0:00:27 > 0:00:33# When the rain is blowing in your face
0:00:33 > 0:00:37# And the whole world is on your case
0:00:39 > 0:00:43# I could offer you a warm embrace
0:00:45 > 0:00:50# To make you feel my love
0:00:52 > 0:00:58# When the evening shadows and the stars appear
0:00:58 > 0:01:02# And there is no-one there to dry your tears
0:01:04 > 0:01:10# I could hold you for a million years
0:01:10 > 0:01:15# To make you feel my love
0:01:17 > 0:01:23# I know you haven't made your mind up yet
0:01:23 > 0:01:28# But I would never do you wrong
0:01:29 > 0:01:35# I've known it from the moment that we met
0:01:35 > 0:01:39# No doubt in my mind where you belong... #
0:01:42 > 0:01:45- Hey, honey.- Hello.- I'm home.
0:01:46 > 0:01:50They wouldn't let me drive. ..Hey, little man!
0:01:55 > 0:02:00# ..No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
0:02:00 > 0:02:05# To make you feel my love... #
0:02:07 > 0:02:10- Are you going to do any work today or what?- How can I?
0:02:10 > 0:02:13I keep on picturing us,
0:02:13 > 0:02:14Chateau Chaumont,
0:02:14 > 0:02:16that amazing hall.
0:02:17 > 0:02:22And I was thinking that maybe we should invite some more people.
0:02:22 > 0:02:25What, because the room's bigger?
0:02:25 > 0:02:28Well, there are those other school friends.
0:02:28 > 0:02:30The ones you said were snobby?
0:02:30 > 0:02:34Well, they'll be blown away by Chateau Chaumont.
0:02:34 > 0:02:37Wanting to show off is no basis for a guest list, Cherry.
0:02:37 > 0:02:42- Kate and Wills invited the Beckhams. - Yeah, you seem to forget how much we're paying for the place already.
0:02:42 > 0:02:43I know.
0:02:44 > 0:02:48I just... I want it to be perfect.
0:02:49 > 0:02:53OK, I'll look at the budget spreadsheet at lunchtime, but I'm not promising anything.
0:02:53 > 0:02:55Thank you.
0:03:02 > 0:03:04Thanks, love.
0:03:04 > 0:03:07I mean, I'm sorry. I know you'd have preferred to be upstairs.
0:03:07 > 0:03:10This is easier for getting me out afterwards.
0:03:16 > 0:03:17Right, I'll check on Todd.
0:03:25 > 0:03:26Hey, you.
0:03:28 > 0:03:29What's up?
0:03:32 > 0:03:35Angel, you're supposed to be cheering ME up.
0:03:37 > 0:03:39Hold my hand.
0:03:41 > 0:03:44You can't catch it.
0:03:45 > 0:03:47I know.
0:03:47 > 0:03:50Please.
0:04:03 > 0:04:07I suddenly felt very sad that tomorrow's the last day of Christmas
0:04:07 > 0:04:09so I bought you this.
0:04:09 > 0:04:13A belated thank you for a wonderful time.
0:04:13 > 0:04:17Elaine! You've thanked me ten times over already.
0:04:17 > 0:04:20Not properly. Anyway, it's a joint present for you and Chloe.
0:04:22 > 0:04:24Oh!
0:04:24 > 0:04:25That is lovely.
0:04:25 > 0:04:29It's for grandparents to write down their memories for their grandchildren.
0:04:30 > 0:04:32(Thank you.)
0:04:32 > 0:04:35- Any news from Sally or Chloe? - No, not yet.
0:04:36 > 0:04:38Aah.
0:04:38 > 0:04:42But I'm being very good at not thinking about it too much.
0:04:44 > 0:04:46Todd...
0:04:46 > 0:04:49this lady has come here especially to see to you.
0:04:49 > 0:04:54- Sorry what was your name again? - Marina. ..Hello, Todd.
0:04:56 > 0:04:59- Would you like a tea or something? - No, I'm fine, thanks.
0:04:59 > 0:05:02- Is this is a good time for you? - Yes, I'd like to get it out the way.
0:05:02 > 0:05:05Of course. So...
0:05:06 > 0:05:10..are you happy that your daddy's home again, Todd?
0:05:10 > 0:05:14He drew a lovely picture for him this morning, didn't you? Hmm?
0:05:14 > 0:05:15I'd like to see that.
0:05:15 > 0:05:18Do you want to go and get it and we'll show it to Daddy, OK?
0:05:20 > 0:05:23HE IMITATES AN AEROPLANE
0:05:26 > 0:05:29So, what have they been saying at nursery?
0:05:29 > 0:05:32Just that they'd noticed some changes in his behaviour recently.
0:05:32 > 0:05:35- MM-hm.- No, no, it's quite common.
0:05:35 > 0:05:38Especially when there are major issues in the house like this.
0:05:39 > 0:05:41How's he been, recently?
0:05:41 > 0:05:43Well, he's been up and down like a yo-yo, actually.
0:05:43 > 0:05:47Yesterday he asked if his daddy was going to die because he'd been naughty at nursery.
0:05:47 > 0:05:49There it is.
0:05:50 > 0:05:54Oh! Look at that.
0:05:54 > 0:05:55Mm-hm.
0:05:55 > 0:05:57Nice one little man.
0:05:57 > 0:06:00HE IMITATES AN AEROPLANE AGAIN
0:06:00 > 0:06:04Looks like he takes after his dad. Did you design all these buildings?
0:06:04 > 0:06:08Every single one of them, in his shed outside.
0:06:08 > 0:06:11They'll be here after he's gone.
0:06:11 > 0:06:13You enjoyed your job, then?
0:06:16 > 0:06:19Locking the shed up for the last time was...
0:06:20 > 0:06:22..was more painful than any chemotherapy.
0:06:24 > 0:06:27Mind you, with all those drugs...
0:06:27 > 0:06:30I was forgetting to put a roof on some of them at the end.
0:06:34 > 0:06:36Er, excuse me, did yesterday suddenly not happen?!
0:06:36 > 0:06:39I love Chateau Chaumont too, but the only way we'll afford it
0:06:39 > 0:06:41is if we cut back on the rest of the wedding.
0:06:41 > 0:06:45Where?! Tell me one example where we're spending too much.
0:06:45 > 0:06:49Ah... I don't know the details, but I've only got as far as the totals.
0:06:49 > 0:06:53Some of the decorative stuff you chose is probably over the top.
0:06:53 > 0:06:55I'VE chosen? You were in the room too, Jimmi Clay.
0:06:55 > 0:06:57Yeah, we'll talk later. I've got to go.
0:07:08 > 0:07:11He's being so brave.
0:07:11 > 0:07:13Yes. (Yes...)
0:07:13 > 0:07:15So about Todd...
0:07:15 > 0:07:20look, it's understandable for him to be a bit confused.
0:07:20 > 0:07:24I mean, death's pretty complicated even for adults.
0:07:24 > 0:07:26How upfront have you been about it all?
0:07:27 > 0:07:29I haven't.
0:07:30 > 0:07:34Kelly, this is Marina, Todd's health visitor.
0:07:35 > 0:07:37Hello, Kelly.
0:07:42 > 0:07:46I haven't really known where to start, actually.
0:07:46 > 0:07:49Alan's parents died years before Todd was born.
0:07:49 > 0:07:53Mine are still fighting fit. He's never even had a pet die on him.
0:07:53 > 0:07:56It's not as if we're religious, can't talk about an after-life.
0:07:56 > 0:07:59I can make a few suggestions, if you like.
0:07:59 > 0:08:02Yes. OK. Thank you.
0:08:04 > 0:08:06So, how's Kelly been about it all?
0:08:08 > 0:08:10She blames her dad.
0:08:12 > 0:08:15- That's a natural response. - So they say.
0:08:15 > 0:08:17Especially if they're close.
0:08:17 > 0:08:20- They WERE close.- Mmm.
0:08:20 > 0:08:22It can have that effect.
0:08:22 > 0:08:26When he was first diagnosed, she stuck to him like glue.
0:08:26 > 0:08:29It was like she was scared of missing out on a single minute.
0:08:29 > 0:08:32Spend all her free time down in the shed with him,
0:08:32 > 0:08:35listening to music, reading books, whatever.
0:08:37 > 0:08:39Music's her thing.
0:08:40 > 0:08:42Well, it was...
0:08:44 > 0:08:46She has the most beautiful singing voice.
0:08:46 > 0:08:50I mean, she does, it's not just me saying that.
0:08:50 > 0:08:54But when he got really sick, all that just stopped.
0:08:54 > 0:08:59It was like she went into a sort of shell. It was like she was trying to punish him.
0:09:00 > 0:09:03He lost her, basically, and so did I.
0:09:05 > 0:09:07Have you talked to her about this?
0:09:07 > 0:09:10Have you got teenagers?
0:09:10 > 0:09:12Yes, I-I did have.
0:09:12 > 0:09:16She's got other stuff going on, too. I mean, she's started smoking.
0:09:16 > 0:09:18I don't know...
0:09:23 > 0:09:25Would you like me to have a word with her?
0:09:25 > 0:09:27Would you?
0:09:28 > 0:09:30If you want.
0:09:30 > 0:09:31Good luck.
0:09:37 > 0:09:40- £1,000 on the wedding cake?!- Yes.
0:09:41 > 0:09:45Well, I can't remember any of the cakes from any of the weddings I've ever been to.
0:09:45 > 0:09:48Ah, but you will remember this one.
0:09:48 > 0:09:50Does anyone even eat the cake at weddings?
0:09:50 > 0:09:52Yes!
0:09:53 > 0:09:56And who... Who is your band? Coldplay?
0:09:56 > 0:09:57That is the going rate.
0:09:57 > 0:10:00Right, and is that the going rate for centrepieces?
0:10:00 > 0:10:05- What's wrong with a candle stick? - You haven't been to many weddings, have you?
0:10:05 > 0:10:08- I have, actually.- But not fancy ones.
0:10:08 > 0:10:11Oh-ho! If they were fancy enough for me...
0:10:11 > 0:10:14Nice dress on her, bit of booze, bit of dancing.
0:10:14 > 0:10:17And all right, I might not be the wedding planner of the century,
0:10:17 > 0:10:20but you could save a shed load of money there easily.
0:10:23 > 0:10:25I just don't know where to start.
0:10:25 > 0:10:28You start with the cake. Believe me.
0:10:32 > 0:10:35KNOCK AT THE DOOR
0:10:36 > 0:10:37- MARINA:- Kelly?
0:10:39 > 0:10:42- Yeah?- Can I have a quick word?
0:10:49 > 0:10:52I'm not going to be long, promise.
0:10:55 > 0:10:57May I?
0:11:02 > 0:11:04Your mum says you used to sing.
0:11:07 > 0:11:09I'm really sorry about your dad.
0:11:11 > 0:11:15Look, I'm not here to tell you it's going to be easy.
0:11:15 > 0:11:17You know that's not true.
0:11:17 > 0:11:19But...
0:11:19 > 0:11:23if there's anything that you want to share about how you're feeling...
0:11:23 > 0:11:26- You're not a psychiatrist... - I know. No...
0:11:26 > 0:11:29..you're just here to see Todd.
0:11:29 > 0:11:32And hopefully to listen...
0:11:32 > 0:11:33and understand.
0:11:34 > 0:11:38You see, my mum died as well...
0:11:38 > 0:11:41when I was young, younger than you.
0:11:42 > 0:11:44And I also blamed her.
0:11:44 > 0:11:47I thought she'd deliberately abandoned me, you know.
0:11:47 > 0:11:49It was so confusing.
0:11:49 > 0:11:54So...if you do have any negative feelings about your dad,
0:11:54 > 0:11:57don't keep them bottled up, mmm?
0:11:57 > 0:11:59You're not alone.
0:12:01 > 0:12:04I'm sort of...pleased he's dying.
0:12:05 > 0:12:07Why?
0:12:08 > 0:12:10Because he's evil.
0:12:14 > 0:12:17- Why is he evil, Kelly? - He tricked me.
0:12:18 > 0:12:19When?
0:12:22 > 0:12:27When he got sad he used to make me feel sorry for him and....
0:12:30 > 0:12:32Have you told anyone else about this, Kelly?
0:12:32 > 0:12:36I want to tell my mum so that she hates him, too.
0:12:36 > 0:12:38I understand.
0:12:38 > 0:12:41Most of all, I want to tell him what I think of him.
0:12:41 > 0:12:44I want to say it to his face... while I can.
0:12:44 > 0:12:47What did he do to you, Kelly?
0:12:47 > 0:12:49Don't you believe me?
0:12:49 > 0:12:52- Of course I do.- No! No, you don't.
0:12:52 > 0:12:56- I do.- You think the sun shines out of his backside as well. Get out.
0:12:56 > 0:12:58Get out of my room!
0:13:10 > 0:13:14OK, bye. Ooh-ooh, parcel waiting for you.
0:13:14 > 0:13:16Tried to deliver it at lunchtime, but I was out.
0:13:16 > 0:13:20- Oh...- Well, it could be good news? - Well, it might not be from Chloe, you know.
0:13:20 > 0:13:24I know, but I called the delivery office and they'll drop it round later.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26Thanks, Karen.
0:13:30 > 0:13:33Are you serious? So you can do either one of them for £800?
0:13:33 > 0:13:37That's great. I'll come over and take a look at the samples and we'll take it from there.
0:13:37 > 0:13:39OK, thank you. Bye. Guess what?
0:13:39 > 0:13:43I have managed to save hundreds of pounds on a cake
0:13:43 > 0:13:46- in just one phone call. - Great. Make more phone calls!
0:13:46 > 0:13:49So they can do us a classic white cake or a cascade of cupcakes.
0:13:49 > 0:13:51And?
0:13:52 > 0:13:57- Well? - Erm... Either. Not bothered.
0:13:57 > 0:14:00- So you don't have a preference? - Yeah - cheap.
0:14:07 > 0:14:10The nurse'll be here in ten minutes.
0:14:10 > 0:14:13Did you hear that, Al? They're on their way.
0:14:16 > 0:14:18- Is Todd OK?- Yeah. He's taking a nap.
0:14:21 > 0:14:23We were laughing.
0:14:24 > 0:14:27I love you so much. THEY KISS
0:14:28 > 0:14:29Mum...
0:14:29 > 0:14:31What, love?
0:14:31 > 0:14:34..can you leave me alone with Dad, please?
0:14:34 > 0:14:36What, now?
0:14:38 > 0:14:41No. No, no, not now. I'm sorry, love.
0:14:45 > 0:14:48Well, there's something you need to know, then.
0:14:49 > 0:14:52What is it?
0:14:52 > 0:14:54SOUNDING ALARMED: Kelly?
0:14:56 > 0:14:58Kelly?
0:14:59 > 0:15:01Kelly?!
0:15:01 > 0:15:03OK.
0:15:09 > 0:15:11Kelly...
0:15:11 > 0:15:14Leave me alone! Stop interfering in my life!
0:15:14 > 0:15:18You want to get your own back for whatever terrible thing your dad did to you.
0:15:18 > 0:15:22- It wasn't a one-off. - I understand.- Course you do(!)
0:15:22 > 0:15:25But please don't say something that you'll regret.
0:15:25 > 0:15:28You think it'll help you, but in my experience it won't help you in the future,
0:15:28 > 0:15:31and there are professionals that can help you
0:15:31 > 0:15:33deal with whatever it is you've been through.
0:15:33 > 0:15:35But please...
0:15:35 > 0:15:38let your dad die in peace.
0:15:40 > 0:15:45And don't make your mum suffer any more than she has already.
0:15:45 > 0:15:49However angry you are, whatever you're feeling inside.
0:15:50 > 0:15:52Whatever I'm feeling inside?!
0:15:52 > 0:15:57My mum hasn't seen me in short sleeves for two years.
0:15:57 > 0:15:59And you know what?
0:15:59 > 0:16:02She hasn't even noticed.
0:16:02 > 0:16:05She thinks I've started smoking.
0:16:05 > 0:16:07I HATE smoking.
0:16:07 > 0:16:09I just need the cigarettes.
0:16:10 > 0:16:12Don't you dare follow me.
0:16:21 > 0:16:23Is she here?
0:16:23 > 0:16:25- Kelly?- The nurse.
0:16:25 > 0:16:29I'll go and try them again. I've got another number upstairs.
0:16:34 > 0:16:37I'm really sorry to be disturbing you, Mr Gilmour,
0:16:37 > 0:16:40and I know you're in a great deal of pain, but...
0:16:42 > 0:16:46..Kelly is very unhappy about something.
0:16:48 > 0:16:50Mr Gilmour...
0:16:54 > 0:16:57..she's been self-harming.
0:16:57 > 0:17:00I'm worried about what she's going to do next.
0:17:03 > 0:17:07She says it's because of something that happened between you and her.
0:17:08 > 0:17:10FOOTSTEPS APPROACH
0:17:18 > 0:17:19The nurse is here, Alan.
0:17:21 > 0:17:23Alan? Can you hear me?
0:17:30 > 0:17:32What's happened?
0:17:32 > 0:17:35I have hunted and I have gathered.
0:17:35 > 0:17:38- Go on.- So I've just come from the cake shop
0:17:38 > 0:17:41and after some brilliant haggling, I managed to get them down
0:17:41 > 0:17:44on a classic white cake with a pink trim for...guess how much.
0:17:44 > 0:17:46- 50 quid?- No.
0:17:46 > 0:17:49- Well, how much?- £750.
0:17:49 > 0:17:52- What, for one cake?!- Yes!
0:17:52 > 0:17:56This is what I'm talking about - We can't spend anything like that kind of money!
0:17:56 > 0:17:59No-one even eats wedding cake.
0:17:59 > 0:18:01DOOR BANGS
0:18:20 > 0:18:23- What is it?- We need to find Kelly.
0:18:23 > 0:18:25- I know, but...- Do you think you can try her mobile again?
0:18:25 > 0:18:29- I've tried it!- Do you have any idea where she might be? - No! Do you know what I think?
0:18:29 > 0:18:34I think she doesn't want to remember her father like this, and I can't blame her for that.
0:18:55 > 0:18:57Kelly...
0:19:13 > 0:19:16It happened in here, didn't it?
0:19:20 > 0:19:23He used to tell me to turn up the music.
0:19:25 > 0:19:28Give me the lighter.
0:19:29 > 0:19:32I want him to watch me die.
0:19:35 > 0:19:38- I've spoken to your dad. - You're lying.
0:19:40 > 0:19:43I was wrong before.
0:19:43 > 0:19:46You're just saying that.
0:19:46 > 0:19:48Look, you have to confront him.
0:19:48 > 0:19:50You have to look him in the eye.
0:19:50 > 0:19:53How are you going to carry on otherwise?
0:19:57 > 0:20:00Come inside... while there's still time.
0:20:03 > 0:20:05No.
0:20:48 > 0:20:51- How's it going? - Oh, he's a bit better.
0:20:52 > 0:20:56The nurse said he could relapse at any time, though.
0:20:57 > 0:21:01Jo, could Kelly have a moment alone with her dad?
0:21:02 > 0:21:04Is that what you want?
0:21:08 > 0:21:10Yeah. Yeah. Sure.
0:21:29 > 0:21:30Kelly...
0:21:39 > 0:21:41I don't want forgiveness.
0:21:45 > 0:21:46I am so, so sorry.
0:22:33 > 0:22:35Are you all right?
0:22:36 > 0:22:41I've dreamt of my wedding since I was four. And now...
0:22:45 > 0:22:50- It's going to be wonderful. - It's going to be cheap and nasty.
0:22:50 > 0:22:53Well, I think that everything that's happened
0:22:53 > 0:22:55is to your advantage.
0:22:55 > 0:22:57Right.
0:22:57 > 0:23:00Come on, look around you. What's "in" at the moment?
0:23:01 > 0:23:03Vintage.
0:23:03 > 0:23:06Everywhere you look, it's 1940s or 1950s.
0:23:06 > 0:23:10So it's out with the bling and in with the charity shop.
0:23:10 > 0:23:12And?
0:23:12 > 0:23:15Save yourself some money.
0:23:15 > 0:23:18You'd still have a trendy wedding - just more...
0:23:18 > 0:23:19homespun.
0:23:19 > 0:23:21How?
0:23:21 > 0:23:25Well, you've got to know someone who'd bake you the cake?
0:23:25 > 0:23:28Mrs Tembe! She... Come on, she would love to do it.
0:23:29 > 0:23:32And... SHE CLEARS HER THROAT
0:23:32 > 0:23:35I have taken it upon myself to dive into the surreal world
0:23:35 > 0:23:39of table centrepieces.
0:23:39 > 0:23:43Now, I know that some of those are a bit simpler than you'd like,
0:23:43 > 0:23:47but...there's a few that I think are really good.
0:23:47 > 0:23:50Yeah. They are.
0:23:50 > 0:23:52They're dead easy to make.
0:23:52 > 0:23:55You and I could do it, no probs.
0:23:56 > 0:23:58So...you'd help me?
0:23:58 > 0:24:01Yeah. I think it'd be a laugh.
0:24:05 > 0:24:08I'm not budging on the dress, though.
0:24:08 > 0:24:09Fair enough.
0:24:21 > 0:24:23I've got to go now, Jo.
0:24:23 > 0:24:26Oh, er, I will talk to Todd.
0:24:27 > 0:24:29Good.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31Thank you, Marina.
0:24:34 > 0:24:36I don't think I'm ready for this.
0:24:38 > 0:24:40I don't think anyone can be.
0:24:41 > 0:24:42I'm so sorry.
0:24:47 > 0:24:51Now, are you going to promise me you'll do more of those drawings?
0:24:53 > 0:24:57# Round my hometown
0:24:57 > 0:25:02# Memories are fresh
0:25:02 > 0:25:05# Round my hometown
0:25:05 > 0:25:07# Ooh, the people... #
0:25:07 > 0:25:09SINGING CONTINUES
0:25:34 > 0:25:37# ..Yeah
0:25:37 > 0:25:42# Yeah, yeah
0:25:42 > 0:25:46# Are the wonders of my world
0:25:46 > 0:25:50# Are the wonders of my world
0:25:50 > 0:25:54# Are the wonders of this world
0:25:54 > 0:25:57# Are the wonders
0:25:57 > 0:26:03# Of my world
0:26:03 > 0:26:05# Of my world
0:26:05 > 0:26:11# Yeah, of my world
0:26:11 > 0:26:13# Of my world
0:26:13 > 0:26:15# Yeah. #
0:26:22 > 0:26:26Apparently there's a meteorite heading straight for the Midlands!
0:26:26 > 0:26:28- Really?!- Mmm!
0:26:28 > 0:26:30It won't do any damage, will it?
0:26:30 > 0:26:34- What have you done to yourself?- I had an argument with a champagne cork.
0:26:34 > 0:26:37My choir will be happy to sing for you.
0:26:37 > 0:26:41They will make a noise that will fill the church.
0:26:41 > 0:26:43We're not getting married in a church.
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