0:00:29 > 0:00:31'Yesterday,
0:00:31 > 0:00:32'I brought Frank home.
0:00:36 > 0:00:38'I thought things would be different.
0:00:41 > 0:00:44'But it's like he's still here.
0:00:44 > 0:00:45'Watching me.
0:00:51 > 0:00:53'Every day is just as miserable.
0:00:53 > 0:00:56'Just as loveless.
0:01:01 > 0:01:03'There is no point to my life.
0:01:05 > 0:01:06'I can't go on.'
0:01:36 > 0:01:38SHE KNOCKS ON DOOR
0:01:45 > 0:01:47Winifred...
0:01:47 > 0:01:48Hello, Thomas.
0:01:51 > 0:01:55I... I have come to apologise...
0:01:55 > 0:01:56Mm-hm.
0:01:56 > 0:01:59..for what happened the other day...
0:01:59 > 0:02:00and for the past.
0:02:01 > 0:02:03And what has brought this on?
0:02:03 > 0:02:07Well... My vicar thought that it would...
0:02:07 > 0:02:08I might have guessed.
0:02:13 > 0:02:14May I come in, please?
0:02:19 > 0:02:21I suppose you'd better.
0:02:45 > 0:02:47'Auntie Rose?
0:02:47 > 0:02:50'Auntie Rose, it's only me!'
0:02:50 > 0:02:51Coming!
0:02:54 > 0:02:56Hello, love.
0:02:56 > 0:02:59Hiya. Thought I'd come and see how you were doing.
0:02:59 > 0:03:01I see he's home, then.
0:03:01 > 0:03:03Yes...
0:03:03 > 0:03:04How are you coping?
0:03:04 > 0:03:08I'm fine... I just need to keep myself busy.
0:03:08 > 0:03:11Shall we make a start on the garden, then?
0:03:13 > 0:03:16I... I've been meaning to put those away somewhere.
0:03:17 > 0:03:20Well, you know, I understand it's hard to let go.
0:03:20 > 0:03:23My mum always said you and him were inseparable.
0:03:23 > 0:03:25No...that's not true.
0:03:27 > 0:03:30I'll get us some gloves for the garden. Auntie Rose?
0:03:32 > 0:03:33What's wrong?
0:03:35 > 0:03:39I can't pretend any more, Mandy.
0:03:39 > 0:03:40It was all a lie.
0:03:44 > 0:03:46You have a very nice place here.
0:03:46 > 0:03:47I like it.
0:03:49 > 0:03:52You have obviously done very well for yourself.
0:03:52 > 0:03:53Things couldn't be better.
0:03:55 > 0:03:56Good.
0:03:57 > 0:04:00And you are getting married...
0:04:00 > 0:04:02soon?
0:04:02 > 0:04:04Yes.
0:04:04 > 0:04:08So... So was it all just a phase?
0:04:08 > 0:04:10No, it wasn't a phase.
0:04:11 > 0:04:12I'm marrying a man.
0:04:12 > 0:04:14They allow that now.
0:04:14 > 0:04:16Not that you would know.
0:04:17 > 0:04:21Believe it or not, I am not the same. I have changed.
0:04:21 > 0:04:23Really(?)
0:04:23 > 0:04:28Over the years, I have worked with many...gay people.
0:04:31 > 0:04:34So, married...
0:04:34 > 0:04:39I still cannot get used to the word "married" being used that way.
0:04:39 > 0:04:41That doesn't surprise me.
0:04:45 > 0:04:46Is that him?
0:04:48 > 0:04:49Yes.
0:04:51 > 0:04:52May I?
0:05:00 > 0:05:04His name is Richard. We've been together six years.
0:05:06 > 0:05:09He looks very nice.
0:05:09 > 0:05:11He has a kind face.
0:05:14 > 0:05:17I am very pleased for both of you.
0:05:17 > 0:05:20Is that what your vicar told you to say?
0:05:26 > 0:05:28I never loved him, Mandy.
0:05:32 > 0:05:33I didn't realise.
0:05:34 > 0:05:37He was cruel and vindictive.
0:05:40 > 0:05:43To be honest... I never really liked him very much.
0:05:44 > 0:05:46But I never thought for one...
0:05:46 > 0:05:49It started not long after we were married,
0:05:49 > 0:05:51and ended when he died.
0:05:53 > 0:05:56I got very good at hiding the bruises.
0:05:57 > 0:05:59Why did you stay with him, Auntie Rose?
0:06:01 > 0:06:02I was scared.
0:06:06 > 0:06:07The worst is...
0:06:09 > 0:06:10..it's like he's still here...
0:06:12 > 0:06:13..controlling me.
0:06:14 > 0:06:17- Maybe you should get rid of his stuff?- What?
0:06:17 > 0:06:21- Well, it can't help having everything lying around.- No.
0:06:21 > 0:06:23- I just think it would help if you... - I said no.
0:06:25 > 0:06:28There's some junk in the attic needs burning.
0:06:34 > 0:06:35Dave!
0:06:36 > 0:06:38Hey, we must stop meeting like this.
0:06:38 > 0:06:41Well, given that we both work in the same place...
0:06:41 > 0:06:43DS Cartwright?
0:06:44 > 0:06:47- I better go.- Yeah, see you later.
0:06:59 > 0:07:02- Those can go on the fire... - Auntie Rose...
0:07:02 > 0:07:04..and after that, I'll pop the kettle on.
0:07:04 > 0:07:07- I don't know about you, but I'm parched.- Auntie Rose, please...
0:07:07 > 0:07:10After everything you've been through with Uncle Frank,
0:07:10 > 0:07:14don't you think you should think about getting some counselling?
0:07:14 > 0:07:18Mandy... I'll deal with this in my own way.
0:07:18 > 0:07:20But what if you don't?
0:07:21 > 0:07:26Then...then, I promise I'll see someone. All right?
0:07:27 > 0:07:29OK.
0:07:32 > 0:07:35Auntie Rose... What are these?
0:07:37 > 0:07:39Did Uncle Frank write these?
0:07:43 > 0:07:45Before we got married...
0:07:47 > 0:07:48..did you know?
0:07:50 > 0:07:52Of course not.
0:07:53 > 0:07:57You know what it was like in Botswana back then.
0:07:57 > 0:07:58It wasn't even talked about.
0:07:58 > 0:08:01- Was it me, did I do something? - No, it wasn't you.
0:08:01 > 0:08:04But you must have had some inclination?
0:08:04 > 0:08:07I was too young to understand what I felt.
0:08:11 > 0:08:13But I really did want to make a life with you.
0:08:13 > 0:08:16- I find that hard to believe. - It's true.
0:08:17 > 0:08:21And in my own way...
0:08:22 > 0:08:24..I actually did love you.
0:08:25 > 0:08:29When you told me... I felt so rejected...
0:08:29 > 0:08:32- so used... - Winifred...
0:08:32 > 0:08:34You took so much away from me, Thomas.
0:08:35 > 0:08:37If you'd never married me...
0:08:37 > 0:08:38It wasn't that simple...
0:08:38 > 0:08:43If you'd never married me I would have found someone else.
0:08:43 > 0:08:45I would have had children!
0:08:45 > 0:08:47Excuse me.
0:08:51 > 0:08:53Weren't you scared Uncle Frank would find them?
0:08:53 > 0:08:55No...
0:08:55 > 0:08:58With his bad leg, he could never get up to the attic.
0:08:58 > 0:09:00So he never suspected.
0:09:00 > 0:09:03It wasn't like that.
0:09:03 > 0:09:07I met Elijah years before.
0:09:07 > 0:09:09He used to come and hear me sing.
0:09:09 > 0:09:12Sing?!
0:09:12 > 0:09:14In a folk band.
0:09:14 > 0:09:19That's another thing your Uncle Frank stopped when we got married.
0:09:19 > 0:09:20I never knew that.
0:09:22 > 0:09:26We were very much in love... and were going to get married.
0:09:26 > 0:09:27Why didn't you?
0:09:29 > 0:09:33He was from a very strict Jewish family.
0:09:33 > 0:09:35They looked down on me...
0:09:35 > 0:09:38and they arranged for him to marry someone else.
0:09:38 > 0:09:41Oh... That's such a shame.
0:09:41 > 0:09:48He refused, and then his mum fell ill and he relented.
0:09:48 > 0:09:50And you never saw him again?
0:09:52 > 0:09:55- Have you never tried contacting him? - No.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57Well...maybe you should?
0:09:58 > 0:10:00You're not serious?
0:10:00 > 0:10:04Yeah. I mean, just as friends... you know, see what became of him.
0:10:06 > 0:10:09I couldn't... No!
0:10:09 > 0:10:12You know... He can't hurt you now.
0:10:14 > 0:10:16Mandy, you don't understand.
0:10:18 > 0:10:21He would never let me even look at another man,
0:10:21 > 0:10:23never mind talk to one.
0:10:23 > 0:10:26But you're free of him now. You can do whatever you want!
0:10:26 > 0:10:27No, I can't!
0:10:28 > 0:10:30It's too soon.
0:10:30 > 0:10:32Auntie Rose, he's gone.
0:10:32 > 0:10:35I know...
0:10:35 > 0:10:36I'm not deluded.
0:10:40 > 0:10:41So, was it a good night, then?
0:10:44 > 0:10:45You could say that, yeah.
0:10:54 > 0:10:57- He's a dark horse, that one. - Sorry?
0:10:57 > 0:10:59Him and O'Neil.
0:10:59 > 0:11:00You don't mean...
0:11:00 > 0:11:04Don't knock it, though. Anything that puts a smile on her face
0:11:04 > 0:11:06makes it a lot easier for the rest of us.
0:11:10 > 0:11:13- Bye, Auntie Rose. - Thank you, darling.
0:11:31 > 0:11:36"My darling Rose, no matter how hard I try,
0:11:36 > 0:11:39"I just can't forget you.
0:11:39 > 0:11:44"All day long I've played our song, over and over again."
0:11:44 > 0:11:50# My young love said to me
0:11:50 > 0:11:55# My brothers won't mind
0:11:57 > 0:12:02# And my father won't slight you
0:12:02 > 0:12:06# For your lack of kind... #
0:12:08 > 0:12:12"Whatever happens, I will love you for ever...
0:12:14 > 0:12:18"..and I know fate will bring us together again."
0:12:18 > 0:12:25# ..will not be long, love Till our wedding day. #
0:12:31 > 0:12:33You never did believe in fate...
0:12:35 > 0:12:37..AND you never loved me.
0:12:41 > 0:12:43Oh! Oh!
0:12:43 > 0:12:46Oooh!
0:12:48 > 0:12:52SHE SOBS
0:13:58 > 0:14:00- KNOCKING - Come in.
0:14:04 > 0:14:06Auntie Rose!
0:14:06 > 0:14:09The receptionist told me to come through.
0:14:09 > 0:14:11Is everything all right?
0:14:11 > 0:14:14I've decided to take your advice.
0:14:14 > 0:14:17I would like to try and find Elijah.
0:14:17 > 0:14:18What's changed your mind?
0:14:18 > 0:14:22Well, it's like you said... there's nothing stopping me.
0:14:23 > 0:14:25So...have you tried the phone book?
0:14:25 > 0:14:27Yes...
0:14:27 > 0:14:31but nothing. I wondered if you could help?
0:14:31 > 0:14:32If I can.
0:14:32 > 0:14:35Well, he was training to be a doctor.
0:14:35 > 0:14:40I wondered if there was some sort of medical database you could access?
0:14:40 > 0:14:42I'll have a look.
0:14:48 > 0:14:50Redbush tea.
0:14:57 > 0:14:58Your favourite.
0:14:58 > 0:15:03You remembered. Thank you.
0:15:05 > 0:15:09I...must apologise for earlier on.
0:15:14 > 0:15:17It is good to see that you still have your faith.
0:15:20 > 0:15:23There was a time I almost lost it...
0:15:23 > 0:15:24after the way I was treated.
0:15:27 > 0:15:31You mean the...the way I treated you.
0:15:33 > 0:15:36- I have apologised. - Have you?
0:15:38 > 0:15:42I know you've always blamed me,
0:15:42 > 0:15:45but it was no excuse for what you put me through.
0:15:45 > 0:15:48It was never my intention to hurt you.
0:15:48 > 0:15:49How can you say that?
0:15:51 > 0:15:54I was a young, naive woman.
0:15:54 > 0:15:56I thought I had little choice.
0:15:56 > 0:15:58Little choice!
0:16:00 > 0:16:03Because of you, I was driven from my community...
0:16:04 > 0:16:06..I lost my job, my family...
0:16:06 > 0:16:08Some of that was your own doing!
0:16:08 > 0:16:11YOU were my best friend, my wife!
0:16:12 > 0:16:14I trusted you.
0:16:15 > 0:16:18But you turned on me... made me into a pariah.
0:16:18 > 0:16:19Thomas, please...
0:16:19 > 0:16:24If I ruined your life, then you did the same to me.
0:16:26 > 0:16:28Click on the photograph...
0:16:30 > 0:16:31That's him!
0:16:31 > 0:16:33Are you sure?
0:16:33 > 0:16:37Apart from the white hair, he's hardly changed at all.
0:16:38 > 0:16:40Just as handsome as ever...
0:16:40 > 0:16:43Looks like his practice isn't too far away.
0:16:43 > 0:16:48- Would you mind driving me? - No... I can finish this later.
0:16:48 > 0:16:51Great. Could you print out the photo?
0:16:53 > 0:16:56Auntie Rose, I know this was my idea...
0:16:56 > 0:16:58I know what you're going to say,
0:16:58 > 0:17:02but I don't expect him to still have feelings for me.
0:17:02 > 0:17:05Good...because he's probably got his own family.
0:17:05 > 0:17:10I know. I just want to say hello,
0:17:10 > 0:17:14and see what happened to him. That's all.
0:17:14 > 0:17:15OK.
0:17:18 > 0:17:20Are you, um, free for lunch?
0:17:21 > 0:17:23I'm busy.
0:17:23 > 0:17:24Oh, don't tell me - O'Neil?
0:17:26 > 0:17:30I never had you down as a gossip-monger. Problem?
0:17:30 > 0:17:33I don't know what you're doing with her. She's poison.
0:17:33 > 0:17:34That's a bit harsh.
0:17:34 > 0:17:37Oh, come on, after the way she treated Rob Hollins?
0:17:37 > 0:17:40That's all done with, that. Believe me, she's got a soft underbelly.
0:17:40 > 0:17:41Well, you'd know...
0:17:46 > 0:17:48Ready.
0:17:50 > 0:17:52What's wrong?
0:17:52 > 0:17:54Er...nothing.
0:17:54 > 0:17:56It just looks like you've gone to a lot of effort.
0:17:56 > 0:18:00Hardly. I just felt like wearing a dress.
0:18:02 > 0:18:05- Shall we go?- Mm-hm.
0:18:12 > 0:18:15We used to walk arm in arm.
0:18:15 > 0:18:17Yes, well... That was a long time ago.
0:18:28 > 0:18:30No!
0:18:31 > 0:18:34Let's not jump to conclusions...
0:18:34 > 0:18:36But it's a one-doctor surgery!
0:18:36 > 0:18:41- It said so on the website. - Rose, let's just see, first.
0:18:41 > 0:18:44You wait in the car and I'll see if there's anyone to ask.
0:18:51 > 0:18:54I will have to get my train in an hour.
0:18:54 > 0:18:56I'll get you a taxi back at the house.
0:18:59 > 0:19:00So, this vicar of yours...
0:19:03 > 0:19:05We are planning a future together.
0:19:07 > 0:19:08But since you came to see me...
0:19:10 > 0:19:13- You cannot blame me for that. - No, I know.
0:19:16 > 0:19:19Have you... Have you seen your family?
0:19:20 > 0:19:24Yes...my sister got in touch a few years ago.
0:19:24 > 0:19:27I've even seen my mum.
0:19:27 > 0:19:30That is good. Things have certainly changed in Botswana.
0:19:33 > 0:19:36Being estranged from your family must have been very hard.
0:19:36 > 0:19:39Hard? You have no idea.
0:19:43 > 0:19:46- Is there something you are not telling me?- Forget it.
0:19:48 > 0:19:51- Thomas, I know you. - It's not important.
0:19:51 > 0:19:54- Do you think you have suffered more than me? Is that it?- Winifred...
0:19:54 > 0:19:55Do you seriously think...
0:19:55 > 0:19:57I tried to take my own life.
0:20:00 > 0:20:02When I left Botswana...
0:20:03 > 0:20:06..it was like God had turned his back on me.
0:20:07 > 0:20:10I didn't know who I was... WHAT I was.
0:20:14 > 0:20:16I hated myself.
0:20:16 > 0:20:18I had no idea.
0:20:22 > 0:20:24But it was my choice.
0:20:25 > 0:20:26Nobody was to blame.
0:20:38 > 0:20:40What did they say?
0:20:42 > 0:20:43They said...
0:20:44 > 0:20:46..Doctor Kaskel died recently.
0:20:47 > 0:20:49- No... - Oh, Rose, I'm so sorry.
0:20:51 > 0:20:54They're unveiling the headstone at the village cemetery.
0:20:56 > 0:20:57I need to go.
0:20:57 > 0:20:59Are you sure that's a good idea?
0:21:02 > 0:21:04I must say goodbye.
0:21:19 > 0:21:20Auntie Rose...
0:21:22 > 0:21:25TEARFULLY: No! I can't...
0:21:27 > 0:21:29Let's sit down. Over here.
0:21:31 > 0:21:33Are you OK?
0:21:33 > 0:21:36- Come on... I'll drive you home.- No.
0:21:38 > 0:21:41I want to stay a while. You go.
0:21:44 > 0:21:45I'll be fine.
0:21:48 > 0:21:51OK. I'll ring you later.
0:21:58 > 0:22:00Trying to take your own life...
0:22:00 > 0:22:03condemning your soul...
0:22:07 > 0:22:09It was me...
0:22:11 > 0:22:12..I drove you to it.
0:22:12 > 0:22:14It is unforgivable...
0:22:16 > 0:22:18I'm so, so sorry...
0:22:18 > 0:22:25for everything...for...for punishing you all these years.
0:22:25 > 0:22:28For pretending you were dead...
0:22:28 > 0:22:29Winifred...
0:22:29 > 0:22:33Please... Please, will you forgive me?
0:22:36 > 0:22:38I already have.
0:22:43 > 0:22:51I'm sorry, too...for letting you down...for taking away your dream.
0:22:54 > 0:22:58If I could change what happened...
0:22:58 > 0:23:01I know...
0:23:01 > 0:23:02I know.
0:23:04 > 0:23:07BELL CHIMES
0:23:40 > 0:23:44'There is no point to my life.
0:23:45 > 0:23:47'I can't go on.'
0:23:50 > 0:23:53HE PLAYS PIANO
0:24:01 > 0:24:04Despite all the heartache, there were a lot of good times.
0:24:06 > 0:24:09Yes...yes, it is too easy to forget.
0:24:09 > 0:24:11We were inseparable.
0:24:13 > 0:24:16- Except when my mother was around. - "Ooh!
0:24:16 > 0:24:20"Your legs are touching - sit further apart."
0:24:20 > 0:24:23That woman was terrified what we might get up to.
0:24:23 > 0:24:25Well, you were a bit of a wildcat...
0:24:25 > 0:24:29with your blue eye shadow and tight ringlets...
0:24:29 > 0:24:33Yes...well, nothing stays the same.
0:24:35 > 0:24:38CAR PULLS UP
0:24:38 > 0:24:40It's time to go.
0:24:42 > 0:24:46HE PLAYS TUNE
0:24:53 > 0:24:59# Last night she came to me
0:24:59 > 0:25:03# My dead love came in... #
0:25:03 > 0:25:08'So softly she entered, that her feet made no din...'
0:25:13 > 0:25:14Hello, Rose.
0:25:25 > 0:25:27How did you know?
0:25:27 > 0:25:30I saw the date of birth on the gravestone
0:25:30 > 0:25:32and I guessed it was his father's.
0:25:32 > 0:25:35I took over his practice when he fell ill.
0:25:37 > 0:25:41I know it's been a long time...
0:25:41 > 0:25:44a lifetime, in fact,
0:25:44 > 0:25:46but I'm so happy to see you.
0:25:46 > 0:25:48Me, too.
0:25:59 > 0:26:01I'm glad you came.
0:26:01 > 0:26:03Yes, so am I.
0:26:06 > 0:26:09Well... good luck with your wedding.
0:26:09 > 0:26:11Come here.
0:26:11 > 0:26:15# Last night I did dream
0:26:16 > 0:26:20# That my dead love come in
0:26:21 > 0:26:26# So softly she entered
0:26:26 > 0:26:31# That her feet made no din... #
0:26:31 > 0:26:33Take care...
0:26:34 > 0:26:36..and good luck with the Reverend.
0:26:38 > 0:26:40Bye.
0:26:49 > 0:26:51Thank you.
0:27:01 > 0:27:05May I introduce to you Letherbridge's Young GP Of The Year,
0:27:05 > 0:27:07Doctor Kevin Tyler.
0:27:07 > 0:27:09My husband doesn't approve of young doctors.
0:27:09 > 0:27:11Funny you should mention "young doctors"...
0:27:11 > 0:27:14Mrs Tembe, you did something stupid. You're sorry.
0:27:14 > 0:27:16Won't happen again. I've been there and done that.
0:27:16 > 0:27:17Again and again and...
0:27:17 > 0:27:18Do you want to talk?
0:27:18 > 0:27:21There's no shame. If you need some time out...
0:27:21 > 0:27:22I don't need time out!
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