0:00:02 > 0:00:03Do you ever hear from your Jamie?
0:00:03 > 0:00:05My Jamie? He's not my Jamie.
0:00:05 > 0:00:07He's my sicko cousin who deserves everything he gets.
0:00:07 > 0:00:09Vix, come back!
0:00:09 > 0:00:12Argh. My foot's stuck!
0:00:12 > 0:00:13Ah!
0:00:16 > 0:00:18Victoria Clarkson. Got any news?
0:00:18 > 0:00:21- We just lost her. - Karl, just leave it, eh?
0:00:21 > 0:00:23- Yeah, calm down. - Don't tell me what to do!
0:00:23 > 0:00:26- What if he does know where to get a gun?- It's not your problem.
0:00:26 > 0:00:29When those kids were getting murdered I did nothing. If I do nothing again,
0:00:29 > 0:00:30what kind of a man does that make me?
0:00:30 > 0:00:34He's going to do something stupid. I need to find him.
0:01:07 > 0:01:10MOBILE PHONE RINGS
0:01:12 > 0:01:15TRAIN HORN
0:01:20 > 0:01:24'This is Karl, I'm busy right now, leave a message.'
0:01:24 > 0:01:26Karl, it's...it's me again.
0:01:26 > 0:01:32Look, can you, um, can you please just give me a call when you get this message, mate?
0:01:35 > 0:01:37TRAIN HORN
0:01:46 > 0:01:48Bye, nutter.
0:01:53 > 0:01:55So you are still alive, Mr Collier.
0:01:55 > 0:01:58I was about to call the Missing Persons hotline.
0:01:58 > 0:02:01Fell asleep. Parked up outside Karl's old man's gaff.
0:02:01 > 0:02:06Your loss. You missed a cracking shepherd's pie.
0:02:06 > 0:02:09He's not your responsibility, Jeff.
0:02:09 > 0:02:12Whose is he, then? Eh? You see a queue forming?
0:02:12 > 0:02:14I don't get it with you.
0:02:14 > 0:02:16You always used to see the good in people, just like...
0:02:16 > 0:02:19Like Polly, you mean? And look what happened to her.
0:02:29 > 0:02:32Mum...time to wake up.
0:02:32 > 0:02:34Taxi's coming at nine.
0:02:34 > 0:02:39I've ironed everything... thought the navy court shoes would go best with your dress.
0:02:39 > 0:02:41Mum?
0:02:43 > 0:02:46Mum!
0:02:54 > 0:02:56Mum?
0:02:56 > 0:03:00What are you doing in here?
0:03:03 > 0:03:06I'm going to lose you, too.
0:03:06 > 0:03:09I'm not leaving college. I've got another year yet!
0:03:09 > 0:03:10But this is the beginning.
0:03:10 > 0:03:12- You're growing up.- Mum...
0:03:12 > 0:03:14- stop it.- Then it'll be boyfriends...
0:03:14 > 0:03:16A new life...
0:03:16 > 0:03:19Away from us.
0:03:22 > 0:03:24You need to get ready.
0:03:24 > 0:03:26I don't think I can do this...
0:03:26 > 0:03:28The taxi's booked.
0:03:28 > 0:03:29It's all arranged.
0:03:29 > 0:03:31No. I'll stay here.
0:03:31 > 0:03:35And you can take some photographs and we'll look at them later.
0:03:35 > 0:03:36I'll make some cakes.
0:03:36 > 0:03:39Mum, you never make cakes.
0:03:39 > 0:03:42I need you to do this one thing.
0:03:42 > 0:03:44Please.
0:03:44 > 0:03:47All the other parents will be there. I want you there.
0:04:07 > 0:04:08HE MOUTHS
0:04:13 > 0:04:14Hey, babe.
0:04:14 > 0:04:17Come here.
0:04:17 > 0:04:20You look gorgeous.
0:04:24 > 0:04:25She's early.
0:04:28 > 0:04:31You haven't told her yet?
0:04:31 > 0:04:33Nat, today you said. You promised me...
0:04:33 > 0:04:36- She's not ready... - You've got to stick up for yourself.
0:04:36 > 0:04:40- For me. Tell her the truth.- I will. But not today. I don't want to...
0:04:40 > 0:04:42What? What? Disappoint her?
0:04:42 > 0:04:44- Of course not... - You know what I think?
0:04:44 > 0:04:47You're ashamed. Deep down.
0:04:47 > 0:04:50- A boy like me is never going to be good enough for her precious baby girl.- You know it's not like that.
0:04:50 > 0:04:53Well, then prove it. Tell her.
0:04:53 > 0:04:55Today. Or we're finished.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10Heavy night?
0:05:10 > 0:05:13- Is it that obvious?- Afraid so.
0:05:13 > 0:05:15What's with the new suit?
0:05:15 > 0:05:19- Got a meeting. Should be fully reinstated by lunchtime. - That's great, Ruth.
0:05:21 > 0:05:24Well, you look, er...
0:05:24 > 0:05:26amazing... by the way.
0:05:26 > 0:05:29- Thanks.- Welcome.
0:05:29 > 0:05:32Listen... it's, er, still early days so...
0:05:32 > 0:05:35Don't be too hard on yourself if they say no.
0:05:38 > 0:05:40You look as bad as I feel.
0:05:40 > 0:05:44Oi! You don't look too hot either. Never again, all right?
0:05:44 > 0:05:46Hey-hey! Nothing wrong with me.
0:05:46 > 0:05:48Are you serious? After all them whisky chasers?
0:05:48 > 0:05:51Constitution of an ox, mate.
0:05:54 > 0:05:57You do realise he's over an hour late?
0:05:57 > 0:05:59Well, he's here now, isn't he?
0:06:05 > 0:06:07- Not today. - Got as much right as anyone.
0:06:07 > 0:06:09How'd you figure that, psycho boy, huh?
0:06:09 > 0:06:11There'll be parents out there picking up awards for their kids...
0:06:11 > 0:06:13kids that aren't here any more...
0:06:13 > 0:06:16- Thanks to you and your psycho cousin.- Knew nothing about it.
0:06:16 > 0:06:18Yeah? Why'd they leave you out then?
0:06:18 > 0:06:21Too stupid? Or too scared to pull the trigger...
0:06:23 > 0:06:25I'll take that as a yes.
0:06:25 > 0:06:28You sick freak.
0:06:33 > 0:06:36I don't know how you sleep at night, mate.
0:06:36 > 0:06:38PHONE BEEPS
0:06:41 > 0:06:47JEFF: 'Karl, I know you're upset, but please don't do anything you'll regret. Nothing's that bad.'
0:07:10 > 0:07:11Oi!
0:07:11 > 0:07:15Shall we go and get a brew while the coast's clear?
0:07:15 > 0:07:17They've got sausage rolls on special. My treat!
0:07:19 > 0:07:22I can't do it, Dix...
0:07:22 > 0:07:24- Polly wouldn't have...- What?
0:07:24 > 0:07:26Give up on him.
0:07:26 > 0:07:29- There's one place I haven't tried. - You're dumping me? Mid-shift?
0:07:29 > 0:07:31- I don't think so, matey.- Fine.
0:07:31 > 0:07:33Sack me if you like. Or you could just arrange cover.
0:07:33 > 0:07:36- Jeff...- I can't have another tragedy on my conscience.
0:07:36 > 0:07:38She's gone, Jeff.
0:07:38 > 0:07:41Letting Karl mess with your head, it isn't going to bring her back!
0:08:17 > 0:08:18I thought I saw Jeff earlier.
0:08:18 > 0:08:21Yep, you did. But he's done a disappearing act.
0:08:21 > 0:08:24Leaving muggins to pick up the pieces.
0:08:24 > 0:08:27OK, love, can you just make him comfortable? I won't be a sec.
0:08:29 > 0:08:31Now, I love Jeff to bits. You know that.
0:08:31 > 0:08:36But since Polly died all he cares about is trying to make things better.
0:08:36 > 0:08:38- And he can't.- He's probably just trying to make sense of it.
0:08:38 > 0:08:41Yeah, but he's making not making sense of anything.
0:08:41 > 0:08:45- D'you remember Polly's daft book of quotations?- Mm-hm.
0:08:45 > 0:08:48He's constantly checking it, like he's on some kind of direct line.
0:08:48 > 0:08:50People grieve in different ways...
0:08:50 > 0:08:52Right, there's this screwed up kid.
0:08:52 > 0:08:54He's one of Polly's waifs and strays.
0:08:54 > 0:08:57- She had a few of those.- Yes, well, Jeff's got it into his head that
0:08:57 > 0:09:03he's his responsibility now, cos that's what Polly would've wanted.
0:09:03 > 0:09:06Dix, he didn't save her and it's his way of dealing with the guilt.
0:09:06 > 0:09:09You've just got to be patient.
0:09:11 > 0:09:13- You're looking well, Ruth.- Thanks.
0:09:13 > 0:09:14- How are you feeling?- Yeah, good.
0:09:14 > 0:09:17- Great, actually.- And the medication?
0:09:17 > 0:09:19- Still happy with that?- Yeah.
0:09:19 > 0:09:22- No side effects?- No. Nothing.
0:09:22 > 0:09:25And being back at work in such a stressful environment?
0:09:25 > 0:09:28Not a problem. It feels like coming home.
0:09:54 > 0:09:57Onto our next award for special achievement,
0:09:57 > 0:09:59which goes to Zac Turner.
0:10:01 > 0:10:04CHEERING
0:10:11 > 0:10:14Right. Problem drinker, five letters beginning with L...
0:10:14 > 0:10:16Erm... Linda!
0:10:16 > 0:10:18That's a bit harsh.
0:10:18 > 0:10:20Anyway it's four, sorry.
0:10:20 > 0:10:22- Mmm... lush.- Lush?
0:10:22 > 0:10:26Someone who gets hammered on a regular basis and flirts with everyone in sight.
0:10:26 > 0:10:28- Linda.- Linda.
0:10:28 > 0:10:30I'm truly honoured to accept this award...
0:10:30 > 0:10:33Jacob Maynard was my best friend.
0:10:33 > 0:10:38We all know Jake would've done something really special with his life,
0:10:38 > 0:10:43so for his family to sponsor this achievement award is a fitting tribute. But once again...
0:10:43 > 0:10:47this just brings home to us all the cruelty of his passing.
0:10:47 > 0:10:52The pointless waste of all that talent.
0:10:54 > 0:10:58Thanks, mate. I will never forget you.
0:11:12 > 0:11:13Karl!
0:11:15 > 0:11:16Karl, wait!
0:11:37 > 0:11:42The next category is for craftsmanship...
0:11:42 > 0:11:43- And the award...- Karl!
0:11:43 > 0:11:46..for best individual piece of work goes to...
0:11:46 > 0:11:48Karl Fontayne.
0:11:48 > 0:11:51WEAK APPLAUSE
0:11:53 > 0:11:57Karl? Karl Fontayne?
0:12:01 > 0:12:04Karl?
0:12:06 > 0:12:10Look, whatever you're doing, mate, just stop it now.
0:12:10 > 0:12:13I thought actions spoke louder than words?
0:12:13 > 0:12:17Look, if Vix has said something to you, can we just talk about it, please?
0:12:17 > 0:12:21And we move on now to our final award, for Student of the Year 2011.
0:12:23 > 0:12:25Natalie Bilson.
0:12:40 > 0:12:43Nicked this key off the caretaker, day before the shootings.
0:12:43 > 0:12:45Came up here.
0:12:46 > 0:12:51Thought I'd rob as much as I could, you know? Make a few quid.
0:12:53 > 0:12:55Then Jamie's little plan kicked off...
0:12:55 > 0:12:58And it just, all felt wrong, you know?
0:13:00 > 0:13:01Having all of this.
0:13:04 > 0:13:06Now I can't even remember where anything goes.
0:13:08 > 0:13:11Just wanted to make things right.
0:13:14 > 0:13:16And now you have.
0:13:19 > 0:13:21You have.
0:13:21 > 0:13:23And that's brilliant, mate...
0:13:23 > 0:13:25But you thought something else... didn't ya?
0:13:32 > 0:13:37A few poxy mobiles ain't going to make any difference, is it?
0:14:05 > 0:14:06There you go.
0:14:06 > 0:14:09You OK there, mate?
0:14:09 > 0:14:10Eh?
0:14:11 > 0:14:15- Can I get some help here, please! - Whoa, whoa! - Let's get him on his side.
0:14:15 > 0:14:17All right, mate, all right.
0:14:17 > 0:14:19- All right, nice and easy...- Yeah.
0:14:19 > 0:14:21- I've got you.- Pillows or towels...
0:14:21 > 0:14:23- quick as you can.- Yeah.
0:14:27 > 0:14:30It's OK, mate... it's OK. Oh, no, no, no!
0:14:30 > 0:14:34- Ah mate, thank you for that(!) Thank you.- Let's get him into resus.
0:14:34 > 0:14:36Don't bother. I know him.
0:14:36 > 0:14:38And he's going straight home now, aren't you, Stuart?
0:14:38 > 0:14:40- You've had your fun.- Linda! Excuse me!- Come on. Wakey, wakey!
0:14:42 > 0:14:46If he'd really had a seizure he'd be post-ictal by now...
0:14:46 > 0:14:47his hand would've dropped directly on his face. Hard.
0:14:47 > 0:14:49But that would hurt.
0:14:49 > 0:14:52And you don't want real pain, do you, Stuart?
0:14:52 > 0:14:55It's all about the performance.
0:14:55 > 0:14:58Hey.
0:15:07 > 0:15:09Oh!
0:15:09 > 0:15:12Batman returns... but no Robin.
0:15:12 > 0:15:14Well, he was at the College,
0:15:14 > 0:15:17- then he disappeared...- He's playing you Jeff, like I said, he is...
0:15:17 > 0:15:20Yeah, would you just let me finish?
0:15:20 > 0:15:25I just, I convinced myself that Karl had a gun, that he was going to finish what his cousin had started...
0:15:25 > 0:15:27Well, that wouldn't be too much of a leap, would it?
0:15:27 > 0:15:30Come on! Just cos they're related you can't tar them with the same brush.
0:15:30 > 0:15:32No, hang on a minute. You were the one that thought the worst.
0:15:32 > 0:15:36Yeah, I know... and I was wrong, I shouldn't have doubted him.
0:15:36 > 0:15:40He says he was just putting stuff back in the lockers he'd nicked the night before the shootings.
0:15:40 > 0:15:43So he's turned a corner. Now you can walk away.
0:15:45 > 0:15:48- Blood made it look worse than it is. - Thank you.
0:15:48 > 0:15:50- Where's my bag?- There it is...
0:15:50 > 0:15:52So, you can, er, be on your way now, eh?
0:15:52 > 0:15:55Yeah?
0:15:59 > 0:16:01I feel dizzy...
0:16:01 > 0:16:03- I can't see straight. - OK, sit back down...
0:16:03 > 0:16:08OK, nice try. But listen, we've got genuinely sick people who need treatment today, yeah?
0:16:08 > 0:16:12Stuart. Stuart, I need you to be honest with me.
0:16:12 > 0:16:13- My head, it hurts.- OK, lie back.
0:16:13 > 0:16:15All right, up you get, man.
0:16:15 > 0:16:17I've seen it all before...
0:16:17 > 0:16:19Jay. A word, please.
0:16:24 > 0:16:26How dare you speak to a patient like that?
0:16:26 > 0:16:28Even if the seizure wasn't genuine, the knock to the head was.
0:16:28 > 0:16:30Whoa, Tess, he's a nut job. He's winding us up.
0:16:30 > 0:16:32He needs full neuro assessment and obs.
0:16:32 > 0:16:36- Well, Linda said we should...- She's on her break and I'm telling you to start him on half-hourly neuro obs.
0:16:36 > 0:16:39Fine. She won't like it, though.
0:16:39 > 0:16:44I don't like how lax this department is becoming. And I was really disappointed in you this morning.
0:16:44 > 0:16:47- What?- Waltzing in late without so much as an apology to anyone. And...
0:16:47 > 0:16:51- being over familiar with senior nursing staff.- Hang on a minute...
0:16:51 > 0:16:54No. I won't "hang on".
0:16:54 > 0:16:58Professionalism at all times is key to being a good nurse.
0:16:58 > 0:17:00It doesn't matter how tired or hungover you are.
0:17:00 > 0:17:02I taught you that much.
0:17:02 > 0:17:04OK, tell Sister Andrews that.
0:17:04 > 0:17:07She was the one who was pouring drinks down my throat all night.
0:17:07 > 0:17:08OK?
0:17:15 > 0:17:16Natalie's a very gifted girl.
0:17:16 > 0:17:19She could upgrade to a degree...
0:17:19 > 0:17:22We couldn't possibly afford the fees, I'm on my own.
0:17:22 > 0:17:24And I'm not sure she's that academically driven.
0:17:24 > 0:17:29Her sister Laura, she was the really bright one.
0:17:29 > 0:17:31I didn't know you had a sister, Natalie.
0:17:31 > 0:17:33She died when I was 12...
0:17:33 > 0:17:37- Meningitis.- Oh, I'm so sorry...
0:17:37 > 0:17:39Excuse me.
0:17:39 > 0:17:41It must've been very difficult for you. I had no idea.
0:17:47 > 0:17:49Well?
0:17:49 > 0:17:51Not yet.
0:17:51 > 0:17:53Your choice.
0:18:02 > 0:18:04Want to come for a drink? We've got vodka!
0:18:04 > 0:18:05Come on then.
0:18:11 > 0:18:14I need to examine your vision, Mr Wilder. Can you keep still, please?
0:18:14 > 0:18:17Thank you.
0:18:17 > 0:18:19Right. Your neurological exam is completely normal.
0:18:19 > 0:18:24It's nothing focal. Since you're still complaining of blurred vision, I'd like to run some more tests...
0:18:24 > 0:18:27to rule out any complications as a result of the head injury.
0:18:27 > 0:18:30- You're keeping me in?- For now. - Thank you.
0:18:30 > 0:18:37I'll need a full blood count, Us & Es, LFTs, calcium, magnesium and a coag... And call radiology.
0:18:37 > 0:18:39He'll need a head CT...
0:18:39 > 0:18:43Erm, excuse me, Dr Keogh, but that man's a known hospital hopper.
0:18:43 > 0:18:45I asked Sister Bateman to send him home.
0:18:45 > 0:18:50If his CT's clear then he can go to CDU for further neuro obs while he waits for his blood results.
0:18:50 > 0:18:54But I know him from St James's. I've seen him do chest pains,
0:18:54 > 0:18:56renal colic, temporary blindness. He's a professional faker.
0:18:56 > 0:19:01Did you know regular alcohol abuse can result in seriously impaired judgement?
0:19:06 > 0:19:08Will this take much longer?
0:19:08 > 0:19:11It's just that I'm supposed to be working today and they're pretty busy down there.
0:19:11 > 0:19:13Just need to go over a couple of things. You said earlier
0:19:13 > 0:19:16there were no issues regarding your professional competence
0:19:16 > 0:19:20- since returning to work. - That's right.
0:19:20 > 0:19:23But I understand that there was one problem...
0:19:23 > 0:19:26confusing patient's X-rays?
0:19:26 > 0:19:28Oh, um, well, yeah.
0:19:28 > 0:19:30I mean, that was just a... blip. Sorry.
0:19:30 > 0:19:32I, er, I should've mentioned that.
0:19:32 > 0:19:36But the fact remains... you would have performed a needless, dangerous procedure
0:19:36 > 0:19:39on the wrong patient had the supervising consultant Dr Trueman
0:19:39 > 0:19:41not been there to point out your error?
0:19:41 > 0:19:45Yeah, I mean that was early on, and I have learned from the experience.
0:19:45 > 0:19:47I mean, it will never happen again.
0:19:54 > 0:19:55Free.
0:19:57 > 0:20:00- CT clear, was it?- Yes.
0:20:00 > 0:20:01Surprise, surprise.
0:20:01 > 0:20:05- This is much nicer than the one at St James's.- Well, enjoy it.
0:20:05 > 0:20:06You won't be here long.
0:20:06 > 0:20:09Right, er, I'll be off then.
0:20:09 > 0:20:11Thank you.
0:20:11 > 0:20:13- Show me where the toilets are, please?- Are you sure you can manage?
0:20:13 > 0:20:16Thought you might need a catheter. I'd be happy to oblige.
0:20:16 > 0:20:19- No. I'll be fine.- This way.
0:20:29 > 0:20:32Do you want a drink?
0:20:32 > 0:20:34You all right?
0:20:34 > 0:20:37You've had too much.
0:20:45 > 0:20:46Oi!
0:20:46 > 0:20:48Natalie?
0:20:48 > 0:20:49Lightweight!
0:20:58 > 0:21:03- What's going on here? - Natalie... Natalie!
0:21:03 > 0:21:06Open the door! Natalie! Open the door!
0:21:06 > 0:21:08Natalie! Open the door!
0:21:56 > 0:22:02You're a nice nurse. Caring. Not like that other one.
0:22:02 > 0:22:04I take people as I find them.
0:22:04 > 0:22:07I've known a lot of nurses. And doctors.
0:22:10 > 0:22:14My mum. Can't remember a time when she wasn't ill.
0:22:14 > 0:22:18Leukaemia. She was in and out of hospital for years.
0:22:18 > 0:22:21You didn't have any other family?
0:22:21 > 0:22:26She'd be sick in bed for days after chemo.
0:22:26 > 0:22:28Must've been lonely for you.
0:22:28 > 0:22:30Not in hospital.
0:22:30 > 0:22:31Everyone knew me. Knew my name.
0:22:31 > 0:22:33I loved it.
0:22:33 > 0:22:38- Princess Di came once, you know? - No!- Shook Mum's hand.
0:22:38 > 0:22:41Gave me a little bear with a Beefeater's Costume. I'll show you.
0:22:44 > 0:22:46Where's my bag?
0:22:46 > 0:22:49OK, let's see.
0:22:52 > 0:22:56Razor blades - a bloody tongue makes the fit so much more realistic.
0:22:56 > 0:23:00bottle of water to aid the incontinence.
0:23:00 > 0:23:02A cute little bear and what else have you got hidden in here?
0:23:02 > 0:23:05Nothing! Give it back!
0:23:05 > 0:23:08Your bloods are all clear, by the way.
0:23:08 > 0:23:11So Dr Keogh will be along shortly to discharge you.
0:23:11 > 0:23:13Maybe you'll listen to me next time.
0:23:23 > 0:23:26- Get your hands off her!- Shut up!
0:23:26 > 0:23:27Help me.
0:23:27 > 0:23:30- What's going on?- Get off, all right?
0:23:30 > 0:23:32- What's... what's happening? - You fell... It's OK now.
0:23:32 > 0:23:34My face...
0:23:34 > 0:23:38- Just try and stay calm, yeah? - I can't... feel it...
0:23:38 > 0:23:42Look, can you try and lift your left arm for me? No? It's all right,
0:23:42 > 0:23:43it's all right, it's all right...
0:23:43 > 0:23:45What about smiling, can you try and smile for me?
0:23:45 > 0:23:47She's been drinking...
0:23:47 > 0:23:49- I'm not... drunk.- But I saw you...
0:23:49 > 0:23:51Mum.
0:23:51 > 0:23:54- Call an ambulance..- Ambulance? - Just do it, you stupid cow!
0:23:54 > 0:23:58She just needs to sober up. She's not used to alcohol.
0:23:58 > 0:24:03Jeff? Yeah, we've got a girl here, she's in the theatre. She's really sick.
0:24:03 > 0:24:07I think she's having some sort of stroke.
0:25:02 > 0:25:05Whoa! Hang on a minute, everyone. A moment's silence, please...
0:25:05 > 0:25:08for Dr Ruth Winters.
0:25:08 > 0:25:11Now fully reinstated and back where she belongs, bossing us
0:25:11 > 0:25:16all about and making our life absolute hell. Congratulations, Ruth.
0:25:26 > 0:25:28Come on, Stuart. Time to go.
0:25:28 > 0:25:30You've had more than your money's worth.
0:25:30 > 0:25:32Oh!
0:25:32 > 0:25:34I don't want you.
0:25:34 > 0:25:35I want the other nurse.
0:25:35 > 0:25:38I'm ill. I need proper attention.
0:25:38 > 0:25:41- She's caring.- I'm caring when people need caring for!
0:25:43 > 0:25:46- What's happened? - And for his next trick he's downed a bottle of Ipecac.
0:25:46 > 0:25:48- Stuart, sit.- My stomach...
0:25:48 > 0:25:51Well, what did you expect? It does what it says on the bottle!
0:25:51 > 0:25:54- I can't breathe. - I think this is serious, Linda.
0:25:54 > 0:25:57I can't swallow. My shoulder.
0:26:00 > 0:26:03He might have ruptured his oesophagus.
0:26:03 > 0:26:05OK, it's Natalie Bilson, 18. Possible TIA or stroke.
0:26:05 > 0:26:09Complaining of severe headaches, blurred vision and then she blacked out.
0:26:09 > 0:26:13Er, when she came round, she had numbness down the left side and slurred speech.
0:26:13 > 0:26:14GCS is 15 and her BP's up as well now.
0:26:14 > 0:26:18- OK, bed two then.- OK, thanks.
0:26:18 > 0:26:23Dr Keogh. Stuart Wilder in CDU seems to have a bit of a setback.
0:26:23 > 0:26:27Right. Dr Winters, Can you take this one, please? Possible CBA.
0:26:27 > 0:26:30- Now? You, yes.- Yeah. Of course, erm...
0:26:34 > 0:26:36And over, one, two, three...
0:26:38 > 0:26:40OK, hi there, er...
0:26:40 > 0:26:41- Natalie.- Er. I'm Dr Winters.
0:26:41 > 0:26:45I'll be treating you today. She'll need an urgent scan and an ECG.
0:26:45 > 0:26:47She's only 18. This doesn't make sense.
0:26:47 > 0:26:53- Let's give her 300mg of aspirin and then we'll get the monitoring on. - But I'm much better.
0:26:53 > 0:26:56OK, but we still need to take a proper look. OK?
0:27:02 > 0:27:04Doesn't he know when he's not wanted?
0:27:04 > 0:27:06Oh, come on, Dixie, give the lad some credit.
0:27:06 > 0:27:09He just saved that girl some serious damage.
0:27:09 > 0:27:11So he's a hero now?
0:27:11 > 0:27:13Look, I need five minutes, all right?
0:27:13 > 0:27:15You've got work to do. ..Holby City to control...
0:27:15 > 0:27:16Dix, please...
0:27:16 > 0:27:20You know what you said earlier? About being all right to sack you?
0:27:20 > 0:27:22NOW, Jeffrey.
0:27:25 > 0:27:30It could be a Mallory-Weiss tear. Or even Boerhaave's disease, both of which may require surgery.
0:27:30 > 0:27:33Surgery? No. I don't want that.
0:27:33 > 0:27:37You may have no choice. A CT scan both of abdo and chest should establish what we're looking for.
0:27:37 > 0:27:39Tess, can you call radiology? Tell them it's urgent.
0:27:39 > 0:27:42- I could do that.- I think it's best if Tess handles this.
0:27:42 > 0:27:46The good news is, if it is Boerhaave's we've caught it early.
0:27:46 > 0:27:49Survival is contingent largely on early recognition.
0:27:49 > 0:27:52I'll be fine. I just need rest. I was sick, that's all.
0:27:52 > 0:27:55I'll call surgery. See how quickly they can come and assess you.
0:27:59 > 0:28:02How are you feeling now, Natalie?
0:28:02 > 0:28:04A bit tired.
0:28:04 > 0:28:08Sorry, Dr Winters, this is Zac. Said he's a friend.
0:28:08 > 0:28:10You were at the College.
0:28:10 > 0:28:11Hi.
0:28:11 > 0:28:14You OK?
0:28:14 > 0:28:17- It's very kind of you to come, but I don't...- I'd like him to stay...
0:28:17 > 0:28:19Any numbness at all?
0:28:19 > 0:28:23- No... nothing.- Good. Good.
0:28:23 > 0:28:25And your speech has improved. I think you've had a TIA.
0:28:25 > 0:28:28I don't understand.
0:28:28 > 0:28:30Sorry, a Transient Ischaemic Attack.
0:28:30 > 0:28:35It's a bit like a mini stroke and the symptoms usually disappear within 24 hours.
0:28:35 > 0:28:39It's normally caused by a small clot temporarily lodging itself in a blood vessel in the brain.
0:28:39 > 0:28:41But she's too young... she's healthy!
0:28:41 > 0:28:43Well, it is very rare.
0:28:43 > 0:28:45But there's usually underlying risk factors so,
0:28:45 > 0:28:49well, regular smoking or oral contraceptive pill.
0:28:49 > 0:28:54If that's combined with a family history of high blood pressure or thrombosis...
0:28:54 > 0:28:58Well, I have hypertension and my mother died from a series of strokes.
0:28:58 > 0:28:59But Natalie doesn't smoke...
0:28:59 > 0:29:02she isn't sexually active and... she's never even had a boyfriend.
0:29:02 > 0:29:04Mrs Bilson. I...
0:29:04 > 0:29:09- Maybe it would be better if you left.- No, but I... - Thank you for coming.
0:29:09 > 0:29:13Listen, mate. Why don't I show you where the coffee machine is, yeah?
0:29:13 > 0:29:14This way...
0:29:17 > 0:29:20The surgeons are on their way to assess Stuart, and his obs are due.
0:29:20 > 0:29:23I'll give you a hand.
0:29:23 > 0:29:24I don't understand.
0:29:24 > 0:29:27I've been here the whole time!
0:29:27 > 0:29:29I'll find him. He can't have gone far.
0:29:46 > 0:29:48No-one's seen him leave.
0:29:48 > 0:29:51His mum. She died a year ago today.
0:29:51 > 0:29:54He only wanted a bit of attention.
0:30:13 > 0:30:16- Karl, is it?- Yeah.
0:30:16 > 0:30:18Please...
0:30:18 > 0:30:20I haven't thanked you.
0:30:20 > 0:30:22Look, there's no need, really.
0:30:22 > 0:30:23I thought she was drunk.
0:30:26 > 0:30:28Thank you.
0:30:29 > 0:30:31S'all right.
0:30:44 > 0:30:47- Back again?- I thought I left my jacket in here...
0:30:47 > 0:30:49It's fine...
0:30:49 > 0:30:52OK, I'll just send these off then.
0:30:57 > 0:31:00You've got to tell them. You heard what she said. This is a warning.
0:31:00 > 0:31:04If they know the truth they might be doing something different...
0:31:04 > 0:31:06Nat... You need to do this now!
0:31:06 > 0:31:08What do you think you're doing?
0:31:08 > 0:31:10Natalie?
0:31:13 > 0:31:15We're together.
0:31:15 > 0:31:17Have been for nearly a year now.
0:31:17 > 0:31:20- What?- We're planning on moving in together...- Zac... stop.
0:31:20 > 0:31:24- Nat's on the pill, she has been for six months and she smokes ten a day at least.- Natalie?
0:31:24 > 0:31:27She went to a clinic so you wouldn't find out.
0:31:27 > 0:31:33If you were a normal mum, she would have told you she'd know the family history. She wouldn't even be here!
0:31:33 > 0:31:35If you ask her to choose, she'll choose me.
0:31:35 > 0:31:37Nat, tell her.
0:31:37 > 0:31:40SLURRED SPEECH Er... I don't know...
0:31:40 > 0:31:42What d'you mean you don't?
0:31:44 > 0:31:45What's happening?
0:31:45 > 0:31:47I can't feel my...
0:31:49 > 0:31:50My...
0:31:51 > 0:31:54I can't remember the word!
0:31:54 > 0:31:55Right, I'm getting someone...
0:31:57 > 0:32:00We need help in here!
0:32:00 > 0:32:02What's going on?
0:32:04 > 0:32:06OK, it's OK.
0:32:07 > 0:32:10Just like to say, on behalf of the porters, how pleased we are that you're properly back in the saddle.
0:32:10 > 0:32:13Erm, Dr Winters? We need you in here.
0:32:17 > 0:32:20Can you ask him to leave, please?
0:32:20 > 0:32:22- I'm not going anywhere.- I'm her mother. She needs me with her!
0:32:22 > 0:32:26Er, maybe you should just wait outside... we need to keep things calm.
0:32:26 > 0:32:28Well, what's happening though? You said she was better!
0:32:28 > 0:32:30- Listen. You heard the doctor. Wait outside.- Don't touch me!
0:32:35 > 0:32:38- Ruth? You OK? - Yeah, why wouldn't I be?
0:32:38 > 0:32:39OK, listen to me, Natalie.
0:32:39 > 0:32:42Can you uh, can you squeeze my hands for me?
0:32:42 > 0:32:44OK, can you, er...
0:32:44 > 0:32:47can you try pushing me away?
0:32:47 > 0:32:49- Again.- I can't feel my left side.
0:32:51 > 0:32:54Do something. Please. I've already lost one child...
0:32:54 > 0:32:57Jay... could you take Mrs Bilson to the relatives' room please?
0:32:57 > 0:32:59- Yeah.- She's all I've got!
0:32:59 > 0:33:02Well, then you'd best let us get on with taking care of her.
0:33:02 > 0:33:05It's all right, come with me. Come on.
0:33:11 > 0:33:13There he is.
0:33:13 > 0:33:15Stuart?
0:33:15 > 0:33:17I'll go to him.
0:33:17 > 0:33:19Go away!
0:33:19 > 0:33:21I was faking, OK?
0:33:21 > 0:33:23You win.
0:33:23 > 0:33:25Now let me go home. Leave me alone!
0:33:25 > 0:33:26We need a trolley ASAP in the...
0:33:26 > 0:33:28I thought you'd like this back.
0:33:33 > 0:33:36I'm sorry about your mum.
0:33:36 > 0:33:38Must be hard, a day like today.
0:33:41 > 0:33:43It's not just today.
0:33:45 > 0:33:47Stuart, you're not well.
0:33:47 > 0:33:48Please let me help.
0:33:48 > 0:33:50It's nothing. It'll go away.
0:33:50 > 0:33:52I just need to rest...
0:33:52 > 0:33:55at home... I just need to get home.
0:33:55 > 0:33:57I should never have come here.
0:33:57 > 0:34:01- If you don't deal with this, you might die.- There's nothing wrong with me, I've told you. Argh!
0:34:01 > 0:34:04I know you're missing your mum. I understand.
0:34:06 > 0:34:08It's OK.
0:34:08 > 0:34:12They said if she had a bone marrow transplant
0:34:12 > 0:34:15it would give her five more years.
0:34:15 > 0:34:19But she never came round from the operation.
0:34:19 > 0:34:22I don't want to die.
0:34:22 > 0:34:24Then you need to have this surgery.
0:34:24 > 0:34:27I never meant to be really ill.
0:34:27 > 0:34:29I know.
0:34:29 > 0:34:31You just wanted to feel safe.
0:34:31 > 0:34:34That's why you keep coming back.
0:34:34 > 0:34:35You'll be safe, Stuart.
0:34:35 > 0:34:38I'll make sure of that.
0:34:40 > 0:34:43Ruth? What you doing? Have you called the stroke team?
0:34:43 > 0:34:45Yeah, of course, but they're with another patient.
0:34:45 > 0:34:49And as I've done the procedure before they've advised me to go ahead and thrombolyse.
0:34:49 > 0:34:50But you sure you're ready for this?
0:34:50 > 0:34:53I've been cleared to practise, Jay, have you got a problem with that?
0:34:53 > 0:34:56- No.- Can you draw me up ten units of reteplase?
0:35:01 > 0:35:05- Help me, please. - Look, you need to keep this on. OK?
0:35:05 > 0:35:06That's good.
0:35:06 > 0:35:11Ruth, are you absolutely sure about this?
0:35:29 > 0:35:31Ruth, think about it.
0:35:36 > 0:35:37Ruth...
0:35:49 > 0:35:50Dr Keogh.
0:35:50 > 0:35:53I'm not feeling too well, could you take over in Resus, please?
0:35:53 > 0:35:55Patient needs thrombolysing.
0:35:55 > 0:35:58Do I have any choice?
0:35:58 > 0:36:00I take that as a no...
0:36:06 > 0:36:08All right if I sit here?
0:36:08 > 0:36:09It's a free country.
0:36:14 > 0:36:15Where'd you get that?
0:36:15 > 0:36:18I made it...
0:36:18 > 0:36:20for Polly...
0:36:20 > 0:36:24Yeah... she loved all that recycled stuff, didn't she?
0:36:24 > 0:36:25Right up her street.
0:36:27 > 0:36:30Look, mate, I let you down back there.
0:36:30 > 0:36:32I'm sorry.
0:36:32 > 0:36:35It's just, being at that college, you know...
0:36:35 > 0:36:38I get these flashbacks.
0:36:38 > 0:36:39They kinda freak me out, ya know.
0:36:39 > 0:36:41I don't.. I don't deal with them very well.
0:36:43 > 0:36:45Well, I should've had a bit more faith.
0:36:45 > 0:36:48But you were right.
0:36:48 > 0:36:51What do you mean?
0:36:51 > 0:36:53I am what people say I am.
0:36:53 > 0:36:58Well, you don't have to be, son. You know? Your choice.
0:36:58 > 0:37:00I made it already.
0:37:02 > 0:37:06That stuff I said about me nicking from the lockers the day before the shootings.
0:37:09 > 0:37:12The last locker I opened was Jamie's.
0:37:12 > 0:37:14Thought it was empty, you know?
0:37:14 > 0:37:17But then when I looked again...
0:37:17 > 0:37:20right at the back... I saw something...
0:37:20 > 0:37:23didn't recognise it at first...
0:37:23 > 0:37:25But then I saw it was a gun.
0:37:25 > 0:37:28And you know what I did?
0:37:28 > 0:37:33I shut the door, I turned around and walked away. Never told a soul.
0:37:34 > 0:37:38Jamie was always messing about with stuff like that, you know?
0:37:39 > 0:37:42Never crossed my mind he'd actually do what he did.
0:37:47 > 0:37:50And now I hate myself for it.
0:37:50 > 0:37:53So, d'you still believe in me now?
0:37:57 > 0:37:59I didn't think so.
0:38:08 > 0:38:09Hey...
0:38:09 > 0:38:12Look...
0:38:12 > 0:38:14I'm sorry, I didn't mean to freak you out.
0:38:14 > 0:38:16It's not your fault, Jay.
0:38:16 > 0:38:18You... you were right to challenge me.
0:38:18 > 0:38:20Listen...
0:38:20 > 0:38:22You know I think you're a brilliant doctor.
0:38:23 > 0:38:27Part of that is having complete confidence in yourself...
0:38:27 > 0:38:31in your ability to do your very best for your patients.
0:38:34 > 0:38:37I'm just not there yet.
0:38:40 > 0:38:43You've got to focus on you now, yeah?
0:38:43 > 0:38:45Making a full recovery.
0:38:45 > 0:38:47Yeah.
0:38:47 > 0:38:51Yeah, that's why I'm going to ask Mr Jordan to put me on Admin for a while.
0:38:51 > 0:38:53OK.
0:38:55 > 0:38:58I'm so proud of you, Dr Winters.
0:39:36 > 0:39:38They've taken him up to theatre.
0:39:38 > 0:39:42- Just thought I'd let you know. - I called psych. They're on the case.
0:39:42 > 0:39:46Poor Stu.
0:39:46 > 0:39:48You know, Tess...
0:39:48 > 0:39:51I came into this profession because I like people.
0:39:51 > 0:39:55I like looking after them. Having a laugh.
0:39:55 > 0:39:58Shocked myself today with how ruthless I was.
0:39:58 > 0:40:01- I don't want to be a boss. I hate bosses.- It'll get better.
0:40:01 > 0:40:02How?
0:40:02 > 0:40:06I can't even look after myself, never mind a whole department.
0:40:06 > 0:40:09Look at the state of me and this place.
0:40:09 > 0:40:11I struggled to start with.
0:40:11 > 0:40:15It's just a matter of finding a balance.
0:40:15 > 0:40:18I don't think I can do it. I don't do responsibility.
0:40:18 > 0:40:21I'm still 16 at heart.
0:40:21 > 0:40:24Then maybe it's time to grow up.
0:40:38 > 0:40:40She doesn't deserve this.
0:40:40 > 0:40:42It should be me.
0:40:42 > 0:40:44She's comfortable.
0:40:47 > 0:40:52I think she's keen to sort this out with you and her mum.
0:40:52 > 0:40:56Look, they'll be moving her up to the stroke unit in a minute. So...
0:40:56 > 0:40:59Is she going to get better?
0:40:59 > 0:41:01I mean like... properly better.
0:41:01 > 0:41:05There's every chance that she will make a complete recovery...
0:41:10 > 0:41:15..but equally, there could be serious long term effects.
0:41:15 > 0:41:17It's a bit too early to know right now.
0:41:17 > 0:41:20Whatever happens she's going to need a lot of support.
0:41:20 > 0:41:25You have to prepare yourself for a long and potentially frustrating recovery period.
0:41:25 > 0:41:27And it's going to be hardest on Natalie...
0:41:27 > 0:41:30But she's putting up a fight.
0:41:34 > 0:41:35Nah.
0:41:35 > 0:41:37That's not my Natalie.
0:41:53 > 0:41:56I haven't been your mother for a long time.
0:41:58 > 0:42:00But all that's going to change.
0:42:11 > 0:42:15- What the hell are you doing here? - You not even going to say thank you?
0:42:15 > 0:42:19Takes more than a bit of first aid for me to change my mind about you.
0:42:19 > 0:42:22Yeah, that's right... Cos I'm scum, yeah?
0:42:22 > 0:42:25- Get your hands off me! What do you want?- Shut up!
0:42:25 > 0:42:28You were well out of order this morning.
0:42:28 > 0:42:32- I'm sorry about that, OK? - Ah, it's too late. I'm the sick freak, remember?
0:42:32 > 0:42:36And us sick freaks, we love to have a laugh. Come on then!
0:42:39 > 0:42:44What've you got for me? Come on then!
0:42:44 > 0:42:45Get off!
0:42:47 > 0:42:49Move them out of the way! Just move out of the way!
0:42:49 > 0:42:52- Just move away now!- Move it!
0:42:52 > 0:42:58- Can you move back! Move back! Now!- Please! Please!
0:43:02 > 0:43:04MOBILE PHONE RINGS
0:43:16 > 0:43:18Having a nice relax, eh?
0:43:18 > 0:43:22Getting on with your life.
0:43:22 > 0:43:24Don't know how you do it, really.
0:43:24 > 0:43:26- Excuse me?- Well, you know.
0:43:26 > 0:43:29Carry on like nothing's happened.
0:43:29 > 0:43:31Well, with what's on your conscience.
0:43:31 > 0:43:34My conscience is none of your business.
0:43:34 > 0:43:37Polly would still be alive if you'd bothered to notice
0:43:37 > 0:43:40your patient was seriously sick, so how do you explain that?
0:43:40 > 0:43:43Right, I see. You're blaming me because you feel guilty.
0:43:43 > 0:43:45- Why do I feel guilty? - Look, tell me I'm wrong.
0:43:45 > 0:43:47I don't think I am. You blame me if it makes you feel better.
0:43:47 > 0:43:50You need to sort your own head out. Leave mine to me.
0:43:52 > 0:43:55Jeffrey! Get in here! Now!
0:43:55 > 0:43:57- No. Please!- Shut up!
0:43:57 > 0:43:59- Get over there!- No. No.
0:43:59 > 0:44:02Get off! Have a look at that, what's that like?
0:44:04 > 0:44:08- All right, let him go! - Help me, please!- Ah, not such bad man now... are you?
0:44:08 > 0:44:10- ARE YOU?!- She wasted her time then?
0:44:12 > 0:44:16- I don't know what you're talking about...- Yeah, you do.
0:44:16 > 0:44:19You do. Polly!
0:44:20 > 0:44:23She spent the last few weeks of her life trying to sort out your twisted little head.
0:44:23 > 0:44:27And here we are. Huh? Same old, same old...
0:44:27 > 0:44:30like she never existed... What a fitting tribute(!)
0:44:30 > 0:44:32Like I give a damn.
0:44:32 > 0:44:35Oh, I think you do.
0:44:35 > 0:44:38Yeah, I think you do. Cos she cared about you when no-one else did, didn't she? Huh?
0:44:40 > 0:44:42That's why I'm here.
0:44:42 > 0:44:44Cos she thought you were better than this.
0:44:44 > 0:44:48Or maybe she was wrong.
0:44:48 > 0:44:50Maybe I am.
0:44:54 > 0:44:57It's not too late to make her proud, you know.
0:45:07 > 0:45:11Come on. Good boy. Good boy.
0:45:15 > 0:45:18It's all right, it's sorted.
0:45:24 > 0:45:26HE SOBS
0:45:41 > 0:45:44I was here...
0:45:44 > 0:45:46in this building when Polly died.
0:45:48 > 0:45:50Did you know that?
0:45:50 > 0:45:52No, I didn't.
0:45:52 > 0:45:54Yeah. Running around.
0:45:54 > 0:45:57Chatting to everyone.
0:45:57 > 0:45:59Doing my thing.
0:45:59 > 0:46:01And she's one floor below...
0:46:03 > 0:46:06bleeding to death...
0:46:06 > 0:46:09desperate...
0:46:14 > 0:46:17And ah... ah...
0:46:17 > 0:46:19You know what I said?
0:46:19 > 0:46:21When we found her?
0:46:21 > 0:46:23I said, uh...
0:46:25 > 0:46:27"You'll be all right now, kid.
0:46:27 > 0:46:29"Because we're here."
0:46:34 > 0:46:36Me and my big mouth, eh?
0:46:37 > 0:46:40- It weren't your fault, though. - Yeah, I know, I know.
0:46:40 > 0:46:41I know that.
0:46:43 > 0:46:45And the shooting wasn't yours.
0:46:45 > 0:46:48Knowing is just half the battle isn't it?
0:46:48 > 0:46:52At some stage we've got to stop blaming ourselves.
0:46:53 > 0:46:55Polly hated miserable whingers.
0:47:01 > 0:47:03Look, I'll try if you can, mate.
0:47:08 > 0:47:09Deal.
0:47:19 > 0:47:22- You ready?- Yeah.
0:47:22 > 0:47:27Not sure he is, though. I think the whisky chasers are finally catching up.
0:47:27 > 0:47:29Serves him right for being so smug.
0:47:29 > 0:47:34- Just you and me then.- Just a sec.
0:47:34 > 0:47:35Linda?
0:47:35 > 0:47:40Charlie and I were going for a drink tonight - wondering if you'd like to join us?
0:47:41 > 0:47:45I can't tonight. I've got the budget figures to work on.
0:47:45 > 0:47:46But thanks for asking.
0:47:48 > 0:47:51- LOUDLY - Bye, Noel!
0:47:51 > 0:47:55He's even talking seriously about becoming a paramedic.
0:47:55 > 0:47:57Hope he's not expecting you to do him any favours.
0:47:57 > 0:47:59No. I said he's got to go to college, learn to drive.
0:47:59 > 0:48:02Well, that'll be a breeze, with all that car jacking.
0:48:12 > 0:48:15- You sure, Jeffrey?- Yeah.
0:48:15 > 0:48:18Don't need some silly book to help remind me of her, do I?
0:48:18 > 0:48:19She's in here.
0:48:19 > 0:48:21Always will be.
0:48:21 > 0:48:25I am so proud of you, Mr Collier.
0:48:25 > 0:48:27Come here.
0:48:27 > 0:48:30Whooooar! Ho ho ho ho! Blimey!
0:48:30 > 0:48:34- How much of that shepherd's pie did you have?- Cheeky beggar.
0:48:34 > 0:48:35I'll catch you up.
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