0:00:02 > 0:00:05This programme contains some strong language
0:00:05 > 0:00:07Ashley MacKenzie is one of Britain's
0:00:07 > 0:00:09most successful, explosive martial arts fighters.
0:00:09 > 0:00:12When I'm fighting, I'm so buzzed up,
0:00:12 > 0:00:15I just want to go out there and just pull something.
0:00:19 > 0:00:22But he's also been banned from his sport four times for misconduct,
0:00:22 > 0:00:28and he and his mum have not always seen eye to eye with judo's bosses.
0:00:28 > 0:00:32I don't do judo. I hate the fucking sport, do you know what I mean?
0:00:32 > 0:00:37I wish if he didn't have to do judo he could do something else,
0:00:37 > 0:00:39but Ashley can't do nothing else.
0:00:41 > 0:00:44Now he's been given one last chance to make the Olympic squad...
0:00:44 > 0:00:47I'm a-getting a little semi on.
0:00:47 > 0:00:51- ..but getting there will demand extreme training...- Ah!
0:00:51 > 0:00:54- Now suplex me.- 100 kilos!
0:00:54 > 0:00:56..a new level of self-control...
0:00:56 > 0:00:59All right, you're telling me at the end of the day, I can't have sex?
0:00:59 > 0:01:02..and his best ever competition performances.
0:01:02 > 0:01:05Yes, he's in the final! Yeah!
0:01:08 > 0:01:11He went a long way, and he's still going a long way.
0:01:11 > 0:01:14THEY LAUGH
0:01:18 > 0:01:22- Ashley!- Yeah? - Are you bloody ready?
0:01:22 > 0:01:25HI-FI: # Rough up I'm coming to get you... #
0:01:28 > 0:01:3321-year-old Ashley MacKenzie is not the easiest person to live with.
0:01:33 > 0:01:40"Make sure you shut the front door on your way out, Ashley."
0:01:41 > 0:01:45- Does it work?- No, because he left it open yesterday.
0:01:45 > 0:01:49- I didn't mean to leave it open. - He left it open like this.
0:01:49 > 0:01:51Does that worry you?
0:01:51 > 0:01:53Course it does! I could have come home to an empty house
0:01:53 > 0:01:56and it would have been his fault.
0:01:56 > 0:01:59Ashley's always struggled with his concentration.
0:01:59 > 0:02:02Aged 11, he was diagnosed with ADHD.
0:02:02 > 0:02:04Ashley didn't want to be different.
0:02:04 > 0:02:07He didn't want to have all this medication
0:02:07 > 0:02:10or going to the doctors or tests.
0:02:10 > 0:02:13He didn't want it all. He just wanted to be normal.
0:02:13 > 0:02:17ADHD messes with my head style, telling you.
0:02:17 > 0:02:20Like, you could just be out on a high
0:02:20 > 0:02:22and then you'd just be on a low,
0:02:22 > 0:02:25and then you can be naughty and not knowing that you're being naughty.
0:02:25 > 0:02:30Because of his condition, Ashley left school with only one GCSE.
0:02:30 > 0:02:34The place he knew he could shine was the judo mat.
0:02:35 > 0:02:37Within 10 years of starting out,
0:02:37 > 0:02:40he'd become one of Britain's best young fighters.
0:02:40 > 0:02:45What a sport can do for you is open different doors
0:02:45 > 0:02:47and once you open different doors,
0:02:47 > 0:02:51you go through them doors and you open more doors for yourself.
0:02:51 > 0:02:54Things open for you, if you try hard.
0:02:54 > 0:02:58And I've tried, like, endeavour best, do you know what I mean,
0:02:58 > 0:03:01at what I'm doing, and this is why I'm here today, innit?
0:03:01 > 0:03:03I like to think, anyways.
0:03:03 > 0:03:09Now, Ashley's on the brink of realising his judo dream -
0:03:09 > 0:03:11competing at the 2012 Olympics.
0:03:12 > 0:03:15It's been decided he needs to move out of his West London home
0:03:15 > 0:03:18and go to live in Kent with his coach, Chris.
0:03:19 > 0:03:21Chris is going to be a lot different.
0:03:21 > 0:03:24Chris will make sure that he's up, he's running,
0:03:24 > 0:03:27where in here, I have to work.
0:03:27 > 0:03:30I'm out the door by eight o'clock.
0:03:30 > 0:03:34Ashley could then be lying in bed all day, you know, skip judo,
0:03:34 > 0:03:36just like a kid would dop school.
0:03:36 > 0:03:38Are you going to miss him?
0:03:38 > 0:03:41Um...yeah.
0:03:41 > 0:03:42Yeah, I will.
0:03:42 > 0:03:44Yeah, I will miss him.
0:03:44 > 0:03:47- Just be good, Ash.- Yeah, I will.
0:03:47 > 0:03:49I know I'm not going to see you a lot now,
0:03:49 > 0:03:51but just don't forget to phone, all right?
0:03:51 > 0:03:53- I will do, I will do. - And just behave, all right?
0:03:53 > 0:03:57Remember, Chris is different from you. Don't forget, yeah?
0:03:57 > 0:03:59Ashley, phone me.
0:03:59 > 0:04:01- Love you, bye!- Bye!
0:04:01 > 0:04:03- Bye!- Bye!
0:04:03 > 0:04:04# Hi-ho, hi-ho
0:04:04 > 0:04:06# Off to work I go... #
0:04:08 > 0:04:11I've looked after Ashley all his life
0:04:11 > 0:04:16and then to pass it to somebody else, it's really hard.
0:04:16 > 0:04:20Basically, got to just try and change my heart.
0:04:20 > 0:04:22It's going to be a different kind of atmosphere.
0:04:22 > 0:04:26I've obviously trained full-time before,
0:04:26 > 0:04:31but it's just going to be a bit more intense, really.
0:04:33 > 0:04:34He desperately wants it.
0:04:34 > 0:04:38I don't even want to think about if he didn't get it.
0:04:38 > 0:04:40I don't want to answer that.
0:04:40 > 0:04:44- I really don't want to answer it. - Why?
0:04:44 > 0:04:46Because I'm scared.
0:04:46 > 0:04:50He deserves a chance, Ashley deserves a chance.
0:04:56 > 0:05:00Ashley's coach Chris was himself a judo champion
0:05:00 > 0:05:03and fought for Britain at the Moscow Olympics.
0:05:04 > 0:05:06Excuse me, Ashley.
0:05:06 > 0:05:09Although he's taken other judo fighters in before,
0:05:09 > 0:05:12none of them have had a disciplinary record as bad as Ashley's,
0:05:12 > 0:05:15whose poor timekeeping is notorious
0:05:15 > 0:05:19and who's been banned repeatedly for drinking and getting into fights.
0:05:20 > 0:05:23I have good friends in the sport.
0:05:23 > 0:05:27He said, "What on earth have you done?"
0:05:27 > 0:05:29I said, "Well, I've done it."
0:05:29 > 0:05:32He said, "You must be raving mad!"
0:05:32 > 0:05:33I said, "No."
0:05:33 > 0:05:36I said, "You know, I just can't help it.
0:05:36 > 0:05:39"I think he's a good lad, so I'm sorry, I know you disagree,
0:05:39 > 0:05:41"but I think he's a good lad."
0:05:41 > 0:05:43What's it like having Ashley in your house?
0:05:43 > 0:05:47It's annoying.
0:05:47 > 0:05:50It's annoying!
0:05:50 > 0:05:51Why's that?
0:05:51 > 0:05:53Because...
0:05:53 > 0:05:57He keeps on saying rude words.
0:05:57 > 0:06:02And fighting me and donking me on the pillow!
0:06:02 > 0:06:03And hurt my brother.
0:06:05 > 0:06:07And hurt my brother.
0:06:07 > 0:06:09- Stop it. - Does he shout out your mum a lot?
0:06:09 > 0:06:10- Yeah.- Yeah.
0:06:10 > 0:06:12That's it, go on!
0:06:12 > 0:06:16That's it, go on, get him off, James! Get him of!
0:06:16 > 0:06:18Nice. Spin, spin, spin, spin, spin! Spin, go!
0:06:18 > 0:06:22Judo requires fighters to keep precise control over their weight,
0:06:22 > 0:06:25their fitness and their mental alertness -
0:06:25 > 0:06:28extremely difficult for someone with ADHD,
0:06:29 > 0:06:31especially for Ashley,
0:06:31 > 0:06:35who now needs to cope without the only drug that can help him.
0:06:35 > 0:06:40Sometimes I want it, because it chills me out, mellows me out,
0:06:40 > 0:06:43like my all bones is just all relaxed and that.
0:06:43 > 0:06:46It's good, I like it.
0:06:46 > 0:06:47I did like it sometimes
0:06:47 > 0:06:48when I was on it
0:06:48 > 0:06:51but now I'm not allowed to take it
0:06:51 > 0:06:53due to judo and drug control,
0:06:53 > 0:06:55so I'm off it now.
0:06:56 > 0:06:59Chris is preparing Ashley for the year's biggest tournament -
0:06:59 > 0:07:02the Paris World Championships.
0:07:02 > 0:07:04He's concentrating on two things -
0:07:04 > 0:07:06trying to increase his commitment to training...
0:07:06 > 0:07:09Stay up! Get that arm under his. Get it under!
0:07:09 > 0:07:12..and making sure he gets enough sleep.
0:07:12 > 0:07:17When he's in my house, he gets no choice.
0:07:17 > 0:07:20He's too busy training. He comes in, he's tired.
0:07:20 > 0:07:23He's tired. He's finished. He goes to bed.
0:07:23 > 0:07:26All right, you're telling me at the end of the day I can't have sex...?
0:07:26 > 0:07:27Yeah, you can, of course you can.
0:07:27 > 0:07:29Of course, I would do it all night.
0:07:29 > 0:07:31No, you wouldn't, not before a tournament.
0:07:31 > 0:07:33Is it OK for Ashley to have sex the night before a fight
0:07:33 > 0:07:35if he gets it all done in two minutes?
0:07:37 > 0:07:40It takes me two minutes anyway, bruv!
0:07:40 > 0:07:41I was just going to say!
0:07:41 > 0:07:45Don't take me more than two minutes to have sex, you know!
0:07:46 > 0:07:50Skip the condom, skip the foreplay and I'm doing it. That is it.
0:07:50 > 0:07:52- Can I ask you a question, then? - Did I do it?
0:07:52 > 0:07:54- Can I ask you a question? - Go on, then.
0:07:54 > 0:07:58- I was just trying to think ahead there.- So, what if... What if...
0:07:58 > 0:08:04What if...you don't have a competition for a period of time,
0:08:04 > 0:08:08do you reckon they should go out and enjoy themselves of a weekend?
0:08:08 > 0:08:09Sensibly.
0:08:09 > 0:08:13So does that mean come in at, like, half-eleven, or does that mean...?
0:08:13 > 0:08:16It depends what your idea of sensible is.
0:08:16 > 0:08:17I don't think coming in...
0:08:17 > 0:08:19..a late night out, just a night out.
0:08:19 > 0:08:22I don't think coming in at three o'clock in the morning is sensible,
0:08:22 > 0:08:24because I think stupid things happen.
0:08:24 > 0:08:26Therefore all athletes shouldn't be able to...
0:08:26 > 0:08:28We're not talking about all athletes.
0:08:28 > 0:08:30We're not talking about all athletes.
0:08:30 > 0:08:32We're talking about high-performance athletes.
0:08:32 > 0:08:34So everyone who's in Olympic form of stage,
0:08:34 > 0:08:37or world or European or competing internationally...
0:08:37 > 0:08:40- They wouldn't be out.- Should never, they would not be?- No, they wouldn't.
0:08:40 > 0:08:42Not the good ones,
0:08:42 > 0:08:45not the ones that are in with a chance of winning a medal.
0:08:45 > 0:08:48I was just wondering.
0:08:49 > 0:08:52Three days later, and just before he flies out
0:08:52 > 0:08:55for a pre-World Championship training camp,
0:08:55 > 0:08:58Ashley's paid the penalty for not taking Chris's advice.
0:08:59 > 0:09:01Look at that eye, though, bruv.
0:09:01 > 0:09:03What happened, Ashley?
0:09:04 > 0:09:06HE SIGHS
0:09:06 > 0:09:07I wouldn't call it a fight.
0:09:07 > 0:09:11I got hit, hit at the weekend, on a Saturday.
0:09:11 > 0:09:13A guy just come from, like, sideways
0:09:13 > 0:09:16when one of my mates were having a fight
0:09:16 > 0:09:20and then come from sideways and just kind of...just levelled me.
0:09:20 > 0:09:23Obviously I don't want it to happen, know what I mean? I shouldn't be...
0:09:23 > 0:09:26I'm a professional athlete and all that and it shouldn't happen.
0:09:26 > 0:09:30I mean, it's over.
0:09:30 > 0:09:31That's it done.
0:09:31 > 0:09:34Another step, my eye's going to get better, that's it, change.
0:09:34 > 0:09:37I mean, I know when it's time for parting, when it's time for change.
0:09:37 > 0:09:39Know what I mean? So, it's good...
0:09:41 > 0:09:44I sat him down and just said, you know,
0:09:44 > 0:09:48"This can't happen any more. This can't happen any more.
0:09:48 > 0:09:52"One, you're putting yourself at risk of either being stabbed
0:09:52 > 0:09:55"or hit over the head, not going to the Olympic Games.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57"Is that what you want?
0:09:57 > 0:10:01"Are you so desperate to spend a night in a club
0:10:01 > 0:10:04"and get pissed and come back with a black eye?
0:10:04 > 0:10:07"Are you that desperate to do it? Do you need to do that?
0:10:07 > 0:10:12"Because if you need to do it, you're not in the right sport.
0:10:12 > 0:10:15"You're not having the right mental attitude
0:10:15 > 0:10:17"to go to the Olympic Games. Stop it."
0:10:19 > 0:10:22An impressive performance in Paris is one of Ashley's best chances
0:10:22 > 0:10:25of securing that Olympic place.
0:10:25 > 0:10:28He's leaving Chris to join the British squad
0:10:28 > 0:10:31for a short training camp before the competition.
0:10:31 > 0:10:36- Who are you meeting here?- My mum, just to say goodbye for three weeks.
0:10:36 > 0:10:38Don't want to go.
0:10:38 > 0:10:40We'll see.
0:10:40 > 0:10:44What do you think she's going to say when she sees your eye?
0:10:45 > 0:10:48Admit she knew it was coming, probably, but we'll see.
0:10:48 > 0:10:53Hopefully she'll be all right about it,
0:10:53 > 0:10:55but we'll see.
0:10:59 > 0:11:04Hello. Hi. You all right? Yeah?
0:11:04 > 0:11:08You've got a black eye! You've got a sucker!
0:11:08 > 0:11:12Was that judo? Yeah? Through a move? So what happened?
0:11:12 > 0:11:15Basically a guy just come in from around, from the side
0:11:15 > 0:11:16- and hit me like twice, basically.- What for?
0:11:16 > 0:11:19Just, like, a little scuffle.
0:11:19 > 0:11:21All right, have a good time. Love you very much.
0:11:21 > 0:11:24Go and do your best, yeah? All right? Be good.
0:11:24 > 0:11:27- Be good, look after him. - Yeah, I will. Don't worry.
0:11:27 > 0:11:28Make sure he don't get in any trouble.
0:11:28 > 0:11:30Oh, I'm going to go, I'm going to cry!
0:11:34 > 0:11:38You have an Ashley off the mat and then you have an Ashley on the mat,
0:11:38 > 0:11:41and the Ashley on the mat is confident,
0:11:41 > 0:11:44he knows exactly what is expected of him
0:11:44 > 0:11:46and he does do the job.
0:11:46 > 0:11:49The Ashley off the mat,
0:11:49 > 0:11:52if people don't know him and understand him,
0:11:52 > 0:11:54that's where it becomes difficult
0:11:54 > 0:11:57and I think that's what I'm worried about.
0:12:06 > 0:12:07At the training camp in Barcelona,
0:12:07 > 0:12:11some of the world's best judo fighters have gathered
0:12:11 > 0:12:13and will sparring non-stop for a week.
0:12:23 > 0:12:27The whole idea of these training camps is to get
0:12:27 > 0:12:29as many fights as you possibly can
0:12:29 > 0:12:31and stay at that high intensity
0:12:31 > 0:12:33for as long as you possibly can.
0:12:33 > 0:12:37That is what you're trying to simulate, a high-level tournament.
0:12:37 > 0:12:40That level of intensity, you'll be used to.
0:12:40 > 0:12:43You be able to deal with it, you'll be able to soak it up,
0:12:43 > 0:12:45you'll be able to feel what the other person's like.
0:12:49 > 0:12:52The training give Ashley the opportunity to test himself
0:12:52 > 0:12:55against some of the athletes he'll be facing in Paris.
0:12:57 > 0:13:00The biggest test in his weight category
0:13:00 > 0:13:04is the Japanese fighter and world number four, Yamamoto.
0:13:08 > 0:13:11Yamamoto is one of Ashley's biggest rivals.
0:13:11 > 0:13:16He's probably one of the best judo players under 60 kilos in the world,
0:13:16 > 0:13:19and he's got fantastic technique as well -
0:13:19 > 0:13:23just about one of the most difficult players to beat.
0:13:23 > 0:13:24Time!
0:13:31 > 0:13:35- Is he good, Ashley? - Yeah, strong in the grip.
0:13:35 > 0:13:38Like I said, he only caught me at the last one.
0:13:38 > 0:13:41He's, like, one of the best, you know what I mean? So...
0:13:41 > 0:13:42Fuck it.
0:13:50 > 0:13:52ASHLEY SINGS: # Just the other day
0:13:52 > 0:13:55# I ran into this beautiful lady
0:13:55 > 0:13:58# She asked me my name... #
0:13:58 > 0:14:00'Ashley's room-mate, Winston Gordon,
0:14:00 > 0:14:04'is one of the squad's senior and most responsible members
0:14:04 > 0:14:07'and has learnt how ADHD affects Ashley.'
0:14:07 > 0:14:11- Is he always like this, Winston? - Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
0:14:11 > 0:14:14He's hyper, I'd give him that.
0:14:14 > 0:14:19- You think anyone else could handle it?- Um...
0:14:19 > 0:14:21I don't know. I don't...
0:14:21 > 0:14:24All right, Ash, turn that off.
0:14:24 > 0:14:29Before, I didn't used to like him but, you know, knowing him
0:14:29 > 0:14:33and being with him, I know how he works, you know.
0:14:35 > 0:14:37Yeah, we just get along.
0:14:37 > 0:14:38Why didn't you like him before?
0:14:38 > 0:14:42You know, I think it was just hearsay,
0:14:42 > 0:14:44you know, what people were saying.
0:14:47 > 0:14:49Yeah, you can't judge a book by its cover.
0:14:49 > 0:14:53I know when he's going to switch off.
0:14:53 > 0:14:55I know he's going to switch on.
0:14:55 > 0:14:58When I know he's going to switch off, I'm like, "Ashley, come."
0:14:58 > 0:15:01You know, "Let's... Can't do that, let's do something else."
0:15:01 > 0:15:06Try to take his mind off it, rather than encourage him and wind him up
0:15:06 > 0:15:10and get him hyped, you know. It's not...
0:15:10 > 0:15:13I'm kind of his guardian angel on his shoulder, saying,
0:15:13 > 0:15:15"Listen, come on, let's go and do something else."
0:15:15 > 0:15:20Booyah! Ha-ha, yeah!
0:15:20 > 0:15:23Know that, we're the football team out here, you getting me?
0:15:23 > 0:15:25It's the end of the training camp and Ashley's been joined
0:15:25 > 0:15:28by Winston and some of his team-mates
0:15:28 > 0:15:29to celebrate his birthday.
0:15:29 > 0:15:31MANIC LAUGHTER
0:15:43 > 0:15:46Alcohol makes it harder for Ashley to control his ADHD.
0:15:48 > 0:15:53There's not a bit in my head that says to me, "Right, stop."
0:15:53 > 0:15:56It's just, "Go on, just do it, it doesn't matter."
0:15:56 > 0:16:00So there's, like, two devils and not one angel.
0:16:01 > 0:16:04When I'm sober, there's one angel, there's one devil.
0:16:07 > 0:16:10Oi. I might have to smack someone's faces.
0:16:12 > 0:16:15- I'm going to smash your face in. - I'm sorry...- No, no, no.- Hey!
0:16:15 > 0:16:18- I swear on my life. - He's only being, like...
0:16:18 > 0:16:21He's not being a bad guy, he's just trying to be friendly.
0:16:21 > 0:16:23I'm trying to say, "Chill out, close your fists."
0:16:23 > 0:16:26- He's being a nice guy...- I'll bang him on his chin.- Let's walk.
0:16:26 > 0:16:31- I'll walk, for you, but... - You know what? Don't even bother. - Bruv, I'm not...
0:16:31 > 0:16:34- You've got what-you-call-it on your shirt.- Let me tell you.
0:16:34 > 0:16:37- No, no, no.- That's mad, boy. - But the thing is, bruv...
0:16:37 > 0:16:40- That's mad, boy. - No, no, no, it's not.- It's mad.
0:16:40 > 0:16:42- We're going somewhere.- Let's go.
0:16:42 > 0:16:44- What happened? Serious. - I don't even know, like.
0:16:44 > 0:16:48Just a little scramble happened and, like...
0:16:48 > 0:16:51I don't know if it was Burnsie or Fallon.
0:16:51 > 0:16:53Everyone just gets scrambled
0:16:53 > 0:16:55and I was like, yo, in the middle of it, kind of thing.
0:16:55 > 0:16:58Not in the middle of... I don't know how I was involved.
0:16:58 > 0:17:01Do you know what? I can't even tell you what happened.
0:17:02 > 0:17:06HE HOCKS AND SPITS
0:17:06 > 0:17:08Fucking... I swear on my mother's life,
0:17:08 > 0:17:12I'm going to punch him in his fucking nose.
0:17:12 > 0:17:13Prick.
0:17:13 > 0:17:18I felt that Ashley's physical preparation was poor
0:17:18 > 0:17:21but then when he celebrated his birthday
0:17:21 > 0:17:24and made an arse of himself
0:17:24 > 0:17:27in preparation for the World Championships?
0:17:27 > 0:17:32Not me, no. Poor. Really poor.
0:17:35 > 0:17:39- How do you like Paris, Ashley? - It's all right, it's a nice town.
0:17:40 > 0:17:44Not better than London but, you know what I'm saying. It's all right.
0:17:44 > 0:17:45Um...
0:17:46 > 0:17:49I know a couple of words. Comme ci, comme ca. Oui.
0:17:49 > 0:17:52Je m'appelle Ashley McKenzie. Ca va? Ca va bien.
0:17:54 > 0:17:57Nah, it's all right, it's not the best.
0:17:57 > 0:17:59I'd rather be in New York or somewhere.
0:18:01 > 0:18:05But the World Championships is here. I'm going to have to put up with it.
0:18:07 > 0:18:12The World Championships is the biggest judo competition of 2011.
0:18:12 > 0:18:18A good performance here would almost certainly secure Ashley's Olympic place.
0:18:18 > 0:18:20SAXOPHONE PLAYS IN BACKGROUND
0:18:25 > 0:18:30It's massive. But this is the World Championships.
0:18:33 > 0:18:3517,000 seats.
0:18:36 > 0:18:39All on me!
0:18:39 > 0:18:43It's massive! Absolutely massive.
0:18:44 > 0:18:48You are going to get every nation wanting their players
0:18:48 > 0:18:51to be at the forefront of that Championships.
0:18:51 > 0:18:56It is an incredibly difficult event to win before the Olympic Games,
0:18:56 > 0:19:00quite simply because generally you put your Olympic team
0:19:00 > 0:19:02in that World Championships.
0:19:02 > 0:19:04MUSIC: "Ernie" by Fat Freddy's Drop
0:19:17 > 0:19:20When competing for Great Britain, Ashley gets extra coaching
0:19:20 > 0:19:23from Go Tsunoda, one of the world's best judo technicians.
0:19:43 > 0:19:45- How's Ashley?- He's very good.
0:19:45 > 0:19:49Very sharp, very sharp. Very concentration.
0:19:49 > 0:19:55His head is very clear. Focus, focus, focus - first fight.
0:19:55 > 0:19:56I think... We think
0:19:56 > 0:19:58that if focus first fight, go,
0:19:58 > 0:20:04he can take his lead, maybe...he has possibility,
0:20:04 > 0:20:06he can take medal, this World Championship,
0:20:06 > 0:20:08but first fight is very important.
0:20:08 > 0:20:10In order to compete,
0:20:10 > 0:20:14Ashley has to make sure he weighs no more than 60 kilos.
0:20:22 > 0:20:24What's it feel like, making weight?
0:20:24 > 0:20:30Horrible, cos you just feel dehydrated and making weight,
0:20:30 > 0:20:32you just feel, like, dehydrated.
0:20:33 > 0:20:40Can't really drink that much so I try to drink as less as I can.
0:20:41 > 0:20:46- How tempting is it to guzzle that whole thing, Ash?- Oh, unexplainable.
0:20:49 > 0:20:52- Is it easy to have a piss? - It's very hard.
0:20:52 > 0:20:54Trying right now, not coming out.
0:20:58 > 0:21:01This is the biggest competition of Ashley's career.
0:21:01 > 0:21:04Chris has come out to Paris to make sure the pressure
0:21:04 > 0:21:06doesn't unbalance his focus from concentration.
0:21:07 > 0:21:11- You're here, this is the moment, right?- Mm.
0:21:11 > 0:21:15Nobody's like lumping pressure on you. You know that there's pressure.
0:21:15 > 0:21:19It's dead simple, mate, but this is when you stand up to that line
0:21:19 > 0:21:22and when you stand up to the mark.
0:21:22 > 0:21:23Believe you can do it.
0:21:23 > 0:21:26What you must remember, when he's standing there like that
0:21:26 > 0:21:30and you're standing there, he's only thinking the same as you.
0:21:30 > 0:21:33- Yeah.- He ain't thinking no different, he's thinking,
0:21:33 > 0:21:36- "Shit! He looks good."- Yeah.
0:21:36 > 0:21:38And you're thinking, "Shit, he looks sharp."
0:21:38 > 0:21:41You have to let him know that you're not going to lose.
0:21:41 > 0:21:43You must let him know that you're not going to lose.
0:21:43 > 0:21:47Once you get over that, Ashley, I kid you not,
0:21:47 > 0:21:50it's there for the taking. I kid you not.
0:21:50 > 0:21:52Love you lots. Good.
0:21:57 > 0:22:01Cor, that's tough. I don't like that. Don't like doing that.
0:22:01 > 0:22:06You've got to try and sort of... You know, not overload him
0:22:06 > 0:22:12but try and make it quite clear that he has to step up to the mark now.
0:22:18 > 0:22:19CHEERING
0:22:19 > 0:22:20HORNS BLARE
0:22:22 > 0:22:27Come on, Ashley, OK? Confidence, confidence.
0:22:27 > 0:22:31100% attention to your judo, OK? Come on, turn round.
0:22:36 > 0:22:41Ashley's first fight is against North Korea's Kang Ho Song.
0:22:42 > 0:22:45Do your judo, enjoy. Come on.
0:22:45 > 0:22:48Ashley, come on.
0:22:48 > 0:22:49Play.
0:22:49 > 0:22:52- GO:- your focus, Ashley. Come on, boy. Keep at him.
0:22:52 > 0:22:54Move, move, move, down a bit.
0:22:54 > 0:22:58The objective in judo is to throw your opponent on his back
0:22:58 > 0:23:00without leaving the yellow square.
0:23:02 > 0:23:03Good, good, good. Keep going.
0:23:03 > 0:23:07'All I can hear is Go, his instructions.'
0:23:07 > 0:23:11But that's it, that's all I can hear. And I'm so...
0:23:12 > 0:23:15I just want to jump on the guy and just do what I'm doing.
0:23:16 > 0:23:20But I can't, there's nothing in my head. It's just empty.
0:23:20 > 0:23:23I try to be so focused and that's the way you've got to be.
0:23:23 > 0:23:25Go on, Ash.
0:23:25 > 0:23:28Confidence, confidence. That's it.
0:23:28 > 0:23:29Yeah!
0:23:32 > 0:23:36He pushed, drove and actually forced the score
0:23:36 > 0:23:38and got a better score than he would have done.
0:23:39 > 0:23:41Down, down, down.
0:23:41 > 0:23:43It was so hard as a first fight.
0:23:43 > 0:23:47My energy was just sucking up, sucking up
0:23:47 > 0:23:53and I felt, near enough, on the verge of death but I was so buzzed still
0:23:53 > 0:23:59but it was like my mind was up there, but my body was down here.
0:23:59 > 0:24:03And it was so hard in my muscles and I just felt,
0:24:03 > 0:24:05"I'm going to be sick."
0:24:10 > 0:24:14First fight under your belt at the World Championships...is huge
0:24:14 > 0:24:17but you know, that's the start.
0:24:18 > 0:24:22That is the start. It does get a little hotter.
0:24:22 > 0:24:24How did that go for you?
0:24:24 > 0:24:27It was all right, man, but I feel so sick right now.
0:24:27 > 0:24:35I've got Dioralyte, and this. Terrible.
0:24:37 > 0:24:40My belly just keeps puking up a lot.
0:24:40 > 0:24:42- Why?- Nervous.
0:24:45 > 0:24:49You have, well, nerves and...
0:24:51 > 0:24:55..just pressure, really. I've got to perform, you know what I mean?
0:24:55 > 0:24:57HE RETCHES
0:25:05 > 0:25:07Oh, fucking hell.
0:25:09 > 0:25:13For a place in the quarter-final, Ashley faces Yamamoto,
0:25:13 > 0:25:16the Japanese fighter he sparred with in Spain.
0:25:17 > 0:25:20Winning this fight would be the highest achievement
0:25:20 > 0:25:22of Ashley's judo career.
0:25:22 > 0:25:26- This music.- Hmm?- Listen, music, you know.
0:25:26 > 0:25:28OK, come, come on, come on, Ash.
0:25:31 > 0:25:34'When we stand next to each other, he looks at me.
0:25:34 > 0:25:39'I'm not looking away first, I tell you now. I'm on it. I'm ready.'
0:25:48 > 0:25:52The first 30 seconds of that contest, absolutely phenomenal.
0:25:52 > 0:25:55Couldn't ask for any more.
0:25:55 > 0:25:58Turn. Dance, dance, dance. Come on, boy.
0:25:58 > 0:26:00Get those hands on, Ashley. Go on, Ashley!
0:26:02 > 0:26:05I thought, I'll just give it to him, trying to move.
0:26:05 > 0:26:07I know he doesn't like people that move a lot,
0:26:07 > 0:26:10I thought I'll just give him everything I have.
0:26:13 > 0:26:16'Yamamoto was perplexed, he didn't know where to go,
0:26:16 > 0:26:20'where to turn or grip. In fact he didn't even have hold of Ashley.
0:26:20 > 0:26:22'Ashley was absolutely on fire.'
0:26:23 > 0:26:25Yes!
0:26:25 > 0:26:29'The gripping was fantastic, the dragging him to the floor,'
0:26:29 > 0:26:31fantastic, cos you're showing you're dominant.
0:26:34 > 0:26:35Go on!
0:26:38 > 0:26:42First, all pulling, second. One, two. Come on, Ashley.
0:26:42 > 0:26:47'After the first 30 seconds Yamamoto closed everything down,
0:26:47 > 0:26:50'didn't give Ashley a chance to get his grips.
0:26:50 > 0:26:54'Therefore started to turn the contest around in his favour.'
0:26:57 > 0:26:58Go on, Ash!
0:27:03 > 0:27:06I'm trying to move him, move him, move him but his physical body
0:27:06 > 0:27:09is just strong and I was coming to a point
0:27:09 > 0:27:14where I'm just overstretching and he's controlling me.
0:27:14 > 0:27:16He's not fourth in the world for no reason.
0:27:20 > 0:27:25'When Ashley started going back and not able to get his grip,
0:27:25 > 0:27:28'it forced Ashley outside of the area, getting the second penalty.'
0:27:30 > 0:27:32Bloody hell.
0:27:32 > 0:27:36'Getting a second penalty against a player of that class'
0:27:36 > 0:27:38is a serious uphill battle.
0:27:38 > 0:27:41Don't worry, Ashley. Come on, boy.
0:27:50 > 0:27:55He's just got to throw it at him now, he's got absolutely nothing to lose. He's got to let him have it.
0:27:55 > 0:27:58Ashley, come here.
0:27:59 > 0:28:00Let him have it, Ashley!
0:28:02 > 0:28:05When Ashley stops at the end of the contest and crouches down
0:28:05 > 0:28:08you know what goes through a fighter's head.
0:28:08 > 0:28:11"Dammit, I wanted to do more."
0:28:11 > 0:28:15And when you come off thinking that, you've not done enough...
0:28:15 > 0:28:19Why, why haven't you done enough?
0:28:19 > 0:28:24Why? His condition wouldn't allow him to do what he wanted to do
0:28:24 > 0:28:27and I think his condition could have been better.
0:28:35 > 0:28:39Small margins, you know, like getting pissed on your birthday,
0:28:39 > 0:28:41you know, week before the World Championships.
0:28:41 > 0:28:43What the hell... what are you doing?
0:28:43 > 0:28:46You know, that's stupid, stupid behaviour
0:28:46 > 0:28:48and it makes me cross when I see it.
0:29:10 > 0:29:11Is he OK, Go?
0:29:15 > 0:29:17No.
0:29:22 > 0:29:25That was a loss that cracked me, I was heartbroken.
0:29:26 > 0:29:28I think I was crying for about a day.
0:29:30 > 0:29:35I was destroyed, thinking, "Why? Why can't I beat him?
0:29:35 > 0:29:37"What is wrong with me?"
0:29:39 > 0:29:41Happy days, mate, happy days.
0:29:41 > 0:29:43- I'm more happier than you. - I know you are.
0:29:49 > 0:29:52Ashley's back at Chris's house. He now has five weeks to prepare
0:29:52 > 0:29:55for the World Cup in Liverpool - his next big chance
0:29:55 > 0:29:58to make an impression on the Olympic selectors.
0:29:58 > 0:30:03# Learning to breathe again
0:30:03 > 0:30:09# For the first time in so long now. #
0:30:09 > 0:30:12Just try and maintain that pace, Ashley.
0:30:20 > 0:30:24What it does, it just switches him off.
0:30:24 > 0:30:26I don't want him switched off at the minute,
0:30:26 > 0:30:28I want him switched off.
0:30:28 > 0:30:31He has got to start to feel good about himself
0:30:31 > 0:30:32and he'll be in a good place.
0:30:32 > 0:30:34With Ashley, you need to take a back step,
0:30:34 > 0:30:37give him a little bit of space.
0:30:37 > 0:30:40If you don't, and you get on his case, he'll go the opposite.
0:30:40 > 0:30:44That's just his disability. It's the ADHD kicking in.
0:30:44 > 0:30:48He will be very confrontational and go, "Oh, yeah? Right!
0:30:48 > 0:30:49"I'll be off doing that then!"
0:30:49 > 0:30:51That's the wrong thing to do.
0:30:51 > 0:30:53I have a tendency to take a back step,
0:30:53 > 0:30:56and when he's got Ashley time
0:30:56 > 0:30:59he gets the chance to put his head in gear.
0:30:59 > 0:31:05When he does, and gets focused on his training, he's a dangerous boy.
0:31:05 > 0:31:08He is going to be, I think, a little bit special.
0:31:08 > 0:31:13He has learned a tremendous amount from those World Championships.
0:31:13 > 0:31:19That was good, wasn't it? Nice. Nice run. You kept that pace.
0:31:19 > 0:31:20I fucking love this shit.
0:31:20 > 0:31:23HE LAUGHS
0:31:23 > 0:31:26It's not only for the running, I just think about things.
0:31:26 > 0:31:30I'm thinking about my celebration if I win in Liverpool.
0:31:30 > 0:31:32I think about stuff like that.
0:31:32 > 0:31:36It's ego, isn't it? But I just think about different things.
0:31:36 > 0:31:40'Outside of judo, the things that changed Ashley
0:31:40 > 0:31:42'after that World Championships,'
0:31:42 > 0:31:48he seemed to be slightly more focused on behaviour,
0:31:48 > 0:31:51on punctuality, on...
0:31:51 > 0:31:55his general outlook changed.
0:31:55 > 0:31:57I don't want to go to school.
0:31:57 > 0:31:59Yes, you can, bruv.
0:31:59 > 0:32:03- Hold on. Are you ready? We are going to run this shit.- No!
0:32:05 > 0:32:08- Do you like it when Ashley takes you to school?- Yeah.
0:32:15 > 0:32:19I think, you know, to say it how it is, Paris made him more responsible,
0:32:19 > 0:32:24made him more focused, made him think, "You know what?
0:32:24 > 0:32:30"Hey-ho, I've got to do this, get up, train harder, get the medals,
0:32:30 > 0:32:33"that he has asked of me."
0:32:33 > 0:32:35Believe in himself more.
0:32:40 > 0:32:42'With two weeks to go until the World Cup,
0:32:42 > 0:32:44'Ashley is spending a weekend
0:32:44 > 0:32:48'visiting both his parents back in West London.'
0:32:48 > 0:32:50What is it like having Ashley back?
0:32:50 > 0:32:53No, it is good, it is good, it is good to see him.
0:32:53 > 0:32:56I see him for a couple of days.
0:32:56 > 0:32:59- MUSIC PLAYS - Listen to the music for the next couple of days,
0:32:59 > 0:33:02probably the same tunes over and over again.
0:33:02 > 0:33:05It is good for him to come home.
0:33:05 > 0:33:09He needs chill-out time, and to relax and be with the family.
0:33:11 > 0:33:13Are you all ready to go out?
0:33:13 > 0:33:16Do you know where he is going tonight?
0:33:16 > 0:33:19Yes, I think he is going up to his dad's.
0:33:19 > 0:33:22Ashley does try to go and see his dad when he gets home.
0:33:22 > 0:33:25Sort of, like, spends a bit more time up his dad's.
0:33:25 > 0:33:28- See you later, Mum. - See you later, have fun.
0:33:32 > 0:33:35Hello? Yo?
0:33:39 > 0:33:42Joker. Let's see.
0:33:45 > 0:33:48This is my dad.
0:33:48 > 0:33:50Everyone calls him Resident
0:33:50 > 0:33:54because he has been around the area for so long.
0:33:54 > 0:33:58This is my good dad. He helped, obviously, with my judo and that.
0:33:58 > 0:34:02With money, he has supported me from day dot.
0:34:02 > 0:34:06He has supported me from the start to the finish.
0:34:06 > 0:34:10And he is still supporting me, giving me money and that.
0:34:10 > 0:34:14- He has come to watch me one time as well.- Just one time?
0:34:14 > 0:34:17- Yeah, once.- OK.
0:34:17 > 0:34:18Here comes the family.
0:34:20 > 0:34:23What's happening? What's happening?
0:34:27 > 0:34:29Look at him!
0:34:29 > 0:34:30Hey, rock star!
0:34:33 > 0:34:37- Can I ask who you are? - I am Barry Dread.
0:34:37 > 0:34:42Painter and decorator, exterminator.
0:34:42 > 0:34:44Charge £5 an hour!
0:34:44 > 0:34:46ALL LAUGH
0:34:46 > 0:34:48I am a Rastaman.
0:34:48 > 0:34:50What's going on, little man? Cool.
0:34:53 > 0:34:56You see that? Rastafarian!
0:34:56 > 0:34:59You see that? Eh?
0:34:59 > 0:35:02Hey, Selassie hair!
0:35:02 > 0:35:05MEN LAUGH AND CHATTER
0:35:05 > 0:35:09- What do you think of what he's achieved?- I think it's great, man.
0:35:09 > 0:35:12It's a great...a great achievement. He's one in a million.
0:35:12 > 0:35:16You know what I mean? There's black kids who don't have what he have,
0:35:16 > 0:35:18and don't go as far as he go.
0:35:18 > 0:35:22He went a long way and he's still going a long way.
0:35:22 > 0:35:26You know what I mean? So, yeah, I'm glad for... Touch me, nigger.
0:35:26 > 0:35:29- Touch this! - LAUGHTER
0:35:29 > 0:35:31- You know Ashley for a long time.- Yeah.
0:35:31 > 0:35:35- You know what trial and tribulation he's been through, don't you?- Yes.
0:35:35 > 0:35:38And I know what you and your Susan go through as well.
0:35:38 > 0:35:41And this is why we are one family.
0:35:41 > 0:35:43One family!
0:35:43 > 0:35:45- Look at all them! - Right, come on!
0:35:45 > 0:35:48LAUGHTER
0:35:51 > 0:35:53Bang, bang!
0:35:55 > 0:35:58Ashley. Ashley, my boy.
0:35:58 > 0:36:01Yeah, my boy. My boy.
0:36:01 > 0:36:03Cheer the man!
0:36:05 > 0:36:08- COACH:- Yes, yes, yes! Step! Step, step, step!
0:36:08 > 0:36:11Drop! Yeah, drop!
0:36:11 > 0:36:13Yo! Lovely one, good boy!
0:36:13 > 0:36:17You're king of the castle, I know. Yes.
0:36:17 > 0:36:19- BOY:- You're a dirty rascal! >
0:36:19 > 0:36:21You're the king of the castle.
0:36:21 > 0:36:25You're the dirty rascal.
0:36:25 > 0:36:28There's a week to go until the World Cup in Liverpool.
0:36:28 > 0:36:31Chris has been working on Ashley's fitness.
0:36:31 > 0:36:35He's also brought in world master champion, Dickie, to help out.
0:36:35 > 0:36:38Go on, Ashley! Good, son. Go on. Good boy.
0:36:38 > 0:36:42Move, boy! Do not be letting him have it!
0:36:42 > 0:36:44That's better, much better.
0:36:44 > 0:36:46Get up, James. Good.
0:36:46 > 0:36:49See that? Much, much better.
0:36:49 > 0:36:52Lovely body. Good boy.
0:36:52 > 0:36:55- Lean, mean fighting machine. - HE LAUGHS
0:36:55 > 0:36:59Dickie's a world master champion. Load of respect for that.
0:36:59 > 0:37:01- Respect, you get me!- Yeah!
0:37:01 > 0:37:05- What does he need to do for Liverpool?- He needs to change nothing,
0:37:05 > 0:37:08because he is doing everything right at the moment, yeah?
0:37:08 > 0:37:10All he needs to do is go out there
0:37:10 > 0:37:13and fight the fight he always fights and he will win.
0:37:13 > 0:37:16He's a champion in his own right, yeah?
0:37:16 > 0:37:19I've got a lot of respect for this boy, cos he is good.
0:37:19 > 0:37:20He's a good judo boy.
0:37:20 > 0:37:23A lot of people underestimate him, but he can produce it on the day.
0:37:23 > 0:37:25My dog! My dog!
0:37:31 > 0:37:34'Ashley's asked his mum to come and watch him in Liverpool.
0:37:34 > 0:37:38'She hasn't seen him fight for two years.'
0:37:38 > 0:37:41Why do you think Ashley wants you to go so much?
0:37:41 > 0:37:46One, because I can't afford to see him when he goes abroad, OK,
0:37:46 > 0:37:50and I do work and I do have another child to look after.
0:37:50 > 0:37:53Um, and two...
0:37:53 > 0:37:59I think this is, this is quite a big competition, it's a World Cup,
0:37:59 > 0:38:04so I think, depending on the result of this one, will be whether,
0:38:04 > 0:38:08you know, I don't know, whether he'd get to 2012 or not, to be honest.
0:38:08 > 0:38:11Do you think he wants to make you proud?
0:38:11 > 0:38:14Yeah, I think he's always tried to do that.
0:38:14 > 0:38:17I think it is kind of like a reassurance thing, you know,
0:38:17 > 0:38:20cos when Ashley was really little, and he, you know,
0:38:20 > 0:38:22he used to try and do tasks at school and things like that,
0:38:22 > 0:38:25you know, he needed reassurance all the time.
0:38:25 > 0:38:29Like, "You're doing well, Ashley." "Carry on, you're good at this."
0:38:29 > 0:38:33And when he wasn't as good at things, it was really hard for him.
0:38:43 > 0:38:44SHE SIGHS
0:38:44 > 0:38:51This is what you could say... is Ashley's life.
0:38:53 > 0:38:56God, memories, eh?
0:38:56 > 0:38:57This was mouth-to-mouth.
0:38:57 > 0:39:00This was because I had to learn mouth-to-mouth,
0:39:00 > 0:39:02because Ashley did stop breathing and I had to do that.
0:39:02 > 0:39:05Oh, my God!
0:39:05 > 0:39:06Oh, shit!
0:39:08 > 0:39:10"To Ashley..."
0:39:10 > 0:39:14Basically, this was when he used to go, this was when I put Ashley
0:39:14 > 0:39:18into a psychiatric unit, Collingham Gardens, for six months.
0:39:18 > 0:39:21And they were the ones who diagnosed Ashley with HDAD
0:39:21 > 0:39:25and conduct disorder and all the other ones that went with it.
0:39:25 > 0:39:29And I sent him things like that, you know, "I love you."
0:39:30 > 0:39:33SHE SOBS
0:39:33 > 0:39:36- Sorry!- That's OK.- Oh, my God!
0:39:36 > 0:39:41To think, what, I put my son in a psychiatric unit.
0:39:41 > 0:39:45I had to do it! No-one was listening to me!
0:39:45 > 0:39:48Ashley's behaviour was getting a lot worse
0:39:48 > 0:39:49and everybody just kept saying
0:39:49 > 0:39:52he was playing on my emotions and he wasn't.
0:39:52 > 0:39:54There was things wrong with Ashley.
0:39:55 > 0:40:00And I couldn't bear it, I couldn't do it, it was really hard.
0:40:00 > 0:40:03When you have a child with special needs,
0:40:03 > 0:40:07no-one ever tells you how to cope with that.
0:40:07 > 0:40:11As a mum, your natural instinct is to be a mum to a kid,
0:40:11 > 0:40:15not to be a nurse, or a psychiatrist, or a psychologist.
0:40:15 > 0:40:19You know, it's none of them things. You have to be taught that.
0:40:19 > 0:40:20I had to be taught...
0:40:20 > 0:40:24I had to try and discipline him in a different way to other kids,
0:40:24 > 0:40:26you know, which was hard.
0:40:26 > 0:40:30And the place had iron bars at the windows
0:40:30 > 0:40:35and it would have a padded room, for when the children, you know,
0:40:35 > 0:40:38get a little bit upset, they can put them in there.
0:40:38 > 0:40:40You know, and it was good,
0:40:40 > 0:40:43I'm not saying that what I did was a bad thing,
0:40:43 > 0:40:47cos it taught me a lot of things that I didn't know about my own son,
0:40:47 > 0:40:49you know, and then it explained a lot of things,
0:40:49 > 0:40:52the reason why Ashley was acting the way that he did.
0:40:58 > 0:41:03That's life, innit? You've gotta... Well, you've gotta deal with it.
0:41:03 > 0:41:07If it gets dished out to you, you've gotta deal with it.
0:41:07 > 0:41:10And I think Ashley's dealt with it pretty good...
0:41:11 > 0:41:12..you know?
0:41:17 > 0:41:22It's Ashley's last training session before the World Cup in Liverpool.
0:41:27 > 0:41:30Just pulling there, boy. There, now flex, mate!
0:41:30 > 0:41:33100 kilos!
0:41:33 > 0:41:35LAUGHTER
0:41:35 > 0:41:39One, two, three, four, five...
0:41:40 > 0:41:4230 seconds!
0:42:00 > 0:42:02What are you thinking about?
0:42:05 > 0:42:07Boy, it's a lot of things, d'you get me?
0:42:11 > 0:42:13Just the weekend.
0:42:13 > 0:42:16See, I want to win it, innit, like?
0:42:16 > 0:42:22So it kind of gets hard a bit, d'you get me, as, er...?
0:42:22 > 0:42:25Obviously, as the week goes on, d'you get me?
0:42:25 > 0:42:28And the training you've got to do for it,
0:42:28 > 0:42:31which gets harder and harder, really, doesn't it? And, er...
0:42:33 > 0:42:34D'you know...
0:42:34 > 0:42:38The mental side's just... just doing my thing, really, um,
0:42:38 > 0:42:41trying to...trying to be the best.
0:42:41 > 0:42:45Trying to succeed, d'you get me, to the fullest?
0:42:45 > 0:42:48And, er, obviously, training like this is going to make me,
0:42:48 > 0:42:51d'you know what I mean, reach my targets?
0:42:51 > 0:42:54But at the end of the day, it's still hard. It's still like
0:42:54 > 0:42:57you miss your family, you still miss your friends, d'you get me?
0:42:57 > 0:43:00But judo has helped you get control of your life, hasn't it?
0:43:00 > 0:43:04Yeah, judo's given me a mad booster to my life, innit?
0:43:04 > 0:43:06Like I'm not the tallest of guys,
0:43:06 > 0:43:10so I will say, like, give me Yellow Pages to kiss a girl, innit?
0:43:10 > 0:43:14Let me put it in them kind of terms, so it gave me another step,
0:43:14 > 0:43:18d'you get me, it gave me high heels on my feet, d'you know what I mean?
0:43:18 > 0:43:22It gave me a pavement instead of walking on the road, d'you get me?
0:43:22 > 0:43:25And, er, that's where it took me, innit?
0:43:25 > 0:43:27It's took me to another light, I see different things,
0:43:27 > 0:43:30I see different people, I see rich people, I see poor people,
0:43:30 > 0:43:34I see good things, I see bad things, and it's made me change in myself
0:43:34 > 0:43:36to want to be a good person.
0:43:36 > 0:43:40I don't want to be looked, "He's got ADHD and he's the bad person!"
0:43:40 > 0:43:45No, I was the bad person, I've changed now. Now I recognise me.
0:43:45 > 0:43:48Now take photos of me and ask for my autograph,
0:43:48 > 0:43:52cos that's the person I am now. I would've been signing my autograph
0:43:52 > 0:43:56on the piece of paper to get away from the police on bail,
0:43:56 > 0:44:02cos that's what judo has done for me, it's made me hit another light.
0:44:02 > 0:44:06Hit another step. Hit another wish.
0:44:06 > 0:44:10And that's what will keep coming, through and through.
0:44:10 > 0:44:12HE SIGHS
0:44:15 > 0:44:16SEAGULLS CALL
0:44:23 > 0:44:25Susan, hold on. How are you feeling?
0:44:25 > 0:44:27Um, really nervous.
0:44:27 > 0:44:31- Yeah?- Yeah. I've already been sick this morning
0:44:31 > 0:44:34after I tried to eat my breakfast and I threw it up,
0:44:34 > 0:44:38so, no, I don't feel too good at the moment. It's just nerves, innit?
0:44:38 > 0:44:40I need to find out where I'm going.
0:44:40 > 0:44:43It's bloody big, I can't believe how big it is!
0:44:44 > 0:44:45Oh, my God, look at it!
0:44:49 > 0:44:50Oh, bloody hell!
0:44:55 > 0:44:56Oh, my God.
0:44:57 > 0:45:00'I know when that boy is ripe.'
0:45:00 > 0:45:07When I handed him over to go, there was no stone left unturned.
0:45:07 > 0:45:10Every stitch was in the suit.
0:45:10 > 0:45:14Every stitch. And, you know,
0:45:14 > 0:45:17I couldn't have done any more to have got Ashley
0:45:17 > 0:45:19in the condition that he was.
0:45:19 > 0:45:25It felt amazing just being there warming up. Just the atmosphere.
0:45:25 > 0:45:27It was amazing.
0:45:28 > 0:45:32# In this world of calamity Dirty looks and grudges and jealousy
0:45:32 > 0:45:35# And police weh abuse dem authority
0:45:35 > 0:45:38# Media clowns we nuh-know 'Bout variety, boom
0:45:38 > 0:45:40# The youngest veteran A go murder dem slow
0:45:40 > 0:45:43# Ragamuffin sent to call me From the bush bungalow
0:45:43 > 0:45:46# Unnu watch mek I clear out my voice now Figaro
0:45:46 > 0:45:48# Emerge from the darkness With me big blunt aglow
0:45:48 > 0:45:51# Di hammer dem a slam And spectator get low
0:45:51 > 0:45:53# Some bwoy could a big Like Bam Bam Bigelow
0:45:53 > 0:45:57# Bust off trigger finger Trigger hand and trigger toe
0:45:57 > 0:45:59# A two gun me have Me buss dem inna stereo
0:45:59 > 0:46:04# Cos I got to keep on walkin' On the road to Zion land... #
0:46:04 > 0:46:09I'm just jamming, just listening to my music.
0:46:09 > 0:46:12And when I get out there, I'm on, man. I'm on it.
0:46:12 > 0:46:16- He's coming on.- Come on, Ashley! - Come on, Ash!
0:46:16 > 0:46:18- ANNOUNCER:- Ladies and gentleman, next on the mat two,
0:46:18 > 0:46:22Ashley McKenzie from Great Britain.
0:46:22 > 0:46:24SHE SQUEALS
0:46:24 > 0:46:26Come on, Ashley.
0:46:26 > 0:46:28I cheered him.
0:46:33 > 0:46:38Ashley's first fight is against German champion Robert Kopiske.
0:46:38 > 0:46:40I thought, "Do you know what?
0:46:40 > 0:46:43"This is for the crowd, this is for the people.
0:46:43 > 0:46:45"I want to show them I'm number one
0:46:45 > 0:46:47"and I'm going to show you lot a performance today."
0:46:50 > 0:46:53Come on, Ash!
0:46:53 > 0:46:58As I felt weakness, I thought I'd catch it and that's when I threw him.
0:46:58 > 0:47:01CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:47:12 > 0:47:14Oh, shit.
0:47:16 > 0:47:19He won it. He won his first one anyway.
0:47:19 > 0:47:20That's a good sign.
0:47:20 > 0:47:26My mum has been there through thick and thin for me.
0:47:26 > 0:47:28She's been through special school,
0:47:28 > 0:47:31with me being in trouble with the police,
0:47:31 > 0:47:33trouble with girls,
0:47:33 > 0:47:35trouble with big men,
0:47:35 > 0:47:37trouble in school
0:47:37 > 0:47:41and I am sorry for all that.
0:47:41 > 0:47:45But my way of repaying her
0:47:45 > 0:47:49is for her to say to anyone on that street,
0:47:49 > 0:47:51to all them people that I've been bad to,
0:47:51 > 0:47:57"I'm very sorry, but I'd like to tell you my son has just got to 2012."
0:47:57 > 0:48:01And that would make me one happy fucking man.
0:48:02 > 0:48:06The next fight his... The next fight's 100%.
0:48:08 > 0:48:09Who is the next fighter?
0:48:09 > 0:48:12The French boy.
0:48:13 > 0:48:16The French boys, eh...
0:48:16 > 0:48:18The French is a high level.
0:48:18 > 0:48:23Many judo guys are high-level, so he know very well the judo.
0:48:23 > 0:48:26He know very well the tactic, he know very well the judo,
0:48:26 > 0:48:29so I think this fight is very important, I think.
0:48:34 > 0:48:38I have nothing to say for Ashley, just better keep going,
0:48:38 > 0:48:40because now he enter his world.
0:48:42 > 0:48:44APPLAUSE
0:48:46 > 0:48:49By mid afternoon, Ashley's through to the semi-final
0:48:49 > 0:48:53and he's within touching distance of a silver medal.
0:48:57 > 0:48:58Come on, Ashley!
0:49:00 > 0:49:03Yeah! Oh...
0:49:12 > 0:49:14Come on, come on, just get one score.
0:49:14 > 0:49:17That's all you need. Just one. Just one.
0:49:20 > 0:49:23CALLS OF ENCOURAGEMENT
0:49:23 > 0:49:26Come on, Ashley!
0:49:26 > 0:49:29Come on! A minute to go.
0:49:29 > 0:49:31There's still no score.
0:49:34 > 0:49:35The French guy, he was very strong,
0:49:35 > 0:49:38but towards the end of the fight, I felt him getting weaker
0:49:38 > 0:49:43and I thought if I hooked him, it's either me or him,
0:49:43 > 0:49:46but I felt stronger than him when I hooked him and I thought
0:49:46 > 0:49:50if I just give him more of a pull than he gives me
0:49:50 > 0:49:53then I could, kind of, pull him over and throw him.
0:49:53 > 0:49:55CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:49:55 > 0:49:59YES! YES!
0:50:01 > 0:50:05And I thought, "I'm in the finals now."
0:50:05 > 0:50:07Six, six, six seconds left.
0:50:07 > 0:50:10Six seconds left. And then he's in the final. He's in the final.
0:50:10 > 0:50:14He ain't throwing me in three seconds. Not in a million years.
0:50:14 > 0:50:21Two seconds. One second. Yes, he's in the final! Yes! Yes!
0:50:21 > 0:50:23CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:50:26 > 0:50:28# Ashley's in the final! #
0:50:28 > 0:50:32- ANNOUNCER:- Mat number two, with a win and going through to the final,
0:50:32 > 0:50:35Ashley McKenzie of Great Britain.
0:50:35 > 0:50:38I'm hungry. I'm a hungry guy today.
0:50:38 > 0:50:41A hungry guy. That's my hunger.
0:50:42 > 0:50:46That is my hunger. Hey, big man, just remember me. I ain't got a pass.
0:50:46 > 0:50:50Yeah? Remember me. I'm just proving, do you know what I mean?
0:50:50 > 0:50:52I'm just proving to everyone
0:50:52 > 0:50:54that I can still do it, d'you know what I mean?
0:50:54 > 0:50:58I'm number one and that spot ain't going away from me.
0:50:58 > 0:51:02I said it from the beginning and I'll say it again. It's done.
0:51:02 > 0:51:04That's my spot, do you get me?
0:51:04 > 0:51:06I've worked my bollocks off.
0:51:06 > 0:51:10I worked days, I've worked nights.
0:51:10 > 0:51:12Shut up. You've worked...
0:51:12 > 0:51:14HE SCREAMS TRIUMPHANTLY
0:51:14 > 0:51:17- Yeah, good man. Well done. Well done. Good.- It was hard, Winston.
0:51:17 > 0:51:20It was, it was, but, friend, but you know you're going to get it
0:51:20 > 0:51:23and you know you've been expecting it, so... But it's good. It's good.
0:51:23 > 0:51:26You kept your cool and obviously you was a bit frustrated out there,
0:51:26 > 0:51:29but you just kept it and you picked your moment,
0:51:29 > 0:51:33six seconds to go and you popped him. You get me?
0:51:33 > 0:51:36Good man, good man, good man. Keep up the work, you know?
0:51:36 > 0:51:39Not complacent, uh? Good, good, good. All right.
0:51:41 > 0:51:43HE SCREAMS TRIUMPHANTLY
0:52:00 > 0:52:04I'm going to get my one done. I'm going to get one an' all.
0:52:05 > 0:52:08Can you get in the queue, Mum, please?
0:52:08 > 0:52:11Oh, all right, son.
0:52:11 > 0:52:12- Thanks.- Is it all right if I...?
0:52:15 > 0:52:18Ashley McKenzie's just looking at his name in the book.
0:52:18 > 0:52:20Mum, give me that for a moment.
0:52:22 > 0:52:26- I told him first thing this morning you'd win, he'd do it.- I love you.
0:52:28 > 0:52:33Do you know what? You've made my fucking day today. Seriously.
0:52:33 > 0:52:36Seriously. I've been sick,
0:52:36 > 0:52:40- I've cried.- Told you.- Seriously.
0:52:40 > 0:52:43I don't care now. Silver or gold, it don't matter.
0:52:43 > 0:52:46One thing he knows that I don't like, OK,
0:52:46 > 0:52:50is you do not settle for a silver medal.
0:52:51 > 0:52:55You fight for a gold medal. You don't say, "Wow, I'm here.
0:52:55 > 0:52:58"I've at least got a silver medal." No, you haven't.
0:52:58 > 0:53:01You haven't got anything. You are fighting for a gold medal.
0:53:36 > 0:53:39Come on, son. Last fight, OK?
0:53:40 > 0:53:43Come on, boy.
0:53:44 > 0:53:46Come on, boy.
0:53:47 > 0:53:53- ANNOUNCER:- In white representing Slovenia, Matjaz Trbovc
0:53:53 > 0:53:57and in blue representing Great Britain, Ashley McKenzie.
0:53:57 > 0:53:59CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:54:04 > 0:54:06Come on, Ashley!
0:54:06 > 0:54:08Come on, Ash.
0:54:10 > 0:54:13- Come on, Ashley.- Come on, Ash.
0:54:13 > 0:54:16CALLS OF ENCOURAGEMENT
0:54:18 > 0:54:21- Please, please, please. - Come on, Ash.
0:54:21 > 0:54:24Come on, baby, please.
0:54:27 > 0:54:29CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:54:29 > 0:54:31YES!
0:54:34 > 0:54:36When Ashley scored with that fantastic technique,
0:54:36 > 0:54:40coming round the top, coming over the top of Ashley is dangerous.
0:54:40 > 0:54:43He's explosive. You know, the speed that Ashley has
0:54:43 > 0:54:46in coming underneath, he's electric.
0:55:01 > 0:55:04Come on, pull it!
0:55:04 > 0:55:07Pull him, Ashley!
0:55:07 > 0:55:10Ten, nine, eight,
0:55:10 > 0:55:14seven, six, five,
0:55:14 > 0:55:18four, three, two, one...
0:55:18 > 0:55:20SHE CHEERS
0:55:38 > 0:55:43Best day of my life winning the last fight.
0:55:43 > 0:55:47It was amazing just to lift everyone's spirit.
0:55:47 > 0:55:52The first day of the tournament, gold in the 60kg, Ashley McKenzie.
0:55:52 > 0:55:54I felt so happy.
0:55:54 > 0:55:57I was lost for words on the rostrum.
0:55:57 > 0:56:00He was a man that day. Ashley grew up.
0:56:00 > 0:56:03Like a true professional.
0:56:03 > 0:56:07Someone who can go and represent Great Britain in the Olympics.
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