0:00:02 > 0:00:04- What's going on?- Emilie's not just a patient. She's our mum.
0:00:04 > 0:00:06- Your mother's ill.- My mother died two years ago, Charlie.
0:00:08 > 0:00:10You are on your own.
0:00:10 > 0:00:11I'm not your brother any more.
0:00:11 > 0:00:14Now, Rita and Charlie are on a course until this afternoon
0:00:14 > 0:00:16so I will be running the shift.
0:00:16 > 0:00:19Erm, I think Senior Staff Nurse Chiltern would like to lead.
0:00:19 > 0:00:21Do you want a shot at the hot seat, Benjamin?
0:00:21 > 0:00:23I am Diane Stuart, agency.
0:00:23 > 0:00:26- What are you doing? - Headache. On to the IV coffee next.
0:00:26 > 0:00:27I don't think I can do this.
0:00:27 > 0:00:31- Things go wrong, that is part of leadership.- All clear?
0:00:31 > 0:00:33- Shocking.- Wait, wait, wait...
0:00:33 > 0:00:37Time of death - 13.23.
0:00:37 > 0:00:39Think carefully about what you are going to say.
0:01:20 > 0:01:22Ben?
0:01:22 > 0:01:24BEN RETCHES
0:01:30 > 0:01:32You OK, Ben?
0:01:33 > 0:01:35She's dead, Dylan.
0:01:38 > 0:01:40It's all my fault.
0:01:42 > 0:01:43Yeah. OK, bye-bye.
0:01:45 > 0:01:46How are we doing?
0:01:46 > 0:01:49I've just called Connie. She's on her way in now.
0:01:49 > 0:01:50Right - and upstairs?
0:01:50 > 0:01:52Hanssen already knows. He's sending someone down.
0:01:52 > 0:01:54Great, that's all we need.
0:02:01 > 0:02:03How did this happen?
0:02:03 > 0:02:04That's what we have to work out.
0:02:07 > 0:02:10Who administered the shock?
0:02:10 > 0:02:14II can't remember what happened. Why didn't she clear?
0:02:14 > 0:02:16Unless-unless I didn't give the warning or...
0:02:16 > 0:02:18Ben, Ben, hang on, hang on. Be very careful.
0:02:18 > 0:02:19What are you saying?
0:02:21 > 0:02:23It all happened so quickly. I can't remember, Dylan.
0:02:26 > 0:02:29I am not sure if I asked her to clear or...
0:02:29 > 0:02:31Well, of course you did, you always do. Why wouldn't you?
0:02:31 > 0:02:33Then why did you get a shock?
0:02:34 > 0:02:35Huh?
0:02:36 > 0:02:39I don't know. I don't know.
0:02:39 > 0:02:41But you did, you did give the order to clear.
0:02:41 > 0:02:43That's what you have to tell anybody that asks.
0:02:43 > 0:02:45OK, your job is on the line.
0:02:48 > 0:02:49I think I need to go home.
0:02:51 > 0:02:53I know. I understand that, but you can't.
0:02:53 > 0:02:56They're going to want to talk to us.
0:02:56 > 0:02:59Ben - what happened was a tragic accident
0:02:59 > 0:03:03but it was a mistake and it is not worth jeopardising your career over.
0:03:05 > 0:03:08I just... I don't understand, how can she die from one shock?
0:03:08 > 0:03:10I mean, it doesn't add up.
0:03:10 > 0:03:12That is what we need to find out.
0:03:12 > 0:03:13Do the rest of the department know?
0:03:13 > 0:03:15Well, if they don't already, they very soon will.
0:03:15 > 0:03:18- Hanssen knows.- Oh, great(!)
0:03:18 > 0:03:21Right, the police have contacted Diane's mum. She's on her way in.
0:03:21 > 0:03:23- OK. Have you spoken to Lofty and Dylan?- No.
0:03:23 > 0:03:26Make that a priority, then. We need to know what happened in the lift.
0:03:26 > 0:03:29- Will you let me know when Mrs Stuart arrives?- Course I will.
0:03:29 > 0:03:31- Dr Hardy?- Mrs Beauchamp.
0:03:31 > 0:03:33Your brother's failed to turn up again. If he doesn't turn up
0:03:33 > 0:03:35in the next 24 hours, tell him not to bother.
0:03:35 > 0:03:37Henrik, I'm here, so...
0:03:38 > 0:03:40MUSIC: Vienna by Billy Joel
0:03:40 > 0:03:42# Slow down You're doing fine
0:03:42 > 0:03:46# You can't be everything you wanna be before your time
0:03:46 > 0:03:51# Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
0:03:53 > 0:03:54# Tonight
0:03:55 > 0:03:57# It's too bad but it's the life you lead
0:03:57 > 0:04:02# You're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
0:04:02 > 0:04:04# Though you can see when you're wrong
0:04:04 > 0:04:06# You know you can't always see when you're right
0:04:08 > 0:04:10# You're right... # EMILIE COUGHS
0:04:11 > 0:04:13You look tired.
0:04:14 > 0:04:17You should get some rest.
0:04:18 > 0:04:19I'm fine.
0:04:21 > 0:04:22Honestly.
0:04:23 > 0:04:25Come on, let's get you up.
0:04:29 > 0:04:32CAL'S PHONE RINGS
0:04:32 > 0:04:34THEY GROAN
0:04:37 > 0:04:38HE GROANS IN PAIN
0:04:41 > 0:04:43'Hi, this is Cal. I can't get to the phone right now
0:04:43 > 0:04:46'but if you play your cards right, I might get back to you.'
0:04:46 > 0:04:47I can't face them, Dylan.
0:04:47 > 0:04:49Ben, Ben, Ben, Ben. Come on.
0:04:51 > 0:04:53Just take a deep breath. It's OK.
0:04:55 > 0:04:56There you are.
0:04:56 > 0:04:57Are you OK?
0:04:57 > 0:05:01Yeah, yeah, fine. We were just, you know, taking a minute.
0:05:01 > 0:05:03I am not surprised.
0:05:03 > 0:05:05I realise this must be really difficult for you both.
0:05:05 > 0:05:07Lofty, I've got to talk to you about what happened.
0:05:07 > 0:05:09I'm going to need to take a statement, OK?
0:05:09 > 0:05:12And just so you know, Diane's mother is on her way in.
0:05:12 > 0:05:13Mother?
0:05:13 > 0:05:16Dylan, Connie would like to speak to you.
0:05:16 > 0:05:18Right.
0:05:22 > 0:05:25EMILIE WHIMPERS AND COUGHS
0:05:35 > 0:05:36All right.
0:05:37 > 0:05:39- Hey, hey, hey. - SHE COUGHS
0:05:39 > 0:05:42Hey, just try and calm down for me.
0:05:42 > 0:05:44Try and breathe deeply.
0:05:51 > 0:05:53I'm going to need to get us some help.
0:05:53 > 0:05:54Yeah?
0:06:03 > 0:06:05EMILIE WHIMPERS
0:06:05 > 0:06:07'Emergency - which service?'
0:06:07 > 0:06:09Yes, er, ambulance, please.
0:06:10 > 0:06:14If there is anything we can do...
0:06:14 > 0:06:15You want to go home...
0:06:17 > 0:06:18..just say the word.
0:06:20 > 0:06:23I think I'll stay. We're short-staffed anyway.
0:06:23 > 0:06:27Right, so we need to fill out this clinical incident form,
0:06:27 > 0:06:30outlining the events as you remember them. OK?
0:06:32 > 0:06:33Lofty?
0:06:35 > 0:06:39So, when you were in the lift, the patient went into pulseless VT...
0:06:39 > 0:06:42- Yes.- ..and Dr Keogh made the call to shock her?
0:06:44 > 0:06:48I realise this is the last thing you want to relive
0:06:48 > 0:06:50but it is very important we get this down.
0:06:52 > 0:06:57So, after Dr Keogh had given the instruction to shock the patient,
0:06:57 > 0:07:01you pressed the button on the defibrillator?
0:07:01 > 0:07:03- Yeah.- And you said, "Clear"?
0:07:03 > 0:07:07You checked everyone had done so before you pressed the button?
0:07:09 > 0:07:11Lofty, I am so sorry.
0:07:13 > 0:07:15You just say yes and we're done.
0:07:19 > 0:07:21Yeah.
0:07:21 > 0:07:24I can't imagine how difficult this must be for you.
0:07:26 > 0:07:27You have our support.
0:07:30 > 0:07:33Seriously, Tia? Pride?
0:07:33 > 0:07:35You're actually coming out at...at Pride?
0:07:36 > 0:07:38Not that I didn't know anyway -
0:07:38 > 0:07:41nobody binges on Orange Is The New Black that much.
0:07:41 > 0:07:44One, that's just insulting
0:07:44 > 0:07:47and, two, that's not it
0:07:47 > 0:07:49and, three, that's just insulting.
0:07:51 > 0:07:53Wahey, howdy, cowboy.
0:07:53 > 0:07:56Yeah, I told you I wouldn't break tradition, Dix.
0:07:56 > 0:07:59The drinks might be non-alcoholic but Dixie's gay cliche drinking game
0:07:59 > 0:08:01is well and truly alive.
0:08:01 > 0:08:03Hey, Lily - stilts. Drink.
0:08:05 > 0:08:07Who, Lily?
0:08:07 > 0:08:09HE LAUGHS Yeah, she can't get enough.
0:08:09 > 0:08:10Angel wings - drink.
0:08:12 > 0:08:16Yeah, all right. I'd better get off an' all, before Chuckles here
0:08:16 > 0:08:18ruptures her spleen laughing.
0:08:18 > 0:08:19All right, see you later.
0:08:21 > 0:08:23You could at least look like you're having a good time.
0:08:23 > 0:08:25- You're being inappropriate. - No, I'm not.
0:08:25 > 0:08:28I'm joining in, it's a celebration. Where's your party spirit?
0:08:28 > 0:08:30- I'm here to work.- Mmm...
0:08:30 > 0:08:33- doesn't mean you can't have a bit of fun.- When the fun starts,
0:08:33 > 0:08:35let me know.
0:08:35 > 0:08:37All right. Let's play Gay Pride Bingo.
0:08:37 > 0:08:39Me and Dixie played that last year.
0:08:43 > 0:08:44Mrs Beauchamp -
0:08:44 > 0:08:48this is Mrs Stuart, Diane's mother.
0:08:49 > 0:08:52Mrs Stuart, I'm Connie Beauchamp, senior consultant
0:08:52 > 0:08:54and on behalf of the department, can I say...
0:08:54 > 0:08:55I want to see my daughter.
0:08:58 > 0:09:01Yes, of course. If you'd like to follow me?
0:09:01 > 0:09:04Thank you, you've been very kind.
0:09:13 > 0:09:17I can assure you, we're doing everything we can to find out what happened.
0:09:17 > 0:09:19Have you got any children, Mrs Beauchamp?
0:09:19 > 0:09:22Yes, I have - a daughter. She's ten.
0:09:22 > 0:09:25Well, unless you can bring my daughter back,
0:09:25 > 0:09:27you can't really assure me of anything, can you?
0:09:36 > 0:09:39Why has she got all those tubes stuck in her?
0:09:39 > 0:09:42It's standard procedure in situations like this,
0:09:42 > 0:09:44to leave the patient as they were when they died.
0:09:44 > 0:09:46Standard procedure?
0:09:46 > 0:09:49What, you mean, when somebody goes to work and ends up dying?
0:09:49 > 0:09:52I understand this is very difficult for you.
0:09:55 > 0:09:58If it's of any comfort, she would have felt no pain.
0:10:01 > 0:10:03Everything's going to be all right now.
0:10:05 > 0:10:06Mum's here.
0:10:09 > 0:10:12MUSIC: Don't be So Hard On Yourself by Jess Glynne
0:10:12 > 0:10:15# Learn to forgive Learn to let go
0:10:16 > 0:10:19# Everyone trips Everyone falls
0:10:20 > 0:10:24# So don't be so hard on yourself No
0:10:24 > 0:10:27# Cos I'm just tired of marching on my own... #
0:10:27 > 0:10:29Pippa?
0:10:29 > 0:10:31Pip? It's me.
0:10:31 > 0:10:33Tia?
0:10:33 > 0:10:34Ta-dah.
0:10:34 > 0:10:37What have you done to your hair?
0:10:37 > 0:10:39And what are you wearing?
0:10:39 > 0:10:41I knew this was a bad idea.
0:10:41 > 0:10:42Is this some kind of fancy dress?
0:10:42 > 0:10:44Let me spell it out for you -
0:10:44 > 0:10:47- used to be a chick, now she wants a d...- Daisy!
0:10:47 > 0:10:49I can do this. It's fine.
0:10:49 > 0:10:50I'm a guy, Pip.
0:10:50 > 0:10:52I'm transgender.
0:10:53 > 0:10:55And you wonder why he hasn't seen you for six months?
0:10:55 > 0:10:59- Who are you?- Daisy, Daisy Stoppard.
0:10:59 > 0:11:01Look, why don't we just sit down and talk about this?
0:11:01 > 0:11:04- We're leaving.- No, Pip. I want to stay.
0:11:04 > 0:11:06I want you to stay.
0:11:06 > 0:11:08I don't know what rubbish this freak's been filling your head with...
0:11:08 > 0:11:11Let's go, Robert. She's not worth it.
0:11:13 > 0:11:15# Don't be so hard on yourself No
0:11:16 > 0:11:18# Learn to forgive Learn to let go
0:11:21 > 0:11:24# Everyone trips Everyone falls
0:11:24 > 0:11:27# So don't be so hard on yourself No. #
0:11:29 > 0:11:31- Tia.- You stayed!
0:11:31 > 0:11:33Come with me right now, we can pretend this never happened.
0:11:33 > 0:11:35Here she goes again - Little Miss Bigotry.
0:11:35 > 0:11:38Why don't you just do one, mate?
0:11:38 > 0:11:39CROWD GASPS AND SCREAMS
0:11:49 > 0:11:51Daisy! Daisy!
0:11:51 > 0:11:53Daisy!
0:11:53 > 0:11:56- LOUD BANG - Tia, watch out!
0:11:56 > 0:11:58GLASS SMASHES, CROWD GASPS
0:11:58 > 0:12:01Your local GP can review this in a couple of days.
0:12:01 > 0:12:02Tell you what, Lily,
0:12:02 > 0:12:05your problem is, you don't know how to have fun.
0:12:05 > 0:12:07I'll take you into town - show you some places
0:12:07 > 0:12:10- that me and Dix used to...- Please, no more Iain and Dixie stories.
0:12:10 > 0:12:14I know what fun is - and no, thank you to your invitation.
0:12:14 > 0:12:16Go on, then. Tell me what your idea of fun is.
0:12:17 > 0:12:19All right, I'll go first.
0:12:19 > 0:12:23A few of the lads, plenty of beer, good bit of banter,
0:12:23 > 0:12:24maybe a cheeky kebab on the way home.
0:12:24 > 0:12:29Followed by regretful hook-ups, vomiting and a raging hangover.
0:12:29 > 0:12:31See, you do know how to have a good time.
0:12:31 > 0:12:33SHOUTS OF DISTRESS
0:12:33 > 0:12:35Now this, this is fun.
0:12:35 > 0:12:36Come on.
0:12:39 > 0:12:41Ethan.
0:12:41 > 0:12:43Er, no, Ethan. I should take this.
0:12:43 > 0:12:45- PATIENT VOMITS - Oh, what?
0:12:45 > 0:12:47It's fine, Dr Hanna, I can do it.
0:12:47 > 0:12:49Just perfect.
0:12:49 > 0:12:51Ethan.
0:12:51 > 0:12:52What have we got?
0:12:52 > 0:12:55Well, she's had a chest infection.
0:12:55 > 0:12:59Pulse is 100, resps are 28 and sats are 96%.
0:12:59 > 0:13:03She's had two 5mg salbutamol nebulisers with minimal effect
0:13:03 > 0:13:05and 500 of ipratropium.
0:13:05 > 0:13:08She's been on amoxicillin for the past week but, so far,
0:13:08 > 0:13:11- hasn't had a response.- Right.
0:13:13 > 0:13:15Can you get someone to look at his shoulder, please?
0:13:15 > 0:13:17No, it's fine I am going to stay here.
0:13:17 > 0:13:22The sooner you go, the sooner you can come back and find me.
0:13:22 > 0:13:24OK, I'll be right back.
0:13:24 > 0:13:27Charlie, take good care of her.
0:13:27 > 0:13:28We will.
0:13:28 > 0:13:30Ethan, you don't have to do this.
0:13:30 > 0:13:33It's fine, thank you, Charlie.
0:13:33 > 0:13:35Let's get some bloods off and a chest X-ray, please,
0:13:35 > 0:13:37and we'll need a sputum spec at some point.
0:13:37 > 0:13:39Emilie, we're going to try and find out
0:13:39 > 0:13:41what's causing these breathing problems, OK?
0:13:45 > 0:13:47Excuse me, sorry.
0:13:47 > 0:13:49Hi, I'm Dr Chao.
0:13:49 > 0:13:50Any pain in your neck or back?
0:13:50 > 0:13:52Give us some room, please. All right, what is his name?
0:13:52 > 0:13:55- Tia.- Robert.
0:13:55 > 0:13:57Did you touch the power supply?
0:13:57 > 0:14:00OK, Robert, let's get this off you.
0:14:00 > 0:14:03One, two, three.
0:14:03 > 0:14:05I always knew when I met the man of my dreams
0:14:05 > 0:14:07there'd be a bolt of lightning between us.
0:14:07 > 0:14:09Really?
0:14:09 > 0:14:11Shame it was a dodgy power cable.
0:14:11 > 0:14:12OK.
0:14:18 > 0:14:19Lofty...
0:14:20 > 0:14:24..are you OK? Sorry, that is a stupid question.
0:14:24 > 0:14:26We are really worried about you.
0:14:26 > 0:14:28Thanks.
0:14:28 > 0:14:29What happened?
0:14:29 > 0:14:31Ben, can I have a word?
0:14:33 > 0:14:35- I'll see you later, yeah? - Yeah, whatever you need.
0:14:43 > 0:14:44I can't do this.
0:14:45 > 0:14:46Ben...
0:14:46 > 0:14:48I can see it on their faces.
0:14:48 > 0:14:51I know it doesn't make sense. They know it doesn't make sense.
0:14:51 > 0:14:53Why would she have done that?
0:14:53 > 0:14:56Ben, nobody knows anything, all right?
0:14:56 > 0:14:57They're just concerned for you.
0:14:57 > 0:15:02And as for Diane, she clearly wasn't paying attention today.
0:15:04 > 0:15:06I've taken a shock. We've all taken a shock.
0:15:06 > 0:15:09Exactly, exactly. There are any number of mitigating factors.
0:15:09 > 0:15:12You need to stop asking yourself these questions
0:15:12 > 0:15:15and start thinking about what you're going to say.
0:15:15 > 0:15:18Earlier, when she told me she was tired...
0:15:19 > 0:15:20..and I was telling her off.
0:15:22 > 0:15:24The pills.
0:15:24 > 0:15:27- KNOCK ON DOOR - Come in.
0:15:27 > 0:15:29Sorry to interrupt, but we've got incoming from the Pride event.
0:15:29 > 0:15:32- ETA five minutes.- OK.
0:15:32 > 0:15:34Is that it? No more details?
0:15:34 > 0:15:37Erm, possible electrocution.
0:15:37 > 0:15:38You're kidding?
0:15:38 > 0:15:40You're not kidding?
0:15:41 > 0:15:42Right, thank you.
0:15:45 > 0:15:47Tell me about these pills, Ben.
0:15:47 > 0:15:49I saw her taking these earlier.
0:15:49 > 0:15:51Just assumed they were painkillers or vitamins or something.
0:15:51 > 0:15:53She tried to hide them from me.
0:15:55 > 0:15:57Do you think they may have made things worse?
0:15:57 > 0:16:00Well, I don't know but we can find out.
0:16:00 > 0:16:01Pop them back, yeah?
0:16:13 > 0:16:14Mrs Beauchamp?
0:16:14 > 0:16:18Michael Hall, Deputy Director of Operations for Unscheduled Care.
0:16:18 > 0:16:20Mr Hall, whilst you're welcome here,
0:16:20 > 0:16:22I can assure you we have everything under control so...
0:16:22 > 0:16:24Forgive me, Mrs Beauchamp,
0:16:24 > 0:16:27but a dead nurse in resus tells me otherwise.
0:16:28 > 0:16:32Mr Hall, Rita Freeman, Clinical Nurse Manager.
0:16:32 > 0:16:35Ah, excellent. You'll be next on my list.
0:16:35 > 0:16:37First, I'd like to speak to the member of your team
0:16:37 > 0:16:39present at the time of the incident.
0:16:39 > 0:16:41I'll let you know when he's ready to talk.
0:16:41 > 0:16:44Miss Freeman, this isn't really something that can wait.
0:16:44 > 0:16:47Look, I've filled out the clinical incident form
0:16:47 > 0:16:52and he's taking a little breather before I need him back on the floor.
0:16:52 > 0:16:53And you think that's wise?
0:16:53 > 0:16:58Staff Nurse Chiltern is a diligent and caring Band 6 nurse.
0:16:58 > 0:17:00As his line manager, I can personally vouch for him.
0:17:00 > 0:17:03And until we've conducted a thorough investigation...
0:17:03 > 0:17:07We have no reason to suspect that one of my nurses is at fault.
0:17:07 > 0:17:10Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to speak with Diane's mother.
0:17:10 > 0:17:13I'd also like to pay my respects to Mrs Stuart.
0:17:13 > 0:17:16Rita, would you show Mr Hall to resus, please?
0:17:21 > 0:17:24Yes, Mrs Calvert.
0:17:24 > 0:17:26Yeah, I'll stay with Tia until you get here.
0:17:26 > 0:17:28Just glad I was here to look after her.
0:17:28 > 0:17:31All right, Dylan, this is Robert Calvert, 16.
0:17:31 > 0:17:35Hit by an overhead lighting rig, approximately 20 minutes ago.
0:17:35 > 0:17:39No contact with electric but he has a query fractured right radius and ulna.
0:17:39 > 0:17:43Wasn't KO'd. GCS - 15. Pulse - 90. BP - 120/70.
0:17:43 > 0:17:46Sats - 97. I've given him five of morphine, oxygen
0:17:46 > 0:17:48and I've cleared his neck at the scene.
0:17:48 > 0:17:49OK, let's get him in.
0:17:50 > 0:17:51Ben,
0:17:51 > 0:17:52come on.
0:18:02 > 0:18:06Mrs Stuart, I'm Michael Hall, Deputy Director.
0:18:07 > 0:18:11I am very sorry for your loss.
0:18:11 > 0:18:12Thank you.
0:18:12 > 0:18:15If there is anything I can do...
0:18:15 > 0:18:17What happens to her now?
0:18:17 > 0:18:19Diane's body will be taken to the mortuary,
0:18:19 > 0:18:22but for now, Mrs Stuart, can I take you to the relatives' room,
0:18:22 > 0:18:23get you a cup of tea?
0:18:23 > 0:18:27I want to speak to the staff who she was working with when she died.
0:18:27 > 0:18:31I want to know she wasn't frightened and that it was quick,
0:18:31 > 0:18:35- that it was painless. - It was quick, it was painless.
0:18:35 > 0:18:38Well, how would you know? You weren't there.
0:18:38 > 0:18:42Mrs Stuart, once the Trust has completed a full investigation,
0:18:42 > 0:18:45the full circumstances that may have contributed...
0:18:45 > 0:18:49- Circumstances? What are you implying?- Nothing.
0:18:49 > 0:18:51Nobody is implying anything.
0:18:51 > 0:18:53She was a good daughter and she was good at her job
0:18:53 > 0:18:56and now she's dead. How did that happen?
0:18:57 > 0:18:59It doesn't make sense.
0:19:03 > 0:19:09OK, Emilie, you've developed what's called an aspiration pneumonia,
0:19:09 > 0:19:11all right?
0:19:11 > 0:19:15It happens after you inhale food or liquid...
0:19:17 > 0:19:20..which is a common side effect of Huntington's, I'm afraid.
0:19:22 > 0:19:27Cal says you don't think he cares about anyone else.
0:19:29 > 0:19:32So, we're going to start you on a new course of IV antibiotics.
0:19:32 > 0:19:33You're wrong.
0:19:35 > 0:19:37You may not feel the effects immediately
0:19:37 > 0:19:39but you should start to feel better soon.
0:19:43 > 0:19:46When you'd made up your mind up about something...
0:19:47 > 0:19:52..you used to hold your breath
0:19:52 > 0:19:53until you got your way.
0:19:54 > 0:19:59Once he did it for so long, he passed out.
0:19:59 > 0:20:02- Scared the life out of me. - Right, stop it.
0:20:03 > 0:20:05Excuse me?
0:20:07 > 0:20:09I'm sorry.
0:20:12 > 0:20:16Erm, I'm going to try and find you a bed on a medical ward...
0:20:17 > 0:20:19..where you'll be much more comfortable.
0:20:19 > 0:20:22Can you let me know if there is any change, please?
0:21:05 > 0:21:07'You have one old message.'
0:21:07 > 0:21:09'Message one.'
0:21:10 > 0:21:12'Yeah, everyone's been really nice.
0:21:12 > 0:21:14'Usual grumpy consultant - Dr Keogh, this time.
0:21:14 > 0:21:17'Anyway better go, Mum. Love you.'
0:21:18 > 0:21:21'To listen to the message again, please press 1.
0:21:21 > 0:21:24- 'To save the message, please... - PHONE KEYPAD BEEPS
0:21:24 > 0:21:26'Yeah, everyone's been really nice.
0:21:26 > 0:21:29'Usual grumpy consultant - Dr Keogh, this time.
0:21:29 > 0:21:30'Anyway...'
0:21:30 > 0:21:34Robyn, can we get vital signs, FBC, U and Es and a CK, please?
0:21:34 > 0:21:38Has anybody ever told you, you have the most exquisite bone structure?
0:21:40 > 0:21:42I'll leave you in Robyn's capable hands.
0:21:42 > 0:21:44No, I'm serious. You really should smile more.
0:21:46 > 0:21:48God, does she, like, ever smile?
0:21:48 > 0:21:51She has her moments, just few and far between.
0:21:51 > 0:21:54- Anyway, let's get you into this. - DAISY SIGHS
0:21:54 > 0:21:56Your mum and dad are on their way back from the caravan.
0:21:56 > 0:21:58You might want to get changed out of that costume
0:21:58 > 0:22:00before they get here, though.
0:22:00 > 0:22:03Guessing they've been kept in the dark about this little experiment as well?
0:22:03 > 0:22:06Actually, Dad helped me pick out the outfit. They're cool with it.
0:22:06 > 0:22:09Can you feel me squeezing your fingers there, Robert?
0:22:09 > 0:22:11How many more times? Her name's Tia.
0:22:11 > 0:22:13Only a little.
0:22:13 > 0:22:15OK, let's get some pain relief, then, please.
0:22:15 > 0:22:17We'll need a chest X-ray and some shots of the lower arm
0:22:17 > 0:22:20- and we will try and keep this elevated, OK?- OK.
0:22:26 > 0:22:29So, I got you your post.
0:22:29 > 0:22:30Thank you.
0:22:31 > 0:22:33'Hotties on Holiday'?
0:22:35 > 0:22:37- HE LAUGHS - That-that is not mine.
0:22:38 > 0:22:39Mm-hmm?
0:22:46 > 0:22:48Cal.
0:22:50 > 0:22:52How is she?
0:22:52 > 0:22:55- Er, could you give us a minute, please, Louise?- Oh, don't mind me.
0:22:55 > 0:22:56Please.
0:22:58 > 0:23:00OK, but look after him,
0:23:00 > 0:23:03cos he cried like a baby when Zoe relocated his arm.
0:23:03 > 0:23:05Kind of turned me on.
0:23:06 > 0:23:07Is that wrong?
0:23:09 > 0:23:10Yes.
0:23:13 > 0:23:15Emilie has pneumonia.
0:23:16 > 0:23:19I've asked to admit her once a bed becomes available.
0:23:20 > 0:23:22Right.
0:23:22 > 0:23:24I'd go home and rest.
0:23:24 > 0:23:26No, I'm not leaving here without her.
0:23:28 > 0:23:31Fine, then you can both go upstairs.
0:23:31 > 0:23:33Just so long as we're as far away from you as possible.
0:23:33 > 0:23:35Is that right?
0:23:35 > 0:23:38Do you have any idea what the past few weeks have been like for me?
0:23:38 > 0:23:40No idea whether I've got this condition.
0:23:40 > 0:23:43It's like a bomb waiting to go off.
0:23:43 > 0:23:45Yes, I do actually.
0:23:45 > 0:23:47It's exactly the same for me.
0:23:48 > 0:23:53Ethan, you should have called me. We could have helped each other.
0:23:53 > 0:23:56But you had no right to keep it from me in the first place.
0:23:56 > 0:24:00You know, I was trying to protect you.
0:24:03 > 0:24:05I need to get back.
0:24:05 > 0:24:07Fine, well, I'm coming with you.
0:24:21 > 0:24:22OK, I've checked on Toxbase.
0:24:22 > 0:24:24The pills that she was taking were a legal high
0:24:24 > 0:24:28that have been known to cause cardiac problems.
0:24:28 > 0:24:30So, it could well be that...
0:24:32 > 0:24:35It just doesn't change anything, Dylan. I still killed her.
0:24:36 > 0:24:38I know all about it.
0:24:38 > 0:24:40I saw it in a documentary about fetishes last week.
0:24:40 > 0:24:43- Is that right? - This isn't a fetish, Pip.
0:24:43 > 0:24:45Are you sure you're not some kind of, I don't know,
0:24:45 > 0:24:48glorified lesbian?
0:24:48 > 0:24:51Look, don't worry, you'll grow out of it.
0:24:51 > 0:24:55The trick is not to do anything too embarrassing in the meantime.
0:24:55 > 0:24:58OK, the X-ray shows that you've fractured
0:24:58 > 0:25:00both the ulna and the radius.
0:25:00 > 0:25:03The displacement, means, I'm afraid, you're going to need an operation.
0:25:03 > 0:25:05Can we get a below-the-elbow back slab?
0:25:08 > 0:25:09Still in some discomfort?
0:25:09 > 0:25:11It's really sore.
0:25:11 > 0:25:14OK, some more analgesia as well, then, please.
0:25:25 > 0:25:26Emilie?
0:25:29 > 0:25:30Hi, it's Cal.
0:25:35 > 0:25:37I'm taking over her care again.
0:25:37 > 0:25:38She's my patient.
0:25:38 > 0:25:40Well, I can make her better, Ethan.
0:25:40 > 0:25:43Right, like you've done for the past few weeks. Hmm?
0:25:43 > 0:25:45She should have been brought in days ago.
0:25:45 > 0:25:48She refused to come in. She hates hospitals.
0:25:48 > 0:25:51She said she didn't want to die here.
0:25:51 > 0:25:53OK, so that's what we're doing now, is it?
0:25:53 > 0:25:56We are letting the patients tell the doctors what treatment is best for them?
0:25:56 > 0:26:01Look, Ethan, I know you're hurting, but I had to do right by her.
0:26:01 > 0:26:02She's our mother.
0:26:02 > 0:26:04My mother died two years ago.
0:26:04 > 0:26:07EMILIE STRUGGLES FOR BREATH
0:26:07 > 0:26:10Emilie? Emilie, can you hear me?
0:26:10 > 0:26:11It's all right, I've got it.
0:26:11 > 0:26:13- If you really want to help, get out. - It's fine.
0:26:13 > 0:26:15Just go.
0:26:15 > 0:26:17Cal, please.
0:26:18 > 0:26:20EMILIE WHEEZES
0:26:32 > 0:26:33Heart rate and resps are up.
0:26:33 > 0:26:35Yeah. Her sats are worsening.
0:26:38 > 0:26:41Your ECG is normal. Looks like you got away pretty lightly
0:26:41 > 0:26:43but I'd still like to keep you in for observation.
0:26:43 > 0:26:45Can Robert and I go to the same place?
0:26:45 > 0:26:47I'm afraid it doesn't work like that.
0:26:50 > 0:26:53They're going to want our statements soon, aren't they?
0:26:53 > 0:26:56Yes, but stick to the facts and don't divert from that,
0:26:56 > 0:26:58you'll be absolutely fine.
0:26:58 > 0:27:00ROBERT YELLS IN PAIN
0:27:02 > 0:27:03What is the matter?
0:27:03 > 0:27:06It's my arm. It really hurts.
0:27:06 > 0:27:07- Do something.- Dylan?
0:27:07 > 0:27:09Yeah, shall we get this cast off?
0:27:09 > 0:27:11- He's had the morphine, hasn't he? - Yeah.
0:27:11 > 0:27:13He shouldn't be in this much pain.
0:27:21 > 0:27:22OK, that's great.
0:27:24 > 0:27:27Yeah, there is no pulse. It could be compartment syndrome.
0:27:27 > 0:27:32Erm, OK, I need to stretch out the muscles in your arm, OK, Robert?
0:27:32 > 0:27:35- ROBERT YELLS IN PAIN - Yeah, he needs a fasciotomy now.
0:27:35 > 0:27:36What does that mean?
0:27:36 > 0:27:39Compartment syndrome - it's a very serious inflammation
0:27:39 > 0:27:42of the muscles in the forearm. It is potentially limb threatening.
0:27:42 > 0:27:44Now, Robert, I am going to need to make an incision down your forearm
0:27:44 > 0:27:47- to relieve the pressure. - I'll call orthos now.
0:27:47 > 0:27:49Er, no. There's no time. Let's get him into HDC
0:27:49 > 0:27:50Can we have some help here, please?
0:27:50 > 0:27:52I'm afraid you are going to need to stay here.
0:27:52 > 0:27:55Her parents aren't here yet. She needs me.
0:27:55 > 0:27:56Do you want your friend to come?
0:27:56 > 0:27:58Can she?
0:27:58 > 0:28:01- Yeah, I warn you, it is going to be gruesome.- Fine.
0:28:03 > 0:28:04This way.
0:28:18 > 0:28:21Well?
0:28:21 > 0:28:25We've stabilised her - for now - but it doesn't look good, Cal.
0:28:27 > 0:28:29I'm sorry.
0:28:33 > 0:28:36I'm not going to give up on her.
0:28:36 > 0:28:38There's nothing more we can do.
0:28:38 > 0:28:40Then I'll take her somewhere else.
0:28:43 > 0:28:46This is all because of Mum, isn't it?
0:28:46 > 0:28:48You were never there and now you're trying to make up for that.
0:28:48 > 0:28:50What? No!
0:28:51 > 0:28:54But even if it was,
0:28:54 > 0:28:57it's better that than giving up on someone
0:28:57 > 0:28:59just to make your own life easier.
0:28:59 > 0:29:00What?
0:29:00 > 0:29:02Yeah, it'll be like she never even existed.
0:29:02 > 0:29:04That's what you want, isn't it?
0:29:04 > 0:29:06How can you say that?
0:29:08 > 0:29:11What are you two playing at?
0:29:11 > 0:29:14There's a sick patient in there, in need of medical attention.
0:29:14 > 0:29:16You two are standing out here, bickering.
0:29:16 > 0:29:18I'm sorry, Charlie.
0:29:18 > 0:29:20Yeah, me too.
0:29:22 > 0:29:24Ethan,
0:29:24 > 0:29:25Emilie's your mum.
0:29:25 > 0:29:27The longer you go on denying that,
0:29:27 > 0:29:29the harder you're going to find this.
0:29:31 > 0:29:33Right.
0:29:34 > 0:29:37OK, Robert, I'm going to make the incision now.
0:29:37 > 0:29:39It's going to feel uncomfortable for a little while
0:29:39 > 0:29:41but you'll feel better in the long run, OK?
0:29:45 > 0:29:48Do you remember the last time we were in hospital together?
0:29:48 > 0:29:54Year 9 - Tia decided to neck two litres of cider in a graveyard.
0:29:54 > 0:29:56It was her Goth phase.
0:29:56 > 0:29:58You said that it was apple juice.
0:29:58 > 0:30:02Oh, my God, your mum went crazy when I told her.
0:30:02 > 0:30:05She found us in the cemetery,
0:30:05 > 0:30:08Tia, propped up against the side of some headstone.
0:30:08 > 0:30:10Guess that's why she lost it.
0:30:10 > 0:30:12You're doing very well, Robert.
0:30:12 > 0:30:17You had to have your stomach pumped. Your mum was in bits.
0:30:17 > 0:30:20Stayed with you all night though, didn't I, Tia?
0:30:20 > 0:30:21That's what best friends do.
0:30:23 > 0:30:27I have spoken to the union and fully apprised them of the situation.
0:30:27 > 0:30:32I've also suggested that Lofty speak to the RCN as soon as possible.
0:30:32 > 0:30:34And when can I speak to the nurse in question?
0:30:34 > 0:30:37I thought I made that clear. He's mid-shift.
0:30:39 > 0:30:40That's what I was afraid of.
0:30:40 > 0:30:43I don't like what you're insinuating, Mr Hall.
0:30:43 > 0:30:44I've spent long enough down here.
0:30:44 > 0:30:47The sooner Mrs Stuart can see that this hospital is doing everything
0:30:47 > 0:30:51it can, the sooner she'll believe that we're are all on the same side.
0:30:51 > 0:30:54We are all on the same side.
0:30:54 > 0:30:57Then it shouldn't be a problem for me to speak to Nurse Chiltern
0:30:57 > 0:30:58and Dr Keogh.
0:30:58 > 0:31:01The conference room on the first floor should be fine.
0:31:22 > 0:31:24Not much to look at, is it?
0:31:25 > 0:31:27No.
0:31:29 > 0:31:31I wish I had a penny for every time I've sat here
0:31:31 > 0:31:35staring at that blank grey wall, hoping for answers.
0:31:35 > 0:31:37But it doesn't say much, does it?
0:31:41 > 0:31:42How is she?
0:31:43 > 0:31:44She's stable.
0:31:47 > 0:31:48How's Cal?
0:31:49 > 0:31:51He's still with her.
0:31:53 > 0:31:55You know...
0:31:56 > 0:32:00..our biological mother is dying and it's Cal I'm more worried about.
0:32:02 > 0:32:03Can you believe that?
0:32:05 > 0:32:06Have you told him that?
0:32:08 > 0:32:09No.
0:32:10 > 0:32:11Then maybe you should.
0:32:15 > 0:32:18At the very least, it would mean you could stop staring
0:32:18 > 0:32:19at that blank, grey wall.
0:32:24 > 0:32:26Actually, I'd better get back in.
0:32:27 > 0:32:29Thank you.
0:32:30 > 0:32:31You're welcome.
0:32:33 > 0:32:35Bye-bye, wall.
0:32:46 > 0:32:48Yeah, OK, that should do it.
0:32:48 > 0:32:49Let's leave the saline dressing on
0:32:49 > 0:32:52- and can we get a vacuum splint as well, please?- Sure.
0:32:52 > 0:32:55- You're not just going to leave her like that, are you?- Yes.
0:32:55 > 0:32:58Don't worry, you're in very capable hands.
0:33:01 > 0:33:04What has she done to you now?
0:33:04 > 0:33:06Actually, I've been thinking...
0:33:08 > 0:33:11I've been Tia all my life - all my memories are hers.
0:33:11 > 0:33:14I can't just change that.
0:33:14 > 0:33:15What are you saying?
0:33:15 > 0:33:17That maybe I should go back.
0:33:18 > 0:33:21Maybe none of this was such a good idea after all.
0:33:23 > 0:33:24I'll call you.
0:33:26 > 0:33:27Course.
0:33:27 > 0:33:31Let's get you upstairs, shall we?
0:33:31 > 0:33:32Robyn, do you mind if I come with Daisy, too?
0:33:32 > 0:33:35- I could do with a break.- Yeah, sure.
0:33:35 > 0:33:36I'll see you in a bit.
0:33:50 > 0:33:53Could I get a couple of minutes, please?
0:33:54 > 0:33:56Yeah, I'll be just outside.
0:34:04 > 0:34:07You should try and get some rest.
0:34:07 > 0:34:08I'm fine, Ethan.
0:34:13 > 0:34:17Look, I was thinking about what you said.
0:34:17 > 0:34:19About how she didn't want to die in a hospital.
0:34:21 > 0:34:25So, if you like, I could ring around the local hospices...
0:34:26 > 0:34:30..see if I can get her a place somewhere nice.
0:34:30 > 0:34:35- Really?- You said it yourself - she hates hospitals.
0:34:36 > 0:34:37Yeah.
0:34:41 > 0:34:43OK, well, I will get on with that straightaway
0:34:43 > 0:34:45and I'll tell Mrs Beauchamp that
0:34:45 > 0:34:47we're both going to need some time off.
0:34:50 > 0:34:54I mean, somebody's got to make sure you don't mess it up, haven't they?
0:35:00 > 0:35:01Thank you.
0:35:01 > 0:35:03That's what brothers are for.
0:35:08 > 0:35:10Pride -
0:35:10 > 0:35:12it's like gay Christmas.
0:35:12 > 0:35:14I'll bear that in mind.
0:35:14 > 0:35:16In the meantime,
0:35:16 > 0:35:17here is where I leave you.
0:35:19 > 0:35:21Wait.
0:35:21 > 0:35:22What now?
0:35:22 > 0:35:25I, erm, just want to be sure we understand each other.
0:35:25 > 0:35:27You don't get in touch with Tia again,
0:35:27 > 0:35:28not even if she contacts you first.
0:35:28 > 0:35:30You'll kill him if you do this.
0:35:30 > 0:35:32He'll have lived and died in the wrong body.
0:35:32 > 0:35:35How can I kill somebody who doesn't exist?
0:35:35 > 0:35:38- Well, that is just it. Tia - she's the lie.- Yeah?
0:35:38 > 0:35:42Well, she's my best friend and I'm not giving up on her.
0:35:44 > 0:35:46Daisy?
0:35:46 > 0:35:47Dr Chao?
0:35:48 > 0:35:51- What's happened?- I don't know.
0:35:51 > 0:35:54Let's get her into resus. You stay here, please.
0:35:54 > 0:35:57- Have you called her parents? - She doesn't have any family.
0:36:01 > 0:36:05Dr Keogh, Mr Hall would like to take a statement from you and Lofty.
0:36:05 > 0:36:07- Can I have a minute?- Dr Keogh?
0:36:08 > 0:36:10She mentioned you.
0:36:11 > 0:36:13Were you one of the ones with her in the lift?
0:36:13 > 0:36:14When she died?
0:36:15 > 0:36:18Mrs Stuart, I-I... I'm so sorry for your loss.
0:36:18 > 0:36:21No, everybody's sorry.
0:36:21 > 0:36:22Was she scared?
0:36:24 > 0:36:25Was she in pain?
0:36:25 > 0:36:26We are trying to find out...
0:36:26 > 0:36:28So that's it, is it? Back to business as usual?
0:36:28 > 0:36:32- No, nobody is saying that.- No, but you're not listening to me, are you?
0:36:32 > 0:36:35Nobody will tell me what happened.
0:36:35 > 0:36:36Is it..?
0:36:37 > 0:36:38Was it her fault?
0:36:40 > 0:36:44Mrs Stuart, I was there when it happened. Erm...
0:36:44 > 0:36:47I hope that it might give you some consolation to know
0:36:47 > 0:36:49that your daughter was instrumental in reviving a patient
0:36:49 > 0:36:51that we were trying to save.
0:36:51 > 0:36:54Erm, what happened to her was a tragic accident.
0:36:54 > 0:36:55Nobody could have foreseen it.
0:36:55 > 0:36:59Would you like us to take you to the Patient Affairs office?
0:37:01 > 0:37:02I just need a minute.
0:37:07 > 0:37:08Are you OK?
0:37:09 > 0:37:11Yeah, fine. Where's Ben?
0:37:11 > 0:37:12I don't know.
0:37:14 > 0:37:17- I thought her ECG was normal. She is in VT.- It was.
0:37:17 > 0:37:20Daisy? The electric shock you received has caused your heart to
0:37:20 > 0:37:21start beating very fast,
0:37:21 > 0:37:23but we're going to fix that for you, OK?
0:37:23 > 0:37:26Charging to 120.
0:37:26 > 0:37:27Clear.
0:37:27 > 0:37:29I can't do this!
0:37:29 > 0:37:30Lofty!
0:37:31 > 0:37:33Louise, come and help me, please.
0:37:34 > 0:37:36Charging to 120.
0:37:36 > 0:37:37Clear.
0:37:39 > 0:37:41Nothing. Still in VT.
0:37:41 > 0:37:42Charging to 150.
0:37:42 > 0:37:43Clear.
0:37:58 > 0:37:59She had a little girl, Max.
0:37:59 > 0:38:01- I know, I know. - What am I going to do?
0:38:01 > 0:38:03It's all right, I've got you.
0:38:03 > 0:38:04I've got you.
0:38:14 > 0:38:15Where have you been?
0:38:15 > 0:38:19Just checking that your mum was still coming.
0:38:19 > 0:38:20They'll be here soon.
0:38:20 > 0:38:22How are you feeling?
0:38:24 > 0:38:26Robert.
0:38:26 > 0:38:28Daisy suffered a heart complication from the shock.
0:38:28 > 0:38:29What?
0:38:31 > 0:38:34She's OK, but when she came round, she was asking for you.
0:38:34 > 0:38:37If he's talking, I'm sure he'll be fine. Seemed OK to me.
0:38:39 > 0:38:40You knew?
0:38:40 > 0:38:42Hopefully, she'll make a full recovery.
0:38:46 > 0:38:47Hey, do you remember when we...
0:38:47 > 0:38:50You do realise that all your stories make me out to look bad
0:38:50 > 0:38:53and you out to be the hero, don't you?
0:38:53 > 0:38:54No, they don't.
0:38:54 > 0:38:57That's why you don't like me coming out as Robert -
0:38:57 > 0:39:00because you don't know how to control him, do you?
0:39:00 > 0:39:02Just like you don't know how to control Daisy.
0:39:02 > 0:39:05Do you honestly think I'm threatened by that freak?
0:39:05 > 0:39:07Yeah, I do.
0:39:07 > 0:39:09I think you're threatened by all of this
0:39:09 > 0:39:12and it's taken me becoming a man to stand up for myself
0:39:12 > 0:39:14and tell you that.
0:39:14 > 0:39:16I thought I'd lost my best friend.
0:39:16 > 0:39:18Do you know what you've put me through today?
0:39:18 > 0:39:20This isn't about you!
0:39:23 > 0:39:25I've...
0:39:25 > 0:39:27I've been so scared, Pippa.
0:39:27 > 0:39:29So scared.
0:39:30 > 0:39:34Do you have any idea what it's like being born in the wrong body?
0:39:34 > 0:39:36Not knowing who you are?
0:39:38 > 0:39:40I just didn't want to lose you.
0:39:40 > 0:39:43Telling my parents, doctors' appointments...
0:39:46 > 0:39:50The only person I wasn't scared about telling was you.
0:39:52 > 0:39:56So, what, you just want to keep pretending to be a boy?
0:39:58 > 0:40:03The only pretending I ever did was being Tia.
0:40:03 > 0:40:04My name is Robert.
0:40:04 > 0:40:07Robert Andrew Calvert.
0:40:07 > 0:40:09And I'm a guy.
0:40:09 > 0:40:11A man, Pip.
0:40:11 > 0:40:13A lad, a bloke.
0:40:14 > 0:40:18I finally have the chance to be happy,
0:40:18 > 0:40:21because Tia...
0:40:22 > 0:40:24Tia wasn't happy.
0:40:24 > 0:40:26She hadn't been happy for years.
0:40:30 > 0:40:31So...
0:40:33 > 0:40:35..if you don't like that, you can go.
0:40:49 > 0:40:52Anyway, whatever it is, I'm here for you.
0:40:52 > 0:40:54Thanks, mate.
0:40:58 > 0:41:00Could you hold the lift, please?
0:41:02 > 0:41:03Thanks.
0:41:05 > 0:41:06Which floor?
0:41:06 > 0:41:09Oh, erm...
0:41:09 > 0:41:11Patient Relations office, I think it is.
0:41:20 > 0:41:21Are you OK?
0:41:23 > 0:41:25Tried to be so strong.
0:41:27 > 0:41:29My daughter died here today.
0:41:31 > 0:41:34She was a nurse here. Agency.
0:41:35 > 0:41:37It was her first shift.
0:41:37 > 0:41:39Her name's Diane.
0:41:42 > 0:41:44I only spoke to her a few hours ago.
0:41:45 > 0:41:48She was saying how nice her boss was.
0:41:48 > 0:41:51She was hoping for a few more shifts here.
0:41:51 > 0:41:55I've been trying to find the people she was with.
0:41:55 > 0:41:57I wanted to know where she was,
0:41:57 > 0:41:58what she heard,
0:41:58 > 0:41:59what she saw.
0:42:01 > 0:42:03None of it matters though, does it?
0:42:06 > 0:42:09She's not coming back, is she?
0:42:09 > 0:42:10SHE SOBS
0:42:14 > 0:42:16What am I going to tell her daughter?
0:42:23 > 0:42:24Is that your floor?
0:42:26 > 0:42:28I'm really sorry for your loss.
0:42:29 > 0:42:30I should go.
0:42:31 > 0:42:33I can't do any more here, can I?
0:42:35 > 0:42:36Thank you.
0:42:53 > 0:42:55Ben, I need a word with you before you go in.
0:42:55 > 0:42:57I just met Diane's mum.
0:42:57 > 0:42:59- Oh?- She was so brave.
0:43:00 > 0:43:01I know what I have to say.
0:43:01 > 0:43:04Yeah, I know you do.
0:43:04 > 0:43:06I should never have stuck my oar in.
0:43:06 > 0:43:07But what you said earlier...
0:43:07 > 0:43:10I was... I was trying to protect you, but...
0:43:11 > 0:43:13..if it hadn't have been for me,
0:43:13 > 0:43:15you would never have been in that position in the first place.
0:43:15 > 0:43:17You would never have accepted the promotion,
0:43:17 > 0:43:20you would never have worked yourself into the ground like you did.
0:43:20 > 0:43:24You didn't force me into anything, Dylan. We are both grown men.
0:43:24 > 0:43:26We are not the same, though, are we?
0:43:26 > 0:43:29And I know that you would never have been comfortable going in there
0:43:29 > 0:43:33and telling them anything less than the full truth as you saw it.
0:43:33 > 0:43:35That makes you a better man then me.
0:43:37 > 0:43:39Go on, they're waiting for you.
0:43:48 > 0:43:51Well, look what even the cat didn't fancy dragging in.
0:43:55 > 0:43:59I, erm, just wanted to say
0:43:59 > 0:44:00I'm sorry
0:44:00 > 0:44:01for the way I treated you.
0:44:01 > 0:44:04Pippa, Robert told you he was trans.
0:44:04 > 0:44:07It is hard enough without losing your best friend as well.
0:44:07 > 0:44:08She will always be my best friend.
0:44:08 > 0:44:10You should try telling HIM that.
0:44:19 > 0:44:20So...
0:44:22 > 0:44:26Nurse Chiltern, having gone over your clinical incident form,
0:44:26 > 0:44:28can you now talk us through what happened
0:44:28 > 0:44:31when Dr Keogh said he wanted you to shock the patient?
0:44:35 > 0:44:37Ben?
0:44:38 > 0:44:39I don't know.
0:44:40 > 0:44:42- I'm sorry?- Lofty?
0:44:42 > 0:44:44It all happened so quickly - I didn't have time to think.
0:44:44 > 0:44:45What are you saying?
0:44:45 > 0:44:47I'm saying that I didn't have time to check
0:44:47 > 0:44:49before I gave the order to clear.
0:44:49 > 0:44:52- But on your form, you said...- I was still piecing everything together.
0:44:52 > 0:44:56Dr Keogh was convinced the procedure was followed to the letter.
0:44:56 > 0:45:00As I said, it all happened so quickly, he was mistaken.
0:45:00 > 0:45:04Do you have any idea how much your actions will cost the Trust?
0:45:04 > 0:45:06Not to mention the adverse publicity for the hospital?
0:45:06 > 0:45:08Have you even heard a word I said?
0:45:08 > 0:45:11A woman's lost her life and all you care about is your hospital budget?
0:45:11 > 0:45:14How could you have been so stupid?
0:45:14 > 0:45:17Stop this line of questioning immediately.
0:45:17 > 0:45:19I will not have you bullying my staff
0:45:19 > 0:45:22and if you continue, I will terminate this meeting now.
0:45:22 > 0:45:24I made a mistake, Rita.
0:45:24 > 0:45:26One that I'll never forgive myself for.
0:45:26 > 0:45:29Ben, what you have just said raises serious concerns.
0:45:31 > 0:45:35This matter will continue on to a formal investigation.
0:45:35 > 0:45:36I understand.
0:45:37 > 0:45:38You can go.
0:45:51 > 0:45:54Beer and banter, I can do, but I draw the line at a kebab.
0:45:54 > 0:45:57- What?- I thought we could go down back to the Pride event,
0:45:57 > 0:45:59if it's still going.
0:45:59 > 0:46:02Yeah, all right. Tell you what, I'll see if I can round up some troops.
0:46:02 > 0:46:05But if you think I'm playing bingo, think again.
0:46:14 > 0:46:15You can go in there, you know.
0:46:33 > 0:46:34What do you want?
0:46:36 > 0:46:37Hi...
0:46:44 > 0:46:45..Rob.
0:46:52 > 0:46:54It's all right. You rest now.
0:47:12 > 0:47:14Those lads have come out of this really well.
0:47:14 > 0:47:16I hope you're proud of them.
0:47:16 > 0:47:18I am.
0:47:18 > 0:47:20But if you tell anyone,
0:47:20 > 0:47:22I'll deny all knowledge of it.
0:47:22 > 0:47:25CONNIE'S PHONE RINGS
0:47:26 > 0:47:27Henrick?
0:47:28 > 0:47:30Staff Nurse Chiltern's done what?