Night Thoughts

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0:00:27 > 0:00:30CLOCK CHIMES

0:00:37 > 0:00:40Forgive us, our Father, for we have sinned.

0:00:57 > 0:00:59Heal us, Lord,

0:00:59 > 0:01:02and we will be healed.

0:01:02 > 0:01:04Save us and...

0:01:10 > 0:01:12'Mrs Smith.'

0:01:12 > 0:01:14No!

0:01:14 > 0:01:16'Are you sitting comfortably?'

0:01:16 > 0:01:18Go away.

0:01:18 > 0:01:19'Then I'll begin.

0:01:19 > 0:01:22'I've started, so I'll finish.

0:01:22 > 0:01:24'Here is the news.

0:01:24 > 0:01:27'The world gets worse, every single day.

0:01:27 > 0:01:29'There are far too many people on the planet,

0:01:29 > 0:01:33'and you have delighted us long enough.

0:01:33 > 0:01:35'YOU are the weakest link.'

0:01:35 > 0:01:38- I won't do it. - 'Is that your final answer?

0:01:39 > 0:01:42'Are you looking for something?

0:01:42 > 0:01:45'The remote control?

0:01:45 > 0:01:47'Your cup?

0:01:47 > 0:01:50'Or perhaps...

0:01:51 > 0:01:54'a cuddly toy?'

0:01:54 > 0:01:56You're not real.

0:01:56 > 0:01:58It's my mind playing tricks on me.

0:01:58 > 0:02:01'Time to stop play, just for today.

0:02:01 > 0:02:04'Goodnight children, everywhere.'

0:02:04 > 0:02:06I won't do it. It's a sin.

0:02:06 > 0:02:08'You no longer believe in God.

0:02:08 > 0:02:11'And He no longer believes in you.

0:02:11 > 0:02:15'So come closer.

0:02:15 > 0:02:17'What's in the box?

0:02:17 > 0:02:20'Time to look through the square window.'

0:02:20 > 0:02:23Be quiet!

0:02:24 > 0:02:28I'm going to turn you off now.

0:02:28 > 0:02:29'Please yourself.

0:02:29 > 0:02:31'I thank you.

0:02:31 > 0:02:33'Come on down!'

0:02:39 > 0:02:42ELECTRICAL BUZZ Oh!

0:02:49 > 0:02:52Mrs Parsons, I am sure that we will be able to manage.

0:02:52 > 0:02:56If there are any problems, I can always turn to...

0:02:56 > 0:02:57Ah! Doctor Carter!

0:02:57 > 0:03:02Yes, Mrs Parsons, you have a lovely day. Goodbye.

0:03:02 > 0:03:05- Good morning, Mrs Tembe. Are you well?- Oh, extremely well!

0:03:05 > 0:03:06Now, how is your throat?

0:03:06 > 0:03:09For one awful moment on Saturday, I thought I was losing my voice.

0:03:09 > 0:03:11Then I saw the ladies of the chorus,

0:03:11 > 0:03:13with knitting needles in their hair,

0:03:13 > 0:03:16and Doctor Showbusiness got me through!

0:03:16 > 0:03:18I wanted to come again. I tried to get a ticket,

0:03:18 > 0:03:21- completely sold out. - It was raucous.

0:03:21 > 0:03:24The audience were clapping so loudly, the caretaker came on

0:03:24 > 0:03:28and reminded them it was a Grade II listed building.

0:03:28 > 0:03:30I am so pleased.

0:03:30 > 0:03:33Apart from that disgusting review in the Letherbridge News,

0:03:33 > 0:03:35it has been a huge success.

0:03:35 > 0:03:37But how are you going to follow it up?

0:03:37 > 0:03:41I suppose I'm just going to have to get back to... Mrs Cruickshank!

0:03:41 > 0:03:43(And her bunions!)

0:03:43 > 0:03:46Walk this way!

0:03:54 > 0:03:57Ooh! That's a nasty fall that you've had.

0:03:57 > 0:04:00It was nothing. I just...

0:04:00 > 0:04:01..lost my balance.

0:04:01 > 0:04:03There's a fall clinic at St Phil's.

0:04:03 > 0:04:06I can get you an appointment if you like.

0:04:06 > 0:04:08What? They teach you how to fall with dignity?

0:04:08 > 0:04:11It's just to look for the underlying reasons.

0:04:11 > 0:04:16The underlying reason is that I'm getting old, and things deteriorate.

0:04:16 > 0:04:21If you do not know this, I suggest you go back to medical school.

0:04:21 > 0:04:22How's your diabetes?

0:04:22 > 0:04:24I thought you came to look at my leg.

0:04:24 > 0:04:27I'm just concerned.

0:04:27 > 0:04:30When did you lose your husband?

0:04:30 > 0:04:33I did not LOSE my husband.

0:04:33 > 0:04:36If I'd lost him, I would go looking for him. He died.

0:04:39 > 0:04:42Look at that! Look at that!

0:04:43 > 0:04:45Let's do another one!

0:04:45 > 0:04:47Honestly,

0:04:47 > 0:04:50I don't know who's the bigger kid, him or Chloe!

0:04:50 > 0:04:52I've often wondered that!

0:04:52 > 0:04:54It's really good to have you here.

0:04:54 > 0:04:56And if things go well, you could be seeing more of us.

0:04:56 > 0:05:00Yeah, tell me about this job.

0:05:00 > 0:05:03Well, it's a failing school, it's just been put on special measures.

0:05:03 > 0:05:05And it looks like they need a new head.

0:05:05 > 0:05:08Might that not be a bit of a poisoned chalice?

0:05:08 > 0:05:11No. I mean, there's only one thing to do with a failing school

0:05:11 > 0:05:14and that's turn it into a winning one.

0:05:15 > 0:05:19It's going to be SO great having you all living here,

0:05:19 > 0:05:22but what about Patrick's job?

0:05:22 > 0:05:25Oh, he'll find something, don't worry.

0:05:25 > 0:05:28They're crying out for good teachers.

0:05:28 > 0:05:31Maybe he could do with a change himself.

0:05:34 > 0:05:37- There we go.- Thank you.

0:05:37 > 0:05:41Now somewhere in my bag,

0:05:41 > 0:05:44I've got a list of activities for the over 60s.

0:05:45 > 0:05:48I don't want to hang around with a lot of old people.

0:05:48 > 0:05:52- Do you prefer hanging around with younger people?- Not particularly.

0:05:52 > 0:05:54It's none of your business.

0:05:54 > 0:05:56I've got everything I need, I can still get to the shops.

0:05:56 > 0:05:59- We all need company. - I've got the television.

0:05:59 > 0:06:03The television doesn't talk to you.

0:06:03 > 0:06:05Mrs Smith?

0:06:09 > 0:06:11Actually...

0:06:11 > 0:06:13it does!

0:06:17 > 0:06:19So, hey, come on. Tell me about this course.

0:06:19 > 0:06:22Well, it's 2½ days at Wulfstan Hall.

0:06:22 > 0:06:25- Wow! They're really are pushing the boat out, aren't they?- Is it nice?

0:06:25 > 0:06:30I'll say! It's only the swankiest health club in the Midlands.

0:06:30 > 0:06:34- Make sure you go to the spa. - Oh, I will, don't worry.

0:06:35 > 0:06:37Just saying how good you are with Chloe.

0:06:37 > 0:06:40That bubble thing is amazing!

0:06:40 > 0:06:42I think you need more soap, darling.

0:06:42 > 0:06:44That's it.

0:06:44 > 0:06:48I suppose you'll have to find a new school for Chloe, won't you?

0:06:48 > 0:06:51- I think we should just wait and see. - Well, fingers crossed.

0:06:53 > 0:06:56It's going to be so good to have you living on my doorstep.

0:06:56 > 0:07:00- Daddy! I made a mess. - Never mind, I'm on my way.

0:07:00 > 0:07:03I'm sure we can fix it!

0:07:03 > 0:07:05What have we done?

0:07:06 > 0:07:09- OK?- Mm-hmm.

0:07:11 > 0:07:13So when does this man appear?

0:07:13 > 0:07:15All the time.

0:07:15 > 0:07:18I suddenly see him on the screen, staring at me, and talking to me.

0:07:18 > 0:07:22But if he's on the telly, then isn't he talking to everyone?

0:07:22 > 0:07:24No. He knows my name. He gives me messages.

0:07:24 > 0:07:27- What does he say? - He tells me...

0:07:28 > 0:07:30..that it's not safe out there.

0:07:30 > 0:07:33That there are hoodies and muggers and I should stay indoors.

0:07:33 > 0:07:35Are you sure it's not just the news?

0:07:35 > 0:07:38No! I do know the difference!

0:07:38 > 0:07:41And now the television can turn itself on.

0:07:41 > 0:07:44It was on before you came here.

0:07:44 > 0:07:46It's been on all night.

0:07:49 > 0:07:51It's not even plugged in.

0:07:51 > 0:07:54That doesn't stop him.

0:07:54 > 0:07:57With diabetes, your blood sugars are low,

0:07:57 > 0:08:00which can give you a hypo, resulting in blurred vision.

0:08:00 > 0:08:03I am not imagining it!

0:08:03 > 0:08:07And now, he's going to be angry with me, because...

0:08:07 > 0:08:10I told you about him. COUGHS

0:08:10 > 0:08:12I'll get you some water.

0:08:25 > 0:08:28KNOCK ON DOOR Come in!

0:08:28 > 0:08:31- Everything OK?- I think so.

0:08:31 > 0:08:33Good...

0:08:34 > 0:08:39..cos I thought I'd come in and mess it all up again.

0:08:39 > 0:08:42I'm really sorry about Friday.

0:08:42 > 0:08:46I believe I made, to use a medical term,

0:08:46 > 0:08:47a complete pig's ear of things.

0:08:47 > 0:08:50You did not. I just wasn't very receptive.

0:08:50 > 0:08:53It doesn't help that I'm not sleeping.

0:08:53 > 0:08:55Did you sleep last night?

0:08:55 > 0:08:57Not one of my better ones.

0:08:57 > 0:08:59Woke up at 4:30,

0:08:59 > 0:09:02put on a CD, Sounds Of The Rainforest.

0:09:02 > 0:09:06Suddenly found myself worrying about tree frogs.

0:09:06 > 0:09:08OK, well,

0:09:08 > 0:09:12this might surprise you, but there's an amazing medical invention

0:09:12 > 0:09:15- called the sleeping tablet. - Yes, I do know actually,

0:09:15 > 0:09:19and I'm not going there. I've seen too many people become dependent.

0:09:19 > 0:09:21You don't have to become a junkie.

0:09:21 > 0:09:25Use it short term, till you get back to a regular sleeping pattern.

0:09:25 > 0:09:27I'd rather not, thanks.

0:09:32 > 0:09:35- There you go.- Thank you.

0:09:35 > 0:09:37- Mrs Smith?- Yes?

0:09:37 > 0:09:40What are all those pills in the cupboard?

0:09:40 > 0:09:43- What pills?- In the big jar.

0:09:43 > 0:09:46They look like sleeping pills.

0:09:46 > 0:09:48Oh, those belonged to Norman.

0:09:48 > 0:09:51He had a prescription, but he didn't take them every night,

0:09:51 > 0:09:53so he saved them up for when he needed them.

0:09:53 > 0:09:57- You really shouldn't have done that. - I didn't like to interfere.

0:09:57 > 0:10:00- I'm going to take them back to the pharmacist.- Don't you dare!

0:10:00 > 0:10:02Those are his things in that cupboard.

0:10:02 > 0:10:05I'm not ready to go through them. Leave them alone.

0:10:07 > 0:10:09If you have problems, work through them,

0:10:09 > 0:10:12- don't take a load of pills.- Right.

0:10:12 > 0:10:14Although I've got this friend.

0:10:14 > 0:10:17She's a doctor, actually. Let's just call her Doctor E.

0:10:17 > 0:10:21And she prescribes sleeping tablets.

0:10:21 > 0:10:23I am not taking them. End of.

0:10:23 > 0:10:26- But they're good enough for the great unwashed?- That's not fair!

0:10:26 > 0:10:30I only use them as a last resort. I'm not that bad.

0:10:30 > 0:10:33I don't have acute pain, or suffer from night sweats.

0:10:33 > 0:10:35If they make life easier for other people,

0:10:35 > 0:10:37why not make things easy for you?

0:10:37 > 0:10:40Because they're not my way.

0:10:40 > 0:10:42I'll stick with warm baths and camomile tea.

0:10:42 > 0:10:45But I do not need medication, OK?

0:10:45 > 0:10:46OK.

0:10:48 > 0:10:51I'm off for a sandwich. I'll be back in a tick.

0:10:51 > 0:10:52Doctor Carter, before you go,

0:10:52 > 0:10:57- I would like to read you a letter in the Letherbridge News.- Go on.

0:10:57 > 0:10:59"In these troubled times,

0:10:59 > 0:11:03"it is so nice to have some old-fashioned entertainment.

0:11:03 > 0:11:07"So, thank heavens for Doctor Heston Carter,

0:11:07 > 0:11:11"whose portrayal of KoKo in The Mikado made me laugh so much,

0:11:11 > 0:11:15"I was almost in need of medical attention.

0:11:16 > 0:11:19"Truly, this man is an artist.

0:11:19 > 0:11:24"Indeed, he has Vincent Van Gogh's ear for music."

0:11:29 > 0:11:32This is a great compliment. Mr Van Gogh was a fine artist.

0:11:32 > 0:11:34I'll see you later.

0:11:34 > 0:11:38- Hi, Heston.- Hello. - Is Elaine around?

0:11:38 > 0:11:41Ah, yes. She's just... Here she is.

0:11:41 > 0:11:43- Hi, Elaine.- What can I do you for?

0:11:43 > 0:11:46Can I have a word with you about a patient?

0:11:47 > 0:11:50There you are.

0:11:50 > 0:11:53Aren't those lovely?

0:11:53 > 0:11:56Sweety, are you OK with everything?

0:11:56 > 0:12:01- Sorry, with what? - Oh, the move, Sally's new job.

0:12:01 > 0:12:02Possible new job.

0:12:02 > 0:12:06Possible new job, how do you feel about it?

0:12:06 > 0:12:09Well, I suppose I'll wait and see what happens.

0:12:09 > 0:12:12You might have to make a decision quite soon.

0:12:12 > 0:12:17Your daughter would like to do some drawing.

0:12:17 > 0:12:18All right! See you later.

0:12:18 > 0:12:21Do you need a hand?

0:12:21 > 0:12:26Yeah, you can cut the stems of those, if you wouldn't mind?

0:12:26 > 0:12:30- So when would you hear about this job?- It would be a couple of weeks.

0:12:30 > 0:12:33- And then I'd start in January. - Right.

0:12:33 > 0:12:36I am really pleased for you, Sal, honestly I am.

0:12:36 > 0:12:40Just try and make sure Patrick doesn't feel a bit left behind.

0:12:40 > 0:12:42Left behind?

0:12:43 > 0:12:46You know, the male ego is a very delicate thing!

0:12:46 > 0:12:50Sorry, have I just been through some time warp?

0:12:50 > 0:12:53Times may have changed, but human nature hasn't.

0:12:53 > 0:12:57Just be a bit careful how you handle it, that's all.

0:12:58 > 0:13:01Fine. I will proceed, on tippy-toes!

0:13:03 > 0:13:07So she's still grief-stricken from losing her husband,

0:13:07 > 0:13:09living a life of total isolation.

0:13:09 > 0:13:14Even though her sugar levels are OK, she probably isn't eating well,

0:13:14 > 0:13:16which is a further worry.

0:13:16 > 0:13:20And she's hoarding sleeping tablets so she probably isn't sleeping.

0:13:20 > 0:13:23Really, I'm surprised the walls haven't started talking to her.

0:13:23 > 0:13:26The sleeping pills, they're not hers, they were her husband's.

0:13:26 > 0:13:29She's keeping them as some sort of shrine.

0:13:29 > 0:13:32But she should not be holding onto them.

0:13:32 > 0:13:36- It is a dangerous thing to keep them in a house.- That's right.

0:13:36 > 0:13:37Are you seeing her again?

0:13:37 > 0:13:40Yeah, later this week to change her dressing.

0:13:40 > 0:13:43- Keep an eye on her.- Thank you.

0:13:48 > 0:13:50You know, Nurse Malone,

0:13:50 > 0:13:54Grief can play terrible tricks with the mind.

0:13:56 > 0:14:00When my mother passed away,

0:14:00 > 0:14:05for weeks afterwards, I would wake at three o'clock in the morning,

0:14:05 > 0:14:09and I could smell bogobe and morogo.

0:14:09 > 0:14:13A fine dish she used to make for us.

0:14:13 > 0:14:18I knew it was not real, but I could smell it so clearly.

0:14:18 > 0:14:21So it was almost like having her back?

0:14:22 > 0:14:25It was as if she was trying to send me a message.

0:14:25 > 0:14:28Whether it was in my mind

0:14:28 > 0:14:31or from another world,

0:14:31 > 0:14:34it seemed to say,

0:14:34 > 0:14:37"You must eat.

0:14:37 > 0:14:38"You need to survive this."

0:14:38 > 0:14:41Mmm.

0:14:42 > 0:14:47The thing is, the messages that this woman's getting...

0:14:47 > 0:14:50..they don't seem very friendly.

0:14:50 > 0:14:54CHATTER FROM TV

0:15:03 > 0:15:05'Mrs Smith?

0:15:06 > 0:15:09'Wakey, wakey!'

0:15:10 > 0:15:11What do you want?

0:15:11 > 0:15:14'She knows, you know.'

0:15:14 > 0:15:16- Who?- 'The cursed nurse.'

0:15:16 > 0:15:18Please.

0:15:18 > 0:15:19I tried to make her go away.

0:15:19 > 0:15:22'Must try harder.'

0:15:22 > 0:15:24She kept on and on and on.

0:15:24 > 0:15:27'Then you must say no, and no, and no.

0:15:28 > 0:15:31'Those pills are your exit strategy.

0:15:32 > 0:15:34'And it's time for you to go now.'

0:15:34 > 0:15:36I can't.

0:15:36 > 0:15:38'Come in, Mrs Smith, your time is up.'

0:15:38 > 0:15:40I can't open the jar.

0:15:40 > 0:15:42'There's no such word as "can't".

0:15:42 > 0:15:46'And now, some music.'

0:15:47 > 0:15:49MUSIC BLARES

0:15:49 > 0:15:53# If I had a hammer I'd hammer in the morning... #

0:16:04 > 0:16:08Are you still concerned about the woman who hears voices?

0:16:08 > 0:16:10Mmm.

0:16:11 > 0:16:13Oh, dear.

0:16:13 > 0:16:15What is the matter?

0:16:15 > 0:16:18I'm going to have to go back there.

0:16:18 > 0:16:21RADIO BLARES

0:16:28 > 0:16:31# Well I got a hammer

0:16:31 > 0:16:34# And I got a bell... #

0:16:44 > 0:16:47Sal, I don't want to come across as an interfering mother-in-law.

0:16:47 > 0:16:49I know! I know!

0:16:49 > 0:16:52It's just sometimes you have to be a bit delicate.

0:16:52 > 0:16:54- What do you mean? - You know what Mac was like.

0:16:54 > 0:16:58He always wanted to play the big man. It was me pushing him.

0:16:58 > 0:17:00Mind you, men don't like to know that.

0:17:00 > 0:17:03They like to think they're in the driving seat.

0:17:03 > 0:17:06Yes, well Patrick isn't Mac, thank goodness.

0:17:06 > 0:17:09No, he isn't, but...he is a man.

0:17:09 > 0:17:13And sometimes they need buttering up.

0:17:17 > 0:17:19Doctor Carter! How is your sandwich?

0:17:19 > 0:17:22Let me see.

0:17:22 > 0:17:25It tastes exactly like...

0:17:27 > 0:17:29..cardboard!

0:17:29 > 0:17:32Doctor Carter, I hope you will forgive me for saying this,

0:17:32 > 0:17:34but you do not seem your usual self right now.

0:17:34 > 0:17:36Usual self? Who's he?

0:17:36 > 0:17:40- Oh, Doctor Carter! - Oh, I don't know.

0:17:40 > 0:17:42Suddenly, my life seems a bit...

0:17:42 > 0:17:44..lacking in seasoning.

0:18:06 > 0:18:07Mrs Smith!

0:18:13 > 0:18:16Mrs Smith!

0:18:18 > 0:18:22- What time is it? - How many of these have you taken?

0:18:23 > 0:18:25Just the one.

0:18:25 > 0:18:27They're everywhere!

0:18:28 > 0:18:32I couldn't get the lid open, so I had to smash the jar.

0:18:33 > 0:18:35I've had a look at your records.

0:18:36 > 0:18:40The tablets... they're not your husbands.

0:18:40 > 0:18:43They're yours, so why have you been hoarding them?

0:18:45 > 0:18:49HE told me to. The man on the television.

0:18:49 > 0:18:54He said there were too many people in the world, and I was a burden.

0:18:54 > 0:18:55You're not a burden.

0:18:55 > 0:18:59The man on the television is not real. You don't have to listen.

0:18:59 > 0:19:01It's so hard!

0:19:01 > 0:19:06When you have this voice all the time, telling you you're worthless.

0:19:06 > 0:19:09I think you should consider bereavement counselling.

0:19:09 > 0:19:11You and your husband were together for fifty years.

0:19:11 > 0:19:15I can't even imagine what that must be like, you must really miss him.

0:19:15 > 0:19:18Why do people keep saying that?

0:19:18 > 0:19:21- What?- "You poor dear, it must be dreadful,

0:19:21 > 0:19:24"you must be so lonely..."

0:19:24 > 0:19:28I don't miss him, because I never loved him.

0:19:28 > 0:19:30I hated him.

0:19:32 > 0:19:36But you have so many good things in your life!

0:19:36 > 0:19:42Well, I can still chew solid food, dress myself.

0:19:42 > 0:19:46But when you have bestrode the Letherbridge stage like a Colossus...

0:19:46 > 0:19:50What are they doing for their next production?

0:19:50 > 0:19:52The Sound of Music.

0:19:52 > 0:19:55Oh, Doctor Carter!

0:19:55 > 0:19:58That is one of my favourite musicals.

0:20:00 > 0:20:03The story of a young woman,

0:20:03 > 0:20:05pure of heart,

0:20:05 > 0:20:07who falls in love...

0:20:09 > 0:20:11..who falls in love with her employer.

0:20:11 > 0:20:14She tries to resist her feelings,

0:20:14 > 0:20:15but...

0:20:18 > 0:20:22..the physical attraction is too strong.

0:20:22 > 0:20:24Yeah.

0:20:24 > 0:20:28You should audition for the role of Captain Von Trapp.

0:20:28 > 0:20:30You would be so masterful.

0:20:30 > 0:20:33That's very kind of you, but...

0:20:33 > 0:20:35..I don't think so.

0:20:39 > 0:20:42It's not his fault he used to snore like a rhinoceros.

0:20:44 > 0:20:48It's not his fault he always smelt of damp.

0:20:48 > 0:20:51But it IS his fault he never let me out of the house.

0:20:51 > 0:20:55Wouldn't let me have my own friends, my own money.

0:20:55 > 0:20:58And he made me wear the dowdiest clothes,

0:20:58 > 0:21:01because who would want to look at me?

0:21:01 > 0:21:05- Why did you marry him? - Because...

0:21:08 > 0:21:10..I was alone in the world.

0:21:13 > 0:21:14These are my parents.

0:21:18 > 0:21:21A few months before they were taken to Auschwitz.

0:21:21 > 0:21:23I came to England on the kindertransport.

0:21:23 > 0:21:26A strange alien child.

0:21:27 > 0:21:29And when a few years later,

0:21:29 > 0:21:33a man asked me to marry him, of course I said, "Yes."

0:21:33 > 0:21:36I had nothing.

0:21:38 > 0:21:41And the one thing I got from him

0:21:41 > 0:21:44was the name Smith.

0:21:44 > 0:21:49I was so glad to have an English name. It was like...

0:21:49 > 0:21:52..getting a fake passport.

0:21:52 > 0:21:54But it was not a happy marriage.

0:21:56 > 0:21:57Though...

0:21:59 > 0:22:02..compared with my parents,

0:22:02 > 0:22:04I was lucky.

0:22:05 > 0:22:08Mrs Tembe, you know I can't sing.

0:22:08 > 0:22:12I got away with it once, but it's The Sound of Music.

0:22:12 > 0:22:15Not The Sound Of Rodgers And Hammerstein Being Murdered!

0:22:15 > 0:22:17But the songs are SO beautiful,

0:22:17 > 0:22:21that all you need to do is be swept along with them.

0:22:22 > 0:22:25# Let's start at the very beginning! #

0:22:28 > 0:22:32# Let's start at the very beginning! #

0:22:32 > 0:22:35- I don't know that one. - Yes, you do! I will help you.

0:22:37 > 0:22:41# Doe, a deer, a female deer

0:22:41 > 0:22:45# Ray, a drop of golden sun

0:22:45 > 0:22:47# Me, a name I call myself... #

0:22:47 > 0:22:49Mrs Tembe, I don't think so.

0:22:49 > 0:22:52Why not?

0:22:52 > 0:22:54It's all been rather wonderful,

0:22:54 > 0:22:59but it's taken over my life the last few months and really...

0:22:59 > 0:23:01I should get back to being a doctor.

0:23:06 > 0:23:09I'm sorry that things have been bad for you.

0:23:09 > 0:23:11But I don't want you to have those pills.

0:23:11 > 0:23:17Why? Why would you care?

0:23:17 > 0:23:21It would be one less dressing for you to change.

0:23:21 > 0:23:24One less repeat prescription.

0:23:24 > 0:23:28I DO care. I wouldn't do this job if I didn't want people to get better.

0:23:28 > 0:23:30The thought of you using drugs that we prescribed...

0:23:30 > 0:23:34I probably wasn't going to do it.

0:23:34 > 0:23:38I know the voices in my head are just voices.

0:23:38 > 0:23:42But it's nice to have a choice.

0:23:43 > 0:23:47My parents had no choice at all about the way they left this world,

0:23:48 > 0:23:50and maybe,

0:23:50 > 0:23:53if they'd had a pill, they would have taken it.

0:23:54 > 0:23:59So, I need to know,

0:23:59 > 0:24:03when things get too bad, I have another way.

0:24:03 > 0:24:05And if you take the wrong dose?

0:24:05 > 0:24:10You end up in a coma, in a semi-vegetative state?

0:24:12 > 0:24:17I have no idea how bad your life has been,

0:24:17 > 0:24:21but I do know that it can get better.

0:24:21 > 0:24:25Why don't you try making one friend?

0:24:26 > 0:24:31Join one group, go for one visit outside the house.

0:24:31 > 0:24:33And...

0:24:33 > 0:24:37if I don't like the world outside the house?

0:24:37 > 0:24:39Then come back again.

0:24:39 > 0:24:41But at least you'll have tried.

0:24:45 > 0:24:46Why not?

0:24:46 > 0:24:52It's better than staying at home with the television.

0:24:52 > 0:24:56May I...have that leaflet?

0:24:57 > 0:25:02May I...have the pills?

0:25:08 > 0:25:10Hey!

0:25:10 > 0:25:13Oh, Nurse Malone. How did it go?

0:25:13 > 0:25:18Well...OK. She's not there yet, but she's getting better.

0:25:18 > 0:25:23- Well, I will see you in the morning. - See you.

0:25:23 > 0:25:25We'll see you next week.

0:25:25 > 0:25:28How was your pill hoarding patient?

0:25:28 > 0:25:30It's not just sleeping pills,

0:25:30 > 0:25:33there's all sorts in there, going back thirty years...

0:25:33 > 0:25:35I don't think she threw anything away.

0:25:35 > 0:25:37Were you able to get through to her?

0:25:37 > 0:25:40I hope so. I've got some house calls so I can keep an eye on her.

0:25:40 > 0:25:45- I'll take these to the pharmacy. It's on my way home.- Thank you.

0:25:45 > 0:25:49- Bonsoir, ma cherie. - Hey, Freya! How are you doing?

0:25:49 > 0:25:51On a scale of 1 to 10?

0:25:51 > 0:25:55Nought. I tried to patch things up with Elaine. Probably made it worse.

0:25:55 > 0:25:58You can't just flick a switch and make someone happy.

0:25:58 > 0:26:01They've got to find their own road to happiness.

0:26:01 > 0:26:04Well, I don't know the road to happiness, but I DO know

0:26:04 > 0:26:06the road to the pub!

0:26:06 > 0:26:09Oooh! I can hear a white wine spritzer calling my name.

0:26:09 > 0:26:11Be rude not to listen!

0:26:39 > 0:26:42'You shouldn't have done that, you know!'

0:26:48 > 0:26:51All those in favour of Mrs Tembe

0:26:51 > 0:26:55as infection control and health and safety lead?

0:26:55 > 0:26:57Unanimous!

0:26:57 > 0:26:58I hope you don't regret this.

0:26:58 > 0:27:02Doctor Heston Carter, I presume!

0:27:02 > 0:27:04I saw your KoKo and was very impressed,

0:27:04 > 0:27:06as the actress said to the bishop!

0:27:06 > 0:27:08Did you see what Mrs Tembe's done?

0:27:08 > 0:27:11Do something or I'll ring her scrawny neck like a chicken!

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