0:00:30 > 0:00:31MEDICAL EQUIPMENT BEEPS
0:00:59 > 0:01:01BEEPING ACCELERATES
0:01:02 > 0:01:05MONOTONE
0:01:21 > 0:01:24HORN BEEPS
0:01:51 > 0:01:54Cath? I know you're in there.
0:01:54 > 0:01:56DIAL TONE
0:02:01 > 0:02:03If you don't want it now then take it with you.
0:02:07 > 0:02:10I know you can't talk to anyone about what happened with your dad.
0:02:10 > 0:02:12I don't need to talk about Dad.
0:02:12 > 0:02:14Then what's keeping you awake at night?
0:02:17 > 0:02:20I'm going to be late. Thank you for the sandwich.
0:02:42 > 0:02:43Hello?
0:02:46 > 0:02:47Cath?
0:02:53 > 0:02:55Hello, Cath?
0:02:57 > 0:03:00Why didn't you answer me? I was worried.
0:03:00 > 0:03:02I'm not going.
0:03:02 > 0:03:06Stop being a scaredy cat.
0:03:06 > 0:03:10I dreamt I died on the operating table.
0:03:10 > 0:03:13It's just an excision, not major heart surgery.
0:03:13 > 0:03:16The monitor flat-lined like on the telly,
0:03:16 > 0:03:19but there was no big resuscitation scene, no rushing at me
0:03:19 > 0:03:24with those electric zappers, the doctors just walked off and left me.
0:03:24 > 0:03:27In that case, we'd better sue(!) Ha ha(!)
0:03:27 > 0:03:30Hundreds of people have operations every day,
0:03:30 > 0:03:34the worst thing is that you'll feel a bit rubbish after the general.
0:03:34 > 0:03:37The worst thing is that I'm going to be losing my hair.
0:03:37 > 0:03:40It's a biopsy, remember?
0:03:40 > 0:03:43But what if it is cancer and I do have to have chemo?
0:03:43 > 0:03:47It's not nice, but it's an effective treatment.
0:03:47 > 0:03:48I might have to lose a breast.
0:03:48 > 0:03:51Stop it, Cath! You don't know you've got anything yet.
0:03:52 > 0:03:55Come on, let's get ready.
0:03:55 > 0:03:57Have you packed a dressing gown?
0:03:57 > 0:04:00I don't have one.
0:04:00 > 0:04:03Well, what about one of your crazy kaftans? You'll need one.
0:04:03 > 0:04:05As soon as you get there, they put you in a hospital gown
0:04:05 > 0:04:09and then they make you wait for hours. It's all hurry up and wait.
0:04:10 > 0:04:12I've never had an operation before.
0:04:14 > 0:04:16Well, no wonder you're nervous.
0:04:16 > 0:04:18THEY LAUGH
0:04:22 > 0:04:25Morning. Good morning.
0:04:25 > 0:04:26You brought a picnic?
0:04:26 > 0:04:28I do not like to eat take away,
0:04:28 > 0:04:30so I thought I will bring enough for both of us.
0:04:30 > 0:04:33Bless you, that's really sweet.
0:04:33 > 0:04:36Goodness. We are going to be here all day.
0:04:36 > 0:04:38Seriously, only help out as long as you can, Mrs T.
0:04:38 > 0:04:41I appreciate your time, I really do.
0:04:41 > 0:04:43No, I'm happy to help.
0:04:44 > 0:04:46How are we going to organise all this?
0:04:49 > 0:04:56At the church jumble sale, we put things on tables in categories -
0:04:56 > 0:05:01houseware, children's toys, children's clothes, books.
0:05:01 > 0:05:04There's some folding tables out the back, shall I go and grab them?
0:05:04 > 0:05:05Good idea.
0:05:09 > 0:05:12You won't forget to pick the kids up at 3.30, yeah? Course not.
0:05:14 > 0:05:16Good morning, how are we?
0:05:16 > 0:05:19Mr Wythe, Mrs Wythe. Still feeling strong?
0:05:19 > 0:05:22Of course. I know I'm in safe hands.
0:05:22 > 0:05:25Mum sends her love. How is she?
0:05:25 > 0:05:27Pretty good for 73.
0:05:27 > 0:05:30She's just started weight training at a gym. Would you believe it?!
0:05:30 > 0:05:34She keeps complaining to the staff about the loud music
0:05:34 > 0:05:35and the televisions.
0:05:35 > 0:05:37I don't blame her. I use it as my excuse not to go.
0:05:37 > 0:05:39I'm sure you're just too busy.
0:05:39 > 0:05:42Indeed. And Miss Horton?
0:05:42 > 0:05:44Cath.
0:05:44 > 0:05:49Love the kaftan. My wife tells me everything '70s is cool.
0:05:49 > 0:05:55Well, it was my heyday. It's from Morocco.
0:05:55 > 0:05:58This is my friend Karen.
0:05:58 > 0:06:01Hi. So, how are you doing?
0:06:01 > 0:06:07OK. You know, I thought that needle thingy was scary,
0:06:07 > 0:06:10but at least I could see what was going on.
0:06:10 > 0:06:12I couldn't just face the needle again, could I?
0:06:13 > 0:06:17When you get an equivocal result from the needle biopsy,
0:06:17 > 0:06:19it's always best to go for an excision.
0:06:19 > 0:06:23You don't want to delay or just get the same result again.
0:06:23 > 0:06:24So it's not an option?
0:06:24 > 0:06:28Stop looking for a get-out-of-jail card.
0:06:28 > 0:06:30Don't be nervous, it's a very simple procedure.
0:06:30 > 0:06:32Right.
0:06:32 > 0:06:36But there's a chance the mass might not be cancerous, isn't there?
0:06:36 > 0:06:40Definitely, but the million-dollar question is,
0:06:40 > 0:06:42do you want to take the chance of not knowing?
0:06:42 > 0:06:45You don't, Cath. It's best to find out what it is early.
0:06:45 > 0:06:47Listen to your friend here.
0:06:47 > 0:06:49I guess I'm just worrying.
0:06:50 > 0:06:51None of this is easy.
0:06:51 > 0:06:55BEEPER
0:06:55 > 0:06:57Right, I'll see you both down there.
0:06:59 > 0:07:00Such a lovely man.
0:07:00 > 0:07:01He seems nice.
0:07:01 > 0:07:05Well, yes, in a sort of toffee public school sort of way.
0:07:05 > 0:07:09They all talk like that. When I first met Heston, I thought
0:07:09 > 0:07:11he was like Toad from Toad Of Toad Hall,
0:07:11 > 0:07:14but I would trust him with my life.
0:07:14 > 0:07:16Dr Bowman operated on my mother very successfully,
0:07:16 > 0:07:19and he's top notch at reconstruction.
0:07:19 > 0:07:20If you get that far.
0:07:20 > 0:07:23Actually I'm quite looking forward to my new set.
0:07:23 > 0:07:26Are you having both breasts removed?
0:07:26 > 0:07:27Yes, the double whammy.
0:07:28 > 0:07:31Wow, that is unlucky, two tumours?
0:07:32 > 0:07:35Actually, I haven't got any.
0:07:38 > 0:07:39Good morning.
0:07:39 > 0:07:41Is it?
0:07:41 > 0:07:42Well, it's not raining.
0:07:42 > 0:07:45I just had a phone call from Karen, she's going to be late.
0:07:45 > 0:07:50Nothing to do with that steak of hers you were brandishing yesterday?
0:07:50 > 0:07:52No, a friend of hers is having breast surgery today.
0:07:52 > 0:07:55Some sort of minor biopsy, I think.
0:07:55 > 0:07:57Karen wants to take her to the hospital in the car,
0:07:57 > 0:08:00but now her friend's had cold feet, Karen wants to stay with her.
0:08:00 > 0:08:02Calm her down a bit so I'm on reception.
0:08:02 > 0:08:06It's usually quiet in the morning, the students are still in bed.
0:08:06 > 0:08:07Lucky them.
0:08:09 > 0:08:13So you're having a double mastectomy as insurance? Exactly.
0:08:13 > 0:08:16Have you got the gene like Angelina Jolie?
0:08:16 > 0:08:21She had BRCA1, I've got BRCA2.
0:08:21 > 0:08:24But like her, I just don't want to take any risks.
0:08:24 > 0:08:29I've seen my mum and aunt go through surgery and chemotherapy.
0:08:29 > 0:08:32They both lost a breast and their hair.
0:08:32 > 0:08:35luckily not at the same time, so they did get to share a wig.
0:08:35 > 0:08:39Actually it got quite a showing in the family photos, that wig.
0:08:39 > 0:08:41A family heirloom you'd rather avoid?
0:08:41 > 0:08:43It's quite stylish actually.
0:08:43 > 0:08:45My aunt's quite wealthy so she had it specially made,
0:08:45 > 0:08:49she had it modelled on Purdy from the New Avengers.
0:08:49 > 0:08:50But you're not in line for the wig yet.
0:08:50 > 0:08:53They haven't found anything, have they?
0:08:53 > 0:08:58No, not yet. But I've spent so much time worrying that I'm going to lose my mum.
0:08:58 > 0:09:01I don't want my children to go through that.
0:09:01 > 0:09:04It's a big call. Do you know what your chances are?
0:09:04 > 0:09:05It's hard to say,
0:09:05 > 0:09:09but with BRCA2 it's between 45 and 85%
0:09:09 > 0:09:13over my lifetime, but when you've been through what
0:09:13 > 0:09:16my family's been through, it does seem like the lesser of two evils.
0:09:16 > 0:09:18They've survived though. Yeah.
0:09:18 > 0:09:23Their tumours were treatable, but I don't want to live in fear.
0:09:23 > 0:09:26Anyway, I've always fancied a C cup.
0:09:26 > 0:09:29And you will be forever pert.
0:09:29 > 0:09:31I'm warming up to this surgery business.
0:09:31 > 0:09:33You've changed your tune.
0:09:40 > 0:09:43Look at this oil and vinegar set. It's still in its box.
0:09:43 > 0:09:45It was probably a Christmas present.
0:09:45 > 0:09:48I always keep the packaging of things I do not like.
0:09:48 > 0:09:53People will pay a little bit extra, if it is still in its box or
0:09:53 > 0:09:54if it has the tag attached.
0:09:54 > 0:09:56I think all presents should come with receipts,
0:09:56 > 0:10:00there's nothing worse than having to hold on to something that you hate.
0:10:00 > 0:10:03All our unwanted gifts,
0:10:03 > 0:10:05charity shops would go out of business.
0:10:07 > 0:10:09You know, if it wasn't for you, I reckon
0:10:09 > 0:10:13I would have just sat back and let this place close down.
0:10:13 > 0:10:15You would not have let that happen.
0:10:15 > 0:10:17I think I would.
0:10:17 > 0:10:20You give me too much credit.
0:10:20 > 0:10:24I just encouraged you, the seeds were already there.
0:10:24 > 0:10:27You just do things out of the goodness of your heart.
0:10:34 > 0:10:36What's up? You haven't found anything, have you?
0:10:36 > 0:10:40No, it's not me. I met this woman this morning who was
0:10:40 > 0:10:44having a DOUBLE mastectomy, she had one of the genes.
0:10:44 > 0:10:46It's a huge decision.
0:10:46 > 0:10:49It is. I think because we hear so much about breast reductions
0:10:49 > 0:10:51and enlargements in the gossip mags, we forget how major
0:10:51 > 0:10:54these operations are for someone to go through.
0:10:54 > 0:10:56She's a braver woman than me.
0:10:56 > 0:10:59It's a hard choice if you're in a high-risk group.
0:10:59 > 0:11:02See, it's got me thinking, you know, as soon as they invite me
0:11:02 > 0:11:05for a screening, I'm going.
0:11:05 > 0:11:06Do you have a family history?
0:11:06 > 0:11:08Thankfully, no.
0:11:08 > 0:11:10Then I wouldn't spend too much time thinking about it just yet.
0:11:10 > 0:11:14I'm going to go to the screening. Can't hurt, can it?
0:11:14 > 0:11:15Well, you'd be surprised.
0:11:15 > 0:11:18Some of the latest research suggests that the current practice
0:11:18 > 0:11:22of recommending screening mammograms has actually led us into
0:11:22 > 0:11:24over diagnosing the problem.
0:11:24 > 0:11:26Over diagnosing?
0:11:27 > 0:11:29Let's talk about this later.
0:11:29 > 0:11:31Mr White?
0:11:36 > 0:11:39Toast Thanks.
0:11:39 > 0:11:41What are you reading?!
0:11:43 > 0:11:46She was looking rather worried before,
0:11:46 > 0:11:47maybe it's the company report.
0:11:49 > 0:11:51Can you put a slice on for me, please?
0:11:51 > 0:11:53Here, have mine.
0:11:55 > 0:12:00I helped deliver your baby and I gave you my toast.
0:12:00 > 0:12:02Actually, I made that toast.
0:12:02 > 0:12:06Thank you. Whatever it is, she doesn't want us to know about it.
0:12:08 > 0:12:10Maybe it's performance reviews.
0:12:10 > 0:12:13No, they're not out for a few months yet.
0:12:13 > 0:12:15Maybe it's a complaint.
0:12:18 > 0:12:20That's it.
0:12:20 > 0:12:23Cancer treatments are getting better all the time.
0:12:23 > 0:12:26The drugs they use now are a lot more effective.
0:12:26 > 0:12:28That's reassuring.
0:12:29 > 0:12:32I know surgery can be a little scary,
0:12:32 > 0:12:36I'm a little scared myself too, to be honest.
0:12:36 > 0:12:38It's best not to think about what they do
0:12:38 > 0:12:41during the operation, just focus on the outcome.
0:12:41 > 0:12:44You're right. No more worrying.
0:12:46 > 0:12:50Why would she be reading a report or a patient complaint on her tablet?
0:12:50 > 0:12:52I don't know, but it has to be work related.
0:12:52 > 0:12:54otherwise she'd be more discrete.
0:12:54 > 0:12:58Maybe it's compulsive reading, she's found a really good book.
0:12:58 > 0:13:00Maybe she's reading Fifty Shades Of Grey?
0:13:02 > 0:13:04You are, aren't you? You disappoint me, Carmichael.
0:13:06 > 0:13:09Do I really look like the submissive type?
0:13:09 > 0:13:10So is it a complaint?
0:13:11 > 0:13:13I can't really say.
0:13:15 > 0:13:18Not until I've discussed it with the other partners.
0:13:20 > 0:13:21That sounded serious.
0:13:21 > 0:13:24I bet it's about me. No, it's me.
0:13:27 > 0:13:29Thanks.
0:13:29 > 0:13:32What did you mean earlier about over diagnosis?
0:13:32 > 0:13:36A lot of abnormalities picked up by mammograms aren't cancerous,
0:13:36 > 0:13:39and even if they were, some cancers can be so slow growing
0:13:39 > 0:13:42that they wouldn't actually cause harm during your lifetime.
0:13:42 > 0:13:45If they weren't found during breast screenings you'd never know they
0:13:45 > 0:13:48were there and you wouldn't have to go through the trials of treatment.
0:13:48 > 0:13:51But how do you know which is which?
0:13:51 > 0:13:53Well, there lies the problem. We don't.
0:13:53 > 0:13:55So, currently we treat them all.
0:13:55 > 0:13:58Yes, but we do breast screenings to detect cancers before there
0:13:58 > 0:14:01are any symptoms, that way, we improve the patient's outlook.
0:14:01 > 0:14:04Well, that sounds sensible to me.
0:14:04 > 0:14:06It does, in a man-on-the-street sort of way,
0:14:06 > 0:14:09but I did research on this at uni.
0:14:09 > 0:14:13Some research suggests that, while mortality rates have been dropping,
0:14:13 > 0:14:16it's actually advances in treatment that are mainly responsible,
0:14:16 > 0:14:19rather than early detection, and that screening mammograms
0:14:19 > 0:14:23have generated a lot of intervention that's not always necessary.
0:14:23 > 0:14:24Intervention?
0:14:24 > 0:14:28Surgery, chemotherapy. The researchers reckon that as many
0:14:28 > 0:14:30as one in three cancer treatments aren't necessary, and then
0:14:30 > 0:14:35there's all the women who go through the stress of testing and biopsies.
0:14:35 > 0:14:39But surely it's better to know, to be safe?
0:14:39 > 0:14:42Yes, it is.
0:14:42 > 0:14:45But the procedure is invasive, and therefore carries risks.
0:14:45 > 0:14:47We need to take that into account... PHONE RINGS
0:14:47 > 0:14:49Yes, but we don't know which cancers are harmful,
0:14:49 > 0:14:52therefore it would be unethical not to treat all of them.
0:14:52 > 0:14:54That is standard practice.
0:14:54 > 0:14:57Karen, don't you think you should get that phone?
0:14:57 > 0:14:58Yes.
0:15:00 > 0:15:01But that's not my point.
0:15:01 > 0:15:05I agree when you find something, it's human nature to investigate
0:15:05 > 0:15:08and treat it. The issue is whether we go looking for problems
0:15:08 > 0:15:10if someone doesn't have any symptoms. Yes,
0:15:10 > 0:15:12but Karen's friend is having a breast excision biopsy today
0:15:12 > 0:15:16and I don't want her to feel it's the slightest bit unnecessary.
0:15:16 > 0:15:19Right. I didn't know.
0:15:20 > 0:15:23Good luck. Thanks. I'll see you on the other side.
0:15:36 > 0:15:37OK. Goodbye.
0:15:39 > 0:15:42I'm really sorry, Karen, I didn't realise about your friend.
0:15:42 > 0:15:47That's OK. You just gave me food for thought.
0:15:47 > 0:15:50She has no symptoms, she can't feel anything,
0:15:50 > 0:15:53and now she's having an operation to find out what it is.
0:15:53 > 0:15:55She wouldn't have known anything
0:15:55 > 0:15:57if she hadn't had that screening mammogram.
0:15:57 > 0:16:00But she did. And you can't always tell from looking
0:16:00 > 0:16:02which abnormalities are benign.
0:16:02 > 0:16:04So if it does turn out to be one that's cancerous, it might be
0:16:04 > 0:16:06one that needs to be dealt with.
0:16:06 > 0:16:08I hope not.
0:16:08 > 0:16:10An excision biopsy is more definitive
0:16:10 > 0:16:13and it's a simple procedure.
0:16:13 > 0:16:16She might well be in the clear, but you'll know for sure within a week.
0:16:18 > 0:16:20Right, Miss Horton, we'll count down from ten
0:16:20 > 0:16:23and when you wake up, it'll all be over.
0:16:24 > 0:16:29Ten, nine, eight, seven...
0:16:31 > 0:16:32She's out.
0:16:36 > 0:16:38KNOCK AT DOOR Yup?
0:16:38 > 0:16:40Hi. Hi.
0:16:40 > 0:16:42Have you got a minute? Yeah.
0:16:42 > 0:16:45I was just wondering if there's something I should know,
0:16:45 > 0:16:46about my performance?
0:16:48 > 0:16:49No.
0:16:49 > 0:16:51It's just that Zara's been absorbed in her Kindle all day,
0:16:51 > 0:16:53and when I asked what she was reading
0:16:53 > 0:16:56she implied that it was some sort of complaint.
0:16:57 > 0:17:00Well, shouldn't that come through me first?
0:17:00 > 0:17:03KNOCK AT DOOR Have you got a minute?
0:17:03 > 0:17:06I do, but I was hoping to catch up on some paperwork.
0:17:07 > 0:17:09It's about Kevin.
0:17:09 > 0:17:12He came to you? He thinks he's in trouble,
0:17:12 > 0:17:14says you've got some sort of complaint against him.
0:17:14 > 0:17:16Good. Have you?
0:17:16 > 0:17:18No, I'm just winding him up for being nosy.
0:17:21 > 0:17:23He said you'd been reading all day?
0:17:23 > 0:17:25Only in my breaks.
0:17:25 > 0:17:27It relaxes the mind between patients.
0:17:27 > 0:17:30Reading something stimulating between consults
0:17:30 > 0:17:32helps to optimise performance.
0:17:32 > 0:17:34I agree.
0:17:34 > 0:17:37In fact, I'd like you to have a look at my opening address
0:17:37 > 0:17:40for the conference on Friday. It'd be good to get some feedback. Oh.
0:17:40 > 0:17:43I'll get it to you straight away, so you can have a look over lunch,
0:17:43 > 0:17:45and maybe we could meet at the end of the day?
0:17:45 > 0:17:47Sure.
0:17:49 > 0:17:51Hi.
0:17:51 > 0:17:53She's still not back.
0:17:54 > 0:17:56Do you know why it's taking so long?
0:17:56 > 0:17:59They've only said that she's been taken into intensive care.
0:17:59 > 0:18:01Intensive care? Why?
0:18:01 > 0:18:04I don't know. I've asked the nurse to page Mr Bowman,
0:18:04 > 0:18:07so hopefully we'll have some news soon.
0:18:07 > 0:18:08They just said to wait here.
0:18:08 > 0:18:10Of course, sit down.
0:18:15 > 0:18:17Oh!
0:18:17 > 0:18:20If I've done something wrong, I want to know what it is.
0:18:22 > 0:18:25Relax. It's got nothing to do with you.
0:18:25 > 0:18:28I am simply re-reading one of my favourite novels.
0:18:29 > 0:18:31Re-reading? Why? You know what happens?
0:18:31 > 0:18:34I always find something new.
0:18:34 > 0:18:37Every year, I re-read one of my favourite novels as a treat.
0:18:37 > 0:18:40As a treat? What is it then?
0:18:40 > 0:18:42It must be bloody good.
0:18:42 > 0:18:44I don't think you'd appreciate it.
0:18:44 > 0:18:45Try me.
0:18:46 > 0:18:50"One half of the world cannot understand
0:18:50 > 0:18:52"the pleasures of the other."
0:18:58 > 0:19:00Hi, I'm glad you're here.
0:19:00 > 0:19:04Miss Horton is fine, but a friendly face is always welcome.
0:19:04 > 0:19:07She's currently recovering in intensive care but she's awake
0:19:07 > 0:19:09and doing well.
0:19:09 > 0:19:13She did have a reaction to the anaesthetic.
0:19:13 > 0:19:18It's called malignant hyperthermia. It's very rare but it is dangerous.
0:19:18 > 0:19:20Is she going to be OK?
0:19:20 > 0:19:22She'll be absolutely fine.
0:19:22 > 0:19:25It's an unusual reaction, but we were on it straight away
0:19:25 > 0:19:27and she will make a full recovery. In fact, we're going to bring
0:19:27 > 0:19:31her down from intensive care and back down here very soon.
0:19:31 > 0:19:34Is it serious? Could she have died?
0:19:34 > 0:19:38That is the worst-case scenario, but, yes, it does happen.
0:19:39 > 0:19:41She'd never had an operation before.
0:19:41 > 0:19:44That's right, so we couldn't have known she'd react.
0:19:44 > 0:19:45And what about the mass?
0:19:45 > 0:19:48She's not going to have to go through this again, is she?
0:19:48 > 0:19:50Hopefully not. We'll get the pathology back in a week
0:19:50 > 0:19:54and we'll know conclusively then, fingers crossed she'll be clear.
0:19:54 > 0:19:57The thought she could have died!
0:19:57 > 0:20:02Oh, hello. Miss Horton will make a full recovery, but we'll
0:20:02 > 0:20:05keep her overnight for observation just to be sure, don't worry.
0:20:05 > 0:20:06You'll see her soon.
0:20:06 > 0:20:10I'm sorry you've had to wait so long today, we'll take you down next.
0:20:18 > 0:20:22Mrs T, what exactly are these used for?
0:20:22 > 0:20:27I believe they use them to count Hail Marys, prayers.
0:20:27 > 0:20:32I think the priest sets a sequence at confession as penance.
0:20:32 > 0:20:35Penance? Is that like a punishment?
0:20:35 > 0:20:42It's more like encouragement to reflect
0:20:42 > 0:20:45and grow spiritually from your sins.
0:20:46 > 0:20:49You're an Anglican, right? Mm-hmm.
0:20:49 > 0:20:56Do you believe that you can say a few prayers and get a clean slate?
0:20:58 > 0:21:00I believe in forgiveness.
0:21:00 > 0:21:03But what about the Buddhists and karma?
0:21:03 > 0:21:07Do you think that God punishes us?
0:21:07 > 0:21:09Not in this life, no.
0:21:09 > 0:21:12But isn't that the whole point of religion?
0:21:12 > 0:21:15That if you do something wrong, you go to hell?
0:21:15 > 0:21:18Not necessarily, not if you repent.
0:21:21 > 0:21:25God is forgiving, you just have to reach out to him
0:21:25 > 0:21:27to receive his love.
0:21:28 > 0:21:33But surely he's got some sort of a limit, if you break his rules.
0:21:33 > 0:21:38My God has a bottomless capacity for forgiveness.
0:21:38 > 0:21:40Bottomless?
0:21:40 > 0:21:41(Bottomless.)
0:21:45 > 0:21:47What time is it?
0:21:47 > 0:21:50About four. How are you feeling?
0:21:50 > 0:21:53Rubbish.
0:21:53 > 0:21:56Did they tell you what happened?
0:21:56 > 0:21:57Mmm.
0:21:57 > 0:22:01I know surgery has risks. That's why they make you give consent,
0:22:01 > 0:22:04but you never think it's actually going to go wrong.
0:22:04 > 0:22:06Luckily my number wasn't up.
0:22:06 > 0:22:11You forget these things can happen out of the blue, no goodbyes.
0:22:11 > 0:22:13I know. I hardly told anyone I was having surgery.
0:22:13 > 0:22:16It would have been quite a shock.
0:22:17 > 0:22:19I'm really thirsty.
0:22:23 > 0:22:26I think I want to talk to Dr Bowman.
0:22:26 > 0:22:28Could you have him paged, please?
0:22:35 > 0:22:37Thank you so much for making all this food.
0:22:37 > 0:22:39Sit down, have a rest.
0:22:42 > 0:22:45There you go. Some tea here.
0:22:55 > 0:22:58You seem to have something on your mind today.
0:23:00 > 0:23:03You do not normally talk about religion.
0:23:03 > 0:23:07Is there something I can help you with?
0:23:07 > 0:23:09I don't think anyone can help.
0:23:09 > 0:23:11Nothing can be that bad.
0:23:12 > 0:23:15I did something, and now I'm being punished.
0:23:17 > 0:23:20God will forgive you.
0:23:20 > 0:23:23I brought it on myself.
0:23:23 > 0:23:26I deserve it, but Mum doesn't.
0:23:28 > 0:23:31I don't know how she'll cope, what with losing Dad as well.
0:23:31 > 0:23:33As well as who?
0:23:37 > 0:23:38Do you mean you?
0:23:45 > 0:23:48I'm sorry, but I think I'd rather not go through with it.
0:23:48 > 0:23:51Not have the surgery?
0:23:51 > 0:23:54Yes, it just feels wrong.
0:23:54 > 0:23:58Is this because of what happened to Miss Horton?
0:23:58 > 0:24:01I can assure you an allergic reaction to the anaesthetic
0:24:01 > 0:24:03is very rare, you mustn't be frightened.
0:24:03 > 0:24:07But there are other complications through surgery, infections
0:24:07 > 0:24:11or the plastic surgery might not be what I expect.
0:24:11 > 0:24:13You said that you were getting sick with worry,
0:24:13 > 0:24:16that you needed to do this for your quality of life.
0:24:16 > 0:24:20I respect that, and I know that your family history weighs heavily.
0:24:20 > 0:24:24Risk-reducing surgery is a legitimate course of action.
0:24:24 > 0:24:27Of course it is, and for a lot of people it is the right thing to do,
0:24:27 > 0:24:31but I feel like I'm afraid of something that hasn't even happened yet.
0:24:31 > 0:24:36It's a big operation and there's a chance I might not even get cancer.
0:24:36 > 0:24:40If I do, Mum and Aunt Mags, they're still alive.
0:24:40 > 0:24:42They've been treated successfully.
0:24:43 > 0:24:46If it happens, I'll deal with it then.
0:24:46 > 0:24:49I don't think you should let what happened today influence you.
0:24:49 > 0:24:51Why not?
0:24:51 > 0:24:52Because it's irrational!
0:24:52 > 0:24:53Is it?
0:24:55 > 0:24:59Well, not exactly, surgery does have its risks,
0:24:59 > 0:25:01but the benefits outweigh them in your case.
0:25:01 > 0:25:04But right now, I'm in good health so why tempt fate?
0:25:04 > 0:25:06We have limited resources.
0:25:06 > 0:25:09Someone else could have been booked in for this afternoon,
0:25:09 > 0:25:12this bed's been booked for you for the rest of the week.
0:25:12 > 0:25:14I'm sorry to do this so late in the day.
0:25:17 > 0:25:19Well, it's your choice.
0:25:19 > 0:25:20Sorry.
0:25:26 > 0:25:29That was a tough choice.
0:25:29 > 0:25:31Giving up those C cups.
0:25:33 > 0:25:37Medics are notoriously bad at diagnosing themselves.
0:25:37 > 0:25:39I know what it is.
0:25:39 > 0:25:41It's my fate.
0:25:41 > 0:25:44This is not God punishing you.
0:25:44 > 0:25:45I think it is.
0:25:45 > 0:25:47Not MY God.
0:25:49 > 0:25:51Have you seen a doctor?
0:25:53 > 0:25:56Have you done any tests?
0:25:56 > 0:25:57All right.
0:26:00 > 0:26:02What are you doing?
0:26:02 > 0:26:05I am going to make an appointment for you to see Dr Carter.
0:26:05 > 0:26:08Knowing is better than fearing the worst.
0:26:15 > 0:26:17Mate!
0:26:17 > 0:26:19What's your name?
0:26:19 > 0:26:22Right, come on now, everyone's at it.
0:26:22 > 0:26:24Let's get this party kicked up a notch!
0:26:24 > 0:26:26Get down! You'll break your neck!
0:26:26 > 0:26:30You ever wonder what a man like me would do to your wife?
0:26:33 > 0:26:34To good times!
0:26:34 > 0:26:36ALL: Good times.
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