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0:00:09 > 0:00:11- CLOCKS TICK AND CHIME
0:00:26 > 0:00:29- Six of us - used to sit in this room...
0:00:31 > 0:00:34- ..at six o'clock, every night...
0:00:35 > 0:00:38- ..just after tea.
0:00:40 > 0:00:42- Every member of the family.
0:00:44 > 0:00:46- Everyone apart from Mabel.
0:00:47 > 0:00:51- She was always in the back-kitchen, - washing the dishes.
0:00:53 > 0:00:57- Six o'clock, every night, - on the dot.
0:01:00 > 0:01:02- On the dot by my clock, anyway.
0:01:03 > 0:01:06- That's my clock there, - above the sideboard.
0:01:07 > 0:01:11- We all had different clocks.
0:01:11 > 0:01:15- We all had our favourite - and they all showed different times.
0:01:16 > 0:01:19- My clock - always showed the right time.
0:01:19 > 0:01:23- Their clocks - were either fast or slow.
0:01:28 > 0:01:33- Between you, me and the wall, - I used to play a trick on the rest.
0:01:33 > 0:01:36- I changed the times on their clocks.
0:01:37 > 0:01:41- They didn't have a clue - what the time was.
0:01:41 > 0:01:44- There were mix-ups all the time.
0:01:48 > 0:01:49- Oh!
0:01:52 > 0:01:58- Oh, Mama always sat there. - Auntie Ag, Mama's sister, sat here.
0:01:59 > 0:02:04- Glyn, my brother-in-law, there. - Richard, my brother, at the table.
0:02:05 > 0:02:09- I've always sat here, - next to the fire.
0:02:09 > 0:02:12- I had to sit next to the fire.
0:02:13 > 0:02:15- When I was a little girl...
0:02:15 > 0:02:19- ..the doctor said - that I wasn't to catch a chill...
0:02:19 > 0:02:21- ..or I'd get ill again.
0:02:22 > 0:02:24- I've always been ill.
0:02:24 > 0:02:28- I was always too ill to go - to school when I was a little girl.
0:02:32 > 0:02:37- The specialists at Llanelli hospital - said I had a weakness.
0:02:38 > 0:02:42- They couldn't work out - what was causing it.
0:02:42 > 0:02:47- I had all sorts of horrid tests, - but they couldn't find anything.
0:02:48 > 0:02:51- I've got MUS.
0:02:53 > 0:02:56- Medically Unexplained Symptoms.
0:03:03 > 0:03:05- I was too weak to do anything.
0:03:06 > 0:03:07- I was bedridden for years.
0:03:08 > 0:03:10- I couldn't lift my head - off the pillow.
0:03:10 > 0:03:13- My sister Mabel - had to do everything for me.
0:03:14 > 0:03:18- My sister Mabel - had to do everything for everyone.
0:03:20 > 0:03:24- Mama was old, - Auntie Ag was getting forgetful...
0:03:24 > 0:03:27- ..Richard and Glyn were men...
0:03:28 > 0:03:30- ..and I had this weakness.
0:03:32 > 0:03:34- She looked after us all.
0:03:35 > 0:03:39- She was up and down those stairs - like a yo-yo.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42- Mabel slept with me for years...
0:03:42 > 0:03:46- ..because everyone worried - I'd stop breathing in my sleep.
0:03:47 > 0:03:49- Stop breathing for no reason.
0:03:49 > 0:03:53- It happened a few times, - apparently, when I was little.
0:03:53 > 0:03:56- I almost died in my sleep - more than once.
0:04:05 > 0:04:08- That scared everyone to death.
0:04:09 > 0:04:13- After that, Mabel had to sleep - next to me every night...
0:04:14 > 0:04:17- ..even after she married.
0:04:23 > 0:04:24- Oh!
0:04:26 > 0:04:27- Oh!
0:04:30 > 0:04:31- Well...
0:04:32 > 0:04:36- ..between you, me and the wall, - I'd play a trick on her sometimes.
0:04:40 > 0:04:42- I'd deliberately stop breathing...
0:04:43 > 0:04:47- ..to scare her, make her jump - out of bed, screaming and crying...
0:04:48 > 0:04:51- ..and wake the entire family - in the small hours.
0:04:51 > 0:04:54- They'd panic and think I was dying.
0:04:54 > 0:04:59- They'd scream, cry, hold my hand, - stroke my forehead...
0:04:59 > 0:05:01- ..and kiss me over and over.
0:05:01 > 0:05:04- They grabbed my head and shook me.
0:05:05 > 0:05:06- Mama would go bonkers.
0:05:07 > 0:05:09- Auntie Ag would go doolally.
0:05:10 > 0:05:12- Mabel was so frantic...
0:05:13 > 0:05:15- ..she'd make an odd sound...
0:05:15 > 0:05:19- ..like a wolf howling in the forest.
0:05:19 > 0:05:22- SHE HOWLS
0:05:25 > 0:05:27- Glyn and Richard would get up...
0:05:27 > 0:05:31- ..get dressed, - and rush out into the night...
0:05:31 > 0:05:34- ..up the hill - to the doctor's house.
0:05:34 > 0:05:36- We didn't have a phone.
0:05:36 > 0:05:39- They dragged him and his wife - out of bed.
0:05:39 > 0:05:42- The doctor's wife - phoned the minister...
0:05:43 > 0:05:46- ..the minister's wife - woke the minister...
0:05:46 > 0:05:49- ..and everyone came to our house - in case I'd die...
0:05:50 > 0:05:55- ..and we'd need someone to pray, - to comfort the others and make tea.
0:05:55 > 0:06:00- It was bedlam here every time - I decided to stop breathing.
0:06:04 > 0:06:05- Oh.
0:06:07 > 0:06:10- Fair play to Glyn, - Mabel's husband...
0:06:10 > 0:06:14- ..he never complained - that Mabel slept with me.
0:06:15 > 0:06:19- Not a single complaint, - throughout the years.
0:06:21 > 0:06:23- Not that I know of, anyway.
0:06:23 > 0:06:25- He seemed happy enough...
0:06:25 > 0:06:30- ..sleeping with Richard, my brother, - in the bedroom next door.
0:06:30 > 0:06:34- And I was happy - to have Mabel in the bed with me.
0:06:35 > 0:06:39- Oh, it was lovely - to cwtch up to her...
0:06:40 > 0:06:45- ..when it was cold outside - or when the rain pelted the window.
0:06:46 > 0:06:49- We rubbed our feet...
0:06:51 > 0:06:53- ..tickled and rubbed each other.
0:06:56 > 0:06:58- I remember once...
0:07:00 > 0:07:04- ..we were all round the table, - eating Sunday lunch.
0:07:12 > 0:07:14- Mabel cooking the food.
0:07:19 > 0:07:21- Glyn peeling the veg.
0:07:21 > 0:07:24- We didn't talk much at the table.
0:07:24 > 0:07:27- That's how Dad taught us, years ago.
0:07:27 > 0:07:31- Mam told us, - but I don't remember Dad at all.
0:07:31 > 0:07:33- He was killed when I was a baby.
0:07:36 > 0:07:39- It was a terrible accident - in the steelworks.
0:07:39 > 0:07:43- He fell into a vat - and burned to a cinder.
0:07:43 > 0:07:47- Every part of his body, - except his right hand, Mama said.
0:07:47 > 0:07:50- According to Mama, - after saying grace...
0:07:50 > 0:07:53- ..Dad didn't like - empty talk at the table.
0:07:54 > 0:07:58- So we ate quietly and gave thanks - to God for every mouthful.
0:07:59 > 0:08:02- We're used to eating in silence.
0:08:02 > 0:08:04- And then Glyn asked...
0:08:04 > 0:08:06- And then Glyn asked...- - SHE GIGGLES
0:08:12 > 0:08:16- Then Glyn asked, - "Can I have the gravy boat, please?"
0:08:17 > 0:08:21- That was enough for me and Mabel - to have a fit of giggles...
0:08:21 > 0:08:26- ..hearing "gravy boat" - coming out of the silence.
0:08:30 > 0:08:34- No-one understood why we laughed - so much over something so silly.
0:08:35 > 0:08:39- But the bond - between me and Mabel was so strong.
0:08:39 > 0:08:42- We knew - what the other one was thinking...
0:08:43 > 0:08:46- ..without having to say a word.
0:08:49 > 0:08:50- Oh.
0:08:52 > 0:08:56- Then Glyn started coming here - on Saturday mornings.
0:08:57 > 0:08:59- That's how Mabel met him.
0:09:02 > 0:09:06- I noticed her peeping out - of the window a couple of times.
0:09:08 > 0:09:10- That's odd, I thought to myself.
0:09:11 > 0:09:15- What's wrong with Mabel, - peeping out of the window?
0:09:15 > 0:09:18- What has she seen in the garden?
0:09:19 > 0:09:23- So I went to look.
0:09:35 > 0:09:37- Yes.
0:09:37 > 0:09:41- That's when I noticed Glyn - for the first time.
0:09:43 > 0:09:45- This strange man...
0:09:45 > 0:09:51- ..who usually picked up Richard on - his scooter to go to the steelworks.
0:09:53 > 0:09:55- Always in his shirtsleeves...
0:09:56 > 0:09:59- ..digging frantically in our garden.
0:10:01 > 0:10:04- He peeped up at the window - every now and then...
0:10:05 > 0:10:09- ..as if he was trying - to catch a glimpse of Mabel.
0:10:11 > 0:10:14- Oh, yuck, I thought.
0:10:15 > 0:10:19- Who does he think he is, - coming here to sniff around?
0:10:21 > 0:10:23- He clearly had his eye on my sister.
0:10:24 > 0:10:27- He could go somewhere else - to find a woman.
0:10:32 > 0:10:36- The next thing I knew, - Glyn could come into the house.
0:10:37 > 0:10:40- Mabel gave him a cup of tea...
0:10:43 > 0:10:46- ..and a Marie biscuit.
0:10:48 > 0:10:51- And then, - she'd put some lunch before him.
0:10:53 > 0:10:55- Tongue and tomato sandwich.
0:10:57 > 0:10:59- That's when we found out...
0:11:00 > 0:11:04- ..that he wanted to marry Mabel...
0:11:05 > 0:11:08- ..and that she'd agreed.
0:11:10 > 0:11:12- SHE SOBS
0:11:23 > 0:11:26- A whirlwind followed...
0:11:27 > 0:11:31- ..before she walked down the aisle - at Bethel chapel...
0:11:33 > 0:11:38- ..in a wedding dress that Mama - sewed for her in one weekend flat.
0:11:41 > 0:11:44- I was her bridesmaid.
0:11:48 > 0:11:53- That day almost killed me, - if I'm honest.
0:11:57 > 0:11:59- And I told Mabel...
0:12:01 > 0:12:03- ..to make sure she felt guilty.
0:12:04 > 0:12:09- Putting me through something - as traumatic as that.
0:12:18 > 0:12:23- I forgave her after about a month.
0:12:25 > 0:12:28- She begged and begged - for forgiveness.
0:12:33 > 0:12:36- I said I would only forgive her...
0:12:36 > 0:12:41- ..if she never left my bed - in the night...
0:12:43 > 0:12:46- ..to go and sleep with Glyn...
0:12:46 > 0:12:50- ..to never do - anything nasty with Glyn...
0:12:51 > 0:12:55- ..and never, ever consider - having babies with him.
0:13:01 > 0:13:04- Anyway, he was sitting in his seat.
0:13:05 > 0:13:10- And I was sitting in my seat, here, - minding my own business.
0:13:14 > 0:13:19- "I want you to smack me - on my bottom, Glyn," I said.
0:13:22 > 0:13:25- I can't tell you - where the idea came from.
0:13:25 > 0:13:29- Once I'd thought of it, - I couldn't get rid of it.
0:13:34 > 0:13:36- I got up.
0:13:38 > 0:13:40- I walked over.
0:13:42 > 0:13:46- And I stood in front of him - for a while.
0:13:51 > 0:13:54- He tried to ignore me.
0:13:57 > 0:14:01- I snatched the paper away from him - and lay across his lap.
0:14:11 > 0:14:14- "Smack me, Glyn," I said.
0:14:16 > 0:14:18- "I want you to smack my bottom."
0:14:20 > 0:14:23- He tapped me on my bottom.
0:14:25 > 0:14:28- "Harder," I said.
0:14:33 > 0:14:35- I liked it.
0:14:36 > 0:14:39- I lifted my skirt...
0:14:40 > 0:14:43- ..pulled my knickers down...
0:14:46 > 0:14:49- ..and showed him my bare bottom.
0:14:52 > 0:14:55- "Smack that, Glyn," I said.
0:14:56 > 0:14:59- I laughed and laughed...
0:14:59 > 0:15:02- ..as he smacked - and smacked and smacked.
0:15:02 > 0:15:06- Slap, slap, slap.
0:15:10 > 0:15:12- It was nice.
0:15:13 > 0:15:14- "Thanks."
0:15:19 > 0:15:21- I got to my feet.
0:15:27 > 0:15:31- Then I went back to my seat - by the fire.
0:15:35 > 0:15:36- Oh!
0:15:38 > 0:15:42- I knew then that he knew his place - in the family.
0:15:45 > 0:15:47- We had a secret now.
0:15:47 > 0:15:50- Something to hide - from everyone else.
0:15:51 > 0:15:53- CLOCK CHIMES
0:15:56 > 0:15:57- Six o'clock.
0:15:57 > 0:16:01- You thought it was six - when the old clock chimed.
0:16:01 > 0:16:04- No, the grandfather clock - is eleven minutes fast.
0:16:05 > 0:16:10- It's six o'clock now, - according to my star clock.
0:16:10 > 0:16:15- Richard got the old clock after Dad. - Mama's was the grandmother clock.
0:16:16 > 0:16:21- That one was Auntie Ag's clock, - and Mabel's clock there.
0:16:21 > 0:16:25- Glyn always checked his gold watch.
0:16:25 > 0:16:27- I always wind Glyn's gold watch...
0:16:29 > 0:16:31- ..well, all the clocks, - to tell the truth.
0:16:32 > 0:16:35- I don't know why. - Everyone else is dead.
0:16:35 > 0:16:37- I'm the only one left.
0:16:38 > 0:16:42- I don't know why Glyn - wasn't buried with this gold watch.
0:16:43 > 0:16:46- Mabel insisted on keeping it.
0:16:47 > 0:16:49- I wanted him to wear his gold watch.
0:16:51 > 0:16:53- He wore his best suit...
0:16:53 > 0:16:58- ..to lie in the coffin in the - front room, surrounded by flowers.
0:17:00 > 0:17:01- It didn't make sense...
0:17:02 > 0:17:04- ..that he wasn't wearing - his gold watch.
0:17:07 > 0:17:11- It would be different if he - was wearing pyjamas in the coffin.
0:17:11 > 0:17:13- But he was in his best suit.
0:17:16 > 0:17:19- And I said that to Mabel.
0:17:19 > 0:17:22- "Mabel," I said.
0:17:23 > 0:17:26- "He should wear his gold watch.
0:17:26 > 0:17:29- "Mabel. He should - wear his gold watch."
0:17:30 > 0:17:33- "Shut up - and mind your own business!"...
0:17:33 > 0:17:35- ..she said, spitting everywhere.
0:17:36 > 0:17:41- "It's none of your business what - my husband wears in his coffin!"
0:17:41 > 0:17:46- I had such a shock that I almost - passed out there and then.
0:17:48 > 0:17:51- I started to tremble and feel faint.
0:17:53 > 0:17:57- And then Mabel burst into tears...
0:17:57 > 0:18:00- ..and collapsed on the floor - under the coffin.
0:18:01 > 0:18:06- Then she got up and ripped off - her blouse and brassiere.
0:18:06 > 0:18:10- Then she got on a chair...
0:18:13 > 0:18:15- ..and went into the coffin...
0:18:16 > 0:18:20- ..and lay lengthwise - on top of Glyn inside the box.
0:18:21 > 0:18:23- I didn't know what to do.
0:18:24 > 0:18:27- No-one was here to help me. - They were all dead by then.
0:18:27 > 0:18:30- Mama, Auntie Ag and Richard.
0:18:30 > 0:18:32- Richard went two days later.
0:18:33 > 0:18:36- Exactly two days after Glyn died, - on the dot.
0:18:38 > 0:18:42- Mabel found him hanging - in the shed with the onions.
0:18:43 > 0:18:46- He'd scribbled a note - on a scrap of paper.
0:18:46 > 0:18:51- He couldn't live without Glyn. - Mabel showed me the scrap of paper.
0:18:51 > 0:18:56- "Richard has hanged himself in the - shed with the onions," said Mabel.
0:18:56 > 0:18:59- "He couldn't live without Glyn.
0:19:00 > 0:19:04- "The coward, - taking the easy way out."
0:19:05 > 0:19:09- Mabel refused - to let Richard's body rest...
0:19:09 > 0:19:11- ..in the front room next to Glyn.
0:19:11 > 0:19:14- She was so angry with him - for what he did.
0:19:15 > 0:19:19- And there was Mabel, - lying half-naked...
0:19:20 > 0:19:23- ..in the coffin, on top of Glyn.
0:19:25 > 0:19:30- "Mabel!" I snapped. "Get out - of the coffin, for God's sake.
0:19:30 > 0:19:34- "Mabel!" I said again, but louder.
0:19:35 > 0:19:37- She wouldn't listen to me.
0:19:39 > 0:19:42- "Glyn! Glyn!
0:19:43 > 0:19:47- "Glyn, my husband! My husband!"
0:19:47 > 0:19:50- That's what she said, over and over.
0:19:50 > 0:19:56- She moved up and down, up and down, - like a wild snake.
0:20:00 > 0:20:02- I had to leave the room.
0:20:04 > 0:20:08- I came to sit here - in front of the fire.
0:20:10 > 0:20:13- In a while, - Mabel came to join me.
0:20:16 > 0:20:20- She put Glyn's gold watch - in the sideboard...
0:20:20 > 0:20:25- ..then went to the back-kitchen - to peel kidney beans for supper.
0:20:30 > 0:20:34- That was an odd performance, - I thought to myself.
0:20:36 > 0:20:38- Good heavens.
0:20:39 > 0:20:41- We didn't talk for three weeks.
0:20:43 > 0:20:45- Three weeks after Glyn's funeral...
0:20:46 > 0:20:50- ..he was buried in a fresh grave - in Bethel cemetery...
0:20:50 > 0:20:54- ..Mabel happened to bend in front - of me to put coal on the fire.
0:20:55 > 0:20:57- I pinched her bottom.
0:20:57 > 0:21:00- "Oh," she said, - and straightened herself up.
0:21:01 > 0:21:03- She looked at me...
0:21:04 > 0:21:09- ..then the pair of us - had a fit of giggles.
0:21:12 > 0:21:16- We giggled and giggled, - tickled and pinched each other...
0:21:16 > 0:21:20- ..off and on all night, - until the next morning.
0:21:23 > 0:21:26- That was the best night of my life.
0:21:27 > 0:21:29- Just me and Mabel in this house.
0:21:32 > 0:21:34- Just as it was meant to be.
0:21:36 > 0:21:37- Oh!
0:21:38 > 0:21:41- The pressure - had been too much for Mabel.
0:21:43 > 0:21:47- That's why I decided, a while - before Glyn's first stroke...
0:21:47 > 0:21:50- ..that the kindest thing to do...
0:21:51 > 0:21:53- ..for Mabel's sake...
0:21:53 > 0:21:57- ..was to let Mama - fall down the stairs...
0:21:57 > 0:22:00- ..the next time - Glyn carried her to bed.
0:22:01 > 0:22:04- Mama had nothing to live for, - anyway.
0:22:04 > 0:22:08- She was more like a cabbage, - to tell you the truth.
0:22:08 > 0:22:12- The next time Glyn - smacked my bottom, I said to him...
0:22:12 > 0:22:16- .."Next time you carry Mama - upstairs to bed...
0:22:16 > 0:22:19- "..let her slip out of your hands...
0:22:19 > 0:22:23- "..so she falls downstairs - and bangs her head and dies.
0:22:23 > 0:22:28- "It can look like an accident." - He stopped smacking for a minute.
0:22:28 > 0:22:31- "Don't stop," I said. - "Smack me harder."
0:22:33 > 0:22:36- That night, - Glyn, Richard and Mabel...
0:22:36 > 0:22:39- ..went through - the nightly routine...
0:22:39 > 0:22:42- ..of bathing - and brushing Mama's hair.
0:22:42 > 0:22:47- It took ages by then because Mama - was so floppy in the chair.
0:22:47 > 0:22:49- Glyn carried her upstairs...
0:22:50 > 0:22:55- ..while Richard wound the clocks - and Mabel made sandwiches for us.
0:22:55 > 0:22:57- Auntie Ag was asleep there.
0:22:57 > 0:23:00- Then we heard - bumpety-bumpety-bump...
0:23:00 > 0:23:04- ..a bang and a loud crack - on the bottom of the stairs.
0:23:04 > 0:23:08- Richard got up, - Mabel ran in with a bread knife...
0:23:08 > 0:23:11- ..I jumped up and Auntie Ag woke.
0:23:11 > 0:23:14- We all went through to the hall.
0:23:19 > 0:23:23- We found Mama - in a heap on the floor...
0:23:25 > 0:23:27- ..next to the hatstand.
0:23:27 > 0:23:32- She was staring straight ahead, - and blood was coming from her mouth.
0:23:35 > 0:23:37- She was dead, no doubt about that.
0:23:38 > 0:23:43- Glyn stood on the top of the stairs, - dumbstruck, flushed and sweating.
0:23:48 > 0:23:51- No-one said anything - for a long time.
0:23:52 > 0:23:54- Richard went to pick Mam up.
0:23:55 > 0:23:57- He said to Mabel, "Get the doctor.
0:23:58 > 0:24:02- "Tell him Mama has fallen, - she's banged her head and died."
0:24:02 > 0:24:04- Mabel went to the doctor's house.
0:24:04 > 0:24:08- He signed the death certificate - without asking questions.
0:24:09 > 0:24:11- "Pneumonia with complications."
0:24:11 > 0:24:14- Mam looked like a porcelain dolly - in the coffin.
0:24:15 > 0:24:18- We buried Mam alongside Dad - in Bethel cemetery.
0:24:18 > 0:24:21- It was the first corpse I'd seen.
0:24:21 > 0:24:24- I was too young - to remember Dad dying.
0:24:25 > 0:24:29- There wasn't a body - after Dad fell in the vat.
0:24:33 > 0:24:36- Oh, we were so happy after that...
0:24:37 > 0:24:41- ..until Auntie Ag - started on her antics.
0:24:41 > 0:24:45- "I want to go home," - she said one night, out of the blue.
0:24:46 > 0:24:48- That's how it started.
0:24:48 > 0:24:51- She'd been alright up until then.
0:24:51 > 0:24:54- She was obviously losing it.
0:24:54 > 0:24:58- She did lots of comical things, - like boiling the kettle...
0:24:59 > 0:25:03- ..and pouring the water - into the sink instead of the teapot.
0:25:03 > 0:25:07- We were sitting - in front of the fire...
0:25:07 > 0:25:13- ..waiting for Mabel to bring us - bowls of chips and Branston pickle.
0:25:13 > 0:25:15- It must have been a Friday night.
0:25:16 > 0:25:19- On Friday, we had chips in a bowl...
0:25:19 > 0:25:23- ..with Branston pickle - and bread and butter.
0:25:23 > 0:25:27- Auntie Ag was acting - more oddly than usual.
0:25:27 > 0:25:31- "I want to go home now," she said.
0:25:31 > 0:25:35- We looked at each other - and didn't take any notice of her.
0:25:35 > 0:25:38- "I want to go home," she said again.
0:25:39 > 0:25:43- "Eat your chips now, Auntie Ag," - said Mabel.
0:25:43 > 0:25:47- "Take me home to Cilymaenllwyd," - said Auntie Ag again.
0:25:47 > 0:25:50- That's where she lived - when she was a maid...
0:25:51 > 0:25:54- ..in the Cilymaenllwyd - servants quarters.
0:25:54 > 0:25:57- She was there - when the two little girls drowned.
0:25:59 > 0:26:03- Cilymaenllwyd became a convalescent - hospital for sick people.
0:26:04 > 0:26:08- That's where Glyn went - after his first stroke.
0:26:09 > 0:26:14- He had his first stroke - after one of our smacking sessions.
0:26:15 > 0:26:17- Everybody was out for the day...
0:26:17 > 0:26:21- ..selling Richard's vegetables - at Llanelli market.
0:26:21 > 0:26:27- I forced Glyn to smack me for longer - and harder than usual with a ruler.
0:26:28 > 0:26:32- He wasn't hitting me hard enough - with his hand any more.
0:26:32 > 0:26:37- His arms had weakened since he'd - finished working in the steelworks.
0:26:37 > 0:26:41- The ruler did the job much better.
0:26:42 > 0:26:48- After being at it for half an hour, - Glyn slumped in the seat.
0:26:48 > 0:26:50- "Don't stop," I said.
0:26:51 > 0:26:53- "What's wrong with you?"
0:26:53 > 0:26:56- Glyn wasn't moving.
0:26:57 > 0:26:59- I looked at him.
0:27:00 > 0:27:04- His mouth was crooked and there - was saliva coming down his chin.
0:27:04 > 0:27:07- I knew something was wrong.
0:27:07 > 0:27:11- At that moment, luckily, - Richard came back in...
0:27:12 > 0:27:15- ..to get more potatoes - from the shed.
0:27:15 > 0:27:21- They'd sold out of potatoes - in the market and wanted more.
0:27:22 > 0:27:24- He came in to use the toilet.
0:27:25 > 0:27:31- He saw the state on Glyn - and went all grey.
0:27:32 > 0:27:34- "Glyn! Glyn!" he shouted.
0:27:35 > 0:27:37- He ran out to get the doctor.
0:27:39 > 0:27:41- Glyn had suffered a massive stroke.
0:27:42 > 0:27:45- He was in Llanelli hospital - for weeks...
0:27:46 > 0:27:50- ..before they moved him - to Cilymaenllwyd to convalesce.
0:27:50 > 0:27:52- I remember going to see him.
0:27:54 > 0:27:55- Oh!
0:27:57 > 0:28:00- I remember seeing Glyn in bed.
0:28:00 > 0:28:05- His legs were under this big frame.
0:28:07 > 0:28:10- The doctor at the hospital - told us...
0:28:11 > 0:28:16- ..that Glyn - had been rambling in his sleep.
0:28:17 > 0:28:22- Something about smacking - and Mama falling downstairs.
0:28:24 > 0:28:28- The doctor looked at me - and whispered in my ear.
0:28:29 > 0:28:35- "Secrets put too much strain - on a man of conscience, like Glyn.
0:28:36 > 0:28:41- "It was these secrets - that probably caused the stroke.
0:28:42 > 0:28:44- "It could have killed him.
0:28:44 > 0:28:48- "Glyn will never speak, - write or walk again.
0:28:49 > 0:28:51- "Glyn needs rest...
0:28:52 > 0:28:56- "..to recover from whatever - was weighing on his mind."
0:28:57 > 0:29:01- We brought Glyn home - soon after that...
0:29:02 > 0:29:04- ..back to his seat over there.
0:29:05 > 0:29:07- He never got over that first stroke.
0:29:08 > 0:29:12- He couldn't do much, - except utter the odd sound.
0:29:15 > 0:29:17- Richard loved having Glyn home.
0:29:17 > 0:29:20- He wasn't happy without him.
0:29:20 > 0:29:24- To help Mabel, Richard insisted - on looking after Glyn himself.
0:29:24 > 0:29:29- He did everything for him, - despite Mabel's protests.
0:29:29 > 0:29:32- Richard made such a fuss over Glyn.
0:29:32 > 0:29:37- He was like a woman around him, - serving on him hand and foot.
0:29:40 > 0:29:44- Poor dab, Glyn. - He'd been such a strong man.
0:29:58 > 0:30:02- He had terrible nightmares - in the night.
0:30:02 > 0:30:04- I could hear him shouting...
0:30:04 > 0:30:08- ..as if he was seeing - terrible things in his sleep.
0:30:08 > 0:30:10- He often kept me and Mabel awake...
0:30:11 > 0:30:16- ..until Richard sang hymns - to soothe him.
0:30:18 > 0:30:21- Richard had a beautiful tenor voice.
0:30:23 > 0:30:27- # On a hill far away
0:30:28 > 0:30:31- # Stood an old rugged cross
0:30:32 > 0:30:35- # The emblem of suff'ring
0:30:36 > 0:30:38- # And shame
0:30:39 > 0:30:42- # And I love that old cross #
0:30:54 > 0:30:56- CLOCK CHIMES
0:31:21 > 0:31:24- Anyway, back to Auntie Ag.
0:31:25 > 0:31:29- "I want to go home," - she said that Friday night.
0:31:31 > 0:31:35- "I want to go home now," - she said again.
0:31:36 > 0:31:37- "Now!"
0:31:38 > 0:31:42- And with that, she tipped her chips - all over the mat...
0:31:43 > 0:31:46- ..and got out of her seat, - like a madwoman.
0:31:46 > 0:31:48- Mabel and Richard struggled...
0:31:48 > 0:31:51- ..to stop her going - for the front door.
0:31:51 > 0:31:55- "You are home! This is home!" - we said to her.
0:31:55 > 0:31:59- "Shut up, Ag! Shut up, woman!"
0:32:00 > 0:32:03- I was getting nastier all the time.
0:32:04 > 0:32:06- "Shut up, woman!"
0:32:08 > 0:32:12- We were scared - that people would hear her scream.
0:32:13 > 0:32:17- It wasn't anyone's business - what went on here...
0:32:20 > 0:32:24- ..especially Dorothy Hunt next door.
0:32:26 > 0:32:27- SHE FARTS
0:32:27 > 0:32:32- She was an old snob, peeping over - the fence every chance she had.
0:32:36 > 0:32:39- She looked - through holes in the wall...
0:32:40 > 0:32:43- ..to see - what was going on in our house.
0:32:43 > 0:32:47- She even cut down the trees - on our side of the fence...
0:32:49 > 0:32:51- ..so she could have a better look.
0:32:52 > 0:32:54- Richard was livid.
0:32:54 > 0:32:58- "Don't touch the leaves - on our side again," he said.
0:32:58 > 0:33:00- "Or I'll kill you with my sickle."
0:33:00 > 0:33:03- He waved the sickle like a lunatic.
0:33:03 > 0:33:07- I decided I'd kill her one day - with Richard's sickle.
0:33:08 > 0:33:13- I slipped out to the shed - and tried to lift the sickle...
0:33:13 > 0:33:16- ..to work out how to kill her.
0:33:16 > 0:33:19- It was too heavy to carry. - I was too weak.
0:33:20 > 0:33:24- I decided to drink Complan - to build up my strength...
0:33:24 > 0:33:27- ..so I could kill - the old bitch one day.
0:33:27 > 0:33:30- I asked Mabel - to buy Complan in the Co-op...
0:33:31 > 0:33:33- ..the next time she went shopping.
0:33:34 > 0:33:35- Until then...
0:33:35 > 0:33:40- ..I'd have to make do with - imagining chopping Dorothy up...
0:33:40 > 0:33:43- ..and burying pieces of her body - in Richard's garden.
0:33:44 > 0:33:46- I'll get my chance.
0:33:48 > 0:33:51- CLOCKS TICK
0:33:59 > 0:34:03- By now, Auntie Ag's performances - got the better of us all.
0:34:03 > 0:34:07- She was upsetting everyone, - especially Glyn.
0:34:07 > 0:34:11- After his first stroke, - Glyn couldn't cope with any upset.
0:34:11 > 0:34:16- When Auntie Ag started her antics, - Glyn rocked back and forth...
0:34:17 > 0:34:18- ..and dribbled.
0:34:18 > 0:34:22- Richard snapped, having clearly - reached breaking point.
0:34:22 > 0:34:23- The next thing I saw...
0:34:25 > 0:34:29- ..was Richard putting a cushion - over Auntie Ag's mouth.
0:34:31 > 0:34:34- Here, next to me on the sofa.
0:34:35 > 0:34:36- SCREAMS
0:34:44 > 0:34:46- And then he sat on top of her.
0:34:51 > 0:34:53- She kicked her legs wildly.
0:34:53 > 0:34:56- Then she stopped moving.
0:35:13 > 0:35:17- When Richard took the cushion - from Auntie Ag's face...
0:35:18 > 0:35:20- ..she was black and blue.
0:35:21 > 0:35:23- Her eyes and mouth were open.
0:35:29 > 0:35:32- No-one said anything - for a long time.
0:35:33 > 0:35:37- Mabel went to the back-kitchen - to make us all a cup of tea.
0:35:39 > 0:35:42- The doctor - signed the death certificate.
0:35:42 > 0:35:45- "Died peacefully of natural causes."
0:35:50 > 0:35:53- Auntie Ag lay in the coffin - in the front room...
0:35:53 > 0:35:58- ..until we buried her in the - family grave, next to Mam and Dad.
0:35:59 > 0:36:02- Oh, we were so happy after that.
0:36:04 > 0:36:08- I remember one day, - we had a picnic in the garden.
0:36:09 > 0:36:13- Oh, ginger beer, - dandelion and burdock...
0:36:14 > 0:36:17- ..and Victoria sponge.
0:36:18 > 0:36:21- "Yoo-hoo, Ceinwen!
0:36:24 > 0:36:26- "It's Dorothy Hunt from next door.
0:36:27 > 0:36:29- "Are you alright?
0:36:29 > 0:36:31- "Hello?"
0:36:46 > 0:36:48- SHE LAUGHS
0:36:48 > 0:36:52- Did you hear her laughing out there? - That's what she does.
0:36:52 > 0:36:57- She comes to our garden, - without permission, to laugh at me.
0:36:57 > 0:37:01- That's what she did, - to come between me and Mabel.
0:37:01 > 0:37:05- Mabel tried her best - to keep the garden tidy.
0:37:05 > 0:37:09- It was a lot of work for one. - I was too weak to help.
0:37:09 > 0:37:11- That's how it was...
0:37:11 > 0:37:14- ..until Dorothy Hunt next door - spoiled everything.
0:37:15 > 0:37:19- Dorothy tried to talk to Mabel - over the fence.
0:37:19 > 0:37:22- Mabel paid no attention at first.
0:37:22 > 0:37:25- But Dorothy carried on talking, - non-stop...
0:37:26 > 0:37:29- ..until Mabel - started to answer her back.
0:37:29 > 0:37:32- A few words to start, - then sentences...
0:37:32 > 0:37:34- ..then in the end...
0:37:34 > 0:37:38- ..I'd see them chatting - and laughing out there for ages.
0:37:39 > 0:37:41- That was bad enough.
0:37:41 > 0:37:47- But one day, Mabel said she was - going to town with Dorothy to shop.
0:37:49 > 0:37:52- I sulked with her.
0:38:07 > 0:38:09- The terrible day dawned...
0:38:09 > 0:38:13- ..on which Mabel and Dorothy Hunt - had arranged to go shopping.
0:38:14 > 0:38:16- Mabel came downstairs...
0:38:16 > 0:38:20- ..dressed in a colourful dress...
0:38:22 > 0:38:23- ..all flowery.
0:38:25 > 0:38:28- I looked at her.
0:38:28 > 0:38:33- "You're being disrespectful, Mabel," - I said. "Dressed like that.
0:38:34 > 0:38:37- "We've suffered so much grief - in this house.
0:38:38 > 0:38:42- "You should be in grey, - in semi-mourning.
0:38:43 > 0:38:45- "What will people say?"
0:38:47 > 0:38:49- "I don't care," she said.
0:38:50 > 0:38:56- She put on a pretty bonnet, - and looked at herself in the mirror.
0:38:56 > 0:38:59- She put pink lipstick on her lips.
0:39:00 > 0:39:02- "They can say whatever they want."
0:39:03 > 0:39:07- And with that, - Dorothy Hunt knocked on the door.
0:39:08 > 0:39:12- "Mabel, it's Dorothy from next door. - Are you ready?"
0:39:16 > 0:39:20- I froze in my seat, - then I stared at Mabel.
0:39:24 > 0:39:28- She avoided my gaze, - took her bag, and walked out.
0:39:28 > 0:39:31- CLOCK CHIMES
0:39:33 > 0:39:35- Many hours passed.
0:39:39 > 0:39:41- SHE CRIES
0:39:47 > 0:39:50- I was starving to death.
0:39:54 > 0:39:57- I couldn't go to the toilet - on my own.
0:40:01 > 0:40:05- I had to wet myself in the seat.
0:40:14 > 0:40:16- I stopped breathing.
0:40:19 > 0:40:24- I could feel myself passing out.
0:40:26 > 0:40:30- Mabel walked in, - as if nothing was wrong.
0:40:33 > 0:40:35- She looked happy.
0:40:37 > 0:40:39- SHE CAN'T SPEAK
0:40:47 > 0:40:51- "What the hell - is wrong with you, Ceinwen?
0:40:51 > 0:40:55- "What the hell is the mess - you've made on the sofa?
0:40:56 > 0:40:58- "What's the matter with you?"
0:41:01 > 0:41:03- "What's wrong with me?
0:41:03 > 0:41:06- "You know I shouldn't be - left on my own.
0:41:07 > 0:41:11- "You know - I can stop breathing and die...
0:41:11 > 0:41:14- "..if there isn't someone - looking after me.
0:41:15 > 0:41:19- "You know I can't go - to the toilet on my own."
0:41:24 > 0:41:27- "Stop, stop, stop.
0:41:28 > 0:41:31- "You can go to the toilet - on your own.
0:41:31 > 0:41:34- "You can look after yourself - when you want to.
0:41:35 > 0:41:37- "You just don't want to.
0:41:37 > 0:41:41- "You just want - to keep me prisoner in the house.
0:41:41 > 0:41:45- "I've had enough of it. - Do you understand?"
0:41:50 > 0:41:52- SHE CAN'T SPEAK
0:42:04 > 0:42:08- "Stop breathing, - if that's what you want to do."
0:42:16 > 0:42:18- She was going to let me die.
0:42:23 > 0:42:26- I found strength from somewhere.
0:42:29 > 0:42:31- I pushed her...
0:42:33 > 0:42:36- ..so that she slipped - on the fender...
0:42:36 > 0:42:39- ..banged her head - on the mantelpiece...
0:42:40 > 0:42:43- ..and fell in the fire.
0:42:54 > 0:42:56- Her hair caught fire...
0:42:56 > 0:43:01- ..burning her head and face - beyond all recognition.
0:43:05 > 0:43:08- I was too weak - to do anything about it.
0:43:10 > 0:43:14- I just watched her head - burning in the grate...
0:43:14 > 0:43:17- ..until she stopped breathing.
0:43:18 > 0:43:19- Oh.
0:43:22 > 0:43:26- SHE WHISTLES - "THE OLD RUGGED CROSS"
0:43:48 > 0:43:52- I sat here on the sofa - for a very long time.
0:43:52 > 0:43:55- I had to call Dorothy Hunt - next door to help.
0:43:56 > 0:43:57- I had no choice.
0:43:58 > 0:44:01- I thought - it would teach her a lesson...
0:44:01 > 0:44:04- ..to see what happened to Mabel - because of her.
0:44:04 > 0:44:06- It was all her fault.
0:44:07 > 0:44:11- None of this would have happened - if she hadn't come into our lives...
0:44:11 > 0:44:15- ..disrupting everything - and causing such misery.
0:44:19 > 0:44:24- The doctor put "coronary thrombosis" - on the death certificate.
0:44:25 > 0:44:30- We buried Mabel in the same grave - as Glyn in Bethel cemetery.
0:44:30 > 0:44:32- I was the chief mourner.
0:44:33 > 0:44:37- I banned Dorothy Hunt - from the funeral.
0:44:37 > 0:44:41- She had to watch the burial - from the road, beyond the railings.
0:44:42 > 0:44:43- "Ceinwen!
0:44:44 > 0:44:47- "It's Dorothy here."
0:44:48 > 0:44:49- CLOCKS TICK
0:44:56 > 0:44:59- CLOCK CHIMES
0:45:14 > 0:45:18- "Go away from here, Dorothy, - or I'll kill you!"
0:45:20 > 0:45:23- SCREAMS
0:45:23 > 0:45:25- CLOCKS FALL SILENT
0:45:31 > 0:45:32- COUGHS
0:45:33 > 0:45:36- CLOCKS TICK
0:45:45 > 0:45:47- CLOCK CHIMES
0:45:52 > 0:45:56- Oh, six of us - used to sit in this room...
0:45:57 > 0:46:01- ..at six o'clock, - every night on the dot.
0:46:02 > 0:46:04- On the dot by my clock, anyway.
0:46:08 > 0:46:11- # On a hill far away
0:46:12 > 0:46:15- # Stood an old rugged cross
0:46:16 > 0:46:19- # The emblem of suff'ring
0:46:20 > 0:46:23- # And shame
0:46:23 > 0:46:28- # And I love that old cross
0:46:28 > 0:46:32- # Where the dearest and best
0:46:33 > 0:46:37- # For a world of lost sinners
0:46:37 > 0:46:41- # Was slain #
0:46:42 > 0:46:44- S4C Subtitles by Gwead
0:46:44 > 0:46:44- .