Betroffenheit from Sadler's Wells

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0:00:02 > 0:00:10This programme contains some strong language.

0:00:17 > 0:00:20These are exciting times for contemporary dance.

0:00:20 > 0:00:23Pioneering choreographers are filling auditoriums

0:00:23 > 0:00:26and enthralling audiences all over the globe,

0:00:26 > 0:00:27and at the centre of it all,

0:00:27 > 0:00:30the name on everybody's lips is Crystal Pite,

0:00:30 > 0:00:35a dance maker of fearless compassion and almost maverick intelligence.

0:00:35 > 0:00:39I'm not the victim, I'm here to help.

0:00:39 > 0:00:40You're saved.

0:00:40 > 0:00:42I'm not the one to save.

0:00:42 > 0:00:43You're recovered.

0:00:43 > 0:00:44I'm not the victim.

0:00:44 > 0:00:46You're going to get out alive.

0:00:46 > 0:00:49- It's not me, it's the others who need help.- No.- Yes.- No.- Yes.

0:00:49 > 0:00:52The Canadian-born choreographer has had no fewer than

0:00:52 > 0:00:56three works already performed on London's stages this season.

0:00:56 > 0:00:59She's the first woman in almost two decades to have made a piece

0:00:59 > 0:01:02for the Royal Ballet on the main stage at Covent Garden

0:01:02 > 0:01:05and tonight she's back here at Sadler's Wells

0:01:05 > 0:01:07with the award-winning Betroffenheit,

0:01:07 > 0:01:09which she co-created with the actor, playwright

0:01:09 > 0:01:11and performer Jonathan Young.

0:01:11 > 0:01:15It's a work of searing emotional intensity

0:01:15 > 0:01:19and dazzling movement that is quite unlike anything I have ever seen.

0:01:19 > 0:01:21- VOICEOVER:- Got him.

0:01:22 > 0:01:25What do we do? What do we do? What do we do? Haul him back in here.

0:01:25 > 0:01:28Hold him, hold him, hold him. Weigh him down. He tried it again.

0:01:28 > 0:01:30He got out. He ran back. The whole thing was collapsing.

0:01:30 > 0:01:33We couldn't help. We came in after and got him out. How many dead?

0:01:33 > 0:01:36Massive, multiple. Oh, no, no, no, no. He saw it happening.

0:01:36 > 0:01:38It's too much, it's too much for the system.

0:01:38 > 0:01:41We can't take another breakdown. Get him out of there.

0:01:41 > 0:01:42It's OK, it's OK, it's OK.

0:01:42 > 0:01:46Betroffenheit is a boundary-stretching, genre-busting

0:01:46 > 0:01:50hybrid of theatre and dance that explores psychological states

0:01:50 > 0:01:53of grief, trauma and addiction.

0:01:53 > 0:01:56It's based on Jonathan Young's own experience.

0:01:56 > 0:01:59In 2009, he lost his teenage daughter,

0:01:59 > 0:02:02his nephew and his niece in a fire whilst on holiday.

0:02:02 > 0:02:06It's a very moving work, but it's also witty and beautiful

0:02:06 > 0:02:08and ultimately redemptive.

0:02:10 > 0:02:16# Have you to lose you to have you to lose you again... #

0:02:16 > 0:02:18So, Betroffenheit.

0:02:18 > 0:02:22A word and a work that defies easy definition.

0:02:22 > 0:02:27You can expect dance and theatre and spoken word and tap and salsa

0:02:27 > 0:02:29and vaudeville, even puppetry.

0:02:29 > 0:02:33It's going to be an emotional journey, but truly extraordinary.

0:04:38 > 0:04:39What do we say?

0:04:41 > 0:04:43What do we say?

0:04:46 > 0:04:47What do we tell him?

0:04:49 > 0:04:52What do we say? What do we say? What do we tell him?

0:04:52 > 0:04:54We don't say anything, we don't communicate.

0:04:54 > 0:04:55Is he at fault?

0:04:55 > 0:04:58- It's possible.- We don't know. - We need a response here.

0:04:58 > 0:05:00- What's our response? - What happened? What happened?

0:05:00 > 0:05:02- There's no information yet. - Hold on, hold on.

0:05:05 > 0:05:07It's coming down, it's still coming down,

0:05:07 > 0:05:08it's collapsing, it's collapsing.

0:05:08 > 0:05:10Oh, my God, oh, my God, oh, my God!

0:05:10 > 0:05:13- Whoa, whoa, whoa. Are you hearing that?- Yeah, we're hearing that.

0:05:13 > 0:05:15- What is that? It's an emergency. - OK. How many dead?

0:05:15 > 0:05:17- Multiple.- Massive. - Oh, no, no, no, no!

0:05:17 > 0:05:19Is he at fault?

0:05:19 > 0:05:22We need a response here. What's our response?

0:05:22 > 0:05:24- Oh, my God, oh, my God, oh, my God. - Come on, we need a response.

0:05:24 > 0:05:27- There's no information.- Oh, my God. What do we do with him?

0:05:27 > 0:05:29- Just hold him down and keep him in here.- What do we say?

0:05:29 > 0:05:32- What do we tell him?- Nothing, it's all OK, it's all OK, it's all OK.

0:05:32 > 0:05:34- No, it's failing. - It's failing, the system is failing.

0:05:34 > 0:05:35What do we tell him?

0:05:35 > 0:05:37We don't say anything, we don't communicate.

0:05:37 > 0:05:39- Is he at fault? - It's possible. We don't know.

0:05:39 > 0:05:42- What you mean, "possible"? - There's no new information yet.

0:05:42 > 0:05:45Hold on, it's coming down, it's still coming down, it's collapsing.

0:05:45 > 0:05:46Oh, my God, oh, my God, oh, my God.

0:05:46 > 0:05:49- Whoa, whoa, whoa, are you hearing that?- Yeah, yeah, I'm hearing that.

0:05:49 > 0:05:52- What is it?- It's an emergency. - Yes, massive!- Oh, no, no, no, no.

0:05:52 > 0:05:54Is he at fault?

0:05:54 > 0:05:56There's no information.

0:05:56 > 0:05:58- What we do with him? - Just hold him down...

0:05:58 > 0:05:59- What do we tell him?- Nothing!

0:05:59 > 0:06:02- It's OK!- No, it's failing, the system is failing.

0:06:02 > 0:06:03MAN GROANS

0:06:05 > 0:06:07VOICEOVER: Don't respond.

0:06:07 > 0:06:10You're going to be called on but you're not to respond.

0:06:11 > 0:06:13You're past that.

0:06:13 > 0:06:18A system is in place to maintain your position. Use it.

0:06:18 > 0:06:21It's the only approach that has worked.

0:06:21 > 0:06:24It will keep working if you keep repeating it.

0:06:24 > 0:06:25Don't respond.

0:06:25 > 0:06:27BEEPING

0:06:27 > 0:06:29You're going to be called on but you're not respond.

0:06:29 > 0:06:31BEEPING

0:06:31 > 0:06:36You're past that. A system is in place to maintain your position.

0:06:36 > 0:06:37Use it.

0:06:37 > 0:06:40It's the only approach that has worked.

0:06:40 > 0:06:43It will keep working if you keep repeating it.

0:06:43 > 0:06:45Don't respond.

0:06:59 > 0:07:00Hello?

0:07:00 > 0:07:02- MALE VOICE:- Hello.

0:07:03 > 0:07:05Did I catch you in time?

0:07:05 > 0:07:08- Barely.- I'm sorry, I'm behind.

0:07:08 > 0:07:10I was about to start.

0:07:10 > 0:07:11Well, let me talk you back, OK?

0:07:11 > 0:07:15- OK.- Let's practice the terms.- OK.

0:07:15 > 0:07:18- All talk, no action, OK?- OK.

0:07:22 > 0:07:24- You're doing this on your own, right?- Right.

0:07:26 > 0:07:28What approach are you using?

0:07:28 > 0:07:32A self-directed, self-regulating ask/answer approach.

0:07:32 > 0:07:35- You don't need any outside support?- No.

0:07:35 > 0:07:40- Because the approach is working, correct?- Correct.- Good.

0:07:40 > 0:07:42What's your first move?

0:07:42 > 0:07:45- Staying put.- Good.

0:07:45 > 0:07:46Not responding?

0:07:46 > 0:07:48No, not responding.

0:07:48 > 0:07:51- Not even when you're called on?- No.

0:07:51 > 0:07:53You're past that?

0:07:53 > 0:07:56- Past that.- Good. That sounds good.

0:07:56 > 0:08:01And what system do you have in place to maintain your position?

0:08:01 > 0:08:03The system of repetition.

0:08:03 > 0:08:05And when do you use it?

0:08:05 > 0:08:07Before taking any action.

0:08:08 > 0:08:11- When?- Before taking any action.

0:08:11 > 0:08:13When?

0:08:13 > 0:08:16You always use it before taking any action.

0:08:16 > 0:08:19- Why?- It'll talk you in the right direction.

0:08:19 > 0:08:23Right, because wrong action leads in the wrong direction,

0:08:23 > 0:08:25- you know that much at least, don't you?- Yes.

0:08:25 > 0:08:29"Wrong action leads in the wrong direction to the wrong outcome,"

0:08:29 > 0:08:32- has been proven, hasn't it?- Yes.

0:08:32 > 0:08:35So how many more times do you need to prove it?

0:08:35 > 0:08:37- None.- Good.

0:08:38 > 0:08:39That sounds good.

0:08:41 > 0:08:45So, where do you begin this systematic approach

0:08:45 > 0:08:49to staying put and not responding even when you are called on?

0:08:49 > 0:08:50What's step one?

0:08:50 > 0:08:53You identify the wrong action.

0:08:53 > 0:08:54- And what is it?- Using.

0:08:56 > 0:08:58- And what's step two? - You identify you.

0:08:59 > 0:09:02- Who are you?- The user.

0:09:02 > 0:09:03- You're the user?- Yeah.

0:09:03 > 0:09:05- Repeat that.- You're the user.

0:09:08 > 0:09:09You're the user.

0:09:11 > 0:09:14You're the user. You're the user.

0:09:16 > 0:09:17You're the user.

0:09:19 > 0:09:23- Are you quit?- Yeah. - What's your approach to quitting?

0:09:23 > 0:09:25A self-directed, self-regulating approach.

0:09:25 > 0:09:27- You don't need any outside support?- No.

0:09:27 > 0:09:29- So the approach is working?- Yeah.

0:09:29 > 0:09:32- What's your first move again? - Staying put.

0:09:32 > 0:09:36- How do you maintain that position again?- Repetition, repetition.

0:09:36 > 0:09:39- What's step one? - You identify the wrong action.

0:09:39 > 0:09:40- And what is it?- Using.

0:09:40 > 0:09:43- And what's step two? - You identify you.

0:09:43 > 0:09:44- Who are you?- The user.

0:09:44 > 0:09:46- You're the user?- Yeah.- Repeat that.

0:09:46 > 0:09:49You're the user, you're the user, you're the user,

0:09:49 > 0:09:51you're the user, you're the user.

0:09:51 > 0:09:53- Are you quit?- Yeah.

0:09:55 > 0:09:57- How long?- Er...

0:09:57 > 0:09:59Five...

0:09:59 > 0:10:03Five-and-a-half-ish or six.

0:10:04 > 0:10:07- And how does it feel?- Er...

0:10:09 > 0:10:11Surviving it. You know.

0:10:11 > 0:10:13Well, that's more than you could say.

0:10:13 > 0:10:15- Yeah.- Yeah.

0:10:15 > 0:10:19Because at what point did you quit?

0:10:19 > 0:10:21Um... At some point.

0:10:23 > 0:10:26- At what point?- You don't have to talk all that apart.- You do.

0:10:26 > 0:10:29At what point did you quit?

0:10:29 > 0:10:31I-I don't remember exactly what point.

0:10:31 > 0:10:34Well, let me remind you, it was at the point of collapse.

0:10:38 > 0:10:42In fact, it was past the point of collapse, you had already crashed.

0:10:42 > 0:10:46The situation became unstable and you broke

0:10:46 > 0:10:49and then you pushed it further and you crumpled,

0:10:49 > 0:10:51and then you got out but then you went back,

0:10:51 > 0:10:53and you did more and you did more and you did more,

0:10:53 > 0:10:55and you finally overdid it.

0:10:55 > 0:10:56Remember?

0:10:59 > 0:11:02When you came to, remember?

0:11:04 > 0:11:06When you came to, you said,

0:11:06 > 0:11:08"That's enough.

0:11:08 > 0:11:10"That's the end.

0:11:10 > 0:11:12"This is the wrong outcome,

0:11:12 > 0:11:14"and there's nothing more down here to find."

0:11:14 > 0:11:16But it turns out there was.

0:11:17 > 0:11:20There was one thing down there worth finding.

0:11:20 > 0:11:23- Uh-huh.- Say it.

0:11:23 > 0:11:25The user gets used.

0:11:25 > 0:11:28- Again.- The user gets used.

0:11:28 > 0:11:30This is the wrong outcome.

0:11:30 > 0:11:34And in the end, the user gets used.

0:11:34 > 0:11:40And with that little epiphany, you began this whole new approach

0:11:40 > 0:11:43in the right direction, and, look, here you are still with us.

0:11:43 > 0:11:46- So that's good.- Yeah, that's good, but don't get ahead.

0:11:46 > 0:11:50- You're going to be called on again, you know that.- Uh-huh.

0:11:50 > 0:11:52- And instead of responding you're... - Staying put.

0:11:52 > 0:11:55No, but what are you going to do? What's your action plan?

0:11:55 > 0:11:57Coming to terms.

0:11:57 > 0:12:00- Coming to terms is the plan of action?- Right.

0:12:00 > 0:12:03- With what?- The current situation.

0:12:03 > 0:12:05You mean the past?

0:12:05 > 0:12:07You came to terms with the past already.

0:12:07 > 0:12:10You came to terms with what happened to them

0:12:10 > 0:12:13- and how you responded to losing them.- Uh-huh.

0:12:13 > 0:12:17- You don't need to talk it all apart again.- No?- No.

0:12:17 > 0:12:20Because in the terms, you learn that once you've come to terms,

0:12:20 > 0:12:23you need to move on to a new approach to moving on.

0:12:23 > 0:12:26So what is the term for the current situation?

0:12:26 > 0:12:29- Chronic using.- Right.

0:12:29 > 0:12:31That's what you have to face.

0:12:31 > 0:12:35- That's what you have to resist responding to.- Yeah, but...- No.

0:12:35 > 0:12:37- The past is the past.- But...

0:12:37 > 0:12:40- The accident happened.- Don't. - Repeat that.

0:12:40 > 0:12:43- The accident happened. - The accident happened.

0:12:43 > 0:12:47Has happened, has happened, has happened.

0:12:47 > 0:12:49It's happened.

0:12:49 > 0:12:53Has to you, has to her, has to him, has to her.

0:12:53 > 0:12:56It started and it stopped.

0:12:56 > 0:12:59It erupted, you acted.

0:12:59 > 0:13:00It passed.

0:13:21 > 0:13:23- Hi there, how are you?- Oh, fine.

0:13:23 > 0:13:26- How are you?- Oh, you know, fine.

0:13:26 > 0:13:29- You're doing this on your own? - Right.

0:13:29 > 0:13:32- You don't want any outside support? - No.

0:13:36 > 0:13:40What are you doing? I'm trying to help you get out of here.

0:13:40 > 0:13:43No, wrong answer. What are you doing?

0:13:43 > 0:13:49Learning the terms, practising the terms, knowing the terms. And...

0:13:49 > 0:13:53sticking with the terms no matter what intrusive...

0:13:53 > 0:13:55Because let's be very clear about this.

0:13:55 > 0:13:57OK.

0:13:57 > 0:14:01Let's be very sure to state this clearly. OK.

0:14:01 > 0:14:05The whole show is set to go.

0:14:05 > 0:14:11Right. And why is that important to state here? So that...

0:14:11 > 0:14:12So that you don't trigger it.

0:14:14 > 0:14:17Trigger what? The whole show. Why?

0:14:17 > 0:14:19It's the problem. Why?

0:14:19 > 0:14:22It only leads to more show which leads to more show

0:14:22 > 0:14:25which leads to the point of collapse and past,

0:14:25 > 0:14:28and there's nothing more down there to find,

0:14:28 > 0:14:29it's the wrong outcome

0:14:29 > 0:14:33and the user gets used down there, right? Right.

0:14:33 > 0:14:35So you're not going to start doing it again, are you?

0:14:35 > 0:14:36No.

0:14:36 > 0:14:41You're not going to go down there? No. Not even a little bit? No. No?

0:14:41 > 0:14:44No. No? No. Why?

0:14:45 > 0:14:47Once it's on, you forget it's on

0:14:47 > 0:14:49and once it has started, it doesn't stop.

0:14:50 > 0:14:54Doing the show is the wrong approach. Right? Right.

0:14:54 > 0:14:58What's the right approach to the right approach? Learning the terms.

0:14:58 > 0:15:02Good. Do you need to go through that again?

0:15:02 > 0:15:03No. No?

0:15:03 > 0:15:05What does the user need?

0:15:05 > 0:15:08The user needs to stay out of the show, the user quitted

0:15:08 > 0:15:10and the user needs to stay quitted.

0:15:10 > 0:15:13How? Not responding. Staying put. How?

0:15:13 > 0:15:16Learning the terms. Why? Because it's working.

0:15:16 > 0:15:19Repeat it, repeat it, it's working, it's working, it's working,

0:15:19 > 0:15:22it's working, it's working, it's working, it's working,

0:15:22 > 0:15:23it's working, it's working,

0:15:23 > 0:15:25- it's working, it's working... - Stay with it.- I am.

0:15:25 > 0:15:27- Don't let your guard down. - ..it's working, it's working...

0:15:27 > 0:15:29- Don't let yourself be distracted. - I'm not.

0:15:29 > 0:15:32..it's working, it's working, it's working, it's working,

0:15:32 > 0:15:34it's working, it's working, it's working, it's working,

0:15:34 > 0:15:37it's working, it's working, it's working, it's working,

0:15:37 > 0:15:40it's working, it's working, it's working, it's working,

0:15:40 > 0:15:43it's working, it's working, it's working, it's working...

0:16:47 > 0:16:49Not working, not working, not working, not working,

0:16:49 > 0:16:51not working, not working, not working, not working.

0:16:59 > 0:17:01The show poses as a...

0:17:01 > 0:17:04But it's... There are no...

0:17:04 > 0:17:06No... Real...

0:17:06 > 0:17:09Doesn't... When you're on it and it keeps you from any...

0:17:09 > 0:17:13Meaningful is what you've been trying to get back since...

0:17:13 > 0:17:14But you won't...

0:17:14 > 0:17:18And you won't... Using doesn't... Using...

0:17:18 > 0:17:22What's the attraction to using? The attraction is... The...

0:17:22 > 0:17:24Is a temporary...

0:17:25 > 0:17:28HE MUTTERS

0:17:31 > 0:17:34- RECORDED VOICE:- The show poses as a...- Happening event.

0:17:34 > 0:17:37- But it's...- Not.- There are no... - New voices.- No...- New moves.

0:17:37 > 0:17:39- Real...- Action... - Doesn't...- Happen...

0:17:39 > 0:17:42- When you're on it and it keeps you from any...- Meaningful connection...

0:17:42 > 0:17:43- Meaningful...- Connection...

0:17:43 > 0:17:45- Is what you've been trying to get back since...- Losing them.

0:17:45 > 0:17:48- But you won't...- Find them down there.- And you won't...

0:17:48 > 0:17:51- Feel them in there.- Using doesn't... - Replace them.- Using...- Replaces you.

0:17:51 > 0:17:53What's the attraction to using? The attraction is... Distraction.

0:17:53 > 0:17:56- The...- Distraction... - Is a temporary...- Fix.

0:17:59 > 0:18:00Again.

0:18:01 > 0:18:05The show poses as a happening event but it's not.

0:18:06 > 0:18:09There are no new voices, no new moves,

0:18:09 > 0:18:11real action doesn't happen when you're on it

0:18:11 > 0:18:14and it keeps you from any meaningful connection.

0:18:14 > 0:18:17Meaningful connection is what you've been trying to get back

0:18:17 > 0:18:18since losing them.

0:18:23 > 0:18:25But you won't find them down there.

0:18:25 > 0:18:27And you won't feel them in there.

0:18:27 > 0:18:30Using doesn't replace them, using replaces you.

0:18:30 > 0:18:33What's the attraction to using? The attraction is distraction.

0:18:33 > 0:18:34The distraction is a fix.

0:18:34 > 0:18:37HE CLICKS HIS FINGERS No. Again.

0:18:38 > 0:18:41HE REPEATS IN A RAPID WHISPER

0:19:30 > 0:19:31IT WHISTLES

0:19:33 > 0:19:38EXPLOSION AND RUMBLING

0:19:38 > 0:19:40Wake up. DISTANT SIRENS

0:19:40 > 0:19:43Wake up. Sit up, get up, get out, you're running, you're running,

0:19:43 > 0:19:44you're running, you're running,

0:19:44 > 0:19:46you're running, running, you're running,

0:19:46 > 0:19:48you're running and there... and there...on your right...

0:19:48 > 0:19:50Oh, my God. It can't be happening.

0:19:50 > 0:19:54CRASHING AND SHOUTS

0:19:56 > 0:19:58It's gone too far. There's no way in.

0:19:58 > 0:20:02Yet you must, you must, you must... They're in there. They're in there.

0:20:02 > 0:20:05They're in there. They're in there. Must get in, must get in.

0:20:05 > 0:20:06There's no way to get them out.

0:20:06 > 0:20:09It's too late, it's too late, it's too late. It's happening.

0:20:09 > 0:20:12It's coming down, it's collapsing. Oh, my God, oh, my God, oh, my God.

0:20:12 > 0:20:14Oh, my God, oh, my God!

0:20:14 > 0:20:17ECHOING: Oh, my God, oh, my God, oh, my God...

0:20:22 > 0:20:25This room appears.

0:20:25 > 0:20:26Appears safe.

0:20:28 > 0:20:29I go in without thinking.

0:20:35 > 0:20:38And, all at once, I'm disconnected from what's happening.

0:20:38 > 0:20:39ECHO STOPS

0:20:41 > 0:20:43The feeling stops.

0:20:47 > 0:20:48I feel nothing.

0:20:51 > 0:20:52What is it?

0:20:53 > 0:20:54I don't know.

0:20:58 > 0:21:02I don't think there's a term for it, it's like...a room.

0:21:04 > 0:21:05I call it the room.

0:21:05 > 0:21:07How did it get there?

0:21:07 > 0:21:09The accident triggers it.

0:21:09 > 0:21:11Talk me through it.

0:21:11 > 0:21:14- I can't, that's the problem. - Come at it again.

0:21:14 > 0:21:17- I don't want to.- Say it carefully.

0:21:17 > 0:21:18HE SIGHS

0:21:22 > 0:21:24The night of the accident...

0:21:26 > 0:21:27..we're all asleep.

0:21:30 > 0:21:34The alarm wakes me and I respond.

0:21:35 > 0:21:36I run.

0:21:37 > 0:21:39I'm the first on the scene...

0:21:40 > 0:21:42..and they're in there.

0:21:43 > 0:21:46I try to help them get out but it's too late.

0:21:47 > 0:21:51It's hopeless, they're helpless

0:21:51 > 0:21:53and then, just as it all starts coming down,

0:21:53 > 0:21:57boom, this room appears and everything's OK,

0:21:57 > 0:22:00I'm disconnected from what's happening.

0:22:00 > 0:22:02Tell me again what happened.

0:22:04 > 0:22:07You're running, you're running, you're running, you're running...

0:22:07 > 0:22:09First on the scene, first on the scene, first on the scene.

0:22:09 > 0:22:14They're in there, they're in there, they're in there... It's collapsing.

0:22:14 > 0:22:17Running, it's too late. First on the scene. Too late.

0:22:17 > 0:22:19It's happening. It's over.

0:22:24 > 0:22:25It sounds like chronic re-entry

0:22:25 > 0:22:28into a fixed stage of an avoidance coping strategy

0:22:28 > 0:22:31in response to a significant traumatic event.

0:22:31 > 0:22:35That's the closest you'll get to a diagnosis of what's wrong.

0:22:35 > 0:22:38And unless you come to terms with that, it will always be a problem.

0:22:38 > 0:22:41But I came to terms with the past already.

0:22:41 > 0:22:43I came to terms with what happened to them

0:22:43 > 0:22:46and how I responded to losing them.

0:22:46 > 0:22:49But the room indicates that you haven't yet responded enough,

0:22:49 > 0:22:53even as it prevents the response from ever succeeding.

0:22:53 > 0:22:56It calls you back to the event and it pushes you away.

0:22:56 > 0:22:58So you keep responding.

0:22:58 > 0:23:02You can't help them and so you keep responding.

0:23:02 > 0:23:06Your survival strategy is your disorder.

0:23:06 > 0:23:07And it's inflammatory.

0:23:07 > 0:23:11It enters you unobtrusively, looking as though it belongs there.

0:23:11 > 0:23:15It infiltrates your system, which it consequently reshapes,

0:23:15 > 0:23:17and now it IS the system.

0:23:17 > 0:23:20In your case, a past-traumatic-event-based disorder

0:23:20 > 0:23:24or PTEBD has developed through chronic use

0:23:24 > 0:23:27of an ACS triggered by an STE.

0:23:27 > 0:23:29Chronic re-entry, that's all that's wrong with you -

0:23:29 > 0:23:31that's the problem you need to face.

0:23:31 > 0:23:35Chronic using is, you know, third in line and is there to help you

0:23:35 > 0:23:37come to terms with problems one and two.

0:23:37 > 0:23:40Which are, one, what happened,

0:23:40 > 0:23:42and, two, your resistance to what happened.

0:23:42 > 0:23:45It's happening! It's happening! It's happening! It's happening.

0:23:45 > 0:23:48- It's OK. - HE SCREAMS

0:23:48 > 0:23:50No! I'm not the victim.

0:23:50 > 0:23:52I'm here to help!

0:23:52 > 0:23:54No, it's not me!

0:23:54 > 0:23:57- Come on, come on. - It's the others who need help.

0:24:00 > 0:24:01No, no, no.

0:24:01 > 0:24:02HE SCREAMS

0:24:02 > 0:24:05- RUMBLING - The others are gone.

0:24:05 > 0:24:07It's you now, it's you.

0:24:11 > 0:24:16VOICEOVER: Got him. What do we do? What do we do? What do we do?

0:24:16 > 0:24:17Haul him back in here.

0:24:17 > 0:24:19Hold him, hold him, hold him. Weigh him down. He tried it again.

0:24:19 > 0:24:22He got out. He ran back. The whole thing was collapsing.

0:24:22 > 0:24:25We couldn't help. We came in after and got him out. How many dead?

0:24:25 > 0:24:27Massive, multiple. Oh, no, no, no, no.

0:24:27 > 0:24:30He saw it happening, it's too much, it's too much for the system.

0:24:30 > 0:24:32We can't take another breakdown. Get him out of there.

0:24:32 > 0:24:35It's OK, it's OK, it's OK. What the fuck was he thinking?

0:24:35 > 0:24:38He can't just...just...just go off like that and...and...

0:24:38 > 0:24:39and rely on us to pull him out.

0:24:39 > 0:24:42He can't take this, he can't take this.

0:24:42 > 0:24:45It's OK. It's OK. Pull him out, pull him out. Pull him out.

0:24:45 > 0:24:47Go, go, go, go, go. Where? Where? Where?

0:24:47 > 0:24:50No, no, no. What is it? What is it?

0:24:50 > 0:24:52THEY TALK OVER ONE ANOTHER

0:24:52 > 0:24:54Everybody calm the fuck down.

0:24:58 > 0:25:00We got him. Now, what do we do? What do we do? What do we do?

0:25:00 > 0:25:02What do we do with him. We... He's on overload.

0:25:02 > 0:25:05Then sedate him, give him everything we've got.

0:25:05 > 0:25:07No, he's quit, he's off it. This is an emergency, Goddamn it.

0:25:07 > 0:25:10Force it on him. No, he's quit, he's off it. Get out of here.

0:25:10 > 0:25:12If he wants out so bad, get him out. Kick him out on his ass.

0:25:12 > 0:25:15Oh, my God. The whole thing is collapsing, it's coming down.

0:25:15 > 0:25:17Get in, get him in, get him back in here. He's hurt, he's hurt.

0:25:17 > 0:25:19What do we do? What do we do with him?

0:25:19 > 0:25:20Lockdown. Hold him. Tie him back.

0:25:20 > 0:25:24Give him what he wants, bury him. Smother him. It's OK, it's OK.

0:25:24 > 0:25:27You can't live through that. You can't live through that.

0:25:28 > 0:25:30PHONE RINGS

0:25:35 > 0:25:37RINGING CONTINUES

0:25:52 > 0:25:55- Hello?- Hi, is that you?- Yeah.

0:25:55 > 0:25:57- Where you at?- Nowhere.

0:25:57 > 0:25:59- I mean, here, just responding to...- What?

0:25:59 > 0:26:02- No, just listening to a bunch of... - What are you doing tonight?- Nothing.

0:26:02 > 0:26:05- I'm still coming to terms so... - That's your plan?!

0:26:05 > 0:26:07Yeah, I'm going to stay put and get a little further with it.

0:26:07 > 0:26:09Let me get this straight,

0:26:09 > 0:26:12your intention is to stay in and come to terms?

0:26:12 > 0:26:16- It sounds like a blast, I know. - Are you on your own?

0:26:16 > 0:26:18- Yeah.- That's no good.

0:26:18 > 0:26:21- No.- You need some support, Bro.

0:26:21 > 0:26:25No, it's this self-centred, self-involved thing I'm doing now.

0:26:25 > 0:26:27- LAUGHTER - Is it working?

0:26:27 > 0:26:30- No, but it will.- Bring it over.- No.

0:26:30 > 0:26:34- Man, there's tonnes of action happening out here.- Really?

0:26:34 > 0:26:38- Yeah, the whole show is set to go. - Really?

0:26:38 > 0:26:39Yeah, bring your work here.

0:26:39 > 0:26:42- Not a good idea. - Come on, it'll loosen you up,

0:26:42 > 0:26:45help you see it clearer or from a different angle

0:26:45 > 0:26:48- or whatever you get off it. - Uh-huh.

0:26:48 > 0:26:49What do you get off it again?

0:26:49 > 0:26:53- No, don't.- What do you get? What do you get?

0:26:53 > 0:26:56- Nothing.- Say it.- No.

0:26:56 > 0:26:58An epiphany?

0:26:58 > 0:27:01- Yeah.- Say it.- Give me an epiphany.

0:27:01 > 0:27:04- Again.- Give me an epiphany.- Again! - Give me an epiphany!

0:27:04 > 0:27:06You got it. Come!

0:27:06 > 0:27:09- But can you still use me? - Yeah, that's why I'm calling.

0:27:09 > 0:27:11Can you get me in it tonight?

0:27:11 > 0:27:13That's why I'm calling!

0:27:17 > 0:27:20UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYS

0:28:47 > 0:28:50CHEERING

0:29:06 > 0:29:10All right, all right, all right, I'm back.

0:29:10 > 0:29:11LAUGHTER

0:29:11 > 0:29:14And I figured it out.

0:29:14 > 0:29:17Yeah, I see it all very clearly now.

0:29:17 > 0:29:20I'm your host.

0:29:20 > 0:29:24- CHANTING:- You're the host, you're the host, you're the host...

0:29:25 > 0:29:28Yeah, yeah, yeah, that's right.

0:29:29 > 0:29:32I never should have left.

0:29:32 > 0:29:35I don't know what I was thinking, you know what I mean?

0:29:35 > 0:29:39We are on something here tonight.

0:29:39 > 0:29:41LAUGHTER

0:29:41 > 0:29:44We're onto something big.

0:29:44 > 0:29:48And now, let's take it up a notch

0:29:48 > 0:29:51with a very special guest appearance.

0:29:51 > 0:29:54An old favourite, a real regular here,

0:29:54 > 0:29:57I think you know the one I mean.

0:29:57 > 0:29:59Here he is!

0:30:02 > 0:30:06CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

0:30:06 > 0:30:10BIG BAND MUSIC

0:30:32 > 0:30:35Ha-ha-ha-ha! Hi, there. How are you?

0:30:35 > 0:30:37I'm fine, how are you?

0:30:37 > 0:30:39Oh, you know, fine. How are you?

0:30:39 > 0:30:41Well, you know, fine. It's nice to see you.

0:30:41 > 0:30:43Yeah, nice to see you, too.

0:30:44 > 0:30:46I miss our old act.

0:30:46 > 0:30:48Maybe we should start over. Begin again.

0:30:48 > 0:30:50Go back to the way we were.

0:30:50 > 0:30:52You mean, before we split?

0:30:52 > 0:30:53Yeah, before we split.

0:30:53 > 0:30:55No way, baby.

0:30:55 > 0:30:58Come on! We were better as a solo act.

0:30:58 > 0:31:00This double business is nothing but trouble.

0:31:00 > 0:31:03No, no, no. I need you where I can see you.

0:31:03 > 0:31:06Uh-huh? Right, so you can follow along?

0:31:08 > 0:31:09"Follow along", huh?

0:31:09 > 0:31:11I taught you everything you know.

0:31:12 > 0:31:15- No wonder I'm having trouble. - What do you mean?

0:31:15 > 0:31:18Classic double-trouble, baby.

0:31:18 > 0:31:20- BOTH:- # I was so blue

0:31:20 > 0:31:23# Then I realised that I needed you

0:31:25 > 0:31:27# Doo-doo-bee-doo

0:31:27 > 0:31:30# Feeling so much better now that I'm two... #

0:31:31 > 0:31:32Ha-ha-ha-ha!

0:31:32 > 0:31:35Oh, it's good to see you again, old friend.

0:31:35 > 0:31:36I was worried there for a bit.

0:31:36 > 0:31:38Oh, yeah? Why?

0:31:38 > 0:31:41Well, I thought you'd maybe run off with some other you.

0:31:41 > 0:31:42Some other who?

0:31:42 > 0:31:45- What?- I said, "Some other who?"

0:31:45 > 0:31:47- "Smother you"?- What?

0:31:47 > 0:31:48Oh, never mind.

0:31:51 > 0:31:52- BOTH:- You're stealing my light!

0:31:54 > 0:31:56Now you're stealing my line.

0:31:56 > 0:31:58Sssshhhhh!

0:31:58 > 0:32:00So much chatter.

0:32:00 > 0:32:02Let's whistle.

0:32:02 > 0:32:05BOTH WHISTLE TO THE MUSIC

0:32:11 > 0:32:14Hey, just follow along, if you're having trouble remembering.

0:32:14 > 0:32:16I'm not having trouble.

0:32:16 > 0:32:18- No?- No.

0:32:18 > 0:32:21- Oh, you think you can do this on your own, huh?- Of course.

0:32:21 > 0:32:23But it's prettier with you as my back-up.

0:32:23 > 0:32:25Your back-up?!

0:32:25 > 0:32:26Yeah, that's right. My back-up.

0:32:26 > 0:32:31My supporting act. My sidekick. My right-hand guy. My wingman.

0:32:31 > 0:32:33You know?

0:32:33 > 0:32:34Back up.

0:32:34 > 0:32:36Yeah.

0:32:36 > 0:32:39No. I mean, back...up.

0:32:39 > 0:32:41Oh.

0:32:41 > 0:32:42Oh, right.

0:32:45 > 0:32:46- BOTH:- # Aren't we a pair?

0:32:46 > 0:32:49# Got two heads but it's just one mind we share

0:32:51 > 0:32:53# Feelings to spare

0:32:53 > 0:32:55# Doo-bee-doo-bee-doo

0:32:55 > 0:32:57# We're walking on air... #

0:32:57 > 0:33:00What do you say we get out of here?

0:33:00 > 0:33:02Sure. Where are we, anyway?

0:33:02 > 0:33:05- I don't remember coming in here. You don't remember?- No.

0:33:05 > 0:33:07- You don't remember? - No. You don't remember?- No.

0:33:07 > 0:33:10- You don't remember? - Ah! Just forget it.

0:33:10 > 0:33:13Ha-ha-ha-ha! You're smarter than you look.

0:33:13 > 0:33:14Oh, thank you.

0:33:14 > 0:33:15After you.

0:33:15 > 0:33:17No, no, no. After you.

0:33:17 > 0:33:20No! Please. After you.

0:33:20 > 0:33:22- You're too much! - No, you're too much.

0:33:22 > 0:33:23Get out of here.

0:33:23 > 0:33:25- No, you.- No, you.

0:33:25 > 0:33:26No, you.

0:33:26 > 0:33:30- No, you.- No, you. - No, you.- No, you.

0:33:48 > 0:33:50MUSIC STOPS

0:33:50 > 0:33:52MIMING

0:33:58 > 0:34:01UPBEAT SHOW MUSIC STARTS UP

0:34:12 > 0:34:14CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

0:34:37 > 0:34:38SLAPPING

0:35:00 > 0:35:02DOING!

0:35:16 > 0:35:18BOING!

0:35:34 > 0:35:36CRASH!

0:36:30 > 0:36:32DULL THUDDING

0:36:32 > 0:36:34MUSIC SLOWS AND FADES

0:36:39 > 0:36:42MUSIC TAKES ON SOMBRE TONE

0:37:00 > 0:37:01MIMING

0:37:25 > 0:37:27DOOR SLAMS

0:37:27 > 0:37:30HE PANTS

0:37:33 > 0:37:34HE HAMMERS ON DOOR

0:37:57 > 0:37:58HE HAMMERS ON DOOR

0:37:58 > 0:37:59HAMMERING IS ECHOED

0:37:59 > 0:38:00HE HAMMERS ON DOOR

0:38:00 > 0:38:02HAMMERING IS ECHOED

0:40:07 > 0:40:08DRUM ROLL

0:40:08 > 0:40:09DOOR SLAMS

0:40:09 > 0:40:12HE WHISTLES BREATHLESSLY

0:40:21 > 0:40:23HE PANTS

0:40:30 > 0:40:34OTHERWORLDLY MUSIC PLAYS

0:40:56 > 0:40:57Hey. Hey...

0:41:06 > 0:41:08CLOCKWORK-LIKE WINDING

0:41:14 > 0:41:18WINDING GETS FASTER

0:41:21 > 0:41:24WINDING SLOWS

0:41:24 > 0:41:28MUSIC SPEEDS UP SPORADICALLY

0:41:29 > 0:41:33CHA-CHA MUSIC BURSTS INTO LIFE

0:41:57 > 0:41:58MIMING

0:42:20 > 0:42:23WHOOPING AND APPLAUSE

0:42:27 > 0:42:29CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

0:42:29 > 0:42:32All right, all right, all right!

0:42:32 > 0:42:34I'm...back!

0:42:34 > 0:42:36And I figured it out.

0:42:36 > 0:42:39Yeah, I see it all very clearly now.

0:42:39 > 0:42:43I'm...your host!

0:42:43 > 0:42:44Yeah!

0:42:44 > 0:42:47Yeah, yeah, yeah! That's right!

0:42:47 > 0:42:49I never should have left.

0:42:49 > 0:42:51I don't know what I was thinking, you know,

0:42:51 > 0:42:55because we are ON something here tonight.

0:42:55 > 0:42:58We are on to something big!

0:42:58 > 0:42:59And now...

0:42:59 > 0:43:02let's turn it up a notch,

0:43:02 > 0:43:04with a very special guest appearance.

0:43:04 > 0:43:06An old favourite,

0:43:06 > 0:43:08a real regular here.

0:43:08 > 0:43:11I think you know the one I mean.

0:43:11 > 0:43:14Here...he...is!

0:43:17 > 0:43:19CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

0:43:19 > 0:43:21CHA-CHA MUSIC PLAYS

0:43:29 > 0:43:31Hey, hey, it's good to see you again.

0:43:31 > 0:43:33I was worried there.

0:43:33 > 0:43:34Oh, yeah? Why?

0:43:34 > 0:43:37- Well, I thought you'd finally overdid it.- Me?

0:43:37 > 0:43:40No, no. Not yet.

0:43:40 > 0:43:43- So you've still got a little something left?- That depends. Er...

0:43:43 > 0:43:45HE CLEARS HIS THROAT

0:43:45 > 0:43:47- (Can you still use me?) - If you ask me nicely.

0:43:47 > 0:43:49Say it right.

0:43:49 > 0:43:50HE CLEARS HIS THROAT

0:43:50 > 0:43:51Give me an epiphany!

0:43:52 > 0:43:56So, what kind of breakthrough are you after, exactly?

0:43:56 > 0:43:58Yeah. Breakthrough. That sounds perfect.

0:43:58 > 0:44:01But what kind of insight are you looking for?

0:44:01 > 0:44:04- Sure. I'll take some insight, too. - You want some perspective with that?

0:44:05 > 0:44:08I-I-I can't remember. Just give me an epiphany.

0:44:12 > 0:44:14APPLAUSE

0:44:15 > 0:44:18EASY-LISTENING LATIN MUSIC PLAYS

0:44:18 > 0:44:20DISTANT POLICE SIRENS WAIL

0:44:20 > 0:44:21DOG BARKS

0:44:21 > 0:44:24PHONE RINGS

0:44:30 > 0:44:34DULL THUD OF MUSIC CONTINUES

0:44:34 > 0:44:37PHONE RINGING FADES IN AND OUT

0:45:12 > 0:45:18PHONE RINGS LOUDLY

0:45:29 > 0:45:30Hello?

0:45:32 > 0:45:33Oh, hi!

0:45:34 > 0:45:35I'm...um...

0:45:37 > 0:45:39I'm doing a show.

0:45:39 > 0:45:41Yeah.

0:45:41 > 0:45:42Um...

0:45:43 > 0:45:46With some colleagues of mine.

0:45:46 > 0:45:47Yeah.

0:45:47 > 0:45:50You know, they're...in the business.

0:45:51 > 0:45:54Yeah, I'm on the air.

0:45:54 > 0:45:56I mean, I'm on the floor.

0:45:57 > 0:45:59I mean, I don't know what I'm on.

0:45:59 > 0:46:00What do you mean, "Am I on anything?"

0:46:03 > 0:46:04What's wrong?

0:46:06 > 0:46:07Well, why are you crying?!

0:46:09 > 0:46:12Jesus, Mum, don't cry! You're making me feel bad!

0:46:14 > 0:46:17Yeah, of course I know what day it is.

0:46:17 > 0:46:18It's...um...

0:46:19 > 0:46:21(Hey, what day is it?)

0:46:23 > 0:46:24What?

0:46:26 > 0:46:27That's today?

0:46:28 > 0:46:30What time?

0:46:32 > 0:46:33Oh, no!

0:46:35 > 0:46:38I don't know what happened! I just...

0:46:38 > 0:46:40I forgot.

0:46:40 > 0:46:43No, no, no, no! I'm OK! It's just...

0:46:43 > 0:46:45I'm coming over, OK?

0:46:46 > 0:46:47DOG BARKS

0:46:47 > 0:46:48I'm coming over!

0:46:51 > 0:46:52What the fuck is that?

0:46:56 > 0:47:01- ECHOING:- You came down here again?! - Again?- Down here again?!- Again?

0:47:01 > 0:47:06- Looking for?- Looking for? - What?!- What?- What?- What?

0:47:06 > 0:47:08- You're in it now.- You're in it now.

0:47:10 > 0:47:13- You've got to get off it. - You've got to get off it.

0:47:13 > 0:47:16- Get out! Get out!- Get out. - No, he's in it now.

0:47:16 > 0:47:21- No, he's in it now.- Stay! - Stay!- Stay!- Stay!

0:47:21 > 0:47:23Get him back up!

0:47:24 > 0:47:28No, no, no!

0:47:28 > 0:47:31- Yes, yes, yes!- Yes, yes, yes, yes.

0:47:31 > 0:47:34Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

0:47:34 > 0:47:35Ladies and gentlemen,

0:47:35 > 0:47:37we have a situation.

0:47:37 > 0:47:38LAUGHTER

0:47:38 > 0:47:41FUNKY DRUMBEAT

0:47:41 > 0:47:43And what is it?

0:47:43 > 0:47:45Come on, say it.

0:47:47 > 0:47:50Ladies and gents, his system is failing.

0:47:50 > 0:47:54We're failing, he's failing. His system is failing.

0:47:55 > 0:47:57Now, everybody, calm the fuck down.

0:47:57 > 0:47:58LAUGHTER

0:48:00 > 0:48:02- ECHOING:- Give him what he wants.

0:48:02 > 0:48:05- ECHOING:- Yeah. Sedate him.

0:48:07 > 0:48:08He needs it.

0:48:08 > 0:48:11Because you know, folks, he's the victim.

0:48:11 > 0:48:13LAUGHTER

0:48:14 > 0:48:16And you've got to imprint that

0:48:16 > 0:48:20on all minds, including, and especially, his.

0:48:20 > 0:48:24- CHANTING:- He's a victim! He's a victim!

0:48:42 > 0:48:43Can you give me some of that?

0:48:43 > 0:48:46Come on, just give me a bed and put me in it, man.

0:48:46 > 0:48:48Come on, just give me a bed! Come on! Come on!

0:48:48 > 0:48:52Just give me a bed! Just give me a bed and put me in it!

0:48:52 > 0:48:55Come on! Give me a bed! Just give me a bed! Come on!

0:49:00 > 0:49:03All right, all right, all right.

0:49:03 > 0:49:04I'm back.

0:49:26 > 0:49:30HE PANTS

0:49:35 > 0:49:36Hi.

0:49:51 > 0:49:53HE SIGHS

0:49:53 > 0:49:55What is it?

0:49:57 > 0:49:59What's the matter?

0:50:02 > 0:50:03The room.

0:50:05 > 0:50:07I'm...

0:50:07 > 0:50:10still in it or...

0:50:10 > 0:50:12It's still happening to me.

0:50:15 > 0:50:19It sounds like you've got a case of chronic re-entry.

0:50:19 > 0:50:22Yeah, that's it. That's it, that's it, that's it.

0:50:25 > 0:50:28You need to talk yourself out of it.

0:50:28 > 0:50:31Yeah, that's it, that's it, that's it, that's it, that's it.

0:50:33 > 0:50:36But...how do I...

0:50:36 > 0:50:38talk myself out of it?

0:50:40 > 0:50:41Back up.

0:50:41 > 0:50:43Back up? Sshhh! Just listen.

0:50:43 > 0:50:45Ah! Don't respond.

0:50:46 > 0:50:48And let me...

0:50:48 > 0:50:50talk you...

0:50:50 > 0:50:52back...

0:50:54 > 0:50:55..up.

0:51:04 > 0:51:05You see?

0:51:06 > 0:51:09You're a spectator now and not a plaything.

0:51:12 > 0:51:13That's good.

0:51:14 > 0:51:17That's really good.

0:51:17 > 0:51:18You're so far away now.

0:51:21 > 0:51:23Is that you there?

0:51:25 > 0:51:27That's you.

0:51:29 > 0:51:30Got your bearings?

0:51:33 > 0:51:35Wall.

0:51:35 > 0:51:36Fixture.

0:51:36 > 0:51:38Corner.

0:51:38 > 0:51:40Pillar.

0:51:40 > 0:51:44Door. Door.

0:51:44 > 0:51:45Fixture.

0:51:45 > 0:51:47Wall.

0:51:48 > 0:51:50Fixture.

0:51:52 > 0:51:54We're done here.

0:51:55 > 0:51:57Let's get out.

0:51:57 > 0:51:58Come on.

0:51:58 > 0:51:59Let's go.

0:52:02 > 0:52:04How?

0:52:07 > 0:52:08How?!

0:52:11 > 0:52:12There.

0:52:14 > 0:52:15There.

0:52:18 > 0:52:19There.

0:52:59 > 0:53:00Black-out.

0:53:05 > 0:53:08MUSICAL CRESCENDO

0:53:13 > 0:53:17MUSICAL CRESCENDO

0:53:23 > 0:53:26MUSICAL CRESCENDO

0:53:32 > 0:53:36MUSICAL CRESCENDO

0:53:41 > 0:53:44MUSICAL CRESCENDO

0:53:51 > 0:53:53VAUDEVILLE PIANO MUSIC

0:53:56 > 0:53:58He's out. Jesus, how much did he do?

0:53:58 > 0:54:00It was just going to be a little bit,

0:54:00 > 0:54:02- but he kept doing it and doing it and doing it.- He's the host!

0:54:02 > 0:54:05- We can't do this without a host. - We've got to get him back in.

0:54:05 > 0:54:07- We've got to stay open or we close. - Wake him up. Revive him.

0:54:07 > 0:54:09No, no, no, leave him! Just leave him!

0:54:09 > 0:54:12- We're calling it off! He's done. - Shut up and revive him...now!

0:54:12 > 0:54:15- Get him into your lap.- What?! - One, two, three...

0:54:15 > 0:54:19- Oh, God!- Hold him! - Argh, I can't! He's too big!

0:54:19 > 0:54:22- Look!- Get his tongue back in his mouth.- He's completely limp.

0:54:22 > 0:54:25- Drape him over your shoulder. He can sing it from there.- What?!

0:54:25 > 0:54:28- Here we go.- That's it now. Just a little song.- No, no, no, no, no!

0:54:28 > 0:54:31- No, this is crazy!- Fuck! - It's not working.- Roll him over,

0:54:31 > 0:54:34so it looks natural. He can sing it from there.

0:54:34 > 0:54:37- Prop him up on his arm.- Make it look natural.- You need to wipe his face.

0:54:37 > 0:54:40- Here.- Yuck!- OK, good, good, good, good, good, good, good!

0:54:40 > 0:54:42You look good. Here. Sing it.

0:54:42 > 0:54:44Sing it into here.

0:54:45 > 0:54:47- Nothing.- Watch his head. - His head! He's tipping!

0:54:47 > 0:54:49- Grab his feet!- Pull! Pull, pull!

0:54:49 > 0:54:51- Holy fuck! Dead weight! - Stand him up. Hold him up.

0:54:51 > 0:54:54- There.- Open his mouth. - Where's the mic?

0:54:54 > 0:54:56Argh!

0:54:56 > 0:54:58No, no, no, no, no!

0:54:58 > 0:55:00- He's falling! - Grab him, grab him! Got him!

0:55:00 > 0:55:02No, no, no, there's no way!

0:55:02 > 0:55:05Get him swinging. Swaying. Nice. Nice.

0:55:05 > 0:55:07How's this looking? Can he sing like this?

0:55:07 > 0:55:09- Hold the mic in front of him. - He's not even here!

0:55:09 > 0:55:11It doesn't matter. It's pre-recorded anyway.

0:55:11 > 0:55:13- Open his mouth. - Look at all this slack.

0:55:13 > 0:55:15- Can we pump him up?- Yeah.

0:55:15 > 0:55:17- We'll have to pump him. - Look out?!- Argh!

0:55:17 > 0:55:20He's a mess! He's a hopeless fucking mess!

0:55:20 > 0:55:22I want my life back!

0:55:22 > 0:55:23Everybody just calm the fuck down!

0:55:23 > 0:55:25- YOU calm down!- No, you calm down!

0:55:25 > 0:55:28- No, you calm down!- No, you calm down!- Everyone calm down!

0:55:28 > 0:55:29Yeah!

0:55:41 > 0:55:43- We have to pump him. - No!- Get the cables.

0:55:43 > 0:55:45- His system can't take it. - We don't have time to argue.

0:55:45 > 0:55:47Get them! Do it!

0:55:47 > 0:55:49Attach.

0:55:49 > 0:55:51Pump him, pump him, pump him, pump him...

0:55:51 > 0:55:54It's OK, it's OK, it's OK, it's OK.

0:55:54 > 0:55:56Pump him, pump him, pump him, pump him...

0:55:56 > 0:56:00- What's happening?! What's going on?! What...- Let's go over what happened,

0:56:00 > 0:56:02from the beginning. Let's take you back.

0:56:02 > 0:56:04Let's look at what happened. Let's take you back.

0:56:04 > 0:56:07Let's look at what happened. Let's take you back.

0:56:07 > 0:56:08Look at this, huh?

0:56:08 > 0:56:09Remember?

0:56:09 > 0:56:12OK, look at this... Huh? Remember?

0:56:12 > 0:56:14OK, look at this. Huh? Remember?

0:56:15 > 0:56:17OK, look at this. Huh, remember?

0:56:17 > 0:56:21And now forget it. Just forget it. Just forget it. Just forget it!

0:56:21 > 0:56:24- WHISPERS:- It's OK, it's OK, it's OK.

0:56:24 > 0:56:28HE GAGS

0:56:28 > 0:56:31- WHISPERS:- Pump him, pump him, pump him, pump him.- Get him into costume.

0:56:31 > 0:56:33- But it's too soon.- Now! He's back.

0:56:33 > 0:56:35- Grab him.- Grab him.- Grab him.

0:56:35 > 0:56:38- Get him back in there.- No, it's too soon.- He can't possibly.

0:56:38 > 0:56:40- He's not ready.- Watch it, watch it!

0:56:40 > 0:56:42- It's too soon. He's not ready.- He's going, he's going.

0:56:42 > 0:56:44He can't possibly do this.

0:56:44 > 0:56:46PIANO MUSIC

0:56:46 > 0:56:48Oh, no.

0:56:54 > 0:56:56We don't have time. Move, move, move!

0:56:56 > 0:57:00- Go, go, go, go!- Wait, his hair. - Leave it. Leave it!

0:57:03 > 0:57:06PIANO MUSIC CONTINUES

0:57:12 > 0:57:14KNOCKING

0:57:14 > 0:57:17RATTLING

0:57:35 > 0:57:40# I know I let you down again

0:57:48 > 0:57:53# By getting so high

0:58:01 > 0:58:06# But God, this time it's been

0:58:09 > 0:58:12# Worth it

0:58:14 > 0:58:18# I know it ends badly

0:58:20 > 0:58:24# In sadness and shame

0:58:26 > 0:58:30# But baby, that's the game

0:58:32 > 0:58:39# A fair trade for an epiphany

0:58:39 > 0:58:45# I'm moving on... #

0:58:45 > 0:58:48- WHISPERS:- We're going to get you through this.

0:58:48 > 0:58:50We're going to guide you through and take you past.

0:58:52 > 0:58:55# I know you'll say... #

0:58:55 > 0:58:58We're going to get you through.

0:58:58 > 0:59:03# I've been led astray

0:59:05 > 0:59:11# But how else did you think that I'd get through this?

0:59:11 > 0:59:17# I'm moving on

0:59:17 > 0:59:24# But before I'm gone I'm getting back to losing you

0:59:24 > 0:59:29# I need to lose you again

0:59:29 > 0:59:35# Have you to lose you, to have you to lose you again

0:59:37 > 0:59:42# I need to lose you again

0:59:42 > 0:59:47# Have you to lose you, to have you to lose you again... #

0:59:47 > 0:59:49You're going to get over it.

0:59:51 > 0:59:54# And I know it's too late to get this straight

0:59:54 > 0:59:58# You were taken and I've been left in a state

0:59:58 > 1:00:01# I was shaken and now I'm just wasting away

1:00:01 > 1:00:06# Wasting and wasting and wasting away for you... #

1:00:06 > 1:00:08We're going to get you through this.

1:00:10 > 1:00:12# For you... #

1:00:12 > 1:00:14Sing it. Sing it into here.

1:00:16 > 1:00:21# It doesn't matter what it took me and it doesn't matter how much

1:00:23 > 1:00:27- # It doesn't matter what it took me and it doesn't matter how much - For you

1:00:29 > 1:00:36- # I'm feeling again, I'm feeling again, I'm feeling again - For you

1:00:36 > 1:00:38# For you

1:00:38 > 1:00:41# It doesn't matter what it took me and it doesn't matter how much

1:00:41 > 1:00:43# Feeling again, I'm feeling again, I'm feeling again

1:00:43 > 1:00:45# For you

1:00:45 > 1:00:48# It doesn't matter what it took me and it doesn't matter how much

1:00:48 > 1:00:51# Feeling again, I'm feeling again, I'm feeling again

1:00:51 > 1:00:55# Feeling again, I'm feeling again, I'm feeling again

1:00:55 > 1:01:00# Feeling again, I'm feeling again, I'm feeling again

1:01:00 > 1:01:04# Feeling again, I'm feeling again, I'm feeling again

1:01:04 > 1:01:08# Feeling again, I'm feeling again, I'm feeling again... #

1:01:08 > 1:01:12UPBEAT PERCUSSION

1:01:12 > 1:01:15# ..I'm feeling again, I'm feeling again, I'm feeling again

1:01:15 > 1:01:18# I'm feeling again... #

1:01:18 > 1:01:20VOCALS FADE

1:03:02 > 1:03:04CYMBALS CRASH

1:03:12 > 1:03:13CYMBALS CRASH

1:03:25 > 1:03:27CYMBALS CRASH

1:03:43 > 1:03:46ALARM

1:04:00 > 1:04:03ALARM

1:04:16 > 1:04:18DISTORTED VOICES

1:04:21 > 1:04:24DISTANT VOICES

1:04:24 > 1:04:27- DISTORTED: Oh, my God! Oh, my God! - Yeah, yeah.

1:04:27 > 1:04:30- How many deaths?- Multiple!- Massive! - Oh, my God! Oh, my God! Oh, my God!

1:04:30 > 1:04:33- There's no information! - What do we do?

1:04:33 > 1:04:35Pull him down. Keep him in here.

1:04:40 > 1:04:42ALARM

1:04:44 > 1:04:46ALARM

1:04:49 > 1:04:50ALARM

1:04:53 > 1:04:56ALARM

1:04:57 > 1:05:00ALARM

1:05:02 > 1:05:04ALARM

1:05:06 > 1:05:08ALARM

1:05:11 > 1:05:13ALARM

1:05:15 > 1:05:17ALARM

1:05:20 > 1:05:22ALARM

1:05:24 > 1:05:26ALARM

1:05:28 > 1:05:30ALARM

1:05:33 > 1:05:35ALARM

1:05:41 > 1:05:43MUSIC STOPS ABRUPTLY

1:06:26 > 1:06:31APPLAUSE

1:06:31 > 1:06:34CHEERING

1:07:00 > 1:07:05SOFT ELECTRONIC MUSIC

1:07:50 > 1:07:52ALARM

1:08:43 > 1:08:44ALARM

1:10:52 > 1:10:54MUSIC STOPS ABRUPTLY

1:10:54 > 1:10:58HEAVY BREATHING

1:11:14 > 1:11:17RUMBLING

1:11:39 > 1:11:42KNOCKING

1:12:27 > 1:12:32DISTORTED VOICE

1:13:56 > 1:13:58SHE GASPS

1:14:03 > 1:14:08SHE BREATHES HEAVILY

1:14:27 > 1:14:35BELL ECHOES

1:14:35 > 1:14:40SOFT ELECTRONIC MUSIC

1:16:32 > 1:16:34BELL CHIMES

1:16:39 > 1:16:41BELL CHIMES

1:16:47 > 1:16:49BELL CHIMES

1:17:01 > 1:17:06DISTORTED VOICE

1:17:07 > 1:17:12DISTORTED WHISPERS

1:17:34 > 1:17:36Oh.

1:17:36 > 1:17:39DISTORTED SCREAM

1:17:39 > 1:17:42DISTORTED WHISPERS

1:17:46 > 1:17:50BACKWARDS SPEAKING

1:17:55 > 1:17:58WHISPERS: It's OK, OK, OK.

1:17:58 > 1:18:01It's OK. It's OK.

1:18:01 > 1:18:05DISTORTED VOICES

1:18:15 > 1:18:18WHISPERS: It's OK, OK, OK...

1:18:21 > 1:18:24LOUD DISTORTED VOICE

1:18:28 > 1:18:32RAPID WHISPERS

1:18:34 > 1:18:36RAPID WHISPERS

1:18:36 > 1:18:38What do we do?

1:18:38 > 1:18:41RAPID WHISPERS

1:18:46 > 1:18:47SLOW WHISPER: It's OK.

1:18:58 > 1:19:03DISTORTED HOWL

1:19:36 > 1:19:42DISTORTED HOWL

1:22:42 > 1:22:44BIRDSONG

1:22:48 > 1:22:49'You're rescued.

1:22:51 > 1:22:53'You're saved.

1:22:54 > 1:22:56'You're recovered.

1:22:57 > 1:22:59'You're rescued.

1:23:01 > 1:23:03'You're saved.

1:23:04 > 1:23:05'You're recovered.

1:23:07 > 1:23:08'You're rescued.

1:23:10 > 1:23:12'You're saved.

1:23:13 > 1:23:15'You're recovered.

1:23:17 > 1:23:18'You're rescued.'

1:23:18 > 1:23:21'No, I'm not the victim.

1:23:21 > 1:23:23'I'm here to help.

1:23:23 > 1:23:24'You're saved.

1:23:24 > 1:23:27- 'I'm not the one to save. - You're recovered.

1:23:27 > 1:23:30- 'I'm not the victim. - You're going to get out alive.

1:23:30 > 1:23:32- 'It's not me, it's the others who need help.- No.- Yes.'

1:23:32 > 1:23:35- 'No.- Yes. - No, that happened years ago.'

1:23:36 > 1:23:39'The others are gone. They were lost. It's you now.

1:23:39 > 1:23:41'You're the disaster waiting to happen.

1:23:43 > 1:23:45'But you're getting out.

1:23:45 > 1:23:46'And staying out.

1:23:46 > 1:23:48'Remember?

1:23:49 > 1:23:52'You're still in it, or it's still happening to you?

1:23:53 > 1:23:54'Remember?

1:23:56 > 1:23:59'You're trapped in the room, but you're going to get out.

1:23:59 > 1:24:01'You're rescued.'

1:24:01 > 1:24:02'No.

1:24:02 > 1:24:04'I'm not the victim.

1:24:04 > 1:24:06'I'm here to help.'

1:24:06 > 1:24:09- 'You're saved. - I'm not the one to save.

1:24:09 > 1:24:11- 'You're recovered. - I'm not the victim.

1:24:11 > 1:24:13'You're going to get out alive.

1:24:13 > 1:24:15- 'It's not me, it's the others who need help.- No.- Yes.

1:24:15 > 1:24:16- 'No.- Yes.

1:24:16 > 1:24:19'No, that happened years ago.

1:24:19 > 1:24:22'The others are gone. They were lost. It's you now.

1:24:22 > 1:24:25'You're the disaster waiting to happen.

1:24:26 > 1:24:28'But you're getting out.

1:24:28 > 1:24:30'And staying out.

1:24:30 > 1:24:31'Remember?

1:24:33 > 1:24:35'You're still in it, or it's still happening to you?

1:24:36 > 1:24:38'Remember?

1:24:39 > 1:24:43'You're trapped in the room, but you're going to get out.

1:24:43 > 1:24:44'You're rescued.'

1:24:44 > 1:24:46'No.

1:24:46 > 1:24:47'I'm not the victim.

1:24:47 > 1:24:49'I'm here to help.

1:24:49 > 1:24:50'You're saved.

1:24:50 > 1:24:52'I'm not the one to save.

1:24:52 > 1:24:54'You're recovered.

1:24:54 > 1:24:56- 'I'm not the victim. - You're going to get out alive.

1:24:56 > 1:24:58- 'It's not me, it's the others who need help.- No.- Yes.

1:24:58 > 1:25:01- 'No.- Yes. - No, that happened years ago.

1:25:02 > 1:25:06'The others are gone, they were lost. It's you now.

1:25:06 > 1:25:08'You're the disaster waiting to happen.

1:25:09 > 1:25:11'But you're getting out.

1:25:11 > 1:25:12'And staying out.

1:25:13 > 1:25:14'Remember?

1:25:16 > 1:25:18'You're still in it, or it's still happening to you?

1:25:19 > 1:25:21'Remember?

1:25:22 > 1:25:25'You're trapped in the room, but you're going to get out.'

1:27:36 > 1:27:37Hi, there.

1:27:40 > 1:27:41How are you?

1:27:45 > 1:27:46Oh, fine.

1:27:47 > 1:27:49How are you?

1:27:49 > 1:27:51Oh, you know.

1:27:51 > 1:27:52Fine.

1:27:59 > 1:28:02You're not doing this on your own.

1:28:02 > 1:28:03Right?

1:28:11 > 1:28:12Where have you been?

1:28:17 > 1:28:19Recovering.

1:28:19 > 1:28:21No. You went back.

1:28:21 > 1:28:23You saw it happening.

1:28:23 > 1:28:26You couldn't help. You couldn't help. You couldn't help. No.

1:28:26 > 1:28:28No.

1:28:28 > 1:28:29No.

1:28:43 > 1:28:45You couldn't reach them.

1:28:47 > 1:28:49There's no reaching them.

1:28:52 > 1:28:53You couldn't hold them.

1:28:55 > 1:28:56There's no holding them.

1:28:58 > 1:28:59You let them go.

1:29:00 > 1:29:02There's no letting go.

1:29:04 > 1:29:06You could have stopped it before it got started.

1:29:07 > 1:29:09I was sleeping.

1:29:10 > 1:29:11Are you at fault?

1:29:12 > 1:29:14I don't know.

1:29:14 > 1:29:16You're at fault.

1:29:16 > 1:29:18There's no information.

1:29:20 > 1:29:23So... What do you...? What do you...? What do you do?

1:29:24 > 1:29:27What do you... What do you... What do you say?

1:29:27 > 1:29:28You need a response here.

1:29:30 > 1:29:31You need a response!

1:29:32 > 1:29:35THUNDER ROLLS

1:29:59 > 1:30:02THUNDER CONTINUES

1:31:15 > 1:31:16THUNDER DIES DOWN

1:31:22 > 1:31:24'Look at this.

1:31:24 > 1:31:26'Huh?

1:31:26 > 1:31:27'Remember?

1:31:29 > 1:31:31'That's you there.

1:31:31 > 1:31:32'That's you.

1:31:33 > 1:31:34'Got your bearings?

1:31:36 > 1:31:38'This is the wrong outcome.

1:31:39 > 1:31:40'And...

1:31:41 > 1:31:43'..there's nothing more down there to find.

1:31:46 > 1:31:48'So, that's it, then?

1:31:48 > 1:31:50'That's it.

1:31:50 > 1:31:51'That's done, then?

1:31:51 > 1:31:52'That's done.'

1:31:55 > 1:32:02WHISTLED TUNE

1:32:04 > 1:32:06'What do you say we get out of here?

1:32:06 > 1:32:07'Sure.

1:32:07 > 1:32:09'Where are we, anyway?

1:32:09 > 1:32:11'I don't remember coming in here. You don't remember?

1:32:11 > 1:32:12'No. You don't remember?

1:32:12 > 1:32:13'No, you don't remember?

1:32:13 > 1:32:14'No, you don't remember?

1:32:14 > 1:32:17'Ah, just forget it.

1:32:17 > 1:32:19- LAUGHTER - 'You're smarter than you look.

1:32:19 > 1:32:21'Oh, thank you.

1:32:21 > 1:32:22'After you.

1:32:22 > 1:32:24'No, no, no, after you.

1:32:24 > 1:32:26'No, please, after you.

1:32:26 > 1:32:27'You're too much.

1:32:27 > 1:32:29'No, YOU'RE too much!

1:32:29 > 1:32:30'Get out of here.

1:32:30 > 1:32:31'No, you.

1:32:31 > 1:32:32'No, you.

1:32:32 > 1:32:33'No, you!

1:32:33 > 1:32:34'No, you!

1:32:34 > 1:32:35'No, you!'

1:32:35 > 1:32:37PHRASE "NO, YOU" ECHOES

1:32:45 > 1:32:46ECHOING STOPS

1:32:50 > 1:32:53'Let's go over what happened. From the beginning.

1:32:53 > 1:32:55'Let's take you back. Let's look at what happened.'

1:32:55 > 1:32:59PHRASE ECHOES

1:32:59 > 1:33:04'Look at this. Remember? OK. Look at this. Remember?

1:33:04 > 1:33:06'OK, look at this.'

1:33:06 > 1:33:08PHRASE ECHOES

1:33:08 > 1:33:09'Huh? Remember?

1:33:09 > 1:33:12'Now forget it, just forget it, just forget it.

1:33:12 > 1:33:13'Just forget it!'

1:33:13 > 1:33:19PHRASES ECHO

1:33:20 > 1:33:22'No. Wrong answer. What are you doing?

1:33:23 > 1:33:26'Let's be very clear...

1:33:26 > 1:33:28'Look, let's be very clear...'

1:33:28 > 1:33:30PHRASE ECHOES

1:33:30 > 1:33:34- 'The whole show is set to go. - Right.- OK, thanks.

1:33:40 > 1:33:42'At the point of collapse...

1:33:42 > 1:33:45- 'The accident...- There's nothing more down there to find.

1:33:45 > 1:33:48'It's the wrong outcome and the user gets used down there, right?

1:33:48 > 1:33:50- 'Right.- So you're not going to start doing anything?

1:33:50 > 1:33:54'No. You're not going down there?

1:33:55 > 1:33:56- 'No?- No.'

1:33:56 > 1:33:59VOICES ECHO

1:34:22 > 1:34:24'The whole show is set to go.

1:34:29 > 1:34:30VOICES ECHO

1:35:06 > 1:35:10'At what point does accepting defeat become the only way forward?

1:35:14 > 1:35:16'At what point... VOICE ECHOES

1:35:17 > 1:35:19'..does accepting defeat... VOICE ECHOES

1:35:20 > 1:35:23'..become the only way forward?' VOICE ECHOES

1:36:08 > 1:36:10HE BREATHES HEAVILY

1:37:48 > 1:37:49'OK.

1:37:50 > 1:37:51'So, where do we begin?

1:37:53 > 1:37:54'What are we going to do?

1:37:56 > 1:37:57'What's our action plan?

1:38:00 > 1:38:02'Coming to terms...

1:38:04 > 1:38:05'..with what?

1:38:07 > 1:38:09'The past?

1:38:10 > 1:38:11'OK.

1:38:13 > 1:38:14'OK.

1:38:15 > 1:38:16'Say it.

1:38:16 > 1:38:17'Carefully.

1:38:19 > 1:38:20'Carefully.

1:38:22 > 1:38:23'Carefully.

1:38:25 > 1:38:26'Carefully.

1:38:28 > 1:38:31'The accident happened.

1:38:33 > 1:38:39'Has happened, has happened, has happened, has happened.

1:38:39 > 1:38:40'It's happened.

1:38:41 > 1:38:43'Has to you...

1:38:43 > 1:38:45'has to her...

1:38:45 > 1:38:47'has to him...

1:38:47 > 1:38:49'has to her.'

1:38:50 > 1:38:53'It started, it stopped.

1:38:53 > 1:38:56'It erupted. You acted.

1:38:57 > 1:38:59'It passed.

1:39:01 > 1:39:03'And why is it important to say that?

1:39:05 > 1:39:07'So that you don't trigger it.

1:39:09 > 1:39:10'Trigger what?

1:39:11 > 1:39:12'Your response.

1:39:14 > 1:39:15'Why

1:39:16 > 1:39:19'There's nothing more down there to find.'

1:39:21 > 1:39:22But there is.

1:39:24 > 1:39:28There is one thing down there worth finding.

1:39:28 > 1:39:29'Say it.'

1:39:34 > 1:39:35They're in there.

1:39:39 > 1:39:40There's no running from it.

1:39:42 > 1:39:44There's no room to forget, there's no...

1:39:45 > 1:39:46..running from it.

1:39:48 > 1:39:50There is only the return...

1:39:52 > 1:39:56..and the attempt to reopen the still coming down, the collapsing,

1:39:56 > 1:39:59the, "Oh, my God, oh, my God," the, "It's happening, it's over."

1:39:59 > 1:40:00They're in there.

1:40:03 > 1:40:06There's no coming at it, but you have to come at it.

1:40:08 > 1:40:10If you don't keep it open, you close.

1:40:12 > 1:40:14You have to talk yourself into it.

1:40:18 > 1:40:19They're in there.

1:40:21 > 1:40:22You wake.

1:40:24 > 1:40:25They're in there.

1:40:26 > 1:40:27You run.

1:40:29 > 1:40:30They're in there.

1:40:31 > 1:40:32You reach.

1:40:35 > 1:40:36You reach.

1:40:41 > 1:40:42They're in here.

1:40:45 > 1:40:47They're in this attempt.

1:40:49 > 1:40:50They're in this attempt to say...

1:40:52 > 1:40:54They're in this attempt.

1:40:57 > 1:40:58They're in this.

1:40:59 > 1:41:03They're in this. They're in this. They're in this. They're in this.

1:41:10 > 1:41:11Leave him.

1:41:14 > 1:41:16Just...

1:41:16 > 1:41:17leave him.

1:41:27 > 1:41:31SOFT PIANO MUSIC PLAYS

1:45:38 > 1:45:41APPLAUSE

1:46:08 > 1:46:10CHEERING