0:00:02 > 0:00:03- Vernon's coming home. - Is he well enough?
0:00:03 > 0:00:06- Can you phone the Crisis Team? - They're not coming in here!
0:00:06 > 0:00:07Get out now!
0:00:07 > 0:00:09Put the knife down - I'll have to spray you.
0:00:09 > 0:00:10No, don't spray it, Dawn!
0:00:10 > 0:00:12- Put down the knife or I will fire! - GUNSHOTS
0:00:12 > 0:00:15We remember Vernon Oyenusi, who was so tragically taken from us.
0:00:15 > 0:00:17What?
0:00:17 > 0:00:18What happened?
0:00:18 > 0:00:21- He got sicker and sicker. - Oh, God, why didn't you phone me?
0:00:21 > 0:00:23I phoned earlier and you didn't answer.
0:00:23 > 0:00:25- ON VOICEMAIL:- 'No pun intended, Father.'
0:00:25 > 0:00:27She can't be left alone over night.
0:00:27 > 0:00:29- Michael.- Roz.
0:00:29 > 0:00:31You said you'd give me a reason to go on living.
0:00:31 > 0:00:34You said you'd done something worse
0:00:34 > 0:00:37than stealing £200,000.
0:00:37 > 0:00:39What did you do, Michael?
0:00:40 > 0:00:43MUSIC: I Think It's Going To Rain Today by Nina Simone
0:00:52 > 0:00:57# Broken windows in empty hallways
0:00:57 > 0:01:01# A pale dead moon and a sky streaked with grey
0:01:03 > 0:01:08# Human kindness is overflowing
0:01:08 > 0:01:16# And I think it's gonna rain today. #
0:01:19 > 0:01:25This programme contains some strong language and some scenes which some viewers may find upsetting.
0:01:26 > 0:01:27"Move him into the sun.
0:01:29 > 0:01:32"Gently its touch awoke him once.
0:01:34 > 0:01:36- "At home, whispering..."- Stop!
0:01:39 > 0:01:40Look at it.
0:01:42 > 0:01:43Last word of the first line?
0:01:43 > 0:01:44Sun.
0:01:46 > 0:01:48Last word of the third line?
0:01:48 > 0:01:49Unsown.
0:01:50 > 0:01:52Does it rhyme?
0:01:52 > 0:01:53No, Father.
0:01:53 > 0:01:55Are they supposed to rhyme?
0:01:55 > 0:01:56Yes, Father.
0:01:56 > 0:01:59Does it LOOK as though it should rhyme?
0:01:59 > 0:02:00Yes, Father.
0:02:00 > 0:02:02It's called sight rhyme.
0:02:02 > 0:02:05It LOOKS as though it might rhyme, but it doesn't.
0:02:05 > 0:02:08Otherwise known as consonantal rhyme,
0:02:08 > 0:02:09because the consonants are the same.
0:02:11 > 0:02:12Continue.
0:02:13 > 0:02:17"Always it woke him, even in France,
0:02:17 > 0:02:19"until this morning and this snow.
0:02:20 > 0:02:23"If anything might rouse him now...
0:02:23 > 0:02:26Now and know. Sight rhyme.
0:02:26 > 0:02:28It adds something, doesn't it?
0:02:29 > 0:02:33An uneasiness, a strangeness,
0:02:33 > 0:02:36a sense of something not being quite right.
0:02:37 > 0:02:38Continue.
0:02:40 > 0:02:42"Think how it wakes the seeds,
0:02:42 > 0:02:46"woke, once, the clays of a cold star.
0:02:47 > 0:02:51"Are limbs, so dear-achieved, are sides,
0:02:51 > 0:02:54"Full-nerved, still warm,
0:02:54 > 0:02:57"too hard to stir?
0:02:57 > 0:02:59"Was it for this the clay grew tall?
0:03:00 > 0:03:03"O what made fatuous sunbeams toil
0:03:03 > 0:03:05"to break earth's sleep at all?"
0:03:06 > 0:03:09It is a sweet and wonderful thing.
0:03:14 > 0:03:16Father?
0:03:16 > 0:03:17Dulce et decorum est.
0:03:17 > 0:03:20It is a sweet and wonderful thing.
0:03:20 > 0:03:21Read it please, Donnelly.
0:03:21 > 0:03:23CHURCH BELL TOLLS
0:03:33 > 0:03:35Shall I come in?
0:03:35 > 0:03:37No, that's OK. You've got Mass.
0:03:38 > 0:03:40Will you be there?
0:03:40 > 0:03:41Yes.
0:03:43 > 0:03:45We've got the Catholic Mothers in.
0:03:47 > 0:03:49May I tell them about you...
0:03:49 > 0:03:50about your loss?
0:03:52 > 0:03:53Yes.
0:04:28 > 0:04:31In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.
0:04:31 > 0:04:33Amen.
0:04:33 > 0:04:36The grace of Our Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God
0:04:36 > 0:04:39and the communion of the Holy Spirit be with you all.
0:04:39 > 0:04:41- CONGREGATION:- And with your spirit.
0:04:41 > 0:04:44So, er, once again we've some guests here today.
0:04:44 > 0:04:48Women from the UCM. Welcome to Saint Nick's.
0:04:53 > 0:04:55HE SIGHS
0:04:55 > 0:04:58When I was a boy queuing up for confession...
0:05:00 > 0:05:02..I'd examine my conscience so fiercely
0:05:02 > 0:05:05I'd think the boys behind could read the sins on the back of my head.
0:05:05 > 0:05:07MUFFLED LAUGHTER
0:05:08 > 0:05:13I sometimes think, today, it's cowardice with me.
0:05:14 > 0:05:17Things I should have said and haven't said.
0:05:17 > 0:05:21Things I should have done and haven't done. All through cowardice.
0:05:23 > 0:05:28There's a woman here who gave birth to a boy 18 years ago,
0:05:28 > 0:05:32and she loved and nurtured him and saw him shot dead in his own street.
0:05:32 > 0:05:38She later met two people who she could have blamed for his death,
0:05:38 > 0:05:39but she did not.
0:05:40 > 0:05:44She embraced them and absolved them of all blame,
0:05:44 > 0:05:46and in doing so,
0:05:46 > 0:05:48proved herself a far better Catholic,
0:05:48 > 0:05:50a far better Christian, than I can ever be.
0:05:51 > 0:05:53Why, then, am I her priest?
0:05:55 > 0:05:56Why is she not mine?
0:05:58 > 0:05:59I think I know why.
0:06:00 > 0:06:06I think I understand why our Church is so set against women priests.
0:06:06 > 0:06:08I think it's the old men who run the Church
0:06:08 > 0:06:12don't want to see menstrual blood on the altar.
0:06:12 > 0:06:14I think it's as basic as that.
0:06:14 > 0:06:17Fear of, ignorance of,
0:06:17 > 0:06:19contempt for the bodies of women.
0:06:21 > 0:06:25"Ah, it's all right," you might say, these old men will soon be dead -
0:06:25 > 0:06:26but they've taught younger men,
0:06:26 > 0:06:31and those younger men will, in turn, teach younger men,
0:06:31 > 0:06:34and so it will continue, this fear of, ignorance of,
0:06:34 > 0:06:38contempt for the bodies of women.
0:06:38 > 0:06:41Female priests, female bishops,
0:06:41 > 0:06:43a female pope...
0:06:44 > 0:06:46That's what our Church needs.
0:07:06 > 0:07:07How confidential is this?
0:07:11 > 0:07:13Utterly.
0:07:13 > 0:07:16- There's no get-out clauses in that, no?- No, none.
0:07:25 > 0:07:26They're going to lie.
0:07:26 > 0:07:29- I must've got a lungful cos I can't...- Will you listen to me?!
0:07:29 > 0:07:31No, I won't cos I'm sick of listening to you, all right?
0:07:31 > 0:07:33- Will you stop that? - I did everything...
0:07:33 > 0:07:35- Shut it, you cracked cow! - ..according to the book.
0:07:35 > 0:07:37If I'd waited for you to act, you dozy bastard,
0:07:37 > 0:07:39- we'd both be dead now. - You were totally out of order -
0:07:39 > 0:07:40and you, you bloody gobshite,
0:07:40 > 0:07:42- shooting a poor bastard like that! - Don't start on me.- I can't...
0:07:42 > 0:07:44We were sent to sort it out,
0:07:44 > 0:07:46- calm the bastard down. - Do you get panic attacks?
0:07:46 > 0:07:47It's not a panic attack.
0:07:47 > 0:07:49You two sent him out like a raving lunatic, so...
0:07:49 > 0:07:50I'm a woman, therefore it's a panic attack?
0:07:50 > 0:07:52- That's not what I'm saying. - You stupid prick.
0:07:52 > 0:07:55I had two seconds to react! A maniac coming towards me...
0:07:55 > 0:07:56I got a lungful of CS
0:07:56 > 0:07:58in the course of defending myself and my colleague.
0:07:58 > 0:07:59- That's down to you and her! - You're a prick!
0:07:59 > 0:08:01MCDONALD: Principal officer?
0:08:02 > 0:08:04McDonald. Chief Inspector.
0:08:04 > 0:08:05Pim of the pip.
0:08:07 > 0:08:08You OK?
0:08:09 > 0:08:12Er, yeah. I knew the boy, sir.
0:08:12 > 0:08:13He wasn't a boy.
0:08:13 > 0:08:14He must've been in his 20s.
0:08:14 > 0:08:17- Hm. Were you the Bronze, Sergeant? - Sir.
0:08:17 > 0:08:18He wasn't a boy.
0:08:18 > 0:08:20He was 18.
0:08:21 > 0:08:25Police Constable Powell. First on the scene?
0:08:25 > 0:08:26Yes, sir.
0:08:28 > 0:08:32I was following up a burglary, sir, at 168 Ferndell,
0:08:32 > 0:08:34when it came through about 17 Maddison, sir.
0:08:34 > 0:08:36And what happened then?
0:08:36 > 0:08:41Vernon - Mr Oyenusi - he was in a distressed state.
0:08:41 > 0:08:45Holding a knife, saying "they" were going to do him harm.
0:08:45 > 0:08:46"They" being...?
0:08:46 > 0:08:48That was my impression, sir, yeah.
0:08:48 > 0:08:50I was outside the house at the time.
0:08:50 > 0:08:52The door was open, the chain was on.
0:08:52 > 0:08:54I was talking to him, I tried to calm him down, and...
0:08:54 > 0:08:59And then we arrived, sir. Myself - Police Constable Dawn Morris -
0:08:59 > 0:09:02and Police Constable Ian Wakefield.
0:09:02 > 0:09:03And then?
0:09:03 > 0:09:05And then Mr Oyenusi became more distressed.
0:09:05 > 0:09:08He got the knife, and...
0:09:08 > 0:09:12And wielded it in a threatening manner.
0:09:12 > 0:09:15So, feeling that myself, Police Constable Wakefield,
0:09:15 > 0:09:20and the man's mother were in danger, I discharged my CS in our defence.
0:09:20 > 0:09:22The mother - Helen Oyenusi?
0:09:22 > 0:09:23So, you feared for her safety
0:09:23 > 0:09:25- as well as your own and your fellow officer?- Absolutely, sir.
0:09:31 > 0:09:36There's a guy, erm, called Collins investigating all this.
0:09:36 > 0:09:38He's from the IPCC.
0:09:38 > 0:09:41He calls it "police contact".
0:09:43 > 0:09:46Not a shooting, he calls it "police contact".
0:09:46 > 0:09:47So, you know...
0:09:50 > 0:09:51..I know his game.
0:09:51 > 0:09:54Our involvement is a matter of course in any incident
0:09:54 > 0:09:59resulting in serious or fatal injuries following police contact -
0:09:59 > 0:10:03and believe me, it's for your own good, as much as everyone else's.
0:10:05 > 0:10:08What I'm going to ask now
0:10:08 > 0:10:11is that each of you provide Chief Inspector McDonald
0:10:11 > 0:10:14with an initial account of what took place,
0:10:14 > 0:10:17- and then you're all free to go home and rest and...- Um...
0:10:17 > 0:10:19We've all been affected by the CS, sir,
0:10:19 > 0:10:22so I request a few days rest before we give our initial accounts.
0:10:22 > 0:10:24Certainly.
0:10:24 > 0:10:27Meanwhile, you're not to discuss this amongst yourselves
0:10:27 > 0:10:30or with anyone else unless I'm present.
0:10:30 > 0:10:31Clear?
0:10:31 > 0:10:32Sir.
0:10:34 > 0:10:37Helen said he was only a danger to himself.
0:10:37 > 0:10:39There was no need to spray him.
0:10:39 > 0:10:42Even less need to shoot him. Is that right?
0:10:43 > 0:10:45They should just ask on the first day.
0:10:46 > 0:10:50Line us all up and just say, "Anybody want to carry a gun?"
0:10:50 > 0:10:52And anyone who puts their hand up,
0:10:52 > 0:10:54just bar them forever from carrying one.
0:10:55 > 0:10:57You give guns to people who don't want to use them,
0:10:57 > 0:11:00who don't want them near them.
0:11:00 > 0:11:03You give a gun to someone like Kilcaid, and he'll use it.
0:11:05 > 0:11:09Give a spray to someone like Dawn, she'll use it sooner or later.
0:11:09 > 0:11:10You know, Dawn sprayed him
0:11:10 > 0:11:13cos she's always wanted to spray someone.
0:11:13 > 0:11:16Kincaid shot him cos he's always wanted to shoot someone.
0:11:16 > 0:11:18End of.
0:11:18 > 0:11:21And will you say this to the IPCC?
0:11:22 > 0:11:25I don't know. I don't know.
0:11:25 > 0:11:29Me and Peter Flaherty, a priest, a friend of mine,
0:11:29 > 0:11:32we talk to seminarians, trainee priests,
0:11:32 > 0:11:34and I tell them,
0:11:34 > 0:11:37"Keep these open, that shut, and you can't go far wrong."
0:11:37 > 0:11:41Now, I'm going to ignore my own advice and talk. OK?
0:11:41 > 0:11:42Right, OK.
0:11:42 > 0:11:45You have got to tell the truth.
0:11:45 > 0:11:48It's absolutely essential you stick to the truth.
0:11:48 > 0:11:50If you don't, what are you saying?
0:11:50 > 0:11:53That Vernon Oyenusi, gentle Vernon Oyenusi,
0:11:53 > 0:11:55intended to stab someone with that knife.
0:11:57 > 0:12:00His mother's heartbroken as it is. That'll kill her.
0:12:03 > 0:12:04I know.
0:12:06 > 0:12:08You hoped I was going to ease the burden.
0:12:10 > 0:12:12Yeah, I did a bit.
0:12:12 > 0:12:13God.
0:12:15 > 0:12:17But I'll be here thinking of you.
0:12:17 > 0:12:18And I'll be praying for you.
0:12:20 > 0:12:22I'll be praying for you.
0:12:47 > 0:12:49I'm going to tell the truth. No matter what.
0:12:59 > 0:13:02MOTOR WHIRS
0:13:10 > 0:13:12Do you think I'm a bad copper?
0:13:14 > 0:13:16WHIRRING STOPS
0:13:16 > 0:13:18- You shouldn't be here, Dawn. - Do you think I'm a bad copper?
0:13:18 > 0:13:19No.
0:13:19 > 0:13:21Terrible person?
0:13:21 > 0:13:24- No.- Do you think that I wanted him to die?
0:13:24 > 0:13:28- No.- He's got a knife, and he could've gone for us at any second.
0:13:28 > 0:13:30- But he didn't.- But he could've. - Yeah, but he didn't, mate.
0:13:30 > 0:13:32He's got a weapon, and he's gone in the head,
0:13:32 > 0:13:35and his mum is so scared that she calls for us...
0:13:35 > 0:13:38- No, she called the Crisis Team. They called us.- She was scared.
0:13:38 > 0:13:40Yeah, for him, not herself - definitely not for us.
0:13:40 > 0:13:43He's got a weapon, and you reacted and I reacted...
0:13:43 > 0:13:45Yeah, I told him he was safe, that we wouldn't hurt him.
0:13:45 > 0:13:47We'd just sit down nice and calm, talk about things -
0:13:47 > 0:13:50and then he was blinded. And killed.
0:13:50 > 0:13:52You're saying this like he was an ordinary person!
0:13:52 > 0:13:53Well, what were he, then?
0:13:53 > 0:13:56- What, did you not see his record? - I don't care about his record.
0:13:56 > 0:13:58We'd been called about him for years. He'd never been right.
0:13:58 > 0:14:00He was an accident waiting to happen.
0:14:00 > 0:14:03Blinded and killed, Dawn.
0:14:05 > 0:14:08A split second to make a judgment, and I did -
0:14:08 > 0:14:09and I need you to back me up.
0:14:11 > 0:14:15Please. I'm...I'm not asking you to say anything happened that didn't.
0:14:16 > 0:14:17I can't, Dawn.
0:14:21 > 0:14:22Back me up.
0:14:23 > 0:14:25Please.
0:14:25 > 0:14:27Just don't contradict me.
0:14:27 > 0:14:29Please go, mate. Just go.
0:14:32 > 0:14:35If he doesn't watch my back, then why should I watch his?
0:14:35 > 0:14:37Why should ANYONE watch his?
0:14:58 > 0:15:00So, who's got least to hide?
0:15:00 > 0:15:04Ian. He didn't spray anyone, didn't shoot anyone either.
0:15:05 > 0:15:06Tell Ian, then.
0:15:16 > 0:15:18PHONE RINGS
0:15:21 > 0:15:23Ian?
0:15:23 > 0:15:25- 'It's late, mate.'- I know, mate.
0:15:25 > 0:15:26Erm...
0:15:26 > 0:15:28Listen has she been on to you, Dawn?
0:15:28 > 0:15:30'No.'
0:15:30 > 0:15:33Well, she came here, mate. This afternoon.
0:15:33 > 0:15:34Listen, mate, while she were here,
0:15:34 > 0:15:36she seemed to be making veiled threats.
0:15:36 > 0:15:38She basically said, like, if I don't watch her back,
0:15:38 > 0:15:40why should she watch mine,
0:15:40 > 0:15:41and then she said,
0:15:41 > 0:15:43you know, why should anyone watch mine.
0:15:43 > 0:15:45That's a veiled threat, isn't it?
0:15:45 > 0:15:46That's a threat, mate.
0:15:46 > 0:15:48Will you do us a favour, mate, and put it in your notebook?
0:15:48 > 0:15:50Look, I don't want to get into all that.
0:15:50 > 0:15:52Please, mate, please. Just for me, Ian.
0:15:52 > 0:15:53Just put it in your notebook.
0:15:53 > 0:15:56- OK.- Thanks for that, mate -
0:15:56 > 0:15:59and, erm, yeah, sorry to bother you, mate, I know it's late.
0:16:02 > 0:16:03HE SIGHS
0:16:03 > 0:16:05It'll be all right.
0:16:06 > 0:16:08A mother's lost her son.
0:16:08 > 0:16:10Upsetting Dawn's nothing compared to that.
0:16:27 > 0:16:32VERNON'S VOICE ECHOES: I can't see! I can't see!
0:16:38 > 0:16:40GUNSHOTS ECHO
0:16:57 > 0:16:58He does things.
0:16:59 > 0:17:01Such as?
0:17:01 > 0:17:05- He...- Does he put his hand on your thigh?
0:17:05 > 0:17:07Yes.
0:17:07 > 0:17:10You must never breathe a word about this to anyone.
0:17:10 > 0:17:12Do you understand?
0:17:12 > 0:17:13Yes.
0:17:15 > 0:17:18For your penance, say three Hail Marys
0:17:18 > 0:17:23and then say an Our Father for Father Matthew.
0:17:23 > 0:17:24Yes, Father.
0:17:25 > 0:17:27God, the Father of mercies,
0:17:27 > 0:17:29through the death and resurrection of his Son
0:17:29 > 0:17:33has reconciled the world to himself and sent the Holy Spirit among us
0:17:33 > 0:17:35for the forgiveness of sins.
0:17:35 > 0:17:39Through the ministry of the Church, may God give you pardon and peace.
0:17:58 > 0:18:03I'm sorry, Dawn, but...he didn't pose a threat. He just didn't.
0:18:05 > 0:18:06I don't remember that.
0:18:08 > 0:18:09Ian...
0:18:09 > 0:18:11She did the only thing she could.
0:18:11 > 0:18:13I don't think it made a difference, though, cos he...
0:18:13 > 0:18:16he just came out screaming blue murder anyway.
0:18:16 > 0:18:19"I'm blind". That's what he was screaming, Ian.
0:18:19 > 0:18:20"I'm blind".
0:18:20 > 0:18:21Yeah, I...I don't recall that.
0:18:21 > 0:18:22Ian.
0:18:24 > 0:18:27It's common for there to be discrepancies at this stage.
0:18:27 > 0:18:29Inevitable. Even the Gospels couldn't agree.
0:18:33 > 0:18:36Why? Why would you do that?
0:18:38 > 0:18:40You shouldn't be here, Drew. We can't talk about things.
0:18:40 > 0:18:43Oh, oh? We can't? But you can talk to Dawn, that's fine.
0:18:43 > 0:18:44- I didn't.- Oh, come on, Ian!
0:18:44 > 0:18:45I didn't. I wouldn't.
0:18:45 > 0:18:48- So what, then? OK. Text, e-mail, what?- Not one word.
0:18:48 > 0:18:49So what, then? What changed?
0:18:49 > 0:18:52- Nothing.- Well, what? She leant on you. Or someone did, mate.
0:18:52 > 0:18:54Yeah. Yeah, you're right.
0:18:54 > 0:18:55Well, who?
0:18:55 > 0:18:56You, Drew. You're the only one.
0:18:56 > 0:18:59Ringing me up in the middle of the night. Putting pressure on.
0:18:59 > 0:19:01Well, it didn't work. I don't want to end a good copper's career.
0:19:01 > 0:19:04- Well, neither do I, mate! - Well, what, then? What do you want?
0:19:04 > 0:19:06I want to tell the truth. That's what I want to do. That's it.
0:19:06 > 0:19:08Good for you. There was a knife.
0:19:08 > 0:19:11Some head-the-ball. It kicked off. Shit happened.
0:19:12 > 0:19:14There was only one person to blame,
0:19:14 > 0:19:15and it wasn't one of ours -
0:19:15 > 0:19:18but if you think different, you go for it, pal.
0:19:18 > 0:19:20You tell your truth, and I'll tell mine.
0:19:42 > 0:19:43What can I do for you?
0:19:43 > 0:19:45I'd like to bury my son.
0:19:45 > 0:19:48Yes, I can't begin to imagine how painful this is for you.
0:19:48 > 0:19:50Thank you.
0:19:50 > 0:19:54The Coroner's Office explained about the toxicology reports?
0:19:54 > 0:19:55Three to four weeks, usually...
0:19:55 > 0:20:00- Tests will be on samples you've already taken from Vernon.- Yes.
0:20:00 > 0:20:03So you no longer need the body. Why can't we bury him?
0:20:03 > 0:20:05Toxicology reports can be challenged.
0:20:05 > 0:20:09If that happens, the Coroner will need to go back for further samples.
0:20:13 > 0:20:14Can I see him?
0:20:14 > 0:20:16Only through glass, I'm afraid.
0:20:20 > 0:20:22How's the investigation going?
0:20:24 > 0:20:26Well, I believe.
0:20:26 > 0:20:28Are they all in agreement?
0:20:29 > 0:20:31I don't know.
0:20:31 > 0:20:34I'm not over the detail.
0:20:34 > 0:20:37White officer kills black boy on your watch,
0:20:37 > 0:20:39and you're not over the detail?
0:20:40 > 0:20:41That's correct.
0:20:44 > 0:20:45Would you like to see him, Helen?
0:20:47 > 0:20:49When I can hold him, that's when I'll see him.
0:20:59 > 0:21:00Even by Perth standards it was hot.
0:21:00 > 0:21:0340, 41 degrees, something like that.
0:21:05 > 0:21:06Hello, Roz.
0:21:07 > 0:21:09Hello, Michael.
0:21:09 > 0:21:10What are you doing here?
0:21:10 > 0:21:13- I was just saying to...- Pauline.
0:21:13 > 0:21:16I was just saying to Pauline that I'm not going to need this
0:21:16 > 0:21:18stuff any more.
0:21:18 > 0:21:19Oh, why?
0:21:21 > 0:21:24Um, I'm emigrating. I told you.
0:21:24 > 0:21:28Ah, I was hoping you'd changed your mind.
0:21:30 > 0:21:31I'm afraid not, no.
0:21:33 > 0:21:34Where?
0:21:34 > 0:21:38Perth. Western Australia.
0:21:38 > 0:21:40- It's hotter than hell, so...- Oh!
0:21:41 > 0:21:43It's nice, isn't it?
0:21:43 > 0:21:44Beautiful.
0:21:44 > 0:21:46When are you going?
0:21:46 > 0:21:49Erm, quite soon.
0:21:49 > 0:21:51How soon is quite soon?
0:21:52 > 0:21:53A few days.
0:21:53 > 0:21:55These will fly off.
0:22:01 > 0:22:03To think of others at a time like this, yeah...
0:22:06 > 0:22:08..you're a truly remarkable woman, Roz.
0:22:11 > 0:22:14I know what it's like to be skint. Bye, Pauline.
0:22:14 > 0:22:16Bye. Thank you so much.
0:22:16 > 0:22:20Hey, could I talk to you before you...before you go?
0:22:22 > 0:22:24I've got a lot to do. A lot to sort out, Michael.
0:22:24 > 0:22:26Well, could you phone me, please?
0:22:27 > 0:22:29Yeah.
0:22:29 > 0:22:30Promise.
0:22:33 > 0:22:34I promise.
0:22:37 > 0:22:38Bye, Michael.
0:22:38 > 0:22:39Bye.
0:23:06 > 0:23:09We're going to say...we're going to say what we always say before bed.
0:23:09 > 0:23:13Is that what we are going to do? How does it go?
0:23:14 > 0:23:17God bless all those that I love,
0:23:17 > 0:23:21and God bless all those that love me.
0:23:22 > 0:23:27God bless all those that love those that I love,
0:23:27 > 0:23:31and all those that love those that love me.
0:23:33 > 0:23:35- All right, Joe?- Pint, mate?
0:23:35 > 0:23:36Yeah, go on, then.
0:23:41 > 0:23:43Be an hour, something like that.
0:23:43 > 0:23:44Fine.
0:23:45 > 0:23:48- You all right?- Yeah, fine.- See ya.
0:23:50 > 0:23:52- See ya.- See ya later.
0:24:17 > 0:24:20Sorry, Denis. Didn't know you were in here.
0:24:20 > 0:24:21It's OK. I'm leaving anyway.
0:24:22 > 0:24:24Just a tiny word.
0:24:24 > 0:24:25- You can't say anyth... - It's all right.
0:24:25 > 0:24:27It's nothing to do with the facts of the case.
0:24:27 > 0:24:30It's just a tiny, tiny observation.
0:24:30 > 0:24:32I can take the Great British Public jumping to conclusions
0:24:32 > 0:24:34cos that's what the Great British Public does -
0:24:34 > 0:24:35but my own mate?
0:24:35 > 0:24:37You checked your watch, you prick.
0:24:37 > 0:24:41You shot an 18-year-old boy and you checked your watch. Prick.
0:24:41 > 0:24:44It's called training, you prick.
0:24:47 > 0:24:49Two lagers.
0:24:51 > 0:24:54Oi! Two lagers please, bollocks!
0:24:58 > 0:25:00Ian's done me in.
0:25:02 > 0:25:05I thought it was two against one, and it is - but the one's me.
0:25:07 > 0:25:09If I'd known I were going to be on my own, mate...
0:25:09 > 0:25:10What?
0:25:12 > 0:25:13I'm not a hero, Joe.
0:25:13 > 0:25:14Don't be soft.
0:25:14 > 0:25:16I like drinking in here.
0:25:16 > 0:25:17There are other pubs.
0:25:17 > 0:25:20Yeah, and we've nicked someone in every one of them.
0:25:23 > 0:25:25I wanted to do the right thing, mate,
0:25:25 > 0:25:26but I didn't want to do it alone.
0:25:35 > 0:25:36Well, then...
0:25:36 > 0:25:39I've given my initial account now, though, haven't I?
0:25:39 > 0:25:42- So?- So, if everything I write today contradicts everything
0:25:42 > 0:25:44I wrote down yesterday, everyone'll know.
0:25:44 > 0:25:45Know what?
0:25:49 > 0:25:50That I'm a liar.
0:25:51 > 0:25:53That I've folded.
0:25:54 > 0:25:57Look. Forget about everybody else.
0:25:58 > 0:25:59This is about you and Caroline.
0:26:01 > 0:26:03You do what is best for you and Caroline.
0:26:10 > 0:26:13- ON VOICEMAIL:- 'It's Helen Oyenusi here, Father.
0:26:14 > 0:26:17'You're probably fast asleep, so never mind...
0:26:17 > 0:26:20'It's just that Vernon wanted a word.
0:26:21 > 0:26:23'Didn't you, Vernon?
0:26:24 > 0:26:27'If you play this in the morning, maybe you could phone him, Father.
0:26:27 > 0:26:29'You know what he's like.
0:26:29 > 0:26:31'Doesn't believe a word his mother tells him,
0:26:31 > 0:26:33'but everything you say is gospel.'
0:26:36 > 0:26:38So you phoned the Crisis Centre?
0:26:38 > 0:26:40I phoned Michael first.
0:26:40 > 0:26:42Vernon always listens...
0:26:45 > 0:26:48..always listened to Father Michael.
0:26:48 > 0:26:52He trusted him when he didn't trust anyone else. Even me.
0:26:54 > 0:26:55Even you?
0:26:59 > 0:27:00And what did you say to him?
0:27:02 > 0:27:04I missed the call.
0:27:04 > 0:27:06Missed the call. I was in bed.
0:27:08 > 0:27:09That's a pity.
0:27:09 > 0:27:12I left a message, and then phoned the Crisis Team.
0:27:12 > 0:27:14I've told you all this before.
0:27:14 > 0:27:16I know, and I'm sorry.
0:27:16 > 0:27:18We're totally committed to doing things properly -
0:27:18 > 0:27:21with the thoroughness that you deserve.
0:27:22 > 0:27:23Thank you.
0:27:25 > 0:27:28It must've been hard for you over the years, Helen.
0:27:29 > 0:27:30Yes.
0:27:30 > 0:27:34Having a son so paranoid that he didn't even trust YOU,
0:27:34 > 0:27:37- his own mother.- He was never so paranoid that he would hurt anyone.
0:27:37 > 0:27:41He was always just a danger to himself.
0:27:41 > 0:27:43- Isn't that right, Helen? - Yes.- Of course.
0:27:48 > 0:27:49Are you a policeman?
0:27:51 > 0:27:54I mean, I know you're investigating the police, aren't you?
0:27:54 > 0:27:56But...
0:27:56 > 0:27:57Are... Are you a policeman, too?
0:27:59 > 0:28:00No.
0:28:00 > 0:28:04The IPCC is completely independent of the Force.
0:28:04 > 0:28:06Right. Where are you based?
0:28:07 > 0:28:11- Sorry?- At the moment. Do you have an office?
0:28:11 > 0:28:13Yes.
0:28:13 > 0:28:15Where is it?
0:28:19 > 0:28:20At the station.
0:28:20 > 0:28:22What, the...police station?
0:28:22 > 0:28:24The one where everyone else involved works?
0:28:26 > 0:28:28No-one involved is working there at the moment.
0:28:31 > 0:28:34This has been a very traumatic time for everyone.
0:28:34 > 0:28:36Were you ever a policeman?
0:28:38 > 0:28:39A long time ago.
0:28:41 > 0:28:44You'll be on a police pension, then?
0:28:44 > 0:28:45Is that relevant?
0:28:58 > 0:29:01# Happy birthday to you
0:29:01 > 0:29:05# Happy birthday to you
0:29:05 > 0:29:08# Happy birthday, dear Evie
0:29:08 > 0:29:12PHONE RINGS # Happy birthday to you. #
0:29:12 > 0:29:14Sir?
0:29:16 > 0:29:17Now?
0:29:17 > 0:29:21GUESTS: Hooray! Hooray!
0:29:21 > 0:29:23Hip-hip! Hooray!
0:29:37 > 0:29:38Sir.
0:29:39 > 0:29:40It won't keep, I'm afraid.
0:29:54 > 0:29:55Sir?
0:29:58 > 0:29:59You're a good copper, Andrew.
0:29:59 > 0:30:01That's why I wanted to come round myself.
0:30:04 > 0:30:05So...
0:30:08 > 0:30:10HE CLEARS HIS THROAT
0:30:17 > 0:30:19There are one or two issues -
0:30:19 > 0:30:22I'm absolutely sure we can sort them out between us.
0:30:22 > 0:30:24Sir?
0:30:24 > 0:30:26On the night of the incident, you didn't sign out your CS spray.
0:30:26 > 0:30:27What?
0:30:27 > 0:30:30Well, it's a simple mistake, I know.
0:30:30 > 0:30:31Well, I...
0:30:31 > 0:30:34I did. I'm...I'm sure I did.
0:30:34 > 0:30:35Oh, well...
0:30:38 > 0:30:39..you didn't.
0:30:41 > 0:30:43Well...
0:30:43 > 0:30:44It won't happen again, sir.
0:30:44 > 0:30:45Oh, I know that. I know that,
0:30:45 > 0:30:49but it is a disciplinary matter - it's a misconduct offence
0:30:49 > 0:30:53under discipline regs - I wish it wasn't, but it is serious.
0:30:53 > 0:30:55A Section 5 firearm...
0:31:01 > 0:31:02So, what's going to happen?
0:31:02 > 0:31:05Well, we're within our rights to give you a formal warning.
0:31:05 > 0:31:08A written warning - and I'm sorry, but it would go on your record.
0:31:08 > 0:31:11But I've never actually used my CS spray.
0:31:11 > 0:31:14You do know that, don't you? I've never used it, not once.
0:31:14 > 0:31:15Oh, I'm not happy about this.
0:31:15 > 0:31:17For this to go on your record would be harsh...
0:31:19 > 0:31:22..but there's another matter, I'm afraid.
0:31:22 > 0:31:24Sir?
0:31:24 > 0:31:25You remember when all this started,
0:31:25 > 0:31:28we told you not to discuss it with other officers?
0:31:28 > 0:31:30- Yes, sir. - You discussed this with Dawn Morris.
0:31:30 > 0:31:33Well, she discussed it with me. She... She approached me.
0:31:33 > 0:31:35That's not what she says.
0:31:35 > 0:31:37Well, she's lying.
0:31:37 > 0:31:39You also spoke to Ian Wakefield late at night.
0:31:41 > 0:31:43Yes, I did, but only to tell him not to talk to Dawn.
0:31:43 > 0:31:45Again, not what he says.
0:31:45 > 0:31:48Now, those two offences on their own are serious, Andrew,
0:31:48 > 0:31:51but there's another matter, and it's damning.
0:31:52 > 0:31:54- Sir?- Why did you force that door?
0:31:55 > 0:31:57To stop Dawn spraying him, sir.
0:31:57 > 0:31:59She says if you hadn't forced that door,
0:31:59 > 0:32:01the situation would've been contained within the house.
0:32:01 > 0:32:03Had she KNOWN you were going to force that door,
0:32:03 > 0:32:05she would never have used her CS spray.
0:32:05 > 0:32:09She blames you, I'm afraid. Ian Wakefield backs that up.
0:32:09 > 0:32:10Now, I'm telling you all of this
0:32:10 > 0:32:13so you've got the chance to address this in your final,
0:32:13 > 0:32:15definitive statement.
0:32:15 > 0:32:17Don't worry if this final statement
0:32:17 > 0:32:19differs from your earlier statements.
0:32:19 > 0:32:21It happens.
0:32:21 > 0:32:23No-one's sees those earlier statements anyway,
0:32:23 > 0:32:25just your final...
0:32:25 > 0:32:26definitive one.
0:32:26 > 0:32:30So, no-one's going to think you've folded or bottled it or whatever.
0:32:34 > 0:32:38Well, I can see you've got a houseful, so, er...
0:32:38 > 0:32:39I'll see myself out.
0:32:41 > 0:32:44Have you been speaking to Joe Mason, sir?
0:32:45 > 0:32:47No. Bye.
0:33:15 > 0:33:16What did he want?
0:33:19 > 0:33:21She's shattered.
0:33:24 > 0:33:27I thought we should go out together. The four of us.
0:33:27 > 0:33:29Your mum says she'll babysit.
0:33:31 > 0:33:33Not tonight. Thanks, cheers.
0:33:33 > 0:33:34Drew...
0:33:36 > 0:33:39- Caroline, there's, erm, things you don't know.- She knows.
0:33:40 > 0:33:42I've told them both.
0:33:42 > 0:33:45- You told them what? - Well, the situation you're in.
0:33:48 > 0:33:51I'm so proud of you for the way you've stuck to your principles,
0:33:51 > 0:33:53Drew, but nobody expects you to sacrifice your job.
0:33:56 > 0:33:58How are we going to pay for the mortgage?
0:33:58 > 0:34:00I mean, yeah, do the right thing, but...
0:34:00 > 0:34:02I don't know, maybe the right...
0:34:02 > 0:34:04"Tell the truth," you said, "simple as that".
0:34:04 > 0:34:06What were all that about "a mother's lost her son"?
0:34:06 > 0:34:09- You were the one that were backing me...- I didn't know what was going
0:34:09 > 0:34:11- on back then. - ..telling me what to do.
0:34:11 > 0:34:14What sort of moral stand is it that'd make Evie homeless?
0:34:14 > 0:34:16Haven't we got a duty to her?
0:34:16 > 0:34:17To put a roof over her head?
0:34:17 > 0:34:19You can't change an entire culture on your own, Drew.
0:34:19 > 0:34:21Well, you don't have to worry about that,
0:34:21 > 0:34:23I wouldn't be on my own. Would I, Joe?
0:34:23 > 0:34:26Well, I'll back you up, mate -
0:34:26 > 0:34:28but there's only so far I can go. You know that.
0:34:28 > 0:34:30Have you seen him this week?
0:34:30 > 0:34:31Who?
0:34:31 > 0:34:34McDonald. Have you talked to him this week?
0:34:34 > 0:34:35HE SIGHS
0:34:35 > 0:34:37Mate, look...
0:34:37 > 0:34:39We want to take you out.
0:34:39 > 0:34:41Has he asked you to do that?
0:34:46 > 0:34:48Did he tell you to take me for that pint?
0:34:50 > 0:34:51Answer me.
0:34:53 > 0:34:54Go on, Joe, I dare you. Answer me.
0:34:54 > 0:34:56What's the problem, mate?
0:34:56 > 0:34:58Well, the problem is...
0:34:58 > 0:35:03- that I can't believe you'd think... - You're a lying bastard!
0:35:03 > 0:35:05He just said no-one would see my early statements,
0:35:05 > 0:35:07then he said no-one would know I folded.
0:35:07 > 0:35:09That's the word I used to you, you prick,
0:35:09 > 0:35:11do you think I'm fucking stupid?
0:35:11 > 0:35:14Folded! You went straight back to him, didn't you, and told him?
0:35:14 > 0:35:16- Told him I were teetering on the brink...- Drew.
0:35:16 > 0:35:19Only needed a little prod, a little threat here, a little threat there.
0:35:19 > 0:35:22- Drew!- They're playing you, you dickhead. Can't you see that?
0:35:22 > 0:35:24They're not here to support you, mate. They're here to crush you.
0:35:24 > 0:35:26Come on!
0:35:26 > 0:35:28Look, you've thought about it,
0:35:28 > 0:35:33you've weighed things up, you've shown what a real good man you are.
0:35:33 > 0:35:37Now just strap on a pair and play for the team, you selfish prick!
0:35:46 > 0:35:48What about you, Mum? You're quiet.
0:35:49 > 0:35:50This what you think?
0:36:00 > 0:36:01Fuck the police.
0:36:02 > 0:36:04And him.
0:36:04 > 0:36:05And his wife.
0:36:07 > 0:36:11And if yours agrees, fuck her, too.
0:36:11 > 0:36:12If it costs you your job, good.
0:36:12 > 0:36:14You should never have joined in the first place.
0:36:14 > 0:36:16Oh, so now we hear it!
0:36:16 > 0:36:17Now we do.
0:36:17 > 0:36:20So, who is going to pay for the mortgage, then, Barb? You?
0:36:20 > 0:36:21I don't think so,
0:36:21 > 0:36:24seeing as you're round here every day leeching off us.
0:36:24 > 0:36:26Not leeching, looking after that child of yours
0:36:26 > 0:36:28cos you've always got something better to do.
0:36:28 > 0:36:29It's called work!
0:36:29 > 0:36:34- FADING:- You spent years moaning on about how much you wanted a kid.
0:36:34 > 0:36:36The minute one arrives, you can't wait to get rid...
0:36:36 > 0:36:38Cos I've been trying to earn a living.
0:36:38 > 0:36:40- Something you wouldn't understand. - Oh, come on!
0:36:40 > 0:36:43ARGUMENT FADES
0:36:46 > 0:36:49- DISTORTED VOICES:- 'Put the knife down, open the door for me.'
0:36:49 > 0:36:51'Blinded. Killed him.'
0:36:51 > 0:36:53'Nice and calm, we'll talk things through, yeah?'
0:36:53 > 0:36:55'We are involved, as a matter of course,
0:36:55 > 0:36:58'in any police incident resulting in serious or fatal injuries...'
0:36:58 > 0:36:59'Did you talk to him, mate?'
0:36:59 > 0:37:01'Put the knife down, please.'
0:37:01 > 0:37:03'Get out. Get out now.'
0:37:03 > 0:37:06'If you don't put the knife down, then I'll have to spray you.'
0:37:06 > 0:37:09VOICES BLEND
0:37:11 > 0:37:14'It's absolutely essential that you tell the truth.'
0:37:14 > 0:37:17YELLING, GUNSHOTS
0:37:32 > 0:37:33DOOR OPENS
0:37:35 > 0:37:37Er, thanks for seeing me, sir.
0:37:38 > 0:37:41No problem. Sit down.
0:37:46 > 0:37:48Look, sir, th-this whole thing, you know,
0:37:48 > 0:37:51I've been thinking about this, sir, and, erm,
0:37:51 > 0:37:53I've been asking myself, you know,
0:37:53 > 0:37:56how many people can relate to where I am at the moment?
0:37:56 > 0:37:58How many people can say that they were...
0:37:58 > 0:38:02they, they knew someone who had been shot dead?
0:38:02 > 0:38:03It's got to be down to
0:38:03 > 0:38:080.000001% of the population, hasn't it?
0:38:08 > 0:38:09It can't be very many people -
0:38:09 > 0:38:13and then I asked myself how many people can say that they were THERE
0:38:13 > 0:38:17when that person they knew were shot dead, and...
0:38:17 > 0:38:19It's got to be even fewer.
0:38:19 > 0:38:23And I have to say it to you, sir, it is just...
0:38:23 > 0:38:25It's mind-blowing!
0:38:25 > 0:38:26It's mind-blowing.
0:38:26 > 0:38:29I have really, really, really struggled with it,
0:38:29 > 0:38:31and, you know, it's just been churning up in my mind -
0:38:31 > 0:38:34and I think it was the fact that I knew the boy, you know,
0:38:34 > 0:38:36and I think it was the fact that I was traumatised.
0:38:36 > 0:38:37It really hit me hard,
0:38:37 > 0:38:39and when all of that comes crashing down on you,
0:38:39 > 0:38:42and it all just clouds your judgment...
0:38:42 > 0:38:45You know? And, erm, and looking back on it now,
0:38:45 > 0:38:46you know, I can see it's obvious.
0:38:46 > 0:38:49It's clear as day what happened that night.
0:38:49 > 0:38:52You know, no-one did anything wrong, that boy WAS a threat,
0:38:52 > 0:38:56and Dawn had no option, she had to use her CS spray, she had to.
0:38:57 > 0:38:58Thank you.
0:39:00 > 0:39:02You'll sign a statement to that effect?
0:39:04 > 0:39:05Yes, sir.
0:39:39 > 0:39:41Hello, Andrew.
0:39:42 > 0:39:44Father Michael's not in.
0:39:48 > 0:39:49I'm so sorry, Helen...
0:39:49 > 0:39:51- I know.- ..about what happened to Vernon.- I know.
0:39:51 > 0:39:53- I really am sorry.- I know.
0:39:54 > 0:39:56I want to thank you for all you did, Andrew.
0:39:59 > 0:40:01I know you did everything possible to protect him,
0:40:01 > 0:40:02and I am so grateful for that.
0:40:04 > 0:40:06And I thank you.
0:40:06 > 0:40:08I was the black mother of a black teenager, Andrew,
0:40:08 > 0:40:13and I'm sorry to say I have learned not to trust our police...
0:40:14 > 0:40:16..but I want you to know that for you, personally,
0:40:16 > 0:40:18we had nothing but respect.
0:40:21 > 0:40:23- STUTTERING:- No, you're welcome. Thank you.
0:40:24 > 0:40:26You've come to see Michael?
0:40:26 > 0:40:28- Yeah.- He's in the church.
0:40:28 > 0:40:31- Would you like to come in and wait, or...?- No, no, it's fine.
0:40:31 > 0:40:33I'll go find him.
0:40:33 > 0:40:34- STUTTERING:- B-Bye, Helen.
0:40:36 > 0:40:37Bye, Andrew.
0:40:54 > 0:40:55Just knocked at yours.
0:40:57 > 0:40:59Why did Helen answer?
0:40:59 > 0:41:00She's doing us a curry.
0:41:02 > 0:41:03How is she?
0:41:05 > 0:41:09She's heartbroken. Obviously.
0:41:13 > 0:41:14Obviously.
0:41:16 > 0:41:19It's so funny, I was thinking about it the other day...
0:41:19 > 0:41:23We get people in all the time. We drag them in,
0:41:23 > 0:41:25and the last thing they ever want to do is confess -
0:41:25 > 0:41:27but with you, it's the first.
0:41:27 > 0:41:29And I always wonder, why is that? Why do you think that is?
0:41:29 > 0:41:31Why is that?
0:41:31 > 0:41:33Why is that, Michael?!
0:41:35 > 0:41:37I can tell you, it's the penance, it's the penance,
0:41:37 > 0:41:39it's the penalty they've got to pay.
0:41:39 > 0:41:42You see, confess to us and it's five years inside,
0:41:42 > 0:41:43but confess to you...
0:41:45 > 0:41:46..and it's, what?
0:41:47 > 0:41:50Three Hail Marys and an Our Father?
0:41:53 > 0:41:55See, ours is the real world, we deal with real people,
0:41:55 > 0:41:57proper problems.
0:41:57 > 0:41:59Yours is...
0:42:01 > 0:42:02Well, it's God knows what.
0:42:05 > 0:42:07Yeah?
0:42:07 > 0:42:08Yeah, I'm listening.
0:42:08 > 0:42:10How many for rape?
0:42:11 > 0:42:13We'd give five to ten years.
0:42:13 > 0:42:17How many Hail Marys and Our Fathers do you have to make them say
0:42:17 > 0:42:18for rape?
0:42:18 > 0:42:20Have you come here to pick a fight?
0:42:22 > 0:42:26To say in anger what you can't say coolly and calmly, eh?
0:42:33 > 0:42:35Every time I close my eyes, I'm there.
0:42:36 > 0:42:38I can't get it out of my head.
0:42:38 > 0:42:39I'm in that street...
0:42:41 > 0:42:44..and I just hear this voice, and it's screaming, "I'm blind!"
0:42:47 > 0:42:48And then I hear shots.
0:42:50 > 0:42:52And then a body falls, and it hits the deck, and...
0:42:55 > 0:42:58..it's sort of dead, but not quite.
0:42:59 > 0:43:00Just twitching.
0:43:02 > 0:43:04Laying there and it's twitching.
0:43:04 > 0:43:05And when I get to it...
0:43:07 > 0:43:09- SOBS:- ..it ain't Vernon at all.
0:43:09 > 0:43:10It's Evie.
0:43:14 > 0:43:15My little girl.
0:43:28 > 0:43:30I can't tell the truth any more.
0:43:32 > 0:43:33I don't have it in me.
0:43:35 > 0:43:36So I'm going to write a statement,
0:43:36 > 0:43:38and it's going to be full of lies...
0:43:41 > 0:43:43..and I might actually get some sleep,
0:43:43 > 0:43:44cos as much as I've lost
0:43:44 > 0:43:47and as much as these last few days have cost me...
0:43:48 > 0:43:51..there's still nothing I can't get back. Not yet.
0:43:54 > 0:43:56I'm a coward. Oh, God!
0:43:58 > 0:44:00God...
0:44:01 > 0:44:02I'm a coward.
0:44:06 > 0:44:08But I'm a coward with a conscience.
0:44:08 > 0:44:10That's the worst, shittiest part of it.
0:44:12 > 0:44:15I haven't got the courage to be good. I just don't.
0:44:15 > 0:44:18And I'm not sure I can live with being really, properly bad,
0:44:18 > 0:44:21but I'm going to...I'm going to try...I'm going to try it.
0:44:21 > 0:44:22I'm going to have to try.
0:44:26 > 0:44:27So I'm going to lie through my teeth.
0:44:30 > 0:44:32I'm going to lie with all the others.
0:44:36 > 0:44:38Oh, for some peace of mind, eh?
0:44:45 > 0:44:47But if you lie...
0:44:49 > 0:44:51..will you ever know peace of mind again?
0:44:56 > 0:44:57HE CHUCKLES
0:44:57 > 0:44:58Maybe I won't.
0:45:01 > 0:45:03But my daughter'll have a roof over her head.
0:45:07 > 0:45:11Unless you know what that feels like, or you've seen it...
0:45:11 > 0:45:14You know, a guilty conscience is a small price to pay for it.
0:45:24 > 0:45:25I'm sorry, Michael.
0:45:58 > 0:46:00For on the night he was betrayed...
0:46:01 > 0:46:07..He Himself took bread, and giving You thanks, He said the blessing,
0:46:07 > 0:46:12broke the bread and gave it to His disciples saying,
0:46:12 > 0:46:16"Take this, all of you, and eat of it,
0:46:16 > 0:46:21"for this is my body which will be given up for you.
0:46:21 > 0:46:24BELL CHIMES
0:46:31 > 0:46:34In a similar way, when supper was over,
0:46:34 > 0:46:38He took the chalice and, giving You thanks,
0:46:38 > 0:46:39said the blessing...
0:46:39 > 0:46:43It is essential to dry between your toes.
0:46:44 > 0:46:47And gave the chalice to His disciples saying,
0:46:47 > 0:46:52"Take this, all of you, and drink from it..."
0:46:52 > 0:46:54Any moisture left there...
0:46:56 > 0:46:57..causes infection.
0:46:58 > 0:47:01"..for this is the chalice of my blood..."
0:47:01 > 0:47:03Athlete's foot, especially.
0:47:04 > 0:47:07If you've ever had athlete's foot, you'll know...
0:47:07 > 0:47:12"..the blood of the new and eternal covenant..."
0:47:12 > 0:47:17It's a lot easier to catch it than it is to get rid of it.
0:47:17 > 0:47:19"..which will be poured out for you...
0:47:22 > 0:47:27"..for you and for many, for the forgiveness of sins.
0:47:29 > 0:47:33"Do this...in memory of me."
0:47:33 > 0:47:36BELL CHIMES
0:47:49 > 0:47:50The body of Christ.
0:47:55 > 0:47:56- The body of Christ.- Amen.
0:48:00 > 0:48:01The body of Christ.
0:48:05 > 0:48:06- The body of Christ.- Amen.
0:48:08 > 0:48:09The body of Christ.
0:48:14 > 0:48:17- The body of Christ.- Amen.
0:48:17 > 0:48:19The body of Christ.
0:48:23 > 0:48:25The body of Christ.
0:48:27 > 0:48:29- The body of Christ.- Amen.
0:48:31 > 0:48:33The body of Christ.
0:48:37 > 0:48:38- The body of Christ.- Amen.
0:48:56 > 0:48:57The body of Christ.
0:49:01 > 0:49:02- WHISPERS:- Amen.
0:49:08 > 0:49:10'It's Helen Oyenusi here, Father.
0:49:12 > 0:49:15'You're probably fast asleep, so never mind.
0:49:16 > 0:49:19'It's just that Vernon wanted a word. Didn't you, Vernon?
0:49:21 > 0:49:25'If you play this in the morning, maybe you could phone him, Father.
0:49:25 > 0:49:27'You know what he's like.
0:49:27 > 0:49:29'Doesn't believe a word his mother tells him,
0:49:29 > 0:49:31'but everything you say is gospel.
0:49:31 > 0:49:33'No pun intended, Father.'
0:49:39 > 0:49:41KNOCK ON DOOR
0:49:50 > 0:49:51Andrew.
0:49:54 > 0:49:55Hello, Father.
0:49:58 > 0:50:00Er, do you want to come in?
0:50:05 > 0:50:06What is it?
0:50:09 > 0:50:11Why did you give me communion, Father?
0:50:15 > 0:50:16Why did you come up for it?
0:50:21 > 0:50:23Because I've never needed it so much in my life.
0:50:27 > 0:50:28That's why I gave you it.
0:51:09 > 0:51:11SMACK!
0:51:13 > 0:51:14SMACK!
0:51:47 > 0:51:52- CHILDREN RECITE:- Amo, amas, amat, amamus, amatis, amant.
0:51:56 > 0:51:59Mensa, mensa, mensam.
0:51:59 > 0:52:01Mensae, mensae, mensa.
0:52:05 > 0:52:11In nomine Patris et Filii et Spiritus Sancti.
0:52:13 > 0:52:14Amen.
0:52:31 > 0:52:33Father Matthew?
0:52:33 > 0:52:34Yes?
0:52:36 > 0:52:38Could I talk to you, please?
0:52:38 > 0:52:40Yes.
0:52:40 > 0:52:42Could I talk to you indoors, please?
0:52:42 > 0:52:43What about?
0:52:45 > 0:52:48I-I-I went to Blessed Mary. You taught me there.
0:52:49 > 0:52:53I'd have come years ago, only I assumed you were dead.
0:52:53 > 0:52:57I remember you as an old man, you see. Even then.
0:52:57 > 0:53:00You were a child. Everyone's old to a child.
0:53:02 > 0:53:03- Can we go inside and ta...?- No!
0:53:04 > 0:53:06I've got ice cream here.
0:53:06 > 0:53:10Needs to be in the freezer, so we've not much time, I'm afraid.
0:53:10 > 0:53:12All right.
0:53:12 > 0:53:13I'm Michael Kerrigan.
0:53:13 > 0:53:15Yes?
0:53:15 > 0:53:19You don't remember me? You taught me English.
0:53:19 > 0:53:21I taught lots of boys English.
0:53:23 > 0:53:26But you didn't abuse them all, did you?
0:53:26 > 0:53:28Only five or six per class, I think.
0:53:28 > 0:53:30Are you hiding a microphone?
0:53:30 > 0:53:33- No.- I want you to swear by Almighty God
0:53:33 > 0:53:37that you are not recording this conversation.
0:53:37 > 0:53:40I swear by Almighty God that I am not recording this conversation.
0:53:40 > 0:53:42Having sworn such an oath,
0:53:42 > 0:53:44any recording will be inadmissible in court.
0:53:44 > 0:53:45You understand that?
0:53:48 > 0:53:50- I'm not the first, then, obviously. - No, no.
0:53:54 > 0:53:55How many before me?
0:53:55 > 0:53:57One or two.
0:54:00 > 0:54:02I'm a priest.
0:54:02 > 0:54:05I couldn't have been such a bad example, then, could I?
0:54:08 > 0:54:13Some police officers in my parish have... They've killed a young man.
0:54:13 > 0:54:17They're all colluding and protecting the officers responsible,
0:54:17 > 0:54:18and it's...
0:54:20 > 0:54:21..infuriating me.
0:54:25 > 0:54:28But what right have I to be so appalled over that
0:54:28 > 0:54:31when you abused boys for years,
0:54:31 > 0:54:33and every priest in the school knew about it,
0:54:33 > 0:54:35and not one of them said a word?
0:54:35 > 0:54:38A rhetorical question, I assume.
0:54:38 > 0:54:40Catholic priests!
0:54:40 > 0:54:42Their duty to follow the Path of Christ,
0:54:42 > 0:54:45watching you doing that and saying nothing?
0:54:45 > 0:54:48How dare I criticise a few hairy arsed coppers, then?!
0:54:48 > 0:54:50What am I supposed to have done to you?
0:54:55 > 0:54:57You used to put your hand on my thigh...
0:54:58 > 0:55:00..and move it up to my genitals.
0:55:00 > 0:55:01You call that abuse?
0:55:01 > 0:55:03- Yes.- You liked it.
0:55:03 > 0:55:06I do not know of one single boy who did not like it.
0:55:06 > 0:55:08- You believe that?- Yes.
0:55:10 > 0:55:12It gave me an erection.
0:55:12 > 0:55:13There you go.
0:55:17 > 0:55:18It made me think I was gay.
0:55:20 > 0:55:24Sheffield, 1970s, I was suicidal.
0:55:25 > 0:55:26I'm sorry.
0:55:26 > 0:55:28Do you mean that?
0:55:30 > 0:55:31I'd love you to mean that.
0:55:32 > 0:55:34I'd love...
0:55:34 > 0:55:37to be able to forgive you, you see, and dump all this...
0:55:40 > 0:55:41Do you mean it?
0:55:43 > 0:55:45No.
0:55:45 > 0:55:48The body's insignificant, Michael.
0:55:48 > 0:55:50Whatever it does is insignificant.
0:55:50 > 0:55:53It's the soul within that counts.
0:55:53 > 0:55:54Bye, Michael.
0:55:56 > 0:55:58I'm going to pray for you.
0:55:58 > 0:56:00I'll phone the police.
0:56:01 > 0:56:03No, I'm going to pray
0:56:03 > 0:56:06that you realise the enormity of what you've done.
0:56:06 > 0:56:11I'm going to pray that you realise the enormity of what you did
0:56:11 > 0:56:12and the lives you damaged.
0:56:12 > 0:56:15I'm going to pray that you suffer from it,
0:56:15 > 0:56:18and, through suffering, you atone for it -
0:56:18 > 0:56:23and I'll pray by doing so you'll suffer long enough
0:56:23 > 0:56:27and hard enough for God to show you mercy, you old bastard!
0:56:46 > 0:56:48# Tell me what it's like
0:56:48 > 0:56:50# In heaven
0:56:50 > 0:56:55# I hope it's kinder than it is down here
0:56:55 > 0:57:00# With all the trials and tribulations
0:57:00 > 0:57:03# All the worry and living in fear
0:57:04 > 0:57:07# Hallelujah
0:57:07 > 0:57:10# Hallelujah
0:57:10 > 0:57:15# We might be bruised But we're not broken. #