The Love You Take

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0:00:02 > 0:00:04Budgets are the new black, and we are very much in the red.

0:00:04 > 0:00:06How about a little challenge to help stem the flow?

0:00:06 > 0:00:09- Cal, see if you can awaken his competitive spirit?- Hm.

0:00:09 > 0:00:12I was a football widow every Saturday for a very long time.

0:00:12 > 0:00:14Not for a while now, though.

0:00:14 > 0:00:17I don't see how a game of chess is going to help us with the budget.

0:00:17 > 0:00:18Yeah. Not how you play.

0:00:18 > 0:00:20How's Mark? Is he still dragging you down White Hart Lane

0:00:20 > 0:00:22every other weekend?

0:00:22 > 0:00:24He's dead.

0:00:24 > 0:00:25Mark's dead.

0:01:01 > 0:01:03What do you see as your biggest weakness?

0:01:03 > 0:01:05I'm a perfectionist.

0:01:05 > 0:01:07I find it hard to switch off.

0:01:07 > 0:01:09Ha. Everyone says that.

0:01:09 > 0:01:11It's true. Sadly.

0:01:11 > 0:01:14Tell me about the last time you were stressed at work,

0:01:14 > 0:01:15and how you dealt with it.

0:01:15 > 0:01:18Well, everybody who works in an ED gets stressed.

0:01:18 > 0:01:20Anyone who says otherwise is a liar,

0:01:20 > 0:01:25but if you're part of a good team, somehow, you cope.

0:01:25 > 0:01:29What attracted you to the nursing profession?

0:01:29 > 0:01:31The chance to do something bigger than me.

0:01:31 > 0:01:32More important than me.

0:01:35 > 0:01:38For what it's worth, I'd hire you.

0:01:38 > 0:01:40Yeah?

0:01:40 > 0:01:41Yeah.

0:01:42 > 0:01:43Well...

0:01:43 > 0:01:46Let's hope Tess feels the same.

0:01:46 > 0:01:48One visit. On compassionate grounds.

0:01:48 > 0:01:49That's all I'm asking for.

0:01:49 > 0:01:50They'd never allow it.

0:01:50 > 0:01:52- What, have you asked them? - There's no point.

0:01:52 > 0:01:54Well, can't you just tell them

0:01:54 > 0:01:56that my mother is dying alone on a hospital ward.

0:01:56 > 0:01:58- It's not going to happen.- Come on!

0:01:58 > 0:02:01Sorry, sorry. We're...we're fine.

0:02:03 > 0:02:05You could go yourself.

0:02:05 > 0:02:08You could take this. You could talk to her.

0:02:08 > 0:02:09Can't you ask a friend?

0:02:09 > 0:02:11I'm asking you.

0:02:11 > 0:02:12Please.

0:02:12 > 0:02:13I'm sorry.

0:02:13 > 0:02:15No.

0:02:20 > 0:02:22Try and relax. You're doing really well.

0:02:22 > 0:02:24We're going to help you breathe now.

0:02:24 > 0:02:25Can we have 20 of prednisolone

0:02:25 > 0:02:28and continue the back-to-back nebulisers, please.

0:02:28 > 0:02:30All right. Breathe through this mask.

0:02:30 > 0:02:32We may need PICU.

0:02:32 > 0:02:34Can we, erm, get the parents here, please?

0:02:36 > 0:02:37OK. What have we got?

0:02:37 > 0:02:39Severe asthma. History of atopy.

0:02:39 > 0:02:41They mowed the school playing fields and left the window open.

0:02:41 > 0:02:42Parents not with him?

0:02:42 > 0:02:44Erm...teacher brought him in.

0:02:44 > 0:02:46These veins are a nightmare.

0:02:46 > 0:02:48Can we have an I.O. gun on stand-by, please?

0:02:48 > 0:02:49Sats are still not picking up?

0:02:49 > 0:02:51Yes, he's not shifting any air.

0:02:51 > 0:02:54All right, if the nebuliser doesn't work, we may have to intubate.

0:02:54 > 0:02:57So, let's have the RSI drugs on stand-by, too, please.

0:02:57 > 0:02:59- Connie, can I have a look?- Mmm?

0:02:59 > 0:03:01Can I have a look?

0:03:01 > 0:03:02- Oh, yeah.- Thank you.

0:03:03 > 0:03:05Will? I'm Rita.

0:03:05 > 0:03:08Do you like spaghetti Bolognese?

0:03:08 > 0:03:09Good. So do I.

0:03:10 > 0:03:14I want you to imagine you're a string of spaghetti

0:03:14 > 0:03:18all floppy and wet because you've been cooked far too long.

0:03:18 > 0:03:22So, just let your arms go limp and your legs go limp and relax.

0:03:25 > 0:03:29Just allow the magic gas to move inside you.

0:03:29 > 0:03:30- Sats are picking up.- Good boy.

0:03:30 > 0:03:33- 94...- Huh.- 95...

0:03:52 > 0:03:53Oi! Hey!

0:04:03 > 0:04:07Ah. Someone is full of the joys of spring this morning.

0:04:07 > 0:04:10No, I'm just pleased the delivery is here, that is all.

0:04:10 > 0:04:13Ha, ha, of course, you are, Jeffrey!

0:04:13 > 0:04:14The date went well then?

0:04:14 > 0:04:16Yeah.

0:04:16 > 0:04:18Did she take you anywhere nice?

0:04:18 > 0:04:20Ah... I'm trying to get this done.

0:04:20 > 0:04:23Well, no. Just cos... Judging from the bags under your eyes,

0:04:23 > 0:04:24you didn't get much sleep last night.

0:04:24 > 0:04:28- Well... you could say that. - Ooh, you devil!

0:04:28 > 0:04:29You seeing her again?

0:04:29 > 0:04:31Yeah. Tonight, as it goes.

0:04:31 > 0:04:33She's a game girl, I'll give her that.

0:04:33 > 0:04:36Oh, well in that case, maybe you should take her out on a shout.

0:04:36 > 0:04:38You know? Show her where the action is.

0:04:38 > 0:04:41If the ambo's rocking, don't come knocking, right?

0:04:41 > 0:04:43- What's this?- Oh, nothing...

0:04:43 > 0:04:47Just asking Romeo here about his big date with Samantha.

0:04:47 > 0:04:50Oh, yeah, of course! So, it was good then?

0:04:50 > 0:04:51Yeah. Good. Yeah.

0:04:52 > 0:04:53Great.

0:04:53 > 0:04:58RADIO: 'Holby Control to 3006, emergency call to HMP Belleville,

0:04:58 > 0:05:00'35-year-old male suffered a serious assault.

0:05:00 > 0:05:03'Injuries unknown at this stage, early update appreciated.'

0:05:03 > 0:05:063006 to control, received. We're on our way.

0:05:06 > 0:05:07Quick as we can.

0:05:08 > 0:05:09Come here, Mac.

0:05:13 > 0:05:16They, erm, they can be tricky little blighters, those.

0:05:16 > 0:05:18Yeah.

0:05:20 > 0:05:22I'll go up with him.

0:05:22 > 0:05:24- Good.- You feeling better now?

0:05:24 > 0:05:25Wet spaghetti?

0:05:25 > 0:05:27Oh. It's an old trick.

0:05:30 > 0:05:33She up for the senior staff nurse post today?

0:05:33 > 0:05:35Yes. Why?

0:05:35 > 0:05:37It's not often people surprise me.

0:05:38 > 0:05:40Morning, Mrs Beauchamp!

0:05:40 > 0:05:42Dr Knight. How's your little contest?

0:05:43 > 0:05:47- It's as good as won.- Good.

0:05:47 > 0:05:50I swear those heels get higher every day.

0:05:50 > 0:05:53Board meeting. Can you come with me to cubicles, please?

0:05:53 > 0:05:54Yes. I can.

0:05:56 > 0:05:59So, she's had a bit of a bump and persistent epistaxis,

0:05:59 > 0:06:03as well as lacerations to her eye and her cheek.

0:06:04 > 0:06:08She's just here. This is Kate.

0:06:08 > 0:06:09This is Dr Knight.

0:06:09 > 0:06:12Hello, Kate. You can call me Cal.

0:06:12 > 0:06:15Right. Let's have a look at these injuries.

0:06:16 > 0:06:19Can you, erm, tell me how these happened?

0:06:19 > 0:06:23I hit myself with the cupboard door.

0:06:23 > 0:06:26I'm just going to spray this into your nose

0:06:26 > 0:06:27to try and stop the bleeding.

0:06:27 > 0:06:28Hold that side of your nose.

0:06:28 > 0:06:31Now, you might have a bitter taste in the back of your throat.

0:06:34 > 0:06:38All right and could you pinch your nose for me? Great.

0:06:38 > 0:06:40All right, we need to request a facial x-ray

0:06:40 > 0:06:42once the bleeding's stopped.

0:06:42 > 0:06:43How long's this going to take?

0:06:43 > 0:06:44It shouldn't take too long.

0:06:44 > 0:06:47I need to get going as soon as I can.

0:06:47 > 0:06:50Look, I know you must think I'm some battered wife,

0:06:50 > 0:06:51but I'm fine.

0:06:52 > 0:06:55And erm...did the cupboard door do this to you, too?

0:06:58 > 0:07:00Let's get that bleeding stopped.

0:07:02 > 0:07:03He's taken a bad beating.

0:07:03 > 0:07:06- All right, that's nice. What's his name?- Mark.

0:07:06 > 0:07:07Is he conscious?

0:07:07 > 0:07:08Just about. He's in a bad way.

0:07:08 > 0:07:11OK, what's he done? Did he grass somebody up or something?

0:07:11 > 0:07:13Not exactly.

0:07:13 > 0:07:16- I hate these places.- You and me both.

0:07:16 > 0:07:17Stay close to me, will ya?

0:07:17 > 0:07:19- I intend to. - INMATES CATCALL

0:07:19 > 0:07:21Oh, here we go. More fun and games!

0:07:21 > 0:07:23All right, boys. MORE CATCALLING

0:07:23 > 0:07:27Let's have look. Watch yourself, mate, please.

0:07:27 > 0:07:31All right, fella? I'm Jeff, I'm a paramedic. Can you hear me?

0:07:31 > 0:07:33I'm just going to have a feel, all right?

0:07:33 > 0:07:35HE GROANS IN PAINS

0:07:35 > 0:07:38All right, you've got some tenderness there, yeah?

0:07:38 > 0:07:40OK, we need a pelvic sling, some O2, a collar and board

0:07:40 > 0:07:42and we need to get a line-in, OK?

0:07:42 > 0:07:44And when you go outside, just keep them peeled, OK?

0:07:44 > 0:07:46- Yes.- I'll keep the chain long.

0:07:46 > 0:07:49Chain? This guy supposed to be dangerous?

0:07:49 > 0:07:50Not to us.

0:07:50 > 0:07:54Well, OK. Sorry, is there someone that can go with her, please?

0:07:56 > 0:07:58I'm sorry.

0:07:59 > 0:08:01- I'm sorry.- This is the second time this week!

0:08:01 > 0:08:03I had to stop and help someone that was lost.

0:08:03 > 0:08:05- And that took you ten minutes?- I had to go with him.

0:08:05 > 0:08:08He...he wouldn't have found it on his own otherwise.

0:08:08 > 0:08:09It's not good enough, Lofty.

0:08:09 > 0:08:12You have to start behaving like a professional.

0:08:12 > 0:08:15- I'll make it up to you, I swear. - Yeah, you will.

0:08:15 > 0:08:17And you can start by sorting out the delivery in the staff room,

0:08:17 > 0:08:20cos as usual the place is a pigsty.

0:08:20 > 0:08:22Ah, it's all in here. Pattern of injuries have been increasing

0:08:22 > 0:08:24over the last two years.

0:08:24 > 0:08:26Bruising, black eyes, dislocated shoulder...

0:08:26 > 0:08:27Let's have a look.

0:08:27 > 0:08:30- Get your own patient.- Charming.

0:08:30 > 0:08:31Has she been referred before?

0:08:31 > 0:08:34- Domestic violence, charity, police? - Nah, doesn't look like it.

0:08:34 > 0:08:36I'll speak to her. See if I can find a chink in the armour.

0:08:36 > 0:08:38- Yeah. Good luck.- Anything I can help with?

0:08:38 > 0:08:40Why are you still here?

0:08:45 > 0:08:48- Here. Look at this.- A body?

0:08:48 > 0:08:49What? No.

0:08:50 > 0:08:52Thought I'd do a bit of busking later.

0:08:52 > 0:08:53In the hospital?

0:08:53 > 0:08:56Yeah, there's a small chance I might have spent my rent money.

0:08:56 > 0:08:59- Here? Really?- It's for charity.

0:08:59 > 0:09:01Have you spent your rent money again!?

0:09:01 > 0:09:03I'm raising money for charity.

0:09:03 > 0:09:04Robyn, is Resus clear?

0:09:04 > 0:09:07Ahh... Mrs Langton is still in there.

0:09:07 > 0:09:10Right. Well, can we move her? We've got a Level One trauma coming in.

0:09:10 > 0:09:12It's a CAT C prisoner.

0:09:12 > 0:09:16This is Mark Richie, 35 years old. He was attacked.

0:09:16 > 0:09:18Got lacerations to his face, fractured jaw,

0:09:18 > 0:09:20fractured pelvis and bruising to his chest.

0:09:20 > 0:09:24Was KO'd, GCS was 12, is now 13, BP is 90 over 60,

0:09:24 > 0:09:26pulse 100 and sats are 93%.

0:09:26 > 0:09:29Ten of morphine and 750 of saline.

0:09:29 > 0:09:31And his BP has stabilised now.

0:09:31 > 0:09:33And this gentleman is Derek.

0:09:34 > 0:09:37Ash, just to let you know. Sex offences against a child.

0:09:37 > 0:09:38- Right.- Am I in the way?

0:09:38 > 0:09:40Good work. We'll work around you.

0:09:40 > 0:09:42- Erm, middle bed, thanks, Tamzin. - Right, nearly there, Mark.

0:09:42 > 0:09:44I'll take primary survey, yeah?

0:09:44 > 0:09:46Let's get him over when we're ready then, please.

0:09:46 > 0:09:48- His name is Mark?- Yeah.

0:09:48 > 0:09:51- Go on three. One, two, three. - Hello, Mark. I'm Zoe.

0:09:51 > 0:09:53Let's get another line-in, please.

0:09:53 > 0:09:55I need a VBG, erm, routine bloods

0:09:55 > 0:09:58and cross matching for six units, please.

0:09:58 > 0:10:00OK, let's have a listen to this chest.

0:10:00 > 0:10:03All right, we need a bowl and suction over here, please.

0:10:03 > 0:10:04All right, Mark, take it easy.

0:10:04 > 0:10:07Yeah, it definitely feels like he's fractured his jaw...

0:10:07 > 0:10:09Yeah, and a couple of teeth missing.

0:10:09 > 0:10:12All right. OK. Can you look straight ahead for me, please?

0:10:15 > 0:10:18Tenderness to the right side of his chest.

0:10:18 > 0:10:20Equal air entry bilaterally.

0:10:20 > 0:10:24Can we get a FAST scan over here, please?

0:10:24 > 0:10:27Hey, are you a nurse?

0:10:27 > 0:10:28Any blondes work here?

0:10:28 > 0:10:30What?

0:10:30 > 0:10:33Any blonde nurses? Pretty ones?

0:10:33 > 0:10:36No blondes. You'll have to make do with me, I am afraid.

0:10:36 > 0:10:39You did well in there. They're not easy, those shouts.

0:10:39 > 0:10:42Mmm, thanks, Jeff. I'm just glad that you were with me.

0:10:42 > 0:10:45All right, tiger? I hear you're back in the dating jungle.

0:10:45 > 0:10:46Yeah, something like that.

0:10:46 > 0:10:48- What's she like? You met her yet? - Nah, not yet.

0:10:48 > 0:10:51Right, let's get a wiggle on, shall we?

0:10:51 > 0:10:52See you later! OK.

0:10:55 > 0:10:58Back down on my count, one, two, three.

0:10:58 > 0:10:59OK.

0:10:59 > 0:11:01OK, what've we got?

0:11:01 > 0:11:02Uh... What haven't we got?

0:11:02 > 0:11:05Scan have got somebody on the table, but they can take him in 15 minutes.

0:11:05 > 0:11:09OK, can we get a plain film of his pelvis in the meantime, please?

0:11:19 > 0:11:21Can you give me a moment, please?

0:11:40 > 0:11:43'A Study of Production and Development in Health care Costs'.

0:11:43 > 0:11:44Yeah. That's a little bit tragic.

0:11:44 > 0:11:47Shouldn't you be with your patient?

0:11:47 > 0:11:50Well, I am just taking a couple of minutes to strategise.

0:11:51 > 0:11:53There.

0:11:53 > 0:11:56Actually, that's quite good by your mediocre standards.

0:11:56 > 0:11:58Yes, it is...

0:12:01 > 0:12:04- Lofty. Have you seen anyone else by this board?- Nope.

0:12:04 > 0:12:06That's weird.

0:12:06 > 0:12:09Oh, the, erm...dishwasher's broken by the way.

0:12:15 > 0:12:17You OK?

0:12:17 > 0:12:19Yeah, I'm just thirsty, that's all.

0:12:19 > 0:12:22You got your job interview? Not nervous, are you?

0:12:22 > 0:12:26You got me, Lofty. I'm a bag of nerves.

0:12:26 > 0:12:29You'll storm it. They'd be mad not to hire you.

0:12:34 > 0:12:36There you go. You only needed paper stitches.

0:12:36 > 0:12:39There's no damage to your facial bones.

0:12:39 > 0:12:41Next time, you might not be so lucky.

0:12:41 > 0:12:43I'll try and look where I'm going next time.

0:12:45 > 0:12:48Did someone do this to you, Kate?

0:12:48 > 0:12:49I'm fine. I need to go now.

0:12:49 > 0:12:51No. No! Listen! Wait.

0:12:51 > 0:12:54I've seen a lot of women come in here, telling me they're fine.

0:12:54 > 0:12:55That they can handle it.

0:12:55 > 0:12:58It's part of our nature to think that we can fix things.

0:12:58 > 0:13:01That we can improve any situation.

0:13:01 > 0:13:03That only we understand him.

0:13:04 > 0:13:07But those same women are brought back in here, broken.

0:13:07 > 0:13:10Mentally, and physically.

0:13:10 > 0:13:13Don't let yourself get to that stage.

0:13:13 > 0:13:15- Accept help when it's offered. - I can't.

0:13:15 > 0:13:16- Yes, you can.- You don't understand.

0:13:16 > 0:13:19- Then help me understand.- I'm sorry, I've got to get going.

0:13:19 > 0:13:21- No, don't, don't go.- I've been here too long already.

0:13:21 > 0:13:23If you let us know, we can help you.

0:13:23 > 0:13:24I wish it were that simple.

0:13:26 > 0:13:29Hey, hey, hey, hey! It's all right! It's all right!

0:13:29 > 0:13:30Can I have some help here, please!

0:13:30 > 0:13:32- Who's this?- He was in a locked car outside.- Alone?

0:13:32 > 0:13:35He'd smashed the window. So... Hey! We're just going to sit you down.

0:13:35 > 0:13:38- Sit down.- OK? Hey!- OK.

0:13:38 > 0:13:40- It's all right. It's OK.- Calm down.

0:13:43 > 0:13:46Louise, have the notes from the prison come through yet?

0:13:46 > 0:13:48Ah, yeah, I was just about to bring them through.

0:13:48 > 0:13:50- I'll take them.- Hey, you know he's a kiddy fiddler?

0:13:50 > 0:13:54- Really?- Yeah, it's horrible. I hope they throw away the key.

0:13:54 > 0:13:55Thank you.

0:14:27 > 0:14:30- Lily? Did you move my chess piece? - What?

0:14:30 > 0:14:31Well, someone took my turn.

0:14:31 > 0:14:33Someone who apparently is a chess genius.

0:14:33 > 0:14:37- You're very sweet but why would I do that?- I don't know.

0:14:37 > 0:14:38Your chess skills are pitiable,

0:14:38 > 0:14:41but I have better things to do than to help you cheat.

0:14:41 > 0:14:44It's a great move. His queen is completely trapped.

0:14:44 > 0:14:46Who else could have made it?

0:14:49 > 0:14:50Tess! My son!

0:14:50 > 0:14:52- Your son?- He's gone.

0:14:52 > 0:14:53Where was he?

0:14:53 > 0:14:55- I left him in the car.- Ah, right, come with me.

0:15:00 > 0:15:02BOY GRUNTS

0:15:02 > 0:15:04Calm down. It's OK.

0:15:04 > 0:15:06Oh, my God, look at his hands!

0:15:06 > 0:15:08He broke the window with a torch. Cut his hands on the glass.

0:15:08 > 0:15:10- Is he autistic? Can he speak?- No.

0:15:10 > 0:15:12Hey, Jack, we're going to have to have a look at those hands, mate.

0:15:12 > 0:15:15- Thank you, we can take it from here. - But...- Go!

0:15:15 > 0:15:17Let them see your hands, you're bleeding.

0:15:17 > 0:15:20See, that thing he does with his arms? I don't know why he does it.

0:15:20 > 0:15:24- Jack, please, let the doctor see your hands.- OK.

0:15:24 > 0:15:26Why don't we leave him with Dr Knight for a little while.

0:15:26 > 0:15:28Let him calm down? And let's find you a cup of tea.

0:15:28 > 0:15:30I sh...should call my husband.

0:15:30 > 0:15:33OK, Jack.

0:15:33 > 0:15:36Ow. Ow.

0:15:36 > 0:15:38Oh, for f...

0:15:38 > 0:15:42Fine! We'll just have to use disposable cups from now on.

0:15:42 > 0:15:43Did Tess ask you to do that?

0:15:43 > 0:15:45Nah, I just did it for a laugh.

0:15:45 > 0:15:47Of course she did.

0:15:47 > 0:15:49I'm pretty handy with a screwdriver, if I don't say so myself.

0:15:49 > 0:15:52Yeah?

0:15:52 > 0:15:53Go on, then.

0:16:00 > 0:16:04Mmm, that's a nasty pelvic fracture. It's likely to be unstable.

0:16:04 > 0:16:06BP still 90 over 60.

0:16:06 > 0:16:08He's hypovolaemic.

0:16:08 > 0:16:12Mark, on a scale from one to ten, how bad is the pain?

0:16:12 > 0:16:14Let's give him five more of morphine, please.

0:16:14 > 0:16:16And can we get the orthopods to review him

0:16:16 > 0:16:17as soon as possible, please?

0:16:17 > 0:16:19CT's ready for him.

0:16:19 > 0:16:20OK. Let's go.

0:16:20 > 0:16:21I'll take him.

0:16:21 > 0:16:24All right, that's another five of morphine going through.

0:16:28 > 0:16:29Ready.

0:16:35 > 0:16:37Jack, I need to look at these cuts on...

0:16:37 > 0:16:42I want to check these cuts on your hands.

0:16:42 > 0:16:47All right, would you, erm...would you like a sweet?

0:16:47 > 0:16:49- No?- Cal, can I help at all?

0:16:49 > 0:16:51No, Ethan, thank you, I'm fine.

0:16:51 > 0:16:59PHONE RINGS

0:16:59 > 0:17:01I'm so sorry.

0:17:01 > 0:17:05No, no. Could you just keep it on, just for a minute?

0:17:05 > 0:17:08PHONE CONTINUES TO RING

0:17:08 > 0:17:11Do you like music, Jack?

0:17:11 > 0:17:14Thank you. You can wait outside.

0:17:14 > 0:17:16I've got to stay with him at all times.

0:17:16 > 0:17:18Well, he's not going to get up and run away, is he?

0:17:20 > 0:17:22- You going to be OK?- Thanks, Max.

0:17:25 > 0:17:27- Did you read my letters?- No.

0:17:27 > 0:17:30- None of them?- Didn't even open them.

0:17:30 > 0:17:34I'm guessing you haven't told them here?

0:17:34 > 0:17:36What...what do they think?

0:17:36 > 0:17:38You're divorced?

0:17:38 > 0:17:41Or just not met the right bloke?

0:17:41 > 0:17:43I told them you were dead.

0:17:43 > 0:17:45It's true...to me.

0:17:46 > 0:17:49I can't give you a divorce, Rita.

0:17:49 > 0:17:50Can't or won't?

0:17:53 > 0:17:56OK, fine. My solicitor will be in touch with yours. OK?

0:17:56 > 0:17:59We'll get you treated and you can be on your way.

0:17:59 > 0:18:02No. You are going to hear me out.

0:18:02 > 0:18:05You left me in there to rot.

0:18:05 > 0:18:07Nothing for three years.

0:18:07 > 0:18:10Not one letter, not one visit,

0:18:10 > 0:18:12then divorce papers out of the blue.

0:18:14 > 0:18:17I know how much I hurt you.

0:18:17 > 0:18:20But you can't just cut me off.

0:18:20 > 0:18:23Ten minutes.

0:18:23 > 0:18:25That's all I'm asking for.

0:18:25 > 0:18:26No.

0:18:26 > 0:18:28Ten minutes.

0:18:28 > 0:18:31Fine. Then I'll tell all of them here.

0:18:31 > 0:18:32All of it.

0:18:32 > 0:18:34I will not let that happen.

0:18:35 > 0:18:37Aha!

0:18:39 > 0:18:43Fixed it. Blocked filter!

0:18:43 > 0:18:46Well done. Have you got that MP3 player?

0:18:47 > 0:18:49You must have stuff you need to be getting on with.

0:18:49 > 0:18:52Yes. Speaking to you.

0:18:52 > 0:18:54Do you have any help?

0:18:54 > 0:18:55Not really.

0:18:55 > 0:18:59No specialist support? Respite care?

0:19:00 > 0:19:03He did go somewhere for a day a week, but they stopped the funding.

0:19:04 > 0:19:06And school?

0:19:06 > 0:19:09When I can persuade him, he doesn't like it.

0:19:09 > 0:19:12I can't imagine how hard it must be on your own.

0:19:12 > 0:19:15Must put your relationship under a lot of strain.

0:19:16 > 0:19:19If there's anything you want to speak to me about,

0:19:19 > 0:19:21in confidence, you can.

0:19:23 > 0:19:25It's my husband.

0:19:25 > 0:19:26Are you OK?

0:19:29 > 0:19:30I am so sorry.

0:19:32 > 0:19:34Can you give us five minutes, please?

0:19:34 > 0:19:35You think I did this to her?

0:19:35 > 0:19:37I don't think anything.

0:19:37 > 0:19:39I'm just making sure that she gets the right help.

0:19:39 > 0:19:41I wish it was Miles. I would take that any day, over...

0:19:41 > 0:19:43Show her.

0:19:43 > 0:19:45Go on.

0:19:51 > 0:19:52Is that Jack?

0:19:53 > 0:19:55He doesn't mean to.

0:19:59 > 0:20:01You can wait outside.

0:20:02 > 0:20:03Erm, everything all right?

0:20:03 > 0:20:05Yes, it's fine.

0:20:05 > 0:20:06- Are you sure?- Yes.

0:20:06 > 0:20:09Rita, can we start cleaning off some of these lacs, please?

0:20:09 > 0:20:10- How's he doing?- Pelvic fracture

0:20:10 > 0:20:13and we're still waiting for the trauma CT to assess stability

0:20:13 > 0:20:15and look for active bleeding.

0:20:15 > 0:20:16- These from the prison?- Yeah.

0:20:16 > 0:20:18Could be one for Interventional Radiology.

0:20:18 > 0:20:19How are you feeling?

0:20:19 > 0:20:23A little better for seeing Rita here.

0:20:23 > 0:20:25Is there a page missing? Next of kin.

0:20:27 > 0:20:30We don't have a next of kin for you.

0:20:30 > 0:20:31Is there anyone you'd like me to call?

0:20:31 > 0:20:34Yeah. There is actually.

0:20:34 > 0:20:36My wife.

0:20:36 > 0:20:39But I doubt she'd come if you called her.

0:20:39 > 0:20:41Well, I can let her know what's happened.

0:20:41 > 0:20:43I haven't seen her in three years.

0:20:43 > 0:20:46Since the day I got sent down.

0:20:46 > 0:20:49All right, erm, let me know when the CT's back. Thank you.

0:20:49 > 0:20:53Right. These lacerations ready to be sutured?

0:20:53 > 0:20:54Still miss her, though.

0:20:54 > 0:20:56Every minute of every day.

0:21:03 > 0:21:06OK, well, that seems to have done the trick. What did you put on?

0:21:06 > 0:21:07Elton John.

0:21:07 > 0:21:09Well, I was under pressure!

0:21:09 > 0:21:11OK. You can change it if you want, OK, Jack?

0:21:13 > 0:21:15OK, this might sting a little bit.

0:21:19 > 0:21:21Blimey.

0:21:21 > 0:21:23I think I've read that autistic kids don't feel pain,

0:21:23 > 0:21:26but this is something else.

0:21:26 > 0:21:29- Well, maybe he just feels it differently.- Maybe...

0:21:29 > 0:21:30You can help us if you like, Jack.

0:21:32 > 0:21:35Here, you wipe your fingers like this.

0:21:36 > 0:21:39And then that goes in the bin, like that.

0:21:39 > 0:21:40Want to try?

0:21:48 > 0:21:49Well done.

0:21:51 > 0:21:53OK, brave lad.

0:21:53 > 0:21:54We'll get these bandages on you

0:21:54 > 0:21:57and then we can get you off and find your mum.

0:21:57 > 0:21:58JACK MOANS AND GRUNTS

0:21:58 > 0:22:00Is it too tight?

0:22:00 > 0:22:02I didn't hurt him, did I?

0:22:02 > 0:22:04Does it feel weird, Jack?

0:22:04 > 0:22:06It's off, it's off, Jack, it's fine!

0:22:06 > 0:22:08He doesn't like the bandage.

0:22:08 > 0:22:10Ah, he's a bit funny with textures.

0:22:10 > 0:22:13You ready to go home, Jack? Daddy's come to pick us up.

0:22:13 > 0:22:16How about we go and get some ice cream, eh?

0:22:16 > 0:22:18Would you like that?

0:22:18 > 0:22:20You gave me such a fright.

0:22:21 > 0:22:25OK, come on. It's time to go. We need to give these back.

0:22:25 > 0:22:27- It's OK.- Calm down, Jack. Jack.

0:22:27 > 0:22:30SHE SCREAMS

0:22:30 > 0:22:32- Are you OK?- Mmm...it's just my shoulder.

0:22:32 > 0:22:33- OK, let's get you up.- Take it easy.

0:22:33 > 0:22:36- Have you got her?- Yeah. You go.

0:22:36 > 0:22:38All right.

0:22:38 > 0:22:39Did you see a kid run past?

0:22:39 > 0:22:41Yeah, that way.

0:22:41 > 0:22:42How's it looking?

0:22:42 > 0:22:44Well, your modelling career is over.

0:22:44 > 0:22:45Huh!

0:22:45 > 0:22:48You know, you smell bloody great.

0:22:48 > 0:22:50Coco Chanel and cigarettes.

0:22:50 > 0:22:53Don't suppose you couldn't wheel us out for one, could you?

0:22:53 > 0:22:54Afraid not.

0:22:54 > 0:22:58Huh. Better have another hit of this then.

0:22:58 > 0:23:00Got to take what I can get.

0:23:04 > 0:23:06Take my advice.

0:23:06 > 0:23:07Don't go to prison.

0:23:07 > 0:23:09How do you know I haven't been?

0:23:09 > 0:23:12- Have you?- No.

0:23:12 > 0:23:14Never got caught.

0:23:16 > 0:23:18Very chatty with the sex offender.

0:23:18 > 0:23:20Flirty, some might say.

0:23:20 > 0:23:22- Max!- Meet me upstairs in ten minutes.

0:23:22 > 0:23:24- I can't. I haven't got time.- Make time.

0:23:32 > 0:23:35Don't talk to my colleagues.

0:23:35 > 0:23:36I was just being friendly.

0:23:36 > 0:23:38You have no power over me any more.

0:23:38 > 0:23:41I will not listen to you. And you cannot make me.

0:23:41 > 0:23:44This is the last conversation we will ever have.

0:23:44 > 0:23:47Can you...can you get something out of my back pocket?

0:23:47 > 0:23:48No.

0:23:48 > 0:23:50Do you want me to ask Zoe?

0:23:50 > 0:23:51Please.

0:24:02 > 0:24:03Take it.

0:24:03 > 0:24:05I know you probably burnt yours.

0:24:07 > 0:24:09Just tell me you don't think about me.

0:24:11 > 0:24:14Tell me you don't still love me, even if you hate me.

0:24:18 > 0:24:20Rita...

0:24:23 > 0:24:26Oh, Rita. I have to ask you.

0:24:26 > 0:24:29- Do you have any history with this guy?- No.

0:24:29 > 0:24:32He knows your name.

0:24:32 > 0:24:34Well, he probably read my name badge.

0:24:34 > 0:24:35I've got to get to my interview.

0:24:37 > 0:24:39Just taking her off to x-ray.

0:24:39 > 0:24:42I know what it is. It's dislocated. I've done it before.

0:24:42 > 0:24:44- I can get it back in myself. - Don't do that.

0:24:44 > 0:24:46He's not in the department. I think he went into the hospital.

0:24:46 > 0:24:48Please, find him for me.

0:24:48 > 0:24:51- I'll get security to search.- But I know what he looks like.

0:24:51 > 0:24:53OK, but don't be long.

0:24:53 > 0:24:54I'll get him back. I swear.

0:25:10 > 0:25:11Right.

0:25:11 > 0:25:14You really want to have a word with your interior designer.

0:25:14 > 0:25:16Lock the door

0:25:19 > 0:25:23As I was saying, I haven't got long, so whatever this is,

0:25:23 > 0:25:25I expect it to be pretty impressive...

0:25:25 > 0:25:27Well, if you want to see something impressive,

0:25:27 > 0:25:29I'm holding the wrong instrument.

0:25:29 > 0:25:31I've heard all the jokes before, Max, and they're not funny.

0:25:31 > 0:25:35- So, if that's all this is...- Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait! Sit down.

0:25:36 > 0:25:37Tell me again what...erm...

0:25:37 > 0:25:40What did you say when you came in?

0:25:40 > 0:25:43I said whatever this is I expect it to be pretty imp....

0:25:49 > 0:25:51OK, Kate, we're going to reduce your shoulder now,

0:25:51 > 0:25:53but we're going to need to give you some IV sedation.

0:25:53 > 0:25:56No. I don't want it.

0:25:56 > 0:25:58I'm afraid Entonox isn't really going to cut it.

0:25:58 > 0:25:59I don't care. You can just do it.

0:25:59 > 0:26:02It's really not something I'd advise.

0:26:02 > 0:26:04- I'm three months pregnant.- OK.

0:26:04 > 0:26:07This painkiller won't harm your baby.

0:26:07 > 0:26:08You don't know that.

0:26:08 > 0:26:10I do.

0:26:10 > 0:26:12If you're worried about autism, there's no...

0:26:12 > 0:26:13Just do it.

0:26:13 > 0:26:15- You sure?- Mm-hm.

0:26:15 > 0:26:18- OK. All right.- Ready?

0:26:18 > 0:26:20Just try and stay as relaxed as possible.

0:26:22 > 0:26:24Does he run away a lot?

0:26:24 > 0:26:26All the time.

0:26:27 > 0:26:29Every time we go out.

0:26:29 > 0:26:31- SHE GRUNTS IN PAIN - Oh, that's good.

0:26:31 > 0:26:32And from home, too.

0:26:34 > 0:26:35I have to keep all the windows locked.

0:26:35 > 0:26:39It's like I'm just some stranger he's always trying to run away from.

0:26:39 > 0:26:40I'm sure that's not true.

0:26:40 > 0:26:42We're strangers to each other.

0:26:42 > 0:26:45You're his mum. I'm sure he knows that.

0:26:45 > 0:26:51I can't understand when he's upset, or thirsty, or in pain.

0:26:51 > 0:26:52Or if he feels any pain.

0:26:52 > 0:26:54I took him to the hairdresser the other day

0:26:54 > 0:26:58and he screamed so badly they had to finish it on the street outside.

0:26:58 > 0:27:00I...I look into his eyes and I...

0:27:00 > 0:27:02- Any joy?- No.

0:27:02 > 0:27:04..just see nothing.

0:27:04 > 0:27:06I have no idea what he's thinking.

0:27:06 > 0:27:08If he's thinking anything at all.

0:27:08 > 0:27:10Kate, darling...

0:27:12 > 0:27:15- ..no sign of him.- He'll turn up. He always does.

0:27:21 > 0:27:23No.

0:27:28 > 0:27:30Could you call this number for us? Anna Hargreaves.

0:27:30 > 0:27:32- She's a social worker.- Please, don't. Don't.

0:27:32 > 0:27:34Oh, no. Sit back. Watch your shoulder.

0:27:34 > 0:27:38Kate. Kate, please, just keep your arm as still as possible.

0:27:39 > 0:27:42Please.

0:27:42 > 0:27:44Thank you.

0:27:48 > 0:27:50We have to.

0:27:54 > 0:27:58SHE CRIES

0:27:58 > 0:28:01Can you ask that nurse to come back in? Rita?

0:28:01 > 0:28:03- She's left the department now. - Where's she gone?

0:28:03 > 0:28:04You don't need to know that.

0:28:04 > 0:28:07Please. Can you ask her to come back in?

0:28:07 > 0:28:09She's not available.

0:28:09 > 0:28:10I'm asking nicely.

0:28:10 > 0:28:13And I'm telling you nicely, she's not available.

0:28:13 > 0:28:15You're very protective. What?

0:28:15 > 0:28:16You got your eye on her, have you?

0:28:16 > 0:28:19Dr Ashford?

0:28:19 > 0:28:22Right. CT results are back.

0:28:22 > 0:28:24Large retroperitoneal haemotoma.

0:28:24 > 0:28:26Need to get him to IR.

0:28:26 > 0:28:28Would you let Radiology know we'll be five minutes?

0:28:28 > 0:28:31Right, Mark, we need to do a procedure called an embolisation

0:28:31 > 0:28:33to relieve the bleeding in your pelvis.

0:28:33 > 0:28:36- We're taking you through now. - No.

0:28:36 > 0:28:37I'm not going.

0:28:37 > 0:28:39Sorry?

0:28:39 > 0:28:40I'm not going.

0:28:44 > 0:28:45She'll be in as soon as she can.

0:28:45 > 0:28:46Thanks.

0:28:48 > 0:28:51I'm not putting our son into care! I am not giving up on him.

0:28:51 > 0:28:54It's not about giving up on him!

0:28:54 > 0:28:58I can't watch my wife and my son tear each other to pieces.

0:28:58 > 0:29:01We're banging our heads against a brick wall, day after day,

0:29:01 > 0:29:04hoping for... What?

0:29:04 > 0:29:06A miracle?

0:29:06 > 0:29:09We thought he might grow out of it. He hasn't.

0:29:11 > 0:29:12And he won't.

0:29:12 > 0:29:15But...he's our child.

0:29:15 > 0:29:19He's not a baby. He's getting bigger, stronger...

0:29:19 > 0:29:23This...this is only going to get worse.

0:29:23 > 0:29:25I'm sorry, but we don't have any other choice.

0:29:25 > 0:29:26We...we do.

0:29:26 > 0:29:28I wish you believed that.

0:29:28 > 0:29:30But you don't, do you?

0:29:31 > 0:29:34And neither do I.

0:29:34 > 0:29:36- Please, leave.- We need to face reality.

0:29:36 > 0:29:39- No!- It's not going to get any better.

0:29:39 > 0:29:41Get out.

0:29:41 > 0:29:43Get out!

0:29:53 > 0:29:55Are you having pain?

0:29:56 > 0:29:58Oh, OK. You're bleeding a little.

0:29:58 > 0:30:00Let's get you back on the bed.

0:30:00 > 0:30:03Gently does it, gently does it. OK.

0:30:07 > 0:30:11Ethan? I've got to go and interview. Can you take over here?

0:30:11 > 0:30:13- Yeah, of course.- It's a delicate one. - It's OK.

0:30:15 > 0:30:18Hey, Ethan, what are you doing? Mate, she's my patient!

0:30:18 > 0:30:20She got a free upgrade.

0:30:23 > 0:30:24Hello.

0:30:27 > 0:30:29- KNOCKS DOOR - Max?

0:30:29 > 0:30:31Yeah? Just give me a minute!

0:30:32 > 0:30:34Sh, sh, sh.

0:30:37 > 0:30:39- Hi. - CLEARS THROAT

0:30:39 > 0:30:41- What are you doing?- Sorry?

0:30:41 > 0:30:44- What?- I'm just...working out.

0:30:44 > 0:30:45You never work out.

0:30:45 > 0:30:48Which is why I thought now would be a good time to start.

0:30:48 > 0:30:50Right. Well, we need a patient taken down to X-ray.

0:30:50 > 0:30:53Yep. I'm on it like an Easter...

0:30:53 > 0:30:55- bonnet.- Have you been drinking?

0:30:55 > 0:30:56I wish.

0:30:59 > 0:31:00- That was...- Impressive?

0:31:00 > 0:31:03No. That was...that was just lucky!

0:31:03 > 0:31:05I've got to try and sneak out of here now, without...

0:31:05 > 0:31:08Max... I've got to go.

0:31:08 > 0:31:12Don't get your knickers in a twist.

0:31:12 > 0:31:14(I'm not wearing any.)

0:31:22 > 0:31:23Rita Freeman?

0:31:23 > 0:31:26- Yes. Yes, that's me.- Hi. Sarah Lewis, HR manager.

0:31:26 > 0:31:27- Hello.- Come with me.

0:31:28 > 0:31:32Heartbeat seems fine. You'll need a check up with Obs and Gynae.

0:31:33 > 0:31:36There's the little face there. Do you see?

0:31:37 > 0:31:40Reminds me of seeing Jack like that. He looked so perfect.

0:31:40 > 0:31:43He was such a dream baby.

0:31:43 > 0:31:44He never cried.

0:31:44 > 0:31:45Never made a fuss.

0:31:48 > 0:31:51I thought I was the luckiest mum in the world.

0:31:51 > 0:31:54It's not that people with autism don't have feelings, it's...

0:31:54 > 0:31:57more that they find it hard to make sense of them.

0:31:57 > 0:31:58I have read the books.

0:31:58 > 0:31:59Yes. Sorry.

0:32:01 > 0:32:04I'm trying not to be bitter. It's...it's just hard.

0:32:04 > 0:32:06It's understandable.

0:32:06 > 0:32:07It's not what you expected.

0:32:07 > 0:32:10You're bound to feel cheated.

0:32:10 > 0:32:11And angry.

0:32:11 > 0:32:13But there are still things to enjoy.

0:32:13 > 0:32:15You just have to look a bit harder.

0:32:18 > 0:32:21He's insistent he only wants to speak to her. Won't say why.

0:32:21 > 0:32:22Well, where is she?

0:32:22 > 0:32:24Having her interview.

0:32:24 > 0:32:25He's tachycardic.

0:32:25 > 0:32:28He's losing blood faster than we can get it in him.

0:32:28 > 0:32:31This is ridiculous.

0:32:31 > 0:32:34- Mr Richie, do you realise what's happening?- I do.

0:32:34 > 0:32:36Without this very straightforward procedure,

0:32:36 > 0:32:38it's most likely you will suffer a fatal haemorrhage.

0:32:38 > 0:32:41- Do you understand that?- Yeah.

0:32:43 > 0:32:45Let's just get him to Radiology.

0:32:45 > 0:32:47I said. No.

0:32:47 > 0:32:49Oh, he's a ward of the state for goodness' sake.

0:32:49 > 0:32:52I have the right to refuse treatment, don't I?

0:32:52 > 0:32:53Same as any other patient.

0:32:53 > 0:32:55No, we don't have time for undergraduate ethics.

0:32:55 > 0:32:58Connie, he's right. Clearly, he has capacity.

0:33:01 > 0:33:03Why are you refusing treatment?

0:33:03 > 0:33:05I want to speak to Rita.

0:33:05 > 0:33:07Well, Staff Nurse Freeman is not available.

0:33:07 > 0:33:09- You can speak to her afterwards. - You don't get it.

0:33:10 > 0:33:13She won't listen.

0:33:13 > 0:33:15People used to listen.

0:33:15 > 0:33:18Now, this is the only way I have left.

0:33:20 > 0:33:22I need to make her understand.

0:33:22 > 0:33:23Understand what?

0:33:25 > 0:33:26I wrecked her life.

0:33:28 > 0:33:29BP's dropping.

0:33:31 > 0:33:33So, I've been building my experience

0:33:33 > 0:33:35across a wide range of clinical areas.

0:33:35 > 0:33:40Developing my knowledge of palliative care pathways,

0:33:40 > 0:33:43and I also took the RCN Sexual Health course.

0:33:43 > 0:33:47And you have a special interest in child protection, is that right?

0:33:50 > 0:33:51Yes.

0:33:51 > 0:33:53Can you tell us about that?

0:33:56 > 0:33:57His GCS is dropping.

0:33:57 > 0:34:00Right, let's get another unit through the rapid infuser, please.

0:34:00 > 0:34:02We can't keep filling the bath with the plug out.

0:34:02 > 0:34:06- Let's just get him to Radiology.- No.

0:34:06 > 0:34:09Text Rita. I want her here. Now!

0:34:09 > 0:34:13Well, I've...I've always wanted to, erm...

0:34:13 > 0:34:15Had an interest in...

0:34:15 > 0:34:17Excuse, me can I have some water?

0:34:17 > 0:34:18Take your time.

0:34:22 > 0:34:24Perhaps, you could give us some examples.

0:34:24 > 0:34:26OK, so, erm...

0:34:26 > 0:34:30Recently, a child came in and erm...

0:34:30 > 0:34:34it...it looked like she'd been abused by her carer.

0:34:34 > 0:34:35PHONE PINGS AND VIBRATES

0:34:35 > 0:34:36I'm so sorry, excuse me.

0:34:44 > 0:34:46- Go on.- HURRIEDLY: Well, what I'm trying to say is

0:34:46 > 0:34:48child protection is something I take very seriously.

0:34:48 > 0:34:52It's something that we all take very seriously and,

0:34:52 > 0:34:53well, I mean...

0:34:53 > 0:34:54That's about it.

0:34:57 > 0:34:59Is everything all right, Rita?

0:35:01 > 0:35:03I'm fine. Sorry. Thank you.

0:35:03 > 0:35:05Thank you...thank you for your time.

0:35:33 > 0:35:36That's awesome! Wish I had some money.

0:35:38 > 0:35:39I have a steristrip.

0:35:40 > 0:35:44Thanks. What you doing round here?

0:35:44 > 0:35:45Looking for a kid.

0:35:46 > 0:35:49I'm trying to hide from Tess as well.

0:35:49 > 0:35:51CAR HONKS

0:35:51 > 0:35:52Jack?

0:35:59 > 0:36:02What you doing here, eh?

0:36:02 > 0:36:06It's OK. Are you coming? Are you coming, Jack?

0:36:12 > 0:36:15You want to see Max? Hear the music, yeah?

0:36:18 > 0:36:20That's it, Jack.

0:36:23 > 0:36:26Ash? What's going on?

0:36:26 > 0:36:28- He's bleeding out and refusing treatment.- Why?

0:36:28 > 0:36:30I was hoping you could tell me that.

0:36:30 > 0:36:32- You need to tell us what's going on, Rita.- I don't know.

0:36:32 > 0:36:34He says he only wants to talk to you.

0:36:34 > 0:36:36- I've got nothing to say to him. - How do you know this man?

0:36:36 > 0:36:39Right. There you are. He's inside.

0:36:39 > 0:36:41- I can't.- He's refusing intervention until he speaks to you.

0:36:41 > 0:36:44Now, we have put six units, FFPs and platelets

0:36:44 > 0:36:46and still can't stop the bleeding.

0:36:46 > 0:36:49I'm not going in there. I have got nothing to say to him.

0:36:49 > 0:36:50You listen to me. Whatever your problem is,

0:36:50 > 0:36:53you get in there, you be professional and you do your job.

0:36:53 > 0:36:55- No.- Excuse me?

0:36:55 > 0:36:56I said, "No!"

0:37:06 > 0:37:08This is Max, Jack.

0:37:08 > 0:37:10He's playing his guitar.

0:37:11 > 0:37:12Do you like music, Jack?

0:37:34 > 0:37:37Thanks for the text.

0:38:03 > 0:38:05Rita. They need you in there.

0:38:07 > 0:38:10Please, just go in and see them. He just wants to talk.

0:38:11 > 0:38:12I know what he wants.

0:38:14 > 0:38:17- He wants me to listen to his lies. - What do you mean?

0:38:17 > 0:38:20I've heard them all before. And I have fallen for them before.

0:38:20 > 0:38:22- How do you know this man?- Please, Ash, please,

0:38:22 > 0:38:25don't make me go back in there.

0:38:25 > 0:38:27Well, if you don't, he's going to die on that trolley.

0:38:27 > 0:38:28Your choice.

0:38:31 > 0:38:33Are you sure you don't want me to call your wife for you?

0:38:33 > 0:38:35Well, we'll keep you as comfortable as we can.

0:38:35 > 0:38:38We'll just be outside. OK?

0:38:38 > 0:38:39Thanks.

0:38:50 > 0:38:53I'm here as your nurse. Nothing more.

0:38:53 > 0:38:55I know.

0:38:55 > 0:38:59I'm not going to ask for your forgiveness.

0:39:00 > 0:39:02I know I'm past that.

0:39:02 > 0:39:05I just want you to understand.

0:39:06 > 0:39:10I wish I'd told you the truth from the start.

0:39:11 > 0:39:15I thought I could forget it.

0:39:15 > 0:39:18I could make it go away.

0:39:18 > 0:39:23I was under so much pressure at school.

0:39:23 > 0:39:25You know how much I was drinking.

0:39:27 > 0:39:29I thought you were going to leave me.

0:39:29 > 0:39:32I just wanted to...

0:39:32 > 0:39:34blank things out.

0:39:34 > 0:39:37The booze and...

0:39:38 > 0:39:41..and the online stuff.

0:39:41 > 0:39:43Please, don't make me hear this.

0:39:43 > 0:39:46She...she came onto me.

0:39:46 > 0:39:49She wasn't a kid.

0:39:49 > 0:39:52She was a young woman.

0:39:52 > 0:39:56She was 13 years old.

0:39:56 > 0:39:58She was your pupil.

0:39:58 > 0:40:00I was weak. I was stupid.

0:40:01 > 0:40:04She was everything you weren't.

0:40:04 > 0:40:06She worshipped me.

0:40:06 > 0:40:09She never questioned me, or made me feel stupid.

0:40:09 > 0:40:12Don't you dare try and blame this on me.

0:40:12 > 0:40:13This is not my fault.

0:40:13 > 0:40:16I know. It's my fault.

0:40:16 > 0:40:19This is all my fault.

0:40:19 > 0:40:22I...I lost myself.

0:40:22 > 0:40:24I needed your help.

0:40:24 > 0:40:27I still need you now.

0:40:27 > 0:40:29It's too late.

0:40:29 > 0:40:31I've missed you so much.

0:40:32 > 0:40:37I thought I was going to die from missing you.

0:40:37 > 0:40:38Don't.

0:40:40 > 0:40:41Have you missed me?

0:40:42 > 0:40:45I missed the man I married.

0:40:45 > 0:40:48Every minute of every day.

0:40:50 > 0:40:52And you are not him.

0:40:52 > 0:40:53I am. Rita, I am.

0:40:53 > 0:40:55No, no, you're not.

0:40:55 > 0:40:58Yes! Look at the picture.

0:40:58 > 0:41:00That's the real us.

0:41:00 > 0:41:03We just lost each other for a bit.

0:41:03 > 0:41:06I know you still love me.

0:41:07 > 0:41:09No, I don't. I don't.

0:41:09 > 0:41:12Then say it.

0:41:12 > 0:41:14Say it!

0:41:14 > 0:41:16We belong together.

0:41:16 > 0:41:17Is everything OK?

0:41:24 > 0:41:26I'm ready for the treatment now.

0:41:26 > 0:41:30Right. This BP is still not picking up.

0:41:30 > 0:41:32Let's hope you haven't left it too late.

0:41:32 > 0:41:36Right, you contact the surgeons, let them know he's agreed.

0:41:36 > 0:41:39Thanks, Lofty.

0:41:39 > 0:41:40Oh, is he OK?

0:41:40 > 0:41:42He's fine. Been hanging out with Max.

0:41:42 > 0:41:43Who's Max?

0:41:43 > 0:41:45Show her the video.

0:42:07 > 0:42:10Mark? Keep pushing the bloods.

0:42:10 > 0:42:14Mark, can you hear me? Sats have dropped to 92, CO2's rising.

0:42:14 > 0:42:16All right. We can't move him like this.

0:42:16 > 0:42:18We need to go for a Rapid Sequence Induction.

0:42:18 > 0:42:20Yeah, pass me the sux. Thank you.

0:42:20 > 0:42:24All right, I'll reduce the ketamine in case he arrests on induction.

0:42:24 > 0:42:26- OK, no, stop!- What?

0:42:26 > 0:42:28Don't use sux. He can't have sux.

0:42:29 > 0:42:31Sux apnoea.

0:42:32 > 0:42:36Right, 50 of rocuronium, please.

0:42:38 > 0:42:43OK, rocuronium going in. Yup.

0:42:43 > 0:42:44OK.

0:42:44 > 0:42:45Bougie.

0:42:50 > 0:42:54Inflate the cuff, please. Breath sounds are good.

0:42:54 > 0:42:55Yup. Cricoid off.

0:42:55 > 0:42:57Rita just gave me this.

0:42:57 > 0:43:00Next of kin details from the prison. He's her husband.

0:43:01 > 0:43:02What?

0:43:17 > 0:43:20Miles? The social worker's here.

0:43:27 > 0:43:28Don't wake him.

0:43:36 > 0:43:39Did you not even think to pick up a phone?

0:43:39 > 0:43:41I was...in the moment.

0:43:41 > 0:43:43It would have taken you less than a minute to call us

0:43:43 > 0:43:45and tell us you found him.

0:43:45 > 0:43:48You cannot exist in your own little world.

0:43:48 > 0:43:49You're part of a team.

0:43:49 > 0:43:51And I need to know that I can rely on you.

0:43:53 > 0:43:56But that being said, you did well with Jack.

0:43:56 > 0:43:58He seemed to respond to you and Max.

0:43:58 > 0:43:59And the parents needed to see that.

0:43:59 > 0:44:01What's going to happen?

0:44:01 > 0:44:02They're going to carry on with him at home.

0:44:02 > 0:44:04Hopefully with a lot more support.

0:44:04 > 0:44:07I think you showed them a bit of light at the end of the tunnel.

0:44:09 > 0:44:10- Sister Bateman?- Hmm?

0:44:11 > 0:44:13I can't help noticing...

0:44:13 > 0:44:17We've all noticed that you seem a little uptight since the accident.

0:44:17 > 0:44:21Is there anything that you want to talk about?

0:44:21 > 0:44:23A few of us are going to the pub after shift.

0:44:23 > 0:44:26You could join us for a nice sherry or something?

0:44:26 > 0:44:27Might help you relax a bit?

0:44:29 > 0:44:30I'm fine, but thank you.

0:44:32 > 0:44:34I mended the dishwasher!

0:44:34 > 0:44:36What would I do without you, Lofty?

0:44:36 > 0:44:38- Mrs Beauchamp?- What are you doing?

0:44:38 > 0:44:41- Yes?- I just wanted to say nice move.

0:44:41 > 0:44:42What?

0:44:42 > 0:44:45I hope this isn't too presumptuous, but I'm taking it as a sign.

0:44:45 > 0:44:47About who you're backing in our little competition.

0:44:47 > 0:44:49Maybe, I can take you out to dinner? To say thank you...

0:44:49 > 0:44:51Ah...

0:45:03 > 0:45:05Oooh!

0:45:05 > 0:45:07Tess? Need you in your office. It's Rita.

0:45:07 > 0:45:08Ah.

0:45:11 > 0:45:13Do you have any idea how many ethical

0:45:13 > 0:45:16and professional standards you've breached today?

0:45:16 > 0:45:19Not only did you lie about your relationship with a patient,

0:45:19 > 0:45:23putting yourself in an ethically very dubious position,

0:45:23 > 0:45:27you then tried to conceal the lie by taking his notes.

0:45:30 > 0:45:33Not to mention the fact that you've lied to your employers,

0:45:33 > 0:45:35your colleagues.

0:45:35 > 0:45:38I mean, the lack of probity, of integrity that you've shown today

0:45:38 > 0:45:40is absolutely disgraceful.

0:45:40 > 0:45:41Rita.

0:45:43 > 0:45:45Do you have anything to say for yourself?

0:45:47 > 0:45:50- No.- Then get out.

0:45:50 > 0:45:52Connie, it's not your place to discipline the nurses.

0:45:52 > 0:45:55This is my team. And I will not tolerate what I've seen today!

0:45:55 > 0:45:58- It's Tess's team.- She jeopardised a patient's care!

0:45:58 > 0:46:00I will deal with my nurses.

0:46:11 > 0:46:14Face it, bro, it's over.

0:46:14 > 0:46:16Hope you're going to be gentlemanly in defeat.

0:46:16 > 0:46:18Sorry?

0:46:18 > 0:46:22Well, let's just say the gods AND goddesses are smiling on me.

0:46:24 > 0:46:25HE SCOFFS

0:46:47 > 0:46:50Two bottles of larger, please.

0:46:50 > 0:46:52You deserve this. You did really well today.

0:46:52 > 0:46:54Oh, thanks.

0:46:54 > 0:46:56No, I mean it. I'm really proud of you.

0:46:56 > 0:46:59Even if you are a bit of a div sometimes.

0:46:59 > 0:47:01Most of the time.

0:47:01 > 0:47:02Do you play any instruments?

0:47:02 > 0:47:03What?

0:47:03 > 0:47:04Right, my round, I think.

0:47:06 > 0:47:07What are we having?

0:47:07 > 0:47:11I was just saying that you guys did really well today with that lad.

0:47:11 > 0:47:14- Mmm.- And there is a great charity for autism.

0:47:14 > 0:47:15And they're always short of funds.

0:47:15 > 0:47:18So, I thought, with all the money that you've raised...

0:47:18 > 0:47:20And the rest?

0:47:25 > 0:47:28Right, I've signed us up.

0:47:28 > 0:47:30An open mic night?

0:47:30 > 0:47:31I'll play bass.

0:47:31 > 0:47:33Can you actually play bass?

0:47:33 > 0:47:36I played double bass at school. Grade 3.

0:47:36 > 0:47:38'The Lodgers'?

0:47:38 > 0:47:41Good, isn't it? Just came to me.

0:47:41 > 0:47:42You're a genius...

0:47:43 > 0:47:44Rita.

0:47:45 > 0:47:47Rita.

0:47:47 > 0:47:48Hey...

0:47:49 > 0:47:51Why didn't you just tell us the truth?

0:47:55 > 0:47:56I could have helped you.

0:47:58 > 0:48:00I'm so sorry.

0:48:00 > 0:48:02It wasn't your fault, Rita.

0:48:03 > 0:48:05It wasn't your fault he did what he did.

0:48:07 > 0:48:09I gave evidence in his defence.

0:48:09 > 0:48:11I believed him.

0:48:13 > 0:48:16So, I stood up in court and I told everyone she was lying.

0:48:19 > 0:48:22It was my husband who was abusing her.

0:48:22 > 0:48:24- Come on, let me walk you home. - It's all right.

0:48:24 > 0:48:27- I've wasted enough of your time today.- Hey...