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0:01:03 > 0:01:05- FOOTSTEPS
0:01:23 > 0:01:27- You'd think it was just like - any other institution.
0:01:52 > 0:01:55- A place that stores - information about you.
0:01:55 > 0:01:59- Just in case - it can be used against you some day.
0:02:08 > 0:02:10- But it's not that kind of place.
0:02:12 > 0:02:14- This is a house of memory.
0:02:28 > 0:02:30- And imagination.
0:02:34 > 0:02:36- This place - respects the lives gone by.
0:02:37 > 0:02:40- It knows that everyone - deserves a place in history.
0:02:40 > 0:02:44- They make sure there's always - another copy of everything.
0:03:02 > 0:03:04- I'm not afraid of death.
0:03:06 > 0:03:08- If you leave enough behind...
0:03:08 > 0:03:11- ..then death isn't the end.
0:03:14 > 0:03:18- In many ways, - death is only the beginning.
0:03:21 > 0:03:24- It's always impossible - to predict how your life ends.
0:03:30 > 0:03:32- And who...
0:03:32 > 0:03:34- ..or what...
0:03:37 > 0:03:38- ..decides.
0:03:38 > 0:03:40- SHOUTING
0:03:50 > 0:03:51- Mam! Mam?
0:03:51 > 0:03:53- Mam? Mam?
0:03:55 > 0:03:56- Eben.
0:03:58 > 0:04:01- Eben. It was Eben.
0:04:04 > 0:04:05- Mam.
0:04:07 > 0:04:09- Mam.
0:04:14 > 0:04:16- Mam!
0:06:19 > 0:06:21- Nan?
0:06:22 > 0:06:24- Six hours, thirty-seven minutes.
0:06:24 > 0:06:27- Everything's ready now.
0:06:27 > 0:06:29- We're ready.
0:06:32 > 0:06:34- FOR - ANA AND NAN
0:06:36 > 0:06:38- Ana? Bath's ready!
0:07:28 > 0:07:30- Don't forget what he did, Ana.
0:07:34 > 0:07:36- Stay strong. Come on.
0:08:19 > 0:08:22- New security system.
0:08:28 > 0:08:30- Must think you're a bit shifty.
0:08:30 > 0:08:34- Dr Eben Prydderch. I'm here - to see Elena Wdig's archive.
0:08:34 > 0:08:37- Oh, yes. - I've got a memo about it somewhere.
0:08:44 > 0:08:46- I'll take you down.
0:08:46 > 0:08:48- I expected someone in authority.
0:08:49 > 0:08:50- You're looking at him, mate.
0:08:57 > 0:08:59- THE TRUTH ABOUT LIES
0:09:00 > 0:09:01- Why did she top herself then?
0:09:01 > 0:09:02- Why did she top herself then?- - Who knows?
0:09:03 > 0:09:05- Dying's good for sales, isn't it?
0:09:05 > 0:09:10- Elena's things shouldn't be hidden - away, they should be on display.
0:09:10 > 0:09:13- All this fuss - about Dylan Thomas is absurd.
0:09:13 > 0:09:16- You've got to die young - if you want to live forever.
0:09:18 > 0:09:19- Her girls work here, don't they?
0:09:20 > 0:09:22- Ana and Nan. - Never understood those names.
0:09:23 > 0:09:24- Palindromes.
0:09:24 > 0:09:25- Palindromes.- - You what?
0:09:25 > 0:09:29- They spell exactly the same thing - backwards. A-N-A, N-A-N.
0:09:29 > 0:09:30- Palindrome.
0:09:30 > 0:09:32- Perfect names for twins.
0:09:32 > 0:09:36- Yes, well, like I said, - never understood those names.
0:09:45 > 0:09:46- This is it?
0:09:46 > 0:09:48- Better than nothing, isn't it?
0:09:53 > 0:09:55- What are you going to do - with all this junk?
0:09:56 > 0:09:57- Write her biography.
0:09:57 > 0:09:59- Write her biography.- - Don't you have a life of your own?
0:09:59 > 0:10:01- It's my job.
0:10:05 > 0:10:07- She wasn't bad, for a writer?
0:10:08 > 0:10:10- Show respect. She's in her grave.
0:10:10 > 0:10:13- She's not, you know. - She's right there.
0:10:13 > 0:10:15- It's what she wanted.
0:10:15 > 0:10:19- They could've at least sprinkled - her over Consti or something...
0:10:20 > 0:10:23- ..instead of leaving her here, - gathering dust.
0:10:24 > 0:10:28- You won't find me here - after I kick the bucket.
0:10:28 > 0:10:30- I don't even want be to here now.
0:10:31 > 0:10:32- What's in it for you?
0:10:33 > 0:10:36- I'd like some peace and quiet now. - I've got a lot to do.
0:10:37 > 0:10:39- Put these on, will you?
0:10:48 > 0:10:51- We don't want your grubby - little fingerprints over everything.
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0:12:34 > 0:12:36- THE TRUTH ABOUT LIES
0:13:03 > 0:13:06- You're not going anywhere, - you're on night shift.
0:13:07 > 0:13:08- Alwyn's on nights.
0:13:09 > 0:13:10- He's got the trots.
0:13:12 > 0:13:14- I've been here all day.
0:13:14 > 0:13:17- That's life. - I'm just following orders.
0:13:17 > 0:13:19- They can't do this to me.
0:13:19 > 0:13:23- You don't want to go back to prison. - You're still on probation.
0:13:49 > 0:13:52- You can do the first round.
0:13:52 > 0:13:56- Look at that little pudding face!
0:14:07 > 0:14:08- DOOR CLOSES
0:14:14 > 0:14:16- I just need to check a few things.
0:14:17 > 0:14:19- I didn't know you were working.
0:14:19 > 0:14:21- I didn't know you were working.- - Neither did I.
0:14:21 > 0:14:22- What ya doing?
0:14:22 > 0:14:23- What ya doing?- - Digitising.
0:14:24 > 0:14:26- Digitising what?
0:14:26 > 0:14:27- The White Book of Rhydderch.
0:14:27 > 0:14:29- The White Book of Rhydderch.- - Why's it white?
0:14:30 > 0:14:31- The original cover was white.
0:14:32 > 0:14:33- Like The Beatles' White Album.
0:14:35 > 0:14:36- Yes, that's it.
0:14:40 > 0:14:42- Guess who I just met?
0:14:42 > 0:14:44- Who?
0:14:44 > 0:14:45- Who?- - Dr Eben Prydderch.
0:14:46 > 0:14:48- You know him, don't you?
0:14:48 > 0:14:49- You know him, don't you?- - Not really.
0:14:50 > 0:14:51- He's going through her things.
0:14:51 > 0:14:54- He's going through her things.- - He's allowed to, now that she's...
0:14:54 > 0:14:57- It's the library's property.
0:14:57 > 0:14:58- Is Glyn working tonight?
0:14:59 > 0:15:01- Nan fancies him.
0:15:04 > 0:15:07- Doesn't everyone? - He's got such a spark, hasn't he?
0:15:08 > 0:15:11- I'll tell him if you want. - We could swap places.
0:15:12 > 0:15:13- I'm happy to stay here.
0:15:16 > 0:15:18- See you later, palindromes.
0:15:26 > 0:15:27- LOUD RING
0:15:43 > 0:15:45- LOUD RING
0:15:45 > 0:15:47- BUZZ
0:15:49 > 0:15:51- Who's there?
0:15:52 > 0:15:53- Eben.
0:16:01 > 0:16:03- Goodnight. Thank you.
0:16:04 > 0:16:06- Ta-ra.
0:16:06 > 0:16:08- Arrivederci.
0:16:09 > 0:16:11- Au revoir.
0:16:19 > 0:16:21- Sorry, Nan.
0:16:25 > 0:16:26- Dan likes us, doesn't he?
0:16:27 > 0:16:29- He's on our side.
0:16:30 > 0:16:32- We're not involving him.
0:16:32 > 0:16:33- We're not involving him.- - I'm just saying...
0:16:34 > 0:16:36- Saying what?
0:16:36 > 0:16:41- He might be the sort of person - I'd consider when this is all over.
0:16:43 > 0:16:44- You and him?
0:16:44 > 0:16:46- We don't need to decide now...
0:16:47 > 0:16:49- ..which one of us he should be with.
0:16:54 > 0:16:56- You know, I don't think...
0:16:56 > 0:16:58- No.
0:16:58 > 0:17:01- I don't think you're suited either.
0:17:04 > 0:17:06- You're probably right.
0:17:12 > 0:17:13- Ready?
0:17:29 > 0:17:31- Hiya, Glyn.
0:17:34 > 0:17:36- I brought you a coffee.
0:17:40 > 0:17:42- Thanks, Nan.
0:17:43 > 0:17:44- I wasn't...
0:17:45 > 0:17:47- No need to apologize.
0:17:53 > 0:17:57- She looks like a nice lady, - doesn't she?
0:17:57 > 0:17:59- Finish your coffee...
0:17:59 > 0:18:03- ..and maybe we can have - a closer look together.
0:18:07 > 0:18:09- GULPING
0:18:12 > 0:18:14- VIDEO COMMENTARY
0:18:24 > 0:18:26- I brought you this, - to keep you going.
0:18:27 > 0:18:29- I don't drink coffee.
0:18:29 > 0:18:30- I don't drink coffee.- - Oh.
0:18:31 > 0:18:33- Alwyn and Glyn always have one.
0:18:33 > 0:18:35- Do I look like Alwyn or Glyn?
0:18:35 > 0:18:37- I'll get you some tea instead.
0:18:37 > 0:18:39- Tea's for old people.
0:18:39 > 0:18:40- Apple juice?
0:18:40 > 0:18:42- What am I, seven?
0:18:45 > 0:18:47- You're reading Mam's book.
0:18:53 > 0:18:56- Anaesthetic for dealing with Glyn.
0:18:57 > 0:18:58- You need a glass of wine.
0:18:59 > 0:19:02- There's gallons of it around - if you know where to look.
0:19:02 > 0:19:03- Go and get it then.
0:19:04 > 0:19:05- I'll be back now, OK?
0:19:06 > 0:19:07- OK, boss.
0:19:54 > 0:19:56- Have you got any more?
0:19:58 > 0:20:01- Erm, yes.
0:20:35 > 0:20:37- Here you go.
0:20:42 > 0:20:44- You don't need to get me drunk. - You know that, don't you?
0:20:46 > 0:20:48- I often chat with Sir John.
0:20:48 > 0:20:51- They say he was Jack the Ripper.
0:20:51 > 0:20:53- That's nonsense.
0:20:53 > 0:20:55- I read a book about it.
0:20:56 > 0:20:59- He was a doctor in London, - in Whitechapel.
0:20:59 > 0:21:01- He treated some of those women.
0:21:01 > 0:21:03- And...?
0:21:03 > 0:21:07- He ripped pages out of his diary - on the exact dates of the murders.
0:21:08 > 0:21:10- How do you know it was him?
0:21:10 > 0:21:14- Maybe someone else ripped them out - to make him look guilty.
0:21:14 > 0:21:18- His knife's here somewhere. - Bet that was the Ripper's knife.
0:21:18 > 0:21:21- You have an overactive imagination.
0:21:21 > 0:21:23- You need it to work here, - I can tell you.
0:21:24 > 0:21:25- Drink up.
0:21:27 > 0:21:29- What's the hurry?
0:21:33 > 0:21:34- Come here.
0:21:42 > 0:21:44- I have to go, sorry.
0:23:27 > 0:23:28- Hello!
0:23:30 > 0:23:34- Hello! I had permission - to work late tonight.
0:23:35 > 0:23:36- Anyone there?
0:23:57 > 0:23:59- Dan didn't drink all of it.
0:23:59 > 0:24:01- How much? Enough?
0:24:01 > 0:24:02- Not sure.
0:24:02 > 0:24:04- Not sure.- - Where is he now?
0:24:23 > 0:24:24- Whoo!
0:26:10 > 0:26:12- I'm a mother!
0:26:12 > 0:26:13- I have two little girls.
0:26:30 > 0:26:31- DOOR UNLOCKED
0:26:32 > 0:26:33- At last!
0:26:33 > 0:26:36- I'm not sure - what you're playing at...
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0:27:16 > 0:27:19- Why did you - stick the library up here, John?
0:27:22 > 0:27:24- So you could get away from it all?
0:27:25 > 0:27:28- Trying to forget what you'd done.
0:27:31 > 0:27:32- WATCH BEEPS
0:27:32 > 0:27:34- Shit!
0:27:52 > 0:27:53- Glyn?
0:27:58 > 0:27:59- Glyn?
0:28:04 > 0:28:09- I'm meant to be checking the gallery - now. Can you let me in, please?
0:28:14 > 0:28:16- Don't be a twat, Glyn!
0:29:25 > 0:29:26- I didn't do anything.
0:29:26 > 0:29:28- I didn't do anything.- - Mam said it was you.
0:29:28 > 0:29:30- She was confused.
0:29:30 > 0:29:32- Why did you kill her, Eben?
0:29:33 > 0:29:35- She committed suicide.
0:29:35 > 0:29:38- The letter. - Come on, we haven't got much time.
0:29:39 > 0:29:40- What letter?
0:29:41 > 0:29:42- Ana!
0:29:51 > 0:29:53- All it needs is a signature.
0:29:56 > 0:29:57- Come on.
0:29:57 > 0:29:59- What does it say?
0:29:59 > 0:30:00- I, Eben Prydderch...
0:30:00 > 0:30:02- I, Eben Prydderch...- - Dr Eben Prydderch.
0:30:02 > 0:30:06- I, Eben Prydderch, - confess to killing Elena Wdig...
0:30:06 > 0:30:08- ..one of our greatest writers.
0:30:09 > 0:30:12- To atone for this crime, - I plan to take my own life.
0:30:12 > 0:30:17- I wouldn't kill myself - in the National Library, OK?
0:30:20 > 0:30:22- That's not how I sign letters.
0:30:23 > 0:30:27- Doesn't matter. People act out of - character when they're about to die.
0:30:45 > 0:30:47- It's time.
0:30:47 > 0:30:50- How would I have got hold of a gun? - Have you thought of that?
0:30:50 > 0:30:52- They check things like that.
0:30:52 > 0:30:55- Who says - you're going to shoot yourself?
0:31:55 > 0:31:57- WHERE ARE YOU, ANA?
0:31:59 > 0:32:01- Get up.
0:32:02 > 0:32:04- Come on, on the chair.
0:32:06 > 0:32:08- Do it.
0:32:08 > 0:32:10- The chair. Now.
0:32:30 > 0:32:32- I don't want to see his face.
0:32:33 > 0:32:35- This won't bring her back.
0:32:41 > 0:32:44- Please! - I'll tell you everything, OK?
0:32:44 > 0:32:46- Please don't do this.
0:32:46 > 0:32:49- It's murder. - OK, I'll tell you everything.
0:32:53 > 0:32:55- Well, well, Glyndwr.
0:32:58 > 0:33:00- You dirty...
0:33:18 > 0:33:20- Come on, Matthews.
0:33:20 > 0:33:21- Come on.
0:33:31 > 0:33:32- Don't worry...
0:33:33 > 0:33:35- It's nothing to do with you - this time.
0:33:54 > 0:33:56- I'll tell you everything. Please.
0:33:56 > 0:33:58- You don't want to do this.
0:33:58 > 0:34:01- Be rational. - I'll tell you everything.
0:34:06 > 0:34:07- Please.
0:34:32 > 0:34:34- GUNSHOT
0:34:35 > 0:34:37- Nan?
0:34:37 > 0:34:39- Nan? Where are you?
0:34:40 > 0:34:42- I can't find you, Nan.
0:34:42 > 0:34:44- Nan, just say something.
0:34:45 > 0:34:46- Nan?
0:34:47 > 0:34:49- Don't leave me, Nan.
0:34:49 > 0:34:50- Nan?
0:34:51 > 0:34:52- Nan?
0:34:54 > 0:34:55- Nan?
0:35:02 > 0:35:04- Told you that rope - wasn't strong enough.
0:35:06 > 0:35:10- I felt something coming towards me. - I thought he was...
0:35:10 > 0:35:14- I shot him, didn't I? - I've messed it all up.
0:35:48 > 0:35:50- You and me against the world, John.
0:35:53 > 0:35:54- Where's the bag?
0:35:54 > 0:35:55- Don't know.
0:35:55 > 0:35:57- I need that bag, Ana.
0:36:01 > 0:36:03- Here it is. Come on.
0:36:04 > 0:36:06- Eben won't get far.
0:36:13 > 0:36:17- Let's split up. - Check the film archive.
0:36:17 > 0:36:19- I'm not sure, Nan.
0:36:19 > 0:36:20- I'm not sure, Nan.- - Go.
0:37:06 > 0:37:09- NAN WHIMPERS
0:38:18 > 0:38:20- RATTLING
0:38:28 > 0:38:29- Eben.
0:38:59 > 0:39:00- GUNSHOT
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0:39:44 > 0:39:46- What have you done?
0:40:11 > 0:40:14- We have to kill Eben. - That's why we're here.
0:40:15 > 0:40:17- Come on, Ana. Leave him.
0:41:01 > 0:41:03- What are you doing?
0:41:03 > 0:41:06- He was never meant to be - part of this.
0:41:16 > 0:41:18- It'll be easier if I do it all.
0:41:26 > 0:41:27- Nan!
0:41:29 > 0:41:30- Nan!
0:41:31 > 0:41:33- Nan!
0:41:34 > 0:41:36- Nan!
0:42:01 > 0:42:02- SHE SCREAMS
0:42:02 > 0:42:05- Want to tell me - what the hell's going on?
0:42:05 > 0:42:07- I thought you were dead.
0:42:08 > 0:42:12- If you want to get out of something - alive, better play dead.
0:42:15 > 0:42:17- The blood.
0:42:17 > 0:42:20- Slipping on the blood saved me.
0:42:20 > 0:42:24- Silly cow didn't even hit me. Look.
0:42:26 > 0:42:30- Eben. I shot him.
0:42:40 > 0:42:42- You've really - stuffed things up for me.
0:42:42 > 0:42:44- None of this is your fault.
0:42:44 > 0:42:46- I only had - six months probation left.
0:42:47 > 0:42:49- You do realize that? Six months.
0:42:49 > 0:42:51- He killed Mam.
0:42:51 > 0:42:53- He hasn't got it in him.
0:42:53 > 0:42:56- He won't admit it - but we know it was him. She told us.
0:42:57 > 0:42:59- Didn't she kill herself?
0:43:06 > 0:43:08- You're not meant to do that.
0:43:08 > 0:43:11- Health and Safety! Really?
0:43:12 > 0:43:13- Don't laugh at me.
0:43:28 > 0:43:30- That's Mam's stuff!
0:43:39 > 0:43:42- I'm not too keen on being locked up.
0:44:06 > 0:44:08- DOOR OPENS
0:45:14 > 0:45:16- Bet you've read them all.
0:45:16 > 0:45:18- Mam told us not to read them.
0:45:18 > 0:45:20- I'm sure you want to know.
0:45:21 > 0:45:22- Not without Nan.
0:45:24 > 0:45:26- Come on, pick a year.
0:45:29 > 0:45:30- Suit yourself then.
0:45:31 > 0:45:32- I'll read them myself.
0:45:33 > 0:45:34- It'll pass the time, won't it?
0:45:37 > 0:45:40- You'd like this. Really.
0:45:40 > 0:45:42- It's about you.
0:45:42 > 0:45:43- Which year?
0:45:44 > 0:45:45- Summer '94.
0:45:46 > 0:45:49- That holiday in Llansteffan.
0:45:50 > 0:45:52- Yes.
0:45:55 > 0:45:57- Read some of it.
0:46:01 > 0:46:04- "My first real holiday - with the girls.
0:46:04 > 0:46:08- "My darlings running back and forth - to the waves like eager mermaids."
0:46:11 > 0:46:13- Want me to carry on?
0:46:18 > 0:46:22- "I chose this life. - I chose to be their mother.
0:46:23 > 0:46:28- "I created them on my own - so I could give them all my love."
0:46:31 > 0:46:32- How do you - create a baby on your own?
0:46:33 > 0:46:35- By going to a clinic.
0:46:35 > 0:46:39- She didn't want a man as part - of her life, she just wanted a baby.
0:46:43 > 0:46:46- Read something else... please.
0:46:53 > 0:46:55- 2012?
0:47:01 > 0:47:04- "I see my creativity in Ana.
0:47:04 > 0:47:06- "It's brimming under the surface.
0:47:07 > 0:47:10- "Nan was born to be an archivist.
0:47:11 > 0:47:13- "Ana was born to create."
0:47:18 > 0:47:21- She thought - I was wasting my life here.
0:47:21 > 0:47:23- We all are.
0:47:23 > 0:47:27- This place is important. - If no-one did the work we did...
0:47:27 > 0:47:28- No-one'd notice.
0:47:29 > 0:47:32- You lose your memory, - you lose everything.
0:47:32 > 0:47:34- That's what Mam always said.
0:47:34 > 0:47:37- You don't have to save anyone.
0:47:37 > 0:47:41- You could do something else. - It's up to you.
0:47:52 > 0:47:54- There's a page missing here.
0:47:57 > 0:47:59- PANTING
0:48:27 > 0:48:28- DOOR OPENS
0:48:47 > 0:48:49- FOOTSTEPS
0:50:19 > 0:50:21- RATTLING
0:50:43 > 0:50:45- This made me cry.
0:50:47 > 0:50:49- What did you think of it?
0:50:49 > 0:50:53- Young lad comes out of prison, - tries to rebuild his life.
0:50:55 > 0:50:57- I've heard that one before.
0:50:58 > 0:51:00- Do you think it's about you?
0:51:00 > 0:51:03- Did you mention me at all?
0:51:05 > 0:51:08- No skin off my nose. I liked him.
0:51:09 > 0:51:11- The character.
0:51:11 > 0:51:16- He was a better version of me.
0:51:16 > 0:51:18- He was a good person, deep down.
0:51:34 > 0:51:36- I wrote that novel, Dan.
0:51:39 > 0:51:41- She told us at the end.
0:51:41 > 0:51:43- She said your name.
0:51:43 > 0:51:46- She wanted us to know it was you.
0:51:46 > 0:51:47- Please just let me go, Nan.
0:51:50 > 0:51:54- What did she say - to make you so angry, Eben?
0:51:56 > 0:51:59- Why did you kill her?
0:52:00 > 0:52:02- HE CHOKES
0:52:23 > 0:52:26- "I went to the clinic - for my treatment.
0:52:26 > 0:52:29- "Nothing to do now - but wait to see if it will take.
0:52:30 > 0:52:35- "Wait to see whether being a mother - will be part of my life story."
0:52:38 > 0:52:40- Why do you have this?
0:52:40 > 0:52:42- Because...
0:52:44 > 0:52:48- Because if I'm - going to write her biography...
0:52:48 > 0:52:50- ..I want to tell the truth.
0:52:57 > 0:52:58- It's a lie.
0:53:00 > 0:53:02- There was no clinic.
0:53:06 > 0:53:08- That day...
0:53:10 > 0:53:11- ..she was with me.
0:53:22 > 0:53:23- GUNSHOT
0:53:32 > 0:53:32- .
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0:53:43 > 0:53:46- People liked this book - because Elena wrote it.
0:53:48 > 0:53:52- She never would have - been able to write another book.
0:53:52 > 0:53:56- The doctor said - she had early-onset dementia.
0:53:57 > 0:54:00- It'd be a while - before it would get really bad...
0:54:01 > 0:54:05- ..but you can't write if you forget - where your story's going.
0:54:06 > 0:54:08- You just can't.
0:54:11 > 0:54:13- There was a novel on my desk.
0:54:13 > 0:54:15- Something - I'd been working on for months.
0:54:19 > 0:54:23- When she walked towards me, - holding it in her hand...
0:54:23 > 0:54:28- ..I half hoped she'd tell me - what a talent I had.
0:54:29 > 0:54:31- But do you know what she said?
0:54:34 > 0:54:35- She said...
0:54:35 > 0:54:38- .."When did I write this, Ana?"
0:54:40 > 0:54:44- "I can publish this," she said. - "My final novel."
0:54:46 > 0:54:49- I couldn't - tell her the truth after that.
0:54:53 > 0:54:56- How could I do that - to my own mother?
0:54:58 > 0:55:00- Because you loved her.
0:55:00 > 0:55:02- I fooled her, Dan.
0:55:14 > 0:55:17- There's no-one quite like you, - you know.
0:57:18 > 0:57:20- PANTING
0:57:47 > 0:57:48- Keep going.
0:57:57 > 0:57:59- GROANING
1:00:12 > 1:00:15- He's still breathing. - We need to get him out of here.
1:00:17 > 1:00:19- You really - don't want him to die, OK.
1:00:43 > 1:00:44- Put him down.
1:00:45 > 1:00:47- I'm not afraid of you.
1:00:48 > 1:00:49- Move.
1:00:49 > 1:00:51- Move.- - Let them go, please, Nan.
1:00:54 > 1:00:57- It's time to move on, isn't it?
1:00:58 > 1:01:00- Do what we said we'd do.
1:01:05 > 1:01:08- We need to leave someone behind, - don't we?
1:01:08 > 1:01:11- Who will tell them - why we killed Eben?
1:01:13 > 1:01:15- He'll tell the world - how much we loved Mam.
1:01:16 > 1:01:18- Won't you?
1:01:18 > 1:01:20- Tell them yourself.
1:01:23 > 1:01:26- Eben's going to die. We did it.
1:01:26 > 1:01:27- It's over.
1:01:29 > 1:01:31- It's all over.
1:01:54 > 1:01:56- You go. I'll be OK.
1:01:56 > 1:01:58- Thanks.
1:01:58 > 1:02:02- I'll take him - but I'll come back. OK?
1:02:14 > 1:02:15- You're bleeding.
1:02:19 > 1:02:21- You shot me.
1:02:26 > 1:02:28- At least we know you can.
1:02:40 > 1:02:42- Are you ready?
1:02:44 > 1:02:48- We said there'd be no turning back - if things went wrong.
1:02:53 > 1:02:56- Look at the state of you.
1:03:34 > 1:03:35- What's that?
1:03:44 > 1:03:47- Eben ripped it out of her diary.
1:03:47 > 1:03:49- Why?
1:04:00 > 1:04:01- Give it back.
1:04:01 > 1:04:03- Give it back.- - Why did he rip it out?
1:04:07 > 1:04:08- He said...
1:04:09 > 1:04:11- ..that it wasn't true.
1:04:12 > 1:04:14- That he was...
1:04:28 > 1:04:30- Hey.
1:04:31 > 1:04:33- Hey! Come on, no sleeping now, doc!
1:04:33 > 1:04:36- Tell me a story or something - to keep you going.
1:04:37 > 1:04:40- I had to help her, you know.
1:04:41 > 1:04:42- I had to.
1:04:42 > 1:04:44- You have to help me.
1:04:44 > 1:04:47- I don't recognize my own work.
1:04:48 > 1:04:49- That last novel?
1:04:50 > 1:04:52- I don't even remember writing it.
1:04:54 > 1:04:56- What will I forget next?
1:04:58 > 1:04:59- Don't let me turn back.
1:05:02 > 1:05:04- Whatever I say.
1:05:09 > 1:05:10- What are you doing?
1:05:13 > 1:05:15- This is where it starts.
1:05:17 > 1:05:19- Where no-one's to blame.
1:05:29 > 1:05:33- She wanted to control everything, - even her own death.
1:05:35 > 1:05:37- But things aren't that simple.
1:05:40 > 1:05:42- Thank you, Eben.
1:05:47 > 1:05:48- Why didn't you stop her?
1:05:49 > 1:05:50- Maybe because...
1:05:51 > 1:05:53- ..for once - I felt like I was part of her life.
1:06:01 > 1:06:03- What am I doing?
1:06:04 > 1:06:06- Let me in!
1:06:07 > 1:06:09- Who are you? Let me in!
1:06:09 > 1:06:11- Let me in!
1:06:16 > 1:06:18- Let me in!
1:06:25 > 1:06:27- I was one of your students.
1:06:28 > 1:06:31- You always said - I was very promising.
1:06:33 > 1:06:34- I adored you.
1:06:35 > 1:06:37- Hung on every word you said.
1:06:37 > 1:06:40- I'd never met anyone quite like you.
1:06:42 > 1:06:45- And then one night - you turned up at my flat.
1:06:47 > 1:06:50- "Why don't we go to Ynyslas - to see the sunset?"
1:06:50 > 1:06:55- That's what you said, like it was - the most natural thing in the world.
1:06:56 > 1:06:58- It was so hot that night...
1:06:59 > 1:07:02- ..but all the way there - I was shivering.
1:07:04 > 1:07:06- You were desperate for a child.
1:07:07 > 1:07:10- I didn't realize it at the time.
1:07:11 > 1:07:15- You didn't want me - to have anything to do with them.
1:07:15 > 1:07:17- It was your story.
1:07:18 > 1:07:21- Your children.
1:07:21 > 1:07:23- He's off his head.
1:07:25 > 1:07:28- She used to tell us - that story over and over.
1:07:28 > 1:07:33- How she'd gone to the clinic that - day because she wanted us so badly.
1:07:34 > 1:07:36- Then she'd hold us tightly...
1:07:38 > 1:07:40- ..and tell us what miracles we were.
1:07:42 > 1:07:45- How she'd created us on her own.
1:07:45 > 1:07:48- That she was - a mother and father to us.
1:07:49 > 1:07:52- Do you remember - how the story varied?
1:07:53 > 1:07:57- Sometimes she'd recall - how she was wearing a red dress...
1:07:57 > 1:07:59- ..because she felt so bold.
1:08:00 > 1:08:02- Other times - she'd say it was a black dress...
1:08:03 > 1:08:05- ..like she was going - to a funeral.
1:08:05 > 1:08:09- Stories change over time. - That's what happens.
1:08:10 > 1:08:12- Why didn't you tell them?
1:08:13 > 1:08:16- I don't know - why she wanted to see me that day.
1:08:17 > 1:08:21- I hoped she'd decided to tell them - about me, but she hadn't.
1:08:21 > 1:08:24- She never wanted them to know.
1:08:25 > 1:08:28- I'd remember something like that. - Who are you?
1:08:28 > 1:08:31- Why are you telling me this? - You can't do this to me.
1:08:32 > 1:08:33- I'm a mother.
1:08:33 > 1:08:36- I have two little girls.
1:08:36 > 1:08:38- I'm the only thing they...
1:08:55 > 1:08:57- Why didn't you save her?
1:08:57 > 1:08:59- I did save her.
1:08:59 > 1:09:02- I saved her by letting her die.
1:09:09 > 1:09:11- Of course.
1:09:11 > 1:09:12- Eben.
1:09:14 > 1:09:16- It was Eben.
1:09:16 > 1:09:20- He loved me. I chose him.
1:09:22 > 1:09:24- Ana and Nan.
1:09:29 > 1:09:32- Perfect names for twins.
1:09:33 > 1:09:35- Mam?
1:09:35 > 1:09:36- Mam?
1:09:37 > 1:09:38- Mam?
1:09:38 > 1:09:39- Eben.
1:09:41 > 1:09:43- Eben. It was Eben.
1:09:44 > 1:09:45- .
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1:09:55 > 1:09:58- What if we don't know - the full story?
1:09:59 > 1:10:01- What's the truth?
1:10:01 > 1:10:03- You tell me.
1:10:04 > 1:10:05- You and Dan?
1:10:11 > 1:10:16- You're just like her - you always - have been. You and your stories.
1:10:17 > 1:10:19- Always pretending - to be someone else.
1:10:20 > 1:10:21- And what about me?
1:10:23 > 1:10:27- I could never be - what she wanted me to be.
1:10:27 > 1:10:29- I just put things away after you.
1:10:31 > 1:10:34- Put your dressing-up clothes - back in the chest...
1:10:34 > 1:10:37- ..put her diaries back on the shelf.
1:10:37 > 1:10:39- Made sure nothing went missing.
1:10:42 > 1:10:44- You and her.
1:10:45 > 1:10:48- You'll be together forever - in that novel.
1:10:50 > 1:10:52- Her name on the cover...
1:10:53 > 1:10:55- ..and your words inside.
1:10:58 > 1:11:00- But I edited it.
1:11:02 > 1:11:04- I sent it to the publisher.
1:11:05 > 1:11:07- I kept the secret.
1:11:11 > 1:11:13- But nobody sees me.
1:11:15 > 1:11:18- Nobody ever sees me.
1:11:23 > 1:11:25- You don't need me any more.
1:11:27 > 1:11:29- That's the truth.
1:12:22 > 1:12:26- Nan! Come on, please, Nan.
1:12:26 > 1:12:27- I can't.
1:12:27 > 1:12:28- I can't.- - I'll find help.
1:12:54 > 1:12:57- Someone asked me today - what my children were called.
1:12:58 > 1:13:00- I couldn't remember.
1:13:18 > 1:13:21- What if some day - I forget them completely?
1:13:21 > 1:13:23- Forget I'm their mother?
1:13:24 > 1:13:27- That would be worse than death.
1:13:28 > 1:13:31- Who are we, if not - a reflection of those we love?
1:13:32 > 1:13:35- Without them, we're nothing.
1:13:36 > 1:13:38- A nobody.
1:14:23 > 1:14:25- Nan needs help!
1:14:28 > 1:14:32- When they come, - I'll say I shot myself.
1:14:32 > 1:14:34- That's the story.
1:14:47 > 1:14:49- FIRE ALARM
1:17:21 > 1:17:23- Nan? Nan!
1:17:26 > 1:17:28- Nan!
1:17:28 > 1:17:30- Nan!
1:17:49 > 1:17:53- You'd think it was just like - any other institution.
1:17:56 > 1:17:59- But this place - houses the stories of our lives.
1:18:01 > 1:18:03- Not only who we were...
1:18:06 > 1:18:09- ..but who we thought we were.
1:18:15 > 1:18:17- Who we imagined we were.
1:18:20 > 1:18:22- DOORBELL
1:19:55 > 1:19:57- No-one wants to be forgotten.
1:19:59 > 1:20:02- Mam wanted to leave someone behind - to recount the story.
1:20:03 > 1:20:05- To keep her story alive.
1:20:06 > 1:20:09- Someone to mourn her.
1:20:11 > 1:20:13- To scatter her ashes.
1:20:16 > 1:20:18- Someone like me.
1:20:21 > 1:20:24- I'll recount this story my own way.
1:20:26 > 1:20:27- Change the narrative.
1:20:29 > 1:20:31- Remember things differently.
1:20:33 > 1:20:36- There are two sides to every story.
1:20:37 > 1:20:41- Sometimes, we are more - than one person.
1:20:43 > 1:20:45- The copy and the original.
1:20:46 > 1:20:48- The good and the bad.
1:20:50 > 1:20:52- Ana and Nan.
1:20:53 > 1:20:56- Nan, my best creation.
1:20:57 > 1:20:58- My grief at its worst.
1:21:00 > 1:21:04- After all, - every history is a fiction.
1:21:06 > 1:21:08- Our stories...
1:21:09 > 1:21:10- ..are the truth.
1:21:11 > 1:21:15- THE LIBRARY by ANA WDIG - In memory of Elena Wdig, - author,- - other.
1:22:31 > 1:22:33- S4C Subtitles by Adnod Cyf.