0:00:29 > 0:00:31There is always hope,
0:00:31 > 0:00:35even in the most difficult times, when we may be struggling
0:00:35 > 0:00:39with debt, fears about our jobs, about our families.
0:00:41 > 0:00:44When everything seems to be becoming harder, costing us more,
0:00:44 > 0:00:47there is a gift that's free.
0:00:49 > 0:00:54Better still, it's the most precious gift of all - God's grace
0:00:54 > 0:00:58and love, and with God's grace and love, we have the strength to
0:00:58 > 0:01:04put our lives back together, to find hope where we thought there was none.
0:01:05 > 0:01:07We may have doubts along the way,
0:01:07 > 0:01:11we may lose our faith for a while, but God will always forgive us.
0:01:12 > 0:01:16He will offer us his gift time and time again.
0:01:16 > 0:01:19All we have to do is open our hearts to Him.
0:01:24 > 0:01:28In the name of the Heavenly Father, the son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.
0:01:29 > 0:01:31'Thank you for coming.'
0:01:35 > 0:01:39Father Harvey? You have a lovely church.
0:01:39 > 0:01:40You new to the area?
0:01:40 > 0:01:43From your accent, I'd say you're not local, either?
0:01:43 > 0:01:46No, no. Will we see you again soon?
0:01:46 > 0:01:48Well, your sermon certainly impressed me.
0:01:48 > 0:01:49Really?
0:01:49 > 0:01:52Still, I suppose it's one thing advising other people how
0:01:52 > 0:01:55to lead their lives, another looking at your own, right?
0:01:55 > 0:01:58Trust me, I find it as hard as the next man.
0:02:03 > 0:02:05- Thank you for coming.- Thank you.
0:02:09 > 0:02:13Thankfully, he's going over to the campus for the day. Give us all a break!
0:02:13 > 0:02:14What's wrong with him?
0:02:14 > 0:02:18Oh, I forgot, Howard called you a trainee,
0:02:18 > 0:02:21- had a go at your student chic! - That's got nothing to do with it.
0:02:21 > 0:02:25OK, why don't you like him? I think he's just what we need, forward thinking.
0:02:25 > 0:02:26Really? No.
0:02:26 > 0:02:29You mean, he's a fan of the Government's privatisation by stealth!
0:02:29 > 0:02:33I miss Julia. Least she had a sense of humour.
0:02:33 > 0:02:34That's such rubbish.
0:02:35 > 0:02:38What? OK, what about all the drugs trials?
0:02:38 > 0:02:40Sucking up to the pharmaceutical companies.
0:02:40 > 0:02:43You're just jealous because I get to do all the good stuff.
0:02:43 > 0:02:46- I wouldn't touch it with a bargepole, love!- Now, now, children.
0:02:46 > 0:02:50Exactly. When are you going to grow up, realise things can't stay the same, the NHS will change?
0:02:50 > 0:02:52Not for the better.
0:02:52 > 0:02:54Fine, just gripe about it. What use is that?
0:02:54 > 0:02:55Keeps me amused.
0:02:55 > 0:02:56Yeah?
0:02:56 > 0:03:00Well, while you keep yourself amused, there are going to be winners
0:03:00 > 0:03:01and losers.
0:03:01 > 0:03:03I know which I'd rather be.
0:03:12 > 0:03:14Morning.
0:03:14 > 0:03:15Good morning, Mr Bellamy.
0:03:15 > 0:03:17Can we put these up?
0:03:17 > 0:03:19Well, we already have all the correct fire signs.
0:03:19 > 0:03:21How long have they been here?
0:03:21 > 0:03:23Well, I'm not sure.
0:03:23 > 0:03:26Did you know the photoluminescence only glows for
0:03:26 > 0:03:29a certain number of years, then the chemical becomes inert?
0:03:29 > 0:03:32- Does it?- The signs don't show up in the dark any more.
0:03:32 > 0:03:35Rendering them pretty useless if a fire takes hold
0:03:35 > 0:03:36and the lights go out.
0:03:36 > 0:03:40Then we cannot not take any chances with tomorrow. I will put them up straightaway!
0:03:40 > 0:03:42Before you do,
0:03:42 > 0:03:46and I'm telling you this on a strictly need-to-know basis, as Fire Warden.
0:03:46 > 0:03:50I'm holding an impromptu fire drill today, in preparation.
0:03:50 > 0:03:52I trust you can keep that under your hat?
0:03:52 > 0:03:54I am the soul of discretion.
0:03:54 > 0:03:57I'm observing today, so just act as if I'm not here.
0:03:57 > 0:04:02Well, you can rest assured, I take the threat of fire very seriously.
0:04:02 > 0:04:05Good. Is Dr Cassidy in?
0:04:05 > 0:04:07Yes, but she is with a patient.
0:04:07 > 0:04:08Well, I'll catch her at some point,
0:04:08 > 0:04:11make sure she's up to speed before the big day tomorrow!
0:04:11 > 0:04:14- Staff room this way?- No, it is...
0:04:14 > 0:04:15Thank you, Mrs Tem.
0:04:15 > 0:04:17Be. Mrs Tem-BE.
0:04:19 > 0:04:20Have you had any pain?
0:04:20 > 0:04:22No.
0:04:22 > 0:04:24Really? There's quite a bit of swelling.
0:04:24 > 0:04:26It's not been bothering me.
0:04:28 > 0:04:30OK, sit up.
0:04:32 > 0:04:34So, how's the lovely Joe?
0:04:35 > 0:04:39He rolled over for the first time the other day. I was stupidly proud!
0:04:39 > 0:04:43I bet. You got a recent photo?
0:04:43 > 0:04:45I might have,
0:04:45 > 0:04:50but first you have to promise to stop cancelling our appointments.
0:04:50 > 0:04:55Sorry, but everything seemed to be OK and you know how it is.
0:04:55 > 0:04:57You run yourself ragged for that church of yours.
0:04:57 > 0:04:59I enjoy what I do.
0:04:59 > 0:05:01I still think it's a waste, you being a priest.
0:05:01 > 0:05:04You'll have to take that up with my boss!
0:05:04 > 0:05:08While I'm at it, I'll tell him to stop working you so hard. You've got to look after yourself.
0:05:08 > 0:05:12It was one thing when we had the hep C under control but now with your liver, the cirrhosis.
0:05:12 > 0:05:15I allow myself a good book now and then.
0:05:15 > 0:05:17I'm serious, David.
0:05:18 > 0:05:21If there's any change, you have to come in and see me.
0:05:21 > 0:05:25And I'm booking you in to see a specialist, get you in for a scan.
0:05:25 > 0:05:26If you insist.
0:05:26 > 0:05:29And no cancelling, these are busy people too.
0:05:29 > 0:05:32Saving lives is just as important as saving souls, you know.
0:05:32 > 0:05:36That's a matter of opinion! Come on, photo!
0:05:47 > 0:05:51Dr Cassidy, I presume? Howard Bellamy. Lovely to meet you.
0:05:51 > 0:05:52Likewise.
0:05:52 > 0:05:54You're a hard woman to catch.
0:05:54 > 0:05:56Sorry about that, been one of those mornings.
0:05:56 > 0:06:00How about you, settling in OK?
0:06:00 > 0:06:02Let me answer that after tomorrow.
0:06:02 > 0:06:05Ah, the dreaded re-accreditation?
0:06:05 > 0:06:08I'm seeing it as a chance for everyone to be at their best.
0:06:08 > 0:06:10Absolutely.
0:06:10 > 0:06:13So I'm going to sit in on a couple of your consultations later on, if that's OK?
0:06:13 > 0:06:15I don't think so.
0:06:15 > 0:06:17Care to tell me why not?
0:06:17 > 0:06:20Patients don't want other people in the room,
0:06:20 > 0:06:21knowing about their problems.
0:06:21 > 0:06:24I'm not "other people", I'm the Practice Manager.
0:06:24 > 0:06:26All you need to do, is ask their permission.
0:06:27 > 0:06:30Yes, but what would be the point?
0:06:30 > 0:06:33I don't need other people to tell me how to do my job.
0:06:34 > 0:06:36Nice to meet you.
0:06:41 > 0:06:42RETCHING
0:06:57 > 0:06:59Oh!
0:07:00 > 0:07:01Hi.
0:07:01 > 0:07:02Hi.
0:07:05 > 0:07:06After you.
0:07:06 > 0:07:09Oh, no, you first. Be a winner!
0:07:12 > 0:07:16Hello? Father Harvey?
0:07:28 > 0:07:30Compelling, isn't she?
0:07:30 > 0:07:35I suppose. I'm not really one for bell, book and candle.
0:07:35 > 0:07:38So, what happened? You sounded a little panicked on the phone.
0:07:38 > 0:07:40Sorry, it really threw me this time.
0:07:40 > 0:07:42I brought up quite a lot of blood.
0:07:44 > 0:07:47This has happened before? Why didn't you tell me this morning?
0:07:47 > 0:07:49Because it wasn't much, not like this.
0:07:49 > 0:07:51David.
0:07:51 > 0:07:52How serious is it?
0:07:52 > 0:07:55If I'm right, and you're bleeding from your oesophagus,
0:07:55 > 0:07:56we need to get you to hospital.
0:07:56 > 0:07:58No. What can they do?
0:07:58 > 0:08:00Treat you, stop it happening again.
0:08:00 > 0:08:02I've got visits to make. I can go after that.
0:08:02 > 0:08:04You need to go now.
0:08:05 > 0:08:09My liver's failing. Will a couple more hours make much difference?
0:08:09 > 0:08:13Now you're being absurd. They can manage this for you.
0:08:13 > 0:08:17So cancel your visits, and start looking after yourself!
0:08:29 > 0:08:31I was just going to get a take-out sandwich.
0:08:31 > 0:08:34Me too. On you go.
0:08:38 > 0:08:40There's nothing that I really fancy.
0:08:40 > 0:08:41HE LAUGHS
0:08:41 > 0:08:43Why is that funny?
0:08:43 > 0:08:45Why can't women make up their minds?
0:08:46 > 0:08:50It's nothing to do with me being me indecisive, actually, it hasn't.
0:08:50 > 0:08:52They've changed the sandwich menu.
0:08:54 > 0:08:55Go on, then, what are you having?
0:08:57 > 0:09:01Bacon, prawn and avocado? Isn't there an extra ingredient in that?
0:09:01 > 0:09:02You see!
0:09:04 > 0:09:07Um, we could always skip the sandwich and we could eat in?
0:09:09 > 0:09:10Yeah, I guess.
0:09:10 > 0:09:13I suppose my non-trainee salary should cover it.
0:09:13 > 0:09:19Ooh, yeah, that's good. Oh, look, a special - humble pie.
0:09:20 > 0:09:22Do you want lunch or not?
0:09:23 > 0:09:25Yeah.
0:09:25 > 0:09:29You see that? That is my problem with religion.
0:09:29 > 0:09:30Enlighten me.
0:09:30 > 0:09:33You just walk in there, admit the most dreadful things and then you're forgiven.
0:09:33 > 0:09:36- I normally ask people to say a couple of Our Fathers.- Precisely.
0:09:36 > 0:09:38It's not that simple.
0:09:39 > 0:09:42God sacrificed his only son to wash us clean.
0:09:42 > 0:09:45It's actually a very deep transaction taking place.
0:09:45 > 0:09:46Which obviously doesn't work!
0:09:46 > 0:09:48Why not?
0:09:48 > 0:09:52Because if it did, all you Catholic's wouldn't be so obsessed, so driven by guilt!
0:09:54 > 0:09:55MOBILE PHONE RINGS
0:09:58 > 0:10:00Father Harvey?
0:10:00 > 0:10:04I'm afraid I can't this afternoon, is tomorrow a possibility?
0:10:05 > 0:10:0811? Great. Bye.
0:10:08 > 0:10:09DOOR OPENS
0:10:09 > 0:10:12Get back! I said get back!
0:10:12 > 0:10:14Give me the keys! Give me them!
0:10:14 > 0:10:17What do you want?
0:10:17 > 0:10:21Whoa! I barred that one already. There's nowhere to run.
0:10:58 > 0:11:00And your phones.
0:11:00 > 0:11:03- If you tell me what's in the bag? - Give me it!
0:11:03 > 0:11:06- Hurry up! - Give him a minute.- The phone!
0:11:06 > 0:11:08He's not well. He needs to be in hospital.
0:11:08 > 0:11:10- Says who?- His GP.
0:11:10 > 0:11:11No, he's not going anywhere.
0:11:11 > 0:11:15Look, what is it you want? Is it the collection money? Just take it and go!
0:11:15 > 0:11:16Stay calm, Zara.
0:11:18 > 0:11:19You?
0:11:19 > 0:11:20You know him?
0:11:20 > 0:11:23No, no, he came to mass this morning.
0:11:24 > 0:11:28- Seeing you standing there, wearing that collar. How'd you do it? - Do what?
0:11:28 > 0:11:30Tell 'em about right and wrong. Lie to them.
0:11:30 > 0:11:35- I don't know what you mean. - The nerve, after what you've done! - Look, if you've got some disagreement
0:11:35 > 0:11:37- with me...- Oh, yeah.
0:11:37 > 0:11:40But Zara, she needs to be on her way.
0:11:40 > 0:11:41I'm not leaving you.
0:11:42 > 0:11:45No, because I need you here, to bear witness.
0:11:48 > 0:11:49What are you doing?
0:11:49 > 0:11:51- Sorry, I just started reading. - So you can pick holes?
0:11:51 > 0:11:53- No.- Save it, Freya.
0:11:53 > 0:11:55If you'd just listen to me for a minute.
0:11:55 > 0:11:57This could be really good.
0:11:57 > 0:11:58Really?
0:11:58 > 0:12:02Yeah, there's nothing about joint-related pain, though.
0:12:02 > 0:12:04Have you had any of those results yet?
0:12:04 > 0:12:08- What?- Or the normal side-effects, but there's nothing here.
0:12:08 > 0:12:10Have the patients who've taken it had any?
0:12:10 > 0:12:12How should I know?
0:12:12 > 0:12:14You might have read it.
0:12:14 > 0:12:16It's next on my to-do list.
0:12:16 > 0:12:19Anyway, how come you're suddenly so interested?
0:12:19 > 0:12:23Because, if all this is right, this drug could be really exciting.
0:12:23 > 0:12:25You've changed your tune.
0:12:25 > 0:12:28There's never been a drug that's inhibited Lupus progression
0:12:28 > 0:12:32like this, not without some pretty hideous side effects.
0:12:32 > 0:12:34I've not come across it much.
0:12:34 > 0:12:36How come you're such an expert?
0:12:37 > 0:12:38My aunt's got it.
0:12:39 > 0:12:40Oh, sorry, mate.
0:12:40 > 0:12:42Yeah, since she was 20.
0:12:44 > 0:12:47Just imagine at our age, your body just starts attacking itself.
0:12:48 > 0:12:49I'd rather not.
0:12:49 > 0:12:52I had no idea when I was a kid that she was in so much pain.
0:12:52 > 0:12:55All I do remember about her is she would tell filthy jokes
0:12:55 > 0:12:56at Christmas,
0:12:56 > 0:12:59- and my mum would go tell her to shut up.- Did she?
0:12:59 > 0:13:00Of course she didn't.
0:13:02 > 0:13:05She's an amazing woman, she always made me laugh,
0:13:05 > 0:13:07even though she was really struggling with it.
0:13:11 > 0:13:15I think you've mixed Father Harvey up with someone else.
0:13:15 > 0:13:17- Have I?- Yes.
0:13:17 > 0:13:21I don't know what you think has happened but, trust me, you have the wrong guy. Tell him!
0:13:21 > 0:13:22Who are you?
0:13:22 > 0:13:26- Someone who hasn't forgotten. - Forgotten what? You're not explaining yourself.
0:13:26 > 0:13:30- Tell her what you were before you became a priest.- David?
0:13:31 > 0:13:33I've got nothing to say.
0:13:33 > 0:13:35No?
0:13:35 > 0:13:39So you can pretend to be this man of God but, deep down, I reckon you've always known this was coming.
0:13:39 > 0:13:41There'd be payback for what you've done!
0:13:41 > 0:13:43What's in the bag? What do you want?
0:13:50 > 0:13:51Justice.
0:13:52 > 0:13:55You know, if you need a hand picking suitable candidates...
0:13:55 > 0:13:57Thanks, but I'll be fine.
0:13:57 > 0:14:01Yeah, I know you will be, but I've got knowledge of Lupus first hand.
0:14:01 > 0:14:03Yeah, you said, I get the point!
0:14:04 > 0:14:07Oh, right, you think I'm trying to take over?
0:14:07 > 0:14:09I don't believe you sometimes, Kevin!
0:14:09 > 0:14:11All that stuff about your aunt.
0:14:11 > 0:14:14Right, if you would just get that colossal chip off your shoulder
0:14:14 > 0:14:17for five minutes, you'd realise I'm actually trying to help you.
0:14:17 > 0:14:20Yeah, well, I don't need your help. I can handle it.
0:14:21 > 0:14:22Fine. Fine.
0:14:26 > 0:14:28What are you going to do?
0:14:29 > 0:14:30Tell her what you done.
0:14:31 > 0:14:32Just let Zara go.
0:14:32 > 0:14:33Tell her!
0:14:33 > 0:14:35What does he mean?
0:14:35 > 0:14:37Whatever I did is in the past.
0:14:37 > 0:14:38Oh, that simple?
0:14:38 > 0:14:40No.
0:14:40 > 0:14:46I've spent a long time seeking redemption, making amends.
0:14:48 > 0:14:52I'm a different man, I'm not that person any more.
0:14:52 > 0:14:54People don't change.
0:14:54 > 0:14:57They can grow, surely? Learn from their mistakes.
0:14:57 > 0:14:59Mistakes?
0:14:59 > 0:15:00I didn't mean...
0:15:09 > 0:15:13You bring violence into my church. Why should I justify myself to you?
0:15:13 > 0:15:14Oh, you will.
0:15:14 > 0:15:16When you won't even say who you are?
0:15:19 > 0:15:24Shires Road, Post Office. Remember?
0:15:27 > 0:15:28David?
0:15:31 > 0:15:33I did some things in my youth I'm not proud of.
0:15:36 > 0:15:40But it was 20 years ago, I served my time.
0:15:40 > 0:15:42Prison.
0:15:42 > 0:15:43Should have been life!
0:15:43 > 0:15:47Maybe, but I wasn't in my right mind, I was high.
0:15:47 > 0:15:50I was lost, would do anything.
0:15:50 > 0:15:52Don't make excuses!
0:15:52 > 0:15:54Tell her the truth!
0:15:57 > 0:16:01Dr Carmichael, it is Mrs Tembe.
0:16:01 > 0:16:04Please can you call the surgery as soon as possible?
0:16:05 > 0:16:06ALARM BLARES
0:16:08 > 0:16:09What are you doing?
0:16:10 > 0:16:13I am pretending to call the emergency services,
0:16:13 > 0:16:17which is the first thing you do, in the event of a fire.
0:16:17 > 0:16:20Good. Good! Carry on.
0:16:20 > 0:16:24Yes, yes.
0:16:24 > 0:16:27There is a fire. A fire!
0:16:27 > 0:16:29You need to evacuate the building!
0:16:29 > 0:16:33Sorry about that, please come back and see me if you have any problems.
0:16:33 > 0:16:38You must leave right now! Go to the designated assembly point.
0:16:38 > 0:16:40See the lovely new signs over there.
0:16:40 > 0:16:41Is there a real fire?
0:16:41 > 0:16:43There is a situation.
0:16:43 > 0:16:47What? Do you know how many patients I've got backed up? Is there any news from Zara?
0:16:47 > 0:16:50I do not know what has happened.
0:16:50 > 0:16:52Please, please, I am begging you, we have to leave.
0:16:52 > 0:16:54OK, OK, I'll be there in a minute.
0:17:06 > 0:17:09Who was the man? Someone you knew?
0:17:11 > 0:17:13My dad.
0:17:13 > 0:17:16What happened? Did he recover?
0:17:16 > 0:17:19Well, depends what you mean. His skull was fractured.
0:17:20 > 0:17:23He had all these blackouts, forgot loads of stuff.
0:17:25 > 0:17:27See, the Post Office cut him some slack for a while
0:17:27 > 0:17:29but then he lost the job.
0:17:29 > 0:17:31And the flat went with it, too.
0:17:31 > 0:17:33I never knew.
0:17:33 > 0:17:36- You should have finished him off that day!- What?
0:17:36 > 0:17:40Saved him a slow death. And us having to watch it.
0:17:42 > 0:17:44- What is it? Are you bleeding again? - No.
0:17:48 > 0:17:52If I could go back, change what I did...
0:17:54 > 0:17:58I am truly sorry. You've got to believe that.
0:17:58 > 0:18:03You don't know what you did - how many people you've hurt!
0:18:07 > 0:18:09You! Money in the till, now!
0:18:09 > 0:18:11Don't raise your hands to me!
0:18:11 > 0:18:12Calm down!
0:18:12 > 0:18:13HUBBUB OF SHOUTING
0:18:18 > 0:18:21THUDS FROM WEAPON
0:18:26 > 0:18:27A boy?
0:18:28 > 0:18:29You didn't know?
0:18:29 > 0:18:30No.
0:18:30 > 0:18:31No-one did.
0:18:31 > 0:18:34You didn't tell anyone?
0:18:36 > 0:18:39But that's such a huge thing for a child.
0:18:40 > 0:18:42To hold all that in -
0:18:42 > 0:18:46your father getting hurt, feeling helpless.
0:18:46 > 0:18:48- Stop.- If you'd been able to tell your family...
0:18:48 > 0:18:50Just shut up!
0:18:50 > 0:18:53No, think about what you're doing!
0:18:54 > 0:18:56- Please!- No!
0:18:58 > 0:19:00No!
0:19:00 > 0:19:02Argh!
0:19:06 > 0:19:07ALARM BLARES
0:19:13 > 0:19:16Dr Cassidy is very busy.
0:19:16 > 0:19:18It's OK, you don't have to make excuses.
0:19:18 > 0:19:20Right. Thank you very much, everybody, back inside, please.
0:19:20 > 0:19:22SIRENS APPROACH
0:19:22 > 0:19:26Tell me you informed the university and fire department about today's drill?
0:19:27 > 0:19:29- Oh, heavens, I...- Brilliant!
0:19:31 > 0:19:33You've made your point.
0:19:33 > 0:19:35Look at him, he needs to go to hospital.
0:19:35 > 0:19:39- If the bleeding doesn't stop this time...- Get back.
0:19:39 > 0:19:44- Your dad, he sounds like a good man. - Don't!- Is this is what he would have wanted?
0:19:44 > 0:19:46You don't know.
0:19:46 > 0:19:50We used to do things together, go fishing and stuff. I looked up to him.
0:19:54 > 0:19:57Then after it happened, I'd think of anything,
0:19:57 > 0:20:00any excuse not to be around him.
0:20:00 > 0:20:03It was too painful?
0:20:03 > 0:20:05You felt like you'd let him down?
0:20:06 > 0:20:08I couldn't look him in the eye.
0:20:08 > 0:20:12You have to believe that you couldn't have done anything.
0:20:12 > 0:20:15This isn't your fault.
0:20:15 > 0:20:19Doesn't matter. He thought I didn't care, it destroyed him.
0:20:20 > 0:20:23I'm sure he still loved you.
0:20:24 > 0:20:27I don't know...maybe.
0:20:30 > 0:20:33- He asked for us before he went. - What did you say to him?
0:20:33 > 0:20:36I was doing a run to Croatia in the lorry.
0:20:36 > 0:20:38Got the message when I came back.
0:20:38 > 0:20:40You ruined everything!
0:20:49 > 0:20:50David? No!
0:20:52 > 0:20:53I've hurt you enough.
0:20:53 > 0:20:54You haven't got the guts.
0:20:54 > 0:20:58- No?- Please, give them to me!
0:20:58 > 0:21:00Why are you doing this?
0:21:00 > 0:21:06Is it because you feel guilty? What about forgiveness?
0:21:06 > 0:21:08What about all you were saying about your God being able to wash
0:21:08 > 0:21:10people clean of their sins?
0:21:10 > 0:21:13You still believe that. I know you do.
0:21:13 > 0:21:14It's not enough.
0:21:14 > 0:21:16David.
0:21:16 > 0:21:17I've had a life.
0:21:17 > 0:21:22You still do. If this is about your illness...
0:21:22 > 0:21:23No.
0:21:25 > 0:21:28Look, what good will it do him?
0:21:28 > 0:21:32You have to stop him. This is your fault. Say something.
0:21:32 > 0:21:33Help him!
0:21:33 > 0:21:35Please, David!
0:21:35 > 0:21:37Stop!
0:21:42 > 0:21:43KNOCK ON DOOR
0:21:45 > 0:21:50Kevin said you and him had lunch together? Did you cease hostilities?
0:21:50 > 0:21:53I didn't stab him with my fork, if that's what you mean!
0:21:54 > 0:21:56Oh, what's up with you?
0:21:56 > 0:21:57You've got a right face on you.
0:21:57 > 0:21:59Thank you!
0:22:00 > 0:22:02It's his drugs trial, it's got me thinking.
0:22:04 > 0:22:07It's a Lupus drug. My Aunt Patti has Lupus.
0:22:07 > 0:22:10I didn't know that.
0:22:10 > 0:22:13Why would you? I've haven't seen her in ages.
0:22:13 > 0:22:14How come?
0:22:14 > 0:22:16I don't really know.
0:22:16 > 0:22:17Does she live far away?
0:22:17 > 0:22:21No. Just outside Letherbridge.
0:22:21 > 0:22:22Oh.
0:22:22 > 0:22:26I know. I shouldn't let myself get bogged down with everything.
0:22:26 > 0:22:32You mean like student protests, blogging,
0:22:32 > 0:22:34being a Z list celebrity?!
0:22:34 > 0:22:38You're so supportive! And I'm a new woman now.
0:22:38 > 0:22:41And I don't blog as much as I used to.
0:22:41 > 0:22:46That's only because there was an online petition begging you to stop!
0:22:46 > 0:22:50Some people, SOME people liked my blog!
0:22:53 > 0:22:55You should go and see your aunt.
0:22:55 > 0:22:57What am I going to say to her?
0:22:57 > 0:22:59It doesn't matter, does it?
0:22:59 > 0:23:04You know, in a really, really roundabout way,
0:23:04 > 0:23:06I do have Howard to thank for this.
0:23:06 > 0:23:08He's not all bad, then?
0:23:08 > 0:23:10Oh, he is!
0:23:20 > 0:23:21Are you OK?
0:23:26 > 0:23:27Come on. I'll take those.
0:23:27 > 0:23:30It's OK. I've still got work to do.
0:23:36 > 0:23:38The ambulance is on its way.
0:23:45 > 0:23:47You have to let it go.
0:23:50 > 0:23:51Believe me.
0:23:54 > 0:23:57I was just like were two years ago.
0:23:57 > 0:23:58What?
0:23:58 > 0:24:01Consumed with revenge.
0:24:03 > 0:24:05My father was damaged by someone.
0:24:08 > 0:24:10I hated that man.
0:24:10 > 0:24:12I very nearly destroyed him.
0:24:13 > 0:24:18The trouble is, I very nearly destroyed myself too.
0:24:18 > 0:24:19What happened?
0:24:22 > 0:24:24I learned to let it go.
0:24:25 > 0:24:28I've got a life now, a family of my own.
0:24:30 > 0:24:31I don't think I can.
0:24:31 > 0:24:33Yes, you can.
0:24:35 > 0:24:40Your dad would have wanted you to have a life. Hope.
0:24:43 > 0:24:45SIREN IN DISTANCE
0:24:54 > 0:24:56Ah. Tea?
0:24:56 > 0:25:00- I was just... - Builder's or something fancy?
0:25:00 > 0:25:01Green, please.
0:25:03 > 0:25:06So how long have you been an associate?
0:25:06 > 0:25:08It'll be a couple of years soon.
0:25:08 > 0:25:10Never thought of becoming a partner?
0:25:10 > 0:25:12I'm happy as I am at the moment.
0:25:12 > 0:25:16So you don't see yourself becoming more committed to the practice long term?
0:25:16 > 0:25:18I wouldn't say it's a matter of commitment.
0:25:18 > 0:25:21It's just that you don't seem to be taking
0:25:21 > 0:25:24this whole re-accreditation business as seriously as your peers.
0:25:24 > 0:25:26Is this about the fire drill?
0:25:26 > 0:25:30Only, I had no warning about what you were going to do.
0:25:30 > 0:25:33Patients were stacking up and presumably you knew Zara wasn't here?
0:25:33 > 0:25:35You seemed to be coping.
0:25:35 > 0:25:38And the whole point of these things is that they're impromptu.
0:25:38 > 0:25:40Patients should always take priority.
0:25:40 > 0:25:43You could have been compromising their safety.
0:25:43 > 0:25:44To make a point, I may add.
0:25:44 > 0:25:45That's ridiculous.
0:25:45 > 0:25:47So, you don't have a problem with authority?
0:25:47 > 0:25:50If you mean the kind that has to prove a point, who micromanages,
0:25:50 > 0:25:55instead of just letting people do their jobs then yes, yes, I do!
0:25:55 > 0:25:58Interesting. Well, this is going to be fun.
0:26:07 > 0:26:09I'm not here to cull doctors.
0:26:09 > 0:26:11Promise.
0:26:13 > 0:26:15He's here to cull doctors.
0:26:15 > 0:26:18If you don't help, I'll turn on her.
0:26:18 > 0:26:21I'm only a doctor. Please don't put that on me.
0:26:21 > 0:26:23You ignored calls and messages!
0:26:23 > 0:26:25I don't like being harassed when I'm with patients.
0:26:25 > 0:26:28Your irresponsible, maverick behaviour could cost yourself
0:26:28 > 0:26:29and this practice dear.
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