0:00:03 > 0:00:05How long have you and Georgia known each other?
0:00:05 > 0:00:07Forever.
0:00:07 > 0:00:08Professor McDermid.
0:00:08 > 0:00:10She is the reason why people take this module.
0:00:10 > 0:00:14The Solasta Women's Initiative was set up by myself
0:00:14 > 0:00:16and my brother Alistair McDermid.
0:00:16 > 0:00:19What, are you guys minted off these internships or what?
0:00:19 > 0:00:20THEY LAUGH
0:00:20 > 0:00:22What sort of work do you do there?
0:00:22 > 0:00:24Coffees and photocopying.
0:00:24 > 0:00:25CHEERING
0:00:25 > 0:00:28We're not all like that. I swear.
0:00:28 > 0:00:31This programme contains very strong language
0:00:31 > 0:00:34- You don't even know them. - You're being a jealous bitch.
0:00:34 > 0:00:37Where's Georgia?
0:00:37 > 0:00:38It's not her.
0:00:38 > 0:00:39You don't get it.
0:00:39 > 0:00:40What?
0:00:40 > 0:00:42CRASH THEY SCREAM
0:00:43 > 0:00:45But you will.
0:00:45 > 0:00:48# You, you have me hooked again
0:00:48 > 0:00:52# And now I have no choice
0:00:52 > 0:00:54# But to follow
0:00:54 > 0:00:56# I'm sinking faster
0:00:56 > 0:00:59# I'm sinking faster, yeah
0:00:59 > 0:01:06# I'm sinking faster into the deep. #
0:01:06 > 0:01:15This programme contains some scenes which some viewers may find upsetting
0:01:15 > 0:01:24This programme contains some scenes of a sexual nature
0:01:24 > 0:01:26INDISTINCT CONVERSATION
0:01:52 > 0:01:54RINGING
0:01:54 > 0:01:57'Hey, it's Georgia. Leave a message. Bye.'
0:01:59 > 0:02:00RINGING
0:02:00 > 0:02:03'Hey, it's Georgia. Leave a message. Bye.'
0:02:32 > 0:02:34- Hi.- Hi.
0:02:35 > 0:02:39- Sorry for hassling you. I know things are...- What is it?
0:02:41 > 0:02:43Georgia's been gone for two days.
0:02:43 > 0:02:46I'm really worried about her. Have you spoken to her at all?
0:02:46 > 0:02:48Not today. She not speaking to you?
0:02:48 > 0:02:50I'm worried, that's all.
0:02:51 > 0:02:52- Is she inside?- I don't know.
0:02:52 > 0:02:54- You don't know?- I think I'm done with this now, Holly.
0:02:54 > 0:02:59I'm sorry. Can I just come in for a minute and speak to the other girls?
0:02:59 > 0:03:00Hey, Holly.
0:03:03 > 0:03:04Louise. Just stay.
0:03:04 > 0:03:06Can you let me in?
0:03:06 > 0:03:08- I've got a tutorial.- Louise.
0:03:10 > 0:03:13- This is a really bad time for us. - I know.
0:03:13 > 0:03:16I just need to know where Georgia is.
0:03:16 > 0:03:17I'm sorry.
0:03:23 > 0:03:24Holly, wait.
0:03:27 > 0:03:30- She's not inside.- OK.
0:03:30 > 0:03:32But she was. She just left.
0:03:32 > 0:03:34And no-one thought to just let me know?
0:03:34 > 0:03:36I figured she'd call you.
0:03:36 > 0:03:38You're really not our priority right now.
0:03:38 > 0:03:40I just want to know if Georgia's OK.
0:03:40 > 0:03:41She's fine.
0:03:44 > 0:03:45- We'll be fine.- Rachel...
0:03:48 > 0:03:50..tell me what happened.
0:03:50 > 0:03:51What happened to Fay?
0:03:53 > 0:03:55Leave us alone, Holly.
0:04:03 > 0:04:05LOUD MUFFLED MUSIC
0:04:11 > 0:04:12MOANING
0:04:13 > 0:04:15George?
0:04:19 > 0:04:21What the fuck are you doing in here?
0:04:23 > 0:04:25- Georgia wouldn't mind. - Get the fuck out!
0:04:26 > 0:04:30- Sorry.- Get out!
0:04:30 > 0:04:31Sorry!
0:04:32 > 0:04:33SHE SOBS
0:04:44 > 0:04:46Elizabeth, I know you're out there.
0:04:50 > 0:04:53I wrote down their full descriptions...
0:04:53 > 0:04:55and I can report them to student support.
0:04:56 > 0:04:58Where is she, Elizabeth?
0:04:59 > 0:05:02Why won't she tell me what's going on?
0:05:04 > 0:05:06Sometimes...
0:05:07 > 0:05:10..you think people are your friend
0:05:10 > 0:05:12- and it turns out they're not. - That's not it.
0:05:13 > 0:05:15Have you called her mum?
0:05:15 > 0:05:17She's not worried.
0:05:18 > 0:05:20She's done this before?
0:05:22 > 0:05:24Never without me.
0:05:24 > 0:05:26DISTANT CHILDREN'S VOICES
0:05:28 > 0:05:30THEY LAUGH
0:06:30 > 0:06:32Something's up.
0:07:07 > 0:07:08Stop it.
0:07:15 > 0:07:17So, you were there when she jumped?
0:07:19 > 0:07:20Fuck me, Holly.
0:07:23 > 0:07:28Can you imagine being that determined that you'd do that?
0:07:29 > 0:07:30Terrifying.
0:07:32 > 0:07:34That and Georgia ghosting me, it just...
0:07:37 > 0:07:40So, she's there now with that crowd?
0:07:40 > 0:07:43- Apparently.- You haven't seen her or spoken to her?
0:07:43 > 0:07:45No, I told you.
0:07:45 > 0:07:47Sorry, I was just trying to...
0:07:55 > 0:07:58You need to think about something else.
0:07:58 > 0:08:00That or drink more. One of those.
0:08:09 > 0:08:10Thanks.
0:08:39 > 0:08:40George?
0:08:44 > 0:08:45I'll wait.
0:08:46 > 0:08:49I was going to call you.
0:08:49 > 0:08:50Are you OK?
0:08:50 > 0:08:52Yeah. I'm fine, babe.
0:08:52 > 0:08:54Where have you been?
0:08:54 > 0:08:56Around.
0:08:56 > 0:08:58With those girls?
0:08:58 > 0:08:59Yeah.
0:09:01 > 0:09:02What's going on?
0:09:04 > 0:09:07They've offered me a room in the house...
0:09:07 > 0:09:08so I'm taking it.
0:09:10 > 0:09:13- Look, this isn't... - Fay just killed herself.
0:09:13 > 0:09:15You didn't even know her, Holly.
0:09:15 > 0:09:16Neither did you.
0:09:17 > 0:09:19I get that you're upset, OK?
0:09:19 > 0:09:22What happened the night you called me?
0:09:22 > 0:09:24- You were scared, something was wrong.- I was pissed.
0:09:25 > 0:09:27- I know you.- And?
0:09:27 > 0:09:28You're lying.
0:09:28 > 0:09:31Something happened to you and I want to know why you called me.
0:09:31 > 0:09:33I fucked up. OK?
0:09:34 > 0:09:36We went out and I got off my head again.
0:09:36 > 0:09:39- That's all.- Come in and tell me.
0:09:39 > 0:09:41I don't want to.
0:09:41 > 0:09:42Do you understand me?
0:09:49 > 0:09:50I'll call you.
0:09:52 > 0:09:54Don't shut me out.
0:09:54 > 0:09:55I'm not.
0:10:10 > 0:10:12DISTANT CHILDREN'S LAUGHTER
0:10:19 > 0:10:21Who did these?
0:10:21 > 0:10:24They were my friends.
0:10:24 > 0:10:26But you fell out?
0:10:26 > 0:10:28Because of what you did?
0:10:35 > 0:10:37Would you like a hot Vimto?
0:10:39 > 0:10:42This is the time they select, I suppose.
0:10:42 > 0:10:43Not usually quite this early
0:10:43 > 0:10:46but it wouldn't be completely out of the question.
0:10:46 > 0:10:47What are you talking about?
0:10:47 > 0:10:50The Solasta Women's Initiative.
0:10:50 > 0:10:53They take in a new girl around this time and then
0:10:53 > 0:10:56sometimes another couple later in the term.
0:10:57 > 0:10:59Fay Brookstone was a no-brainer, obviously,
0:10:59 > 0:11:02but Phoebe Parker-Fox didn't get taken until her second term.
0:11:02 > 0:11:05How long have you been looking into all this stuff?
0:11:05 > 0:11:07The Solasta Initiative, I mean.
0:11:08 > 0:11:11I...heard about it during Highers.
0:11:12 > 0:11:14Do you know about the girls?
0:11:14 > 0:11:18Well, it's good to have an idea of what they're looking for.
0:11:19 > 0:11:20Tell me.
0:11:22 > 0:11:24Louise Taggart, 21.
0:11:24 > 0:11:28She's from London, she got her maths A-level at 14,
0:11:28 > 0:11:30got selected in her first term, obviously.
0:11:31 > 0:11:35She works with the investment professionals in analysis,
0:11:35 > 0:11:38with the high net worth individuals.
0:11:38 > 0:11:40I like to call them Hinwis.
0:11:40 > 0:11:41Why?
0:11:41 > 0:11:43I find acronyms funny.
0:11:46 > 0:11:48She's in her second year,
0:11:48 > 0:11:51so I reckon she's going for a permanent Solasta position.
0:11:51 > 0:11:53She writes software for fun.
0:11:55 > 0:11:56Rachel Maddox, 20.
0:11:57 > 0:11:59CAMERAS CLICK AND REPORTERS SHOUT
0:11:59 > 0:12:03Moved around a lot, but she could be Scottish in a posh way.
0:12:04 > 0:12:07She got selected last year, worked her way around the department
0:12:07 > 0:12:08and then got chosen
0:12:08 > 0:12:11as Alistair McDermid's executive assistant.
0:12:11 > 0:12:14People say she's the one that got Mr McDermid back to work
0:12:14 > 0:12:16after his wife died a year ago.
0:12:17 > 0:12:19Phoebe Parker-Fox, 21.
0:12:19 > 0:12:22Her dad's an earl of somewhere or another
0:12:22 > 0:12:25and supposedly she interned in HR.
0:12:25 > 0:12:28Getting selected means she's cleverer than she makes out
0:12:28 > 0:12:31but I'm not sure how much HR-ing she actually does.
0:12:33 > 0:12:34And Fay?
0:12:39 > 0:12:41Fay Brookstone, 21.
0:12:42 > 0:12:46Got the Solasta Internship in her first year and rose quickly.
0:12:46 > 0:12:50They covered it in the paper.
0:12:50 > 0:12:51Could you tell she was unhappy?
0:12:51 > 0:12:53No, not at all.
0:12:54 > 0:12:57She had a permanent position waiting when she graduated.
0:13:00 > 0:13:01She was always smiling...
0:13:03 > 0:13:05..in newspaper articles.
0:13:07 > 0:13:10I put them on my wall.
0:13:12 > 0:13:14I wanted to be like her.
0:13:32 > 0:13:34INDISTINCT MUTED CONVERSATION
0:14:17 > 0:14:18We're here to remember Fay
0:14:18 > 0:14:22and give people an opportunity to share their memories of her.
0:14:23 > 0:14:27I'd like to take a moment to thank Fay's work family at Solasta
0:14:27 > 0:14:28who facilitated this event.
0:14:30 > 0:14:32If anyone has anything they'd like to say,
0:14:32 > 0:14:33please feel free to come forward.
0:14:43 > 0:14:45Fay didn't like this sort of thing.
0:14:46 > 0:14:48She'd have laughed about all of this.
0:14:52 > 0:14:54She was one of the most impressive women I've ever met.
0:14:55 > 0:14:58Basically taught me how to survive work and uni.
0:15:00 > 0:15:02People are going to say stupid things about Fay
0:15:02 > 0:15:06but if you knew her, you knew Fay was strong...
0:15:06 > 0:15:07brave and clever.
0:15:11 > 0:15:13- 'What are you doing here? - I don't know.'
0:15:13 > 0:15:15What did he say?
0:15:15 > 0:15:16It doesn't matter any more.
0:15:26 > 0:15:27Wait.
0:15:29 > 0:15:30Are you one of them?
0:15:31 > 0:15:32You look like one of them.
0:15:34 > 0:15:36- What's your name?- Holly.
0:15:37 > 0:15:40Holly, go and sit down. James, come outside.
0:15:40 > 0:15:42- Fuck off!- Calm down, all right?
0:15:43 > 0:15:46OK, you're just like all the others. What are you doing?
0:15:46 > 0:15:48Go.
0:15:48 > 0:15:51- Just calm down. - Get off me. Seriously.
0:15:57 > 0:15:58'Fuck, you're green.'
0:16:07 > 0:16:09I'm glad you came.
0:16:09 > 0:16:11I wanted to pay my respects.
0:16:11 > 0:16:13I was meaning to check in with you...
0:16:14 > 0:16:16..about what happened.
0:16:18 > 0:16:20I wish people would just say it.
0:16:21 > 0:16:23We were both there.
0:16:23 > 0:16:24She killed herself.
0:16:25 > 0:16:29Fay killed herself because she was desperately unhappy
0:16:29 > 0:16:30and we missed it.
0:16:32 > 0:16:33I missed it.
0:16:37 > 0:16:40- Georgia's a great girl.- I know that.
0:16:41 > 0:16:44It's natural that you'd feel a little...
0:16:44 > 0:16:48thrown by all this, a little jealous, maybe.
0:16:48 > 0:16:50- I'm worried about her. - I get that, I really do.
0:16:50 > 0:16:53I just think that you should let it go.
0:16:53 > 0:16:57Try and engage with what you're feeling, with what YOU want.
0:17:00 > 0:17:01I'm just trying to help.
0:17:01 > 0:17:03I don't need your help, Professor McDermid...
0:17:04 > 0:17:07..unless you want to write my essay for me.
0:17:13 > 0:17:16It was Georgia's idea...
0:17:16 > 0:17:18for us to come to the same uni.
0:17:18 > 0:17:20And that's been tricky?
0:17:20 > 0:17:22Not in the beginning.
0:17:22 > 0:17:23What changed?
0:17:26 > 0:17:28We met you.
0:17:33 > 0:17:35SCREAMING AND LAUGHTER
0:17:59 > 0:18:01You don't get it.
0:18:03 > 0:18:04But you will.
0:18:07 > 0:18:09You're perfect.
0:18:41 > 0:18:42"I'm an intern.
0:18:43 > 0:18:45"Coffees and photocopying."
0:18:53 > 0:18:55What do you want, Holly?
0:18:55 > 0:18:56KNOCKING ON DOOR
0:18:57 > 0:18:58HARDER KNOCKING
0:19:06 > 0:19:07Hey.
0:19:07 > 0:19:09Hi.
0:19:09 > 0:19:11You texted me?
0:19:13 > 0:19:17- Wishing you didn't? - No, no, just embarrassed. Er...
0:19:21 > 0:19:23- What's the occasion?- Huh?
0:19:23 > 0:19:26You going out, or are you asking me over to fuck you?
0:19:26 > 0:19:28I don't know.
0:19:29 > 0:19:31My head's all over the place.
0:19:31 > 0:19:34We're students, we're supposed to feel like that.
0:19:34 > 0:19:35I feel a bit mental.
0:19:37 > 0:19:38You're OK.
0:19:38 > 0:19:40You're fine.
0:19:48 > 0:19:51- You not feeling this? - No, no, go for it.
0:19:51 > 0:19:54- Go for it?- I just mean...
0:19:54 > 0:19:57I usually fuck people who aren't bored by the prospect.
0:19:57 > 0:19:58Shit, I didn't mean it like that.
0:19:58 > 0:20:00It's fine. It's fine.
0:20:00 > 0:20:01KNOCKING ON DOOR
0:20:06 > 0:20:08Another one. Do you not hear the buzzer
0:20:08 > 0:20:11or do you just ignore it when you do?
0:20:11 > 0:20:13She wasn't expecting me.
0:20:20 > 0:20:22Sorry. Bit stupid I didn't text you, I know,
0:20:22 > 0:20:23but I didn't have your number.
0:20:23 > 0:20:26No, that's fine. That's totally fine.
0:20:26 > 0:20:29I felt bad about earlier.
0:20:29 > 0:20:32Must have all seemed a bit dramatic and...
0:20:33 > 0:20:34- Hey, man.- Hey.
0:20:38 > 0:20:40I just wanted to check in on you,
0:20:40 > 0:20:42maybe see if you were free tonight.
0:20:44 > 0:20:47Obviously I'm interrupting so I'm just going to fuck off.
0:20:47 > 0:20:48Sorry. I...
0:20:49 > 0:20:51Another time, yeah?
0:20:57 > 0:20:59Who was that?
0:20:59 > 0:21:00Rory.
0:21:00 > 0:21:02- Cool. How'd you know him?- I don't.
0:21:04 > 0:21:05So he just swung by?
0:21:07 > 0:21:09Sweet. I'm going to head.
0:21:09 > 0:21:13- Don't...- It's fine. It's just...weird now, you know?
0:21:13 > 0:21:16- I didn't ask... - It's fine. It just...
0:21:16 > 0:21:20shouldn't be this hard. It's cool.
0:21:38 > 0:21:39DOOR OPENS
0:21:49 > 0:21:50- He left?- Yeah.
0:21:52 > 0:21:54- Awkward.- So bad.
0:21:54 > 0:21:56Sorry, I didn't mean to cause any trouble.
0:21:56 > 0:21:59No, no, it's fine. It's not like we're...you know.
0:22:03 > 0:22:06- You're dressed up. - Yeah, I...
0:22:08 > 0:22:09Come out with me.
0:22:17 > 0:22:19Sorry. We're late.
0:22:19 > 0:22:21For what exactly?
0:22:21 > 0:22:23Katie McDermid's fundraiser.
0:22:23 > 0:22:24Alistair's wife?
0:22:24 > 0:22:28It's Edinburgh... We just drink from the free bar.
0:22:29 > 0:22:34- Don't you like free booze? - I just can't keep up with you lot.
0:22:34 > 0:22:35Today was...
0:22:35 > 0:22:37I know.
0:22:38 > 0:22:40Alistair thought about it.
0:22:40 > 0:22:42It's been planned for months.
0:22:42 > 0:22:43Too late to call it off.
0:22:53 > 0:22:54Was everything OK?
0:22:55 > 0:22:57With the guy in the church, I mean.
0:22:58 > 0:23:00James?
0:23:00 > 0:23:02Yeah, he's OK.
0:23:02 > 0:23:05I...I saw him with Fay.
0:23:05 > 0:23:08- At Charlie's party. - They were on the same team.
0:23:08 > 0:23:12- Were they...? - Just needs a bit of time off work.
0:23:12 > 0:23:13He'll be all right.
0:23:15 > 0:23:16Wait, I...
0:23:21 > 0:23:22Hi.
0:23:24 > 0:23:25Hello.
0:23:28 > 0:23:29You coming?
0:23:49 > 0:23:51Firstly, thank you so much for coming.
0:23:53 > 0:23:54I mean, let's not sugar-coat it -
0:23:54 > 0:23:57I've got you here to shamelessly ask for your money.
0:23:57 > 0:23:59LAUGHTER
0:23:59 > 0:24:00I'm slightly less embarrassed
0:24:00 > 0:24:04when I look around and recognise so many close friends of Katie's.
0:24:05 > 0:24:08Most of you watched her pour her heart and soul
0:24:08 > 0:24:09into the fight against breast cancer
0:24:09 > 0:24:16and the charities that support women tackling this horrific disease...
0:24:16 > 0:24:17every day.
0:24:19 > 0:24:23We're here because it's just over a year
0:24:23 > 0:24:24since my beautiful girl left us...
0:24:26 > 0:24:29..and because she'd strike me down if I didn't carry on the work
0:24:29 > 0:24:32that she so courageously undertook.
0:24:36 > 0:24:38Even when she was ill...
0:24:41 > 0:24:43..even when the days were very dark...
0:24:51 > 0:24:53HE CLEARS THROAT
0:24:53 > 0:24:54So...
0:24:56 > 0:24:58..I hope you'll all dig deep tonight...
0:24:59 > 0:25:01..for her
0:25:01 > 0:25:03and everything she fought for.
0:25:04 > 0:25:06Have a great night, everyone. Thank you.
0:25:09 > 0:25:11(That was beautiful.)
0:25:26 > 0:25:29- Are you OK? - I don't know what to do with myself.
0:25:30 > 0:25:33It's a party. Drink, talk, repeat - right?
0:25:33 > 0:25:35Must be nice to be a guy.
0:25:35 > 0:25:38Relax. We can just hang out together.
0:25:39 > 0:25:41OK.
0:25:43 > 0:25:47Just pretend you're not surrounded by rich people,
0:25:47 > 0:25:50and every single one of my colleagues.
0:25:50 > 0:25:51Will do.
0:25:55 > 0:25:57Hi!
0:26:01 > 0:26:04- So you know the new girl, right? - Just a bit.
0:26:07 > 0:26:10- Big night for them. - What do you mean?
0:26:10 > 0:26:14- Chance to show the whole world they're spectacular.- What world?
0:26:14 > 0:26:17Alistair's.
0:26:17 > 0:26:19Do you want me to introduce you to the big boss?
0:26:19 > 0:26:21In a minute.
0:26:24 > 0:26:26Talk to me a second.
0:26:26 > 0:26:29Oh, great, we're going straight in, I see.
0:26:29 > 0:26:31Have I done something?
0:26:31 > 0:26:34Will you just stop with all that shite?
0:26:34 > 0:26:36Are you incapable of having a good time now?
0:26:36 > 0:26:39Something really big is happening to you, we should talk about it.
0:26:39 > 0:26:41Should we really, though?
0:26:41 > 0:26:44Can we not just get on with our own shit?
0:26:44 > 0:26:46It's not a big deal, OK?
0:26:46 > 0:26:48It's weird.
0:26:48 > 0:26:50They're weird.
0:26:50 > 0:26:53You're being paranoid, you know that, right?
0:26:53 > 0:26:55I really don't think I am.
0:26:55 > 0:26:57You're scared of people.
0:26:57 > 0:26:59It's like you're 11 again,
0:26:59 > 0:27:02- convinced that everyone's going to turn out to be...- Don't.
0:27:08 > 0:27:10You want to help me?
0:27:10 > 0:27:12- With what?- Wingman me.
0:27:12 > 0:27:14Talk me up.
0:27:14 > 0:27:15For what?
0:27:16 > 0:27:18They need to think I'm clever.
0:27:22 > 0:27:25- You are clever.- Fuck off.
0:27:28 > 0:27:29There's our target.
0:27:31 > 0:27:33Louise is quick.
0:27:34 > 0:27:36Tell me what you're doing.
0:27:36 > 0:27:38Christ! Never mind.
0:27:43 > 0:27:45There you are.
0:27:45 > 0:27:47Who is that?
0:27:47 > 0:27:50That is Lucas Steiner.
0:27:50 > 0:27:54He is richer than Bono. And everyone wants his cash.
0:27:55 > 0:27:57So Solasta manages his money?
0:27:58 > 0:27:59Yeah.
0:28:00 > 0:28:04- Feels like a game. - Welcome to the real world.
0:28:06 > 0:28:09Their friend just killed herself.
0:28:09 > 0:28:13A Solasta intern and we're here drinking champagne and networking.
0:28:17 > 0:28:19Steiner was Fay's catch.
0:28:19 > 0:28:22She was on his relationship team.
0:28:22 > 0:28:24She wouldn't have wanted that to be messed up.
0:28:26 > 0:28:29So, they're competing for her job?
0:28:29 > 0:28:32Well, yeah, if you want to be really brutal about it.
0:28:32 > 0:28:34Is James on the Steiner team?
0:28:37 > 0:28:39Do you always ask so many questions?
0:28:39 > 0:28:41You just said Fay and James were on the same team.
0:28:41 > 0:28:43- So...- Steiner account, yeah.
0:28:45 > 0:28:47Does he know what happened?
0:28:48 > 0:28:50- Holly...- Is James coming tonight?
0:28:50 > 0:28:54You're a lot, you know that?
0:28:54 > 0:28:57Drink, talk, repeat - right?
0:28:57 > 0:28:59You need to work on your date conversation topics.
0:28:59 > 0:29:02- This isn't a date.- Sure?
0:29:02 > 0:29:03Totally.
0:29:32 > 0:29:35- SHE MOANS - Oh, James!
0:29:35 > 0:29:37SHE LAUGHS
0:29:37 > 0:29:39- Sorry.- Don't expect me to stop!
0:29:39 > 0:29:42THEY LAUGH Sorry.
0:29:53 > 0:29:55Hello.
0:29:55 > 0:29:57Interesting transcript girl.
0:29:57 > 0:29:59- Holly.- Holly.
0:29:59 > 0:30:02- Just caught me trying to escape my own party.- I wouldn't go in there.
0:30:02 > 0:30:04It's, em, occupied.
0:30:07 > 0:30:08Oh, well.
0:30:09 > 0:30:12I'd be scandalised but this party is for my wife
0:30:12 > 0:30:14and she loved that kind of thing.
0:30:14 > 0:30:16Would have made her laugh.
0:30:17 > 0:30:19She sounds like a great woman.
0:30:19 > 0:30:20Yeah, she was.
0:30:21 > 0:30:24Although this all makes it a bit, um...
0:30:24 > 0:30:27Kind of makes it harder, doesn't it?
0:30:27 > 0:30:30When everyone remembers them as some kind of a saint.
0:30:32 > 0:30:33Make them not real any more.
0:30:34 > 0:30:37The person you knew.
0:30:37 > 0:30:43Yeah. Yeah, that's exactly it.
0:30:43 > 0:30:44Everything all right?
0:30:44 > 0:30:48Fine, fine. Someone's fucking in there, apparently.
0:30:48 > 0:30:50Excellent.
0:30:50 > 0:30:53Let's grab another drink.
0:31:07 > 0:31:09GIRL LAUGHS HYSTERICALLY
0:31:09 > 0:31:12Stop it, Phoebs. Fucking hell. Let me sort this out.
0:31:22 > 0:31:24- Hello, Holly.- Hi.
0:31:26 > 0:31:27Everything all right?
0:31:27 > 0:31:29I was looking for Georgia.
0:31:29 > 0:31:31As per.
0:31:31 > 0:31:34- George?- I'm pissing.
0:31:39 > 0:31:41Don't suppose you've got one of those going spare?
0:31:44 > 0:31:46Be my guest, darling.
0:32:00 > 0:32:04There's always some dickhead after you when you've got coke.
0:32:04 > 0:32:07Promise not to follow you around all night.
0:32:07 > 0:32:09- CHUCKLING - It's not like she paid for it.
0:32:09 > 0:32:11Oh, I paid for it.
0:32:11 > 0:32:14- Slut.- I'm really sorry about Fay.
0:32:15 > 0:32:17I just wanted you guys to know.
0:32:17 > 0:32:18Thank you, Holly.
0:32:19 > 0:32:21How are you all doing?
0:32:23 > 0:32:25We're OK.
0:32:25 > 0:32:28Now you have to, like, work.
0:32:28 > 0:32:29It's kind of our business.
0:32:31 > 0:32:34Well, at least the coke's nice.
0:32:34 > 0:32:35- Have another.- Phoebe...
0:32:43 > 0:32:44Hey, girl.
0:32:46 > 0:32:47Hey, girl.
0:32:52 > 0:32:56- Ready?- Yeah.
0:33:16 > 0:33:18Charlie, get me a drink.
0:33:18 > 0:33:20- Hey, Mr Steiner, let's see if you can dance.- No, no...
0:33:35 > 0:33:38- Come on!- No, thank you.
0:33:42 > 0:33:45- Just, come on.- No, no, it's fine.
0:33:45 > 0:33:47You're making a tit of yourself.
0:33:47 > 0:33:53- You're a lightweight.- Do you have any idea what you're competing for?
0:33:53 > 0:33:56You're not like them, can't you see that?
0:33:56 > 0:33:59- Too far, I'm guessing?- Guys.
0:34:03 > 0:34:05Did anyone tell you what happened to Fay Brookstone?
0:34:05 > 0:34:07- Who's this girl?- Nobody.
0:34:07 > 0:34:10- Let it go. - Aren't you thinking about her?
0:34:12 > 0:34:14Like, what the fuck went wrong?
0:34:14 > 0:34:16Right. I think it's about time you clear out, guys.
0:34:16 > 0:34:17Lucas, what are we telling you?
0:34:17 > 0:34:19Get off me, George.
0:34:25 > 0:34:27Holly, let's go.
0:34:27 > 0:34:29Right, I think it's home time.
0:34:29 > 0:34:31Get her the fuck out of here.
0:35:23 > 0:35:27I'm sorry. Come back.
0:35:27 > 0:35:29Come back.
0:35:35 > 0:35:39Come back. Come back. I'm sorry.
0:35:42 > 0:35:43I'm sorry.
0:36:35 > 0:36:38I don't think we saw the best of you tonight.
0:36:38 > 0:36:41Are you talking about me offending the honoured guest
0:36:41 > 0:36:44- or boking all over myself?- Both.
0:36:46 > 0:36:47I'm not usually like that.
0:36:49 > 0:36:50I don't lose control, ever.
0:36:51 > 0:36:55- Why not? You're 19. - Because I decided.
0:36:57 > 0:36:59A long time ago.
0:36:59 > 0:37:01You can't live your life keeping control of everything.
0:37:04 > 0:37:07- Why did you come tonight? - I don't know.
0:37:08 > 0:37:10- I think it's because you're ambitious.- So?
0:37:12 > 0:37:16This isn't about your friend any more, do you get that?
0:37:24 > 0:37:26- I want in.- Ah-ha.
0:37:26 > 0:37:27The truth.
0:37:31 > 0:37:32Thank you.
0:37:36 > 0:37:37So, you're in.
0:37:38 > 0:37:41- What?- You heard me.
0:38:45 > 0:38:46Come on, Holly.
0:38:46 > 0:38:48Why do you want in?
0:38:52 > 0:38:54I want to do something for myself.
0:38:56 > 0:39:00- I need to. - You're already working it out.
0:39:00 > 0:39:03- What?- Why I'm dead.
0:39:06 > 0:39:08You can't resist.
0:39:08 > 0:39:10You have to put things right.
0:39:10 > 0:39:12Because of what you did.
0:39:18 > 0:39:21Show me who you are, Holly McStay.
0:39:57 > 0:39:59Where's the party?
0:40:01 > 0:40:03Nowhere, I have to work the last bit.
0:40:08 > 0:40:10All right.
0:40:10 > 0:40:17- I'm still here for when you want to go.- OK.