Do Not Stand at My Grave and Weep

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0:00:02 > 0:00:03- I can't feel a pulse. - Oh, no, no, no, no, no.

0:00:03 > 0:00:07He was unconscious when I found him. He wasn't in any pain.

0:00:07 > 0:00:10You're not coming back to work already, are you?

0:00:10 > 0:00:12I'm a bit worried she's pushing it a bit too much.

0:00:12 > 0:00:14Are you not as unreconstructed as you look?

0:00:14 > 0:00:15What?

0:00:15 > 0:00:17Scott Ellisson's been released.

0:00:17 > 0:00:21Police don't have anything on me. I'm in the clear.

0:00:21 > 0:00:24Yeah... Let's hope they catch whoever did it.

0:00:33 > 0:00:36Where are you? Where are you?

0:00:36 > 0:00:37Can you hear me?

0:00:37 > 0:00:39Where are you?!

0:00:41 > 0:00:43CRIES

0:00:49 > 0:00:51Cal?

0:01:32 > 0:01:34Hi.

0:01:34 > 0:01:35Hi.

0:01:35 > 0:01:37How long have you been up?

0:01:37 > 0:01:39A while.

0:01:40 > 0:01:43- You OK?- Yeah.

0:01:44 > 0:01:47What's that?

0:01:47 > 0:01:51Ah, that is...something I've got to do.

0:01:51 > 0:01:53BEEPING

0:01:58 > 0:01:59Oh, wow!

0:01:59 > 0:02:02The Hope and Anchor are going to lay everything on for free tonight.

0:02:02 > 0:02:04RINGING Great.

0:02:06 > 0:02:08Hello?

0:02:08 > 0:02:10Yes, it is.

0:02:16 > 0:02:18Oh, right.

0:02:18 > 0:02:20Yes - yes, I would like to do that, yeah.

0:02:21 > 0:02:22OK, thank you.

0:02:27 > 0:02:29That was the Patient Affairs office.

0:02:29 > 0:02:31They've got some of Cal's valuables.

0:02:31 > 0:02:35OK, well, I'm going into work. I could pick them up on the way.

0:02:35 > 0:02:36No, no, I'd like to do it.

0:02:38 > 0:02:40It's going to be an amazing send-off.

0:02:56 > 0:03:00Take that off. Makes you look like you're going to deck someone.

0:03:00 > 0:03:01Get off. Got an 'eadache.

0:03:03 > 0:03:04What? Don't you believe me?!

0:03:04 > 0:03:07C'mon, son. This'll be good for you!

0:03:07 > 0:03:11Going to France with a bunch of losers who can't stand me when I don't even speak a word of French?

0:03:11 > 0:03:13Well, how else are you going to learn?

0:03:13 > 0:03:15Well, it did you a lot of good, didn't it?

0:03:15 > 0:03:18Sean, you need to start making an effort.

0:03:18 > 0:03:20We have to start getting back to normal.

0:03:20 > 0:03:22What - you think this is normal?

0:03:22 > 0:03:24Whatever. What's the point? Just go.

0:03:24 > 0:03:27Hey! Don't forget these. Take all three...

0:03:27 > 0:03:29With food. Yeah. I know.

0:03:29 > 0:03:31Here.

0:03:31 > 0:03:33A tenner?! Wow(!)

0:03:33 > 0:03:35Try and stay out of trouble, yeah?

0:03:35 > 0:03:39And don't feel pressurised to eat the food in France, OK?

0:03:39 > 0:03:42I put a whole week's worth of gluten-free bread in there.

0:03:42 > 0:03:43Yeah, all right, Mum.

0:03:43 > 0:03:45Oh, come here, baby girl.

0:03:45 > 0:03:48You're going to have such a great time, eh?

0:03:48 > 0:03:50There we are. Party on!

0:03:50 > 0:03:52Yeah.

0:03:52 > 0:03:53What is she wearing?!

0:03:53 > 0:03:55Love you!

0:03:55 > 0:03:57THEY LAUGH

0:04:00 > 0:04:03"..Unprecedented outpouring of grief as police hunt for new leads."

0:04:03 > 0:04:04New leads?!

0:04:04 > 0:04:06Come on, man - how much evidence do they need?

0:04:06 > 0:04:08Everyone knows who did it.

0:04:09 > 0:04:12Oh, my - is that from your stag?

0:04:12 > 0:04:15Yeah. That's just before the tattoo incident.

0:04:16 > 0:04:18That was priceless.

0:04:18 > 0:04:20All right, don't set her off.

0:04:20 > 0:04:22Oh, wow - that's lovely - who did that?

0:04:22 > 0:04:25Oh, Max and I thought we'd put something together for the church.

0:04:25 > 0:04:27Sorry.

0:04:27 > 0:04:29I can't look at these any more.

0:04:32 > 0:04:35Looks like there'll be a huge turnout for the service.

0:04:35 > 0:04:38Yes, seems nobody wants to miss the opportunity of gegging in on a good funeral.

0:04:39 > 0:04:43Dylan, I know with Connie not being back this place is a bit of a mess,

0:04:43 > 0:04:45- but if you...- "Bit of a mess"? Nah.

0:04:45 > 0:04:48Understaffed, demoralised, jobs hanging in the balance.

0:04:48 > 0:04:50Living the dream, aren't we?

0:04:50 > 0:04:51All hail Strachan.

0:04:51 > 0:04:55Louise, I asked for a repeat obs on this patient half an hour ago, yeah?

0:04:56 > 0:04:57All right!

0:04:57 > 0:04:59I know, I know - I'll speak to him.

0:05:00 > 0:05:02Still can't believe it.

0:05:02 > 0:05:04I keep expecting him to walk through that door.

0:05:04 > 0:05:06Late as usual.

0:05:06 > 0:05:07Massive hangover.

0:05:07 > 0:05:11Yeah, and shouting - "April Fool - I'm not dead after all!"

0:05:11 > 0:05:12David.

0:05:18 > 0:05:20Well, I know who would love this moment.

0:05:22 > 0:05:24I'll see you later.

0:05:24 > 0:05:25- All right?- OK.

0:05:27 > 0:05:29EXCITED CHATTER

0:05:29 > 0:05:32Come on, guys, sit down.

0:05:32 > 0:05:33Seat belt.

0:05:33 > 0:05:35Buckle up.

0:05:55 > 0:05:58Is he joking?

0:05:59 > 0:06:01Bye.

0:06:01 > 0:06:02Good news, is it?

0:06:02 > 0:06:04I can never quite tell by looking at you.

0:06:04 > 0:06:06I passed my fellowship exam.

0:06:06 > 0:06:09What? Lily, that is brilliant!

0:06:09 > 0:06:11I knew you would, you clever clogs.

0:06:14 > 0:06:15Poor bloke.

0:06:16 > 0:06:19I bet he can't wait to get today out of the way.

0:06:19 > 0:06:20And here's me celebrating.

0:06:21 > 0:06:24Don't be daft. He'd be made up for you.

0:06:24 > 0:06:26So, anyway, does this mean you'll lay off for a while?

0:06:26 > 0:06:28Take it easy on yourself?

0:06:29 > 0:06:31There's more to life than just work, you know.

0:06:40 > 0:06:41ALL SHOUT

0:06:45 > 0:06:47Sit down!

0:06:52 > 0:06:55Can I have those back, please?

0:06:55 > 0:06:56Sit down!

0:06:56 > 0:06:58ALL CHATTER

0:06:58 > 0:06:59Sit down!

0:07:00 > 0:07:03Oh!

0:07:04 > 0:07:06That's disgusting.

0:07:08 > 0:07:10LAUGHTER

0:07:41 > 0:07:42Hi.

0:07:42 > 0:07:43Hey.

0:07:51 > 0:07:52"At peace now."

0:07:56 > 0:07:58He was stabbed - he was murdered.

0:07:58 > 0:08:00Don't do this to yourself.

0:08:00 > 0:08:05He was...bleeding...right here and the man that killed him is out there, free.

0:08:05 > 0:08:06Right, you need to stop this.

0:08:10 > 0:08:12Let's just get through today.

0:08:14 > 0:08:16OK, one foot in front of the other.

0:08:16 > 0:08:18BEEPING

0:08:21 > 0:08:23Oh!

0:08:24 > 0:08:26It's fine. You go.

0:08:30 > 0:08:32I'm OK.

0:08:35 > 0:08:38CHATTER

0:08:41 > 0:08:43Pass me the phone.

0:08:43 > 0:08:44Sit down!

0:08:44 > 0:08:46Sit down now!

0:08:46 > 0:08:48HORN HOOTS

0:08:48 > 0:08:50Argh!

0:08:54 > 0:08:55No, no, no - you listen to me.

0:08:55 > 0:08:58This patient's been waiting for a bed for three hours, yeah?

0:08:58 > 0:09:04Well, either you clear your bed or I will come up there and I'll clear it for you. OK.

0:09:05 > 0:09:07- I need to talk to you. - No, you don't.

0:09:07 > 0:09:10What right have I got to be here?

0:09:10 > 0:09:13Really, David, I'm not in the mood for an existential crisis.

0:09:13 > 0:09:16A young, vibrant medic has just lost his life

0:09:16 > 0:09:21and I'm...living mine with no...no...no passion.

0:09:21 > 0:09:24OK, well, you know, join the queue.

0:09:24 > 0:09:25Look, I'm serious.

0:09:25 > 0:09:31The only time I ever feel anything is when I'm off my meds -

0:09:31 > 0:09:34yes, and I can't do that.

0:09:34 > 0:09:37The last time I looked I wasn't a psychiatrist.

0:09:37 > 0:09:40Oh, yeah, for all the good he does.

0:09:40 > 0:09:43He just sits there prescribing more and more medication.

0:09:43 > 0:09:47No, no, I need something else.

0:09:49 > 0:09:52"There is one thing that one must have -

0:09:52 > 0:09:56"either a soul that is cheerful by nature..." - that's me, obviously -

0:09:56 > 0:10:00"..or a soul made cheerful by work, love, art and knowledge."

0:10:00 > 0:10:03Nietsche. He seems to have something to say about most things.

0:10:04 > 0:10:06Major RTC coming in.

0:10:06 > 0:10:08What did I say? Living the dream.

0:10:11 > 0:10:13- I've been meaning to say.- Yeah?

0:10:13 > 0:10:16I know you're struggling. We all are...

0:10:16 > 0:10:18"Struggling?" What do you mean by that?

0:10:18 > 0:10:21Well, despite your best efforts I don't think you're nearly

0:10:21 > 0:10:24as thick-skinned as you'd have us all believe.

0:10:24 > 0:10:27OK, well, perhaps if you spare me the pep talk for this morning.

0:10:27 > 0:10:28Good morning.

0:10:28 > 0:10:30Is it?

0:10:30 > 0:10:34Charlie, have you been able to identify any patients that we can potentially shift immediately?

0:10:34 > 0:10:35Not just yet.

0:10:35 > 0:10:38Well, I think we should. Don't you?

0:10:38 > 0:10:41- Just in case.- You're going to conjure a clinician out of thin air, are you?

0:10:41 > 0:10:44No, Dr Keogh, I have absolute faith in everyone.

0:10:54 > 0:10:55What's happened?

0:10:55 > 0:10:56Er... Coach crash.

0:10:56 > 0:10:59Right. I'll give you a hand.

0:11:01 > 0:11:03I know. One foot in front of the other, right?

0:11:03 > 0:11:06Just trying to get through today.

0:11:06 > 0:11:07Iain.

0:11:09 > 0:11:11OK, this is Sean McKern, 14 years old,

0:11:11 > 0:11:13was involved in a coach RTC,

0:11:13 > 0:11:16on which he hit his head on the back of his seat.

0:11:16 > 0:11:17Paeds Resus.

0:11:17 > 0:11:20No loss of consciousness, no C-spine tenderness at the scene,

0:11:20 > 0:11:24he has got an injury to his lower right leg, query fracture tib/fib.

0:11:24 > 0:11:27Given him Entonox en route with good effect.

0:11:27 > 0:11:32Pulse 80. BP 100 over 60. Resps 16.

0:11:32 > 0:11:34Police are trying to contact his dad.

0:11:34 > 0:11:37Right, Sean, when you're ready, mate.

0:11:37 > 0:11:39Nice and gentle, can you wiggle yourself across?

0:11:40 > 0:11:43- That's it, nice and easy - well done.- Good lad.

0:11:43 > 0:11:47Hi, Sean, I'm Dr Hardy. Let's get a line in and get some bloods, please.

0:11:47 > 0:11:51Apparently, he got into a fight on the coach which caused the crash.

0:11:51 > 0:11:54Right, let's just ease off your hoody, shall we?

0:11:54 > 0:11:56It's good bilateral air entry.

0:11:56 > 0:11:58I'm just going to have a feel of your neck.

0:11:58 > 0:12:00Does it hurt anywhere else apart from the leg?

0:12:00 > 0:12:05We're just going to pop on some monitoring now and then we'll keep on trying to contact your dad.

0:12:05 > 0:12:07Good luck.

0:12:08 > 0:12:10Anyone else we can call? Your mum?

0:12:10 > 0:12:13You're welcome to try. She's dead.

0:12:15 > 0:12:17I'm sorry.

0:12:17 > 0:12:18So am I.

0:12:19 > 0:12:21So is everyone else.

0:12:22 > 0:12:24OK, you can rest back now.

0:12:28 > 0:12:33Any pre-existing conditions, any allergies we should know about?

0:12:33 > 0:12:36Dunno. Throat infections.

0:12:36 > 0:12:38Throat infections?

0:12:38 > 0:12:40Been having blood tests for them.

0:12:40 > 0:12:41OK, and that was here?

0:12:41 > 0:12:44Macclesfield - we just moved.

0:12:44 > 0:12:46Right. Any medication?

0:12:46 > 0:12:49Nah. Just...vitamins.

0:12:49 > 0:12:50Sorry, vitamins?

0:12:50 > 0:12:52In my bag.

0:13:02 > 0:13:05Do you know what these are?

0:13:05 > 0:13:08Ask my dad - he makes me take them.

0:13:09 > 0:13:10OK.

0:13:13 > 0:13:16They don't look like vitamins to me.

0:13:16 > 0:13:17Shall I call Toxbase?

0:13:17 > 0:13:20I'll do it.

0:13:20 > 0:13:24Could you get 5 milligrams of morphine, please, and let's get

0:13:24 > 0:13:28the tib and fib X-rayed and pop a Vac splint on.

0:13:32 > 0:13:39Sky Loates, age 14, involved in the coach RTC 40 minutes ago.

0:13:39 > 0:13:42Tender distal radius query fracture, various abrasions.

0:13:42 > 0:13:44Neck cleared on the scene.

0:13:44 > 0:13:49Pulse 80, resps 22, BP 115/70 sats 99%.

0:13:49 > 0:13:51She had some gas and air en route.

0:13:51 > 0:13:52Ah, yes.

0:13:52 > 0:13:55Apparently, the vomiting started before the crash.

0:13:55 > 0:13:57Right. Hello.

0:13:58 > 0:14:01I had a kebab yesterday.

0:14:01 > 0:14:02That's nice.

0:14:03 > 0:14:06OK. Pupils are equal and reacting.

0:14:06 > 0:14:08Please don't tell my mum. She'll kill me.

0:14:08 > 0:14:11She feels very strongly about processed meat.

0:14:11 > 0:14:12Well, good for her.

0:14:12 > 0:14:15I'd like to have a look at your tummy now if that's OK.

0:14:15 > 0:14:16Thanks, David.

0:14:16 > 0:14:21Is there anything else she feels strongly about?

0:14:21 > 0:14:22Yeah.

0:14:22 > 0:14:27Sugar, dairy, TV. Smartphones.

0:14:27 > 0:14:28Rock on.

0:14:28 > 0:14:30So, clearly she doesn't believe that

0:14:30 > 0:14:32what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

0:14:32 > 0:14:34Who said that?

0:14:34 > 0:14:35Nietsche.

0:14:35 > 0:14:37Indeed.

0:14:37 > 0:14:40OK, I'd like to have a look at that wrist now, so could you...

0:14:40 > 0:14:42Sorry.

0:14:42 > 0:14:44..pull the bed up for me.

0:14:48 > 0:14:49Ow.

0:14:49 > 0:14:54But, he also said woman was God's second mistake, so, you know...

0:14:54 > 0:14:59Mm. Hm, OK, let's get the wrist X-rayed, please.

0:14:59 > 0:15:02Can we have 50mgs of Cyclizine, a gram of paracetamol IV

0:15:02 > 0:15:05and let's hook up a litre of saline as well.

0:15:05 > 0:15:08Have you had paracetamol before?

0:15:08 > 0:15:10Er... We use arnica at home.

0:15:12 > 0:15:16OK, well, when you're here, I'm the boss, all right? So, enjoy.

0:15:51 > 0:15:53Honestly, this looks amazing.

0:15:53 > 0:15:55What would I do without you two, eh?

0:15:55 > 0:15:58It's fine. Anything you need, just let us know.

0:16:01 > 0:16:02Hi!

0:16:05 > 0:16:07- Ethan.- Yeah?

0:16:07 > 0:16:10Just about the order of service.

0:16:10 > 0:16:12That looks perfect, thank you.

0:16:12 > 0:16:14Oh, hi, it's Dr Hardy from the ED.

0:16:14 > 0:16:18Yeah, I'm just hoping you can help me identify some pills.

0:16:18 > 0:16:21Right, I'll see you later.

0:16:21 > 0:16:22The dosage is three a day?

0:16:25 > 0:16:28Yeah, I can get them sent up. All right, thank you.

0:16:29 > 0:16:32Cutting it fine, aren't you? Have you seen the time?

0:16:32 > 0:16:34Yeah. It's fine, honestly.

0:16:34 > 0:16:37Sean McKern's just come back from X-ray.

0:16:46 > 0:16:48Get off! It's not funny!

0:16:48 > 0:16:50Oi, oi, oi. You heard her. Get out.

0:16:53 > 0:16:55You all right?

0:16:58 > 0:17:00You're welcome!

0:17:00 > 0:17:03Dr Hardy is just looking at your X-ray then we can fix you up

0:17:03 > 0:17:04with some more pain relief.

0:17:04 > 0:17:09Sean! I'm Michael McKern, Sean's father. I'm sorry, I got here as quick as I could.

0:17:09 > 0:17:10Lost your way again?

0:17:10 > 0:17:15C'mon, son - they shut the dual carriageway - I'm still trying to work out the satnav.

0:17:15 > 0:17:18Epic job. Well worth moving here for.

0:17:18 > 0:17:20Sean, please.

0:17:20 > 0:17:22Right, Sean has a slightly displaced fracture,

0:17:22 > 0:17:26so I'm afraid it will need surgery under anaesthetic in theatre.

0:17:26 > 0:17:28Theatre?

0:17:29 > 0:17:33Right. Well, can I have a word, please? In private?

0:17:33 > 0:17:35Why, you going to tell him what a problem kid I am?

0:17:35 > 0:17:37- No, of course I'm not! - RINGING

0:17:37 > 0:17:39Great idea sending me on this trip.

0:17:39 > 0:17:43Hello. Yes, it's Dr Hardy.

0:17:43 > 0:17:45Yeah, I am with the father now.

0:17:46 > 0:17:49Right. OK, thank you.

0:17:50 > 0:17:51OK.

0:17:52 > 0:17:55Outside? Please?

0:18:00 > 0:18:02Right, well, the thing is...

0:18:02 > 0:18:05I made some enquiries about the pills Sean's taking.

0:18:05 > 0:18:06They're HIV drugs.

0:18:06 > 0:18:11He has no idea, so can you tell me why?

0:18:11 > 0:18:14OK, the good news is that the X-ray shows there is no fracture,

0:18:14 > 0:18:15it's just a sprain.

0:18:15 > 0:18:17So you didn't really need the X-ray, then.

0:18:17 > 0:18:18All right, Mum.

0:18:18 > 0:18:21Obviously she needed the X-ray to discount the fracture.

0:18:21 > 0:18:25Yes, well, I suppose that's why we go to the GP and not rush to the ED, eh, sweetie?

0:18:25 > 0:18:27And who is your GP?

0:18:27 > 0:18:29The Larks.

0:18:29 > 0:18:31It's an alternative practice.

0:18:31 > 0:18:32They're amazing.

0:18:32 > 0:18:36They must be if they've discovered an alternative to the X-ray.

0:18:36 > 0:18:38Right, er...good as new.

0:18:38 > 0:18:41Brill! Right. Come on, let's see about getting you home, munchkin.

0:18:42 > 0:18:44Brill. Excuse me.

0:18:45 > 0:18:50Maybe I...got a tummy bug?

0:18:52 > 0:18:54OK, was she feeling unwell before the trip?

0:18:54 > 0:18:59Bit tired, maybe, but she was so desperate to go.

0:18:59 > 0:19:02She's quite sensitive to air quality, and it's not great here, is it?

0:19:04 > 0:19:07So, Sean got HIV from his mum?

0:19:07 > 0:19:09Yeah, when he was born.

0:19:09 > 0:19:13She had no idea until she was diagnosed with a brain tumour...

0:19:15 > 0:19:18..then the tests revealed that she was positive.

0:19:18 > 0:19:21Maybe...that's what made her more prone to the cancer.

0:19:23 > 0:19:27Anyway, they tested us both then.

0:19:29 > 0:19:31I tested negative.

0:19:36 > 0:19:39I'd give anything for it to be the other way round.

0:19:42 > 0:19:45And...why have you never told him?

0:19:45 > 0:19:47What...

0:19:48 > 0:19:52"Your mum's dying of cancer and, by the way, you're HIV positive"?

0:19:54 > 0:19:56Rachel didn't want it like that.

0:19:56 > 0:19:57Did he never suspect anything?

0:19:57 > 0:20:01You know, the blood tests, the pills...

0:20:01 > 0:20:07I don't know. Maybe. Maybe he has. Maybe he's too scared to ask.

0:20:07 > 0:20:09But he does go for blood tests?

0:20:09 > 0:20:13Yeah, and those sessions, but I asked them to keep things vague.

0:20:13 > 0:20:15He's now a teenager.

0:20:17 > 0:20:21I will tell him. I will. When the time's right.

0:20:22 > 0:20:24But not now. Not yet.

0:20:28 > 0:20:30I'd...better get back to him.

0:20:30 > 0:20:32He'll be wondering where I am.

0:20:46 > 0:20:48My head really hurts.

0:20:50 > 0:20:52Her glands are quite swollen, aren't they?

0:20:52 > 0:20:54Is Sky up to date with her vaccinations?

0:20:54 > 0:20:56Well, she's not had the MMR.

0:20:56 > 0:20:59Yes, I know what you're thinking, but I have done my research.

0:20:59 > 0:21:01Well, then you'll know that the concerns about MMR

0:21:01 > 0:21:03have been totally discredited.

0:21:03 > 0:21:06Enormous amount of harm has been done by the anti-vaccination lobby.

0:21:06 > 0:21:08Sky has Mumps.

0:21:08 > 0:21:09Mumps?

0:21:09 > 0:21:10Yeah.

0:21:10 > 0:21:12That can make you deaf, can't it?

0:21:12 > 0:21:15Don't be silly! Look, I've had Mumps - it's just a childhood disease.

0:21:15 > 0:21:19It's a very infectious childhood disease and one that can have very serious side effects.

0:21:19 > 0:21:21It's also what is known as a notifiable disease

0:21:21 > 0:21:24which means I am now obliged to contact public health

0:21:24 > 0:21:26and every member of staff that's come into contact to Sky.

0:21:26 > 0:21:28None of which is your fault, obviously.

0:21:28 > 0:21:31So, I'll just go and do that, shall I?

0:21:31 > 0:21:32Half-hourly obs, please.

0:21:44 > 0:21:47"He was conscious when discovered,

0:21:47 > 0:21:50"was found to have a stab wound to his chest with reduced air entry on the left.

0:21:50 > 0:21:54"He was taken into the hospital where he deteriorated."

0:21:54 > 0:21:57- I know it's frustrating, but...- Yeah, you can say that again.

0:21:57 > 0:22:02Everything is just one big conspiracy to these people - JFK, Elvis, the moon-landings.

0:22:02 > 0:22:07Honestly, never - I mean it - NEVER underestimate how ignorant people can be.

0:22:07 > 0:22:09Well, you know what they say - each to their own.

0:22:10 > 0:22:12You got any more cliches? What's next?

0:22:12 > 0:22:14"It's all good"?!

0:22:14 > 0:22:17Well, if it helps, I've-I've been reading, like-like you said.

0:22:19 > 0:22:25Well done, you. Think you might have missed that one.

0:22:27 > 0:22:31"There's no defence against stupidity."

0:22:31 > 0:22:33You said it.

0:22:38 > 0:22:40How long before he goes to theatre?

0:22:40 > 0:22:42Why - meter running out?

0:22:44 > 0:22:45Dr Hardy?

0:22:45 > 0:22:51Ah, yes, I'm going to... I'll give them another call.

0:22:52 > 0:22:54Can we elevate the leg?

0:22:54 > 0:22:56Arghhhh!

0:22:56 > 0:22:57OK?

0:22:58 > 0:23:00It just hurts between my legs.

0:23:02 > 0:23:07Ethan, I think we should exclude a Torsion, don't you?

0:23:07 > 0:23:11Yes. I'm sorry. I'm going to have to give you a quick examination.

0:23:11 > 0:23:14If that's OK. Right.

0:23:17 > 0:23:18Yeah, there is a swelling.

0:23:18 > 0:23:21It feels quite hot.

0:23:21 > 0:23:22There's a swelling?

0:23:22 > 0:23:24Temperature is up slightly.

0:23:24 > 0:23:25He has a fever?

0:23:25 > 0:23:27Told you I wasn't very well. Didn't listen to me.

0:23:27 > 0:23:30Let's start with a gram of Paracetamol. I'll be right back.

0:23:34 > 0:23:36Dr Keogh, can I have a word?

0:23:36 > 0:23:37Oh, yeah, Ethan.

0:23:37 > 0:23:40Sorry. I'm so sorry that I won't be able to be there today.

0:23:40 > 0:23:42I tried to get the shift covered, but...

0:23:42 > 0:23:45It-it's fine. I've been having a look at this.

0:23:45 > 0:23:46Where did you get that?

0:23:48 > 0:23:53It says here the cause of death was cardiac arrest secondary

0:23:53 > 0:23:57to cardiac tamponade and massive haemothorax due to blood loss? Yeah?

0:23:57 > 0:23:58Yeah, that's correct.

0:23:58 > 0:23:59You found him at 20.19?

0:23:59 > 0:24:01Hm-mm.

0:24:01 > 0:24:04But you think he was stabbed 32 minutes before?

0:24:05 > 0:24:08It also says his airway was patent,

0:24:08 > 0:24:12which means he was conscious this whole time he was bleeding.

0:24:12 > 0:24:16You said... You said that he was unconscious when you found him.

0:24:16 > 0:24:19Ethan, why are you doing this to yourself?

0:24:19 > 0:24:22He must have said something for you to write that.

0:24:22 > 0:24:23Does it matter now?

0:24:23 > 0:24:25It matters to me, yes, I want to know.

0:24:25 > 0:24:29No, I don't think you do. In fact, I'm sure there are some things that you don't want to know.

0:24:29 > 0:24:32Look, you weren't there. There was nothing you could have done.

0:24:32 > 0:24:35It's not your fault. For those of us that were...

0:24:35 > 0:24:38Dr Keogh. Your patient with Mumps. David just called.

0:24:40 > 0:24:43OK, I'll be right there.

0:25:03 > 0:25:05I believe Sean has Mumps.

0:25:05 > 0:25:07Mumps?

0:25:07 > 0:25:09I'm afraid I'm going to have to let theatre know,

0:25:09 > 0:25:11and it's unlikely that they'll take him in today.

0:25:11 > 0:25:15But he can't have. He's had his MMR.

0:25:15 > 0:25:19Well, if his immune system is compromised, he may not have responded to the vaccine,

0:25:19 > 0:25:22or he may have responded but not for the same length of time.

0:25:22 > 0:25:24But he's been taking his medication.

0:25:24 > 0:25:27He should be protected.

0:25:27 > 0:25:28What are you whispering about?

0:25:29 > 0:25:32What? What's with all the looks?

0:25:32 > 0:25:33Do you think I haven't noticed?

0:25:33 > 0:25:35You've been taking your pills, right?

0:25:35 > 0:25:37Why?

0:25:37 > 0:25:38Sean! Yes or no?

0:25:38 > 0:25:43No! No, I haven't. What's the big deal, anyway?

0:25:43 > 0:25:45They're just vitamins, aren't they?

0:25:45 > 0:25:49You going to tell me what's going on or are you just going to shut me out like always?

0:25:49 > 0:25:52- Talk about me like I'm not even here?- Sean, please...

0:25:52 > 0:25:57Cos that's what you did when Mum was sick, didn't you? He didn't even tell me that it was...

0:25:57 > 0:26:00the end. I didn't even get a chance to go and say goodbye.

0:26:00 > 0:26:02It wasn't like that.

0:26:02 > 0:26:04You thought I didn't know what was going on?

0:26:04 > 0:26:08While I was sat there in a maths exam when she was...she was dying?!

0:26:08 > 0:26:10I was trying to protect you.

0:26:10 > 0:26:13I didn't need protecting! I just wanted to know!

0:26:13 > 0:26:15I had a right to know!

0:26:17 > 0:26:18What is going on?

0:26:20 > 0:26:23It's true. He has a right to know.

0:26:24 > 0:26:26I think you should tell him.

0:26:28 > 0:26:29Tell me what?

0:26:33 > 0:26:36Tell me what?

0:26:36 > 0:26:40Yeah, I'm not happy about this meningism - I think we might be missing something.

0:26:40 > 0:26:44Let's start her on IV ceftriaxone and set up for a lumbar puncture.

0:26:44 > 0:26:48- Lumbar puncture?! - Yeah, it takes about ten minutes. It's done under local anaesthetic.

0:26:48 > 0:26:50No. No way.

0:26:50 > 0:26:52Ms Loates, your daughter is running a high fever, she's showing

0:26:52 > 0:26:56sensitivity to light and a stiff neck - I think that we need to find out what's going on.

0:26:56 > 0:26:58See, this is exactly what I was talking about.

0:26:58 > 0:27:02Once you get through those doors it's all about over-monitoring and over-treating.

0:27:02 > 0:27:06- It's not about the patient at all, it's about insuring your backside! - I'm sorry - shall we..?

0:27:06 > 0:27:09It's interesting that you say that in light of your decision not to vaccinate her.

0:27:09 > 0:27:12What were YOU thinking? You were relying on everybody else to do it for you?

0:27:12 > 0:27:13Of course not!

0:27:13 > 0:27:17In any event, if you had, she'd be on her way back home now with her arm in a sling.

0:27:17 > 0:27:19You are the reason she's here. You are the one who put her at risk.

0:27:19 > 0:27:21Now can we prep for the lumbar puncture, please?

0:27:26 > 0:27:29HIV? Isn't that AIDS?

0:27:29 > 0:27:31No, Sean, no, it isn't.

0:27:31 > 0:27:37No, HIV is a virus. AIDS is a syndrome or a condition.

0:27:37 > 0:27:40When you're infected with HIV it can lead to AIDS,

0:27:40 > 0:27:43but there's no reason why that should happen nowadays

0:27:43 > 0:27:47as long as you take your medication, as long as you're monitored.

0:27:47 > 0:27:50You told me they were vitamins!

0:27:51 > 0:27:55Look, I know it must be very difficult to take all this on board,

0:27:55 > 0:27:58but you must know that with proper management...

0:27:58 > 0:28:00The blood tests?

0:28:01 > 0:28:04They were to test the level of the virus in your blood.

0:28:04 > 0:28:11The mumps - I got them from school, what, because I didn't take my medication?

0:28:11 > 0:28:17Well, I can't be sure, but not taking your medicines can affect your immunity, yeah.

0:28:20 > 0:28:21Sorry.

0:28:24 > 0:28:30The thing is, Sean, now that you know, you can make sure that you do take them.

0:28:30 > 0:28:33You see, knowledge is power.

0:28:37 > 0:28:39Right, we're going to take you through to cubicles,

0:28:39 > 0:28:44and I will call someone who will come down and talk you through all of this.

0:28:45 > 0:28:48You can leave this to me. You should really go.

0:28:48 > 0:28:52Can I have a word with you, please? In private?

0:28:52 > 0:28:54- Now.- Yes, of course.

0:28:57 > 0:29:01I told you I will tell him when he's ready. It wasn't your call!

0:29:01 > 0:29:03When he's ready or when you're ready?

0:29:03 > 0:29:04You can't keep putting it off.

0:29:04 > 0:29:08I have a duty of care. I can't stand there and lie to him.

0:29:08 > 0:29:11Good for you! You're his doctor. I'm his father!

0:29:11 > 0:29:14Exactly, so you should be in there, dealing with it.

0:29:14 > 0:29:18- It's 2017!- I trusted you, and you played God with my son.

0:29:18 > 0:29:22Excuse me. You have to go. Go.

0:29:24 > 0:29:26- Shame on you. - Come on, Ethan, let's go.

0:29:26 > 0:29:29Mr McCann.

0:29:29 > 0:29:30What's happened now?

0:29:30 > 0:29:32I'm afraid your son has left the department.

0:29:32 > 0:29:35I mean, I'm amazed he could even get off the trolley.

0:29:35 > 0:29:37You what? You mean, you've lost my child?

0:29:37 > 0:29:39We have alerted security.

0:29:39 > 0:29:41We'll find him.

0:29:41 > 0:29:43He won't get far with that fracture.

0:29:43 > 0:29:45OK, you know, I'll take over from here. You need to get going.

0:29:45 > 0:29:46Let's go.

0:29:47 > 0:29:50Ethan, please let the others sort this out.

0:29:50 > 0:29:53I-I have to see this through. I'm sorry - you go. I'll be there.

0:29:53 > 0:29:55Please, just-just go.

0:30:12 > 0:30:14HE YELLS IN PAIN

0:30:24 > 0:30:25We haven't got enough memory cards.

0:30:25 > 0:30:26No.

0:30:37 > 0:30:39These are the days when I hate my job.

0:30:40 > 0:30:42Me, too.

0:30:42 > 0:30:44Where is Ethan?

0:30:44 > 0:30:47He's a big boy. He'll be here.

0:30:47 > 0:30:49Yeah, he's here!

0:30:50 > 0:30:55- OK.- We've got him. Call theatre - looks like he'll need to go straight in.

0:30:55 > 0:30:56Oh, my. Sean, what have you done?

0:30:56 > 0:30:58Don't touch me! I'm infected!

0:30:58 > 0:31:00- No, no, Sean...- No, son.

0:31:00 > 0:31:04It's true. What's the point? I've got no life now.

0:31:04 > 0:31:05Don't say that.

0:31:05 > 0:31:07People are going to think that I'm...

0:31:07 > 0:31:10that I'm dirty, and then I'm just going to die.

0:31:10 > 0:31:12No, no - Sean, you're going to get help. Calm down.

0:31:12 > 0:31:14I'm going to get cancer, like Mum did, and then...

0:31:14 > 0:31:17All right, guys, let's get him up - come on.

0:31:17 > 0:31:20Get...away...from my son.

0:31:20 > 0:31:22I'm so sorry.

0:31:22 > 0:31:24OK, OK, that's it, mate. OK.

0:31:26 > 0:31:28You need to let this go.

0:31:28 > 0:31:32All right? You know where you need to be now.

0:31:35 > 0:31:37OK, ready and lift.

0:31:37 > 0:31:39Oh! Argh!

0:31:42 > 0:31:44Hey.

0:31:44 > 0:31:46- Lofty!- Mate.

0:31:46 > 0:31:48- Nice to see you, mate. - Good to see you.

0:31:53 > 0:31:55He always was a ladies' man.

0:31:55 > 0:31:58Remember when Taylor first came in? I thought she was completely

0:31:58 > 0:32:01out of his league and then she fell for him, too.

0:32:01 > 0:32:06It was beautiful. Then she fleeced him for everything, didn't she?

0:32:07 > 0:32:10Still. He sent the girls gaga. All of them.

0:32:10 > 0:32:12Guys.

0:32:35 > 0:32:37They're just taking the flowers over to the church.

0:32:37 > 0:32:41Do you want somebody to call you a cab? You should be there, shouldn't you?

0:32:41 > 0:32:46Dylan... I don't blame you, you know.

0:32:49 > 0:32:50Um...

0:32:55 > 0:32:59He was conscious when I found him. He was asking for you.

0:32:59 > 0:33:01He wanted to know you were OK.

0:33:32 > 0:33:34RINGING

0:33:39 > 0:33:43Ethan! Where are you? Call me back, please.

0:33:48 > 0:33:54Coast clear? The result of the lumbar puncture was negative,

0:33:54 > 0:33:56which is good.

0:33:56 > 0:33:59Well, your temperature's gone down a little bit,

0:33:59 > 0:34:02which is also good. How do you feel?

0:34:02 > 0:34:05Tired. Hungry.

0:34:05 > 0:34:07Oh!

0:34:07 > 0:34:09Oh, well, I don't know if...

0:34:11 > 0:34:16I think perhaps you need to come out to your mum with regard to your eating habits.

0:34:17 > 0:34:20I don't want to upset her.

0:34:20 > 0:34:23Well, you can't please all the people all the time.

0:34:23 > 0:34:24Ah, you don't say.

0:34:28 > 0:34:30There wasn't much there, but I did manage to get you a banana.

0:34:30 > 0:34:32I owe you an apology.

0:34:32 > 0:34:35I, um... I lost my patience with you. It wasn't helpful.

0:34:35 > 0:34:37No need. There you go.

0:34:42 > 0:34:44At least it's Fairtrade.

0:34:57 > 0:34:58Anything? Hang on.

0:35:00 > 0:35:03Oh, gosh. He isn't...

0:35:04 > 0:35:05Looks like it.

0:35:06 > 0:35:08Oh, it's Tweedle Dee and Tweedle Dum.

0:35:08 > 0:35:10We need to sober him up.

0:35:10 > 0:35:12C'mon, mate.

0:35:12 > 0:35:15MUSIC: One Day Like This by Elbow

0:35:40 > 0:35:43Oh, crikey! I think we might run out.

0:35:44 > 0:35:46Better not.

0:35:51 > 0:35:53RETCHING

0:35:54 > 0:35:56And again.

0:35:56 > 0:35:59You're hardcore, you are!

0:36:00 > 0:36:04Ethan, you need to get in there.

0:36:04 > 0:36:06I don't want to.

0:36:06 > 0:36:08You have to, or you'll regret it.

0:36:08 > 0:36:09I don't care, Lily.

0:36:09 > 0:36:13We all have to do things we don't want to. Just-just...man up!

0:36:13 > 0:36:15Man up?

0:36:15 > 0:36:18Wow, yeah. Coming from you?

0:36:18 > 0:36:21I mean, everyone knows how you feel about him, so...

0:36:21 > 0:36:24You're scared. It's pathetic!

0:36:24 > 0:36:27You're going to wind up a dried-up, bitter old cow.

0:36:29 > 0:36:31Ethan?

0:36:34 > 0:36:36Tell them I'm coming.

0:36:48 > 0:36:51He-he didn't mean that. It's just...

0:36:54 > 0:36:56I'll see you inside.

0:36:56 > 0:36:58No.

0:36:58 > 0:37:06MUSIC: Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

0:37:25 > 0:37:27Sorry, thank you.

0:37:34 > 0:37:35Hi.

0:37:35 > 0:37:36Sorry, um...

0:37:38 > 0:37:39Thank you for coming.

0:37:42 > 0:37:43For those of you who don't know me,

0:37:43 > 0:37:47I'm Ethan... I'm Cal's brother.

0:37:49 > 0:37:52I had big plans this morning to do something...

0:37:54 > 0:37:55Uh...

0:38:02 > 0:38:03Cal...

0:38:10 > 0:38:13I don't-I don't know whether you're out there, or...

0:38:15 > 0:38:17..in here, somewhere...?

0:38:22 > 0:38:23Ah...

0:38:26 > 0:38:30I-I tried to write you a letter which I want to give you -

0:38:30 > 0:38:32but the days just got away from me and...

0:38:37 > 0:38:38It's really not very...

0:38:41 > 0:38:44"Cal, you big oaf.

0:38:51 > 0:38:53"I know you haven't prepared for this because...

0:38:56 > 0:38:58"..you never prepare for anything.

0:39:00 > 0:39:04"So I've decided I should send you on your way with a few things.

0:39:10 > 0:39:12"A bottle of whisky.

0:39:13 > 0:39:15"In case you need a drink"...

0:39:15 > 0:39:17I'm sorry there's not much of that left.

0:39:22 > 0:39:23"Socks...

0:39:26 > 0:39:28"..in case your feet get cold."

0:39:35 > 0:39:36"Crisps..."

0:39:36 > 0:39:37HIS VOICE BREAKS, HE EXHALES

0:39:37 > 0:39:38Sorry.

0:39:41 > 0:39:42"Crisps".

0:39:52 > 0:39:53Sorry.

0:40:05 > 0:40:06Thank you. Please.

0:40:16 > 0:40:18"Crisps -

0:40:18 > 0:40:20"in case you get hungry.

0:40:24 > 0:40:26"And Milky Bars...

0:40:28 > 0:40:29"..well, I had to, didn't I?

0:40:32 > 0:40:33"Condoms...

0:40:34 > 0:40:39"Well, you never know what

0:40:39 > 0:40:43"heavenly creatures may cross your path.

0:40:46 > 0:40:48"And I charged your phone...

0:40:52 > 0:40:55"..cos I know how much you love your music.

0:40:58 > 0:41:00"And just in case...

0:41:04 > 0:41:05"In case you get lonely...

0:41:07 > 0:41:09"..and you want to give me a call.

0:41:13 > 0:41:20"Though if whatever they say about where you're going is true,

0:41:20 > 0:41:24"you're going to be having too much of a good time

0:41:24 > 0:41:26"to be thinking about me".

0:41:29 > 0:41:34MUSIC: Champagne Supernova by Oasis

0:41:41 > 0:41:44# How many special people change?

0:41:44 > 0:41:47# How many lives are living strange?

0:41:47 > 0:41:52# Where were you while we were getting high?

0:41:54 > 0:41:57# Slowly walking down the hall

0:41:57 > 0:42:00# Faster than a cannonball

0:42:00 > 0:42:05# Where were you while we were getting high?

0:42:05 > 0:42:08# Someday you will find me

0:42:08 > 0:42:12# Caught beneath the landslide

0:42:12 > 0:42:17# In a champagne supernova in the sky

0:42:17 > 0:42:21# Someday you will find me

0:42:21 > 0:42:25# Caught beneath the landslide

0:42:25 > 0:42:28# In a champagne supernova

0:42:28 > 0:42:32# A champagne supernova in the sky... #

0:42:32 > 0:42:40"A soul made cheerful by Work, Love, Art..."

0:42:42 > 0:42:45This is kind of arty, isn't it?

0:42:45 > 0:42:48# Wake up the dawn and ask her why

0:42:48 > 0:42:51# A dreamer dreams, she never dies

0:42:51 > 0:42:56# Wipe that tear away now from your eye

0:42:58 > 0:43:01# Slowly walking down the hall

0:43:01 > 0:43:04# Faster than a cannonball

0:43:04 > 0:43:08# Where were you while we were getting high?

0:43:08 > 0:43:12# Someday you will find me

0:43:12 > 0:43:16# Caught beneath the landslide

0:43:16 > 0:43:21# In a champagne supernova in the sky

0:43:21 > 0:43:24# Someday you will find me

0:43:24 > 0:43:29# Caught beneath the landslide

0:43:29 > 0:43:32# In a champagne supernova

0:43:32 > 0:43:35# A champagne supernova

0:43:35 > 0:43:44# Cos we don't believe that they're gonna get away from the summer

0:43:48 > 0:43:52# But you and I will never die

0:43:52 > 0:43:58# The world's still spinning around, we don't know why.. . #

0:44:04 > 0:44:05KNOCK AT DOOR

0:44:09 > 0:44:10Please...

0:44:10 > 0:44:12I just wanted to say something. Then I'll go.

0:44:25 > 0:44:28Me and my brother - Cal...

0:44:30 > 0:44:32We were both adopted,

0:44:32 > 0:44:36and our birth mother had a hereditary disease

0:44:36 > 0:44:37called Huntington's.

0:44:40 > 0:44:42Cal didn't tell me, and...

0:44:44 > 0:44:47..then he had me tested without my knowledge and I was positive.

0:44:49 > 0:44:50I hated him for it.

0:44:53 > 0:44:55I was so angry, I...

0:44:55 > 0:44:57I said I'd never forgive him.

0:44:59 > 0:45:01My condition is incurable, Sean.

0:45:04 > 0:45:06I can't do anything about it.

0:45:06 > 0:45:07It's...

0:45:09 > 0:45:10It's a ticking time bomb.

0:45:12 > 0:45:15But you can manage yours.

0:45:17 > 0:45:19You can have a family.

0:45:21 > 0:45:24You can live a healthy, normal life.

0:45:34 > 0:45:35Hang on.

0:45:36 > 0:45:39So...did you forgive him?

0:45:41 > 0:45:43Yes, of course.

0:45:46 > 0:45:47Life's too short.

0:46:02 > 0:46:06I should have let you be there. Your mum.

0:46:06 > 0:46:08I shouldn't have kept you away.

0:46:08 > 0:46:10I should have told you about the HIV.

0:46:14 > 0:46:15I'm scared.

0:46:17 > 0:46:20Don't be, I'm not going anywhere.

0:46:24 > 0:46:26Ethan.

0:46:26 > 0:46:27Mrs Beauchamp.

0:46:27 > 0:46:28How are you doing?

0:46:30 > 0:46:33Don't answer that, I'm sorry.

0:46:33 > 0:46:35And I'm sorry I wasn't there earlier.

0:46:36 > 0:46:39I said my goodbyes here, with everyone else.

0:46:39 > 0:46:40It's OK.

0:46:41 > 0:46:42What are you doing now?

0:46:44 > 0:46:46I'm yet to say my own goodbye.

0:46:49 > 0:46:53Well, keep up appearances. Don't let the side down.

0:46:54 > 0:46:56Thank you.

0:46:58 > 0:46:59OK.

0:47:21 > 0:47:23So this is it.

0:47:25 > 0:47:26For you and me, bro.

0:47:31 > 0:47:33I've got to say goodbye.

0:47:43 > 0:47:44Scott?!

0:47:45 > 0:47:46Hey!

0:47:50 > 0:47:51Oi!

0:47:52 > 0:47:53Scott!

0:47:58 > 0:47:59Scott!

0:48:03 > 0:48:04Scott!