0:00:27 > 0:00:29BIRDSONG
0:00:33 > 0:00:35I thought you needed my help with those.
0:00:35 > 0:00:37Morning. I got up early and got on with everything.
0:00:37 > 0:00:39The caterers will be arriving soon.
0:00:39 > 0:00:41How many are you expecting?
0:00:41 > 0:00:44Everyone we said, perhaps a few more.
0:00:45 > 0:00:47It's a celebration.
0:00:48 > 0:00:53And... Well, I never thought we'd get to this day.
0:00:53 > 0:00:56I know that's not very nice,
0:00:56 > 0:00:59but I did have my moments. I had to stay positive all the way through.
0:00:59 > 0:01:01You always have been.
0:01:01 > 0:01:04Enough of that. It's all about you today.
0:01:04 > 0:01:07Well, I couldn't have got through it without you.
0:01:07 > 0:01:09Last word. Last word.
0:01:09 > 0:01:12Coffee?
0:01:12 > 0:01:14If you really don't need me, I better go over to the Mill,
0:01:14 > 0:01:15do a head count.
0:01:15 > 0:01:18We'll cope. I might need to pick up some more booze.
0:01:18 > 0:01:20They were all med students in a previous life.
0:01:20 > 0:01:21SHE LAUGHS
0:01:25 > 0:01:27That look straight to you?
0:01:27 > 0:01:29Mum? Mum? Mmm?
0:01:29 > 0:01:32Oh, look. There's Dr Carter.
0:01:32 > 0:01:34Where? Thought so.
0:01:34 > 0:01:38That's mean. You made me put my weight on it. It really hurts.
0:01:38 > 0:01:40What were you thinking?
0:01:40 > 0:01:43Why set yourself up for disappointment?
0:01:43 > 0:01:48You're a right little ray of sunshine today(!) He'll be here.
0:01:48 > 0:01:51You know how I've always been. It's better to travel in hope.
0:01:51 > 0:01:55Great(!) More fortune-cookie philosophy.
0:01:55 > 0:01:57Here you go, make yourself useful.
0:01:57 > 0:01:58He'll come. You'll see.
0:01:58 > 0:02:00He hardly leapt at your invite, did he?
0:02:00 > 0:02:03Him or Dr Tyler and he DEFINITELY won't come.
0:02:03 > 0:02:05That's what this is all about - Dr Tyler.
0:02:05 > 0:02:08Actually, no, I'm fine if he never shows his face.
0:02:08 > 0:02:10I mean it. They're all useless.
0:02:10 > 0:02:12Men, you can't be with them, you can't poison them
0:02:12 > 0:02:14and you can't bury them in the back garden.
0:02:14 > 0:02:15What have we talked about?
0:02:15 > 0:02:18That attitude will get you nowhere in this business.
0:02:18 > 0:02:20Or any other, for that matter.
0:02:21 > 0:02:24All I'm saying is I don't think she's sincere.
0:02:24 > 0:02:25Based on what, exactly?
0:02:25 > 0:02:26Trust me. To her,
0:02:26 > 0:02:29the most impressive thing about you is the size of your wallet.
0:02:29 > 0:02:30I know her type.
0:02:30 > 0:02:33Don't be cynical, Kevin.
0:02:34 > 0:02:37Gloria has gold digger written all over her.
0:02:37 > 0:02:42Not to mention Howard's warning about not getting involved with patients.
0:02:43 > 0:02:45"No. No. It is not man's nature.
0:02:45 > 0:02:49"I will not allow it to be more man's nature than woman's to be
0:02:49 > 0:02:53"inconstant and forget those they do love, or have loved."
0:02:53 > 0:02:57"Surely, if there be constant attachment on each side,
0:02:57 > 0:03:00"our hearts must understand each other ere long".
0:03:08 > 0:03:09'What can I do for you?'
0:03:09 > 0:03:13Karen, I've got a stack of paperwork to get through this
0:03:13 > 0:03:18morning, so hold all my calls please. 'That's not a problem.'
0:03:18 > 0:03:19Thank you.
0:03:26 > 0:03:30There's a turn-up! Everything's all right, isn't it?
0:03:30 > 0:03:32You haven't cancelled this afternoon?
0:03:32 > 0:03:33As if I'd let you down.
0:03:33 > 0:03:36Good cos you had me worried there.
0:03:36 > 0:03:39I've booked the whole afternoon off, got me dancing shoes
0:03:39 > 0:03:40and the Mamma Mia soundtrack in my bag.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42Just stand back and watch you go?
0:03:42 > 0:03:43Long as the first dance is with me.
0:03:43 > 0:03:47And the rest! I'm not sharing the best-looking guy at the party with anyone.
0:03:47 > 0:03:49Is this how you charmed Rob?
0:03:49 > 0:03:51That and pickled onions.
0:03:51 > 0:03:56Pickled onions? As an aphrodisiac or a booby trap?
0:03:56 > 0:03:59I just wanted to do a head count. Do you know who's coming?
0:03:59 > 0:04:03Me and Dr Haskey, definite and Jas and Jimmi.
0:04:03 > 0:04:08Mandy and Dr Tyler are here but I'm not sure. Can I give you a bell?
0:04:08 > 0:04:10I'm so sorry, I'll be two ticks.
0:04:10 > 0:04:11Elliot?
0:04:14 > 0:04:15Ladies...
0:04:17 > 0:04:20..your knight in shining armour is here.
0:04:20 > 0:04:22Mr Biglow?
0:04:22 > 0:04:26It should be Barry by now. Let's not stand on ceremony.
0:04:26 > 0:04:27What can we do for you?
0:04:27 > 0:04:31It's a matter of vice versa. I heard the floodgates had opened.
0:04:31 > 0:04:33A tsunami has threatened to topple your empire.
0:04:33 > 0:04:35There's a leak under the sink if that's what you mean.
0:04:35 > 0:04:38And I'm here to sort it. Soon have you back on your feet.
0:04:38 > 0:04:40A plumber on top of everything else?
0:04:40 > 0:04:42And yet you're still single. Fancy!
0:04:43 > 0:04:47First things first, kettle on, then point me at your stopcock.
0:04:48 > 0:04:51I thought you died.
0:04:51 > 0:04:52How long have you been back?
0:04:52 > 0:04:55Last week. I was going to contact your mother and pay my respects.
0:04:55 > 0:05:00She moved. Right. I never thought...
0:05:00 > 0:05:02Mr Eansworth?
0:05:02 > 0:05:04I can't believe it. You look...
0:05:04 > 0:05:07Would you like to come through?
0:05:07 > 0:05:11Elliot. Elliot...
0:05:11 > 0:05:13Dr Haskey's waiting.
0:05:13 > 0:05:19But... I just can't believe it. You'll wait, yes?
0:05:19 > 0:05:20Sure.
0:05:20 > 0:05:22Come this way.
0:05:29 > 0:05:31Who was that?
0:05:35 > 0:05:36Elliot?
0:05:39 > 0:05:41Sorry, medical emergency.
0:05:41 > 0:05:44KNOCKS ON DOOR Elliot?
0:05:46 > 0:05:48What's wrong? It's not like you.
0:05:48 > 0:05:50I'm OK.
0:05:50 > 0:05:53You promised me a serious boogie this afternoon.
0:05:53 > 0:05:55You can hardly do that from in there, can you?
0:05:55 > 0:05:57I just need a minute. That's all.
0:05:57 > 0:06:00Who was that? Do you know him?
0:06:00 > 0:06:01Bit of a looker, isn't he?
0:06:03 > 0:06:04DOOR UNLOCKS
0:06:10 > 0:06:12So it's just the repeat prescription? Not brought me
0:06:12 > 0:06:17something spectacularly exotic from Down Under to challenge me with?
0:06:19 > 0:06:24He's still alive. You've been treating him?
0:06:24 > 0:06:26I can't say. Patient confidentiality.
0:06:26 > 0:06:28No, of course not, sorry.
0:06:28 > 0:06:34Only, when I left six years ago, his cancer was terminal.
0:06:34 > 0:06:38And he's still with us. Which is great, isn't it?
0:06:39 > 0:06:44I don't know. I mean, yes, but...
0:06:46 > 0:06:48Should I have stayed?
0:06:51 > 0:06:57He, um, was... We were...
0:06:59 > 0:07:01He was the one, was he?
0:07:06 > 0:07:09He's never mentioned me?
0:07:09 > 0:07:11I've only been here a year.
0:07:12 > 0:07:13Nothing?
0:07:19 > 0:07:20Why didn't he stay in touch?
0:07:20 > 0:07:22Because you asked him not to.
0:07:22 > 0:07:24That's what clean break means, doesn't it?
0:07:24 > 0:07:25What's he doing back...?
0:07:25 > 0:07:26Ask him.
0:07:28 > 0:07:31Six years. It's taken its toll.
0:07:31 > 0:07:35The surgery, the chemo, the radiotherapy.
0:07:35 > 0:07:39You look brilliant. I've watched you get better and stronger
0:07:39 > 0:07:41and more confident, and happier,
0:07:41 > 0:07:44and now you're going to go out there and talk it through.
0:07:44 > 0:07:46No, I can't. Can you check?
0:07:46 > 0:07:48I want to get away without him seeing.
0:07:48 > 0:07:52Please. This is too much. I need time to think.
0:07:53 > 0:07:59Later on - you, me, Mamma Mia, a lot of alcohol and a long talk.
0:08:03 > 0:08:07I've used some sealant, so you'll have to leave it until it's set.
0:08:07 > 0:08:08Thank you.
0:08:08 > 0:08:12How would we have managed without you? You're a life-saver, really.
0:08:12 > 0:08:15Only discharging my duty as landlord by proxy.
0:08:15 > 0:08:17Well, we're very grateful, thank you.
0:08:17 > 0:08:19I don't know what we would have done.
0:08:19 > 0:08:21Called a plumber.
0:08:21 > 0:08:23I'll just turn your water back on and that's it. Although...
0:08:23 > 0:08:26There's nothing else wrong, is there?
0:08:27 > 0:08:29I had intended on calling on you this week,
0:08:29 > 0:08:33not in an official capacity.
0:08:33 > 0:08:38I wondered if you might consider going on some kind of date with me?
0:08:38 > 0:08:40Not just to show any appreciation,
0:08:40 > 0:08:43this isn't a quid pro quo arrangement.
0:08:43 > 0:08:46But I have admired you from a distance for some time, and...
0:08:46 > 0:08:51What an unexpected surprise. A nice one, that is.
0:08:53 > 0:08:55So is he back for good or is it a flying visit?
0:08:55 > 0:08:58For good. The university's given him tenure.
0:08:59 > 0:09:00Don't you think it's moving?
0:09:00 > 0:09:03Six years apart, and then meeting again
0:09:03 > 0:09:05with someone you thought had died?!
0:09:05 > 0:09:06Like seeing a ghost.
0:09:06 > 0:09:09Certainly a shock. Six years!
0:09:09 > 0:09:11The chemo was punishing. A couple of times, they had to rush him
0:09:11 > 0:09:13into St Phil's. Touch and go.
0:09:13 > 0:09:16Doesn't he deserve some happiness? Wouldn't it be great
0:09:16 > 0:09:17if they got back together?
0:09:17 > 0:09:19Karen, you big romantic!
0:09:19 > 0:09:21Not going to happen.
0:09:21 > 0:09:23He's smart enough to know you NEVER go back.
0:09:23 > 0:09:25Any coffee on the go?
0:09:25 > 0:09:28What do you think, Emma? About what?
0:09:28 > 0:09:30Elliot Carver giving love a second chance.
0:09:30 > 0:09:32Sailing off into the sunset.
0:09:32 > 0:09:34In my experience, when you've had that sort of illness,
0:09:34 > 0:09:36you tend to be more cautious.
0:09:36 > 0:09:40As for going back to someone, there are bigger considerations.
0:09:40 > 0:09:42No, this is a big deal.
0:09:42 > 0:09:44I could see it in his eyes.
0:09:44 > 0:09:46It's like this. Love has little to do with it.
0:09:46 > 0:09:48Her books might seem romantic,
0:09:48 > 0:09:51but they read like an instruction manual. You what?
0:09:51 > 0:09:57How to find a man and marry him if not for love then security.
0:09:57 > 0:09:59I'd take love over money any day of the week.
0:09:59 > 0:10:02I bet you nothing is going to happen between Elliot
0:10:02 > 0:10:05and the tall, sun-tanned man from Down Under.
0:10:05 > 0:10:08Tall and sun-tanned on top of everything else?
0:10:08 > 0:10:11That's a bet you would SO lose, Haskey. Is he really good looking?
0:10:11 > 0:10:14He makes Brad Pitt look like Quasimodo.
0:10:14 > 0:10:16Fiver says you're wrong.
0:10:16 > 0:10:18You're on.
0:10:18 > 0:10:19Fiver from me that they get back together too.
0:10:19 > 0:10:22A tenner from me that it's no.
0:10:22 > 0:10:26I think Elliot is wise enough to know that going back would be a mistake.
0:10:27 > 0:10:31Karen Hollins, are you going to put your money where your considerable mouth is?
0:10:31 > 0:10:34You going to let him get away with that?
0:10:34 > 0:10:37Right, fiver on a happy ending. True love prevails.
0:10:37 > 0:10:40How about we give things a little bit of a nudge?
0:10:40 > 0:10:42I don't think we're suited.
0:10:42 > 0:10:48Suited? I'm just the landlord then? The odd-job man?
0:10:48 > 0:10:49I think "odd" covers it.
0:10:49 > 0:10:53Sigourney! Take no mind.
0:10:53 > 0:10:57No. Clearly been getting ideas above my station.
0:10:57 > 0:11:02It's not that and I'm sure Sigourney's not said it right.
0:11:02 > 0:11:07She's not rejecting you, it's just a matter of not being available.
0:11:07 > 0:11:09Someone else got there first?
0:11:09 > 0:11:11I'm not a finishing line!
0:11:11 > 0:11:13You don't have to soften the blow.
0:11:13 > 0:11:15I can't say it's passed my attention,
0:11:15 > 0:11:17the way you've been looking at Dr Tyler.
0:11:17 > 0:11:20What? No. It's not. Why does everyone keep saying that?!
0:11:20 > 0:11:21Because we're not stupid.
0:11:21 > 0:11:23At least, let me do one last decent thing, even if
0:11:23 > 0:11:26it does seem "odd" of me. Barry...
0:11:26 > 0:11:28Let me tell you about your dream man, because clearly
0:11:28 > 0:11:31you don't have a clue about what a useless womaniser he is.
0:11:31 > 0:11:35He was accused of the murder of one of his ex-girlfriends. Murder?!
0:11:35 > 0:11:36They got someone else in the end,
0:11:36 > 0:11:39but, for a long time, he was a very credible person of interest.
0:11:39 > 0:11:40I've heard enough.
0:11:40 > 0:11:44You don't want to know about Dr Wilson, then?
0:11:44 > 0:11:47Another conquest. She died saving him
0:11:47 > 0:11:49from a fire at the home of his next plaything.
0:11:49 > 0:11:51No! She was a respected colleague,
0:11:51 > 0:11:54Dr Wilson. Not that he cared about her reputation.
0:11:54 > 0:11:56Only one thing he wanted.
0:11:56 > 0:11:57I think you should leave.
0:11:57 > 0:12:00Bad things happen to the women around Dr Tyler.
0:12:00 > 0:12:02I'm telling you out of concern.
0:12:03 > 0:12:05No need to thank me.
0:12:10 > 0:12:12Still no dressing? I asked you ten minutes ago.
0:12:14 > 0:12:15Mum.
0:12:15 > 0:12:18At last, everyone'll be arriving soon.
0:12:18 > 0:12:20I got held up. Something unexpected...
0:12:20 > 0:12:22Well, everything's ready here.
0:12:22 > 0:12:24You'll never guess who I saw this morning.
0:12:26 > 0:12:28Stuart.
0:12:28 > 0:12:30How could you know that?
0:12:30 > 0:12:32Karen.
0:12:33 > 0:12:34Dr Haskey.
0:12:36 > 0:12:37Stuart.
0:12:37 > 0:12:39Hello.
0:12:39 > 0:12:43Elliot. Mrs Carver, it's nice to see you.
0:12:43 > 0:12:46What an incredible surprise! Today of all days as well.
0:12:49 > 0:12:52Can I get anyone a drink? Champagne?
0:12:52 > 0:12:55Lovely. Why not? It is a celebration.
0:12:55 > 0:12:57Mum? Yes, lovely, thanks.
0:12:59 > 0:13:02I don't even know what you're celebrating.
0:13:02 > 0:13:04Is anyone else from the Mill joining us?
0:13:04 > 0:13:07They'll be coming in dribs and drabs.
0:13:07 > 0:13:10This is a bolt from the blue. You look very well.
0:13:10 > 0:13:13Thank you. So does Elliot.
0:13:14 > 0:13:17And how do you know our friends here?
0:13:17 > 0:13:18I met Elliot at the Mill.
0:13:18 > 0:13:22Just excuse me a moment. He might need a hand.
0:13:35 > 0:13:38Elliot isn't budging an inch. That's my boy.
0:13:38 > 0:13:40Give it a chance. Did you see her face?
0:13:40 > 0:13:42She couldn't have been more surprised
0:13:42 > 0:13:43if he'd jumped out of a cake.
0:13:43 > 0:13:45Cake? Where?
0:13:51 > 0:13:54HE CLEARS THROAT
0:13:54 > 0:13:56Where are you?
0:13:56 > 0:13:57Nearly finished.
0:13:57 > 0:13:58What do you think?
0:13:58 > 0:14:00It's OK. You?
0:14:00 > 0:14:05Is it worth the hype? Mrs Tembe says it's moving.
0:14:05 > 0:14:07All that lost love, found again, isn't it?
0:14:07 > 0:14:10I'm guessing that's where Miss Austen is heading. It's a bit obvious.
0:14:10 > 0:14:12You never know, she might surprise us.
0:14:12 > 0:14:14What with, kung fu nuns?
0:14:14 > 0:14:17Captain Wentworth materialising as Jack the Ripper.
0:14:25 > 0:14:29You won't find the champagne out here. How are you feeling?
0:14:29 > 0:14:32I don't know. Surprised, angry...
0:14:34 > 0:14:36Hi. Good to see you. Go straight in.
0:14:40 > 0:14:42I could ask him to leave if it's all too much.
0:14:42 > 0:14:44There's no need. Really.
0:14:44 > 0:14:48Sure? We could just use a moment.
0:14:48 > 0:14:49It's OK.
0:14:51 > 0:14:57I know it's a shock, seeing me, but seeing you standing here,
0:14:57 > 0:15:00after I'd given you up...
0:15:00 > 0:15:04We moved on. We decided.
0:15:04 > 0:15:05Is that why you never contacted me?
0:15:05 > 0:15:08Not even after things changed?
0:15:08 > 0:15:10It's been a long haul.
0:15:10 > 0:15:12Now, Elliot's five years clear of cancer,
0:15:12 > 0:15:15and, as you say, things change.
0:15:16 > 0:15:19Five years? That's amazing.
0:15:19 > 0:15:21It's what today's about.
0:15:23 > 0:15:25I'd better sort those drinks.
0:15:28 > 0:15:30It takes an emotional toll.
0:15:32 > 0:15:36He's not the same, but he is still with us.
0:15:38 > 0:15:40Now, how are your parents?
0:15:40 > 0:15:44They must be so pleased you're paying a visit.
0:15:44 > 0:15:46No, I'm back for good.
0:15:46 > 0:15:48Really?
0:15:48 > 0:15:51But that still takes some adjustment.
0:15:51 > 0:15:54You can't jump straight back in.
0:15:56 > 0:15:58Tragic, the poor woman.
0:15:58 > 0:15:59There's this too.
0:15:59 > 0:16:02Barry didn't even mention that. She was temping at the Mill.
0:16:02 > 0:16:07People do meet at work. Anyway, it was this Harrison man.
0:16:08 > 0:16:12What an appalling situation. Can you imagine?
0:16:12 > 0:16:15Just as well you don't like him.
0:16:15 > 0:16:20Innocent or not, I'm a little bit relieved, to tell you the truth.
0:16:20 > 0:16:22And you can't tar them all with the same brush.
0:16:24 > 0:16:26This is getting ridiculous.
0:16:26 > 0:16:28Who are you calling?
0:16:28 > 0:16:29Heston Carter.
0:16:29 > 0:16:32Dr Carter? It's Gloria...Newton.
0:16:32 > 0:16:35Mrs Newton. How's the ankle?
0:16:35 > 0:16:39Not so bad, considering, but we soldier on, us Newton women.
0:16:39 > 0:16:41I'm ringing on behalf of Sigourney,
0:16:41 > 0:16:44actually. Checking if you'll be coming to the grand opening?
0:16:44 > 0:16:47Well... Can I put you down as a yes?
0:16:47 > 0:16:50Please convey my thanks, but I don't think I'll be able to attend.
0:16:50 > 0:16:52Oh. That's a disappointment.
0:16:52 > 0:16:58Busy doctor, in demand, pressures of work. Another time, perhaps?
0:16:58 > 0:17:01I think it's inappropriate. You're both patients.
0:17:01 > 0:17:03There are certain protocols.
0:17:03 > 0:17:05Protocols. Of course.
0:17:05 > 0:17:10You are a special person, Gloria, and who knows in other circumstances we, um...?
0:17:10 > 0:17:17I fully understand. Just one of those things.
0:17:17 > 0:17:19'Bye-bye.'
0:17:19 > 0:17:22Sorry.
0:17:22 > 0:17:24"Sorry"? Not "I told you so"?
0:17:24 > 0:17:27The last e-mail I had from you, it said,
0:17:27 > 0:17:30"Please don't ask, it's too painful".
0:17:30 > 0:17:32I sent more after that. You never answered.
0:17:32 > 0:17:36That was the last! What did it even mean?
0:17:36 > 0:17:38I don't remember.
0:17:38 > 0:17:40Wait, yes, I do.
0:17:41 > 0:17:43You were really sick from the chemo.
0:17:43 > 0:17:48Your white cell count didn't rise, you had a terrible infection.
0:17:50 > 0:17:52The consultant told me to be prepared.
0:17:52 > 0:17:54Don't upset yourself.
0:17:54 > 0:17:56I must have sent it after that.
0:17:56 > 0:17:58Everything all right, Miriam?
0:17:58 > 0:18:00Just a moment...
0:18:01 > 0:18:02Shall I be mother?
0:18:04 > 0:18:05It's all a bit much for her.
0:18:05 > 0:18:08I was really ill, she was coping alone.
0:18:08 > 0:18:11It can't have been easy.
0:18:11 > 0:18:12I should have stayed.
0:18:12 > 0:18:15It would have helped her and you.
0:18:15 > 0:18:18We all get it wrong sometimes.
0:18:19 > 0:18:22No. You did the right thing, leaving.
0:18:22 > 0:18:23Why?
0:18:23 > 0:18:26You would have grown to resent Elliot for holding you back.
0:18:26 > 0:18:28Never. You had ambitions.
0:18:30 > 0:18:33What would it have been like, to have Stuart leave
0:18:33 > 0:18:34just when you needed him most?
0:18:34 > 0:18:38Not to mention that it was...
0:18:38 > 0:18:39What?
0:18:39 > 0:18:43How awkward it would have been. The hospital stays,
0:18:43 > 0:18:44Stuart at your bedside.
0:18:45 > 0:18:48What difference would THAT make?
0:18:48 > 0:18:52The prejudice they would have felt. Other patients, staring, pointing.
0:18:52 > 0:18:54That's ridiculous.
0:18:54 > 0:18:57I was the only one capable of being that clear-sighted.
0:18:57 > 0:18:59You believed it was love, but...
0:18:59 > 0:19:03What about when Elliot started to get better?
0:19:03 > 0:19:05Didn't you want to share the good news? Like now?
0:19:05 > 0:19:08All I got was, "Don't ask, it's too painful."
0:19:08 > 0:19:11If you could walk away that easily,
0:19:11 > 0:19:13you can't have been as strong together as you thought.
0:19:13 > 0:19:18But, hang on, was them staying apart what you wanted?
0:19:18 > 0:19:20Did you keep them apart deliberately?
0:19:25 > 0:19:28EMMA READING: "While the woman you love lives, and lives for you.
0:19:28 > 0:19:34"All the privilege I claim for my own sex is that of loving longest,
0:19:34 > 0:19:36"when existence or when hope is gone.
0:19:38 > 0:19:42"She could not immediately have uttered another sentence.
0:19:42 > 0:19:47"Her heart was too full, her breath too much oppressed."
0:19:48 > 0:19:53HOWARD READING: "You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope.
0:19:53 > 0:19:56"Tell me that I am not too late,
0:19:56 > 0:19:58"that such precious feelings are gone for ever.
0:20:00 > 0:20:04"I offer myself to you again with a heart ever more your own,
0:20:04 > 0:20:07"than when you almost broke it..."
0:20:10 > 0:20:14And I'm telling you, I got that e-mail two years after I left.
0:20:14 > 0:20:16It can't have been two.
0:20:16 > 0:20:19I was in remission after 18 months.
0:20:19 > 0:20:21Two years.
0:20:21 > 0:20:24The other side of the world or not, I was in mourning.
0:20:24 > 0:20:29No. By then, I was even thinking about making the trip out there.
0:20:30 > 0:20:32Only you persuaded me not to.
0:20:32 > 0:20:34Because you weren't up to the journey.
0:20:34 > 0:20:36Is that all it was? Is Karen right?
0:20:36 > 0:20:38Did you do this deliberately?
0:20:38 > 0:20:41Did you deceive me to keep me away?
0:20:41 > 0:20:45OK, what if he'd gone all that way and found you'd met someone?
0:20:45 > 0:20:47What do you think that would have done?
0:20:47 > 0:20:50Positive mental attitude goes a long way to fighting cancer.
0:20:50 > 0:20:52So does having someone who loves you.
0:20:52 > 0:20:55What does that add to the quality of life?
0:20:55 > 0:20:59I gave you that. Proof you didn't need it from someone else.
0:20:59 > 0:21:04Motherly love or not, did you deliberately drive a wedge?
0:21:04 > 0:21:06Meddling.
0:21:08 > 0:21:10I still have my son against all odds.
0:21:10 > 0:21:12What wouldn't I have done?
0:21:12 > 0:21:15What could have happened if you hadn't interfered?!
0:21:15 > 0:21:17I never lied.
0:21:17 > 0:21:18You deceived by omission.
0:21:21 > 0:21:24There are people out there,
0:21:24 > 0:21:29overjoyed that you are still with us and want you to be happy.
0:21:29 > 0:21:31Don't keep them waiting.
0:21:33 > 0:21:39Hmm, I've done some dodgy things in the name of motherhood, but that...
0:21:39 > 0:21:41She is right, though.
0:21:41 > 0:21:45You are still here. This is that best-case scenario.
0:21:48 > 0:21:49I'm lucky.
0:21:50 > 0:21:51What about MY luck?
0:21:54 > 0:21:56Can that change?
0:21:58 > 0:22:01Sorry. No.
0:22:15 > 0:22:17I really don't know why I'm here.
0:22:18 > 0:22:20You were invited.
0:22:24 > 0:22:26What have we missed?
0:22:26 > 0:22:29Fireworks. You're just in time to pay up.
0:22:29 > 0:22:30Really? No. Why?
0:22:31 > 0:22:33We forgot the mother factor.
0:22:34 > 0:22:36CLINKING GLASS
0:22:38 > 0:22:45I would like to say thanks to everyone, especially my
0:22:45 > 0:22:50MacMillan nurses, St Phil's oncology department, and the team at the Mill.
0:22:50 > 0:22:58GPs, consultants and nurses, all come and gone, but the support
0:22:58 > 0:23:02has always been the same, and in some cases, it has been out-and-out fun.
0:23:05 > 0:23:09Six years ago, I didn't think I had long.
0:23:10 > 0:23:15I told someone I loved them enough to let them go because I didn't
0:23:15 > 0:23:18want them to put up with what you have to deal with every day.
0:23:18 > 0:23:20I'm amazed at how you cope.
0:23:22 > 0:23:28Six years of other people making decisions, doing what's best,
0:23:28 > 0:23:33protecting me and here we are.
0:23:33 > 0:23:38Thankfully. After five years of holding my breath,
0:23:38 > 0:23:42it's time to exhale, and seriously get on with living my life.
0:23:42 > 0:23:47So drink up, enjoy. It's over too quickly.
0:23:49 > 0:23:51APPLAUSE
0:23:54 > 0:23:59What's the point of all this life you never thought he'd have,
0:23:59 > 0:24:01if he doesn't really live it?
0:24:01 > 0:24:03Because he won't live it right.
0:24:03 > 0:24:04That's not your choice!
0:24:11 > 0:24:13It's too late.
0:24:13 > 0:24:16Shut up, you big dope. Go and win him back.
0:24:21 > 0:24:24Elliot... Can you stop stacking the odds please?
0:24:24 > 0:24:27There's more at stake than a few quid here.
0:24:28 > 0:24:32Wait. We're different people.
0:24:32 > 0:24:36Having cancer changes everything. You can't go back.
0:24:36 > 0:24:39I don't want to. I want to go forward.
0:24:40 > 0:24:43My past, my future. It's all the same.
0:24:44 > 0:24:46It's only ever been you.
0:24:48 > 0:24:50At least say you'll give us a chance.
0:24:50 > 0:24:54Six years, Stuart, and you want a decision out of me
0:24:54 > 0:24:56after six minutes? I'm sorry...
0:25:04 > 0:25:08I lost you once. I won't do it again.
0:25:08 > 0:25:10Ever.
0:25:16 > 0:25:18That's so...wow...
0:25:19 > 0:25:21It's so right.
0:25:21 > 0:25:24That's so a pay out from Honest Al. Cha-ching!
0:25:24 > 0:25:25Double or quits.
0:25:25 > 0:25:28Let's find a pub, with a dart board, me versus you lot?
0:25:28 > 0:25:31Once we're established, I can expand,
0:25:31 > 0:25:33I can put in an area for a spray-tanning booth.
0:25:33 > 0:25:35Way better than a sunbed.
0:25:36 > 0:25:39So how is your mother's ankle?
0:25:41 > 0:25:42Fine. It's her head giving me grief.
0:25:42 > 0:25:44She's got Dr Carter running round inside it,
0:25:44 > 0:25:46much good it'll do her. That's true.
0:25:46 > 0:25:48He's spoken to you?
0:25:48 > 0:25:50He had his doubts, I set him straight.
0:25:50 > 0:25:54He's realised better some unhappiness now than a whole load later on.
0:25:54 > 0:25:56And who are you to decide that?
0:25:56 > 0:25:59Someone who cares about their friends and their colleagues.
0:25:59 > 0:26:01Listen, I didn't come here to talk about them.
0:26:01 > 0:26:02No? No. I, uh...
0:26:06 > 0:26:11I wanted to ask if you'd like to come for dinner with me.
0:26:11 > 0:26:13In spite of everything,
0:26:13 > 0:26:16I can't help feeling there's something between us. Don't you?
0:26:16 > 0:26:18"In spite of everything"?
0:26:18 > 0:26:22Yeah, you, me. Let's face it, against all reason,
0:26:22 > 0:26:24there's something between us.
0:26:24 > 0:26:26So, in spite of everything you don't like, everything that
0:26:26 > 0:26:28you think is wrong, wrong with my mother...
0:26:28 > 0:26:32I didn't say that. Everything that makes you superior to me in every way.
0:26:32 > 0:26:33Whoa...!
0:26:33 > 0:26:36Why do I think that saying no to you won't be enough?
0:26:36 > 0:26:38What does that even mean?
0:26:38 > 0:26:40You know what, no big deal. Your loss.
0:26:42 > 0:26:45Turning down someone who got away with murder?
0:26:48 > 0:26:51You what? My loss? More like my lucky escape
0:26:51 > 0:26:53which is more than some women can say.
0:26:53 > 0:26:55I don't know what you've been told.
0:26:55 > 0:26:57Enough to know what you're really like.
0:26:57 > 0:26:59If you're the type of person who listens to rumour
0:26:59 > 0:27:02and gossip then it's my lucky escape, not yours.
0:27:08 > 0:27:10How much was the fine? ?100?
0:27:10 > 0:27:13So much for our resident bookworm.
0:27:13 > 0:27:14I certainly wouldn't make any accusations
0:27:14 > 0:27:16until I knew all the facts.
0:27:16 > 0:27:18So you'd hire a private detective?
0:27:18 > 0:27:22Ten is extremely satisfied. One is extremely dissatisfied.
0:27:22 > 0:27:26Two. Kevin Tyler - The Demon Plumber of Letherbridge!
0:27:28 > 0:27:29I meant that as a compliment.
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