0:01:24 > 0:01:26ALARM BEEPS
0:01:38 > 0:01:41Morning, gorgeous.
0:01:41 > 0:01:43Make me a coffee first.
0:01:43 > 0:01:46You didn't say that last night.
0:01:46 > 0:01:47Pretty please.
0:01:47 > 0:01:49How can I resist?
0:01:49 > 0:01:51You know you can't.
0:02:03 > 0:02:04RETCHING
0:02:07 > 0:02:10Breakfast and a jog! You know you want to!
0:02:13 > 0:02:15Jamie?
0:02:17 > 0:02:21- Hi, Dad.- You're on the ball today. Come on.
0:02:31 > 0:02:34- I thought we were having breakfast in bed. - Whatever gave you that idea?
0:02:36 > 0:02:41- I don't do breakfast. Anyway, you've got to take me home first.- Why?
0:02:41 > 0:02:45- I can't go to work like this. - I don't know, might spice things up.
0:02:45 > 0:02:46Kevin.
0:02:46 > 0:02:49Fine, I'll get ready.
0:02:50 > 0:02:51Quickie?
0:02:52 > 0:02:54No.
0:03:05 > 0:03:08Come on, get stuck in.
0:03:08 > 0:03:10Mount Kilimanjaro, here I come!
0:03:10 > 0:03:12Amazing or what?
0:03:12 > 0:03:15- Eh?- You say that every day.
0:03:15 > 0:03:17Whoa! Boring? Moi?
0:03:17 > 0:03:20- Anyway, Alton Towers, here- I- come.
0:03:20 > 0:03:23- Auntie Pauline's going to spoil you rotten.- Brilliant.
0:03:23 > 0:03:27- She's got strict instructions, mind. - PHONE RINGS
0:03:32 > 0:03:34Dominic, hi!
0:03:36 > 0:03:39Yeah, the medical form. It's all in hand, mate.
0:03:39 > 0:03:41Just a formality, yeah?
0:03:44 > 0:03:50I understand that. I'll fax it over later today. No problem.
0:03:50 > 0:03:54- What's wrong?- Nothing. Just last-minute red tape.
0:03:54 > 0:03:56I hope you're going to finish that!
0:03:56 > 0:03:59- Kids in the third world... - Are starving. Yeah, I know.
0:03:59 > 0:04:02All right.
0:04:12 > 0:04:15Urgh!
0:04:18 > 0:04:19I could set my watch by you two!
0:04:19 > 0:04:21Hi, Karen.
0:04:21 > 0:04:25Told you you'd be too hot in that top! He's self-conscious.
0:04:25 > 0:04:28- This time next week you'll be in Africa!- Yeah.
0:04:28 > 0:04:32I'm glad I caught you. The organisers want me to do a health check before I go.
0:04:32 > 0:04:34Bit last minute, isn't it?
0:04:34 > 0:04:37That's what I said. I don't suppose there's any chance?
0:04:37 > 0:04:42- Oh, go on, since it's you! I'm at the Campus. - You're a mate! See ya later.
0:04:42 > 0:04:44- Bye!- Keep pace, Jamie!
0:04:52 > 0:04:55I'm sorry, I don't know.
0:04:55 > 0:04:57I'm not the receptionist. I can get her to call you back.
0:04:57 > 0:05:01Hello? Charming!
0:05:01 > 0:05:05Take a tip from a professional. Never say you don't know - it sounds unprofessional.
0:05:05 > 0:05:07- At least I show up on time! - Blame Kevin.
0:05:07 > 0:05:09He takes longer than me to get ready.
0:05:09 > 0:05:12Just as well he has other talents.
0:05:12 > 0:05:17Kevin, a word. We should meet to discuss your progress.
0:05:17 > 0:05:21- My progress, yeah.- Shall we say my room, 11 o'clock?
0:05:21 > 0:05:23Yeah. If you can wait that long.
0:05:27 > 0:05:30- Hello.- Oh, hello.
0:05:40 > 0:05:44- Any plans? - Oh, you know, shopping, hoovering...
0:05:44 > 0:05:50I recommend a stroll around the Barber Institute, followed by afternoon tea at Tabby's Nook.
0:05:50 > 0:05:54Some of us don't have a little woman coming in to clean!
0:05:54 > 0:05:56Mrs Hartley.
0:05:59 > 0:06:01Whoa, where's the fire?!
0:06:01 > 0:06:06The computer system went down in the Arts Faculty office. I've been there nearly two hours!
0:06:06 > 0:06:10- Thought I was going to miss you. - Get your breath back. - It's OK, I'm fine.
0:06:10 > 0:06:14- Neil, I've got 20 sponsors for your trip.- Fantastic! - I'll get you the form in a minute.
0:06:14 > 0:06:18- Thanks for that, Julia. - Come on, let's go through.
0:06:21 > 0:06:23She did what?
0:06:23 > 0:06:29I kid you not. I'm telling you, there is absolutely nothing that girl won't do.
0:06:29 > 0:06:34Talk about broad-minded!
0:06:34 > 0:06:36You've just turned green, mate.
0:06:36 > 0:06:42- What?- Jealous?- We're supposed to be discussing your portfolio.
0:06:42 > 0:06:46You were dying for me to dish the dirt. That's why you set up the meeting.
0:06:46 > 0:06:50Frankly, you sound like a schoolboy who's had his first conquest.
0:06:50 > 0:06:52I've been there, done that, bought the T-shirt.
0:06:52 > 0:06:54I bet you haven't!
0:06:54 > 0:06:58Which part of not interested don't you understand?
0:06:58 > 0:07:03- OK.- Right, I've got a patient coming, Mrs McKenna.
0:07:03 > 0:07:05She's suffering from polyarteritis.
0:07:05 > 0:07:08Does polyarteritis mean anything to you?
0:07:08 > 0:07:11Sorry, I didn't realise that was a question.
0:07:11 > 0:07:15- It's a connective tissue disease. - Sure. I knew that.
0:07:15 > 0:07:18I'd like you to sit in on that consult, but in the meantime,
0:07:18 > 0:07:20pull her notes and check up on her history.
0:07:20 > 0:07:27She's taking steroids, but there are newer alternative treatments available such as TNF modifiers.
0:07:27 > 0:07:31- If she's responding to the steroids, it might be best to leave alone. - 'PLAYFUL LAUGHTER'
0:07:31 > 0:07:35If she's experiencing side effects, perhaps we need to re-think...
0:07:37 > 0:07:39Your BMI is too low.
0:07:39 > 0:07:41Better than too high, right?
0:07:41 > 0:07:44There is such a thing as being underweight, you know.
0:07:44 > 0:07:46I've got a very fast metabolism.
0:07:46 > 0:07:51I could do with some of that. Do you want to take a seat and roll your sleeve up, please?
0:07:51 > 0:07:54Bet you can't wait for next week!
0:07:54 > 0:07:58Karen, this trip is the absolute pinnacle of my life.
0:07:58 > 0:08:00Proof I've been able to bounce back.
0:08:00 > 0:08:04There were times I thought I wouldn't hack it after Shirley.
0:08:04 > 0:08:09- You're a brilliant dad. That's proof enough.- I don't want to get bound up in my own stuff.
0:08:09 > 0:08:14This gives me a chance to help people in the Third World.
0:08:14 > 0:08:16How does Jamie feel about you going?
0:08:16 > 0:08:19He's just can't wait to get spoilt by our Pauline.
0:08:19 > 0:08:22Has he got a girlfriend yet?
0:08:22 > 0:08:24Well, he does spend a lot of time in his room.
0:08:24 > 0:08:28Angst-ridden texts, probably. Or, worse still, poems!
0:08:28 > 0:08:31- I just hope I can handle all that. - Yeah.
0:08:32 > 0:08:35- That's high.- You're kidding me.
0:08:35 > 0:08:37You were a bit worked up when you came in.
0:08:37 > 0:08:40I get a clean bill of health, though?
0:08:40 > 0:08:43It's a standard letter, already printed out. It just needs a signature.
0:08:51 > 0:08:53What can I do for you, Dr Tyler?
0:08:53 > 0:09:00- I want to have you on this desk, right now.- In front of the patients?
0:09:00 > 0:09:05- Why not? You're not shy, are you? - Gross! Don't you think that's a bit inappropriate?
0:09:05 > 0:09:10Don't you think you should be doing some filing? Anything else, Doctor?
0:09:10 > 0:09:13- Wondered about later?- Later? - What do you fancy doing tonight?
0:09:13 > 0:09:16Who said anything about tonight? Mrs McKenna, you can go through now.
0:09:16 > 0:09:18But I thought...
0:09:18 > 0:09:21Don't get me wrong, you're very sweet.
0:09:21 > 0:09:25- Just a little wet behind the ears. - PHONE RINGS
0:09:25 > 0:09:29Good morning, Mill Health Centre. Hi, Mr Shepherd.
0:09:29 > 0:09:33- Kevin, do you want to... - No!- Kevin. Mrs McKenna. Now.
0:09:33 > 0:09:36Yeah, OK, sorry.
0:09:36 > 0:09:39Other people's love lives. Way too complicated.
0:09:46 > 0:09:49- There you go, Brad, you're booked in.- Thank you.
0:09:49 > 0:09:51Is Dr Carter free to see Neil?
0:09:51 > 0:09:54- No, he's gone out on an urgent visit.- I don't need to see a doctor.
0:09:54 > 0:09:57I've got to send it through this afternoon.
0:09:57 > 0:10:01- Sorry, I can't sign it. - Aw, come on! Do I look unfit to you?
0:10:01 > 0:10:06I'm really sorry. The best we can do is get you in to see Dr Carter the minute he comes back.
0:10:06 > 0:10:11- I'm sure it's going to be fine. - You've got lots of time. I'll give you a call.
0:10:11 > 0:10:12It's best to be sure.
0:10:12 > 0:10:14Don't have much choice, do I?
0:10:21 > 0:10:23KNOCKING Come in.
0:10:25 > 0:10:29- I put my foot in it, didn't I?- When?- Before.
0:10:29 > 0:10:33I... I meant Kevin, not...
0:10:33 > 0:10:38- I just want to make sure you're not upset with me.- I don't know what you're talking about.
0:10:38 > 0:10:39That's a relief.
0:10:44 > 0:10:48Look, Jimmi... I just want you to know that I'm here for you...
0:10:48 > 0:10:51Er, I really need to get on.
0:10:51 > 0:10:53Sure.
0:10:53 > 0:10:56Home visits take a chunk out of your day.
0:10:57 > 0:10:59Well, I'll leave you to it.
0:11:06 > 0:11:10- How are you? - It's a wonder I'm here in one piece!
0:11:10 > 0:11:12- Oh?- A guy stepped right out in front of my car.
0:11:12 > 0:11:17Totally in his own world! I only just missed him!
0:11:17 > 0:11:23- You're all right to do this?- Oh, yes, fine! All's well that ends well.
0:11:23 > 0:11:30Good... So, apart from that, how has your week been?
0:11:30 > 0:11:35It's er...it's where to start, really. Oh, may I?
0:11:35 > 0:11:37Please.
0:11:42 > 0:11:45- You're not having it! - Get some real food...
0:11:45 > 0:11:49Hey! Pack it in!
0:11:49 > 0:11:53- Go on, clear off!- Weirdo!- Weirdo!
0:11:53 > 0:11:56- Are you all right? - Yeah, just...messing about.
0:11:56 > 0:12:00Aww, it didn't look like it. Is that your lunch?
0:12:00 > 0:12:02Yeah.
0:12:02 > 0:12:04Do you want me to take you back to school?
0:12:05 > 0:12:07No... Not really.
0:12:07 > 0:12:12- Well, come back to mine for your lunch.- To your house?
0:12:12 > 0:12:17Come on, it's all right. Pick your stuff up - I'll give your dad a ring, it'll be fine.
0:12:23 > 0:12:25- KNOCK AT DOOR - Come in.
0:12:25 > 0:12:31Thanks for seeing me, Doctor. Only I've got to get this letter faxed off to the charity...
0:12:31 > 0:12:33Can we rewind a bit and talk about your results?
0:12:33 > 0:12:38- If we must.- I'm a bit concerned by your blood pressure. - There's nothing wrong with me.
0:12:38 > 0:12:41Let's hope so. I think we should organise some tests.
0:12:41 > 0:12:46- Why do I need tests?- To see if there are any underlying medical causes. And an ECG wouldn't go amiss.
0:12:46 > 0:12:49- This is ridiculous. I'm A1 fit. - Really?
0:12:49 > 0:12:54Yes - I train every day, I have a healthy diet. I don't drink, I don't smoke. I don't do drugs...
0:12:54 > 0:12:57You have high blood pressure and are seriously underweight.
0:12:57 > 0:12:59I don't think you're entitled to lecture me about weight.
0:12:59 > 0:13:03I'm not the one proposing the trek up Mount Kilimanjaro.
0:13:03 > 0:13:06People are dying of hunger while we're splitting hairs.
0:13:06 > 0:13:09Look, I admire your philanthropic zeal...
0:13:09 > 0:13:12If you don't sign the letter, I can't go.
0:13:12 > 0:13:14Your health has to be my priority...
0:13:14 > 0:13:16Ridiculous!
0:13:17 > 0:13:20MOBILE RINGS
0:13:20 > 0:13:26'Hi, Neil. I've brought Jamie back to mine for lunch. There was a fight, but he's fine...'
0:13:27 > 0:13:31Whoa, Neil, hang on! Form.
0:13:34 > 0:13:38I found out Harrison was married, so I finished with him.
0:13:38 > 0:13:40He begged me to go back with him.
0:13:40 > 0:13:44He said his marriage was as good as over.
0:13:44 > 0:13:46And this wasn't the case?
0:13:46 > 0:13:50I was in the middle of a family therapy session when she burst in.
0:13:50 > 0:13:54Fiona, his wife.
0:13:54 > 0:13:56She was heavily pregnant.
0:13:56 > 0:13:59- She confronted you - there and then? - They've split up.
0:13:59 > 0:14:03Any normal man would be devastated. Not him!
0:14:03 > 0:14:05He sent me a bouquet -
0:14:05 > 0:14:08like there was... something to celebrate!
0:14:09 > 0:14:13I mean...what kind of person does he think I am?
0:14:15 > 0:14:18Everyone's avoiding me at work.
0:14:18 > 0:14:21Julia's giving me the cold shoulder.
0:14:21 > 0:14:23Because she disapproves of the affair?
0:14:23 > 0:14:26She's disappointed in me.
0:14:26 > 0:14:29She feels for Fiona. She's been there.
0:14:29 > 0:14:31You don't think she'll come round?
0:14:33 > 0:14:36Why should she bother?
0:14:36 > 0:14:38Maybe I'm just not worth it.
0:14:47 > 0:14:49I'm not supposed to eat this stuff.
0:14:49 > 0:14:51- What do you normally have?- You saw.
0:14:51 > 0:14:53Brown rice and veg.
0:14:53 > 0:14:55Every meal.
0:14:55 > 0:14:58Is that why some of the kids pick on you?
0:14:58 > 0:15:01Yeah, but that's only cos they pig out on rubbish.
0:15:03 > 0:15:06What's the matter, Jamie?
0:15:06 > 0:15:08Erm...I've had enough chips.
0:15:08 > 0:15:11That's OK. Do you want some afters - ice cream or...
0:15:11 > 0:15:13No, I never eat sweet things.
0:15:13 > 0:15:15Are you sure?
0:15:15 > 0:15:19Can I use your bathroom, please?
0:15:19 > 0:15:22Yeah, course, it's just here. I'll turn the light on for you...
0:15:22 > 0:15:25- There you go.- Thanks.
0:15:26 > 0:15:28RETCHING
0:15:28 > 0:15:30BANGING AT DOOR Coming...
0:15:37 > 0:15:39- Hi, Neil. - What have you given him to eat?
0:15:41 > 0:15:45- Chips!- Do you not want to know what's happened?
0:15:45 > 0:15:49- Have you any idea what this muck could do to his system? - He was starving!
0:15:49 > 0:15:53I hate the way well-padded middle-class people use that word!
0:15:53 > 0:15:57Starving is nothing to eat or drink! Starving is lying down to die!
0:15:57 > 0:16:01- Neil, will you calm down? Jamie...- Jamie!
0:16:01 > 0:16:03Neil...
0:16:03 > 0:16:06- Are you all right?- I'm all right...
0:16:06 > 0:16:08No, you're not. Come on, sit down.
0:16:09 > 0:16:13BREATHES HEAVILY
0:16:14 > 0:16:17You say Fiona confronted you at work.
0:16:17 > 0:16:22Do you feel this taints you professionally as well as personally?
0:16:22 > 0:16:25It's no more than I deserve.
0:16:25 > 0:16:30What - so, the affair cancels out all the positive things you've done?
0:16:30 > 0:16:31Everybody else thinks it does.
0:16:31 > 0:16:33- What do- you- think?
0:16:35 > 0:16:37Maybe I'm fooling myself.
0:16:37 > 0:16:39In what way?
0:16:39 > 0:16:46Maybe I'm not this caring, sharing, spiritual woman I like to think I am, maybe...
0:16:46 > 0:16:49maybe I'm a serial mistress, out for what I can get.
0:16:49 > 0:16:53Would you be here if you didn't care?
0:16:53 > 0:16:55Well, these could be crocodile tears.
0:16:55 > 0:16:57So you could be fooling me, too?
0:16:58 > 0:17:00No!
0:17:00 > 0:17:07Ignore me! Just add stupidity to the rest of my many faults.
0:17:07 > 0:17:09Elaine...
0:17:10 > 0:17:12..you made a mistake.
0:17:14 > 0:17:16- A mistake(!)- Yes.
0:17:16 > 0:17:20And the consequences of that mistake are devastating, but...
0:17:20 > 0:17:23punishing yourself may not be the best way to deal with them.
0:17:23 > 0:17:28I'm supposed to be intuitive - how could I have a relationship with such a louse?
0:17:28 > 0:17:31Why couldn't I see him for what he was?
0:17:31 > 0:17:33If I had, none of this would have happened.
0:17:34 > 0:17:39Where relationships are concerned...nobody's perfect.
0:17:39 > 0:17:43If I were you, I wouldn't have any more to do with me.
0:17:43 > 0:17:44Elaine...
0:17:44 > 0:17:45Please.
0:18:00 > 0:18:03He's at home. I'd better get back.
0:18:03 > 0:18:05Do you get breathless often?
0:18:05 > 0:18:09- Now and again.- Is that why you've been putting off the health test?
0:18:09 > 0:18:12It's nothing.
0:18:12 > 0:18:15Don't bite my head off, but I think you need to go back and see Dr Carter.
0:18:15 > 0:18:19What does an obese man know about fitness? Talk about hypocritical.
0:18:19 > 0:18:23OK... Let's talk about food.
0:18:23 > 0:18:26Yeah - listen, I shouldn't have shouted like that
0:18:26 > 0:18:30but have you seen the so-called nutrition content in some frozen food?
0:18:30 > 0:18:34Brown rice and veg for every meal?!
0:18:34 > 0:18:37Well, I was never much of a cook. It's easy and healthy, yeah?
0:18:37 > 0:18:41Jamie is a growing boy. He needs a proper balanced diet.
0:18:41 > 0:18:43And that's what he gets.
0:18:44 > 0:18:49He gobbled that food like he hadn't had a meal in a week.
0:18:49 > 0:18:51And then he just suddenly stopped, and looked guilty.
0:18:51 > 0:18:53Well, he knows he shouldn't eat chips.
0:18:53 > 0:18:59- Neil...!- A high percentage of young people in this country are obese. I do not want that for my son.
0:18:59 > 0:19:03- He went straight to the toilet and was sick.- No wonder.
0:19:03 > 0:19:05I saw him eating a Malteser off the pavement!
0:19:05 > 0:19:08- Are you mad? - SHE SIGHS
0:19:08 > 0:19:13- Neil, I think he's suffering from bulimia. - I'm sick of listening to rubbish!
0:19:13 > 0:19:16- What with you and Mr Pickwick down at the surgery!- Neil...
0:19:16 > 0:19:17I've got a trip to organise!
0:19:17 > 0:19:22No, you haven't. Because you're not going to Kilimanjaro, not next week you're not.
0:19:22 > 0:19:26Because you know that letter's not going to get signed.
0:19:26 > 0:19:31More importantly, Jamie is in trouble and he needs his dad.
0:19:35 > 0:19:36(Oh, God, what have I done?)
0:19:38 > 0:19:41I've absolutely no idea how to handle this.
0:19:41 > 0:19:45I just don't know what to say... to my own son.
0:19:47 > 0:19:49I'll come back with you, OK?
0:19:56 > 0:20:01I'm sorry I ate the chips. I know they're bad for me.
0:20:02 > 0:20:07- You're not angry, are you, Dad? - Neil...?
0:20:10 > 0:20:14Kilimanjaro is the highest mountain in Africa, has three volcanic cones...
0:20:14 > 0:20:17- Dad...!- Kibo, Mawenzi and Shira... - Neil, can you hear me?
0:20:17 > 0:20:20- Kibo, Mawenzi, Shira...- Stop it!
0:20:20 > 0:20:23Will you go to your room, love?
0:20:23 > 0:20:26Mawenzi and Shira are extinct, but Kibo could erupt again.
0:20:26 > 0:20:27What's wrong with him?
0:20:27 > 0:20:31I don't know, but he won't want you to see him like this.
0:20:31 > 0:20:33Look, I'll promise I will get help...
0:20:33 > 0:20:36Marangu is the easiest route to the top,
0:20:36 > 0:20:39although the ascent to the crater rim is more challenging...
0:20:43 > 0:20:48Heston, you need to come out to Neil Rufford's. It's an emergency...
0:20:48 > 0:20:51HE SOBS
0:20:58 > 0:21:01- So, buddy boy, what are you thinking?- It's hopeless.
0:21:01 > 0:21:06- In what way?- I've absolutely no idea where I stand with her.
0:21:06 > 0:21:10OK, so you've not given a moment's thought to the TNF modifiers?
0:21:10 > 0:21:14- Eh?- Mrs McKenna.- Ah, yeah...
0:21:14 > 0:21:19- So?- Any ideas? - Actually...no, not yet.
0:21:19 > 0:21:22- You're sailing really close to the wind here.- I'm doing my best.
0:21:22 > 0:21:24Your mind isn't on...
0:21:25 > 0:21:27You were saying?
0:21:27 > 0:21:33All right, jot down some notes tonight, and I'll overlook it this once. We'll talk in the morning.
0:21:33 > 0:21:37- That's cool. Thanks, Daniel. - Don't mess up.
0:21:41 > 0:21:44So...haven't you got anything better to do later?
0:21:45 > 0:21:49- I don't think so. - You sure about that?
0:22:04 > 0:22:08Right, I've sedated him. He's much calmer, more lucid now.
0:22:08 > 0:22:12He's agreed to be admitted, so we don't need to section him.
0:22:12 > 0:22:15Heston, was it me? Did I say the wrong things...
0:22:15 > 0:22:18I was the one who didn't give him a clean bill of health.
0:22:18 > 0:22:23We can blame ourselves till we're blue in the face - the thing is, he's been ill for some time.
0:22:23 > 0:22:24What about Jamie?
0:22:24 > 0:22:29Well, he's got to be treated for his eating disorder - we need to talk to him
0:22:29 > 0:22:33with a responsible adult in attendance. Obviously, that can't be Neil.
0:22:33 > 0:22:35But Neil tells me there's a sister who can look after him...
0:22:35 > 0:22:38I want to stay here!
0:22:38 > 0:22:40Well, your dad needs to go to hospital.
0:22:40 > 0:22:43- No, I can look after him! - You can't, love. I'm so sorry.
0:22:43 > 0:22:45This is your fault for giving me chips!
0:22:45 > 0:22:47He needs to rest.
0:22:47 > 0:22:50But I've got to see him!
0:22:50 > 0:22:52Heston...?
0:22:54 > 0:22:58- KNOCKING - Thanks, sis. Really, we don't know what we'd do...
0:22:58 > 0:23:02I'm going to have to go, Jamie's here. See you later.
0:23:02 > 0:23:06Dad, it's OK. You haven't got to go to hospital now.
0:23:07 > 0:23:12Yeah, I think I do, mate. You can come and visit me, yeah?
0:23:12 > 0:23:15I want you to stay here.
0:23:17 > 0:23:20When I was about your age,
0:23:20 > 0:23:23Nan and Grandad were splitting up, and...
0:23:23 > 0:23:28I developed some really strange habits around food.
0:23:28 > 0:23:32Hiding it, and stuff.
0:23:32 > 0:23:35I'm so sorry, Jamie.
0:23:35 > 0:23:39I never got treatment, because...no-one believed that
0:23:39 > 0:23:41boys did that kind of thing.
0:23:41 > 0:23:46Thing is, I thought I'd made myself well. I thought I was doing right by you...
0:23:46 > 0:23:49I know. It's all right.
0:23:49 > 0:23:53No, it isn't. Not yet.
0:23:55 > 0:23:57When are you coming back?
0:23:57 > 0:24:00I don't know.
0:24:00 > 0:24:03But I will. I promise you. OK?
0:24:04 > 0:24:08Listen. you've got to try really hard, and let people help you.
0:24:08 > 0:24:15And that way, you won't end up...like this. OK?
0:24:16 > 0:24:19The ambulance is here.
0:24:19 > 0:24:22So - go and get spoilt by Auntie Pauline, yeah?
0:24:22 > 0:24:29But...I'll get fat, won't I?
0:24:29 > 0:24:31No. Course you won't.
0:24:34 > 0:24:39- Perhaps Mrs Hollins'll help you pack some stuff.- Yeah. Come on, Jamie.
0:24:39 > 0:24:42Thanks, Karen. You're a good mate.
0:24:45 > 0:24:47HE SOBS
0:24:52 > 0:24:58I think... you set impossibly high standards for yourself.
0:24:58 > 0:25:02All this is as much a shock for you as it is for anyone else.
0:25:02 > 0:25:05Would you agree with that?
0:25:05 > 0:25:08Shall I tell you what really happened on the way here?
0:25:08 > 0:25:10If you'd like to.
0:25:10 > 0:25:13I zoned out at the wheel.
0:25:15 > 0:25:18I heard a man shout -
0:25:18 > 0:25:21well, it was more of a frightened squeal, actually.
0:25:21 > 0:25:24And the next thing, he was at the windscreen.
0:25:24 > 0:25:28- Another second and I could have... - Could have?
0:25:29 > 0:25:32I could have killed him.
0:25:32 > 0:25:34But that's not what happened.
0:25:37 > 0:25:39Every time I close my eyes I see her face.
0:25:39 > 0:25:41Whose face?
0:25:41 > 0:25:45Fiona. Full of hatred.
0:25:47 > 0:25:50How does that make you feel?
0:25:50 > 0:25:53Powerless.
0:25:53 > 0:25:54Why powerless?
0:25:54 > 0:25:58There's nothing I can do to change what I've done. I'm scared.
0:25:59 > 0:26:03I'm scared I'm going to see that face for the rest of my life.
0:26:03 > 0:26:06Because you think Fiona will never forgive you?
0:26:07 > 0:26:11Because I can't forgive myself!
0:26:11 > 0:26:13For what?
0:26:15 > 0:26:16Elaine...
0:26:18 > 0:26:20..what's the worst thing for you?
0:26:35 > 0:26:37Elaine...
0:26:39 > 0:26:41..what is the worst thing?
0:26:44 > 0:26:47'A child could grow up without a father because of me...'
0:26:55 > 0:27:00..and I don't think I can live with myself.
0:27:06 > 0:27:08It was on the news - the Scraper.
0:27:08 > 0:27:10They think he's killed another woman.
0:27:10 > 0:27:12We're an ordinary family.
0:27:12 > 0:27:14Things like this don't happen to people like us.
0:27:14 > 0:27:17Our forensics expert's working his magic even as we speak,
0:27:17 > 0:27:20and he's good. He's very good.
0:27:20 > 0:27:21But I never hurt her!
0:27:21 > 0:27:23One, two, three, four.
0:27:23 > 0:27:27- How did her blood get on your jacket? - Well, it weren't how YOU think...
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