0:00:02 > 0:00:03The more we learn about DNA,
0:00:03 > 0:00:05the more avenues there are for gene therapy.
0:00:05 > 0:00:08- You were very articulate in there, Professor.- Oh, good.
0:00:09 > 0:00:12I've never done anything like that before.
0:00:13 > 0:00:14You're married.
0:00:15 > 0:00:17So am I.
0:00:17 > 0:00:22'Dear X, the only person I can talk to about you is you.'
0:00:22 > 0:00:25- Is everything OK? No, it's not that girl, is it?- Rosa?
0:00:25 > 0:00:28- If you're sleeping with her, you can tell me, you know.- I'm not.
0:00:28 > 0:00:30You're beautiful.
0:00:30 > 0:00:32What are we doing?
0:00:32 > 0:00:34Remind me what it is you do again?
0:00:34 > 0:00:35Well, you know, civil service.
0:00:35 > 0:00:38Life's mysterious, which is a good thing.
0:00:41 > 0:00:42Hey.
0:00:42 > 0:00:44It's a dummy camera.
0:00:44 > 0:00:47- It's easy to tell the difference if you know what to look for. - Oh, my God.
0:00:51 > 0:00:54I just left my stuff in my office, won't take me a sec.
0:00:54 > 0:00:57No, come on, George, don't be silly...
0:00:57 > 0:00:58Get off me!
0:01:01 > 0:01:04'Fear - that's what makes animals of us all.'
0:01:07 > 0:01:09This programme contains some strong language
0:01:09 > 0:01:13and scenes which some viewers may find upsetting from the start
0:01:40 > 0:01:41Home time.
0:02:18 > 0:02:20'Dear X...
0:02:21 > 0:02:23'..you made me feel special.
0:02:26 > 0:02:27'But I'm not special.
0:02:32 > 0:02:33'I know what I am now...
0:02:34 > 0:02:35'..nothing...
0:02:37 > 0:02:38'..no-one.
0:02:40 > 0:02:42'It turns out that all it really takes for your life and
0:02:42 > 0:02:47'everything you thought about yourself to change for ever
0:02:47 > 0:02:48'isn't love or passion.
0:02:50 > 0:02:57'All it takes is one good, hard slap.'
0:06:25 > 0:06:30PHONE RINGS
0:06:32 > 0:06:33'Hello?
0:06:34 > 0:06:36'Are you playing it cool?
0:06:38 > 0:06:40'Yvonne? Hello?
0:06:42 > 0:06:44'Is everything OK?'
0:06:44 > 0:06:45No.
0:06:50 > 0:06:54BIG BEN CHIMES
0:07:02 > 0:07:04- Hi.- Hey.
0:07:13 > 0:07:15Oh, Jesus.
0:07:24 > 0:07:25Did you know him?
0:07:27 > 0:07:29Who was he?
0:07:31 > 0:07:32George Selway.
0:07:36 > 0:07:37He was at the party.
0:07:38 > 0:07:43He works at the university and we do...
0:07:43 > 0:07:46external exams, you know, panels together.
0:07:50 > 0:07:52I've known him for about two years.
0:07:56 > 0:07:59He couldn't have seemed more harmless.
0:07:59 > 0:08:02You... You haven't got any marks on...? On your face or...?
0:08:03 > 0:08:05He used the flat of his hand.
0:08:08 > 0:08:10Like he knew what he was doing.
0:08:12 > 0:08:15Have you got bruises anywhere else?
0:08:24 > 0:08:26I've got...
0:08:28 > 0:08:31I've got finger bruises on my thighs from when he...
0:08:38 > 0:08:40And I've got internal bruising.
0:08:43 > 0:08:45And an anal tear.
0:08:49 > 0:08:51I didn't fight back.
0:09:02 > 0:09:07Listen, do you want me to get some people to take a statement from you?
0:09:07 > 0:09:11No, a team that's used... Used to handling this sort of thing?
0:09:11 > 0:09:13I can't make a statement, you know I can't.
0:09:13 > 0:09:15If they take a swab...
0:09:18 > 0:09:19..you.
0:09:21 > 0:09:23Your semen will be on it.
0:09:24 > 0:09:26Jesus.
0:09:26 > 0:09:28Your semen will be on it as well as his.
0:09:30 > 0:09:32You could... You could leave it for a bit.
0:09:32 > 0:09:36They don't necessarily need forensic evidence to bring a prosecution.
0:09:36 > 0:09:37It's OK.
0:09:39 > 0:09:41I don't want you to.
0:09:45 > 0:09:47I just needed to see you.
0:09:50 > 0:09:52What about your husband?
0:09:53 > 0:09:54Are you going to tell him?
0:09:57 > 0:10:00- No.- Won't it be obvious there's something wrong though?
0:10:00 > 0:10:01I'll just be I'll. I'll...
0:10:03 > 0:10:05I'll be ill for a few days.
0:10:21 > 0:10:24Well, you're not hot.
0:10:24 > 0:10:26It comes and goes.
0:10:26 > 0:10:27Took a paracetamol.
0:10:27 > 0:10:29Hmm.
0:10:30 > 0:10:31How was Sunderland?
0:10:33 > 0:10:34Windy.
0:10:37 > 0:10:41You don't have to exile yourself in here, you know.
0:10:41 > 0:10:44I might be up in the night - you never get back to sleep.
0:10:46 > 0:10:48Poor old thing.
0:10:49 > 0:10:52Are you sure it's not just the hangover from hell?
0:10:54 > 0:10:56Less of the "old".
0:10:59 > 0:11:01I'll bring you a cuppa.
0:11:05 > 0:11:09FOOTSTEPS AND DOOR SLAMS
0:11:35 > 0:11:37DOOR SLAMS
0:11:37 > 0:11:38FOOTSTEPS
0:11:49 > 0:11:50Hey!
0:11:51 > 0:11:53Anyone in?
0:11:53 > 0:11:54Adam?!
0:11:57 > 0:11:58Hi, Mum.
0:12:00 > 0:12:02What are you doing in my room?
0:12:07 > 0:12:09Are you sure you don't want some toast or something?
0:12:09 > 0:12:11I'm good, thanks.
0:12:12 > 0:12:14It's OK, then?
0:12:14 > 0:12:15Just for a bit?
0:12:15 > 0:12:18Adam, love, this is your home.
0:12:19 > 0:12:20You can stay as long as you like.
0:12:20 > 0:12:21It's just a couple of days,
0:12:21 > 0:12:23just to sort some stuff out.
0:12:25 > 0:12:27Stuff to do with your music, or...?
0:12:34 > 0:12:36Maybe I will make myself some toast.
0:12:47 > 0:12:49You've reached Doctor Carmichael's phone.
0:12:49 > 0:12:50I'm out of the office.
0:12:50 > 0:12:54For urgent enquiries, please contact my assistant, Rupa Patel,
0:12:54 > 0:12:56on extension 223.
0:12:56 > 0:12:58Thanks, bye.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26DOOR SLAMS
0:14:23 > 0:14:24GRUNTING
0:14:48 > 0:14:50The twisted little fuck.
0:14:53 > 0:14:54You did the right thing.
0:14:56 > 0:14:59Just cut off communication.
0:14:59 > 0:15:02But log it somewhere, yeah?
0:15:02 > 0:15:05Any attempt to contact you, just log it,
0:15:05 > 0:15:07- just in case.- In case of what?
0:15:08 > 0:15:10Just in case.
0:15:12 > 0:15:14He knows about us.
0:15:18 > 0:15:19How?
0:15:19 > 0:15:21Don't know.
0:15:23 > 0:15:25Maybe he saw me with a phone.
0:15:28 > 0:15:30It's as though he smelled it on me...
0:15:32 > 0:15:33..the sex.
0:15:35 > 0:15:37Apple Tree Yard.
0:15:42 > 0:15:45Did you tell him anything about me?
0:15:45 > 0:15:47Did you mention my name?
0:15:47 > 0:15:48No, of course not.
0:15:49 > 0:15:52He doesn't know who you are, just that you exist.
0:15:54 > 0:15:58We were talking, and I was quite pissed.
0:15:59 > 0:16:01God, why was I so pissed?
0:16:01 > 0:16:03Look, hey, listen.
0:16:03 > 0:16:05None of this is your fault -
0:16:05 > 0:16:07none of it.
0:16:14 > 0:16:16What did he say?
0:16:16 > 0:16:18I was talking about Gary and...
0:16:18 > 0:16:21He said, "Is that why you're fucking someone else?"
0:16:24 > 0:16:26- And that's when he...- It's OK.
0:16:26 > 0:16:27Yvonne...
0:16:28 > 0:16:29..it's going to be OK.
0:16:31 > 0:16:32It will.
0:16:36 > 0:16:37I'm sorry.
0:16:39 > 0:16:41You didn't sign up for this.
0:16:43 > 0:16:45I signed up for you.
0:17:11 > 0:17:13My signature dish.
0:17:13 > 0:17:17Microwaved to perfection, if I may say.
0:17:17 > 0:17:18I did try.
0:17:18 > 0:17:21Oh, if you're not hungry, you're not hungry.
0:17:27 > 0:17:29It's...
0:17:29 > 0:17:31It's girl trouble.
0:17:31 > 0:17:32He's talked to you?
0:17:32 > 0:17:34Oh, a tiny bit. Just that really.
0:17:34 > 0:17:36There's this girl.
0:17:36 > 0:17:40It's not...whatshername, from the halfway house? Ellie?
0:17:40 > 0:17:42No, I don't think so.
0:17:46 > 0:17:48Von, don't go rushing in.
0:17:48 > 0:17:50Oh, for God's sake, you think I don't know by now?
0:17:50 > 0:17:53I've barely asked him a question.
0:17:53 > 0:17:55I know it's hard.
0:17:55 > 0:17:57Hard, yeah.
0:17:59 > 0:18:00Why don't you go back to bed, hmm?
0:18:02 > 0:18:04You look like you're at death's door.
0:18:06 > 0:18:08Yeah.
0:18:26 > 0:18:28PHONE VIBRATES
0:18:49 > 0:18:52PHONE VIBRATES
0:19:00 > 0:19:01Hi.
0:19:01 > 0:19:04Listen, I've thought of something.
0:19:04 > 0:19:08I've got someone that you can talk to about what happened -
0:19:08 > 0:19:09an expert.
0:19:09 > 0:19:11I'm not sure I want to talk to anyone.
0:19:11 > 0:19:13You wouldn't have to go to a police station.
0:19:15 > 0:19:18It might just give you a clearer idea of your options.
0:19:18 > 0:19:20OK?
0:19:36 > 0:19:40Kevin should be able to advise you on reporting an incident like this.
0:19:46 > 0:19:48We went up to his office to get his stuff.
0:19:50 > 0:19:54We were both quite drunk by that stage.
0:19:54 > 0:19:55And he tried to kiss me.
0:19:55 > 0:19:57I wasn't really taking it seriously.
0:20:01 > 0:20:02And he hit me...
0:20:04 > 0:20:07..across the face, really hard.
0:20:08 > 0:20:11That's all it took.
0:20:14 > 0:20:16And then...
0:20:23 > 0:20:24SHE SIGHS
0:20:24 > 0:20:26It just seemed to go on for a very long time.
0:20:30 > 0:20:32I was too scared to move.
0:20:41 > 0:20:43Did he...speak at all?
0:20:45 > 0:20:48There were a few...instructions.
0:20:51 > 0:20:52He said at one point...
0:20:56 > 0:20:58He said, "Give me your mouth."
0:21:04 > 0:21:08That's a terrible thing you've been through. I... I am so sorry.
0:21:11 > 0:21:14Now, I'm just going to talk you through the process of
0:21:14 > 0:21:16reporting the rape, yeah?
0:21:16 > 0:21:18But I can give you contact details
0:21:18 > 0:21:22for counsellors trained to help women
0:21:22 > 0:21:23in a situation such as yourself.
0:21:23 > 0:21:25No, I don't think that that...
0:21:25 > 0:21:27Oh, well...
0:21:27 > 0:21:29Thank you.
0:21:29 > 0:21:33Unfortunately, look, I'm not going to sugar-coat it, Dr Carmichael.
0:21:33 > 0:21:36Being drunk will be a gift for the defence.
0:21:36 > 0:21:38You spent the evening with this man.
0:21:38 > 0:21:39At a party.
0:21:39 > 0:21:41But you see where I'm going.
0:21:41 > 0:21:44They'll try and frame it as a date rape type situation.
0:21:44 > 0:21:47The first thing this bloke's solicitor will do, if he's charged,
0:21:47 > 0:21:50is try to get anything he can on you.
0:21:50 > 0:21:53Any... Anything you've told his client.
0:21:53 > 0:21:57Any skeletons in the closet, as it were.
0:21:57 > 0:21:58I see.
0:21:58 > 0:21:59And they'll look at everything -
0:21:59 > 0:22:03internet history, family, friends, colleagues -
0:22:03 > 0:22:06anything they can get on your sexual history
0:22:06 > 0:22:09that suggests you like it rough.
0:22:09 > 0:22:11Any sex tapes or photos.
0:22:11 > 0:22:14Well, there aren't any and I don't.
0:22:17 > 0:22:18Will they go after my husband?
0:22:18 > 0:22:22They will definitely want to know about the state of your marriage, yeah.
0:22:22 > 0:22:25Did you tell your husband straightaway after the attack?
0:22:27 > 0:22:29I... I couldn't. N-no.
0:22:35 > 0:22:37What about mental illness?
0:22:37 > 0:22:40Depression, anything like that?
0:22:40 > 0:22:42Would that come up in court if I press charges?
0:22:42 > 0:22:44If they're trying to discredit me?
0:22:44 > 0:22:46Is there anything like that?
0:22:49 > 0:22:52When I was eight, my mum committed suicide.
0:22:53 > 0:22:55She had...
0:22:55 > 0:22:56depression.
0:22:57 > 0:23:01Well, probably exacerbated by post-natal depression.
0:23:01 > 0:23:03She never really recovered.
0:23:03 > 0:23:07SHE SIGHS And my son...
0:23:07 > 0:23:10When he was 17, my son was diagnosed with bipolar disorder.
0:23:13 > 0:23:16Adam can't be part of this - he's fragile.
0:23:16 > 0:23:20It's very unlikely your son's illness would be seen as relevant.
0:23:20 > 0:23:22But once you've brought a complaint,
0:23:22 > 0:23:25it's not up to you to decide what's used in court and what isn't.
0:23:26 > 0:23:29Now, obviously, I can't tell you what to do.
0:23:29 > 0:23:31But what I would say is, if you do decide to go ahead,
0:23:31 > 0:23:35you need to report the attack to the police - today.
0:23:35 > 0:23:39Otherwise, things that make this really very tricky to prove -
0:23:39 > 0:23:42not going to the police, not telling your husband, no forensic evidence -
0:23:42 > 0:23:45they could become...overwhelming.
0:23:59 > 0:24:02I was the first person to qualify the Wedekind experiment.
0:24:08 > 0:24:10I'm... I'm sorry, I've no idea what that means.
0:24:12 > 0:24:16When I started protein sequencing,
0:24:16 > 0:24:18we were pioneers.
0:24:18 > 0:24:20There were no computers
0:24:20 > 0:24:24and my team named genes as they were discovered,
0:24:24 > 0:24:28and those are names that are going to be used for as long as science exists.
0:24:28 > 0:24:30But if I...
0:24:30 > 0:24:32If I take this to court...
0:24:32 > 0:24:34God, it's a big if, isn't it?
0:24:34 > 0:24:37Because it seems like it's all going to come out,
0:24:37 > 0:24:38what we've been up to.
0:24:38 > 0:24:41- Well, we... We've been really careful, you know.- Yeah.
0:24:41 > 0:24:43Yeah, dummy camera.
0:24:43 > 0:24:45So, OK, it goes to court and...
0:24:47 > 0:24:50..the first thing anyone's going to know about me is that I was...
0:24:52 > 0:24:54That George Selway attacked me.
0:24:56 > 0:25:02Even if he goes to prison, that's who I am now - victim.
0:25:06 > 0:25:08The world can be such a shitty place.
0:25:15 > 0:25:17I thought you thought life's a boon.
0:25:18 > 0:25:20Yeah.
0:25:20 > 0:25:21It can be.
0:25:24 > 0:25:25I'm sorry about your son.
0:25:27 > 0:25:29Must have been really hard.
0:25:35 > 0:25:38I'm really sorry, but I...
0:25:38 > 0:25:41I don't think I can ever imagine having sex again.
0:25:41 > 0:25:44- I, I wasn't... - No, no, I know. I know, but...
0:25:46 > 0:25:49Perhaps the reason for this wasn't it.
0:25:50 > 0:25:52What's the point?
0:25:54 > 0:25:55You've got your wife.
0:25:57 > 0:25:58I've got Gary.
0:26:00 > 0:26:01And now this.
0:26:02 > 0:26:04It's impossible.
0:26:04 > 0:26:05No such word.
0:26:08 > 0:26:10You were the first person to qualify the...
0:26:10 > 0:26:13The Wedekind experiment.
0:26:16 > 0:26:19I'm not sure that we should be in touch again.
0:26:20 > 0:26:22I think it's wrong for both of us.
0:26:24 > 0:26:25I'm really sorry.
0:26:49 > 0:26:51Dear X,
0:26:51 > 0:26:55whatever it was between us, it was never meant to bear much reality.
0:26:57 > 0:26:59That was the point, wasn't it?
0:26:59 > 0:27:01No real life.
0:27:01 > 0:27:03No feelings, no mess.
0:27:07 > 0:27:10But a steam might have helped, you know?
0:27:10 > 0:27:11Have you been to the doctor?
0:27:11 > 0:27:13There's no point, is there, for a virus?
0:27:13 > 0:27:15Oh, yeah.
0:27:15 > 0:27:18Yeah, it'll just be a couple of weeks.
0:27:18 > 0:27:20Anyway, you and Chris.
0:27:20 > 0:27:23How come we always talk about me and we never talk about you?
0:27:25 > 0:27:27OK, it was the sex.
0:27:27 > 0:27:30It was great in the beginning.
0:27:30 > 0:27:33Well, no, it wasn't.
0:27:33 > 0:27:36It wasn't the best ever, but it showed promise.
0:27:36 > 0:27:41And then I realised it was like a script...
0:27:41 > 0:27:43like porn.
0:27:43 > 0:27:46Like rough stuff.
0:27:46 > 0:27:49Anyway, it wasn't making me feel good about myself, so...
0:27:50 > 0:27:53Plus, I spotted a pair of Crocs in his wardrobe
0:27:53 > 0:27:56and I realised that I had to split up with him before the summer.
0:27:56 > 0:27:58Oh, Sooz!
0:27:58 > 0:28:00SHE SIGHS
0:28:00 > 0:28:03You'd think I'd have learned my lesson after Jay.
0:28:03 > 0:28:05Me and men...
0:28:05 > 0:28:07Hey.
0:28:07 > 0:28:09You're fantastic.
0:28:11 > 0:28:14There are some truly awful men out there.
0:28:14 > 0:28:16I know, I've dated most of them!
0:28:16 > 0:28:19No, really monstrous.
0:28:19 > 0:28:20SHE SIGHS
0:28:20 > 0:28:22Anyway...
0:28:22 > 0:28:26- Is he treating you all right? - Mmm.
0:28:28 > 0:28:30Oh, babe.
0:28:30 > 0:28:32I'm sorry, I'm...
0:28:34 > 0:28:35..miserable.
0:28:35 > 0:28:36Hey.
0:28:36 > 0:28:38Fuck him.
0:28:38 > 0:28:40Fuck him...and his Crocs.
0:28:42 > 0:28:44His fucking Crocs!
0:28:50 > 0:28:53Hey. Nice evening?
0:28:53 > 0:28:55Yeah.
0:28:55 > 0:28:56You still look wobbly, love.
0:28:56 > 0:28:59Are you sure you're feeling well enough to go back to work?
0:28:59 > 0:29:01Can't stay away forever.
0:29:01 > 0:29:02I'm going up.
0:29:04 > 0:29:05What?
0:29:06 > 0:29:07Mum.
0:29:23 > 0:29:29Carrie says even smelling coffee at the moment makes her want to puke.
0:29:29 > 0:29:31Hope the baby's OK.
0:29:31 > 0:29:34Everything seems fine so far.
0:29:34 > 0:29:37Most pregnancies are problem-free, especially at Carrie's age.
0:29:37 > 0:29:38Ah, the voice of reason.
0:29:40 > 0:29:44It's the closest I'll come, I suppose, to babies - being an uncle.
0:29:44 > 0:29:47You don't know that. There's plenty of time.
0:29:47 > 0:29:48Insight into my condition.
0:29:48 > 0:29:51All the shrinks say I'm good on that, don't they?
0:29:52 > 0:29:55It'd be a very bad idea for me to pass on my genes.
0:29:55 > 0:29:57There's no evidence that it's genetic.
0:30:00 > 0:30:01Anyway, it doesn't matter.
0:30:01 > 0:30:05There's no danger of me passing on my genes - no-one wants them.
0:30:07 > 0:30:09Dad says there's a girl you're interested in.
0:30:17 > 0:30:20She's...so lovely, Mum.
0:30:21 > 0:30:24Kind and funny.
0:30:27 > 0:30:28She can even sing...
0:30:30 > 0:30:31..like an angel.
0:30:36 > 0:30:38How stupid was I to ever think she'd want to hook up
0:30:38 > 0:30:39with a fuck-up like me?
0:30:40 > 0:30:42There'll be someone for you.
0:30:42 > 0:30:43You don't know that!
0:30:45 > 0:30:48It's very easy for us to tell ourselves stories about people,
0:30:48 > 0:30:50that they're perfect...
0:30:51 > 0:30:52..but no-one is.
0:30:55 > 0:30:56Not even you?
0:31:10 > 0:31:13You've never talked about your work -
0:31:13 > 0:31:16Official Secrets Act and all that -
0:31:16 > 0:31:20but you've always encouraged me to talk about mine.
0:31:20 > 0:31:24Enjoying the pleasure I take in it, I think.
0:31:24 > 0:31:26Work's always been my refuge.
0:32:01 > 0:32:05There are no more refuges for me.
0:32:05 > 0:32:06No places of safety.
0:32:13 > 0:32:15Bracing yourself for Marcia's killer martinis?
0:32:19 > 0:32:22Two parts vodka, one part antifreeze.
0:32:22 > 0:32:24It's nothing to do with football.
0:32:24 > 0:32:27It's what these boys think they can get away with.
0:32:27 > 0:32:29You're not gluten-free, I hope?
0:32:29 > 0:32:33It looks like rice - it's orzo. Pasta.
0:32:33 > 0:32:36I mean, oral sex - that's what I don't get.
0:32:36 > 0:32:39How can you force someone to give you a blowjob?
0:32:39 > 0:32:41I mean, wouldn't you just bite it off?
0:32:41 > 0:32:43It's bad enough men peddling crap like that
0:32:43 > 0:32:45without women making it worse.
0:32:45 > 0:32:46I'm just saying.
0:32:46 > 0:32:49Logistically, I'm surprised it doesn't happen.
0:32:49 > 0:32:50They're terrified.
0:32:50 > 0:32:53This girl wasn't. She went back to his hotel room.
0:32:53 > 0:32:54I mean, what was she expecting?
0:32:54 > 0:32:57I don't know. Maybe that he'd show some consideration?
0:32:57 > 0:32:59She'd be allowed to change her mind?
0:32:59 > 0:33:01Maybe she did say yes to sex,
0:33:01 > 0:33:05but she didn't mean yes to him assaulting her in every orifice,
0:33:05 > 0:33:06roughing her up while he did it,
0:33:06 > 0:33:08and his mates filming it on their phones.
0:33:08 > 0:33:12If these girls are going to get so blind drunk they can't think straight, inevitably...
0:33:12 > 0:33:14Well, maybe you're just too fucking complacent to think straight!
0:33:14 > 0:33:18- BABY CRIES - Yvonne.
0:33:18 > 0:33:20Er, your baby's really crying.
0:33:22 > 0:33:25I'm sorry. You're lovely
0:33:25 > 0:33:28and your house is lovely, and you give lovely dinner parties,
0:33:28 > 0:33:31and everything in your world is lovely,
0:33:31 > 0:33:33so you don't really have the imagination to see what it's like
0:33:33 > 0:33:35when bad things happen,
0:33:35 > 0:33:38just randomly, great torrents of shit descending on ordinary people.
0:33:38 > 0:33:40So you're looking for who's to blame
0:33:40 > 0:33:43cos that's less scary than facing up to the fact
0:33:43 > 0:33:46that awful things can happen, even to someone as lovely as you,
0:33:46 > 0:33:48really awful things.
0:34:12 > 0:34:13Is this my fault?
0:34:17 > 0:34:18You're...
0:34:20 > 0:34:22You haven't been right for weeks.
0:34:27 > 0:34:30I'm sorry...
0:34:30 > 0:34:32about the business with Rosa.
0:34:35 > 0:34:37It's nonsense.
0:34:37 > 0:34:38No, it's not that.
0:34:41 > 0:34:43Really?
0:34:45 > 0:34:47Well, what, then?
0:34:53 > 0:34:55I'm thinking of leaving the Beaufort.
0:34:59 > 0:35:00Why?
0:35:00 > 0:35:02I'm not enjoying it anymore.
0:35:04 > 0:35:06It's really, really getting me down.
0:35:06 > 0:35:08Since when? You never said.
0:35:08 > 0:35:10I'll make up the money.
0:35:10 > 0:35:12I've got consultancy work coming out of my ears.
0:35:12 > 0:35:13It's not the money.
0:35:13 > 0:35:15There's nowhere like it.
0:35:16 > 0:35:18Is it something specific?
0:35:18 > 0:35:20No, no.
0:35:20 > 0:35:21It's just...
0:35:24 > 0:35:26It's just been building up generally
0:35:26 > 0:35:29and it exploded all over Marcia tonight.
0:35:32 > 0:35:35I'll ring her in the morning to apologise.
0:35:40 > 0:35:43I'm serious, Liz. I told you last week - no leaving do.
0:35:43 > 0:35:45Let's have a drink when the dust has settled. I'll e-mail you some dates.
0:35:45 > 0:35:48- DOORBELL RINGS - I'll get it!
0:35:48 > 0:35:50DOOR SLAMS I've got to go. All right, bye.
0:35:54 > 0:35:56Secret admirer.
0:36:14 > 0:36:16Mum? Are you OK?
0:36:17 > 0:36:19Mum!
0:36:37 > 0:36:39So, the Beaufort.
0:36:39 > 0:36:43Dad seems a bit confused about you leaving.
0:36:43 > 0:36:44He's talked to you about it?
0:36:44 > 0:36:46In his way.
0:36:46 > 0:36:48He said something about your time of life,
0:36:48 > 0:36:51as though resigning was like a symptom of menopause.
0:36:51 > 0:36:52Is it?
0:36:52 > 0:36:55It just doesn't suit me anymore.
0:36:55 > 0:36:57I needed a change of direction.
0:36:57 > 0:36:59You're not going off trekking in Nepal, are you?
0:36:59 > 0:37:02Or start having a wild affair?
0:37:02 > 0:37:05Cos, you know, timing...
0:37:05 > 0:37:08I just really like working from home and your dad's busier than ever,
0:37:08 > 0:37:10so I can afford to take my foot off the pedal a bit.
0:37:10 > 0:37:14Oh, yeah, this conference in Estonia - that's random!
0:37:20 > 0:37:22Mum...
0:37:22 > 0:37:25You're not depressed, are you?
0:37:26 > 0:37:28No. No, of course not.
0:37:39 > 0:37:41Dear X,
0:37:41 > 0:37:44I loved you touching me.
0:37:44 > 0:37:45Everywhere.
0:37:47 > 0:37:49I can't imagine that ever again.
0:37:52 > 0:37:54But I do still want you,
0:37:54 > 0:37:56just you.
0:37:56 > 0:37:59And it's terrible because it keeps me feeling.
0:38:02 > 0:38:06And the only way I can see to get through this is to be numb.
0:38:06 > 0:38:08- ADAM:- See ya!
0:38:08 > 0:38:09DOOR SLAMS
0:38:15 > 0:38:17I think about you every single day.
0:38:19 > 0:38:21Most minutes of each day, if I'm honest.
0:38:24 > 0:38:26This is what I cling to.
0:38:26 > 0:38:30While you're off saving the free world, you think of me...
0:38:31 > 0:38:33..because you saw me,
0:38:33 > 0:38:35I really think you did...
0:38:36 > 0:38:38and I saw you,
0:38:38 > 0:38:41and that's a rare thing between two human beings.
0:39:34 > 0:39:35PHONE CHIMES
0:41:02 > 0:41:03I'm off, Von!
0:41:09 > 0:41:11Well, knock 'em dead.
0:41:13 > 0:41:14Hello, Estonia!
0:41:30 > 0:41:32Gary!
0:41:32 > 0:41:33FOOTSTEPS
0:41:35 > 0:41:38I thought he was leaving at the end of the month.
0:41:38 > 0:41:40Oh, he's had a good run. He stayed longer than we thought.
0:41:40 > 0:41:44Yeah, but not to say anything.
0:41:44 > 0:41:46He mentioned to me last night he was thinking of heading back.
0:41:46 > 0:41:49I presumed he meant at the end of the week.
0:41:49 > 0:41:50What did I do?
0:41:52 > 0:41:55Why does he find it so easy to talk to you
0:41:55 > 0:41:57and bloody impossible to talk to me?
0:41:57 > 0:42:00Hey, Adam loves you to bits, you know he does.
0:42:01 > 0:42:04There's a thin line and all that.
0:42:04 > 0:42:05CAR HORN HONKS
0:42:05 > 0:42:08I have to go to the airport.
0:42:08 > 0:42:09I hope it's fun.
0:42:09 > 0:42:11"Fun"!
0:43:20 > 0:43:22SMASHING
0:44:35 > 0:44:38- Hi.- Oh, um...
0:44:38 > 0:44:39I didn't think you were going to pick up.
0:44:39 > 0:44:41I was just going to leave a message.
0:44:41 > 0:44:44Has something happened? Are you all right?
0:44:44 > 0:44:45SOBBING: It's George Selway -
0:44:45 > 0:44:48he won't leave me alone.
0:44:48 > 0:44:50He must have followed me to the hairdressers
0:44:50 > 0:44:53and he just turned up in the shop near my house.
0:44:53 > 0:44:56Wait, hang on - are you saying he's stalking you now?
0:44:56 > 0:44:58I don't know, but...
0:44:58 > 0:45:01He's been texting me and...
0:45:01 > 0:45:03A few weeks ago, he sent me flowers.
0:45:03 > 0:45:05I'm really sorry, I'm just blithering.
0:45:07 > 0:45:10- I'm really, really scared. - No, of course.
0:45:10 > 0:45:12Look, all right. Look, I'm going to give you an address
0:45:12 > 0:45:14and I need you to listen very carefully.
0:45:14 > 0:45:16I don't have a pen. I haven't got a pen.
0:45:16 > 0:45:20No, d-don't write it down, you've got a good memory.
0:45:20 > 0:45:22Ready? It's 12 Merthyr Court.
0:45:22 > 0:45:27That's M-E-R-T-H-Y-R, like the place in Wales.
0:45:27 > 0:45:29Chamberland Road.
0:45:29 > 0:45:31SE11.
0:45:31 > 0:45:32Now, repeat that back to me.
0:45:32 > 0:45:37- 12 Merthyr Court, Chamberland Road, SE11.- Good.
0:45:37 > 0:45:41I'll see you there tomorrow, as close to 2pm as I can make it.
0:45:41 > 0:45:44We can talk properly there, all right?
0:45:44 > 0:45:48Look, just don't put it in your phones, not even into maps, OK?
0:45:48 > 0:45:50OK. Thank you.
0:45:50 > 0:45:52Right, and are you going to be all right until then?
0:45:52 > 0:45:53I'm not taking any risks.
0:45:53 > 0:45:56Good. Don't. I'll see you tomorrow.
0:45:56 > 0:45:58I'm really glad you called, Yvonne.
0:46:00 > 0:46:01Say my name again.
0:46:02 > 0:46:04Yvonne.
0:46:04 > 0:46:08We'll see each other tomorrow, all right? We'll be together.
0:46:08 > 0:46:10OK?
0:46:10 > 0:46:12I've got to go.
0:47:40 > 0:47:42It's...
0:47:44 > 0:47:47We're not talking boutique hotel, obviously.
0:47:47 > 0:47:49It's OK.
0:47:49 > 0:47:51It's safe.
0:47:51 > 0:47:53A safe house.
0:47:56 > 0:47:59I know you're not allowed to talk about what you do.
0:48:03 > 0:48:05Do...? Do you want to take your coat off?
0:49:28 > 0:49:29I'm not asleep.
0:49:31 > 0:49:33But my arm is.
0:49:45 > 0:49:47So what do you want to do?
0:49:51 > 0:49:53About Selway?
0:49:55 > 0:49:58Can't you warn him off for me?
0:49:58 > 0:50:00Nothing would give me greater pleasure.
0:50:02 > 0:50:04Well, almost nothing.
0:50:12 > 0:50:15Don't tell me you wouldn't like to put the wind right up
0:50:15 > 0:50:17that pathetic piece of shit.
0:50:17 > 0:50:19Yeah, I would.
0:50:20 > 0:50:22I want him to crap himself with fear.
0:50:25 > 0:50:27I want him to feel...
0:50:29 > 0:50:31..half as terrified as he made he feel.
0:50:33 > 0:50:37I'm not really the one for that job, am I?
0:50:37 > 0:50:39As far as I'm concerned, I...
0:50:40 > 0:50:43I think he thinks he can do whatever he likes.
0:50:43 > 0:50:45So it has to change.
0:50:47 > 0:50:50I suppose you know people.
0:50:52 > 0:50:53Yeah.
0:50:55 > 0:50:58I'd like to see his face.
0:50:59 > 0:51:01Wouldn't you?
0:51:32 > 0:51:33Early?
0:51:35 > 0:51:36Yeah.
0:51:37 > 0:51:38Got stuff to do.
0:51:44 > 0:51:45How was it all? Estonia?
0:51:48 > 0:51:49Von.
0:51:49 > 0:51:51Von.
0:51:53 > 0:51:54Von!
0:52:00 > 0:52:01You should know...
0:52:05 > 0:52:07The thing is, the conference...
0:52:07 > 0:52:10Rosa came with me to the conference.
0:52:17 > 0:52:19So you are sleeping with her.
0:52:20 > 0:52:22I wasn't before. I didn't lie.
0:52:28 > 0:52:30We never have sex.
0:52:33 > 0:52:34So it's my fault?
0:52:34 > 0:52:37I'm not trying to blame you.
0:52:37 > 0:52:38It's an explanation.
0:52:42 > 0:52:45Pretty standard midlife crisis stuff, I'm afraid.
0:52:51 > 0:52:52Sure.
0:52:56 > 0:52:57Yvonne!
0:53:00 > 0:53:03The recycling place gets mobbed on a Saturday,
0:53:03 > 0:53:05so we can talk about it when I get back.
0:53:05 > 0:53:07You don't need me!
0:53:10 > 0:53:11Is that what you think?
0:54:46 > 0:54:49What are you going to say to him?
0:54:49 > 0:54:51I thought I'd freestyle it.
0:55:17 > 0:55:19DOORBELL RINGS
0:55:24 > 0:55:26INTERCOM BUZZES
0:56:11 > 0:56:12SHE GASPS
0:56:17 > 0:56:20Is there any such thing as a point of no return?
0:56:22 > 0:56:25I used to think there wasn't.
0:56:25 > 0:56:27Would the defendant please stand?
0:56:27 > 0:56:30And then I met you.
0:56:30 > 0:56:31Fucking bitch!
0:56:33 > 0:56:35You deserve everything you get!
0:56:35 > 0:56:38Are you happy now you've destroyed our life?
0:56:38 > 0:56:41Oh, you bitch! You evil bitch!