02 > 0:56:04doors to see if they'll open.
0:56:04 > 0:56:08And I pushed doors and eventually
0:56:08 > 0:56:10God just said to me very clearly one day,
0:56:10 > 0:56:15"It's OK, Katy, you can stop, um, pushing.
0:56:15 > 0:56:17"It's fine.
0:56:17 > 0:56:19"This is what I've called you to be.
0:56:19 > 0:56:21"You don't have to question any more."
0:56:21 > 0:56:23I decided when I was 18,
0:56:23 > 0:56:27I decided that I would become a Salvation Army officer.
0:56:27 > 0:56:31Well, however you want to explain the whole deciding thing.
0:56:31 > 0:56:35Was it I decided? Was it God? Was it destiny? All that sort of thing.
0:56:35 > 0:56:38Um, but part of that decision was -
0:56:38 > 0:56:42cos it sounds like you're a really altruistic person
0:56:42 > 0:56:45cos you just want to serve suffering humanity.
0:56:45 > 0:56:48But I have to be honest, and there was a little part of me that
0:56:48 > 0:56:54thought, "This is going to be the easiest way of doing Christianity
0:56:54 > 0:56:59"because I'll be in the uniform, and I won't have to have a proper job.
0:56:59 > 0:57:02"And I won't have to explain myself all the time to people
0:57:02 > 0:57:06"cos they'll just assume what the uniform means.
0:57:06 > 0:57:08"They'll just assume it."
0:57:08 > 0:57:10That's what I thought.
0:57:16 > 0:57:18Spiritual transformation into Christ-likeness
0:57:18 > 0:57:22is the process of forming the inner world of the person
0:57:22 > 0:57:26in such a way that it takes on the character of Jesus himself.
0:57:26 > 0:57:28That's why we're here.
0:57:28 > 0:57:30That's kind of what college is about.
0:57:30 > 0:57:32That is what the Christian life is about.
0:57:32 > 0:57:34The whole journey is about becoming more like Jesus.
0:57:34 > 0:57:37And that's not just what we hope for ourselves.
0:57:37 > 0:57:41But I hope that's what you want your people to become as well.
0:57:41 > 0:57:44DANCE MUSIC TO FOXTROT TIMING
0:57:46 > 0:57:49This particular dance is
0:57:49 > 0:57:52the foxtrot. It was one of our best dances.
0:57:52 > 0:57:55The life of a dancer is you live, breathe and sleep dancing
0:57:55 > 0:57:58and there's no boundaries to how you can express yourself.
0:57:58 > 0:58:00You feel free, you feel alive,
0:58:00 > 0:58:01you feel like there is fire in you.
0:58:04 > 0:58:06After hanging up her dancing shoes, Sylvia has come
0:58:06 > 0:58:10to live and study in the college as an officer cadet.
0:58:11 > 0:58:15It's a world away from the glamorous life of a ballroom dancer.
0:58:16 > 0:58:18Yeah, I look happy, I look content.
0:58:18 > 0:58:20I'm excited to be there. That's me there.
0:58:28 > 0:58:29So that's the back.
0:58:31 > 0:58:33I was that thin once.
0:58:34 > 0:58:36Yeah, so that was what I used to wear.
0:58:40 > 0:58:42When did you wear that?
0:58:42 > 0:58:44I wore it... Last time I wore this I was 28.
0:58:44 > 0:58:46That was 1998.
0:58:46 > 0:58:49I wore it in Japan and it was the World Standard Championships.
0:58:49 > 0:58:52I was representing New Zealand as the amateur champion.
0:58:52 > 0:58:54A little bit of Strictly in me!
0:58:56 > 0:58:58I always wanted to be a champion dancer
0:58:58 > 0:59:00so I would say I was pretty selfish.
0:59:01 > 0:59:04Pretty self-focused I would say.
0:59:04 > 0:59:07It was about me and my partner, my dance partner.
0:59:07 > 0:59:10And so your training is five hours a day,
0:59:10 > 0:59:13five nights a week, sometimes seven nights a week.
0:59:13 > 0:59:15Five-star hotels, travelling around the world,
0:59:15 > 0:59:19being this kind of celebrity person that everyone wants to be.
0:59:19 > 0:59:20You live, breathe and sleep dancing
0:59:20 > 0:59:23and that's what you have to do to be a good champion dancer.
0:59:23 > 0:59:27The body lies right at the centre of the spiritual life.
0:59:27 > 0:59:29You know, so many of us have this hatred of our bodies.
0:59:29 > 0:59:33How we look at ourselves affects us spiritually.
0:59:33 > 0:59:35I do believe that.
0:59:35 > 0:59:37You know you look at that gorgeous magnolia tree
0:59:37 > 0:59:39and you just think, "Wow, that's amazing".
0:59:39 > 0:59:41And you kind of think the world is amazing.
0:59:41 > 0:59:45And yet we look at ourselves, as equally created by God, and go,
0:59:45 > 0:59:48"Nah, God really messed up that time."
0:59:49 > 0:59:51Bodily pleasure is not in itself a bad thing,
0:59:51 > 0:59:56but when it's exalted to a necessity and we become dependent upon it,
0:59:56 > 0:59:59then we are slaves to our bodies and its failings.
0:59:59 > 1:00:02And I hope it's obvious that we'd beware of presenting our bodies
1:00:02 > 1:00:03in ways that deliberately elicit sexual thoughts and feelings
1:00:03 > 1:00:05in ways that deliberately elicit sexual thoughts and feelings
1:00:05 > 1:00:07and actions from others.
1:00:08 > 1:00:12It is a highly sexualised world. There's mirrors everywhere.
1:00:12 > 1:00:16The girls groom themselves, they wear fake nails, fake tan.
1:00:16 > 1:00:18They do their hair. You're growing in your vanity.
1:00:18 > 1:00:20You're growing in your ego.
1:00:20 > 1:00:25And I think it's really hard to fight those forces, you know?
1:00:25 > 1:00:28There is a tendency to get into the addiction of dance
1:00:28 > 1:00:30and the lifestyle becomes addictive with it,
1:00:30 > 1:00:33so they come together as an addiction, I think.
1:00:34 > 1:00:36It was a season of my life.
1:00:36 > 1:00:40It's full of joy and sadness side by side.
1:00:40 > 1:00:42And that was the last time we danced together.
1:00:45 > 1:00:48He broke off with me. Well, he broke my heart first, yeah.
1:00:50 > 1:00:52I can't dance without him.
1:00:56 > 1:00:59After her ballroom career, Sylvia worked with prostitutes
1:00:59 > 1:01:03and drug addicts before applying to become a Salvation Army officer.
1:01:03 > 1:01:06Give me your life and I'll give you a new life.
1:01:06 > 1:01:09That's the exchange right there as a Christian.
1:01:09 > 1:01:13Sparkly on the outside. Now I'm just sparkly on the inside.
1:01:22 > 1:01:24Bye-bye, former life.
1:01:41 > 1:01:42Before graduating,
1:01:42 > 1:01:46all cadets have to complete several social work placements
1:01:46 > 1:01:49to prepare them to run the Army's churches and social centres.
1:01:49 > 1:01:53Annmarie is studying for her next placement.
1:01:53 > 1:01:58The army has a history of protecting families as a whole.
1:01:58 > 1:01:59Often they've not had a voice
1:01:59 > 1:02:02and it's about giving a voice to the voiceless.
1:02:02 > 1:02:07This is one book of many books that would have been written.
1:02:09 > 1:02:11And there are so many people in it.
1:02:11 > 1:02:14They've been either abandoned straightaway by their families
1:02:14 > 1:02:16or they have been left into the care of the Salvation Army.
1:02:16 > 1:02:19or they have been left into the care of the Salvation Army.
1:02:19 > 1:02:22They're interested in whether they have fallen,
1:02:22 > 1:02:27which, in this case, would have been, have they had sex?
1:02:27 > 1:02:29Sent in by the NSPCC.
1:02:31 > 1:02:35And she's actually been abused by her father.
1:02:35 > 1:02:39In this book, those who have been abused by their family members
1:02:39 > 1:02:43have resonated most strongly.
1:02:45 > 1:02:50The people in here could be anybody. It could be me.
1:02:54 > 1:02:57My plea to you this morning, as you head out in a little while,
1:02:57 > 1:02:59is as Christian leaders
1:02:59 > 1:03:01to inspire,
1:03:01 > 1:03:04to educate the people that we serve.
1:03:05 > 1:03:08What you're being asked to do is serious stuff
1:03:08 > 1:03:11in terms of leading a community.
1:03:11 > 1:03:15Of being the bridge between a whole group of people.
1:03:15 > 1:03:18Between themselves and God, of course.
1:03:19 > 1:03:22Satan has no authority over you.
1:03:22 > 1:03:25You can tell him quite frankly where to go.
1:03:25 > 1:03:28And I hope you know where to tell him to go.
1:03:28 > 1:03:34And I hope, I pray, you'll all have a wonderful, greatly inspiring,
1:03:34 > 1:03:39if not perspiring, placement and that through your work
1:03:39 > 1:03:42and your ministry, sheep are gathered in
1:03:42 > 1:03:44and souls will be saved.
1:03:44 > 1:03:46Communities transformed.
1:03:48 > 1:03:51Where do you normally sleep? We're from the Salvation Army.
1:03:51 > 1:03:53In the run-up to her placement,
1:03:53 > 1:03:56Annmarie is being mentored by Major Estelle Blake
1:03:56 > 1:03:58who teaches cadets about outreach work
1:03:58 > 1:04:01with addicts, the homeless and prostitutes.
1:04:01 > 1:04:04So who are the female victims of sexual exploitation?
1:04:04 > 1:04:07It involves adults and children of all ages.
1:04:07 > 1:04:10Many of the victims that come into our service
1:04:10 > 1:04:16were first trafficked and exploited when they were children.
1:04:16 > 1:04:19The Salvation Army manage the Ministry of Justice contract
1:04:19 > 1:04:22to support victims of human trafficking.
1:04:22 > 1:04:26As part of the recruitment process, somebody is tricked.
1:04:26 > 1:04:30They're sold a lie actually. They're sold a story.
1:04:30 > 1:04:32They're sold a dream.
1:04:32 > 1:04:35And for people who are hopeless,
1:04:35 > 1:04:39or feeling that there's no opportunities where they are,
1:04:39 > 1:04:42this is a really important element.
1:04:42 > 1:04:47They are kept somewhere, always forced to do something
1:04:47 > 1:04:50that they would not willingly choose to do.
1:04:55 > 1:04:57Are we heading Judd Street way?
1:04:57 > 1:04:59No, we're going back up towards York Way.
1:04:59 > 1:05:01OK.
1:05:01 > 1:05:04Estelle is taking Annmarie to some of the saunas,
1:05:04 > 1:05:08massage parlours and table-dancing clubs in her area.
1:05:08 > 1:05:12When I first arrived, there were a lot of dark spaces down here.
1:05:12 > 1:05:15So we used to always discover the dark spaces
1:05:15 > 1:05:19and that's where we used to go.
1:05:19 > 1:05:21I think when I first came to King's Cross,
1:05:21 > 1:05:25there would be 30 to 50 women every night working in the area.
1:05:27 > 1:05:31We had a list of names, approximately 200 women in the district.
1:05:31 > 1:05:34Is the sex trade still there? Where is it now?
1:05:34 > 1:05:36It's off streets. They've gone into brothels.
1:05:36 > 1:05:41The sex trade is more or less in brothels and massage parlours
1:05:41 > 1:05:42and saunas.
1:05:44 > 1:05:48The consumer is driving prices down for sex as well.
1:05:48 > 1:05:51The people who are producing that commodity
1:05:52 > 1:05:52The people who are producing that commodity
1:05:52 > 1:05:55have to be paid less and less.
1:05:55 > 1:05:59Somewhere along the line, somebody has been at least exploited
1:05:59 > 1:06:01and possibly trafficked.
1:06:01 > 1:06:03If there's something to be sold,
1:06:03 > 1:06:06somebody will want to make money out it.
1:06:06 > 1:06:08It's a shocker, isn't it?
1:06:12 > 1:06:16The charges for a woman now that she would make of a client,
1:06:16 > 1:06:20when I first came here, we were talking ?200 for penetrative sex.
1:06:20 > 1:06:24Now, and if it was on the street, it would be done for ?50.
1:06:24 > 1:06:28The average price for a blow job, the last time I heard,
1:06:28 > 1:06:30on the streets was about ?15.
1:06:31 > 1:06:34We know that they're working in there in prostitution.
1:06:34 > 1:06:38Selling their bodies for sexual purposes for men.
1:06:38 > 1:06:40That's not ever discussed.
1:06:40 > 1:06:43The whole point that we're going in there is to discover this mum.
1:06:43 > 1:06:46She was telling us that she had taken her daughter
1:06:46 > 1:06:49to a Salvation Army toddler group.
1:06:49 > 1:06:53Obviously a child of that age won't know what Mum does at night.
1:06:53 > 1:06:56Estelle sometimes goes into the clubs to give the staff
1:06:56 > 1:06:59working there an opportunity to talk.
1:06:59 > 1:07:02I'm not a psychologist but I'm a vicar.
1:07:02 > 1:07:05So what we sometimes do is we just go into a place and sit and chat.
1:07:05 > 1:07:07If the women want to tell us anything, they unload to us.
1:07:09 > 1:07:11Hey, ladies, how are you?
1:07:13 > 1:07:16We need to just sit and be seen.
1:07:16 > 1:07:17Yeah.
1:07:21 > 1:07:25Hi, my name is Estelle and this is Annmarie. Hi.
1:07:25 > 1:07:28We've come in from the Salvation Army.
1:07:28 > 1:07:31We just come in and sit and then if anyone wants to have a chat with us,
1:07:31 > 1:07:33we're not here as clients or anything.
1:07:33 > 1:07:35We almost come in like a chaplaincy.
1:07:35 > 1:07:37So, what made you decide?
1:07:37 > 1:07:41Money. OK.
1:07:41 > 1:07:43I hate to say it, I'm not sure
1:07:43 > 1:07:46you'd find another job that would pay that much money.
1:07:46 > 1:07:46you'd find another job that would pay that much money.
1:07:46 > 1:07:48Take care, folks. God bless.
1:07:52 > 1:07:55As much as we can be angry about it, she's doing this work -
1:07:55 > 1:07:57she's pole dancing, lap dancing, table dancing,
1:07:57 > 1:07:59whatever you want to call it -
1:07:59 > 1:08:02she's dancing to pay her way through university.
1:08:02 > 1:08:05And the saddest thing about that is she's a Christian.
1:08:07 > 1:08:11She said to me, "I go to church but no-one at church knows I work here."
1:08:15 > 1:08:18It didn't shock me that a Christian would choose to work in there,
1:08:18 > 1:08:22especially when you find out that for her, she's having to hide it.
1:08:22 > 1:08:24I think that's sad.
1:08:24 > 1:08:26They're so beautiful.
1:08:26 > 1:08:28And they are talented in what they do.
1:08:28 > 1:08:30I wouldn't choose it for the world.
1:08:30 > 1:08:33But at the same time,
1:08:33 > 1:08:35I have to respect...
1:08:37 > 1:08:42..that that is who they are at that time.
1:08:42 > 1:08:47Probably everybody else just sees them as some weird object.
1:08:47 > 1:08:48There will be people who think,
1:08:48 > 1:08:53"What an earth is a minister doing sitting in a lap-dancing club?"
1:08:53 > 1:08:57What an earth is a minister doing sitting in a church?
1:08:57 > 1:08:59Sometimes I ask that question
1:08:59 > 1:09:04because a church is not the four walls of a building.
1:09:04 > 1:09:06Church is what's going on outside.
1:09:06 > 1:09:09And in that place, that was church.
1:09:09 > 1:09:12It's the weirdest looking church in the world but it was church.
1:09:12 > 1:09:15And that woman, who is a Christian, knows that with us
1:09:15 > 1:09:17she can be who she is.
1:09:17 > 1:09:21She can be honest and we are probably the only people
1:09:21 > 1:09:23she is completely honest with about what she's doing.
1:09:23 > 1:09:28It's not often that you see such huge prayers answered.
1:09:33 > 1:09:36We also have a prayer request for a lady
1:09:36 > 1:09:39who is desperate to get out of the cycle of prostitution.
1:09:42 > 1:09:46Father, we pray today for her that you'll grant her strength
1:09:46 > 1:09:50and courage, God bless her today we pray.
1:09:52 > 1:09:55# Lord of all gentleness
1:09:55 > 1:09:59# Lord of all calm
1:09:59 > 1:10:02# Whose voice is contentment... #
1:10:02 > 1:10:05You start lap dancing and then you end up in prostitution.
1:10:05 > 1:10:08Not that all girls do but there's a tendency to head that way.
1:10:08 > 1:10:10Because the money is better.
1:10:10 > 1:10:13So if you're in it for the money, and you want more money,
1:10:13 > 1:10:16and you're dancing, well, one thing leads to another
1:10:16 > 1:10:19and before you know it, you're doing things that you don't want to do
1:10:19 > 1:10:22just for the money. That's what I've seen.
1:10:22 > 1:10:24Morning.
1:10:24 > 1:10:25So you had a moment?
1:10:27 > 1:10:30Well, it was only a thought, thank God.
1:10:30 > 1:10:32It was only a thought.
1:10:32 > 1:10:35But God's good, he rescues you from your thoughts.
1:10:36 > 1:10:38Morning.
1:10:38 > 1:10:41Hi, girls, have you just finished your shift? You look tired.
1:10:41 > 1:10:44We always see the nurses coming out.
1:10:44 > 1:10:47Yeah. We do prayer walking every Friday morning.
1:10:47 > 1:10:49We always meet the nurses coming out.
1:10:51 > 1:10:52Lord, we pray for the staff here today.
1:10:52 > 1:10:54We pray for a peaceful day for each person.
1:10:54 > 1:10:57We pray for breakthrough, Lord.
1:10:57 > 1:11:01So, Father, we're just praying today for your peace to come,
1:11:01 > 1:11:04both with the patients but also with the staff, Lord.
1:11:07 > 1:11:09That guy, what's his name? Albert, isn't it?
1:11:09 > 1:11:12You're doing a wonderful job again today.
1:11:12 > 1:11:14Thanks for doing all this.
1:11:14 > 1:11:16Can we pray for you this morning, Albert?
1:11:16 > 1:11:19Anything that's on your heart? Just leave it to you.
1:11:19 > 1:11:21OK, just leave it to us.
1:11:21 > 1:11:23Just give thanks in our wake, you know.
1:11:23 > 1:11:24Thanks for Albert, Lord.
1:11:24 > 1:11:26We thank you for all he does this morning
1:11:26 > 1:11:29and we ask for divine favour for Albert this morning, Lord.
1:11:29 > 1:11:31In Jesus' name, Amen.
1:11:31 > 1:11:34Have a good one, Albert. Have a good one, Albert. See you later.
1:11:34 > 1:11:37See you next week, maybe. All right, love. Goodbye.
1:11:40 > 1:11:42I'm remembering names along the street.
1:11:42 > 1:11:45That's good. That's good. I never remember names.
1:11:45 > 1:11:47Morning, ladies. Morning, ladies.
1:11:47 > 1:11:50We don't really want to pray in the doorway.
1:11:50 > 1:11:53We don't want to pray in the doorway because people are going in there
1:11:53 > 1:11:57for all sorts of sexual issues and diseases and stuff.
1:11:57 > 1:12:00We're going to pray here for the sexual clinic up the road.
1:12:00 > 1:12:02Morning.
1:12:02 > 1:12:04Morning
1:12:04 > 1:12:06Father, we know that...
1:12:08 > 1:12:12I sat next to a woman once who was prostituting on the steps
1:12:12 > 1:12:15of a Salvation Army. She was sitting there, it was a lovely afternoon.
1:12:15 > 1:12:18She had scabs all over her face from using crack cocaine.
1:12:18 > 1:12:21Her hair was everywhere, she was a mess.
1:12:21 > 1:12:24She was underweight and she was very edgy
1:12:24 > 1:12:26and she was waiting for a client.
1:12:26 > 1:12:30And I said to her, "How's your day going so far?"
1:12:30 > 1:12:33I sat down next to her and she looked at me
1:12:33 > 1:12:36and said, "I'm in a living hell."
1:12:36 > 1:12:38Have you lived in that place?
1:12:38 > 1:12:43In hell? Yeah. yeah, I have.
1:12:45 > 1:12:49The Salvation Army is for the wounded, for sure.
1:12:49 > 1:12:52Its for the wounded, it's for the lost,
1:12:52 > 1:12:53it's for the broken.
1:12:53 > 1:12:56People who are outcast from society, who don't fit in.
1:12:59 > 1:13:04But wounded doesn't have to be visible either.
1:13:04 > 1:13:05But wounded doesn't have to be visible either.
1:13:05 > 1:13:11You don't have to be homeless or in poverty or diseased
1:13:11 > 1:13:14or physically broken to be wounded.
1:13:22 > 1:13:25Darron has come to the National Gallery to reflect
1:13:25 > 1:13:29on how his lifelong passion for art relates to his new calling.
1:13:31 > 1:13:34Probably lost count of how many times I've seen this painting
1:13:34 > 1:13:36over the years.
1:13:36 > 1:13:39When I used to finish work, whenever the gallery was open,
1:13:39 > 1:13:41I used to come in here.
1:13:43 > 1:13:45The story of this picture of St Jerome,
1:13:45 > 1:13:48he was battling with the things of this world
1:13:48 > 1:13:50that were causing him angst.
1:13:52 > 1:13:57He was a very wealthy individual seeking perfection.
1:13:59 > 1:14:04Having to give up his possessions and the things that he's loved.
1:14:04 > 1:14:07He chose to give up everything of himself.
1:14:07 > 1:14:09That's what God is wanting of us all.
1:14:09 > 1:14:14We've all got to decide every single day what we've got to give up.
1:14:16 > 1:14:23I've got a storage unit full of paintings and pictures and things.
1:14:23 > 1:14:25And I have got a little moral dilemma at the minute.
1:14:25 > 1:14:30What are you holding on to all those things for? I love 'em.
1:14:30 > 1:14:34I like 'em. I want them. They're important.
1:14:34 > 1:14:37Yeah, maybe that's what I'm wrestling with at the minute.
1:14:37 > 1:14:39Maybe there is that need to let go.
1:14:39 > 1:14:41To get rid of.
1:14:42 > 1:14:45I think the other thing that is interesting there
1:14:45 > 1:14:51is that dark cloud suggesting that he's not in a perfection yet.
1:14:57 > 1:14:59It's one of my guilty pleasures.
1:14:59 > 1:15:02I can give up the drink.
1:15:02 > 1:15:05Cigarettes have not really interested me
1:15:05 > 1:15:10but if somebody said I had to give up...art I'd...
1:15:10 > 1:15:13I don't think I need to.
1:15:15 > 1:15:18MUSIC ON TRUMPET: "Michael Rowed The Boat Ashore"
1:15:29 > 1:15:31Hiya, can I have a word?
1:15:31 > 1:15:34Of course you can. Come on in, have a seat.
1:15:34 > 1:15:36How can I help you?
1:15:36 > 1:15:38Um, it's a request, really.
1:15:38 > 1:15:41I don't quite know what to do with this idea I've got.
1:15:41 > 1:15:44I just thought it would be really good
1:15:44 > 1:15:46to do a car boot with the cadets.
1:15:46 > 1:15:50I just wondered whether we could have permission
1:15:50 > 1:15:55to go AWOL, to do mission for just one weekend to see if it worked.
1:15:55 > 1:15:57Because car boots is your thing, isn't it?
1:15:57 > 1:15:59It is my thing.
1:15:59 > 1:16:01The first thing I remember about you was you said,
1:16:01 > 1:16:05"The army wouldn't let me do a car boot cos it was on a Sunday."
1:16:05 > 1:16:06Yeah, that was the big issue.
1:16:06 > 1:16:10I'm just trying to work all of that out at the minute.
1:16:10 > 1:16:12You know we're all sat in church on a Sunday
1:16:12 > 1:16:14and there's all these people milling about.
1:16:14 > 1:16:16What is your idea of church then, Darron?
1:16:16 > 1:16:20My motivation is that people get Jesus.
1:16:20 > 1:16:25Have an opportunity to meet this Jesus that I love.
1:16:25 > 1:16:27And do church in the open air.
1:16:27 > 1:16:29I think it's a really good idea.
1:16:29 > 1:16:31I don't think you should lose your passion.
1:16:33 > 1:16:34I like your watch as well.
1:16:34 > 1:16:35You like the watch?
1:16:35 > 1:16:37Very nice watch. Is it Ben 10?
1:16:37 > 1:16:40HE CHUCKLES
1:16:40 > 1:16:43If you want to be perfect, go sell your possessions
1:16:43 > 1:16:45and give to the poor.
1:16:45 > 1:16:48And you will have treasure in heaven. Then come follow me.
1:16:48 > 1:16:50I tell you the truth.
1:16:50 > 1:16:53It's hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven.
1:16:53 > 1:16:56And again I tell you, it's easier for a camel to go through
1:16:56 > 1:17:00the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.
1:17:02 > 1:17:04Nice clock, isn't it?
1:17:04 > 1:17:07I like it but I've got no use for it.
1:17:07 > 1:17:10I've spent my whole life being with people in sales
1:17:10 > 1:17:13so maybe it's the frustrated salesman in me
1:17:13 > 1:17:16that needs to get out of college every now and again.
1:17:17 > 1:17:19Hello. We're the Salvation Army.
1:17:19 > 1:17:22There's a voucher for a free doughnut.
1:17:22 > 1:17:23And there's a voucher for a free drink.
1:17:23 > 1:17:26We've also got you a promise. In the box is a promise.
1:17:26 > 1:17:28OK, so you need some money.
1:17:28 > 1:17:31No, I don't want any pennies. No money. No money.
1:17:31 > 1:17:33Just want to say we know what it's like,
1:17:33 > 1:17:35it's a busy day trading so just have a great day.
1:17:35 > 1:17:38Really? God bless. OK, see ya!
1:17:38 > 1:17:40We're not after any money.
1:17:40 > 1:17:43It's free, it's completely free.
1:17:43 > 1:17:47Oh, yeah? There you go. And we've also got a blessing.
1:17:49 > 1:17:51I'll have the one on top. Take your blessing.
1:17:51 > 1:17:54That's the good one if I can get it.
1:17:55 > 1:17:57Have a great day's trading. See ya!
1:17:57 > 1:18:00Don't buy a return ticket, you won't last long.
1:18:00 > 1:18:02I can't see a thing. Corinthians, I got that.
1:18:02 > 1:18:05"Gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ." What victory?
1:18:05 > 1:18:09What war? Start again. I missed it.
1:18:11 > 1:18:13We should be doing church somewhere like this every Sunday
1:18:13 > 1:18:16or at least for the car-boot season.
1:18:16 > 1:18:19I think about Jesus when he started his ministry.
1:18:19 > 1:18:20Where did Jesus go?
1:18:20 > 1:18:23He went to where the people were, where people were searching
1:18:23 > 1:18:26and the people who are curious.
1:18:26 > 1:18:29So I think it's quite biblical somewhere like this.
1:18:29 > 1:18:33My one says, "Who is the man who fears the Lord?
1:18:33 > 1:18:37"He will instruct him in the way he should choose."
1:18:38 > 1:18:40Does that mean anything?
1:18:40 > 1:18:45No. it doesn't mean anything, really. Maybe it's a riddle.
1:18:47 > 1:18:51Possessions don't matter to me any more, really. No, they don't.
1:18:51 > 1:18:57I'm absolutely convinced in my mind that none of these things matter.
1:18:57 > 1:19:01Don't matter if you're wearing a cheap watch or an expensive watch.
1:19:01 > 1:19:03It's still a watch.
1:19:03 > 1:19:07And, yeah, maybe I've had to go on a journey with all of that.
1:19:08 > 1:19:13And despite all I've just said, I've just eyed a cookbook.
1:19:13 > 1:19:16Can I resist a cookbook for 10 pence?
1:19:16 > 1:19:1810p!
1:19:18 > 1:19:20BRASS BAND PLAYS
1:19:28 > 1:19:30As they approach the end of their training,
1:19:30 > 1:19:33second year cadets must make a binding promise to God,
1:19:33 > 1:19:35to serve him and also uphold
1:19:35 > 1:19:39the Salvation Army's rules and doctrines.
1:19:39 > 1:19:42It's called the Officer's Covenant and is one of the most important
1:19:42 > 1:19:45and intensely personal movements of officer training.
1:19:47 > 1:19:49Do you give up control to the Salvation Army
1:19:49 > 1:19:51for the whole of the rest of your life?
1:19:51 > 1:19:54I'm not sure it's about giving up complete control.
1:19:54 > 1:19:57Yes, OK, you don't get to choose where you live perhaps,
1:19:57 > 1:19:59you don't get to choose your house.
1:19:59 > 1:20:02Um, but I kind of see it more as an adventure, so I get
1:20:02 > 1:20:06to live in all different places that I wouldn't dream of living in.
1:20:08 > 1:20:10Sometimes wish I could just go back
1:20:10 > 1:20:13and not have all the questions in my head.
1:20:13 > 1:20:15Just go back to the blind faith.
1:20:16 > 1:20:18But I can't get them out of my head now.
1:20:19 > 1:20:22Some people say doubt is the opposite of faith.
1:20:22 > 1:20:26It's not, doubt is part of faith. That's honest.
1:20:26 > 1:20:29People with doubts suggests to me
1:20:29 > 1:20:34people who are open to exploring, to understanding,
1:20:34 > 1:20:36to broadening their understanding.
1:20:40 > 1:20:43I used to be the sort of person who would wake up on a nice day
1:20:43 > 1:20:47and say, "Oh, thank you, God. It's a nice day today."
1:20:47 > 1:20:51And now I'm like, "Oh, I don't believe that any more."
1:20:51 > 1:20:54Is it difficult for people to leave the Salvation Army?
1:20:54 > 1:20:59Um... Yeah, probably financially.
1:20:59 > 1:21:03If we both did something horribly wrong and had to leave,
1:21:03 > 1:21:10then we would literally be sort of homeless, penniless, wouldn't we?
1:21:10 > 1:21:14So that... Whereas normally, if you left a job,
1:21:14 > 1:21:19you'd still have your house and everything. And especially now,
1:21:19 > 1:21:25because we've been doing it for 20 years, so we've never had
1:21:25 > 1:21:29to think about paying rent or anything for 20 years.
1:21:29 > 1:21:32So we'd have to start from scratch.
1:21:37 > 1:21:40I think we all go through crisises of faith.
1:21:40 > 1:21:43It's part of my faith that I question and I doubt
1:21:43 > 1:21:46and I work with it.
1:21:46 > 1:21:48But I always have it.
1:21:48 > 1:21:51It almost feels at the moment almost the very breath,
1:21:51 > 1:21:54the very oxygen in my blood.
1:21:54 > 1:21:57I hope, I pray, I never have a crisis of faith
1:21:57 > 1:21:59that means I completely lose it
1:21:59 > 1:22:02because I don't know what I'd do without it, actually.
1:22:03 > 1:22:06So the question simply is, should I or shouldn't I?
1:22:06 > 1:22:08Is this for you?
1:22:08 > 1:22:12And I would say to you, don't sign it...
1:22:12 > 1:22:15don't sign it if you're not called.
1:22:15 > 1:22:20It's a covenant, a commitment and a promise of future love.
1:22:20 > 1:22:25We promise to uphold the values of the Salvation Army.
1:22:25 > 1:22:29To make the saving of souls the primary purpose of what we do.
1:22:29 > 1:22:33Don't sign it if you're not sure, quite frankly.
1:22:35 > 1:22:38Don't sign it if you think
1:22:38 > 1:22:40you're what the Salvation Army has been waiting for.
1:22:43 > 1:22:48Don't sign it if you think you're doing God a favour.
1:22:48 > 1:22:53It was somebody like Freud or someone like that,
1:22:53 > 1:22:55that religion is all about wish fulfilment.
1:22:55 > 1:22:59That actually there's nothing true or valid about it at all.
1:22:59 > 1:23:02It's just us fulfilling our own sense of what we feel
1:23:02 > 1:23:06we ought to do. I can't go down that road.
1:23:06 > 1:23:11Don't sign it if you're doing it because your spouse is.
1:23:11 > 1:23:13That might seem really harsh
1:23:13 > 1:23:16but, you know what, I need to say those things to you.
1:23:16 > 1:23:19Because we have to maintain the integrity of the Salvation Army
1:23:19 > 1:23:21within William Booth College.
1:23:21 > 1:23:23What is the purpose of life?
1:23:23 > 1:23:27What does it mean to be a human living in this world?
1:23:27 > 1:23:32How do we live in the conflict between good and evil?
1:23:32 > 1:23:37For Shelley and I, we, those themes, those big questions,
1:23:37 > 1:23:40we find an answer to those things in God.
1:23:40 > 1:23:44Even those who are your enemies, even those who are unlovable,
1:23:44 > 1:23:47on the fringes, the outcasts, actually I've called you
1:23:47 > 1:23:51to love them just as much as you love your own family.
1:23:51 > 1:23:54I never quite know if I like that phrase - "loving the unlovable".
1:23:54 > 1:23:58Perhaps people would think that mass murderers were unlovable
1:23:58 > 1:24:00or paedophiles were unlovable.
1:24:00 > 1:24:02We're called to serve everybody,
1:24:02 > 1:24:05not just the people who fit in our comfort zone.
1:24:05 > 1:24:07Sign it
1:24:07 > 1:24:11because that's what relationship with Christ means to you.
1:24:11 > 1:24:14If everybody in the Salvation Army was honest,
1:24:14 > 1:24:17we would say that we all... I don't know, maybe they don't.
1:24:17 > 1:24:21Maybe I'm just different. Doesn't everyone doubt?
1:24:21 > 1:24:27Sign it if it's where your personal passion intersects
1:24:27 > 1:24:30with the world's compelling need.
1:24:31 > 1:24:33Certainty sometimes worries me.
1:24:33 > 1:24:37That people are so certain and so sure
1:24:37 > 1:24:42that it leaves very little room for them to move.
1:24:42 > 1:24:46Then whip the pen out as fast as you can.
1:24:46 > 1:24:50People keep saying to me, "What happens if it isn't true?
1:24:50 > 1:24:52"What if it isn't true?"
1:24:55 > 1:24:56I can't just...
1:24:56 > 1:24:59I've just experienced too much to think it's not true.
1:24:59 > 1:25:03I am betting my life on it. All for Christ.
1:25:06 > 1:25:08I do envy Darron because he feels it.
1:25:08 > 1:25:10And I used to feel it.
1:25:11 > 1:25:14I don't really feel it any more, I just choose...
1:25:14 > 1:25:17It's not a bad thing. I'm choosing to believe.
1:25:17 > 1:25:20So it's just a different faith now.
1:25:21 > 1:25:24I'm still an atheist every Monday morning,
1:25:24 > 1:25:27before I've had my first cup of coffee.
1:25:29 > 1:25:33At the end of two years' training, cadets bid farewell
1:25:33 > 1:25:36to their tutors and are formally ordained
1:25:36 > 1:25:37as officers of the Salvation Army.
1:25:37 > 1:25:40It's a proper exciting day.
1:25:40 > 1:25:42It's like going to an FA Cup, I suppose, or going to a gig.
1:25:42 > 1:25:43It's like going to an FA Cup, I suppose, or going to a gig.
1:25:43 > 1:25:45Everybody's here for the same reason.
1:25:47 > 1:25:50It's like the whole tribe coming together.
1:25:50 > 1:25:52The whole movement comes together.
1:25:53 > 1:25:57Within days, all these new Lieutenants, except for Annmarie,
1:25:57 > 1:26:00will be posted to local Salvation Army churches
1:26:00 > 1:26:02to fight the sins of poverty -
1:26:02 > 1:26:06feeding the hungry, clothing the naked and loving the unlovable,
1:26:06 > 1:26:11having dedicated themselves to the lifelong service of God.
1:26:11 > 1:26:15Annmarie will take over from Estelle, working in King's Cross
1:26:15 > 1:26:20offering support to women working in saunas, clubs and massage parlours.
1:26:21 > 1:26:25Commissioner Adams, it is my formal responsibility
1:26:25 > 1:26:29as the Principal of William Booth College to present the men and women
1:26:29 > 1:26:33who have successfully completed their officer cadet training.
1:26:33 > 1:26:36BAND PLAYS AND PEOPLE CHEER
1:27:39 > 1:27:41Friends, it is a privilege for me.
1:27:41 > 1:27:44It is a privilege for me
1:27:44 > 1:27:52to welcome to our meeting tonight the newest Lieutenants in the world.
1:27:59 > 1:28:03The hope and aspiration is that as they're commissioned,
1:28:03 > 1:28:08as they leave here, that now with increasing sense
1:28:08 > 1:28:12of authority that they will become quite literally messengers of God.
1:28:12 > 1:28:15PIANO PLAYS
1:28:20 > 1:28:22# Our hope is in Jesus
1:28:22 > 1:28:26# The one that death could not hold
1:28:26 > 1:28:29# Our hope is in Jesus
1:28:29 > 1:28:32# The victor prophets foretold
1:28:32 > 1:28:37# He conquered all powers of darkness
1:28:37 > 1:28:41# When he rose again
1:28:41 > 1:28:43# He challenged Satan
1:28:43 > 1:28:50# By tasting hell our heaven to gain... #