0:00:28 > 0:00:29Don't you look pretty?
0:00:31 > 0:00:36Round and round the garden, like a teddy bear, one step, two steps,
0:00:36 > 0:00:38tickle you under there!
0:00:38 > 0:00:40Ho, ho, ho! Who's been a good girl this year, then?
0:00:40 > 0:00:43What are you doing? It's not even Easter yet.
0:00:43 > 0:00:46Easter! Oh! All that chocolate, yummy!
0:00:46 > 0:00:48Morning, you. Morning.
0:00:48 > 0:00:51You better get your skates on. I don't want to be late.
0:00:51 > 0:00:52How's the rash?
0:00:52 > 0:00:54Worse, and she's still got a temperature.
0:00:54 > 0:00:56Oh, I hope it's not mumps.
0:00:56 > 0:00:58I think you need lots of cuddles.
0:01:00 > 0:01:03Oooh - I'm running late.
0:01:03 > 0:01:05Good morning.
0:01:05 > 0:01:07- Ah, did you make those for me? - Looks like it.
0:01:07 > 0:01:09Get stuck in before they get cold.
0:01:09 > 0:01:13I'm really sorry, but the thought of eating pancakes first thing...
0:01:13 > 0:01:16You've got to eat something. I can get you something else.
0:01:16 > 0:01:18Oh, no, no - don't you dare - stay there. This'll do.
0:01:18 > 0:01:20See ya.
0:01:20 > 0:01:22Mand, don't forget your...
0:01:35 > 0:01:37Hey. The bigger they are, the harder they fall.
0:01:37 > 0:01:39Oh, yeah - they do, do they?
0:01:39 > 0:01:41Yeah. I reckon I could've taken them all on with one hand
0:01:41 > 0:01:44- tied behind my back. - I didn't know you had it in you.
0:01:44 > 0:01:46Nothing frightens me. I just did the Ali shuffle.
0:01:46 > 0:01:48Henceforth known as the Al shuffle.
0:01:48 > 0:01:50Threw a massive overhand right, and down they all went.
0:01:50 > 0:01:52So when you dragged the big fella off me,
0:01:52 > 0:01:54why didn't you just deck him?
0:01:54 > 0:01:56That's because that gentleman was not fighting
0:01:56 > 0:01:58- by the Queensberry rules. - How many of them were there?
0:01:58 > 0:02:00I don't know - six, eight, ten, twelve...
0:02:00 > 0:02:01We lost count.
0:02:01 > 0:02:02And you took them all on?
0:02:02 > 0:02:06A man's got to do what a man's got to do.
0:02:06 > 0:02:07Morning, morning.
0:02:07 > 0:02:09Care to share the joke?
0:02:09 > 0:02:12Oh, just him, last night - you should've seen him.
0:02:12 > 0:02:14Some of the locals started picking on us,
0:02:14 > 0:02:17said we were playing on their table, and that we were yapping!
0:02:17 > 0:02:20- Yapping?- Nice one, mate. Nice one.
0:02:20 > 0:02:22Anyone care to elaborate?
0:02:22 > 0:02:24Did you walk into somebody's fist?
0:02:24 > 0:02:28Er... Self-defence.
0:02:29 > 0:02:30And you also were involved?
0:02:30 > 0:02:33I wasn't going to stand by and watch my mates take a beating,
0:02:33 > 0:02:35was I? Anyway, they started it.
0:02:35 > 0:02:36Great.
0:02:36 > 0:02:40Two doctors and a nurse - local pillars of the community -
0:02:40 > 0:02:42get involved in a bar fight.
0:02:42 > 0:02:44I can see the headlines now -
0:02:44 > 0:02:47"Two doctors and a nurse involved in a bar fight."
0:02:47 > 0:02:49THEY SNIGGER
0:02:49 > 0:02:51You want to grow up.
0:02:51 > 0:02:53THEY LAUGH
0:02:54 > 0:02:57ADVERT ON RADIO
0:02:57 > 0:03:00She's playing happily in her pen.
0:03:00 > 0:03:03Hey, do you think we should mention about the adoption?
0:03:03 > 0:03:04Course we should. Why not?
0:03:04 > 0:03:07Well, it was only the other week we found out about...
0:03:07 > 0:03:08Are you having second thoughts?
0:03:08 > 0:03:10No. Not at all. It's just it's early days.
0:03:10 > 0:03:12And we'll do whatever it takes.
0:03:12 > 0:03:13Yeah.
0:03:13 > 0:03:17Yeah. Sorry, I just think the old nerves are kicking in a bit.
0:03:17 > 0:03:22I had this feeling before, and... it felt like when you were pregnant.
0:03:22 > 0:03:24You know, like...?
0:03:24 > 0:03:27I'll be avoiding cracks in the pavement next.
0:03:27 > 0:03:29But this time we've got our little girl,
0:03:29 > 0:03:33and we're not going to lose her, are we, Ray?
0:03:33 > 0:03:36No way, my darling - no way.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42Morning.
0:03:42 > 0:03:44Hello again.
0:03:44 > 0:03:46- Have you got the post yet?- Yeah.
0:03:48 > 0:03:51- Morning, Dr Reid.- Morning. - I trust you've had words with him?
0:03:51 > 0:03:53- Who?- Your son.
0:03:53 > 0:03:55No, I haven't seen him this morning. Why?
0:03:55 > 0:03:58Ah, I see. Got himself into a punch-up last night.
0:03:58 > 0:04:01You know we've the reputation of this practice to...
0:04:06 > 0:04:09- UNDER HER BREATH:- Telltale tit.
0:04:11 > 0:04:13Did they hit you anywhere else?
0:04:13 > 0:04:15HE SIGHS
0:04:15 > 0:04:17They hardly touched him.
0:04:17 > 0:04:19Please, will you stop fussing?
0:04:19 > 0:04:21Ridiculous behaviour from grown men.
0:04:21 > 0:04:24Hey! A grown man has got to defend himself.
0:04:26 > 0:04:28What's wrong with your neck?
0:04:28 > 0:04:31He is suffering from whiplash from when I pushed him out of the way.
0:04:31 > 0:04:34THEY LAUGH
0:04:36 > 0:04:37Lift up your top.
0:04:39 > 0:04:40Now.
0:04:42 > 0:04:43All right.
0:04:46 > 0:04:49- Whoa.- You've been used as a punchbag.
0:04:49 > 0:04:51Yeah. Flipping heck, mate.
0:04:51 > 0:04:54- Why didn't you stick up for him? - Oi, don't pick on them!
0:04:54 > 0:04:56He hardly had a mark on him last night.
0:04:56 > 0:04:57It wasn't like that.
0:04:59 > 0:05:00The thing is,
0:05:00 > 0:05:03I got jumped on the way home.
0:05:03 > 0:05:05They must've followed me.
0:05:05 > 0:05:07Why didn't you wake me up when you came in?
0:05:12 > 0:05:13Who're you calling?
0:05:13 > 0:05:16I want you to make a statement.
0:05:16 > 0:05:20But before you do, I want to get you checked out.
0:05:20 > 0:05:22No way. Just leave it, Mum.
0:05:22 > 0:05:23Chris.
0:05:24 > 0:05:27Mrs Tembe, I'm taking Chris to St Phil's.
0:05:27 > 0:05:29We'll be back as soon as we can.
0:05:29 > 0:05:30Of course.
0:05:30 > 0:05:31Why? I don't need to go.
0:05:31 > 0:05:32You're going. Grow up.
0:05:37 > 0:05:39Mine are bigger.
0:05:39 > 0:05:41Hi.
0:05:43 > 0:05:45So,
0:05:45 > 0:05:48this is little Rosie?
0:05:48 > 0:05:50Hello. How long has she been with you?
0:05:50 > 0:05:54- About six months.- Yeah. - She's settled in really well.
0:05:54 > 0:05:56And we recently heard that her mum's passed away.
0:05:56 > 0:05:57We're hoping to adopt.
0:05:57 > 0:05:59I hope that goes well for you.
0:05:59 > 0:06:01Thanks. We couldn't imagine being without her now.
0:06:03 > 0:06:06And how about you and your little boy? How's he doing?
0:06:06 > 0:06:09He's very well, thanks for asking, Ray.
0:06:09 > 0:06:12It makes all the whole nightmare at the fertility clinics...
0:06:14 > 0:06:15I'm so sorry.
0:06:15 > 0:06:16No, don't, don't be.
0:06:16 > 0:06:19I know it didn't work out for me and Ray, but I'm pleased for you.
0:06:19 > 0:06:22Besides, we've got Rosie now.
0:06:22 > 0:06:25So, what can we do for you?
0:06:25 > 0:06:26She's got a rash on her chest.
0:06:26 > 0:06:28And she's running a bit of a high temperature.
0:06:28 > 0:06:29Has she been sick?
0:06:29 > 0:06:31- No.- Is she off her food?
0:06:31 > 0:06:32No, but appetite's not great.
0:06:34 > 0:06:35Let's see if you've got
0:06:35 > 0:06:38lots of little spots hiding under there, Rosie.
0:06:38 > 0:06:40Could I maybe have a little look?
0:06:41 > 0:06:43- Here you go.- Thank you.
0:06:43 > 0:06:44Can I help?
0:06:44 > 0:06:46Is Mandy Marquez around?
0:06:46 > 0:06:49She's with a patient, but I could take a message?
0:06:51 > 0:06:53Impossible.
0:06:55 > 0:06:57It is amazing.
0:06:58 > 0:07:01You can't touch the patients, you'll get into trouble.
0:07:01 > 0:07:02Sorry about this.
0:07:05 > 0:07:07It cannot be her.
0:07:09 > 0:07:11Who's her social worker?
0:07:11 > 0:07:13It's Gillian Mayfield, is it?
0:07:13 > 0:07:15Is something wrong? Have you found something?
0:07:15 > 0:07:18No, but there are just a few things I need to check out,
0:07:18 > 0:07:20and I would like to speak to her now,
0:07:20 > 0:07:23so if you wouldn't mind waiting outside.
0:07:25 > 0:07:26Course we will.
0:07:31 > 0:07:34Oh, you are the spitting image.
0:07:34 > 0:07:37Thank you. So people tell me.
0:07:37 > 0:07:41Dr Wilson was a much respected doctor.
0:07:41 > 0:07:42She is very sadly missed.
0:07:42 > 0:07:44That's nice to know.
0:07:44 > 0:07:45Mrs Tem...
0:07:45 > 0:07:49Hi. I'm Lois, Freya's sister.
0:07:49 > 0:07:50I'm...
0:07:50 > 0:07:52Sorry, Jimmi. Jimmi Clay.
0:07:52 > 0:07:54I had exactly the same reaction.
0:07:56 > 0:07:57Wow, were you twins?
0:07:57 > 0:08:00No, just quite similar.
0:08:00 > 0:08:03Sorry, you must get that all the time.
0:08:03 > 0:08:06Quite a bit, yeah, but it is totally cool.
0:08:06 > 0:08:09Do you live around here, or...?
0:08:09 > 0:08:12I didn't, but I'm staying with Mandy.
0:08:12 > 0:08:13Hiya.
0:08:13 > 0:08:14What're you doing here?
0:08:14 > 0:08:16You forgot your lunch, so...
0:08:16 > 0:08:20Oh, I picked up a sandwich.
0:08:20 > 0:08:21Oh.
0:08:21 > 0:08:23Are you planning to stay longer?
0:08:25 > 0:08:27I hope so.
0:08:27 > 0:08:29Yeah, I really hope so.
0:08:35 > 0:08:37Why do you think she wanted us out of the room?
0:08:37 > 0:08:40Because, like she said, she needed to speak to the social worker.
0:08:40 > 0:08:42Why couldn't she do that while we were in there?
0:08:42 > 0:08:44It's medical stuff, isn't it? It's confidential.
0:08:44 > 0:08:46So?
0:08:46 > 0:08:48So we're not her parents, are we?
0:08:48 > 0:08:50We're just fostering for now.
0:08:50 > 0:08:53- What if she thinks we're not looking after her properly? - For goodness' sake.
0:08:53 > 0:08:55Thanks for waiting. Come in.
0:09:07 > 0:09:09Right, well, I've spoken to her social worker,
0:09:09 > 0:09:13and I do think it's best that I take some blood tests, if that's OK?
0:09:13 > 0:09:14What for?
0:09:14 > 0:09:17I know we're not her parents, but surely we've got a right to know.
0:09:17 > 0:09:19Yes, of course you do.
0:09:19 > 0:09:22Look, there's very little information in Rosie's medical file,
0:09:22 > 0:09:24so, since she's not feeling well,
0:09:24 > 0:09:26I do think that it's the best course of action.
0:09:26 > 0:09:30But I will be as quick and as gentle as I can.
0:09:30 > 0:09:34Erm, thanks for bringing my lunch in.
0:09:34 > 0:09:36I didn't mind, it gave me an excuse to see where you work.
0:09:36 > 0:09:37Well, now you have.
0:09:39 > 0:09:41Right, well, I'll call you later, then.
0:09:43 > 0:09:44Not here, Lois.
0:09:57 > 0:09:58Sorry, I...
0:10:00 > 0:10:02No, I'm her sister.
0:10:02 > 0:10:03Sorry, I, erm...
0:10:04 > 0:10:06I'm Howard Bellamy, the practice manager.
0:10:07 > 0:10:08Howard,
0:10:08 > 0:10:10yeah, I remember,
0:10:10 > 0:10:12you're the one who...
0:10:14 > 0:10:16Well, I'm really glad that you were there for her.
0:10:17 > 0:10:18So nice to meet you, Howard.
0:10:26 > 0:10:28Just goes to show, she can't be that well,
0:10:28 > 0:10:29sleeping this time of the day.
0:10:29 > 0:10:31She'll be all right.
0:10:31 > 0:10:34I thought the doctor was going to give her some cream and send us home.
0:10:34 > 0:10:36What if it's something serious?
0:10:36 > 0:10:39Come on, Rosie's just a little bit under the weather, that's all.
0:10:39 > 0:10:40Don't go thinking the worst.
0:10:40 > 0:10:42I try not to,
0:10:42 > 0:10:43but after four miscarriages,
0:10:43 > 0:10:45it's hard to think anything else.
0:10:45 > 0:10:46I know.
0:10:51 > 0:10:52Mrs Laker's note.
0:10:53 > 0:10:56You said you weren't in a relationship with her.
0:10:56 > 0:10:58You told me she was straight.
0:10:58 > 0:10:59Yeah, well, she's not.
0:10:59 > 0:11:01Two sisters - both bisexual?
0:11:01 > 0:11:02So?
0:11:02 > 0:11:03So,
0:11:03 > 0:11:05you and her, you don't think it's weird?
0:11:05 > 0:11:07We both love Freya.
0:11:07 > 0:11:10It's like Lois said, it's natural for us to be drawn together.
0:11:10 > 0:11:13Is that what she told you before you jumped into bed together?
0:11:16 > 0:11:18What does it matter to you?
0:11:18 > 0:11:20You're going to get hurt.
0:11:22 > 0:11:23Wake up,
0:11:23 > 0:11:26you're sleeping with your dead girlfriend's sister.
0:11:29 > 0:11:31Stop trying to turn back time.
0:11:37 > 0:11:38It's just...
0:11:38 > 0:11:41It's just so nice being around someone
0:11:41 > 0:11:45who knew her, you know, and loved her.
0:11:47 > 0:11:50There's a bit of me that doesn't want to let that go.
0:11:50 > 0:11:53She reminds you of Freya, she looks like Freya,
0:11:53 > 0:11:54and you wish she was Freya,
0:11:54 > 0:11:57but she's not, she never will be.
0:11:58 > 0:12:02You're getting in deeper and deeper. You're both going to get hurt.
0:12:03 > 0:12:04SHE SIGHS
0:12:07 > 0:12:09I just don't want to make things worse,
0:12:09 > 0:12:11and, erm...
0:12:12 > 0:12:15..I think she might have a few issues.
0:12:17 > 0:12:19- Hi.- Hi.- Come in.
0:12:22 > 0:12:25Debs. Shall I go and get Rosie then?
0:12:25 > 0:12:27There's no need, it's you I need to see.
0:12:27 > 0:12:30She's been asleep for ages, hasn't she, Ray? I think it's this bug she's got.
0:12:30 > 0:12:33Give it a few days, she'll be running me ragged.
0:12:33 > 0:12:35Debbie...
0:12:39 > 0:12:42Look, I knew you were worried about the blood tests,
0:12:42 > 0:12:45so I called in a few favours and had them fast-tracked.
0:12:45 > 0:12:47One was positive.
0:12:48 > 0:12:50Rosie has HIV.
0:12:56 > 0:12:57You OK?
0:12:57 > 0:13:00Oh, we were concerned.
0:13:00 > 0:13:02Thankfully, he is fine.
0:13:02 > 0:13:06I've been there half the day and it was a complete waste of time.
0:13:06 > 0:13:10No fractures, no ruptures, just some bruising
0:13:10 > 0:13:12and an awful lot of moaning.
0:13:12 > 0:13:13Ah, you poor sausage.
0:13:13 > 0:13:15I will make you a nice cup of tea.
0:13:15 > 0:13:19I could put some arnica on. My mum used to swear by it.
0:13:19 > 0:13:21- Yeah, go on, then.- Yeah? OK.
0:13:23 > 0:13:25Well, I would love a cup of tea, but...
0:13:25 > 0:13:27I'll make my own, shall I...?
0:13:29 > 0:13:31After speaking with her social worker
0:13:31 > 0:13:33I knew that the tests had to be done.
0:13:33 > 0:13:34Why?
0:13:34 > 0:13:37Well, as you know, her mother was a drug addict.
0:13:37 > 0:13:39She may have become infected
0:13:39 > 0:13:42by coming into contact with a dirty needle.
0:13:42 > 0:13:44But unfortunately there's no way of knowing.
0:13:44 > 0:13:46But why didn't social services know?
0:13:46 > 0:13:47Her mother hadn't been diagnosed.
0:13:47 > 0:13:51And Rosie would have been tested at the adoption stage.
0:13:52 > 0:13:54So, this rash,
0:13:54 > 0:13:56is it the beginning?
0:13:57 > 0:13:59It could be a sign.
0:13:59 > 0:14:01Do you want your dum dum?
0:14:01 > 0:14:04No, don't put that in your mouth.
0:14:04 > 0:14:06There's a clean one just there.
0:14:10 > 0:14:12I know this isn't what you were expecting.
0:14:12 > 0:14:15It's not something that even crossed my mind.
0:14:16 > 0:14:17Yeah, good girl.
0:14:17 > 0:14:18She has AIDS.
0:14:18 > 0:14:21No, Rosie doesn't have AIDS.
0:14:21 > 0:14:24It would only develop into that if the HIV was left untreated.
0:14:24 > 0:14:29But now that we're aware, I can refer her to a specialist unit.
0:14:29 > 0:14:31She'll get worse though, won't she?
0:14:31 > 0:14:35Not if she's given the right antiviral medication,
0:14:35 > 0:14:39and her condition needs to be monitored on a routine basis.
0:14:39 > 0:14:41Look,
0:14:41 > 0:14:44huge inroads have been made into finding a cure for this.
0:14:44 > 0:14:46And there are drugs available
0:14:46 > 0:14:48that can slow and even halt the progression.
0:14:48 > 0:14:50But people can still catch it.
0:14:50 > 0:14:54Only in very limited circumstances.
0:14:55 > 0:14:59Precautions do have to be taken, but they become second nature.
0:14:59 > 0:15:01What if they don't?
0:15:01 > 0:15:04What if I never get used to looking after a child with HIV?
0:15:04 > 0:15:06What if the medication doesn't work?
0:15:06 > 0:15:07What if she becomes really sick?
0:15:07 > 0:15:10- She won't.- You don't know that, and nor does she.
0:15:21 > 0:15:23Look, I know it's a lot to take in.
0:15:23 > 0:15:24But you will get support.
0:15:24 > 0:15:26This isn't fair.
0:15:26 > 0:15:28After everything we've been through.
0:15:28 > 0:15:30You both need to talk this through.
0:15:30 > 0:15:33What for? This isn't going to get any easier.
0:15:35 > 0:15:36I can't cope with all this.
0:15:36 > 0:15:38It's too much to take on, I can't, I just can't.
0:15:38 > 0:15:39You can't turn your back on her.
0:15:39 > 0:15:42I'm not having you making me feel guilty. I didn't ask for this.
0:15:42 > 0:15:43And neither did she.
0:15:43 > 0:15:45She'll be better off with someone else.
0:15:45 > 0:15:48Look, when someone you love is ill, you look after them.
0:15:48 > 0:15:50You don't run away in the opposite direction.
0:15:50 > 0:15:52This is not the time to make a hasty decision.
0:15:52 > 0:15:54I'll call you.
0:15:55 > 0:15:57I'm sorry.
0:15:58 > 0:15:59I've made up my mind.
0:16:01 > 0:16:02I won't be adopting her.
0:16:07 > 0:16:09Ah, it's all right for some.
0:16:09 > 0:16:10Why didn't you call me back?
0:16:10 > 0:16:12Sorry, I was busy.
0:16:12 > 0:16:14He is being very brave.
0:16:14 > 0:16:15Does that feel any better?
0:16:15 > 0:16:16Yeah, great.
0:16:16 > 0:16:18So, what happened?
0:16:18 > 0:16:20He was set on by a group of thugs.
0:16:20 > 0:16:23Me, Jimmi and Al went to The Cardinal Arms.
0:16:23 > 0:16:24Ah.
0:16:24 > 0:16:26Also locally known as the three Ps.
0:16:26 > 0:16:28- Why?- Pint, pie and punch.
0:16:28 > 0:16:31- Charming.- Jimmi did warn us.
0:16:31 > 0:16:33Well, you should've listened to your Uncle Jimmi.
0:16:33 > 0:16:34Well, that's not the point.
0:16:34 > 0:16:37The point is what're you going to do about this?
0:16:37 > 0:16:41Well, I'm not going to make a complaint. End of.
0:16:41 > 0:16:44- I'm sorry, Rob, but you've had a wasted journey, mate. - It's all right.
0:16:44 > 0:16:46Chris!
0:16:49 > 0:16:50I wouldn't say it was a wasted journey.
0:16:53 > 0:16:54You look different.
0:16:54 > 0:16:56- New lipstick.- Ah!
0:17:05 > 0:17:06What're you doing?
0:17:06 > 0:17:07It's for the best, Ray.
0:17:07 > 0:17:10So we're just going to abandon her, like her mother did?
0:17:10 > 0:17:12"Bye-bye, Rosie, you're damaged goods," is that it?
0:17:12 > 0:17:14You were the one who had doubts about fostering.
0:17:14 > 0:17:15Because it's a big commitment,
0:17:15 > 0:17:18and I wasn't sure whether I could look after somebody else's kids.
0:17:18 > 0:17:21But now I know it doesn't matter.
0:17:21 > 0:17:26If a child needs you, Debs, it needs you, end of. It doesn't matter where it's from.
0:17:26 > 0:17:28It does if her mother has infected her with HIV.
0:17:28 > 0:17:30Yeah, but that shouldn't change the way you feel about her.
0:17:30 > 0:17:32But it does, and I can't help it.
0:17:32 > 0:17:33Debbie, she needs us now. More than ever.
0:17:36 > 0:17:38Do you know what, if you're going to do this to Rosie,
0:17:38 > 0:17:41maybe it's a good job we couldn't have kids of our own.
0:17:48 > 0:17:50I thought it was your afternoon off.
0:17:50 > 0:17:53I've just got some referral letters to write.
0:17:53 > 0:17:55- I'll let you get on.- Erm...
0:17:55 > 0:17:57Heston.
0:17:59 > 0:18:01I've just had to tell a couple
0:18:01 > 0:18:03that the child they're about to adopt has HIV.
0:18:05 > 0:18:06Ah!
0:18:08 > 0:18:11I used to see them at the clinic when we were all trying for a baby.
0:18:13 > 0:18:15I'll never forget the look on Debbie's face
0:18:15 > 0:18:17when her final attempt at IVF failed.
0:18:19 > 0:18:21Life can be very cruel.
0:18:23 > 0:18:25She doesn't want to adopt the child any more.
0:18:26 > 0:18:30I tried to allay any fears she might have about the illness, but...
0:18:30 > 0:18:31Fight or flight.
0:18:34 > 0:18:36I'll talk to her again.
0:18:36 > 0:18:39Is that fair? She's already made up her mind.
0:18:41 > 0:18:44Nothing's fair, Heston, not in this situation.
0:18:54 > 0:18:56Have I got dirt on my face?
0:18:56 > 0:18:58No, I was just...
0:19:00 > 0:19:01You smell nice.
0:19:01 > 0:19:04I've just ate a packet of cheese and onion!
0:19:05 > 0:19:06Well, they're my favourites.
0:19:10 > 0:19:14- CHRIS:- 'So, shall we have a little bit of fun?
0:19:17 > 0:19:19'Can I see something in your ear?
0:19:21 > 0:19:23'You got one as well!'
0:19:23 > 0:19:26SHE GASPS
0:19:26 > 0:19:28SHE STUTTERS
0:19:29 > 0:19:31It was the needle that...
0:19:31 > 0:19:32The jab.
0:19:32 > 0:19:34She didn't want...
0:19:34 > 0:19:36The little girl with the...
0:19:36 > 0:19:37Your red balls.
0:19:37 > 0:19:38Are you all right, love?
0:19:38 > 0:19:41In reception, there was a little girl
0:19:41 > 0:19:43and she didn't want her jab,
0:19:43 > 0:19:47and you did magic tricks to take her mind off it.
0:19:47 > 0:19:49Do you remember?
0:19:49 > 0:19:50Yeah!
0:19:50 > 0:19:52Yeah, I do.
0:19:52 > 0:19:53SHE GASPS
0:19:55 > 0:19:57Karen, that's a memory!
0:19:57 > 0:19:59That's amazing, love.
0:20:00 > 0:20:02Ah, involuntary recurrent memory.
0:20:02 > 0:20:04It was a flashback.
0:20:04 > 0:20:07Does this mean I'm getting my memory back?
0:20:07 > 0:20:08Well...
0:20:08 > 0:20:09Maybe.
0:20:09 > 0:20:11Oh, that's great news.
0:20:11 > 0:20:12We should celebrate.
0:20:14 > 0:20:15I want it to happen again.
0:20:15 > 0:20:17- Karen.- Yeah, well, you...
0:20:17 > 0:20:20- CHRIS:- Do you want me to do another trick?- Yeah!
0:20:20 > 0:20:22Listen,
0:20:22 > 0:20:23we'll go out tomorrow night.
0:20:23 > 0:20:24OK. Do it again!
0:20:24 > 0:20:26- Do you want me to do another trick? - Yeah.
0:20:27 > 0:20:29I'll call you.
0:20:33 > 0:20:35Hello, Rosie.
0:20:35 > 0:20:38This is my little boy, Joe.
0:20:38 > 0:20:41Why don't I play with the kids, while you two have a chat?
0:20:43 > 0:20:46Come on, let's go down this way, shall we?
0:20:46 > 0:20:47Where are the swings?
0:20:47 > 0:20:49Where are those swings?
0:20:50 > 0:20:51It's nice to get out.
0:20:53 > 0:20:57Look, Debbie, I'm seeing you now as your friend,
0:20:57 > 0:21:00not as a doctor,
0:21:00 > 0:21:02and I just want to know how you really feel.
0:21:04 > 0:21:05My head's all over the place.
0:21:08 > 0:21:11I bet you're thinking, "How can she say she wants children
0:21:11 > 0:21:13"when she's turning her back on this one?"
0:21:13 > 0:21:15I would never judge any woman
0:21:15 > 0:21:17who's been through the hell that we've been through.
0:21:17 > 0:21:21You've got every right to feel angry about the hand that life's dealt you.
0:21:22 > 0:21:23I feel so ashamed.
0:21:25 > 0:21:26Why?
0:21:27 > 0:21:29For letting her down.
0:21:29 > 0:21:32For rejecting a child I said I loved.
0:21:34 > 0:21:38Maybe it's just the way you feel towards the illness, not Rosie.
0:21:39 > 0:21:42Could it be that you're pushing her away just to save yourself from the pain?
0:21:44 > 0:21:48You've just been told that the child you love has HIV.
0:21:49 > 0:21:51It's not a punishment,
0:21:51 > 0:21:53it's not a test of your love.
0:21:54 > 0:21:56It is just
0:21:56 > 0:21:58one of those unfortunate things.
0:22:01 > 0:22:03I always thought I was the strong one.
0:22:03 > 0:22:06It seemed at times I was the one pushing for the adoption.
0:22:06 > 0:22:08Should've known, really.
0:22:08 > 0:22:10After every miscarriage,
0:22:10 > 0:22:13he was the one who always put me back together again.
0:22:13 > 0:22:15We all need someone to catch us when we fall.
0:22:17 > 0:22:20I can't watch her slowly being taken from me by this illness.
0:22:22 > 0:22:25So you'd rather she faced it with someone else?
0:22:27 > 0:22:31Look, with the right treatment, Rosie can live a happy life.
0:22:31 > 0:22:33But as with any illness it isn't just about the medication.
0:22:35 > 0:22:38She's going to need parents who can fight her corner,
0:22:38 > 0:22:41who'll be strong for her,
0:22:41 > 0:22:44who can be there for her every step of the way.
0:22:46 > 0:22:48If you don't think that you can do that,
0:22:50 > 0:22:53then yes, it is best that you walk away.
0:23:05 > 0:23:07Are you OK?
0:23:07 > 0:23:08Yeah, fine.
0:23:08 > 0:23:11Look, I'm sorry about earlier, but it had to be said.
0:23:11 > 0:23:13No, no, you're right.
0:23:13 > 0:23:16I just didn't want to face up to the mess I was in.
0:23:16 > 0:23:19The longer it goes on the messier it'll get.
0:23:19 > 0:23:21Yep, you know.
0:23:21 > 0:23:26I knew right from the start deep down it wasn't right.
0:23:26 > 0:23:27It's not healthy, is it?
0:23:27 > 0:23:30So what're you going to do now?
0:23:30 > 0:23:33Well, when I get home I'm going to...
0:23:33 > 0:23:35I'm going to ask her to leave.
0:23:35 > 0:23:38It's got to be a clean break for both of our sakes, hasn't it?
0:23:41 > 0:23:43Let's see what you've got there.
0:23:43 > 0:23:44You've got mud in your hair.
0:23:51 > 0:23:54She's got a bit of mud in her hair, I don't know how that happened.
0:23:54 > 0:23:55I'm sorry, Ray.
0:23:58 > 0:23:59I'm sorry too.
0:24:01 > 0:24:03I was forcing you into a corner.
0:24:03 > 0:24:05And saying what I did about our babies,
0:24:05 > 0:24:08I should never have said it, I'm so sorry.
0:24:08 > 0:24:11When Zara said about the HIV, I just wanted to run for the hills,
0:24:11 > 0:24:12shut it out.
0:24:12 > 0:24:14Why Rosie? Why us?
0:24:14 > 0:24:15Why not us?
0:24:15 > 0:24:16I was feeling sorry for myself.
0:24:16 > 0:24:20It felt like some cruel joke. Like someone stamping on my love.
0:24:24 > 0:24:26We'll get her through this,
0:24:26 > 0:24:27we can, I know we can.
0:24:27 > 0:24:31And that's why she's with us, because she needs us
0:24:31 > 0:24:32and we need her.
0:24:32 > 0:24:34Mummy?
0:24:34 > 0:24:36Mummy loves you, Rosie.
0:24:44 > 0:24:45Hello?
0:24:45 > 0:24:47Hiya.
0:24:47 > 0:24:49Wow, you've been busy.
0:24:50 > 0:24:53I didn't want to leave without saying goodbye.
0:24:55 > 0:24:56Where are you going?
0:24:56 > 0:24:58Don't know yet.
0:24:58 > 0:25:00A cheap B&B tonight,
0:25:00 > 0:25:03then tomorrow, who knows?
0:25:03 > 0:25:05Erm,
0:25:05 > 0:25:06but why?
0:25:08 > 0:25:09I embarrass you.
0:25:11 > 0:25:13What made you think that? Course you don't.
0:25:13 > 0:25:18I saw your face, Mand, when I came to see you at the surgery.
0:25:18 > 0:25:20You didn't want me to be there.
0:25:20 > 0:25:22Lois, you've got it wrong.
0:25:22 > 0:25:25It's OK. Honestly, you don't have to pretend.
0:25:25 > 0:25:31I know that I'm not Freya.
0:25:33 > 0:25:36But it's really hard walking in her shadow all the time.
0:25:36 > 0:25:40No. No, you're your own person.
0:25:40 > 0:25:42You have nothing to prove.
0:25:42 > 0:25:43Yeah, I do.
0:25:43 > 0:25:45Freya...
0:25:45 > 0:25:47always overwhelmed everyone,
0:25:47 > 0:25:50and then they'd see me.
0:25:50 > 0:25:53I was always in the background, but that's fine,
0:25:53 > 0:25:54because Freya...
0:25:54 > 0:25:56Freya was lovely.
0:25:56 > 0:25:58Freya was special.
0:25:58 > 0:26:00You're lovely, you're special.
0:26:00 > 0:26:03You're considerate, you're funny.
0:26:03 > 0:26:05You're a brilliant cook.
0:26:05 > 0:26:07Please don't put yourself down.
0:26:07 > 0:26:09You don't get it, do you?
0:26:09 > 0:26:12I can't live up to her,
0:26:12 > 0:26:13I can't!
0:26:13 > 0:26:15Oi! Oi, oi, oi.
0:26:15 > 0:26:17I'm not worth it, Mand, I know I'm not.
0:26:17 > 0:26:18You know...
0:26:18 > 0:26:22Hey, when have I ever said that, eh?
0:26:22 > 0:26:23Come here.
0:26:25 > 0:26:27I thought you didn't want me any more,
0:26:27 > 0:26:29I thought that you didn't love me.
0:26:29 > 0:26:32Don't be silly.
0:26:32 > 0:26:35Of course I want you, I do.
0:26:37 > 0:26:40Let's hear no more about it, hey?
0:26:42 > 0:26:43You put the kettle on.
0:26:44 > 0:26:48I'll go and get changed, yeah?
0:27:01 > 0:27:03I'm here to meet the love of my life.
0:27:04 > 0:27:08I am definitely not doing that.
0:27:08 > 0:27:10Are you having an affair?
0:27:10 > 0:27:13- I don't care what everyone else thinks.- Good.
0:27:13 > 0:27:15It's no-one else's business but yours.
0:27:15 > 0:27:17You're a sick man and a liar,
0:27:17 > 0:27:20- because I know who my dad is.- Becky?
0:27:21 > 0:27:22I'm sorry!