6:06:03 > 6:06:06PAULA RADCLIFFE: I've run my fair share of marathons.
6:06:06 > 6:06:08So many miles that I've lost count.
6:06:08 > 6:06:11But I love them, I've made them my career.
6:06:11 > 6:06:14I've put in hours, days, weeks and years of preparation
6:06:14 > 6:06:19over my time, and I know exactly how tough they can be.
6:06:19 > 6:06:23- COMMENTATOR:- Her Olympic dream is over. What a sad sight.
6:06:23 > 6:06:28I know some people run them for fun. Others, like me, run for a time,
6:06:28 > 6:06:31a medal, and even a world record.
6:06:31 > 6:06:35- COMMENTATOR:- Watch the clock, she's going to smash the world record.
6:06:35 > 6:06:37That was just unbelievable.
6:06:37 > 6:06:40But my competitive running days are over,
6:06:40 > 6:06:42bowing out at my favourite marathon last year.
6:06:42 > 6:06:47A truly magical day, and one that I will never, ever forget.
6:06:47 > 6:06:50Running your first marathon is always a daunting task,
6:06:50 > 6:06:52and I remember my nerves.
6:06:52 > 6:06:56And this year, a close friend and former team-mate of mine will run
6:06:56 > 6:07:01the iconic 26.2 miles on the streets of London for the first time.
6:07:01 > 6:07:03She's also a double Olympic champion.
6:07:03 > 6:07:05She's Kelly Holmes.
6:07:06 > 6:07:10Ahead of the challenge, I've come to Kelly's hometown in Kent
6:07:10 > 6:07:12to talk about how preparation is going.
6:07:12 > 6:07:15SHE LAUGHS A big marathon.
6:07:15 > 6:07:17Paula, this is your bag.
6:07:17 > 6:07:21We'll also reminisce about the great success she had in her career
6:07:21 > 6:07:25and, of course, those two golds at the Athens Olympics in 2004.
6:07:26 > 6:07:28- COMMENTATOR:- What a performance!
6:07:28 > 6:07:30You've won it, Kelly, you've won it!
6:07:32 > 6:07:35But also, we'll talk about the hard times, the times away from the track
6:07:35 > 6:07:39that people don't see, when it all got a bit too much for Kelly.
6:07:39 > 6:07:41It got to the point of self-harming, which is
6:07:41 > 6:07:44something that, for an ex-military person, you don't
6:07:44 > 6:07:47think you're ever going to get to that point of despair.
6:07:47 > 6:07:51I know that, having personally gone through lows as well as highs in this sport,
6:07:51 > 6:07:56and knowing her as the person she is, Kelly can conquer anything.
6:07:56 > 6:07:58And that includes the London Marathon.
6:08:04 > 6:08:08- Hello! How are you doing? - Good, thank you.- Good to see you.
6:08:08 > 6:08:12- Nice to see you.- Yeah, you too. - Thanks for having us in Tonbridge.
6:08:12 > 6:08:16- Yeah, welcome.- So, this is the track where it all started for you.
6:08:16 > 6:08:21- It was, yes, many years ago. - Did it look like that then?
6:08:21 > 6:08:25- It was a cinder track, Paula. - Of course, they all were then.
6:08:25 > 6:08:28And this posh building wasn't there,
6:08:28 > 6:08:31it was a hut on top of a hill, that's what we always used to say.
6:08:31 > 6:08:33- But the wind always was... - And the fields, I guess.
6:08:33 > 6:08:36And the fields, yes, lovely place, actually, to train.
6:08:36 > 6:08:39I remember the first day because my mum dropped me off on the hill,
6:08:39 > 6:08:41and she said to me, "You'd better...
6:08:41 > 6:08:44"You'd better stick to this one this time."
6:08:44 > 6:08:46Because I used to do all these other sports and give up.
6:08:46 > 6:08:51- But you did stick with it, anyway. - Yes, I did stick with it, I know. Gosh.
6:08:59 > 6:09:02Your mum brought you down here, like, "Please stick at this one, Kelly."
6:09:02 > 6:09:05But it is important you get the chance to try out all the different things,
6:09:05 > 6:09:08to find the one that you're really passionate about, isn't it?
6:09:08 > 6:09:09Yeah, definitely. I think...
6:09:09 > 6:09:13I was quite fortunate, in a way, that I got given the opportunities
6:09:13 > 6:09:14to go to clubs.
6:09:14 > 6:09:18It was all part of Mum, I suppose, Mum and my stepdad
6:09:18 > 6:09:22and my nan and grandad, because we used to live next door to each other.
6:09:22 > 6:09:25Because they were the ones that took me off to cross-country more,
6:09:25 > 6:09:29to be honest with you. And I hated cross-country with a passion.
6:09:29 > 6:09:33Cold, wet, wind, mud, something... "Really? You're mad!"
6:09:33 > 6:09:35THEY LAUGH
6:09:35 > 6:09:39But I remember that, and I'd be a shivering wreck, you know,
6:09:39 > 6:09:40and crying.
6:09:40 > 6:09:44They would be the ones putting the...kind of blanket around you,
6:09:44 > 6:09:46with the flask and everything.
6:09:46 > 6:09:49And actually, when my mum brought me down, it was
6:09:49 > 6:09:51because my PE teacher, Debbie Page, who's still the PE teacher
6:09:51 > 6:09:53at the same school, 37 years on, I have to say,
6:09:53 > 6:09:55she was my biggest inspiration.
6:09:55 > 6:09:58My mother then brought me down after a phone call from her,
6:09:58 > 6:10:02but it was almost that whole thing of having that support.
6:10:02 > 6:10:05You look back, and actually we're probably quite fortunate
6:10:05 > 6:10:07that we have been given the opportunity.
6:10:07 > 6:10:10I'm just like lots of different children,
6:10:10 > 6:10:13I grew up in the council estate up the road and, you know, you
6:10:13 > 6:10:15never know if you're going to get opportunities in life,
6:10:15 > 6:10:17because things cost money,
6:10:17 > 6:10:21so, you know, I was just fortunate that this was quite close
6:10:21 > 6:10:25and they saw I had a potential, I suppose, the school,
6:10:25 > 6:10:28and my mum wanted me to do something positive with my life,
6:10:28 > 6:10:31so coming here was a big step to that.
6:10:31 > 6:10:34Was it like you had your school life and then athletics life?
6:10:34 > 6:10:37- You almost felt like you were a different person.- Exactly that.
6:10:37 > 6:10:40I mean, I was not good at school, you know, academically,
6:10:40 > 6:10:41I wasn't good.
6:10:41 > 6:10:46I suppose sport almost made me feel good, as an individual,
6:10:46 > 6:10:49it gave me an identity, because suddenly people see
6:10:49 > 6:10:52you're good at something and want to be part of your team and things.
6:10:52 > 6:10:56I've still got the same friends now, to this day, that I had back in
6:10:56 > 6:10:59school. And I remember Kerry, Lara and Kim, when I watched the Olympics
6:10:59 > 6:11:03in '84, the year that I got inspired to be Olympic champion,
6:11:03 > 6:11:06watching Seb Coe win gold medal in the 1,500m,
6:11:06 > 6:11:08I remember going back into school in the summer holidays
6:11:08 > 6:11:12and saying to Kerry, Lara and Kim, "I'm going to be Olympic champion."
6:11:12 > 6:11:14And they turned round to me and said, "Yeah, you are.
6:11:14 > 6:11:16"Because that's the only thing you're good at."
6:11:16 > 6:11:18THEY LAUGH
6:11:22 > 6:11:26My coach, Dave, he was great, because he tried to progress me
6:11:26 > 6:11:28in the right way as a youngster.
6:11:28 > 6:11:31And I think that was why I was successful at, probably,
6:11:31 > 6:11:33English Schools. And then also, when it's kind of the unknown
6:11:33 > 6:11:35and you're a bit mad, you just don't care, do you?
6:11:35 > 6:11:38So I just used to run, really. Didn't really think about it.
6:11:38 > 6:11:42But then the last English Schools, I won,
6:11:42 > 6:11:46and then I went into the military. And Dave was so upset that I was going, because I think
6:11:46 > 6:11:48he thought I could be a really good senior international athlete,
6:11:48 > 6:11:52and he was devastated that I was joining the military. But I did.
6:11:52 > 6:11:55So, did you stay in touch, all the time you were in the army, with Dave, then?
6:11:55 > 6:11:57Yeah, I stayed in touch, and it wasn't
6:11:57 > 6:12:03until I actually got back into my athletics, so 1992, you remember
6:12:03 > 6:12:06Lisa York, who was a great runner, 3,000...
6:12:06 > 6:12:081,500m and 3,000m runner?
6:12:08 > 6:12:11- COMMENTATOR:- And Lisa York takes it on.
6:12:11 > 6:12:14Lisa York from Great Britain with a very, very early run.
6:12:14 > 6:12:18And at that time, I was sitting in my barrack room, in the Army,
6:12:18 > 6:12:21and I remember watching the Olympics and just thinking,
6:12:21 > 6:12:22"Oh, my God, it's Lisa York.
6:12:22 > 6:12:26"I used to race against her, I used to beat her in some things."
6:12:26 > 6:12:29And that sort of ignited my passion, I suppose,
6:12:29 > 6:12:34and my dream to get back into running, you know, properly.
6:12:34 > 6:12:38- And the following year, I went to...was it Stuttgart?- Mm-hm.
6:12:38 > 6:12:41- COMMENTATOR:- Kelly Holmes, full of confidence,
6:12:41 > 6:12:44for the second semifinal, for the women's 800m.
6:12:46 > 6:12:49That was a great championship, but I got brought back down to earth
6:12:49 > 6:12:52because I had to fly back to barracks,
6:12:52 > 6:12:56and I'd forgotten I'd changed all my guard duties, so the night I got back from Stuttgart,
6:12:56 > 6:13:00when everyone else is celebrating at home, I'm guarding the barracks at two o'clock in the morning
6:13:00 > 6:13:03with my weapon and my helmet on and the fog coming down, thinking,
6:13:03 > 6:13:06"I was actually at the World Championships earlier."
6:13:06 > 6:13:10- COMMENTATOR:- Paulino, from Kovacs, from Rainey, from Gurina,
6:13:10 > 6:13:14- from Holmes.- Well, I thought she ran a great race there.
6:13:14 > 6:13:17You must have kept training the whole time you were in the Army.
6:13:17 > 6:13:20The training I was doing was really with the soldiers, you know.
6:13:20 > 6:13:22Because I was a physical-training instructor by then, so a lot...
6:13:22 > 6:13:25It was military training, so my boots, you know,
6:13:25 > 6:13:28your backpacks on and going over assault courses.
6:13:28 > 6:13:32And actually I think the benefit of that was I was really strong.
6:13:32 > 6:13:34So I knew how to run,
6:13:34 > 6:13:38and running was always part of military training anyway,
6:13:38 > 6:13:40but I think because I was so strong, as a female,
6:13:40 > 6:13:44so when I came back into athletics, I was just a powerhouse.
6:13:44 > 6:13:48And I think that's probably why I done so well early on.
6:13:52 > 6:13:54- COMMENTATOR:- Rogachova and Podkopayeva,
6:13:54 > 6:13:57and Kelly Holmes is going to hang on.
6:13:57 > 6:13:59And Kelly Holmes gets silver!
6:14:03 > 6:14:05I've got a lot more to prove yet.
6:14:05 > 6:14:08Just need a good winter-season preparation
6:14:08 > 6:14:10and go for medals again next year.
6:14:11 > 6:14:13- COMMENTATOR:- I think Kelly Holmes should be very,
6:14:13 > 6:14:15very pleased with that.
6:14:22 > 6:14:25She is an absolute heroine tonight.
6:14:25 > 6:14:27She couldn't have done any more than she did.
6:14:33 > 6:14:36And Ceplak gets the gold, Martinez the silver,
6:14:36 > 6:14:38and Kelly Holmes gets the bronze.
6:14:39 > 6:14:43Kelly Holmes, striding out.
6:14:43 > 6:14:46Kelly comes home to take the gold once more for England.
6:14:46 > 6:14:48By gum, does she deserve it.
6:14:52 > 6:14:552002 was a good year, but you had a little bit of a rough few years,
6:14:55 > 6:14:59didn't you, before we came to 2004 and Athens?
6:14:59 > 6:15:022003 was the World Indoor Champs in Birmingham.
6:15:02 > 6:15:04I came second.
6:15:04 > 6:15:06And then went to the World Outdoor Championships,
6:15:06 > 6:15:09but before that, I had the worst,
6:15:09 > 6:15:13literally the worst period of my life, and I think it was the whole...
6:15:13 > 6:15:15You know, when you're in sport,
6:15:15 > 6:15:18and if you really believe in it, you live and eat...breathe it,
6:15:18 > 6:15:21really, in a way, but you contend with normal life,
6:15:21 > 6:15:24you know, emotions are the same, you know, you want to be good
6:15:24 > 6:15:27and get knocked down and whatever you go through.
6:15:27 > 6:15:30And I got really bad depression in that year.
6:15:30 > 6:15:32You know, to the point where I...
6:15:32 > 6:15:35You know, it got to the point of self-harming,
6:15:35 > 6:15:38which is something that for an ex-military person...
6:15:38 > 6:15:41I only left after ten years and, you know,
6:15:41 > 6:15:43good-standard international athlete,
6:15:43 > 6:15:47you don't think that you're ever going to get to that point of despair.
6:15:47 > 6:15:51- You know what I mean?- Hmm.- But I think I've had such a kind of turmoil.
6:15:51 > 6:15:53- I never would've known until I read about it.- Yeah.
6:15:53 > 6:15:56And I was thinking... If you kind of feel...
6:15:56 > 6:15:59Could you not have come...? Could I have come and talked to you?
6:15:59 > 6:16:03But you were so good at hiding and, I guess, closing yourself away
6:16:03 > 6:16:07that that kind of makes it grow inside a little bit more, does it?
6:16:07 > 6:16:11Yeah. I think the thing is you kind of, you know, try and deal with everything yourself anyway.
6:16:11 > 6:16:13Because, you know, it's like...
6:16:13 > 6:16:15Whenever athletes are doing really well,
6:16:15 > 6:16:18the last thing you want to do is be the whole...
6:16:18 > 6:16:22"It's all going wrong for me." Because everyone's got to stay positive, ain't they?
6:16:22 > 6:16:24And you try and stay positive outside.
6:16:24 > 6:16:27So, you know, I'd...being in the blooming pool again
6:16:27 > 6:16:31and I'm just, "I'm going to get there!" Cos I had the World Championships coming up.
6:16:31 > 6:16:35You know I mean? And one side of me was like, "I've got this World Championships."
6:16:35 > 6:16:37And the other side was tearing me apart, you know?
6:16:37 > 6:16:41And even... I didn't tell anyone. You look in the mirror and you don't want to even be there.
6:16:41 > 6:16:44You're in a bad state, but I still had this whole thing
6:16:44 > 6:16:46that I could be Olympic champion.
6:16:46 > 6:16:48That was my saving grace,
6:16:48 > 6:16:52because I always believed I could be this person.
6:16:52 > 6:16:56But then, equally, I was just in this emotional wreck and turmoil.
6:16:56 > 6:16:59And so... But then two weeks later,
6:16:59 > 6:17:02I won a silver medal at the World Championships.
6:17:02 > 6:17:04And I stood on the rostrum, like, crying inside thinking,
6:17:04 > 6:17:08"I've got this medal," but also crying inside because of how I was feeling.
6:17:08 > 6:17:11- But I didn't tell anyone. - APPLAUSE
6:17:13 > 6:17:17It's only over the years that I've obviously got more confident in just talking about it,
6:17:17 > 6:17:21cos I realise actually that sometimes if you are in the public eye,
6:17:21 > 6:17:24you've got a platform to actually have people listen to you.
6:17:24 > 6:17:27And I didn't feel ashamed of what I've done, it's just me.
6:17:27 > 6:17:30And there's so many people in life that...
6:17:30 > 6:17:33one, don't have the chance to talk too much about it
6:17:33 > 6:17:35or don't want to talk about it.
6:17:35 > 6:17:37And I'm just saying we've got to stop the stigmatism,
6:17:37 > 6:17:39cos no matter who you are or the industry you're in,
6:17:39 > 6:17:41there's so many people that suffer
6:17:41 > 6:17:43at all different levels for whatever different reason.
6:17:43 > 6:17:45And if I can talk about it then,
6:17:45 > 6:17:47hopefully, other people will start to talk and say,
6:17:47 > 6:17:50"Look, you can actually ask for help."
6:17:50 > 6:17:54I never really thought that I was ever going to be a person that would get to that point,
6:17:54 > 6:17:57but I clearly am, and it's just part of my life.
6:17:57 > 6:18:00And, actually, it makes...
6:18:00 > 6:18:05what I did in Athens even more important to me,
6:18:05 > 6:18:08and more, kind of, you know, I just feel, "Oh, my gosh!"
6:18:08 > 6:18:11Literally, cos I hung in there and I managed to do it.
6:18:11 > 6:18:14Two laps of the track.
6:18:14 > 6:18:15Less than two minutes of running.
6:18:15 > 6:18:19Concentrate, put yourself in the right place,
6:18:19 > 6:18:21react and hope it's your day.
6:18:21 > 6:18:22GUN FIRES
6:18:22 > 6:18:24CHEERING
6:18:24 > 6:18:27A huge roar goes up. It could be a race to get to the front.
6:18:27 > 6:18:30There are three or four frontrunners in this.
6:18:30 > 6:18:32Jearl Miles Clark looks as though she fancies it.
6:18:32 > 6:18:35Cioncan likes to get to the front, Ceplak does, Maria Mutola sometimes.
6:18:35 > 6:18:37I don't think she'll do it today.
6:18:37 > 6:18:41And, in fact, it's Jearl Miles Clark who's gone through that first 100 metres quickly.
6:18:41 > 6:18:43Kelly at the back as we'd probably expect,
6:18:43 > 6:18:46letting them go through that first 200. There's Cioncan, she likes a good pace as well.
6:18:46 > 6:18:50But Jearl Miles Clark has gone off very, very quickly indeed.
6:18:50 > 6:18:53And this...in the Olympic final
6:18:53 > 6:18:56means that I think we're going to see a quick time.
6:18:56 > 6:18:58But the main protagonists are towards the back.
6:18:58 > 6:19:01Mutola is taking it easy and so is Kelly Holmes,
6:19:01 > 6:19:04last at the moment, but she won't stay there for long.
6:19:04 > 6:19:06Look at the gap between first and last!
6:19:06 > 6:19:08Kelly Holmes absolutely dead last,
6:19:08 > 6:19:12but I think that first 200 metres was very, very quick indeed.
6:19:12 > 6:19:16I think it was 27 seconds and I'm sure Kelly was closer to 29.
6:19:16 > 6:19:18- BELL RINGS - She's giving Maria Mutola
6:19:18 > 6:19:20a bit too much of a lead.
6:19:20 > 6:19:22But 56.3 for the leader,
6:19:22 > 6:19:25which means that Kelly Holmes and Maria Mutola
6:19:25 > 6:19:28are doing the right thing sitting off the pace.
6:19:28 > 6:19:31I think Ceplak's in trouble there as Kelly Holmes goes past her.
6:19:31 > 6:19:33Kelly Holmes is tracking Maria Mutola.
6:19:33 > 6:19:38Jearl Miles Clark has run a fast, fast race and is beginning to slow
6:19:38 > 6:19:41as Kelly follows in the wake of Maria Mutola!
6:19:41 > 6:19:43Now, remember, Kelly Holmes
6:19:43 > 6:19:47was leading in the Olympic Games in Sydney with 50 metres to go.
6:19:47 > 6:19:49Can she do a bit better this time
6:19:49 > 6:19:51and be leading from 50 metres to the finish?
6:19:51 > 6:19:55Kelly's in a great place there but Mutola knocked her!
6:19:55 > 6:19:58Mutola won't let Kelly Holmes past, she wants to control this!
6:19:58 > 6:20:02Miles Clark has the lead. Kelly Holmes attacking on the outside!
6:20:02 > 6:20:05What has Mutola got left? Has Andrianova got anything?
6:20:05 > 6:20:06What about Miles Clark?
6:20:06 > 6:20:08Kelly Holmes fighting for the gold medal
6:20:08 > 6:20:11with her training partner Maria Mutola!
6:20:11 > 6:20:14Kelly Holmes bringing it home for Britain! Can she get there?
6:20:14 > 6:20:18Come on, Kelly! One more...! Come on, Kelly Holmes!
6:20:18 > 6:20:21It's gold! Kelly's won the gold for Great Britain!
6:20:21 > 6:20:24What a race! What a performance!
6:20:24 > 6:20:27Well, you see my face. I mean, the shock as I crossed the line.
6:20:27 > 6:20:30I never once thought I'd win the 800.
6:20:30 > 6:20:32You've won it, Kelly! You've won it!
6:20:32 > 6:20:35Kelly Holmes is the Olympic champion!
6:20:35 > 6:20:39I just never even thought about being Olympic champion at 800.
6:20:39 > 6:20:43It was never my dream. I just happened to always do 800 and 1,500,
6:20:43 > 6:20:46because that was based on whether I was fit enough to do...
6:20:46 > 6:20:48or strong enough for what one.
6:20:48 > 6:20:51And that's how I picked my races, to be honest, over the years.
6:20:51 > 6:20:53So when I went to the 800,
6:20:53 > 6:20:56I just kind of worked out that I could win a medal if I ran 1.56.
6:20:56 > 6:20:58And my training alluded to that.
6:20:58 > 6:21:01- Uh-huh.- You know, I was just doing pace...
6:21:01 > 6:21:03pace work all the time. And I knew I could run 1.56,
6:21:03 > 6:21:07I just had to run efficiently and not get knocked over, whatever.
6:21:07 > 6:21:10So then when I actually won, you know, again I won...
6:21:10 > 6:21:13everything I'd lost by the thickness of the top,
6:21:13 > 6:21:17this one I'd won by the thickness of the top. And I remember celebrating.
6:21:17 > 6:21:20I still remember it, even though I've watched it a million times,
6:21:20 > 6:21:24I still actually remember the whole process. Because I remember saying to myself, drop my shoulders,
6:21:24 > 6:21:27relax my shoulders on the last bit, cos normally I was really tense.
6:21:27 > 6:21:31People get tense and their breathing goes and, you know, their form goes.
6:21:31 > 6:21:35And I remember just saying to myself, "Relax the shoulders," cos I'd practised it in training.
6:21:35 > 6:21:38And I took that one vital step forward.
6:21:38 > 6:21:40So I started to celebrate, but in my head it was like,
6:21:40 > 6:21:43"I couldn't have won the 800!" And I felt really embarrassed.
6:21:43 > 6:21:47I was thinking, "Is it going to be shown like that?" And I remember this photographer on the inside,
6:21:47 > 6:21:51a British photographer was jumping up and down going, "Kelly, you've won!"
6:21:51 > 6:21:54And I kind of look at the screen again. I'm looking and... "I've actually won it!"
6:21:54 > 6:21:57- So that real...shock. - CHEERING
6:21:57 > 6:22:00And I was just thinking, "I'm in the shape of my life here,
6:22:00 > 6:22:04"I could actually get another medal in this champs." I didn't really think about the gold,
6:22:04 > 6:22:06it was just, "I can get another medal."
6:22:06 > 6:22:08So can Kelly Holmes do it again?
6:22:08 > 6:22:11The women's 1,500m final gets under way.
6:22:11 > 6:22:15I think having that mind-set at the right time is critical as well, isn't it?
6:22:15 > 6:22:17Not switching off when actually you could,
6:22:17 > 6:22:21and staying real focused on everything that you've done.
6:22:21 > 6:22:24- And now the race just starts to pick up. - BELL
6:22:24 > 6:22:26Yevdokimova doesn't let Chojecka get past.
6:22:26 > 6:22:28Kelly Holmes has got to get a bit closer.
6:22:28 > 6:22:32Well, I hope the tiredness of the rounds of the 800m and 1,500m
6:22:32 > 6:22:33aren't catching up with her.
6:22:33 > 6:22:35She was very clever the way she was able
6:22:35 > 6:22:37to bounce off the other athlete on the inside there.
6:22:37 > 6:22:41They're coming in now, just approaching the three-lap marker.
6:22:41 > 6:22:453.12. So it's still a fast pace, but it's not a suicidal pace,
6:22:45 > 6:22:47it's not a vicious pace.
6:22:47 > 6:22:50And Kelly Holmes now needs to just dig in there.
6:22:50 > 6:22:54There are a few too many yards and little gaps opening now.
6:22:54 > 6:22:57Can she run as controlled as she did in the 800m?
6:22:57 > 6:23:01- Here comes Kelly Holmes!- There's a lot of pushing and shoving there.
6:23:01 > 6:23:04Tomashova doesn't seem to have much, but she's going to go with Kelly.
6:23:04 > 6:23:07Kelly coming on the outside, looks so easy!
6:23:07 > 6:23:10Has she got enough in the home straight? Chojecka tries to move out.
6:23:10 > 6:23:12Kelly looking around to see where the danger is.
6:23:12 > 6:23:15There doesn't appear to be too much. Now she's got to push on.
6:23:15 > 6:23:17Now she's got to kick for home!
6:23:17 > 6:23:18Kelly Holmes going for two gold medals!
6:23:18 > 6:23:21It's going to be an historic second gold!
6:23:21 > 6:23:25Kelly Holmes for Great Britain wins the 1,500m title!
6:23:25 > 6:23:27What a performance!
6:23:27 > 6:23:313.57.91. A personal best to boot!
6:23:31 > 6:23:34You are the double Olympic champion, Kelly Holmes!
6:23:34 > 6:23:37That is the greatest performance
6:23:37 > 6:23:39in the history of British distance running,
6:23:39 > 6:23:41the history of British athletics in the Olympic Games.
6:23:41 > 6:23:45The 1,500m, honestly, it was...just like a relief.
6:23:45 > 6:23:49I felt like when I crossed the line, this tonne of weight just went off my shoulders.
6:23:49 > 6:23:53It literally felt like that. It's almost like, you know, if you go back through your life
6:23:53 > 6:23:58and it's like a movie. I was like, "Oh, my God!" All those things that happened and I had done it.
6:23:58 > 6:24:01It was almost like... I couldn't believe it, to be honest with you.
6:24:01 > 6:24:03CHEERING
6:24:03 > 6:24:06You achieved the British record tonight, you ran 3.57.9...
6:24:06 > 6:24:10- You didn't have any idea, did you? - Did I really do 3.57?!
6:24:10 > 6:24:12- BOTH LAUGH - Fantastic!
6:24:12 > 6:24:14BRITISH NATIONAL ANTHEM PLAYS
6:24:20 > 6:24:24Personally, I just believe in fate and think that everything that I went through,
6:24:24 > 6:24:27the fact that I stepped to it, you know, I could get it right.
6:24:27 > 6:24:31And probably maybe that was just a...you know, a sign to say, "We've put you through...
6:24:31 > 6:24:34"put you through enough now, you deserve to get it."
6:24:34 > 6:24:36Surely, we're going to call her
6:24:36 > 6:24:39Dame Kelly Holmes tonight after that performance.
6:24:39 > 6:24:44I was with you in Athens and I watched your heartache.
6:24:46 > 6:24:50And this is a very disappointing picture to be looking at.
6:24:50 > 6:24:53And Paula Radcliffe's stopped on the roadside. That's enough.
6:24:53 > 6:24:57Her Olympic dream is over. What a sad sight.
6:24:57 > 6:25:01I don't know what's gone wrong. The crowd in the stadium are trying to give it...
6:25:01 > 6:25:04But that is the end of an Olympic dream for Paula Radcliffe.
6:25:06 > 6:25:09That really just got to me so badly.
6:25:09 > 6:25:12You know I mean? And I felt everything.
6:25:12 > 6:25:14So when I was then preparing,
6:25:14 > 6:25:17that was sort of in my head, the whole thing of...
6:25:17 > 6:25:20you didn't get the opportunity to get your dream.
6:25:22 > 6:25:25Obviously, I wasn't able... I'd had the injury too close
6:25:25 > 6:25:29and, again, didn't talk about things that I probably should have talked about,
6:25:29 > 6:25:31and wasn't able to finish the marathon.
6:25:31 > 6:25:33But I remember then watching you win the 800,
6:25:33 > 6:25:37and I was trying to decide whether to come back and do the 10K or not.
6:25:37 > 6:25:39Even though it wasn't the right decision,
6:25:39 > 6:25:41I wasn't ever going to be able to even finish the 10K.
6:25:41 > 6:25:46Just over nine laps to go and Paula is having a hard one here.
6:25:46 > 6:25:49Oh, and she's stopping. Paula Radcliffe has stepped off the track.
6:25:49 > 6:25:53Well, we said earlier it was a brave decision of her to run.
6:25:53 > 6:25:56She ran a brave race there. Was it a wise decision?
6:25:56 > 6:25:58Well, only Paula can answer that one.
6:25:58 > 6:26:02I still don't regret going out and trying to do it, because...
6:26:02 > 6:26:04- You never know.- Yeah, it's like I got the answer.
6:26:04 > 6:26:09Otherwise, I'd have been sat in the stands thinking, "I wonder if I could have managed to get round."
6:26:09 > 6:26:12The fact that you did that was just massive. You know, hats off.
6:26:12 > 6:26:16And, actually, I have to say, on the plus side, you took so much pressure off me before the Games,
6:26:16 > 6:26:20because you were, like, in the paper all the time and no-one wanted...
6:26:20 > 6:26:24No-one was interested in me. So it was quite cool. So thank you for that.
6:26:26 > 6:26:28There is Kelly Holmes!
6:26:28 > 6:26:30CHEERING
6:26:30 > 6:26:32MUSIC: Lola's Theme by Shapeshifters
6:26:40 > 6:26:43Sports Personality of the Year 2004...
6:26:43 > 6:26:45Kelly Holmes.
6:26:45 > 6:26:46APPLAUSE
6:26:55 > 6:26:59And now you're embarking on a new journey, with the marathon.
6:26:59 > 6:27:01- BOTH LAUGH - Paula, this is YOUR bag.
6:27:01 > 6:27:04I'm just...dying for this marathon.
6:27:04 > 6:27:07DANCE MUSIC PLAYS
6:27:15 > 6:27:20So, this is a nice place to come and train and put in some miles.
6:27:20 > 6:27:21Yeah, it is nice actually.
6:27:21 > 6:27:24It's only sort of part of a route that I normally do,
6:27:24 > 6:27:27but Dave, my coach, and I used to come down here
6:27:27 > 6:27:30and do reps around to get off the track.
6:27:30 > 6:27:33That was quite good. And, actually, it was nice that I got off the tarmac,
6:27:33 > 6:27:36- cos I found that pounding on the roads hard.- And that's what I think
6:27:36 > 6:27:38you're going to find will be your hardest thing,
6:27:38 > 6:27:41it's not going to be the fitness to run the marathon,
6:27:41 > 6:27:44it's going to be your muscles just getting used to the pounding of that distance.
6:27:44 > 6:27:46- My legs ache thinking about it. - It's good.
6:27:46 > 6:27:50So shall we see how your legs have recovered from that run? Let's go.
6:28:01 > 6:28:05I'm just not a long-distance runner, I literally know that.
6:28:05 > 6:28:07You know, cos even when I was training
6:28:07 > 6:28:10my longest run would probably be like an hour on a Sunday
6:28:10 > 6:28:13or a recovery run, but it would just literally be...
6:28:13 > 6:28:15- You say that, but it was a quick hour.- No, only when I'm with you.
6:28:15 > 6:28:18- Only if I had to go out with you. - No, believe me....
6:28:18 > 6:28:21- you ran fast.- You just sprint! - BOTH LAUGH
6:28:21 > 6:28:24Cos I'm up on my toes so much and the way that, you know...
6:28:24 > 6:28:27I was speaking to one of the physios and the doctor says...
6:28:27 > 6:28:32He actually looked at my hips and he says the way my hips are actually twisted
6:28:32 > 6:28:36- is allowing me to do what I did as a middle-distance runner.- Yeah.
6:28:36 > 6:28:40You know, the power and that. He says, "Now you're trying to do longer stuff,
6:28:40 > 6:28:43"it's changing you biomechanically, so you're sitting back more
6:28:43 > 6:28:46"and it's actually now putting so much pressure on your hips."
6:28:46 > 6:28:48And that's what I've had problems with, my hips.
6:28:48 > 6:28:51And the neural tension, like, all my nerves have been inflamed.
6:28:51 > 6:28:56I had to go to the hospital. I had an epidural thing to try and calm it down.
6:28:56 > 6:29:00And I've really, really struggled with that, you know,
6:29:00 > 6:29:02just trying to up a bit of mileage,
6:29:02 > 6:29:06because it's not for the willingness to do it, knowing I have to do it,
6:29:06 > 6:29:11but then, you know, when you're in pain for five days after, you're just like, "Oh, my gosh!"
6:29:11 > 6:29:14But now I've opened my mouth and I'm doing it, I've got no choice.
6:29:14 > 6:29:16And you've got a big motivation to keep you through it
6:29:16 > 6:29:20with the motivation of that target, which is a huge target for charity.
6:29:20 > 6:29:22£250,000 for five charities.
6:29:22 > 6:29:25But that's one of the... Yeah, that's the driver.
6:29:25 > 6:29:28You know, I think when you've got something as a driver,
6:29:28 > 6:29:32that's what's keeping me going, that's why I have to do it now.
6:29:32 > 6:29:35I've done charity for years and I feel passionate about that,
6:29:35 > 6:29:38so if I can actually do more for them, great.
6:29:38 > 6:29:40And the personal challenge.
6:29:40 > 6:29:42Cos, you know, in life we have...
6:29:42 > 6:29:44I always have to have a challenge,
6:29:44 > 6:29:46otherwise it wouldn't be me. And I chose this one.
6:29:46 > 6:29:48CHEERING
6:29:50 > 6:29:52I tell you where it came from, really,
6:29:52 > 6:29:55was that I went to watch some friends last year.
6:29:55 > 6:29:58And I remember going down on the Tube and going up and it was so exciting.
6:29:58 > 6:30:02Everything about people supporting everybody that's running, their loved ones being there.
6:30:02 > 6:30:05You know, you're running around London trying to spot the people.
6:30:05 > 6:30:08And then actually the faces on everybody racing.
6:30:08 > 6:30:11You know, this is everyday people
6:30:11 > 6:30:18who for whatever reason have got a drive to run at the best marathon there ever can be.
6:30:18 > 6:30:23You know, iconic city, just a fabulous, fabulous backdrop for it.
6:30:23 > 6:30:26And I just remember feeling so proud, you know,
6:30:26 > 6:30:29proud to be British and proud to sort of be there.
6:30:29 > 6:30:32And I thought then... You know, I've never said I'll never do one,
6:30:32 > 6:30:35but I've never really wanted to, let's face it.
6:30:35 > 6:30:37But then I thought, it's Olympic year,
6:30:37 > 6:30:40if I'm ever going to have a challenge, maybe that would be then.
6:30:40 > 6:30:44And it was only in January that I really, really thought, "OK, let's do this."
6:30:44 > 6:30:47So January the fourth, I put back on my trainers. "OK, let's go."
6:30:47 > 6:30:49So I went for an eight-mile run and thought, "Oh, my God!"
6:30:49 > 6:30:54And then I just thought, "Do you know what? OK, I want to do one last big charity push."
6:30:54 > 6:30:55I've always given back and I always will,
6:30:55 > 6:30:59but I think if I can just do one massive, massive push, let's do it.
6:30:59 > 6:31:02So...I decided I was going to do London, Paula.
6:31:04 > 6:31:06I've tried to bring five charities together
6:31:06 > 6:31:11and that's why I'm going through the paces of the marathon to bring them as much.
6:31:11 > 6:31:14The same as all these other people that have got their charity tops on,
6:31:14 > 6:31:17- it's a real bond.- Can you fit them all on your vest?- I'm trying to think.
6:31:17 > 6:31:22I'm trying to do this chequered thing. See a brightly coloured chequered thing.
6:31:22 > 6:31:26And then have my name. And on my back, "Leave me alone, I'm dying."
6:31:26 > 6:31:30No. "Cheer me on." They will be cheering you a lot though.
6:31:30 > 6:31:33But, I mean, talk a little bit about your foundation.
6:31:33 > 6:31:37Well, the first reason why I started those charities is cos I realised
6:31:37 > 6:31:39that being in a sport that was very high-profile,
6:31:39 > 6:31:42we were quite fortunate with our careers after,
6:31:42 > 6:31:44the opportunities to do other things.
6:31:44 > 6:31:47And there's a lot of sportspeople that don't, so they give up...
6:31:47 > 6:31:52You know, they're the same as us, committed, dedicated to their career and they finish sport.
6:31:52 > 6:31:55And actually a lot of them were going into depression
6:31:55 > 6:31:59or to areas where they really felt like they didn't have an identity any more.
6:31:59 > 6:32:03And I kind of felt, "Well, I wonder if I can help generate something
6:32:03 > 6:32:05"that guides them back into something else."
6:32:05 > 6:32:09Given my own feelings around how I felt about myself and stuff.
6:32:09 > 6:32:11And then actually what I really was passionate about
6:32:11 > 6:32:15was helping young people believe they can be someone given the chance in life.
6:32:15 > 6:32:19Because if Debbie Page hadn't said to me, "Kelly, you've got to get a grip and start doing something,"
6:32:19 > 6:32:22I could have been anything. I may never have been an athlete,
6:32:22 > 6:32:25and I certainly would have been in trouble.
6:32:25 > 6:32:29So I think sometimes it's kind of having that one person that can tell you you can be good.
6:32:29 > 6:32:32And when we work with young people in areas of deprivation,
6:32:32 > 6:32:36where actually their lives feel like they...they're not having one, really,
6:32:36 > 6:32:39if we can make that change, for me that is so powerful.
6:32:39 > 6:32:41And we've helped over 200,000 people around the country.
6:32:41 > 6:32:45And we've got about 450 athletes that we've helped transition.
6:32:45 > 6:32:48- And 100 of them work on our programme. So I'm quite proud of that.- You should be.
6:32:48 > 6:32:51It's been nine years now, so... You know, coming in.
6:32:51 > 6:32:53So, yeah, I'm really proud of that charity.
6:32:53 > 6:32:56We're watching a sport that we love,
6:32:56 > 6:33:00that I think we both believe is an amazing and brilliant sport,
6:33:00 > 6:33:02it's going through a lot of turmoil.
6:33:02 > 6:33:05I honestly do believe that kids today coming into the sport
6:33:05 > 6:33:09are probably in a better position than they were back when we were getting into the sport.
6:33:09 > 6:33:12People say, is it good or bad that it's all been exposed?
6:33:12 > 6:33:18For me, it's good. I mean, you know, if things are hidden under the radar, or whatever has happened,
6:33:18 > 6:33:23I mean, how they got away with it for that long I do not know, but it then makes things have to change.
6:33:23 > 6:33:26You know, you've got to be able to stand there and go,
6:33:26 > 6:33:28"We won't ever tolerate this sort of thing in our sport again."
6:33:28 > 6:33:31So, in a way, it's a positive. A lot of people coming in
6:33:31 > 6:33:35- should think that there potentially could be more of a level playing field.- Uh-huh.
6:33:35 > 6:33:38You know, so actually then you're in a better place.
6:33:38 > 6:33:40For me also it's more the fact that, you know,
6:33:40 > 6:33:43sport should be what sport is about, creating role models,
6:33:43 > 6:33:48you know, seeing success, feeling good about yourself.
6:33:48 > 6:33:51You know, having achievement. You know, when you see people...
6:33:51 > 6:33:54I just remember as a kid, you know, watching the Olympic Games.
6:33:54 > 6:33:57I was 14 years old and seeing the passion on people's faces,
6:33:57 > 6:34:00it gave me goose bumps. It's why I wanted to be Olympic champion.
6:34:00 > 6:34:04It was all about the fact that I saw these massive achievements.
6:34:04 > 6:34:08And then you see the flag flying and you see the tears as they're standing.
6:34:08 > 6:34:10And for me that's all I knew as a kid, you know,
6:34:10 > 6:34:13I just want that to be believable for other children all the time,
6:34:13 > 6:34:15that they're supporting their heroes,
6:34:15 > 6:34:19they want to emulate them, they want to kind of be, you know,
6:34:19 > 6:34:21that is their driver in life,
6:34:21 > 6:34:24to use sport as a way of increasing confidence
6:34:24 > 6:34:27and the ability to be someone and be proud of yourself.
6:34:27 > 6:34:30You know, that's what we need to get back to.
6:34:30 > 6:34:34MUSIC: Nothing But Love by James