0:00:02 > 0:00:04In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.
0:00:04 > 0:00:06You dirty, filthy beast! You horror!
0:00:06 > 0:00:07You're sacked.
0:00:07 > 0:00:10Why do people go to Mass, Father?
0:00:10 > 0:00:11They get something out of it, yeah?
0:00:11 > 0:00:15- Yeah.- Well, I got this and this, and I got the sack.
0:00:15 > 0:00:18If I go tomorrow, what am I going to get - cystitis?
0:00:18 > 0:00:21It seems I've just been driving people deeper and deeper
0:00:21 > 0:00:22into poverty and despair.
0:00:22 > 0:00:25You know that lovely dress that you wanted? I'm going to get you that.
0:00:25 > 0:00:28I'm a betting shop manager who stole from her employer.
0:00:28 > 0:00:30What kind of chance does that give me?
0:00:30 > 0:00:31She's dead!
0:00:31 > 0:00:33You weren't even going to tell me!
0:00:33 > 0:00:35They'll call the police -
0:00:35 > 0:00:37first thing they'll do is check when her pension was last drawn.
0:00:37 > 0:00:38When was that?
0:00:38 > 0:00:40What do I do?
0:00:40 > 0:00:44This programme contains scenes which some viewers may find upsetting.
0:00:44 > 0:00:47MUSIC: I Think It's Going to Rain Today by Nina Simone
0:00:52 > 0:00:57# Broken windows in empty hallways
0:00:57 > 0:01:01# A pale dead mood in a sky streaked with grey
0:01:03 > 0:01:08# Human kindness is overflowing
0:01:08 > 0:01:14# And I think it's gonna rain today. #
0:01:32 > 0:01:33Right.
0:01:38 > 0:01:40KNOCKING
0:01:41 > 0:01:43- Hello, Michael.- Hi, Andrew.
0:01:43 > 0:01:45Come in.
0:01:46 > 0:01:50She's upstairs, on the, er...up on the right.
0:01:53 > 0:01:55BEEPING
0:01:57 > 0:02:02Hiya, um, it's me. I'm...
0:02:02 > 0:02:05- It's just my sister.- Oh, right.
0:02:05 > 0:02:08Um... I'm being arrested.
0:02:09 > 0:02:13Will you come and look after the kids?
0:02:13 > 0:02:14Thanks.
0:02:21 > 0:02:24The doctor thinks she's been dead for three or four days.
0:02:26 > 0:02:27Yeah, it's four days.
0:02:27 > 0:02:28Yeah, Christina...
0:02:28 > 0:02:31Well, she couldn't bring herself to report it until now.
0:02:31 > 0:02:35- She's not been thinking straight... - Sorry, Michael, can you just...
0:02:35 > 0:02:37- just let her answer?- Sorry, yeah.
0:02:41 > 0:02:43When was her pension last drawn, Christina?
0:02:43 > 0:02:45This morning.
0:02:47 > 0:02:49Was that you that did that?
0:02:53 > 0:02:54Yeah.
0:03:56 > 0:04:00For on the night he was betrayed, he himself took bread...
0:04:02 > 0:04:06..and giving you thanks he said the blessing,
0:04:06 > 0:04:11broke the bread and gave it to his disciples, saying,
0:04:11 > 0:04:15"Take this, all of you, and eat of it,
0:04:15 > 0:04:20"for this is my body which will be given up for you."
0:04:20 > 0:04:22BELL RINGS
0:04:30 > 0:04:35In a similar way, when supper was ended, he took the chalice,
0:04:35 > 0:04:40and, giving you thanks, he said the blessing and gave the chalice
0:04:40 > 0:04:46to his disciples saying, "Take this, all of you, and drink from it...
0:04:48 > 0:04:51"..for this is the chalice of my blood."
0:04:52 > 0:04:54SCREAMS ECHO
0:04:57 > 0:05:00"The blood of the new and eternal covenant...
0:05:00 > 0:05:02SCREAMS
0:05:07 > 0:05:10"..which will be poured out for you and for many,
0:05:10 > 0:05:13"for the forgiveness of sins.
0:05:13 > 0:05:16"Do this in memory of me."
0:05:17 > 0:05:19BELL RINGS
0:05:36 > 0:05:38MICHAEL SINGS: # Pardon me, boy
0:05:38 > 0:05:41# Is that the Chattanooga Choo Choo?
0:05:41 > 0:05:44# Track 29
0:05:44 > 0:05:47# Boy, you can give me a shine
0:05:47 > 0:05:51# You leave the Pennsylvania station 'bout a quarter to four
0:05:51 > 0:05:53WOMAN SINGS ALONG
0:05:53 > 0:05:56# Read a magazine and then you're in Baltimore
0:05:56 > 0:06:00# Dinner in the diner Nothing could be finer
0:06:00 > 0:06:04# Than to have your ham 'n' eggs in Carolina
0:06:04 > 0:06:07# When you hear the whistle blowin' eight to the bar
0:06:07 > 0:06:11# Then you know that Tennessee is not very far
0:06:11 > 0:06:15# Shovel all the coal in Gotta keep it rollin'
0:06:15 > 0:06:19# Woo, woo, Chattanooga there you are. Wooo! #
0:06:24 > 0:06:25Good, that!
0:06:29 > 0:06:30Are you OK?
0:06:30 > 0:06:31Yeah. Yeah.
0:06:34 > 0:06:35What is it?
0:06:38 > 0:06:40I'm scared there's no heaven.
0:06:40 > 0:06:43Death is just the end,
0:06:43 > 0:06:45and I'm scared of that end.
0:06:47 > 0:06:51To face that end, you should be at your strongest -
0:06:51 > 0:06:53but it comes when you're at your weakest.
0:06:55 > 0:06:59And I think that's a horrible joke for God to play on us.
0:07:01 > 0:07:03There's a heaven.
0:07:05 > 0:07:06And you'll be there.
0:07:07 > 0:07:09You and Dad.
0:07:12 > 0:07:13You think so?
0:07:14 > 0:07:16I know so.
0:07:21 > 0:07:23Give us The Little White Bull.
0:07:25 > 0:07:27Oh, right. Er...
0:07:27 > 0:07:32# Once upon a time there was a little white bull
0:07:32 > 0:07:34# A little white bull
0:07:34 > 0:07:39# Very sad because he was a little white bull... #
0:07:42 > 0:07:45When did you first know you were called to be a priest?
0:07:46 > 0:07:51Ah, it was one weekend, 39 years ago. I was 18.
0:07:53 > 0:07:57I'd turned my back on school and church and faith -
0:07:57 > 0:08:01with good reason, I'd have said back then,
0:08:01 > 0:08:03but...
0:08:04 > 0:08:06..I saw this falconer at work.
0:08:12 > 0:08:15His hawk disappeared...
0:08:15 > 0:08:18didn't come back.
0:08:18 > 0:08:22The crowd drifted away and there was just me and him...
0:08:25 > 0:08:27..and every half hour or so he'd call out,
0:08:27 > 0:08:31"Come on, boy," and then say to me, "He'll come."
0:08:32 > 0:08:34Total faith.
0:08:36 > 0:08:41And then, after...I don't know, maybe four, five hours...
0:08:44 > 0:08:45..he came.
0:08:50 > 0:08:53God doesn't always come when you call him...
0:08:55 > 0:08:57..but keep on calling, and he will.
0:09:01 > 0:09:02I was a Catholic again.
0:09:15 > 0:09:18Is there anything you'd like to say, Mrs Fitzsimmons,
0:09:18 > 0:09:19before we get to sentence?
0:09:22 > 0:09:24Um...
0:09:24 > 0:09:26Christina's asked me to say a few words, ma'am,
0:09:26 > 0:09:28if that's all right with you?
0:09:28 > 0:09:29Yes.
0:09:36 > 0:09:40I'm Father Michael Kerrigan and I'm Christina's parish priest.
0:09:40 > 0:09:41Um...
0:09:41 > 0:09:47You may not know this, ma'am - you may not believe this, ma'am -
0:09:47 > 0:09:49but social services are talking
0:09:49 > 0:09:52about taking Christina's kids away from her.
0:09:52 > 0:09:56Apparently, they had this mental image of...
0:09:56 > 0:09:59kids running round a dead body for days on end
0:09:59 > 0:10:01and nothing could be further from the truth.
0:10:01 > 0:10:03It's a cruel irony, ma'am,
0:10:03 > 0:10:07because Christina did what she did on account of those kids.
0:10:07 > 0:10:11Every penny she has ever earned she has spent on those kids.
0:10:11 > 0:10:15Everything she's ever done she's done because she loves those kids.
0:10:16 > 0:10:21Ma'am, I ask you to treat this wonderful woman
0:10:21 > 0:10:24with as much leniency as possible
0:10:24 > 0:10:26and to do all in your power
0:10:26 > 0:10:31to ensure that those children stay with the mother who loves them.
0:10:32 > 0:10:33Thank you.
0:10:36 > 0:10:37- WHISPERS:- Thank you.
0:10:37 > 0:10:38WHISPERS: All right.
0:10:44 > 0:10:49I'll do all I can to help you with the children, Mrs Fitzsimmons.
0:10:49 > 0:10:51As regards this case,
0:10:51 > 0:10:54I'm going to grant you an absolute discharge
0:10:54 > 0:10:57on the count of preventing a lawful burial -
0:10:57 > 0:11:00but I cannot ignore the benefit fraud.
0:11:00 > 0:11:06On that count, I sentence you to six months in prison,
0:11:06 > 0:11:08but I will suspend it for a year.
0:11:08 > 0:11:11On both counts there are charges to pay
0:11:11 > 0:11:15and there's nothing I can do about those, I'm afraid.
0:11:15 > 0:11:17They amount to, um...
0:11:17 > 0:11:19£55.
0:11:20 > 0:11:22How will you pay it?
0:11:27 > 0:11:29Good question.
0:11:42 > 0:11:44Eh!
0:11:44 > 0:11:45Hiya!
0:11:47 > 0:11:48Hello!
0:11:50 > 0:11:51Hiya!
0:11:51 > 0:11:53Oh, I've missed you!
0:11:53 > 0:11:54Missed you, too.
0:11:55 > 0:12:00Come here! Ooh, look! Look what we've got!
0:12:01 > 0:12:04I just don't know how she could do it.
0:12:08 > 0:12:12Leave my mother lying dead, like that?
0:12:14 > 0:12:16And I know what you'll say.
0:12:16 > 0:12:18Father, I know.
0:12:18 > 0:12:20She did it for her kids.
0:12:20 > 0:12:24Doing such an awful thing, it just proves how much she loves her kids.
0:12:24 > 0:12:26The more awful the thing, the more she loves them.
0:12:26 > 0:12:29Well, that's bollocks, because I've got kids,
0:12:29 > 0:12:32and I love mine just as much as she loves hers
0:12:32 > 0:12:38and there is no way I would do that to my mother, and no shite, please.
0:12:38 > 0:12:40No "it's what she would have wanted" shite,
0:12:40 > 0:12:43because she wouldn't have wanted to be left like that.
0:12:43 > 0:12:47Yes, of course she'd want her to get her pension.
0:12:47 > 0:12:51She'd give those kids anything. She'd have given them her life!
0:12:51 > 0:12:52But, for God's sake,
0:12:52 > 0:12:54she'd want a little bit of respect after giving it.
0:12:57 > 0:12:59Christina?
0:13:04 > 0:13:07- So, there's no way you would do that to your mother?- No way.
0:13:07 > 0:13:11If you had no money? Hungry mouths to feed?
0:13:11 > 0:13:12No way.
0:13:14 > 0:13:18Well, do you think she loves her less than you did?
0:13:18 > 0:13:19- Yeah.- Yes.
0:13:21 > 0:13:22I couldn't do what she did,
0:13:22 > 0:13:24so, yeah, I think she loved her less than I did.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26What, even though she lived with her?
0:13:26 > 0:13:27SHE SCOFFS
0:13:28 > 0:13:30I wondered when that'd come up.
0:13:30 > 0:13:32She let our mam move in with her because it suited her.
0:13:32 > 0:13:34CHRISTINA SIGHS
0:13:34 > 0:13:36Free childcare, a couple of bob towards the rent.
0:13:36 > 0:13:39Yeah, Mam got something out of it and the kids kept her young,
0:13:39 > 0:13:40but she got plenty out of it, too.
0:13:48 > 0:13:51I'm going. I've paid Jimmy's dinner money up to the end of the week.
0:13:51 > 0:13:54Lisa's got athletics after school tomorrow. She's lost her kit.
0:13:54 > 0:13:56Thanks.
0:14:00 > 0:14:02Bye.
0:14:02 > 0:14:03DOOR CLOSES
0:14:24 > 0:14:26I'm sorry. Really sorry.
0:14:29 > 0:14:31You've started?
0:14:31 > 0:14:33Vernon's coming home.
0:14:35 > 0:14:36Is he well enough?
0:14:38 > 0:14:39We think so, yes.
0:14:42 > 0:14:43Vernon?
0:14:46 > 0:14:49Last time we met, you said how well he was doing.
0:14:49 > 0:14:51Yes.
0:14:51 > 0:14:53Yeah. Then why send him home?
0:14:55 > 0:14:58Precisely because he's done so well here. He's ready for it.
0:14:58 > 0:15:00Is it money?
0:15:00 > 0:15:01No.
0:15:01 > 0:15:03He's the least unwell.
0:15:03 > 0:15:07We've got somebody who's profoundly ill and we've got no bed for them.
0:15:07 > 0:15:09I mean, but..."least unwell"...
0:15:10 > 0:15:14..I mean, that doesn't mean "well".
0:15:14 > 0:15:17So, Vernon is still ill, yeah?
0:15:19 > 0:15:20Yeah.
0:15:20 > 0:15:21Then why send him home?
0:15:22 > 0:15:24We have to.
0:15:25 > 0:15:29But, Helen, she can't cope with him, physically.
0:15:29 > 0:15:33We have taken that into account when we've drawn up the care package.
0:15:33 > 0:15:34Shall we take a look at it?
0:15:42 > 0:15:44I'm ashamed of the way I reacted, Father.
0:15:44 > 0:15:47- No, no, not at all... I didn't think anything bad...- No, I am.
0:15:47 > 0:15:50The head suggested uniform 15 years ago, the previous head,
0:15:50 > 0:15:53and they still all came in their frocks - as I knew they would.
0:15:53 > 0:15:54They want to dress up,
0:15:54 > 0:15:57and the poorer they are the more they want it -
0:15:57 > 0:15:59- their child a princess for the day. - Yeah. Yeah.
0:15:59 > 0:16:01- So, I'll write to them. - You don't need to do that.
0:16:01 > 0:16:04- I'll insist this time that they keep it simple. Plain and simple.- Yeah.
0:16:04 > 0:16:06It's their child's first Holy Communion,
0:16:06 > 0:16:09- not My Big Fat Gypsy Wedding.- Yeah.
0:16:09 > 0:16:10Hm.
0:16:17 > 0:16:19Am I too late?
0:16:21 > 0:16:24- For Confession? No.- Yeah.
0:16:27 > 0:16:29Not what I expected.
0:16:30 > 0:16:32- No?- No.
0:16:32 > 0:16:33I expected it dark.
0:16:33 > 0:16:36A wee little shaft of light.
0:16:36 > 0:16:39A few specks of dust spinning in it.
0:16:39 > 0:16:41You've not been for a while, then?
0:16:41 > 0:16:43No!
0:16:43 > 0:16:44Right.
0:16:51 > 0:16:54I'm Michael.
0:16:54 > 0:16:55Roz.
0:16:55 > 0:16:56How do you do, Roz?
0:16:56 > 0:16:58How do you do, Michael?
0:17:08 > 0:17:10Cat got your tongue?
0:17:10 > 0:17:14No. No, I'd just sooner listen for a while, you know?
0:17:24 > 0:17:25Christ is with us...
0:17:27 > 0:17:29..sharing our pain.
0:17:30 > 0:17:32This'll remind us of his presence.
0:17:35 > 0:17:37I'm going to kill myself, Michael.
0:17:42 > 0:17:43What? Why?
0:17:46 > 0:17:48Do I look good?
0:17:49 > 0:17:52Yeah. Yeah, you do.
0:17:52 > 0:17:55Ted Baker. Kurt Geiger.
0:17:55 > 0:17:59- Agent Provocateur knickers.- Mm-hm.
0:17:59 > 0:18:00Chanel perfume.
0:18:04 > 0:18:07I want to make a good impression on the slab.
0:18:11 > 0:18:13Well, wh-why do you want to kill yourself?
0:18:18 > 0:18:20I'm an office manager, and...
0:18:22 > 0:18:24..over the past eight years I've stolen...
0:18:26 > 0:18:30..£232,648...
0:18:31 > 0:18:37..and in a week or two, for reasons I'll not bore you with,
0:18:37 > 0:18:39my boss is going to find out.
0:18:44 > 0:18:45What did you spend it on?
0:18:47 > 0:18:48Some of it was on me...
0:18:52 > 0:18:55..but I'm a gambler, and most of it went on machines.
0:19:05 > 0:19:07I know this trick.
0:19:07 > 0:19:09The silent trick.
0:19:10 > 0:19:12No, it's not a trick.
0:19:12 > 0:19:15I'm...genuinely lost for words.
0:19:20 > 0:19:23You could ask me how I'm going to do it.
0:19:23 > 0:19:25How are you going to do it?
0:19:25 > 0:19:27I thought about standing in front of a train...
0:19:29 > 0:19:32..or throwing myself off a high-rise block...
0:19:32 > 0:19:35but I'd look a right mess on the slab, wouldn't I?
0:19:36 > 0:19:38So it's pills and booze.
0:19:42 > 0:19:44When?
0:19:44 > 0:19:45Tonight.
0:19:48 > 0:19:49Do you have a family?
0:19:51 > 0:19:53SHE SIGHS
0:19:56 > 0:19:58It's a bit below the belt if you don't mind me saying so, Michael.
0:19:58 > 0:20:00I'm sorry.
0:20:02 > 0:20:05Two boys. 15 and 16...
0:20:06 > 0:20:08..and a girl, 19.
0:20:10 > 0:20:12Husband?
0:20:12 > 0:20:14You might call him a husband.
0:20:14 > 0:20:16I prefer "sick, twisted gobshite."
0:20:18 > 0:20:20Do you believe in God?
0:20:22 > 0:20:26I think it's about a thousand-to-one that there's an afterlife...
0:20:28 > 0:20:31..but it's the only chance I've got, so I'll take it, thanks very much.
0:20:33 > 0:20:35You get a lot like that, yeah?
0:20:35 > 0:20:36- Yeah.- Hm.
0:20:40 > 0:20:42How do we start?
0:20:42 > 0:20:44Is it just, "Bless me, Father," and all that?
0:20:44 > 0:20:46If you like.
0:20:47 > 0:20:50OK, bless me, Father...
0:20:50 > 0:20:51SHE CLEARS HER THROAT
0:20:52 > 0:20:54..for I have sinned.
0:20:54 > 0:20:58God knows how long it's been since my last confession.
0:21:00 > 0:21:02I've had other men...
0:21:03 > 0:21:06.but only when I found out he was having other women.
0:21:09 > 0:21:14And I stole 230-odd something thousand off...
0:21:14 > 0:21:15my employer.
0:21:18 > 0:21:20Is that it?
0:21:21 > 0:21:24Yeah, well, there's other stuff!
0:21:24 > 0:21:25Nothing special, though.
0:21:27 > 0:21:31If this was Match Of The Day, that'd be the stuff you'd see -
0:21:31 > 0:21:32the men and the money.
0:21:34 > 0:21:35And are you sorry?
0:21:36 > 0:21:38Not about the men, no.
0:21:39 > 0:21:42As for the money, I'm...
0:21:42 > 0:21:44only sorry I got caught.
0:21:47 > 0:21:49It's not good enough, is it?
0:21:51 > 0:21:52No.
0:21:54 > 0:21:57I have to be truly sorry for you to absolve me, right?
0:21:57 > 0:22:00Well, I-I don't absolve you. It's God who...
0:22:00 > 0:22:02Please don't kill yourself.
0:22:06 > 0:22:07Thank you.
0:22:07 > 0:22:10If it's shame, you can live with the shame.
0:22:14 > 0:22:16Have you been there?
0:22:17 > 0:22:19Yeah. Yeah, I have.
0:22:21 > 0:22:22Were you suicidal?
0:22:24 > 0:22:25Yeah.
0:22:27 > 0:22:28Over?
0:22:31 > 0:22:35Things I did when I was a young man.
0:22:37 > 0:22:41Was it worse than stealing £232,000 or whatever
0:22:41 > 0:22:43off people that trusted you?
0:22:43 > 0:22:46Much worse. Much worse.
0:22:50 > 0:22:52How do you cope?
0:22:53 > 0:22:55I atone.
0:22:56 > 0:23:01I spend my life atoning for it, and I just hope that when I die,
0:23:01 > 0:23:03I'll...I'll have atoned enough.
0:23:05 > 0:23:08Promise me you won't kill yourself,
0:23:08 > 0:23:11promise me, and I will show you how to atone.
0:23:15 > 0:23:16I can't.
0:23:16 > 0:23:18Then promise me you won't kill yourself today,
0:23:18 > 0:23:21promise me you'll come back in two or three days' time
0:23:21 > 0:23:23and I will make you want to live.
0:23:27 > 0:23:29Promise?
0:23:31 > 0:23:33Yes, I promise.
0:23:39 > 0:23:41Will you join me in the Lord's Prayer?
0:23:43 > 0:23:46Yes. Yes, I will.
0:23:49 > 0:23:52Our Father, who art in Heaven
0:23:52 > 0:23:53Hallowed be thy name...
0:23:53 > 0:23:55- TOGETHER:- Thy kingdom come
0:23:55 > 0:23:58Thy will be done on Earth as it is in heaven
0:23:58 > 0:24:02Give us this day our daily bread
0:24:02 > 0:24:05And forgive us our trespasses
0:24:05 > 0:24:08As we forgive those who trespass against us...
0:24:16 > 0:24:17DOORS SLAM CLOSED
0:24:26 > 0:24:28PHONE RINGS
0:24:30 > 0:24:32Hiya, Mam.
0:24:32 > 0:24:33'It's Beth. It's Mam's birthday!'
0:24:33 > 0:24:36- Ah.- 'Phone her on her landline, you prick.'
0:24:36 > 0:24:38All right.
0:24:41 > 0:24:43DIALS
0:24:45 > 0:24:47RINGING
0:24:47 > 0:24:48'Hello?'
0:24:48 > 0:24:50- # Happy birthday to you. # - 'Oh!'
0:24:50 > 0:24:52# Happy birthday to you... #
0:24:52 > 0:24:54'I was beginning to think you'd forgotten!'
0:24:54 > 0:24:58Nah, I just haven't had the chance till now. How are you?
0:24:58 > 0:25:00You all right?
0:25:00 > 0:25:04Yeah, I'm all right - just been very busy today.
0:25:04 > 0:25:06You having a nice time?
0:25:06 > 0:25:10# I only wanna be with you
0:25:10 > 0:25:11# I said no matter
0:25:11 > 0:25:14# No matter what you do
0:25:14 > 0:25:17# I only wanna be with you. #
0:25:19 > 0:25:20CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:25:23 > 0:25:24Come on!
0:25:26 > 0:25:28The Karaoke Kid!
0:25:28 > 0:25:31Anyway, still to come is the raffle,
0:25:31 > 0:25:34and Father Michael is going to draw that for us
0:25:34 > 0:25:36immediately...after the bingo!
0:25:38 > 0:25:43Eight and six, 86...
0:25:48 > 0:25:51All the twos, 22.
0:26:13 > 0:26:14BEEP
0:26:14 > 0:26:17'You have no messages in your mailbox.'
0:26:19 > 0:26:21PHONE RINGS
0:26:28 > 0:26:31'You've reached Father Michael Kerrigan.
0:26:31 > 0:26:32'I can't get to the phone at the moment.
0:26:32 > 0:26:35'If you'd like to leave a message and your phone number,
0:26:35 > 0:26:37'I'll get back to you as soon as possible. Thanks.'
0:26:40 > 0:26:43'It's Helen Oyenusi here, Father.
0:26:43 > 0:26:47'You're probably fast asleep, so, never mind.
0:26:47 > 0:26:52'It's just that Vernon wanted a word, didn't you, Vernon?
0:26:54 > 0:26:58'If you play this in the morning, maybe you could phone him, Father.
0:26:58 > 0:27:00'You know what he's like.
0:27:00 > 0:27:02'Doesn't believe a word his mother tells him
0:27:02 > 0:27:04'but everything you say is gospel.
0:27:04 > 0:27:06'No pun intended, Father.'
0:27:06 > 0:27:09DIALLING TONE
0:27:28 > 0:27:30Phone him again.
0:27:30 > 0:27:32He's in bed, Vernon.
0:27:32 > 0:27:35He's not. They won't let him pick up the phone.
0:27:35 > 0:27:36Who won't let him?
0:27:36 > 0:27:37You know who.
0:27:39 > 0:27:41Can I phone the crisis team, Vernon?
0:27:41 > 0:27:44- No.- You're holding a knife, Vernon, and I'm scared of what you might do.
0:27:44 > 0:27:46- They're not coming in here. - Not scared for myself.
0:27:46 > 0:27:49- I know you won't hurt your mother... - They're not coming in here.
0:27:49 > 0:27:51- I'm scared of what... - They're not coming in here!
0:27:51 > 0:27:54- Don't phone!- I have to. I won't let you hurt yourself.
0:27:54 > 0:27:55Don't phone them.
0:27:55 > 0:27:58Do not phone them!
0:28:11 > 0:28:13Hello?
0:28:14 > 0:28:16It's Helen Oyenusi here.
0:28:38 > 0:28:40Hiya, Vernon.
0:28:40 > 0:28:41- Go away.- We just want to talk.
0:28:41 > 0:28:44- I will not let you in. - We're here to help you, Vernon.
0:28:44 > 0:28:47- But I will do this before I let you in!- We're here to help...- Now go!
0:28:51 > 0:28:52DIALLING
0:29:04 > 0:29:06SIREN WAILS
0:29:06 > 0:29:09- The police are coming, son, we have to let them in.- No.
0:29:09 > 0:29:12- We'll let them in and we'll let the crisis team in and they'll...- No.
0:29:12 > 0:29:14..give you something, everything will be fine.
0:29:14 > 0:29:16- You're only feeling like this...- No-one's coming in.
0:29:16 > 0:29:18..because it's your first night
0:29:18 > 0:29:19- away from the centre... - No-one's coming in.
0:29:21 > 0:29:26- No-one's coming in.- Hey, Vernon, it's me. Andrew, Andrew Powell.
0:29:26 > 0:29:28Go away.
0:29:28 > 0:29:30What are you doing with the knife, Vernon?
0:29:30 > 0:29:33I'm protecting myself.
0:29:33 > 0:29:34There are people who want to do me harm,
0:29:34 > 0:29:36so I'm protecting myself with this knife.
0:29:36 > 0:29:37OK, OK.
0:29:37 > 0:29:38I don't care.
0:29:38 > 0:29:41I'm not going back in there and I'm not going to talk to them.
0:29:41 > 0:29:43Just let me talk to him.
0:29:43 > 0:29:45I'll see to it, all right, you got me word, all right?
0:29:45 > 0:29:48No-one's going to harm you, you need put down the knife, mate.
0:29:48 > 0:29:50- Open the door... - I don't want to do it...
0:29:50 > 0:29:52..let me in, I'll tell you what, we'll go through there,
0:29:52 > 0:29:54- sit down nice and calm and talk it through.- Let me go!
0:29:54 > 0:29:56I'll see to it that no-one hurts you mate, all right?
0:29:56 > 0:29:58- All you got to do...- No! - ..is put the knife down,
0:29:58 > 0:30:00- open the door for me...- No.
0:30:00 > 0:30:02We'll go through to your living room, sit down,
0:30:02 > 0:30:04- talk about things nice and calm, like, yeah?- No.
0:30:05 > 0:30:07Is your mam there, Vernon?
0:30:07 > 0:30:08- Yeah.- Right.
0:30:08 > 0:30:11- Put the knife down, please. - Get out.
0:30:11 > 0:30:12- Put it down.- Get out now!
0:30:12 > 0:30:15If you don't put the knife down, I will have to spray you.
0:30:15 > 0:30:16No. No. Don't spray him, Dawn!
0:30:16 > 0:30:18Get out of this house!
0:30:18 > 0:30:20- Don't spray him, Dawn, he's sick! - ALL SHOUT
0:30:20 > 0:30:23Put the knife down, or I will have to spray you!
0:30:23 > 0:30:26ALL TALK OVER EACH OTHER
0:30:27 > 0:30:29Drop the knife!
0:30:32 > 0:30:34I can't see!
0:30:34 > 0:30:36Armed police!
0:30:36 > 0:30:37I can't see!
0:30:37 > 0:30:40Armed police. Put down the knife or I will fire!
0:30:40 > 0:30:43I can't see!
0:30:43 > 0:30:48Armed police! Put down the knife! Put down the knife or I will fire!
0:30:50 > 0:30:52SCREAMING
0:30:59 > 0:31:01You stupid bitch!
0:31:05 > 0:31:08SHE SOBS
0:31:08 > 0:31:10POLICE RADIO CHATTER
0:31:19 > 0:31:21- SOBS:- Vernon, Vernon!
0:31:21 > 0:31:23SHE SOBS
0:32:04 > 0:32:08In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit,
0:32:08 > 0:32:09Amen.
0:32:09 > 0:32:13The grace of Our Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God
0:32:13 > 0:32:16and the Communion of the Holy Spirit be with you all.
0:32:18 > 0:32:20Her daughter Christina is with us today
0:32:20 > 0:32:23along with her beloved grandchild Lisa,
0:32:23 > 0:32:26and we remember all of them in our prayers,
0:32:26 > 0:32:29and, finally, we remember Vernon Oyenusi
0:32:29 > 0:32:33who was so tragically taken from us last night...
0:32:33 > 0:32:34- What?- ..and of...
0:32:35 > 0:32:37You haven't heard, Father?
0:32:39 > 0:32:40No.
0:32:42 > 0:32:46..and we ask Almighty God to ease the grief of his mother,
0:32:46 > 0:32:49Helen Oyenusi, whom many of us have known
0:32:49 > 0:32:52since she first came here four or five years ago.
0:32:52 > 0:32:55We remember all of them in our prayers.
0:33:03 > 0:33:05How did it happen?
0:33:05 > 0:33:06I don't know.
0:33:06 > 0:33:07Well, where is she?
0:33:07 > 0:33:09- His mother?- Yeah, yeah!
0:33:09 > 0:33:11Hospital. The General.
0:33:11 > 0:33:12Is she hurt?
0:33:12 > 0:33:15No. He's there.
0:33:15 > 0:33:17The morgue.
0:33:52 > 0:33:54What happened?
0:33:54 > 0:33:59Oh! He got sicker and sicker. I-I phoned the crisis team.
0:33:59 > 0:34:02He wouldn't let them in so they phoned the police
0:34:02 > 0:34:04and the police gassed him and shot him.
0:34:04 > 0:34:06Oh, God! Why didn't you phone me?
0:34:06 > 0:34:07I knew you were in bed.
0:34:07 > 0:34:11I'd phoned earlier and you didn't answer so I knew you were in bed.
0:34:12 > 0:34:14They won't let me see him.
0:34:14 > 0:34:18They say you can, but I can't.
0:34:18 > 0:34:19Yeah...
0:34:20 > 0:34:23All right, just... I won't be long.
0:34:53 > 0:34:56I'm afraid not. Evidence.
0:35:08 > 0:35:10Have mercy on Vernon Oyenusi, Lord.
0:35:12 > 0:35:16Forgive him his sins and grant him eternal rest.
0:35:18 > 0:35:19Amen.
0:35:25 > 0:35:28God bless you, Vernon.
0:35:45 > 0:35:48This lady's a police liaison officer.
0:35:48 > 0:35:50I've told her I do not want one.
0:35:50 > 0:35:53I will get all the help I need from my priest and my church.
0:35:53 > 0:35:57The police have done enough for now, thank you very much.
0:35:58 > 0:36:01Helen needs somewhere to sleep tonight.
0:36:01 > 0:36:03We've still not finished with the house.
0:36:03 > 0:36:05Oh, she can stay with me.
0:36:06 > 0:36:09And the Chief Inspector has asked to see her.
0:36:09 > 0:36:11Yeah, I'll-I'll come with her.
0:36:11 > 0:36:13Thanks.
0:36:13 > 0:36:14Bye, Helen.
0:36:17 > 0:36:19Bye, Father.
0:36:19 > 0:36:21Yeah, bye.
0:36:29 > 0:36:31They let you see him?
0:36:31 > 0:36:32Yeah.
0:36:36 > 0:36:39He looks so peaceful, Helen.
0:36:52 > 0:36:53We were happy in Granby.
0:36:55 > 0:36:57Vernon loved it there.
0:36:59 > 0:37:02Lots of friends, lots of laughter...
0:37:06 > 0:37:11..but his dad wanted somewhere better,
0:37:11 > 0:37:15and "somewhere better" meant fewer black faces...
0:37:16 > 0:37:18..so we moved...
0:37:19 > 0:37:20..here...
0:37:23 > 0:37:27..and conversations suddenly stopped when Vernon got to them.
0:37:29 > 0:37:32People laughed at jokes and wouldn't repeat them to him.
0:37:34 > 0:37:35He got sick.
0:37:37 > 0:37:39His dad couldn't cope with it.
0:37:41 > 0:37:45The man responsible for the sickness couldn't cope with the sickness...
0:37:47 > 0:37:51..so he left, and the sickness got worse...
0:37:53 > 0:37:54..and worse.
0:37:57 > 0:37:59Now it has killed him.
0:38:27 > 0:38:30INAUDIBLE DIALOGUE
0:38:33 > 0:38:37CHORAL SINGING
0:39:57 > 0:39:59The body of Christ.
0:40:01 > 0:40:03The body of Christ.
0:40:07 > 0:40:09The body of Christ.
0:40:10 > 0:40:11The body of Christ.
0:40:12 > 0:40:14The body of Christ.
0:40:29 > 0:40:30The body of Christ.
0:40:39 > 0:40:40The body of Christ.
0:40:44 > 0:40:45The body of Christ.
0:40:49 > 0:40:50The body of Christ.
0:40:57 > 0:40:59The body of Christ.
0:41:21 > 0:41:24SHE WHISPERS
0:41:24 > 0:41:26The body of Christ.
0:41:30 > 0:41:32That way.
0:41:32 > 0:41:34The body of Christ.
0:41:35 > 0:41:37The children were a credit to you all.
0:41:37 > 0:41:41Their appearance, obviously, er, but more importantly,
0:41:41 > 0:41:44their behaviour throughout the entire Mass -
0:41:44 > 0:41:46and finally, I have to mention one person
0:41:46 > 0:41:48without whom today wouldn't have happened -
0:41:48 > 0:41:50Miss Pickering.
0:41:50 > 0:41:51Miss Pickering?
0:41:52 > 0:41:54Lisa, would you?
0:41:57 > 0:42:04Apparently, um, this is the 20th first Holy Communion celebration
0:42:04 > 0:42:06that Miss Pickering's organised, so...
0:42:07 > 0:42:11..Miss Pickering, on behalf of us all, thank you.
0:42:11 > 0:42:12Thank you!
0:42:28 > 0:42:30Helen will have questions, yes.
0:42:30 > 0:42:33Why Vernon was discharged from the centre will be one of them,
0:42:33 > 0:42:38I'm sure. As will why police shot dead a boy who wouldn't harm a fly.
0:42:38 > 0:42:41The officer who used the spray says she did so
0:42:41 > 0:42:44because she feared for Mrs Oyenusi's safety.
0:42:44 > 0:42:47- As does...- That's not true!
0:42:47 > 0:42:49That is what she says, but of course, every statement,
0:42:49 > 0:42:52every piece of evidence will be thoroughly tested...
0:42:52 > 0:42:55HIS VOICE ECHOES AND FADES
0:43:17 > 0:43:18When can I see him?
0:43:18 > 0:43:21The post mortem's tomorrow. As soon as that's over.
0:43:29 > 0:43:30Thanks.
0:43:40 > 0:43:41What happened?
0:43:41 > 0:43:43Policeman did it. That night.
0:43:44 > 0:43:46Couldn't you have fixed the chain?
0:43:46 > 0:43:50For God's sake! She's grieving, vulnerable, alone -
0:43:50 > 0:43:52couldn't you have fixed the bloody...
0:44:06 > 0:44:07I'm sorry.
0:44:17 > 0:44:19Thanks for this.
0:44:27 > 0:44:29You still off the sugar?
0:44:29 > 0:44:31Yeah, four days now.
0:44:33 > 0:44:36Puts the crucifixion into perspective, doesn't it?
0:44:42 > 0:44:44So, what happened?
0:44:45 > 0:44:49Oh, I got back late. Knackered...
0:44:49 > 0:44:51and the phone rang.
0:44:51 > 0:44:54Helen Oyenusi about Vernon.
0:44:56 > 0:44:59I'd have picked up, but...
0:44:59 > 0:45:03seeing them earlier in the day gave me an excuse not to,
0:45:03 > 0:45:05so I didn't pick up,
0:45:05 > 0:45:08and a few hours later he was dead.
0:45:10 > 0:45:12And if you'd have picked up?
0:45:12 > 0:45:13I don't know.
0:45:13 > 0:45:19I might have spoken to him, you know, realised how bad he was,
0:45:19 > 0:45:24gone galloping round there on my white charger and saved the day.
0:45:24 > 0:45:26And you might not.
0:45:28 > 0:45:29Yeah.
0:45:33 > 0:45:36I just feel as though I should tell her, you know?
0:45:39 > 0:45:40What good will that do?
0:45:42 > 0:45:44Well, undeniably it will...
0:45:49 > 0:45:51Look, she needs you, Michael.
0:45:51 > 0:45:53And she needs to have total faith in you.
0:45:53 > 0:45:55I mean, why would you destroy all that
0:45:55 > 0:45:56just to clear your own conscience?
0:45:56 > 0:45:58It's not that.
0:45:58 > 0:45:59- No?- No!
0:46:00 > 0:46:04You lose a loved one suddenly, unnaturally,
0:46:04 > 0:46:06you want to know everything, Peter.
0:46:06 > 0:46:07Every detail.
0:46:07 > 0:46:10People, oh, they... People try and hide it from you,
0:46:10 > 0:46:12thinking it too painful, but how dare they?
0:46:12 > 0:46:18You've lost a son - nothing can be worse than that.
0:46:18 > 0:46:21And I'm going to be helping her in that quest, Peter.
0:46:21 > 0:46:25The police, they'll tell her lies, we'll expose those lies.
0:46:25 > 0:46:28"Total truth, please, officer"...
0:46:30 > 0:46:32..and I can't do that
0:46:32 > 0:46:36while I'm hiding an inconvenient truth of my own -
0:46:36 > 0:46:39that, had I acted, her son might well still be alive.
0:46:42 > 0:46:43I know.
0:46:48 > 0:46:49Yeah, but...
0:46:51 > 0:46:53..what she doesn't know won't hurt her.
0:47:01 > 0:47:03'It's Helen Oyenusi here, Father.
0:47:04 > 0:47:08'You're probably fast asleep, so, never mind.
0:47:09 > 0:47:15'It's just that Vernon wanted a word, didn't you, Vernon?
0:47:15 > 0:47:19'If you play this in the morning, maybe you could phone him, Father.
0:47:19 > 0:47:21'You know what he's like.
0:47:21 > 0:47:23'Doesn't believe a word his mother tells him
0:47:23 > 0:47:24'but everything you say is gospel.
0:47:24 > 0:47:26'No pun intended, Father.'
0:47:49 > 0:47:50Hello again, Michael.
0:47:53 > 0:47:54Hello again, Roz.
0:48:00 > 0:48:01May I?
0:48:01 > 0:48:02Yes.
0:48:05 > 0:48:06How are you?
0:48:06 > 0:48:09This is not my going away outfit so...
0:48:09 > 0:48:11no immediate panic...
0:48:13 > 0:48:15..but I'm still going to do it, I'm afraid.
0:48:18 > 0:48:19When?
0:48:21 > 0:48:22Soon.
0:48:41 > 0:48:43All right, go on.
0:48:43 > 0:48:44Sorry?
0:48:46 > 0:48:49You said you'd give me a reason to go on living.
0:48:50 > 0:48:52Well, if I said that, it...
0:48:52 > 0:48:55- Well, you did.- If I said that, it was arrogant of me, I'm sorry.
0:48:58 > 0:49:00But I could suggest something.
0:49:04 > 0:49:06Go on.
0:49:06 > 0:49:08It'll take guts.
0:49:08 > 0:49:10I've got guts.
0:49:12 > 0:49:15You lost most of that money on the machines?
0:49:16 > 0:49:17Yeah.
0:49:17 > 0:49:19Those machines in the betting shop?
0:49:19 > 0:49:21Yeah.
0:49:21 > 0:49:24The more you lost the more you chased those losses?
0:49:24 > 0:49:25Yes.
0:49:25 > 0:49:27Tell the world.
0:49:27 > 0:49:28What?
0:49:28 > 0:49:29I want you to tell the world
0:49:29 > 0:49:31what those machines have done to you, Roz.
0:49:31 > 0:49:33I'm killing myself
0:49:33 > 0:49:35because I'm afraid it's going to make the local paper
0:49:35 > 0:49:36and you want me to tell the world?
0:49:36 > 0:49:38Yeah.
0:49:38 > 0:49:41There are four betting shops in Hallcross Road.
0:49:42 > 0:49:47No bank, no post office, no chemist, but four betting shops.
0:49:47 > 0:49:50Why? Why four, when everyone round there is skint?
0:49:51 > 0:49:55Those machines, Roz, that's why. It's not just you, it's everyone.
0:49:57 > 0:50:01You're not a criminal, you're not a villain - you're a victim.
0:50:05 > 0:50:07I don't think my boss would see it that way.
0:50:07 > 0:50:12Why did you steal that money? The machines. Who got that money?
0:50:12 > 0:50:14The machines. Tell the world.
0:50:14 > 0:50:17If you don't tell the world,
0:50:17 > 0:50:20it's a guilty secret that's going to be revealed anyway.
0:50:20 > 0:50:22If you do tell the world, it's a campaign,
0:50:22 > 0:50:24and it's your reason for living.
0:50:25 > 0:50:27I'll go to prison.
0:50:27 > 0:50:30Not immediately, and not forever.
0:50:37 > 0:50:39What did you do?
0:50:39 > 0:50:42Others will come forward, Roz, with stories very similar to yours.
0:50:42 > 0:50:44We'll get together, and we'll stick together
0:50:44 > 0:50:46until there's not one machine left in Hallcross Road.
0:50:46 > 0:50:49- What did you do? - Promise me you'll think about it.
0:50:49 > 0:50:51I promise. What did you do?
0:50:51 > 0:50:52Promise me you won't do anything
0:50:52 > 0:50:54until you've come back to see me again.
0:50:54 > 0:50:56I promise.
0:50:59 > 0:51:01What did you do, Michael?
0:51:02 > 0:51:04I'm here to listen to you, Roz, not...
0:51:06 > 0:51:12You said that you'd done something worse than...
0:51:15 > 0:51:18..stealing £200,000.
0:51:22 > 0:51:23What was it?
0:51:26 > 0:51:30I've done two things worse than that.
0:51:30 > 0:51:33One of them's too recent, too raw...
0:51:33 > 0:51:35and, er...
0:51:37 > 0:51:39And the other?
0:51:41 > 0:51:43I, er...
0:51:43 > 0:51:47Who do you think Jesus confided in?
0:51:50 > 0:51:52Peter with the poker up his arse?
0:51:54 > 0:51:56Judas?
0:51:56 > 0:51:59No.
0:51:59 > 0:52:01Mary Magdalene.
0:52:01 > 0:52:06She'd been there, done it, bought the T-shirt. She understood.
0:52:08 > 0:52:11I... I treated young women very badly.
0:52:14 > 0:52:15When?
0:52:16 > 0:52:18When I was 18, 19.
0:52:20 > 0:52:22Not all young women, just the ones I had sex with.
0:52:22 > 0:52:24Why?
0:52:24 > 0:52:26Because they let me have sex with them.
0:52:28 > 0:52:31It was 40 years ago and I could live with it then, but...
0:52:32 > 0:52:35..40 years ago, the only good woman there'd ever been
0:52:35 > 0:52:38was the Virgin Mary cos she'd never done it with anyone,
0:52:38 > 0:52:40whereas if a girl did it with a boy, any boy,
0:52:40 > 0:52:47well, she was filth, and if she did it with a boy like me,
0:52:47 > 0:52:50a boy in whom every last bit of self-esteem
0:52:50 > 0:52:53was well and truly banished,
0:52:53 > 0:52:54well, she was less than filth -
0:52:54 > 0:52:57she was scum, and you can treat scum any way you like.
0:53:03 > 0:53:05Have you seen any of them since?
0:53:05 > 0:53:08Oh, yeah, in here every day.
0:53:10 > 0:53:16I sometimes think that I'll track them down and I'll apologise,
0:53:16 > 0:53:18but I don't think I could...
0:53:18 > 0:53:20or should.
0:53:26 > 0:53:29Only you know the answer to that, Michael.
0:53:31 > 0:53:32Do I?
0:53:32 > 0:53:34Yes.
0:53:39 > 0:53:42You should do what your conscience tells you to do.
0:54:09 > 0:54:12SHE SCREAMS AND SOBS
0:54:32 > 0:54:35CHURCH BELL RINGS
0:54:55 > 0:54:56Hello, Helen.
0:54:56 > 0:54:59- Hello.- Father.
0:54:59 > 0:55:00Trish is on her way.
0:55:00 > 0:55:02OK, good.
0:55:02 > 0:55:04Would you like to see what we've got?
0:55:04 > 0:55:06Please.
0:55:06 > 0:55:07This way.
0:55:19 > 0:55:24This is, um, a log of every call, text and e-mail we got about Vernon.
0:55:24 > 0:55:26Would you like it?
0:55:26 > 0:55:27Yes, please.
0:55:29 > 0:55:32There'll be more, but we'll pass them on, as well...
0:55:34 > 0:55:39..and these are some photographs taken throughout his time with us.
0:55:54 > 0:55:59On the wall, there's some of his...artwork.
0:56:04 > 0:56:06I'm so, so sorry!
0:56:06 > 0:56:08I am so, so sorry, Helen.
0:56:09 > 0:56:11Please say you forgive me.
0:56:11 > 0:56:13Oh, there's nothing to forgive -
0:56:13 > 0:56:17you didn't want to send him away from here.
0:56:17 > 0:56:20I'm here to say thank you, Trish.
0:56:20 > 0:56:22Thank you for making him so happy.
0:56:24 > 0:56:28He loved it here and that was down to you.
0:56:30 > 0:56:32BOTH SOB
0:57:05 > 0:57:09# Tell me what it's like in heaven
0:57:09 > 0:57:14# I hope it's kinder than it is down here
0:57:14 > 0:57:19# With all the trials and tribulations
0:57:19 > 0:57:22# All the worry and living in fear
0:57:24 > 0:57:26# Hallelujah
0:57:26 > 0:57:30# Hallelujah
0:57:30 > 0:57:34# We might be bruised but we're not broken. #