0:00:43 > 0:00:47I'm going to be so late. I think I've done everything.
0:00:47 > 0:00:49Lunch is in the fridge. 20 minutes in the oven at 180.
0:00:49 > 0:00:52- Do you want me to write that down? - What?
0:00:54 > 0:00:56I'll write it down.
0:00:58 > 0:00:59Everything is done.
0:00:59 > 0:01:03All you have to do is concentrate on studying.
0:01:03 > 0:01:05- It's empty.- What is?
0:01:05 > 0:01:10- She used all the milk. - There's another one in the fridge.
0:01:10 > 0:01:13I've made some seed and nut-enriched flapjacks.
0:01:13 > 0:01:15There isn't.
0:01:16 > 0:01:20- They're in the fridge. Apparently they're good for your brain.- Great.
0:01:27 > 0:01:29Have fun.
0:01:36 > 0:01:38SHE WINCES
0:01:42 > 0:01:48- Are you all right? - Yeah, fine. Just a bit sore.
0:01:48 > 0:01:53- Chafing?- Mmm.- You should get yourself a good sports bra. They really help.
0:01:53 > 0:01:57- Right.- Do I know you?
0:01:57 > 0:02:01- Erm...- You didn't used to teach at St Mary's, did you?- No.
0:02:01 > 0:02:05I used to be an athlete.
0:02:05 > 0:02:11Oh! You're Deanna Ryan! I don't believe it. Of course.
0:02:11 > 0:02:14Your picture was in the paper last week. You're running that marathon
0:02:14 > 0:02:19- for that...erm...that charity. - The Mary Brown Trust.
0:02:19 > 0:02:21I can't believe it. I can't believe I didn't recognise you.
0:02:21 > 0:02:26I saw you win the silver medal. Well, I saw you on the telly.
0:02:26 > 0:02:31- I was gutted when you didn't win gold.- Me too.
0:02:31 > 0:02:33- You should have won it.- Sorry.
0:02:33 > 0:02:35No. I don't mean it like that. SHE WINCES
0:02:35 > 0:02:38Do you want some cream for that? I've got some inside.
0:02:38 > 0:02:40- I'm a nurse. I work here. - I don't think it's really...
0:02:40 > 0:02:43SHE LAUGHS I can't believe I told you to get a good sports bra.
0:02:43 > 0:02:47- You must think I'm such an idiot. - It's fine, it's fine.
0:02:47 > 0:02:51Some cream would be great.
0:02:51 > 0:02:52This way.
0:03:10 > 0:03:12I wanted to be an athlete because of you.
0:03:12 > 0:03:16Well I wanted to do the heptathlon too. I didn't though.
0:03:16 > 0:03:18- Well, obviously.- What happened?
0:03:18 > 0:03:21I grew up. It was a little girl thing really.
0:03:21 > 0:03:23But I didn't have the confidence for it.
0:03:24 > 0:03:29- Do you still do sports?- Not really.
0:03:29 > 0:03:32- I'd love to run a marathon. - Then you should.
0:03:32 > 0:03:35- I don't know. I'd probably give up half way.- Everyone feels that.
0:03:35 > 0:03:38You just have to tell yourself to keep going right through to
0:03:38 > 0:03:41- the finish line. - Easy for you to say.
0:03:41 > 0:03:45No, it's not, but I tell you what - when you get there,
0:03:45 > 0:03:47it's the best feeling in the world.
0:03:47 > 0:03:50This way.
0:04:02 > 0:04:07- Oh! That looks painful. - It is painful. Really painful.
0:04:07 > 0:04:09It's fractured in two places.
0:04:09 > 0:04:16- How did you do it?- A fight. Some thug went mental on me.
0:04:16 > 0:04:18Never gave me a chance to defend myself.
0:04:18 > 0:04:21- Well, if you will get into fights - He started it.
0:04:21 > 0:04:25The police are going to do him. They said he might go down for good.
0:04:27 > 0:04:31- At least that is something though. - Doesn't stop the pain, though.
0:04:33 > 0:04:35You poor man.
0:04:36 > 0:04:38Funny being in a doctor's.
0:04:38 > 0:04:42- I usually avoid the places like the plague.- Why?
0:04:42 > 0:04:45I've always thought that good exercise and a healthy lifestyle
0:04:45 > 0:04:48is the best way of taking care of yourself.
0:04:48 > 0:04:50I'd be out of a job if everyone thought like that.
0:04:52 > 0:04:58- Are you sure that's just chafing? It's not swollen, no lumps?- No.
0:04:58 > 0:05:06- It could be an infection. Mastitis. - It's fine really. It'll go away.
0:05:06 > 0:05:09- Do you know how to check your breasts?- Mmm.
0:05:09 > 0:05:12- Do you do it regularly?- Yes, miss.
0:05:12 > 0:05:17- Sorry. Am I being bossy? - No, no, just very...professional.
0:05:19 > 0:05:22Unlike the star-struck little girl I was talking to outside.
0:05:22 > 0:05:25Sorry! You must get sick of people like me.
0:05:25 > 0:05:28No are you kidding. You made my day.
0:05:30 > 0:05:32OK.
0:05:32 > 0:05:35I don't know what to do with the pair of them.
0:05:35 > 0:05:38- The closer these exams get, the more stressed they are.- Mmm.
0:05:38 > 0:05:42It's like living in a minefield. I think I'm going mad.
0:05:42 > 0:05:46- Sounds like they need a break. - I'm the one who needs the break.
0:05:46 > 0:05:48A bit of exercise, maybe? Clear their heads.
0:05:48 > 0:05:52I've tried all that, fresh air, exercise. Makes no difference.
0:05:52 > 0:05:55- Five minutes later they're back at one another's throats.- What kind of exercise?
0:05:57 > 0:06:00Oh, all the normal things.
0:06:00 > 0:06:05Maybe I should go really wild, and try something like Kung Fu. Or yoga.
0:06:05 > 0:06:07Yoga's not wild.
0:06:07 > 0:06:11It's a very sensible form of exercise.
0:06:11 > 0:06:14Well, that won't work. They know the meaning of 'sensible'.
0:06:14 > 0:06:17- This is Deanna Ryan.- Hello.
0:06:17 > 0:06:18She's famous.
0:06:18 > 0:06:23She won a silver medal in the heptathlon! In the Olympics!
0:06:23 > 0:06:27- Ooh!- She's running a marathon next month.
0:06:27 > 0:06:30- It was in the Letherbridge Gazette. - I remember reading about that.
0:06:30 > 0:06:33- Maybe we could sponsor you. - If you like.
0:06:33 > 0:06:36- I'd love to be able to run a marathon.- Why don't you?
0:06:36 > 0:06:38- Oh, no. I couldn't do that.- Why not?
0:06:38 > 0:06:41Bad genes. My mum died of a heart attack.
0:06:41 > 0:06:45- All the more reason to exercise. - You and Rob could do one together.
0:06:45 > 0:06:49Rob? I can't see him running a marathon. Ambling, maybe.
0:06:49 > 0:06:52Lots of people walk marathons.
0:06:52 > 0:06:55Walk a marathon? What would be the point?
0:06:55 > 0:06:58Walking can be very good exercise.
0:06:58 > 0:07:01Safe, reduces stress, releases endorphins.
0:07:01 > 0:07:04- Releases what?- Endorphins.
0:07:04 > 0:07:07- Isn't that what you get from having sex?- Could be.
0:07:07 > 0:07:10- That might be just the thing. - SHE GIGGLES
0:07:10 > 0:07:13Excuse me? Excuse me?!
0:07:16 > 0:07:19- Yes?- This was horrible.
0:07:21 > 0:07:24- You did not like your food? - No. And it wasn't what I asked for.
0:07:24 > 0:07:28- I am sorry to hear that. - I wanted a chip butty.
0:07:28 > 0:07:31I am not actually a member of the catering staff.
0:07:31 > 0:07:34Why can't I get a chip butty?
0:07:34 > 0:07:37But I know that they work very hard and you should be grateful for...
0:07:37 > 0:07:39- Who are you?- I beg your pardon?
0:07:39 > 0:07:42Are you one of those posh do-gooders?
0:07:42 > 0:07:45Well, I hope that I am doing some good
0:07:45 > 0:07:47but unfortunately I am not 'posh' as you say.
0:07:47 > 0:07:49You look posh.
0:07:49 > 0:07:53- That is very kind of you. thank you. - It's not a compliment.
0:07:55 > 0:07:58Why do you want a chip butty for breakfast?
0:07:58 > 0:08:01Because it's better than the junk they serve here.
0:08:01 > 0:08:04- The food here is very healthy. - Exactly. It's rubbish.
0:08:04 > 0:08:06They wouldn't know good food if it sat on them.
0:08:06 > 0:08:09What is so special about a chip butty?
0:08:11 > 0:08:15Well first you start with two buttered slices of white bread then
0:08:15 > 0:08:21you add the chips, thick and chunky then smother it in brown sauce.
0:08:21 > 0:08:24It sounds like a recipe for a heart attack.
0:08:24 > 0:08:27Perfect cure for a hangover.
0:08:27 > 0:08:32Well, if I ever have a hangover I will be sure to try one.
0:08:32 > 0:08:35You've never even had a hangover?
0:08:39 > 0:08:42You know, power walking doesn't just reduce stress, it helps you
0:08:42 > 0:08:44sleep better, gives you energy.
0:08:44 > 0:08:47Mand? Your friend didn't fill in her form.
0:08:47 > 0:08:52- No home number, no GP. - Oh, sorry about that.
0:08:52 > 0:08:53Not your fault.
0:08:53 > 0:08:57- It sounds like just the thing for Jack and Immy.- What?
0:08:57 > 0:08:59- This walking thing - Oh, yeah. And you.
0:08:59 > 0:09:03I suppose I could. If it encourages them.
0:09:03 > 0:09:05You wouldn't believe the things I've done for those two.
0:09:05 > 0:09:08- I've even looked up 'brain food' on the internet.- And?
0:09:08 > 0:09:13- Nut and seed flapjacks. I thought it might help.- Did it?
0:09:13 > 0:09:14I don't know.
0:09:14 > 0:09:17Bit of healthy food, though, it can't hurt, can it?
0:09:19 > 0:09:22- That's the last one!- So. - Give it here.- No!
0:09:22 > 0:09:24I'm bigger than you, I have a faster metabolism!
0:09:24 > 0:09:26And you're a greedy pig!
0:09:26 > 0:09:29And if I don't ace these exams, I won't get onto my course.
0:09:29 > 0:09:32- Jack, these are my resits! They're my last chance!- Just...!
0:09:33 > 0:09:35Well done.
0:09:41 > 0:09:43You are disgusting!
0:09:46 > 0:09:48I don't understand why you have to do this marathon, anyway.
0:09:48 > 0:09:51- I know you don't.- It's too much.
0:09:51 > 0:09:54- What happened?- Nothing.
0:09:54 > 0:09:58- Then what took you so long? - I bumped into someone.
0:09:58 > 0:10:00- Who?- Some girl. She recognised me.
0:10:00 > 0:10:05- Who was she?- No one. She saw the article in the paper.
0:10:05 > 0:10:07- What did she want?- Nothing. - She could have been anyone!
0:10:07 > 0:10:11James, don't be ridiculous. She wasn't some crazy person.
0:10:11 > 0:10:14- She was a perfectly normal young woman!- And what if she wasn't?
0:10:14 > 0:10:17Please stop trying to find reasons why I shouldn't run this marathon.
0:10:17 > 0:10:19It's for a very good cause.
0:10:19 > 0:10:21That's typical. Always thinking about everybody else.
0:10:21 > 0:10:23What's so wrong with that?
0:10:23 > 0:10:27When are you going to start thinking about yourself?! Or me?!
0:10:27 > 0:10:29The training is good for me.
0:10:30 > 0:10:32Being recognised is good for me.
0:10:32 > 0:10:36I like it when people remember what I've done.
0:10:36 > 0:10:40It makes me feel good. And if I feel good, then it is good.
0:10:40 > 0:10:42For both of us.
0:10:42 > 0:10:45I just don't want anything to happen to you.
0:10:46 > 0:10:48It won't.
0:10:52 > 0:10:53Oi!
0:10:55 > 0:10:59- The telly's not working. - (Shh. You will wake everyone up.)
0:10:59 > 0:11:02(I can't get it to work.)
0:11:02 > 0:11:05- SHE SIGHS - Let me have a look.
0:11:08 > 0:11:12- Lend me a quid?- I beg your pardon? - You have to pay for it.
0:11:12 > 0:11:14Then that is probably why it is not working.
0:11:14 > 0:11:17So why don't you put a quid in the thing?
0:11:17 > 0:11:19I am not giving you money.
0:11:19 > 0:11:22Come on. There's a programme I really want to watch.
0:11:22 > 0:11:25- I could get you a magazine or a book.- A magazine?!
0:11:25 > 0:11:28It's not going to kill you to lend me £3.50 is it?
0:11:28 > 0:11:33- You said you wanted a pound. - It's £3.50 for the whole day.
0:11:33 > 0:11:35I am not a bank.
0:11:35 > 0:11:38Why don't you go get some money out of that fund?
0:11:39 > 0:11:44- What fund?- That fund they have for people with no money for the telly.
0:11:44 > 0:11:47- There is no such fund. - Yes there is. It's new.
0:11:47 > 0:11:50- Part of the reforms. - And what is the name of this fund?
0:11:50 > 0:11:55- I don't know. The nurse told me about it yesterday.- Which nurse?
0:11:55 > 0:11:57The top one. I don't know her name.
0:11:57 > 0:12:00I think I would know if there was something like this.
0:12:00 > 0:12:01- Go and ask.- No.- Why not?
0:12:01 > 0:12:03Because I do not want to make a fool of myself.
0:12:03 > 0:12:05Well, then YOU will never know, will you?
0:12:05 > 0:12:10If I go and ask, will you promise to be quiet?
0:12:13 > 0:12:17- I cannot believe I am doing this. - Lend me a tenner before you go.
0:12:17 > 0:12:20A tenner gets you three days. It's cheaper like that.
0:12:20 > 0:12:22DO YOU THINK I WAS BORN YESTERDAY?!
0:12:22 > 0:12:25- MAN YAWNS - I am so sorry.
0:12:28 > 0:12:32Good exercise while you're studying will actually keep you calm
0:12:32 > 0:12:36- during your exams.- Really?- Yeah. Swimming, fast walking, cycling.
0:12:36 > 0:12:39Fast walking? Like that power walking?
0:12:39 > 0:12:42- Yes. That would work. - And you could show them?
0:12:42 > 0:12:45- Who?- Jack and Immy. I could get them down at lunch.
0:12:46 > 0:12:50- I suppose...- You can be like their personal trainer! Perfect.
0:12:50 > 0:12:52Yeah, I wasn't thinking...
0:12:52 > 0:12:54SHE SIGHS
0:12:54 > 0:12:59You came all this way to get me to fill this out?
0:12:59 > 0:13:04- Not really, no.- Then why?
0:13:04 > 0:13:08- Something you said earlier got me worried.- What?
0:13:08 > 0:13:11- About the pain you were having. - Pain? What pain?
0:13:18 > 0:13:22- Why don't I get a wheelchair? - Because you can walk.
0:13:22 > 0:13:24Besides, he can only push one person at a time.
0:13:24 > 0:13:28- You could push me. - I am not a porter.
0:13:29 > 0:13:32My shoulder really hurts when I walk.
0:13:34 > 0:13:36It's the truth!
0:13:36 > 0:13:38You are not capable of telling the truth.
0:13:38 > 0:13:41I cannot believe you made me ask about that 'charity fund'
0:13:41 > 0:13:45- when you knew that it did not exist. It is not funny.- Worth a go!
0:13:48 > 0:13:50Flowers are nice.
0:13:50 > 0:13:52- Excuse me?- They suit you.
0:13:53 > 0:13:56- I suppose you want these too.- No.
0:13:56 > 0:13:58They look nice on you.
0:13:58 > 0:14:00They'd probably look a bit silly on me.
0:14:02 > 0:14:05I have had enough of your tricks.
0:14:05 > 0:14:08Besides, you need to concentrate on your physiotherapy. Now go.
0:14:08 > 0:14:11- I have work to do. - Physiotherapy is a waste of time.
0:14:11 > 0:14:15Physiotherapy can help before an operation.
0:14:15 > 0:14:17It can make quite a difference.
0:14:18 > 0:14:22I was talking to my good friend Doctor Carter now he said
0:14:22 > 0:14:24physiotherapy is a way of...
0:14:26 > 0:14:29Where did he go now?!
0:14:30 > 0:14:32Why didn't you tell me you'd gone to see a nurse?!
0:14:32 > 0:14:34I didn't 'go and see a nurse'.
0:14:34 > 0:14:35I bumped into her while I was running.
0:14:35 > 0:14:39- Then how does she know about the pain?- I was uncomfortable. She gave me some cream!
0:14:39 > 0:14:43I can't believe you didn't tell me about this!
0:14:43 > 0:14:45- It's getting worse, isn't it? - No!- What is?
0:14:45 > 0:14:48- We had an agreement. - Please don't do this.
0:14:48 > 0:14:50- You said you'd tell me when it got worse.- What?
0:14:50 > 0:14:53It's not getting worse. It's nothing.
0:14:53 > 0:14:56- You didn't tell her, did you? - Don't!- What?- You promised.
0:14:56 > 0:15:00- You can't keep avoiding it. - What's going on?
0:15:00 > 0:15:04She's got cancer. Breast cancer.
0:15:10 > 0:15:14- This is your fault. - You're not wearing that are you?
0:15:14 > 0:15:17- Why not?- I don't see the point of this.
0:15:17 > 0:15:20You need to settle your minds so you can concentrate properly
0:15:20 > 0:15:23- and pass your exams.- By going for a walk?- A power walk.
0:15:23 > 0:15:27Mild exercise stimulates neurogenesis.
0:15:27 > 0:15:29- See?- What?
0:15:29 > 0:15:32- The creation of neurons. - It makes you brainy.
0:15:32 > 0:15:35- And it enhances your mood. - So you don't murder each other.
0:15:35 > 0:15:40- Releases endorphins.- What? - Nevermind. So, what do we do?
0:15:40 > 0:15:42Well, we won't go mad, for a start.
0:15:42 > 0:15:45Start at your normal walking pace and then gradually work up. OK?
0:15:45 > 0:15:51- This is going to be brilliant! - Right. Off we go.
0:15:55 > 0:16:00- We've got to pass these exams. - Just to get away from these nutters.
0:16:00 > 0:16:03She's always had this stupid idea that a bit of exercise
0:16:03 > 0:16:08and a proper diet can cure anything. She ignored all the warning signs.
0:16:08 > 0:16:10How bad is it?
0:16:10 > 0:16:13Bad. She was diagnosed far too late.
0:16:14 > 0:16:19- She isn't getting any treatment? - None. She refuses.
0:16:20 > 0:16:24- That's crazy. - I know. Nothing I can do.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29- What does her consultant say? - She won't see him.
0:16:29 > 0:16:33- But if she's got cancer then she really...- Can you talk to her?
0:16:33 > 0:16:38- Convince her to go back to hospital? - I can try.
0:16:38 > 0:16:40She likes you. She might listen.
0:16:44 > 0:16:46- Oi!- What are you doing?- Nothing.
0:16:46 > 0:16:49- You think you can beat me?- Maybe.
0:16:49 > 0:16:52- I thought you said you didn't see the point!- You won't win.
0:16:52 > 0:16:54- I don't need to.- That's cheating!
0:16:57 > 0:17:00- I understand how you feel about doctors.- Do you?
0:17:00 > 0:17:05But this is different. We should let them help you.
0:17:05 > 0:17:09- And if they can't? - They will. At least let them try.
0:17:11 > 0:17:14- No.- You can't give up.
0:17:14 > 0:17:18- You of all people.- It's not quite that simple.
0:17:18 > 0:17:22You're a fighter. When you were competing you never gave up.
0:17:22 > 0:17:25Has he told you what kind of breast cancer I have?
0:17:25 > 0:17:27No.
0:17:27 > 0:17:30- Inflammatory.- Oh.
0:17:30 > 0:17:33Treatment might extend my life. It won't save it.
0:17:33 > 0:17:34I AM going to die.
0:17:34 > 0:17:38- But if it can extend your life, then...- A few months maybe.
0:17:39 > 0:17:41What about everything you said to me this morning?
0:17:41 > 0:17:43'You can never give up,'
0:17:43 > 0:17:45'Got to keep on pushing through to the finish line'.
0:17:45 > 0:17:49- That's exactly what I'm doing. - No, you're not.
0:17:49 > 0:17:51I have a choice, Mandy.
0:17:51 > 0:17:57Three months of a reasonably good life or six to eight months
0:17:57 > 0:18:02of endless days in hospital, treatments, drips, drugs,
0:18:02 > 0:18:06- side effects, depression. - It might not be that bad.
0:18:06 > 0:18:09You're a nurse. You know exactly how bad it will be.
0:18:14 > 0:18:16I want to save him that pain.
0:18:17 > 0:18:19That's not what he wants.
0:18:23 > 0:18:28So what would you do? If it was you?
0:18:28 > 0:18:31If it was someone I loved, I'd want to spend
0:18:31 > 0:18:36- every moment I could with them. - That's exactly what I'm doing.
0:18:36 > 0:18:39- By refusing treatment? - I want to be here for him,
0:18:39 > 0:18:42as strong and positive as I can be, right to the end.
0:18:44 > 0:18:48He doesn't want you to be strong. He wants you to be alive.
0:18:48 > 0:18:52- If I go back to hospital I won't be. - Yes you will.
0:18:53 > 0:18:57He told me every day with you is like a lifetime.
0:18:59 > 0:19:02I want every minute with him to be a lifetime too.
0:19:04 > 0:19:06And this way it will be.
0:19:09 > 0:19:13The few weeks I have with him will be a thousand times richer than...
0:19:13 > 0:19:16however many months I may have in hospital.
0:19:17 > 0:19:21- Maybe, but...- It's not the amount of time you have.
0:19:21 > 0:19:24It's what you do with the time you've got.
0:19:26 > 0:19:30- All right, at least...- I'll probably never run this marathon
0:19:30 > 0:19:34but as long as there's a chance that I might, I have a goal.
0:19:34 > 0:19:38I feel alive. I feel properly alive.
0:19:38 > 0:19:44- You must see that?- Yes.
0:19:46 > 0:19:50And that's how I want to be right through to the end.
0:19:50 > 0:19:53That's how I want him to remember me.
0:20:02 > 0:20:06- I won.- No you didn't. - It's not a race.- Exactly
0:20:06 > 0:20:09- I still won.- It's good to see you're pushing yourselves, though.
0:20:09 > 0:20:11- Can't we just run? - You could, I suppose.
0:20:11 > 0:20:13It's better to work up gradually.
0:20:13 > 0:20:16If you knock yourselves out, that's not going to help with your exams.
0:20:16 > 0:20:19- I'd forgotten about the exams. - Good. It's working then.
0:20:19 > 0:20:22- I'm glad something is. - Are you all right?
0:20:22 > 0:20:26- I think I'm going to die. - Mum! It's just a bit of walking.
0:20:26 > 0:20:30I tell you what else might help. Think about life after your exams.
0:20:30 > 0:20:32Set yourselves goals not related to them.
0:20:32 > 0:20:34- Like the bucket list. - If you like.
0:20:34 > 0:20:39Tell you what, Mum, maybe you could add running a marathon to yours.
0:20:39 > 0:20:44- I could if I wanted to!- I think I'm a bit young for a bucket list.
0:20:44 > 0:20:49- How about something to do over the summer?- Like what?
0:20:49 > 0:20:54Anything. Don't concentrate on it, just run and it'll come.
0:20:55 > 0:20:58- OK. Come on. - We've only just stopped!
0:21:02 > 0:21:05I'm sorry.
0:21:05 > 0:21:09- That's it? Sorry? That's all you can say?- James...
0:21:09 > 0:21:11- You're just going to let it go? - It's not my choice.
0:21:11 > 0:21:14You're a nurse. You're supposed to help people.
0:21:14 > 0:21:17Not turn your back on them. Some nurse you are.
0:21:19 > 0:21:22Don't. It's OK. He's just upset.
0:21:26 > 0:21:29I can't do that one. I can't do that one!
0:21:29 > 0:21:32How am I supposed to do that and that and that?!
0:21:32 > 0:21:34None of this I can do!
0:21:45 > 0:21:48I thought of doing some voluntary work for the citizen's advice bureau.
0:21:48 > 0:21:51- There you are. That's a goal.- It's still related to my exam though.
0:21:51 > 0:21:53So is my printing course.
0:21:53 > 0:21:55But it's something to focus on after the exams.
0:21:55 > 0:21:58- So it's not the be all and end all. - I guess.
0:21:58 > 0:22:02- I thought this was supposed to make me feel good.- It will. Eventually.
0:22:02 > 0:22:06- I'm don't even feel horny. - Mother!
0:22:06 > 0:22:09- It'll be easier next time. - Next time?
0:22:09 > 0:22:12Why not?! We could ask Julia to come with us.
0:22:12 > 0:22:15She doesn't need to. She's getting her endorphins the proper way.
0:22:15 > 0:22:18I heard her talking to Martin this morning.
0:22:18 > 0:22:23- About their weekend away?- Maybe that should be my summer goal!
0:22:23 > 0:22:26- Get myself a sugar daddy. - Imogen!- What?
0:22:26 > 0:22:29You think you're the only one with endorphins.
0:22:29 > 0:22:32He was just trying to help you with your recovery.
0:22:32 > 0:22:35He was just covering his back cos he doesn't know what he's
0:22:35 > 0:22:38- talking about. - I'm sure he does.
0:22:38 > 0:22:41Why does he keep saying that it's up to me whether I get better or not?
0:22:41 > 0:22:43There is only so much that surgery can do.
0:22:43 > 0:22:47- And what they are asking you to do is not so difficult.- It is for me!
0:22:47 > 0:22:50You need to work at your physiotherapy
0:22:50 > 0:22:52and keep it up.
0:22:52 > 0:22:55Apart from that, a regular schedule, plenty of rest, a balanced diet...
0:22:55 > 0:22:58How am I supposed to get a balanced diet?
0:22:58 > 0:23:00Make sure you eat the right things.
0:23:00 > 0:23:04- I can't cook.- Everyone can cook. What about your chip butties?
0:23:04 > 0:23:07You can't live on chip butties.
0:23:07 > 0:23:10At least we agree on something. But it is a start.
0:23:10 > 0:23:12Didn't your mother teach you how to cook anything else?
0:23:12 > 0:23:15I didn't know my mother.
0:23:17 > 0:23:20- So who raised you? - I was in care. Mostly.
0:23:23 > 0:23:25What we gonna do with these?
0:23:26 > 0:23:29There must be someone who can help.
0:23:29 > 0:23:31I've got no one. There's no money and no job.
0:23:31 > 0:23:34All I've ever done before this is casual labour.
0:23:34 > 0:23:36And NOW I can't even do that!
0:23:39 > 0:23:42I can see what she means about her quality of life
0:23:42 > 0:23:45but she could have another four, five months...
0:23:45 > 0:23:48- That's not long.- It is to him.
0:23:50 > 0:23:53You know, I started to think about how I'd feel
0:23:53 > 0:23:55if you were dying of cancer?
0:23:55 > 0:23:57Hey.
0:23:57 > 0:24:01It would be bad enough losing you, but having to watch you
0:24:01 > 0:24:03die like that... I think I'd want to
0:24:03 > 0:24:06keep hold on to you as long as possible.
0:24:08 > 0:24:13- Is that selfish? - No. And yeah.
0:24:13 > 0:24:18SHE SIGHS How are you supposed to be confident in your job
0:24:18 > 0:24:20when there are no straight answers?
0:24:22 > 0:24:28I was so determined to be like you but when I went in there,
0:24:28 > 0:24:30I didn't know what to do.
0:24:33 > 0:24:38He was right. What kind of a nurse am I?! SHE SOBS
0:24:38 > 0:24:43- A really, really good one. - I might as well not have been there.
0:24:43 > 0:24:45Come on.
0:24:45 > 0:24:47- Freya, I was no use to anybody! - You don't know that.
0:24:47 > 0:24:51- I was useless! - Listen to me,
0:24:51 > 0:24:58medicine is just as much about art as science.
0:24:58 > 0:25:02Getting the balance. I'm pretty sure that takes a lifetime
0:25:02 > 0:25:05and even then, you might not manage it.
0:25:05 > 0:25:08But today, today you had a really good go at it.
0:25:10 > 0:25:14Even if you can't see that, OK?
0:25:19 > 0:25:22You are a young man. You can turn your life around.
0:25:22 > 0:25:23How do you know?
0:25:23 > 0:25:27It must have been difficult growing up the way you did.
0:25:27 > 0:25:30But all that was in the past. You must not give up.
0:25:30 > 0:25:33- Don't talk to me like I'm a kid. - I was not...
0:25:33 > 0:25:37You people are all the same. None of you care about me.
0:25:37 > 0:25:39I was only trying to help you.
0:25:39 > 0:25:42What makes you think I trust you more than that doctor?
0:25:42 > 0:25:44- You must trust the doctor. - I HATE doctors.
0:25:44 > 0:25:46What gives them the right to order me around?
0:25:46 > 0:25:50- No one is ordering you around. - Everyone orders me around!
0:25:50 > 0:25:53I know a great many doctors and they are wonderful people.
0:25:53 > 0:25:55- No they're not. - They are decent,
0:25:55 > 0:26:00- hard working. They sacrifice a lot for people like you.- Yeah?
0:26:00 > 0:26:04You know who did this? The maniac who attacked me? It was a doctor
0:26:04 > 0:26:07with a cricket bat. He tried to kill me.
0:26:07 > 0:26:10Even when I was down he just kept on hitting me!
0:26:10 > 0:26:12That's doctors for you!
0:26:12 > 0:26:18- That is not true. - Yes it is. They're all the same.
0:26:19 > 0:26:23What's the matter? Where are you going?
0:26:23 > 0:26:25I know who you are.
0:26:25 > 0:26:27You don't know anything about me.
0:26:27 > 0:26:34- You are a robber and a criminal and a trickster.- What?!
0:26:34 > 0:26:38Doctor Carter would never do any of the things you say!
0:27:08 > 0:27:09Has he still got a thing for you?
0:27:09 > 0:27:10I hope not.
0:27:10 > 0:27:12It's this guy I was seeing...
0:27:12 > 0:27:15And you've just split up?
0:27:15 > 0:27:17I think he's trying to kill me.
0:27:17 > 0:27:19I may not have the same airs and graces as you and your doctor
0:27:19 > 0:27:21colleagues, but I still am entitled to the same rights.
0:27:21 > 0:27:24This is about me, isn't it?
0:27:24 > 0:27:26- Arghhh!- Oh! Oh!
0:27:26 > 0:27:28She's a bit of a drama queen!
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