0:00:46 > 0:00:48Morning.
0:00:51 > 0:00:53Where are you going?
0:00:53 > 0:00:56Work. Wish I wasn't.
0:00:56 > 0:01:00- But...- I'm already late, Lois. - You promised me!
0:01:01 > 0:01:04- What?- You said you'd stay with me!
0:01:04 > 0:01:07Yeah, right...but I didn't mean...
0:01:07 > 0:01:10I've got to go to work, you know that.
0:01:10 > 0:01:15- I'll be back... No! Please don't get upset.- I need you to stay with me.
0:01:18 > 0:01:19Please stay with me.
0:01:22 > 0:01:24Good morning, Nurse Reid!
0:01:28 > 0:01:31"Good morning, Mrs Tembe. And how are you this morning?"
0:01:31 > 0:01:36"You know I am very well, thank you so much for asking." So rude!
0:01:38 > 0:01:40Lois, I can't just drop everything.
0:01:40 > 0:01:44- You said you'd never leave me last night.- I'm not leaving you.
0:01:44 > 0:01:49- I'm just going to work. Please don't be so...- What? Don't be so what?
0:01:53 > 0:01:59Listen, I meant everything I said, but we've got to be realistic.
0:01:59 > 0:02:06- We can't spend every single minute together.- Why?- Because I have a job.
0:02:06 > 0:02:08And a life.
0:02:08 > 0:02:13- And I don't?- That's not what I'm saying! I've got to go.
0:02:13 > 0:02:18- I'll be back later.- What time will you be back? For lunch?
0:02:19 > 0:02:20I don't know.
0:02:20 > 0:02:22I can't always get away.
0:02:23 > 0:02:26- I'll make us something really special.- No!
0:02:27 > 0:02:29Don't go to any trouble, eh?
0:02:33 > 0:02:36I'm sorry. I'm just so, so tired.
0:02:36 > 0:02:39If I could stay, I would.
0:02:40 > 0:02:42Catch up on some sleep.
0:02:43 > 0:02:47If you feel anything like I do, you must need it.
0:02:47 > 0:02:49You'll feel better.
0:02:50 > 0:02:53Are we going to be OK?
0:02:53 > 0:02:55Of course.
0:03:02 > 0:03:04I stuck my head round the door last night.
0:03:04 > 0:03:06They'd got these gigantic burritos.
0:03:06 > 0:03:09I remember when it was some kind of bikers' bar.
0:03:09 > 0:03:13- Rough.- It's really cheesy, but we like cheesy.- So what is it now?
0:03:13 > 0:03:16A cross between a Tex-Mex and a wine bar?
0:03:16 > 0:03:18Mmmm, that is exactly how I would describe it,
0:03:18 > 0:03:21but with a...kind of touch of a motorway service station.
0:03:21 > 0:03:24- That sounds truly horrible. - Oh, it is.
0:03:24 > 0:03:28But half price tequilas and pistachios for a whole night.
0:03:30 > 0:03:31Chris, you up for a night out?
0:03:33 > 0:03:35- Sorry?- We're going to go to El Diablo's.
0:03:35 > 0:03:39- You know...the one at the end of the High Street.- No, I don't think so.
0:03:39 > 0:03:42Come on, it's much nicer than those dives you've been drinking in.
0:03:42 > 0:03:44And no bare knuckle boxing.
0:03:44 > 0:03:46Besides if you get into trouble, we'll be your minders.
0:03:46 > 0:03:49- I used to have black belt. - In origami.
0:03:49 > 0:03:52No-one messes with Knuckles Haskey.
0:03:52 > 0:03:57- Maybe...- Come on, are you a Mexican or a Mexican't.
0:03:57 > 0:03:58He's a Mexican't.
0:04:03 > 0:04:06MUSIC: "Glory Box" by Portishead
0:04:38 > 0:04:39KNOCK ON DOOR
0:04:39 > 0:04:41- Come in.- Are you busy?
0:04:41 > 0:04:46Er...kind of. It's fine. You all right?
0:04:49 > 0:04:51No, not really.
0:04:51 > 0:04:53I know you're going to say I told you so,
0:04:53 > 0:04:56but I think I've made a big mistake.
0:04:56 > 0:04:59- Lois?- Yeah.
0:05:02 > 0:05:04It's such a mess.
0:05:04 > 0:05:07- Why?- I haven't had much sleep,
0:05:07 > 0:05:11- so I might be over-reacting a little bit...- What's happened?
0:05:11 > 0:05:17Nothing. But she's just acting really desperate. Really needy.
0:05:17 > 0:05:19I feel like I'm suffocating.
0:05:19 > 0:05:21She didn't even want me to go to work this morning
0:05:21 > 0:05:24because she didn't want to be on her own.
0:05:24 > 0:05:28- What?- It's like I was betraying her by leaving.
0:05:28 > 0:05:33I know...I don't expect her to be Freya, but I can't bear this.
0:05:33 > 0:05:36- I can't.- So what are you going to do? - I don't know.
0:05:38 > 0:05:41I don't know how to deal with it...with her.
0:05:41 > 0:05:45Basically, if you're sure you don't want to be with her...
0:05:45 > 0:05:49- Yeah, I don't.- What do you want?
0:05:49 > 0:05:53I want... I want Freya back.
0:05:55 > 0:05:58- I'm sorry to dump all this on you. - It's fine.
0:05:58 > 0:05:59I'm just so tired.
0:06:03 > 0:06:07You're going to have to tell her, otherwise it's going to get worse.
0:06:07 > 0:06:10Are you going to be OK to work through the rest of today?
0:06:10 > 0:06:11I'll have to.
0:06:11 > 0:06:15It'll give you time to think about how to break the news to Lois.
0:06:16 > 0:06:20- I don't think I can. - You're going to have to.
0:06:21 > 0:06:25Cruel to be kind and all that. For both your sakes.
0:07:32 > 0:07:35Mand, I knew you weren't up to it!
0:07:35 > 0:07:37What if Howard had found you?
0:07:37 > 0:07:41- I just sat down while the kettle was...- You'd better go home.
0:07:41 > 0:07:45I can't... I can't face Lois. I'm not ready.
0:07:47 > 0:07:49OK. Here's what you're going to do.
0:07:49 > 0:07:52I'll make you a double coffee. You hang on till lunch,
0:07:52 > 0:07:54then I'll drop you off at mine so you can sleep.
0:07:54 > 0:07:58Right? I'll clear it with Chris, he can cover afternoon surgery.
0:07:58 > 0:08:01You're no good to anyone like this. OK?
0:08:25 > 0:08:27Here you go.
0:08:27 > 0:08:29No feather pillows, but it's quiet.
0:08:30 > 0:08:32I could sleep anywhere right now.
0:08:36 > 0:08:37- Kevin...- Just get your head down.
0:08:40 > 0:08:43- Thanks.- No problem.
0:08:43 > 0:08:44I'll be back after surgery.
0:08:45 > 0:08:48If you want to talk before you go home, then that's...
0:08:57 > 0:08:59..fine.
0:09:10 > 0:09:11Chris, you want a lift?
0:09:13 > 0:09:15Fine, suit yourself.
0:09:31 > 0:09:33'Mandy?
0:09:37 > 0:09:39'Mandy!'
0:09:45 > 0:09:47Hey.
0:09:49 > 0:09:50How are you feeling?
0:09:54 > 0:09:57Kevin, I had the most awful dream.
0:10:00 > 0:10:02But you feel better for sleeping, right?
0:10:03 > 0:10:05Not really.
0:10:16 > 0:10:19- Lois?- Mm-hm.
0:10:20 > 0:10:24Like you said, it's only going to get worse.
0:10:33 > 0:10:35TEXT ALERT
0:11:02 > 0:11:04This shirt is designer, man!
0:11:09 > 0:11:13- What's your problem, mate?- You. You need to look where you're going.
0:11:13 > 0:11:16- Mate, you walked straight in to me! - I'm not your mate.
0:11:16 > 0:11:19- And if you can't handle it, don't drink it.- Say that again.
0:11:19 > 0:11:22- You heard me.- Adam. >
0:11:27 > 0:11:28Nah.
0:11:28 > 0:11:31Ain't worth it.
0:11:31 > 0:11:32You're up next.
0:12:02 > 0:12:03You're right.
0:12:03 > 0:12:05I just need to be straight with her.
0:12:06 > 0:12:09I don't mind driving you.
0:12:09 > 0:12:10It's not like it's far.
0:12:10 > 0:12:14No, that's really kind of you but I'm fine, honestly.
0:12:14 > 0:12:18- Anyway the walk will wake me up. - You sure?
0:12:18 > 0:12:22Positive. I need to do this for myself.
0:12:22 > 0:12:27Whatever happens, I'm sure I'll be able to handle it. I have to.
0:12:29 > 0:12:32- All right. But you call me, yeah? - I will.
0:13:01 > 0:13:03Yeah, well come and join us.
0:13:03 > 0:13:04OK, see you soon. Bye, babe.
0:13:14 > 0:13:19Lois? Lois? Are you out here?
0:13:25 > 0:13:27What are you doing?
0:13:27 > 0:13:29What you should have done ages ago.
0:13:30 > 0:13:32How did you...?
0:13:32 > 0:13:35Is that my necklace?
0:13:37 > 0:13:38I'm only trying to help you.
0:13:42 > 0:13:44OK...Lois, listen to me, we need to talk...
0:13:44 > 0:13:47I already know what you're going to say.
0:13:49 > 0:13:53Just wait. Give me that back.
0:13:53 > 0:13:55We can sort this out.
0:13:55 > 0:14:02You've got to let go, Mand. Freya's gone. She's not coming back.
0:14:02 > 0:14:05No! Wait! You're right, I know you're right.
0:14:05 > 0:14:08But everything that's in that box...
0:14:08 > 0:14:11that's all I've got to remember her by.
0:14:11 > 0:14:13You don't get it, do you?
0:14:13 > 0:14:15I don't want you to remember her.
0:14:15 > 0:14:18No! Stop!
0:14:18 > 0:14:20It's over. You've got to let her go.
0:14:20 > 0:14:22- It's all over.- No!
0:14:23 > 0:14:28- You shouldn't have lied to me! - I didn't!- You're lying now!
0:14:28 > 0:14:31- Lois. Please!- You don't love me, do you?
0:14:31 > 0:14:34- Kevin! Help!- You love Freya!
0:14:34 > 0:14:39- 'Mandy, what's wrong?' - Lois! Please!- Freya's dead!
0:14:39 > 0:14:42- No!- She's gone.
0:14:42 > 0:14:43Lois. No!
0:14:43 > 0:14:45- Up in flames.- Please...
0:14:47 > 0:14:52- So will this make you love me? - I do! I do love you!
0:14:52 > 0:14:54If I burn like she burned?
0:14:54 > 0:14:55SHE SCREAMS
0:14:55 > 0:14:57No!
0:14:59 > 0:15:03- Hi.- Sorry, that seat's taken. - Yeah, by me.
0:15:05 > 0:15:08My boyfriend's over there. Could you move, please?
0:15:09 > 0:15:10In a minute.
0:15:12 > 0:15:14No, now! I mean it!
0:15:18 > 0:15:20What's his name?
0:15:20 > 0:15:22Does he know you?
0:15:23 > 0:15:25No.
0:15:25 > 0:15:27He's got a really bad temper.
0:15:28 > 0:15:32I'd move or you'll regret it.
0:15:32 > 0:15:34Yeah, possibly.
0:15:35 > 0:15:37What is wrong with you?
0:15:40 > 0:15:43Please, no, please...
0:15:46 > 0:15:47We'll do this together.
0:15:47 > 0:15:50SCREAMING
0:15:53 > 0:15:55No, please! No!
0:15:56 > 0:16:00- Just leave it now, will you? - Here we go.
0:16:00 > 0:16:02This idiot hassling you?
0:16:04 > 0:16:06I love you, Mand.
0:16:06 > 0:16:08- I'm sorry if I just wasn't good... - Enough!- No!
0:16:10 > 0:16:14- Help me hold her down!- No! Get off me!
0:16:14 > 0:16:16We're trying to help you!
0:16:16 > 0:16:19- Let me go!- Stop struggling! I said stop!
0:16:19 > 0:16:21Are you OK?
0:16:22 > 0:16:24You're hurting my arm.
0:16:24 > 0:16:25SOBBING
0:16:31 > 0:16:33What's wrong with me?
0:16:33 > 0:16:35Why don't you want me?
0:16:38 > 0:16:41Why can't you love me like you loved her?
0:16:41 > 0:16:43I'm so sorry...
0:16:46 > 0:16:49You think you're hard, is that it?
0:16:49 > 0:16:52- Think you're impressing her? - A lot more than you are.
0:16:52 > 0:16:54Adam, forget it. Finish your game.
0:16:56 > 0:16:59Yeah. Do what she says, Ad. Trot on.
0:16:59 > 0:17:02Adam! I mean it! You can't afford trouble!
0:17:03 > 0:17:05He's nothing. Just winding you up.
0:17:10 > 0:17:12Adam!
0:17:27 > 0:17:30- No, no, I'm glad you called me. - I'm a bit out of my depth here.
0:17:30 > 0:17:33She needs assessing by a mental health professional.
0:17:33 > 0:17:34Which I am definitely not.
0:17:34 > 0:17:38- Anyway she's not said a word since I brought her inside.- Shock, maybe.
0:17:38 > 0:17:42- How's Mandy?- A mess. I shouldn't have let her come on her own.
0:17:42 > 0:17:44- You weren't to know. - I heard the warning bells.
0:17:44 > 0:17:48- Should have listened to them. - It's easy in retrospect. Believe me.
0:17:48 > 0:17:50So what do we do now?
0:17:50 > 0:17:52- I should talk to her.- I'll check on Mandy.
0:18:06 > 0:18:08Heston's here.
0:18:11 > 0:18:12What did he say?
0:18:12 > 0:18:18- He's in with her now.- She needs serious help.- He'll know what to do.
0:18:18 > 0:18:20She'll have to be sectioned.
0:18:20 > 0:18:24I mean, what she tried to do tonight was...just insane.
0:18:24 > 0:18:26You've smelt your clothes right?
0:18:28 > 0:18:30Yeah, I know...
0:18:30 > 0:18:32I checked the bottle. She'd re-filled it with water.
0:18:34 > 0:18:36I really thought she was going to do it.
0:18:36 > 0:18:39She planned it all for effect.
0:18:39 > 0:18:41- Yeah, well, it worked.- It's over now.
0:18:44 > 0:18:47This is my fault, isn't it?
0:18:47 > 0:18:50- No-one's saying that. - But you're thinking it though.
0:18:52 > 0:18:53Mandy...
0:18:57 > 0:19:03The night before my A level results, I was really nervous,
0:19:03 > 0:19:11cos I wasn't sure I'd got the grades or not and I couldn't sleep and...
0:19:15 > 0:19:23She went out that night, got drunk, ended up in a ditch, or something.
0:19:27 > 0:19:30Mum and Dad spent the whole day looking for her
0:19:30 > 0:19:33and I had to go to school on my own...
0:19:38 > 0:19:40Can I tell you a secret?
0:19:40 > 0:19:42Of course.
0:19:44 > 0:19:47When I was a kid, I...
0:19:52 > 0:19:58..I imagined what it would be like if she just died.
0:20:01 > 0:20:04If she just wasn't there any more...
0:20:04 > 0:20:07and I could have them to myself.
0:20:14 > 0:20:17Dad got me piano lessons when I was nine...
0:20:21 > 0:20:23I just couldn't do it.
0:20:27 > 0:20:28I tried.
0:20:28 > 0:20:32I tried so hard, but I...
0:20:35 > 0:20:37I just wasn't...
0:20:44 > 0:20:46His face...
0:20:48 > 0:20:50The disappointment...
0:20:53 > 0:20:57- Lois, there are... - Dad just blocked me out.
0:21:02 > 0:21:05Sometimes it felt as though I didn't exist.
0:21:10 > 0:21:14But everything she did was right.
0:21:18 > 0:21:19And whatever you did...?
0:21:24 > 0:21:26They just stopped noticing me.
0:21:28 > 0:21:30And I stopped caring.
0:21:36 > 0:21:39You must have felt very alone.
0:21:42 > 0:21:46You know that I would nev...
0:21:49 > 0:21:51..that I could never hurt Mandy.
0:21:55 > 0:21:56I did it to help her.
0:21:59 > 0:22:00In what way?
0:22:02 > 0:22:08She's in denial. She doesn't believe that Freya has gone.
0:22:11 > 0:22:12And what about you?
0:22:15 > 0:22:16I needed to shock her.
0:22:19 > 0:22:22To make her see me as a...
0:22:28 > 0:22:30..as a real person...
0:22:32 > 0:22:38..and not some pale shadow of her.
0:22:42 > 0:22:45Mandy was very scared.
0:22:47 > 0:22:49She knows I would never hurt her.
0:22:52 > 0:22:53I love her too much.
0:22:57 > 0:22:59I gave her everything.
0:23:01 > 0:23:04But she lied to me.
0:23:06 > 0:23:11- So you blame Mandy for what happened?- Don't you?
0:23:15 > 0:23:17She said that she loved me.
0:23:18 > 0:23:20And she'd never leave me.
0:23:24 > 0:23:26But she lied to me.
0:23:54 > 0:23:57You were right, the relationship was clearly a bad idea.
0:23:57 > 0:23:59For both of them.
0:23:59 > 0:24:01I've sedated her.
0:24:01 > 0:24:03She asked me to call her parents,
0:24:03 > 0:24:06who had no idea she was even in the country.
0:24:06 > 0:24:08So they can help?
0:24:08 > 0:24:10Better take her there now.
0:24:11 > 0:24:12Right...
0:24:13 > 0:24:15Poor Mandy.
0:24:15 > 0:24:18I'll stay here tonight. Make sure she's OK.
0:24:19 > 0:24:24Lois said she thinks Mandy hasn't accepted that Freya has gone.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31No, I don't think she has.
0:24:56 > 0:24:59HE SCREAMS
0:25:27 > 0:25:29She's gone.
0:25:30 > 0:25:33- Heston's taken her.- Where?
0:25:33 > 0:25:35To her parents, for now.
0:25:38 > 0:25:40Why don't we go inside, get warm.
0:25:40 > 0:25:45I'll make you something to eat. It'll be edible. Promise.
0:25:46 > 0:25:49No, I want to stay out here for a bit.
0:25:55 > 0:25:59The best memories you have of Freya can't ever be taken away,
0:25:59 > 0:26:01you know that?
0:26:05 > 0:26:08I just miss her so much.
0:26:12 > 0:26:13Me too.
0:26:31 > 0:26:35It's going to take more than a few early nights and a session
0:26:35 > 0:26:39on the rowing machine to make you look like a spring chicken, isn't it?
0:26:39 > 0:26:42Some people are just past their sell-by date.
0:26:42 > 0:26:44What was it, childhood trauma?
0:26:44 > 0:26:47I've got experience. That's very valuable these days.
0:26:47 > 0:26:50Experience of making a prat out of yourself.
0:26:50 > 0:26:54- I need your help.- What kind of help? - I've taken an overdose.